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After Camlaan Arthur is back to Camelot, but not quite...
Or, Arthur from the future is trying to make everything right this time with some help (probably from the Triple Goddess and later from Merlin) and pretending to be oblivious to Merlin's magic and protecting him
(to be continued...)
(it was funnier in sketch i swear)

#honestly i can't believe how arthur didn't see that fucking book i mean ITS HUGE AND LIKE RIGHT UNDER HIS BOOTS#so that was the inspiration for this comic#can't remember which episode it was but definitely from the early 1 season#unfortunately merlin didn't appeared here but let's hope to the next one xD#merlin#bbc merlin#merlin emrys#arthur pendragon#my art#i feel like there's lots of mistakes and some shit is going on but i'm too sleepy to correct it right now
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Sketch page! Margaritabille au by @kerink with Bill making a caesar, Ford in the outfit I'm living in rn, a joke post I've already posted of where Ford loses a bet, and an interaction that been lodged in my frontal lobe for ages and was gonna make a proper comic for and then didn't



#hugin scribbles#gravity falls fanart#gravity falls#bill cipher#bill cipher fanart#billford#stanford pines fanart#stanford pines#billford fanart#margaritabille au#also was gonna make a proper comic about bill eating a cat but then i was like... no. ill probably draw it eventually#inspired by the time i opened a door and flicked the light on and was suddenly making eye contact with our gecko that slowly was eating her#own shedded skin and seeing people interact with their dogs#also I feel like Bill would indiscriminately eat things. the bloodier the better#he'd be a great house cat. i feel like Bill would find enjoyment in eating the rats that come inside/hang out outside the shack too. his#and the others are like... okay... but stans like well it keeps the rats down and they just let him#but hed DEFINITELY also go for other larger things. oh theyd definitely find him also mid swallowing one of the gnomes and he gets into a#fight with Ford because of ford's previous gnome treatments#anyways... also yes ive been living out if gumboots for the last month and a half okay. fieldwork and living on my rez in which i have to#take a boat up a river too means u need gumboots. and doesnt make sense to bring anything else#also definitely not the best to pack big chunky sweaters but also... big chunky sweaters... how can one not???#but then one day was like WAIT i could see ford wearing this (overalls n gumboots n chunky sweater and carhart jacket)#should draw him in more of my outfits because when im in the city I do usually wear trenchcoats and big sweaters...#also gotta say look. trenchcoats are great. i love them. they make u look fancy and keep you warm and are glorified blankets the best of#both worlds. BUT kinda shit to do hikes in especially if you do a lot of looking at things cause everytime u kneel down your trenchcoat#drags against the ground and if it's damp it gets muddy.#so like. not ideal ford ive been there and its not ideal. get a shorter jacket for that#damn. who let me ramble in the tags
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I need to tell them. Those were the words occupying Robbie's mind throughout the afternoon with his parents. But why ruin a good day? Any parent would react badly hearing the news of their son quitting his career at a highly respected company. Robbie knew Leilani would react less severely, given her positive outlook on all situations, so when Bryce went to buy some food, he took the opportunity.
Having finally discussed the matter, Robbie felt an immediate sense of relief. "Oh come here, darling, you did the right thing quitting." It pained Leilani to hear her son struggling and concealing this information from her, "You must always prioritise yourself and that job wasn't doing you any good...I just want you to be happy and healthy Robbie." When Bryce returned, Robbie took a deep breath and said, "Dad, there's something you should know."
Bryce pressured Robbie to be successful without fully realising it. These were things such as comparing him to Renee, always asking about work research and setting high expectations given their shared love for biology and science. When Renee and Robbie secured good jobs, he boasted about them to friends and family, which undoubtedly unnerved Robbie anytime reality didn't meet expectations. Now that he quit his job, it was that fear of disappointment.
Faced with his dad, Robbie felt like he impulsively threw away his ambition, when he could've resolved the issues by dismissing them until things went away. Anger welled up in Bryce's eyes after the conversation and Robbie braced himself for the sighs and disapproval.
