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delusionalmultifandomwriter · 10 months ago

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"bUt whY diDNt ThEy jUst usE tHe eAgeLs tO flY To moUnt dOom? 😂😂😂"

is hands down the most unattractive thing anyone ever asked me

please, this is not a good icebreaker questions when trying to flirt with a nerd

sorry not sorry

#my dating tips #hinge #hinge dating app #please dont be like this #lord of the rings #gandalfs eagels #mount doom #the ring must be destroyed #lotr #this is a thing that happened today #i think im staying single now

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skunkes · 2 months ago

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#ok so i guess this is going to be exactly like a few months ago #where i knew i wanted my surgery but my parents reactions had me crying and seesawing thru my emotions every single day #literally yesterday i was resigned to staying here forever now today im calm and thinking maybe i could and should leave.#<- knowing that ill probably be crying again tomorrow.#dont ever put me in a situation etc etc #im sorry u guys ill make sure to employ the no-personal-posting-after-12-am rule again to ease the insanity on ur dash LOL #i hate that ive already had this much stress put upon me when nothing has even been confirmed. at all.

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strawberrycamel · 4 months ago

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ninjago seabound hurts. so much. what the fuck

#ninjago seabound #i think this might be the thing to get me drawing again #we shall see #also im very close to crying haha #she turned. into the sea. to save him #and like. the city and all their friends too but he was quite literally dying and the only answer was for her to become one with the sea an #and she #and he sees her after having the water taken out of his lungs. he sees her out the window and she sees him and they put their hands on #either side of the glass. and he doesn't yet know what she did. what it would cost #in the fight later. he sees her explode and takes on kalmaar with blind fury #and then she's back- as a dragon now- and she explodes again and comes back as a bigger dragon and #how can he think anything but good things? he knows what she did now but she's so strong. so invincible. ofc she'll overcome the odds #she'll keep herself together! she will. he has to believe that #and then she wins. and its all over. and everyone's saying they'll just have to get used to her watery body for now #until they find a way to turn her back.#she doesn't understand. she doesn't remember who she used to be. is actively losing the battle to retain her self #and they plead. all of her friends. her master. her Brother.#and him. Jay. her boyfriend.#and there's a moment. a single brief moment where she turns back.#she smiles and holds jay's hands. she caresses his cheek.#and just as quick as she came #she left. jay screaming her name as she dives back into the sea #and then the funeral. because what else do you call it but a funeral.#they call all of her friends and family. they pour seawater in an urn. they hold a service of sorts.#and i'd like to imagine each person feels responsible in some way. for not doing more. for not being as convincing to her.#some feel it more than others. Wu is- was her master. Kai her brother.#and Jay. Jay was her-#out of all of them Jay beat himself up the most. because what good is love if you can't convince them to stay?#woah sorry about that i was possessed by angst #also i feel like you could tie in Jay's abandonment issues with his birth parents here if that wasn't clear <3

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wikiangela · 6 months ago

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#just saw like half of a tiktok and the urge to make another vent post....#but i wont i dont wanna get into the discourse lol #all im gonna say is - just bc buck 'likes to fix things' doesnt mean he's gonna drop everything to deal with eddies mess #he has his own life and if he wants to have dinner with his bf after a hard day he can #bobby is with his wife and resting why would buck stick around #and Eddie's situation is not bucks to fix - he was there for support and did what he always does #like yeah eddie is about to lose chris and it's awful but what do you expect buck to do about it??? there's literally nothing he can #why are people now mad that he wasnt with Bobby or Eddie and instead went to have dinner with tommy #and it wasnt ooc imo - this is buck finally thinking of himself and his needs first like he should #he won't always be there to fix things for every single person bc he shouldn't be??#(and imo nothing about the convo was weird or ooc either - maybe rushed but they had a minute lol)#well i guess it did turn into a vent in the tags lmao #im gonna delete this im just sooooo annoyed #tiktok how many times do i have to say i wanna stay off 911tok ugh

