#i spent a super long time on this aaaaaaaa

[nocompromise-noregrets]

five good things

just for the hell of it because I've been insufferably bored and unmotivated all sodding day >.<

Booked my coach and airport hotel for my trip to Helsinki in October, having booked the flight and Helsinki hotel a couple of weeks ago :D :D :D got an afternoon coach and hotel in Hayes rather than getting a coach at 2am to get me to the airport to check in for the early morning flight because I am officially Too Old For That Shit these days XD

I get to go on the Elizabeth Line to get between the airport and hotel and back again, which for this hundred per cent Tube nerd is very exciting indeed.

My absolute hero Michael Monroe is doing a 40th anniversary tour for Hanoi Rocks' Two Steps from the Move album including a date in Wolverhampton and we are GOING and so is our mate Lynda who is my fellow lunatic Hanoi fan and it is going to be GREAT. L and I have known each other for 25-odd years and only got to see Himself together for the first time a couple of years ago, so to be able to do it again so soon is awesome :D

Not only that, he's just announced a solo acoustic tour of Finland between August and October and the Helsinki date is 25 October, upon which day I will PHYSICALLY BE IN HELSINKI and also not at either of the other two gigs I'm going to Helsinki for which are on the 19th and 26th, so you bet your bottom dollar I've just booked myself a ticket :D :D :D

I have FINALLY written the Twins-make-their-Choice fic; it is not long-form as I'd expected but part of a series of shorter fics involving them and their lives post-War of the Ring that I'm doing for Writers' Month and I'm having a whale of a time with them.

I'm also having a whale of a time with my TRSB fic, which I cannot talk about but am greatly enjoying collaborating with the lovely @erathene!

Oh yeah, and I got my final course result back from the OU, which got me my overall result for the whole degree, which is a First! I am a little bit smug but trying not to be too insufferable about it; it wasn't entirely unexpected as I've been pulling in Distinctions all the way along, but I'm still a bit bewildered because I spent my entire adult life until I started this degree believing I was only capable of a solid 64% - but with 30-odd years of added maturity and some proper guidance, here I am.

And I signed straight up for the MA in Applied Linguistics and am very excited to get some more top-class nerdery in come October!

Oh yeah, Deadpool and Wolverine! No spoilers here, but let me tell you, one cameo in particular made me very happy indeed and I take back 75% of what I ever said about that specific bit of casting XDDDD

And Rings of Power! Super excited for that, too. :D :D :D The trailers look like the story is really getting going after the first season's worth of exposition, and aaaaaaaa!

[whoslaurapalmer]

hopefully you don’t still have a sinus headache!

recently, i’ve been thinking about baby bea getting to go to normal school and making non-vfd friends her own age, and violet, klaus and sunny having messy complicated feelings and fears about this but mostly being very happy for her.

yes!! thankfully i am now sinus headache FREEEEE

and!!!! AAAAAAAA YES..........

i think sunny and babybea both get to go to normal school and they have like, similar but, different struggles re: interacting with people at school. sunny purposely distances herself from her classmates for a long time bc she's Going Through It when she and her siblings come back from the island and before they find babybea, like there's a lot of mystery around this girl who just showed up and she heavily encourages the mystery bc she doesn't have the patience to deal with anybody while she's trying to fit back into the world, her life, trying to find her sister, trying to figure out what she remembers of the past and what she doesn't. (i am team 'sunny remembers the events of canon physically more than she actually truly remember-remembers them, but remembers the island the best.' do we have metaphorical teams for how much sunny remembers of canon?) i think she.......feels like she has to contend with the legacy of not only lemony's books but geraldine's punctilio articles, more than violet and klaus. ANYWAY. all this to say, in the nature of children, certain kids have a real laser focus on kids they think are Weird Or Different and sunny fits both of those things and she's definitely 1) been in a few fights bc she reacts physically 2) grabbed a kid's arm and bit him. it was not a pleasant parent-teacher conference for violet. by high school she's probably a little better. they have babybea back and have created the extended baudelaire family unit and i think she feels a little more secure in the world. as secure as a fourteen year old can feel...........................she gets encouraged to take the culinary elective in high school.

sunny, with deep-seated certainty, while using a ruler and an enormous knife to cut petit fours in the kitchen: can't teach me anything i don't know.

but she takes it anyway. she enjoys it greatly and does, in fact, learn new things. she makes some friends.

ANYWAY. YES. BABYBEA. she's spent so much time alone, and she's good at it. she enjoys it. but she really wants friends she just doesn't quite know how to do it. she's very close to her family, and she loves them more than anyone else, but she'd like to be close to other people her own age too, it's just not something that comes very naturally to her. but she LOVES school and she really likes being around people. her interests are just. not. necessarily. aligned. with her classmates. babybea herself has been in a vfd school, after all, along with all the Lemony Snicket Was Briefly Her Guardian While Helping Her Find Her Family And I Am Sure That Was A Real Time shenanigans. she does find it easier to talk to the adults (plus sunny) in her life and it's hard for her. clearly they encourage it bc As Adults they are aware, theoretically, It Is Good For A Child To Have A Super Normal Upbringing That DOESN'T Involve, Say, Scaling A Mountain For Reasons (even though literally every single one of them has scaled a fucking mountain. babybea included.), but yeah, there ARE complicated messy feelings!!!! violet and klaus didn't really get to finish their education the way they should've. lemony and the sbg were entrenched in vfd. sunny is, see previous paragraphs. i guess it's a lot of heightened parenting emotions. is your child safe at school vs is the small child you have guardianship over safe at school and TOTALLY not going to be, say, kidnapped by the ankle one random day. are the people your children knows people they're going to be safe with? normal parenting fears vs a vfd fear. sigh. and it's not like violet and klaus easily get along with the parents of babybea's classmates bc they aren't her parents. they're siblings and they're babybea's Family. there's things they can talk about but there's still a real disconnect, you know?

meanwhile babybea is just going 'have you seen [black and white movie of your choice]??' and her classmates are going '............no??' sigh, again.

but i think she wants to join band!!!!!!! oh.....babybea as a little band kid.................so i think she learns the accordion from lemony, and either the school system she's in is That Weird (as some are) that they need an accordion or, she plays the clarinet. god she's probably drum major in high school i'm sobbing. that's precious. also babybea is like permanently 10-13ish in my head bc otherwise i get upset about the passage of time bc she's BABY goddammit so it hurts to think about her as any older than that but let's think of her as drum major in the far, far distant future.

anyway anyway band is great for her!! a lot of the other kids in her year look up to her bc she develops a wide music (and music theory) knowledge and they go to her for help a lot and she's so thrilled and so pleased and that's how she really starts interacting with other kids. eventually they talk about more than just music, but one must start somewhere. the first time she goes over a friend's house is Harrowing for the adults, but they survive. but babybea's friends LOVE going to her house bc the baudelaire household feels very comforting and homey. nothing beats a friend's homey house and violet and klaus' spirited (if minorly overbearing bc they love babybea) hospitality. they also think sunny is super cool. (everybody has a crush on sunny. she almost gets concerned about it, but she is the coolest.)

babybea's friends: your sister is THE COOLEST babybea: she's not my sister, she's my family? babybea's friends: so, like, your sister babybea: no! just. family. babybea's friends: then who's that guy lemony: ? babybea: that's my uncle. babybea's friends: so why is sunny not your sister? babybea: because!

oh! so babybea starts a book club. her friends suggest it bc the baudelaire family library is so big and has so many books and so many fun places to read, that she and her friends have a lot of fun hanging out and reading books. lemony takes the news with deep horror and trepidation. but it all works out okay. the worst the book club gets is like, a bunch of kids arguing about who gets to be which character in each book they get obsessed with. which can be vicious enough, you know. sometimes babybea gets them to sit down and watch an old movie. occasionally, in the spirit of all good book clubs, they get pizza.

[haruthecat1027]

Hi, I just needed to let you know that I've spent the last 48 hours gobbling up you fanfics on Ao3 like I was starving to death.

Like I very rarely end up reading creature AUs, and nagas in general are less familiar to me, but GOOD GOD I have read and REREAD your Broken series so many times over the past two days and like every time I finish I hafta read again cuz my brain is like NEEEEED.

And then I went through the Sun/Moon Inktober series and GOOD SHIT. I go back and forth with how "spicy" I prefer my reading but AAAAAAAA the fluff was so good, the smut so hot, and I am not afraid to tell you that I have been blushing crying and riveted to the chapters of Yellow that my brain is absolutely SCREAMING.

And btw Accidental Mishap is the BEST TSAMS FIC IVE READ! Like you and your coauthor nail the characters SO WELL and I WISH the show understood its characters the way y'all do. I've been reading that one for weeks and it has helped IMMENSELY with my feelings about the show.

Anyway, since I'm procrastinating setting up an Ao3 account, I needed to make sure I told you how amazing your writing is and how much my brain has taken to it like fuggin drug addict. 👍

(**social anxiety disclaimer** this is in no way meant to guilt or push you to write more chapters though I mean if you wanted to I certainly wouldnt say no I genuinely just wanted you to know how much I've been enjoying your work and thank you for making it!)

Not me sobbing five minutes before I have to go to work. Thank you so, so much! It means the world to me knowing people still like my fics. Yellow and the Broken will always hold a special place in my heart (can you believe yellow's been going on for 2 years?)

Funny enough, despite the spice I've posted I always lean more towards fluff and hurt/comfort, high emotions and cuddles are 100% the best in my opinion.

SMALL MISHAP MY BELOVED! I've wanted to write for tsams for so long and the idea for small Sun was a wip for a while before @erenevune and I became friends. They helped me so much with getting it actually finished and I'm so, so thankful they did! I've actually got a few more tsams wips in the works, some of which they're helping me with, so I'm super grateful that you like how the characters are portrayed! There's quite a few things about the show that we don't really like and that we won't really touch on (*cough cough* current lore *cough cough*)

BUT I'm glad our little fic helped you! It's definitely a comfort piece for me too ;-;

Thank you so much for the kind words and I hope my fics will continue to be something you enjoy!