"Who are those co-workers Robbie??? I'm gonna teach those jerks a lesson cos no one messes with my son!" Bryce responded with an assertiveness in his voice, hinting he'd do anything to defend his family. As much as Robbie would've liked to see that, it wasn't the most sensible action. "T-Thanks Dad, but I've moved on from those events," Robbie admitted, still taken aback by his reaction. "I'm sorry I couldn't give you a better upbringing, I-I never meant to put that much pressure," Bryce explained after calming down, "I just want the best for you."
"Look, I'm proud of you. You don't have to reach the top of your career or earn the big wages-…hell you don't even have to prove anything to show me that. I'm already so proud of you every minute and every day, because you are my son."
#ts4#sims 4#ts4 gameplay#ts4 legacy#postcard legacy#postcard gen 3#bryce reichmann#robbie reichmann#leilani kahananui by duusheen#hes looking through photos#leilani sees over shoulder “ooh lets see these” gets closer look and robbie takes phone back OH SHIT 😅 i love them!!!#honestly after the backstory it was originally going to be renee focus#BUT NO!!! its all abt robbie because he deserves all the love you guys#also its true what i wrote there with the pressure from bryce#i feel i didnt focus on it enough (tbf it was a year and half ago) my legacy outlook is different now w much more careful thought#it has changed from backstory + onwards really (or 2024 onwards?)#bryce is self absorbed and holds a lot of pride. he will say “robbie? hes working on renowned research at his prestigious company”#those high expectations i get why he has a fear of disappointment
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Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)
Sure has been a year.
#terri#niart#got my wisdom toofies out#well 2 out of 4#still got stitches#idk if this removal lowkey fixed my fear of the dentist?#it was so easy and painless#also finally i'm on anxiety meds jkahsdjash#i also got depression meds but i haven't tested them yet#I'm going to see the love of my life soon again!!!#only 2 more months to go....#i've also finally found awesome friends who don't make me feel like i'm insane for wanting to be cared for#the difference is like night and day#old friends saying hey let's surprise another friend of ours oh also i think it's your birthday on that day#new friends reminding me to pick a brunch place for us to go on my special day#i am sobbing#the right people are out there#don't lose hope#i've never felt this platonically loved honestly#also yes i'm working on the next dragon's lair aksjdhasjkd#just#a lot of things happening and i'm sooo burnt out#this piece was such a strain and i just#don't have patience for art rn#this is photobashed btw there's an actual photo of my typewriter under all those layers#i'm not about to spend 300 hours just to draw a typewriter from this angle kajshdjkasdh#ALSO ONE MORE THING CAN I JUST GUSH ABOUT THE ANASTASIA BROADWAY OKAY?!?!?!#I didn't realise until now that they made it way more historically inspired and i mean bruh BRUH#i have been having a recording of it playing on the background nonstop for like 3 days now#Vladimir Popov I want to inject you straight into my veins holy shit he is a perfect man
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Will never get over how Starscream and Skyfire's relationship is always doomed. There's never an iteration of them where they both stay on the same side at the end. They always end up being against each other, tearing each other apart (whether intentionally or not). They always end up losing each other, be it by a snowstorm, by the war, or by death itself. They never receive a happy ending together, one if not both of them is doomed to suffer.
Skyfire is doomed to be an Autobot, by forces out of his control. Starscream is doomed to be an Decepticon, by his own self destructive tendencies. They are both doomed, because of who they are. They always try to save the other, in their own way. But it never works. They are doomed to fail, whether they stay together or not.
