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#a doodley#i had to make this blue so tumblr would stop hiding it from the dash#anyway no caption this happened 2 hrs ago#im happy abt my surgery but it and other things this year keep beinging conversations like these up#and i cant handle it at all.#everything my dad tells me just makes me feel worse and not bc its anything bad but bc I Feel Bad#like the conversation then continued to him being like no dont cry im just saying i wpuld have wanted to#quit my job decades ago and set aside money so I wouldnt be struggling as much now but that didnt happen#and i just dont want that to happen to you guys :)#so we have to support u so that your life is what u want it to be#and i cried even more bc what do u mean. thats so sad. ur a person and u were a child and baby once and ur gonna die#and you always almost cry when u talk about your mom who passed away decades ago#and your brothers that passed away#recently and im going to be your age and still sobbing bc i miss my dad. just like i have been prematurely crying about since i was 7#the other day my dad asked my mom if i cried a lot when i was a baby/kid and my mom said no and then my dad#said that when i Did cry it was so severe he thought i would ''drown in my own tears''#bc i could never stop. like. thats still true today. ive been crying on and off since then#i think i mentioned he's just been telling me stories about his life lately and it further fuels this. i get so sad. im sorry your life was#like this. i dont want to die i dont want you to die im sad im sorry im sorry#im scared. im never going to see you again. how horrible. how horrible#i cant enjoy my day today bc every day is a day closer and i get sad
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charles and erik with each other: oh dear, oh dear. gorgeous 🥺👐 charles and erik with the villain of the week/the x-men: K1LL YOURSELF 🔥🔥🔥
X-Men: First Class (2011) | X-Men Apocalypse (2016)
#charles is soo insane for looking at a god in the face and telling him to fuck off bc he was hurting his best friend. most normal guy.#cherik#mine*#x-men#xmenedit#parallelsedit#filmedit#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#otp: i want you by my side#god charles' entire demeanor towards apocalypse in xma has always been SOO funny to me. he literally looks ANNOYED every time#apocalypse speaks in the movie. he doesn't even look intimidated or worried that he's trying to possess CHARLES'S BODY or anything#mind you charles wrote his thesis about mutation and here he has THE FIRST MUTANT ever in front of him. who's also a god threatening#to destroy the world. and charles' only reaction is:#'whatever. MOVE OUT OF THE WAY LOSER i CANNOT see erik from where you are standing and i'm worried about him'#and i do think it's very sweet that after this raven tells erik he has to fight for what he has left - and he thinks about charles#(the man that stood on the balcony all those years ago and that cared enough about him to tell him there is more to him#and the same man that STILL CARES ENOUGH to look at A GOD in the face and telling him to go fuck off and die and stop manipulating erik)#charles loves him so much you don't get it........... i'm foaming at the mouth i'm so normal about them
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She did not understand the assignment
#good omens#ineffable husbands#good omens fanart#aziracrow#fanart#digital art#artists on tumblr#ibispaint art#demos art#based on that one draw ur favs as meme that was around a while ago#bc you know i love hopping onto trends way too fucking late#shes wearing her twice divorced fit#her widow that might have killed the husband fit#her im single and available fit#yknow how it is#also needed an excuse to draw longer hair crowley#also wanted an excuse to she/her crowley because i can do what i want#'why is she wearing heels to bed' because you've gotta serve always and forever she's been serving for 6000 years she aint gonna stop now#convinced theyd get matching pajamas at one point#tired of having to color adjust my ipad art bc it comes out muted on laptop screens RAAAHHHHH
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She is offering water to any lost travelers! However, it's so hot that the water has become tea, so she's adjusted accordingly!
#neopets#neotag#neoart#kiko#slorg#aquanutart#this was for a western themed beauty contest last year! it was very fun! :D i'm so happy we were able to be part of it!#and by 'very fun' i mean it's completely exhausting and i can only handle participating once or twice a year#but it is very exciting too! she gave tea to everyone who stopped by. she was very happy to be able to help so many visitors!#i actually forgot until i checked whether this was from one or two years ago... my sense of time as an adult is --- *waves hand vaguely*#i'm so sorry for all the messages i didn't answer. specifically to the user who sent me a really kind message out of the blue#about how they got the slugawoo avvie from my quiggle's lookup. i didn't even know you could get the avvie from his lookup#so i was very happy to find out!! and i was happy there might be more people getting the avvie from his lookup i didn't know about#and i wanted to tell them how absolutely happy it made me and my brain said ' you should respond to this right away or you won't do it'#and i thought you fool. of course i'll make sure to do something this important#and i kept thinking about it for the past year and thinking i will do it. i will do it#but when i thought about writing the words that were floating in my mind the whole time i would feel blocked#this happens all the time and i'm sorry. it really does make me so happy#and then they deleted all the neomails but thankfully i had it saved so i still was able to find their username and send a message thankyou#i'm very glad
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I lived, bitches.
