#i should prolly take a nap

[the-eclipsed-sun]

It was a pain in the ass- i kept forgetting how to change the font size for some reason,, but I did it!!

[Apollo holds out a card to Commodus, a grin on his face]

Look what I made!!!

//i spent all night making different designs and i settled on this one and i'm really really happy with it jsdhcjhcgd

damn this is actually really nicely made... good job bud.

[he smiles]

[phightingaus]

Haii new mods welcome to the blog!

What if swap au but it's swap NPCs with phighters. That'd be a very big roster though.. Well, I'll figure it out.

The Hosts of the gameshow are still Valk and Dom, though Valk is a playable character and he does commentary straight from the battlefield.

This makes no sense lore-wise and isn't intended to make sense in lore i just wanna make movesets

Playable phighters(in this AU):

Melee

The Broker(uses a cleaver)

Graffiti(but I gave him a metal chair)

Umbrella

Rainbeau

Traffic

Ranged

Zuka

Shotgun

Spray Paint(i gave him a glock)

Ghosdeeri('I CAST.. MYSTERIOUS HAIR ON TONGUE!' /j)

Lord Pwnatious III (gun collection core)

Support

Valk(hyping everyone up)

Dollmaker

Mx. Bot("hey watch this" *reality starts glitching*)

Carnage(I'll explain in a minute)

Paint Bucket(she looks so obnoxiously french send help)

Now, for the movesets

I think Rainbeau would get played through plunge attacks. Y'know the thing with Skateboard the faster you go the more damagd you'll do? Rainbeau will have that but with height, from the higher up you start plunging down, the more damage you'll do. Starting from a certain height the plunge will also do splash damage.

Traffic seems like a heavy hitter to me. He looks pretty slow from the fact he's high all the time, I believe fighting with the sign on his back would be most effective. Give him slow hard hitting attacks, a self-buff and self heal(he should ne able to systain himself since he's a hiker) and here we go!

Broker hits fast and hard, but is a very fragile character. He has a fair amount of shield and almost no health, fast and pretty strong attacks. The downsides are that he only has melee attacks(kinda like Jason in Forsaken) and no way to support himself so he requires a lot of backing(minimum 2 healers)

Umbrella is very fast and can do tons of damage to the enemy backlines, but is extremely fragile. Probably has the lowest health roster in the game, if not he's still up there. Intended to take down supports and one hit runners. Probably has an invisibility ability and some sort of trap

Graffiti I think I'll make a newbie friendly character, simple to use, mostly balanced in stats. Prolly has some sort of ability where he sprays paint in the enemy's eyes, blinding them for several seconds. I'll also give him a self speed boost where he unfolds the chair and takes a short nap.. honk shoo mimimimimi

Follow for part 2 where i do ranged movesets and maybe I'll try to fill in NPC roles with phighters

- star wars anon't

THIS IS SUPER COOLL

-🔮✨️

[clefrot]

To do list (not in order)

Hawaii part ii essay (im tired gimme a sec)

incorrect quotes

one shots (probablt recycle some)

relationship/dynamic hesdcanons

agent ukulele propaganda

reading black diamond billions and commenting on it

systematics homework

clefdraki propaganda

reblog wifey things w thouhts bc i love my wife

mc&d family/species expositions

idk i take writing requests even if ive only posted writing once

a nap (several)

anything more i should do

download balartoTM

actuallt kondraki hcs dont sound so bad to try to cook even if i havent touched his content in forever

finish wip fics

mope

should prolly post the #dr clef and will wood song/s essay(s)

finish reading the hunger games series (mockingjay + tbosas + sotr)

sulk

watch blue eyed samurai

rot

rewatch sister act bc i wanna

fkgure oit where to watch business proposal and then try Not to get addicted again

maybe watch sinners but it sounds like horror which idk if i can tolerate

maybe i should read at least one book a month now that my units are decreased (but still overloaded?) (i need to find more reasons to not kms over that)

i shiuld prolly do the systematics stuff ahead of time before i do any of that, esp lab

[probablymoons]

feeling okay. its almost 3pm. ive gotten a respectable amount of work done today so the plan is wash my hair take a bath put on my jammas. probably need to nap. cook some fried rice eat it outside. do some research for a project on horror/ aesthetics. nice nice nice. i love you. MAYBE watch a movie (any ideas?) should prolly reach out to juice, I havent seen anyone in… a while.

[roxygen17]

Shits weird man.

Everything’s weird. Wrong. Scary. Ugh.

Prolly gonna put this on Tumblr.

Well, yapping time!

