#and the same man that STILL CARES ENOUGH to look at A GOD in the face and telling him to go fuck off and die and stop manipulating erik)
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Hi! I saw your requests were open and I wanted to see if you could write something fluffy with Levi and a reader thatâs shorter than him đ„ș
Maybe something where heâs doting on them? I adore the idea of a cold Levi whoâs soft for his partner and Iâm part of the minority of people who is actually shorter than him lol. I see a lot of fics describing the reader as taller but not enough for the other shorties out here đââïž
Finally. The end of the day.
Levi lets out a loud sigh as the door of his bedroom closes behind him. His head leans against it and his eyes close. After hours of training, meetings, monitoring, and doing a shit ton of paperwork, he's finally back to the comfort of his bedroom at exactly midnight.
He lifts his head back up and looks around the small space, an unfamiliar (to others at least) smile spreads on his face when his eyes land on the sleepy yet smiling person sitting on his bed.
âWelcome back home, Levi.â
God, their sweet voice makes him melt into a puddle every time. He can't believe he gets to call such a precious person his partner, he considers himself a very lucky man.
âI'm sorry I woke you up, my love.â he says gently as he takes off his jacket. They shake their head and watch him as he tries his best to take off the belts wrapped around his body as fast as possible, âit's okay, darling. I wasn't sleeping, you know I can't without you.â
Levi cups their face after he is done and leans down to press a soft kiss to their forehead. People would lose their mind if they saw the way he acts and talks to them, in fact, only the people he's closest to in the survey corps (which is very few) know about their relationship, it wouldn't even cross people's minds that the strong and stoic captain who doesn't care if he hurts anyone's feelings is dating the sweet and gentle nurse who once cried with a soldier while trying to stitch him up.
âDid you have a good day today? Any of those brats bothered you?â he caresses their soft cheeks with the pad of his thumbs, mesmerized by the way the light casts a warm glow on their face. They lean into his touch, their eyes closing in relaxation. âeverything was okay. Jean and Eren even teamed up to help me carry the new supplies stock and put them on the high shelves for me.â
He chuckles softly and pulls away from them so he can quickly change into more comfortable clothes. He used to sleep in his uniform, belts and all, just in case something happens and he couldn't waste his time putting everything back on, most of the nights he didn't sleep to begin with, but ever since they started sharing the same bed, not only did he find himself falling asleep but he also invested in some soft night clothes so he can cuddle with them without any restrictions.
âStill refusing to use the stool I got you?â he smirks as he starts changing his clothes. They've been dating long enough for them to not care about being naked in front of the other.
âI don't need it! The boxes were just heavy!â
âHmm, sure you don't,â he teases as he gets under the blanket on his side of the bed (which is obviously the one on the near the bedroom door) and pats his lap with two hands. They huff, followed by a small, almost inaudible "I'm not that short", yet they don't hesitate to straddle his thighs and nuzzle their face in his warm chest. He wraps his arms around their body and presses a kiss on top of their head.
âif you weren't so short you wouldn't be able to fit in my arms all snuggly,â he looks down at their face and smiles at the adorable sight of their cheek pressed firmly on his chest, probably so they're able to hear his heart beat, they told him before that it's their favourite sound, âlook at you, you could fit in my pocket, I could take you everywhere with me.â
They look up at him with the sweetest look on their face, their pretty eyes soft and affectionate. He wishes he could freeze this moment and stay like this forever, no titans, no fighting, no heartbreak, just him relaxing with his beloved in his arms.
âCan I stay in your heart instead? I think I'll like it there more.â
Levi lets out a shaky sigh. He's not one to get emotional, he can't even remember the last time he cried because it's been so long, but at that moment he feels a tug at his heart strings and a lump form in his throat. He never thought he'd ever have someone who loves him unconditionally, who would stay up till the late hours waiting for him because they want him to be the last thing they see before they close their eyes, whose presence felt the closest to what he heard others describe as home, who looked past the walls he has up and saw someone worth all their patience.
âYou know I can't have you stay anywhere else. I love you more than I've ever loved anything in my life.â
âMore than tea?â they teasingly raise an eyebrow making him chuckle.
"Yes, my love. More than tea," he replies, gently brushing a strand of hair away from their eyes.
âMore than cleaning?â
"now I don't know about that...â
âhey!â
Levi laughs loudly, a deep and hearty sound he never imagined would come from him before he met them. Their melodic giggles join his, filling the air with a positive energy he only experiences around them. At that moment, he feels his heart fill with a great amount of happiness, a feeling he always thought he didn't need, but now can never live without, and it makes him realise that he is now complete.
In the past, he thought that when he'd feel complete he would let go of everything, even life itself. But now, the thought of being separated from the love of his life terrifies him, and for the first time, he wants nothing more than to continue living and breathing, even if it means fighting those ugly monsters every single day.
Is life easy right now? No, Eren Jeager is still a big pain in his ass, and the whole situation with the titans keeps getting worse and worse, but now he gets to come home to moments like these, and they simply make everything better.
I lost the plot and didn't make this very focused on short!reader but it's there nonetheless! I love soft Levi who's a totally different person around his love đ
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Astarion was not a "corrupt" magistrate.
Hello again. Just more opinion about my favorite battle buddy. Warning, trigger words in use. Game spoilers.
It's not quite set in stone that Astarion really was a magistrate, but we are going to go with the idea he was for this thought pocket. Also this is just game as it is now info use.
I don't believe he was corrupt magistrate. There were a few things in the game that called that out, but one in particular really set it in stone for me.
His response to the Ansur lair puzzle regarding justice.
Astarion: âMercy?! Please. Justice should be a harsh lesson. All the better to deter the next vagabond.â
This makes me think he was a bit of a hard ass as a magistrate, but not corrupt. Had he been dealing dirty in the background I really feel like this answer would have been more dismissive or flippant. But he is pretty intent that this is his stance. Very, iv said this a thousand times, type feel.
I think, he was more of a by the book, law is law type. You murder and rape you swing from the gallows. You steal from a shop keeper, you do time. Period.
My theory is, he got beat up because he wasn't lenient with a member of the Gur that was on trial.
"Leniency?! You have been found guilty of negligence resulting in the death of a innocent! You are owed nothing!"
Could you hear it?
"But he talks about being hedonistic and indulgent all the time. "
Yes, but most patriar level citizens were spoiled entitled brats that did what they desired. Have you talked to some of them in the upper city? Yeeesh.
Was he arrogant? Most likely. Prejudice? Obviously (insert gnomes here). But being a haughty jerk does not make one evil.
Sex, nudity, orgies, parties, over indulging etc are not taboo in Faerun. If everybody is consenting to be being naked in a fountain, hopefully in a private villa garden, its not a crime. He talks about that like its a memory, but I like to think his wine drunk giggly ass was actually in that fountain.
If you want to have a little rabbit hole fun, break down the name. Faerun = Fae Run = Run by the Fae. And last I checked, fairies were always down for some naked in the water time. I mean, come on, you can go to pound town with a bear. (No offence, Halsin.) You think they are going to draw the line at how may wieners you can have in the same pot? I think not.
I think the criminal behavior came after he was turned. Cazador may have been targeting him, but not because they were involved. But maybe due to him looking like his old master Vellioth? And he took advantage of a situation. Who knows, lots of ideas there.
"But he's always getting onto Tav for doing the "right" thing."
Yup, Tav is being too trusting and getting too involved with other peoples problems. Why is this an issue for Astarion? Kindness was what got him entombed for a year. He cared about that sweet mans life and was severally punished for it. Its akin to being mauled by a dog and then watching people just reach out a pet every one they see. The anxiety of that attack is still there and it paints every encounter with its opinion. Danger.
"He's not smart enough."
Oh I bet he is. You can be whip smart at a subject and socially akward at the same time. I'm very good at my job. I know it inside and out and can give you any detail, rule, configuration at the drop of a hat in the most professional and proficient way possible. But ask me to be eloquent in a social situation? HA! You are better off asking a rock to fart. Unrelated.
"But he wants to ascend, and that's evil."
That is more about who is is after years of torment and abuse. Not before.
I think the rogue role was adopted to stay alive while hunting. And what a gods awful fate to be turned into the thing you hated the most. A criminal.
I'm sure Caz was real tickled by that. Expletive Adjective.
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Super Massive End Game Veilguard Spoilers Under the Cut!
Seriously. If you haven't finished playing Veilguard, DO. NOT. READ. So I finished DA:tV and I have been really trying to sort out my thoughts... And well...
Sdlkajshdfklajhsdfklajhsdflkjahsdklfjhaskldfjhaskldfhj I CAN'T!!! My dudes I am SO conflicted!!! Solas is the only character I have ever come across that I both love to pieces and want the best for him but I also want to beat him until he is a puddle of bruised yolk and cracked shells. This dude KILLED VARRIC FOR REALSIES! I am not okay with that. My Hawke's GOING to hunt him down when she finds out. If the Tevinter Magisters can get into the Black City then dammit so can she. And when she does, I am not sure even Lavellan can save him. Amelia (My Hawke) has lost so many of her friends/family/loved ones she can't handle this anymore. He also killed God's gift to elves Felassan. It's been over a decade since I read The Masked Empire but I don't remember there being a great reason other than him being upset that Felassan failed. Dude has GOT to stop killing his friends lol. Especially the hot ones. Like. Come on. As if that wasn't enough, he manipulated Rook. I love my first Rook (Carwyn de Riva) so much that I am STRUGGLING to play another playthrough with any of the other Rooks I had planned. To see that he manipulated her with blood magic... Stopped her from being able to mourn Varric with the others properly.... AND tricked her into that prison??? He didn't think she'd be able to get out. Luckily she had plot armor because if she hadn't gotten out I would find a way into Thedas to rip him apart myself. *Aggressive breathing noises* I feel very normal about this, obviously. Seriously though, guys, I came THIIIIIIIS close to tricking him with the fake dagger even knowing that Lanaya (my Lavellan) wouldn't have gotten her happy ending. JUST so I could see the LOOK on his face when he realized ROOK outplayed him at his own game! At the SAME time however... The idea of sending him into the Black City alone... hurts me lol! I don't want him to suffer. Dude has suffered a lot and honestly, I'm not entirely sure his being a friend-murdering ass is *entirely his fault... The longer I sit with everything, the more certain I am that Solas didn't really have a choice. Seems very much like he was sort of bound to the will of Mythal. Maybe I've missed something, I'm not as lore-savvy as I once was. But in the end when Mythal tells Solas that she releases him from her service and only THEN (NOT when Lavellan BEGS him to stop) is he willing to do the right thing? I don't know. It just reminded me SO much of his personal quest in Inquisition where his Wisdom Spirit friend had been bound and twisted against its purpose. If it works anything like what we saw in Inquisition with whoever drank from the Well of Sorrows, who's to say when something was him vs the will of Mythal? It could be a bit of a stretch but, there's certainly room for that interpretation, I think. And if that's the case, then he doesn't deserve the hell that awaits him. It's also the only interpretation I can really accept Lanaya still wanting to be with him. Varric was her friend too. While forgiveness is something I give freely, I cannot imagine reconciling with a man who did what Solas did without him having been essentially forced into doing it. *Sighs deeply* I saw the different versions of his endgame images... Shit man. The only way this man gets a happy ending is with Lavellan. Dude looks so miserable and gloomy in all the other endings. Moire (Trevelyan) was Solas' friend. She wouldn't want to send him off to be alone in such a terrible place. That would seriously eat at her. (Rook wouldn't care. Her give a damn was busted after he betrayed her for the twenty-billionth time.) It can never be anything but a complete and utter rollercoaster with this man! I do think that the ending I got with him was as good as it possibly could have been though, given everything. Sorry for this really poorly written rant. I needed to get this out of my system and it's almost 3am lol.
#dragon age#datv#solavellan#solas#dragon age veilguard#dragon age the veilguard#datv spoilers#Spoilers for the ending of DATV#MASSIVE SPOILERS
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A story of a Knight and a Yokai (part 6)
RK: *walking next to Rumia, yawning* Gosh, What a long day that was.
Rumia: *sigh* You know, i was expecting you to be a lot more careful. You just ran in there without a plan, why?
RK: *shrug* I don't know. Maybe i just wanted to vent a bit? I knew it wasn't a yokai so i just figured whatever it was couldn't be as dangerous as the things you told me some yokai can do.
Rumia: *point at the blood on his armor which is slowly turning into light particles* And what's up with that?
RK: Oh, it's turning back into aura.
Rumia: ... Can you elaborate?
RK: *pensive* Well... My blood is a part of me. And as i told you, my body is being kept from death with only my aura. So what you see is basically aura.
Rumia: So it's not real?
RK: Yes and no? *Sigh* My aura is fused with every single part of my body, including blood. The only exceptions are my hair and my nails. So when i bleed, it's "real" blood but its essence stays within me. Meaning you can see the blood and touch it, but if you tried to eat it, you'd have no taste nor nourishment from it. Since it will dissolve and come back to me.
Rumia: What about the smell? I can't smell it either.
RK: *shrug* It's the first thing to disappear... *Chuckle* Funnily enough, the fighting ground must be beautiful to look at, with all the light particles that would be floating in the air.
Rumia: *nod* I see...
*both of them continue marching a bit in silence*
RK:...
Rumia: ... You said a grimm was in the forest?
RK: *snapping his fingers* I knew i forgot something! *Putting his plastron back into his bag* It was a grimm alright. Black creature made of pure malice and all that. And i still have no idea how it got here.
Rumia: Yukari, the Yokai you were supposed to meet today mind you, told us that a bunch of weird things appeared at the same time you and Juniper did.
RK: Is that so?... But why?
Rumia: *scoff* You think i know? I'm the darkness yokai, not the dimensional rift yokai. Besides, even she doesn't know what happened or why.
RK: Hm... Maybe it's like a bridge? I did voyage in a place between dimensions once, before falling into the ever after. So this world and my world AND the ever after could be connected. Doesn't explain the why, but it explains how that thing came here.
Rumia: Uh... We should probably tell her about that then. Your world seems... Dangerous.
RK: Remnant is a dead world, yes. *Chuckle* Really, it's a miracle that there are people left. At least in the ever after, the "bad guys" all had consciousness. You can reason with a dragon and the Jabberwalker is not that strong. Immortal, but weak. *Shake his head* The Grimm's are just like cockroaches. Always more and more.
Rumia: *pensive* ... I wonder if i could control them. They are made of darkness so maybe...
RK: There's already a witch controlling them. The Salem gal i told you about. You might have to fight for control over them.
Rumia: *thumb on her chest, proud look on her face* I am powerful, i can beat her!
RK: ... She's immortal. Even more than me.
Rumia: Hm... *Stomach grumble* Uh... *Slight blush* Sorry.
RK: ... You are the darkness yokai, maybe you can eat the Grimms?
Rumia: You think so?
RK: *shrug* They are the manifestation of the God of Darkness power. They dissolve quickly, but since you ARE the manifestation of Darkness, you could probably absorb them... You'd stop starving to death.
Rumia: *looking at the knight, surprised* H-how did you-?
RK: *cracking his neck* You keep eating yet your stomach still starve. What you need is the darkness inside every man and woman. You don't "eat" people, you eat what's inside them. And grimms? *Chuckle* Grimms are entirely made of that stuff.
Rumia: ... You think that would work?
RK: *shrug* What do i know? I'm crazy, remember? And it IS a crazy idea. But it's worth a shot, right?
Rumia: ... *Nod* Yeah. You might be right.
RK: At least it should be easy to find them, they are drawn to negativity. So they will probably gather and try attacking the human village.
Rumia: I... Kinda can't get near the village for obvious reasons.
RK: *roll his eyes* I know that, but we could patrol the periphery. It's not as if they are going to run into the loving embrace of a damn beowolf.
Rumia: You'd be surprised.
RK: ... Hm... You're right, i knew a guy who wanted to make the Grimms his. Just gonna hope there's no mad scientist this time.
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charles and erik with each other: oh dear, oh dear. gorgeous đ„șđ charles and erik with the villain of the week/the x-men: K1LL YOURSELF đ„đ„đ„
X-Men: First Class (2011) | X-Men Apocalypse (2016)
#charles is soo insane for looking at a god in the face and telling him to fuck off bc he was hurting his best friend. most normal guy.#cherik#mine*#x-men#xmenedit#parallelsedit#filmedit#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#otp: i want you by my side#god charles' entire demeanor towards apocalypse in xma has always been SOO funny to me. he literally looks ANNOYED every time#apocalypse speaks in the movie. he doesn't even look intimidated or worried that he's trying to possess CHARLES'S BODY or anything#mind you charles wrote his thesis about mutation and here he has THE FIRST MUTANT ever in front of him. who's also a god threatening#to destroy the world. and charles' only reaction is:#'whatever. MOVE OUT OF THE WAY LOSER i CANNOT see erik from where you are standing and i'm worried about him'#and i do think it's very sweet that after this raven tells erik he has to fight for what he has left - and he thinks about charles#(the man that stood on the balcony all those years ago and that cared enough about him to tell him there is more to him#and the same man that STILL CARES ENOUGH to look at A GOD in the face and telling him to go fuck off and die and stop manipulating erik)#charles loves him so much you don't get it........... i'm foaming at the mouth i'm so normal about them
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I'm convinced that the idea that "love is blind" is a pysop meant to brainwash women into settling for less. I always see beautiful women who clearly take care of themselves, dress well, get their lashes done, work out etc with boyfriends who look like they just rolled out of bed and put yesterday's clothes on. And I very rarely see this happening the other way around.
Men shill the idea that it's shallow for women to want someone who looks halfway decent but never hold themselves to this standard. They're so cruel to women they find unfuckable and treat women who they are attracted to but don't fit the societal beauty standard as dirty secrets (how many times have fat women talked about how men are happy to have sex with them but won't claim them in public because they think being seen with a fat woman is embarrassing?) The dadbod thing has been big for a couple of years while there has been no equivalent for mombods that gained traction (you know, the ones whose bodies actually went through physical changes due to pregnancy instead of just gaining weight from stealing their kid's snacks and watching the football instead of playing it).
It's so bad that even women shill this idea to other women. You have to ignore the fact that he never trims his beard and his daily outfit is a lint encrusted hoodie and sweatpants with a hole because if you don't you're shallow and not considering who he is on the inside too. We're told that being haggard shouldn't count as long as they have a good personality, and while I agree personality is important, a huge amount of men don't have good personalities. A lot of men are boring at best and a lot of them are just straight up assholes. Most of them aren't raking it in cash either to make up for their lack of looks and character. It's sad to see so many women doing the most for men who aren't particularly pleasant to be around, don't have money, and aren't physically appealing.
Men also shill this to eachother. I remember when I was a teenager there were huge hate trains almost entirely compromised of grown men against any pretty boy singer who got popular (Justin Bieber had it especially bad). They never did anything wrong (Justin Bieber's hate train was at its worst years before he started acting like a douche), men just hated them because they looked nice and girls liked them. They also act like any guy in real life who's comfortable with being attractive instead of purposefully making themselves unattractive to fit in with the other ugly men is gay and act bitterly when the men who actually make an effort get more female attention than a man who last showered three days ago. They act like women are catty bitches who hate prettier women when their egos are so fragile around men who look decent. There was even a recent study that suggested good looking men are at a disadvantage when applying for certain jobs, because their male colleagues feel threatened by them.
It wasn't always like this either. Not all that long ago it was expected that a man dress up nicely, wear cologne, style his hair etc when he was trying to court a woman.
