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egginfroggin · 2 days ago
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Help a girl out, Jheselbraum
Takes place in the same AU as this post
Smol Ford got injured, Mabel is severely doubting her level of qualification to continue being his cool sci-fi aunt guardian, and Jheselbraum is trying to play therapist (it is not the first time)
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Mabel: HE'S SO SMALL AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING JHESELBRAUM AND HE ALMOST DIED I'M BAD AT THIS AND
Jheselbraum: But he will recover, Mabel, you cannot let yourself lose hope due to this-
Mabel: GIRL HELP ME I'M NOT READY TO BE A COOL SCI-FI AUNT JHESELBRAUM
Jheselbraum: "Mabel, please"
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inbabylontheywept · 1 day ago
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if you are my fav tumblr account, who else should i follow? any suggestions? maybe your other followers can chime in too.
oh. that's very sweet. i've been told i have a lot of overlap with @foldingfittedsheets. she does art too, i just rec her in general. if you like me for my poignance, shes like that too, plus she can draw. @gallusrostromegalus is another storyteller, and they've been at it quite a while longer than me. absolutely massive archive of stories. top quality and top quantity. i'm in awe of the quantity - some days i feel like i'm scraping the bottom of my bucket and they just keeps going, and going, and going, and going. they are kind of unstoppable. @derinthescarletpescatarian did hfy and was frankly quite a bit better at it than i ever was. if you like my fiction. they have several books too that i've seen people go feral over. on my to-read-list after i finish my cormac mccarthy binge. god help me. or stop me. they also do life update stories that kind of fit into my niche.
there's @lizardho, who is my sister, and frankly has a similar storytelling and speaking style to me. we grew up just 14 months apart. she doesn't write as much as i do, she just got out of grad school and which consumed basically all of her mental and emotional energy for the last couple years (ive only really been writing for around... 4 years? and basically started as soon as school stopped kicking my ass) but when she does you'll go ah, yeah, family resemblance here. case in point.
@miseria-fortes-viros is more fandom focused than me, but if you read me specifically for my random emotional kicks to your stomach, she is fantastic at that and she occasionally dips into greek works, which is something i've always been interested in. if you liked my odysseus in space story then this and this are gonna burn through your brain like acetone on styrofoam. also she occasionally does life stories and theyre always top notch. you will love this.
those are all my you-will-find-works-like-mine recs. i'm opening it up to the audience if they have anyone they'd like to throw into the ring.
(i'm gonna close with someone whose work isn't actually terribly similar to mine, but i like @letters-from-the-gaps so much i'm gonna give them a rec too. their poem "Bone Saints" is probably my favorite work of theirs. i think about it at least once a week. you can go through their entire body of work in like, maybe a day or two? but it's good. feels like home to me. we both love our sunscorched deserts.)
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i-wanna-write · 3 days ago
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If One’s Different, One’s Bound to be Lonely - Wolverine Fic
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Fic Synopsis: We know Wolverine and Sabertooth but the reader is known as Jackal. Just like the other two, their mutation is animalistic, lending them healing factors, enhanced physical abilities, and animal senses. This fic details their relationship with the Anchor!Wolverine and how they ended up meeting the Worst!Logan
Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7
Chapter Warning: angst, slight tiny fluff, violence, mentioned of experimentation/torture - nothing too graphic
Word Count: 2.6k+
A/N: SO SORRY for the long wait!! I have an outline for this story and promise to never abandon it! Life just got crazy! But here’s an update!
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Logan stayed at the school, helping you and the X-Men defeat Magento. The evil mutant was planning on transferring his powers to Rogue, the teen Logan saved, which would kill the girl. However, a plan was developed and you, Scott, Ororo, and Logan were able to rescue Rogue, ending with Magento being imprisoned.
For you it was a crazy experience. You’ve fought mutants before but for some reason Magneto was different. Maybe it was because you witness Magneto, a mutant who can control metal, control Logan. Logan who, to you, is a very powerful mutant.
That frightened you as Magneto’s main goal was to take down the worlds leaders. You were terrified of what would happen if he succeeded.
But thankfully, the X-men and Logan were able to defeat him at the top of the Statue of Liberty. You were amazed as you witnessed Rogue’s powers - taking Logan’s regenerative ability to heal herself after the fight.
The girl had been through so much and continues to do so but knowing she had Logan, and Logan her, you were greatful.
So you all returned to the mansion after the fight. Those who couldn’t heal had their wounds tended to while you and James shared a beer in the kitchen - the alcohol from your room.
The two of you just sat in silence, neither really having anything to say. To you, the fight reminded you of the days you would run into Logan and Victor, with one of the mutants having fought tonight having a Sabertooth mutation.