#Starscream and skyfire are parallels of optimus and Megatron. do you understand me.#believing in someone when no one else did. seeing something worth supporting when no one else did. being the one person they trust.#they both ended up being torn apart by the war and their own ideals. losing each other because of their conflicting views.#one became an autobot and the other became a decepticon. one of them must fall.#i have lots of feelings about them yknow.#doomed yaoi shit going on here#will never get over how much g1 starscream cared about skyfire. like. he kept trying to have skyfire stay by his side#he was still a shitty guy and treated skyfire like shit but there was genuine care and emotion under it all. he still cared#i need a universe where they get to reconcile. where they get to be happy. pull an earthspark and let them be friends again#i need a skyfire who learns to love and accept post-war Starscream. i need a Starscream who despite everything still want skyfire with him.#i need them not to be doomed but rather learn and grow. accept the flaws and faults of the past and learn to move on#can you tell i love skystar#can you tell i love them#skyfire#jetfire#starscream#transformers#transformers g1#g1 transformers#the fire burns#skystar
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like idk it just seems actually nefarious to take one of the very few widely known instances of queerness in older history being a symbol to show queer people that we've always existed and aren't alone for CENTURIES and taking away the queerness from it. like. i know some people say that ''the queerness isnt important in the book" which i mean in my opinion i could go off for 10k words in an essay as to how basil's love for dorian is integral to the story BUT EVEN APART from that its really just. having a real explicitly queer character in such an old and widely regarded classic novel is HUGE for queer history and this is just. literally like. its 2024. why are you doing queer erasure to DORIAN GRAY
#MAKE YOUR OWN SHIT OR LIKE GET OUTTT#WHAT????#also not the cishets going ''omggg queer people are predatory enough so it shouldnt change it to ship incest now" WHAT??????#girl do you see. what you are doing. girl. @ the creator#why do they let these people make adaptations. what the actual hell#amory rambles#SORRY IM LITERALLY LIKE ACTUALLY SO LIKE. DEEPLY OFFENDED RN WHICH IS LIKE SUCH A WORD TO USE I KNOW BUT LIKE#ITS ALL I CAN THINK OF TO SAY BECAUSE WHAT. THE HELL.#as an anthropology/creative writing major the importance of having these types of evidences of queer culture in history so far back#is something insurmountable in validating queerness#and to take that and like. oh my goddd#like i could go off for ages about even queer authors that arent so widely known as queer/didnt write explicitly queer things like gogol#who are erased to a point where you have to dig to learn about his history because its been so covered up by people trying to erase us#and like#in the year 2024 dear fucking lord!!#what are we doing???#sorry my dfjlksdfjsdf dfih8sojidfk s. sidhfojl kmsdf . im so actually mad right now LMAOOO#the picture of dorian gray#dorian gray#oscar wilde#tpodg#and like tpodg isnt even one of my favorite novels like i like it a lot but i see it as so fucking important#anywho#so glad we are all being loud as hell about this bc thats the way to make this mfer take notice
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| blue skies, warm sunshine, green grass underneath your feet, beautiful girls, good wine, good people, and a fine steed underneath your backside.
#sir radzig kobyla#henry of skalitz#kingdom come deliverance 2#kcd2 spoilers#kingdom come deliverance#i just wanted an excuse to gif radzig swinging the sword ok i'm weak#my stuff#edit: I'M SPREADING RADZIG PROPAGANDA i'm sick and tired of people giving him shit about abandoning henry#“abandoning” i should say#allow me to rebuttal..... what a load of crock#you guys realize he was THE royal hetman of king wenceslaus#he couldn't just raise a bastard even if he wanted to#he's a noble and henry's mother was a commoner#there is no way any which way henry “wins”#he's a bastard if radzig raises him#henry's mother and martin being together and raising henry was the best possible outcome#and radzig didn't just up and abandon henry#he was the burgrave of skalitz and henry's family lived right outside of the castle#yes blacksmiths probably made decent money#but they had a nice decently large piece of land and a decent house#radzig probably gave them some amount of money#on top of that he knew henry's name from the start#he wanted henry to go with him to rattay and when he didn't he made divish promise he wouldn't let henry out of talmberg#imho radzig did everything he could to take care of henry and his mother from a distance as a nobleman to a commoner and their son#a noble much less the royal hetman cannot just walk away from his post nor could he raise a bastard himself#he never denied henry once and sure he didn't “act” like a father as people say once henry found out#but you try and be a first time father to not a baby or toddler but suddenly you have a 20 year old son#when henry found out he never denied being his father he allowed henry to get away with a lot actually#henry demanding to be in radzig's service he could've gotten into so much trouble acting like that but he didn't#and in the end esp at the end of kcd2 you can see their relationship develop to even joking about henry seeing kat
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BepBarbo Tuesday!!