When my mother was my age, she could just walk into a cinema and at any given time there would be films with leading men who looked like Leo, Depp, Brad Pitt, James Spader, River Phoenix, Will Smith, Denzel Washington, Brendan Fraser, etc. And now those World's Sexiest Men lists are filled with average or below average men and we're told that we're meant to cream our panties over guys who look indistinguishable or even worse than your average guy on the street. Right after this era my mum was young in was when the media started pushing this idea that we have to settle for unattractive men or else we're immature and shallow. There were a ton of movies with men like Adam Sandler pulling gorgeous 20 year old women just because they were funny. That stupid genre of movie where an awkward nerd pines over the cheerleader who is pining over a jock who's always portrayed as a bully that the cheerleader is framed as misguided or a bitch for wanting a handsome boyfriend instead of picking the nerd (even though the dork main character we're meant to root for also only likes the cheerleader for her looks and is just as much of an asshole as the jock) in became really popular around the same time.
Unsure of whether this is because of men complaining about beauty standards or other feminist concepts they only half understand (while female beauty standards never budge and have always and remain a much higher bar to reach than male beauty standards), or if men are just forcing this idea that looking like shit is cancelled out by telling a few dad jokes so that women will feel pressured into dating them no matter how busted they look just to not be alone.
#it's rough out here#95% of men here all have the same stupid haircut and wear the same ugly tracksuits and are starting to bald at 25 due to bad lifestyles#and women still date them just for the sake of having a man so they see no reason to bother trying because they'll get laid anyway#and the few men who are good looking and don't uglify themselves think they're god's gift to women and act like assholes#because they know they're in short supply#no wonder lady malika called upon me this year cuz ever since I began thinking maybe i want to explore the opposite sex side of my sexualit#I've paid enough enough attention to them to realise that most of them are hideous by choice#and as long as women keep settling for men who expect them to be beautiful despite having no interest in caring for their own appearance's#we're just going to be stuck in this situation
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Of my 2% capacity to be attracted to anyone, my type is like 90% women, 5% pretty men and 5% men you would swear are super fucking manly, and never questioned being straight and cis, but are now suddenly *stressed* that they can't figure out why their attraction to me [fully socially interpreted as a woman and labelled that way up until relatively recently] feels incredibly fucking gay
#you are a straight man correct? Yes. Attracted to someone you view as a woman correct? Yes... But you are afraid that makes you gay?#Afraid is a strong word but also stop asking stupid questions#The end result is I tend to date a lot of men who either then realize they are women or bi or gay and I am there when they are taking out#the messiest parts of that on whoever they are with at the time#and on one hand it means I created a space that made them feel safe enough to self examine#but on the other hand I'm their last stop when the fallout hits#OR they just realize they find the expectations put on them for masculinity to be really oppressive even negligent or abusive#I would say I need to adjust my strategy and stop trying to 'woo' men the same way I don't actually -flirt- with women#but I have already solved this problem by refusing to date ever again#The retrospective is funny though#The problem is I am attracted to men in a gay way and to women in a gay way but no one tells you the consequence of that and looking#like a pretty butch is that it really confuses the straight guys#Like why is this guy who's usually hmmm... as dom and masc as you would imagine suddenly in my lap and red and having entire feelings#about the way I am holding his hip? He doesn't knoww either and he's really pressed about it#And that thing messy lesbians do where they act jealous of you and also like they want to fuck you at the same time that looks like a red#flag from hell? Imagine dragging that out of unsuspecting straight guys -menTM-#They don't know why they are acting like that around me either but it's going to go one of two ways#either it will seem overtly threatening and aggressive to everyone involved including themselves or they'll have enough social sense#and tact to be playful about it but still not be sure if they are flirting or whether they like me at all#I have patience for one of those and unfortunately[?] it's the guy who's in my lap looks like he's being tortured and can't find his footin#not the guy telling me how much he's going to beat my ass at some game and I am going to like it or some macho bullshit#And I will be oblivious for the first 50% of it#because if there are gods they are cruel#He never realized he's actually the little spoon be nice and give him a minute#He can't tell me he likes me if he doesn't know he likes me but I opened a jar for him and asked him about his feelings and now he's warm#I actually ended up never dating many women at all because of weird lesbian mixed signals and things#At least not while they were women#I don't flirt or make friends I just decide that people are mine and start taking care of them [while respecting their autonomy and shit]#and I am starting to think this is how I make problems for myself#yes I am playing 5-d chess with gender and am now a he/they but it is not what it is cracked up to be
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im gonna answer the other ask later but TRANSFEM SCARY I WAS. ALSO THINKING HBBBGNN
#willy goes both ways abt such things bcus. one he is a misogynist and a homophobe or at least was on earth. obviously#and he still holds you know that. hypermasculine toxic mindset as of s1 based on the uhhh#âoverly feminine namby pambyâ whatever he says#(kicking myself for not having it memorized)#but i assume that he encountered more variable things in the forgotten realms that may have made him more normal abt. gender variance there#god okay i. hes not. he has an opinion of âyou can be a freak if you want whatever. ill play pretend with you. ill tolerate it.â#i really like transmasc ron for similar reasons.. of.... especially when they meet in the cabin where hes cooking fish#and willys like âthats right get some bass in your voice boy !!â#like i know its just regular like. ron isnt masculine enough. but it reads very sarcastic....#âget some bass in your voiceâ like . you wanna be a boy so bad okay. ill humor you. hahahah. man up then.#um but transfem scary i like a similar. thing. of.... tolerating her being a girl and playing along but always being.#kind of chiding about it.#im so worried were not on the same pagw#which is fine obviously but i get so shy abt when. someone offers me headcanons that i dont agree with and i have to be like#âhahaha yeah whatever you sayâ like i cant say anything back cus its Wrong to me. BUT.#god though yeah her. visibly being hard around him & its both deeply sort of gross but very flattering to him like. i can work with this...#i think of him as a. opportunist. hes not into cock & not into kids really. dwindling upwards of teen girls but eh.#so when a cute troubled teen girl is literally. offering herself up to you at your feet man its like. why would i say no !! âĄ#hes more into taking advantage of her than any of her personal details you know. like her as a person doesnt really. matter. who cares#shes available and stupid and looking to him for advice and validation.#sorry again i havent LISTENED TO ANY OF THIS. I CAN BE WRONG#didnt anthony make the joke abt willy not being brave enough to try pegging. maybe this is his chance#who said that. who. said that#you really want to manipulate a teen girl then you humble yourself and suck her cock and shes yours forever.#im crazy. im crazy#.dxt#scary
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pairing: gojo x fem!reader
summary: gojo satoru was the most notorious man across the land. he was the strongest soldier the north had ever produced, the most brilliant of minds, and somebody who slept his way through the noble ranks. his parents set him up in a marriage agreement with you, hoping that a tie with a ring would help save his image. you know gojo never wanted this, and you try to act as if that was normal. but soon, without you or even him realizing it, he comes to the conclusion that while he never wanted this marriage - he's beginning to want you.
warnings: 18+ mdni: arranged marriage, angst, slight no comfort, gojo is emotionally constipated for a bit, heavy making out, eating out (fem! receiving), fingering, (naoya)
word count: 19.7k (sorry)
note: inspired by this drabble. i'm so happy this behemoth of a fic is done!! art credit: _3aem
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Gojo Satoru was the most powerful man alive.Â
Not only physically, though some people chalked him up to being half god, but his name held even more control. The Gojo family of the North was as old as the gods themselves, and theyâve been making sure itâs been kept that way. They owned so much land that you would walk to the ends of the earth and circle back around and it would probably still be theirs. They had armies of unfathomable sizes under their command, so much riches that they could probably buy an entire nation and still have plenty to spend.Â
His presence was just as large as his name created him to be. Any ball he went to, all eyes would fall on him. On the battlefield, men feared to see the flash of white hair, knowing that his strength was unbridled.Â
And his physical beauty? Most people assumed he was blessed by the gods himself. Gojo had a certain look that just made your knees weak, your heart palpitate, and your cheeks heated up. The handful of times youâve seen him from afar youâve been able to understand why all the girls (and some of the guys) yearned for his attention. His eyes were a piercing blue as if somebody had held a mirror to the sky when creating them. His hair had grown whiter with the years, as white as the snow that sunk deep into the grounds of the north. Gojo had the build of a soldier, and he towered over most people. His bulky build was intimidating, but you heard some girls whisper behind their hands about how he must look underneath all those ceremonial garments.Â
The lord of the North was power itself.Â
Which would make you, by martial association, the North's most powerful lady.
And for somebody who grew up with the same respect as a stable boy, it was all too much too soon.Â
And yes, while on paper you still had your father's last name and legacy tied to it, you werenât really a daughter to your parents. Your mother, though you had to call her by her name whenever you werenât in public, seeing how she wasnât really your mother, made sure it was kept that way. Your other three half-sisters should have been in your spot, either one of them more true to the family name than you. But seeing how theyâre already married, you were the final resort.Â
Gojo Satoru, though youâve seen him countless times (something common because of how close in ranks your families were), had only acknowledged you a couple of times. You didnât care much, never did, because that's what you were used to. After all, it was a common fact that you were what they nicknamed âthe bastard daughterâ of the West.
But it didnât seem to matter much to his parents, as they offered their son up to you in a marriage arrangement.Â
And who were you to turn that down?Â
They, his parents, assured you that their son was looking forward to this union. He was the one to offer it, they said, which you were skeptical of but werenât stupid enough to question. You knew how much Gojo Satoru was tarnishing their reputation with his promiscuous ways, but as long as he was okay with this arrangement you couldnât find any part of you that would disagree with it.Â
After all, you knew that this marriage wasnât out of love, fascination, or even a mutual understanding, but because of the strength your own family (more so your father) held, and how you were the only feasible option for a bride.Â
So, after weeks of rocking back and forth on agreements, paperwork, dress rehearsals, and grueling dancing lessons (and still no sight of the man himself), you found yourself standing at the end of the aisle, your arm linked around your fathers as a large smile plasters itself on your face.Â
Ever since you were young you had convinced yourself that the only man who would want to taint his name enough to marry you would have to be either a troll or an ogre, so that fact that your future spouse was human was better than anything you could have asked for.Â
And youâre not daft. As your heart hammered loudly against the limited space of your chest, waiting for your cue to start walking, you reminded yourself that this was just a mutual agreement. Itâs hard for people at your level to marry for love, but even then, you canât help but hope that you can make a decent friendship out of this.Â
You glanced at your father next to you, catching his eyes as he nodded once, staring ahead of him into the small crowd of just your two families, and patted your arm.Â
You still remember the music playing, the instruments harmonizing together as you took a tentative step forward, feeling warm under the eyes of people you didnât know, but you kept reminding yourself that this was the best thing that couldâve happened to you. Either you died as an old maid in the little room you had near the kitchens at your old home or got married to some warlord who wanted an entire village as family.Â
The orchids that surrounded the venue still infiltrate your nose as you think about it, the way the silk of your dress felt against your skin that had been scrubbed raw earlier that morning.Â
And there you saw him, standing at the end of the aisle. At that moment you realized how much of a mistake this was,
Because the man that stood there, the man who you were about to marry, seemed like heâd rather be dead than be your husband.Â
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You blink out of your trance, sitting up straighter in your seat as you mindlessly stop tearing up pieces of your bread, rubbing your fingers together to get rid of the remnants of flour.Â
The dining hall was huge, far bigger than the one back home. Though you rarely ate there, you could still remember it, and it definitely wasnât as big as this. Yet, despite its size, you felt like you were a little grain of rice in its vastness.Â
The Gojo estate itself was humongous. His parents resided in a smaller house near the ocean now that youâve moved in, but you would bet that the word humble they used to describe it was anything but humbling. Youâve been here for weeks and yet you feel like youâve only discovered half of what this place has to offer.
There were guards at every corner, but at this point, youâre convinced they're just for decoration. If your husband is as decorated a warrior as they say he is, he could protect this entire estate with no help necessary.Â
You stare at your plate, at the array of food prepared just for you, different sorts of cured meats, loaves of bread, cheeses, fruits, and juices from all over, and still, you feel no hunger.Â
Months ago youâd be ecstatic to see how much your life has changed. You get new clothes that fit you, food whenever you desire, people at your beck and call. Your room is no longer that cramped space youâd been given to hide you away from the rest of your family, but twice the size of your father's old bedroom. You wake up earlier and sleep later, do whatever you want, but none of it feels deserved.
The only thing you can bring yourself to think about is how the last time you saw your husband was the night of the wedding. The look on his face when you made your empty vows to one another, his faint lingering kiss on your cheek. You can blink your eyes and still see the way he left, his jaw clenched as he ignored the calls from his parents. How, even here, rumors seemed to follow you.Â
Safe to say, you spent your meals alone.Â
Not only that, but your rooms were entirely separate as well. You were told that you had to consummate the night of your marriage, but from what youâve heard, your husband sleeps in an entirely different wing of the estate, with walls and corridors between the two of you.Â
You tried taking your mind off of things, pretending as if this was normal.Â
Most days youâd walk around, trying to familiarize yourself with the layout of the grounds. Youâd walk the gardens a couple times each week, try to memorize the way back to different places, and stay in the library the other half of the time.Â
A part of you was happy to at least be away from that miserable home, but it felt like swapping one prison for a slightly better one. Your maids were kind, of course, but you didnât know anybody here. They treat you like a lady of noble ranking, as expected from being the wife of the Lord in the North, but youâd rather be given an apron and start working around instead of this mind-numbing boredom of just sitting around.Â
You stare at your plate, chewing on a grape slowly.Â
Looking up you see the sun filtering in through the large windows, illuminating the long table that sits like an empty grave. Clicking your tongue you pick up another grape, slumping in your seat as you look up.Â
This is just the way things will be.
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âAlina?â
You call out from your vanity, staring at your maid as sheâs picking out different earrings for you to pick from for dinner.Â
Itâs a couple of days later, and still no word from Gojo. But that doesnât mean that you havenât stopped for a single second to not think about your supposed husband.Â
You try not to care, pretend that youâre lucky that heâs not bothering you or going out of his way to remind you of this unfortunate situation, but above anything you just feel alone.Â
The maid looks up, a curl falling from her tight bun as she smiles at you in the mirror.Â
âYes, my lady?â She stands up straighter, flattening out the wrinkles from her apron tied around her waist as she begins walking towards you with the jewelry.Â
âIs thisâŠis this normal?â You crane your neck around to look at the different pairs sheâs holding up, nudging your head to the red ones that shine bright, and watch as she sets them down on your desk, resting her hand on your hip as she stares at you quizzically.Â
âWhat do you mean?â She asks as you begin taking your earrings off, putting the new ones on yourself. In the beginning, she protested, saying that a woman of your caliber shouldnât have to do such measly tasks. But the more you protested, she eventually gave up.Â
âDo husbands and wives usually sleep separately?â you say, feeling your chest contract in embarrassment at the stupidness of your question.Â
You watch as she swallows thickly, avoiding eye contact as she sets on fixing some parts of your hair.Â
Staring patiently through the vanity mirror as you watch her work, Alina wets her lips, her eyes downcast as if not wanting to answer.Â
âWas there somebody else he preferred to marry?â You decide to ask, twisting that knife that you knew was lodged in her side, one that was stopping her from talking, and watch as her eyes widen slightly in shock.Â
âIf you donât answer Iâm just going to keep asking more uncomfortable questions,â you warn and Alina snorts softly, shoving your shoulder a little bit as you crack a smile.Â
She moves around, picking up a necklace, and begins clasping it behind your neck.Â
âIâŠI donât know. Heâs always been pretty secretive and,â she looks at you briefly, âSelective. I donât mean to speak ill of my lord but it would be stupid not to acknowledge his old ways. But we never heard of a specific girl.â
Alina places a gentle hand on your shoulder, a sad smile on her face.Â
âYouâre lucky my lady,â she says, her voice hushed, âMost wives donât have the freedom to say their husbands donât care what they do. Had you married that Zenin, youâd be pregnant by now.â
You shudder out a breath, nodding once more.Â
âIâll see you after dinner, my lady,â she says, moving out of the way as you stare quietly at the floor before leaving silently.Â
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Tonight for dinner the cooks made you a wide array of different dishes, all from the Northern shore. There are different types of fish, each cooked in various ways. It looks delectable, a feast fit for a king.Â
You feel awful, though, seeing that you canât eat any of it.Â
The last time you had fish your face swelled up and couldnât breathe properly, so that family physician told you to steer away from it. But youâre here now, and it somehow slipped your mind to ever mention this little fact to them, so youâre awkwardly poking around some of the vegetables under the fish, looking for something to eat.Â
You pile some potatoes and carrots on your plate, scraping off any bits of fish on them as you hold this wasnât your last meal.Â
The only sound that fills the room is your fork and knife sometimes hitting the porcelain plate, and you look up every now and then as you chew, looking at the paintings on the wall.Â
Youâre so focused on a portrait of an old man that you donât even notice the figure standing at the entrance of the dining hall, not until you hear a muted curse.Â
You look up instantly, your fork and knife dropping to the plate as you stare at the man in front of you, eyes wide at the sight of your husband.Â
He stands there, blinking slowly as you stare back.Â
You could swear time has never moved so slowly before.Â
You can hear him mutter a quiet shit under his breath, not knowing if he should make this worse by turning around and leaving or if he should join you.Â
Heâs wearing a simple tunic, his face a little flushed, hairline beaded with sweat. Did he just come out of training? He must often do that, you decide, seeing how he mustâve felt comfortable enough walking in here without any clothing of import.Â
His eyes seem to track your little movements; the way your chest rises and falls in a slow movement, the way your fingers have frozen in mid-air, lips slightly parting. Your eyes dart around the room, everybody seeming to have tensed up.
You open your mouth to say something, anything, but youâve never been so moved to silence. It seemed as if years of learned vocabulary slipped your mind within an instant, and no matter how hard you tried, nothing was coming back.
Gojo looks behind his shoulder, at the large double doors he entered through, deep in thought. This would be the first time the two of you had seen each other in weeks, and his tirade of avoiding you has come to an end. It looks like an entire battle is being fought in his mind, and you donât know what to do.
Suddenly, you watch as he shakes his head, deciding to give in and join you for dinner.Â
The seconds go by like hours as he walks up to the seat at the other end of the table, staring at his seat for a brief second before he pushes it out and sits there.Â
You donât know what to do.Â
Servants and maids quickly swarm the room, setting up his plate, cutlery, food, and drinks. It was all so hectic and rushed, but you were glad that it offered some sort of noise in the drowning silence.
A part of you wants to say something about the fish but you know this isnât the right time.Â
In the flurry of movements you allow yourself to discretely look at him a little better, seeing how the last time you saw him was so brief and hurried.Â
The man radiates a different sort of aura youâve never experienced before. While your father was one of the most powerful men in the West, Gojo was the strongest throughout the majority of the North and East. His frame took up the entire chair, his muscular shoulders and arms visible even through the loose fabric that was draped over him. You feel a little disappointed, knowing that if you were a different girl youâd probably be able to enjoy all of this.Â
You try to make yourself seem indifferent, moving some of the vegetables in your plate around, but secretly just trying to shovel them down as fast as humanly possible to get out of this thick atmosphere.Â
One of the men who was setting up some of the plates in front of Gojo takes notice of this, a smile overtaking his face as you briefly look up from your plate, startled to see the man walking closer to you.
âMy lady, Iâm so happy to see you enjoying our Northern delicacy!â He claps his hands together as you stare at him with wide eyes, your mouth still full of potatoes as you try chewing faster to get it all down before he gets closer to you.Â
His eyes wrinkle around the edges, his graying mustache trimmed ever so carefully, and you can tell heâs trying to loosen up the tension, but you stare in abject horror as he stands at your foot of the table.Â
âWould you like some more?â He motions to the fish that lay untouched in front of you, and you glance over to Gojo, hoping that maybe he is focused on his meal, only for your heart to sink at the fact that he is staring at you.Â
â...y-yes,â you croak out, wiping some of the carrot remnants from the corners of your lips as you give him a wobbly smile, âItâs alright, I can serve myself,â you exclaim, trying to thwart him off as he quickly waves this aside, shaking his head as he grabs the tray, beginning to portion some hefty pieces of fish onto your plate.