You stewed in your thoughts, wondering what Logan was thinking. A small part of you hoped being together and fighting would lend him some memory - anything. Only it didn’t.
You almost wished you had Jean’s and Charles’ powers. So you could pry into his mind and see what he was thinking about. If he approved of the way you fought tonight. If he was turned on watching you as you were him.
However, your thoughts were interrupted when Charles entered. The man said nothing at first, shooting just a displeased look at your choice of beverage.
“We earned these Old man.” You state to him, raising your beer.
Charles shook his head. You watched as he glanced between you and Logan, as if struggling with what to say. Finally, Logan cut through the silence.
“What is it?” He asked, a scrutinizing look on his face.
You take him in, noticing the way his body is tensed, jaw clenched. He seems to be reading that there’s some sort of trouble. That maybe there's another evil mutant who wants to take over the world.
Only that’s not the case.
“First I would like to thank you for your assistance with Magneto.” Charles begins, addressing solely Logan.
Pfft, old man doesn’t want to thank you, you guess.
“But?” Logan gripes.
“No buts.” Charles says. “However, there is some information I have come across that I believe would interest you.” His eyes then turn to you. “Both of you.”
You sit forward on your seat, staring intently at Charles. The man has been a Godsend since you met him. No hidden agenda whatsoever. Whatever he’s going to share is important.
“There’s a location in Alberta Canada. It’s called Alkali Lake and believed to have been a base for Weapon X. I believe you may find some answers there.”
There’s a moment of silence. Both you and Logan taking in the information. After all these years you may finally find out the truth.
You look up and eyes meet Logan’s brown ones. His are determined. As if he’s waited this moment his entire life and you guess that he has since his memory was taken from him.
“When do ya’ wanna leave?” He asks you.
You and Logan left the following morning. You quickly said goodbye to Ororo and Jean, not before Ororo teased you about having alone time with Logan.
You had to hand to the women. She always knew how to make you smile or laugh when things when to shit.
You packed your back and was ready to go that night, not once thinking about your lesson plan or the students you’re leaving behind.
It’s as if the Jackal has come back in full force since Charles revealed the information he found. Your focus is slowly on finding those who captured you. Your focus is solely on revenge.
Charles allowed you and Logan to grab a truck from the school to venture to Alberta. Logan started off driving first but the two of you eventually switched on and off, one of you sleeping and the other driving.
Two days into your travels you wore Logan down and convinced him to get a motel room for the night. You wanted to get to the location just as fast as he did. But with both of your increased sense of smell, you weren’t sure how much longer you could take dealing with the both of you not showering.
You were just near the border of Canada and North Dakota when you spotted the sign and convinced him to stop for the night. You quickly checked in, getting a room with two beds before heading back to the truck to get Logan.
You both grabbed your bags and entered the room, noting the rundown decor and dilapidated fixtures.
“I’ve stayed in worse.” You state, shrugging as you take a step in and place your stuff on the bed closest to the door.
Logan snorts, walking to the other bed and placing his bag down before sitting next to it.
“Guess you can shower first since you’re the one that wanted to stop.” Logan grumbles, an unhappy look on his face.
You roll your eyes but unzip your bag, grabbing new everything. You also reach in and grab a bottle you stored, knowing it would come in handy.
You walk towards the bathroom, passing the seated Logan on the way and hold out the bottle to him.
“Figured this might make you happpy.” You say, watching as his eyes slightly light up at the sight of the liquor and he grabs it from your hand.
You shake your head at his antics. No memory but same personality. You then make your way into the bathroom to clean up.
You’re not in there for more then ten minutes, not wanting the hot water to waste and make Logan take a cold shower. You quickly dress and put your hair in a braid before stepping out.
You see Logan has apparently disagreed with your bed choice and moved your bag to the one farther from the door and took the closer one for himself.
“You had to touch my shit?” You question, taking a seat on the bed and almost moaning out of relief that it’s not a truck seat.
Logan rolls his eyes and stands, going through his own bag this time to collect clean clothes.
“I ain’t sleeping in a corner bub.” He states before handing the bottle of liquor to you and entering the bathroom.
This time it’s you who rolls your eyes but out of fondness. When you and Logan lived together for those few years, his side was always closest to the door. He said how he didn’t like how he felt like he was sleeping in a corner and this way he’d be closest to the first sign of danger.
You unmake the bed and get under the covers, layering the pillows behind you. You glance up at the ceiling and take a swig of the whiskey, allowing it to burn down your throat.
You can’t help but be nervous about what you might find at the location. If you’ll find the people who experimented on you. The people who took Logan’s memory.
Your heart aches at that thought. Being with solely him the past few days has been rough. It’s hard to not talk to him like you used. To not reminisce on the past that only one of you remembers.
