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#suddenly occurred to me that I haven't kissed anybody in over a decade#im not altogether certain i would were i presented the opportunity#and im not altogether certain the opportunity would be granted me were i to continue using this ridiculous phrasing#but anyway like a lil bit :( on realising that#it was uhhh nice. y'know. but ive not been confident and/or drunk enough since then#and im not the sort of person to uh to do anything about anything so of course nothings happened. yknow#im not lonely or whatever i like my life how it is#but i do like kissing. and it's sorta a shame ive only got to do it one night ever#i don't have any friends in my city and i don't go out ever#loud = not fun‚ and i don't drink - which would take the edge off the not-fun-ness - y'know so i don't what did i say before#there isn't ever the opportunity#but never mind#anyway if there was id be too worried that yknow whatever like im very aromantic etc i don't want anything else to happen or whathaveyou#i overthink too much probably#anyway#what was i saying#basically kissing is nice and I sorta miss it#how can incredibly reclusive autistic fools get kisses without. like. any scary effort or the dangers of interpersonal nonsense#advice please#that last a joke#i do not want advice or anything im just struck by the thought and rambling#pffft anyway
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“No matter what happens to us… we’ll always be brothers to the end…”- Mickey or Oswald
#my art#art#steampunk au#mickey mouse#oswald the lucky rabbit#SOSFKWDOCSOW I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH#Oswald has to probably go on his tippy toes to reach Mickey’s height ifwirfkwfwk-#just a quick sketch of the bros because I’m burned out and also for me to stop overthinking#it’s nothing really. just personal stuff#I’ll be alright#pls for the love of do NOT tag this as a ship#idc if I got the hug wrong I just need to draw somethinggg
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I have too many thoughts on the new digital circus episode. So here they are because I need to get them out
One thing that really stood out to me from this episode was the cinematography and writing. Somehow the episode felt super uncanny and I couldn't understand why... until it came to me.
It wasn't a big adventure.
It's literally just them, in a fast food joint, working. Somehow, the other wacky, fantastical adventures made the one semi-realistic feel... wrong. I kept expecting some kind of build up into something bigger, but outside of gangle's descent and release, it was tame.
In regards to filmmaking, some ideas have to be dramatized to become interesting to the audience. For example, a healthy relationship won't be as interesting to viewers as a dramatic one that has to be built upon. So for me, this episode being so... simple, was such a fascinating writing choice. Normally this kind of writing choice in media is bad, it can lead to an uninterested audience. But in this episode, it really showed how disconnected the circus is from reality. Caine's adventures are built as stories; they have a quest, a build up, a peak, and then a return. The lack of campaign, quest, objective, was really put into perspective for me, "Oh right, I forget that this is what reality would be like." Not only is the main cast disconnected from reality, the audience is too
#tadc#the amazing digital circus#tadc spoilers#listen i watch too much cinema therapy to not analyze this episode#I'm probably overthinking this#I also want to analyze Jax and Ragatha but that would mean lonk post 2x#It's pretty clear that while things like names are forgotten#the main cast remembers their lives from outside of the circus#which is such a neat little piece of lore#I related to Gangle too much this episode... ough my feelings#I still am sticking to my guns that the person closest to abstracting is Caine#what a unique way to write an episode#perfect
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This time I'm really gonna do it!!!! (finish my fucking animatic)
#jane journals#self insert talk#platonic f/o#familial f/o#🪐 kepler quinn 🪐#ive finally started working on it again....after starting over.....#but im making good progress and not overthinking it this time and i fear i may be cooking!!!#i hope you all care about kepler as much as i do 😭😭#he's the specialest boy in all the world and i love him so so much!!!#its probably still gonna be a while coming but i hope i can get fixated on working on it#i certainly FELT fixated last night ajfjgkg#and im working on the lore guide. another thing i just gotta not think too hard about!!#i do this thing where i psych myself out of big projects its fun#but i got a good feeling this time 😂😂
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Happy new year!! My new year's resolution is to finish my kensuchin au fic :)
#ive been really motivated for it lately after i took a huge break from working on it#i was struggling with the writing- constantly overthinking it and all that jazz#so i was working on some designs today#i made a version of caro which i like and will probably only change small details of#hopefully you guys dont have to wait too long for it since i want to finish it so bad i love them so much and i need to get it out#cfa posts
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potentially got invited to the pub by the people i met last night, not sure if that's on but i'll be paralysed with stress until i know
#it was so weird#my housemates left and i was in the middle of playing pool with a girl i'd met twice#both in bio labs#and a load of people i didn't know#had more fun with them than i ever have with one particular housemate tbh#got extremely drunk. went to the club. had an odd but good time#walked home with that girl and i now have her number#i was saying some questionable stuff though#and probably way too personal#but that's how it goes 😭😭😭#if she doesn't invite me to the pub i'll overthink and decide she thinks i'm weird#but if she does i'll be so overwhelmed#i'm mentally fuzzy and not in any mood to socialise#need to do some work but i can't whilst i might have to leave at any moment#i can't miss out on the chance to make friends#which means i am stuck here#and struggling to do so much as talk to the friends i do have#aaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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Imagine crawling under the Horned King's robe to cuddle with him ... It doesn't necessarily have to be a sexual situation (though it could possibly lead to that if you're both up to it - I mean does he even wear anything else underneath there?👀), but could also simply be a tender moment of both physical and emotional closeness.
