#and another flatmate was on my ass abt it

[stolen-stardust]

‘izzy why are u on tumblr at 3am’ well i Was asleep but a guy tried to get into the fucking flat and my flatmates called security on him but the dude left before security arrived and we’re pretty certain it was the friend of a problematic flatmate but said flatmate is either fast asleep or not here. so what the fuck was maybe-his-friend doing banging on our flat door at 3am. also the flat hallway stinks like weed again. now i am awake

[ayellowcurtain]

mayhaps Lucas w an eating disorder not bc he’s so anxious abt everything going on in his lifeEliottt maybe yann blowing him off for chloe le gang le bac and he just doesn’t have time to eat properly or go to the gym so he skips and half asses it until he passes out?

I wrote this inspired by the second art here (cr: chromewhite1)

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Whenever Lucas’ life start to get overwhelmingly bad, he can’t really function. It’s like juggling with way too many balls at once. Sure, some of his problems he causes to himself, but it’s because he can’t really think or he overthinks it and creates problems to himself and to everyone around him. He’s definitely not the easiest person to deal with.

His essence is made of way too much chaotic energy, self-doubt, fear of abandonment and a little bit of unwanted and sudden anger.

It was hard to see Eliott go through his exams, but he knew that would happen to him too a year later,  and ever since then Lucas’ anxiety only built up to this and yet he wasn’t ready. He started the dumbest arguments with his boyfriend and with his dumb best friend and at some point, they would get tired, of course, they’re humans and they don’t have to deal with Lucas’ bullshit. It’s his fault when Eliott starts moving away from him.

And when he discovers that he went out for lunch with Yann and Chloe, Lucas just wants to curl around himself and cry and that’s what he does, crying in the privacy of his lonely bedroom all night long because Eliott doesn’t come back to the flat either, he just texts saying that he was tired and going home.

He didn’t even say that he was with Yann!

Lucas doesn’t respond his text either, he keeps himself hidden in his bedroom the entire weekend, studying as much as he can, at least worrying about his studies will help him stop worrying about his relationship and how Eliott is moving on from him.

On Monday he goes to school alone, leaving Manon behind, probably still sleeping. He’s one of the first students to get to class, he stays hidden inside his hoodie, listening to his music as loud as he can. When his classes are done, he grabs his bag and rushes out of the school just as quickly as he got there this morning.

Eliott texted him this morning and he didn’t answer either. It’ll be easier if he just dump Lucas at once, Lucas hates dragging drama for longer than what’s needed. Yann and the boys talked on their group the entire weekend, but Lucas didn’t check the chat once either.

As soon as he’s back home, he rushes to his bedroom, ready for another study session by himself. His stomach is so empty, Lucas feels like there’s a hole instead of organs, but it doesn’t matter. Once he was used to the feeling, he can get used to it now. 

Maybe he should eat something, but nothing he can think of making makes him want to eat it. And he’s almost out of money as well, so might as well save it. But he can definitely drink some water or coffee. He’ll refill his water bottle and make some coffee or he won’t be able to study today. He’s tired, his body hurts from all the crying and the lack of sleep and food.

Mika is in the kitchen, cooking something for himself and it smells bad, Lucas has to hold his breath not to puke right there, in the middle of their tiny kitchen.

“Hey, Lulu! Wanna eat my-”

“Don’t...Don’t say it. I might fucking puke. It smells bad.” He complains, feeling all the water that he drank during the last few days rush back to his throat and he has to swallow hard to hold it inside. Mika is looking at him, leaving his pans alone for a second. Lucas doesn’t understand the look, his mouth is so ridiculously dry and he thinks about asking why Mika is looking at him, but it doesn’t happen.

-

“Just breathe, it’s ok...breathe slowly, Lucas, I’m here.” Lucas doesn’t remember falling asleep, he opens his eyes slowly to find Mika on top of him, a little too close. He looks worried. 

