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local bucket is in love with his boyfriend, no one is surprised
#shouting into the void#sorry guysss#but really god i’m so fucking in love with him#sorry just went through all the photos of him eepy lol#immediately under like all of them is me saying he’s pretty lol#cause he is!!!#he’s so pretty guys#god i’m in love with him#sorry lol#and he’s in love with me too!!#i still can’t fully believe that#im so fucking lucky#a companion in the void
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Logan and Wade almost always do the nasty with the lights out and Wade is a little disappointed but he gets it and he resigned himself to a lifetime of dark sex long before Logan came along, sucks to know that your partner doesn’t want to look at you while getting down to business but its something Wade can live with.
Meanwhile, after a long day of stupid big bright lights Logan loves to have the lights out when making love with Wade because there isn’t any extra light bugging him and his natural night vision means he can see Wade perfectly, just the way he likes it
#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#deadclaws#Logan forgets that Wade can’t see in the dark#wolverines are actually nocturnal#so yeah I fully believe bright light bothers Logan#and he obvi canonically has night vision#a lot of people don’t like the misunderstanding or miscommunication tropes#I think they can be great#Logan thinks Wade knows that he stares at him while they smash#logan thinks Wade is so unbelievably handsome#he grew to not only accept not only love but actually be a little obsessed with how Wade looks#doing my part in keeping our boys trending#Logan spends so much time staring at Wade#and Wade still thinks logan doesn’t like the way he looks#smut#smut mention
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Kid Ichiji with kitten Nyasha chilling in the evening together. This is a piece that I did in an art trade with @dannymans66 it was so much fun, we should do it again sometimes.
#one piece#vinsmoke ichiji#One piece Nyasha#my art#art trade#germa 66#vinsmoke family#I still can’t believe that I managed to draw and colour this piece all under 5 hours crazy.#Although I feel I didn’t fully capture the evening vibe to the piece but all well.#I still like it and it was fun experimenting with different colouring style for this piece.#My biggest comfort thing to draw Ichiji with Nyasha. ^v^’)
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what if i said i think Gill and Chip do the thing Katniss and Peeta do in the later books where they ask “real or not real” and the other confirms.
Gill can’t remember if the fight with price was real and he’s imagining that chip and jay are still alive or if it was just a nightmare so he asks Chip
Chip dosen’t know if this good thing actually happened to the crew because he’s losing himself in the black sea so he asks
just the two of them confirming that they’re still there, that there is still good left. it’s a small way they can cling to hope
Jay also picks up on it and it becomes a normal thing to ask if something is real or not real after they wake up from a dream or get back from a dangerous journey
#jrwi riptide#jrwi#gillion tidestrider#chip jrwi#jay ferin#jrwi jay#jrwi chip#jrwi gillion#fish and chips#jrwi fnc#they’re all so traumatized#i fully believe they struggle still with the curse nightmares one can’t just experience that and be okay#jay has night terrors#i think a lot of them are about her being there when her sister died#even if she wasn’t actually there
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as hyped as i am for P3, i’m so scared that the fandom will sideline and ignore Clara even more than she already has been
#i really hope she has a big role in p3#like maybe she’s fully aware of daniil fucking with time#after all she knew about thrush and measly when artemy had no idea#so she has lines about that when daniil talks to her#and she’s like ‘bro wtf are you doing’#and doesn’t daniil have that plague finder thing?#imagine how cool it would be if when he pointed it at her she showed up all infected#since she’s the plague and whatnot#if that’s still even the remake games#i hope it is#i don’t see why they would have changed it#but i’m fully prepared for her to be ignored in favor of burakhovsky#which don’t get me wrong i like the ship#but the daniil-clara dynamic is SO GOOD#he is trying to defeat death and she IS DEATH#basically death anyway#LIKE THE POTENTIAL PEOPLE#man fighting death goes from fighting it to nurturing it#i love dadkovsky with clara so much#anyway rant over#pathologic#pathologic 2#pathologic 3#i can’t believe i’m alive to see that tag holy shit#i really am so hyped#daniil dankovsky#the bachelor#clara saburova#clara the changeling#daniil pathologic