Vent under the cut vvv

So, my mom’s been sick lately, lots of vomiting, very upset, but she also can’t (as far as i know) have her nicotine! Or maybe she’s just out. Either way this is my problem now! So, I was fuckin tired after school, and took a short nap, my mom yelled my name, i didn’t respond, she did it again, i woke up, said “sorry, i was asleep, what did you need?” no response. She yelled my name again an hourish later, I went upstairs, she proceeded to yell at me, told me “no one heard it, so it must not have happened” after I explained my side, told me that was what i did to her and dad all the time, said i didn’t care about them because i never listen, i apoligized, keep in mind i’m currently terrified and trying so hard not to break down sobbing, she then took my phone, and i went to leave, she said i wasn’t dismissed yet, and yelled at me for assuming i could leave, I apologized again, and asked what she needed, she said not to worry about it, and that i probably didn’t care anyways, somewhere in the midst of all that she also called me a bad daughter. I then proceeded to go downstairs, and sit in silence for two hours. She went to the bathroom, asked what I was doing like nothing happened, told me she didn’t take away tv, I remained fairly unresponsive, she then left, back to her room. I made some food, showered, then watched youtube as quietly as possible and went to bed at 10:30 ish because she told me to.

I don’t expect an apology. I know I should. I’ve learned not to. It’s like I’m nine again, sitting in that apartment, being yelled at for an accident, going to my room as told, then my mom calling me out to play a game, like nothing happened. Or when I was ten, and would get yelled at for forgetting to do something, then going to my room and seeing her smiling at me again like she hadn’t made me bawl an hour ago. Up until I was about 12, this was normal. Then it stopped for a while. I stopped being scared. I should never have stopped being scared, never have stopped listening to that little voice in the back of my head telling me to stay quiet and keep my head down. I never should have let myself think it’d be peaceful. The fear kept me safe, and it still does.

[gamerbearmira]

Ballet au idea 1- Schedules

Ok so I figured out what Mirabel's, Antonio's, and Luisa's schedules could be like;

Mirabel started ballet at 6 or 7 which gives her 8 or 9 years' experience so she is at intermediate level so she can do classes/practice Friday to Sunday if she can. If she's tired she can of course skip days.

Luisa started practice in her pre-teens? I feel like she maybe started at 13 up to 19 which gives her 7 years' experience. So, I think she's at an intermediate level so she can probably do Friday to Sunday like Mirabel.

Antonio started to practice at three but seeing as he was so young, he really didn't have a clear schedule. He was just in the studio when Pepa, Felix, or Camilo couldn't watch him. which wasn't all that often.

(But I also had this little idea where Felix would stay in the studio and watch Antonio dance with the girls as best as he could. It makes Felix smile at his adorable attempts.)

So maybe when after he turns 5 (or a few months before), he can take maybe one or two classes a week. Like only Fridays, Saturdays or Sundays or Friday to Saturday. And trust me, if Antonio ever misses a class, he's gonna be mean mugging all day.

He likes to have classes whenever his Primas have practice because it's fun with them. He can practice with just him and his abuela but still, he likes his Primas there too.

Ballet Idea 2 - shoes

So, you know those pretty shoes I showed you earlier in the au? I was having a hard time figuring out how such pretty shoes could stay pretty while being comfortable enough to wear during shows and I figured it out...magic.

When Mirabel and/or Luisa does a show, Mira will design some pretty pointe shoes like these:

Casita can give them some special magic so she (or Luisa) can dance in them comfortably without breaking them in just to wear them.

Ballet idea 3 - stress

I think Luisa (at 16 or 17) maybe vented to Alma that she does get stressed out from working so much so Alma loosens her grip on her chores a little.

"If you ever feel tired or too stressed just come home and relax. Practice some ballet if you feel like, and if someone has an issue have them come to me."

So, lulu can squeeze in two or three classes (mostly from Friday to Sunday) as her way of taking a break from chores. other times she reads, naps, or just hangs out in the studio and watches her prima dance. Bonus if Antonio and/or Felix are there to talk to.

Ballet Idea 4 - Shows

Luisa honestly loves performing with her sister, even if she doesn't have that much experience (and technically she's not far behind). The first show they performed together was swan lake. Luisa was the white swan and Mirabel was the black swan.

Lulu insisted that she should have been the black swan and Mirabel should have been the white swan, but Mira wanted her sister to have the spotlight too. And Mira didn't mind being the villain in the show, it's a little amusing to her.

And Julieta just loves she has two beautiful dancing daughters and makes it her mission to go to whatever show they have.

Ballet idea 5 -

Antonio likes being in his primas pointe shoes, it's cute. that's all I've got for now, but I'll think of more.

