#i think. people dont give either of them enough credit for that stuff

[xxswagcorexx]

ok maybe this is just me but like, i Feel like people. underhighlight how a Lot of pvpers are just really really good strategists

(more rambling about this under the cut) but like. speaking from someone who's familiar with lifesteal and ivorycello's content, someone like clown isn't just someone who's 1) very skilled at the game, but he's also very good at picking up exactly what he lacks in and how to make up his skills effectively And efficiently

an example would be how clown grinded for 64 god apples because he knew how much the lifesteal server has improved at pvp in general (fun fact on his testrun ep he talks about how everyone has massively improved) (and on top of that him touching grass and not practicing /lh) but, since he knows he cannot rely on pure skill alone (and can't train that much in time) he makes up for those disadvantages by grinding materials to ensure he'll be able to get by, even if it's just barely (he also! observes other people's moves too! ex: during a s3 fight vi and some other people were chasing him down and were supply chaining until they finally wore clown down enough to kill him--and clown was a really good sport about it! and started talking to them about the supply chain strategy and complimented how it worked so well!!! he's good at analyzing stuff, with the whole thing about being able to reconize the other lifestealers have gotten so good that they'd probably kick his ass back in s2 now! the fact hes able to anaylize his own and others pvp is...really cool i think)

and ivory falls under this category as well, you can most clearly see it on her doly 1v1 video, but she's able to figure out exactly what aspects doly uses to his advantage (even to figuring out his ping and how they affect his pcrits) and from that she's able to figure out how to turn those exact methods on top of their heads and build up her own strategies to directly combat what doly was, probably, doing subconsciously. holy hell that's such a cool concept??? like ivory herself admits in her own video that she is a relatively new pvper and the fact she was able to synthesize that much information into a strategy that beat out someone who has so much more experince than her? that's so fucking badass

maybe this is just me not looking in the right places but. i Really do think people like clown's and ivory's skills as strategists should be highlighted more. like, i feel like it humanzies them a lot more. makes them feel like people that just so happen to be very skilled instead of undefeatable figureheads who are powerful beyond comprehension. even though that's their reputation, they're still just people at the end of the day and i think that's an interesting dichotomy to explore <3

[quietwingsinthesky]

funniest thing about even is that if ten had taken them to a pride parade, because of their whole. Everything. they would have no idea what is being celebrated or why. but they would be so happy to be included

[poxivix]

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(IMPORTANT, Especially to those who are wondering what my account is about or what I do)

Just wanted to put up some rules for this account INCASE you are at the wrong page. Some rules may relate to content that I HAVENT posted YET, but even so I still will put them up.

1] - No ages under 13 or 14. Due to this, my content may be either slightly suggestive, venty (I may vent/rant sometimes in the future, but they're not full on), body horror possibly, gorey and violent. Or! I tend to cuss/swear a lot aswell. Ofc, those who still wanna see me post can stay, but PLEASE, if you're uncomfortable with any of those topics, I suggest you unfollow, or if it makes you comfortable, block me so that you won't come across my posts again.

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[weaselishmcdiesel]

theres a youtube channel profiting off and lying about ai art and it's pissing me off

@/tendofarms on youtube uses ai art in the thumbnails and videos of their animal crossing compilation videos, claims it to be made by them despite also giving credit to a @/lumasi.png on instagram, who claims it's "a comission." this art is also being sold on merch on the channel's etsy account.

They haven't posted a video in 2 months but to see that they've made money through this scheme really pisses me off. Also the fact that they're attempting to decieve people by creating a fake artist on instagram who posts the ai art. They've attempted to say the art is a blend of original art made in photoshop/illustrator as well as the help of ai art. I dont believe this is true and im going to show your asses why

On their first video, they say

"my normal workflow so far has been to paint backgrounds, then get Ai to help with character design, i bring to photoshop to select my favorites, and put together something from my personal painting combined with my favorite Ai characters. Hope this clears things up :D"

The art in question:

and if you have no issues with it, here are MY issues with it

i'll pretend for a second that this person did make the backgroundand ignore the fucking surreal characters. sure. ok so what the fuck are these details. and also how did the ai manage to match your style so well? it doesnt have a backglog of years of YOUR work, does it?

On another video, they say

"a lot of illustrator/photoshop work went into this art. I used Ai to get ideas for composition and generate some character ideas, still some stuff i wish i improved but i think i got it to a decent final stage. Hope you guys enjoy the art and the mix <3333 love!!!"

the art in question with my notes.

The reason this particular post stands out to me is because in the DESCRIPTION of this video, they say the art was made by @lumasi.png on instagram. So when i go to their account and find this art, i see this

so, ok. was it a commission or did tendyfarms make it using a lot of illustrator/photoshop work. and if they ARE two different people.. wow their styles are so similar thats crazy /sarcastic as fuck

I would also like to point out that @/lumasi.png's first post, one that isnt featured in a tendyfarms video, also reeks of ai.

But maybe this isnt a big issue. Their etsy after all only shows that theyve made 16 sales, and their most popular views sit around 100k views, which probably isnt enough to even earn a stable living from, so who cares.

Just. as someone who listens to a lot of music from youtube mixes/compilations, who also makes art, i feel it's really fucking disrespectful to try and claim art as your own in a space where i go to try and relax or find new musical artists. and it's fucking rampant! i have to check each mix to see if using ai for the art, which i can only really see if i click on the video, giving them a small boost in stats. And if they arent using ai art? theyre probably stealing the art directly from an artist and not giving proper credit. Forget about asking the artist for permission, it's not like countless youtubers have explained how thumbnails are The Most important element of a video. Just go ahead and take someone else's work to give yourself some cash.

I know tumblr users hate generative ai already, but i'd just like to give a little attention to what youtube looks like, and to try and ask for more vigilance, more comments calling out the bullshit. I dont see a lot of comments at all on tendofarm's posts! or any mention of ai can be brushed away with "oh i used ai as well as drawing it myself" :/ you didnt buddy. you just didnt do that.

Idk what the right thing to do is, report their etsy? report their youtube? does either company care? maybe you can tell me

but i should probably say dont harass them. as much as i would like to. just try your best not to give retention to videos that shamelessly and ile about ai. Really look at the videos, really scrutinize if you can spare the time to. thanks

also. is it just me or do the cats in lumasi's pfp and this etsy reviewer's photo look the same. not sure what this could mean. up to you

[nalpurex]

i got souyo brainworms again and i gotta share some thoughts i have

this ones a long one so ill put a 'keep reading' thing here just in case yall dont wanna scroll past a wall of text

basically some headcanons about a healthy mix of chad narukami and normal yu, injecting loads of gap moe into this guy

(and it eventually devolves into some weird semi-story because my brains really spiralling here)

okok so, hear me out, chad narukami isnt that bad as an idea...? maybe as a more calm iteration, just another layer to yu

in the p4 manga, we get to see some of yu's backstory. (its been a while since ive read it so i might get some details wrong but) his parents are very busy people, always working and moving around, so yu's always moving around with them

because of this, hes a very independent but also lonely kid. poor guy doesnt talk much with his own mom and dad, and he never really have a good enough chance to form lasting friendships

so when he moves to inaba and starts making friends there, hes like 'oh i really want to keep these guys around...' so he starts putting up a bit of a persona (hah), some cool, unfazed guy that everyone can rely on thinking thats what people might like more. to his credit, it works pretty well, but its a bit stifling for yu himself. hes never had this many friends though, so he'll keep it up

we all know yosuke admires him quite a fair bit as is, just as a dependable friend and a strong leader. he looks up to yu in these aspects, thinking hes basically the perfect guy. (and lets never unpack that thought.) talented, charming, 'gets all the ladies', that kind of stuff

at some point its just the two of them, maybe walking home from school or something, yu gets pretty comfortable and his facade slips a little. maybe he says something completely silly, or heavens forbid theres a stray cat along the road! ("awww look at the little guy, cmeree, pspsps- oh- ahem- uh, its pretty cute...") it surprises yosuke quite a bit. he's thinking about it a lot as they part ways, it was... definitely a new side to his partner, but its also not a bad thing...

after that, yosuke starts noticing more small things about yu. whenever he invites anyone to share his lunch, its always something they like. whenever the IT are talking, he makes sure no one feels left out. he likes cats, a lot more than hes willing to show, and he loves nanako a whole lot too. his partner's... a bit of a softie under that calm and collected vibe, isnt he?

(alternatively, it'd be really funny if the entire IT knew? like "yeah, hes got a straight face all the time and sparkles fly around him whenever he strikes a pose, but hes got a dedicated schedule for hanging out with us and hes always asking when we're free. hes a big puppy, really.")

anyways, yosuke tries to encourage him to show more of this other side of him. stuff like "c'mon, we'll think you're cool either way!" and yu at first is a little hesitant, so yosuke suggests he just try it out with him

he feels some pride about it, because hes the first to learn about this side of yu! his partner trusts him the most, hes the most comfortable around him! (whats this strange other feeling? hm. dont like that.)

yu takes a little more time with the others, but theyre very welcoming about it nonetheless. specifically, they find it very charming! (making cute shapes in your bento? sewing cute stuffed toys with kanji? playing with literally every single stray cat you lay your eyes on? hell yeag.)

of course the facade doesnt completely shatter, because some parts of it are still true to yu. its just that he'll now crack the dumbest joke youve heard in your life with the same old straight face

(aaand now to derail for the sappy stuff huhuhu)

because yosuke's usually the first to be exposed to whatever new shenanigans yu's up to, eventually he starts getting some... weirder things. he brings some of it up to the other IT members and he looks insane, like:

"what? he hasnt been giving you guys origami?"