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#this question is very hard for me to answer so obviously I have to torment everyone else with it#cause like. like I can really see the potential in either answer. both are feasible#I will say. most realistically. to me. edwin first charles harder#because I think…..I think the reasoning behind the other way around usually tends to be about how edwin absolutely was slower to bond and#open up in general whereas charles hit the ground fucking running#but i don’t think that particularly applies to their romantic relationship#if you mean ‘fell for’ in a general sense rather than a romantic one then yes 100%#but that’s not what im talking about here#I have a few different reasons but generally I think edwin fell first because like… the way he attached himself to charles and accepted him#as his person and etc is so unlike him to do with literally anyone- especially at the point where they first met/the first years they knew#each other. charles just seems to have hit him as something very very special and irreplaceable quite quickly for him to open up the way he#did and change and flourish into a fully realized person because of how safe and worthy charles made him feel#he took to charles with an unusual amount of ease and trust and I think that says something about how charles struck his heart Early#whereas with charles… yes on one hand he did stay on the mortal plane largely because of edwin and absolutely would’ve been impacted by the#tender act of mercy that was edwin reading to him as he died so he wouldn’t be scared. that’s absolutely what got him to trust edwin and to#want to be with him and protect him and so on#but charles would still do that and be like that under intense platonic circumstances I think#but most importantly I just think charles fell harder. when he fell is less important to me here- more important is that by GOD that boy is#down so fucking bad and outright SAYS IT in so many ways that he doesn’t realize– the sheer amount he restates how he’s content so long as#he’s with edwin. how he doesn’t want to be anywhere where edwin can’t follow. would and Did go to hell and back for him. believes him#to be the kindest and most incredible person he’s ever met. prioritizes him above anything and everything. etc etc etc#that’s not to say edwin doesn’t feel a similar amount of devotion– but charles just. really loves him with his whole person. loves him as a#fact of his existence and a piece of his very soul#idk man. it just feels like he is so incredibly smitten and he doesn’t even know it.#like I said though I can see both options and give reasons for both options so this question EATS at me I GENUINELY don’t have a super#strong feeling either is absolutely correct. it’s so difficult to answer they’re both so smitten and have such a history and GRAHHHH#payneland#dead boy detectives#rambling#polls
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#☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️#I still can’t believe#rest in peace legend you fully changed my life#naya rivera#glee
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I can’t get into 90% of “Dark (Character X)” fics because I find that it usually means that the character in question is behaving less like themselves and more like a stereotypical evil seme/mustache twirling villain and often just being used as a prop to whump on Character Y. But every once in I do come across that 10% that feels real and beautiful and true and makes me go “while I don’t think that they would do something that fucked up if they did that’s exactly how they would do it”
#I’ve realized I so many posts that ultimately amount to ‘I need villains to act like human beings or I can’t get into it’#and if you’re going to make a character who usually isn’t evil do fucked up shit I need to be convinced#which is kind of hard to do because morality is a core part of someone’s personality so you have to be really careful if you wanna stretch#it and still have it feel believable for the character. But I have seen it done well I think#Comic books are funny because you get this in canon when they do ‘Hero X turns evil’ arcs/alternate universes#and you get the same rate of 9 misses for every 1 hit. For example this post is about many things but one thing that came to mind while#writing this is Vampire King Dick Grayson. As much as I want to love the concept of Vampire Dick he does kinda come across as a generic#villain. Like I would truly love to watch Dick malewife mansplain manipulate his way through the entire justice league and all of his#friends and family but I couldn’t really get fully get into it unless it really felt like Dick Grayson. But perhaps there are limits to how#far you can stretch characterization while still feeling believable. And trust me I am not one of those people who r incapable of believin#that hero characters can do bad things but there is a limit where you have to start providing explanations for Why Would He Say That
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Old Flesh + The Parliament is conservatism.
I said what I said and I’m not taking it back.