#benbaro#ace attorney#the great ace attorney#albert harebrayne#barok van zieks#tgaa#dgs#my art#benbaro tuesday#it’s been a ‘scroll on Pinterest and redraw whatever images I like as BenBaro’ kinda of time#I’m in such a weird dilemma#I want to see them kissing so bad but kisses lowkey look werid as hell???#like I’m looking at the drawing on the right and it just…doesn’t…look right?#maybe it’s Barok’s awkward arm but I didn’t feel like straying too far from the ref#I want to draw them kissing so bad but whenever I look for references I end up drawing everything but them kissing#also yes I’ve used this exact kissing ref for BenBaro before and posted it#I just really like it a lot AND I did a full body this time bc Albert going on his tippy toes to kiss Barok is TEN OUT OF TEN#I need to figure out a new way of rendering cause I lowkey liked the sketch of the left one better…#the rendering isn’t bad I just think it needed something else#or maybe I was just too tired to do it properly#also holy shit ??? my chains are breaking??? I let Barok smile??? POST UNI DAYS????#good job me 😌
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Omega! Logan who was born in the 1800s when secondary gender roles were very prevalent but it actually really suited him and he wanted to be a home maker and have a bunch of pups but he was always too big and hairy and and not seen as a good Omega. Alphas would sleep with him but never treat him the way they would a “proper” omega and they didn’t ever want anything serious because it’s like almost shameful to have a big hairy omega.
Then times change and Omegas start breaking out of the cookie cutter roles and they go into the work force and what not (feminism but it’s omegas) and Logan is very happy for them he thinks they all deserve the right to choose, but still no one wants him. And everyone expects him being an omega with the way he looks to be at the forefront of the movement to want the change for himself, but he doesn’t.
And over the years he toughened up and stops looking to start a family and put his dreams on the back burner to become what everyone expected of him.
And then everything happens and all the sudden Logan finds himself in a universe without secondary genders, where he isn’t a too big and hairy omega, he’s just some guy.
And unintentionally he finds his way into the role he’s always craved, where he takes care of the home and the dog while Wade makes the money, and it’s the closest he’s ever been to the life he wanted. He mostly retires from fighting and heroing, but now he’s ready for a new challenge. And being near Laura has only served to dig up that old desire and instinct he tried to bury so long ago
And I mean, even if the mutant hate wasn’t as bad as it is in Logan’s old world there was still a time here not to long ago when mutants were ran out and scattered around the world. And now with the people at Xavier’s working on getting the Mutants back into the city trying to re group with their still dwindling numbers. I mean Logan and Wade should help with the mutant re population efforts, who better to do that then two very eager immortals who can heal from anything and with a whole gang of friends around them for free child care.
#I just think Wade should get Logan pregnant over and over again#barefoot and pregnant Logan#and all the old x men coming back to the city#and they heard that a Logan from a diffrent timeline is here#and they see him and he’s freaking pregnant and holding a baby he just had a few months ago#and he’s happier then they’ve ever seen him#and Wade is just so damn happy to keep getting Logan pregnant and having babies#and all their kids would have super cool powers#they get a lot of help with their gaggle of kids but all the kiddos know they are so loved by their dads#ugh just Logan having given up on this dream so long ago and then he finally gets it after he thinks his whole life turned to shit#and he’s finally treated like an omega with a loving alpha that he’s always wanted#and hes not even in the omegaverse anymore and wade isn’t an alpha#feminism isn’t about all women going into the work force#it’s about the ability to choose#Logan fully supports omega and women’s rights#i might delete this later#sorry about this post#omegaverse#omega logan#poolverine#deadclaws#and Wade always wants to show Logan off#as like the hottest guy ever#and Logan who has always been treated like something to hide is just giddy with it#and he’s getting properly dotted on and cared for in bed#and after so Long of logan being treated like something to hide something to not been seen in a relationship with#he would never let Wade feel that way#he thinks wade is so handsome#just the absolute perfect alpha despite not even being an alpha#plz DM me about poolverine im going crazy
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ok so sonic 3 is not very good but also I had fun so.....