"why would he? i mean itd be cool, but thats just his part-time job isnt it? hes probably sick of paper cranes!"

"cranes... haha, yeah..." (as he thinks about the row of stupid paper animals sitting on his windowsill)

yu over time starts getting real sweet with yosuke, and he kind of gets the feeling he should just... keep this to himself...? especially when he doesnt see him acting this way with anyone else, and a small part of him wants to keep it to himself. all of this, just for him.

but that would be kind of gay, wouldnt it? hes not gay, is he...? he gets pretty happy whenever yu smiles at him, whenever he does something for him, but its just because he appreciates him as his partner... right?

eventually it all comes to a head when yu invites him to that... that spot high up in inaba. (ykno the one, its got the railing and shit.)

yosuke's climbing the hill, wondering whats yu gonna tell him, and at the top he sees him already waiting there as the sun's about to set on a nice breezy day

he kinda jokes a bit about it, like "damn did you ask me to come here now for the atmosphere?" but yu's strangely quiet

so they kinda just stand in a bit of an awkward silence before yu clears his throat... and confesses to yosuke.

...

they just. stare at each other for a bit. yosuke's at a loss, heat slowly rising in his cheeks, because what the hell?

and then yu explodes into a flustered mess, bumbling about "hey yeah man you dont have to accept if you dont wanna, i was just saying things yknow? you dont really have to-"

yosuke cuts him off, sighing a little. he tells him its okay, hes kinda had a feeling he felt the same way but he wasnt ready yet... and now his partner's confessing to his face, he cant really put it off anymore, can he?

("by the way, did you plan this? like, the timing and everything?"

"i... had a hard enough time saying 'i like you' with a straight face as it was, i kind of had to..."

"... ah.")

[kaeyapilled]

trying to put my (mostly) child kaeya headcanons in one spot. brace yourself this is gonna be so long

first i think he was around 8 years old when he was left in mondstadt.

before that he lived with his father always moving from place to place. or maybe... i dont know honestly. they didn't live in khaenri'ah (whatever's left of it) because i like the idea that kaeya is the last hope for a place he's only heard stories about. for people he has barely met. and he yearns for it all the same, enough to run away as a stowaway on a ship just for the slim chance he'll get to meet it, to return to a place he only knows through other people's memories... yeah it's a thought i like to entertain. so anyway i dont know where exactly kaeya lived before my headcanons for this are really vague lmao. im torn between making him be raised in some corner of teyvat, or somewhere very abyss touched, or... a secret third thing i dont yet know...

i think his mother died when he was so young he has barely any recollection of her and it haunts him a bit. he cant remember what she looked like. to have an idea he can just look in a mirror though. he's her spitting image.

unsure about siblings... i think he didnt have any

i dont think his father was abusive. neglectful maybe. he was really awful at the father job but mostly because of how emotionally distant he was. he never hit kaeya or went out of his way to be cruel to him, he was just very stern. kaeya was a child who didn't really know comfort. all his basic needs were met, but his father just wasn't the type to hug or say words of encouragement, to calm him down from nightmares, to soothe a fever beyond just bitter medicine and leaving kaeya laid down on the cot alone. i think the closest they ever got to that sort of connection was when he taught kaeya their clan's history, which we know he did from canon. that piece of paper where the handwriting shows an adult guiding a child's hand on the paper makes me. Feel Things. he was not a soft man or a good father by any means but. *gestures vaguely*

and you know what. i think he loved kaeya in his own way. which is to say that he loved kaeya more as a means to an end than as a son. or maybe not. maybe leaving kaeya was more difficult for him than i give him credit for. i cant really decide. either way 2/10 for effort his parenting sucked and left deep scars in this poor poor child BUT he was not a heartless asshole is what im trying to say

anyway kaeya has very bittersweet very mixed feelings about him. he left his own son all alone in an unfamiliar land for unclear reasons. placed a burden nobody should ever have to carry on the shoulders of a child. he never embraced him or told him he loved him. but at the same time we see kaeya in game trying to understand his father's motivations for abandoning him there. that maybe a happier life could have been a factor. his safety. assuming this is, like, true. i headcanon that it is. it's not the entire reason by far. but it could have been part of it. maybe that's called "wishful thinking". we'll find out one day i hope

i don't really know what to make of the entire "you're our last hope" thing. as in, what exactly does that entail. what did his father tell him. im just kinda waiting patiently for them to actually tell us what's up. i can tell you it was a ridiculous amount of pressure on kaeya though. he might have been mature for his age and forced to grow up faster than he should have but a lot of it was simply beyond his comprehension. like, that's an entire seven year old child. he shouldve been playing with toys. anyway. kaeya who has felt guilt as his standard everyday main emotion since he was little

i think kaeya's father taught him to speak, read and write in common, so kaeya could understand people pretty well when he was left in mondstadt and could read basic stuff

an extension of this headcanon: i think each region has their own language besides just common tongue, and that in general people can speak both, especially in the big cities, while in rural areas people will probably only speak the region's mother tongue. i read a mutual's headcanon like this once and it rewired my brain so i borrowed it. also common varies from place to place because there are different dialects from mixing with the nations' other languages. to make it fun!

so when kaeya gets to mondstadt he can't speak mondstadtian specifically but he can speak common and the ragnvindrs can all speak both. eventually as he stays there kaeya learns mondstadt's language and loses the accent (a very conscious effort from his part)

more on the accent: if you listen closely to him nowadays, some word or other still sounds odd, maybe too stiff, the way he rolls his tongue on certain letters- but it's very subtle

kaeya hasn't spoken his mother tongue in so long he inevitably has forgotten certain things, and he was so young when he stopped speaking it that there are things he simply never learned. i think this haunts kaeya sooo bad. he's someone who's always trying to keep little pieces of his past, of things that have a lot of emotional value for him; he's someone who values memories, in particular physical, tangible pieces of memories. and we see him do this with his roots, like adding khaenri'ahn symbols and motifs to his outfits, saving slips of paper written by his father about his family's story, etc..

so anyway the fact he's forgetting bits and pieces of his mother tongue makes him grasp desperately at whatever's still left of it in his memory. i wonder if he writes what he can om scraps of paper, or maybe an actual notebook; i wonder also if he did similar things as a child too? though it's something he'd have to keep insanely well hidden and the paranoia about someone finding it out would absolutely eat him alive

okay back to his childhood. when he's taken in by the ragnvindrs i think he's very quiet and only speaks when spoken to. he is so unfathomably scared and lonely and everything is terrifyingly unfamiliar but any genuine manifestation of fear and anxiety and homesickness is saved for the dead of night when everyone's asleep and won't see/hear him cry. he keeps to himself, acts very polite, doesn't bother anyone with asking for help or for anything beyond what he's already been offered.

diluc was very happy about having another kid his age living under the same roof and almost immediately saw him as a little brother and kaeya simply could not match the enthusiasm. they took it as him just being shy, and to an extent that was part of it, but also he simply did not want to be there at all. no matter how wonderfully kind those people were to him, kaeya missed his father and his mother and the homeland he didnt even know in person but that was his biggest responsibility. it was such an enormous change and he missed the familiarity so much it made him ill. like literally. i think he spent his first or second week with the ragnvindrs bedridden

im very fond of the hc that kaeya took ill easily as a child.

kaeya had nightmares often. i absolutely cannot see him asking for comfort in any direct way. most of the time he'd just hold his own hand through it. other times he'd slip out of bed and see there was still light coming from the study. he'd sit on an armchair next to crepus, who already knew kaeya would hardly ever speak about what was making him upset, and watch him work until he fell asleep again.

i think kaeya was a very scrawny kid who looked a bit younger than he actually was. next to diluc (who im always torn between making just seven months older than him, or a year and seven months older) he seemed even tinier. while diluc was the picture of a healthy boy, all full red cheeks and bright eyes, kaeya was too lean, eyes too tired, sometimes distant, like he's not entirely present, lost in thought. you could see a sadness in him sometimes that seemed deeper than anything a child his age should know. kaeya was quiet not just because he didn't speak a lot, but because he seemed to exist silently. if he disappeared to be alone for a while and didn't want you to find him, you would not find him.

and anyway. i like the idea of him slowly allowing himself to be louder as he becomes more comfortable with the ragnvindrs. and revealing his more sarcastic side lol. he's always been quick witted, he was just too timid at first

child kaeya who was such a weird kid. he spoke in a way that often lacked the childishness expected from someone who's yet to turn nine. said odd cryptic things with zero explanation. banned from sharing bedtime stories after scaring diluc with overly fucked up khaenri'ahn folk tales. normalest child alive. i think he bit into a crystalfly once

oh and kaeya absolutely came up with the whole "i come from a family of pirates" thing as a kid. i think he read about pirates in a book once and was completely enamored with the idea. and one side effect of being a secret agent pawn spy is the ability to spin wild tales on the spot. so anyway did he convince diluc he was toootally a pirate. yes. diluc believed him for way too long

no wonder he's so good at telling stories to kids nowadays. he's had practice

about the eyepatch: i can never settle on just one headcanon!! option one: his eye was fine as a kid and he only wore it sometimes for the pirate roleplay, then he started wearing it everyday after The Fight because diluc wounded him; option two: he always wore the eyepatch because there is something abyss/khaenri'ah related going on with his right eye (don't ask me what exactly. though im fond of the idea that it's connected to his father and it's basically what allows him to fulfill the spy role, in some nebulous way.) and during the fight diluc aimed for it on purpose; there's probably a secret third option im forgetting about. i lean more towards option one these days i think.