#awful hospital#text post#shitpost#okay but—#a group of people who want everything to go back to the way it was and try to kill (literally) and erase any chance#I have to believe it was intentional#Jay is a truly wonderfully written and despicable villain because not only is he literally evil through killing and verbal abuse#he’s FIGURATIVELY EVIL in the CONTEXT OF THE THEMING because he SEES and is FULLY AWARE OF the injustices of the Hospital and its treatment#but instead of mobilizing that rage he has to make a change he says fuck it there’s nothing I can do and feeds into that corruption +#actively perpetuates it for his own gain and purposes#HE is a BIG PART of why the Hospital is failing by killing patients#it’s not just apathy it’s weaponized spite for all the wrong reasons#he’s an oppressed minority (a human in the Hospital) who grifts off all the fear and uncertainty#to get what he wants#crash is an apathetic and centrist youth who was radicalized by Fern showing him change could be made#but it was already too late#he felt isolated by all the people in change being blind to injustice and that led him to become being disillusioned#Jay and crash show that while being apathetic and refusing to take a stance even when you see injustice isn’t seen as causing as much#direct physical harm as grifting off misfortune it’s still equally as damaging#crash says I can’t fix it so I won’t do anything#while jay says I can’t fix it so who cares if I make it worse as long as I’m getting mine#I should at least get something from this since I’m suffering from it right?#but they ARE also very much sides of the same coin in a more direct way because they both make people suffer for their own gain#crash is doing it for a sense of petty amusement and Jay is doing it because he needs to have control#and power over SOMETHING by putting others down even if he’s also#doing it for amusement#he’s scared and pathetic which has made a control freak#again jay is a fucking minority grifter who asserts power over those who are also less#fortunate to affirm to himself that he’s one of the good and superior ones#crash just wants to have fun and make the best of it even if that’s at the expense of others
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this is the best day of my life i rly mean it
#i still can’t believe it i think i’m day dreaming#it hasn’t fully hit me despite how exhausted i am from crying my eyes out#that he’s rly here and rly home and there’s no more jin a day bc he is here with us#apobangpo etc u kno#feeling very Emotionally Content#.txt
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the thing is. i’m a proponent of samdean starting precanon. not always but in a lot of contexts i like it. it just makes so much SENSE. the reason they act Like That in the first episode. deans constant nostalgiaing about wanting things to go back to the Way They Were Before. two teenagers kept continually isolated from the world (in terms of being unable to build lasting connections) sharing a room in a motel their whole life their only model a guy who’s excellent at blurring lines. but their age gap is 4 years that’s a lot for teenagers. immediate insane power imbalance. icl in any form of weecest sam is a victim on some level no matter how you spin it
#idk like on one level i dont like weecest because of this. like it will alwaysss have that fucked up undertone to me you cant get rid of tha#sam is 4 years younger than him which is a lot for teenagers and dean has soo much authority over him. the power imbalance is impossible to#avoid. there is no weecest which isnt partially grooming. and my issue w this is not that i dont believe it#because i completely do. and in some ways it just makes soodoooo much sense to me. the deference sam still has to dean in canon even when#theyre 36 and 40. the way hell forgive anything. obviously there is more than that but i can’t think on it rn#tldr hendricksen was right#anyway my point was. if i’m thinking about wincest as ~omg so romantic!! i rlllly dont like fixating on weecest and instead prefer to think#it happened spontaneously in s1/2. (s2 is peak romance…….)#but normally i dont view sam and dean like that at all. they’re an abusive relationship. so i dont find it hard to believe that they started#off in a way that neither of them fully realised was Messed Up at the time but completely was#samdean
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I know my blog doesn’t have like, any followers, but I wanna make it clear that transmisogynists are not welcome here. I also know for a fact I have some people I need to unfollow for being transmisogynists. The last few months I’ve been very, very confused by wtf “transandrophobia” was, and I had only ever seen the “good” side of it, and never the side of it being used to actively hurt trans women. I’ll admit I’m still confused on certain things, but I’m not above admitting that I might be wrong and I’m willing to learn, so thank you for your patience.
To any trans women/trans fems who follow me: I support you, and I want you to feel safe here.
Edit: I’m retracting the bit about transandrophobia, since some of y’all have been really kind (genuinely) and helped explain the theory to me (as well as the antisemitism behind the “truther” term, which I apologize for).
