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mod2amaryllis · 3 months ago

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like..... what

#the nursery wall #I'm literally speechless over it #that's not true I'm gushing #HOW DID HE THINK OF THIS. HOW #he designed this ground up like he had a vision of a portal to japan and boom. executed. HE'S INSANE #i never wanna leave this room #m2a

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macfucksjohnny · 2 years ago

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Feeling very autistic and tired

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soobvape · 5 months ago

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i need brownies so fucking bad rn

#⠀ᶻᶻ⠀turn it up!⠀#unrelated croomf has pissed me off to immeasurable amounts. reduced back to oomf #overthat #anyway #DY piece tn i need it to go #and also this song is soooo minhui i threw up everywhere #decided for better or for worse that kit will be implemented here instead of in the group w kyun.. kyun works best on his own for me idk #he’s not gnna have a massive part (for now) and i dont plan on him leaving 127 to join BB or anything so he’ll def stay on the side #buttttt i did start up a little gogo piece through his eyes #i rly like the idea of never writing in gg’s pov does that jst make me sound rly lazy #BECAUSE!!!!! IM NOT!!! well i am but not w this hear me out #he puts on so many faces with everyone and even if with some he’s more ‘him’ than with others he’s never really actually #gone the whole way bared his soul the whole shebang to everyone bar like one person. so he’s kinda lonely AS EFF!!!#and idk i js like the idea of him being (when u get down 2it) a stranger. he doesnt even wanna show himself to the narrative IJBOLLL #sooooo yeah. it does kinda sound like a cop-out 4 if he acts like a different person in every piece but i think ive been p consistent so #that one person was in dream btw.. he left partly because he was bored and felt like he’d end up going nowhere and #partly because he was HUMILIATED by doing all that he needed to pack his bags and get the fuck out its kinda funny #mention ** to him and he’ll look like that pic of that one 2000 yard stare soldier its serious #worse than saying ‘hyeonmin and jaehee are in the same room rn haha’ to yijun.. but barely anyone will ever find that out #ANYWAY! i like to think kit + cherryade are the closest to seeing minhui as he is right after redacted explosions gunshots #‘im on fire and i’ve got to break out’ + ‘i've had enough of this got to break it through’ LIKE ITS HIMMM!#and dont even mention the ‘got to leave all trouble living life on the double’ I HATE THIS OSNGGGG #They made it for him. IDGAF if it came out in 2001.#ok sorry for yapping i might go make toast

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snekdood · 7 months ago

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idg bullies bc if you think someone is committing some sort of social sin... why aren't u stepping in to help them, why are you watching them fuck up? clearly its important enough to you that you try to socially punish the fellow, if this is a social cause you are so very impassioned about, why not help that person not fuck up?

or... did you just want to laugh at someone fucking up? bc at that point you're providing nothing to anyone besides just being an asshole but hey ig some people are proud of their assholes so

#to me its just an unnecessary energy #like i have shit to do i have chores to go home and get to why are you wasting both of our time being an ass #what is this doing for anyone besides fueling your narcissism #cool bud happy for you and your fleeting superiority complex as soon as i leave the room #i wonder how you make yourself feel like you're better than everyone when im not around- oh yeah its bc you go online #and spread your disease-like assholery elsewhere so then everyone becomes an asshole and no ones happy #no one can be sincere... everything hidden under a million layers of irony... stuffing every last emotion down bc emotions are cringe #or whatever...#idk. i dont like the artificiality of every social interaction these days. i feel like the only genuine ppl i meet are like. old ladies lol #everyones always got some sort of scheme or some shit... older ladies only care about talking about tea n knitting n shit #you think an old lady has any reason to be shitting on anyone? when shes probably living her best lil humble life?#theyre old they dont have the energy or time to hate anymore all they wanna see are things to love and hey i think everyone should #try to see the world that way. they know they dont got a lot of time left so they're more appreciative and nicer (usually)#you never know when you'll run out of time so why not start appreciating now?#why spread hate when you can be love. cheesy but its true

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8-rae-rae-8 · 1 month ago

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I wasn't prepared for how wanting a hug from a friend that's thousands of miles away would feel like a stab in the chest. They don't tell you that shit hurts and you can't do anything about it

#light vent #personal rant #vent except its mostly in the tags #vent #dare i say i wanna feel *safe*. dare i say i wanna be *warm*#who else out here yearning to be loved like you're truly worth something #there was a time when I was little that i wouldnt fall asleep unless i was bein held. cant go back to that without rlly having someone there #they don't tell you how isolating it is to only be able to hold friendships online. I think there's just something wrong with me #I dont get to feel warm and loved and safe irl. i cant remember the last time i did #i should be able to walk into my friends rooms and annoy them bc we know no ones really angry. BUT NO. other side of the country or canadian #i should be able to show them reels in a silent room where we laugh every so often but it's quiet otherwise #I should be able to give them random rocks I find but no #and i hate knowing im one of the only people who cant seem to hold a friendship irl. i wanna know whats wrong with me so ppl dont leave irl #what is so wrong with me that i cant love correctly? why cant i say i love you back? why does my chest tighten and i get scared? why why #its not fair?? theres gotta be something wrong with me for ppl to not like me irl i text first im nice i engage in their interests i help em #what am i missing?? we hang out for so long then BOOM ghosted. they were so cool and fun but no matter how many times i did anythin. NOTHING #i cant even say it's because i didnt get a cue or anything because they were autistic/adhd/disabled too. i didnt do anything mean did i?#i feel like im missing something that makes people human or something because i never know what i did and no one ever says i did anything #am i doing something wrong? do i like things wrong? do i love wrong? do i laugh wrong or smile wrong or talk wrong I DONT UNDERSTAND #the only place i feel safe and loved is with my friends online. they're *safe*. I'm not scared to laugh or talk. I feel at home with em #i havent felt at home in a while. they're all *home* to me. im glad y'all convinced me to make a server.