You donât have the heart to tell this jolly man that this amount of fish would kill you within an instant, or even that he was wasting this all on you, so you just sit there, giving him a tight-lipped smile as you try not to breathe it in too much.Â
âIs that enough, my lady?â He asks, setting the tray down as you look at your plate now full of different sorts of sea creatures you swallow slowly, looking back up at him as you give a wobbly smile.Â
âThis is great,â you muster up and watch as an even larger smile takes over his face, and you feel awful for it, âThank you so much,â you tell him, watching as he bows lowly, excusing himself as he, and the other servants, leave the room,
Leaving you and Gojo alone.Â
Youâre grateful that heâs already dug into his meal, not looking at a struggling you thatâs moving the fish around with your fork as you try to find the last bits of vegetables you had saved up for yourself.Â
The smell itself is enough to make your stomach turn, and you wince, reaching for your cup of wine to wash some of the nausea down.
âYou have very good wine,â you say suddenly, against your will, and have an out-of-body experience as you realize what you just did.Â
Gojo looks up from his plate, a little startled as he looks at you and the goblet in your hand, his white brows furrowed.Â
He nods once, not saying anything, and you feel the strange need to continue, somehow enjoying the feeling of stabbing yourself in the foot.
âOur wine back home tasted like cow piss,â your eyes widened at your slip of crass language, âEr - not piss, um, urineâŠ?â You wince even more, feeling as if a ghost with awful intentions had taken control over your body, âNot that Iâve had cow piss - urine!â You correct yourself, âBut I imagine that if I hadâŠthat, um, it would taste like o-our wine back home...â
Heâs staring at you, unblinking, and you smile awkwardly, raising the cup to him as a sort of cheers gesture.Â
You count twenty seconds of silence in your head as you set the cup down, playing with your fork as you glance back up at him. Gojo looks as if he is regretting his decision to stay, his fingers tapping on his knife in a hurried sort of way.Â
âI donât really like wine,â you continue, feeling like the only thing that could stop you now was if somebody were to bludgeon you to death, âI like juice more. Oh, well, but I guessâŠwine is juiceâŠ?â you mutter to yourself, contradicting your own words mid-sentence, âBack home we had this mulberry juice and it tasted nice. Kind of like your wine,â heâs not even looking at you and so your words die, quieting down as you sink back into your seat, hoping it could eat you entirely.Â
âDo you like wine?â You ask, tilting your head to the side, smiling faintly, awkwardly, âOr juice? Or⊠mulberriesâŠ?âÂ
He shakes his head, still not staring at you.Â
âDid you have a good-â
âI prefer eating in silence.â Gojo finally said, raising his head slightly as he stared directly at you, watching as your mouth clamped shut.Â
Your smile grows small, eyes falling to the table to hide the embarrassment in them. You give him a brief nod, mumbling a quiet apology under your breath as you begin moving some pieces of carrot around on your plate.Â
You can hear the clinking of his utensils against his plate, wishing you could somehow fit an entire fish down your esophagus to escape this moment.Â
You give it a couple of seconds, counting the groves in the wood of the table, and rise, stomach empty, heart churning as you finally excuse yourself.Â
It only takes you minutes to find your room, quicker than last night, and allow yourself to sink against your bed, rubbing your skin raw of the rouge Alina had applied an hour earlier.Â
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You donât tell anybody of the awful encounter with the man thatâs legally your husband, but youâre sure that those there to observe have already begun talking about it. You try to pretend nothing happened, but Alina could pick up on your closed-off demeanor that night, her hands gentler than usual when helping you take off your garments, her eyes filled with concern.Â
âHow was dinner, my lady?â She asked, staring at you as you waved off her worries, mustering up a lame excuse of a smile as you took off your silk shrug, avoiding any sort of eye contact as you slipped into your nightly garments.Â
âIt was good,â your words are void of emotion, âI had fish.âÂ
The following days are empty of any sight of your husband, but youâve grown to find that normal. It doesnât help that you canât stop thinking about how idiotic you acted, your big mouth never knowing when to stop, tossing and turning in your bed at your excuse of an interaction.Â
You continue with your old routine of walking around the estate, sometimes trying to track down Alina and your other maids, seeing if maybe they had some free time to spend with you. You know thereâs a town nearby, the girls often talk about how they go there sometimes at night, but youâre too afraid of going out alone, not used to that sort of thing.Â
Sometimes you sit out near the fields with a book, twisting the ring thatâs searing into your finger, mindlessly taking in the words on the page. Other days you walk around the gardens, picking out some flowers for the vase in your room. On the days when youâre feeling really adventurous, youâd go near the east wing, where youâve heard Gojoâs room is, and look at what sort of things lie there. But most times you chicken out, going back near your side just as quickly as you went.
You never see him at dinner again, knowing he wasnât about to put himself through that torture again, so you go back to eating in silence, sometimes pretending that the chairs were full of people and that you were in one of those balls you longed to go to as a kid.
They seem to keep bringing fish out for you, and itâs in so many days deep that youâre in this sort of limbo where you canât tell them youâre deathly allergic to it without feeling awful for all the work theyâve put in just to realize itâs gone to waste, so those nights, tonight, for example, you try finding as many vegetables as you can.Â
The roasted asparagus and beets are lovely, but there was only so much of it. And you find yourself getting a little bit sick of it too, your stomach-churning as you try to chug as much water as you can to get rid of the dirt after-taste that the beets have.
You thank the cooks and the servants as you leave for the night, your stomach still relatively empty as you get to your room, telling Alina to leave early for the night as you get ready for bed by yourself, wanting to be with yourself just for a little bit.Â
You lay on your bed, staring emptily at the ceiling, one hand on your stomach as if gurgling, still hungry for more. You try to sleep, trying to pretend like you were at your old home, those nights when this would be normal, but itâs no use. Youâve been too spoiled at the Gojo estate, and no matter how much you try to ignore the pang of hunger, it continues to bite you back.Â
So you find yourself twisting off of the warm comfort of your bed, sitting in silence as you contemplate what youâre about to do, but give in, lighting a candle as you slide into some slippers, leaving your room as you try to find your way down to the kitchens.Â
Thankfully, itâs well into the night when everybody is asleep, so this embarrassing walk of shame is only seen by the guards on duty. You walk down the testing staircase, careful to look around the corners for anybody there, but youâre alone.Â
You make your way to the kitchens, not hard to find seeing that theyâre near the dining hall, and you peep your head inside, a sigh of relief escaping your lips to find that itâs completely deserted.Â
At your old home, your room was behind the kitchens. You grew up in a small room, nearly the size of a broom cupboard, but you made do with what you had. One benefit of this situation was that you were raised by the smell of different sorts of food, by people who specialized in the art of cooking. You knew how to make meals that nobody else in your family could even imagine, which youâre grateful for right now as you fumble around the kitchen, trying to find where they put different ingredients.Â
You rummage through the cupboards, finding some eggs, bread, cheeses, and seasonings. Youâre able to find the pots and pans a few feet away and start assembling everything for a little omelet. Â
In your hurry of trying to be quiet and careful, you somehow manage to miss the large shadow figure thatâs standing near the doorway, observing you.Â
You crack the eggs into a bowl, beating them together with a fork you found, too tired to look for an actual whisk, turning around to throw the eggshells away when a cry of surprise escapes your lips.Â
âOh!â Your heart nearly falls right out of your ribcage, your hands flying to your chest as you find yourself staring at him, cheeks heating the way they seem to do whenever youâre looking at your husband.Â
His blue eyes are tracking you, watching what you do, brows furrowed slightly as the two of you canât do anything but stare at each other.Â
âIâŠâ You canât find anything to say, looking at him and then behind your shoulder, to the things you have found, and swallow thickly, wetting your lips as you straighten your back up, suddenly aware of just how flimsy and bedroom-worthy your outfit is.
You can only stare at the ways his arms are crossed over his chest, biceps bulging, and lips pressed into a thin line. It seems like he wasnât planning on seeing you here, yet another moment in which heâs probably going to regret somehow finding you in such a large estate.
âIâm making an omelet,â you finally say, your words falling like a whisper from your lips as you point to the eggshells now discarded in the trash, âI tried to be quietâŠâ you shake your head, eyes dropping from his heavy gaze for a second as you glance back up at him, lips upturned in an apologetic smile, â...sorry.âÂ
Gojo doesnât say much, youâve noticed that, but now youâre wondering if he has some sort of impediment that stops him from speaking to specific people.Â
His chest rises briefly as he inhales, his white hair a little tussled as if he were sleeping. It doesnât make sense why heâd be awoken, though. The kitchens are a far walk from the east wingâŠ?
âI wasnât asleep,â he finally says as if reading your mind, his voice deep as you feel it rattle your bones.
You nod once, not knowing what to do with the information.Â
âWellâŠum,â you fidget with your fingers, âgood, thatâs good.â You nod once, as if that was all you were going to say, and look at the slight wrinkles in his clothes, crossing your arms over your chest, feeling naked with the way youâre not wearing any undergarments under your little nightly dress.Â
âIâll call for a cook,â Gojo murmurs, looking you up and down one final time as he turns to leave, seemingly done with this conversation.Â
You sputter, shaking your head as you watch him turn to look at you through a confused stare.Â
âNo! SorryâŠno, no need,â you say quickly, taking one step forward as if to stop him, âPlease, itâs alright. I can cook myself,â you motion once more to your eggs and little station, noting the way heâs looking at you strangely, and so you feel the need to continue talking, perhaps one of your worst flaws.
Gojo looks at you finally, his fingers tapping on his arm.Â
You notice that heâs not wearing his wedding ring, your chest filling with a strange feeling as you try to hide your ring-clad finger. âDo you not like their cooking?â He asks, and it takes a second for you to blink out of your stupor, a weird sensation in your throat as you shake your head slowly, trying to pull your eyes away from his hand.Â
âI do,â you assure him, the words falling thickly from your lips, a lump in your chest, âI just feel bad waking them up right now,â you shrug as if you werenât feeling any of these strange emotions, âAnd as I said, I can cookâŠsoâŠâÂ
He nods, seemingly not believing you, not picking up on the storm that happening inside your head at the fact that heâs not wearing his wedding ring. You have to remind yourself that this isnât an actual marriage, the ring was only for show.Â
âDid you not eat dinner?â He continues, pressing, and your eyes widen slightly.Â
Youâve always been terrible at lying, never able to do so. Even when your father's wife continued to drill you on who ate the candies from a party when you were younger, showing her your chocolate-stained fingers that you had hidden behind your back, not even a minute into the interrogation.Â
âI did,â you say slowly, rubbing up and down your arms to warm them up from the chill breeze that seems to have picked up from the open windows, âThe beets and asparagus were very nice,â you agree, not knowing what else to say without blowing this weird secret youâve been holding onto.Â
His brow raised slightly, lips pursing slightly.Â
âAnd the fish?âÂ
You swallow once again, fidgeting with the fabric of your slip, your hands, your ring, and you donât notice the way his eyes fall to the gold on your finger, darting back to your face when he notices you staring at him.Â
âIâŠâ you feel your face heating up beyond human measures, laughing awkwardly as you tug at your necklace chain, wishing that you hadnât made that stupid decision to leave your comfortable bed, shouldâve listened to your gut instead of your stomach, cursing your past self for being so rash, âI, um, I canâtâŠeatâŠfish.âÂ
Gojoâs stoic face, so sure and confident, seems to falter for a brief second.
His arms tighten over his chest.Â
â...what?â He eventually asks after a couple of seconds of mind-bending silence, his head tipping in utter confusion as you sway from side to side on your feet, chewing your lips raw as you wish the ground could open up and never spit you back out.Â
âThe fish always looks great, donât get me wrong,â you say quickly as if thatâs going to do anything, âBut I canât eat fish. Otherwise Iâll swell right up and um, dieâŠprobably,â you wince at how bad you are at talking to people, your husband especially.
He lets out a little puff of air that sounds like a shocked scoff, eyes falling to the floor as he shakes his head, not understanding what you are saying.Â
âBut theyâve been cooking fish almostâŠfour times a week?âÂ
You nod, smiling awkwardly, looking at the painting of a fish on the wall as you look back at him.Â
âThey have,â you affirm, leaning against a counter as he stays frozen in his spot at the door.Â
âAnd youâŠyou canât have fish?â Gojo questions incredulously.Â
âIâll swell right up,â you repeat with a little smile that he doesnât mirror, clearly not a man of humor, and you drop your hands to your side, â...kind of like a pufferfish.â You add quietly, looking at the ground as you say it.Â
He coughs, his hand covering his mouth as you glance up at him, only to see him trying to hide the shocked laugh that had escaped him.
âWhy didnât you tell them?â He finally continues, and you hate the way all your hard work of just saying quiet isnât working and is in fact, coming back to bite you in the ass.Â
You shrug once more, shoving a grain of rice that was on the floor with the tip of your shoe.
âThe first time it happened I figured Iâd just tell them next time, but then that man kept on giving me more fish so I felt bad and I just never said anything.âÂ
Gojo stares at you, his eyes squinting together as if he were figuring out an enigma, a war strategy that even his best generals couldnât get a grasp of.Â
You look away, feeling like a fire was being lit under your skin.Â
âAlright,â you say, clapping your hands together as your stomach grumbles once again, reminding you that it is still in desperate need of food, âIâll be done soon. And Iâll clean up,â you promise, but you doubt he even cares as you begin to inch away from him.Â
You watch as a strand of hair falls into his face, watch as he goes to move, never breaking his eye contact with you, until he looks behind you at the eggs and bread, and then to the window behind you, the moon as bright as ever.
He nods a final time, looking over you a final time before he exits.Â
You make sure heâs far gone, letting out a heavy breath as you hold yourself up by the table, eyes wide at the fact that you had spoken more than two words to the man who seemed to despise your entire existence.Â
You go back to your eggs, whisking them in silence as your mind reels.Â
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Gojo is there, for dinner, the following night.Â
You enter the dining room to see him at the end of the table, already eating, and glances up briefly when he sees you walk in.Â
Trying to hide the shock on your face you quickly look away, finding the way to your side of the table as you look around to see what theyâve given you tonight. A sigh of fleeting relief escapes your lips at the lack of fish, glad youâll be going to sleep full of food tonight.Â
You serve yourself, piling roasted meats and potatoes onto your plate as you fill your cup with water, not trusting wine after the last time you had it in his presence, and pretend that everything is normal as you pick up your knife and fork.Â
His words rang in your mind from the last time, the fact that he ate in silence, so you forced yourself to clam up, knowing that it was probably from the best and save you from any more mortification.Â
Your eyes fleet up now and then, grateful that heâs never looking up when you do, and give yourself some time to really take him in. Maybe in another universe where everything was normal, this couldâve just been another regular thing, and you try pretending that it is.
Heâs probably only here because of a timing issue, you tell yourself, maybe this was the only time in the middle of training, state affairs, or other things that he was able to have dinner tonight. Yes, yes, that has to be it.Â
You look back down at your plate, chewing as quietly as possible, missing the way he lifted his head to look up at you.Â
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Dinner with Gojo becomes a strange weekly occurrence.
The two of you eat in silence a couple of times a week, and every time it happens youâre so sure itâs going to be the last.Â
On one of the nights you find yourself accompanied by the man you decide that the silence is more choking than whatever it is you find yourself saying.Â
âHave you been notified about thisâŠgathering in a couple of weeks?âÂ
This gathering was something you were told about that morning by Alina. One of the smaller families allied to the North, the Tokoshiâs, had invited you and your husband to join.Â
âYes,â Gojo says, and youâre a little surprised that he didnât just give you a faint nod, âIt shouldnât be too big.âÂ
He cuts off a piece of his lamb, dipping it in some of the gravy as he glances up at you.Â
You try to hide your excitement, not only from the fact that heâs spoken to you but also from the fact that this was an actual ball you would be able to go to. You knew that marrying him meant attending more of these sorts of events, but seeing how this was your first one, it was hard to not act a little giddy.Â
âYou have a lovely library,â you speak after carefully chewing through some of your food, your pointer finger resting on your fork as your legs crossed.Â
Gojo glances up at you, those mesmerizing blue eyes finding yours from across the long table.Â
âAt my old home,â you pause briefly, wondering how he feels when you refer to his estate as your other home, âI wasnât allowed to go into our library unless my tutors asked to have some of our sessions there. So I just wanted to say thank you for letting me - um, go there,â your words quiet down at the end, looking at the roasted pig in front of you momentarily as you wonder what you were even trying to get.Â
He takes a sip of his wine.Â
âThe grounds are as much mine as they are yours,â he says, but his words sound rehearsed as if he were told to say this.Â
âEven the east wing?âÂ
You regretted it the moment you asked it.Â
Shit.Â
Gojo opens his mouth and then shuts it. You chew on the inside of your cheek, waiting for him to speak, to say something, anything, but it reverts to that same silence that floods your senses and makes you aware of every other sound in the room.
Your burst of what you attempted at comedy seemed to keep coming back instantly in your face, a form of punishment for somebody who never knew how to make uncomfortable situations better.
Suddenly, all of your appetite is lost. Stupid, stupid, stupid, you can only chide yourself, the food in front of you, no matter how good it looked, felt like it would taste like ash on your tongue. You kept feeding this burning fire that was your marriage, expecting your hay-like words to act like water.
Thereâs a thick tension in the room, and you look around, blinking slowly as you fidget with your fingers.Â
You try to go back to eating.Â
You were wrong,
That initial silence was better.Â
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That night you found yourself back in the kitchens.Â
Youâre wiping at your cheeks, hoping that the therapeutic motions of baking can help alleviate some of your many turmoils.Â
When you were younger, you were used to silence. People normally avoided you, and those who didnât werenât ever your age. The cooks at your old estate were kind, but they were usually too busy to entertain a little girl. You would usually help the maids out with their washing and folding, rather doing something than nothing. You would listen in on their gossip and stories, always happy to be included.Â
You assumed that it would be the same here.Â
But the maids assured you that a lady of such high rank shouldnât be meddling in such lowly tasks, and the cooks here were cooking for such a larger number of people that you knew you couldnât bother them the way you used to.Â
So you find yourself with a lot to say but nobody to say it to. The jokes and ideas that pop into your head fall flat because the old ladies who helped clean the bedsheets and used to laugh hearing them are no longer here. In those moments youâre with Alina or your other maids are sparse, and so you sometimes imagine that if you speak more when Gojo is around, he might warm up to you.Â
You also had to remind yourself that your track record with men wasnât the best either. Those fleeting crushes on some of the other boys who youâd see at balls always ended with them scurrying away from you as if you were the plague. The only other marriage offer youâd gotten was from a man who had struggled with finding a woman who could keep up with his awful ways. So the fact that Gojo Satoru, the most well-known man in the realm, didnât want much to do with you wasnât shocking.Â
And Alina was right. A lot of wives arenât as lucky to say their husbands donât care, but you wondered how it wouldâve been if he did. You exclaimed to her a couple of nights ago that you shouldâve just married Naoya, but deep inside you knew thatâs not what you wanted. A part of you knew ever since you agreed to this arrangement that you wouldnât be getting an actual husband out of it.Â
You sniffle, your eyes blurry. You donât like crying in front of people, and so you allow yourself to do so in the pale moonlight of the kitchen, the only sound other than your ragged breathing being the repeated sound of flour falling softly in your mixing bowl.Â
Baking was something that nobody ever could judge you about. You were good at it, and you knew you could do it with no error. Your cakes and pastries always turned out well, save for the minor problems you ran into as a kid, but you sometimes act like youâre baking for a group of people, about to take it out to see a sea of smiling faces who are happy to see you and your deserts.