For Mirabel schedule, it’d probs be Monday to Friday, Saturday she has to take a break (Alma won’t let her dance, neither will Julieta), Sunday’s, prolly not⁉️⁉️ Luisa’s could work, if it’s two to three days, maybe four (a week I’m assuming), it’s every other day, seeing she, even with breaks, does still actively help in town, but it’s still often enough so that’s she’s at a (slightly lower) intermediate level under Mirabel. Honestly Antonio not having a real schedule makes sense. Probably just whenever he feels like popping in and joining huh 😭

Loving the shoes 🗣️ tbh magic makes a lot of senses. Like how else would that work 😭

Shoutout to Alma for listening to Luisa. I imagine she probably felt more comfortable talking to her. She has been dancing alongside her Mirabel the past 3 years, so there’s a lot more communication. Love that <3333

I LOVE SWAM CAKE SM 🦅🦅🦅 Luisa was SO nervous, she kept pacing backstage. Even after Mirabel’s reassurance that it was her show, and she was fine being Odie, she was still a lil spooked. But it worked out. Doing a one shot in this hol up…🚶‍♀️💨 Antonio wearing pointe shoes, obviously they fit. Obviously.

[lscpu]

bestie doesn’t see my vision but maybe someone here will. rdr2 inspired heavy arthur morgan core

dean’s about ~19, sammy’s 16. life on the road is shitty, they have a messed up sleeping schedule, diet, constantly on the move — free real estate for shit immune system.

dean gets night sweats at first. alright, puberty’s passed but he’s a young adult so something like this was expected. he gets fatigue, he shrugs it off. he starts coughing. the first alarm bell for john is when dean takes the backseat of the impala not to nap but just to be there.

from dean’s pov, he’s fighting coughing fits and doesn’t want dad seeing him fight them all the time. he thinks he can be inconspicuous but there’s so much stealthy coughing you can do while in a car with 2 other people

john just assumes dean’s down with a flu or something. he picks a town for a hunt and to settle down for a bit, enrolls sam into school, and goes off to hunt (it’s too dangerous to take his sons, especially with dean not at his best — john’ll just work with some other hunter he knows).

dean finds a job in town. john’s gone for about a week the day sammy comes home from school to no dean. evening rolls around, no dean. small town, sam knows where to find him — and ends up meeting a bunch of burly men still working, construction or some shit like that, and dean lying down somewhere they carried him because he collapsed earlier. some guys goes yeah, prolly gotta take your brother to a hospital, he aint sounding too good.

OBVIOUSLY dean’s like the fuck, no, let’s just go home.

all the while john’s sure this is just a bad cold. doesn’t even think twice about it. calls in to check on them because the hunt might take a bit longer, and sam tells him what happened, says dean’s wheezing, there might be blood…

Anyway, vietnam war vet core kicks in. holy shit, how did john not see this before. pleumonia/tb/a bunch of other bad shit. tells sammy to haul dean’s ass to a hospital and tells his partner hunter yeah this one might not work out.

bonus points dean’s tb is caught a bit late and he loses a chunk of his lung. hunting days likely over.

i just like to think how this would change the story. would dean go to stanford with sammy? Would dean stay behind to support his dad from the sidelines?

It’s heavily dependent on how bad the lung damage would be — and how set on having his sons be hunters john is.

Like, i can both imagine john being the kind of father who’d go ‘dean needs to be able to take care of himself, needs to be strong and healthy, i’d do anything short of selling my soul to fix his lungs’ AND john kinda just. Yeah. Shit happens. Older son’s out of commission. That’s not gonna stop the yellow-eyed demon hunt, but it MIGHT make john take on a more caring, fatherly role. yeah, his oldest kid son almost died to a preventable disease on the road, yeah, he’s not gonna be a hunter anymore, but maybe he shouldn’t. maybe dean should have a dean civvie life.

maybe there’s life for john after this. not domestic, but a family that’s not a combat unit

i also think dean suffocating as he throws up blood would be neat. something about a huge menacing guy like arthur morgan losing so much weight and ending up looking so sickly and how arthur’s story can be easily paralleled to dean’s and how dean’s a but guy too… yeah… yeah i think about this a lot

[sangorous]

[𝟎𝟖] 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐔 𝐁𝐄 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐄?

𝐟𝐥𝐲 𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞

𝐢𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐨 𝐤𝐮𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐚𝐤𝐢 𝐱 𝐛𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐤!𝐟𝐞𝐦!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫

𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐯 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 / 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫

Today was the day that Ichigo came back from Japan. [your name] was excited but also nervous. She wasn't sure where she and Ichigo stood. From their kiss on Christmas to them spending time in her room just talking, and kissing more; what were they? She was hoping that he felt the same way she felt and that they could finally move forward.

She believed that they were ready to be in a relationship, and she was ready to be with him. The question real question lay within him, was he ready to be in a relationship? [your name] felt as if he was ready, but who was she to make the decision for him?

The nervousness took over her body as she stared at her phone, it was 3:30 in the afternoon. He should be here at any minute now, so she got up from her seat. It's not like she wasn't hard to miss, she was only two inches shorter than him. She fixed her pink puffer jacket and waved her head side to side, looking for Ichigo.

"[your name]?" his voice wasn't faint, she could tell he was close.