With that thought you take another swig of the liquor. You’re pissed. So pissed. How dare they take you. How dare they take him. Who are they to fuck with your lives and screw everything up. You want so badley to rip their throats out for what they’ve done.
“Simmer down bub. I can smell the anger.” Logan’s voice startles you out of your thoughts.
You watch as he’s back into the room in just a pair of jeans and have to stop yourself from admiring his physique. You’ve missed being able to openly admire him. To touch his shoulders, his abs. To place light kisses on his pecs.
But he’s not yours anymore and you’re afraid he never will be again.
You take another swig at that thought before taking a deep breath to calm yourself down. You inhale through your nose loudly and let out a sigh to change the subject.
“Smell that?” You ask rhetorically. “Freshly cleaned mutants! You can’t tell me you aren’t glad we stopped?”
You watch as Logan takes a seat on the bed before laying down, only he’s laying on top of the covers. Apparently he’s too anxious to relax fully.
“Why don’t you quite being a smart ass and get some sleep?” Logan questions reaching over to snag the bottle from your hands before turning off the light. “We’ll be there tomorrow soon enough.”
You let out a sigh before rolling onto your side so your back is facing him. You try to stop the thoughts racing through your head. Unfortunately for you, sleep is hard to find.
You and Logan made it to the facility. Or what was left of it. The place itself is abandoned in the middle of the woods. The two of you don’t stray too far from the other while you try to find anything or anyone that can offer answers.
The building is full of broken equipment. Computer screens cracked, dried blood smeared on the walls, doors ripped of the hinges, decomposing corpses at every turn. It seems whoever was in charge of the place didn’t bother to clean up once they were found.
You and Logan make your way deeper into the building, leaving no room or equipment unturned incase a file can be restored and information revealed.
Logan is walking slightly in front of you while you examine a computer before you notice that he stopped. You watch as he lightly lifts his head up and inhales through his nose before turning slightly.
“What is it? Do you smell someone?” You question, rising to your feet and waking closer to him. You inhale yourself but don’t smell anything except him and the chaos around you.
He shakes his head no but begins to walk forward, this time at a faster pace. You follow behind quietly, wondering what it is he’s scented.
Soon, he’s lead the two of you to two doors that vaguely resemble an operating room dooor. You watch as he hesitates before gently pushing the door open.
You follow him inside and look around to see the mess. There’s an overturned exam chair in the middle of it, arms and leg restraints connected to it. One side is composed of research equipment such as microscopes and vials, the other full of instruments thrown about haphazardly and stained with blood.
You turn to look at Logan in confusion. Why did the scent of this room speak to him so much that he’d want to come in here?
You notice how his eyes have a devasting look in them and his mouth is drawn into a frown. As if he can’t believe what he’s looking at and trying to make sense of it.
“What is it?” You quesiton him. “What lead you to this room?”
“You.” He says quietly. “This room smells like you.” He says brown eyes meeting your E/C ones.
You freeze. You realize now what you’re looking at. You’re own torture room. While this location was a dead end for Logan, it’s not for you. It’s where you were held. Where you were tortured and experimented on. Where your eggs were extracted and you were sedated for months.
Rage takes over you and you lose it. You let out a scream and feel your teeth and nails elongate. You rush to the side with the research equipment and swipe it, throwing it the floor. You punch the cabinets and rip them down before kicking the chair and sending it flying into the other wall.
You grab the next object you can find and throw it too, letting out a roar. How dare they! They kept you here for months, away from Logan, away from the world just to use you. To take from you.
Your breathing picks up and senses dial in, the Jackal taking control. You sense another body in the room and go to attack, throwing a punch with your teeth bared.
The other person blocks the attack but you quickly deliver another, this time landing the blow. You throw punch after punch, teeth bared each time and ready to tear their throat out.
The other person doesn’t seem to fight back which only makes you angrier. You eyes narrow on their neck, watching as their pulse raises and falls and you go in for the kill. You need to make them pay for what they did to you.
“Y/N!” You hear but it doesn’t register, the urge to fight still prominent.
You lunge, ready to make contact but the person stops you. Their hands encircle around your wrist and hold so tight you think you hear your bone snap. You don’t care.
With your arms pinned to your sides, you keep trying to get at their throat. To get even. To get revenge.
“Y/N! Snap out of it!” The voice yells again.
You feel your back slammed against the wall and let out a gasp as the impact causes the wind to knock out of you.
“Hey! Sweetheart! Knock it off!” The voice yells and this time something clicks.
Sweetheart.
There’s only one person that calls you that.
Logan.
You take a deep breath in and suddenly everything comes back again. You’re not there. Well you are, but you’re out. They’re not hurting you anymore.