#pain isn't too bad so far but I assume that will change tomorrow because day of you usually still have some anesthetic in your system#also I'm PRETTY sure they fucked up and gave me too much anesthesia because I've had surgery five other times and never been hit this hard#including the major ankle surgery a year ago which was fine#and they clearly wanted to move me out but it took well over an hour for nausea to stop#at least the nausea has finally stopped though#and they had to keep putting the nasal cannula back because I wasn't breathing deeply enough on my own and my O2 stats were too low#so yeah I think the anesthesiologist did not do Fat People Math correctly in the same way that manufacturers of plus size clothing#sometimes try to make it bigger all over and fail at making a garment that fits#surgery itself was apparently fine and very textbook
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If anyone has any videos of any enjotaire moments from the 2024 us tour could someone get them to me somehow? I literally will kiss you on the mouth thank you
#les mis#les miserables#enjolras#grantaire#enjoltaire#les mis 2024#les mis national tour#les mis 2024 tour#Devin archer#Kyle Adams#I’m literally begging you please#I’ve been wanting to see a professional version of Les mis ever since I was in it like 5 years ago#and I saw it last night and omg I cannot stop thinking about it
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can't believe a show based on a videogame (usually games adaptations are notoriously bad, which isn't the case here tho) gave me the beauty and the beast/twisted mirrors/enemies to traveling companions/ruthless antihero+optmistic but still badass heroine who takes none of his shit/age gap but make it sexy dynamic of my dreams. as much as i love maximus and i think he deserves the best writing ever because 1. he's a clever deconstruction of the aspiring Knight bro who's actually a bit of a loser and, as much as lucy, sees the world in black&white at first and then doesn't get what he thought he wanted but what he needs (or at least i hope he'll eventually get it), and 2. he's a cutie and i want an epic love story for him too, it's very funny how they tried to give us a puppy kind of romance and the tumblr girlies still fixated on the "toxic ~she bites his finger off and he cuts hers off and sews it on his hand in what we'll pretend it's a symbolic marriage rings exchange or whatever~ asshole who used to be a nice guy/good girl™ with a lot of spunk and hidden anger but unshakeable morals" kind of relationship.
#mind you idt the writers will ever have the guts to go for this pair or anything and i'm perfectly okay with the maximus/lucy romance#but still. they tried to give us the wholesome love story between two cuties with a killer side#and the fandom went ~mmmh we kinda want for that girl and the noseless radioactive ghoul to fuck nasty actually#shhdhdhf i'm sorry but this was so predictable to me. conosco i miei polli#also. i don't fully understand those who see it as a father/daughter thing? just because it worked on tlos#doesn't mean we need the same kind of dynamic here#1. despite him being an actual father (or at least. he was 200+ years ago) i've never seen a less paternal character than the ghoul lmao#2. lucy is an adult woman. young but in her mid twenties i guess? cooper had (and maybe still has) a daughter but the kid was like. 6 or 7?#lucy doesn't need a daddy she's a grown up. stop infantilizing women all the freaking time#let them be fully equals!! let them be bickering road trip companions/a killer squad/tentative allies who eventually form a real bond#i SWEAR if the writers go full parent/child bs with them in s2 because they're more popular#(at least on ao3. i don't expect the same level of insanity from the general audience)#than the canon ship i'll riot. idt they will but still#..... maybe they should go for a hot max/lucy/coop polycule instead. that would be interesting lmao#vaultghoul#fallout#val rambles in the tags#val speaks#txt
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After the Gravitational Beam Emitter, I now 3D printed the second thing from an anime I always wanted a replica of:
The Swordfish II from Cowboy Bebop
Here's the model, but I slightly modified it here and there for my print, so it's not the exact same.
There have been official models of this thing, but they're damn near impossible to find nowadays. Plus, there's something special about (kind of) creating your own replica from scratch rather than just buying one.
#the and stuff part of manga and stuff#cowboy bepop#swordfish II#swordfish 2#3d printing#The things I want replicas of are always the kind of things that never got official models at all#or they stopped getting manufactured like 15–20 years ago and you can only find them for like 5 times the original price nowadays#no idea what the actual scale is but the wingspan is like 25 centimeters#it's not a small model#there are also some pretty big inaccuracies in the model but you would only notice them with a reference image
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The current time traveling arc in Sousou no Frieren might be heartwarming for Frieren, as she is seeing her old companions again (even though she lost two to old age) but I believe it must be even more incredible for her companions.
