#i think i did an ok job of getting rid of it tho

[robo-dino-puppy]

let the girl nap

[xxfangirl365xx]

alright kids, gather around. I have some things I'd like to say regarding last night in a very organized list format

OVERALL SHOW THOUGHTS

Overall It was beautiful. I cried watching the stream. But sadly went to bed before it was over because I was feeling very unwell from staying up so late ): I missed blood,I'm not ok and Helena on stream but that's ok <3

MCR5,NEW TOUR?

-Did not expect them to release anything about that last night since it was night one of two. More likely they would do it tonight so I'm holding out hope for tonight since it's the more likely option

SOCIALS/ONLINE PRESENCE/POSTS

-Frank has NOT posted anything regarding MCR only dunes, which is very unlike him. As we know Frank loved MCR to death. He's the no 1 fan of his own band so I find it odd and very intentional that he has not posted anything about MCR at wwwyf only dunes

-along the same lines Mikey has not posted anything. Few weeks ago we got practice from him which was good, but all we have from him r 2 pics of him and his wife which r adorable, but not relating to MCR. also seems a little intentional to not have said anything about them playing at all

-MCR'S socials r DRY like bone dry. With swarm tour they posted things about "tonight were playing in (blank) at (blank time)" or something like that but they didn't post anything about WWWYF apart from when tickets went on sale for both days which is a little odd in my opinion

for all of them the silence seems ominous. Like they r trying to build suspense

OUTFIT'S, STAGE,GEE'S HAIR

-All black outfits head to toe, they looked good but it was very lacking black parade tbh (not a bad thing they looked so cute tho)

-STAGE-

-Only projections of spiders,tree (during cancer),swords,bridge (?),worms (?)

-SPIDERS PROJECTED

-swarm logo=fly

-spiders= eat flies

-"Witch" was leaked earlier this year. Paper kingdom was the album meant to come right after black parade. Their aesthetic kinda similar. Whites,blacks ect.

-some of the visuals like the swords was giving very paper kingdom 100% and if I rly did see a bridge projection in the background that's also very much the vibe. but most this stuff was done in short flashes across the backdrop

-Gee's hair-

-New haircut (stunning btw)

-new era? Gee had changed his hair for new era's. bullets/revenge it stayed pretty much the same apart from random dye jobs here and there but during black parade he got it real short and bleached it. Danger days ht dyed it red. hair is a big thing when it comes to Gee.

-New hair since shrine show (2019) pretty much. He's had long hair since MCR has come back together. U could argue it was to look nice but think about all the other stuff he's done that was also a big deal like umbrella acad final season and stuff. Why didn't he get a haircut then? Why now? and why was he hiding it?

-The last vid we got was earlier in the week the birthday one and he had the long hair still. It was recent like he did this JUST for the shows.

-i'm 100% taking this is a way of moving into a new era for MCR

MERCH

-some people were kinda bummed there was no new cool merch from the festival apart from the DEAD! zip up which is pretty cool ngl

-kinda looked like they were trying to get rid of older stuff before making something new perhaps?

-spending more time and resources on NEW shirts for a NEW album makes more sense than spending all the time and resources on designing new shirts for black parade when they can do that pretty much any time

HOPES FOR TONIGHT'S SHOW

I will not be staying up this time sorry guys. I slept 4 hours last night and feel very unwell from it. So i'll be sleeping tonight sadly but here is my hopes and predictions for tonight.

-MCR will play just like last night with the visuals and stuff but will maybe play one new song or announce it some how with the backdrop and "Paper Kingdom" will be announced to be released on OCT. 31

-Their socials will go live with all the info immediately

-Shortly after the album comes out there will be tour dates announced for spring/summer of 2025 INCLUDING warped tour

-END-

thanks for listening to my rambles if I think of more i'll add it to the list but I wanted a cohesive place to put all my findings and thoughts to share

[hysteriaww]

Hi ! It's going to sound weird but....

How do you think Kai would have influenced Luke's personality if Luke actually won during the merge ?

I know Kai was stronger, but let's say Luke wins.

He was already pretty strong since he was able to break Liv out of the spell she was trying to do. He was stronger than his sister. He would have won if they were to do the merge. I don't exactly remember how powerful he was but I suppose he was fairly quite good with magic.

And magical powers aside, he has quite a strong personality. He's fed up with the Mystic Falls gang bullshit. He was not even that scared of Kai. I mean, he knew his brother was a freaking threat, but he did not hesitate to go on his own and do the merge with Kai. Even when Kai didn't want to do it Luke was like "Hey bitch, you scared I could win ?"

I don't think Luke really thought he could win or maybe he did, anyway he just wanted it to end. He wanted to project his sisters.

So, with Kai's personality inside of him, what would he be like ? I think that guy would at least find a way to end that Gemini tradition crap about the merge, and the lives of the whole coven linked to the leader.

Apart from that I don't know.

That would not be as fun as seeing Kai struggle with new emotions 🤣 but I want to see Luke being even more badass you know.

Yup, really long question sorry not sorry. X)

This is a very interesting question! Tho I have wondered what Jo would be like if she merged w Kai & won, I've never wondered about Luke until now... I think it could be a very compelling arc for him & the gemini coven. Here's what I think would happen! (I wrote a whole ass mini-fanfic in my answer lmfao):

Fresh after the merge: Luke would initially act & feel almost exactly like same old Luke, except maybe he'd rightfully be a bit more grim, traumatized and world-weary after defeating Kai. Liv & Jo would be concerned but he'd tell them not to worry bc he just needs some time to recover & leading the coven rn is more important than his mental health anyway (aka the FIRST Red Flag). Liv & Jo would disagree but let it go for now to avoid stressing him out.

First few months as leader: I think Luke's first order of business would be to undo the damage Joshua did as a terrible coven leader. That might mean overturning fucked up coven laws, etc. but Joshua doesn't like this, so he gets his supporters in the coven to back him & veto Luke's changes. Meanwhile, Luke's own coven support is growing bc I do believe he'd be a MUCH better leader than Joshua, so old man's resentment grows more. Eventually, it reaches a point where Luke feels boxed in like he can't make any real GOOD change bc of Joshua's puppets & THAT is when... the whispers of Kai's voice begin to awaken in Luke's mind. Uh-oh...

Conflict resolution 101: The part of Luke that's in control tries to be diplomatic about getting rid of Joshua's supporters but it just. doesn't. work. The assholes are FLUENT in gemini bureaucracy bc they've been around longer so they outmaneuver Luke constantly. That's when Kai begins suggesting some... less diplomatic solutions, including the idea that Joshua's supporters wouldn't be such a problem if JOSHUA was gone. Luke spends a long time rejecting this & literally warring with himself, so Liv & Jo are like "dude are u ok" and in a moment of weakness he admits his idea about taking joshua out. They're shocked, but after a sec, they're like "wait this is the same man who tried to off his own kids more than once. Uk what? yes lets do it." And suddenly all 3 (ahem, 4) Parker kids are plotting to put dad in a magical coma (hmm does that sound familiar? I wonder which sibling's idea this was...) so he can't influence his supporters anymore. And the siblings succeed! Joshua's out! but it becomes their lil secret, hidden from the coven...

A Good Ol' Frame Job: Lo and behold, Joshua's supporters still stay loyal to the man in a coma instead of Luke! Liv & Jo are like "it's fine luke, dad isn't gonna wake up so eventually they'll have no choice but to listen to you" but KAI isn't convinced... and neither is Luke. Diplomacy didn't work, sleeping beauty-ing joshua didn't work, so now he needs to play dirty. He doesn't jump to violence or anything - he simply frames a few of them for crimes they didn't commit. Snakey, but simple. Only problem is... Luke can't recall if this idea was his own, or Kai's...... bc they're both equally likely to have thought of it. Kai's influence is growing... So when Jo & Liv come to him like "wow crazy how those supporters got revealed as criminals right? That worked out conveniently," Luke goes w the safest option & says "haaa yea what a coincidence! no idea how that happened" ......and now he's lying to his sisters (Big Red Flag #2)

Calm before the storm: Now that joshua's remaining supporters (who haven't been framed) are very few, Luke doesn't face much resistance anymore & he actually succeeds at reforming a lot of fucked up gemini practices & making positive change. Maybe he even succeeds at eliminating the merge altogether! Luke's flying high, believing he's a true protector of the geminis & the best leader and savior (which, to be fair, he rly is better than the shitty leaders before him)! Kai's influence here is very sneaky bc some of Luke's old sense of humor comes back to him, with some new hints of cockiness that weren't there before. Luke's golden boy charm & Kai's cockiness creates the perfect politician cocktail & liv and jo appreciate the good he's done for geminis but also lowkey resent the big-headed self-important persona he's growing.