To any fellow trans men/trans mascs that follow me: I want you to ALSO feel safe here. Even if my original message came from a good place, it was still worded poorly and painted us in a bad light. I won’t delete this post cause I don’t want to hide from my misconceptions and help others like me who are confused, and because I want to stand behind the message that transphobia of any kind is NOT welcome here. Thank you 😊
#captain's log#wanted to make it clear#since I’ve been very in the dark about what transandrophobia stood for#I never fully believed in it but I did agree with some of their comments#I saw there was… antagonistic energy towards the group to say the least#and the way they would respond put me off#so I sat outside of it and looked at it through a critical lens before diving in#and then I saw that one anon message and went ‘ah okay’#remember: you are not immune to propaganda/cult like mentality#I’m grateful I’ve learned to be critical about what others tell me#and to look into things before I take a stance#and I can’t beat myself up for that because I thought it was just a blog dedicated to trans men! and I’m trans masc!#but after learning about it I started looking at what they were really saying and I didn’t. like a lot of what I saw#but I still saw things that I agreed with#so I was confused#it feels hard to ask about it yknow? especially since I was only seeing the ‘hate’ from people who didn’t believe it existed#so I’m really glad I found that long post from earlier it really shed some light for me
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I can’t articulate it, but it gets to me that, outside of Spock and I think Tuvok, being logical and regulating emotions isn’t something that Vulcans are shown to just endure, the same way they endure lower temperatures for other species, or higher oxygen for other species, or anything else that has to be incredibly uncomfortable at best to painful at worst that they just endure
The vibe I get from it is that a majority of Vulcans enjoy it, they like being logical, maybe they didn’t get a choice in being logical as kids, but unlike the select few like Sybok, they don’t seem to be resentful that they were raised like that at all
This isn’t just something they’re all forced to do now to prevent their emotions from causing their species’ end, dedicating themselves to logic brought them inner peace
#Star Trek#Vulcans#can’t articulate it especially while really tired and lying in bed#but hopefully y’all still get what I’m trying to say#I say I think for Tuvok because I know he struggles with violent thoughts#but I don’t think it has the same vibes as Spock struggling with his human half to fully accept Vulcan’s ways#even though it seems like fully dedicating himself like that brings more harm to his human half#which causes it to be more prominent like a vicious cycle#fuck definitely can’t articulate rn#also maybe for Tuvok Vulcan’s ways are actually even more appreciated#because they’re exactly there to help Vulcans regulate intense emotions#also I think this is part of why it seems more like Spock struggles compared to other Vulcans#for other Vulcans logic and regulating all emotions is seen as a way for them to be content#to be able to live their lives peacefully and to its best extent (peace and long life)#in a way that embracing emotions wouldn’t because they’re intense emotions would destroy themselves#but for Spock logic and regulating emotions is more about trying to reach impossible standards and get acceptance from everyone else#abd things like that again very tired can’t articulate#also adding to my hc that while Vulcans regulate their emotions and come to logical terms on why they feel like they do#and peacefully handle it#Spock believes that they’re all suppressing so that’s what he’s actually doing#just suppress suppress suppress everything which isn’t healthy#just my personal thoughts
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Life is so cruel because Kino no Tabi is so good but I can’t even recommend the books to anyone because only the first volume was ever translated and it’s been out of print for presumably over a decade. Plus part of what makes it so good are untranslatable (into English) qualities of the Japanese language such as the general avoidance of gendering Kino. What other book has a motorcycle get into an argument with a dog
#apparently the theory is that the jp publishers got mad that the English publishers changed the chapter order#which tbh I understand I really do#honestly I hate it when kino’s backstory is presented first because it doesn’t allow you to form your own opinions on them beforehand#kino no Tabi#kino’s journey#taking matters into my own hands and translating it myself to put online for all to read#I mean hey that’s what happened with no. 6 right#I still can’t believe that one never got licensed in English#like it definitely had the popularity back when the anime came out#and the manga is fully translated#why not the novels#I still need to read them though that’s gonna be my summer project#kino no Tabi rewired my brain I’ve never felt so capable of reading in Japanese before#I mean sometimes it still kicks my ass but in general I’m having a reasonable time with it language wise
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#go ahead and ignore this lol just gonna be word vomit or something idk yet#but. i was listening to past life by tame impala and it’s not totally synonymous to my experience#but it’s close enough that it makes me think of it yknow?#anyway. it’s been roughly a year and a half now since i had that dream#and i don’t think of it as often as i used to#but i still grieve him yknow#and half the time when i try talking to a guy on hinge or go on a date or whatever#there’s part of me that just thinks. man. what if he’s out there#what if this guy is actually him? it’s not like i remember anything about him beyond his hair color anyway#(and even then i really don’t remember that… i only remember being surprised that id fallen in love with a blond.#i have no recollection of what kind of blond he was. the length or texture or proper color. nothing.#i could even swear he had started out brunet before the dream really solidified itself (for lack of better term))#but anyway it’s just. i do still miss him#i do still think he was some sort of soulmate to me#and i so desperately want him to be real. to be out there somewhere even if i can’t find him yet#i just dream that one day i’ll be in a serious relationship with someone#and they’ll confess to me that once#a very long time ago#they had a dream that was so vivid it could have been real#and that they think i was there. and they describe what little they remember of this nightmare#and it lines up perfectly with the dream i had#and we have this moment of epiphany that we finally found each other. and we both remember it and it was real#and for all the time we spent hurting#it’s finally all worth it because we found each other somehow#i want this more than i can describe. it’s unfathomable#and at the same time i know how unrealistic it is. life isn’t some fairytale like that#logically i know it was probably just some crazy dream that turned into a genuine delusion#but i can’t fully face that concept yet. i’ve tried but eventually i come back to the pain and the comfort of believing#i just miss him#and it’s hard not knowing exactly what i miss
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pertaining to the idea of tenax’s band of strays i do think it’s touching that the kids are the ones who saved him and waited outside the door to make sure he’s okay. for all tenax claims to be harsh and cruel it’s a fine indicator of his character that the kids won’t rest without him and are there every time he’s in danger.