"Ichigo?" she shouted, walking to the sound of his voice.

"Yeah, I'm right," she felt herself stopping, and there he was. His index finger was on her forehead as he sighed.

"Talk about, 'yeah I'll be able to find you easily,'," he joked, causing her to roll her eyes.

"Whatever, you better hope I don't leave you here to get an uber or lyft," she huffed, crossing her arms. He couldn't help but chuckle as he followed her out of the airport and to her car.

He found the little attitude she had cute, the way her ponytail swayed side to side as she tried to out-walk him. Her hot pink puffer jacket and black jumpsuit fit her nicely. He'd catch her turning her head to the side to see if he was still laughing and he was, but only because this time she was the one that was annoyed.

The two made it to her car where he placed his suitcase and duffel bag in the trunk, before joining her in the passenger seat. Closing the door, he sighed and threw his head back a bit. The plane ride back wasn't helpful for him, the sleep he tried to get was limited. The seat was uncomfortable, and then he had a little kid kicking his seat. He would think that giving the little boy a death glare, he would stop.

"Lemme guess, the ride back wasn't it?" she snickered a bit, starting the car.

A sarcastic laugh left Ichigo's lips as he looked at her, "funny... because the brat was a bit stubborn like someone I know," he muttered the last part, causing her to stop the snickering.

"You actually suck..." she mumbled while he smiled, closing his eyes. Maybe he could take a peaceful nap before they arrived back at the dorm.

↳ ❝ [𝐅𝐋𝐘 𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐘 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐌𝐄] ¡! ❞

The two were back at his dorm, laid out on the carpet. [your name]'s head on top of Ichigo while love by Dean played through the speakers. He could fall asleep at any moment now, so what was stopping her from asking him the question that's been on her mind ever since he was gone.

"Hey..." [your name] trailed off, turning to look at Ichigo.

"Yes?" he let a yawn out, turning to look at her.

"Never mind," she sighed, quickly looking back at the ceiling.

"You sure?" he rubbed his eyes, letting another yawn out.

"Yeah, all this yawnin' got me tired, and you should prolly take a nap," she gave him a fake smile.

He slowly got up from the carpet, helping her up in the process. He tiredly climbed up his bed, grabbing [your name]. The bed felt soft to him, then again he was sleeping on a plane. It felt better once [your name] wrapped her arms around his waist, and he hoped she'd never let go.

Tonight, he had something planned for her. Something special, an early valentine's present. For now, he needed to rest before he left.

↳ ❝ [𝐅𝐋𝐘 𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐘 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐌𝐄] ¡! ❞

He was as quiet as a mouse, sneaking out of his dorm room. The first place he needed to go to was your favorite restaurant. He'd preorder your favorite meal for you two to eat tonight, and it was ready for pickup. He then stopped by the store and brought a picnic blanket with some lights, a basket, some fruits, and some drinks. She'd seem like a white wine type of girl, so he was hoping that white wine would be okay with her.

Everything was now brought, and he was at the park close by the dorm. There, he'd set everything up.

Now, it was time for him to go back to the dorm to pick her up.

[your name] on the other hand, had just waken up from her nap. She grabbed the sticky note that was on her forehead with a sigh before reading it. 'Meet me by the park near the dorms," is what the sticky note read.

Getting up with a slight sigh, she grabbed her sandals and a jacket before she left his dorm. The park wasn't that far from the dorm, so she should be able to be there in a good ten minutes.

As she walked up to the park, she saw the dim lights that were hung up on the tree and on the tent. There, sat Ichigo with the basket in his hand. 'There was no way that this was Ichigo,' she thought to herself.

"You made it," he sighed in relief, watching her sit down next to him.

"What is all of this?" she looked around her while he scratched the back of his neck.

There go his nerves once again, why the fuck was he nervous? Just say everything that you had planned out back in Japan.

"I know you were probably wondering where we stood after Christmas eve and day. So while I was away with my family, I had time to think of how I wanted to do this. So I thought, 'why not wait for Valentine's day or the day before,' to set up a nice small picnic. [your name], I really do like you. A lot actually, which is kind of wild for me to say. It's been a while since I've liked someone this much and very quickly, and I think I'm ready to be in a relationship with you. Only if you're down and ready? If you're not, I can wait," this is what she was waiting for.

"Of course!" she smiled, throwing her arms above his shoulders.

"I was waitin' for you to say somethin'," she added while he chuckled.

you can check this story out right here!