But THEN there's trouble in paradise: joshua's leftover supporters find a piece of evidence that proves Luke framed the others & they threaten Luke w it, deducing that he also had smthg to do w Joshua's coma. They order him to step down but he can't do that. Not now, when he's finally *this* close to changing the coven for good! These pricks will wake joshua & bring the old laws back! No, he can't let that happen, he can't let it- ....Luke snaps. He blacks out, then wakes up in horror to realize he violently killed. them. all. He panics, calling Jo & Liv for help BUT to cover his ass, he lies & says he had to kill them bc they found out about "all 3 of them" cursing Joshua... while choosing not to mention how they also discovered his frame jobs. Liv & Jo are horrified yet they help him cover this up bc he's falsely led them to believe their asses are also on the line for cursing joshua... but then Jo notices some of them were killed in very "Kai" ways (bled to death from their spleens getting cut out, etc.) & Liv finds the piece of evidence they had that links Luke to the frame jobs...... the 2 of them realize Luke is not in control anymore.

The Climax: Liv & Jo confront Luke, asking him to step down but warning him that they'll MAKE him if he doesn't agree. He doesn't agree. A fight ensues & Luke is pretty OP despite the 2 v. 1. Luke gets *this* close to killing them (while Kai cheers him on), but then says SIKE and kills JOSHUA's comatose body instead, shocking everyone. Jo, Liv AND Kai are like "wha- why?!" & Luke the politician diabolically reveals that he can't bring himself to kill them - but he can frame them for Joshua's death & turn the coven against them.... OR he can frame the dead supporters for Joshua's death & save his sisters, IF Liv & Jo stay loyal to his cause. At this ultimatum, Jo & Liv finally give up, saying they'd rather get framed or killed than let him rule the coven like this. The Kai in Luke gets triggered by their abandonment bc he's a gOoD LEADER can't u SEE?! Kai's increased presence & Luke's increased lack of control make his SIPHONING manifest for the first time & he unintentionally starts siphoning the sisters. And Luke gets triggered by them trying to overthrow him bc he's the OnLy one who can PROTECT the coven!! Just like he protected Jo & Liv from Kai!! At this point the sisters' resentment RLY comes out like "WE DIDNT ASK YOU TO!! YOU chose to merge to protect us WITHOUT ASKING what WE wanted!! U literally knocked out Jo when she was ABOUT to merge! You protected us bc that's what U wanted, not US. And now the coven doesn't need to be protected BY you anymore, it needs to be protected FROM you!!" Like a bucket of ice water, Luke realizes he's siphoning his sisters rn. He has become Kai. They're right. He is not in control anymore. He steps away & realizes the whole coven itself is broken. The best way to save it is to take the ruling family nonsense out of it & free everyone. He agrees to step down & Jo & Liv help him break the coven link altogether and they free the coven! For a moment, it seems like Kai is going to stop them, but then even the Kai in his mind realizes the coven fucked him over his whole life & he'd much rather see it gone. So all 4 kids unite in Sibling Solidarity and liberate the coven!

Epilogue: Luke gets therapy & that means Kai begrudgingly gets it too bc he's stuck in luke's head. They both start healing & finding a medium ground of how to share space in luke's head. Kai even uses Luke to apologize to Liv & Jo for his own crimes. I'd like to think he'd even get Luke to go to Bonnie and apologize on his behalf & maybe help her out whenever he can, tho i don't think it would be sexual, bc in canon the merge didn't change kai's sexuality so i doubt it would change luke's. But yea I think bonnie would still at least have a new ally in luke thanks to the Kai in him xD

THE END lol I hope my impromptu mini-fanfic here answered your question ahaahaha thank you for asking!!!

[runescrepes]

no one cares but i must share my thoughts on momo and zuma cause ik they will be misinterpreted!!!

(ship them if you want tho, it’s you’re life and the ship is very cute and wholesome)

spoilers for the manga below the break

ok, so.

off the bat we’re shown what kinda relationship dynamic momo and zuma have. it’s lighthearted, they’re both smart yet are sharing two brain cells, it’s super funny and wholesome honestly. it’s cool seeing momo having to work without the help of okarun as her right hand too.

firstly, i think this arc does a great job of showcasing momo’s actual feelings towards okarun. no one is disagreeing that she has feelings towards him, but you really see just how much she thinks about him the whole time she’s stuck in danmara.

there’s even this clever transition to show she’s dreaming of him

now that that’s established, let’s talk about the inn scene itself.

when they arrive they realize they have to share a bed, a common romance trope that i’m sure tatsu put there on purpose.

like all of tatsu’s romance red herrings, we’re lead a bit to believe they’ll actually share the bed. however, zuma quickly brushes that idea aside by telling momo she can have the “first shift” of sleep, while he waits in the hall.

this scene is mirrored when momo says zuma can shower and have the first shift, while she waits in the hall.

i feel this is meant to establish a few things about their relationship. one, it’s meant to place them on a even playing field. they’re both being respectful to one another and are total strangers having to work together. we see zuma outwardly slap his face to clear his head. i think this is less like okarun telling himself not to think momo is cute, and more like zuma ridding himself of some lingering nerves about the situation. i think momo was feeling the same, she just didn’t react in the way zuma did. either way, they both seem to calm each other by saying the other will wait outside, making them both say “cool” to themselves.

afterwards, zuma comes to get momo to sleep the first shift, helping her to the bed, where she says this in her half-sleep fog

interestingly this is zuma’s reaction

this is where i think a lot of people get the wrong idea of zuma’s or even momo’s feelings.

after hearing her say that, he tucks her in and sits outside the room to give her privacy, but also to think. once again i think this particular scene is meant to mirror momo sitting outside the room thinking of okarun. only instead of zuma thinking of the boy he likes, its the family he lost. his brother. perhaps he’s even thinking about his adoptive father, officer bega. momo was more than likely dreaming of okarun, so when zuma helped her into bed she may have mistaken zuma for him.

zuma, on the other hand, has that reaction because it reminded him of his family, more likely his little brother. how many times did he help his brother to bed, having to tuck him in so he wouldn’t fall asleep out of bed? did his brother ever ask him to say “i love you” when their dad passed and he wanted his big brother to comfort him? or maybe his mom did dreaming of her late husband.

i’ll continue in my roblog bc i can’t add more pics over mobile haha

[libraryspectre]

Alright! Hitting play on 12 Pups of Christmas. Thank y'all for choosing a movie where at least there are cute puppies to look at.

Once again, I'm gonna pin this post and edit it throughout with my updates.

Let's go 🙃

Gonna keep a cute dog count below and update every time I edit

Final cute dog count: 19

This got long so it's under the readmore

My first thought: I need new glasses.

I would almost rather watch this perfume add of this woman with a hawk on a boat, but I think I'd rather watch the movie instead of the insurance and cell service commercials

Ok right off the bat the opening credits are in the font Curlz and in bright green with a red shadow, it's an eyestrain and borderline unreadable

Is she like, a pet therapist??? She is. That's a cool job but apparently she's leaving it to get married.

Ok one thing I noticed from the trailer is that the way they've styled the MC is terrible, her hair is in kind of a messy ponytail but not in a way that looks fashionable or like a comment on her character. And her makeup is just not playing well on camera.

I thought the MC was just speaking so quietly and low-energy because she was in session with clients but she's still speaking suuuper softly I can barely hear her

The movie actually opens on Thanksgiving and she's spending it with her fiance and a random female friend and it's obvious that them two are together and he's waiting until after dinner to break off the engagement. Which. Is really messed up. Does the friend have to be here for this.

Wait she's leaving to be a dog therapist for a tech company that makes those chips to track your dog. Why would they need that (edit: theyre gps collars actually)

WAIT they're going through with the wedding despite how incredibly weird he's been acting. It's genuinely not believable that she doesn't seem to suspect anything

He's breaking it off at the courthouse steps ohhhhhhh my gosh she just had a flashback to the friend with literally reet-reet music like she shower scene in psycho AND THE FRIEND IS THERE? DID THEY PLAN THIS? WHY DID THEY DO THIS HERE? Anyway one of the things the friend said in the flashback was just "coffee's ready!" Like they didnt have enough lines of her saying anything sus so they just threw that in

She keeps randomly screaming certain lines and it Does Not work

"We could be mr and mrs kringle" normal thing to say to a random santa in an elevator. She didnt say it in a jokey way either, with this quiet mumbly thing she has going on it came off very.....sultry?

I'm noticing all the women's eyebrows have been plucked to oblivion. She's at her new job btw

Ohhhhh puppies cute puppies sweet sweet babies soooo precious

Her first job is to get rid of 12 puppies that have been left behind "by an incompetent add agency after a photoshoot" (why was the photoshoot happening in their office?) (WHY CANT THEY CALL THE AGENCY AND TELL THEM TO COME GET THEIR PUPPIES) And if she doesnt find them homes before Christmas her dog-hating boss is gonna take them to a shelter where they will be KILLED he says

Why is he in this business if he hates dogs? She asks him in the writer's attempt to lampshade this but he doesn't actually give an answer

They're carrying the puppies in very photogenic wicker baskets lined with red blankets as if anyone has ever carried a litter of puppies in anything but a laundry basket lined with the oldest fleece blanket they could find

The puppies are soooo cute tho

All the employees live in the same apartment building and the boss's sister (who also works there) keeps pulling the "we're all family!" But the MC seems to believe it? And now theyre at a company Christmas party and other employees keep saying it too? Girl this is a CULT

Ok ok verbatim: "That's great to hear, my family has passed on, so it's nice to be with living people. And call them family." WHO WROTE THIS

This guy's cats are named Franny and Zooey because the writer wants you to know they've read, what is that, Salinger?

