#i say it about my dad but (affectionate)
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autism-disco · 2 months ago
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who wants to listen to depressed 40 year old man music with meeee
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dallasgallant · 6 months ago
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Johnnys lucky that Johnny is already a nickname because how much you wanna bet he was almost stuck with “Babyface”.
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knight-engale · 8 months ago
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"you're not traumatized by being raised by parents who were way too young and were raised in shitty families themselves and who never taught you emotional intelligence and isolated you from pretty much all of your non churchgoing peers, you're just a little silly! and you cry whenever you notice any sort of shift in the way someone speaks to you and take it as a personal rejection, whether or not it was intentional, but that's unrelated"
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non-un-topo · 1 year ago
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This is your permission to take advantage of some ridiculously harsh sunlight for the specific purpose of posting low-quality cringe
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sensitivegoblin · 3 months ago
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Vent
Tw: sh, suivide
#i hate that my brain is broken and it makes me fight with my family....#i.wish i could jjst shut my mouth like thsy qant me to.....#it smells like human shit n piss in my room cus im too scared to ask my dad to change it :')✨️💕✌️#i wanna cut so that i get release and attention but last time my dad didnt even notice and my sister didnt take it seriously :(#i feel like cuttong is the only way to let out my Ick and show how not good im doing#mental illnesses are invisible and so fucking crippling......#my family thinks im lazy i just know they do#im such a fuvking failure at 25 i should be taking care of my dad like he did to his..#also my dad always says hes in catholic hell sooooo guess im not real then :')#he spefically says he died as a kid and this is his hell.....🥹✌️💔#i just....hate my life and already dont feel real#he basically vents and says whatever without thinking about the impact on ME the adult child with autism.#i think about my words affect on everybody all the time and it seems like barely anyone thinks the same#....maybe i can s-xually -buse myself instead of cutting#but cumming always brings a biiiiig wave of crying#i shpuldnt cut for the attebtion but FUCK i wanna get a hug or see someone have a soft voice n soft eyes for me#....all i do is annoy my dad#i should just kill myself so i dont annoy him anymore#but im too scared of failing#also im scared of Hell#i need a hug that doesnt start with me asking for a hug......#if i didnt do anything affectionate for a whole day i would go without it#i would trade every present in the world if my family could at least just UNDERSTAND my emotional brain#instead i get “i just dont understand” over n over n over n over again.....#im not trying to be an attention seeker when i say this: logically the only answer i can come up with is to k-ll myself.#its like 2 + 2 = su!cide#my family says that theyd kill themselves if i did....i dont believe that#theyre less broken than me so they would heal and move on.#for clarification#the most violent thing km gonna do is c-t myself im NOT attempting tonight
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hungee-boy · 4 months ago
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i dont know if i ever shared this story but washing my hair and thinking of my dad reminded me of it
when my dad died, he had his hair pretty long and in a ponytail and we asked for his ponytail to be cut so we could save his hair
it might seem weird and it hasnt been done in my family before in my knowledge but we all consented to his hair being cut and it wouldnt have been something he opposed
when his funeral was coming up i was debating cutting my hair the same way, just forming a ponytail and having my cousin cut it but before the funeral when i was messaging my cousin to ask her, i felt a warm tingling pressure on the top of my head
i dont know if i believe in ghosts and never physically interacted with ghosts (i guess you could say ive "felt" them before, like feeling a towering but gentle male presence in my grandmas house that matched with her father's description) but ive never physically seen apparitions or heard voices or felt touches
it felt like my dad was placing his hand on my head and it was so weird and comforting that i decided not to cut my hair and only once that thought crossed my mind and i deleted the message to my cousin was when the sensation stopped
call it a hallucination brought on by grief or a supernatural occurrence but it definitely sticks with me now and id like to believe it really was my dad telling me not to cut my hair for his sake
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impishtubist · 1 year ago
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I have literally never had so much trouble picking a pen name before wtf 😭
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mrfoox · 10 months ago
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.... OK I really hope I can keep this dude ♥
#miranda talking shit#Like... I just want him around me... Yeah. First visit I thought it may be how I felt. Now I'm like lol yeah#8+ hour visit later... Not even that I just... Am being used for sx like we talk so much#We talked about past experiences and love and children etc. Like... I guess we just vibe. Or rather I feel like we do#We make each other laugh and he seem to want to touch me and want to tell me about things#He talked about metal (or we about music but I'm not a metal head so) and he played songs for me#He found my reactions to them funny. Some song did some guitar thing and I was like “woah!”#He laughed and after the song went into explaining what it was. How it was done and such#“i wonder what you think about this... Or... Well maybe you won't care. But I think you may find it interesting?”#Me already clawing at the phone: yes yes I'm interested show me!!!#I love having people show me things willingly. Like even if it's embarrassing or whatever like hey I am going to love it#He showed Warhammer figures he had painted and talked about that#I love hearing people info dump like omgggg hiiii tell me everything uwu#I took up the... Idea of being fwb and being like... Exclusive about it. And he was like “I mean... I haven't really been seeing anyone els#Mainly bc I don't want to and bc it's so... -makes eye contact with me-“ me: tiring?”-deep sigh-yes so tiring.... “#He shared a lot of personal things in general and one thing in detail he definitely didn't have to#I mean I casually say I got daddy issues but that's like... Yeah my dad never cared for me and my siblings that's just how it is ya know#Idk man. Been a while I... Felt so... At ease and.... Open so quick with anyone. I liked Linus quick but not in this way#I hope I get to keep him around me for more... Like he's.... I think we have things in common but we are definitely still different enough#Want to learn everything I can about him. Plus he let's me be... Overly affectionate and serviceing him like an doting mom (how I want to#Treat everyone in my life but I know majority don't accept it). I get to bring him a drink and help him get dressed to go outside#Men who just goes along with how I want to express affection and not hate it is great#I mean. I don't think he have been touched this... Affectionately before either. I'm very intense and like.... Yeah it's like I'm in love#With you. Sorry I'm stroking your face and looking into your eyes and all :/#He just smiles. Me with basically heart shaped eyes and he's like: :)#Some nerdy brunette: hi (: me: omg? Spend all your free time with me???
