#i think it should be a basic human right for everyone to be baby girl. and if they're afraid to be baby girl they should examine that.

[sciderman]

Sci why is every big male superhero secretly submissive or submissive-leaning? Peter is into Gwen, MJ an Fel, who are assertive, headstrong leading types who treat Pete as a total babygirl. Same with Wolverine who's canon kinky sub. Same for Batman who's main love interest is often canon dominatrix based on her previous work. Superman is into Lois Lane who definetly tops. And there's MORE!

um, well first off, who isn't into that

[foldingfittedsheets]

A basic human skill that people usually lock down around the age of three or four is impulse control. To conceptualize an action and it’s consequences before taking it. Maybe considering how that action affects other people. We then refine it through most of our childhood.

When I was a teenager my hold on this ability became… tenuous. I became a volatile and dangerous creature.

It’s probably not unique to me, but I had a perfect storm in terms of mental upsets. I had just mastered enough basic social skills, so I finally had a strong group of friends when my dad suddenly needed to move for work. Ripped away from my support network, blooming with hormones, I was dragged to Arizona. I was always a child of forests and mist and suddenly everything was hot, dry, and extremely pointy and aggressive.

Additionally to being abruptly transplanted I found myself an object of affection in a way I’d never been before. Lonely and desperate to make friends the only people who wanted to spend time with me had romantic designs. I just wanted to figure out my shit but I had a baby lesbian flirting with increasing aggression in art, a soft boy making heart eyes at me in biology, a senior nerd asking if I wanted to play Halo at his house and could he hold my hand?

Reader, I snapped. I didn’t want this romantic attention but I also didn’t want to be alone. My brain coped the only way it knew how, by simply cutting out decision making. Any action was the right action to take.

It started with the boy in biology. I’d stolen his pencil out of mischief and to my overwhelming fury instead of trying to steal it back he just softened his eyes and chucked me gently under my chin, a gesture so overtly sweet and romantic that I saw red.

I stabbed him with his own pencil.

I honestly and truly have no memory of it. It happened as fast as a snake striking and I was instantly filled with terrified remorse. Unfortunately that manifested as psychotic giggling.

“I’m so sorry, I didn’t- I don’t know why- I’m so sorry!” I said, while hysterically laughing. I ended up having lodged some graphite in his palm and had to tweeze it out with my nails while apologizing furiously. (It’s very important to note here that he forgave me and we’re still friends)

That was weird, I thought. Why didn’t I think before I stabbed someone?

The next event was equally catastrophic, and I had even less reason to do it. In gym with two girls I was tentatively befriending, we were warming up running laps. I started racing one of them. At breakneck speed we were sprinting around the gym.

This time, there was a blip of thought before I fucked up. I should get the other girl! I have no idea why or what the plan was but I turned on a swivel and body checked the other girl. We both fell down in immense pain. I think that’s the moment I broke my tailbone. Her knees were horribly bruised and she looked at me in bewildered pain. “Why did you do that?!”

I had no idea. I apologized and helped her up, both of us hobbling like newborn horses, bruised and hurting.

By this time there’d been enough social upheavals that I was reduced to spending time with some girls I had nothing in common with and low key disliked. Sat at a table listening to this girl talk about how she wanted to be a stripper when she grew up I thought, You’d better put the cap on before you throw it.

I then chucked my empty water bottle directly at her face. It bounced off her forehead with a bop! that would have made a sound mixer weep at its perfection.

All eyes turned to me is startlement. I stared back at her, stunned by my own action, just as confused as everyone else at the table as to why I’d done that. One of the girls to my right said, “Were you trying to hit that fly?”

“Yes!” I lied, “I’m sorry, I thought I could hit the fly!”

Everyone laughed at my antics and I joined in rather than admit I had just chucked something at her for no reason.

Things did start to improve after that. I solidified a friendship with the girl I’d raced (who I developed a massive crush on and ten years later would go on to date). My outbursts turned more whimsical rather than aggressive. Like accosting a girl leaving the cafeteria to look deeply into her eyes and say with great compassion, “It’s going to be alright.”

My new friend and I snuck into the van that delivered our cafeterias baked goods and lay giggling in the back. When I’d impulsively hopped in she’d joined me and made it a game.

After a year in Arizona I broke down crying to my mother, an act of great desperation, and we ended up moving back home. My impulse control returned to normal teenage levels and life resumed in a happier state of mind.

[p0orbaby]

pls katie mccabe x reader where reader is dyslexic?

One Step at a Time

warnings: talks of dyslexia

a/n: I hope this was okay! I don’t have dyslexia myself so I’m hoping I did your request justice

word count: 558

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The door chimed excruciatingly loudly when it opened. Drawing the eyes of most of the patrons to you, triggering an awkward recoil from you at their stares.

It’s like they all knew you were late. Knew why you were late. Which would be impossible, but your mind is telling you otherwise and it makes you feel ten times worse.

Your eyes dance around the place, trying to see past the lingering looks you were getting to find the person you were here for. You find her sitting in the corner, hands wrapped around a humorously large mug. Your shoulders deflate a little when she meets your gaze and smiles.

“Finally decided to grace me with your presence then?” Katie teased when you settled in the seat opposite her.

She was only playing, you knew without a doubt, but your heart sank at the realisation that yet again you’d fallen victim to your own brain all the same.

You began to explain, “I misread the clock, and then there was this unexpected-“

“Baby, we’ve talked about this” she interrupted, her tone gentle but firm. The coffee mug now set on the table so she can take your hands in hers. “You don’t need to explain yourself to me, okay?”

“Sorry” you murmur. Eyes shifting to the table, counting the spilled sugar granules as a means to distract yourself from ridicule.

“Hey, look at me,” Katie instructs. “Y/N��, she says again when you don’t.

You look up finally, though she’s blurry from the tears you didn’t realise were threatening to fall.

“I just… I hate feeling like I’m letting everyone down” you admit. Your voice raw, you felt embarrassed.

The circles Katie was drawing on the back of your hand stop when she reaches for your cheek. Wiping away a single tear that escapes.

“Don’t cry, my brave girl. You’ll get there”. You don’t know what to say, so you shrug as you wallow in your own self pity. “You will, I promise”

“I feel stupid”

Katie’s eyes soften as she hears your frustration. “Stupid? Babe, you’re far from it”

“Only stupid people can’t tell the time” you counter, glad the cafe is loud enough to not hear the crack in your voice.

Katie’s gaze doesn’t waver, “Darlin’, intelligence has nothing to do with reading a clock. You’re exceptionally bright, and everyone has their struggles. It’s what makes us human”

You shake your head, “But it’s such a basic thing. I should be able to do it”

“Basic or not, we all have our challenges. And by the way, only brave souls like you openly confront them” she insists. “Look, you’ve been going to your meetings. We’ve been reading together before bed. If that doesn’t show you’re trying then I don’t know what does”

You glance at her, gratitude in your eyes, “Thanks, Katie” you say with a sigh. Not because you think she’s wrong, because you know she’s right. There’s no need to dwell on something you know you can’t change, but keeping it maintained is the best you can do. And you’re doing it. At least you’re winning at that.

Katie gives you a reassuring smile, “No need for thanks, love. We’re in this together. And remember, progress isn’t always about perfection, it’s about the journey, the effort, and you’re doing wonderfully. I’m so proud of you”

[panlight]

speaking of Bella centric, I personally never understood the justification when defending the writing in BD that the reason the Cullen's seem so chill now with their existence is because Bella being so happy and all "I was born to be a vampire wheee!! :D" is what made them rethink their view on their lives or whatever. ESPECIALLY with Edward and Rosalie. Especially x2 with Rosalie.