#tbh just like sonic 2#like. it's not good for the franchise and it's definitely not good for the amount of ooc shit im about to start seeing#but i knew that the action would be fun and it would make me super excited watching it#they fucked up my voy shadows backstory so hard man.....#but also there were very cute moments and movie knuckles didn't even piss me off#wade should've been on the eclipse cannon when it blew up but that would mean more wade in the movie#and if that happened id kill someone i think#a lot of disappointments i already got spoiled that metal was going to be after the credits but i didn't know about amy#and let me trll you the JOY i felt when i saw that girl#i gasped i almost jumped out of my seat i was soooo freaking happy#stone.... <3#sonic 3#sonic 3 spoilers
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Yadda yadda yadda jinx is generally seen as a loose canon, does whatever she wants type of character, totally unpredictable. When in actuality, up until the last few episodes all of her choices and actions r motivated by wanting to please someone else. Hell. Even in the last couple episodes, the very Last thing we see her doing is ENTIRELY MOTIVATED by devotion and love and grief for silco, she’s taking out her frustration at herself and the world, and also honoring his wishes and dreams. By shooting a fucking bomb at piltover, she’s ensuring his life wasn’t in vain, she’s honoring him. In that moment
Her entire, self!!! is centered around love and loyalty. Is centered around other people, She’s motivated by an insatiable urge to prove herself, to be useful to those she loves, to show that she can help them and be there for them and be WORTHY of there love. That they haven’t made a mistake in loving her. To prove that she can be as pivotal to them as they r for her. She goes to the ends of the fucking earth to do this. And it ends. Terribly.
She puts the people she loves on pedestals and supplicates at there feet, she has no motivations most of the show outside of making the people she loves happy… she yearns for connection and love and safety. For a home that will never leave her behind, or crumble under her feet, (an indestructible home, That she can’t destroy just by being her…)
Which is why.. it’s so. Interesting and intriguing. How now, she has no one on that pedestal to worship, no one to drag sacrifices and offerings to the feet of, no one to spiral around and build herself off of. She is a person so *affected* by her relationships w others, but there is no relationship now, no one is stepping up to the plate to love her. She’s too much. For anyone. The one person who seemed to have unlimited patience for her is dead, because of her. and maybe vi could still love her.. but. She’s already soured that relationship. Already broken that one too. Broken all her favorite toys that made her so happy. That were there for her. And scared all the rest away. (There is a limit to what vi can support and forgive to reconnect w her sister. And I believe terrorism is crossing that limit ghgh)
And maybe, jinx is cutting that part of herself out on purpose. To be stronger, she’s realized she just. Isn’t made for love. That she ruins it all in the end. That it just makes everything worse. Messier. More complicated. She’s better off on her own, but for what PURPOSE! Who will she be now! What choices will she make!?! Almost all of her actions in the show were for others, what is driving her now, now that she has this gaping void at the center of her being. Where love used to be… what kind of person will she become, Without a guide to follow… a sun to orbit around. it’s sad honestly ghghg-!!! like yeah it’s not healthy that she is this way but there’s no THERAPY IN ARCANE. THIS IS THE WAY SHE IS! And now. She’s alone… it’s rough. But also intriguing…!! And I honestly have no clue how she’s gonna act in season 2,,, or what sorta shit she’s gonna get up to. but I’m excited.