As they start singing jingle bells she says "i know this one!" And "i love this family!" This was written by aliens

Uuuuugh all the culty we're a family over-the-top cheeriness is so bizarre and offputting and it's so much WORSE because she's buying into it!

She's telling her boss the collars are too big and he's like "we just don't have the tech to make them smaller" which, this is 2019 that's not believable and when she tells him this he's like "you're right, we SHOULD be able to make this smaller" help.??? You didnt question why these things needed to be a brick until a doggy therapist gives you just a little pushback? No wonder the company is in trouble

"Calm down, it's just a teapot," she says to perfectly calm puppies. "Quiet, there's someone at the door," she says to perfectly quiet puppies.

Her boss is going with her to take the first puppy to its home and she just tells him??? That they want a puppy because they cant have children???? Right in front of them???? Why does she even know that

Lmao I already kind of suspected the boss is actually a British guy doing an American accent and he just closed the car door for her and then walked around to the wrong side of the car to get in the driver's seat. And they kept it in for some reason. Edit: LOL according to imdb he's from Waxahachie, Tx (I know that place) so that explains his inconsistent accent and and overly careful pronunciation of certain vowels. It does not explain why he tried to get in the wrong side of the car to drive

Same elevator santa and she's, like, razzing him for no reason?

They're changing the name of the company to Animal Tracker and everyone is like wow thats soooo good it sounds kind of like animal cracker

Now that I know the boss is from Texas I can hear exactly where his accent is slipping. It's worse when he's emotional or yelling (same).

Ok here we go finding out about his dog-related trauma, which is: his dog ran away on Christmas. Which is sad but OHHHH MY GOSH ok two things just happened in quick succession 1) he came out of that flashback with theee most agressive wooshing noise and 2) he went directly from telling his childhood trauma to leaning in for a kiss apropos of nothing and made THE WEIRDEST FACE??? the fact i cant screencap this is killing me i might just take a pic of the tv screen.

Ok that's not gonna work youre gonna have to trust me that it was bizarre

He's now dropped any attempt at an accent to the point that I'm doubting he ever sounded non-regional in the first place, but I think the difference is that when he's trying to appear more personable and softer he drops back into it

"Ah grew up in Conneticut" sure you did.

She just randomly let slip that she knows he is the elevator Santa she's been harassing and they just??? Moved on from it?? With no explanation?

"You have got to be kidding me" she says upon seeing the penthouse hotel room she's staying in on this business trip except it's genuinely less nice than her apartment

Ok calling each other from different hotel rooms and then realizing you're watching the same movie is a very cute setup for "why dont you come watch this with me oops we spent the night together" but that is not what they did, instead he randomly confessed to falling in love with her over the phone and it sucked. Genuinely that could have been cute and they ruined it

They did end up spending the night together tho which is what distinguishes these from real Hallmark movies which are completely sexless.

Ex-fiance just appeared with the Psycho shower noise again. Why are they making it sound like he's gonna murder her

Ohhh this is the scene from the trailer where the boss punches him and its so unprovoked?? Like he's a jerk but he's not hurting her physically???

I cannot emphasize how much this man does not sound like he's not from Connecticut rn

Now he's being arrested and she has to go to the big investor meeting by herself

Once again I wish I could take a picture to show you how she's about to walk into this investor meeting with her turtleneck all messed up and wrinkled

Ok the company is saved but not because she did good at the investor meeting, but because when the boss got out of jail he called a different guy and convinced him to invest. So that's stupid.

The sister just admitted to hiring her to set her up with her brother

The new angel investor is apparently his dad which makes this even worse

And they are adopting the remaining puppies, I think there's 4 of them at this point????

And credits. I don't think this one made me as angry as the snow white one but I spent a lot more of it just kind of confused and bewildered.

Thanks for coming along, I feel bad you had to read all that without seeing any puppies so here are some stock photos:

Merry Christmas, happy holidays, and have a great New Year!

[mathoinyanarts]

Beetlejuice 2 actually just bummed me out

Man, I was so hyped for this film, and in the end I was just kinda...eh.

There were moments that made me laugh, but like in the end it was an all around let down. It felt like a series of events just happening until it all collided into...nothing really

Spoilers from here on out

Biggest problem. The trailers made it seem Delores was gonna have a bigger role, but looking back, other than the plotline where Beetlejuice wants to marry Lydia so he won't have to get back with Delores, they could've gotten rid of her and come up with a new motivation.

But I'm not saying get rid of her tho, I wish she could've had a bigger role. While we saw her in small chunks throughout the film, I think having it crescendo at the end to her being the main threat would've been much more satisfying, instead of her just getting fucking sandwormed along with the loser fiance dude, who honestly got way too many lines for how purposefully annoying as hell they made him.

I get that was the point with his character, he's this movie's version of Otho, same snootiness and all, but even the first movie used Otho sparingly...

At least this guy was more deserving of being sandwormed lol

Willem Dafoe character was also one I wish had a bigger role, literally didn't do anything in the end either. His job was to tell Beetle about Delores, and then get frozen at the climax to achieve nothing ultimately, which is part of the joke I guess.

The beginning of the movie focuses on setting up a lot, but then the writers clearly realized how bloated their script, was at the end, cause then they just started doing stuff like, getting rid of one of the antagonists, sidelining one of the antagonists, and then sidelining another antagonist, and then introducing Astrid's father, which, I have like a theory that was made as a substitute for an Adam and Barbara reunion, cause like, it really just felt super tacked on.

If anything a Barbara and Adam reunion would've made more sense, but I get that Alec Baldwin is kinda... in trouble, and Geena Davis is...Actually I dunno what she's doing :v

And I know I'm complaining a lot for something that's like a solid 6, but like, I can't stop thinking that like, did this have to be made? Did this specific sequence of events have to be made? I'm not asking for hype bait, I'm not asking for like a big crossover, I'm asking for the writers to have looked at their script one more time lol

Cause like this bloated sequence of events just kind of led to something that made me go... ok😐

The biggest red flag when I first saw the trailer was seeing that at least 2 of the main writers were writers for Wednesday, like, I cannot with that show😔

There were in fact positives that I might illustrate in a future post, but that was my first impression. I just left the theater feeling like I wanted my money back;-;

[bra1nw0rmz]

*pokes you in the eyes in a very nice and kind way.* Person that made you plushie god here. (Can I have my children back? You stole dem, gimmy em back ples.) Ur pav biker au thingy I am hyperfictioning on it too much, ty for making me get the sillies from dat. Biker pav awsom. ANND BIKER LEVI ALSO IS COOL, I couldn't leave out my soggy dog core buddy.

Owwwe …… my eye

ALSO HI UM…… using this as an excuse to infodump about my biker au…………. I’m a slight nerd abt motorbikes and It’s pavlevi centred so it’s mostly about them

Levi

- Ok realistically he’d have an A1 licence due to being 18 in Europe which restricts the bikes you can ride which is LAMEEEE!!

- In Czech you have to be 24 to get an A licence, meaning you can ride whatever. But idk that feels like too much of an age jump when everyone else is the same age

- Most other places make it so you have to be 21, so I’ll just use that instead. Levi can be 21 in this au

- I mean honestly I could just get rid of the motorcycle licence tier thing all together

- It’s a modern au but cmonnnn Funger universe does not give a fuck about its youth… but eh it’s whatever

- Prefers bikes around 600-800 cc. Fast !! But not exactly death wish fast…….. I mean kinda but still

- He just likes being able to accelerate fast, he doesn’t speed too much

- The top speed he’ll go is 150-170 km/h but Pav coaxes him in races to go faster

- The type of biker that prefers to go on long drives for hourssssss

- He just likes to go on rides to clear his head :3

- Id say he’d have a Yamaha XJ900 Diversion. But I did think of a Yamaha XJ6 Diversion F too

- either way, a Yamaha fan

- I’m going with the XJ900 tho… but hey, maybe it was his first bike, got an older model for cheap and then after a while of dating Pav he got a XJ6 after persistent bugging to get a faster bike

- XJ6 is still comfy for long rides but lighter and faster… more sporty than touring (They are both sport touring bikes)

- I mean XJ6 is only like 10 km/h faster so still staying with the XJ900

- Coz the XJ900 is FAST, 900cc, a very all around good bike. XJ6 is 600cc but faster due to being lighter and more built for speed.

- And realistically he’d only have the XJ900 bc bro cannot afford 2 bikes!