It's just doesnt make sense when i look at it outside the Bella bubble. Carlisle kinda made do with himself long time ago, and so did Esme. Emmett is pretty much fine with it. Jasper and Alice are the most "vampire" among them, so they dont really feel bad about missing their humanity and whatnot. To say that it took Bella being high off her overwhelming ecstasy in this new life or whatever she said in one of the chapters (i might be misremembering LOL) to get everyone to be all "see, being a vampire isn't so bad!" screams Main Character Energy.

and it doesn't really resolve Edward's issues with them being soulless? Like if you REALLY want to make a reach and say that he saw that Bella was happy being a vampire to convince him, he has family members who he's known for longer have fun despite their vampirism (see: Emmet). And even on a moral issue, which he's looking at it from, it's as if his concern for Rutabaga and her preference for human blood and having a vampiric diet and lifestyle is now a nonissue SOMEHOW??

As for Rosalie, wasnt one of her main issues not being able to have babies, not being able to see them grow and having grandkids? imo I call bullshit that she's fine with just being aunt to Bella and Edwards kid. it's still not her own kid, said "kid" is growing too fast so she's not able to have a proper mother experience with her anyway. also does smeyer expect me to believe that Rosalie is just happy now settling for crumbs from the brother she butts heads with the most and his girlfriend who was so dismissive of her pain of having no kids? please... 🙄

OMG, yes, this.

The idea that people who have lived as vampires for decades and even CENTURIES in some cases, should instantly reevaluate their feelings about it because one (1) girl who has been a vampire for literally 3.5 months is having a Good Time will never make sense to me.

Of course she's happy??? She knew what she was getting into, she wakes up in a mansion with the man she loves and his supportive family, she gets to keep Jacob and Charlie, she has a daughter and cool cars and nice clothes and a fairytale cottage. She also hasn't been a vampire long enough to experience the ennui of watching the world grow and change while you stay stagnant, she hasn't watched everyone form her youth grow old and die yet.

No one else had anything CLOSE to that experience. PLUS they all HAVE lived long enough to experience being "frozen, never moving forward." Carlisle can go visit London if he wants, but it's not the London he knew anymore.

And yeah, the souls thing is totally unresolved. I mean I think the idea is supposed to be that Edward now thinks he has a soul because how could a soulless monster have created anything so wonderful as Renesmee? And like, I guess. But Esme's open, loving heart wasn't enough to convince him vampires might still have souls? Carlisle's centuries of working as a doctor wasn't enough? This blood-drinking baby is? Renesmee herself kills things and drinks blood and prefers human blood and will age only for 7 years until she, too, becomes "frozen, never moving forward" and no one has a problem with that? Edward and Rosalie are cool with that? Carlisle, who still wonders if turning the others--who were all dying--was the right thing to do or was dooming them, isn't bothered that Nessie is basically 'doomed' from birth? It really does feel like that since Bella is like "phew! I'll get to have her forever!" about it, everyone else has to feel that way, too. By all means love the kid and be happy she's not going to age up to an old woman in 15 years and die, but you can still be concerned about her quality of life.

re: Rosalie, I agree, I don't believe she's going to be content being aunt to this kid, who isn't even really a kid. She skips all the baby milestones and basically doesn't even have much of a childhood. She just taught herself to talk and read and walk and dance all within 2 months. And Rosalie's thing wasn't "I like babies" it was "I want to be a MOTHER." Those are two different things. Bella continually asserts her place as the Mother, Renesmee recognizes her as the Mother, wanting her upon their first meeting even though other people (like Rose) had been caring for her for two days. Rosalie gets to brush her hair and feed her human blood from a bottle and I just don't think that's going to lead to lasting happiness.

I mean if Bella's still blissfully happy in 50 years THEN the Cullens can reasonably take a hard look at themselves and their views of vampirism but she's literally in the honeymoon stage now and her experience was basically as ideal as possible. She picked up her life where she left off; everyone else had to start over.

[muchanmocha]

To be fair, Shine is better than other guardians cuz she's a good pet owner, she treats humans as creatures that need care and love just as much as how in real life, actual pet owners who know how hard taking care of your pets are due to their complex biology and natures

It's dehumanizing to us that she sees her humans as precious pets but they're more like her children, similar to how pet owners call their pets as their kids, though there are differences, taking care of a pet and taking care of a baby requires similar skills and have the same hardships

You can argue that Shine's love towards her humans are abusive in a way since it's similar to helicopter parenting but again she's not a Human so she probably doesn't understand how harmful it is, she might think she's doing a good job cuz she doesn't abuse her humans and actually let them have freedom

Mizi's tragedy was not that she has a loving alien mother, but that she lived in such a good caring family that when she's sent out there cuz she wants to explore the world and spread love, she gets hit with the cruel reality, she couldn't comprehend what she had was Heaven compared to others of her species, it's like a girl who left her perfect home and get fucked over cuz the world isn't kind to anyone

I like to think that maybe Shine does know how bad the pet human system is, but instead of teaching it to her humans, she allowed them to learn it themselves cuz I can imagine even if she tried to communicate it to Mizi, Mizi probably thought "It's fine, I can do it!" Plus if it comes from an alien who's directly responsible for the dehumanization, it wouldn't work that well, I rather they learn it themselves, hell her pet humans might think she's restricting their freedom, it's really a complicated situation and with the fact that she's a transcendental immortal, it's possible that she sees this human slavery issue as another passing thing, maybe this wasn't the first time this happens with these aliens or Shine's species, so Shine thinks that it's not her job to be the Humans' savior, it's their job, I don't think it's that bad that she doesn't involve herself even if she knows it's bad, to a creature that has seen it all, this is probably nothing to her so she left it to her humans, she won't stop but she won't directly help, yes Shine being an observer in all of this might be terrible but then again, everyone should know that aliens or any other species are not tied by our morals or any moral at all, NOT EVERYTHING IS OBLIGED TO DO THE RIGHT THING

To be fair, one seeing Shine as evil cuz she just does nothing even though it's not damaging her in any way and she probably doesn't even get the entire thing, it's like yelling at an ant cuz it bites you even though it clearly doesn't know, will not comprehend or think about your feelings at all, IT'S NATURE, still though I do hate ants when they bite me, really itchy

But I DO LOVE SHINE, honestly lady is a Saint compared to basically any other aliens in this show, I love this fanart so much, baby Luka is better with Shine, than that weird ugly ass fucker Heperu

This is why Alien Stage is a masterpiece, it nails how aliens don't have to be "species we should kill", they're species just like any species that have ever existed on this world

Alien Stage brings up this issue that I always have, is someone a bad creature just because they can't see the bad things they're doing? Should Shine be killed because she's just another one of those evil aliens that harm humans, I believe aliens and humans can live peacefully together, Shine's species seem to be into that, they don't see any difference with humans even though humans are like ants to them but I can't say about the rest of the other species, even Hyuna's guardian, Phan is from a species that literally doesn't give a shit about humans or the human entertainment thing, so yeah that's another diverse aspect

I NEED TO YAP ABOUT ALIEN MOM CUZ SHE REMINDS ME OF MY MUSE OC (not from Alien Stage) WHO IS SUPER SIMILAR TO HER ALMOST LIKE A EQUIVALENT AND SHE'S PINK TOO

Interestingly, I don't think Shine is a helicopter parent! Because Alnst gives us an actual helicopter parent to compare to —

Shine hasn't shown signs of being controlling with Mizi, in fact it's the opposite. If you look at any of Mizi's or Shine's materials, it's consistently only Mizi's will that shows up, not Shine's.

You wanna learn how to sing better and perform on Alien Stage? Here's the best training school in the galaxy.

You wanna dye your hair? Absolutely and here's a new dress to go with it to celebrate you passing the preliminaries.

They seem to spoil Mizi rather which can be its own problematic parenting trait, but Mizi doesn't let it go to her head and I'd like to think Shine is so willing to give her whatever she wants because she doesn't let it go to her head.