âI thought you only cooked when they served fish for dinner.âÂ
A voice, one thatâs seared into your memory, says from behind you.Â
It takes everything in you not to jump from surprise, and it takes even more willpower not to turn around.Â
You quickly wipe at your cheeks, breathing in to make sure your voice wonât come out in bits and pieces. You keep your back to your husband, continuing to sift your flour in the bowl, a continual motion like waves hitting against the dock.
âIâm baking,â you specify, cringing at the way you sound like youâre fighting a nasty cold.Â
Gojo doesnât say anything for a beat and does nothing to move. Youâre glad he doesnât, too scared that if he saw your puffy eyes or your tear-stained cheeks heâd begin to think that you have no backbone at all. It felt almost pathetic to have the world's strongest warrior see you recover from crying alone.Â
He hums in the back of his throat at your words, and you wonder what he looks like right now.Â
âI doubt these walls have seen a lady of such high rank before,â he comments, and you look up briefly from the mountain of white building up in the bowl, âThey must whisper to themselves once you leave.âÂ
You let out a little puff of air, something resembling a soulless laugh.Â
âEveryone whispers to themselves after I leave,â you say, reaching for a whisk, âIâve heard more whispers than my own name.âÂ
He doesnât say anything for a moment, and you hope he doesnât notice the way you quickly try to wipe at the corners of your eyes.
âYou come down here a lot,â itâs posed as a question, but Gojo says it like a statement. He must have eyes everywhere, reporting to him what youâre doing. You wouldnât be shocked, but you just nod, chewing on the inside of your cheek as you begin to whisk your dry ingredients together.Â
âI hope itâs okay,â you throw in a pinch of salt as you mix, âI like the kitchen.âÂ
He let out a little breath as if he was about to chuckle, but then he got confused. You decide to spare him the endless questions that must be going on in his head, wondering why somebody in your position would prefer the kitchens rather than anywhere else.Â
âMy bedroom used to be behind a kitchen. Iâd have to go through the pantry just to reach it,â you turn briefly to grab your bowl with the wet ingredients, pouring it slowly into your flour and sugar mixture, mixing it in slowly and carefully.Â
âMy fatherâs wife wanted me out of sight. That estate had never used one of its actual bedrooms to sleep the daughter of a whore,â you can hear him inhale sharply, âI woke up to the sounds of people shouting for different ingredients, to pots and pans clanging against each other. I learned how to cook and bake when I was young, and I usually helped them cook the food my family would eat for dinner.âÂ
When your batter is all mixed through you go to find the pan you have buttered and dusted with sugar, pouring it in as you wipe off the side of the bowl that had some remnants of batter dripping from it.
âThey never asked me to, but I liked it. I liked feeling useful,â you peek over to your side, seeing him leaning against the wall adjacent to you, silent as a mouse.Â
You walk over to the other side of the kitchen with your pan, careful with the lid to the brick oven, heated with the fire you had lit an hour ago, and slide your cake pan into it, closing it shut as you stand up straight.Â
Finally, you look over at him.Â
His eyes rake over your face, lingering on the circles underneath your eyes, the redness that stained the whites of them. Heâs clad in the simple tunic and breeches he had worn to dinner hours ago, his large shoulders leaning on the wall as his arms lay crossed over his chest.Â
âI wonât go to the east wing,â you say in a whisper, your voice quiet but heavy as it falls from your lips as a promise, trying to muster up a smile but it comes out wobbly, âI was just trying to make you laugh.âÂ
His lips looked pinker than usual as if he had been chewing on them, something you often did when you were deep in thought. His white hair had been messily pushed back as if his fingers had been combing through them continuously.Â
âThese grounds are yours,â Gojo says, his words thick from his throat. His exhale and inhale mirror the way you breathe, your two chests rising as though living with the same lungs.
You shrug, a melancholy look on your face as you shake your head.Â
âMaybe if I was your wife,â your words are said without any malice, âBut Iâm just another person who sleeps here.âÂ
Gojo tilts his head slightly as if your statement had somehow wrenched itself into his mind, weighing it down. Even in the limited light, you could see the way he looked at you, an unreadable expression on his face.
âIâm sorry about all of this. I know I took away your chance to marry somebody you actually wanted, but my father told me you were okay with the arrangement. I wouldnât have agreed to it otherwise,â you twist your wedding ring around your finger mindlessly, a little habit youâve grown over the weeks here, âI never wanted to be selfish, and I truthfully never wanted a husband. I just wanted a friend.â
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Ever since that night, you eat your meals in your room.Â
Alina protested, saying itâs not right to eat alone, but you told her not to think about it, saying how you liked the silence.Â
You mustered up the courage to ask some of the coachmen to take you to the nearby town, starting by looking around at the little shops, keeping a hood over your head in case somebody saw a new stranger.
Sometimes youâd go inside the shops, finding little trinkets that you thought your maids might like, or ornaments that might help fill up the empty spots around your room. Youâve never been able to decorate before with how small your old room was, so you decided to take advantage of its space.
When youâre walking around you sometimes see Gojo, either in the training yard or walking around with one of his advisors. There have been moments when the two of you catch each other's stares from across the room, but youâre always the first to look away, making sure youâre going in a different direction than him.Â
You knew that youâd have to talk to him eventually, especially with the gathering that was coming up at the Tokoshi manor, but each night you pretended it was another day away, instead of one day closer.Â
Your maids came bustling in and out of your room more often than usual with preparations for the night that was closing in, shoving you into different dresses, not satisfied until they found the right one.
Alina noticed your shift in demeanor, never picking and prodding at it, but silently observing. You could tell she knew something was wrong, but you didnât know how to put exactly what you were feeling in words.Â
It didnât help that the closer you got to the night of the event Gojo seemed to be everywhere you were. The gardens, the library, the field, the stables. He probably just had business to attend to, but it didnât help that whenever he saw you it looked like he wanted to say something. It also didnât help that youâd scurry away when you saw him open his mouth.Â
The weeks turned into days, the days into a day, and that day into hours and you found yourself perched uncomfortably on a chair as three different women attended to your face, hair, and accessories.Â
You watch them work silently, taking in all the jewelry and makeup that youâve been looking forward to wearing. Itâs nothing too drastic, but thatÂ
girl who longed to wear pretty things inside of you is gleaming right now.Â
ââŠLord Gojo requested for her to wear another pair of earrings,â one of your maids says, looking at the earrings Alina had picked out for you.Â
Your ears perk up at the mention of his name, watching Alina as she perks an eyebrow up.Â
âWhen did he request that?âÂ
The older lady looks at you in the mirror and then at Alina.Â
âA couple of nights ago,â she shows Alina another pair, a sapphire one that seems to gleam brightly, âhe dropped them off when she wasâŠawayâŠâ the maid trails off, noticing the fact that you were eavesdropping.
Your eyes dart away as if that would help, but she quickly changes the topic, and you huff in annoyance as Alina sends you a knowing look. Â
âYour husband is a strange man,â Alina mutters in your ear as you giggle quietly, rolling your eyes as she playfully shoves your shoulder.Â
You donât say anything in retaliation, and sit back as you put in your new earrings, grateful that they still complimented the color of your dress, and try to pretend you are going down for dinner rather than a gathering with people you didnât know.Â
Youâve been learning this entire week how to properly hold a spoon and fork, and how to cut your food appropriately. Youâve been taking dancing lessons, discovered how to properly greet people, and even learned how to gracefully enter and exit a horse-drawn carriage. All things you shouldâve probably learned earlier, but were never able to.Â
Alina helps you out of the chair when they are all done, giving you a second to look into the mirror. The dress they had wrangled you into was beautiful, your hair done in the way you liked. You thanked them all, expressing your endless gratitude for their hard work.Â
You take a deep breath as you exit the room and go out into the hall, leading yourself down the stairs and through multiple corridors, trying to calm down your palpitating heart.Â
It takes a few minutes but you find yourself at the front of the manor, standing alone and looking around, trying to see if you were at the wrong place. But in the distance, you can see the coachmen and the carriage, the door shut, still waiting for you.Â
You take a tentative step forward, nearing the entranceway that leads outside, but feel a soft touch hovering above your elbow.Â
Itâs strange how he usually finds you before you find him, but as somebody whoâs trained to know and find things before others do, you suppose it makes sense. You glance to your side, already expecting to see those cerulean eyes as you look up.Â
Gojo looks good, somehow better than usual.Â
Heâs clad in dark blue garments, intricate with Northern design, and your eyes look up and down his entire body. His usual muscular build seems to be outlined by the stretch of his overcoat, the way the fabric is sitting snugly over his chest.Â
He seems to be doing the same, though. You can feel his gaze drop to your dress, to the way your lips are a little redder than usual, your hair done in a way that suits your face. His eyes linger on your ears, and thereâs a small, barely noticeable tug to the corners of his lips.Â
âReady?â Gojo asks, the first time heâs spoken in a couple of weeks, and you hum.Â
He takes his hand away from your elbow as he rests it on the small of your back, and you feel heat travel from his fingertips through the fabric, through your corset, your undergarments, and straight to your skin.Â
They bring the carriage out a little closer, a coachman opening the door for you. You brace yourself, heaving your dress upwards as you go to grasp the rail on the side.
But Gojo moves swiftly, offering you his glove-clad hand as you look over at him in surprise, taking it after a moment of hesitation, and haul yourself inside.Â
Itâs far bigger than the one you usually take to town, and you settle for a corner on the left-hand side near the window. The walls of the carriage are lined with this sort of fabric that feels like itâs lighter than a cloud, colored the traditional blue of the Gojo family. Youâd guess it could fit at least an entire family comfortably, so youâre not too worried about the underskirt of your dress taking up too much space.
You watch Gojo follow you in. He looks around, having to duck his head (and a lot of his back) as he sits in front of you, pushing the strands of hair that had fallen into his face.
The two of you sit in awkward silence, your gaze settled on the door that they shut after Gojo entered, and your eyes quickly fall to your hands resting in your lap, neatly folded.
The carriage starts a little bit later, the wheels humming to life as the coachmen yip at the horses to start. The sudden rocking movement that youâve become familiar with sways you side to side, and suddenly you're totally aware of the fact that youâre alone in a limited space with the man youâve been avoiding for the better half of two weeks.Â
You can feel his stare boring into the side of your head, can hear the way his breathing is coming out strangely as if he wanted to talk, but kept stopping himself off before he could say a word.Â
âDid you like the earrings?â Gojo finally asks, and you glance up, eyes narrowing for a second in confusion as realization suddenly comes rushing in.Â
âHm? O-oh, yes!â You quickly stutter out, your hands flying to your ears as if you forgot they were there, âYes, thank you. They were beautiful. They kind of looked like the inside of a belly button,â you say.
Your husband blinks, brows furrowed slightly as you think about what you had just said, eyes wide in shock. Â
âErâŠwell, gods, no, not bellybuttons,â your head falls to your hands as you shake your head profusely, âSorry, they donât look like belly buttons-âÂ
But you stop when you hear a small laugh from him, quiet as he looks away for a second, a tiny slightly visible grin on his face as he looks back at you.Â
âDid you know that sometimes,â his eyes are a little upturned as if he fighting back an actual smile, âI make a bet with myself about what youâre going to say?âÂ
You smile slightly, your head cocking to the side.Â
âHave you ever won?âÂ
Gojo chuckles, and your eyes suddenly fall to his hand, at the way heâs fidgeting with his ring, his wedding ring, the same way you seem to do whenever youâre thinking about everything and anything all at once.Â
âNot once.âÂ
You grin, and though you still feel this heavy weight of unspoken things resting in the middle of you two, you decide not to acknowledge it at the moment. Things unsaid, unheard, weaved through the air, tying you and him together like a tapestry.Â
You fidget with your skirt, looking out the window at the moving scenery.Â
Gojo breathes deeply through his nose, his pointed finger tapping on his thigh.Â
âIâve been meaning to talk to you,â he finally says, and your eyes dart away from the trees and the sky to look over at him.Â
His bottom lip is caught underneath his teeth, his blue eyes shining with a different hue. He takes up a lot of room with just his size alone, but it looks like heâs trying to make himself seem less intimidating, less of a warrior, and more of aâŠperson.
You donât say anything, opting to stay quiet to see what it is that he is trying to formulate into words.Â
âThat night,â Gojo twists his ring back and forth with his thumb, âIâŠâ Itâs weird to see somebody so sure of themself struggle to speak, and your brows crease in the middle, not knowing what it was he was trying to get at.Â
âI wanted to tell you that you too had a right to a good husband. Somebody who didn't rush you into a marriage because of his own mistakesâŠsomebody you wanted.â
Where is he going with this?
You suddenly feel your throat dry up, swallowing thickly as Gojo looks out the window momentarily before looking back at you.Â
âMy parents never told me who Iâd be marrying,â Gojo explains, his voice hoarse, âI figured out the day of the wedding,â he twisted his wedding ring, looking at the way it shined, âAnd I wanted to hate you,âÂ
His words punch you square in the gut, but you can only bring yourself to keep on looking at him.
âI wanted to hate you so much because it would be easier to act like this wasnât my fault if I couldâŠbut,â he sighs, his chest rising and falling, âI donât think itâs possible to hate you.âÂ
Your lip trembles slgihtly, a sheen over your eyes. What is he doing?
âIâve been raised in a way most people our age arenât. My parents wanted me to be the strongest so was put into training since I was four, and I think this entire time Iâve been trying to approach you like aâŠmilitary strategy. You were this map in my head that no matter how I approached it nothing made sense. But that night, in the kitchen, everything finally did.âÂ
Your eyes flitter downwards so that he couldnât see the waver in them
âYou didnât deserve how you were treated in your old life, nor this new one,â his hand covers his chest, and you feel lightheaded, âAnd I promise to you Iâll do everything in my power to make this one better. If you donât want me as a husband, than as a friend.
âIâd like to be your friend, if youâd allow me,â he whispers thickly, his voice heavy. He fidgets with his fingers, moving them together and back out again, and you notice how he does this a lot whenever youâre near.
Your heart is beating so quickly that you feel like it's going to stop, and your mind is working so hectically that you donât know what to think. This is the same man who looked at you as if you had torn down the moon and stars when he saw you the first time, the man who never seemed to be that interested in what it is you had to say. The very same person who wouldâve rather married a broomstick than you.Â
âŠright?Â
And yet heâs here, asking to be your friend. Something that nobody has ever asked before, something that people wouldnât ever dare to murmur out loud to you. He had no beneficial gain from doing this, no ally that he would please if he offered to be your friend.
Your heart twists because why does he look like he cares about what you say? His eyes are creased slightly around the edges, his lips pressed together as if he were preparing for whatever outcome it was to what you said.
Nobody has ever told you those things, the things that made years of pain and hurt strummed into one beat that your heart never wanted to drum to. This man, your husband, Gojo, was supposed to be another cog in that old machine, one that hummed and spurred like it was about to eat you alive.Â
But the more you look at him, the more you let your unspoken words speak in silence for you, you realise that he isnât lying.
You open your mouth to speak but are cut off when the carriage comes to a sudden halt.Â
The two of you look at each other and then to the door, watching as it opens up, greeted to the sight of a large manor with multiple people walking in hand in hand. You swallow your bile, not knowing what to say, deciding to flee instead of face him like you shouldâve.Â
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The gathering itself was far more boring than you imagined it to be.Â
You and Gojo had the mutual understanding to act moreâŠwell, like a couple, than you actually were. You didnât comment on the way his arm circled around your waist a couple of minutes into making your rounds talking with people or the endearing way he referred to you as my wife.Â
Youâre glad that he doesnât do anything to talk about what he had told you in the carriage whenever the two of you were alone, acting like nothing was wrong and everything was normal as he inquired about your day.Â
You told him brief things, still trying to shove his words out of your mind, but it was no use. Iâd like to be your friend, your mind kept repeating, and you were too scared of brining it up in case he had changed his mind in between those minutes of quiet.
People you had never seen before congratulated you on your new marriage, their brows raised in that excited way as they motioned to your stomach, hinting at a special little someone who might be joining your lives soon.Â
âSoon!â You said with a curt laugh, glancing momentarily at Gojo only to see him already looking at you, a light blush dusting his cheeks.
He made sure not to stay with people who were strangers to you for too long, not wanting to bore you to death, and allowed you to take in more of the well-lit and vastly decorated manor.Â
Though its size was incomparable to the Gojo estate, it was still massive. The Tokoshi family had been a family with the Gojo one for centuries, so there was no question that the riches they had amassed over the years by being trading partners with them had culminated in this.Â
Gojo told you earlier in the carriage, before everything else, how the young Tokoshi couple were good people. They liked to throw parties a couple of times a year, inviting only a select few. He liked them far more than a lot of the other people he had been forced to grow up with over the years.Â
You look at the dining hall, at the corridors with openings that allow you to look outside without the glare of glass. His arm never left your body, holding you close to him as he let you walk around, your mouth hanging open slightly as you craned your neck to look at everything. Candles were lit everywhere, the bouquets of different assortments of flowers decorating the stone flower holders carved into the walls.Â
You mentioned to him in the privacy of the carriage, that you hadnât ever been able to experience a party of this sort of caliber before. You could see how he wanted to ask more questions, but you could see the answers already formulating his head as to why.
âWe probably look like one of those couples where the wifeâs dying and the husband takes her out to see the stars one last time,â you whisper to him, still looking around in a stunned sort of way at the beauty of it all.Â
Gojoâs head ducks down a bit, trying to hide the chuckle that had broken out and made its way onto his face. He coughs into his fist as if that was the issue, but you look over at him to see the humor in his eyes.Â
âDid you lose your bet again?â You ask, glancing at him from the corner of your eyes as he looks like heâs fighting the grin thatâs threatening to take over.Â
âIâm always losing that bet,â he tells you.
Though he doesnât do anything to bring up his conversation, you can see it in the way he looks at you, as if heâs still teetering on an edge, wanting to know what you were thinking in that frazzled mind of yours.Â
You decide to push past it.
âCan I get in on it?â You ask, turning slightly so that you face him, very aware of the fact that his hand hasnât moved from its spot on your waist.
You try not to think about it, reminding yourself that itâs just for show, but you canât stop the feeling of heat that travels wherever it is he seems to touch you. His hand is larger than an average one, his fingers moving mindlessly up and down on your corseted stomach.Â
âDo you need the extra coin?â His voice is carrying a strange toneâŠis he teasing you?Â
But again, you try not to think about it, itâs all for show, (you also try not to think too much of the fact that youâre pretty separated from everybody else).