[doodlebugdraws]

For Eternity - Small Hours

“Is she asleep as she should be?” Gaia asked the nanny as she stepped out of the room.

“Oh the girl is as stubborn as ever!” The nanny griped, stomping a hoof. “She INSISTED on staying awake until you returned! No wonder she hasn't healed from her ailment yet!”

The monarch smiled warmly. “I figured as much. You are excused, Madam Throw. I shall put her to bed.”

Gaia tapped on the doors three times, then gently pushed them open. “Proving your mischief once again, Little Serene Remedy? You ought to know better by now!”

“Eve!” The filly on the bed exclaimed, kicking her hooves under the covers in eagerness. “Gosh! You took FOREVER! What did that Oracle pony have to say?? Are you going on a grand dangerous quest? If so, can I come?!”

“Oh I wouldn't think somepony in your condition would make such a journey if there was one. Little fillies like you are already long asleep.” Gaia calmly lectured, dragging the blanket back over Remedy.

“Isn't that what you love most about me?” Remedy tilted her head curiously. “That I'm not like most other fillies?” she kicked the blanket back off.

Gaia giggled “Well, absolutely! But you're also notorious for these sick bouts, and you need your rest.” This time the monarch tucked the comforter under the mattress.

Remedy groaned. “Awwww! I can't sleep now! You GOTTA tell me what the Oracle pony said!”

“That can all wait until tomorrow, young lady.” Gaia scolded, turning to pick up a small bottle. “Now, I see you have not taken your medicine yet.”

The filly scrambled under the covers. “Noooooo!”

“Come now. Do you enjoy feeling so under the weather?”

“....no.”

“Then be a big girl and come out.”

“....fine.” Remedy obeyed, crawling back up.

Gaia took a spoon, and floated it over to the filly. “Say ‘aaaaaaaaah’!” She made a silly face.

“.....aaaaaaaa–EUGH!” Remedy soured. She locked her own mouth shut with great effort, trying hard to not spit it out.

Gaia shook her head. “Such a dramatic filly. What are we going to do with you? Now get some rest.”

“Eve, wait.” Remedy grabbed at her hoof on the bed. “Can you tell me what the Oracle pony looked like at least? Were they super mysterious?”

The older pondered. “Well…yes. They were. But they were no pony.”

“Huh?”

“It was an Abyssinian Catfolk.” Gaia explained.

The little filly’s eyes sparkled in intrigue. “A catfolk?! How tall were they? You can't leave with just that!”

Gaia sighed. “I shall tell you all the details at the crack of dawn. Is that a good middle ground?”

Remedy pondered. “I suppose that's fair…can we walk in the garden? I want to see the flowers bloom.”

The monarch chuckled. “Sounds wonderful.”

——————————

Queen Gaia Eve spent the rest of her night on her balcony, motionless and waiting for the sun to rise, wondering if it really might be for the last time one day soon.

“It's funny to hear how the life you know will end. It was so ominous, so mysterious, so vague….” She wondered to herself.

Not a day went by as the years rolled on the Oracle's message didn't ring in her head.

But she couldn't let it dwindle for long inside

Gaia had her royal duties to carry out.

Little Remedy grew up fast--before Gaia knew it she made plans to travel.

But Gaia stayed here in the castle….awaiting her future.

[chi-ppp]

So i have just met a guy that made my heart race, and mind u it hasn't for the last 2 years. This was the second time i met him and we were in a groupe setting we spent the whole night laughing and joking and i have not laughed in so long. And he was super caring and had amazing arms he looks manly but not too much exactly how i want it ugh my heart... But the thing that i really felt when i focused on his laugh omfggggg AAAAAAAA hes literythe cutest ever. And he was sooo sweet omfggg. And the day after i spent the whole morning thinking about him giggling and stuff. Hihihihihi i feel like smth inside me changed. And did i mention how cute he was ahhhhhhh

[fluffyglass]

WELCOME TO DILLYDALE! (UPDATED!)

The updated cast is finally here!

Y'know how I mentioned my sister and I were working on a project? Yeah, this is that.

Welcome to Dillydale! is a fanmade Reboot of The Mr. Men Show, thought up by two teenagers who have absolutely nothing better to do.

With a much more story-focused narrative aimed at slightly older kids, Welcome to Dillydale! features numerous small story arcs starring all your favorite little misses and mr. men!

Full Cast + Extra Info below the cut

Mr. Tickle - You know him, you love (or don't love) him, he's the absolute classic.

Mr. Greedy - Your friendly neighborhood chef, taste-tester and gourmet all in one!

Mr. Happy - Dillydale's favorite constantly-smiling TV host!

Mr. Sneeze - Achoo!

Mr. Bump - The accident-prone little dude himself.

Mr. Small and Mr. Nosey - that one gay couple who everyone knows and yet nobody seems to remember how they met

Mr. Messy - The filthiest resident of Dillydale.

Mr. Fussy - The least filthy resident of Dillydale.

* Mr. Clumsy - While not a resident of Dillydale, he occasionally pops by to visit his cousin, Mr. Fussy!

Mr. Nervous - Dillydale's paranoid jelly man. Don't startle him, or he'll melt into a puddle before your eyes!

Mr. Lazy - Possibly the second-most brilliant inventor in Dillydale - if only he had the motivation to act on his ideas.

Mr. Mean - Probably deserves Mr. Stubborn's catchphrase more than he does.

Mr. Bounce - Boing! Boing! Boing! Boing! Boing! B

Mr. Strong - If anyone in Dillydale had to be the most fitness-obsessed, it would have to be Mr. Strong. That's like - his thing, y'know?

Mr. Quiet - Can't hear you, next please!

Mr. Grumpy - Getting too old for this entire town's nonsense.

Mr. Skinny - Was incredibly easy to fit in this character list!

Mr. Cool - Whatever he is, he's too cool for you.

Mr. Rude - At this point, he's more tired of everyone's stupidity than actively rude. He's still rude though, don't get me wrong.

Mr. Scatterbrain - Can probably bend reality. If he could/can, he'd use it to make himself a sandwich.

Mr. Stubborn - May or may not be an alien. He's totally an alien.

Mr. Crosspatch - Violence incarnate.

Little Miss Bossy - Karen

Little Miss Naughty - A criminal

Little Miss Sunshine - Dillydale's favorite female constantly-smiling TV host! After all, they can't just pick between her and Mr. Happy!

Little Miss Tiny - Just you wait until she grows up! (She never will)

Little Miss Helpful - She is not helpful. But she sure does try to be.

Little Miss Magic - (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃━⭑･ﾟﾟ･*:༅｡.｡༅:*ﾟ:*:✼✿

Little Miss Shy - Barely anyone knows her, because she barely leaves the house. Poor girl, honestly.

Little Miss Splendid - Can afford to live in a way fancier city, but stays in Dillydale because she knows she can flaunt her wealth better there.

Little Miss Late - Her description was late, it'll be here in a few hours. Or days.

Little Miss/Mr. Twins - Which is which? Why, if they swap their bows, nobody could tell!

Little Miss Chatterbox - Oh, Little Miss Chatterbox is such an interesting character! Y'know, while I was drawing her, I remember thinking to myself "oh, Miss Chatterbox has such an iconic design!" and thus she ended up being one of the characters who's design didn't change at all, oh, speaking of characters who didn't change, I also-

* Little Miss Stubborn - Lives on a farm out in the countryside. Still pissed that an alien stole her identity.

Little Miss Fun - Can't sit still for more than 3 seconds at a time.

Little Miss Somersault - Good at basketball, probably

Little Miss Scary - RAWR!!!

Little Miss Whoops - Probably the clumsiest resident of Dillydale, much to the dismay of her brother, Mr. Bump.

* Little Miss Calamity - Disappeared from Dillydale years ago. Her whereabouts are still unknown.

Little Miss Princess - Wait, wasn't Dillydale's monarchy overthrown?

Little Miss Hug - *Hugs you*

Little Miss Inventor - The actual most brilliant inventor in Dillydale.

* Little Miss Daredevil - She moved to the moon, but visits home often. Why did she move to the moon? She's Miss Daredevil, that's why!

Wow, what a lovely group of characters!

BUT WAIT, THERE'S EXCLUSIVES!

(Aka ocs we put in for funsies)

Little Miss Autistic - Dillydale's resident "if you ask me about this book series I will tell you every fact about it known to man" girl.

Little Miss Gleeful, Little Miss Rampant, and Mr. Witty - Miss Bossy's three little tyrants.

Mr. Fancy - Prettier than you.

Little Miss Perfect - Perfect, perfect, perfect.

Little Miss Purity - The purest diamond around. Or so she'd like you to believe.

I reached the image limit for a tumblr post, so the remainder of the characters shall be in a reblog! See you there!

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 689: The senpai one year older

Pag 1

3: More, Onoda-kun!!

We have to become stronger

4: We have to raise our pace a little

If we keep going like this

4: We won't catch up to the first years!!

Yes!!

5: Aaaaaaaa

After this...

Pag 2

1: We'll only have our own strength

Pag 3

2: I can see them!!

3: Onoda-san and the others!!

Onii-chan!!

They're getting closer, even though there was a distance of three minutes

4: The bridge that's our finish line is right before our eyes - let's get away, Danchiku

Yeah, Issa

5: Let's switch, Onoda-kun!!

You did a good job...

Pag 4

1: Now, leave it

To us!!

To us!!

2: Don't say the same thing as me, Hotshot

That's my line!! Naruko!!

3: P.... lease.....

Waaa- Onoda.... he fell behind

4: Let's catch the first years!!

That's.... bad, what's with that acceleration!!