Author's note: This was originally supposed to be an imagine at best or simply just me yelling out my thoughts about the Horned King, but somehow it kind of accidentally turned into a short story. Things you do at 5am I guess. This man probably has to much control over my mind at this point (not that I'm complaining).
The Horned King x Reader - Cuddling under his robe
It's cold this evening, though this is not something particularly unusual. The wind is howling around the walls of the castle, and you're snuggling a little closer to the Horned King as you're resting in your shared bed together. You feel his grip around your waist tighten ever so slightly, when suddenly an idea sparks up in your mind. Maybe there is an even better way to escape the cold than just pressing yourself up against him ...
He tilts his head, but doesn't say anything yet when you wriggle yourself out of his embrace and crawl towards the foot of the bed. You hesitate for a moment, but eventually decide to lift the hem of his robe.
"What are you doing, my dear?"
You can hear mild confusion in his voice, and stop in your motion for a moment, one of your hands pulling up the fabric a little while the other is resting on his calf.
"Just trying to escape the cold ..."
With that, you lean forwards and start crawling under the king's robe. The thick fabric holds off any light, so you let your hands follow the contours of his body as you move upwards, careful not to put your weight onto him in an uncomfortable way. You can feel a smile forming on your face as you finally stick your head through the collar - which luckily is wide enough to fit both of you.
"I thought it might be warmer underneath here, and I have to say that I'm not disappointed. But I also just wanted to be close to you ..."
The Horned King's gaze turns soft - over time you've learned to read his more subtle facial expressions - , and when you lean forwards a little to press a kiss onto his lipless mouth, you can feel him eagerly reciprocate the motion, to the best of his abilities at least. He lets out a content sigh as you rub your nose against his cheek and wraps his arms around you, resting his hands on your back. You allow your body to relax completely as you lay down on top of his own, and although he's not giving off any body warmth, you relish the feeling of being pressed up against his bare skin.
"This is perfect ..."
You mumble as you're nuzzling your face into his neck. Your eyelids are starting to get heavier as he gently rubs your back, and a yawn escapes you.
"Rest now, my dear."
Your king's soothing voice still reaches you as your consciousness starts to drift off into the shadows.
"Rest well. I will not be going anywhere right now ..."
#I haven't written any proper (fan)fiction in ages I have actually no idea where the hell this came from#it was such a good feeling though! I think I usually overthink way too much about the build-up of the scenario#or whether I'm portraying the characters' personalities properly that I'm too anxious to actually start anything#but here I was like 'I'm going to write this cute scenario just because I want to' and the words started forming basically on their own#I hope inspiration like this strikes me for my other loves too at some point#also ik I've been all about the king in the past days but be assured my love for my other faves is as strong as ever <3#I have a feeling he's probably going to end up up there with my main f/os at some point though#f/o: 💀#the horned king#the black cauldron#disney villains#the horned king x reader#x reader#villain x reader#f/o imagine#self ship#fanfiction#writing#selniaswriting#suggestive#(not really but just to make sure)
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did not expect kissing and realizing i’m lowkey dating a guy to send me down an existential spiral of reminding me that i have only one life to live and then i am going to die without living any other different lives
#but i’ve been wasting time not exploring at all!!#doesn’t have to be a forever person it’s just an experience#but still#it’s really weird and idk!!!!#and if i date this guy fr i would have to like go on birth control probably and holy shit i do NOT want more medication#and what if i meet someone else?#i don’t exactly want to commit y’know???#but i’m halfway through my twenties and i don’t know how much time i actually have and if i think about it too long i hyperventilate#which WOULDN’T HAPPEN if i was just continuing on with being safe and alone!!#and what about women?? i love women!#but when i really love something or someone i go crazy about it#i lose myself#so maybe realistic and neutral is better?#am i neutral?#i don’t fucking know and my friends for the most part aren’t quite grasping what i’m trying to say#like yes i overthink and yes it might not be that deep to anyone else including the guy#but it NEEDS to be that deep. to me.#because that’s how my brain fucking works.#i don’t take shit lightly and i never have#that’s why i’m better off alone#or with people who are also deeply unchill#but this guy is so chill! and it does make me feel comfortable!#but it’s also like bro is this conversion therapy am i conversion therapying myself?#my entire identity for more than a decade has been based off being single and independent#and the lapses in that are times in my life that i see myself as unambiguously pathetic and embarassing#with men and women#i feel like a fucking unsocialized semiferal cat that wants affection but also doesn’t know how to accept it#and do i even want it? or is it want i know i should want or what would be good for me so im just slowly forcing myself into it?#it’s so much easier. so much simpler. to not have to freak out about this stuff.#sorry for venting i know it’s annoying it’s just fuck man…
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I’m sticking with the idea that DS2 themes are going to be the inversion of the themes in the first game so here are some of my predictions for characters in the game:
Sam — becomes more self-oriented i.e. more absorbed in his own personal quest rather than duties given to him by other people, his ‘neglect’ of other people could start bringing America apart again, he also draws more away from his companions and the living in favour of chasing ‘ghosts’ i.e. Lou and becomes more drawn to the dead.