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a/n: gotta fix this account because we dk what happened tbh.💀

[firstprince-ao3feed]

I'm gonna be a mighty king

by mae, onthewaytosomewhere (mae) Alex huffs from where he sits on the sofa, looking at his phone with a perplexed look he usually saves for late-night paper-writing sessions when he can’t decide what else to include. When he huffs again, Henry decides he really must know what is giving him this much consternation at, he looks at the clock on the wall, 12:30 on a Thursday. “Alex, everything all right?” Henry asks, sitting on the sofa next to him. Alex looks at him and gestures with his phone. “It’s this QOTD in this group for that Criminal Procedure class I’m taking. Someone thought we needed daily icebreaker questions, and today’s is the most insane I’ve seen. It might be breaking my brain, actually.” This is Alex and Henry discussing the question ... it's quite silly Words: 878, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Alex Claremont-Diaz, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, David the Beagle (Red White & Royal Blue) Relationships: Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Additional Tags: qotd inspired, this is what happens when a person should prolly take a nap, i am that person lolz, i dunno it's silly boys being silly, Silly Discussion, alex gets a lil grrrr, Henry helps him out, and not even with his mouth or dick!, well at least not until after, but that's offscreen lolz, Domestic Fluff, i luv them but then i make them do silly things like this, lions and the sun, truly silly via https://ift.tt/AdTQl50

[slowdancingtorock]

Ireland - Day 6 (+ Bonus Day 5)

Today was the most relaxed day, I would say. I was on wake-up duty and an hour almost everyone left for either Dublin or Galway. 2 of my beloved (now former) colleagues left with with the Dublin lot and I decided to take a nap after lunch as the students wouldn't return for another 4 hours.

Yesterday night I snuck out with 5 colleagues and we went to the pub and it was absolutely brilliant. We played pool, talked about everything and nothing and I prolly overshared a little as they now know about this blog. Anyway, I only got 4 hours of sleep so I am glad I got to take a nap.

After the students returned I was on supervision for board games with a few, while the majority of students went to the sportshall for some ball games. It would have been very chill if some of students hadn't tried to sneak out so often. I generally cut them some slack as I know that it's like being a teenager, but some stunts were just too much. They might hate me for it but it's not like I feel guilty about doing my job.

Last night and today worked wonders for my mental health. Generally speaking a hangover and lack of sleep do a real number on me but I feel alive in a way I haven't felt in years. I feel like I belong, like I me being nervous or awkward doesn't have to be as big an obstacle as I thought it would be. Like it's worth doing things for more than just their own sake. And it's riveting! I want to hold onto these feelings and experiences and challenge myself to initiate meeting new people.

I'm looking forward to my day off tomorrow and maybe I'll even join the movie night that is scheduled though that will depend on the movie. So far I am just happy that I can look back on a week with no fuck-ups or even anything in general that I am embarrassed about or was told to improve on. Not saying I was perfect but with whatever slack I am being cut I was perfectly adaquate. I'll continue work on Monday and until then I'll just relax and maybe go to "the shop" - apparently there is a shop but so far nobody has told me what they sell lol. Anyway, I'll sign off now as I am dead tired. My song of the day is Chelsea Dagger by The Fratellis. It's been stuck in my head basically the whole day and it's a fun and cheeky tune and it just feels right; it has banter, some flirting and a some melody you can somewhat recognize when someone sings it - all things that I enjoyed about the pub :)

Bonus:

Yesterday evening we had 2 hours of disco for the students. It was fun, I was technically on supervision but I also danced and took fotos with my colleagues. I also occasionally stopped students from sneaking out. They had fun anyway and I think I did a good enough job at not making them feel embarrassed for anything. They're kids and even if some of them can quite daft, they still deserve to feel empowered and some thrills - like being busted by the annoying supervisor - are just part of being a teenager (at least I think they should be).

[rwarbhistoryhuh]

I'm gonna be a mighty king

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/4iTgfQp by mae, onthewaytosomewhere (mae) Alex huffs from where he sits on the sofa, looking at his phone with a perplexed look he usually saves for late-night paper-writing sessions when he can’t decide what else to include. When he huffs again, Henry decides he really must know what is giving him this much consternation at, he looks at the clock on the wall, 12:30 on a Thursday. “Alex, everything all right?” Henry asks, sitting on the sofa next to him. Alex looks at him and gestures with his phone. “It’s this QOTD in this group for that Criminal Procedure class I’m taking. Someone thought we needed daily icebreaker questions, and today’s is the most insane I’ve seen. It might be breaking my brain, actually.” This is Alex and Henry discussing the question ... it's quite silly Words: 878, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Categories: M/M Characters: Alex Claremont-Diaz, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, David the Beagle (Red White & Royal Blue) Relationships: Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Additional Tags: qotd inspired, this is what happens when a person should prolly take a nap, i am that person lolz, i dunno it's silly boys being silly, Silly Discussion, alex gets a lil grrrr, Henry helps him out, and not even with his mouth or dick!, well at least not until after, but that's offscreen lolz, Domestic Fluff, i luv them but then i make them do silly things like this, lions and the sun, truly silly read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/4iTgfQp

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

I was right and all the pet food and supplies arrived today, so I plugged in the lil pheramone difuser. Hopefully we see Lup start to chill out as it takes effect. I did nap for a few hours, and I feel much less tired now, but I also do not feel even a little motivated to get my paperwork done which is SO annoying because I neeeeed to. I'm just gonna have to suck it up I think and go for it. But that prolly means giving myself a lil motivator or coziness factor to make up for having to focus on my reviews for several hours tonight.