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 months ago

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#oh lads. lads. lads. lads. im being sucked back into the world of academia #i dont even kno what happened. a week ago i was crying bc i was like: this is impossible. i simply cannot do this.#and then i went into the lab sunday and miraculously i was able to easily read some papers. like i dont kno how to discribe how baffling it #was. like reading papers is like pulling teeth and this was somehow easy. i think maybe it was bc i let myself get distracted and wander #thru it. and then after that i got so much done this week and i was tired but having fun. and like the thing is: i fucking love evolution #it's like puzzling out the code for life in both a metaphical and literal sense. its fucking incredible. and my project is also very #interesting. if a bit intimidating in its scope. ya kno. just in the way photosynthesis is generally intimidating #but i think i have a strain thats lost chlf which is really interesting and my advisor said we might have the money to try some crispr for #my cyano children. hypothetically. maybe. and i get to do some poking around in genomes. theres so so much to love there #how could i possibly want to do anything else? and yet. and yet. here at the end of the week im so wrung out and i kno i just have to start #again on sunday and i kno im gonna have to step it up in terms of reading if i want to make it through a committee meeting and proposal #defense. not to even mention a comprehensive exam. and what do i get at the end of all this? a lifetime of academia draining my life away.#bc what i do is so academic. so whats the point? its just so frustrating.#and on top of that ive got all this data from my old lab that i kno i have to work on. and i will. i will. but with what time?#anyway the point is. i can see a path forward now where i stay here and decide the pain will be worth it despite not knowing where im going #after that. im just so tried #but right now it feels like im gonna stay until someone kicks me out #but that doesnt exactly make me feel happy. ugh. but if i stay i want to get my old pi to come here and give a seminar. ill warn her how #intimidating the department is tho. we've had 2 talks in the last 2 weeks that were... not good. particularly the one this week #like she couldnt answer a single question they thru at her and didnt seem to kno her data sets. it was hard to watch. anyway. i just want #to see my academic mother again. send me back to the desert! let me rot in a field full of sage #but send me back to the hills of an older mountain range. where i can climb sandstone cliffs and lay in carpets of moss. except i wouldnt do #that bc of all the ticks and threat of lyme disease...#anyway. im still tired. still sad. and there doesnt seem to b a way out #unrelated

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bonestrouslingbones · 3 months ago

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btw one of the things i want to do when i really rap up atbb for real is spontaneously get the energy at will to do actual updated fullbodies of the main 4 since now i actually have the ability to draw them the way they look in my head & have the skills to put some more variety in their shapes. basically i wanna

#warning big character design rambling in these tags but like. were u expecting any less #if ur wondering what changed-#first of all everybody has bigger hands bc i'm actively deciding to commit to that decision because i like it :3 #next russ is a bit taller . i'll probably change some other things like making his armor look more solid & making him look more frail #-without it but i dont wanna pick up my tablet rn so thats all i feel like editing with my mouse lmao #edge has the biggest changes mostly in just being Wider. i want to make him Look stronger yknow #currently its just one of those annoying “skinny anime girl actually has 2d spraypainted abs and can lift a truck” tropes that i Hate #its a lil too many triangles when he should really be more like a triangle-flavored square. yknow #that being said the weirdly feminine hips were not intentional but only time will tell if they make it into the actual final design or not #i will not be making his pauldrons wider than they were originally. those things are already wacking everything around him they're fine #fluff's change is just being a bit skinnier so he looks more pathetic and sad. probably gonna try to make him look a bit younger too #but age is hard to represent with skeletons from The Land Of Sharp Features #i might also change up his pants/shoes more idk. Baggy Everything makes a very difficult silhouette and the boots are just boring tbhh #they're the bi flag but i dont think a single person has ever noticed lmao #and stretch's biggest change is that he's going to Have A Fullbody Reference That Isn't From 2019 #probably make his hoodie longer/looser so i can make the transition to the leggings less awkward & show off his tank under it a bit more #the leggings & sneakers get to stay tho i think. the red wraps the design up well & the chicken legs are funny to me :>#and karma isn't here but he'll probably also get an update to be more square as well. and NOT SKINNYYYYYY #i gotta cram some more emotional repression & inferiority complex hints into his outfit so his post-void look contrasts more its IMPORTANT #AND ALSO NEVER USE UNDERTALE SPRITES AS A REFERENCE FOR ARMOR EVER EVER EVER AGAIN #that being said im really excited to one day finally sit down and draw his post-void design i think i'll have fun with that one #theres a reason my sf bros dont really fit their “roles” in the au yet like undyne & alphys do. hehehe #basically to sum up all these tags: becoming more skilled at art is a curse because you KNOW you can do things better now