They know that the Frieren they are currently traveling isn't only from a future but from a future where she at least outlived Himmel and Heiter. Until now, they have known her as someone who considers their existence a blink in her infinite lifespan (and while I believe they knew Frieren cared for them, more than she realized it herself, she was still pretty cold).
And now, they have the confirmation that they had a lasting impact on her.
Frieren refuses to say anything about the future for fear of changing it but she can't help but to say this to Heiter and Eisen.
Just the way she is smiling is the proof that she isn't the same person they have been traveling with. She looks proud of them.
Heiter and Eisen realize it.
And when Himmel asks: "What about me?"
This is the confirmation for the party that Frieren didn't simply care for them but truly loved them and that they had a lasting impact on her.
#It also makes the whole thing about Heiter tricking Frieren into staying around even funnier.#Frieren: I don't want to keep your kid with me.#Heiter: You absolute moron. Stop being stubborn. You will thank me for it eighty years ago!#sousou no frieren
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So- for the Red Knight AU I was thinking
What if Danny has in the past accidentally popped into the Lazarus pit in the League Of Assassins? Like what if they're not quite portals but more leaks in the GZ to the human realm and Danny, exploring because he's bored, slips through using a portal he made.
And when he does he sees this small child, probably nothing more than a toddler and he just ends up visiting sporadically to meet this kid.
Later when he and Jason go back to Gotham Danny runs into a very familiar face one day in the manor.
#Danny: Little Star!#Damian: Phantom?#Dick: No! Danny you already stole Jason Tim AND Connor you cant take another!#Danny: Technically i claimed him years ago so i have dibs advantage#Jason: Its like the second coming of Bruce#Tim is probably still going to get stabbed because now Damian has 2 men hes trying to prove hes better to#maybe ill toss it in#i just think its a cute idea that like a 15 yr old Danny found a child in a pit of assassins and decided to become his fun ghostly uncle#Danny was really sad when Damian stopped coming to their little meetings#but then found him in Gotham and this is so much better!#Danny didnt steal baby Damian because lets be real he saw no problem with a chuld being raised around deadly weapons#like look at his childhood his perception of normal is heavily skewed#also Damian said he didnt want to go and Danny isnt a kidnapper#the king and his red knight#The King and His Red Knight AU#TKAHRK#TKAHRK AU#danny phantom#dc x dp#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#danny phantom au#dpxdc#danny phantom fic
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I'm sure you get this a lot but because my cousin and I love that one Danny Trejo action comedy, I always have to snap my brain into the right position when I read Machete's name. Maybe I should draw them both chilling
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#I do get it a lot#people have been comparing him to that Danny Trejo character for 13 years#on monthly or these days weekly basis#sorry if I'm about to sound surprisingy pissy and bitchy and petty in the tags of your ask in particular#please don't think I'm not upset with you specifically#but I've been told this same thing three times this week alone and it's only wednesday#and it kind of stopped amusing me a long while ago I'm sorry#I know people mean well and find it funny#but having your longtime deeply personal oc continuously compared to some other unrelated fictional character#just because they happen to share a name#wears you down eventually#I never respond to them because I don't want to come across as needlessly nasty and overly sensitive#over something as utterly trivial as this#but if I never give even a slightest hint that I'm not particularly delighted by it anymore#I'm afraid it's going to just go on indefinitely#answered#rancidslime#I've thought about changing his name numerous times over the years just so I wouldn't have to hear about Danny Trejo anymore#but he's been called Machete for 16 years so it's not easy to let go of that name
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the day the earth stood still is the day i felt your presence leave it, and then every day after that.