Today I'm gonna get my PRs done. Tomorrow I'm gonna worry about the employer forms I need to finish up. Friday I'm gonna get my notes in, and after work, I'm gonna clean the upper floor and get that straightened out to where I feel happy with it. That should be enough chunks to make a solid dent each day in my overload without hurting myself. Then Saturday I can make myself a new schedule and order my birthday taco ingredients and the poults.

[its-wabby-stuff]

My Feelings on a Walk

Joy: “let’s listen to dad! A walk will be good! We like walks! And when we get home we’ll either be tired enough for a good nap or energized to write!!”

Everyone’s like great idea joy!

“That runner just looked us in the eye, we prolly look ridiculous!” Embarrassment said.

“Oh who cares what they think, we’re gonna lip sync to our hearts content.” Joy said.

“Watch out for that car!” Fear said.

“Oh boy guys isn’t this fun! We get to use the crosswalk!”

“What if the cars don’t stop when we cross and we get RUN OVER,” anxiety said.

“That’s not going to happen,” sad joy.

“Right, we’ll run across and that should avoid people having to wait for us and us getting hit by a car!” Fear and anxiety said together.

“But keep running after so it doesn’t look like we were scared.” Anxiety said. Embarrassment agreed.

“Oh my gosh, we forgot to put on deodorant. We’re gonna smell” disgust said

“It’s not bad. It’s just a walk.”

“The suns coming out, joy.” Disgust

“Oh don’t worry, it’s still cool out we don’t even have to take off our jacket.”

“It’s getting hot. We’re going to sweat!” Disgust said

“Then we’ll have to take another shower!” Ennui groaned.

“No it’s cool, we’ll just wrap it around our waist. We planned for this guys! Let’s not let it ruin our walk.”

“Our feet are starting to hurt joy, maybe we shouldn’t have gone this far.” Anxiety and disgust said.

“We weren’t ready for this!!” Sadness cried.

“No no no, we like long walks. And this is what we planned!” Joy said.

“We should turn around.” Disgust said.

“No that would look weird.” Embarrassment said

“Look we’ll just turn left up ahead instead of right, then it’ll be fine.”

“We’ve never been down this road before joy.” Fear and anxiety said.

“Yes we have. Once. In our car.”

“Damn it. We forgot to charge our heafphones!” Anger said, “dang cheap-“

“I knew it.” Anxiety said. “We should’ve checked before!!”

“Guys calm down we’ll just use our phone speaker.”

“And let other people hear our music?” Embarrassment said.

“It’s probably just being dramatic. There’s still plenty of charge left.” Said joy.

“We just have to hear that annoying heap every minute!!” Anger said.

“Oh there’s a hill coming up,” Ennui rolled her eyes.”

“Why is there so much smoke in the air!?” Disgust said.

“Let’s just stop,” ennui said.

“In the middle of the road,” embarrassment fretted.

“If the suns going to decide to start shining we can at least get a tan doing this. Roll up our sleeves.”

“That’s the spirit disgust!” Joy said, “This hill is stepper than I thought.”

“We should check our map joy, see how far we have left to go! Or maybe there’s a short cut.” Anxiety suggested.

“Good idea. Look the car up there is pulling out! Maybe it’s a road!”

“That’s someone’s house.” Embarrassment said.

“Ew, why do our hands feel like they are going to explode!” Disgust said.

“Quick- we have to look up every possible reason that this could be happening! Maybe we’re dying!”

“Don’t be ridiculous Anxiety.” Joy said, “we’re fine.”

“It’s probably because we don’t take care of ourselves,” sadness said.

“Which is exactly why we are going on a walk!” Joy said.

“What if we die out here and nobody knows how to find us!”

“Okay anxiety go sit in your chair.”

“Blood circulation is not a good look on us,” disgust said, “and it’s making our teeth hurt. Specifically that one wisdom tooth growing in sideways.”

“We should brush our teeth more,” anxiety comments

“We’ll never be able to pay to afford to fix our teeth!!” Sadness said.

“We’re going to loss all of them!!” Fear fretted.

“Remember, dad got us a job. As soon as we start there, we’ll start being able to solve our problems.”

“And we’ll lose all our money.” Sadness said.

“Maybe we should back to Walmart. They have dental.”

“We are never going back there!!” Anger yelled.

“Oh shoot! There isn’t a sidewalk on the side of the highway! We’ll die for sure.” Fear said.

“We’ve never done anything like this by a super busy road.” Anxiety said.