The only time we ever see a hint of Shine's own will is:

"A very old and divine being conceived you to me" and "They feel great affection and interest in humans so they adopted Mizi"

"They always sit closest to the stage to cheer her on"

Even Mizi's adoption isn't something Shine does of their own initiative. It's a request from another entity and Shine accepted due to their affection and interest in Mizi.

"Our precious youngest who always brings something new" hhhhhhhhrgghhh

Absolutely the feeling of being doted on by the entire family species.

Tbh I've always seen Shine as a little clumsy but trying their hardest (probably read up allll of those how to take care of your pet-human manuals when she was first adopted) because of Mizi's glasses, which are the wrong prescription.

The glasses were probably the right perscription the first time but never got updated as her eyes got worse because it just slips their mind in the deep sea. Well-meaning but clumsy.

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Also hi thanks Shine adopting Luka is my newest favorite AU wtf is this miracle combination of "can sit for hours without doing anything" x "can sit for hours without getting bored"

[amusingmusie]

More questions about Evie? Ask and you shall receive!

Al and baby Evie. What would that look like? Does he dote on the baby, leave her to Nel, try (and fail) support the demon spawn he brought into the world? Basically, would he be a good father, and does he carry the burden equally?

Honestly, I think Nel would make a pretty great mom seeing as she basically raised Grace from birth, and Grace turned out fine! Nel does seem to have a nasty habit of raising agents of chaos, though. Maybe it wasn't actually Al's fault 🤔

Presuming, once again, that Al was alive for this, does he keep up with his habits? Does being responsible for a child who might cry a lot at night put him at a higher risk of being caught missing, and cut down on the murder time? Or who knows, maybe morals kicked in, and the thought of being caught and leaving Nel alone with a kid was a line not even he would cross (he's a murderer, not a monster).

And what was baby Evie like!!! Quiet baby? Loud baby? A nightmare in private, but an angel in public? She seems like the type to need constant attention.

There have also been a lot of hints that Evie is Violent. Did Nel do a good job instilling fear of the law into her? Or did Evie inherit her father's "hobbies," too?

What about his powers? Is there anything inherent about them that Evie might get? Or would she have needed Al's guidance in order to use her abilities. And if Al was alive, would he have taught her?

Does she have actual friends? I know that Nel is a loner and Al doesn't really care if his "friends" lived or died, but does Evie have any genuine human connection - outside of her arch nemesis ofc (don't tell her I said that). Like a bitch pack or a best friend who roam the school tormenting everyone they meet. Just as a treat.

Also, Roxy: what's her story? Is she a young Nel with a new look and (hopefully) no nicotine addiction? Does she get to have friends?

Let me know if I should break these asks up more in the future to avoid the wall-of-text problem! Once again, don’t feel pressured to answer any of the questions if you don’t want to or if it’s spoiler territory. Take care of yourself! Don't get lost or stolen!!!

YIPPEEEE!!! For pride month I am answering a yummy ask about one of my favorite evil lesbians.

In the little thought-world-brainrot-center I've created for Evie, Alastor isn't exactly around to know about her let alone interact with her. If he WAS around, I mean, he'd try his best to make sure the kid doesn't hurt herself since she is an extension of himself and he appreciates that, but I don't see him being the best dad. Emotional comfort? He doesn't do that. Teaching her to dissect things? Now that he can do!

I actually jokingly refer to an alt timeline in which Nel gets pregnant as "the good ending" because it's the only thing that would stop Alastor's charitable side hobbies in their tracks. Not because he has a change of heart- he just literally cannot find the time for it, and he knows Nel would cave his skull in if she caught him. He'd maybe try sneaking out one (one) night and then the ginger sits up in bed from a dead sleep and just says "fuck. no."...he gets right back in and doesn't sneak out again until Evie is older.

Evie was a pretty good baby! She didn't become an odd little cretin til she could walk, because then baby girl decided she wanted to play in the knife drawer.

She is violent in a way, but she actually takes more after Nel's brand than Alastor's. As weird as she is, and as sweetly as she threatens people, she doesn't resort to violence unless you've fucked with her or someone she cares about. It's that same sort of momma bear mauling-style that Nel has combined with Alastor's lack of remorse/excitement. It's not like she's killed anyone though, or even seriously maimed anyone. She has the capability, but not the urge. I know I jokingly call her an evil lesbian, but she's not actually evil. Just a menace.

I actually have always played around with the idea of Miss Genevieve being very spiritually attuned! I know that the supernatural takes a backseat role in my fic (for now anyway, that'll fucking change soon enough) so for Evie's story, I wanted it to play a much larger role. She's the kind of kid to look at someone and go "March 15th, 1933" and then skip away like it's nothing. Nel got used to it really, really fast. There's more than just her and Evie living in their house, after all. If Al was around, I don't know if he could have helped? I write him as someone who is aware but perhaps not the most integrated into the paranormal world (while alive). He'd definitely find it funny that Evie is though.

Evie has friends, but not close friends. Her story is hard to explain without spoiling my fic so all I can say is that she isn't a loner, but is incredibly lonely at times. Most of her relationships are shallow since she doesn't let others in. While her weird, chaotic nature isn't a front at all, she does rely on it to keep others at arms length if they get too close. She's incredibly popular with people she doesn't know well to the point that she has sort of created a little clique for herself. They don't really see beyond what she shows them. For those she's "closer" to who see her oddities, she uses those oddities and back-handed comments to keep them from getting close. Only Nel and Grace (and eventually Roxxy) are let in.

Roxy my beloved. She's much more than just another Nelly; she actually leans a little opposite to Nel, she's a slacker and usually gets in trouble pretty constantly. She's got a lot of anger from family expectations but she reacted to those expectations completely differently than Miss Penelope did. Roxxy actually has more close friends than Evie. Nobody would really see it unless they saw how fake Evie is with people (Husk would have a field day with that girl).

Thank youuuu for all the questions and I'm sorry it took me a while to answer them!

[rottenstrawberrigirl]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! (No pressure tho)

I didn't have only five answers because I loved thinking about the things that make me happy and happy in a way. I wrote down everything that came to my mind at that moment:

Of course, my husband, Fyodor��😶

To fully understand someone and to be fully understood. It's basically written in my description. Being seen by somebody can feel both frightening and happy at the same time. On the other hand, I enjoy delving into the depths of a person's inner self and their purest thoughts if they would let me. It would touch my heart if they trusted me enough to reveal themselves raw and unprocessed (hopefully, I used the right words). However, of course, nobody would be vulnerable just like that with anyone. It's not easy, and I get it. Still, I think I have this sort of effect on people that makes it possible. Perhaps they sense that I don't mean any harm. I want to help people, not change them in a way that I think is the right choice, but embrace them as the person they already are, acknowledge them, accept them, and love them, help them love what I see. ^^ But also, if they are willing to thrive, be their own authentic selves, and become the best version of themselves they could think of. I will and have helped them achieve that, truthfully and without judgment. The bond I have with those people is always unbreakable. But the problem is that I can't do that for everyone because it takes a massive amount of energy to feel someone, see someone through their eyes. I'm already constantly absorbing the energy of so many things on a daily basis that I almost don't have any left for me. I can say that I have a somewhat different way of dealing with my own issues. So, if this happens and I don't have any energy left to help myself, I can go into a mental downfall, and I may isolate myself from others for a while so that I can recover. I would have appreciated having a special friend, a partner, by my side, with whom I could heal near quickly.

Innocent intimacy. Even though I am a quality-time, acts-of-service kind of girl, I am also big on physical touch (please consider me your teddy bear). It is only reserved for people I feel safe with, though.

Quiet, gentle love. Preferably romantic.