Higgs — ‘the saviour’, instead of mass ‘mercy-killings’, nihilism, and attempting to tear America apart, he’s trying to preserve life and build connections (possibly switching roles with Sam—they seem to be foils in the first game) and has started to focus less on the suffering humans endure but rather that they’re resilient enough to survive it and carry on.
Fragile—twist villain, in the first game she was probably one of Sam’s biggest allies, she might not need him anymore and could possibly see him as getting in the way of her ‘true goal’ (whatever it could be) and try to get rid of him in some way, essentially becoming Higgs, the person she sought revenge against for the same thing he did to her, and in turn Higgs becomes one of Sam’s close allies.
Amelie—instead of creating a mass extinction she now wants to help preserve human life after Sam convincing her to delay the Death Stranding yet people are mistrustful of her due to past actions and push her away, further isolating her, in the first game she acted as a magnet for people and tried to bring everyone together but now she’s inadvertently pushing them further apart.
Lou—in the first game she acted as an anchor for Sam to gradually connect with other people and get more involved with their lives, here she might be the thing that tears him away from them back into isolation and closer to the dead.
#im probably reading way too much into everything but i love overthinking and speculating#death stranding#death stranding 2#sam porter bridges#higgs monaghan#fragile#amelie strand#lou
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I don't know if it's just me, but hearing the word "wholesome" makes me want to painfully contort. Am I even allowed to say this?
#I think I know why#when regarding my artwork#it feels the same as “Good and Acceptable” which bothers me#and I like drawing nice things (too) but there's something about that description...#but even so am I overthinking things? probably#I'm sure some of you may understand what I mean#otherwise I wouldn't think too much of this
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i have a long hhau post ready but it includes about ~3k words worth of rp snippets where some parts (multiple!!) are blatantly [REDACTED] for reasons and... i worry that might be annoying?
i know i was ultimately asked and enabled to release the teases, and that we go into this knowing there are parts i'm unwilling to share at this time, for plot/spoiler reasons but... i still kind of want to make sure that it's okay.
#like if having a bunch of rp and then suddenly being smacked in the face with#this is [REDACTED]#bothers u?#if it happens a bunch of times#even though the shared rp itself is 3k words. even with the parts cut out of it that's still how long it is#i just worry#it's probably just#a bunch of bad mental health days making me overthink things#but i want to be safe#instead of releasing something and then receiving hate for it#yes i know i worry too much#i'm 99% made of anxiety#i know you guys have been wonderful and lovely#i still want to check in about this#'coz i can also just not share those rp bits at all if this is a problem#(i am not going to unravel those redacted bits now so these are the only options)
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life is wild I can just be hanging out existing and suddenly get slammed with the most intense bout of loneliness ever. like okay i'm in the middle of eating string cheese can we not do this now
#/lh#i'm fine and i know it will pass#but sometimes i just start worrying that i'm like. the most unlikeable and boring person#and then i overthink every interaction i've ever had convinced i've made a fool of myself#i guess it's probably a social anxiety thing. my worst enemy#delete later#raven rambles#vent#today is just one of those days where i feel like if i talk too much people will get tired of me#and if i talk too little they'll forget instead
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Yet again hindered by the "this reply is hidden because you have the user blocked" message. It has me Almost wondering whether I'd be better off not blocking so many people. So that I can freely be a nosy bitch.
Almost, but not quite. My block list is for my sanity, after all.