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faaun · 3 months ago

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ok let's catch up quickly

#so i went on a few dates w this guy. long hair beautiful face kinda looked like a girl (good) said yes ma'am when i told him to do smth #(also good) film student great at photography including candids. made a sheath of leather for a sword pin i have . et cetera.#he asked to cuddle and i was like iggg and then i felt Nothing and i was like ohhh yh ok ok yep lesbian #like he meets almost all my criteria but. yeahhh no . also at the end of that date he had some weird takes. anyway broke up w him and told #him actually im p sure im a lesbian (again) and he was like yk thats the second time this has happened to me this week but its ok bc ive #fallen for this girl from berlin. and then we cooked together. anyway . met a beautiful butch lowk in love w her. weve been on (1) date.#have two exams in a few days havent studied enough going to like end it all basically. my research partner kicked me off our research #(expected(it was always skinda sketchy)) which was devastating + it happened in a lidl 15 hours into a journey from bordeaux #to go back to the UK. my friends were kinda busy paying for baguettes but also they heard this whole exchange and are kinda mad at him #my friend of 10+ years is coming over in a few days. my evil ex situationship person that i decided to stay friends w because i kept #insisting they are a good friend and not evil and also extremely beautiful? turns out shockingly enough they were evil. tried to fix them #and then i realised due to their entire friendship group being ppl like me (Every Single One of their friends are ppl they met on dating #apps then led on then dumped and proposed staying friends w) and are collectively extremely attracted to them and not over them they #keep validating the most diabolical shit they say/do to hace a chance w them. they broke up w their ex and the way they keep leading #this poor girl on and making her heartbeeak worse and saying that they want more power over her and want her to beg for them back etc...MY #JAW HAD DROPPED esp bc i didnt even know the ex was in the picture BECAUSE ME AND ONE OF OUR FRIENDS (that they also dated) HAD JUSR SLEPT #NAKED TOGETHER IN THEIR BED W THEM. GIRL. anyway that is the least of the diabolical stuff they said but no we are moving onnn #this was b4 the beautiful butch btw. anyways . i have a mitski concert tmrw i think?? idek anymore #i used to have a crush on this guy very briefly and then it disappeared and then i realised if he fundementally changed everything abt #himself then maybe id like him but ofc i didnt tell him that but i still think abt it sometimes but anyway thats irrelevant now bc 99% sure #even if he did id still not find him attractive (lesbianism). please recommend good overnight moisturisers btw i have super dry skin #right. the friend of 10 yrs. we had a hard convo abt why she essentially bullied me in year 8 and it made me highly bitter but i also love #her and ik things are diff now its been like . Many Years . and shes going to stay a while I HAVE TWO EXAMS I DONT HAVE TIME but i love her #its fine. i think i might just switch into medicine and do the whole become a neurosurgeon thing (which was my plan B) bc plan A is looking #kinda impossible rn. I WANNA TALK MORE ABT WHAT THE EX SITUATIONSHIP PERSON SAID but i wont bc i dont wanna be too mean but also . MY GOD #i had a conversation w a philosopher friend about whether i have a moral responsibility to try to fix them bc unleashing this on society #feels wrong and he said 'probably but...run' so yeah im not talking to them atm. second date w beautiful butch on monday btw IDK WHAT TO #WEAR. she said she likes fems. im just gonna wear the shortest ralph lauren skirt i have w the cute leg warmers and hope 4 the best #its 1:15 AM im abt to drink coffee and start studying bc what the FUCK man. also almost finished watching the boys its very good #one of my best friends is struggling rn it is breaking my heart i want to take the burden from her i miss her very much