âNo, I just need coin,â you explain, fixing one of the medallions on his chest that had been slightly slanted, âI have nearly nothing left.âÂ
Gojo moves barely away from you, his eyes searching yours as if to find the joke.Â
âHave you run through my family gold already?â His voice is still toying, but now itâs filled with a little confusion.Â
âNo, of course not,â you snort, rolling your eyes as you tilt your chin up to look at him better, âI havenât touched any of your gold. I just ran through mine.âÂ
His brows quirks upward, mouth parting slightly.Â
âYouâve emptied the gold your family sent up?âÂ
Itâs your turn to be confused.Â
âWhat gold?â You ask, moving away from him, his hand falling to his side, and you suddenly miss his warmth.Â
You remember your father talking about how the Gojo family had rejected your initial dowry, saying something along the lines of outlandish practices, but aside from that, you werenât told about any other sort of money that was supposed to be sent with you.Â
He pinches the bridges of his nose, sighing deeply.Â
âThe gold that they sent with you? It wasnât supposed to be a lot but it was supposed to suffice for the journey here.âÂ
You blink owlishly at him.Â
âWhat gold have you run through?â He specifies, plastering on a fake smile when he catches the eyes of somebody behind you, but then focuses his stare back to you.Â
âWellâŠâ you shrug, âMy gold.âÂ
Gojo looks like heâs about to make a new bet, one thatâs with every time youâve almost given him an aneurysm trying to figure out your strange riddles and rhymes that are supposed to be actual words.Â
âI used to make some gold at my old home,â you explain, keeping your voice low in case somebody was somewhere that you hadnât seen, but realizing that Gojo was lost, you continued, âThe stable boy gave me some of his salary if I took care of the horses and cleaned the stables. Sometimes heâd give me extra if I could haul in the large bags of hay.âÂ
He scoffs, shaking his head slightly.Â
âWhy?â That seems to be a question heâs been asking lately.Â
You shrug again, feeling his hand circle back around your waist as some people come near you,Â
âI needed new clothes and my shoes had holes in them. My fatherâs wife didnât let him give me much, so I tried to fill in the gaps.â
You smile at one of the couples that are coming near you, going back into your other persona as you begin chatting with them. Gojo pulls you in tighter to his side, staying silent. You donât notice the way he hasnât stopped staring at you, nor the way his heart seems to have churned so painfully in his chest.Â
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The night progresses and you find yourself inside the dining hall, being shown to your seats by one of the maids, finding your name next to Gojoâs on a name card.Â
The two of you sit down, watching the people the file in, the sound of laughter filling the room, the clinking of china against each other filling in the rest of the silence. You take it all in with a smile, looking every and at everyone.
âI hope Iâm not embarrassing you,â you whisper as you lean closer to Gojo, an apologetic smile on your face as you sit further into your seat, âThis is all just so new to me.âÂ
You donât see the ways his eyes soften, his hand inching closer to yours as he shakes his head.Â
âYouâre not embarrassing me,â he murmurs back, leaning his head closer to yours, wanting his words only to be heard by you, âIâm glad youâre enjoying this.â The smile that makes its way onto your face could power the universe, and Gojo feels like the wind had been knocked from his lungs, far worse than in training when somebody's foot slams into his chest.Â
âI am!â Your enthusiastic and hurried words are hushed, but he can still hear the way youâre trying to hide your joy. The small talk is horrific,â he laughs a little bit, âbut still I love it.âÂ
He opens his mouth to speak but is cut off by the sound of a knife hitting glass.Â
âEveryone! Give me your time, just for a moment!â Miyo Tokoshi, whom you spoke to briefly, stands up, his chair behind him.
All eyes in the room fall on him, people still smiling, their teeth glimmering in the light.Â
âI cannot express my joy to be in a room with you all tonight,â he says, looking around the room, making sure he saw everyone for a split second. âAnd my wife and I couldnât be more ecstatic to host the first gathering of the season!â
You look at the woman sitting next to him, Lana, who you had also met momentarily, is gleaming at him, her face full of genuine adoration. She, along with everybody else, claps, laughing joyfully.Â
You wonder if this is what a real husband and wife should look like, and you look briefly over to Gojo, your mind reeling with the charade the two of you have been playing this entire night.Â
âAnd we couldnât be happier to welcome the first couple of the year,â he exclaims, pointing his glass over to you and Gojo, saying your name and then your husbands as he claps his hand softly against his wrist, âMay every moment you spend together be better than the last. We wish the two of nothing but a lifetime of happiness and prosperity.Â
Gojo raised his glass to him, his hand grasping yours as he lifted it to his lips, planting a kiss on the back of it.Â
You feel like youâve stopped breathing with the linger of his lips on your skin, the last time that happened on the night of your wedding, and watching him grasp it even tighter when he sets it back down, weaving his fingers through yours.Â
Stop, you chide, raising your glass as well, a shaky smile on your face, itâs just an act.
He winks at the two of you, nodding once more as he focuses his stare somewhere down the table, obstructed by where you are sitting.
âAnd to the future couple! Naoya and Freya!âÂ
Gojo turned his head immediately to look at you, watching the color drain from your face, and before you knew it, the man, Naoya, was standing up, a hand over his chest in faux gratitude as he thanked the host.Â
You could never mistake that hair, the feline look in his eyes as he scanned across the room, a slimy smile on his face. You watch as it grows even wider when he finally catches his prey when he finally sees you, and you feel nauseous, like youâre about to throw up all those little crackers they had given you earlier that evening.Â
The hand holding yours squeezes, knowing he canât say anything right now, and you swallow thickly, eyes darting over to his as you feel your head about to sway.Â
Naoyaâs here. The man you turned down for Gojo.Â
The rest of Tokoshiâs speech is muted to you. It feels like your head is being held underwater, and you feel sweat dotting your forehead, your chest, and your palms. You can feel Gojoâs eyes on the side of your head and can tell heâs trying to tell you something silently.Â
The clinking of glass brings you out of your haze, looking up mindlessly as you haphazardly clink yours against Gojoâs, rubbing a hand down your face as if that would help.Â
You're grateful for the flurry of movements and noises, everybody talking to somebody, the people beginning to serve themselves the wide array of food places in front of them.Â
Gojo squeezes your hand one more time, and you finally look over at him, trying to muster up a smile but with how queasy you feel and the way your head spinning, it probably looks like youâre about to be sick all over him.Â
âIâll be okay,â you say through clenched teeth.Â
Gojo nods, his thumb rubbing up and down your hand in a soothing way. Itâs just for show.Â
âIâm sorry my palms are sweating,â you laugh mirthlessly, and he squeezes it again, youâre sure heâs only doing this because of the extra attention of the two of you ever since they realized you and Naoya were in the same room, âyou donât have to keep holding it.âÂ
âDo you want me to let go?â He asks, and you stop poking around at the turnips on your plate.Â
No.Â
âN-no,â you croak out, desperate for his touch thatâs grounding you, âNo, please.âÂ
Gojo nods, his thumb not stopping its comforting motion of moving up and down.Â
âDonât worry,â he mutters, leaning closer to you as you duck your head so that your ears are near his lips, âMy hands get sweaty too.âÂ
You laugh quietly and it sounds like wind chimes. You look at Gojo and watch as his lips tug upwards into a soft smile, one you had never seen before, and one you thought you never would.Â
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You tried to hide away the rest of the party, but Gojo didnât seem to mind.Â
When it was time to leave you accepted the gracious hug of the hosting couple, promising them that youâd come back for a more private dinner, and let Gojo lead you out into the courtyard where all the carriages were held.Â
You slept the entire ride home, not wanting to mess anything up by taking, and youâre happy that Gojo didnât bother you. You felt groggy when you returned to the estate, grateful for Gojoâs steady hand as he helped you out of the carriage. The two of you looked like you wanted to say something, but couldnât, so you bid each other good night and went your separate ways.
Separate except for one brief moment.Â
You were walking away and up the stairs when you suddenly stopped, remembering what it was that you wanted to tell him. You call out his name, watching as he turns, white brows slightly furrowed.Â
âIâŠâ you start but realize you didnât exactly have a plan for what you wanted to say. He gives you his patience, not looking annoyed or frustrated when you try to think of the right words to string together.Â
âIâŠI would like to be your friend too,â you finally say, and watch as a smile forms on his face, his pink lips tugging upwards in a way that made his eyes shine, the way your earrings did in the candlelight.Â
He rakes his hand through his snow-white locks, pushing them away from his face.Â
âIâll see you at breakfast then,â Gojo says, and you dip your head down in a small smile.Â
You give him a small wave, disappearing as you round the corner.
And since then, you found him joining you not only for breakfast or the sparse dinners but for any meal he possibly could.Â
Gojo talked more, about anything and everything, and you did the same.Â
You realized that he was actually an open person the closer you got to him, seeing that he too was capable of laughing and making jokes, his teasing eyes growing more frequent the closer your chairs got to the dinner table until you eventually just sat side-by-side, growing tired of shouting at each other across its length.Â
On the days he wasnât busy with strategizing or talking to other lords, heâd walk around the estate with you, telling you stories from his childhood, the times heâd run amock around the halls. Other times the two of you would go into town, looking at the different stores together.Â
You could tell he was trying, could see it in the way he glanced at you from time to time to make sure that you were doing well.Â
Heâd accompany you to the library if you asked him to, and youâd go down sometimes to the training yard just to see him. Gojo would never tell you how much he tried to show off when you were there and knew he never had to. You could see the way he tried to appear even stronger when fighting with one of the other men, the poor soldier coming out with bruises and cuts all over his body.
Over many weeks, you find yourself looking forward to spending time with him, and a part of your cracked self begins mending itself again.Â
It felt like after years of searching for somebody, somebody found you.Â
On one of the nights when his sparring had gone on for far longer than it usually does, you decided to head down to the training yard after your night bath, tugging on a large robe over yourself as you walked the familiar stone steps down to where you knew he was.Â
You could hear them before you saw them, a cacophony of fists hitting skin, groans, shouts from one another. There was a little perch from where you could watch what was happening below, and you usually hid yourself in a corner so that they wouldnât see you.Â
Youâd rest on a pillar, arms crossed over your shoulder as you looked at the men below. Gojo was always easy to find, the flurry of white hair a tall-tale sign of where he was. You had watched him before, but you never got tired of it. You found it almost inhuman the way his movements seemed to flow like water, the way his hits were precise and direct.Â
Gojo truly was the best warrior the North had ever seen, and sometimes you forget that youâre married to a man who brought down entire armies with just his bare fists.Â
You watch as he jests with one of his friends, his chest rising a little bit at an irregular pace, slightly out of breath, but happy to be there. He turns to one of the guys behind him to say something, but his eyes immediately track upwards to the figure trying to stay hidden, you and a wide smile break out on his face.Â
He waves at you, and it gets the attention of the other men there. They all turn to see where you are, their boyish grins and calls making you roll your eyes at their antics, your face heating up slightly as you wave back at them.Â
Gojo says something to the person next to him, and you hear the man shout at the other ones to wrap it up for the night. Some of them wave goodbye to you as they begin exiting, going back to their common rooms.Â
You make a move to lean slightly over the railing, your arms crossed over the wood as you peer down at the ground where Gojo remained alone, finding him to already be looking up at you.Â
âCare to come down?â He juts his chin at the staircase to your left, the one that leads down to the courtyard, and you nod, disappearing behind the stone pillars as you take the steps leading downwards.Â
Youâve been here a couple of times, as per your own request. You wanted to see what they did during training, what the training yard actually looked like from the ground. You lift the ends of your dress up slightly as you near the bottom, rounding the corner to see Gojo standing in the middle.Â
Heâs waiting for you, his eyes tracking your movements as you come near to him.Â
His nose twitches slightly, his eyes squinting as he lifts his head in the air, suddenly picking up the scent of something unusual.Â
âWhatâs that smell?â Gojo asks as you come to him, his eyes looking over your body as if it were emitting from you.Â
You scoff, appalled, and then suddenly remember that Alina had applied some lavender oil to you after your bath.Â
âIf itâs a good smell then me,â you cross your arms over your chest, nose wrinkling in disgust as you take in his smell of sweat and grime, âIf bad then you.â
Gojo snorts, coming closer to you as he continues sniffing, exaggerating the sound. You step away from him slightly, the smell of sweat overpowering, and he takes notice of this.Â
âWhat?â He inquires, annoyed that you are moving away from him, and he takes a step closer.Â
âWhat do you mean what?â You tease, moving again as he tries to smell the air, âYou smell like an army of unshowered men. I just took a bath.âÂ
Gojo seems offended at this, trying to move back closer to you but you side-step him, apparently serious about this.Â
âYou really wonât let me come near you?â He sounds like youâve kicked him down, his cheeks stained pink from earlier, and you laugh slightly, shaking your head.Â
âI really wonât,â you affirm, shoving the back of your wrist to him to show him that what he was smelling was in fact you, âSee? Lavender oil.âÂ
Gojo just seems to be getting more annoyed the more you try to evade him, his blue eyes swirling with an idea as you look at him in worry.Â
âNo, the smell is coming from somewhere else.â He argues, changing his footing so that he stands right in front of you and you let out a shocked laugh, not expecting this as you take a step back.Â
You donât know where else he can smell the lavender oil. Alina dotted it to your wrists and your neck, but surely canât differentiate the difference in locationâŠright?Â
âCome here,â he almost whines, âIâm not going to rub off my smell onto you.âÂ
You laugh again out loud, picking up the skirt of your dress as you try to outrun him slightly.Â
âYou will!â You insist, motioning to the sheen of sweat on his body, âYou reek of sweat. I swear itâs just lavender oil!âÂ
He groans, his eyes rolling to the back of his head at this inconvenience.Â
âYouâre killing me right now,â Gojo dramatically grabs his chest, âYou wonât let me smell this strange aroma and itâs killing me,â his face breaking into a little pout as you laugh even louder, shocked at how petulant he was being. Your laughing seemed to spur him on even more, running towards you as you ran backward, hoping you didnât trip on the fabric of your dress.Â
âYou have a plethora of bottles of lavender oil in your own room,â you argue, âthis isnât something innovative that youâve never smelled before.âÂ
Gojo shakes his head, and your heart flutters at the way his smile is so playful and teasing, the way some of his hair falls into his face in that messy way when heâs usually training and not caring about his appearance.Â
âItâll only take a second,â he reasons and you shake your head no, your eyes both shining with playful laughter.Â
The courtyards lead out into the large fields of the Gojo estate, and you look behind yourself at the opening. Itâs night, thereâs nobody around. Nobody would judge you for running away from your sweaty husband.Â
You look back at him, see the gleam in his eyes, and know that heâs not going to back down.Â
He can see the thoughts forming in your head, can assume them before theyâre even created, and so heâs straight on your heels as you sprint away from him, a large smile on your face as you squeal out loud.Â
âPlease!â You shout over your shoulder, running down the little hill as the moon lights the way for you, âI just took a bath! Leave me alone!âÂ
You can hear the grass rustling beneath your feet, your screams of laughter contagious as you try to outrun the fastest person ever, and try not to slow yourself down by looking over your shoulder to see where he is.Â
But after a couple of seconds of running you realize that the only footsteps you hear are your own, and you pause momentarily to look behind you and are surprised to see that heâs not there.Â
Did he not come after you?Â
You look around the field, the large blades of grass looking like waves that move with the wind, and whip your head around every time you hear a twig snap.Â
You're a little bit further away from the manor itself, and the only thing you can see besides its large stone walls are the torches lit outside. You can make out the guards who are standing outside, but no sign of Gojo.Â
You try to catch your breath, confused as to where he couldâve gone when a force stronger than a horse running at full speed slams into your side.Â
The scream you let out echoes around the field, and you brace yourself for the harsh impact of hitting the ground. With your eyes squeezed shut you wait for the flash of pain, but peek them open to see Gojo framing your head with one of his hands, his body shielding you from the impact as he lays on top of you.Â
âHowâŠ?â You scream, your chest moving up and down with your fit of giggles, trying to push him off of you, âYouâre a beast!â You cry out, moving your head to the side as he laughs along with you, his chest rumbling with the movement.Â
You shove his face away with the palm of your hands, shoving your wrist into his nose as if that would satiate him.Â
âI took a bath you behemoth!â You whine, thinking about the dirt and mud that must be staining your skin and dress right now, âAre you so void of any good fragrance in your life that you must hunt me down for it?âÂ
Gojo tsks, shaking his head as he swats your wrist aside.Â
Heâs also slightly out of breath, most likely because he ran across and entire field from another entranceway that you werenât aware of to catch you off guard, and youâre suddenly very aware of just how close to two of you are together.Â
His hand is still cradling your head, the other one holding your hips. Truthfully he doesnât even smell bad, which is frustrating that itâs just another one of his many talents.Â
He judges your jaw up with his nose, and you helplessly comply, your heart hammering wildly as he leans in closer to the skin of your neck, taking in a whiff as he looks back up to you, his eyes gleaming.Â
Gojoâs hand on your hip moves up slightly to hold your waist, not hard, but to stop you from squirming around.Â
âIt smells different here,â he nudges your neck with his nose again, and your breathing hitches, âSmells sweeter.âÂ
You swallow thickly, blinking slowly as you crane your neck slightly upwards to give him more room. Itâs like your body is moving on its own, and youâre not to sure how you know what to do, but you just do.Â
âThatâs not possible,â you try to argue, trying your best to keep your voice from wavering, âYou just lack the nose for good oils.âÂ
Gojo laughs lowly, shaking his head at your antics as he braces his knees on either side of your thighs, caging you in.Â
âI have a very keen sense of smell,â he boasts and you snort, looking away as he pinches your hip to which you yelp.
His hand moves away from your head and to your shoulder, to where your nightgown had slightly slipped off and runs a thumb down a patch of your skin where it was slightly raised, a faint scar on your collarbone.Â
âWhereâd you get this?â His voice is slightly hushed, and you look down from your chin to where he is talking about.Â
 âHm?â You look around, see that heâs pointing to the tiniest little scar, and chuckle slightly, âOh, that?â Your eyes squint as you try to remember, âI tried to climb up a tree once when I was little and fell.â Gojo huffs out a little laugh, his eyes still focused on your skin as you chew on the inside of your cheek.
âIt probably looks far worse compared to anything you have,â you say sarcastically, âThe family physician kept saying I wasnât going to make it through the night.âÂ
He scoffs, rolling his eyes at your antics as he raises himself, moving away from you as he sits back down on the grass. You miss his warmth, the way his heat radiated onto you like a furnace.Â
âI donât know how you keep surviving between your inability to consume fish and your near-death occurrences,â Gojoâs voice holds a teasing tone and you smile, moving up so that youâre facing him.Â
You rest your weight back on your hands, kicking your legs out in front of you as your skirt flows around the grass. A while ago you wouldâve felt improper sitting like this in front of anyone, but you donât seem to care all that much when itâs Gojo.Â
âI showed you my battle would,â you say, putting one leg on top of the other, âWhatâs your worst one?â You ask, tilting your head to the side in questioning.Â
Gojo purses his lip, thinking.Â
You imagine that heâd tell you or probably motion to where it was, but a second later you watch, shocked, as he tugs his tunic upwards, your face heating as he rises it slightly so that you can see a part of his stomach.Â
You hate how utterly built he is.Â
His skin is pulled taught over the smooth stomach of his abs, his chest huge with pure muscle, his arms, bulging through the sleeves. Itâs something you thought youâd get used to, something you told yourself to stop ogling at, but never could.
But you shift your focus to a large scar that runs across his chest, from the bottom of his hip under his arm. It still looks relatively new, and the scar itself still pink. You could see the way it was jagged, not one smooth line, and gods, fuck, why do you want to touch it?