Nature. No explanation is needed; nature is the most beautiful thing. I'd rather struggle to survive in the wilderness than try to fit into societal standards. Seriously, I think we are all doomed and will end up bringing destruction to ourselves and everything else around us due to our selfish, greedy, consuming nature. Even if humans can be adorable sometimes, I'm sure the earth would feel better if we were not in it. We harm like we own it, even if some may deny it.

Art in every form you can imagine.

Concept of life and death. It's very interesting to me.

Sense of security and reassurance. I need to feel safe.

Night sky / Stargazing / Moongazing. I'm nocturnal.

Melancholy. That word is the very definition of I.

Emptiness. If you get it, you get it. Some days, you hate it; others, you find solace in it.

Sunset and sunrise, moonset, and moonrise.

Animals. All of them except for flies and roaches.

Sharks deserve their own special spot cuz they're the coolest for real.

Nice smells.

Shiny, fragile things.

Daydreaming, knowing I am the most delulu person in the room.

Elegance, gracefulness.

Nostalgia.

Positive attention. I was born to be coddled like a baby. 😞

My names. I do like them, but I guess they're not considered aesthetic. So I will stay as Berry.

Justice.

Colors.

A good night's sleep.

Tea. Herbal teas. We should really invent a word like "alcoholic" for tea enjoyers.

Delicious food. Please do not call me a picky eater. I simply know my taste. 😒

Praise. Praise me. I may not show it from outside, but there are actually tiny emotions hopping and dancing in my brain.

Fruits. I have not yet come across one I didn't like.

Purity, innocence (not in that way, tho😕).

Soft textures. Literal heaven.

Water, ocean. And no, it's not because I'm a Pisces.

People who feel.

Money. But I loathe the capitalistic dystopia we live in. I suppose it would be more accurate to say, “the freedom to be able to do, try, and experience what I desire without having to " earn" it,” instead of just replying with “money.”

Traveling, exposure to other cultures, and seeing their perceptions of what art means.

Chestnut ice cream. I would commit heinous crimes to be able to eat it every day. And I would marry you in a heartbeat, devote my whole life to you, worship you if you would keep just feeding me my chestnut ice cream for the rest of my chestnut life. 🥺

Very old houses, dresses, accessories, etc., but never the conditions people used to live in back then.

Writing letters. But I'm collecting them in a box.

Bittersweet tragedies.

Every sun person needs their moon person, but YOU’RE THE SUN. YOU’VE NEVER SEEN THE NIGHT, BUT YOU HEAR ITS SONG FROM THE MORNING BIRDS. WELL, I’M NOT THE MOON; I’M NOT EVEN A STAR, BUT AWAKE AT NIGHT, I’LL BE SINGING TO THE BIRDS.

Maybe I am just a bunch of Mitski lyrics glued together after all.

Honorable mentions:

Humans (Debatable).

[austinslounge]

The PR anon is back.

It genuinely hurts me that some people are so weirded out by Kaia’s nonsense, that they consider leaving the fandom. It’s totally understandable, because it’s seems like Kaia and the shippers are doing everything to spoil anything related to Austin. I actually considered leaving the fandom too not so long ago, at least until Kaia disappears, because the shippers are unbearable. I never used X because of them, they just turned almost every Austin blog into a hellhole. I used to follow Austin’s community on Reddit, but it looks like the shippers have invaded it too. The worst thing is that there are people that don’t like Kaia, but they never write comments, because they get bullied and attacked all the time. Tumblr is a breath of fresh air, honestly. Before I got here, I thought that I was just gaslighting myself and seeing things that weren’t there, because everything about Kaustin is ”totally fine”.

As Austin finishes filming, I can see a lot of people getting anxious about what will happen. I want to say, no matter what happens in the upcoming weeks, Kaustin will end, rest assured. Don’t worry, don’t think about it that much. Austin is a wonderful actor and human being, he will be happy again one day. Don’t listen to anything the shippers say, because they are insane. I think we all should takes notes from Lindsay(lindszeppelin), she is amazing, I wish I had her confidence in the fact that Kaustin is a big scam. I recommend everyone to read her blog, it can actually calm your nerves.

So yeah, if you look at other celebrity couples, you can see that couples that actually last are the minority. Kaustin is not a genuine relationship, no matter what it is, how many pap walks we will have to endure, there is no love in there. If they appear together again soon, just think of it as Austin simply helping a poor nepo baby promote her stuff out of the goodness of his heart(it’s basically what this relationship is, no love, just mutual benefits and promotion). Chances are high that it is just a simple showmance, but even if it is not, this relationship is dead.

Just imagine how fun it will be in the future, when they finally break up, we will look back and laugh at all of this nonsense.

Everything that is happening with Kaustin now has its advantages. It is fun to peak up on all these details and Austin’s constant shade towards Kaia. We are living in the Scooby Doo episode right now.

Austin is amazing, Kaia is not worth abandoning him. She is basically a nobody. We are giving her too much attention, than she actually deserves.

Don’t panic guys, it will end❤️‍🩹

Agree with everything you stated here PR Anon! 😊

I agree. It hurts my heart that some have felt like leaving Austin's fandom due to the Gerber Baby and the shipping nonsense, but I can't force people to stay if they don't want to. People have to do what's right for them.

I do feel that many of us felt gaslit in this fandom in the beginning. It wasn't until I was around other like-minded people that I found online that I realized that we all weren't just imagining things.

Oh, and I totally agree with you about Austin reddit. Ugh 😫 Many fans have been silenced over there. It was unbearable.

As Austin finishes filming, I can see a lot of people getting anxious about what will happen. I want to say, no matter what happens in the upcoming weeks, Kaustin will end, rest assured. Don’t worry, don’t think about it that much.

They most definitely will girl. That's pretty obvious. I actually feel that the less fans pay attention to her, the less frustrated they will be in Austin's fandom.

Austin is a wonderful actor and human being, he will be happy again one day. Don’t listen to anything the shippers say, because they are insane. I think we all should takes notes from Lindsay(lindszeppelin), she is amazing, I wish I had her confidence in the fact that Kaustin is a big scam. I recommend everyone to read her blog, it can actually calm your nerves.

Totally agree! She's always been a champion of the non-shipping side of the fandom, and I always admire those who can be so confident in their convictions, because even I get anxious at times and feel like I can't see an end in sight lol. So it's great that there are blogs out there that help to keep the fandom calm and talk them down from the ledge lol. 😅 We all need it from time to time lol.

Austin is amazing, Kaia is not worth abandoning him. She is basically a nobody. We are giving her too much attention, than she actually deserves.

💯

Let's stop giving this Gerber Baby more power than she deserves. We are fans of Austin. She is a non-factor in the long run.

😅

[littleladymab]

Gen-uary Jubilee - Week 1: Siblings

WOWEE I fully had several other ideas of what i could do for this prompt/this event in general, but then Knight Lite kids took over my brain and I've been thinking about them nonstop since the 1st so HERE WE GO!

This is written for @genuaryjubilee as a part of @ficwip's server events!

Week 1 - Siblings Characters: Bridgette & Bianca Blum (aka our Kay and Guinevere) Project: Knight Lite! Words: 577

And as always shout-outs to @bottlingsound, my fellow knight in crime ;)

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Bianca swings the dagger around with such obvious glee that the smile is almost contagious. 

Almost, if you’re anyone but Bridgette watching her baby sister with a way too sharp blade. Gifted to her by Morgause like some kind of joke between girls. Of sisters left behind by their siblings. 

She should be used to this by now, she thinks. It was inevitable. 

But Kay got her sword from Arthur. It was a whole thing that felt important, because at the time it was just the two of them and it was the sword in the fucking stone. 

Guinevere was never supposed to need a blade. The knights were always her blade. 

