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Don’t let them bury me as someone I’m not.

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“Daydreaming does not enjoy tremendous prestige in our culture, which tends to regard it as unproductive thought. Writers perhaps appreciate its importance better than most, since a fair amount of what they call work consists of little more than daydreaming edited. Yet anyone who reads for pleasure should prize it too, for what is reading a good book but a daydream at second hand? Unlike any other form of thought, daydreaming is its own reward. For regardless of the result (if any), the very process of daydreaming is pleasurable. And, I would guess, is probably a psychological necessity. For isn’t it in our daydreams that we acquire some sense of what we are about? Where we try on futures and practice our voices before committing ourselves to words or deeds? Daydreaming is where we go to cultivate the self, or, more likely, selves, out of the view and earshot of other people.” –Michael Pollan “A Place of My Own”

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Okay about that UERJ entry exam(said BIG exam i was ridiculously unprepared for):

The first round of classifications ended yesterday, and sadly enough I didn’t make it. I actually got 3questions lower than half right, and 6,9/10 on the essay.. having studied, i swear i studied.

“Which for the first time ever doing that kinda exam is not the worst I could’ve done”

Oh well, its the first classification, there are more four reclassifications for that, so there’s still 00000,5% of ridiculous chances i might’ve gotten in. However, knowing that didn’t really do much to stop me crying my eyes out all day cuz- damn! Even if it didn’t really look much like it, i really really really wanted to have gotten in y’know.

So yeah, onward makes me happy enough to forget that for a few moments, forever love this movie.

⭐️🫂⭐️

Its watching onward for the third time of the day, and the seventh in two days, drinking coffee, in the middle of a summer heavy rain, with a BIG college application exam coming up on sunday (which im ridiculously UNPREPARED for, so catch me going at it again next year, even if im going for visual arts) <- let’s NOT START TALKING ABOUT THAT IM GONNA CRY IM STUPID

YEP THAAAT TIME ITS THAT TIME ITS ESCAPISM SEASON ALL YEAR LONG MY FRIEENDS

Just me imagining what would it be like living in New mushroomton being lighfoots next door neighbor, that would be 10000/10 muah 🌟 chef’s kiss

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I will die on the hill that Bohemian Rhapsody was a damn good piece of film.

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Heyllo everybody, it is me back on my usual bullshit, so yea enjoy

But hey is it just me or is anybody else having no clue of what they’re doing rn? Like, many many possibilities, kinda freeing; but none ever that good, most likely

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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I BEG OF YOU PLEASE PLEASE STOP DOING THIS

Ok if tiktok, tumblr, pinterest and overall all my social medias could PLEASE STOP TRYING TO CONVINCE ME IM AUTISTIC?!!! I ALREADY HAVE ADHD AND GAY ITS ALREADY HARD ASF STOP

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Someone over tiktok made this and I unfortunately relate to a painful amount :/ thanks op, this is great ilysm!!

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Its watching onward for the third time of the day, and the seventh in two days, drinking coffee, in the middle of a summer heavy rain, with a BIG college application exam coming up on sunday (which im ridiculously UNPREPARED for, so catch me going at it again next year, even if im going for visual arts) <- let’s NOT START TALKING ABOUT THAT IM GONNA CRY IM STUPID

YEP THAAAT TIME ITS THAT TIME ITS ESCAPISM SEASON ALL YEAR LONG MY FRIEENDS

Just me imagining what would it be like living in New mushroomton being lighfoots next door neighbor, that would be 10000/10 muah 🌟 chef’s kiss

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HE CUTE

i wont him.

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Eddie Munson from stranger things? No. My dnd loving metalhead of choice is Barley Lightfoot,from Onward. Fuck Chris Pratt though.

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Ok if tiktok, tumblr, pinterest and overall all my social medias could PLEASE STOP TRYING TO CONVINCE ME IM AUTISTIC?!!! I ALREADY HAVE ADHD AND GAY ITS ALREADY HARD ASF STOP

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SO, its no mystery or secret that i have chosen the pixar movie onward to be a main hyperfixation for the past (what, its been roughly what.. six, five months??) this movie is a personal favorite. The main comfort media, if you will.

But it has been brought to my attention that lightyear has been released, so i just watched it and yeas im gatekeeping it too,,, comfort movie #2 welcome to andy’s hyperfixation square!

I like buzz! But the main favorite has gotta be the pen guy! And buzz. AND SOX!! Dude spent 62 years on that laptop, and first thing buzz did was break the thing-

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Well done, past me, you got popcorn grease on two lil spots of the leather jacket, good fucking luck w/ figuring that out.

And now onto the movie:

!Spoiler alert be warned read at own risk!

⭐️⭐️⭐️(⭐️?) three (four?) stars-> is my personal score, welcome to my ted talk

So. Hear me out.