âWell,â you try to think of something witty to say, seeing the way heâs looking at you as if waiting for it, âClearly not as bad as mine, but it comes in as a close second.âÂ
He throws his head back as he laughs, his muscles contracting as he does so. You feel flushed, not able to look away from the scar, knowing that you were merely compensating for not knowing what to say.Â
âI know,â he says eventually with a shrug, looking down as he surveys the scar, âItâs not as bad as it couldâve been.âÂ
You pout slightly, thinking.Â
âDoes it hurt?âÂ
He looks up at you, at the way you canât take your eyes away from it, and shakes his head.Â
âNot anymore,â he sits up a little straighter, closer to you as you watch him move, âSometimes I can feel it sting, but itâs barely noticeable.âÂ
You beg to differ.Â
The two of you donât say anything and a part of you has decided that silence is bad for you. Because before you can really think about what youâre doing, you push yourself upwards, leaning in closer to him as you try to get a better look at it.Â
He doesnât say anything, but if only you could see the way he could barely use his lungs to breath right now youâd make some sly remark about how the best warrior of the North was growing shy from just a look.Â
But suddenly youâre not looking anymore as you shuffle in a little closer, your fingers reaching upwards to touch the skin.Â
You can hear the wind move around you, the grass rustiling as your fingers run across the scar. His abs flex at the coldness of your hand, but he doesnât tell you to stop. Youâre studying it intently, wondering what sort of weapon couldâve caused this.Â
Gojoâs size dwarfs over yours, but you donât seem to mind. Your lips as slightly pursed as you take it in.Â
âDid you fight a bear?â You finally ask, peeking up to look at him.Â
Youâre startled by the way the flush on his cheeks has grown even more red, or the way you canât see the blues in his eyes anymore. Has he always looked like that?
Gojo shakes his head, taking in a shaky breath, looking at the top of your head as you go back to looking at the scar.Â
âNearly,â he tries to joke, but his voice is weak, laced with need, âBut I doubt a bear would even want to be compared to the man who gave me the scar.âÂ
You look up, your brow quirked in curiosity.Â
âWho?â You ask, shocked at how quiet your voice came out.Â
Gojo smiles, but it doesnât quite reach his eyes. His tongue clicks against his teeth, his hand rising up to grab yours, pulling it away from his chest. He canât bear to have you touching him like that anymore, not trusting himself to restrain the pure desire that bubbling inside his veins.Â
âNaoya,â he says hushed, watching as your lips part and eyes widen.Â
Thereâs a beat of silence, a moment when you think you can hear your heart beating in the same rhythm his is.Â
Your hand curls into itself, shock taking over your features as your eyes drop to his scar and then back up to him. You find yourself wanting to say everything and anything, but canât somehow find the words that youâre looking for. Gojo beats you to it, thankfully.Â
âIâve been having this recurring dream ever since I fought him of that same moment over and over again when he cut me open. But itâs changed, recently,â He sits up straighter, so close to you that your chests are almost touching, âAnd I keep seeing him marrying you, what wouldâve happened if you had said yes.â
âAnd gods, fuck,â he ducks his head down, raking an agitated hand through his hair, making it even more messy, âIâŠâ He chokes on his breath, looking back at you, and suddenly you see the glossiness in his eyes, the way that tears brim his waterline.Â
And suddenly you see the Gojo Satoru, the Lord in the North, the most powerful man alive, cry.Â
âI keep reprimanding Naoya in my head about how awful he is, about how Iâd kill nearly every person alive if he ever touched you, b-but I was just as awful. I think about the first time I saw you, about the first weeks you were here. I think about how you mustâve felt, how alone you were. Every dayâŠâ he wipes messily at his cheeks, his lips wobbling, âEvery day I wake up and think of you. I think about your face, your smile, your eyes, your lips, the way your nose scrunches, that line between your brows when you're confused, and every night I go to sleep hoping that this was all an awful dream and I havenât ruined your life, but then I wake up, and it starts all over again.âÂ
âI know Iâm a selfish man,â Gojo says with a wet chuckle, his cheeks wet with tears, âI know I shouldnât, but I want you to myself, I want you forever. I want to be your friend, I want to be the person you sleep next to, the person you go to when you want to talk about your little stories. I want to hear your jokes and I want to see you laugh. I want to hold your hand, I want to put that ring on your finger every morning, and I want to propose to you each night.â
He shakes his head, swallowing his cries down, the moon lighting the tear tracks that start from his eyes and end at his chin.Â
âBut I know you donât want that. You told me that you wanted a friend, butâŠâ he shrugged, his smile sad, aching, longing, âI think along the way of being your friend I realized I wanted to be your husband too.âÂ
âI understand if you want to leave. Iâll tell my parents the truth, theyâll understand. I have a house ready for you near the sea, one away from your family, where you can start over.âÂ
The wind rustles the hills, and you look at the field, watch the way it moves in tandem with the life around it.Â
You can feel the tears forming in your eyes, and know that even if you blink them away itâll do nothing to actually hide them. Thereâs a burning feeling in your chest, one that youâve never felt before, one that rings with Gojoâs words.Â
You run your fingers through the grass, looking up at him with a certain fire in your eyes.
âWhat if I donât want that?â
He blinks slowly.Â
âI,â Gojo sniffs, nodding profusely, hoping you donât see the way he crumbles, âI understand, I promise I do. The house is a couple days-âÂ
âNo,â you cut him off firmly, wiping your palms furisuly across your cheeks, to rid them of the pesky tears, shaking your head, âWhat if I donât want that?â You move up to him, reaching your hand down his tunic, your fingers moving against is chest as you dig out the gold chain thatâs wrapped around his neck.Â
The one that holds his ring, the one he told you about one night that keeps it safe whenever heâs training.Â
âWhat if I want this?â Your voice is cracking, and you tug the chain tighter.
âWhat if I want all those things? What if I want you to love me?â The ring shines in the moonlight, mirroring her pair thats wrapped around your finger, âI want to be your friend,â you stress, your brows strewn together as tears overflow from your waterline, âAnd I want to know what things you like. I want to walk with you all around the earth and walk back home again. I want to sleep next to you. I want to make you laugh, and I want you to make me smile. I want you to be my husband so that I can be your wife,â you cry out, your chest heaving up and down as he wraps his arms around your back, pulling you into his lap as he tries to quickly wipe your tears away.Â
âI want you too, Satoru,â you whisper, broken with your wet sniffles, a wet laugh escaping your lips when you see him crack at the way you said his name with so much care, your thumbs gliding across his cheeks.Â
You slide closer into him, your legs splitting across his huge thighs as he hugs you tenderly to him, his head resting on your chest so that he can hear your heartbeat, make sure that this wasnât just another dream.
âI donât deserve you,â he murmurs against your bosom, looking up at you with glistening eyes.Â
âThen fight for me,â you whisper, your hands on either side of his face, âGive me all those things. Give me more,â you smile when his arms wrap around your waist a little tighter, his hands holding you up, âAnd Iâll do the same.âÂ
He nods, holding your hand that was still holding onto his ring to his chest, one hand moving to your back, and in the mess of tears and broken laughs the two of you seem to move together, meeting each other in the middle as your lips find each other in the dark shadows of night.Â
You gasp when his lips capture yours, and he moves towards the sound, wanting to hold it, keep it forever.Â
Gojo moves slowly, knowing that this is your first time, and cups your jaw, helping you move along with him as you lips slot and lock against each other. Itâs messy and with no order, your chin staining with sweat as you moan against him, feeling delirious without the touch of him.Â
You know this isnât the easiest position for him, but he doesnât seem to mind. He groans against you, his eyes squeezing shut, trying to memorize your taste in case the world ended tomorrow and this was his last meal.Â
âIs this-â You cut him off when you swoop in again, his laughter cut short by your needienss, the way you paw at his chest, your hands winding up to his hair as you tug harshly on the soft strands.Â
He moans at this, at the way you grind mindlessly on his thigh, your need for each other bleeding out into the open.Â
âI love you,â he murmurs against you, kissing down your chin and then back up to you, his tongue swiping against your lips, savroing your whine, âI love you so much,â he says to everybody, hoping even those on mountains oceans away could hear, âI love you, my wife,â and you giggle, eyes bright when you hear those words.Â
âSay it again,â you ask, your nails drawing little shapes on his nape, and you see him break into a smile.Â
âMy wife,â he repeats with a peck to your cheek, âMy beautiful wife,â he kisses the tip of your nose, smiling at the way it scrunhed up slightly, just the way he adored, âMy wife,â he kisses your jaw, âMy wife,â your giggling nonstop and he hopes to bottle up the sound and hear it on his deathbed.
His hands travel back down to your hips, adusjsting you slightly so that you wouldnât feelt he embarrassing hardening of his dick just from kissing you, and moves his lips down to your neck, hearing the way thereâs a hitch in your laughter.Â
âWhyâd you stop?â he nudges his nose at that spot pf your neck that still smells like lavender, his favroite scent in the world, âHm?â Gojo hums against that spot, licking a wet stripe up it, sucking at the skin, feeling the way you arch into his chest.Â
âY-your reeking s-scent infiltrated my nose,â you murmur, biting on your lip as he pinches your waist.Â
âYeah?â Gojo continued to tease you, sliding the sleeve of your dress down, giving you more access to the skin of your collarbone, âWant me to stop?âÂ
âNo!â You cry, totally against your better judgement, moaning when he sucks another mark into the skin, biting it, and then presses a soft kiss to it as an apology, âPlease, please, donât stop.âÂ
He chuckles darkly, shifting you around so that you are lying back down on the ground, his body framing yours as he continues tugging down your dress, going slow in case you ever wanted him to stop.Â
His fingers are quick at untying the string that holds you bodice together, unravelingit all until it falls off and heâs greeted to the sight of your heaving chest, the way your naked breasts rise and fall.Â
Gojo blinks for a moment, forgetting how to move.Â
âW-what?â You ask, a little self-conscience as he continues to stare at your chest, âDo they look wonky?â You move your hands to cover up but a deep gutteral growl escapes his lips, pinning your hands back.Â
âBeautiful,â he bites out, moving his head down, pressing a wet kiss in between the valley of your breasts, âYou look like a fuckinâ statue,â he says, âYouâre s-so beautiful.â Gojo repeats, and you canât protest with the way he praises you, nor the way his lips hover over a nipple, finally leaning in fully as he sucks on it.Â
âF-fuck!â You cry out at the sensation, your fingers lost in his hair as you keep him there, back arching off the ground, âThat, that feelsâŠgood,â you canât speak, not with the way his tongue slides across your nipple, pressing little kisses around you areola.Â
His other hand goes to your other one, making sure sheâs not feeling lonely, his thumb flicking over your sensitive nipples as you whine even louder.Â
Gojo switches and you feel your breath shudder in an embarrassing whimper, your eeys squeezing shut when he bites at you, wanting to mark you up for those wretched gods to see and feel humanly jealous over.Â
âSo soft,â he murmurs against your skin, almost in awe, âfeels like silk.âÂ
You wouldâve had a witty joke about this, you know you did, but you canât fathom to think about anything other than the way his lips feel on your tits, the way he seems like heâd die had he not been here sooner.Â
But he then raises his head, and you whine in protest. Gojo almost break at the way youâre looking up at him, the way yor lips tremble from sheer desire.Â
âWant more?â He presses, his hands, warmer than the fire thatâs burning in your belly, trailing down, down to where your dress was slightly parting, âHere?âÂ
âY-yes, fuck,â you moan, parting your legs to make room for him, not knowing what this feeling was but knowing that he was the only one who could soothe it, âNeed it so bad Sa-satoru,âÂ
His eyes roll back, swallowing his primal groan at the way you plead for him, and nods, pressing a kiss against your stomach before his hitches the fabric upwards, sliding down your body so that his face is closer to that heat.Â
You know you should feel more shame, but you feel like youâre going to die if your husband doesnât do something soon.Â
Gojoâs hand travels up your calf, trailing up your thigh, and suddenly stops.Â
You go to beg, plead, for him, but cut yourself off when his lips find your inner thighs, pressign wet and messy kisses to them, getting dangerously close to where you felt like you were leaking.Â
âYouâre divine,â he whispers against your skin, hands wrapping around your thighs as he pulls them apart, âFuckinâ divine.âÂ
His lips suddenly find there, you glistening cunt, and you mewl out for him.Â
âSatoru,â your chest is heaving like you canât find any air, âT-there, please, there,â and fuck the way youâre begging him is so sweet that he canât find it in himself to tease you.Â
His fingers seperate your wet lips, groaning when he sees just how much youâre dripping, and licks a tentative stripe upwards, your surprised gasp at how good it felt going straight to his cock.
Gojo carefully slides a finger through your tight walls, feeling the way you tighten around that, and lets his lips travel to your clit, pressing small kisses to it before he begins to suck. You clench around him, and your toes curl at the way he begins to pump it in and out, your essence soaking his skin.Â
âSo wet sweetheart,â he groans swapping his finger for his thumb at your clit, his tongue diving into your walls as he nearly cums from your saccharine taste alone, âS-shit, fuck, you taste like fucking heaven.âÂ
Your thighs tighten arund his head, but he craves the feeling, his tongue eating you out at such a fast pace that you begin to wonder if you need this more or him.Â
âO-oh gods,â your grips his head tightly, canât find the sympathy in yourself to feel bad, ââToru, oh, oh my, donât stop!Â
That coil in your stomach grows more taunt with each second.Â
He alternates, adding in another thick finger, feeling the way you try to stretch for him. He glides in and out of you with ease, but he wonders what youâd look like on his thick cock, how youâd preen as he split you open with his girth.Â
âSweet,â he moans against you, his voice vibrating against your pulsing walls, âYouâre so fuckinâ sweet.âÂ
You nod at something, whatever he just said, not fulling understanding anything around you as he continue to stimulate your clit, sucking on it, his teeth gliding across it with a little bite, and you moan out even louder.Â
âIâŠâ you canât think, canât breathe, âF-fcuk, âToru, something, somethingâs happening,â you donât know what this feeling is, this electric, all-consuming feeling thatâs zapping through your body, making it numb yet aware of everything at the same time.Â
âI know, I know,â Gojo praised you, one of his hands holding your stomach down, the added pressure making you whine, âYouâre doing so good for me, youâre there, come on come for me,â his hand travels up your body, finding yours as he weaves your fingers together.Â
âShit, shit,â you mewl, âIâm coming, fuck, c-coming!â You cry out, your back arching off of the ground as your legs grow slack around his shoulders, your walls pulsing around him as that string tightens for the final time and then finally breaks.Â
You can see white as your eyes rolls back into your head, squeezing his hand as tightly as you can, your yes dotting with tears. Your climax was all consuming, making you gush around his fingers and tongue, seeming to be never-ending, your body shaking in his hold.Â
Gojo presses one final kiss to your cunt, licking off your release from his fingers, groaning at the taste, and lets you catch your breath.Â
When youâre finally able to crack your eyes open, you peek them over to Gojo, seeing the way he tilts his head back, your cum still glistening on his chin and cheek, and whine out in embarrassment.Â
âWhat?â He asks, eyes teasing when you go to hide your face in your hands.Â
âI canât,â your words are muffled, âI canât believe I justâŠâÂ
Gojo kisses your forehead, wiping some of the tears from your eyes away as he kisses your brow bone.Â
âHow do you feel?â He asks, his eyes scanning over your body, glistening with sweat, and you take in a gulp of air.Â
âGood,â you say finally with a soft smile, âReally good.âÂ
You look from his little grin, one that you peck at, your thumb rubbing up and down his jaw, and then look down, to the obvious bulge thatâs hiding behind his training trousers.Â
Youâve never seen a cock before but fuck heâs massive.
âWhatâŠâ you trail off, sitting up slightly, and he helps balance you, âWhat about you?â you paw at his stomach, right before it leads down, and he lets out a shuddered whine.Â
âAs much as I-â he bites his tongue, feeling like heâs going to cum if you continue to look at him like that, âAs much as I want toâŠnot here,â he looks around at the field, shaking his head as a definite no, âNot here.âÂ
You go to protest, but he stops you, biting your fingers gently as you yelp, shoving his head away with little force as he chuckles.Â
You let him wrap your dress around you again, tying some of the knots so that it doesnât open up when youâre standing, and let the silence wash over the two of you calm your beating down heart down.
He plays with the ring around your finger, and you watch as the ring around his neck moves with his little breaths.Â
âI want to sleep in your bed,â you say, and his blue eyes find yours.Â
âYouâre crazy if you donât think Iâm letting you sleep anywhere else,â he says in a shocked sort of way and you laugh, looking over to the side for a brief moment, and then look back at him.Â
âDo you really love me?âÂ
Your words as whispered, but it feels like the wind picked them up and scattered them all around the field, around the river, the ancient stones, and right into Gojoâs heart.Â
âI really love you,â he whispers back, kissing your eyelids, in between your brows, your forehead, the back of your hand, and murmurs the words, âmy wife,â to nobody and to everybody at the same time.Â
You smile, pulling him down by that necklace of his so that you can plant a soft kiss against his lips. Â
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ᶻ đ đ° .á The Seven x Deadpool!Reader
t/w: loooots of dark humour/jokes, reader is insensitive and an asshole since they're also a supe working at vought, your powers are the exact same as Deadpool (even the skin condition), mention about killing, death, gore, r-pe, n@zis?!?!, alcohol, some intimacy (?). Also reader is gn!!
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here's a version with the boys <3
HOMELANDER
This man hates you so fking much
Has tried to kill you multiple times, he tried lasering you, tearing you in half and even throwing you into the sky but you just always manage to come back like the damn plague
Eventually he gives up trying to kill you and just had to deal with the fact you'll be kept alive... just temporarily though... he's still looking for ways to kill you
However, your powers gave you dozens of advantages when around Homelander.
He can be having a meeting about something serious and everyone would be listening to him due to their fear towards him, then there's you who'd be doing your own thing and just shout out unrelated things like "Donald Trump just blocked me on Twitter!! HAH!! SUCK IT CORNFLACKS!!"
Everyone turning to you with startled expressions while Homelander simply rolls his eyes before continuing his presentation.
You are a complete nightmare to the PR team, that's why for interviews or any events, you'll always be paired up with Homelander so he can keep you under control and stop you from saying weird shit that could ruin the company's image.
"So Deadpool, how does it feel being in the Seven working alongside Homelander? You've been working together for almost 3 years now" A reporter would ask as you two are surrounded by screaming fans.
"Like I'm in the twilight series, not because of the fantasy but because I'm still waiting for the part where he impregnates meâ"
"O-kay! That's enough, just silly ol' Deadpool with those inside jokes"
"You can tell in this eyes that he wants to fuck me right now. HE'S GONNA FUCK ME!!" You shouted as you're being dragged away by him.
Obviously when you had found out about his relationship with Stormfront, especially her background, you had to say some shit about it. Not giving the slightest care about the fact he could be grieving over her death.
He'll be in his room standing in front of the window and you'd just storm in, being as loud as possible.
"I can't believe you dated a N@zi!! Is it because I'm Jewish?!" Which may or may not be true, nobody knows your origin.
He may hate your guts but if he ever needs someone to help him do some dirty work, you're the person for the job, you never ask why or how, which could be the only thing he likes about you.
"Y'know, maybe if you didn't have such a big mouth, you'd be tolerable"
"All the people I've slept with have said otherwise"
Compatibility? 50%
STARLIGHT
Before she joined the Seven, she had an image of what kind of person you were, she just didn't know it was this worse.
When you found out she used to work at this Sunday School Church, you just haaaaad to say something about it.
"So like, you say that prayer always works, but every night I pray for my hair to grow and it never does. Do you think God has me blocked? How do I get unblock?"
"Uh..."
You two surprisingly get along without one wanting to slice the other's throat, except sometimes the things you say can really piss her off. Which is why when the company assigned her a new costume, she was trying her hardest to avoid you, but you found out anyways.
"Holy shit Starlight! Nice costume, is this your Miley Cyrus breakthrough? Girl power!"
Insert her groaning out of annoyance.
Again, the second you discovered she was dating a guy behind the death of Translucent, you were heartbroken :(
"Of course this happens right when my therapist gives up on me!"
Despite your behaviour, you pitied her when it was revealed that she was taken advantage of by The Deep, so like any good friend, you took revenge by cooking his friend octopus and eating it happily in front of him.