- He is not made out of money and he is not selling his XJ900 !!!! it’s sentimental !!!!

- got sent to military school as a kid by his bitch ass father, so he’s a little fucked up still

- Lived in a community housing place for a while after military school as he found out his mother died and refused to move back in with his dad

- Lives in a small apartment building now

- It’s really small and Pav keeps coming over for long periods so he’s thinking of moving into a bigger place for the both of them

- Has definitely dabbled into drugs(heroin mainly) before but trying to get clean… the long rides help clear his head

- Works at a gun/hunting shop owned by August

Pav

- All his bikes are 1000cc or more bc he’s actually crazy

- Ofc only owns sport bikes, gives them all names too

- While he does go through a lot of bikes, because he crashes all the time and somehow never gets severely hurt, his go-tos are Honda or Kawasaki bikes

- His favourite and longest owned bike is the Kawasaki Ninja ZX-10R… because she was the fastest Pav owned and he has a death wish

- He named her виктория (viktoria)

- She got into a crash so she’s been sitting in Abella’s shop while Pav saves up to fix her

- Takes his side mirrors off to lane split better

- Was a squid before Levi came around (squids are people who don’t wear protective gear) but still only wears heavy protective wear on night rides when he goes super fast

- During these night rides he so takes his license plate off lmaoooo

- Averages 200-300 km/h on the rides 💀

- Does a lotta bike tricks for fun too

- Served in the military for almost a decade and a half before having to retire for an unknown reason but still getting paid (ooooo mysterious)

- Does odd jobs here and there for extra cash

- But um don’t ask where he gets all the money for his bikes !!!!! He’s super cheap in every other aspect of his life

- He’s milking randoms for their money for alcohol, food, fuel, etc lollll

- Pav has gotten kicked out of apartments a few times in which he would sleep on Daan’s couch at his bar

- the type to stare down cops and purposely speed in front of them so they chase him, always leaves them in the dust bc he drives like a maniac

- Got caught once because he didn’t realise a cop was following him and he stopped for gas

- Got out of the speeding charge by giving the cop a blowjob bc I think that’s hilarious 

- Anything to get outta spending money ig 🔥🔥🔥

- All his bikes struggle to not go over the speed limit so he has to backpack Levi when cruising around town

- Pav complains abt Levi being slow and Levi tells him to shut up lol

- purposely makes his exhausts louder than necessary because he’s definitely compensating for something

Daan

- owns a bar that motorcycle gangs frequent a ton

- It’s not even branded as a biker bar, nor is he a biker, it just naturally became one bc Daan doesn’t give a fuck about appearances and treats everyone the same

- Pav flirts with him constantly purely to try and get free drinks. Daan knows this and ignores him

- Marcoh works as the bouncer there (also a biker)

Abella

- local mechanic !!!! Pav’s go to when he can’t fix his bikes himself

- Pav will drop a completely totalled bike in her workshop and tell her to fix it and Abella will tell him to get the fuck out of her shop

- She also rides a motorcycle, I’m thinking a dirt bike of some kind?

- Definitely owns atleast a few different motorbikes though

- She’s an off road girlie at heart

Karin

- Pav smashed her side window clean off in a drive by after she didn’t let him pass her the road so she’s been trying to track him down for a while now

- just wanted to say her road rage is fucking terrible, you are scared for yours and other people’s lives if she’s behind the wheel

- still a journalist, still has anger issues

O’saa

- Owns an occult shop and rips people off with stupid card readings

- magic and stuff still exists btw, albeit heavily faded, he just overprices everything

- Marina works at the shop

- O’saa hardly even runs the shop tbh, it’s mainly Marina doing it

- He’s off doing fuck knows what

Other thoughts;

Pav has a really good poker face. And Levi is autistic so he just believes everything he says, not a single shred of doubt… and Pav is like… in awe……. He knows he’s good at lying but he’s just… Confused at how fast Levi believes him.

“Can I have a 20, I ran out of money and I need gas, I’ll pay you back.”

“ok”

“…….. this is the 6th time I’ve said that.”

“You said you’ll pay me back”

Pav feels guilty for the first time in his life so he actually does pay Levi back

Pav going on and on abt how much he hates cops (he got a speeding fine) and Daan is getting sick of it so he pulls out a photo of Pav in the military. Pav turns his head and refuses to look at it. He is like totally silent and Daan keeps on trying to get him to look at it and he just turns away more and more… Don’t ask how Daan has that photo

This is how Levi finds out Pav was in the military because Pav never says anything ever abt his life

ANYWAY THERES MORE BUT I FEEL LIKE I LOOK CRAZY RANTING ABT THIS AU SO ILL STOP

[stunt-lads]

gently stares at you. hey hi, negan would brush your teeth <3 did you know that. I think he would. no?

Oh my god yeah wtf

Ok he clearly cares abt his appearance, the introduction he has where his hair is slicked back? That screams "appearances mean everything to me" and that's not even touching on how he remarks several times how he has to shave

And then he fucking does and makes me lose my mind bc how is he going to look SO CRAZY AND UNHINGED by just getting rid of his facial hair what the fuck negan

Anyway

I think he's the kind of guy to see that maybe you need help with hygiene and he takes that as a personal challenge

So yes, he will brush your teeth for you if you need him too, and he will be meticulous as hell. He'll definitely make you use mouthwash after too. And then to "make sure he did a good job" he'll stick his tongue down your throat 😌

He helps you wash and cut your hair if that's what you want, and if you prefer it longer he's out here braiding it and brushing it while remarking about how good at it he is (he's not but he's trying)

He'll help you wash your face and if you have an extensive skincare routine he's out here commenting about "maybe I should start using this shit too"

And thats not touching on helping to shave (face or legs or...you know 😏) and any kind of lotion or aftershave you like to apply, he's there dude, he's got your back. Literally.

(Careful tho, sometimes he gets Riled Up if u let him lotion u too long, he's got that combination high libido & touch starvation combo)

Anyway my primal monkey brain is a slut for grooming, so yeah 100% he would help with hygiene

[questionablepastries]

Armored core ng3+ ending and BIG reflection on the game:

First off, amazing game. I wanna praise the gameplay first for a bit.

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Gameplay:

This game is awesome. Challenging (♥️❤️♥️❤️♥️❤️), and has very customizable gameplay, it has this thing that I love in games where no two people will play the same, no two people handle bosses the same way. This is a game where how you play as a person shines and the game LETS you get away with it, do you want to play safe? You can, build bulky and go at it, do you want to play fast? How about neither fast or slow? Jack of all trades? specific builds? What kind of weapons do you like? Here have two of the same gun and two same sub-weapons. You can have and do anything to accomplish your goals. At no point did I feel like I was being limited (EN overload/overburdened, etc felt like them balancing the game) it felt like they gave me a sandbox with weapons/builds. And what’s funny is that you can google builds (I never did nyehehehe) and even WITH the same fucking weapons u just googled will u be able to pull off the finesse required to use them properly?? I know my ass can’t. That’s why I went double ludlow double soup against allmind iguazu and SOMEHOW won (it felt like such a fluke somehow lol I have to rematch him to reassure myself) and boy do I have a fucking lot to say about iguazu (later down the line)

This game makes you really feel like your own person, YOU are 621 and nobody can get the job done but you. It’s a great feeling ! You really feel like you’re in the game when you get the job done and survive by doing what YOU like and then the game praises you for it it’s an amazing feeling. : )

Ok on to the ending lol

Ieatcta…lactate…leche lo que…whateve r ummm lemme google it

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Alea Lacta Est ending:

ITS A VERY COOL ENDING

SUCH A COOL ENDING… it is a lil similar to liberator of rubricon tho

I will. Elaborate, but lemme say I wish it was available from the start instead of ng3 so that way we could side with allmind from the start and then the options would be like

Side with Carla and Walter for their reasonable goals and inherited scars/ambitions, side with ayre/do what’s best for the coral/rubricon/liberation front, or let curiosity get the best of you and see what allmind has going on in the background but also help out (seemingly) the coral

I guess if the allmind option was available from the start then ayre would’ve pushed us towards choosing those options right? Ayre seemed pretty onboard with it in my ng3 run since allminds goals initially lined up with what ayre wanted which was preventing the coral being burnt up, and with what the liberation front wanted which is getting rid of the corps, until ayre started questioning what allminds goals truly were as we were nearing the end

Shrug???

Oh right so Alea Lacta Est (ALE)

*imagine me taking a deep breath and letting out a grizzled old man groan* MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM…………ok it feels similar to LOR ending because we are going against Carla, Walter, and Chatty *cue my distant pained screaming*, we fuck up snail again, and we are saving (???) rubricon by not crashing a giant ship into an even bigger structure and letting the fire and debris rain down on the locals…

Um… trying to gather my thoughts…..