okay im out of headcanons for now. i bet that the moment i click post im gonna remember ten more. but its ok. i can make another post if needed. never forget that i can speak about kaeya for literal hours and that, if prompted, i will do so

[myymi]

ohh if you can i would appreciate some tips!! honestly writers are so admirable we dont give yall enough credit🙏🙏🙏

well, for me to give you the absolute best tips i can to help out, i need to know what exactly you're struggling with when it comes to writing. there are about a million different tips i can give you for about a million different things and some of those tips will be completely useless to you

for now though, i'll give you the things that help me getting into a writing mood + general tips i give to new writers and if you still need further help you can explain what exactly you're struggling with and ill do my best to help out;

1) whatever you learned about formatting essays; forget it.

a common thing i see in new writers is they try to write it like an essay. which isn't a bad idea really, but it is restricting. your paragraphs don't have to be four or more sentences. they can only be one if you want. it's your story, format it however you want. you don't need to follow rules

2) listening to music

this is mostly for when you have that one specific scene in your head but have no idea what to do for the rest of the fic. listening to music and connecting the lyrics to the characters you're using is a great way to get your mind thinking. one song can give you several different ideas depending on how you interpret it

3) make sure you are in a good mood

personally, i cannot write to save my life if im upset or just generally having a bad day. i know some people can use creating as a way to cheer themselves up, but it just doesn't work out for me lol

4) if you don't need background noise, don't use it

it's pretty easy to get distracted when writing, especially when you have something new playing. if you do need background noise of some kind, i would advise playing instrumental music or that one movie/show that you've seen a thousand times and could quote in your sleep. keep your focus on your writing

5) brackets will be your best fucking friend when writing

one of the most important things about writing is keeping your flow going. if you find yourself writing sentence after sentence for a good while and then you suddenly hit a stop because you don't know how to word what happens next; throw it in brackets and write the scene after it. its the same reason why you're told to skip questions you get stuck on when taking a test. let your brain do what it knows it can and come back to the tricky stuff later.

6) you don't have to write anything in order

you don't have to write a story exactly start to finish. you can jump between any scene you'd like and find out how to connect it to a different scene another time. this kinda ties into the last tip in the sense that you gotta let your brain do what it knows. if you only know the beginning and the end then write those first and figure out the rest as you go. if you need to edit either one of the previous things then that's okay. there's no shame in changing things around, it's just how creating things go. sometimes change is needed

7) writing prompts

for new writers, i like to tell them to find a prompt online to write a story for before they start their own. using a prompt someone else made keeps your brain from getting overwhelmed, allowing you to focus more on finding a writing style that works best for you. using writing prompts also lets your brain find ways to contribute to a story without having it make everything while also figuring out how to put it on paper. it's easy to overwhelm the brain, so let it get used to writing before you start creating your own ideas. (this is also something i advise to people who experience burnout or just cant think of anything to write. your brain just needs a break from creating ideas right now, go and find a prompt for it)

8) word count

listen to me because this is so important; ignore the word count. you need to focus on learning, not how much you're writing. it doesn't matter if you only wrote 50 words when other people have fics well over 50k. ignore it. you are learning, you'll get there eventually. if you focus too much on how much you're writing you're going to stress yourself out and ultimately drive yourself away from ever writing again. treat word counts as milestones. start with 50, then 100, then 150, then 200, etc. let yourself work towards it slowly rather than push yourself too hard right out the gate. you can't expect to draw the mona lisa the first time you put a pencil to a paper, so don't expect to write thousands of words the first time you write a story. it'll take time, and that's perfectly okay.

9) analyze the shit out of your characters

this is easier when writing fanfiction, but take a few hours to learn your characters. find the content they're in and hyper-focus on what they're doing. pay attention to their speech patterns, their body language, their relationships with others, etc. if they're not in a scene, try to imagine they are and what'd they do and/or say if they were. it'll help out with keeping them in character when writing

10) if you get to a point where you can't write anymore even when using brackets; stop writing for the day

we have our limits. you will get to a point where you can't get another word down and that's okay. it doesn't matter if you've only written a handful of words, close your program and wait until you feel motivation hit you again. if you keep trying to force yourself to write when you just can't then you're going to burn yourself out. the most probable reason for this is writer's block, which means you need to focus on other things for a while. give your brain time to recollect itself. it's annoying, i know, but it's better for you if you just let your brain do what it needs to. it knows how to take care of itself, so let it.

i also have a tag i use whenever i give tips, so you can check those out as well to see if anything helps! it's just writing tips

[py6oto]

more hlvrai x yume nikki au stuff!!!

this post is gonna have a lot more text than my usual posts. so sorry if you don't want that.

so people seemed to really like my idea (which is really unexpected !! i didn't expect it to gain any attention at all!!! but its also super awesome and im so glad they do!!) so ive been brainstorming a little bit.

heads up i know yume nikki is a very ambiguous game but im pretty new to it so if i happen to get any established information wrong please let me know !? ty !!

anyways. before we do the effects. please take some sprites.

(body horror ((multiple eyes, messed up limbs, gunshot sounds)) under the cut!!! pls stay safe !!! ) (also a huge lore dump. sorry!)

id think this au takes place in a universe where the resonance cascade was real (aka not a game or simulation) and it'd be like, maybe a few months after it. gordon is traumatized as hell and it haunts his subconscious to the point he feels the need to isolate himself completely. he relives his trauma through eerily consistent dream worlds and then dies on a random tuesday. credits roll. audience cheers. wonderful story.

the vision for the sprites is that tommy functions as a "friendly" npc (like monoko and the other girl i forget the name of please forgive me) and benrey functions as poniko, uboa being "xenrey" or essentially messed up alien benrey (the weird...white...blood....world...room...uboa takes you to when you interact with it is simply replaced by xen. that's it. benreys house is a direct gateway to that time gordon fought god and won and isn't that amazing.)

i might remake the "uboa" sprite in the future because i don't really like it right now. im very new to pixel art and imitating YMNK's style is a little hard.

i like to think this imaginary game would have the teensiest tiny bit of dialogue, only when interacting with benrey. when you interact with his "regular" form, he says "you're not supposed to be here." and repeats it every time you interact, not saying anything else.

i know one of the biggest things that makes yume nikki stand out is its lack of dialogue, but listen, i think it would work well!!! seeing as this is the only time a character actually talks to gordon through understandable dialogue (unless i come up with something else!! haha) i think it would be confusing and throw players off because it breaks the pattern of being either ignored or silently acknowledged. someone talking directly to you after hours of isolation is confusing and unpredictable. which is what benrey is. confusing as hell!

im not sure what function tommy would offer, if any, i kinda want him to maybe give gordon an effect (soda effect could work?)

i dont think he'd bring any jumpscares or intentionally unsettling things to the table. seeing as he was the only one by gordon's side when the rest of the team proved itself to be a threat, i think it's logical he'd remember tommy in a warmer light than the others- which is reflected in how instead of unsettling or ignoring gordom, dream tommy simply smiles and gives him the ability to drink a soda any time. soda effect.

does this soda effect make you see faster like tommy said?

as much as i'd love to, no. probably not. because i have no idea what the hell seeing faster means.

maybe you can get a caffeine overdose. if you spam 1 enough times you will get very fast for as long as the soda effect is on. like the bycicle effect, but better, because you can taste it!

but no, it won't help you see faster. i don't know how to translate that sentence into understandable english.

now, coomer and bubby!!!! i apologize very deeply for i have not made sprites for them yet. i promise i will!!! it's just very late today and if i draw anything else i will actually just pass out.

im not very sure what i want for them yet. i think theyd be similar to tommy, but they'd have different functions. maybe they all give gordon different effects. or maybe they scare him! i dunno, i feel like there'd be a certain level of distrust from gordon to the old guys, like, of course he doesn't hate them but itd be hard to remember them super kindly and harmlessly when one of them ruthlessly tried to murder you with 300 clones of himself and the other tricked you into an ambush that cost you your arm, as much as you love them.

also!!! i completely forgot gordon lost an arm when i made his sprite. oops. it's okay its just a very realistic prosthetic

anyways. this post is getting too long so i think I'll save the boomer talk for when i actually post their sprites. its time for EFFECTS !!

i haven't been able to come up with many words yet. but i have some effects and a slight idea of how gordon would earn them.

concept art is beautiful

from left to right (because my handwriting is absolutely hideous!)

SODA - earned by interacting with TOMMY. wherever tommy is??? i dunno! pressing 1 will make gordon drink the soda and earn a temporary speed boost.

CAR??? - part of me really wants to rename this one but it's so funny to me i want to keep it. it's just a car. he literally just whips out a car and starts driving. what a legend. this effect lets him get across water areas faster (even faster than the soda!)