Lucas starts to feel cold, he’s lying on something cold and he can feel his shirt all wet, sticking to his skin. “Hello, you!” Mika finally says in his normal tone, but Lucas can see in his eyes that he’s still worried.

“What’s going on?” He moves his hands and hears when his bottle rolls out of his stomach and into the floor, but it’s empty, Mika helps him sit slowly, putting Lucas against the cabinets.

“You fainted, Lucas.” Mika explains as he looks up and Lisa is there too now, handing him one of Lucas’ shirts. “C’mon, put this on.” He doesn’t need to ask twice. Lucas thinks he should just obey so he takes his soaked shirt off, dropping by his side and he accepts the clean and warm one, putting it with Mika’s help. Lisa is already gone, with her back to them, probably cooking something.

“Fuck, I’m hungry.” Whatever Lisa is making smells so good, his stomach is almost screaming at him now, begging for food.

“Yeah, don’t worry, Lisa is making something for you. Come on, I’ll help you.” Mika holds his arm tightly and helps Lucas get out of the cold kitchen floor. His brain is still a little foggy, it feels like it’s restarting very slowly so Lucas has trouble understanding what’s going on around him.

He lets Mika put him on the couch and he watches as his flatmate rushes back to the kitchen with his phone in hand. Mika comes back with water for Lucas and he just drinks it without questioning. A minute or two later, Lisa comes with a plate full of food and Lucas doesn’t even asks what it is, as soon as it’s on his lap, he eats every single bite as Mika and Lisa watch like they’re watching the most interesting wild animals documentary.

They’re being nice and Lucas probably scared the shit out of them, but his body doesn’t let him carry enough, he’s so tired all of a sudden, so he just puts the empty plate on the coffee table and slowly slips to lie down on the couch and he instantly falls asleep.

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Someone comes very close, nuzzling into his neck and leaving a kiss there while he puts both arms underneath Lucas and picks him up from the couch. There’s only one person who would do that so Lucas doesn’t even open his eyes, it feels so good to sleep. He just leans against the broad chest and lets him take Lucas to whatever place they’re going.

“Wake up…” Eliott kisses his face and neck again when Lucas is sitting on a surface again. It still feels too good to keep his eyes closed, he doesn’t wanna wake up, but he does, blinking slowly to finally find the most handsome man right in front of him.

His boyfriend looks worried, but he opens a tiny smile when Lucas manages to keep his eyes open.

“Hi.”

“Hi, baby.” Eliott puts boths hands on his cheeks and kisses him. “You’re all wet, come, I’ll help you take a bath.” Lucas understand that he should start controlling his body and taking his clothes off if they’re going to take a shower, but he doesn’t do much so Eliott leads the way, slowly and with all the care in the world, he takes Lucas clothes off and helps him stand.

The water feels so good and warm. Only then Lucas realizes how cold he was. He could live inside this bathtub with Eliott.

Eliott sits right in front of him, letting Lucas stay in between his legs. Lucas is just staring at his beautiful boyfriend and Eliott is cleaning him, letting warm water go from his shoulders to the small of his back, into the bathtub again.

“You need to eat something…” Eliott says, still taking care of Lucas, washing his neck with his big and soft hands.

“I ate. Lisa made me something…”

“I know, but you need to eat more. We’re going to get you something to eat when we’re done here.” Lucas whines, quietly sitting closer, he doesn’t feel like going out at all. He wants to stay inside this bathtub for hours until his life is back on track.

“I don’t feel like going out.” He rest his head against Eliott’s shoulder and his boyfriend puts his hands on his back again, kissing his temple.

“We can go to my place then and I’ll order something, but you’re gonna stay with me and you’ll eat.”

“I’m sorry for this mess. For being a mess and bothering you at this hour.” Lucas whispers, finally understanding what happened, what time it is…

“You’re never bothering me, Lucas. And I like taking care of you.” One of his hands comes to hold Lucas’ chin, making him look up and they just keeping looking at each other for a while. Sometimes Eliott comes closer and just puts their lips together for a second.

