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artsty33 · 3 months ago

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I finished it! I will probably post speedpaint too :)

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vaguely-concerned · 8 months ago

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thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:

the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)

it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.

"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)

as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.

that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.

#tl;dr the demon is a metaphor about dissociation and trauma and it's doing its job thematically fucking pitch perfectly that way the end #dragon age #dragon age: the veilguard #dragon age: the veilguard spoilers #dragon age spoilers #lucanis dellamorte #dragon age meta #this mission is like ds9 the wire in terms of episodes you really can examine from a thousand different angles #and find something new and soulcrushingly sad every time. exactly my kind of episode in other words #whenever people say there's nothing to him but coffee and spite jokes some small part of me goes 'oh I'm so incredibly sorry!#it must be really hard and so impractical to go through life without being able to read :'( get better soon'#is that very nice of me. perhaps not. is the writing here *perfect*? of course not. but some people are also dedicated to being #wilfully blind (presumably b/c they would have preferred to see something else?? idk man)#lucanis' reaction to taash going 'I'm sorry I'm such a bad crow :'('... he could NEVER do what caterina did with him no matter what #you just can't use him like that. he needs the clean family/enemy/contract distinction or you just break him!!!#caterina literally what are you thinking. every day I ask myself this. (probably 'the only other option that keeps the seat in the family #is illario. so that's right out of course' lmao)#god forbid it happen anytime soon if it should happen b/c there's Stuff that needs working through first lol but he'd be such a soft dad

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clumsypuppy · 2 months ago

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someone left me a comment asking abt my pokeask days so....... i drew my old muses ^_^

#if you recognize any of them youve been around A WHILE <- saying this with massive respect #all of these urls are deactivated now from when i did this mass sweep of unused side blogs i had #i think i had one that was a little older than morelulleafeon around 2016ish>?? when sun and moon came out #it was a standard semi daily ask blog featuring the alolan meowth that was newly revealed at the time ;w;#i had more blogs besides these ones but i dont have the pictures anymore or i dont remember what i was trying to do #the extremely short lived ones were when i was trying to do something with ~~ edgy mysterious story~~#with only the vibe in mind and not an actual story or a plan in how i would go about it. i just wanted to try something out of #my comfort zone and bit off more than i could chew lol. ive discovered my way of doing that is more melancholy #and reflective than outright unsettling.. but it taught me smth about myself so thats ok!!!#i feel like i have a better idea of what kind of stories i want to tell and might even say i might have a better grasp on #doing it in the askblog format without constantly thinking about shocking ppl every time i update. which i was annoyed with #myself for even back then. im still working on actually having an ENDING for said stories though bc i suck at finishing things #i do know im definitely doing a pmd story if i ever come back to pokeask because i enjoyed eos THAT MUCH #my art #myart #my oc #oc #pokeask #pokemon ask blog #pkmnask #pokemon #fur

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bittasol · 8 months ago

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smile, iruma! | hey ive been here before

#iruma suzuki #clara valac #azz alice asmodeus #love trio #m!ik #mairimashita! iruma kun #welcome to demon school iruma kun #irumas expression in the first one went through lotsa phases #lotsa extreme frusterated and sickly faces #which felt a little ooc to me cuz irumas someone who smiles in the face of despair #but also we’ve seen iruma at his most frusterated and fed up in reaction to his parents #(at least until kalegos brother told him he was disgusting which btw we should jump him for that)#(and SORTA when gyari calls him ugly but that was less serious lol)#anyway i decided to try going for a very tired forced smile for this #abuse mention #<just in case #to me this is irumas parents presenting iruma to a camera for a family portrait so they can show off their darling little boy to friends #meanwhile darling little boy has been eating trash behind the mall they found him at #so hes tired and hungry cuz the last time he saw em was two months ago otherwise he would have faked it a little better #i think in this moment hes frustrated and a little disgusted by them #enough to almost deny the treats they dangle over him #but rule one (1) is iruma suzuki that cannot say no #im not sure i conveyed the little micro expression kinda frusteration that i wanted to but its close nough #style change for love trio suddenly iruma has lips my bad LOL #suits the theme tho! i think irumas genre; art style; life changes when he met those two #clarazz would hate being compared to irumas dusty ass parents in any way even as foils sorry to them for this post actually 😭#ANYWAY…#did u know love trio have the same smile?#fanart #my art

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demigods-posts · 8 months ago

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me personally. i wouldn't have gone after all the olympians at once. you're biting off more than you can chew here. all you would need to do is take each olympian out one by one. and then convince demigods that once enough people stop believing in a diety, that diety ceases to exist. which is not a lie. and you could use the death of pan to back yourself up. sure, you'd be in it for the long haul. but chess isn't meant to be a quick game.

