#i need top surgery so bad
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pisshandkerchief · 25 days ago
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I don't want to leave the house because that would require me to put a shirt on
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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 8 months ago
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every time im sitting here like "damn why am i suddenly really anxious and restless and irritable and its hard to breathe" and then i realize. oh. yeah. ive been wearing my binder for too long
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moier-must-die · 13 days ago
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I just wanna wear slutty man tops like just mesh shirts omgg
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lousiee · 1 year ago
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starting 2 look like eriks era vash
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catfindr · 3 months ago
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i so desperately need to win the lottery or something so i can afford top surgery
this dysphoria is just driving me nuts
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nattoppet-dj · 2 days ago
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sorry i disappeared i was mentally ill. still am but better.
got top surgery! recovering. lots going on
feelings are rough. emotional regulation is rough. but i'm still here
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sportsthoughts · 1 month ago
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miserable injury update:
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crybabybat · 2 months ago
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I need 8 tattoos IMMEDIATELY
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bowenoke · 1 year ago
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on tiktok and passed a call of duty fanartist who referenced "the watchers top surgeried grian"
going to start telling people i have a cultural impact based on this One tiktok and when they ask me what i am talking about i will refuse to answer
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cahootings · 5 months ago
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back at the ortho and my challenge today is to NOT cry
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famewolf · 8 months ago
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speaking of ocd, I think I'm realizing that I truly don't have anxiety and it's literally just my ocd. im not anxious about anything until it involves me and suddenly I'm spiraling
#[static]#it's hard to describe succinctly but the anxiety I deal with nowadays is directly related to my ocd and autism#some anxiety is so easy to brush off but the ones stemming from my ocd are extremely difficult to get out from under#i'll spiral for weeks about one specific thing and ruminate on it and mentally worry and pick at it forever#it's utterly exhausting jfkdghdf some days are easier than others#and often that one thing I ruminate on becomes multiple things all stemming from the first thing#like recently it's been my car ... the thing is totally fine ... runs fine drives fine but ive been freaked out by it for the last 3 weeks#every time i go into the shop theyre like ... everything is good in fact its in good condition for its age and they'll mention like#one thing that will need to be replaced to keep it in tip top condition and then my brain will fixate on it and imagine all the ways#something horrific will happen if that doesnt get changed and then that leads to all the other things in the car suddenly freaking me out#i defs used to have general anxiety and depression but those went away literally the day i got top surgery#poof instantly gone it was wild and i kept waiting for the other shoe to drop#never did but now my ocd has been really bad the last 6 months cuz of all the extra horrifying things going on#so i thought it was just my anxiety coming back but this week i realized it was my ocd and have been treating it accordingly#and ive seen some relief but i definitely need to go back to therapy once i get my insurance again#its the only way to get a hold on it and my last therapist ended up moving states so we didnt get to work on tools for it very much#im yapping at this point i just needed to vent for a second about how truly yucky ocd makes me feel
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aropride · 8 months ago
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my back hurts so so so bad does anyone have a spare $10k lying around i wont pay you back
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fizzytoo · 9 months ago
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my tits are not working w this shirt im gonna kms
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multifandomhoodies · 11 days ago
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the good thing about my 7 mile run - my legs feel great!! they're not stiff or hurting rn. the bad thing?? You know what does hurt??? my fucking. nipples. bad.
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isofile · 10 months ago
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i’m losing my fucking mind. it’s so disgustingly foul today everyone who says summer is their favourite should kill themselves
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king-spite · 1 month ago
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#tw vent i guess??#came here just to post smth that i'm most probably gonna delete later then leave#but aughhhh last week has been SO bad i really really needed to get it off my chest#had the final boss of a sick victorian child episode for like two weeks AND tons of college stuff to do-#-AND a test on a subject that i'm horrible at (and that i'm gonna fail fs)#AND i was supposed to get a septum which is something that i'd been looking forward to for literal YEARS#but upon telling my parents about it (cause they're kinda strict and ig they would like to know) i changed my mind#cause my mom took it SO personally.... like it was HER face not mine?🤨 but hey!#and although i had the decency to at the very least let her know that i was getting a piercing (which wasn't necessary for me to do but-#-i did it anyway out of consideration for her)#she has the fucking SPINE to tell me how i could do whatever the fuck i wanted if i cared more about getting it than about her opinion-#-but she would always think it was disgusting and that i had no right to get angry at her if she didn't look me in the face or#wanted to walk or be with me cause it'd make her embarrassed to be with me in public if i had that shit on my face.#and it hurts a lot not just bc of the fuckass piercing. but bc my parents (esp my mom) always react like this whenever i make a little-#-change on my appearanceor cut my hair or buy oversized clothes or whateverand like#if she's gonna be soooo hurt when i get a tiny piece of metal on my face. how is she gonna react when i tell her i want to get tattoos.#start taking hormones. change my name. get top and bottom surgery. be completely changed physically.#is she gonna die is the world gonna end. is she just going to stop talking to me forever.#because a piercing is not just a decoration. to me right now it's an extension of the changes i want to undergo on my body.#it's a step forward to looking the way i want too look#so a rejection to any change i do on my body feels like an indirect rejection to be being trans. and the fact that they're unaware of#just how deep their rejection cuts (bc i'm not out) makes me even angrier at them.#and upon the realization that if i ever came out to my mom (and the rest of my family too tbh) she would react *exactly* like this.#well. i did not take that very well.#wasn't very demure of her to say all that. not very mindful not very cutesy :/#also been sh-ing more bc if this and ughhh what a shit week. hope this one's better#also. i decided i'm still gonna get a septum this year. don't know when but fuck all that. it's gonna bother them all the same#no matter what time of the year i get it done. or if i do it in a year or two or five. so who gives a shit.#anyway. gonna delete later probably#📎
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