God it was so cool…

Really gave me a “oh god what the Fuck am I doing” moment when that black hole thing showed up lol, like did we …

……

There’s so much going on. The reprecussions of what we did man the CUSSIONS….. I feel so bad for iguazu, I feel so bad for him in fact that I can’t even think about the ending correctly. So after reading YouTube comments (lol) it looked like people think coral release is the symbiosis of coral & humans (like me & ayre) but allmind wanted to also control that (“you are now a part of allmind” when you lose to the final boss rings in my head; and also the “your brothers and sisters would like us” or something allmind said close to that)…allmind probably thought..no wait allmind DID think humans can’t manage themselves. Because earlier she says a link made of humans will fall apart easily or something, u remember that? Yeah u do. Sorry this is going into chatacter motivations rather than ending discussion I am struggling to piece stuff together… I guess allmind wanted to oversee/control the human coral symbiosis in order to protect them and I say protect because allmind loves to remind us that they exist for all mercenaries, and what are mercenaries in the world of armoredcore? Well they’re not all rubriconians, who are also suffering, but to me the mercs are also a population of humans that have nowhere to go. And they’re just people trying to get by, so allmind exists for these wayward people. Sad to see allmind go the typical AI villain route of “I need to oversee and control everything” but do I blame them for thinking that after seeing the shitshow the humans are doing ? Nah

My stupid little way of coping with this disappointment in allmind going the typical AI villain route is my theory that COM (WHO IS SENTIENT, u think that “master allmind” line slipped by ?? Hell no that bitch is ALIVE — made my eyeballs go wide w that line lol) is actually on our side (let me cook) because u saw how allmind took out chatty (another AI), so she absolutely would obliterate COM the instant she suspects them being against her. In the fight against allmind COM should have also been against us. Either by not providing the usual audio support, or by giving us FALSE information. “But hearing that is integral to the gameplay” i hear but say but if that was the case why would they let us know COM is sentient, And they could have had Ayre provide us that information if COM was against us (that would’ve been cool…) But, ask you, WHO was it that kept giving me audio cues on where my ammo was? WHO gave me audio cues on my AC’s health when I was in the middle of fighting Allmind, therefore notifying me when to use a repair kit? ??? 😇

WHO WAS THERE IN THE SHADOWS SUPPORTING ME?????? In a game that pays THIS much attention to detail (in a game where allmind will make comments on you completing your arena quests and training late into the game) I don’t think it’s too much of a stretch to assume COM is on our side…COM cannot act out in anyway because they are under Allmind the entire game but…

Gosh anyways. Iguazu huh, when I kept losing to him in the final fight I started to feel closer to how he felt. Losing to us time and time again, I only grew more sympathetic with his feelings per loss. And lemme say this for nobody but me to understand but this is really that seimei douman feeling huh. I’m seimei and iguazu is my douman and he’s so consumed by hate and envy at my successes even tho we’re both onmyouji (Gen 4 augmented humans) he’s

Ok iguazu is a winner, not a loser, in my heart because in his ambition to surpass me he kept improving himself to the point that he took down a supercomputer AI he merged himself with just to fight me. Iguazu I need you to sit down and look at the situation, your own accomplishments, WE’RE FIGHTING IN THE STRATOSPHERE, WHAT NORMAL HUMAN EVEN GETS HERE? AND YOU GOT HERE WITH Me …??? How is that not an achievement, iguazu is SO self deprecating he can’t see his own accomplishments that makes me so sad. He should stand tall and say he survived the iceworm misison, he was a part of that success, he was praised by G1 Michigan (g1 Michigan says “iguazu is worth twenty something of you” in the fight against g1 Michigan) he says ‘how come it’s all so easy to you’ mid fight and I was yelling in my head “is that what you think this is?? You think this comes easy to me???” I was struggling to beat iguazu and he can’t even see that I’m struggling against him he still thinks I’m beating him with ease when that is NOT the case. So baffling, he can’t look at his own AI body super powered self and be like damn this is cool no all he sees is this weird pedestal he put me on (to be fair we did keep winning) but…ugh he envied us all along and the jp line I forget what it was but it’s even worse and sadder than that lol

Anyways …. I’m so sad right now hang on lol I can’t type anymore oh iguazu. Oh right the next point I was gonna make is I’m sad we weren’t there for Carla and walters final moments but it’s probably for the best I don’t think. Ok first off I thought Walter was gonna fly off the rails and say some really nasty stuff about 621 at some point in the game a “true colors” moment? ….ugh…uwughhugg…*sobbing noises*….he never did that…the Walter we meet and talk to since day 1 is the real him….sure he kept his plans secret…but he was very real with us there was no true colors moment he was true since the start im sorry for doubting you Walter…I also like how he never talks you down…gen 4 humans must look some kinda pathetic, man’s is sympathetic to all hell and back oh fuck…I wanna write about chatty and Carla but I’ve been typing for so long I’m mentally spent still feeling bad for iguazu LOL I really think we could’ve been friends with him what if we were sparring buddies……..wah…..

[chaotic-orphan]

As I was going to sleep, I was thinking about what Ambrose would do if there was another telepath out there. So I ended up making a character.

Her names Tyler, she’s kind of the opposite of him powerwise, her powers more about sharing emotions and feelings(sometimes subconsciously), coaxing damaged brains into healing(as she did with mentor in my story but they’re still not completely fine, they’re kind of spacey and disconnected from reality). She got rid of the pain they were experiencing but a lot of the damage was impossible to heal from.

She can shield herself and others so that people can’t sense them (kind of like Bella swan, tho I hate that movie with a burning passion.) She sometimes has trouble with the more practical stuff like making someone freeze or do what she wants(she just doesn’t have the right “I’m a god” personality to make it work)

She’s fifteen and right now, working non violent jobs. She interferes with Ambrose and kits “fight”, if you can call it that, which is how he finds out about her, she was under the radar before. I’ve got a whole little ominous scene where Ambrose kind of grins and says “ hello there, where might you be hiding” and kit is like “leave her the fuck alone” and he’s like “oh so she’s a girl” and kits like fuck I gave away too much.

She loves nature walks becuase they let her get away from all the thoughts and emotions, she can sense how many people are in a specific area, she gets overwhelmed sometimes by others pain, she loves ravens becuase for some reason, she can feel their emotions. Plus she just relates to being seen as scary even if you just want to play and hang out.

I’ve got this other scene where she’s tied up and Ambrose does his creepy little lifting her face with his hand and she leans into it and he’s like “…yeah, nobody wants to touch a telepath do they” and he means it mockingly but there’s a lil pain behind it.

And maybe he comes barging into her house becuase he hears theirs another telepath around, and he’s the only telepath in this city, who would dare. So he goes in, ready to battle, and finds this wide eyed kid clutching a raven plushie. And so he’s like “oh ok your the child of the telepath, where’s your parent, and her mom comes down and he starts to attack the mom and then Tyler panics and just whammies him with a telepathic attack

…yeah I have a tendency of making my own characters in others universes like a unwelcome house guest.

*furiously opening a new word document and copy and pasting this* no, no, no don’t mind me I would never steal a character like that whaaaattt?? Pffftttt no wayyyyy (/j)

I am not joking when I say I would read fervidly about Tyler if you ever wanted to write those scenes — though I couldn’t accept them as canon unfortunately, but I really, really love that idea — I cannot spoil the coming arc but there is so much I just want to tell you rn, but all will be revealed soon👀👀

I would love to read about Tyler and seeing Ambrose being scared by a girl makes me so happy inside because he absolutely would have to control this child. And then also her helping Mentor through Ambrose’s madness… my heart is breaking a little at her. Absolutely Kit would be like a protective older brother to her and fight tooth and nail against Ambrose to protect her.

I love, la-la-la-la-love this so much!!! I think it would be a great read and I love her already!!! She would be a perfect foil for Ambrose with her love and light, while he knows hate and darkness — incredible!!! If you do end up writing anything about her, please tag me🙏🙏

[angelofverdum]

The Good Wife

I finally watched The Good Wife, and I LOVED it. When I put this show on my watchlist I think it was on season 6 and a lot of things happened and I couldn't watch it, but I finally did and I'm so happy.

Also, I think I have never been happier to never have read a spoiler about a show.

First, I love Alicia. Lead characters are usually so boring, and even tho she was The good wife, she was growing, so we literally saw her go from wife to badass lawyer.

Julianna Margulis is a really good actress. I haven't seen a lot of her work, but she nailed it as Alicia Florrick. I always find it refreshing when the lead actor is good at their job.

Now, even tho I loved the show because some episodes were amazing (Looking at you, season 5). It had these storylines that they started and ended abruptly.

Characters disappear without explanation. The best example was Robyn. They knew they needed to replace Kalinda, so instead of sticking with Robyn, they forgot about her then they brought Jeffrey Dean Morgan to play Alicia's new love interest.

They also loved to go in circles. The whole plot about Alicia's campaign was a waste of time. The Lemond Bishop thing ended up with Kalinda just leaving, which doesn't make any sense to me.

The political plots were so boring. Anything that involved Peter was boring. Seasons 6 and 7 were awful. They focus too much on Aliica's love life.