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superbattrash · 2 years ago
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So here’s the good things that happened today: I got 3 more comic books (!!!!!!) and two tshirts that actually fit me AND my dad did what he does because feelings are yucky
I asked for new tires for my car because my baby can barely drive when it rains (I’m a safe driver babes, but I can’t do much without proper tires and I can’t afford new ones) and it was meant to be a silly “just kidding!” wish but my dad got a small tax refund and he wants me to be safe so he said
“Your gift isn’t wrapped”
Me: oh that’s fine, you know I don’t mind
“You can go get it yourself”
Me: oh ok, where is it?
“At the mechanic’s. You can call S and make him put them on for you”
Me: what. You didn’t. That’s??? So expensive?
“I know”
And the rest of the “conversation” was my dad grunting at me and looking away because he doesn’t know how to say “I want you to drive safe and I know the new job doesn’t pay enough for new tires” so instead he clinks our drinks together and mumbles about taxes and then leaves the room awkwardly so I don’t look at him
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allofuswantgwinam · 11 months ago
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random but like 2 months ago my mom saw this video of this mom and daughter that would cuddle and like one of those touchy families ig and me and her do not and never have done that. Well this woman came to me after she saw it and was like talking about how she felt like maybe she wasn’t affectionate enough and I was like “no please. do not cuddle with me, i like how we are” and this bitch said “good, me too. but it just made wonder if you felt that way” 🤣🤣🤣 she’s so funny. i told her either way it’s too late now, i don’t even like when my friends are touchy with me most the time either but if i love you enough i will tolerate it 🤣🤣
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scribe-cas · 11 months ago
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when he’s posing for the camera vs when he’s scruffy and freshly out of bed
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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year ago
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I realized I have the right clothes to dress like young Oppenheimer, so I drew my oc in my suit 🤭
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I draw her in suits a lot, so the top drawing is her typical suit! But then the second one is based off my irl one 🤭
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AAAAAAAAHHHHHHH MY BELOVED WIFE RÜßIE <3 SHE IS SO HANDSOMEEEE <3
I think every time I draw, I just feel more deranged about her(if that's even possible) 🥺 I love drawing her face sm
#her actual name is just Rüß btw(well technically nickname but)#but i call her Rüßie affectionately since she is wifey#some of you guys told me i should post my art so here you go !!#not to be vain but god im so obsessed w the outfit irl#not that im ever gonna wear it out or anything but its so gender yknow???#its my dad suit that he gave to me and i fit into the vest for the most part#but ive not ever really worn the pants bcs theyre huge on me#but then i realized theyre the perfect size for early 20th century pants!#bcs those pants are just soooo high waisted and pretty giant imo#and also i didnt draw it cause i hate drawing hats but i have a similar hat as well! stole it from my mom 😌#id include a pic of the oppenheimer outfit im referencing but theres literally no pics#i like his typical outfit for most of the movie its also a slay#but i especially love his outfits from when hes in college and when hes actively teaching...theyre so gender...#and also i realized now after actually wearing the outfit#the pants are so big and somewhat flare at the hips so thats why the sexy waist is so emphasized 🤭🤭#anyways Rüß is not beating the fav child allegations(its weird to say child about her but you get what i mean)#i hate picking favs but....i cant deny how much i lovu her <3 shhhhh dont tell the others#моя высокая русская любая жена 🤭🤭🤭#also if you saw this post earlier no you didnt.( i hate the way it sometimes tricks you into posting when youre editing a draft)#also i realized its funny for me to look btwn this and my recent oc drawing vs my fanart#idk if its obvious to others but its so obvious to me how much more comfortable and easy it is to draw my ocs#ive said but i dont ever really draw fanart and real people#so im happy to get back to drawing my blorbos!!!#catie.art.#oc art#art#rüß
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theteaisaddictive · 2 years ago
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making jokes about the depression/cptsd that at least 1/3 of your immediate family are dealing with is all well and good, until you have to actually. make plans with those family members.