LONG HAIR - literally just gives him long hair. there is no practical use for this. nothing will happen. it just gives him long hair. isnt he beautiful.

ARM - earned by interacting with a dismembered arm found... somewhere.... probably some dark room. you know that effect where madotsuki literally just becomes a head? yeah. this is that but it's an arm because of course it is. this is an opportunity and i will not give it up. there is no use for this either. it just makes him a slow sad lonely arm.

MINIGUN - found by interacting with a certain object in POTION !! WORLD !! YEAHHH!! DARNOLD REFERENCE !!! pressing 1 will let you shoot the hell out of your enemies and make them pay for their sins

SWEET VOICE - found by interacting with any of the orbs in COLOR WORLD. 1 will allow gordon to song a beautiful, colorful song that will soothe any npcs he might have angered and make them stop trying to murder him.

POWERLEGS - MAYBE given by coomer npc? idk! this is all brainstorming and a work in progress! 1 makes gordon jump real high, allowing him to reach otherwise unaccessible areas

GHOST - ghost. he's a ghost. he's transparent. he flies. 1 makes him do a little ooooo noise and all the npcs run away from him because the place is haunted. ghost.

GLASSES - literally just pick up some glasses from the floor. putting them on will uncover a few hidden details across the map that may be necessary for progress ... like a very small and specific set of stairs

SMALL - makes gordon very small. i thought the original effect was super fun so i just kept it unchanged. small gordon. he can clone himself and make a gordon army. small. im thinking he finds it thru a coomer clone that is abnormally small. he interacts. small effect. small!

SHORT HAIR - literally just short hair. gordon can't seem to pick a haircut!

UMBRELLA - ...umbrella. makes it rain. shelters gordon from the rain at the same time. can be used for the same purpose it has in yume nikki which is putting out fires or stopping pre-existing rain.

there's supposed to be more effects and i still need to plan all the worlds and hidden rooms but ........ maybe when the sun is out and i have slept and i can think better !!! let me know whatever suggestions or ideas you guys have. i love hearing them a lot ^_^ thank you if you read all of this!! i promise hlvrai animations are not over this is just an au that has temporarily taken over its okay my content is not changing to yume nikki hlvrai only

gordon no

2023.07.27

[the-jam-to-the-unicorn]

I have the feeling that we are watching the true face of the Ukrainian opposition unmask itself. Their goal is to get rid of Ze and install one of their own without it looking that way. I have never particularly liked Klitschko, I don't really know about Zalunschny. But both seem to be working hard at getting rid of the president. IMO they're the ones leaking info to the press and undermining Ze. What do you think?

This, this, this, this this. All of it. Every word.

(Long one about Zaluzhny under the cut)

And name the opposition anon - mainly Poroshenko and Klitschko. (see what I wrote here for additional things: https://www.tumblr.com/the-jam-to-the-unicorn/741443506814500864/i-really-really-really-dont-like-poroshenko-and?source=share)

The thing is, I believed Zaluzhny when he says that initially he had no political ambitions. Personally, I think he would not make a good President. He's a good general, a fantastic one even. But he's no politican. But something happened. And it's either people from the outside or his team or he. Maybe someone is putting ideas into his head or creating drama for reasons that have nothing to do with war and helping Ukraine and saving the country.

I don't know if Zaluzhny still doest not have any political ambitions. Maybe he truly really still has none. But other people have some for him. And that's a problem. Because either his ego is way to flattered by that or he is way to dumb and naive to realize that or way to willing to see it but decided to ignore it or roll with it. No matter what it is - it doesn't help the country or the end of the war. It makes Ukraine weaker and worsens the war.

Have political ambitions and do stuff all you want - after the war. But during the war you have to be a good general and do your fucking job and not become a tool or the main player in political fights. Especially with people who actually give zero fucks about you and just want to hurt and overthrow the President.

And, in the end, Ze's rank is higher. You may be General, he is the President and during war the Supreme Commander. Disagree with him all you want, critize him all you want. And them discussin things, having different opinions and everything is good and important. I would be more worried if they would be on the same page 100% of the time. But do it in private. In public you have to be a unit. And don't shit on Ze and go behind his back and blow up things or take things out of context or create rumours or ... . That's the line.

And the hard truth is - the country can do without General Zaluzhny. There are more than enough competent people. But the country can't do without Ze. He's not THE reason the country is still exisiting. But he is THE reason Ukraine gets all the support so other people can ensure the country is still existing. Take Ze out and watch this war end very quickly ... and with not a good result for Ukraine.

And, again, this is not about pretending Ze is perfect. Yes, he made mistakes. Yes, some actions or things he said were not ideal or just wrong. But overall?! He does his job. Very successful.

And again, maybe it's really not Zaluzhny. Maybe it's his team. Who are more than problematic enough with their behaviour. And at this point I don't even know what annoys and angers me more. Zaluzhny's or his team's behaviour.

And I had all the sympathy in the world for him (still partly have) and he was one of the main factors Ukraine was successful so far. All the credit to him. And I also have all the empathy and understanding in the world for him and the horrible and difficult situation he was thrown into February 2022 and I feel for him and what happened to him ever since and what he went through. Really. And he obviously is a smart person and I believe him he truly wants Ukraine to win and he cares about the people, country and soldiers.

But jfc ... . Starting a power fight because of - and I honestly try to understand it but can't - because of his ego is hurt or he is not as great as he actually is or people are whispering things into his ear or not being able to be held accountable or I don't know. It's honestly the dumbest thing ever, especially during a time like this.

If you do a shitty job, I'm sorry, you deserve to go. We talk about humans who could die if you don't do your job.

If you ignore existing problems who are your responsibility to solve or if you ignore bad situations which are again you responsibility to improve - and you don't because reasons ... you deserve to go.

If you suddenly have a personal problem with Ze because he does his job or people whisper things into your ear - talk with the man, try to solve it or go. Don't make the situation any more difficult.

And if you're ego is suddenly to big, well ... . You may be the wrong person for the job.

And if you can't control your team and they cause drama because reasons - from fearing to lose their jobs to ego to influcene to I don't know what else - you may be a good general but not a good boss. But you need to be both.

But backstabbing Ze at any given possibility, do stuff behind his back and pretending your problems are his problems (which yes, they ARE his problems because of war and because you made them his problems) and critzing him, no matter if he does something or not, is just very low.

And one of the big problems is his team. Which he either instructs, can't lead, turns a blind eye on or accepts their behaviour. Creating that image of the "Iron General" who is THE war hero and THE reason for Ukraine being successful in this war and everyone who dares to critize him is a traitor to the country. Also everything Zaluzhny does is perfect. Never question it. Because you're otherwise a traitor. (And Zaluzhny did problematic things. Which is not really discussed because of the image his team and Zaluzhny have created.)

It's a no-no. A very big no-no. And problematic af.

Because not only does this undermine the successes of the other Generals / military persons, it also gives a wrong impression to the people of the country. And at some point it is no longer reality. And it stops any kind of critism which sometimes is needed.

Also, Zaluzhny has problems. There are existing problems in the military that are his responsibility. Not Ze's. His. But what are he and his team doing? Blaming literally eeeveryone else because the perfect Iron General is perfect. And shift the responsibility to other people. To a point were Ze has to act to protect the country and / or pressure of society. Which than gets used against him because bad, bad President interferes in Zaluzhny's job. Yeah, well, maybe ... do your job. If you don't want Ze to get involved. Or to a point where Ze takes the critism even though he deserves zero of it because it never was his probem or responsibility in the first place. But Zaluzhny and accountability are unfortunately not in the same room together.

And acting like that a change in military leadership is some kind of personal vendetta of Ze - which makes zeeero sense - is just pure bullshit.

Furthermore, changing people in military, including the leadership, even during an active war is not so unusual. I would actually be more worried if the same people stay in power all the time.

Because maybe Zaluzhny was the right man for the war so far but not for what's coming next. Maybe they need some fresh ideas and perspectives. Maybe he is no longer effective. Maybe he made to many wrong decisions. Maybe he fails at solving problems. Maybe ... .

But now pretending that it's Zaluzhny and only Zaluzhny ... . Yeah. No. Changing people is not bad. Can it make the situation worse? Sure. This risk is always there. But can it actually improve the situation? Very big yes.

To put it in a nutshell: The problem is not Ze. But somene is trying really hard to let it look like it.

And even though Zaluzhny started strong - problems now appeared. In the military, in his team, with the people who surround and support him. Maybe in himself. Problems that got bigger and bigger and now are everyone's and most of all Ukraine's problem. Which is not good.

And in the end, no matter what Ze does - he loses.

If he fires Zaluzhny (for perfectly good reasons), people will use that against him.

If he does not and the problems continue to get bigger and bigger, people will use that against him.

Ze can only lose in that situation. The only thing he can do is basically decide which option is the less worse one for Ukraine and the war.

Let's give on comparsion at the end: the work relationship between Andriy and Ze.

Do they agree on everything? I'm pretty sure the answer to that is "no". They most likely will have different opinions about what to do next, what to say, who to call, ... . They will also have different POVs on certain topics.

But Andriy knows how to keep his mouth shut. He may critize and discuss and fight with Ze all the time behind closed doors (probably not, but you get what I want to say) - but he will be 100% loyal and supportive to Ze in public, not saying one bad word, not undermining the President.