#AND I CAN’T FUCKING BELIEVE I HAD THEM STEALING THEIR WAY OMTO#THE PLATFORMS WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNN oh i love being right#also that all the kids are there watching when he kills the guy whose name i forget because i simply cannot hold names in my brain but the#evil one. who i was like oh thank GOD he died i was so sick of this plot he kept killing everyone & i screeched when he almost got claudia#something something calla saying ‘you’re not a child anymore’ about tenax’s cruelty to the brothers (which in my twisted narratives. sorry.#there’s only one scorpus who KNEW the child tenax was. the child he’s still healing and caring for. all of the children whose eyes he looks#into and sees a hurt that’s just like his? the children tenax saved whether he’ll admit it or not? scorpus saved him. and that’s all)#(also this is a terrible thing to say i knew it about but like. oh i knew it about the master of the house. tenax making sure NO ONE#touches the kids or does anything with them really but Claudia and him—the people he trusts which also now includes calla but he makes sure#it’s someone he knows. also do we have a claudia backstory??? or would i just get to invent a reason why she’s there and what she’s doing#and why she’s so loyal to tenax. did she also see the child he was and that’s why she’s so protective of him but also why she gets along#with calla so well because the two of them see how he’s festered in that. like calla fully has the rights here i think she should rip him a#new one for his lack of decency and good qualities he can be corrupt without being cruel y’know. and he should be called out on his#peter pan ass behavior you’re not a child!! there are such consequences!!! dream a little bigger a little kinder!!! change the dream you#made up with scorpus when you were a young angry teenager and make it fit who you are NOW. the life you want NOW not the life you thought#you should have & deserved. what did you learn from growing up. what changed. what do you need now & what do you want. not the same things#and i too wish that this was 30k and covered their entire backstory#BUT IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION of i also need it to be 100k canon-divergent (presumably. i’m only through episode eight. but i can’t imagine#that they will follow the plot EYE would write because they need to have a second season & you can’t have that without conflict which means#titus overthrown scorpus is gonna die metaphorically or literally etc etc the gold faction in shambles but technically triumphant with#domitian on the throne and tenax in a position of patrician power accepted into their society but still not equal and happy. whereas lmao#domitian you’re getting shipped off to some other city because your plot to overthrow titus failed and yet he is merciful enough he won’t#kill you he just sends you and hermes together (at which point over the months long journey you forgive and re-learn each other bc titus#didn’t know of the betrayal he thought it would be kind to send your (ex-)lover with you. do we see how this works perfectly) & tenax falls#back into the underworld where he now knows he belongs because blood is everything except when it isn’t. when he realizes what he has is#worth more. no matter if the blood he has is tainted or patrician the blood oath he swore with scorpus iron on their tongues means more.#calla’s split lip defending him and their winnings. kwaame’s blood on the hard packed sand of the arena fighting to stay alive and to come#home to them. the fire in aura’s cheeks when she laughs at ivy. SURPRISEEEE EVERY NARRATIVE IS A FOUND FAMILY I GUESS IT SPRUNG ON ME TOO.#and tenax doesn’t mind a little dirt and bribery every now and then. doesn’t aspire to former heights and shining brilliant out of shadows.#the gaudiness of gold &flash of fools’ dreams. YES CAN I FINALLY PLS GET MY BLACK FACTION TO REPLACE THE ILL-FATED GOLD THATLL COLLAPSE W/D
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