Pag 5

2: Ahhh, dammit, even though I though we could manage it today

3: Kakaka, not yet!

Keep practicing, Kabu!!

Ugh...!! It was just an accident today!! It just happened that I had no strength left!!

4: By the way, why did I have to run with the first years, Imaizumi!?

I'm a second year!!

5: Ah... Kawada

6: That's

7: I guess that's because your strength and experience in the club are the same level of the first years?

Ugh.... don't put it so bluntly, you bastard!!

8: You can always get to the second years's side if you work hard and your status goes up

Ugh.... ugh.... dammit, alright I got it

9: Really though.... Hotshot, you're so strict with Kawada

Hahaha serves you right, Kawada!

Really?

I told you to speak politely to me, Kaburagi!!

Pag 6

1: Let's go eat lunch on the rooftop

Alright

Ah

2: Onoda-kun

3: Ah, Kanzaki-san

4: You're helping the teachers?

Yes... that's right, they asked me to take this to the reference room

5: My class, too. Let's go together

Okay

Pag 7

1: Ah, who during today's morning practice?

The second years' side caught up!

2: You sure are great

I fell behind at the end, though

3: It's getting warmer in the mornings, isn't it? Even the warm isn't cold to the touch anymore

4: It's already April after all

It's spring

5: Yeah

6: The school too

7: has become quiet

Pag 8

1: The third years are graduating

Pag 10

3: They're having the graduation ceremony, and the closing ceremony for the current students is in two weeks

Its' a bit lonely

Pag 11

1: Yeah...

3: Koga-san, and Aoyagi-san, and.... Teshima-san

Pag 12

1: They.... graduated

...yeah

3: The time spent with the “senpai a year older than you” is long

4: so, compared to the third year senpai when we were in their first year

Pag 13

1: It's different.... it feels lonely.....

….yeah

Pag 14

3: Teshima-san, Aoyagi-san, Koga-san – the third years really worked hard

Pag 15

1: Catch up, first years

It's a game of tag

Ah, the second years still haven't given up

Use these

I'm the only one who isn't decided

Teshima!!

2: Get through!!

I'm glad

3: Many things happened, but we always ran watching your backs from up close

Pag 16

1: Onoda

2: Onodaa!!

3: Onoda

4: Yes!!

5: Thank you so much!!

Pag 17

1: Now....

2: Onoda, you clean the whiteboard please

Since it's to write things like informations and practice menus

I'll leave it to you

3: Erase.... this....?

Imaizumi-kun?

4: No no no, no way no way no way

5: But

As the captain

I have to harden my heart....

6: No way...!!

No, since this is my job... I have to hold on tight

But... really.... this....

7: Oh, you're early, Onoda-kun!!

Waaaa-!!

8: What are you doing with the whiteboard?

Hahaha, it's nothing

Pag 18

1: When I met Kaburagi at the school shop earlier

He was super excited

Haha, is- is that so?

2: There were really more than five of the special left!!

It's a miracle!! I really might be in luck because it's spring!!

You say so, but you still only bought four of them

3: Maybe he'll buy a lottery ticket and really win

Yeah, Kaburagi-kun really likes that yakisoba bread

4: But he could able to buy the bread just because there aren't third years anymore

Pag 19

1: This morning too, he said something like “it just happened that I had no strenght left, and so I lost”

That's

3: The third years graduated and he's not here anymore, so he he hasn't that power

That guy used to gling to Aoyagi

5: Kaburagi-kun....

He doesn't realize it himself

6: Really...  he's such an idiot....

7: But I miss them too

Perm-senpai!! Silent-senpai!!

8: …. saying that, and there's no one to make fun of

Pag 20

1: They took care of us, we fought, and we even ran together at the Inter High

They gave us so much

2: Naruko-kun

3: I feel like Teshima-san will suddenly appear in the clubroom saying something like “I'm between exams”

7: But that's not gonna happen!!

'cause he graduated!!

8: And I want to thank them, and return the favour

9: But I can't do that.... now

But don't worry, I told you already, Onoda-kun

Pag 21

1: The favours with received from our senpai

we'll return them to our kouhai!!

4: It's almost spring break...

and after that we'll already be

Pag 22

1: Third years!!

3: “Third year”....!!

Pag 23

2: Yes!!

That's right!!

[sugarmapleships]

2 4 6 for kirishima!

-selfshippery

(Sorry this took some time for me to get to, thanks so much for sending an ask!)

What are some ways in which you and your F/O don't mesh well? How do you overcome these differences?

Eijirou is very much a high-energy guy whereas I'm a lot more mellow and laid back. Sometimes it can be hard for me to keep up with him! And that's okay! As long as we're both communicating our needs, things work out! Sometimes I have to sit out on things or take a break for myself. It doesn't mean I love him any less. And it allows me to have fun with him later when I'm up for it rather than trying to force myself every time! Communication is important!!

What's the strangest gift your F/O has ever given you?

Okay, so I actually love weird gifts, like, sometimes I throw practicality out the window in favor of novelty. So Eijirou, naturally, takes this as a challenge to get me weird things he finds! But my favorite thing has to be Djungelskog! I love him almost as much as I love Eijirou! He's just a rotund bear, just a little guy.

What kinds of kisses does your F/O give you? What kinds of kisses do you give your F/O?

Eijirou gives me all kinds of kisses! Once we got used to everything (his teeth, figuring out how to kiss, etc), it’s just so perfect? Most times, he’s super passionate about kissing me, like he pours all his love into it, but I also like the quicker, sweeter ones that accompany hello and goodbye. And the slow, syrupy sweet ones while we hold each other in bed, drifting awake or off to sleep. And the heated, sloppy ones where it feels like we can never get enough of the other. Just . . . AAAAAAAA. He loves kissing me, we’ve done it for literal hours together. He likes kissing me anywhere and everywhere on my body, especially my chest, neck, face, and lips (bonus points if he gets one of my freckles). He’s down to kiss whenever and wherever, and if I were more okay with PDA, he’d make out with me in public. I have to be careful around him when it comes to that bc it’s easy for us (him) to get carried away.

ABSENT-MINDED KISSES. I give those all. The. Time. I’ll just be laying on him in some way, and I’ll start kissing either his face or his pecs, and then my mind will kinda start to wander off but I keep kissing him. It weirded him out at first when I would just keep kissing him in the same general area for prolonged periods of time, but now that he understands, he finds it really cute and lets me do my thing, loving on him. Even the present-minded body kisses are good, with eye contact and each one having a purpose. Body worship is completely my jam, especially when it comes to giving. I’ve spent over an hour just lovingly kissing/caressing every part of him on multiple occasions, and it’s one of my favorite fantasies. And mouth kissing is a big thing too, don’t get me wrong. Actually, don’t get me started, I love kissing Eijirou. His teeth are such an experience and I live for the way he kisses back, mm. I love it when we’re kissing and one of us (me generally) has to leave, but I don’t want to stop kissing, so I do a “just one more” kind of thing where I lean in for “the final kiss” but then just keep going, you know? Like five more kisses after “the last one”. Eiji thinks it’s funny and really cute.

[moons-and-stars-and-shit]

It worked! Sorry to bug you with a message! But I'd like to request a cake now!

So, about me. I have an actual name but I don't think I've heard it in months😃, instead I have a bunch of nicknames! (Rion, ri, oreo, onion, o, etc), I'm actually nb so I chose that name, however I 100% consider naming myself Arson💀My pronouns are they/them and I'm about 5'5, I have short, fluffy brown hair that I usually dye the front blue. I'm Asian hispanic, but I really don't look like either- my favorite foods are either really spicy and salty or sweet. Not the overwhelming chemical sweet tho, like a natural sweet flavor. My personality type is infp, and ig when I first meet people I can be shy (that's an understatement, I was mute for the first week of school🕳🏃‍♂️) but once I get to know people I can be pretty chaotic (once again, arson). I'm not a 100% demon spawn though, I don't really like making scenes in public and I probably will cry if I do- but I still have fun lol. I'm also the person who copes with severe mental health issues using humor, to an alarming degree 😔 I'm the therapist friend when really I'm the one who needs therapy. I also have a social battery that can die at random times, so I really like/need friends who can handle random mood changes of me going from energetic to silent in seconds. Academically, I'm really book smart, I'm a tutor, but my grades don't reflect it. I tend to procrastinate a lot and avoid studying, usually I catch myself last minute or trust memory on tests, but every now and then there's something that tanks my grades. I'm not very athletic, but I still try to play sports. I enjoy the feeling when I do something right, but the rest of the time I usually beat myself up for messing up.

And now just random facts 😃👍

My favorite color is yellow, not the bright eye sore shade that makes you want to throw up, but the nice softer, light shade. And I like anything that comes with that color! (Sunflowers, flowy sundresses and flip flops, summer activities, burning concrete, warm rain, etc). Nobody knows my music taste, it changes weekly, however I usually come back to mitski/cavetown or summer themed songs a lot! I enjoy playing music, but I have the curse of being a fast learner so that usually leads to be being bored and learning a new instrument at any given chance. And my birthday is a weird date that fucks with zodiacs so I can be considered either a leo or cancer, my personality changes a bunch, so take your pick lol. (Though emotionally I tend to be cancerous, I just express it and show it in a way a leo would) And someday I wanna be a long term traveler, or a florist. Just a job that makes me happy :). And I guess if I had to classify my aesthetic it would be bloomcore or soft grunge. I like wearing big sweaters and if I could I would wear a bunch of butterfly clips in my hair and wear mom jeans. (I would also wear man crushers, I mean, platforms if I was confident)

Aaaannnnd that was really long sorry!

To sum up, I'm just a bipolar bitch with depression and anxiety 👍

Thanks a bunch for just taking the time to read this!