Maybe one day after all of this is done and he is bored, we may get that big expouse book about what was going on. But Andriy knows that right now, despite what he thinks or how he feels or if he agrees or not with Ze, his job is to do his job. And not Ze's. And not to critize the President in public and put his own ambitions before the country and the people. And Andriy has political ambitions. Way before Ze. I even wouldn't rule out he thought about running for President at least once. But as he said himself (I'm paraphrasing): his job is to be the bad guy, so Ze can be the good guy.

His job is to ensure Ze can work and be successful and do his job. And if they disagree they either find a middle ground, Andriy convinces Ze or he accepts whatever Ze is saying. Friends or not, older or not - in this arrangement and especially in this situation Ze is his boss.

And Andriy knows very well that it's not Ze's job and shouldn't be to take care of his problems that are his problems.

And exchange Andriy with Kuleba or Budanov or Reznikov / Umerov or ... and it's the same.

[thegeminisage]

tng update time and oooooh am i ever mad about it. tonight we watched "hero worship" and "violations."

hero worship: i wanted to like this episode. but, firstly, it's just yet more evidence why children should not be on starships. this has been bothering me the entire time i've watched this fucking show. i hope there aren't any kids on voyager or whatever because this is literally fucking killing me

secondly, i felt really weird about everyone just...going along with this kid's idea that he was an android. i feel like there's a way to be lenient of his trauma without reinforcing the delusion or whatever sorry ik that's not how you're supposed to say it. it just didn't seem like solid therapeutical practice is all. i will admit there was also some secondhand embarrassment watching this kid's impersonation of data but i think it COULD have been cute (which seems to be what they were going for) with a better execution

i DEFINITELY think data's interactions with him should have been supervised too, not because i don't love and trust data wholly but because he has this way of missing certain emotional cues. and while that isn't a problem in day-to-day life, like, that's just the way he is and i resent anyone who would make him feel like it's a bad way to be/there's something wrong with him because he is PERFECT the way he is!!! for someone who is so vulnerable i think that data could accidentally do harm where it isn't intended (almost did a couple of times!), and data wouldn't be happy about that either because of course it would never be his intention. like i LOVE episodes where we just throw data into the deep end and let him figure it out, i love watching him go, but this is a child whose entire family/ship just DIED HORRIBLY who thinks he is responsible for the event. im not saying dont let data be his buddy data deserves so many buddies im just saying give data some INSTRUCTIONS at least. for both their sakes

anyway it was mid at best. it had a few good moments but ultimately not enough to salvage it for me

violations:

okay wait hold on i feel like i need to start a brand new text block for violations. you're only allowed 4000 characters per paragraph and i have stuff to say. i have Things To Get Off My Chest. please picture steam pouring from my fucking ears right now

actually forget the bullet list i don't need a bullet list this is not a normal liveblog Post. do you know every day i see threads on r*ddit and sometimes even tags here on tunglr dot edu about how people don't like tos because it's sexist. thats all well and fine and good. tos IS sexist. ARE WE SAYING TNG IS BETTER?????

tasha yar and the rape gangs. the naked time: 2! where both women got turned into insatiable sex object. deanna's impromptu and nonconsensual pregnancy. tasha's impregnantion by rape and her death at the hands of her rapist. that time they filmed deanna's feet. beverly crusher for all of season 1 having absolutely no personality outside of being a mother. lwaxana troi getting gang raped by ferengi for laughs. genuinely uhura on tos in the fucking 1960s got treated better than deanna troi on tng in the 1990s. yes tos has extremely bad moments sexism wise. JUSTICE for janice fucking rand. but truly how can you be as sexist against women when they aen't there. meanwhile, tng has women in every goddamn episode and all it takes is for one bad writer to

actually you know what is so funny. gene roddenberry and two women are credited with writing this episode. ALL of them are going to hell, gene roddenberry especially. i hate hate hate HATE his rape fetish. justice for janice rand AND tasha yar AND DEANNA TROI!

the thing about this episode is, it could have been good. there were good parts about it. for example: worf's joke about being probed. they knew what they were doing and it was hilarious. deanna getting to talk about her overbearing mother. riker's little speech to deanna when she was in the coma with literal tears in his eyes and this is a WHOLE separate rant but

my problem with tng is that you don't see them care about each other. we're TOLD that they care about each other. they SAY, "oh, x is worried about [character who's in danger this week]." but we almost never SEE them act it out. every once in awhile riker gets weirdly protective of picard, and worf seems kind of protective of everyone which i like, and picard also does a good righteous rage on behalf of others, but i don't usually get to SEE it. like when wesley goes missing or whatever he and his mom don't always immediately rush into each others arms on their reunion. when deanna passes out you don't always see riker abandon what he's doing and rush to her side. nobody asks "are you okay?" with genuine concern. and even when we DO get for example geordi driving himself crazy wondering what went wrong over data's fake death we don't get any follow-through - there's no reunion between geordi and data at the end the way there would be for kirk and spock.

BUT RIKER AT THE HOSPITAL BED. ohhh i was eating. it was so good. he wasn't even saying anything of merit but just the SIGHT of her passed out like that had him almost in tears. riker, who is the epitome of good humor and dealing with space horrors with laughter. IN TEARS. it was so good. a true show instead of tell moment. and in THIS fucking episode

my issue is: they had three on screen rape scenes. the first rape scene was extremely long. like they couldn't show anything explicit because this is 90s tv but it was VERY VERY LONG so it hardly seems to matter. and THAT was bad enough. but then they made us watch it AGAIN when he planted his dad's face in the memory and A THIRD TIME when he was like "ugh she's being so sweet to me even though i raped her i can't NOT rape her again." like at least that time she was able to hit him and get away but it feels like a hollow victory when he's already gotten away with it TWICE, AND!!! when worf had to come in and save her anyway at the end.

it was doubly horrible that he got away with the crime SO WELL that nobody suspected him - like, picard is out here asking deanna to let him into her mind a second time and she GOT RAPED. A SECOND TIME. deanna is like oh yeah you can come in! and it could have been a compelling mystery and plot twist to be like OH IT'S THE DAD but really it's the son except we SAW HIM DO IT the first time. there wasn't even any mystery to solve or anyone to suspect, he wasn't misdirecting US, we just got to watch him successfully misdirect this poor stupid naive trusting WOMAN

also, the thing about deanna's attack being a rape scene while riker's was someone dying under his command and beverly's was IDing her husband's dead body is that for riker and bev these are REAL THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO THEM. deanna never got raped by riker. like, he wouldn't do that and they wouldn't still be as close and comfortable with one another if he had. (i am mad on his behalf TWICE now that they left it open whether or not he committed that particular crime when every other piece of evidence says he wouldn't. the guy is not a closet serial rapist and leaving the endings open to be edgy is extremely poor form.) like, they literally JUST made deanna's attack a rape scene to sexualize her and feed roddenberry's fetish and HE'S DEAD. HE WAS DEAD WHEN THIS AIRED. HE CAN'T JERK OFF TO IT ANYMORE

they didn't even explain why that guy kept leaving people in comas. deanna i get because he was stalking her and wanted to fuck her but why riker? why beverly? that made it MORE suspicious. why all those other people on the other planets? was he raping every single one of them? how did he plan to keep going after he'd framed his dad for his crimes?

and it COULD HAVE BEEN GOOD. beverly's thing with IDing her husband's body was fun and terrifying. deanna could have gotten a memory that spoke to character development instead of being sexualized like this. in fact i think it was lowkey a pussy move not to deal with any of riker's close encounters because of the two of them riker is the one who has actually been raped! "someone died under my command" is generic and lame. but the way the telepathy worked was cool, the plot twist could have been cool, you could have felt real betrayal from liking this dude if he hadn't been all evil smiles from the beginning. and they dropped the ball SO HARD. and i could forgive them for doing that! i have given tng so many benefits of the doubt! BUT THREE RAPE SCENES IN 45 MINUTES?

the worst part is, there was no emotional resolution. they had that guy say the word rape out loud and then the credits rolled. deanna and riker didn't speak one word to each other. she was never like, i know you didn't actually rape me like that's not what happened. no one was like, beverly go have a hot drink and call your son. there's NO EMOTIONAL FOLLOWTHROUGH ON THIS SHOW. tos was guilty of that sometimes too but this level of it is fucking unreal

tng enjoyers im sorry for my meanie posts earlier. love who you love etc etc. i'm just. baffled. HOW IS THIS BETTER THAN TOS. at least what happened to janice rand (and uhura one time) was over quickly and didn't replay three FUCKING times!!! "tos is too/more sexist" I AM TURNING MY BRAIN INSIDE OUT TO TRY AND UNDERSTAND THIS FUCKING STATEMENT

[asseater3k]

Metal gear mania days 1&2

Game: MGS2

Got started yesterday and cleared the tanker and got past the basic setup of the main game. I’ve played Twin snakes a lot back in the day so I was vvaery familiar with the controls and was able to slide back into that control scheme very easily in MGS2 save for a little trouble converting muscle memory from a game cube controller to a ps3 controller. If you’ve played either you know how good this scheme feels, responsive movement leaning around corners and first person aiming combined with the lovely shoulder button menus makes this a great experience from a gameplay standpoint I’d imagine that at launch the tanker segment was a very engaging playground for learning and testing the new controls while it my case and Im sure others who started with the twin snakes it worked as something of a check list like a pre flight check to makes everything was up and running. The tanker also does very well at setting up plot hooks and intrigue some of which went very different directions than I thought they would as always it makes me happy to hear Snake and Otacon.