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messy-nyks · 1 year ago

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The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction - Davor edition

I-I think Ms. Verner doesn't like him...😳

Davor "Dove" Kovač 🐝 RO: Becca Warrick

Personality: cautious // aloof // pessimistic // flirtatious (only towards Becca ...and Reese??) Traits: head // independent // resistance // believer Past affinity: math Primary ability: extrasensory awareness Past susceptibility: forward. 'it’s better to push forward. don’t look back on the past when you have new places to be and things to achieve.' <<< his motto

🕊️ Fernweh: Davor lived a happy life there and didn't think about leaving in the future. Maybe for some trips, but he knew it would always be his place, his safe place... 'It was a mistake to come back here.' - that was his first thought when he tried to fall asleep on the first night in Fernweh. The nightmares came back as he thought they would. He wants to leave as soon as possible because he feels that it is not safe for Becca to be here.

🕊️ Gramps Dan: That was his gramps who taught Davor how to play the guitar. As a young child, Davor always admired him and believed he was the most intelligent person in the world. After the death of his parents and how his grandfather treated him, he was devastated and angry. He wanted answers soo badly but didn't get any. He lived loathing his grandfather ever since. The news of his passing stirred up a lot of negative emotions that Davor had previously managed to suppress. At the beginning of the story he couldn't care less about his grandfather, but because of his journal he started to believe him. Things that his granfather lived through made Davor even more angry at this messy town …but he's willing to forgive his gramps…

🐝 Becca Warrick: It was a ...funny story that brought both of them together and they look after each other ever since. He considers Becca as his precious (not in a negative-possessive way) treasure, he literally can't let anything bad happen to her. That was also she who came up with the nickname 'Dove'... (and she's literally the only person who calls him that, others wouldn't dare...). He had feelings for her for quite some time but didn't act on it... until now. Although he didn't express it, he felt very nervous about Becca being in the town where he grew up. He was curious (but also scared) about what she could think of this town. He felt like he was revealing more of himself to her…. and he forgot about any worries pretty fast, because the town started being weird as fu--.

🕊️ Reese Verner: Back then Davor was quite cheerful and enjoyed competing with Reese regularly. They teased each other a lot. Davor always thought that Reese had a crush on him, was it true tho? donut know, but he certainly had. ...why does he appear in his nightmares? Maybe the crush stage never disappeared...? Seeing him again was a nice experience, sure... but ignoring the circumstances, he is still unsure if it was worth it and is struggling with his thoughts… Would it be worth it to return to Fernweh just to see him... again? welp, good thing he doesn't have to think about it much, am I right?

🕊️ Sofia Dorran: The two of them maybe did not have a strong relationship, but he knew Sofia is the ideal person for engaging in intelligent conversations. He enjoyed spending time with her, solving the puzzles that gramps created for them both. Davor wasn't a fan of fantasy books, but she managed to change his mind about them. Davor knows that Sofia did take good care of his grandfather, but he still doesn't quite know if he's grateful for that or wished she spent her time more... valuably... He was tempted to ask Sofia to borrow that book she found in his grandfather's bedroom, but he thought better of it. It's better to leave Fernweh… Even so, his curiosity wasn't properly fed.

🕊️ James Corvin: Maybe not brothers by blood, but definitely brothers by choice. Davor treated him as if he was the brother he always wanted to have. Back then Davor always placed a high value on his family… until now. At the time, Davor tended to be more impulsive and James was usually the one who kept him from getting into trouble (which often involved Reese). It was really hard, for both of them, to see each other after so long. Their first interaction was pretty awkward... I would even say that most of their interactions were . James noticed how Davor changed the question is: for the better or worse? I don't even know. Everyone can sense, that things around them are different now, and they aren't as close as before. Will it change?