#arcane#jinx#arcane jinx#jinx arcane#pepper words#sorry for waxing philosophical about jinx’s mental state I just. WANTED TO#she is so tragic to me…#and I see a lot of myself in her. albeit. like. since there’s no therapy she’s just deteriorated#but. idk. seeing a character like hers portrayed in fiction. and so accurately and like.. painfully#it’s cathartic#??? and I wanted to talk about her lol. leave me alone#ok now I gotta get ready for work lol#sOMEBODY GET THIS GIRL SOME THERAPY#but also DONT. cuz it’s cathartic to see the worst thoughts tendencies and feelings of myself come to life so unapologetically in her#like… it’s. nice to see somebody go apeshit like this. when ur own brain and desire to live a normal happy life prevents u from going#apeshit urself.. jinx is raw and unfiltered pain and misery being taken out on the world and I love that about her… but#I also want her to be happy.. and. I don’t. actually think going apeshit will make her happy… in the end ghghg-#but I will still always support her going apeshit regardless. like u go girl! this might end up fucking u up worse then u already were#but if u wanna do something fucking do it girl! don’t let shit like laws or morals hold u back..#edit: I WANT to edit the bit about supplicatting cuz it was mostly jus me trying to be wordy but.#so I realized I was projecting too hard lol. jinx is willing to snap and go against and put pressure on her fav ppl#mostly for possessive reasons ghgg- but! yeah that parts kinda innacurate for her#other bits of this might be innacurate too! this is just me thinking out loud lol I don’t claim to be a jinx expert.#merely a jinx appreciator…
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"Angry robin" "violent robin" "misbehaving robin" shut up and accept my alternative; spunky Robin. Determined and head strong, can out-stubborn the Batman, has a strong moral-backbone and does what he thinks is right regardless of what anybody else says, Robin. Jason who was sassy and quippy and made crude jokes with a smile on his face. Jason who hid in Bruce's cape and whispered gossip to him. Jason who, if Bruce refused him something, could keep bothering endlessly until Bruce caved. And also dramatic Jason. If Bruce tells him no, it becomes a whole theatrical show; a monologue, a narration, embellishments, and falling onto the floor in his grief upon the fact his cruel father has denied him once again.
(Jason who has suffered through abuse and homelessness and poverty and starvation, who is the Fight out of Fight or Flight, who's built up defenses and walls and when pushed and triggered responds with the thing that's always protected him; anger. He's sweet and kind and funny, and when he sees a pimp hitting a prostitute he gets furious and responds with violence.)
#my dc posting#dc#jason todd#jaybin#im having so many thoughts abt jaybin and he is so important to me#in one fic he went on a hunger strike bc alfred didnt eat w them and did it for so long they had to compromise#i love a jaybin 100% willing to menace and bother batman until the man folds. as is his right#the thing abt jason's backstory is that it shows him unwilling to suffer for a home#ma gunn's is bad; he gets beat up and she tries to get him to help rob a place. so he leaves! and rats the whole thing out to batman#and shows up himself cus he didnt think he had been believed#and lets not forget the fact he hit batman with a tire iron and called him a 'big boob'!#the boy's got moxie!! let jaybin be crass and angry and sassy and flawed and traumatized without reducing him to 2d caricature of a 'troubl#d kid'#i dont like a jason who did nothing but use excessive violence and disobey orders and be cocky and all that shit#i like a jason who was. oh yknow. a complex person!! a child/teen who has been fucking abused!!!#you shouldnt erase the fact that jason's reaction/response to stressful situations and triggers IS anger#it's not an indication that he was always gonna become a criminal/red hood or whatever. get outta here w that shit#but like. let us not go so far in the other direction we forget to have him react and be affected by the abuse he's suffered#anyway. if anyone should be a drama-queen it should be jaybin. once he becomes truly comfortable w bruce he should dial it up to 11#a lot of red hood's appeal (to me&many others) is that he is an 'imperfect' victim. meaning he is angry and flawed and doesnt suffer quietl#but is loud and obvious abt it#so when i see jaybin written as the opposite its like. man whats that about#anyway. jaybin is good and cares and wants to help and protect people. and by god if i ever see anybody writing#him having arguments with bruce about the no kill rule WHILE robin again im gonna throw hands istg-#my tags are like a hidden treasure box. most of what i say is in here lmao
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seen one too many snide posts about this in the last week or so but did you know that if you don't enjoy scenes in smut establishing consent or checking in then you simply don't have to read them and you don't have to go online and whine about how they're Consent Posturing and Purity Culture and Sanitizing Everything and God Just Kill Me Now. like you can have a preference without making it into a three act morality play, which is ironically what you are accusing other people of doing.