“Sure we have. Plus we’re facing the cars so we’ll be able to move if we need too.”

“They’re all judging us.” Embarrassment and envy said about the passing cars.

“You guys are being crazy. They’re living their own lives they don’t care about us.” Joy said.

“A that car just honked at us!” Fear said.

“That couldn’t have been for us,” joy said

“They’re looking at us!” Anxiety said.

“Maybe they like our walk. Do you think they were catcalling us!?” Envy said.

“Shouldn’t we be less excited about that,” disgust said. “By the way joy, we’re thirsty. We didn’t get enough fluids and our head hurts.”

“Not to worry. THE GAS STATION!” Joy pointed out. “We’ll make it to Holiday and get a drink there. And it’ll be air conditioned. We just need to make it there!”

“But it’s still so far away,” ennui whined, “and this jacket is heavy. I don’t want to carry it!!”

“Well we have too,” joy said exasperated.

“Remember when we got pulled over right here,” nostalgia came out.

“Not now nostalgia.”

“That is was sad,” sadness said, “we gave up after that.”

“But we kept going!” Joy says.

“I can’t believe we cried in front of our brothers. That was embarrassing.” Embarrassment said.

“Is there a crosswalk on this side of the street!? How will we cross without a crosswalk! Maybe we should just cross now!” Anxiety said.

“What that’s dumb! We’ll get run over!” Fear said.

“Fears right. Let’s just wait till the crosswalk.”

“Look the lights red. I say we cross now and cut our losses. What are they going to do run us over.” Anger said.

“No we’re going to cross at the cross walk.” Fear said.

“I’m so tired,” ennui said.

“Yeah, and we’re gross. These were not the right pants for this.” Disgust says.

“Did you see all those dead bees we passed on the road? Those were cool! I wonder how they got there.” Joy said.

“And gross.” Disgust said.

“I’m just glad there weren’t any around to sting us.” Fear said.

“Okay we’re crossing the street now.”

“What if that car decides right now is the best time to run a read light and we die.” Anxiety said.

“Calm down. We are almost to the gas station. We’ll get a sprite.”

“Um sprite will make us sick.” Disgust says.

“Good point. We can get a Gatorade,” joy said, “remember that Gatorade commercial we saw?”

“Yeah that was super inspirational,” sadness says.

“We don’t even do sports.” Disgust says.

“I hope our face isn’t too red, like dads gets when he works out. that would be embarrassing.” Embarrassment says.

“God, it’s hot out here,” disgust says.

“Careful! Don’t get run over!” Fear says. There aren’t any cars in the parking lot.

“Oh you guys feel that fresh, cool air?” Joy says.

“Im pretty sure if we stop moving, we are going to pass out,” disgust says.

“I say we text dad and tell him how terrible our walk was,” anger says, “this is all his fault!”

“No. We decided to listen. Do you think we should get anything else?”

“We might just throw up, so no,” disgust says.

“What if we don’t have any money in our card!!” Anxiety says.

“No, we transferred money when we paid our ticket, remember?” Joy says.

“What if they STOLE our money!” Anxiety says.

“Why would they steal our money?” Joy says.

“It’s the government, who knows,” anger says.

“Why isn’t it working Joy! Why isn’t the tap pay working! We don’t have our card and we won’t survive without the Gatorade!!” Anxiety frets.

“Hold up, we just have to click all these buttons.” Joy says.

“WHY ARE THERE SO MANY BUTTONS!?” Anger says.

“Got it, now let’s open it up.”

“Let’s get out before people stare at us,” embarrassment says.

“Our hands are too sweaty to get it open.” Disgust says.

“Maybe they just didn’t add the cover this time?” Ennui says.

“Well that would be dumb- and she checked anyway.” Joy sighed.

“We’re never gonna get to drink our Gatorade!” Sadness says. “We never should have done this!!

“It’s just the condensation, we’ll use our jacket to-“ joy says, “see! Got it! Now isn’t that refreshing!”

“I still vote we text dad,” anger said.

“Of course he would say that,” ennui says.

“He doesn’t even get it!” Anger says.

“I refuse to walk another step in the sun. Sit under this tree, we need to reciprocate.” Disgust says. “But put our jacket down on the grass.”

“We have literally no energy left,” ennui says. “Maybe we should call someone to pick us up?”

“Nobody cares about us enough to come get us!!” Sadness frets.

“And they’ll judge us for not being able to make it home. Especially Baylee,” Embarrassment says.

“She’d never stop here.” Envy says, “she’s really good at walks.”

“And so are we! We’ve got this! We’re strong! Let’s go!!” Joy says.

“We moved again too soon.” Disgust and ennui said.

“Let’s take the park path! That’s always a fun one!” Joy says.

“The sun is back,” disgust says.

“What if we ran around in the sprinklers to avoid the heat!” Joy suggests.