The scent of Logan is suddenly all you can smell and your teeth and nails return to normal as your eyes meet brown. Logan is looking down at you, still holding you pinned to the wall.
His eyes are concerned and understanding, searching yours to make sure the Jackal is gone.
“I-I’m sorry.” You croak out as tears start to fall. “I-“
“Hey shhh.” Logan says, slowly releasing your hands. “You’re okay.”
You nod, the tears now falling. You want to tell him. “They had me for months. They - they kept me sedated cause I fought too hard. And they - they.”
“Hey, you don’t gotta tell be bub.” Logan says, his hands now resting on your shoulders and gently moving over them.
It’s as if you don’t hear him as you continue. “I talked to J-Jean and they - they extracted my eggs to see if they could manipulate them to carry the X gene. For months they kept me out and just -“
You can’t finish, the thought once again being too much for you to handle.
Logan doesn’t say anything. But he does pull you into him tightly, his arms wrapping around your shoulders. You let him, your own moving to cling to his back, burying your face in his chest as sobs escape you.
His hands move up and down your back to try to calm you down. You take deep breaths, trying to slow your breathing and stop your tears. You listen to Logan’s heartbeat and own breaths to do so.
You’re finally able to stop crying but Logan doesn’t let you go. He just holds you, feeling that in this moment, that’s all you need.
He might not remember you and might not be your Logan, but in this moment, you realize he could become yours again.
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horrorvale · 3 days ago
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HorrorVale Development Blog: End of Year
Hello, citizens of HorrorVale!
As the year draws to a close, we (or more specifically me, Dustin) wanted to put together a little blog to talk about HorrorVale! How launch went, what our current and future plans are, and more!
(Note that this blog post does not receive audio, so if you respond I cannot hear it.)
Dream Colosseum
First, before I start talking about HorrorVale's Launch, I want to discuss an upcoming patch.
Currently, we're working on a massive patch for HorrorVale that will include the following:
Even MORE bug fixes
Brand new optional dialogue for every single party member in the game for main story cutscenes
More skill re-balancing
Other minor things and scenes I still wish to include
But most importantly... The DREAM COLOSSEUM!
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I originally didn't think many people would bother with the "Secret Bosses" in HorrorVale, but since so many of you enjoyed them and also desired to get more opportunities to mess with party combinations, I decided to punish you horribly!
The Dream Colosseum is a brand new feature that will allow you to fight Bosses you fought previously, now all scaled up to End game stats, with new moves and quirks, and all very difficult.
If you've fought the "Last Secret Boss", now you get to imagine what a Dream Colosseum version might be like.
It will require you to 100% the game to access, but won't give any unique rewards outside of a cosmetic change to Alice's bedroom so people don't feel compelled to torture themselves for completionists sake. Naturally, there won't be any new trophies either.
Right now we're working steadily on this update, and hope to have it out very early next year.
Now that that's out of the way, let's talk about how launch actually went for HorrorVale...
HorrorVale Launch
After 8 years in development and 5 years since announced, HorrorVale finally released on October 1st, 2024.
This reception has been tremendous.
Leading up to release, I was anxious but overall feeling pretty good about launch. There were minor things I wish I had included or changed, but knew that delaying what was otherwise a feature complete game would be extremely silly.
I actually intended on releasing these things as a patch in the first week of launch, in the hopes of catching most people before they get too deep in the game.
...What I did not expect however, was the unfortunate discovery of several bugs, some of which were game breaking.
What made these bugs especially frustrating is that most of them were NEW bugs, created from me adding things right before launch, or fixing other unrelated bugs.
Due to these bugs and the massive influx of new fans, comments, reviews, and more I found myself extremely overwhelmed, and it ended up being probably one of the most stressful 2 weeks of my life after launch.
In the end, everything worked out and I was quick to patch the game...
...Multiple times.
Still, despite these issues the reception was overwhelmingly positive. Certainly some critiques here and there, but the general response was that the game was so enjoyable that even the most egregious critiques could be brushed aside. All of the wonderful things I've read by people who had fun in the world I created... It truly means the world to me. The... Underworld you might say.
I'm sure some people are also interested in how the game actually DID. Good reviews and positive reception are one thing, but this is also a product being sold, so how did it DO!? Did it SMASH RECORDS and become bigger than UNDERTALE? Did it FLOP???
Well, to be honest I'm not entirely sure!
Which is a strange thing to say, but it's difficult to gauge "Success" when so many factors can change what that means. For a AAA game, success means something very different to a small indie game with a publisher, which also means something very different to a ragtag team of people with no real budget, no publisher, no marketing, and especially no notoriety whatsoever. Not to mention as first time developers we have little to compare it to...
But that being said...
As of right now, HorrorVale has sold...