the same goes for like, detailed content warnings on fics. or content warnings at all. you can just skip those. they're not a sign of Purity Culture Gone Too Far or Those Damn Puriteens or whatever. you can dislike things without being an asshole about them or implying they're Taking Away What's Good And Correct About Fic Or Creativity.
#gav gab#sex ment#there's a running thread in the L2L cinematic universe shower sex fic#about consent and checking in and like. being cautious and careful and Aware of the other party#and whether they want to be doing what they're doing#and it is there for a reason and it is extremely meaningful to the context of what's happening#and if i see one more post mocking the entire concept of addressing consent in a fic#i am gonna heap my lid#i really do think 'consent posturing' is one of the most enraging phrases i've ever seen online tbh#and there's some stiff competition#like. wrow. lot going on THERE.#i just hate that i'm so anxious about this part of this fic#i mean im anxious about the whole thing for various reasons but#seeing those posts some of which have been reblogged by people whose opinions i do respect#has made me really embarrassed and worried about honestly one of the most Meaningful parts of this fic#and i feel like i need to pre-emptively go on the defensive or else people will think it's Bad and Stupid and He Would Not Fucking Say That#etc etc etc#like i have to pre-emptively defend myself against accusations of bad writing#and i know the answer is just to care less about Posts On Line but i would like to cordially suggest perhaps the answer is also#stop being an asshole about a preference and asserting it like it is not in fact a preference#but is instead you speaking some kind of Good Take onto the stupid brain rotted puriteen masses or whatever#i am doing better about not letting the ocd win and caring less about Posts#whatever it may appear lmao i Am doing better with that#but that doesn't mean those posts arent still mean and shitty#and generalizing a lot of weird shit into things like#'establishing consent in a sex scene' which apparently is Inherently Boring And Annoying
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....and if I said I wanted Johnny and Kerry in the messiest divorce arc since Paul McCartney and John Lennon.. what then...
#SORRY i was listening to how do u sleep by lennon and i may not like that guy BUT my GOD#he knows how to write a break up song huh....#and im not even personally into bandom like that BUT FR WAS SOMETHING GOING ON THERE BC YALL#no reason to drag out the messiest breakup of the last century like this.....#like i want these two throwing shots at each other in interviews and i want them writing whole rock ballads of a diss track#i want them being petty as fuck towards each other in the public eye post samurai when theyre pissed off at each other#then acting all buddy buddy when on stage chemistry just absolutely oozing between each other#and then off stage want them at each others throats letting their resentments known the minute their off stage#i want it to be a whole will they wont they on off messy ass situationship the tabloids can barely keep up with#as they watch that slow break in real time the degradation of their relationship all the way up until the op....#IM SORRY I DONT WANT THEM TO SUFFER but... its just how they're wired its not MY fault#(i want u to guess whos who...)#(THERES PARALLELS TOO OKAY especially since lennon was considered the more popular beatle that#and how do u sleep is typically regarded as the better track#and lennon in the song devalues the FUCK out of the contributions McCartney made to the band#like how kerry felt sidelined/overshadowed by johnny. like how i KNOW johnny was constantly devaluing his and everybody else's contributions#due to 'not fitting the vision' or some shit like that he'd use to justify it#(LENNON ALSO CALLS HIM PRETTY LMFAO while aslo using it as a way to talk down on him SO IM JUST SAYING))#((also in too many people (mccartneys response) has lyrics like 'you took your lucky break and broke it into two what can be done for you'#and I KNOW SAMURAI DIDNT NECESSARILY BREAK UP BC OF THEM AND THERE