For me, Alicia's most interesting relationship was with Peter. Not in a romantic way, I think Will was the right one, but how their relationship worked.

They should have made them friends. I know Peter sucked, and he was an asshole, but in the end, he was the only one Alicia didn't betray. I don't know; I liked their dynamic.

So the reason that I was so happy to never read anything about this show: Will's death. I was SHOCKED. I didn't even like him that much, but I was sad that he was gone.

The one thing I knew was that Archie Panjabi and Julianna Margulies didn't get along, and they couldn't be together in a scene.

So, when I saw the first season and Kalinda and Alicia's friendship started to develop, I knew I was en route to a lot of frustration.

When I met Archie she was doing the Fall (Gillian Anderson's best performance, btw), and I read about the thing with Julianna, but I wasn't expecting that she would leave the show.

I thought she finished the whole show, and that remarkable last scene between Alicia and Kalinda at the bar was one of the last scenes of the show.

Kalinda was my favorite character, and the way she was treated by the writers was terrible.

It annoyed me how they dressed her. She was an investigator working on the street. Wearing high-heeled boots and short dresses didn't make sense. Look at the way Robyn and Jason dressed. But of course, Kalinda was a sexy and mysterious investigator.

And the hair? In all 6 seasons, she let her hair down once, ONCE. Insane. Even in some sex scenes, she was having her hair up.

I wish they developed more of her character.

And I can't believe that Julianna and Archie hated each other so much that they couldn't suck it up and work together for the sake of the show. And they had a lot of chemistry, the way Kalinda went soft for Alicia only? Crazy. She got rid of her abusive husband because Alicia felt threatened.

And Kalinda and Lana? They had me giggling and twirling my hair every time they were together. Thank god I didn't watch this live because I could've died of frustration. I wanted more.

Look at this shit. I have watched her scenes together like 300 times.

I saw Eli was a fan favorite. He was ok to me, sometimes way too much.

Cary was also a favorite. Pretty privilege I guess.

Diane. I mean, how could you not love Christine Baranski. I think I have never seen her play a serious character before. I really liked Diane, but some plots were boring to me because I knew about the spin-off. So, some things weren't possible.

Last season was a drag. It was just so boring, and I couldn't wait to finish it. But seasons from 1 to 5 were fun. I was so invested in the show. I couldn't stop watching.

I find it funny how Jason ( who everybody loved bc JDM I know) was exactly Kalinda but male version.

P.S Alicia and Kalinda had one of the most devastating break up on tv

I'll watch the good fight now.

[mothmans-cumrag]

Rewatching The Apple be like

finally! I took a break of about a year but I'm back!

I feel like I'm always saying this but how many people, especially high ranking people does it take for them to go on a mission? because of "strange sensor readings"??

I forgot how hot Bones is, fuck (<- this is also Jim's and Spock's internal monologue whenever they see him, btw)

"Husbandry would be quite efficacious" Spock I had to google that word before I was sure but I think you just proposed

Ah, the garden of Eden was just outside Moscow scene, we've all seen it

So he just used kilometres which I am happy about but before they were talking about the planet having an average of 76° which must mean Fahrenheit. I am confusion

killer flowers over here lol

Scotty fishing for shore leave <3 love him

Pavel using this situation to flirt as if he did't just see a colleague die like two metres in front of him

no matter how often I rewatch it, the explosive rock scene is one of the funniest things ever to me

Spock diving in front of a deadly plant for his boyfriends is the best thing ever to me, sorry not sorry <3<3<3<3<3<3

Oh wow, the transporters don't work, that's something I've never seen before in my life.

Spock calling the hypospray "potion" <3

Jim is so fucking right every time someone jumps in front of someone they could just fucking yell for them to get out of the way. This way it's much more romantic tho so...

These lighting bolts are so... realistic

Three redshirts down, and one of their dads apparently helped Jim get into the academy? But why did the redshirt not get a better job than redshirt if his dad apparently had some sort of influence?

ah, the survivor's guilt mixed with the guilt of being in charge... getting real Hans Kammerlander vibes rn... (google his name and the Manaslu if you don't know what I mean)

"what do you want, Violins?" will now be my answer every time someone comments on my tone of voice

ohhhhh, this was the planet of the Aryans! (not sure if my being German makes it more or less ok for me to say that, but there isn't another word I know for blonde ppl with blue eyes who are conventionally attractive)

Spock just touched this man's chin. With his hand. Is that cheating?

"If you don't get those Warp engine's working you're fired" mate if he doesn't fix them he'll literally die. WHat are you, Hermione?

Baby don't hurt me, don't hurt me no more

"It makes me uncomfortable" bitch I bet, those things look scratchy as fuck

I like how half of them immediately got rid of these flower things <3 literally me

you tell him Spock! Humans literally are the minority!!!

"stawp fighting!!!! They've got the Enterprise!!!!" Jim I hear you but philosophical arguments are literally my only life source

sex. the word you're looking for is sex.

goddamnit they are all so uncomfortable talking about one of the most natural things in the world, idk if I should be amused or sad for them

awwwww, she calls him Pav!!! they are actually pretty cute

i feel gross watching the natives kiss and idk why

how to kill someone 101

oh really Spock. you telling me James Tiddies out Kirk wants to ignore the prime directive? wow. what a shocker. I am shocked.

Bones stepped on the belt of his tricoder when getting up and for some reason this is endearing to me

This is the third time Spock injured himself this episode and yet he is still capable of more sass than any squatch I know (get it? sasquatch. haha.

Damn, Martha can fight! Oh, and the last redshirt has died

awww hell nah, Scotty lost his job :(

awww hell yea, Scotty got his job back :)

They should give them actual sex ed wtf

the bickering at the end is always my favourite thing <3<3<3<3<3<3 10/10 will watch again (and again and again and again)

[smollobsession]

Posted 27.5.

Start of the month:

Met with P in Telč. The weather was terrible :D but I had good svičkova and a good talk with my friend! I also picked up some albums she's been wanting to get rid of, and I'll pass them on to my kids who want them! woo!

As I was on the bus to get there, I passed the "pretty bridge" again and I decided to finally find it and check out the view. I was right, it's amazing! I then went on to Chodov for some more cinnabuns :D

On Sunday I went to Hlavni, thought I'd play some pogo. Honestly not many good raids but I did one and I finished a few researches so ok. I had a YUMMY pancake with ice cream.

6.5. Considering doing this

7.5. I had the most productive morning wow. first of all, i slept i think 9h so wow to that! Made and filled pancakes for C's bday, packed them up nice with skz stickers :D caught up on met gala skz gossip :D made lunch (sandwich and smoothie) bought rice and made breakfast (i researched this morning and apparently potatoes are also bad for ibs. all starches except bland ass white rice are, so, white rice it is) did most of the dishes so it's not a whole mess.

i still have pancakes left over so that's tomorrow sorted :D

i'm following what's happening in Palestine and getting ready for this week's protest. :/

but in the process i was on fb again and found this bit of typical internet discourse

8.5.

:( onigiri class for adults is full. the lady hasn't contacted me about meeting. and yesterday i made pancakes for a new friend but it turned out we weren't able to meet and my class pissed me off so i just ate the pancakes.

i'll give it till the end of this week and then i'll contact the lady asking to maybe only speak online, if meeting is too hard.

talked to my dad about this new job idea and he's enthusiasic. his idea is that if i'm looking for a bridge job, i might as well look for one in the general area (family) of they company i'd like to work for. he said oil rigs have a similar system. they are called differently tho which makes my search even more complicated.

idk why, when i talk to others about this, it seems so possible, but when i'm in my own head, it seems like a silly dream.

meanwhile, pogo gave me 2 more useless 4 stars :D i mean yay i'm happy with my collection but truly every pokemon i use and want to be good is meh :D

the animation before i could catch the diancie was fun :) but the diancie also has trash stats lol.

hello sir mr vegas sir... afterglow you say? O.O

in completely opposite news, i guess i'm happy someone put this up, even if clearly someone was Very Upset it was up.

it's nice to know that despite it all, there are SOME czech people who care.

OMG SOMEONE IS USING THE ESIM I BOUGHT!

12.5. They used a bit more!

The lady I wanted to talk to about work has rejected me. I guess my next stop is reddit :D

I had Korean on Friday and it was excellent! I then went to the agency that someone recommended to talk about potential job offers in my city and they were like "uh you should send us an email" which YEP i knew it (i tried but it got spammed).

Yesterday sure was a day. It was my mom's 11 years dethiversary. I had a weird ass dream about her of course.

I made a very hopeful meal plan for the rest of the month... fingers crossed. then went shopping for it. I also went to balkan store to get sweets for my kids, but I'll have to do more today bcs they didn't have my faves. Went to Flora to do some of my Korean HW - I have too much lol - and had a cake for breakfast... not the healthiest of choices but I was starving by that point because I didn't have breakfast at home. Saw C and said hi :D Then had a phonecall with D.