“Bridgette, you can’t possibly be thinking about making me give it back,” Bianca says, drawing her out of her thoughts with a frown. 

To be honest, Bridgette had been thinking that, sort of. Only sort of. 

Bianca drops her hands to her sides and Bridgette can’t help the wince at the absolutely awful form her sister has when handling a blade. “Oh come on, everyone else has a sword. This is just a glorified knife.” 

“Don’t let Siobhan hear you say that,” Bridgette snaps despite herself. “That’s not just a knife. That’s Carnwennan, Arthur’s dagger.” She doesn’t add so treat it with some respect, because that’s a Merlin thing to say. And honestly the last thing she wants to do is agree with Merlin right now. “He used it to kill witches.” 

The joy on Bianca’s face twists into something ugly and frustrated. “And we’re up against some witches.” 

That wasn’t exactly what Bridgette had meant by that, but Guinevere understood the message from Kay all the same. 

“We’re up against an asshole human,” she corrects, “who has the backing of some witches. But we got Nimue and Morgause on our side.” 

Bianca grunts, unconvinced. 

So Bridgette has to remind herself not to be Bianca’s older sister right now. She can’t be their parents, and Lord knows that Imogen isn’t stepping up to be a proper caretaker right then because she had gone and performed the transfer that gave the dagger to Bianca in the first place. 

This was all brought on by something beyond their control. The Blums aren’t in the picture right now. It’s Kay teaching her queen how to defend herself the next time she finds herself in a pinch. 

“Alright, missy, I guess it’s up to me to teach you the basics,” Bridgette says and forces the levity she doesn’t quite feel into her voice. 

Bianca’s look is skeptical, so Bridgette does a theatrical roll of her wrist in demonstration. “Dagger form basics.” 

And there’s the unbridled joy back on her sister’s face. “Really?” 

“Really really. You’re more likely to hurt yourself with that than not, and if you master the dagger—” 

“You’ll let me practice with Caliburn?” she asks excitedly and Bridgette can’t suppress the wince. 

“Maybe you can ask Temmy for Galatine again,” she cautions. A sword that makes you invulnerable under sunlight would be a decent enough training sword in SoCal. Not that she thinks Caliburn is dangerous — Liam is really the only one with a truly dangerous sword — but she can’t stop being a big sister long enough to run the risk of seeing Bianca cut herself on a sword. 

Bianca pouts, but it’s the familiar teasing one she’s used to seeing. “Alright, fine. Step one: Daggers. Step two—” 

“Swords,” Bridgette agrees. 

“Step three?” Bianca grins. “Profit!”

[cemeterygirlblogger]

I'm so sick and tired of people pretending that issues like abortion are isolated political issues and can stand on their own as conversation points, like, you can't pick a side on any of these issues because it's morally wrong to pick between women or babies. I stand on the side of women but it's a stupid point of view to tell people to pick a side no matter where you're coming from because the second that the conversation goes from "Do you think women should have the right to abort?" To "Do you support women's rights to kill babies or babies right to live?" You've already lost everyone. To save both lives you would have to pick both but that would be far too layered of an approach for braindead right wing degenerate politicians who are 70+ years old and know nothing about women or children to wrap their brains around. It's like asking someone "If you had to pick between me dying or our baby, who would you pick?" You can't pick either because the baby would be left without a mom and would be unhappy and the dad would be unhappy but if you chose the mom the mom and dad couldn't just "make another one" like people suggest, they would be mourning over their deceased child, so no one is happy. It's messed up and an incorrect approach to both science and societal structure. What ever happened to humanism and caring for facts and reasoning instead of caring about rich politicians who don't care whether you live or die, or a god who doesn't even exist (and if he did, he would not love you like you love him, he would be just like every other man!!) Abortion is a serious topic and I'm tired of people questioning it and acting as if they're "morally above it" or coating the topic in a manipulative garnish in an attempt to further scrutinize women for something that should be no one's business but their own. The media needs to stop demonizing women and as a woman I think the first step in this is overthrowing the patriarchal society by cutting off the support of rich power-hungry misogynistic douches that are revered by teenage boys like Kanye West or The Weeknd. We also need to cut another thing off at the source. Dating. Dating culture all over the world has gotten so toxic that neither party (men or women if we are speaking about heterosexual relationships) are happy with where the dating scene is at. If we want to have rights as women, we need to stop giving men power over us. If we refuse access to our minds and bodies they have no other choice but to either start dating each other, or I hand over the rights we have always deserved. Just remember, your body is a temple and no crusty man who wears the same shirt of Patrick Bateman everyday of the week without washing it or showering and listens to Kendrick Lamar as if he's gospel should EVER have access to your body or be able to take away your freedoms. You are a smart girl and he is a stupid boy with no ambition. Also, your d*ck is basically bigger than his.

[ethernetmeep]

wrote the following april 30th via 19:54 (7:54pm):

it is 03:45. the stars are few & far between, a few if you squint just right. the concrete stairs to the front entrance of the mediocre middle-class house, adorned with halloween decorations, are cold. there’s toilet paper hung along the railing, unsure if an homage to the mummy or something else. there isn’t any fake webbing. instead, there is real webs in the corners of flowers and in between gaps of the stairs. the outside is cold. it is sterile, stagnant, unmoving. two partygoers are in the backyard smoking while the inside blares with orange lights & stereo. halloween themed songs, silhouettes of werewolves & vampires & henry from eraserhead with his bald friend as a matching eraserhead baby. he can’t tell for certain, but someone is likely staring at him through the far left window.

“i should’ve never come to this stupid party,” baphomet murmurs dejectedly. his audience is a girl he barely knows, long dark hair & ache unwavering, like small clusters of ant hills. it makes her human, he thinks, although he quickly realizes he does not actually fully fit the confines of a human being, & likely never will. she fumbles with the injured soft cover of karl marx’s capital in her hands. she is sitting right next to him, but staring at the brick walkway. it is an attempt at comfort via ignorance. baphomet’s lamb mask is off, in the middle of the two figures, a barrier between their worlds. even in the darkness, his puffy eyes & snot are visible.

“how come?” she asks, monotone, eyes glued to the ground. theres a small ant walking in between the brick intersections. their respective shadows stare back.

“because new people are awful! humans are awful. they think they’re being funny when they ask if you BJ’d the person in the corner they know you know is there and know you have turmoil with, they think its funny to see you suffer. they think its funny to be boisterous, to be a comedian. they think putting down other humans makes them better.” he stops abruptly, wiping dribbling snot with his sleeve. she can see this in her peripheral vision, just barely. his face is a scrambled set of puzzle pieces. “they.. they aren’t sincere, and when they are, it just.. is for all the wrong reasons, and..!” baphomet’s voice raises, a bit frail when it does so, raising into an unintelligible noise, akin to a squeak, that seems to fade into the background. his fists are clenched, a mix of rage & deep sorrow. still, he seems adamant on continuing:

“..and they’re awful! and everyone is truly, truly so awful to one another! i hate humanity! i hate everything! i really wish i could mean that! but i’m upset, and so i say i hate everything, but i don’t, not fully,i don’t,” a pig like sniffle, extended longer than necessary, “i.. don’t know what to do. am i— am i overreacting? am i stupid? should i not care about something like that, even for someone that doesn’t deserve it? how do we know who deserves what? i learned everyone deserves basic decency, i was told about the golden rule, so why do i feel stupid for following it? am i supposed to laugh? am i.. supposed to not be considerate? what am i supposed to do, & why does everyone keep telling me its to start being crude? doesn’t that do nothing? isn’t that neutralizing all the good i’ve ever done, by just materializing affairs and making them make me act out in ways no human should have to deal with if able to be helped? what am i supposed to do?”

wind blows. the grass is dead on the lawn in some areas, with other parts moving along to the cardinal direction of the wind’s choice. silence lingers like a third audience member has arrived. baphomet checks to hear if the doors have opened. there is muffled laughing nearby, but no click of a doorframe. the smokers in the backyard are coughing quietly, ripping through the attempts at any chance of true thoughts without interference. the air smells of cheap pumpkin fragrance. there is something on the tip of baphomet’s tongue, but he doesn’t know what it is. there is quiet page shuffling next to him, the girl beside him flipping through from right to left, then left to right, then not at all.