1,000 COPIES!
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That's an INSANE amount of people. If all of you were in a big room crowded around me, I would be very scared.
That's 1,000 new citizens to HorrorVale that have entered its gates.
If we gauge success purely based off "did it make back what you invested in it?", then HorrorVale was absolutely a success!
However, unfortunately it did not necessarily meet the expectations we had.
Going into the launch of HorrorVale, I had 3 goals in mind.
To make back what I invested in it (out of pocket, not including Patreon earnings)
To pay Matt, the composer full royalties for the HorrorVale OST (since he created the entire 170 track monster soundtrack for FREE.)
To be able to devote myself full time to Game Development
Of these three... Only 1 has been achieved so far.
While I generally try to avoid discussing topics like these, I feel like it's important context for the next piece of discussion. The future of HorrorVale.
HorrorVale: Act M
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HorrorVale: Act M is a small side story featuring none other than Mothman himself! This spinoff game was greenlit thanks to HorrorVale fans reaching our Wishlist goal for the main game. This game will tell the story of HorrorVale from Mothman's perspective, giving you new insight into his side of the story, as well as elaborate on events leading up to and following that story.
I think there's something really special waiting for you in Act M, and I want to use it as an opportunity to experiment with the HorrorVale formula based off of feedback from the main game.
No matter what, this project will begin development and it will be in your hands....
...At some point.
Which is where the previous topic comes into play, because naturally how long Act M takes to make is dependent on the time I have free to work on it. HorrorVale sales could certainly pick up, and I might one day be able to devote myself fully to game dev, but for now Act M will have to follow the same development process as "HorrorVale", which means it's difficult to give an estimate of how long it'll take to make!
What I can say for sure, is that Act: M will be much, much shorter than HorrorVale. Don't expect a 50 hour experience! I'm aiming for something more like 8.
And yet, you might be asking yourself dear reader...
"How can we help?"
Indeed, you asked yourself that exact sentence and in the voice of the King from Zelda CD-I no doubt.
Which brings us to the next topic!
Patreon Revival
My original plan after HorrorVale launched was to completely retire the HorrorVale Patreon as it seemed unnecessary at that point, but since:
We did not reach our expectations of sales so far
Several fans expressed a desire to support the game in some way because of the Steam Early Access debacle
I thought it made sense to keep it up and give it a little makeover.
Now fully dedicated to "Act: M", you can expect Monthly Progress Reports here, just like the main game!
Not only that, but we've added a brand new "Cryptid" Tier, that will allow you... Yes YOU! The ability to design a Creepy, Scary, or Starry for Mothman to fight in Act: M! We don't want Mothman to just fight all the same enemies as Alice! He'd naturally encounter foes she never even knew existed. This is your opportunity to help the game out and get to be a part of it as well.
(Please note that in order to participate in this reward, you must be 18 years or older and willing to give all rights of your design to Batworks Software.)
(Also please note that Mothman will kill your beautiful creation with a crossbow and it will hurt very badly.)
Since as of now I can't "live" off of HorrorVale sales, instead my plan is to put it and Act: M Patreon earnings towards Act: M itself and Mystery Future Project. This will help ensure a smooth development cycle as possible. If you're interested in helping out the HorrorVale universe, now's your chance!
Of course, forking over your hard earned candy isn't the only way to help though!
Just enjoying the game and telling your friends about it is a MASSIVE help. Without a marketing team, word of mouth is a tremendous help to us, and it's thanks to that that we're here at all!
Closing
In closing, I just want to say thank you to all of the HorrorVale fans that have supported us over all these years. The love that HorrorVale has been shown has been one of the greatest experiences of my life. As long as I'm able to, I'd like to read every comment and message I can, but I fear that if the game does get bigger one day I won't be able to see them all. Just know that the love you've given Alice and her friends mean the world to me.
Wait Stop Right There What Do You MEAN "Mystery Future Project"???
That's all for now goodbye!!!!!!
*The device he was speaking from explodes spontaneously*
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crescentfool · 9 months ago
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having the hc that minato is ace is incredibly funny sometimes when you think about how ryoji is oh so very bi because it's like. "ah. death stole my ability to be attracted to people," in the same way that ryoji stole minato's eye color and energy level. like wow, thanks ryoji, you just keep finding things to steal from minato!