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baltimorebullets · 2 months ago
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I don't know how I'm feeling inside I don't know how I'm—
But I gotta go get it But I gotta go get it, I guess But I gotta go feel it But I gotta go get it
#brooklyn bridges#i kid ! unless—#idk mikal is such an interesting creature to me ... so awkward ... so sweet and exuberant ...#so deeply and obviously bothered by how The Nets Situation went down which u can tell from how he keeps saying it ...#i watched his podcast p epi + melo while Researching. which was such a mixed success of a project. that man Will just go quiet#but g o d the way he talks about trying to be a leader and being so aware of how he fell short ...#and melo who is such a compulsive dad it's genuinely so sweet just being like You Can't Blame Yourself ... It's Not All On You ...#I Will Figure You Out Mikal You Can't Hide From Me. There's No😭ing Your Way Out Of This.#anyway#toonage#okay i lied secondary yap sesh it's my post on my blog i'm allowed#1) it's like such a fatherless tiktok meme at this point but seriously the whole who and what the fuck is that older man hanging around#just being ?? supportive ?? affectionate ?? invested in your wellbeing and development ?? what the FUCK is THAT ????#2) 👁️👁️ about mikal's whole yeah blessed to have a father in the picture anyway my mom who did so much to me and is such an inspiration#and who i take so much pride in becoming more alike as i get older--#anyway our moms had us at the same age and it's like#‼️ personal projection moment ‼️ feel so 🥴 abt a reminder that my parents like. made a lot of choices. on top of The Circumstances#but i guess that's the difference between An Inspirational Public Figure vs a flop artiste who's allowed to just spend all their time cryin#but the ACTUAL note i'm trying to make here is like#idk running as hard as i did from where i'm from makes sense objectively to this day. when my only goal was Not This Please God Not This#but looking up and realizing that that has meant running into white middle class homogeneity ? eww also very bad ewwwww#which leaves me in a current state of like paradoxical overexcitement at reminders that we're like. out here. normal. lmao.#with a simultaneous awareness of the separation between self and media and perception and subject and yada yada#AND FINALLY. wild that he says defense isn’t sexy. couldn’t disagree more. love ruining a motherfucker’s day.
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inkydoc · 4 months ago
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i had a great day borrowing dad's ford yesterday, power steering is both a blessing and a curse (mostly a blessing but it doesn't have the "let the wheel adjust itself back to straight by having it slide under your palms" feature of the shitty old suzuki)
man i miss driving :"D
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kavehater · 8 months ago
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Genuinely gonna cry cause I saw the most disgusting thing ( literally what’s new I get new traumas at least once a day LMAO )
#I’d rather watch gore#than see this#SOB SOB SOBBBB#ik I was saying stuff like girl kaveh we are married bla bla bla etc redacted + etc for good measure but today I realise I don’t mean that#because I feel like crying#I think I proved to myself none of this is very comfy no matter the gender LMAO anyways me and girl kaveh are still married I’ll just cry#as much if kaveh was a boy too as well as if he’s a girl 🤷‍♀️#astaghfirAllah I’m so annoying this makes no sense to you guys but I am in shambles 😭#dora daily#the “you guys” are the guests in my head the voices 😔🖤🥀⛓️💔#I was like in the past I might’ve been a tad fruity but turns out I was just traumatised and also I hate everyone equally#THIS REMINDS ME today my grandpa (😾) answered my dads call and I rolled my eyes so far back I saw my optic nerve#so cue covering my face as my dad was shoving the phone on my face while I was being verbally harassed into saying hi (I don’t wanna say hi)#so then my dad explains that I’m not an affectionate person and I dislike love because I don’t kiss him (firstly even if he was a normal man#I wouldn’t do it) and he went on to say I don’t even let my mum kiss me etc etc because I hate it#not only that it’s just I’m so sick of them all man 😭 I’m okay with hugs it’s just nothing I feel particularly inclined to#like I’ll do it if it’s expected but I’m like I dunno I wouldn’t feel an undying urge to ???#and then my grandpa was like the shocked pikachu face#yeah like I am never kissing anyone on the cheek all I want is to be left alone 😭#my dads shock when he realises I do in fact hate love when I’m 50 and unmarried#I can’t believe he as a man knowing what men are like expects me to want a guy#barf#and don’t get me started on how men talk about women like they’re in a cult and women are trading cards#like do they not get jealous 😭 whyre they like good on you bro you scored etc etc#I’m not explaining this right but I hope y’all get what I’m trying to say#damn fellas this one was a touch long#my apologies
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