"Revenge does taste sweet" You'd say happily while Starlight just watches by the side, both grateful and horrified at your actions.
In my opinion, you would definitely be the person she goes to once she starts working with the boys, you'll always be providing whatever information that happens in the company for her to use.
It helps her worry less about getting anyone killed 'cause you literally can't die.
Compatibility? 60%
QUEEN MAEVE
You're half the reason why she rethinks about her life choices when she wakes up in the morning
Not because you're a handful (which you are) but because you're always paired together on missions
"Deadpool! The hostages!"
"OKAY! God... you act just like my drunk uncle"
Which is a joke/nickname you like to address her by because of her alcoholism (yikes)
Whenever the company needs you for something, half of the time she's the one assigned to search for you.
There was this one time she caught you trying to have Anika track down Kanye West's location, nobody knows what shenanigans you were up to.
Another thing to mention was that you two were chosen by the company to sing a Christmas song for the year's Christmas ceremony.
Just imagine during the bridge of the song, she's singing normally while you're completely going off, your high note so high you were sure you had Mariah Carey a run for her money.
Even though she finds you a lot to deal with, you're actually her buddy to train with.
Since you're very skilled with Katanas, she likes to practice her swordsmanship with you.
You like to tease or make fun of her everytime she fails to strike you which is good motivation for her to get better. Maybe you guys bring out the best of each other?
Last thing I'd like to add is when she was found out by the public that she was a lesbian (She's bi but you get the running joke), you had gifted her a t-shirt that says, 'Biggest Dick in Town'
Compatibility? 80%
THE DEEP
Your human punching bag
If Vought was a high school instead of a company, you'd be the bully and he'd be the nerd getting stuffed inside the locker room.
For example, Homelander could be confronting Starlight about her relationship with Hughie and everyone would just start raising their voices til you come in yelling "SHUT UP!" to the Deep who had not said a single thing during the entire time.
Just imagine him staring at you like đ
To be honest you also ate his friend octopus so you guys are actually never getting the chance to make up.
"Look dude, I don't appreciate your tone"
"I don't appreciate your haircut either but we can't all get what we want"
You may be a crazy person but you weren't going to be okay with the fact he violates every woman he sees, so not only did you cook the octopus but you also called in a male stripper disguised as a woman just for him to celebrate on his birthday.
Just imagine him all happy when you tell him the news and later that night he'll run inside your room, completely pissed off at your act after finding out but you just laughed and said.
"Happy April Fools đ!"
"That's next month dipshit!"
Also, you never understood his weird fantasies. He has a thing for sea animals??You've caught him multiple times either flirting or getting off to one. It was concerning even for you.
"From how many animals you've fucked, you might just turn from the ocean's 'Seaman' to 'Semen'." You joked which he did not find funny.
Maybe you messing with him could just be your way of getting along with him since you're the same with everybody else, it's just he has more flaws to poke fun of and he's sensitive about them.
Compatibility? 5%
A-Train
He thinks you're fucked up in the head.
Half of the shit that comes out of your mouth just has him reacting like in the GIF
Buuuuuut you're the one he always brings to the club because you always know ways to give the party life.
You've somehow even got on the wall of fame, a lovely portrait of you with your hands making out a heart.
Also, you know about his business with Compound V waaaaay before anyone else did. He's still grateful you didn't tell anyone.
Just like everyone else, you also enjoy messing with him except he's fast and constantly avoiding you.
"Hey A-Train, how much do you wanna bet that I can die faster than you?"
"Dude... seriously?"
You guys rarely get sent on missions together because you're always slowing him down, not basing off the fact he's fast but because you get easily sidetracked with other things.
"Alright, we're here now, how much C4 do we use?"
"Fuck math! Let's use all of 'em!"
You ended up detonating all of the C4 on you before he could object the idea, he was able to run out in time, your action nearly getting him killed while you ended up dead.
But it's fine you'll just grow back.
You know that race he has against Shockwave? You'd be at the VIP section standing near where Homelander and Queen Maeve is, waving your huge banner that has a picture of A-Train's face and yours pasted over a figure carrying the other in bridal style.
Compatibility? 55%
TRANSLUCENT
He makes people paranoid but you make him disgusted.
There was this one time he was bored so he snuck in your room to see what you were doing.
At first he was confused why you had so many cute plushies but then the more he explored your room, he realised your room is basically every collector's dream.
You even had a huge teddy bear in the corner of your dressing room.
The reason why he doesn't like to spy on you is because the last time he did, he saw you putting your hand in the blender, then proceeding to put your private part into it.
Never again, he thought, never again.
He doesn't need to witness you carry out your intrusive thoughts.
Surprising enough, you're close with his son, I'd like to think that after his death, you practically became the kid's godparent. Though you can be sort of a bad influence, leading up to how he is in Gen V.
You always tell him you hate kids but he thinks otherwise.
After all, he can read people well.
You guys like to pull pranks on each other since you guys like competing on who's more sneaky
There was this one time, you woke up to find your suit gone so you ended up walking around the building, completely naked and unfazed by people's stares.
It was when you walked around the corner that you found your suit worn by someone else, turns out it was Translucent under it.
"Why is it so fucking tight dude? How do you stay in this shit all day?"
"You get used to it"
Compatibility? 85%
BLACK NOIR
Lovers.
He doesn't mind your attitude because he actually can't say anything about it.
No seriously... he can't talk.
But hey he's got a good shoulder to cry on.
"I just... hffgh... I can't believe my album didn't surpass lady gaga's... She doesn't even know how to use Katanas like I do!" You'd let out a loud sob while he just stares at you for a while before placing a hand on your shoulder, patting you gently.
You know the scene where he's playing the piano for one of the company's party? You'll be laying down on top of it and singing in your usual overdramatic high pitched voice.
He finds your humour amusing so he always does this little head tilt like in the GIF when you say some weird shit while waiting for his response.
Since both of you are the only members of the Seven that wears a full body suit, obviously you had to try on his but since it was impossible to achieve that, you just had the company make a copy for you.
He'll be walking down the hallway doing his normal routine until he notises another person in his suit, the moment you speak and he realises its just you is when he let's his guard down.
"I just got some transplants done to my ass, that's why I look different"
You both are never sent on missions together 'cause you guys don't work well, pretty much nobody works well with him since he's the silent type.
Example, you two were hiding behind some crates ready to jump on the bad guys who were snucking in illegal drugs. He gestured for you to wait as he went to check again, only to turn back to see you gone.
"Marry Christmas motherfuckers!"
He heard your voice shout and he found you standing on top of the stacked crates, machine gun in hand and began shooting aimlessly.
He didn't even do anything but just watch until you ran out of bullets. However, multiple survived and began shooting at you so you ended running towards where he's hiding at.
"Yankee yankee!" You yelped.
You know the video of the two girls taking off their wigs to reveal that they're bald and they start bonding over it? I'd like to imagine that's you and Black Noir with the skin condition under the suits.
One more scenario I wanna add, you guys could be having a meeting but since you were bored and you always hated meetings, you'd draw a big heart on a piece of paper and show it to Black Noir from across the table. Surprisingly he'd draw a heart back to you.
You were overjoyed so you began to draw you and him doing it, doggy style. He stares at your doodle for a while before choosing to just focus on the meeting instead.
Compatibility? 90%
(This took a while cause I was on vacation)
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Controversial younger s/o things
Slight mentions of like one nsfw thing, especially for Stanley, itâs not much but still I thought I should say.
Ford worries that heâs far too old for you, but yet is unable to keep his distance from you when you spent every waking moment at the shack with Soos, Wendy, Dipper and Mabel.
He feels like a perv whenever he lets his gaze linger a little too long on you for it to be platonic, yet he could never bring himself to look away as you had him bewitched mind, body and soul for all he knew and he didnât mind it, even if it did mean he lost sleep dreaming about you being his youthful spouse who often stole his turtlenecks just to get his attention.
He thinks you could be better off with someone your own age, and yet despite believing this, Ford canât help but harbour this mentality that he could treat you far, far better then anyone your own age. Heâd worship the ground you walk on, treat you with respect, dignity and trust.
Youâd probably be brought down to the lab quite often per his request. Ford claims he needs your opinion on something but the moment your down there, youâre making out with your back pressed against his workbench as his hands remained above your waist; maybe teasingly trailing to your thighs but still heâs a respective gentleman towards you forever and always.
There the moments you gladly wait all day for moments like these as you got to feel just how badly Ford wanted you in more ways then one ;)
You make out in his bed too but thatâs only if you couldnât make it to the lab, so Ford makes sure to lock the door when you do, for privacy and such.
Thereâs multiple entries about you and Fordâs conflicted feelings towards you followed with sketches of you looking the most beautiful heâs ever seen you. Seeing you be great and supportive with dipper and Mabel defiantly awakens something in him that he later puts down in the journal.
Will loose it if he ever saw you in his turtleneck, heâs not gods strongest soldier in their regards as heâs more then happy to get on his knees for you right then and there. You in his turtleneck is his secrete fantasy and to see it become reality is enough for this man to believe that there is a heaven.
Stanley feels that you deserve better then him
the girdle stays off! You donât give a fuck, the girdle stays off and you will fucking hide it from him, much to his dismay but you love his tummy so, so so much!
Heated make outs in el Diablo while on road trips just the two of you at night.
Spoils you rotten however he could in meaningful ways, kinda feels sad that he canât do more for you like you deserved but you didnât care as you pepper his face with kisses and reassurance that heâs more then enough for you.
Probs gets jealous of you talking to other older men that has deeper pockets, but is smug as fuck the moment you came back to him with wads of their money in your hands as he pulls you in close by the waist and kisses you firmly on the lips saying, âthatâs my girl/boy/ spouse.â
You will get love bites from him for making him jealous but also for making him so proud of his gorgeous/handsome/ beautiful spouse. You wear them with pride as you know no one else can elicit the same feeling as Stan did and heâd show off his own love bites with pride as heâs shameless and wants to show that heâs more then taken.
Does get moments of insecurity about your age gap but with a few words of reassurances, kisses and caresses to his body and heâs more than back to being confident of your relationship.
Stan wants you to sit on his lap all of the time, no excuses youâre on his lap and he gets the prettiest view of his unbearably cute spouse as his large hand rubs your thighs, getting progressively closer as to where you needed him most. ;)
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satoru comeback truthers rise WHERE IS UR RAGE !!!
youre still slightly shaking, even with one hand in your lovers warmer one, you canât help but feel the same fear you felt when you saw him laying in two.
âsweetheartâ his voice is honey like, smoothing your sore throat as you look up at him, face dirty and scarred. âi asked if you wanna get pho?â
itâs odd, coming back home as if nothing happened. as if he hadnât just had the battle of a lifetime and almost lost. your legs feel wobbly and that sinking pit in your stomach is back. you bite your bottom lip to stop it from trembling, playing it off as you thinking.
âyeah pho sounds goodâ you say weakly, not taking your eyes off of satoru as he leads you to the couch. he tries to untangle your fingers from his, stopping when he feels your squeeze harder to keep his hand in place.
he doesnât say anything, instead ordering with one hand, drawing a soothing circle with his thumb on your hand. satoru can feel your eyes on him, practically burning a hole into his skull with the intensity of your stare. he doesnât mind, he canât imagine how you felt, thinking he was dead for who knows how long. god knows what he wouldâve done if the roles were reversed.
âordered it, should be here in an hour ishâ he whispers, pulling you close and laying back on the couch. youâre quick to wrap your arms around him, careful to not squeeze too hard as he was still sore and bruised.
thump, thump, thump.
the rhythmic beating is enough to calm you for a moment, your hands are less shaky and you feel like you can finally breathe. your eyes shut for a second, only to be met with the scene of satoru laying on ground. your eyes are shooting open immediately, making you sit up straight and giving satoru a once over, relieved to see he was really there.
âhey, im right hereâ heâs as gentle as ever, hands finding yours and squeezing tight. âim not going anywhereâ heâs promises, placing one of your hands over his warm chest, the rhythmic beating of his heart calms you once more.
ââm sorryâ you choke out, wiping your eyes quickly before smiling softly, âwas just- it was a lotâ you mumble, âi thought-â you canât bring yourself to finish the sentence, satoru doesnât make you, pulling you to his chest and kissing the top of your head.
the two of you stay like that for a while, taking turns holding each other, comforting one another and placing endless kisses on each others faces. it felt like only a moment had passed in comparison to the eternity you felt without satoru.
satoru notices the way your eyes linger on him, the way youâre looking at him every couple minutes as the two of you eat soup in silence. it hurts his heart, seeing you so afraid and traumatized, he wishes he could go back in time and make sure they kept you away from any screens.
the season finale of the show you two had been watching doesnât matter to you much anymore, barely paying attention to it. your focus is instead on the white haired man laying practically on top of you, mindlessly eating some popcorn youâd made for him.
your fingers are tangled in his hair, somehow still soft despite everything he went through. satoru can feel your eyes on him, of course he can. he wonders if youâre looking at his scarred skin, if youâre too scared to even continue a relationship with him.
âyou should showerâ your comment is what breaks the silence and interrupts satoruâs spiraling thoughts.
âhuh?â thereâs genuine confusion in his voice. is that really what you were thinking about? âare you calling me stinky?â he teases, testing the waters.
âgrimy, actuallyâ a small smile creeping on your lips. it makes satoruâs heart glow, a wide grin on his lips as he sees your smile.
âyour words cut deepâ he pouts, quickly smiling again when you roll your eyes at his familiar antics. âeven sukuna didnât hurt me this muchâ the words make you gasp, smacking him slightly and pushing him off the couch.
âuncalled for!â you laugh, shrieking when satoru stands from the floor and picks you up swiftly. he doesnât think k twice before peppering kisses over your face and nuzzling his face in the crook of your neck.
ânow youâre stinky too!â he wastes no time in heading to the restroom, with you still in his arms (hardly putting up a fight). he sets you on the counter softly, bending down to be eye level with you. his nose is only centimeters from yours, and you canât resist the urge to rub yours against his.
satoru giggles at your action; the noise alone puts your heart at ease, the weight on your shoulders lifted and things felt right.
for the time the two of you are in the restroom life is perfect again. even when satoru takes his shirt off, visibly nervous about the new scar across his torso, youâre too happy to have him there to care.
âyou donât think it looks, i donât know, ugly?â heâs avoiding eye contact and you canât help but laugh softly. the sound makes his head snap towards you immediately, relaxing when you take his hands in his and pull him closer.
âyou could never look ugly, angel boyâ you mumble, kissing his lips. âi think it looks good, actuallyâ you grin, wiggling your eyebrows and making his cheeks flush pink. satoru wastes no time kissing you again, giggling against your lips.
the hot water hits his skin and it feels like a godsend, making hums sigh in relief.
âtold you you should showerâ you tease, making your lover grin at your words. he waves you off gently, relishing in the feeling. âcâmere let me shampoo you.â
satoru doesnât hesitate, a faint smile on his lips when your fingers scratch his scalp. maybe itâs the steam enshrouding the two of you, or seeing you change into his clothes, or smelling the clean bedsheets again, or being home- regardless of the reason satoru finally feels free.
thereâs no stress on his shoulders from the higher ups or his clan, heâs not afraid of his students getting hurt anymore, heâs not afraid of losing you.
âi love you sweetheartâ he whispers. youâve been asleep for a while now, your head on his chest with your arms wrapped tightly around him. maybe it was weird but he didnât care, he spent the night tracing your features with his eyes, memorizing any noise you made and the way you breathed.
satoruâs eyes watered, grateful to be back home. his eyes wandering to his sock drawer, tomorrow heâll pull out the small velvet box he bought a year ago.
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âč á(á ÂŽ Ë)à© âĄ âŠ SHARPEST TOOL âĄ
track five of the short nâsweet series. pairing: babydaddy!rafe x reader. based loosely on the song sharpest tool by sabrina carpenter. enjoy! à»ê°Ő Üž. .ÜžŐê±á
itâs not like you expected a marriage proposal or anything.
rafe was going to be rafe, you knew thatâ it was the whole reason he was your babydaddy and not your husband or even boyfriend. the cameron man was bright where it counted but not even nearly emotionally equipped enough to handle the trials and tribulations of an adult relationship paired with a baby. he got the baby on fridays and tuesdays. that was the agreement.
but that didnât mean you didnât see him inbetween.
âmmh, fuckâ sâmine isnât it? huh? câmonââ rafe cups your chin, encouraging you to speak words that were incoherent whines as he drives his cock repeatedly through your gummy walls.
âyours, still yours rafey.â
god, youâd think the two of you were still together. it was sex talk, nothing more nothing less â you assumed anyway. unfortunately, due to unforeseen circumstances in your love life, and the fact you were somewhat soul tied to the cameron boy, you meant every word. there was no way he felt the same, merely doing you a favour even â due to your raging hormones post pregnancy recovery that were adjacent to a teenage boys. he was helping you out.
âthis pussy is â goddamn, still as good as the first time i fucked it.â he groans into your neck because you know heâs close.
you roll your hips, forever trying to please him.
as aforementioned, itâs not like you expected him to suddenly come forward with a proposal after heâd finished into the condom. he drops a kiss to your temple like always, cleans himself off in the bathroom, awkwardly stands in your door making small talk, and occasionally decides that then is the time to drop your wad of allowance money that he gives you for raising his kid. you told him to stop putting money on your dresser after sex because it made you feel like a âpaid serviceâ. he rolled his eyes.
the problem didnât lie with how rafe treat you within the four walls of your bedroom. rafe was going to be rafe, and that was that. it was how heâd behave upon seeing you in public. youâd think the two of you were merely strangers. if you were to stroll through the country club where you rightfully belong just as much as him, heâd turn his back, look away. like heâd forgotten everything.
at this point, you couldnât tell if he was nonchalant or just plain stupid. you couldnât keep chasing the feeling of the rare little nod of acknowledgement heâd send your way when youâd accidentally lock eyes. he wasnât ashamed of the situation, no â youâd seen him proudly walk around the club with his little girl in his arms, letting everyone surround them, fawn over them. it was you that got left behind.
youâd decided enough was enough, coming to the conclusion youâd ignore him right back. it was approaching the weekend, and you knew youâd have to see him â so you prepared yourself to be strong. resilient. play him at his own game. you were simply there to drop off the baby and go home.
rafe comes and stands by you at the country club bar on a thursday evening.
âusual time tomorrow?â he nudges you gently with his arm, and you were shocked he was even speaking to you. not allowing the shock to cause you to jump straight into friendly conversation, you stare ahead.
âyep.â
âalrightâŠyeah, yeahâŠâ he nods, itching his cheek, eyes glancing back over to you. âi assume you uh, youâre gonna want something to help get you right huh? nothing some dick canât fixâŠâ you can hear the smirk on his voice and you exhale shakily, not wanting to react in the usual pavlovian way with your panties practically dropping.
so you say nothing. you stare ahead.
the bartender brings his beer, and yet he stays, staring at your profile. âaâight⊠fucks aâmatter with you?â
âyou clearly donât care, you can skip the formalities.â you find yourself spitting out before you can help yourself. he stares for another moment before he scoffs.
âthe fucks your problem, little miss attitude?â he drawls, blinking in irritation but your order comes and you take it and walk away. he doesnât chase you, of course not.
you drop the baby off the next day, and he tries his luck again, welcoming you inside wearing grey sweats. âcâmon.â he croons quietly, nodding his head inside after youâd got the sleeping baby situated and you stand up straight, look him in the eye, and smile.