@oririon

Romantic Matchup

Bokuto Koutarou

How Y’all Met

IERJNDJS

I’m getting a classic summer love vibe from this matchup 👀

Ok so I just Hc that Bokuto LOVES flowers

So he would always just go to the local flower shop to look at them

Pls hes to precious I cant-

But anyways you we’re working a summer job at the flower shop

And you grew fond of our little owl boy

You would always talk to him whenever he visited

He just made your job that much more enjoyable :)

So one day you stopped him right before he left and told him he could pick a bouquet of flowers if he wanted

He BEAMED at you and picked a bouquet of flowers he always looked at whenever he came

But what shocked you was instead of walking out with them

He gave them to you!

He then went on talking about how he really liked you but didn’t know how to tell you

At this point he was just rambling

So you laughed and asked him if he would like to go to the ocean with you after your shift

He agreed and you swear you saw stars in his eyes

After your shift you met up with Bokuto and went to the beach

You guys literally spent ALL day there!

And even some of the night 👀

Being the gentleman he is offered to walk you home

And when you two got to your house he asked you to be his s/o

What They Love About You

Ok starting off with a strange one

He loves the fact that your favorite color is yellow 💛

He just thinks it fits you so well 😊

He loves that you have to ability to turn your trauma into humor

Now I’m ngl...

Ye found it extremely concerning at first 🥲

But once you explained it was like a coping mechanism for you

He was super supportive!

AAAAAAAA

He LOVES your aesthetic!

He thinks it’s so cute

And once again he thinks it fits you 👀

He appreciates the fact that your smart

If he doesn’t understand something in class

He’ll just go to you!

And honesty going over the material with him has helped your understanding as well 👀

Bokuto s grades:📈

Your grades: 📈

Favorite Things To Do Together

Oml he loves summers with you

Any summer activity

Beaches

Ice cream

Flower meadows 👀

Summer night drives

The whole shtick

But when it’s not summer

He loves doing classic seasonal activities

Examples:

Fall - Jumping in leaf piles, coffee dates, preparing for Halloween, etc

Winter - Snowball fights/Making Snowmen, Christmas movie marathons, hot cocoa/ baking, etc

Spring - Dancing in the rain, picnics, gardening etc

It’s a vibe year round with bf Bokuto

Random Hc

His favorite season is summer

And his second is winter

Ik...polar opposites

Oof

He TOTALLY gets your mood swings

Although they may not be the same as his

He still understands them and respects them

Every year on your anniversary he buys you the exact same bouquet he gave you at the flower shop

Speaking of the flower shop 👀

He got a job there with you the following summer

So you guys basically spent most of your days together

Bokuto is REALLY bad at dark humor

But for some reason he still tries 😭

It’s either TOO dark

Or not dark at all 💀

Astrology

(We’re gonna go with your cancer zodiac 😂)

When Cancer and Virgo make a love match, a strong, down-to-earth relationship with staying power is the happy result.

This is a relationship with great potential to get better and better over the passing years.

Both Cancer and Virgo are goal-oriented and disciplined.

They are sincere and devoted to one another and share a strong sense of purpose.

No lightweight love here: These two were not really built for flings!

Cancer and Virgo deeply admire one another: Virgo respects Cancer’s quiet strength and dedication while Cancer appreciates Virgo’s keen adaptability and intelligence.

These lovers may get off to a slow start, but over time, bonds will only grow stronger.

The Cancer-Virgo love match prides itself on common sense and strong principles over fluff and inconsequential or fleeting connections.

They enjoy the material comforts of life, but they will only feel good about their bounty if it has come as a result of honest hard work.

There could be tiffs if Virgo becomes too critical for Cancer’s easily bruised feelings; Cancer needs to understand that it’s just Virgo’s nature to point out what they observe, that it’s not a personal attack.

A Virgo may bristle at their Cancer mate’s stubborn streak, but it’s a trait that a patient and understanding love partner like Virgo could come to appreciate.

Also, Virgo’s urge to serve suits Cancer’s affectionate, nurturing nature well.

Their dedication to working toward the same goals.

Both partners in this love match enjoy a stable home life and nice things, and Virgo truly enjoys helping Cancer along the way to achieving their goals.

Their shared goals and desires make theirs a highly compatible love match.

Overall Aesthetic

Bloomcore 🌸

Bloom - Jesse

This Side of Paradise - Coyote Theory

Flaming Hot Cheetos - Claire

Mystery of Love - Sufjan Stevens

[hu4ngs]

jisung as your boyfriend! thank you ♡

AAAAAAAA THIS MADE ME SO SOFT jisung is a big baby

can u believe this baby is 18 this year? cuz i don’t

i personally REFUSE to believe he’s 18

anyway

you met jisung during a basketball match

it was your school against his

you weren’t really THAT supportive you just came because everyone told you there was gonna be handsome players

also the food stalls during school matches are always the b e s t

so here you are

you were happy that you got a pretty decent seating so you immediately started looking for cute players

you figured you probably looked focused as hell cuz that’s how you met jisung

he was sitting next to you, you can tell he’s from the other school judging from his school blazer

he chuckled looking at you squinting to see the match when it hasn’t even started

when he noticed that you noticed him, he immediately looked away

you stared at him for a couple seconds longer before diverting your attention back to the court

the horn blew, indicating the game had started

you noticed a light haired fella from the other school literally killing your school’s team

he was fast, he was sharp, you can tell he’s in ace

you watched him effortlessly shoot a 2-pointer goal, which made the guy next to you immediately cheer

you were a bit surprised from his sudden cheer, which made you jump

your attention diverted yet again to him

“is that your friend?” you asked absentmindedly

he was taken aback for a few seconds before finally nodding

“he’s gonna kill it” he said proudly

a smile automatically formed on your face, another favourite of yours is watching people get excited during matches

“are you here to support your whole school or to just support #30?” you asked again

he laughed shyly, “of course it’s to support the whole team. it just happens that my best friend is the ace of the team” he bragged a bit in his words

you giggled

you found him super cute

“what about you?” he asked

you were a bit embarrassed to admit that you were just here to look at cute players

so you went with option #2

you lied

it’s a white lie so it’s ok

“oh  yeah, i’m here to show support for my school’s team” you said, although you sound hesitant

you thank the gods he didn’t question your hesitation though

“jisung” he muttered with a smile

“y/n” you told him back, and he nodded to himself before turning back to the game

you did the same

long story short

you ended up cheering with jisung together for his friend (which you learned his name was chenle)

you earned a lot of stares from your schoolmates though

but you didn’t care

from the looks of it, your school’s team was barely winning

chenle was really beating their asses off

“dude, your friend is on fire”

jisung nodded proudly

“what did i tell you? that’s an ace right there”

you giggled at him before continuing to cheer on for chenle

when the match ended, you had gathered up all the courage you had to ask him to go around the food stalls with you together

because 1) he’s genuinely the cutest boy you’ve ever met

and 2) you had no friends to do this with you

yknow like seulgi once said. sometimes you gotta be BOLD

so anyway

before jisung was even thinking of leaving the court, you had asked if he wanted to go around the food stalls with you

you noticed him get a bit too flustered with the request

your brain had immediately started telling you that this was a mistake

and that he probably has a girlfriend already or something

but then he said yes!!!!!

HE SAID YES!!!!!!!!

you probably realised a bit too late that you got a little too excited

bc by then jisung’s face was already red after seeing you like that

“sorry” you chuckled

and he shook his head, “it’s okay”

just when you’re about to ask him to get out of the court he said something

“is it okay if chenle joins, though?” he asked

you were 100% okay with that, although a small part of you wished it was just you and jisung

but at that time it was still too early for you to notice that

so you agreed wholeheartedly

so that’s the story of how you became friends with chenle and jisung

chenle wasted no time to show his true colours

by seconds he was already a loud, laughing mess

he’d also make fun of jisung whenever he has the chance and you find their jokes toward each other to be super funny

you were super glad that this whole thing didn’t turned out to be awkward

when the overall event was coming to an end, you had to go on your own way

jisung made sure he got your number before you two depart,,, so that’s saying  s o m e t h i n g

and after you left..... poor jisung was teased even more by chenle

“you asked for their number FIRST? you like them don’t you?” chenle asked teasingly, nudging jisung by his arm

“do me a favour, and just, shut up? please?” 

chenle laughed

“i’m just saying, if you need help to ask a certain someone out.... i’m right here” he said proudly while puffing his chest out

ANYWAY

days after the event,,, like literally so many days later

you find yourself not able to stop texting jisung

the conversation just keeps on going

it’s crazy

you didn’t think he’d be a good texted but he simply is

whenever you text him first he’d immediately come online??? that’s a whole MAN

and he always have something interesting to say that would keep the conversation going

you find yourself drawn to him

it’s crazy

you’ve never felt like this before

like okay, you’ve had crushes before

but you never felt like THIS

everyday you’ll find yourself wishing that you’d get to see him again

and it’s really driving you crazy

like y/n???? smitten over a boy????? that’s crazy

jisung, on the other end, also felt the same

he lowkey wants to go watch a movie with you or something

but he can’t admit that to anyone

he can’t admit it to chenle because chenle will LOSE his mind

and he most definitely can’t admit it to you in fear he’d get rejected or get you weirded out

so he’s basically stuck

sometimes he’s on the subway on the way home and he sees two couples in it with him wearing matching jackets or are talking about getting boba together,,,,, he lowkey wishes he’d get to do that with you

it’s really driving him mad bc he can’t tell if he’s in love or just lonely or just going through puberty

he’s not really one to understand these type of feelings yknow.....