🕊️ Alek Corvin: …To say that Alek wasn't a fan of Davor would be an understatement. Was it because James spent most of his time focusing only on Davor trying to get him out of trouble? Did Alek observe any possessiveness from Davor towards James? Or maybe simply because of the bond between those two, which was truly something that others would envy and desire? Davor never considered it, especially when he left Fernweh permanently. :)) As you can imagine, Alek doesn't seem very happy about Davor's return… But he took an interest in his new friend, Becca, which did not go unnoticed by Davor and he isn't really happy about it.

🕊️ The Waitress: Oh boy, it seems that Davor has taken up a new hobby, which is glaring harshly at the waitress. He finds her mistrustful and he smells trouble. Had they met when he was younger, there may have been a slim chance of them getting along.

🕊️ Waffles!: So um… Davor has a little issue with dogs and because of that his relationship with Waffles isn't as wonderful as I wish it would be... However, I believe that with time and help from Becca, they will eventually become friends.

#actually about his scar i have this whole headcanon... featuring some...umm.. doggos and Becca... 👀 especially how they met #(Davor was always team cats but after that incident even more xD)#also ouch that naming scene it hurt me so much! but i get it ;; aaaa! Davor why are you being so problematic Waffles is wonderful!!!#it was really interesting for me to messing with Davor in nightmares and showing him Reese!! the feelings the emotions aaaa #also yeeaah Davor thought several times if it would be a good idea to come back to Re-- *cough* Fernweh... and then Becca happened...#generally speaking Davor has a keen interest in Slavic mythologies and culture particularly those from western and southern regions of-#-Europe. I imagine that his father has roots in these regions and he took great pride in his heritage. Often taking about it to Davor #...and since Sofia's a smart girl she lent Davor a fantasy book written by Slavic author who took a great inspiration from Slavic myths👼😊#yes it was enough to change Davor's mind about fantasy books XD he never really read one before he just assumed it's BORING!#and now I'm sure he will throw questions at Sofia about this book she found even more since he's staying at Fernweh... I can imagine how-#-they both are staying up late studying it and comparing their notes... it would remind Davor about the time they were kids-#-it seems that his Gramps gave them both the last puzzle to solve... will they succeed?#and ooohh that will be a hard time for James and Davor... that rejection at the end of book one wont help them im sure XD #about Davor's 'possesivenes' over James... Davor was needy that's true but he would never think about 'stealing' James from Alek or-#-'claiming' James belongs to him. I hope im not crossing a line here but in my headcanon Alek was TOTALLY jealous over their friendship #and Alek THOUGHT that Davor was receiving more attention from James 👀#//which obv isn't true because James would never allow it. Alek is always a number one in James' heart//#in mine too I love A!!!! 💖 they're a BABY #but i must say that Davor didn't really think about Alek's feelings back then. he wasn't aware how Alek could feel- that's not an excuse #super curious about book two and how his relationships with every single one of them will develop!!!#fernweh saga #oc: davor kovac #no i totally did NOT change his surname..

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darlin-collins · 7 months ago

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when you realize that you can't remember when you last opened any redacted tags on Ao3:...

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copia · 2 days ago

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this is weird and overly personal but blogging about it anyway. i started a silly project at the end of may this year to exercise every single day (with small exceptions for exams etc) until the first sleep token show - idk why i chose that (i do, it was 'do it for vessel') but having a finite goal is so much easier to work towards than 'i will continue this habit for the rest of my life'. long story short i've done it and i'll continue on even though the first show has passed (do it for papa v this time?) but just saw myself in the mirror in the hotel i'm staying at for the next ritual and jdbdhjdbdj i've got some defined muscle i didn't have this time six months ago thank u vessel