#sometimes i identify the faults in kronos's plan and think of how i'd do a much better job #kronos did not need to summon an army in five years time #all he needed to do was allow luke monologue about how the gods will be their own undoing #and let luke pretend to almost kill percy in tlt #and then watch as the gods continue to prove luke right through using percy and his friends as pawns #and the gods would have been too caught up in their hubris to realize what was happening #let the gods destroy themselves #and the distrut will grown organically #had they been just a little more patient #this could have worked #albiet it is immoral so...there's that i guess😒😒#percy jackon and the olympians #pjo text post #pjo #pjo headcanon #revolt against the gods #the battle of manhattan #i'd call it “the downfall of olympus” lol #if i had a nickel for everytime i thought of a better plan than kronos #i'd have two nickels #gods what does that say about me?

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short666bread · 9 months ago

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nighttime routine in an au where the marauder’s map has pinch zoom

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3416 · 3 months ago

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every time i see people being like. wow mitch marner has finally gotten the monkey off his back... i can't believe 4 nations cured him. like girl he LEAD THE WHOLE LEAGUE IN PLAYOFF POINTS AFTER ROUND 1 OF 22-23..... HE JUST TIED SUNDIN, CLARK, AND KENNEDY FOR 5TH MOST MULTIPOINT PLAYOFF GAMES IN LEAFS FRACHISE WITH 15 TONIGHT.... just because people cherry pick his stats or refuse to examine the context of leaf playoff runs (like oh idk him playing through a high ankle sprain last year) doesn't mean he's playing some weak timid game he needs to grow out of. it's so tiring lol

#leafs lb #mitch marner #you cant say wow i love what he did tongiht and then ignore all the other times hes done similar things #bc they dont fit in ur perfect window of a Playoff Performer #like . yourre exhausting #i want all of the leafs to be able to do this more games than they dont #its refreshing to start a series like this!!!!#but like... bro's scored goals in the playoffs before. youd think this was his verry first one ever the way ppl infantilize his play #we mostly just need like. better goaltending and more performing like tonight from EVERYONE .... hes not specifically bad lol

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killmymind · 2 months ago

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Conversation is currency Shapes become a language Square eyes and sunglasses Finding faces in the trees

#louis tomlinson #louistomlinsonedit #tomlinsonedits #ok i don't hate this. it's my first time ever doing something like this and i don't think i did thatttt bad hehe #planning on getting better though #and becoming better friends w ps. lol #my stuff #effie talks to the moon

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middle-earth-marauder · 3 months ago

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AKA, no one told shadow babies kick lol (he's gonna blame this on it being sonic's heathen, but really, between the two of them, who regularly uses literally kicking ass as a way to express his feelings???? c'mon shads that lil kicky gremlin is all yours-)

wanted to do something fluffy and quick tonight so here have a sketch of my favorite pregnant dumbass while i convince myself to go back to the comic pages lol

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honeyhobbs · 7 months ago

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Not my usual type of post BUT it's gaz! So

#did i force that voice clip i found from raid in there yes i did.#did i also record gaz's battle rage line from multiplayer yes i did.#there is a FIFTEEN. MINUTE. compilation of Gaz voice lines from raid and boy are some interesting...#i have never really made a legit edit so do not judge me i was sick and on so much cold meds #waves i hope this lived up to your expectations LOL #all this to say sorry i am making gaz edits #i have a whole gaz playlist so yall better hope i dont have too much more free time #kyle gaz garrick #mw2 #that clip where he falls backward while shooting I think about it all the time

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tradingjack · 1 year ago

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citrus trees are odd. like why are they allowed to happen?? wild

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galactaknightyaoi · 8 months ago

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☀️ IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!! 🌙

This is my gift to myself :) I drew my favorite guys ever.