“..are you suffering, sitting right here?” she asks him, head turned to face him, but now focused on his covered knees. it should be obvious, his eyes are leaking with uncomfortable ooze he still hasn’t gotten used to, boogers stain the top of the turtleneck, but he supposes she wants an upfront answer.

“i think.. i’m suffering every day.”

inappropriate snort, one which comes out of the body without even realizing it. she covers her mouth.

“……i am not laughing, i just.. did not expect that. it is true, we are suffering constantly. entropy has increased over the years, and will keep increasing, constantly, unwaveringly, until heat death of the universe. i think we’re all going to be in disorder for a long time, no matter how hard we try not to be.”

“yeah.”

“…”

“…do you want to go home?”

baphomets fingers sink into his uncomfortable black jeans. he looks around, looking into all the windows. a playboy bunny costume, a.. bug? alien? someone with antennae. a short individual. a guy holding a solo cup. a figure, right in the far left, which seems to be the same one from earlier. paranoia creeps up his veins. he turns to face her.

“won’t the cycle of.. of disorder, still continue? if so, then what makes any difference if i stay or go?” he asks her. she isn’t a deity, but anything someone could say would seem like heaven to him right now. pupils dilated. his sincerity in his eyes, even from peripheral blur, is enough to deeply unease her. a stranger, one who doesn’t know her name, is looking at her like she matters. like she is the only living being (?) that matters in a colony of swarming people & oak trees. uneasiness suddenly washes over her face like a tidal wave. bile rises in her mouth. her lip quivers.

“…do you want to go home.” she repeats her question.

he stares at her like she has blood running from her nose.

“..yes.” baphomet mumbles. she shrugs, looking up at his face for only a moment. if she looks any longer, she’s afraid of how it will affect her.

“then, go home.”


baphomet’s legs jitter. uncertain of the physical form he inhabits, he takes an unknown amount of time to stand up, stay standing with his jittering legs, & take a small step. one foot in front of the other. like what humans do. yeah, like what humans do. he continues moving, like humans do, like animals do, until he is sufficiently out of the lawn and in the driveway. his movement is sporadic, arms out like a tightrope dancer. one, two, three, one, seven, three, two, two, one… & he is gone. bushes camouflage where he goes next.

maybe he will take a bus. maybe he knows a guy. she doesn’t know, and she isn’t sure why he chose her in the first place. she stares blankly back at the door. stanislava, the woman awaiting everyone else, is supposed to go through that door. it is her, she guesses.

the night goes on, nevertheless.

[greatwyrmgold]

If you've paid close enough attention to my posts over the past few months, you'll know I've been reading a manga called Insect Girl. And I cannot stand how Juen, the primary villain, has been written.

Juen clearly takes a lot of influence from JJK's Suguru Geto. He's got a power that lets him control mimushi (insect spirits, this manga's supernatural monster), and he aligns himself with mimushi against humanity. And that's not necessarily a bad thing; I like Suguru Geto in concept but have criticisms of how he was handled in practice. Another mangaka taking a crack at a Suguru-Geto-type villain should be cool.

Unfortunately, the author made a Suguru Geto without anything that made Suguru Geto interesting.

The first thing I'd like to talk about is motivation. Before Suguru Geto had that one spoiler thing happen to him, he was motivated by a desire to change human society in a way that his fellow sorcerers would never accept. So he found some powerful cursed spirits who would accept his plan and worked with them. Good foundation.

By contrast, Juen just hates humans, including his own half-mimushi daughter, the titular insect girl. (Quick aside: I wish the Viz translators had translated the "Musume" in the title as "daughter," that would make the series WAY easier to google.) On its own, that's a weak motivation to do anything; it's Saturday-morning-cartoon-villain energy. But it could be saved if Juen had an interesting reason to hate humans.

Unfortunately, the reason is one step removed from "he was cursed to hate humans".

Here's the explanation, quoted straight from chapter 17: "Ever since I was born, because of sorcery or my bloodline, all humans appeared hideous and grotesque." That's basically it. We don't even know why he was cursed that way.

Juen sees all humans as shoggoth-like monsters, but mimushi can be beautiful, especially this one mimushi who looks like a beautiful human woman to him. Okay. And he apparently can't like anything that looks ugly, so he. Kills his family. And tries to kill his daughter right after she's born. Because she's ugly. Shoggoth-ugly, not all-newborn-babies ugly. But still.

That's it?

It's especially painful because the tragic elements of his backstory could have given Juen a solid motivation for hating humans and identifying with mimushi. And maybe that was the mangaka's intent, but the focus on that curse that makes humans look like shoggoths overwhelms the few scraps of more nuanced motivation we get. Especially when Juen nearly kills his newborn baby because she also looks like a shoggoth. But a shoggoth with insect legs instead of tentacles?

And so far, he doesn't have any substantial plots to support his weak motivation. Geto's runs a shrine to collect curses and money from non-sorcerers, and threatens to release thousands of spirits to distract everyone at Jujutsu High so he can sneak in and grab a powerful cursed spirit. Cool!

Juen just kinda barged into a major shrine and fought some guys. He wanted to kidnap his now-tween daughter for some reason. He didn't succeed. He grabbed one human sorcerer, but healed him and let him wander around freely. Not sure what the deal with that is yet.

And since I said Juen doesn't have anything that makes Suguru Geto interesting, I should clarify that that also means cool uses of his power. No Maximum Uzumaki, no cursed technique extraction, no storage and summoning of massive monsters. Heck, Juen can't use his insect sorcery on powerful mimushi, which I guess clarifies that his relationship with that one mimushi he banged is 100% consensual but it's definitely a conceptual nerf. Not that that would be worth mentioning if I didn't start this post by saying Juen lacks every cool thing Geto has.

For a while, I thought the most disappointing thing about Insect Girl would be how little time it spends on Yuren's development from semi-feral mountain child to vaguely sheltered but normal-passing girl. But I think Juen has taken that honor.

[maria-ruta]

i miss ronya she was so cool. how's she doing these days

awww thank you!!! <3 <3 <3

I miss her too UvU

the game ended on moment when all the demons were defeated and sent back to hell (except for Nafanya and Gra'azt, who now became leader of big group of drow and continues to get more drow on his side from Lolth(shes not happy about it lol))

Ronya got married to goblin widow Hikt (they threw the bouket in Sarit's face so hehe he's next lol) and now Ronya is mama of Hikt's kids from her last marrige - one allready young adult goblin booy, little girl, and baby boy (I don't remember where I wrote their names rip OTL)

(this hella cool bugbear design is work of my friend @tench-art)

Mao completelly turned into fairy and only had one year and one day left in mortal plane to live, and after that she will be joining the Wild Hunt

And Chiviss ( @tench-art 's character) became small demigod and now he had his own illithyd ship, his paladin friend Valya(they are in love but very slowburn/akward about it) and clone of human monk Lee who now has to help Chiviss by doing good things and help fixing stuff he fucked up - and Chiviss plans to travel across other worlds on his ship

AND WITH ALL THAT Ronya was left the only one to rule Fort Asshole (Sarit gave it that name and it stuck X'D ) the fort, that became shelter for many many people throghout our game - basically it was like big town or small city at this point

The game ended at Ronya being like "wait so whos gonna take care of the Fort now?"