#i don't have a huge mirror in my uni house so didn't notice but. yeah. sorry for rambling about this #just a bit thrilled #of all the great things that becoming a fan of some bands has done for me #this is the most surprising #it's not a crazy schedule btw it's just one thing per day no matter how intense #so could range from a full muay thai class to just walking to campus #it's so much easier than saying #'i will complete this specific exercise every single day no excuses'#because 'do it for vessel' has its limits #so. stayed very flexible but consistent #it wasn't for appearances #genuinely happier with that than i ever have been in my memory #(thanks copia)#just for overall health #and i do feel physically great #mentally better too now that i'm prioritising it #sorry again wow cant shut up #yeah im . jdbdjd :')#been quite a day of doing new things #and it just hit me that i've stayed consistent for 6 months #with visible proof that i didn't intend #and genuinely without a shred of doubt it's all because of vessel #i think i must have seen how healthy he's looking nowadays and thought wow <3 wish that were me #now it's beginning to be #bye to the engineering stick muscles jdbdjdhd

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crazyspookies · 3 days ago

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ill have to look at the thing again but it's frustrating that i finished the episode and didn't quite understand what happened.

#arcane #ill watch it again when im ready obvs but rigth now #the alternate timelines and timeloops have me confused #like older viktor jesus where did he come from is he a different iteration of viktor that stayed hexxed but not machined heralded #when did whatever iteration of him decide to give every iteration of little jayce a rune when did he have the time to do that #im sorry im thtoopid i don't get ittt #i only understand why they didn't blow up cause i saw someone else explain it #ok im thinking about it now this is what im understanding:#wasn't that encounter what fascinated Jacy into wanting to create magic doesn't it mean that the whole machining #would precisely be avoided if that never happened so what is the point of creating that first meeting #(but if hes machine herald wouldn't he be unable to feel it? does he Not become machine heral in those? but jayce's machined corpse #is still on the roof so?? How does normal looking arcane mage viktor happen where does he come from how does he know what to do)#viktor in every timeline where he wins and fuckall years later hes liek ''hmmm don't like that''#so he goes back in time wiht his arcane powers and just gives different runes to jayce to see if something works?#he's known him for years so he kows this is a timeloop so eh only changes that every single rune and sees what happens??#until he gets to the acceleration rune that ekko uses to fuck up time and gives jayce enough time to be liek yo baby don't do this ur perfe #and jayce hugs him and victor is able to see what the world n his life is like in all those other timelines and hes like damn that sucks #and something something about them activating the acceleration + ekko¡s inversion of the rune of his device does some sciency thing #and they shoomp hand in unedited hand out of existence sacrificing themselves so that everything doesnt go boom #still though if jayce Had died in the snow wouldn't all this have been avoided #like sorry honey boo but also deos this mean that viktor is like yeah no im saving him anyway #or does it mean that it being a timeloop it just HAS to happen or the universe blows up or soemthing¿¿¿

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risingsunresistance · 8 days ago

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why have my notes been going nonstop for like a week now on two very old posts... look at my pinned boy

#they are pretty good posts but hey pspsps look at something i actually put effort into. Please OuO. bats my eyelashes at you #slash kidding or whatever but it IS my favorite drawing. at least my favorite that i've finished #i think that wip of the big hog beast is my favorite but it's only half done and might stay that way lol #not a single new follower (i think. unless they were buried) from all these reblogs nature is healing KJFHG #i post whatever and havent even been playing skyblock (i will come crawling back for a substantial content update)#do not show up here 💥💥💥#and i work through smpe's anniversary again so wont be much for that either sorry 😔#chat #im so talkative now that brothership is over WHAT DO I DO NOW...#there are a few sidequests i skipped. might go do those on my older save #wish i could go back to how the world looked before [story events] without going TOO far back #oh well :P

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apathyfairy · 20 days ago

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#today wouldve been my dogs 14th birthday so im like. trying to stay distracted but i just keep thinking like i wouldve been having #a birthday party for him like every single one of my dogs birthdays i literally made them dog cakes and made them wear party hats #just for pictures which he loved actually my other dog hated them but anyway just talking about them like that is making me cry and #anyway i just miss him so much. i miss them so much it's literally killing me even 5 years later #and of course i cant look at any of those pictures anyway so what was the point but. yeah ok i wish i didnt stop typing this bc now #im crying fr and i dont want to i just miss them beyond belief and anyway ok bye.