WAS A LOT OF FACTORS#BUT U CANT TELL ME KERRY AND JOHNNY'S RELATIONSHIP DIDNT INFLUENCE IT TOO))#(((GOD LISTEN I HAVE A VISION AND IM SEEING IT OKAY#idk if their break up was on the levels of breaking pop culture news like the beatles nor can i b sure to compare samurai to the beatles#...but you know who tf would? YOU KNOW WHO WOULD THINK HES LIKE FUCKING LENNON? HAD A BIG FUCKING HEAD LIKE LENNON??? IM JUST SAYING)))#((((please ignore all the typos and grammatical errors man i KNOW I USED THE WRONG THEYRE but its 3 am and ive had like#its 3 am when im typing this and also running on like three hours of sleep in the last 24 hours 😭))))#silverdyne#johnny silverhand#kerry eurodyne#ult speaking
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They gave Topper a girlfriend— devastating actually, I hope he stays fucking insane and obsessive and possessive and a little bitch cause otherwise what’s the poooiiinntttt
I need my kooks PATHETIC and USELESS. She better blow up on him for ignoring her to do whatever Rafe’s asking of him this time, I need him to be the worst boyfriend ever cause there’s no way that man can Be Normal for a second lol
#I’m happy Sofia’s still here though#I hope she’s not just arm candy or something lol#also love how kelce is just there#someone give this man SOMETHING to do#give him like… A SCENE lol#btw I don’t mean this in a ‘OMG HOW DARE A GIRL COME BETWEEN MY YAOI’ kinda way lol#I genuinely just think top would be kinda boring (maybe still a lil funny cause the absurd classism is still there) without something to go+#+ fucking insane over lol— it’s fine if it’s not Sarah- but if it’s not Sarah then don’t make it another girl#I need him to stay a little obsessive and demented bitchboy lol#I need my kooks insane and pathetic and ready to kill a mother fucker lol#I also want this girl to do SOMETHING#same with Sofia#I need these women to be doing shit for the plot#Sofia I think is definitely gonna be doing a lot to give Rafe growth (or make him backwards slide)#but this new girl better do SOMETHING for Toppers character other than being an excuse to make him stop obsessing over Sarah#let us see more of that toxic gaslighting bullshit he pulled with Sarah#let us see her see through his bullshit#I want her to call him the fuck out#btw if she’s a nothing character I’m writing a fic about it /hj maybe#🪲#rafe obx#rafe cameron#topper thornton#obx fandom#obx season 4#obx content#sofia obx#obx s4#outer banks s4#obx
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my capacity to see a bad fandom take and just blithely say 'okay! I disagree' internally and move on because it's not my responsibility or concern that someone else thinks that has leveled up so tremendously over the years. I haven't quite escaped the pit of misery yet but I think I'm getting there
#the ability to say to oneself 'it's okay if you don't agree with me'#(and possibly adding a quiet bitchy 'I can't force you to be right' at the end if you're annoyed enough lol)#at seeing a bad take without ever internalizing it any deeper than that... indispensible.#if someone is really unpleasantly vitriolic or reactive about it I'll just block and move on. and never think about them again#a gift for me and for them I'm sure! but as long as people are being civil I'm getting pretty good at just going 'alright.#I think you're wrong but it's your prerogative to think that. away from me preferably but still'#when I was younger I always felt like a more negative take must be more valid/see something I didn't but over time (and a lot of therapy)#that kneejerk self-doubt is a lot easier to get through. sometimes. people are wrong! to me and my experience. and that's alright#if nothing else understand your own limitations in ever changing someone's mind for them and let it go lol#when I feel the real badfeels at a shitty take now I know it's just because I'm tired and threadbare and need to sleep haha#sometimes mental health progress is sooooo... boring and low-key but also brings so much relief#like doing admin work up here. *sees something so dumb I feel dizzy* file that shit under 'not my problem' and move on chief
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