(Spoilers below the cut)

I was also happily surprised to hear cam Clarke back at it as liquid snake in the form of an arm ocelot picks up being the funniest guy ever right where he left off after the post credits of twin snakes immediately showing up acting goofy doing gun tricks and turning on his allies before succumbing to the horrible fate of being British even if just for a moment. I don’t have much to say on the shift to Raiden as it was something i knew would happen, hard to keep stuff like that under wraps these days. Something I really did appreciate was just how hard this game attempts to gaslight you into thinking everything’s hunkey dory from raidens initial codename being Snake or Campbell, who I’ll talk more about in a bit repeating the lines about the Soloton radar from the first game, not much to say naritively about the early game as most of the conversation where about using the action button is various wacky ways. The main thing that happened during the first day was mostly me trying to wrap my head around why people seemed to hat raiden so much when this game came out. This guy is hilarious and frankly pretty adorable. One of my favorite things about the first game is how it makes you the player and solid snake the character feel like this expendable grunt even while doing insane shit like rocket jumping to kill a helicopter, something I haven’t seen talked about a lot is just how much of the game is something of mystery story and you ALWAYS feel like your the last to know and that Carries over to this game. At this point my naritive thoughts are gonna blend days 1 and 2 together and I’m not gonna really section things out super hard between them, I think a strength of this game is how that sense of being left in dark carries over but is fundamentally different due to having played the last game. At the beginning of MGS there’s no real hint that this is going to be more complex than it presents itself to you. The vibe early on is one of a cool action game where you go in and do snakes solider man things maybe this is different if you played the OG metal gear but for me I was unaware and that feels intentional by the time you get to the DARPA chief you start unraveling these threads and dont really stop untill the end of the game. MGS2 starts you the player and Raiden at about the same point in terms of knowledge with one key difference. You the player KNOW what really happened on Shadow Moses and raiden does not you start the game knowing that something isn’t right and there are these crossing wires but even after all you did in MGS 1 you still dont know enough. I think having the two man booth really adds to this and Campbell repeating lines from the first game weaves that beautifully to give you the sense that something isn’t quite right before you even really start the story. Those lines put you in the headspace of MGS with this full support team but here at this point you really only have the colonel and Rosemary, who I really like i think her dynamic with Raiden is cute. On the other hand Campbell feels off. I love Paul riding hearing is voice makes me feel as though I’ve consumed a lovely warm stew in an otherwise frigid winter is that warmth that spreads through out your body. I do not feel that here at all. I know he kept secrets in MGS and was pretty shady at the end (though the specifics escape me and I was too spoiler scared to check a wiki) but this feels like a whole different level At the point I’m currently at so much of the initial details have been showned to be incomplete or flat out untrue not to mention aspects of the situation he doesn’t include. The combination of his insistence that you can’t trust pliskin ( who IS solid snake I’m not gonna bother with the bit here even though its really funny) and the at times very aggressive tone with which he interacts with raiden makes it really hard to tell if this is stuff he genuinely doesn’t know or if he knows way more than hell let in on. This is another thing i think works really well in conjunction with the first game.\

In that game Campbell was a solid grounding presence which was used by the game later when even he starts becoming unsure and untrustworthy just how much you don’t know and how little of a grasp is had by the cast on the reality of the situation at shadow Moses. In MGS2 you are armed with that knowledge but are still presented with Campbell as the grounded athoritiative figure this creates a sensation of unsteady ground to the player immediately while providing a lot more incentive to interact with and trust pliskin aside form the fact he’s obviously snake he feels like hes got more of the situation figured out and is much more willing to tell Raiden. Side note these feelings of uncertainty and distrust are defiantly also influenced and reinforced by the tanker incident but I find myself unable to articulate that to the degree I could with stuff from the first game.

The Game is also paced very well even if you’re playing it like a nutcase like I am as you go through more and more of things you were told about the mission prove to just be untrue beyond just its more complicated than we initially thought, like i said I’m not sure if Campbell is traight up lying to me or not but at the point I’m at now I’ve just learned about the patriots and its hard not to notice how much the plan of action Campbell insist upon lines up with what it seems they would want at this time I can’t be sure if cause he works for the military of hes just being fed just the same bad info we are or if theres more to it but I am intrigued

On a final note the antagonist situation is interesting. Dead Cell are, objectively, hilarious. I lost my mind when Fatman in particular roller bladed up with his bomb disposal gear and wine glass to talk about how epic his next YouTube prank was gonna be, Vamp just does increasingly more ridiculous things every time hes on screen, Fortune is cool as fuck and her theme fucking melts. After that it does get a bit confusing as which out of the three between ocelot the patriots and solidus i should focus on and I think that’s intentional. It does feel like being in a room with three people where on of which is going to kill you and the others but you don’t if its going to be all of them or just one and if so which one. It all adds up to give a sense that you can’t stay still or in one place too long you have to keep pace with something to stay alive but figuring out exactly what or who is anything but easy

In conclusion: four stars check it out.

[xuune]

@lily-claw ima reply to ur comments thru this reblog for anyone else that wants this info bc idt ppl check comments. also bc my response is long again:

i didnt have extensive formal art courses specifically for painting illustrations either. i only had 3 semesters of painting (gouache, acrylic, digital), so a lot of what i know is personal learning and trial and error through studying other artists. giving yourself exposure to other artworks and deconstructing, analyzing, and studying why pieces work and speak out to you helps you understand a lot how you want to create your own art and what you want to see in it! its incredibly valuable.

tbh, idk how common it is for people to teach stuff like layer modes in digital art courses in formal schooling. in my digital painting course, my professor rarely explained that. it was more that we should learn how to paint without relying on tools like layer modes so we first understand technicalities and thought process behind how you use color and how to think when you paint. i understood how to use layer modes better by fucking around in my own art, so there really is no "right" way to go about learning this stuff.

(btw my pronouns are they/them 😅 alg tho)

this answer has two parts: 1) lighting affects color choices and 2) you have creative freedom to fuck around

1. LIGHTING AFFECTING COLOR CHOICES: you're on the right track when you say "adapt it to the place," which in this case, its lighting. specifically and especially lighting affects what colors are used in your piece. lighting will influence what skin tones will look like in it and everything else. the time of day, what your light sources are, whether its cool/warm tone lighting, determines this (but there is always creative liberties to push your colors, it really depends on what you want). my biggest recommendation for this and putting it into practice is to do color studies. color studies can either be: a) MASTERCOPIES of existing artworks (take whatever existing illustration exists, and do your own copy of it to study it). we do this in school all the time, its great practice especially when you want to understand how other artists choose their colors. obviously if you're gonna do this, either keep these mastercopies to yourself or if you want to share online, post with credit to the original artist (but first and foremost ask for permission to do a mastercopy, especially if the artist is someone you can contact and ask lol. i'd feel weird if i randomly came across someone doing a mastercopy of my work posted online. i'd feel flattered that someone wanted to study my work, but still. you get what i mean?)

b) PHOTO REFERENCE STUDIES. straightforward enough. you take a picture and do a painting of it. can be some photo/video/film you found online, or from your own photos. equally as valuable as mastercopies since you're still practicing observation skills and looking at how lighting works and how colors are affected by it. free real estate for you to experiment and push the colors too.

this leans more towards your concern of getting skin tones right when characters are in dark places. what makes it a dark place? is there straight up no light? is it dim lighting? whats the tone of the light source? is it cool/warm? are there multiple light sources? is there rim, split, rembrandt, fill lighting? ideally, if you know these answers and you can replicate it yourself in person, then you should take your own reference photo. but again, dont forget that you can push your colors in your own art! dont be a slave to your reference.

2. YOU HAVE CREATIVE FREEDOM TO FUCK AROUND:

aside from lighting, color palettes/schemes can influence what colors are used on things like skin tones. if you're making your own palette, you make rules for what gets to be what color. its one way of learning to limit the amount of colors you use and be more decisive about your color choices. this also goes back to general color theory stuff, like monochrome, analogous, complementary, etc.

stylistic/experimental palettes work greatly too. here's an example of this artist's artwork. main takeaway from these artworks is that they intentionally limit extreme uses of pure black and white and predominantly keep their colors in its strongest hue. ima be fr, nothing about this makes sense to me on what their exact process is. certain segments seem like its using a triadic scheme, but other areas they're basically using the entire color wheel. in one section, skin tones are blue and purple, but in the next its orange and red. i have no clue. but the illustrations work, are readable, and are appealing. sometimes certain colors surprisingly work out in your favor, so allow yourself to play with it when you can.

hope this helped!