For a while I've been itching to draw the wedding outfits from this post again. I made them up on the fly as I was drawing, but I actually really like how they ended up turning out. They're super cute!! (though, yet again, you can't see almost any part of Dedede's outfit... 💔)

But then I couldn't get it out of my head to make a companion piece for it, with their mirror versions. And so. I did. What they have going on is a little bit messy, though...

Marriage or divorce!! Take your pick.

#kirby #kirby series #meta knight #king dedede #metadede #dark meta knight #shadow dedede #mirror metadede #i do like mirror mtdd. like a lot. but poor planning ahead with hcs and ocs caused them to end up. kind of doomed in my thing lol #maybe i'll go in depth about it one day. as much as i can anyway. i haven't fully figured it out myself #my art #couple details:#mk's tooth gaps are probably one of my favorite parts of his drawing. they're just so cute i'm so glad i knocked his teeth out #while mtdd is on Non Descript Happy Place mirror mtdd is specifically in the dimension mirror level from katam and ktd #just slightly. sparklier and shinier. because that's just how i do things. and without the buildings #i did try to add them but it made everything busier than it already was #mirror mtdd's faces are obscured on purpose but if you look closely you can catch a peek of dmk's expression through his veil #which! it's meant to be kind of like a widow's veil.. symbolism and what not #i couldn't think of what the opposite of a star was so i did hearts (for the plating. cheeks. and pauldrons)#i fucked up the rings.. because i got my lefts and rights confused..#but i kept it Anyway because it looked cool. i'm sorry though it's so annoying once you notice #i still have the flats and a better look at ddd's outfit (and a Little of sddd's face)#so maybe i'll post that later #i think that's about it #i'm 20 today :) sigh. the passage of time #god the way this has been crunched sickens me. don't look closer actually

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royalarchivist · 7 months ago

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Pac: Oh– [Stammers] Why– I have an Ender Flu? I'm shaking! Oh my god.

Tubbo: No, Pac! You've been impregnated! 😫

Pac: IMPREGNATED?!?! Wait, what? 😨

Fit: Oh god. [Laughs] That's a new one.

Tubbo: You're pregnant!

Pac: How?!

Tubbo: I can't believe preggers Pac is on the QSMP!

Pac: Oh my god, I'm so happy! [Laughs]

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Tubbo: This is not what I want! I don't want this!!!

Fit: [Chuckles]

Pac: Oh– [Stammers] Why– I have an Ender Flu? I'm shaking! Oh my god.

Tubbo: No, Pac! You've been impregnated!

Pac: IMPREGNATED?!?! Wait, what?

Fit: Oh god. [Laughs]

Tubbo: You're pregnant!

Pac: How?!

Fit: That's a new one.

Tubbo: Uh oh, I'm about to– I'm about to not be alive much longer.

Pac: How– ahhh!!!! Wait, this is good? [Tubbo gets killed by a mob] Oh my god, Tubbo!

Tubbo: Guys? Preggers Pac, and Fit, help!

Pac: [Reading chat] "Congratulations"? Thanks guys, I didn't know, man! As always.

Fit: [Revives Tubbo] Alright, run! Ok, you're good.

Tubbo: We got his ass!

Pac: Wait, wait– What does it mean like, I'm pregnant? I'm gonna have babies?

Tubbo: It means you're gonna give birth to a beautiful– a beautiful plethora of children!

Pac: Oh my god, not– [unintelligible]

Tubbo: [Still ranting] Merciful, wonderful babies! Babies! Innocent babies will-

Fit: [Laughs] Yeah, what he said.

Tubbo: –will splurt out of you!

Pac: Oh my god. I think I saw like, Foolish having birth the other day, so I–

Fit: [Fighting a mob] Not this thing again!

Pac: Oh my god.

Tubbo: I can't believe preggers Pac is on the QSMP!

Pac: Oh my god, I'm so happy! [Laughs]

Fit: [Laughs]

Tubbo: It's gonna be such a magical time for you!

Pac: Yeah, oh my god, I have been like, dreaming for–

Tubbo: Oh my gosh, oh my gosh. What do you– have you got any names? What are you gonna name it?