[funsizedshark]

(1) re: the potentially homophobic roommate thing, one trick I've learned is to implicitly but VERY CLEARLY spell out what kind of shit you absolutely won't stand for. my ex (who was an absolute dick in many other respects but I digress) suspected that his new roommate was kinda sexist so at one point he used a movie or whatever as an excuseto go on this LONG LONG ASS feminist rant in order to sneakily make it clear that he WOULD NOT stand for any sexist bullshit. People usually won't argue

(2) with this kind of stuff either because they agree with you or because you have already set the tone of the conversation, so to speak, so they don’t want to stir up drama and stuff. Of course it might be difficult to do this when you’re just meeting potential flatmates for five minutes but it might be something to think about for actual new roommates? (Also if you’re responsible for the advert another option could be to just write something like(3 - last one I swear) ‘no homophobes please, trying to create a LGBT-friendly household here’; my friends do it all the time though I’m not sure how common that is in Italy.) idk i dont want to tell you what to do obvs, just some random unrequested suggestions. At any rate im sure everything will work out and you’ll have a blast at uni

aaaaaa thank u thats a great idea!! im gonna remember it if i do end up with someone who seems to be a little off!!! and i was thinking abt the ad thing too, but so far ive decided to just ask around thru word of mouth - if i end up putting up an ad im def gonna add that ⭐ thank u so much!!!! 💗

[freigaeist]

HelloooIOoII! ♤ windflower aaaaand dandelion !!

HALLO B

windflower: list 5 of your favorite blogs and explain why i like them

@ksjknj ooookay i sound like a broken record, I KNOW, but i love anja?? and apprently, miraculously, thanks to god and the laws of physics and fortune shifting the universe into the right angle she is fooled into loving me too can you believe???? if i had to list what is my favorite thing abt her it must be everything i know abt her but i think most of you know her since she’s an amazing gif-maker, she’s a social butterlfy always trying to pump some energy into talking to people, giving advice carefully, sharing her opinion and listening to others in a way that isn’t forcing but very kind and open-minded and she has her way with words (when will you post your writings anja? i’m blessedt but when will you bless the rest of the world, too, huh?) and she’s the absolute cutest i just- /clenches fist/ she’s so much of a good human being and yet she tries to always reflect on herself and actions, she’s very realistic and sOMETIMES SO HARD ON HERSELF i just want to give her the biggest hug and man i’m rambling, but i love anja :’

@grumpytth i feel like it has been a long time since i rambled abt my flatmate and me and our awesome chill, fine & dine, hilarious and shit-shared life together but this time i’ll talk abt how i love her blog bc it’s so subtle yet if you pay close attention it’s so her. she seems very collected on the outside but there’s so much underneath and i see so much talent and so much of a great human being in her, flaws and worries and everything considered i take the whole package and you should, too! her love for jikook is no joke, pls send her yongguk for her bday on the 10th of june (and stuff daehyun in there, too) and though she claims she’s not good at talking i love when she’s writing in english?? she’s a tender flower that has to be handled carefully and i’m sorry on my behalf for being so much of a snow storm at times dEAL WITH ME /hugs you too tight with my long ass arms all around your big head/ if you ever wonder how our life is together check out dan nd phil, think of the winchesters (yea third bro included bc one of us is Gone^TM sometimes but it’s fine) bc das us 🌼

@rapdaegu we all know audrey is a great gif maker, always providing us with on-going quality content especially regarding yoonjin but yknow what else she is? a great pAIN IN THE ASS bc she won’t leave me alone regarding a certain south korean libra born in 1995 that haunts me and she supports this shittery!!!! why would you adurey. she’s super fun, i love her deadpan tags underneath her creations bc it’s always like #armiesnet  #bangtan  #bts  #jin  #seokjin  #365jin  #rd  #mg  #gif  #i clutched my chest 12 times watching the video  iosajdiasdjsd she’s too cute and we always cry abt jimin lots and gasp abt cultural differences (what do you mean stores are open on sundays…), i enjoy talking to her lots bc she’s so easy-going and i feel like i can be me y’know? and i know i can be very much uhh in the face so i appreciate her lots ;; and instead going into your no tag you shall visit this tag of mine hah :