âso you can treat me like iâm not a person afterwards? i think iâll pass.â you turn your daughter, blowing her a kiss. âbye baby, mommy will see you tomorrow.â rafe stares after you, watching you go.
to answer your previous pondering, it turned out rafe was more stupid than he was nonchalant. truth be told, he hadnât realised heâd been acting all that much differently. you were co-parenting, not a couple â so he figured his time at the country club was his time and yours was yours. he didnât wanna bother you a whole bunch and put you off visiting.
but the dots were starting to connect, and rafe remembered that women do infact need more emotional stimulation to live happily beside you â and heâd be damned if he werenât to look after the mother of his child properly. if thatâs what you needed, heâd be happy to play ball.
the two of you donât say much to eachother when you pick the baby up the next day, yet when monday rolls around, and you step into the country club with three of your friends to discuss an upcoming event â rafe cameron doesnât waste any time.
he cuts topper off mid conversation, holding up a dismissive hand as soon as his eyes meet you and he begins to swagger over to you in his usual aggressive and demanding manner. you think heâs about to give you an earful infront of your friends so you stop nervously, brow creasing. however, when he reaches you â he grips you and brings his lips to yours, cutting off any potential confused greeting on your tongue with a kiss.
âgonna stop pouting about this whole thing now? huh?â he raises his eyebrows and you blink up at him, turning to your friends and shooing them to their table. turning back, you eye him.
âwhy did youââ
âyou think i donât care about you, thatâs it right? like â like i donât supply your ass with endless money, threaten any asshole that tries to make a move on you, defend you like my god damn life depends on it, fuck you when you need it? hm? nah, nah you really thinkââ
âwait, who do you threaten?â
âthatsâ ahh⊠thats not important, alright?â he scratches his temple, buzzcut bristling against his blunt fingernails as he quickly wets his lips with his tongue. âi didnât know i was fucking up. okay?â his drags out his version of an apology and you feel the tiniest smile creeping up on you. it was pathetic, really.
âi just didnât want you to be ashamed of me.â you sigh, looking down and heâs lightly gripping your chin immediately so you looked up at him when he spoke. old habits die hard.
âiâm not. you think iâd put a baby in someone i was ashamed of? that shits for the pogues.â
ârafe.â
âlook,â he pulls his sunglasses on over his eyes and wraps an arm around you, the two of you now looking out over the club. the eyes of his friends and yours are quickly averted, having being watching the entire interaction. âi donât know what more you want, okay iâmâ i havenât done this before. i donât know if youâre aware but i havenât had a kid before. this shit is my first fuckinâ rodeo too.â he turns to look down at you through the dark frames, a serious and promising look on his face. âbut whatever i need to do⊠to keep that little attitude at bay, iâll make shit happen. yeah? even if i gotta fuck you infrontâa the whole club.â
he might not have been the sharpest tool, but he knew what you wanted to hear.
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"i feel kinda ugly" ft. the monster trio!
in which the biggest dumbasses in the whole of sea comfort you when you fall prey to your shitty thoughts ft. luffy, zoro, sanji x fem!reader set-up: you happened to utter out what you thought of yourself and these men are here to prove you wrong. (kind of a serious set of headcanons, but ill try being funny when i can) warnings: nsfw; somnophilia if you squint, oral f!receiving and m!recieving, boobjob, creampie; MDNI (thankyou very much)
luffy:
my fav little gremlin's in town ^^
- "i feel kinda ugly" you had muttered it under your breath, words dissolving into the chilly night air. you were laying on your shared bed, staring up at the uneventful ceiling as he snored lightly next to you. - he was supposed to be asleep, atleast that's what you had thought (how can you expect him to stay up after eating like 500kg of meat??) - but he stirs awake almost instantly, turning his head to look at your face. he stifles a yawn, mumbling through a half-lidded gaze, "why would you say that?" - "why would i say what?" you smile, waving it off as if it had just been a wayward thought - but lord knows the amount of nights you've tossed and turned, thinking about all the ways you were incompetent for this man who lay in front of you. you weren't pretty like nami or robin, you weren't quick-witted like them, god, what did he see in you? - "who said you were ugly?" his face is scrunched up, the crease b/w his eyebrows deepening "luffy let it g-" "no. who said it?" his violent undertone doesn't go unnoticed, as if he's threatening to take care of whoever made you miserable - you don't have the heart to tell him it's yourself. you convinced yourself you weren't pretty enough. - and so, you stay silent - but his arms are pulling you impossibly close. closer and closer till your chest is pressed flushed against his and you're staring at him confused - "luf-" "that's bullshit." there's conviction in his words that make a dull warmth cascade over your face and neck. - he is pressing his forehead against yours, hands gripping onto you tightly as if letting his grip loosen means he loses this argument. "you're beautiful. you're smart and kind and beautiful." - at this point, youre about to cry - but he inhales deeply, then says "not to mention you smell like a fruit. thats tasty." - yeah the tears dried up. they fucked off and went to sahara desert. - youre currently fighting off a smile because what the actual fuck prompted this man to say that??? and more importantly what fruit do you smell like? "what fruit do i smell like?" "mhm" he's deep in thought, "tangerines" "luffy everyone smells like tangerine. it's because of nami's tangerine trees." he shrugged, "still pretty tasty" - and now youre kissing his adorably stupid face. your fingers tug on the hair on his nape lightly and he whines into the kiss, sucking on your bottom lip as he does so - "you're so pretty" and so he's kissing your neck, nibbling and grazing lazily - two seconds later, he fell asleep. - like actually fell asleep. his mouth is on your neck, open mouthed and half-nibbling and he's snoring through it all. (i mean, what did you expect from someone who had eaten 500kg of meat??) - issokay though cause the second he wakes up, his fingers are hiking one of your legs over his hip. the same fingers then slip inside the loose folds of your shorts, playing with your pretty pussy till you stir awake, moaning his name - you're the one being toyed with and he's the one whispering and whining like he's gonna explode "does that feel good, ngh-" a grin, "god... fuck, cum for me, pretty" - he continues till your velvety walls are spasming against his fast-paced fingers and your teeth are sinking into his shoulder, muffling shrieks this early in the morning - "you're gorgeous" he whispers through a grin - you choose to believe him
zoro:
myhusband ^^
- this was the last thing you wanted. truly. - zoro had just stepped out of the shower with nothing but a towel losely tied around his waist (this was after he had succesfully ignored you and trained for like an eternity) - water droplets clung onto his broad figure, slowly trailing downwards as they glided over every ridge and scar - you probably should have pulled him onto the bed with you, straddled his hips and asked him to stop ignoring you to go spend time with his swords - you probably should have. - instead, you lay stomach-down on your bed, your head softly cradled beneath your arms and against the pillow - "what's up with you?" he asks, unfazed to your tactics "nothing" you mumble half-heartedly he gave you a double over, "you sure? you're sulking more than usual" "i-" you sigh, "i just idk... i just feel kinda ugly?" - this motherfucker laughs, "yeah i mean you kinda are" - he didn't know you were serious. he didn't know till you were softly crying against the linen sheets, your body shivering against your own cries and staggered breaths - "yn?" there's panic in his voice, "yn, baby, are you crying?! fUCK IM SORRY!" - he didn't know you were serious. i mean how wAS HE SUPPOSED TO KNOW?! HE THOUGHT YOU WERE BEING DRAMATIC FOR NO REASON LIKE ALWAYS - "hey" you've never heard the swordsman speak so softly as he does now. he's pulling you up softly, placing you in his lap almost mechanically, "yn, baby-" - he lets you sob into his chest for as long as you need to, his fingers are rubbing gentle patterns into your back, arms and waist. - once you've calm down, his hand tips your face lightly towards him. he silently wipes the tears away. - he doesn't say anything and somehow his silence brings more comfort than his words could. - "don't think stupid shit" his palm is resting on your face, pouring warmth across the stretch of your cheek, "you're gorgeous." "but you said im ugly" you lean into his touch "i also said i will return back nami's loans with full interest" a small smile tugs on his lips, "sometimes even i say stupid shit" "so, you don't think i'm ugly?" - his response comes in the way of leaning in and kissing you, one hand on your cheek as the other kneads your waist. - he's laying you down, hovering over you easily and pressing hot kisses to your neck and jawline. sucking, biting till you can feel bruises blossoming across your skin. his knee presses against your core, blinding you with delicious jolts " his agile fingers are hiking up your skirt, letting it pool around your waist, "let me show you how pretty you are, baby" - so, he's pulling your panties with his teeth, he's licking a clean stripe on your inner thigh, kissing and bruising the sensitive skin "and you're dripping wet already? want me to fuck you that bad, eh?" - he's running his tongue over your clit, tracing figures as he alternates between your drooling hole and the bundle of nerves - and so obviously you're now cumming on his face, letting your juices coat his lips, thighs shaking as he gives you kitten licks to help you ride your orgasm - he looks up at you; your hairline damp with sweat, eyes closed in bliss, a warm hue of red sprinkled across your face, your chest rising and falling with each labored breath "i've never seen someone prettier" he declares from between the plush of your thighs, smiling up at you like it was the first time he had truly seen you - you choose to believe him
sanji:
mhm, a fine specimen ^^
- you don't keep secrets from sanji. - or more like you physically cannot. - this man is your greatest cheerleader, there's no way you can hide something from him no matter how squeamish it makes you to say out loud - so after noticing your off behaviour the entire evening and pestering you for twenty minutes after dinner, he had successfully got you to say what you were thinking out loud "sweetheart, darling, the apple of my eye. what is wrong?" you shake your head again, "nothing." "yn, my love, 'fess up" - he said it so sweetly you had to fess up. there was no choice. - "i just feel a bit bad about myself today" "bad? how so?" "i just... just feel kinda ugly" - he looks like he's going into cardiac arrest (he probably is) cause there's no way you, his girlfriend, literally the prettiest girl in all four seas just said that out loud - honestly, i can just see this man tearing up and blaming himself "is it me, mon chéri? did i do something wrong?" tears are clinging on dangerously onto his lasheline "what?! no!" "i am sorry. i love you so much. i must have said something wrong because you're so gorgeous, so earth-shatteringly beautiful-" - honestly you had to calm this bitch down first, explaining to him that he was perfect in every way he can be, it's probably just your own fault - but he refuses to accept it as your fault. - this man, this beautiful, amazing man has to now cling onto you and pepper kisses onto you face like there's no tomorrow. like everytime you try to speak, he wont let you cause he needs to ramble about how absolutely gorgeous you are - he spoke for so long that you are now convinced that to the world you may not be the prettiest woman alive but to this blonde man (with a great ass), you mean everything - his kisses blended into soft whispers and whimpers as you forced him to rest against the headboard and straddled his hips - you can feel his poking erection through his dress slacks as you kiss him senseless with only one goal in mind, to let him know he did nothing wrong - you nudge his slacks downwards till his cock hits you lightly in your face - your lips encircle his tip, sucking on it lightly as your hand moves up and down his length, languid and slow "yn~" his voice is a choked whisper, "you- are killing me. faster, please darling." - now you're catching his dick between your tits, massaging his length with the softness of your breasts as your tongue laps up at his tip, licking any pre-cum that escapes him "fuck fuck fuck fu-" his moans are an incoherent ramble, "i'm gon' cum, fuck you feel- so ngh- good" - he comes on your tits and face and almost releases again when he sees you scoop up the sticky fluid from the corner of your lips and lick it away - looking at you with nothing but adoration in his eyes, "yn, you are the most gorgeous woman i have seen." - you choose to believe him
a/n: honestly cannot thank you guys for how much you'be blown up these posts in the past few days, so here, have a little treat m.list
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I'm really fond of Billy Batson being like the 4th or 5th superhero to debut. Like, he pops up RIGHT after the trinity pops up. I think it's a prime chance to see essentially a newly reborn DCU through a child's eyes. Not in like the New Frontier "Wow! Look at all of these guys!" way (not to knock that, it's still great when moments like that do happen). But in the "everybody is green enough that the idea that this grown man is acting like an 11 year old is extremely suspect" kind of way.
Every member of the trinity has generally the same reaction.
Clark is much more of a "this is the only other person who will TALK to me... BUT he's also probably autistic". Where he's cordial and kind to Billy but also keeps his distance. He's a country bumpkin, and as an autistic person who's ALSO a country bumpkin, I can bet that he'd use the signature "be kind at a distance and let him work it out himself" strategy that I most often see used. Not to say that Clark is going to be a jerk about it. He just knows that he's not qualified to help and since he's an adult he can take care of himself.
Bruce ALSO assumes that Billy is autistic. Especially since the first time he even MEETS Captain Marvel is when he's interrupted on a stakeout. I always envisioned a Year 2 Bruce not being cruel to strangers, but also not being nice either. He just kind of ignores him until eventually he calls Captain Marvel over to whatever he's doing and explains what's going on. Bruce is the kindest to Billy, even if it's not as overt as Clark's.
On theme, Diana ALSO assumes that Billy is autistic after meeting him. Of course, she assumes that after somebody explains the concept of autism to her after explaining how something's just off with "that guy". She's not fond of the fact that some asshole is using the power of old gods, but lets it slide because she doesn't know how to confront that and can tell that the conversation and confrontation with him simply isn't worth it. She's a whole lot more proper and Billy finds her nice and all, but a little bit too grown up for his taste.
Billy isn't a founding member or anything, but once he is indicted, each member of the trinity keeps an eye out on him. Batman doesn't find out that Billy is a LITERAL child until he's a couple of years in with Dick. So he just keeps the lie going. It's easier to tell somebody "he's autistic" instead of "he's a 12 year old swapping bodies with an adult deity"
Any other potential headcanons that can come with Billy Batson becoming the 4th or 5th or just a really early superhero?
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Simon with herding instinct on that physio snippet.... God what I'd do to be Reader (I'm not sick but I'm KO by my period, so I think I also deserve herding instincts and a cup of tea made by someone who is not me)
I think you deserve a little treat for your body torturing you Same reader as this (female reader)
"Fuck." You draw a deep breath through your nose and blow it out slowly, trying to push the pain away. You have a busy schedule today, and the 141 was expected to be back which meant you'd have the Lieutenant on your table at some point between now and twenty one hundred.
You do not have time for period pain.
Your appointments waltz in and out through the day, your focus turning from the stabbing, burning ache in your belly, quads and lower back, until the clock finally ticks down to nineteen hundred, and you slump over in your chair. A moment's reprieve, a second to get off your feet, exhaustion sinking into you, your longing for your bed and a heating pad stealing the whole of your attention. You can almost feel it, the hot shower, the comfort of your sheets, a cup of tea. Almost.
For now, you swallow more paracetamol and hope it lasts you through the rest of the day.
The door to the clinic swings open, and you don't need to peek outside the door of your office to know who it is.
No one has footsteps as heavy as his.
The Lieutenant.
The man you do not understand. The one who treated you like a small, fragile animal when you were sick, barging into your house and forcing you onto the couch, doling out medicine and hand feeding you warm broth. He pressed cold cloths to your forehead, held your hair and rubbed your back as you vomited.
The entire time you trembled with nerves, staring at the stitching of his balaclava, looking away each time his face turned towards yours. He hated you, why was he here?
Your fever broke, he disappeared. And the next time you saw him-
He went back to treating you just as he always did.
Coldly. Gruffly. Rudely.
Tonight would be no different.
So when you step outside and see him still in his full kit, arms folded across his chest, you wilt, already defeated, stomach tying itself in knots.
"Need m'back looked at." He barks and you fight the instinct to jump.
"Yeah, o-of course." The words are unsteady, you're unsteady, just like each time before, and he doesn't say anything else, just looks you up and down before brushing by you to get to the table.
He's the width of your workspace. Wingspan larger than should be humanly possible, width of his shoulders and back difficult to comprehend. He could tear you apart, if he wanted, so you've always treated him so carefully, staying focused, making sure you don't slip up and push his muscles too far or cause him pain. It's the same care you apply to all your patients, but with him, it's different. It's like diffusing a bomb.
His head is turned towards you as your fingers walk down the middle of his spine, working pressure points. Every time he twitches, or grunts, or even breathes deeply, you tense, but you keep your focus, kneading down to his sciatic nerve, pushing in deep, deep enough to make him groan, your heartbeat pulsing in your ears.
You don't even realize he's saying your name until he shifts on the table.
"S-sorry?" His eyes are locked the space between your legs, and you follow his sight line, gasping when you see what he sees.
Red.
Your standard issue khaki pants are stained dark red at your thighs.
"Oh my god. Oh my god, I'm sorry, I'm," you stumble backwards, hands flying to cover yourself, scrambling on how to get yourself out of the room and into the bathroom as quickly as possible. Your cheeks burn from humiliation. "I'm sorry, I uh- I'll be right back."
"Do you have another pair of pants?" He cocks his head.
I don't... I don't think so."
"Hmm." He continues to stare, and then, like he was having a conversation with himself, he swings off the table, reaching for the jacket he showed up in, before stalking towards you.
You stumble back, but you're too slow, and he catches you by your wrist, tugging you forward. You close your eyes. "Lieutenant-"
"Hush." The jacket goes around your waist, giant sleeves tied at your navel, the length of the hanging directly over where your pants are stained. You're not petite by any means, so the fact that this garment can even begin to cover you is a miracle in itself. But then again, he is massive. "Stay." He moves around the room, ducking into the other one with your desk, flicking the lights off, before grabbing the keys off the hook and shepherding you through the clinic to the front door.
"What... what're you doing?" There's a murderous look in his eye when he turns to you, and it freezes your blood.
"Takin' you home."
"I can get h-home myself." You hate the way your voice shakes.
"Covered in blood? You really want the entire base to see you like tha'?" The shame burns, and tears build on your waterline. "C'mon." His hand settles between your shoulder blades, essentially turning you into a ship with no sails, only a rudder at your back. Him.
He steers you into your house by your hips. You live directly off base, in civilian housing, luckiest of them all, if you're being honest, though in this moment, you're not sure you are so lucky.
"Leave your clothes in the sink." He orders when he lets you go, moving towards the kitchen.
"My clothes?"
"You know how to get bloodstains out of your clothes?"
"Oh, uh... n-no."
"Then..." he motions with his hands for your pants.
"Right now?" You squeak, and he nods.
"Now, pet." You fumble with the zipper and the button, hands trembling so bad you struggle with them. "Need help?"
"No! No... I got it." you get them down to your knees after a struggle, and then kick them off. Will he ask for your underwear too? He answers like he can ready your mind.
"Leave 'em on the bathroom floor. Shower, and then straight to bed."
"I'm not a child!" The protest is bold, boldest you've ever been with him, insecure, scared feelings coming forth in the outburst.
"Could've fooled me. Children need takin' care of, jus' like you." The words jam in your throat, stolen by the intensity of a cramp, and his eyes soften. "Go on up. I'll bring you somethin' for the pain, and some tea." There's no fight left in you, drained like the blood from your body, and your shoulders slump.
An hour later, in the dark, your door cracks. You're curled up in a ball, heating pad tucked against your pubic bone, buried beneath a mountain of blankets when the bed dips, the mass of the Lieutenant's weight settling next to your hip.
He sits you up, like a doll. Makes you take more paracetamol, finish a glass of water, and then pushes a hot tea in your hand.
By the time he's done, you slump back against the pillows, exhausted. Your eyelids go heavy, and he shifts you back to your side. You're too tired to argue with him, fight him, and when his fingers start applying counter pressure to your lower back, working through the tension, the tightness from your period, you let out a low moan. He chuckles. The man actually laughs.
"Why are you here?" You murmur in the dark, and he doesn't answer right away, sitting in the silence for too long.
And then-
"My mum always taught me to take care of my things."
#this was a good distraction from editing Simple math#still trying to shake the rust#simon riley x reader#simon riley#ghost x reader#peaches writes#also this is what I mean when I say I take requests
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