at the end he decided to contact his long lost friend

who’s like super older than him

it’s taeyong

he’s contacting taeyong

one night he suddenly sent taeyong a text

which caught the elder one off guard cuz it’s been so long since they talked

but it’s okay taeyong’s a nice person

when he asked jisung what was up

jisung immediately went into details

he told taeyong everything

from the basketball match

to the way you always stays online and wait for him to finish typing bc he admits he’s a bit of a slow typer

and he admits to taeyong that he does wanna hang out with you again

and not,,, platonically,,,, he genuinely wants to take you out on a date

taeyong let out a laugh when he read jisung’s super long explanation on what’s bothering him

he gave jisung advice alright

and he tried as hard as he could to make sure it was a good advice too

because it’s probably the first time the boy has ever felt like this, he can’t ruin this for him

and thanks to taeyong, jisung felt like the clouds in his head was finally clearing up

he was finally able to see a solution

which wasn’t that much hard to find,,, but he needed assurance from an older, experienced man

so yes, jisung ended up asking you out

when you received that text you were blown out of your mind

you were literally on cloud 9

the butterflies in your stomach? there were swarms of them

you couldn’t get a good night’s rest because your mind won’t let you stop thinking of the fact that you just got asked out on a date

BY PARK JISUNG TOO!!!!!

who’s doing it like you? not me, not anyone else. YOU’RE DOING IT LIKE YOU

jisung even made it clear that there wasn’t going to be a zhong chenle this time. just the two of you

and you find it sweet of him to reassure you that

nah, you’re just smitten by him

LMAO

so anyway

you spent your whole trying to find the perfect outfit

best believe you even went out to buy a pair of new shoes too

that’s how in love you are

on d-day, you two met in the subway

you met him after two stops, and he looked SOOOOO good

he literally looks like your future boyfriend

he wore something simple, but it really complimented his figure

unlike the other time you saw him, this time he wasn’t in his school attire, he had one airpod in, and overall he just looks dashing

you figured by now you ARE in love, because no boy wearing black jeans with a pair of converse topped with an adidas jacket had ever made you feel this way

but you’re not gonna complain

if you’re gonna fall in love with someone, it better be park jisung

when he noticed he thought similarly as you did too

he wondered how you could so good wearing something so simple

yup. if he was gonna get boba with somebody, it better be you

the subway was kinda full, so you were standing

he immediately went over to you

and you were lowkey blushing looking at how tall he was now that he’s standing right in front of you

“you look good” you commented, to make things less awkward, although that obviously backfired, because jisung immediately turned shy

“you.... you look good, too” he mumbled, looking away

luckily, after a few stops, both of you warmed up again to each other

he asked you about your day, and as usual you somehow carried away with talking about completely unrelated topic

but that’s what attracted jisung the most

he doesn’t do much of the talking

but he sure as hell enjoys listening to you talk

you were amusing too, and on top of that you made sure you weren’t just blabbing about yourself, you made sure he finds the fun in the conversation too

when you arrived at the mall, neither of you knew what you wanted to do

so you both ended up wandering around the big mall, and every once in a while you’d stop at a fast food restaurant to eat something light

you had to admit, even though you two weren’t doing anything specific, you were sure having a lot of fun

when (still) wandering around the mall, you two walked by a phone cover store

and jisung had the bravest, most brilliant idea ever

he asked if you wanted to get matching phone covers and honestly that was the sweetest thing someone has ever said to you

and like??? getting matching phone covers with jisung???? YES PLEASE

you agreed with your whole heart bruh let me TELL you

and that’s how jisung finally knew nothing wrong could really go with confessing

after buying matching phone covers, he finally fulfilled his wish to get you both boba

AND in the boba store

it’s not the most romantic way nor place to confess but,,, that’s jisung for you

it’s not the fanciest place ever, but it’s still the sweetest thing to happen to you

ngl you were gonna cry but you’re a bad bitch so you DIDN’T

so now he’s your boyfriend

and compared to before, he became way awkward now, more than ever

but again, that’s just park jisung for you

he gets shy super quickly

and i’m not saying you aren’t shy too, but sometimes whenever you absentmindedly grab his hands to go somewhere or something, boy, he will n o t stop thinking about it

good news is that you two go on dates much more often now

and he’d visit you sometimes when he has the time whenever you have extra classes

and he strictly asked you not to reveal your relationship to chenle yet because he wasn’t sure if he was ready to face that boy yet

anyway

so during the first few........ months of dating, please don’t expect to have that much hand touching, or hugs, let alone any types of kisses

he’s just that awkward

and he’s super grateful if you understand him and doesn’t pester him to do any coupley things

in fact he’d fall in love with you even more if you’re like that

but eventually he’ll come around anyway

he wouldn’t really initiate anything first other than the simple arm-around-shoulders thing, but he definitely won’t flinch or blush like a madman whenever you hug him or hold his hand

daily facetimes with him are a must that’s a requirement from park jisung himself

he doesn’t show it but we all know he’s secretly clingy

like SUPER clingy but in his own way

if you don’t give him attention he’s definitely gonna sulk

if you give chenle more attention, he’s 100% gonna sulk

once again he doesn’t tell you about it, but he LOVES having his arm around your shoulders especially when you two are in public

he lowkey likes the feeling??? like it kinda boosts his ego when he does this so he does it a lot

he doesn’t buy you gifts too much but he definitely loves hanging out/going out on dates with you

he’ll definitely buy you all the foods you want too

when he does buy you gifts he’d buy you little things like a keychain of your favourite anime character maybe, or a pair of adorable socks, maybe a cute little necklace and a shitton of phone covers

whenever you’re stressed out with your studies he wouldn’t bother you, but he’ll definitely accompany you if you asked him

he’ll comfort you a lot when you’re breaking down, although he doesn’t say much, but having him hold you tightly in his embrace is enough comfort for you, especially when it’s coming from jisung

your first kiss together would be waaaay overdue tbh

like, your first kiss is probably a year after dating he’s just that shy

but it’s sweet

best believe this time it’s jisung that initiated the first move

as usual you guys are on a date

and unlike other dates, you guys decided to have a picnic by the river

and unlike other dates pt. 2, he’s much more smitten for you than he has been the other days

maybe you surprised him at school when he’s super stressed out

maybe you brought him something he had been wanting to have

maybe you took him out to a cafe that he’s been craving

WE’LL NEVER KNOW but he’s super smitten

and his heart keeps racing in a different way whenever he sees you on that particular day

so when you were busying yourself taking cute pics of the river with the sunset

he suddenly slides in his hand onto your cheek

which caught you off guard

you were like,,,,,

“is this really my boyfriend is he really doing something other than having his hand on my shoulders?”

you’re lowkey panicking and excited to see what’s he gonna do next

at first jsung was hesitant but his heart was screaming for him to do it

so HE DID

he leaned in and kissed you

and you gladly kissed him back,,, hell, you’ve been waiting a lifetime for this moment

your kiss with him was super innocent, and was so gentle

it was perfect

you two were on the picnic blanket, by the river, accompanied by the sunset

you can’t think of any better way for you to share your first kisses with each other

and to top that all up, after all that, he told you that he loves you for the first time ever

and that’s a lot for jisung

in conclusion, jisung will be a hard shell to break

it will take a lot of patience from you

but it’s all worth it because he’s a treasure

he will cherish you so so so so so much

and if that’s not love idk what is

don’t ever break his heart or trust bc he can NEVER handle that

OH also on a side note now that you’re dating jisung, you’ll have to deal with chenle too

he WILL annoy you as much as he annoys jisung it’s just zhong chenle tingz

lastly, jisung would probably, at one point in your relationship, tell you that he’s glad he shared his firsts with you because he honestly can’t think of a better person

ugh wtf im jealous somebody get me a bf like park jisung pls

[toooldforfandom-liveblogs]

Gravity Falls S02E11 - Not What He Seems

These past few days have been a constant struggle between my desire of watching this episode and waiting a couple more days until I felt better because if it is what I hope it is (answers!) I wanted to be in top shape for it. But I'm finally here! And with that title, it _has_ to be about Stan, "Stan is not what he seems" was the first hidden message of the show after all. So, let's do this!

That's a really bright vending machine. How has no one in town noticed Stan's house lighting up the night?

I'm guessing that the laptop's counter is the same as this one.

The origin of the name "Gravity" Falls?

The intro sequence!

The picture with the twins is always in frame when Stan talks about the project, here and in previous episodes. I mentioned before that a theory I have is that Stan had a twin that screwed up everything (Dipper style) and he's trying to rescue him so it may be that the focus on the picture is to show _why_ he's doing this somewhat indirectly.

The other alternative is that he's doing it to somehow help the twins but I'm not sure how that would work. Unless whatever he's doing is going to help prevent Bill's prophesied disaster? Although, maybe _this_ is the disaster and everything is going to go to hell in 17 hours (with nine episodes to go? hmm)

Three keys and three protagonists? 100% going to happen at some point.

The shorter op song feels wrong even if probably means a good episode if they needed those extra 30 seconds.

Aww.

This is too wholesome to last.

Yeaaah, this is just making me believe more and more that something is going to go horribly wrong and it'll be Stan's fault somehow.

uuh, foreshadowing?

What could it be?

I know he's "not what he seems" but what could the kids find out that they'd freak out? I doubt they'd really care about the portal, in fact they'd love it. Maybe he's not actually "Stan"? The episode about Soos's dad and the resolution could work as foreshadowing in that case, since what really matters is who was there for the twins.

And he's dead.

"doomsday device" would actually be a pretty good reason for the kids to freak out.

Wouldn't the government be listening in? Wouldn't Stan definitely know this if that was the case? I can't decide if this is a trap for the government to lure them in or he trusts that no one is spying him.

...but they have parents.

Wow, the first fatality.

Overthinking rocks is better or worse than overthinking cartoons?

They are really making me lean into "he's not actually Stan" but if he's not Stan how does he know the twins' parents? His identity can't just be a "Stanford Pines" fake id, so he needs those ids for something else.

...WHAT

"Rookie cop" could be Blubs and "leg warmers" really situates this in the past. Maaaybe 30 years ago?