#persona 3 spoilers#minato arisato#hc and au nonsense#lizzy speaks#happy international asexuality day to my fellow aces out there i hope you know that you are loved!!! 🎊🎉🥳#i like viewing minato with the lens of him being gay / ace. esp bc it stems from my own experiences so it's fun to look at-#him from that perspective even if that's not what was intended by atlus y'know?#and im sure others have other hcs from me that are informed by their own life experiences and i think that's great ^_^#something that i found interesting while playing FES was how. stilted? minato's animations felt when hugging the girls#you could definitely go with the perspective that it's a graphical limitation or they didn't have time to polish the animations#and that's def true!! but sometimes i see the hug @ yakushima beach + the other hugs and then i compare it to the sou/yo hug in p4#and there's like... a noticeable difference to me with how intimate and close together the hugs are...#that said i do know that the animations for reload are updated and the hugs are much more natural (good on them tbh!)#the other thing is (pensive sigh). the way you couldn't reject any of the girls when doing their social links in FES#objectively speaking i'm glad that they did away with that and i like how the rejections were handled in reload. it feels naturally written#but also a part of me enjoyed looking at the “hey atlus what the FUCK” moment and thought of how to interpret it differently#specifically with the idea of minato having like.. little to no autonomy and kind of going along with the relationship#it kind of reminded me of myself tbh with like going along with the rship without considering what you want bc#it's what others want or expect out of you... LOL. i dont think atlus intended for someone to interpret it this way but#eh i think that's the fun part of hcs and looking at characters with certain lenses!#regardless of how you perceive minato i do think there's something to be said about him being the kind of guy who molds himself-#into someone that is needed. not wanted. but needed. important distinction here.#the one caveat my brain runs into when im like “minato is ace!” is when i remember thanatos exists and i go#“you know what these ideas can exist simultaneously” GKLHFHDFHD when in doubt schrodinger's headcanons#anyway that's all i've had this thought in my brain in awhile and haven't sat down to share it properly until now 👍#have an excellent weekend everyone !!! lizzy loves you all lets all nurture our inner yippee!!! 🥺💙
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heymacy · 1 year ago
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taraxacum-vulpes · 3 months ago
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why is everyone pretending like cyberpunk edgerunners is good. the writing is so bad i hate it
#i'm rewatching it for the third time 😋#i remember seeing a post i think from demilypyro abt how 2077 was a shitty game that everyone forgot how bad it was because of the anime#and the anime is terrible#all of the reviews online call the ending sad but it's literally just 🧍‍♂️ okay so. big whoop.#which would've been great for like to explore the futility of doing jack shit in this world bc it can be taken from you like that#they did a good job of this in the first 6 episodes before the timeskip#but the timeskip ruins everything#and u have to balance how unsatisfying that kind of thing is w the reality of that's just how it is#but NO#it's SAD because EVERYONE DIED#we didn't get a chance to slow down with the characters and get an update post timeskip#and the timeskip negates everything interesting about lucy (my fave 4evr)#and it changes her from a strong independent character that's scary good at her job because she was a lab baby and trained since birth and#an archetype of character i like in cyberpunk (a character that looks sexy without sexualising themself or getting sexualized by others)#(and in context most people wear something similarly revealing regardless of gender or presentation and modesty is the outlier)#wait i take that back she does flirt with david in her introduction scene. but i think it was done tastefully to show that she's confident#in herself and her abilities. and not in like an i'm hot do what i want way. we see her in the same episode being genuine and vulnerable#on multiple occasions. and then it reveals she was just buying time for her group to ambush him#she's a really interesting and cool character guys i swear#but the timeskip takes that and turns her into a stay at home expecting mother damsel in distress wanting to settle down and start a family#and the domesticity is so disturbing bc its like. i guess she wants to leave the edgerunner life behind to live on the moon.#BUT THAT'S SO MUCH DIFFERENT THAN WHAT THEY DID HERE#she doesn't pass the bechdel test anymore suddenly. who is she#they mischaracterised my blorbo so bad#it's like their writing budget got slashed mid show.
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milkyberryjsk · 6 months ago
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i graduated ^__^
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dailynakaharachuuya · 1 year ago
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(just some thoughts about things, I think its rather long so you don't have to read ❤️❤️)
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privatelife · 10 months ago
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y'all who actually have partners,, what is a text ice breaker to start conversation? im really bad at it 😭
it feels important to note that when we do talk, the conversation flows great we have a nice rapport and complimentary senses of humors it's just starting the conversation that is the problem i think we are both just painfully shy 😔 (and maybe traumatized .)
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natugood · 3 months ago
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make it make sense that I enjoy doing my job (especially the tedious parts) when I am off the clock, but as soon as I am supposed to be working I'd rather be doing LITERALLY anything else????