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gifti3 · 1 year ago

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Trying to actively berfriend sebastian in the beginning is kinda hard...!

Shane was extremely convient since id run into him in the morning or at night while walking leaving or going to the farm

#im not used to this #cause id like just say hi to sebastian if we happened to be in the same area #maybe i need to just go back to that #slow burn this relationship #i mean lets be real im only half trying to find him since i dont wanna drop what im doing to wait for him to leave his room...#ive never romanced sebastian before so im trying to finally do it #stardew valley

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getosugurusbangs · 4 months ago

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i never want to live with my father again

#please god i just wanna live with my mom 😭😭#like he’s fine. whatever. he gives me food and a roof over my head and all and i don’t have to actually pay for it #but also. i hate having him as my roommate so much oh my god #he never fails to piss me offfffffffffffff #doesn’t properly clean and tidy the communal space after he uses it #doesn’t take his laundry back into his room after doing it and so then everyone else is forced to deal with it instead #receives a ton of mail and lets it pile up and take over almost half the countertop #consistently turns on and leaves on lights when they very much don’t need to be on #and this is just the stuff i have to deal with just because i live with him #then there’s all the annoying shit he brings about just by being around #one day he will not be hearing from me again #me.txt

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designernishiki · 2 years ago

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suddenly feeling dead inside and just wanna read good fanfic or something. feel free 2 give me kazumaji or minedai recs if you think i’d like em

#I usually only read like canon-compliant or canon-adjacent stuff. yknow like fics that feel like they could’ve happened in-universe. just a #heads up there. im weird and autistic when it comes to continuity and/or accuracy for lack of a better word #don’t take that too harshly i just don’t know how else to put it #I could just. work on my own. that I never finish or post. but uhhhhhhhh #literally im suddenly so fatigued and mentally exhausted i don’t wanna leave my room and I’m probably just gonna eat cereal for dinner #because I don’t have energy to cook and I don’t wanna eat anything that isn’t like. a kind of comfort food I guess.#simple stuff. idk #anyway. send me whatever if you want to those r just my preferences #rambling #id play judgement but I think it’d give me a headache rn #sigh

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keirawantstocry · 1 year ago

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#i have multiple discord servers for vent shit but unfortanely my sister is on all of them and i dont wanna bother her so #yeah everyone ignore this i just need to fucking explode #my mother is pissing me off so fucking much rn #she never shuts the fuck up #only cares about her own damn fucking problems #shes going on about how she cant find a book and she needs my help and im like mom #i just spilled water on my laptop can you stfu #and you know what she fucking says?#well maybe if you didnt always hide in your room with your computer #first of all im a fucking adult and istg once i have enough money im blowing this fucking stand in a heartbeat #and second of al #I WAS OUTSIDE #BECAUSE FOR ONCE IN MY FUCKING LIFE I WAS TRYING TO GET SOME FRESH AIR #IM SICK OF BEING INSIDE #BUT WHEN I GO OUTSIDE SHE CAN COME TO ME WHICH I HATE MORE #so i try to go outside for once and what does it fucking get me #well the fucking water on my computer and audio issues #which thank God i fixed but ugh am i still pissed the fuck off #and my fucking “best friend” can barely give me the fucking time of day #leaves me on delivered for days at a time #and then straight up ignores my questions and wont fucking talk to me #but oh they'll call me randomly if they need my help #like is that all i fucking am to you?#UGH #trying to breathe #im going to put on headphones and writing gay fanfiction that always cheers me up

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jamandjazz · 9 months ago

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Kicking and screaming whenever I’m forced to go outside and socialize against my will

#and what if I wanted to never leave my room huh?!?#what then??#maybe I never wanna step foot outside again #and what are you going to do about it?

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skinreflectsthesun · 1 year ago

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#I hate that I’m dreading these big family events coming up #I hate that this is my family life right now.#thanksgiving is coming up and my cousin always hosts it at her house #and her father has cancer and it’s not certain how many more years he has left #so I must go #but my husband doesn’t wanna be around my parents so he won’t go #so then the whole holiday is basically just fucked for me and my son #since we can’t be in two places at once #also Bebas birthday is coming up #and instead of being excited and happy about it #I’m dreading it #because again husband and parents can’t be in the same room #so either my parents won’t be there for my sons first birthday #or they will and everyone promises to be good and I end up with the worst anxiety of my life waiting for something awful to happen #if I could leave all of them I would #I’d take my kid and go off into the distance and never see any of them ever again

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autistic-shaiapouf · 10 months ago

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Window clings only last like 6 months????