Okay... okay. Let me think about what we know so far.

So, "The Author" was the original "Stan". He built something with McGucket that he believed would help humanity (maybe related to Bill's prophecy?) but something went wrong and he vanished and McGucket erased his own memories. Our Stan assumed Stan's identity (including the Mystery Shack?) and tried for 30 years to (re)build something (the same machine?) to somehow bring Stan (his brother?) back making little progress until Dipper found the missing journal.

I think that's the timeline with a little speculation to fill in the missing details. My main question is... why would Grunkle Stan need to steal the original Stan's identity to the point of faking his death? The only thing I can think of is that the original Stan vanished in such a way that Grunkle Stan looked like he killed him so the only way to make it less suspicious for him was to (unsuccessfully?) make it look like an accident.

_And_ in all the fake ids he looked younger so maybe he already knew how to assume fake identities (maybe he was a spy? He _did_ spent a time in a Colombian prison...), assuming his brother's was just one more job. A 30-year long job.

Oh no, the twins are going to think (very naturally) that Stan stole the real Stan's identity as some sort of scam. I hope they remember the lesson from Soos's episode.

Stan being a retired super spy is looking more and more plausible.

Wow, Stan's a genius.

D'aw.

I just can't look at glitter in the same way since I found out people have lost eyes because of it.

They are nailing the music here, it really feels like the revelation it is, 21 episodes in the making.

C'mon Dipper, you already learned back in Dreamscaperers about how jumping to conclusions about Stan kinda doesn't work out.

Damn, that looks bad for Stan's credibility.

And bad for my theory about this being the same machine that The Author built and that made him disappear. Unless the universe did tear apart 30 years ago, swallowing him up but the machine stopped just in time to prevent "Total Global Destruction"?

All this time I assumed The Author had been the one to screw up but if he knew the machine couldn't be activated that'd mean that Our Stan was the one who did it (maybe he _was_ a criminal and he couldn't resist the knowledge that the machine promised?) And he has been trying to get him back not only because he's his brother but because he feels guilty about it. Guilty enough to risk the earth? He _has_ been saying that it's "all worth it" a whole lot...

I bet he was deceived by Bill.

That's a really solid joke.

AAAAAAH, THIS IS SO TENSE AND THE EPISODE IS ABOUT TO END

AAAAAAAA

This is both heartbreaking and heartwarming

But he _is_ their Grunkle. He assumed Stan's identity more than 15 years before they were born. This is killing me. And now Mabel's crying.

Oh. Oooh. So he wants The Author to take his "rightful" place again, so in a way he _is_ helping the twins regain a family member. But what was his plan for himself?

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa

THIRTY YEARS AND NOW HE'S BACK

THE MYSTERY IN THE MYSTERY SHACK

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Was "Stan Prime" trapped in a Mad Max dimension? How did Grunkle Stan avoid destroying the universe? Unless he did and now they are in another, identical, universe?

Wow. I don't have a lot to write that I didn't already during the liveblog but whooooo, he _was_ his brother. Now give me all the answers for everything else!

The episode was incredible. The countdown was a great plot device to maintain the tension all the way through. I'm not sure if the writers intended the viewers to actually distrust Stan but they definitely did their job to make Dipper's reaction to him completely believable. He's "the smart one" and all the factual clues point to Grunkle Stan being a criminal who stole Stan's identity. But Mabel is the one who can see beyond the "truth" and realizes that even if Stan is not the man he says he is, he _is_ her Grunkle Stan and she can trust him.

Since we have a little less than half the season left this definitely wasn't the thing that Bill was talking about. Are they going to have to prepare for that now? Maybe the portal let _other_ things through besides Stan?

AAAAAAAAAAA I can't wait for the next episode. Until next time!

PS: What should I watch after Gravity Falls?

[adamarinayu]

Now that we're on this hiatus, do you mind telling us what you thought of each episode?

Okay, I know I’m super late to answer this but here I am! I’m not gonna go too in depth on them, but I do want to talk about them.

Treasure of the Found Lamp!

This one was amusing, and I absolutely love what they did with Djinn. I’m so so so glad they changed his name, too, as “Dijon” always bothered me, even as a kid. Also, the story of the lamp was very heartwarming! And seeing Selene again was fun, especially as she had to run around and we find out she’s a terrible liar lol (so she definitely had nothing to do with Della’s disappearance, I think we can all finally put that theory to rest).

The wild goose chase aspect was funny, coming from both sides, and I still think the actress on Ma Beagle’s TV looked vaguely like a character from PKNA so. But Djinn did not pull punches and them Beagles at least got hurt XD

Also. It kinda has a “the greatest treasure is family” vibe to it.

The Outlaw Scrooge McDuck!

As someone who loves Scrooge and loves Goldie, but is indifferent to Scroldie… I still loved this episode. It was great! It was also absolutely hilarious. And Gyro’s time traveling was amazing. Especially Scrooge’s sudden moment of realization when Gyro returned lol.

Louie’s gonna befriend Goldie! That makes me excited. I bet they’re gonna teach each other things that we haven’t even thought of (ie Louie values his family, while Goldie doesn’t even have a family. Maybe Goldie will officially join the Duck-McDuck family not through her strange but obviously antagonistically-romantic relationship with Scrooge, but through her friendship with and tutelage of Louie? Maybe he’s the one who shows her the importance of family and offers her a place in their family… it doesn’t mean giving up adventure, it just means always having somewhere she can call home, and people she can trust and rely on!).

I’m iffy about Jeeves’ redesign, and also his somewhat betrayal of Rockerduck, but I’ve never been like a hardcore fan of the two of them so it was easy for me to move on. I am curious, though, just how they’re gonna come back… guess Gyro’s not quite done with time travel shenanigans.

The only real gripe I have is Sheriff Marshal Cabrera. DON’T GET ME WRONG, I absolutely loved him. He’s a beautiful babby boy. But at the same time, he’s literally just. Fenton. I know he’s like. Fenton’s great grandfather (or maybe uncle, idk) or something. There should absolutely be similarities yes, but it felt like someone had taken the characters and placed them in an old west setting. That being said, I do love him, I just wish he’d been slightly more his own character. Like, maybe a little more like a mix of M’Ma and Fenton! Idk.

The 87 Cent Solution!

…….. You really want to know?

Okay, the episode was good. It was funny, and I enjoyed seeing Glomgold’s timestop shenanigans.

But the funeral scene? That wasn’t cool. I saw the “not really dead” twist coming, I think we all did, but no one thought to tell Donald? Donald thought that, so soon after finally making amends with his uncle, he had lost him for good.

And I get it. It’s meant to be a gag. It’s supposed to be funny. But it kinda really soured the rest of the episode for me. I hate to say that too, because it was a good and funny episode… I just… I can’t believe they did that to Donald. :(

The Golden Spear!

AGONY. Agony is how I feel about this one. Della made friends with the Lunarians! Actual friends! And then Penny made a bad choice, and Lunaris… damn you, Lunaris, you traitor.

All the things Della listed off, wanting to do with her kids and brother and uncle… they’re things the others have already done without her. That hit me in the feels.

AND THEN DONALD- AGH, I CAN’T EVEN. Poor Donald. He’s so stressed and his family loves him so much and just wanted him to have some peace. But alas, it was not to be. And now the fandom cries.

… Even if he really shouldn’t have climbed into that rocket but y’know. He didn’t MEAN to press buttons….

Nothing Can Stop Della Duck!

Della reunites with her boys and no one realizes Donald is gone. And we see Della trying to be a mom, and kinda failing miserably. But she’s trying, and she’s learning!

ALSO THEIR WOULD-BE NAMES HFBVSHKFCS

It really put to rest one of my biggest fears, that all of the triplets would accept her immediately (Louie showed serious hesitation through the entire episode, definitely coming from his place of insecurity that Dewey and Huey don’t share) and she’d be super-mom. She makes mistakes, and it’s acknowledged that she seems to be trying to be one of them rather than be their mother. It does feel awkward at times, and alien, like the boys are trying so hard to think she’s doing great when she’s really causing harm, but in the end when it comes down to it she’d do anything to protect them, and gives them the choice of letting her into their life. She doesn’t try and force her way in (as she kinda did at first, but came to realize this isn’t easy for them either).

Right now she feels kinda more like a cool aunt than a mom, but she’ll learn.

Raiders of the Doomsday Vault!

IS LUDWIG’S CONSCIOUS TRAPPED IN THE VAULT?! HE REACTED TO AND INTERACTED WITH THE PEOPLE OUTSIDE.

Anyway Scrooge and Glomgold’s parts were absolutely A+ hilarious. Della and Dewey bonding, they’re so much alike, but we see Dewey’s insecurity flare up- how he wants to impress Della, feeling like he has to earn her love. Even though she’s already loved them for ten years, even without ever knowing what they looked like.

Della has a moment of realization here, too. She looks down and realizes Dewey is in a dangerous situation. She realizes that Dewey is in danger. She questions if they’re doing something crazy, clearly thinking maybe we shouldn’t be doing this, but when Dewey quotes her “I’m your son, I can do anything!” she instead chooses to encourage him, not wanting to discourage him and possibly cause him to fall.

And then of course, her “exit strategy” thing. I honestly kinda feel like it’s a bit of an ass pull, but it at least makes a little sense. When you’re being hunted by a monster on the moon, you always want to have an escape route planned. Scrooge sees that, even if she’s the same ol’ Della she was before, she’s still changed. Ten years still changes you.

Friendship Hates Magic!

New Girl! New Girl! Violet’s pretty cool. At first she comes off as one of those “um, actually” people, but since I’m one of those “um, actually” people it’s pretty whatever to me lol. And Lena’s back! I’m super excited about that.

Lena gets a little jealous-possessive but who can blame her, Webby’s one of the few people who have always believed in her. And Webby spent so much time we never knew about trying to find ways to bring Lena back, to the point that it’s like clockwork.