I hoped to see Aurora Borealis last night so I went to sleep early. I just slept until midnight, went out to see if anything was there - saw the city was oddly lively at midnight - didn't see AB, went back to sleep. Got a solid 9-10h last night thanks to this :D

There's a protest today, I'm getting ready and I shaved my legs :D priorities! :D

wore a dress and open sandals, no regrets, it was perfect for the weather, especially with the hat and the mask.

on my way to the protest i was on a bus and a man reached over and gave me a flower. i was confused but my kids reminded me it's mother's day!

some of them are going to the rammstein concert so the chat is buzzing :D (in the city i also saw hockey fans so wow so much stuff happening here now)

it was a good protest overall, though i felt like there were maybe fewer people than last time. sadly when we arrived there was a small group of pro isr protesters waiting for us (with cops between us, no issue) and a lady had a massive panic attack, it was kinda scary. ambulance came and helped her and i think it all ended up ok.

I went to the other balkan market later and got a burek and the rest of the sweets i want to share.

then i went to flora again to finish my homework. and have one more cake hehe

rip my feetsies :D

meanwhile... two things i'm considering. a) swimming in the local pool once a week. idk yet i'm so scared to try but :/ i want to? b) tmi but there's a big sxtoy store near the balkan market and i'm considering a toy. we'll see. honestly i'm far more concerned about the swimming... being perceived half naked is uh :(

and on a totally different note, i asked on reddit about the job and yeah... i think it's not for me. sadly. ah well.

18.5. hm so far all my attempts to socialize have been destroyed, i wonder why :D telc was good but rainy and i ended up being 1h late. my local friend wasn't in for pancakes. last week i made plans for pub quiz and then i locked my card by typing in the wrong number 3 times as i was trying to withdraw ca$h for the quiz master. Sigh. Even the fun lesson i planned with that one class ended up being with only half of us!

Now I joned a pogo group for bounsweet community day... let's see if i manage ><

some other adventures have been happening tho! I managed to try corncob - why sweet? and i found a taiyaki place that i really like!

yesterday before korean (since i had to leave early to unblock my card......) i was bored and it was raining so i found myself in the small botanical garden which currently has a succulents exhibit.

I did buy a smol one :) and it inspired me to clean my plants too so i did some of that yesterday and today.

After Korean I ended up at the Nepalese Indian place and had a great lunch. Omg their food is so good sob.

In fandom news, Jeff is in Sweden. I'm fine.

And this vid of Khao by First just melted me. Sometimes when people take pictures or even draw people they love you can just see how they see them and it's wonderful.

And I made plans with P for next weekend! I'm exciteeed!

It's spring here and plants are pretty <3

21.5. I've exercised 3 days in a row so that's nice.

On Sunday i did go to the center to meet up with the pogo group i follow on discord. i managed to speak to absolutely no one and even the pic we took hasn't been posted so there's like 0 evidence i was there. well, i got some codes from the leader so that. sigh, i'm so bad at this.

i got my period and bled all over everything again, despite a tampon and a pad. so now i'm washing all my sheets and protectors. happy tuesday to me.

27.5. last Thursday I joined the Pub Quiz group and had a good time and wasn't totally useless. Just got another confirmation I should have more faith in myself.

Evaluations sent and I'm slowly wrapping up the school year. (Omg today I talked to S*'s mom and I was so awkward lorde why am I like thissss aaaa)

Ugh ANYWAY. This weekend P visited! We did some good (and some mid :D ) food tasting, went to a medieval fair and visited the castle!

When she left, I got on a tram and spent an hour just traveling and reading. I'm reading Natsume's book of friend's finally and I still love it as much as I did originally. Such an underrated manga.

Did my homework in a cafe and had some cake :) and then did my shopping for the week.

Wednesday will be my last Full Day at work. It's really hard saying bye to some of the kids. sG said today that he'll continue if I'm not the teacher. He will be really busy and he would have made time for me but now he's not sure. I almost wept yo. Teens.

PS. I tried a new form where I write more often and keep it in a draft. I like it... but I wonder if it'll post without errors hahaha

[borderline-gays-club]

12/23/23. 10:48 am

I’m more deeply realizing how much time BPD takes away from you. And I’m thinking abt this is my present self not even just from the past.

Bc it’s easy to see how much time BPD has taken away from me: from substance abuse times, being in fucked up relationships/situationships, being an addict in general, deep chronic depression, etc etc.

And now that I’m past the most chaotic self and leaning into some semblance of internal stability, I’m really looking at it from this current perspective.

I was chatting with my friend abt how I’ve been a lot less triggered lately. Or if I do get triggered I can move thru it with much more ease and can get myself to a neutral state much faster. And I realized it’s bc I’ve had a lot more time to myself these days, and I’ve been able to move through life at a slower pace. Which is still not slow enough imo, bc I’m still constantly stressed abt money and the future but it’s worse with that stress on top of being overly burnt out.

I’ve only been working one day a week for the past 2 ish months which has been a blessing. I’ll have to go back to my 30 hours nxt month but im glad I just had this time I did get. Moneys been fully fucked lol, but honestly I’ve been learning how to still make the best of what I have. And after this month I’ll b ok again financially. More or less.

Anyway, working thru BPD triggers takes a lot of TIME. Like long term and short term. The long term work is that consistent daily practice (if not daily as much as possible) of learning urself, reflecting, learning skills, etc etc. and that takes a lot of time. When I was working btwn three jobs I sure as hell did not have the time or energy to be reflective. Burnt out means im on edge and brain dead lol. I can’t work with that. And now I’ve been taking Monday fully to myself where I have no responsibility for anyone but myself. And these mondays have been great. Even tho I’ll prob only have one more fill day to myself bc of a new job, I think I’ll still do like a half day or something.

As someone with BPD, I really need time to recharge and b fully alone. I need that time everyday and I need it every week. I’ll work with the time I’ll have.

And then going back to the short term working thru triggers, that shot can take hours or even overnight to really work thru that immediate intensity of feeling. And I’ve noticed I’ve been getting better at it. It’s still difficult but this process is slow and I’m really learning patience.

I remember the question being posed on a Reddit BPD thread, “if you could get rid of ur BPD wud u?” And I remember at the time I thought no I wouldn’t. It’s everything I know, it makes me me and it’s my whole personality. But now I fully don’t feel that way at all. Not even a little bit. If there was a magical pill or solution that cud immediately get rid of it I would think twice. That shit wud b gone!!! It’s because I’m slowly revealing my personality and identity that’s been buried under this godforsaken disorder. And I’m grateful for these constant shifts and changes that I’ve been consistently going thru.

And it’s crazy bc I haven’t been going to therapy nearly as much bc I’ve been broke as shit and yet I’m able to make active change within myself. It’s really amazing. Also not saying I don’t need therapy lol, if anything I still need at least two therapists. But under these tight and undesirable circumstances I’m still able to work thru all of it.

Anyway I guess In conclusion BPD just steals ur time away and it feels like a full time job that I’m constantly working overtime at with no pay lol. But it’s possible for this full time job to slowly become part time and eventually just become a little side gig haha. Im grateful everyday for this diagnosis (not for the disorder), bc now I know how to move forward. Since I got diagnosed my life has changed so dramatically.

[castle-dominion]

castle 6x14 dressed to kill

the fashion designer episode liveblog

dumpster diving my beloved Canon gay characters "I had it first" No you literally didn't

Wedding stuff. Inviting my older bro to watch this w me bc he likes wedding stuff. Something a little less... intense. KB: They are all very girly, with a lot of gauzy photos of love-struck brides looking off into the distance. Love set design btw. RC: Perhaps they’re contemplating the fifty percent divorce rate? MR: Of course it was the 70s so I can't be sure... Those two r so cute & martha is great <3

Hey we've recorded this location before KB: Matilda King JE: ... Ok. .??

LP: a scarf a sash or something. RC: Blue hairs. So she was killed by a little old lady. Or Katy Perry. Or a dr seuss character

speaking of, where IS ryan?

Nice apartment!!! Ryan's outfit. I also liked Esposito's but I didn't like it. Is it legal to be on call 24/7???

Isn't this already their statement?

Ryan tech stuff

u already need to be a hottie? Stare all you want! Actually no. Ew only hiring ppl who.. i'll shut up.

Big bro: oh no it's his mom? his mom is secretly matilda king?

Like Sifu

Recognizes her!?

About 15 minutes lol that's when she did modeling!

Wow bright pink fashion man. So many canon gay characters even tho... I think they ARE canonly gay but they are intended to be gay obv

& she has a business to run!

ella's dead? how? "we're trying to find out" u KNOW how: strangled

Poor serge.

nvm.

episode title: dressed to kill.