#oh my god. mine have been melting bc i've been leaving them on for so long... I'm supposed to take them off???#I could change them out I guess? they're cheap.. i could get like 6 packs of valentine's ones #and then continually swap them out so there's always hearts on the window but they'll last for longer #i uh. need to scrape the goop off my window bc it's collected on the trans flag i also keep in the window #but i'm noticing that the goop is also catching fruit flies and that might be why i've never seen any in my room #i don't wanna actively kill the fruit flies bc like. morally i cannot actively kill an animal. i cannot kill a bug. incidentally though?#if it happens it happens; i just don't think annoyance should cost them their lives; anyways i digress #shai speaks

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haonqq · 11 months ago

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We are a few meager hours away from all of my roommates being out of town n then i am FREEEE

#qqlife #only two days but good christ #i got to live alone once and it was lonely but i realize now that it was delightful. perfect even #its so exhausting to never know if you're gonna leave your room for food or the bathroom n have to be a Person #i just wanna vibe please im so tired #just me n the dog for the weekend lets GOOOO

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nthflower · 11 months ago

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Sometimes I think I am not that weird and anormal just spending time with my perfectly straight and neurotypical friends humbles me.

#three hours boy talk makeup talk insane straight girlie talk amd chain-smoking i am going insane #its so fucking alien to me like #omg #literally never felt like an alien like this before #and i cant make them leave they wanna be friends amd help me #amd their helping methods are trying to make me agree going to clubs and find a boyfriend and boring shit #i am happy in my room please leave go away i dont wanna hang out we are people of different worlds #but i dont wanna be rude #and i know i am the weird one actually

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frostbite-the-bat · 11 months ago

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... My parents really for real are leaving the uncleaned, rotten potato juice and other misc unknown juice infested, LITERALLY FRUIT FLY LARVAE INFESTED, cupboards, in the bathroom,

For like the 4th day starting today if I am counting right

Sure just don't let me shower sure just let me get paranoid over the larvae sure make me not trust the bathtub for like a week sure let the place get more infested sure let it stink up the whole place SURE LEAVE THE FUCKING BATHROOM UNUSABLE

#I was the one who found the cupboard btw #They fr left shit there for months #Never checked it #Bc I don't cook or stay in the kitchen a long time unless I'm actively seeking Being Alone and Not Food #I never checked #Whole place infested with fruit flies #Thousands so many #'haha guess it's summer gotta be the trash' mom says #Then I try finding the source myself on an already extremely low appetite #....... Yea let's just say I just had to comfort food it out again after my discovery. So bad.#I know they've had work but. Uhm. Today home all day. Are they seriously not gonna clean it unless I say #I'M NOT DOING IT I'LL THROW UP + IDK HOW TO DO IT DO I LOOK LIKE I'VE BEEN TAUGHT #TO CLEAN ANYTHING #We don't even have basic cleaning supplies.#They always leave gross buckets of gross?? UNKNOWN LIQUIDS #In there for DAYS #And I CANT TAKE A BATH JNLESS I ASK SOMEONE #FOR #DAYS #LEAST HYGIENIC FUCKING HOUSE JESUS CHRIST I GET TOLD MY ROOM IS GROSS AND DIRTY #BUT ITS THE CLEANEST PLACE IN THE HOUSEEEEEE #Would be better if WE DIDNT LOSE THE WHOLE VACUUM SOMEHOW #Where IS IT.#I can't with this house #Vent #Sorry I'm talking abt this situation a lot (@my friends)#Like Uhm I wanna shower. I haven't since my Transgender Werewolf Period began #No since BEFORE IT. I'm DISGUSTING. PLEASE. GET THE LARVAE INFESTED THING OUT OF HERE #AAHHHHHHHH #I'M WRITING THIS BC KM AVOIDING BRUSHING MY TEETH NEAR THIS THING.

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weirdo09 · 11 months ago

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i’m so done, why i come in my room after a shower with my blinds open and now my door can’t close, i hate this, I want my privacy, i want my privacy, I want my privacy, i want my privacy, I want my privacy, I JUST WANT SOME PRIVACY !!!!

#cade’s things #cade’s thoughts 💭#like y’all keep coming in and out of my room #having to hear this man act like i’m such a mystery that he needs to solve #and like i’m a fucking spectacle like I’m NOT I DO NOT NEED YOU IN MY ROOM TALKIN TO ME LIKE YOU KNOW EVERYTHING #I’m not even doing anything it’s the weekend #I can’t even say I’m exhausted from school because “what you don’t work.” if you’re in a building from 6-8 hours why wouldn’t you get #tired? like i’m not a different species I’m a human and I get tired from school work and hearing teachers talk crap about my grade #Like that’s tiring especially hearing y’all come home or on the phone talkin bad about me but it’s my fault ???#and you wanna ask me if I’m okay three times like you don’t care !!! you’ve never cared so leave me the fuck alone jesus christ

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