The whole “being tormented by her own mind” thing was actually frightening in a way, and I’m just glad it all turned out alright. And now Webby isn’t just a fourth triplet, she’s the central member of her own trio. It’s great!

The Dangerous Chemistry of Gandra Dee!

Admittedly another plotline to be seen from far away. A good episode full of secondhand embarrassment, but dang Huey’s LUNGS.

I love Gandra’s design and personality. It’s pretty durn great. I love it! I just have one gripe. Warning, this is a bit of a rant.

Why can’t we let characters be feminine? By this I mean traditionally feminine. Dresses, makeup, shopping, high heels, giggling, soft and compassion and gentle and things I’m not, pinks and lilacs, etc. Yes, Webby’s favourite colour is pink and she likes glitter and wears skirts, she is pretty feminine. But she’s the only one, besides Roxanne Featherby (Featherly? I don’t remember, and that’s only arguably because of her clothes), to be even slightly feminine, and even then it can be argued she’s not all that traditionally feminine because, well… she’s the bruiser of the group. Which there’s absolutely nothing wrong with! A feminine bruiser absolutely works, and I love it, but looking at it from certain angles…

Most of the (non-villain) females, besides Webby, show next to no traditionally feminine qualities- Goldie is the closest, when she dresses up for special events or for schemes. Which I don’t mind, per se, I don’t have many traditionally feminine qualities either, but you’d think at least a few would. The original Gandra Dee, who I am glad they changed mind you, was very feminine; she wore her hair long, wore dresses, enjoyed makeup and manicures, etc. She was traditionally feminine, AND smart. (even if I never liked how they drew her face (the eyes and beak look weird imho, DT17 pulled it off better), and I felt like she left much to be desired *cough*…)

There is nothing wrong with having traditionally feminine characters. There is nothing wrong with having characters who enjoy dressing up, or putting on makeup, or shopping, etc. The problem with traditionally feminine characters comes in when it’s done for sex appeal, or you have a woman running from dinosaurs in 6 inch heels (yeah I’m calling that out) or there’s a feminine character there only to be dragged on by the others for their feminine characteristics.

Anyway, rant about that over. I still love what they did with Gandra, but I’m just noticing this trend where female characters aren’t being allowed to like traditionally feminine things. Yeah, there are absolutely a lot of girls who don’t, but there’s probably an equal amount who do! And there’s nothing wrong with showing a competent, traditionally feminine character. :/

The Duck Knight Returns!

DARKWING DUCK DARKWING DUCK DARKWING DUCK NEGADUCK AAAAAAAA

Need I say more?

Okay, Launchpad is a sweetheart and let’s be honest, we knew the moment we saw him that the other guy at the signing was Drake Mallard.

I love that they kept the “Darkwing Duck inspires Drake Mallard to become Darkwing Duck” aspect of DW’s origin story, while twisting it around so that time travel and paradoxes don’t occur. Also! We still get Jim Cummings as Negaduck, while also getting a new VA for Drake Mallard/Darkwing Duck- someone who does a pretty good job at sounding like them, too. So now Negaduck, who is no longer Darkwing/Drake Mallard from an alternate universe, has his own distinguishable voice!

… And I still think Negs is gonna have an unhealthy obsession with Launchpad, thanks to the “my fan” comment. I figure that’s how we’ll get Nega Launchpad, but who knows! There’s so many possibilities!

Anyway Gosalyn, yesterday please. Gimme.

[franeridart]

hi what brushes do you use to sketch/lineart?

tbh I’m pretty sure they’re the default marker and brush tools in SAI haha

Anon said:I have followed you for a long time (back in the KnB days) and I have never once regretted it. You are awesomely talented and oh so amazing and an absolute joy to see on my dash. Thank you for being you!!!

Oh my god???? You’ve been around for so long???? I think I’m gonna cry thank you so m u c h ;^;

Anon said:Okay, I feel like I'm totally missing something obvious, but why is Kiri crying in the comic where Baku is in his hero costume and pushing his fists together???

:D

Anon said:Okay so I know you haven't drawn it in forever so I don't even know if you still even like it but I just found it so I just wanted to tell you that your bakushimanari art gives me life and it's amazing and your amazing asdfghjkl okay that's all!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m currently really focused on krbk and kmjr so every other ship involving them has sorta taken a backseat for me, but I’m definitely still shipping it!!! It’s such a good ot3, I’m glad you liked my stuff for them :D !!!!

Anon said:Hi this isn´t a ask I just wanted to say I found your blog two days ago and since then I´ve spent two days going all the 110 pages back viewing all your lovely art and it has been a b l a st (I found you through your kiribaku art because it's my otp and I'm so w e ak for it- I love how you draw them so much- I saw you did a lot of bakukamikiri in the past but now you do more kiribaku and that makes me happy lol NOT THAT THERE'S ANYTHING WRONG WITH THAT SHIP!! but yeah, love! Keep on being great!

AHHHHHHHHH thank you for taking the time to go through all of it???? I’m happy you like my stuff!!!! ;O;

Anon said:Oh my god fran i LOVE u thank u for ALL of ur art but esp that comic where bakugo is so inlove(which is most of them -again THANK U- but im talking about the most recent one like the one kiri is saying goodnight and stuff) like oh!!! Thank u thabk u thank u!!!! Thank u so much for blessing us with ur art!!! I love ur art i love YOU thank u u have my full heart 💕💕💕💕💖💖💖💓💓💗💗💗💞💞💞

I’M SO SO SO SO SO SO GLAD YOU LIKED THAT ONE OH MY G OD!!!!!!

Anon said:You fuckin g killed me

I swear that wasn’t the intention!!!!! D: (thank u t h o

Anon said:i might just reblog everything on your blog, your art is amazing *:･ﾟ✧

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Anon said:hihihi i just wanna let you know that your art and comics and like everything you produce here puts me in a super good mood and gives me a lot of fluffy good feels and that knowing they put you in a good mood making them is also yes good n im sorry this doesn't make sense lololol im just saying thank you for making the stuff you do it makes me and a lot of people happy n idk just means a lot i think haha n i hope you have many good days n yea

gODS thank you so much I’m so so so so glad my stuff can put you in a good mood!!! I hope you’ll have all the good days too!!!

Anon said:I love your arts so muchhhh ꉂ (′̤ॢ∀ ू‵̤๑))ˉ̞̭♡ They always make my day >w

Thank youuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;A;

Anon said:Ahh, I just wanted to say that you're super awesome and such an inspiration!! I absolutely love your art haha, it actually got me into BNHA and the like. This is probably a mess, but I guess what I'd really just like to say is thank you for being so amazing and I hope you have a great day! :D

Ahhhh thank you so much!!!! And I’m glad I could make you decide to give bnha a shot!!!!! :D

Anon said:Jeeezzz i smile like a dork with the happy and in love comic. Dhvskdbslbxks i love the sons, and you for draw. Keep melting my heart ♡

I’m!!!!!!!!!!!!!! happy you liked that one!!!! ;O; making it made me happy so knowing it can make people smile feels really good!!!!

Anon said:Ive stared at ur most recent comic for 5 hours now. Im blessed. Its so cute and wholesome

t h a n k  y o u ;O;

Anon said:Your Bakushima/Kirishima fanart makes me want to fall in love 😥

MAN that’s such a nice thing to have said about my stuff!!! oh my g o d!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Frannnnnnnnnnnnnnn stop feeding the horrible hopeless-romantic gremlin inside me aaaaaaaa your art is so cute and sweet

Hahahaha why tho!! Being romantic feels good!!! :D

Anon said:AWWWW I can imagine katsukis mom knowing about his crush on little eijirou and poking fun at him so much bECAUSE THATS SO CUTE

I think she’d be more shocked about Katsuki liking anyone at all tbh hahaha

Anon said:Fran, Fran, Fran, your art gives me life cause it’s adorable and wonderful❤️ that’s it, just had to make sure you were appreciated today!

Ahhhhhhh thank you so much for the good vibes anon!!!!! I’m glad you like my things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:your childhood friends au just killed me, i am dead. i'm feeling emotional i almost cried they're so cute. i just love them sm ;o;

hECK I’m happy you liked it!!!! It’s such a comfort au for me tbh!!! ;O;

Anon said:Tbh I never even noticed that you don’t usually draw noses o.0

That’s good tbh cause I sort of try to not make it too obvious hahaha

Anon said:Oh i saw you answered an ask abt favorite ships! I'm a little sad that you don't like miritama as much anymore haha but i wanted to ask if you ship kiri//mina?

I am a FOOL how could I FORGET MIRITAMA OH MY G OD I definitely still ship it as much as I always have holy heck they’re so good

as for krmn, I definitely prefer them as friends. Well, right now I’m just really picky about my kirishima ships, lbr hahaha

Anon said:In your headcannon, does bakugo wear eyeliner (like when he's not in the hero suit)?

I don’t really have an headcanon for that! :O I think it’s not in Horikoshi’s intention to draw him with eyeliner ever, and I never draw him wearing eyeliner either, but it’s not like I mind the idea of him using it! So in general I’m like, either way it’s fine, he’s beautiful whatever he’s putting on his face hahaha

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Thinking Inside the Box

(Dani if you can think of a better title please do cause mine is just a spoiler Also I don't have time to proofread spelling errors so if you want to go ahead)

(I thought this title would be neat - Dani)

TW: 

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Roman spent his first few moments of the morning laying in bed and waiting for his alarm to go off, something he almost never did. He always woke up before it, and even was dressed up and ready by the time it would go off. But he just wasn’t feeling it this morning. He couldn't explain it, but something just didn't feel right. And that uncertainty just filled him with nothing but dread.

He didn't really have a reason for it, sometimes he just had days like this. And really all he could do was try to push foreward and despite his emotions. He just had to try and be as positive as he could manage for the day, and hopefully that would be enough. He sat up, switched off his alarm, and got ready for what was ahead of him.