#tw grief#sigh sigh sigh.#apologies in advance as this is not the happiest yap ! i would just like to write out some of my feelings on this day#the heaviest heart weighs under an insurmountable amount of grief — the ghost of love#days like today are a twisted reminder that has every emotion flooding through your soul#longing . guilt . anger . an indescribable melancholy that could only be consoled through the sands of time#a year ago i lost my best guy friend and it’s never really gotten easier . but ive heard it never does#all i can do is bundle up the love i have for him and search for him in the clouds that take up the sky#the circumstances around his passing will never not haunt me and rather than go into it all i’d like to say is this#if you have a loved one or a relationship or a friendship you cherish .. then never ever stop fighting for it - for them.#as time never really seems to be on our side#each day i’ll live as he intended . to greet the world with kindness and a smile and passion for positivity#in his wisest words (or rather after every phone call we’d have hehe) i’ll try my best to stay awesome & encourage you all to do so as well#if you’ve read this then i’m taking your hand and thanking you#it didn’t feel right not acknowledging him at all on this blog . he’s the one that introduced me to anime + more importantly : one piece#i wish i could talk to him about it all so he could see how far down this rabbit hole i fell just as he had done#will be spending the day enjoying his favorite episodes and being gentle with the world that surrounds us#this is not like my usual yaps & i feel vulnerable posting it but i wanted to carve out a space for him on this blog#forever missing the connie to my sasha . maybe in another universe we’ll get it right#have a wonderful sunday my sweet friendz and if you can — hug your loved ones & blow a kiss up to the sky 🤍💫#thank you for being here & helping me make this a safe place .#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims
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I think for most people it went:
Percy Jackson -> Greek Mythology -> Epic: The Musical
But somehow for me it was:
Epic: The Musical -> Percy Jackson -> Greek Mythology
#I've read the first book years ago but didn't have the motivation to continue#and now I have a new hyperfixation#and I mean a HYPERFIXATION#I can't stop thinking about pjo it's a problem#do you ever want to do something but you're too excited to do the said thing that by the time you actually get to do it#it is physically painful and you can't stop stimming and your heart beat goes crazy and you SHAKE WITH EXCITEMENT#that's me with reading pjo#I also recently listened ONLY epic the musical for 8 hours straight everyday for four days straight so#do you guys know that one 3.5 hour video about the whole greek mythology on youtube#that has been really useful#anyway real tags now#epic the troy saga#epic the cyclops saga#epic the ocean saga#epic the musical#epic the circe saga#percy jackson#percy jackson and the olympians#peter johnson#rick riordan#pjo
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SOMEBODY SEDATE ME!!!
HELP.
I feel like I'm clinging to Harvey Guillen and Matt Berry's trousers legs pleading with them to not be problematic
I did some digging, we can also reply on Kristen schaal for the minute
To clarify there is also a video on YouTube where Natasia basically confirms her account wasn't hacked she just wanted to see some other viewpoints so she doesn't get stuck in an echo chamber but likeee darling. You're hearing out the wrong people. Being open minded does not mean you have to endorse fascism
#natasia please post your updated political views i want to know whether i should completely stop supporting you or not#how did this all just disappear under teh surface years ago#wdym people have gone silent about this#its not fucking ok#wwdits#what we do in the shadows#natasia demetriou#kayvan novak#mark proksch#taika waititi
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my romantic self-esteem is just absolutely rock-solid. for whatever reason!
#I’m a catch!#and I’m so not interested in anybody who wouldn’t demonstrably make my life better in every way#and that involves not being afraid of me or the idea of romance/marriage in general#and if you are afraid it just isn’t interesting or attractive enough for me#there was a boy a few years ago and tbh I think he liked me#and I liked him! he was cute he was intense in an endearing way#and he was smart#we argued about Taylor and then the next time I saw him he was like Christmas tree farm is a good song#(it had just come out)#and he never did anything about it and then he moved away and that is totally fine#and I wish him well.#but the crush was killed by the simple fact that he never liked me enough to say it#like truly and with all (non-romantic) love; go with God#at that point lol#that said I have never wanted marriage or children as an abstract concept#so it makes it much easier to think along these lines#it would be so devastating to want it so badly and not get it!#but I can’t even imagine summoning the desire for it in an abstract sense#I’ll meet someone and love them and then that will lead to marriage and possibly children#or I won’t#but both roads look about the same to me in terms of desire#or any desire big enough worth mentioning#not talking about the whispers or the daydreams that do sometimes intrude#but yeah I don’t think full desire would come until there was a person#and there might not be! I cannot conjure them from the deeps lol#anyway I’ll stop talking about it because I know it can be sensitive/delicate to talk about#in a public setting
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saying people shouldn't ship an unlabeled (or bi/pan/etc) sapphic character with a male character just because she's canonically dating a woman is actually biphobic. hope this helps 👍
#why are you people confessing your sins in my notes. stop it!!!!!#IF THE SAPPHIC CHARACTER IS CANONICALLY A LESBIAN THAT'S DIFFERENT. DONT ERASE CANON SEXUALITIES. THANK U#i keep seeing people clowning on a mak.orra artist on twt because. wait for it.. they ship mak.orra.#can u people just let it go. it doesn't matter#t.lok ended almost ten years ago let people ship what they want. mak.orra did not kill ur grandma.#and it's not lesbohpbic or homophobic or Whatever to ship korra with a guy because SHE'S NOT A LESBIAN. SHE IS CANONICALLY BI.#SAYING SHE CAN ONLY BE SHIPPED WITH WOMEN IS BIPHOBIC. GOODBYE.#hello grace here
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