Hii first of all, I FUCKIN LOVE YOUR ART! ITS GORGEOUS AND IM SURE EVERYONE CAN UNDERSTAND YOU REALLY GIVE YOUR SOUL INTO THAT🤧 Your color palette looks so good, What do you pay attention to when painting? (Like when do you think its better to use multiply or something like that and etc.)

first off, I'M HAPPY YOU CAN TELL THAT I PUT MY SOUL INTO MY ART!!! im genuinely in love with drawing and am always finding ways to make creating art enjoyable and impress myself with what i can achieve and learn :D

second, thanks for asking your question!! i dont mind answering it, but my response is quite long. here's my thinking process:

(you specified layer modes like multiply, so im gonna gear my answer towards that a bit) 1. REFERENCE SEARCHING IS KING. color is actually extremely hard for me, so i search around for artworks with palettes i'd like to use and study how an artist uses it. some situations i have a clear idea of what i want, but usually the images in my head are extremely vague, so i borrow palettes from various other artworks that fit the vibe of what i want. an example is this one. my main palette reference were from these artworks. im looking at this artist's use of high saturates and how drawings are overlayed on top of each other. while looking at references, im asking myself how is this artist using warm/cools, where are these warm/cools placed, if their illustration used any form of texturing (like halftones, hatching), how do they use their palette to render form/shape/gradient, when/where do they saturate/desaturate their colors. those questions inform my decisions when using colors too.

2. USING LAYER MODES WHEN NECESSARY. i used to be reliant on multiply for everything, which atp i dont do since i can definitely push colors more first before using layer modes. only when i feel like my current colors are lacking do i start tinkering with tone curves and/or brightness/contrast/hue/saturation/luminosity settings. and if that doesn't work, then i start using layer modes. using layer modes do help with achieving certain effects, color corrections, or when i want to fuck around and find out. i think having a better understanding of what these modes can do makes you more decisive on how you can properly utilize them and to achieve a particular look (like using multiply for a cel shaded style). here's an example:

this leads into my next point:

3. BALANCING OUT VALUES. big thing that makes an illustration hard to read is if values blend together which affects the hues and contrast. i check for what elements need to be distinguished from one another and if it can be read clearly. using layer modes can either help with this or not help at all. it's very dependent on the type of layer mode. here's this example where i applied pin light:

back to #2, there are various instances where i'm using layer modes for quick color corrections and/or to help with readability:

other times, i start off having my entire subject in gray and to figure out main shadow/lights (similar to the multiply cel shaded process i linked ealier). im thinking about what this should look like if i only used 2 value tones:

when in doubt though, i check my artwork in grayscale to ensure values aren't overly blended into each other, especially if i didnt start with grayscale like this one:

painting for me takes into consideration a lot of different aspects. im thinking about how colors should interact, where/when to give contrast, checking/balancing out values, etc, but im also making it a time to study off of how other artists use their colors through the references i collected.

hope this answered your question! lmk if there's more :]

[kal-lyp-so]

down bad bad or down down bad?

well, as you might guess, i am either one or both.

few years ago when i was still a freshman, I knew this one senior from my uni and developed a tiny meeny crush on him. dude got a gf so I pretty much just moved on.

im in my junior year now, (third year for those who doesn't know), and we started talking few weeks ago (oh he broke up last year) and best believe that tiny crush ain't tiny anymore.

its humongous, big fat crush now.

the thing is, its too heavy for me now.

i like him for his personality. yes, I'm attracted to his physical at first but he is so much more than that, he makes me want to be better and yes, I don't need him to be better, but he sparked that fire.

what a wonderful human being. i truly believe that my judgement is not wrong about him and they're not clouded by my own feelings for him. i don't let emotions affect my judgement and I'm confident about that.

but i fear he only sees me as someone a friendly younger junior or might even sister. i don't think he finds me attractive for him and that sucks. i dont even find anyone else attractive since I'm into him for his personality ㅠㅠ

he has the face, fun, smart and great personality. everyone else would fall for him in a minute, its just a matter of time for him to like them back.

he told me the other day once you're desperate enough for something, you'll get it.

youre wrong.

its abit sad how i know i can treat you better than anyone else could've treated you. you have no idea how i could love you unconditionally without anything in return, its just that you have to let me.

credit: @iamnovibrown from twitter

when i first saw this tweet, all that i could think isn't that i had never experienced it, but how i can provide him that.

no, im in love. definitely.

i never thought that having a genuine feeling for someone is this hard,

its a burden. you have to carry it yourself in silence especially if its not reciprocated.

to you, whatever the future decides, ill be rooting for you.

you truly deserve someone that can love you more than anything in the world, you deserve someone that can be there when you're having you worst mental breakdown, someone that can remind you to eat because you're so into your work and research, someone that can laugh at your high pitch huh when u cant process stuff,

you deserve someone that remembers what you can eat, what you cant, what you love and what u don't, you also deserve someone that forces you to eat what they love aswell, you deserve someone that can mend your heart whenever people hurt you.

you have no idea how you truly deserve someone. i tried to think and ask myself is there anything about you that can make you not deserve any of these wishes i have for you

no. i just couldnt think of a thing. you're too nice to be true. you don't hurt people.

ive been hurt many times by people up to a point I'm not even surprised cause that's our nature as humans. to hurt and get hurt.

but when i found out theres someone who doesn't hurt a soul because you too, always get hurt. if only you know, how much i wanted to give you the world, or might even show you another one.

i wish you would have liked me too. i wish

[narts-kakashi-doll]

I've also got a surprisingly not pun based illumi x reader wip but it's getting very relationship drama for something with only a vague outline

Wow I filled up the tags why is the limit thirty tags and not like. Character based idk I had more ugh and it's all disjointed bc I had to delete stuff

[ppnuggie]

TFP x reader — fluff

　『　megatron ,, starscream ,, soundwave ,, shockwave ,, steve ,, gender neutral human reader 』

　-> cons as house husbands ,, more shockwave househubby 🥴🥴

— fluff ,, sfw ,, crack

— wanted more shockwave ,, i love my big tiddy mans ,, and steve ,, these all take place after the war

megatron ::

• hes a better mech after the war ,, esp when he leaves cybertron after helping rebuild it to go back and see you

• then the wedding happens and now hes your hubby ,, but the thing is bc he’s cybertronian and the government doesnt like him ,, he stays at your house

• which leds to him becoming your house husband ,, he does an okay job at it ,, theres still a lot of room for improvement

• he really does not like your toaster ,, and you dont know why ,, he just doesnt like it ,, maybe the toaster trash talked him

• spends a lot of his free time reading poems online or from books you brought for him ,, he is very interested in the more darker ones ,, because those he feels as though he can relate to

• which leds to him picking up the hobby of writing his own poems ,, some are about his times during the war ,, others before the war and as his time of being a gladiator ,, and most are of you

• but he keeps those ones of you a secret ,, he’d get embarrassed if you did read them ,, hes shy 🥺

• he does host a book club ,, trying to get on better terms with other people ,, though he always picks out books about ponies ,, no one knows why

• which usually makes him beg you to take him to a ranch for a small vacation ,, trying to persuade you saying itll make you relaxed when he really just wants to see the ponies

• he does secretly watch my little pony on your tv ,, and buys the movies and seasons ,, so when the bill comes and mlp is on there ,, hes the reason why

• he does not cook very well ,, he can make some bomb ass cupcakes and thats it

• he loves to receive kisses ,, before you go to bed ,, after you wake up ,, before you leave for work ,, when you come home ,, kisses all the time !!

starscream ::

• he bitches every time you leave for work ,, every single time ,, which one day you had to explain that you leave so that you can make money and stay financially stable

• he still hates that you’re gone for most of the day ,, and huffs when you dont give him a kiss before you leave

• so he has plenty of time to learn about human customs and stuff of the sort ,, like traditions and holidays ,, or different shows that they like to watch

• he does binge total drama island ,, dont tell me otherwise ,, mf loves the show and only watches it when hes alone

• hes been made fun of enough in his life ,, he doesnt need you getting a laugh at him watching a child’s show

• speaking of children ,, hes not a fan ,, thinks theyre weird and gross ,, but man does he love the shows made for them

• he enjoys spongegob ,, which he somehow found on prime video ,, and even doc mcstuffin

• mans cant cook so youre left making your own meals ,, until he asks why you eat different things every day ,, bc he just drinks the same energon all the time

• when explained ,, he did take the liberty of wanting to know how to cook

• so he snatched your credit card number and bought himself cooking classes ,, so then he can cook for you and then you’d have no choice but to praise him

soundwave ::

• hes the best husband ever ?? hes good with kids ?? cleans and cooks wonderfully ?? never argues ?? jackpot ???