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"Chris it's just a name." Roman sighed as he and his friends walked through the halls. This was usually how their routine went: One of them had some batshit thing on their mind and would proceed to talk about it until it was time for first period. Today, Chris had been the one to initiate the conversation... And he had just about the most rediculous one that they'd discussed so far.

"I know that! I just don't get why they call them "Oreos" of all things... It's such a nonsense word." Chris replied, genuine confusion tinting his voice.

"That's the point, it's a nonsense name for a nonsense food meant as an occasional treat. There's no deeper meaning." Kaede said, hoping this would be enough to end the whole deal.

"But what if that's what they want us to think?" Chris pointed out. The other two fell silent, as though considering this.

"Dammit, Chris. Now you got me thinking about it." Roman complained, giving his friend a playful shove.

Chris smirked, taking a long sip of his tea in apparent delight. "Now you understand my pain." He murmured through the cup.

"You're not in pain over this, Mr. Angstlord." Kaede quipped.

Chris lowered the cup. "I could be."

Roman let himself laugh in comfort. It'd been a while since they'd had a pleseant morning together. Usually by this point someone would come along and ruin it for them.

Though, it appeared Roman had spoke too soon. Not a moment later, someone passed by them... And they had a lot to say. So much so that Roman actually could barely remember what it was. His brain forcefully blocked it out, his only clues to what they were being forgotton memories of slurs and misgenderings.

He only remembered Kaede shouting something, before getting into a small scuffle with the person and ultimately punching them in the face. The sickening crack was just loud enough to bring Roman out of his trance. He looked around, becoming uncomfortable at the size of the crowd that was forming. He looked over to Chris, who was just as uncomfortable, and grabbed his arm for support. Chris didn't say anything, but kept Roman close as an administrator started to chew the three of them out and send them to the pricipal's office.

The rest of the hour felt like an etertnity.

"Hey... Ro?" Chris spoke up suddenly.

Roman looked up at him. "What is it?"

Chris shrugged. "I dunno... You got super quiet for that whole thing."

He shrugged. "I kind of spaced out... I dunno."

Chris frowned. He didn't really like seeing his friend like this. Sure, he was feeling kind of bad himself, but honestly Roman was just a person everyone hated to see sad.

"Do you need anything?" Chris asked, unsure exactly how he could help. Roman just shrugged again in response.

"I'll be alright I think, but thank you." He flashed a quick smile before slouching back into the bench. Though, He wasn't there much longer, as an administrator came by and let him be excused.

And so, Chris was left alone, waiting for Kaede to finish being lectured. Which only happened after another 10 minutes. He looked up at his other friend.

"So, how bad?"

Kaede huffed. "2 morning detentions."

Chris cringed. "That sucks, man."

Kaede looked around. "Did Ro leave?"

"Yeah, but, He seemed kind of... out of it," Chris Explained, "I'm worried about him. I don't like seeing Roman sad, y'know?"

"Yeah I know..." Kaede sighed... He suddenly perked up. "Hey, you wanna help me with something?

Chris gave him a confused expression. "What is it?"

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Roman ended up taking the bus home alone that day. Chris had some unexpected thing with stage crew he had to take care of, and Kaede had some family thing going on.

He didn't really want to complain about it. After that morning, they all needed some time to themselves... Sure, he kind of wanted to hang out, but they could always do that tomorrow. Hell, maybe they could get the whole gang together and have a party.

Roman walked up to his house, unlocked the front door, and slipped inside. His parents weren't home today, so he was probably going to be alone for a while...

Then he saw it, A large box in the middle of the foyer. Roman found himself asking a million questions: What was in this box? How did it get in the house? Why was it HUGE?

Roman cautiously approached the box. It didn't appeared to be sealed in any way, instead it was just hap hazardly shut at the top. Roman carefully pulled away the flaps-

He didn't get to finish. Chris and Kaede jumped out from the large cardboard prision with a shout of "SURPRISE!" Then, they pulled Roman over into a big hug.

Roman could only stand there for a moment and wait for his brain to process exactly what had just happened. "What." He said plainly. Chris and Kaede pulled away.

"You seemed like you needed a hug today." Chris explained.

"You could have just... Given me a hug at school?"

Kaede shrugged. "It's more fun and special this way."

Soon, the three of them found themselves laughing... Sure, days could be crummy sometimes, but Roman could at least say he had good friends to help him get through it.

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(CHRIS I’M SO SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO POST THIS BUT AAAAAAAA I LOVE REREADING THIS FIC BECAUSE I LOVE IT SO MUCH)

[jiamour]

Hey!!! Just wanted to send you an appreciation ask 🥰, since you are going into a new era? Loved your pink,, oh it was your signature! But this dark era be good tooo..

I haven't been here for long but I read all of your fics(except for the ongoing jisung one). Love your humor OOMG. I have laughed under the blanket after horrible days thanks to you. 💖 YOU'VE MADE SO MANY OF MY DAYS BETTER!! And i have read many chapters of stupid cupid and psycho more times than you can imagine.

And i believe you are a very cool person. Like you are open minded and straightforward, ugh wish people around me were like that too😬. And your blog is just a pleasant place, super cute and pink(not pink anymore but this is appreciation of your pink era). 💕💕💕

And OHH my favourite thing is your taste in music. You just have such a good music preference, I CANT EXPRESS HOW GOOD IT IS!! Even tho some1 making me a playlist is not my thing, if you probably made me a playlist i would be so happy and would play it all day long.

Have a nice dark life ahead... i believe you can rock the darkness tooo!! YOU'RE AMAZING 💓💓

stop omg this is the sweetest thing i’ve ever read you’re gonna make me cry😭😭😭😭 i’m so happy i was able to improve your day a little with my fics !!!!! i’m not sure how long you’ve been here but if it was during the psycho multi year hiatus sorry it took so long lol

you’re such a sweetheart aaaaaaaa i hope you find people who are open minded :( you deserve to have good accepting people around you!! i’m sure you’ll find more people like that because it’s what you deserve !!!! things will look up for you i promise !!!!!

also thank you so much for complimenting my music taste😭😭 all i do everyday is listen to music i’m pretty sure i had listened 3.5k+ hours last year so hearing i have good taste makes me feel validated lmao everytime new music gets released i take it as my mission to message my friends and give them in depth reviews of it and they do not appreciate that but i’m taking this ask as proof that they’re just ungrateful😔 (but also once i spent 15 hours reviewing ncts entire discography so perhaps i’m the problem)

i really like this layout!! i’ll probably go pink again but who knows for now we’re dark and we’re living like this !!! let’s hope it goes well!!!!

thank you so much for this ask!!!!!💘💖💖💖💞💗💓💗💞 it was super nice to read and i appreciated it a lot omg 😭😭 i hope you have a nice day, nice week, nice month, nice year, nice forever you deserve it aaaa !!💖💖💖

[fractallogic]

I am so stressed all of a sudden that I want to SCREAM

I just double-checked all of my bills and the autopay didn't happen on ANY of them, so I just went through a bunch of systems to say HEY AUTOPAY WHAT THE FUCK and pay the bills myself after seeing that indeed, autopay SHOULD have worked, but ... did not????

I was at least able to move an appointment on Thursday so I don't have to leave class early to GET A FUCKING ACCOUNT MADE ON THE LAB COMPUTER wtf (if I decide to go at all. I've had the tattoo scheduled since August and I want to make extra super sure that I'm well rested and everything is great and whatever for Thurs. if I don't sleep enough on Wednesday night, no class.)

I cannot properly express how little I want to go grocery shopping right now and how little I even want to THINK about cooking, but, uh, too bad I guess because I want to also eat something that is good for me and makes me feel good, and that requires going to the store to get vegetables that I don't currently have in my fridge

apparently no one has contacted my RA with info about training or anything else she needs other than "you've been hired!" and I'm like. um. I know we established she's not going to be able to come to lab meeting this term and her pay is going to be weird and maybe vaguely sketchy-feeling, but like......... AAAAAAAA.

relatedly, for some reason, the lab manager's email is NOT SHOWING UP in the university's system and is not recognized as a legit email address when I do type it in by hand AFTER I have to look through the linguistics department's list of grad students ("are you sure you want to send it to this person?" YES OUTLOOK I AM)

there continue to be a small (thank god) number of ants crawling along the windowsill in my office... which, why. go away.

I'm feeling very stressed about being able to sleep or not due to tattoo because I have literally no other information about what it is, where it's going to be placed, what the artist's procedure is, or even how long it's going to take (her guess is "about three hours? but that's just an estimate!") except for the (written) description I gave her of what I wanted and any guesses I can make based on her instagram account BUT IN ANY CASE I want it on my right arm-upper back-shoulder-somewhere and you know what guess which side I sleep on

AND FINALLY I am feeling very inadequate because I spent the last hour doing more intensive revisions of my job app documents than I have in a while, and even though I'm not COMPLETELY and WHOLEHEARTEDLY on the job market this cycle, turns out it still feels BAD to be objectively good at what you do and also know that the odds of you getting to stay in the field you love doing what you love are. small. not good. and there's just nothing you can do about it. there are no academic versions of entrepreneurs who I can be like "hey I'll help grow your linguistics program", just ones who are like "ugh we do COGNITIVE LINGUISTICS not PSYCHOLINGUISTICS" and I'm there just going. cmon. just fucking hire me. I'm a wordologist telling you that you're caring too much about a very small distinction that I, a wordologist who does psycholinguistics and cares about language and cognition, DO NOT FUCKING CARE ABOUT and you shouldn't either

anyways. time to see what I still have that hasn't gone bad in the fridge. time to leave the office. time to go home and stick my face in the cat for a minute because all the humans are bad and I just want to be left alone. cool cool cool.