#speculation nation#though sometimes i do wonder about whether all the ppl i have blocked Should be blocked.#they all get shoved into the same list but it's not like tumblr lets me record why i blocked them.#sometimes it's as inane as 'annoyed me too much with that one take in the tags'. and sometimes it's like. genuine bigotry lol#there r definitely plenty of users id like to keep blocked. but i wonder if there r any blogs that like. dont Really deserve to be blocked?#but to go thru my list of blocked users would require taking psychic damage in my attempts to judge Why i blocked them all.#sometimes i do wonder if random ppl in the fandom try to go on my blog but cant bc i have them blocked for stupid shit#bc i do have a semi-popular fanfiction!!! a well love fanfiction!!! what if someone reads it then finds out theyre blocked on here!!!#frankly id be mortified if i discovered that lol. like 'what did i even do????'#and well there are some things i dont budge on (like blocking anyone that puts k/v in front of me)#(it's an immediate block bc even tho i have the tags blocked i still hate even seeing mention of them in a blocked post#so i block anyone who posts it into the tag so theres no chance of seeing it from them again! simple solution.)#but. for the things that r just stupid reasons. i feel kinda guilty. like im sorry. im just a little block-happy in the tags 😭#it's how ive stayed sane tag diving daily for the past 4+ years. you must understand.#im probably overthinking this lol. but if ur blocked by me & dont know why then uhhh. sorry !
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So, I know I rambled about this a little in tags, but I want to talk about this.
The Curse acts different with MK.
So, how the Curse is said to work is it will force the people it ensnares to relive their past mistakes over and over again. And it does that. We see it with Tang, Pigsy, and Sandy in how they're trapped in their past lives and relive that (and they remember it, too, at the least), and both see the broken memories Wukong was reliving and get a direct statement from him that that's what happened. There was no Ink Tang, Ink Pigsy, or Ink Sandy. I'll talk about Ink Wukong in a second.
But when it came to MK? The only past memory that was "relived" in any sense was Ink MK (I'm going to call him MinK for simplicity, and because I like it) quoting LBD and MK's own mind filling in the blank.
The Curse shifted into MK's monkey form and talked to him, taunted him, did all of that, but only for MK, and nobody else. The only other person that it does this to is Wukong, but only when he interrupts MinK already in that form. This also seems to end after MK leaves.
Tang, Pigsy, Sandy, and Wukong all went through the "reliving their mistakes" thing Azure said it was supposed to do. But for some reason, with MK, it didn't, even though MK has no shortage of regrets to pull on.
#anyway overthinking tiiime#I should have an HT overthinks tag at this point XD#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#lmk#lmk mk#lmk ink mk#lmk season 4 special spoilers#lmk season 4 special#lmk season 4#lmk season 4 spoilers#I'm probably reading into it too much#but the curse acts different with MK and I want to know why
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Being an overthinker on the internet is not for the weak
#beatle babbles#I'm constantly worried that I shared too much#and that I'm gonna end up doxxing myself or getting into arguments with people over silly things#I overthink most things I post tbh lol#I'll probably overthink this post in a few minutes
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What’s Tic’s and Tac’s type?
hmm. that's a hard one
these mens aren't picky
Tac likes someone he can easily fluster, but if you can fluster him, he's putty in your hands. :3 (his Grillby's one of the few that can fluster him with flirts, most ppl will have to get vry sweet with him to get him all red (example: kissing his bite scares))
Tic likes a big sweetheart (and a big flirt), one of his main receiving love languages probably being words of affirmation.
physical appearance wise, they don't really care. in monster culture, it's not common to care about that, with everyone looking so different.
tho Tac might have a bit more fun teasing someone shorter than him, and both might like soft and squishy skin, and soft hair, in contrast to their bone.
(suggestive bits under th cut 👀)
ofc Tac will have plenty of fun with someone who's already easily submissive, but he might have even more fun with someone feisty, someone who plays hard to get, the challenge of getting the stubborn ones flustered/submissive being a fun and rewarding one. (and if someone manages to dominate him, i mean.. he's not complaining. 👀)
Tic does not mind a submissive partner, however he is a lot more receptive to a dominant one than Tac. He's likely to be the one in bindings. (also.. might be turned on by a more. scary/intimidating person.)
#(finally getting around to asks hhh. sry i'v taken this long)#sry for th vague answer for the sfw part. but it's probably best to keep it vague. i want anyone to be able to feel like they'd like them :#self shipping with them is very welcome and encouraged :> (unless ur a minor)#sry tac might be more thought out than tic hh#'v spent a lot more time simping fell than i have classic#i have more thoughts abt tic but they'r more jus his kinks than his type kfjvnkjksvj#anyways#tic sans#tac sans#tourette's sans#fell tourette's sans#tourette's sanses#suggestive text#didderd sins#didderd ocs#didderd asks#anonymous#(feel like this could b refined more. but i'v already spent to much time on it. n spent too much mental energy overthinking it hh)#(*somehow makes it vague while also overthinking it and making it kinda long*)
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