and everyone were like "well now YOU are the queen of Fort Asshole, Ronya! your responsibility now byeeee"

and Ronya was like "WHAT THE FUCK IM NOT GOOD AT POLITICS AND MENAGMENT SHIT!!! IM GOOD AT CRUSHING DEMONS SKULLS WHAT THE FUCK GUYS"

But I think Ronya will found a union with other leaders of the different groups of citizens of Fort Asshole

such as orcs Hector and Azog, who represent the interests of orcs

myconid Lubomab, who represents the interests of myconids

Ronya herself as leader of goblins and bugbears

and half-orc Lidia, who represents the interests of everyone else and all kinds of minorities

and together they will come up with something X'D how to take care of the city and trading and etc. Fort Asshole became very important trading point, since now it has the big portal cirlce to the surface, while the last city(Malonderit, I cant find how the city should be written right, I only remember how it was pronaunced so eh), that had the portal to the surface - doesnt have it anymore. So yeah, Fort Asshole has all the chances of becoming big city eventually

I know from what our DM said, that at some point other bugbears of the city will become overly proud and will think of themselves more than other species, bc "our leader is so cool! she is the best and the strongest, and everyone else is weak loosers" so Ronya would have to beat some sense into them

she would tell them(more like angrily roar) that she would never get where she is now without help of her friends and comrades (hell she even DIED once and they had to get her ass a new fucking body), that everyone is equal here and that they should stop embarrassing her. And she would also add that its not bugbears who are stronger than everybody but its particularly HER who's stronger than everybody XD and if anyone of those bugbear assholes wants to argue with that - they can challange her to battle in orcs' arena and see if they could win her in wrestling battle. nobody's up for it? theN SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!

ALSO Ronya promissed her wife Hikt that she won't be risking her life as much as she did during demon invasion anymore so I guess her life gets less adventurie now

She would gladly teach kids her knowladge of hunting, tracking, scouting, and nature of underdark in general... when she has time lol, bc being leader is hella busy job (she didn't want it but she was choosen to do it U_U )

(idk what else to add haha you can ask anything specific if you want. but im very pleased you want to know more about Ronya, Thank you)

[thedevilsoftruth]

Haven't posted in a while, but something that was really bugging me a lot was some shit I noticed when rewatching the Moon Knight series that I think a lot of comic book fans could relate to. I know, Mr " um actually " comic book guy is talking right now but imma need you all to bare with me here for a second. and before any of you start typing, please remember everything said here is MY opinion. All I ask is that you're respectful. I'm going to start of with how I don't understand the hype around this motherfucker.

Literally the most whiniest mf in the ENTIRETY of the MCU. The only people who can like or tolerate this bitch are mfs who have 9 hours of daily screen time on TikTok, listen to hyperpop music and think that he's a soft uwu meow meow baby girl hurt emo princess boy.

Moon Knight is literally one of the most metal superheros out there and the directors saw that and said, " now imagine that but we make his woman so much better than him and water him down and completely change his back story and then wipe our asses with it, spit on it and then pretend we were trying to show representation. " Like what the fuck are you fucking doing?

My first problem is that I felt like this show focused too much on Layla and her relationship to Marc... Nvm, Sorry I lied. Not Marc, fucking STEVEN. This show isn't about " Layla ", its about MARC and Steven and JAKE. (I'll talk about Jake later) Like can we just... " Are you an Egyptian superhero? " " I am. 🥺" GIRL BYE 💀💀 this part of this show was so bad it made eternals look good. This was cringe on the level of seeing your mother do a dab. All that episode 6 was about was Layla kicking ass and that's it. I don't understand why Kevin Feige has the urge to make everything about badass women. Like theres ABSOLUTELY nothing wrong with that, I love badass women and we need more women superheros, but I'm just saying, I came here to watch MOON KNIGHT not Layla El-faouly.

So funny how they make a show about Marc Spector and he only gets like 20 minutes out of the 6 hours of the entirety of the show. I think the most time he got on screen was like episode five and maybe two but that's about it. It felt like he was only there to make things depressing and to make Steven Grant have better character development because he himself is just so fucking boring and not funny. Marc Spector is so much more than " I got hit as a kid and my alter ego is fucking my ex wife. " He's a Jewish antihero struggling with a personality disorder that's eating his life away and a toxic relationship with a man who's been basically lying, emotionally abusing, and manipulating him since his CHILDHOOD. What I love most about Marc Spector is that he's not like all other these mighty superheros, he's just some dude. He just some dude with real human struggles like you and me, trying to figure himself out and navigate through his disorder. Marc should have had a bigger role in this show but I guess Steven Grant and Layla were more interesting than him. Steven is the main course, Layla is the desert and Marc is the salad off to the side that's barley been eaten.

Steven Grant is not a shy British man with great manners who works in a gift shop and is giving in his moms flat, he's a savvy millionaire ( who's from Chicago, Illinois, so as Marc and Jake ) who works in the film industry and lives in a mansion. Those are two completely different characters. Everyone that I've seen who's criticized Steven in the slightest has said that he was bland, boring, and the producers were trying too hard to make him funny. You can't try to have something that's just straight up sad happening with a character and then pretend that it's funny and try to make it into comedy. That's just not how it works and it's not realistic. That's why movies like The Crow are good and movies like Renfield are bad. The Crow takes itself seriously and is genuinely sad but lightly sprinkled with comedy, Renfield wanted to be a bit sad, but ruined itself by trying to hard to make every scene funny.

The only good scene in this entire show is the scene where Marc says, " you are you the only real superpower I ever had " or whatever the fuck. I didn't pay attention because all I could think about was the scene from frozen where Anna fucking froze and Elsa cried about it and then unfroze her with her tears or something. I guess her tears must have been really hot.

What I'll give Muhammad Diab credit for is casting. Having Layla be Egyptian is good, and having Oscar Isaac casted as Marc is also really good. Everyone In the comics is white for a character normally centered around Egyptian bullshit. They also got Khonshus personality right and that's about it.

I hate how the producers said that this show was all about " representation" and then didn't add Frenchie, who is a gay french guy in it or Bushman who is a black mercenary because he was " too much like Killmonger " ( which doesn't make any fucking sense because they are drastically different on so many levels but okay. ) they also said that this show is they're most brutal and violent show yet, but they were " violent " ( and bloody-ish ) the first three episodes and then just kinda gave up towards the end.

For the last thing, I'm gonna talk about Jake finally. Just pretend that I'm sighing right now. Like a really audible, dramatic sigh.

I get they wanted for us to differentiate the differences between each personality with accents but Jake doesn't need to speak Spanish. He doesn't speak Spanish in the comics and having him do it is completely unnecessary. I get it's Hollywood and Hollywood needs to make everything sexy and attractive, but Jake Lockley is the least sexiest alter of Marc Spector. He doesn't wear a suit with black leather gloves or drive a limousine, he's a fucking taxi cab driver with a really weird mustache who wears a turtle neck. When I think sexy, I don't think taxi driver. And it ruins the point of Jake Lockley as well because Marc uses Jake to see what's going on on the streets in New York. New York is really busy and crowded, so people are more prone to using a taxi, not a limousine unless you're bougie and rich.

Anyways that was my rant. Good night.