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minglana · 21 days ago

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people ive gone to school with are literally posting this holy shit

#'the US church'....... girl............#also the fact that an abortion wouldve saved this girl.... she got pregnant at like 16 or 17 and was forced to move #bc her parents didnt want her to abort bc theyre catholic (i think)#now shes literally a stay at home single mom im pretty sure #z xarre

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quietwingsinthesky · 9 months ago

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at some point i am going to have to force even to go back and deal with donna & tentoo & rose & all and everything they ran away from. and that will probably involve them losing tentoo’s chameleon arch watch by giving it back to its rightful owner, whether she chooses to open it or not. and that is. not going to be a very fun or stable time for them.

#this part is v vague and fuzzy because i want to watch the rest of 12 & 13 and finish the doctor/donna specials before i set anything in #stone about it. but i think i need to rearrange some things in the timeline here vis a vis when the doctor is also forced to go back and #deal with his baggage.#i dont think 14 exists in even’s universe for this reason. and for the reason of tentoo kind of taking on his role? the human part of the #doctor who can stay with donna & with rose.#she’s also trans to me because i love trans!tentoo. her name is johanna. i think it’s pretty. i make a singular exception to my rule of #never changing characters names when i trans them.#but i think. what im getting at here is that this cant be a happy ending. not so cleanly. its more bittersweet.#like i think this version of the story. what i have so far. donna does remember. (tentoo doesn’t but that’s because she’s become her own #person. the doctor is who she came from but she isn’t just the doctor anymore.) and rose knows her doctor is out there and loves her but #she has her wife at home.#and even. oh even. you can’t hold onto a heart that’s not yours forever. you have to give it back.#this. i think. is a moment of respite and recovery for the doctor. and a really really low point for even. however this works out.#its not perfect but there’s kindness in it. and there’s a home to go back to. if they can bear it. both of them.#but like i said. this is all preliminary based on what i might play around with here. and how watching more of the show changes my ideas.#but i think. whatever revelations come in 13’s arc. i think in even’s universe they have to come after donna. i’ll find a way to make it #work.#but mostly right now the important thing is forcing even to give up the watch because why would i let them have one single comfort object <3 #dw oc

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comas-are-for-sleeping · 1 month ago

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anyway do u think deadpool and wolverine is on streaming yet i need to find that on a totally legal website soon

as of saturday night IT IS NOT !!! which sucks and they lied

i know it is on the totally legal website soaper.tv or whatever its called ;)

ok coming back to here after writing all the tags thirty tag limit?? that is wild to me i didnt know that existed

#was like surely it is streaming they said beginning of october #so made plans to watch it w two friends #AND IT WASNT #but we still watched it bc we are not quitters 😤#i doubt it has changed in two days #but idk bc i dont have disney plus or prime #loved the rewatch bc i got to notice a bunch of little details #could not tell you what they were now #except wolverine’s brown and yellow suit #which didnt especially stand out to me before bc i had not read any of the comics yet #also just the. when wolverine is like ‘no actually the silence is worse i need to be able to remember’#BC THAT IS LOWKEY SUCH A PLOTPOINT IN ONE OF THE COMIC ARCS IM READING #krakoa and realiving cannot remember the word for that for the life of me #but then when you get RESSURECTED THATS WHAT IT IS i think maybe traumatic stuff becomes less traumatic #and domino is like. i can never die now bc i need this trauma to stay with me since it is such a part of who i am #but then she dies and wolverine is like ‘hey just making sure youre ok with how you are now’#bc he knew (firsthand) how important memory was #and that forgetting the past is often worse than dealing with the pain #and then the tva agent going ‘we cant fix his world bc thats how he became who he is today’ (her wording was perhaps not great but whatevs)#which was ALSO a thing in wtnv recently lmao??#landfill that you cant put tangible objects in #and only memories you want to forget #and then they had a winter… anti-spring cleaning… sale?#where you could take back one memory #and basically it went: person who got rid of every single bad memory now finds the tiniest things (like snow) horrible and scary #and life ruining. so they pick the worst memory to get back #anyway also something something immortality is a curse #ask #pen and ink #sunsetstarving

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