#like im having so much fun prepping all my TEAMS posts for Monday and doing SLEUTHING to figure out who owns this one meeting rn#but come Monday im gonna whine and groan and try my best to avoid my job as much as is reasonable. like??#and this happens often. I love doing remedial tasks at 2am. plugging shit into the glossaries that I dont care about woooooo hell yeah.#doing a quick audit on Tuesday at 10pm? yes. easy. takes 30 mins at MOST.#but like. ask me to update glossaries or make posts on TEAMS or do adults between 7am and 4:30 pm??? ABSOLUTELY NOT I will drag my FEET#If I really wanna psychoanalyze myself... I think that what's happening is that my work isnt interesting to me and I find it too easy#and really boring. and if im bored and dont care. it HURTS its SO HARD its PAINFUL to drag my brain through the mud to do it#and so I thus hate my job. BUT. the exact work I do for my job is what I ENJOY doing in my real life. I love organizing and scheduling#and prepping and alll that shit. like I work as an admin assistant at my job but like. I LOVE BEING AN ADMINISTRATOR FOR MY REAL LIFE!!#so when im off the clock and im in *sort my life out and prep for the future* mode of COURSE work is fun!! thats how I get my dopamine!!!#but I dont wanna be doing that ALL THE TIME cause like. tbh its kinda a stress response. so like. I want to do work that fills other needs.#I wanna do work that makes me hyperfixate and get super curious and challenges me and makes me think analytically and learn a ton#but my job doesnt do that. and my brain thus sorts the work I get paid to do as work that I do on my own time#thus I am really productive when im off the clock and dont do SHIT during the times I put down on my timesheet that I am working#shit still gets done but like.... at what cost?.#googoogajoob
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kellystar321 · 11 months ago
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siphisket · 6 months ago
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It’s been a little while since I’ve posted about Banesbrook, so I wanna provide a brief update for the lovely folks who have shown interest in our little game.
First of all, Banesbrook is still happening! Since it’s an un-funded hobby project, timelines are a bit tricky to nail down, but all of the art, music, dialogue, and everything are prepped and ready for the Level 1 Demo, and even quite a bit beyond that!
The only thing that’s kept us from publishing the demo for nearly a year now is coding. We’ve hit a ton of road bumps along the way, ranging from irl scheduling conflicts to full-scale data loss, and even a legal scare when a former team member's age came to light. That last obstacle is the latest, and unfortunately, it means that for the second time, we’ll to have to start over the coding from scratch. While this will put us significantly behind schedule, it's important to us that we do not violate child labor law (especially while working on a game containing themes of childhood mistreatment).
Due to irl complications from before this issue came to light, I’ve had to indefinitely step away from the administrative duties involved in running a dev team, but despite everything, our coders have remained dedicated to rebuilding the demo so it doesn’t get fully shelved. It will be very slow going, but it’s going!
And some other good news! Since before we started working together, one of our coders has been working on his own game called Roswell’s Journey, and while I’ve wanted to keep Banesbrook in hobby territory, he went and started his own indie game studio called BitRate Games! Roswell’s Journey is currently in pre-alpha, and folks, this game looks so cool, I seriously can’t wait!
If you’re looking for an upcoming indie game to sink your teeth into, check it out here! (Or wishlist it on Steam!)
TL;DR — Banesbrook will be on the back burner for a while, but one of our amazing coders has an upcoming indie game coming soon, so keep an eye out for Roswell’s Journey!
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theultimatekamehamehavoc · 5 months ago
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so i maaaaaay have fallen deep into spirk suddenly 👉👈 without warning i don't even know how i got here sent help
#havoc updates#no i am no kidding#no worries! this will pass though! i won't forget the other stuff i've been working on. this is just a pattern with me#did not predict this out of all things would happen though#it's not like i'm only now into this btw as i watched the show as a kid. grew up with it even though i had no media literacy at all#everything flew over my head. probably cus it's dialogue heavy and subtext wasn't even close to being in my vocabulary#it's just so strange tho cus it's not like i'm even THAT into it but the old man yaoi's now got me on a bit of a choke hold rn#like damn it! they easily fit in the dynamics i like with characters. they also just have such immaculate dialogue together. peak material#i yearn to write characters with that level of chemistry#also a part of my soul yearns to draw fanart but also like... what would i draw? just them holding hands?? maybe???#i mean... there's no harm in it but also i'm so shy about it atm -///- i've never drawn these two losers before and i'm nervous!!#also it just hit me that all my other interests are either games or animated and this is the only life action show out of them all#think i'm also unsure what to due cus it's been ages since i've touched the franchise as a whole and i'd have to do SO much catch up T-T#the most i remember is that i watched the stuff but not the nitty gritty. also my brain is a bit occupied hyperfocusing on another franchis#soooo yeah... that doesn't help at all. darn you brain! why can't you just hyperfocus on more than one thing at a time!#and why must you suddenly hyperfocus on one thing for a week or a whole month before going back to the same old ;-;#gosh. am blabbering so hard rn. my bad#no clue what this post even is#hope my incoherent ramblings were entertaining for those who read this far :D