Pac: I'm probably gonna name it "Elton" and "John" if I have like, two.

Tubbo: Ohhh! What a beautiful name!

#Pactw #Tubbo #FitMC #QSMP #Morning Crew #September 8 2023 #~36m into Fit's stream | ~ 54:20 into Pac's stream | ~41:45 into Tubbo's stream #Head in my hands this was such a cursed bit every time this happened to anyone #Here's a fun fact for those of you who read the tags I write:#Pac once said he'd love to have twins #It was on October 27 2023 during the Minime arc #Timestamp ~ 1h 56m into Fit's stream (I don't have the timestamp for Pac's stream unfortunately)#Pac says ''I'd love to have twins!'' and then Tubbo says ''I'm fine with one; I'm the reason for the declining birth rate.''#Pftt #I remembered that comment while I was transcribing this and wanted to see if I had it written down anywhere – and I did!#Pac #Fit #Edited #Anyways I can't tell what Pac said after that ''Not'' bit earlier #At first I thought he said ''Not again'' and I had war flashbacks #But no he said something else I just can't tell what #Feel free to let me know what you think he said if you can hear it better!#The Elton John bit was going on earlier too btw Pac didn't just whip that up out of nowhere lol #You can't see it since this is Pac's POV but in Fit's chat someone said ''Mike isn't here you're going to have to help him Fit'' pftt

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phonification · 9 months ago

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old homestuckisms i never crossposted here .. whoopsies

#ok a lot of these i posted only on tt #and some on twt #and some i straight up never did #i need to keep better track of this stuff bluh #ok tag time #diamonds droog #aradia megido #stabdads #yiffany longstocking lalonde harley #jack noir #ms paint #dad crocker #dadroog #homestuck #the comic thing im not sure if i posted it already #sorry if i did #but I always had the hc that yiffy just moved in with jack n ms paint after getting sent to boarding school #jack takes a liking to her because he sees himself in her #I think the original idea was that jack would wake up from a nightmare where he's still bec #and walked into yiffy giving herself a haircut #and he'd just stare at her #and i cant remember what i did after #but here she's just eating leftovers from the pot LOL #the legally obligatory dadroog #of course #that one i remember #it was a twt request #BLUH OK IM OUT #phonification

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thecheesecracker · 3 months ago

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Teeth examination

#gotham 2014 #nygmobblepot #oswald cobblepot #edward nygma #follow up with a tongue examination next lol #airing out my dirty laundry but i really love this kink and i'll draw it at least once for each of my ships #i did it three times here lol #i have a bad habit of erasing drafts as i make edits but i was smarter this time!#i just kept redrawing the same thing thinking i could do better #i couldn't lmaooo #potential regret once i post these #but i may have tired myself out from actually making a final piece #the closest i'm getting to digital art is drawing with my finger on my phone's note app

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turbo-tsundere · 3 months ago

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Gng you MUST draw Kaito I am BEGGINGGGG gang 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Do I? :D Who knows, maybe I might one day. I certainly do have some Kaitos lurking in my neverending wip-stash already.

(No context, but each image is its own thing. Wish I could share more but they're either too messy or half-done, but showing them would kinda spoil the surprise.)

His hair breaks my brain so much. And I keep forgetting his goatee and then wonder for an hour what's off about his face (I have the same issue with Gonta's eyeglasses tho lol)

#turbo-tsun reply #turboarting #kaito momota #momota kaito #gonta gokuhara #gokuhara gonta #(bc OF COURSE he's there who do u think I am :D)#danganronpa #v3 #ndrv3 #anyway no promises #I wouldn't mind getting a commission with him either once/if I finally manage to open them #but I hope it's clear I'm not taking requests. I'm already physically struggling and feeling guilty over my own unfinished wips #even if I manage the guilt part better these days #but it if was just a suggestion without expectations then ye Kaito has a random chance of manifesting under my pen and he did a few times #re third image: Gonta could enter but he won't bc he's too much of a gentleman. that's my interpretation of ch2 events. bc it's funnier #he's like one of those ds3 mobs that can't exit their patrol area and this is why Kaito escaped that's my headcanon lol

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