[misrepresentedmorallygrey]

PROPAGANDA

Saix

Ok so his story (chronologically) is that he was trying to save a girl with his best friend and got trapped in a basically-cult at the age of 16. And in this cult he and best friend lost ALL ability to feel emotions. For TEN YEARS. and the whole time he was trying to get closer to cult leader in order to find out about what happened to the girl, and it’s basically saïx and his friend against the entire world. When you (player character) meet him its after those ten years have passed and his best friend regained emotions and left him basically alone in this horrible situation and hes just so angry and betrayed and hes convincing himself that he doesn't care about it and ALSO hes like kinda 50% possessed by the cult leader in a way? and during this segment he’s basically the Worst Guy. Hes aggressive to best friends NEW friends and this leads to him kinda ensuring the destruction of both best friend and his new friends (he intentionally stabs best friend), so yeah. He sucks a lot. But fan interpretations are always “oooh saix did a BAD THING and thats bad so he should be put in a nuclear reactor” which ignores his situation COMPLETELY or theyre like “ooooh hes my precious baby and he was hurt :( he was sad and had no agency whatsoever :( so every character should forgive him immediately” which. Is almost worse tbh because he really did spend a whole game harrasing two 16 year olds for being friends with someone.

Six (long propaganda)

Once again (just like with every morally grey character I think) there's a war between "she's a monster" and "she's an angel".

Six, as a character, is very cool because there's no dialogue or anything in the Little Nightmares games, and a lot of things that are just not showed. The whole point is everyone can have their own interpretations and theories. But Six is just so disrespected by the fandom !

On one side, it's "she's a monster, we hate her, she's selfish and uses people to get what she wants !"

On the other side it's "she's a kid and my favorite character so by default she can't be a bad person, she's actually a sweet and pure angel !"

None of them are right.

For the first ones... Six isn't that much of a monster. And I'm gonna say it : yes, she is a literal kid. That doesn't mean she can't be bad, but she thinks like a kid. She probably cared for Mono before she betrayed him – we can see her trying to help him when he was in the TVs. She probably has a reason why she betrayed him. There's a lot of different theories on that and none of them is more valid than the others because again you're meant to have your own interpretation, so I won't tell any of the popular theories here. You can think she did it for selfish reasons. That doesn't mean she's a literal monster, and that doesn't mean the people who don't think it was selfish are mischaracterizing her.

For the second ones... I don't even know what to tell you. If there's one CLEAR thing in these games, it's that Six is morally grey and could do something scary at any moment. As the player you're literally MEANT to be scared of her and what she could do. In the first game you are meant to slowly realize her hunger isn't human. You can also see how she doesn't try to help any of the kids trapped here, she's just helping herself. In the second one she does scary thing all along the game to keep you scared that she could kill and eat Mono at any time, only for her to betray him in the worst way possible at the end. We don't know her reasons but she still did it.

Six is a morally grey character. She's just a kid trying to survive in a world full of monsters. She's also full of darkness, acts like a creep and eats literal people. You can't say she's "just a monster", the same way you can't say she's "a little angel who did nothing wrong".

(Different Propaganda)The whole thing with Little Nightmares is that the world is terrifying and horrible. It is eat or be eaten in the most literal sense. Six does what she has to to survive. Has she done some bad things? Yes. Was it her fault? …Debatable. But the fandom treats this CHILD like she’s the worst person to ever exist. Like, she’s not even ten years old. She’s a survivor. Mono did plenty of questionable things too, but I’ve never seen anyone hate on him.

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Sins of the Father

Optimus had made many mistakes in his past, and he’s made just as many sacrifices to atone for them. But he may have gotten his second chance to make amends.

--- In their youth, Optimus and Elita-1 decided to take the next step and bring new life into the universe. After He lost his conjux, Optimus didn't feel worthy of being a sire and arranged for their sparkling to go somewhere safe. Stellacycles later, one conversation leads him to look further into Bumblebee's past, seeing too many connections to be a coincidence. Could the scout be his sparkling?

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Other chapters: 2, 3

Chapter 1

“I don’t think the rest of the letters are gonna fit, Sari.” Bulkhead says as the young girl writes in large letters, reaching the end of the card half way through the word ‘father’. “Just write the rest really small and thin, that should do it!” Bumblebee suggests. Humans were very fascinating, in Optimus’ opinion, especially their unique customs. He reflects on this as he watches Sari work on a ‘Father’s Day’ card with Bulkhead and Bumblebee. Cybertronians didn't really have such holidays, so Optimus was glad to see it first hand.

Sari nods and writes the uneven letters. As she studies her handwriting, an inquisitive look crosses her face. “ Hey, do autobots have parents?”

Bulkhead exchanges a look with Bumblebee, “ uh… sometimes? I mean some do, like me, but not everyone does.” He scratches at the back of his helm as he tries to explain. Optimus jumps in “Technically we can, but since the war it’s less common. Most bots were protoforms, including myself, so we don’t have carriers and sires- or mothers and fathers.” Prowl nods in agreement, “I was also a protoform; a lot of them were in military programs as ready made soldiers, you can say.” Ratchet’s optics remained on the datapad. “My folks passed to the well of allsparks a long time ago. They were also medbots; helped me get the training i needed.” “My sire also passed, but my carrier still lives on our old energon farm. I try to send her letters when I can, but they can be slow this far out in space.” Bulkhead adds.

Sari nods, turning towards the scout next to her. “ What about you Bee?

“Huh? Well, I did, but I never met them. Probably also already passed.” “Probably?” Ratchet questioned. “I think so,” Bumblebee explains “I grew up in an orphanage on Iacon, from what I know they took in a lot of sparklings- I think you guys would call them babies- from autobots that offlined. So, I'm guessing they did as well.” “Hm, I think I know which one you're talking about. That place got subsidies from the war effort, and encouraged the kids to enlist when they could.” Ratchet shakes his helm. “Yeah, that sounds about right.” Bumblebee agrees with a shrug. “Well anywho… Sari, what’cha think for the inside of the card?”

As the young girl returns her attention to the paper, Optimus excuses himself before walking to his quarters. The conversation weighs heavy on his processor, dredging up many bad memories. He ventures to his desk, picking through datapads to find the young scout’s file. It contained basic information: he is barely old enough to be out of the academy, has behavioral issues, and is a ‘pint sized soldier that’s a mediocre fighter at best”. Optimus notes that parts of this report were written by Sentinel, so he takes it with some salt, or however the human saying goes. He finds the mandatory background check from the orphanage. The name brings a twinge to his spark, Bumblebee’s assessment had been accurate. Optimus had heard of many recruits putting their young in the home, few were able to return…some unwilling after everything they’d gone through. His optics trail to the photo that collects dust on his desk. A young couple stares back at him, his own young face and the visage of his conjux. There was a time where the thought of not having Elita-1 in his arms seemed like an impossibility. She was someone he’d hoped to spend the rest of their lifecycles with. In their youth they had wanted to take the next step and bring new life into the world. They’d been so excited, and when the time came to hold their sparkling Optimus knew his spark had been stolen once again. The little one had his carrier’s pretty yellow color, and his curious optics, at least according to Elita. Everything was perfect… then they went to Archa Seven. It was supposed to be simple: find an alleged abandoned Decepticon ship. At the time he was most worried about the trouble they might get into with their superiors. Little did he know that would be the last he'd see of Elita… Optimus had made many mistakes in his past, and he’s made just as many sacrifices to atone for them. When he’d returned, he felt lost in his own processor. Drowning in his own grief and guilt. A wedge had formed between him and Sentinel, destroying their friendship, and he buried himself in whatever work he could get. He felt he didn’t deserve to be a sire… so he’d made arrangements for his sparkling to go somewhere safe. An orphanage on Iacon, one he knew received funding and where he knew the little one would be taken care of. And though he’d promised to not look back, it weighed heavy in the back of his processor nearly everyday of his life. He kept telling himself that he’d done what was right. He couldn’t protect his conjux, and he wasn’t going to let himself fail again. His optics lock with Bumblebee’s profile photo, the bright yellow plating searing his processor. The orphanage is the same, and assuming his math is right, so is the scout’s age. Optimus let out a curse as rubs at his faceplate. He knows he can’t jump to any conclusions, and he was most likely looking too much into simple coincidence. He needs to investigate further.