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moe-broey · 7 months ago
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I <3 blowing up my save files mid-playthrough or after I've beaten the game and feel aimless or I'm three hours in and incredibly indecisive and perfectionistic and have to start over Better this time or I just get really into One Idea and blow up the save for the sole purpose of achieving the One Idea and once I have it's like. Well. What was the point of that actually. And then I blow it up again
#IDK IDK I FEEL LIKE I'M CURSED.........#i swear to god it all started when i realized i'm transgender. experience that changed me forever#OBVIOUSLY. IN POSITIVE WAYS.#but also i just feel like i'm constantly starting over. i used to have master files.#it was actually such an emotionally fucked up experience i used to write my deadname on the back of my 3ds carts#i used to be ambivalent to my deadname until i felt like i had to prove it to myself. and in doingvthat#i did come to appreciate it and it did feel associated w me. or at least what i was meant to embody.#i was always trying to Prove It. to myself. that if i can Prove It i can make this work and get all i've ever wanted#like love. ect ect#in ways i won't elaborate on my name now does honor my deadname. without really being reflective of it at all#which is exactly what i needed esp at that time in my life. it was SUCH a sudden upheaval.#like all of this i've been burying and stomping out for so many years like. once i finally just allowed myself to question.#and be at peace w it. it just all spilled out full force and like. i think i still experience side effects from it LMFAOOOO#like my save files. being unable to revisit certain games. hell even fe becoming one of my main interests#was a direct side effect of me needing a game where i could be myself and not have any prev memories attached#also just. the fucking type of person i am. guy who loves to leave and start over all the fucking time#but also also like. i think it's just the perfectionism sometimes. like eo2 i'm trying to get my party/lore Just Right#so i can fully immerse myself in it and NOT feel bad. for making any amount of changes to my party 😭#I'M SUCH A SENTIMENTAL BITCH. WHO CAN'T HOLD ONTO ANYTHING. WHO REFUSES TO LET GO. WHAT‼️‼️‼️#and w miitopia it's just. i need to update the artwork here it's insane. i gotta fix this. no one is allowed to see this.#anyways. starting over in miitopia and fixing it. i don't even know what my party is gonna be tbh#i usually plan this shit out but again. deep deep DEEPLY rooted Need to just blow everything up forever.
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avatardoggo · 2 years ago
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soooo i was right 🫠😐🫥 the Friend like likes me and it seems e v e r y o n e around me has known sINCE FEBRUARY
#SO 👏🏾 let’s just let it be known that i’m an Obviously Silly Clown so no one needs to tel me that ik already so i already told y’all how he#said he needed to Talk to me and i was planning on avoiding him but my friends said not to bc it’s not the Adult Thing To Do and he is my#friend and i care about him so it wouldn’t be nice so i didn’t me and my roommate went to dairy queen with him after i finished braiding her#hair so we were getting out the car to go get ready for bible study at church but then he’s all like ‘VK i need to talk to you can you pleas#stay?’ and i was like KAJDJDJFJFJJD NO but on the outside i was such a Normal Girl and was like sure :)) so we’re in the parking lot and i l#left the door open bc i didn’t want to feel claustrophobic but i lied 🤥 and said it was hot so he starts out all like sorry i made you anxio#us by prolonging this talk and i was like lol no it’s fine i was busy with exams and stuff and he just kinda gets quiet and he was like sooo#i like you and i’m like#🤔😃🫠😶🫥😧 processing#and then i was like ok elaborate and he’s like i have feelings for you so i’m SHOOK BC WOWIE ppl aren’t cowards like me cause i could never#and i say well thanks for telling me and i think you’re really brave for that but i’m sorry i don’t feel the same way but i still want to be#friends but if you need space then it’s fine as well and he’s like ya i didn’t expect anything from you i just didn’t want to regret not#saying anything so i was ABOUT TO CRY BC I HAD TO REJECT HIM BC I REALLY DONT HAVE THOSE FEELJNGS FOR HIM so i left and went home and my <3#almost exploded from my chest i was on the verge of a panic attack and i told my roommate and she was LAUGHING BC SHES SUSPECTED HES LIKED#ME SINCE FEBRUARY when he paid for my pizza and aPpArEnTlY hOw He LoOkS aT mE 🙄 WHATEVER#AND THEN I TOLD MY SECOND ROOMMATE AND SHES LIKE O YA IM NOT SURPRISED#so i’m just an oblivious silly goose who doesn’t USE HER BRAIN like kajdjdjhddjd and and now i’m thinking of the things i’ve done that made#him think i like him too like i baker him a pie for his birthday and i just feel silly and need advice if anyone has any but if not it’s fin#just an update on my life if you’re interested#vk overshares in the tags
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