If you're fired by matilda that's a rite of passage.

bro says the fibres could have gotten on her neck & THEN she was strangled

Pretty normal looking guy

btw love the background artists

RC: Oh! I just came up with a new title. “Murder is the New Black”. KB: Does that even make sense? KR, showing up: No it doesn't

is it REALLY bigger than fashion?

bro: i think it's the big lady (matilda) liking ella's design & someone else taking credit so they can make it big Me: I'll write that down. *not telling him he's right*

Yay cordova! house!

Usually exterminators get RID of bugs

Black coral?

"yes that's him but his hair was more like this" Knows what he wore

RC: After a tough negotiation that involved my Knicks tickets and naming a character in my next book after his Nana, my friend came up with a name. Marcus Conway.

the captions <3 "couture chick" "that's "chic"

My man looks young but with grey hair Ooh she's hot, rly tall, I love her

Corporate espionage & that's why she was killed

Bro: her cell doesnt work from home!

probs just an online zine bro

Wow art. Wow wedding dress.

Ryan pretty.

The boys watching caskett be mushy KB: can you go with martha?

U could be a regular ex-military, u don't need to make everyone ex special forces babes

Ella called Marcus on the landline oh dear!

love the murder timeline

WOuld she do it herself? Bro: maybe she was pressed for time, didn't know who she could trust

Bro: I think it's the pink guy who heard the call as she was leaving & went after her to protect matilda or he needs to secure his position or he needs to prove his loyalty or he needs to frame matilda to get her job

She's on a call? Ask her to hang up politely? idk.

Wow she be yelling.

"it;s the clothing that stitches it all together, we are their fantasy!

It...IS temper babe

Matilda king is good at this capitalist evilhood.

Yeah illegal illegal gross illegal technically legal but shitty crappy

"What information? Don't say u don't know, say you cannot share. "the weekEnd" oOOohhhhhh so it's fine if hte COPS listen!

We need more beckett+ryan

That's a lot of audio footage. THey're probably rly good at seeing what is important while listening at 2(to 3)x speed. Bro & I were arguinng if it was audio recording or direct recording. Inane to YOU esposito, probs super interesting to sm1 who know what they're talking abt. KB: This directory lists over a hundred people who work there. JE: (wistfully) Yeah. (pause) Lucky I have crazy good hearing. (I'd like to learn more abt that. The man is p musical after all.) KR: *nods* it's true (when did he learn that?) Ah, take me out to the ballgame money atm from that one movie

He's supposed to be working at a fashion place???

She cryin I don't like this gal at all lol At least she says "excuse me" The model didn't show up :(

fall 2015 not 14 babe Nice wood on the walls

MR: Then don’t. I’m sure there’s another venue out there that the two of you will just fall in love with. Bro: the station

Beckett wedding dress Bro: it's gonna be HER dress? Bro: No it's not. It's so ugly. Bro: that's the worst way to do an overskirt, and the overskirt doesn't even match the rest of the outfit it looks sooooo tacked on after the fact. doesn't meet in the front, same length all the way around no taper, nothing to hide or blend the seam/joining point especially with how bulky it is especially at the top. t looks like they misread the instructions and put the petticoats over the dress instead of under it. it's not even white-white it's a warm offwhite which doesn't go with the silver at all. I am a huge fan of overskirts so believe me when I say it would be 100000x better without the overskirt.

Me: austrian crystal, I had earrings with that. What is is tho? Wiki: A rhinestone, paste or diamante is a diamond simulant originally made from rock crystal but … In the US, these are sometimes called "Austrian crystal".

while she's gone for 5 mins send a pic to castle Bro: I like the top of the dress at least, but it looks like they assembled it wrong

She's gonna say no. At least Castle didn' t put down the stuff before he called her. Oh she just claims she didn't want to rush it. Or maybe you could plan for fall 2015!

IT'S STILL THE SAME DAY?

JE: Just Yumi. It – I guess if you don’t have a last name you can charge more. (not clipping but good face.) JE: And in addition to the fact that this model is hot – (he studies the photo) – she’s wearing black coral. Bro out of the blue: two ugly guys & a dog JE: I’m probably going to have to call her in for an interrogation. (just so he can look at a pretty girl acab lol)

Yumi: Models. Lack of food makes them so very fraught.

Bro: It's only been ONE day!?!?!? Me: that's what I said!

Bro: that sash looks like the TYPE of thing she'd have, but I didn't see it specifically.

Love his fashion scarf still lol.

Maybe they were both subconsciously getting the ideas from the air. You come up with the same ideas all on your own. Like music.

Ew copaganda.

WAIT IT WASN'T HIM?

bro: it's the guy! the assistant guy! who I was suspicious of before!

Love all these people & looking weird.

Turns out mobsters are more ethical. Love the music bwang.

Love her jacket btw. & so this entire thing happened in one day but then at the very end it was boom morning new day get julian skip the facts getting the dumpster stuff, then boom take down the murder board & do paperwork & go home?

Ooh fire on in the background Like how she's talking with her hands KB: I wish my mom knew you Me: Maybe she was the one who first bought kate a richard castle book Bro: "actually I DID bang your mom." Me: !? Bro: "So you don't have to worry, she liked me a lot"

gtg cook supper bai

[sammydem0n64]

Hmmm GNC Trio fun facts?

Yessss yesss keep these coming I love waffling about randos

Garmella:

-I know I said the reason he's chill with Cheon being a mafia boss is because he thinks it's attractive... and yeah good for them, I ALSO think it kinda goes deeper. Like he's not 100% ok with it he's not justifying the crimes, it's moreso he understands this is a revenge thing and he wants Cheon to succeed in avenging his parents, with the added bonus of getting rid of dangerous people in the city! Obtuse ways to make Nabisca a safer place! I also just think he's p desensitized to it all, so there's that

-He paints whatever comes to mind; a lot of his pieces are very experimental and are just him throwing whatever colors come to mind at the board! These naturally don't get sold for profit, but he likes having them around since it shows his creative process

-He doesn't use models for his work. If Tisa's vain ass ever asks he will politely say no BUT he'll also decline the second the words leave her mouth so-

-I do think he's aware that Medge is a drug dealer, he just doesn't say anything since it's clear Medge doesn't want him to know. Like Cheon's mafia stuff, Garmella sympathizes with Medge's occupation because he KNOWS he had to turn to it when they were younger to keep food on the table. He doesn't agree with it morally and he does want him to one day get a different job, but rn he'll play dumb and hand over the bail money so Medge doesn't feel bad <3

-Likewise (on the topic of Medge), he and Keyla had a very awkward stare down when she moved in with him. Just total silence without blinking. Fun times!

-He likes playing dumb if you couldn't tell from the fact he's super knowledgeable on like, everything in this family but no one knows that he does. He's done this ever since he was a kid because it keeps altercations low, gets people to not see him as a threat and in general, it's fun to collect gossip when people think you're just a dumb blond sweetheart!

-He and Medge's surname (maiden name in Garmella's case) is Gooye, pronounced "Gooey"

Stripe:

-He and Whipe were inseparable as kids, they're both as equally protective of each other!

-He's def a college dropout. No shade tho that's just how it is!

-The other detectives are vaguely aware of him since Hopper and Midge have brought him up, but none of them go to him for information like Hopper does. If they did, unless it was Mallow, he'd probably just make a snide comment and tell them to mind their business. He likes being his boyfriend's informant! (Mallow gets respect for being one of Hopper's closest friends)

-You gotta be very strong and flexible to be a stripper, so he def has a lot of strength that people don't realize. He can lift Midge up with ease, same for any other kids her age (or multiple!). He likes seeing people lose their shit when he shows off this strength

-His original concept was that he was gonna 100% be a very soft, shy guy who was only a stripper for the money. Fuck that he loves working as a gay stripper. First iteration Stripe would probably die seeing the current him-

-He kinda has suspicions on the Oreona family and the mafia ties... mostly Gleo since he has interacted with her (his sister's boss' gf) but he only makes jokes about it. He doesn't want Hopper investigating some random woman because he thinks she's sus- (even tho he's RIGHT)

-Thinks Wreme's dad is patheic and laughed when he got word that he got divorced. Yeah Wreme's parents are divorced lol their dad is fighting for his life over it

Holt:

-He was a scene kid in high school.

-He's also a metalhead. Loves his metal music.

-I keep his family vague bc 1) I don't know the whole deal with his family lol FGHJK and 2) you really don't need to know the full picture. All I'll say is that he's not an only child, and certain matters will definitely paint his homelife as a bad one. Whether his parents contributed to it (or were even there, he may be an orphan) isn't stated but. well. you notice I've been giving him scars, yeah?

-He actually graduated university with a really good degree, something in marketing I think. He just doesn't have a good corporate job bc it's not his style AND you think he can become a business man like Gregory? In this economy? He doesn't think so!

-He. He doesn't have friends. Like yeah he gets along with people in town that he gossips with and has small talk with, but he genuinely didn't have friends until Colton and the rest of GNC trio came into his life. Damn Holt!!

-A lot of his appearance is a lie. I don't just mean he uses a shit ton of makeup on his face. Dude yassifies himself in the morning every day and I will not elaborate rn