One star goes solely (id give it two) for the soundtrack and cinematography imo, the colors got all my attention to the screen, and recognizing most songs has got me feeling happy! It was all really beautiful and bright, thank you very much. I watched the movie with my uncle, the metalhead of the family, and we were thrilled with the soundtrack i mean cmon!! On ragnarok we had Led Zeppelin, and now on love and thunder we’ve got A LOT of guns n roses and weve even got rainbow in the dark (from dio) i also like how they put the fastest ending of November rain in the what, the battle song with the lil punks army? I counted also paradise city, welcome to the jungle, SWEET CHILD O MINE ooooo we got the swweeet guitar solo! (Call me out on being a poser, i just like the song) And cmon thor rocked the metalhead aesthetic, from the start!

The second star is Props to the reliigious and questioning towards believing and not believing in deities, the sense of loneliness of not having your needs met and the absence of a response from the universe (or said deity): both on the early start and towards the ending,(on zeus(personally theykinda painted zeus as an ass, but as a pjo fan i kinda haave to agree just a little bit.)about we only ever reaching out for the gods on times of need and all that) (also, i like the villain, like, i mean he’s not entirely wrong, who’s never wanted to kill the god that’s wronged you, cast the first stone!) I personally really like the dialogue of reasoning the first god gives out to the villain(not yet villain) (btw did we ever learn his name? That’s was not what my focus chosen to latch onto) anyways, i find that dialogue pretty much veeery fitting for an accurate description of a certain popular deity, (some offense intended) also love the questioning at the post credit scene, and ohh boy i need to see how’ll that’ll play itself out.

The third star, maybe a half? Idk! Goes to the constant attempt at representativity (heimdall’s kid, korg[twice], valkyrie(much to nobody’s surprise) zeus? Idk, it was nice, some chemistry between val and jane? Like🤨📸 oh ok jk, i mean, sadly it’s still a long way before its talked about without it being almost exclusively in a comic sense.. we’re still a long way to go, its a start! Nice! Personally identified w heimdalls son offspring? Kid, nice! I like thor as a single dad, i like jane being admitted in valhala(was she there for losing the battle as lady thor or losing the battle against cancer?) either way i like how they showed the side of a cancer patient (personally identified with that, but hey) without painting them as too weak, but like, sick? Idk?? I liked it.

However though, i think this movie went out of marvel’s sad depressing era, with (some may argue what was waay too much) comedy. Comedy, lots of it, even for the thor sequels.. my main problem with that is that I couldn’t grasp at all them, joke after joke after joke (the script also seemed to be a little bit off too.) and personally (spoiler!) i was hoping for more guardians of the galaxy content

That switched up the theme of the movie completely, amd im not a big fan of comedy comedy.

But overall, really nice. A break from the all depressive past series of events. Nice. Liked it. Not the best, but really enjoyable, will absolutely gatekeep. Its a comfort movie now. :)))

On my way to the movies for Thor love and thunder, looking like the supposed (prolly poser alert, because no one is original anymore and neither am i, that’s just how life is) target audience

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On my way to the movies for Thor love and thunder, looking like the supposed (prolly poser alert, because no one is original anymore and neither am i, that’s just how life is) target audience

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Welcome to a ted talk, or just a little bit of rambling. Tw! Kinda downer talk, im just feeling a lotta anxious again.

Ok, so i spend absolutely all day, from 8am to 5pm on a preparatory school: where im studying to get a passing grade on the enem on MED SCHOOL. ON THE MED SCHOOL CLASSROOM. WITH PEOPLE WHO DREAM OF BEING DOCTORS EVER SINCE EVER!

Now. These people are on a completely different level. And have been, every day since I enrolled on January.

Cmon, I’m an adhd idiot and my main ability is to draw or to listen to music and i completely lack all skillset to keep on believing I’m ever gonna be able to ever be in a med school in brazil, FOR FUCKS SAKE i dont think ive ever really dreamed of being a doctor. Maybe, if i ever did, was to get my uncle and aunt’s approval, or for the money.

I guess i just grew up believing i need to do all i can to move out of my parents house, and that ill never survive in art/animation college.

I look around daily and everyone i see is studying hard. And me? Barely anything at all.

Fucking hell . What the fuck am i doing here?

Around these people?

I honestly dont know anymore.

But at least i was able to write an essay on Monday, the first one in five months. Even though i know i wont get the best grade its better knowing that i did something, right?

Small steps.

Small steps.

I hope that one day I’ll wake up happier than now.

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TODAY WE PARTY AGAIN BRO IVE GOTTEN MORE STRAWBERRY PRESERVE!!! IM SO SO SO HAPPY

Today i had literally the best breakfast, with cheese bread, coffee, strawberry preserve and mother’s banana cake⭐️

Hm today I overslept, ate with no hurries, and was half an hour late and still arrived at the same time as the teacher(who’s always late, and omg omg omg the history teacher’s so awesome)