“And get wet? That sounds worse.” Disgust says. “Plus the grass looks all muddy.”

“Let’s sit in the shade and take a nap on the picnic table.” Ennui says.

“Where people can see us!?” Embarrassment says.

“I just want to complain,” anger says.

“There’s bugs here.” Disgust says.

“Isn’t the shade nice. I mean this isn’t the worst place to be right? We’ll just rest for a moment. No need to stress. We have all the time we need.” Joy says.

“I wonder if our posts got any likes!” Envy says.

“Yeah let’s check. But don’t be disappointed if there’s nothing.”

“I still think we posted it at the wrong time.” Disgust says.

“Hey anger, let’s text dad a funny joke about what we hate!” Joy suggests. “That’s sure to make him laugh!”

“Yeah. And he’ll like us more!” Envy and anxiety say.

“Ennui, we ready to go?” Joy says

“We feel officially renergized.” Ennui says.

“Let’s move quick while the suns behind shadows!” Disgust says.

“But first! Sprinklers!” Joy says.

“I hope that was worth it joy. Now we’re wet.” Disgust says.

“And we were wearing our headphones still. What if they’re damaged!” Anxiety says.

“They’re fine. Hey! These houses are all so cool! I wonder what the layout inside is.” Joy says, “maybe, when we finally get the computer we could build houses in the sims exploring it!”

“Why wait! It’s not like mom and dad care enough about their precious files, why not just delete it all and upload the update ourself.” Anger says.

“Wouldn’t they be mad at us?,” embarrassment says.

“We could suggest that idea we had when we were falling asleep!” Joy says. “That boundary.”

“Don’t you think that sounded a little mean!?” Embarrassment says.

“I dunno. We started typing this before we could see dad’s response.” Joy says. Anxiety frets over it.

“Gosh the sun is back!” Disgust says. “It’s so hot.”

“Get under the fence shade.” Ennui says.

“Somehow it’s not even better.” Disgust says.

“Maybe we should just give up. Alex should be awake, we could call him,” sadness says. “He didn’t answer.”

“He’ll see the missed call and call us back,” Ennui says.

“We don’t need him! We can do this!” Joy says.

“We just have to climb another hill.” Disgust says.

“Let’s stop at the park again.” Ennui and joy say.

“Dad complimented our stickers! He’s so nice,” envy says.

“What if we- like wrote out our feelings- like inside out, like as a joke?” Joy says.

“Ah! A car horn.” Fear jumps. “Oh it’s just Alex.”

“I think we’re doing a good job!” Joy says. “Keep going!”

“What if we posted it later! And other people liked it!” Envy squealed.

“It’s getting really long joy,” embarrassment says.

“And super meta,” disgust says.

“Remember when we-“ nostalgia enters.

“We nostalgia. It was an hour ago.” Ennui says.

“Is dad even going to read it?” Anxiety says.

“He doesn’t love us enough to care!!” Sadness cries.

“No dad will totally love it! He likes these things. And he likes us!”

“I’m just glad we are home safe and sound now,” fear says.

“We’ve been in the closet too long…”

“And send.” Joy says. “Good work gang!”

“God our back hurts,” disgust says.

“Don’t ruin it!” Joy says.

I drew out my emotions

[magpigment]

i feel just. so fucking sad and angry. i spent quite a bit of today crying. prolly delete this later. i’m just tired. i should take a nap i think that’ll fix me

[bylightofdawn]

There is something patently unfair about being an adult who has to call out for work because you feel like shit and you can't even ENJOY your precious freedom because you feel like utter hot garbage.

I get migraines pretty regularly and normally I can suffer through them with the help of say excedrin migraine. Today I knew I was in for a bad time when my head started to pound the moment I put my headset on and it felt like it was squeezing me like a vise. It's light as hell and not tight in the least. Then the lowkey nausea hit and then dizziness started to swamp me and I had to admit defeat.

So I informed my sup and signed out after 2 hours. And I'm so utterly ridiculous because every time I call out sick for any reason I apologize profusely and battle with feeling like an abject failure as an adult and an employee even though ya gal is over here trying to not puke and the world is spinning around me.

Hi yes, I am an utterly ridiculous human being, I am aware of it.

I've just always been like that, even when working shitty retail as a teenager. I dunno if it's just the big Capricorn energy I exude or what.

So now I'm sitting in bed in the dark. The dizziness has quieted but my head is still pounding. I should prolly take a nap but instead I'm sitting here useless as a dish rag pondering out unfair it is I am off but cannot even enjoy it.

[echolexia]

My brain gives me late night thoughts and it can be so random. Like; "How would I actually react to a biblically accurate angel irl?" Then it follows up with "tf did I do for an angel to speak to me in the first place? Am I the antichrist and they're telling me to choose my path wisely?"

Like, brain? You alright buddy? Need a lil nap? We can take a nap buddy.

....I should prolly take a nap