• usually makes you a kickass breakfast ,, and in reward he gets some kissies ,, he does love his kissies tho

• when i say hes good with children ,, its true ,, not only is good to lazerbeak (who has his own little spot in the house) but he’s also nice to the neighborhood kids

• as much as their parents are suspicious of your husband ,, their kids enjoy him when you’re gone for work ,, and he hasnt hurt them either

• when he realizes how much he enjoys being around them ,, he approaches you about the topic of children when you come home

• he wants 4 ,, 4 little screaming kids running around ,, much to your horror

• you almost choked that night ,, and had to explain to him that you wanted to take it slow and in the near future maybe a kid would be great

• because children cost $$$ ,, and to be honest ,, yaint got the money for a child ,, let alone 4 ,, so he just settles with playing with the children in the neighborhood

• also ,, like shockwave ,, tries to bring home animals ,, specifically cats

• you came home one day only to find so many cats every where ,, and in the middle of them was soundwave ,, petting one cat that was nuzzling against him

• he still needs to learn some things but married life is amazing with him

shockwave ::

• more about shockwave is that as he becomes a more open ,, hes still learning to talk about his feelings more ,, is that he tends to get shy about it ,, sometimes afraid

• which leds to some cuddling and reassurance ,, that no you wont think differently of him ,, that youre glad he wants to talk to you about his feelings

• and then he proceeds to try and persuade you to get a pet 👩‍🦯 as though the ones he tries to bring home aren’t enough

• he really did want those little ducklings ,, they were just too adorable to resist

• but you do cave in when he promises a few kisses ,, and soon you have a cat ,, a small little sphynx kitten ,, because shockwave wanted a unique one

• he does take good care of them ,, play with them and feed them and clean them when they get stinky

• one night when you worked late ,, you came home to see shockwave on the couch with the kitten all bundled up in a little soft blanky ,, and shockwave holding them gently

• new lockscreen 😏

• he has watched rick n morty more then a few times ,, whilst he doesn’t understand the need for all the dirty jokes and violence ,, he does find interest in rick’s inventions ,, most of the time

steve ::

• hes so new to this whole marriage life ,, he’s panicking ,, worried when you leave for work ,, though you do give him gifts when you come home

• he does enjoy the gifts ,, which range from different rocks you’d find for him to enjoy ,, to stuffed animals ,, to this day he still loves the baby penguin plushy you got him

• he does love to bundle up in blankets you buy for him,, theyre just soft and fluffy ,, they make him feel super secure and comfortable ,, he now knows why humans enjoy them

• does love when you have days off ,, because then that means you spend the day with him ,, doing nothing but cuddling and watching some random show he picked out on netflix

• and when vacation time comes around ,, he cant help himself from being excited about seeing different places

• during the war ,, he did travel across the earth for energon and relics ,, but never did he have the time to look around

• loves to see the big cities at night ,, reminds him of the pictures he has saved of cybertron ,, when it was all peaceful

• he also loves the hot tubs at the hotels ,, just soaking in the hot water after a cold night in the city ,, is heaven for him ,, especially when you join him

• hes happy and content with his life you’ve provided for him ,, and he’d never trade it for anything ,, hes got the luxury

• vacations every summer ,, his plushy collection and blanket basket ,, all the gems and rocks you bring for him ,, and most of all ,, you

[bamboozled-distress]

back in the car seat with unmistakeable feelings

Summary: the marauders and etc are carpooling and as they realize they've got too many people and sirius and remus do any two platonic bros would do

warnings: swearing, remus giving top energy, sirius bottom energy, bros being gay, murderous threats, but its /j, james accidentally setting up remus and sirius, horny, sexual stuff but like not explicit, just sirius being a slut on main, slut for his bro moony, mentioning of testosterone, them all being british

A/N: okay this is my first fic for the mauraders !! and this is based on this tiktok and wrote this in one hour and its 2am and I have class tmrw and full credits to @/ireneatyd on tiktok for the inspo !!!!! <3

Sirius was going to kill James figuratively and literally.

If he could get his hands on James he would be dead, because they are in fact supposed to be on the way to their bi-weekly arcade meet-up but instead he insisted on the matter of taking not only Lily but Alice as well. This would all be fine if James had an actual van but no James had a shitty five-seater impala.

This would all be fine if it was big enough for them all to squeeze however that was not the case and fucking hell someone was going to have to sit on someones lap.

For this reason Sirius Orion Black is a stupid idiot who says things and does things without doing the simple act of thinking.

He was sat in the corner while everyone was trying to fit themselves inside because god be dammed he will never sit inside the middle and would much rather get the window seat. Lily and Alice had fit themselves quite snugly right beside Sirius with Peter and dear old fucking Prongs driving them all to his certain doom. Having just driven to Remus' record store job he was unknown of their current situation. When he walked to them with a beige jumper and a book in hand, his chocolate orbs instantly found Sirius' and his lips morphed into a slight frown.

"Fuck, theres no place to sit."

And to this the smartass Sirius-heavily-crushing-on-remus-Black looked up at the rather tall lad and with a certain glint in his eyes and with his signature smirk on display he spoke nine words he knew he was going to regret.

"My knees are always an open seat for you."

Remus instantly raised his eyebrows with a playful look on his face, "getting a bit illegal now are we?"

Sirius instinctively spread out his legs as much as he could and stretched his left arm around Alice's seat and shrugged, "was only offering, moons."

"Well seeing as its either that or sit by someones feet I'll take the first option as the second is usually your job, pads."

Sirius half-expecting Remus to object his offer gulped as he saw Remus go around and open the door to his side as he scanned his long legs of perfection towards his freckled sun-kissed face.

There was a certain mantra of 'oh fuck' going through the black-haired fellow's head as remus held on to the edge of the car and leaned toward Sirius face as he was hoping, praying that his blush was not noticeable.

"So how are we doing this.. you on one leg, both legs straddling me back to chest? or possibly chest to chest?"

Instead of an answer Remus began to make his way over towards his thighs with a tight grip on Sirius' shoulder. As Remus allowed his right leg on top of Sirius left leg and his left on remus right, and while doing this he with a slight smile was avoiding eye contact.

'The fucker' Sirius had thought.

All of this has led Sirius to his current position and frankly wanting to murder James Fleamont Potter with his bare hands because holy fucking shit Remus John Lupin was straddling him when he simply meant it as a poor excuse of a joke. He was facing him sat multiple inches away from his crotch almost resting his arse on Sirius' knees.

Once Remus was fully sat after shifting and Sirius trying not to scream as he was doing so internally, Remus finally looked up to him and spoke with clarity in his voice.

"I think this seems alright? for stability and also so I dont quite crush your leg."

"If I ever died with you crushing my leg rem, I'd die a happy man."

"Don't think James would be too happy though, some lad dead in the back of his oh so precious baby."

Hearing a slight 'fuck off' from the drivers seat made them both snicker as Sirius had no idea where to quite put his hands as his heart was screaming 'Remus' thighs' but his head was quite empty knowing just how close Remus was to his everywhere.

As if on cue because for some god forsaken reason James had it out for Sirius he started driving and as he started reversing Sirius saw remus for the moment not holding onto anything and went to hold his hips so he wouldn't fall. After the initial shock of it was over Sirius instantly moved his hands away and left it at his sides as he got wide eyed.

"shit, sorry moons. fucking James."

Remus then held on to his shoulders tighter than before and moved a bit closer which made Sirius just a wee bit nervous, "you're good, don't worry about it, love."

Jesus fucking christ Sirius could die at that moment and he would die a happy man, although he knew Remus called everyone love and called him love a few times as well. But, with how low his voice had gotten he quite possibly had gotten a small boner. With him noticing this and wanting to change the subject he spoke.

"Dude holy shit, testosterone really is making your voice pretty deep."

Remus practically beamed at the mention of the effect of the testosterone he was taking and seeing that, Sirius felt a small smile on his lips.

"you think so? I haven't really noticed but really?"

"yeah moons, its getting way deeper when you said that I could really notice."

Remus had a shy smile on display and Sirius could tell how much that meant to him and how euphoric it made him which to that, Sirius gave a small smile back.

Sirius felt his arse falling asleep and needed to shift a bit because it was getting a bit uncomfortable.

Seeing that they were at a red light he shifted a bit which Remus tilted his head to the side about.

"are you alright over there."

Sirius looked down a bit, "er yeah, my arse is asleep and I just need to like move a bit."

Remus made a slight 'oh' shape with his lips and grabbed the head rest with his arms on the sides of Sirius's head, as he lifted himself up. And when Sirius felt a loss of contact and looked up at him with an intensity he couldn't deny he adored, he looked down at Sirius.

"c'mon lift up your hips love."

At that single moment not only did Sirius do exactly what Remus said but he was 100% positive that he had a boner.

He sat back down and was now painfully aware of his boner while Remus plopped on his lap right before the light turned green and James decided right then and there to drive faster which led remus a bit closer to Sirius crotch.

Then as if on cue because the universe seems to hate Sirius, James took a sharp turn which made Remus swerve a bit to his left with his thigh slightly touching his crotch and Sirius simply wished he could just implode. With the swerve Remus held on tighter to Sirius' shoulder and Sirius can now say with certainty that he is now painfully hard.

Oh so painfully hard.

Remus now looked at Sirius with a full smirk on his face and Sirius felt like he was in a slight trance. The one thing that got him out of said trance was a speed bump that James did not fucking see so Remus bumped up and down on his lap and Sirius wants to die right fucking now to end this torture that his poor soul does not deserve whatsoever.

He heard Remus mutter a few cuss-words and was blessed to know that they were almost at their destination, but that feeling went away quite fast as he saw remus look down at his lap.

Where his crotch seems to be.

Where he was painfully hard.

Which was quite visible to the eye.

More specifically to Remus' eye.

"Seems like you need a little help over there?"

Knowing all sense has been thrown out the window and he is hornier than he thought was possible his response was, "care to volunteer?"

"should ask me out to dinner first siri."

Sirius was utterly flabbergasted, because he could ask him out? He was much too horny for complete thoughts to form and for him to think logically that Remus is obviously joking.

"I can do that?"

As they found their parking spot and Remus was about to open the door he said a single of nine words he hoped Remus wouldn't regret.

"with those manners, would be hard to say no."

With that Remus left the car and his lap, taking Sirius' dignity right with him.