@rapnamu uhh this is random i think we never rly spoke before in private? but i enjoy seeing akkie on my dash, she’s such a bright and radiant person, she’s very true to herself and i think her persona is just so pleasant? i feel like i could just start talking to her abt anything and she’d get along with it, her looks are Iconic (where’s joon someone give him tissues bc he’ll cry seeing your matching dailys!!) and her love for Joon is so inspiring; i thrive on joon biased ppl being so overly joon biased lol i always wipe a tear and mutter “same” under my breath reading her tags sahajsd!! so yea hey akkie, hope you’re having a good one and ilu /shy awkward heart formed with arms too long and limbs too loose :’

@yoongkitty another random encounter!!!!! we never spoke in private before either, but i enjoy seeing karolin on my dash bc first of, german fellas united, secondary: her selfies are to die for, thirdly: there’s something abt you that just makes me feel at ease? you’re very much yourself on here and i like that you’re a little bit more uhh settled and i love what you post, it’s pretty much what i love seeing on my dash and i just- yea, a huge heart to you, too!!! :

this felt awkward but so am i and i’d love to give a call-out to many more but here i am, an awkward bean with no more time left sadjasdij sorry!!

dandelion: any special talent that you have?

not working harder on the tiny sparks of talents lingering somewhere inside of me (like drawing and writing and studying smth in the social fields) is my biggest talent hAH

thank you for sending this in!! ahh the first was so cute, i loved that though i wish i could’ve shared more saodisalidjs but i love y’all i hope you know that :’

cute botanical asks!!

[freigaeist]

hiii bea! 🌱 2 + 10 + 14

omg arden!!! hi hello hey omg hallo : D!!!!

2 describe in detail the moment where you fell in love with your bias(es)?

ok you said detail i will DO detail [takes a sip of vodka and flinches] i actually went through the individual kim bros tag to find out WHEN it was bc some might know i started as a taehyung stan; he was the first i was drawn to since i thought he was cute and when i heard his voice i thought he was hot and as i got to know them more and comments abt him being 4D/alien and him not rly understanding/liking that i just felt very connected and oddly moved? it made me sentimental smh? i don’t have a problem with my ways of doing things and since i’m surrounded by ppl who love me nobody else has a problem with my ways either but i had hard times accepting that my normal wasn’t everybodies normal and that i’m sometimes too much and not rly.. it’s hard to describe but sometimes i feel like i’m floating 3m above while everybody else is standing with both feet on the ground or talking jibberish to others while it’s crystal clear to myself? i feel connected to him. he’s that kind of person to me, someone i relate to, someone i want to protect like an older sister or i imagine twins care for each other? i fell head over heels and that feeling didn’t change though jin and joon also grew on me. kim taehyung still is the heart, my heart in this triple

for jin, who was the 2nd (yes pat yourself on the broad ass shoulders here mr. kim senior), it was the 12th march when i reblogged a gif of jin tagging it#shit this got me #in bts you may have a steady bias & a 2nd one #but each day there comes another 3 and 4#like one day i’ll point at namjoon being like ‘you’re todays 3’ #and on anther days i’ll be like ‘seokjin be my 2 for 2day ok?’ #bts is just a big bias  anD I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN HOW ACCURATE THIS WAS!!!! on the 20th of june 2016 i used his sidetag for the first time and 3 days later i told yoongi (who was my 2nd bias back then) to “watch out” bc jin was growing on me. i remember getting more into bts and being like ?? when i realized that jin was one of the “less popular” members and not understanding? it wasn’t even about his looks but i found him to be super funny and endearing, i thought his suave comments and cutting the atmosphere was hilarious and i was always finger guns towards him and pointing at my dirty computer screen where jin said or did smth relatable (isn’t he always relatable be honest) and saying “me” and he just grew on me not like a disease or a shroom but more like how flowers break through the cracks in asphalt blooming and blossoming even when there’s barely any sunlight or rain just breaking through and being there anyways like “fuck you i grow here now!” jin was like that. he said “excuse me is that seat taken? no? what do you me a throne is for one person only no i think- taehyung move- yes see? now you’ve two biases!” and. he just was there. i love him so very much never underestimate me being a huge loser for this huge loser i love him more than my weak, poor, cold assy existence

FOR NAMJOON. EHEM. WELL. it was the typical route of he cute > no he ain’t i hate him who’s lim nimjeon?? > sHIT SHIT FUCK FISH HSHIS THIT MAYDAY MAYDAY WE’RE CRASHING I REPEAT WE’RE FUCK WE’RE FUCKED > happily(?) biased 

it started with me commenting stuff like #i blame my flatmate but he kinda grows on me #doesn’t help that he has a good choice in everything and is educating himself abt homans PLUS likes tae very much and honestly i still blame @grumpytth bc she can actually see the future. it may just be odd shapes and shadows but she KNOWS &she just had to say smth like “u would say that” whilst we would watch bts vids and joon suddenly turns into the pope or the philosophy prof and i couldn’t even say NOO bc she was right?? also whenever we would go out shopping i’d just LOOK at smth or TOUCH it and she’d give me That Look and mutter “that’s so namjoon” under her breath. sometimes i’d start a random convo and her brows would disappear under her hairline and the only answer i’d get was “idk why don’t you ask joon” aND I SGUADKJHDUIGAHSD FUCK SHE KNEW AND DAMN SHE RIGHT i have nothing to say or add, it was fate. meant to be. this loser owns my soul with all his soft, warm, big heart, sharp, witty and open mind, his child-like curiosity and movements, his fire spitting rapping and his soft, raspy, unsure singing and honestly i’m just his. this loser owns me ughhh 

10 when did you realise that you’re in too deep?

isn’t when you dream abt them? i had this one dream where sope were my older brothers and i forgot their bday (which was on the same day for some reason) and i just crashed into my flat (in which miraculously my wHOLE FAM LIVED like my two actual younger siblings, mom and stepfather AND flatmate) and i run into their room and jumped onto their matress that was lying on the floor and apologised non-stop for forgetting their birthdays….. yoongi was super grumpy and just kicked me and hobi made really loud groaning noises and said he’d never forgive me. it’s because i abandoned yoongi and can’t admit hobi is my bias wrecker sadhuashsa

also i think whenever you’re reaaally into something they become the “home” of your thoughts so whenever my thoughts would trail off it’d always come back to “but what would bts do/imagine this scenario with bts” randomly, it’s embarrassing but it’s true :^/ so that’s how that happened……….

14 top 5 ‘you’re lame but i love you anyways’ moments

the whole ahl ok no 1 taes cypher cover &this little ppap I LOVE HIM AND SUPPORT HIM AND HES ADORABLE!!!! it may seem lame to people and I acknowledge that but I don’t find it embarrassing there’s just pure love in me for that child 🙈💓2 that one time rapmon said smth along the lines “and I look like a pornstar” I cANNOT AND WILL NOT REMEMBER 3 when hobi danced to ice cream cake and had his beanie covering his face and his whole lower body was doing smth utterly inappropriate….4 this is harder than I thought I’m good with 2nd hand embarrassment I bliev……. I just don’t like those pranks things…. 5 this shall be it they’re too relatable and I love them too much to actually feel ashamed or be even slightly embarrassed. it has come to that point /crosses self Thank you so much for asking!!! Sorry it took a while 🙏😸have a good one Arden 🌺��