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ilovery · 2 years

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Odeio ser gentil e educada, odeio isso. Fingir algo que não sou, eu não sou. Existe algo dentro de mim que me força a ser quando me sinto envergonhada, tímida. Não deveria. Preciso ser mais rude nos momentos precisos. Eu deveria mostrar a eles. Eu deveria só mostrar a eles. Mostre a eles quem eu realmente sou. Provar a eles porque eu sou assim.

I hate being gentle and polite, I hate it. Pretending something that I'm not, I'm not. There is something inside me that forces me to be when I'm ashamed, shy. I shouldn't. I need to be more rude when it is needed. I should show them. I should just show them. Show them who I really am. Prove them why I'm like this.

#hell above #web weaving #webweaving #web weave #darkness #rude and polite #i shouldn't let people diminish me #i need to show them that i'm worse #so much worse #pierce the veil is everything to me

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bacchuschucklefuck · 3 months

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pygmalion and galatea for aroace people

you should tell your friends what I look like, riz gukgak.

#fantasy high #fantasy high sophomore year #fhsy #riz gukgak #baron from the baronies #fh class quangle #class swap babeyy! bard!riz that's whats goin on!#I really need tags for these now I think lmao #ask to tag #I feel like this should be tagged something. but I dont know what #in my brain after the initial kidnapping class swap baron's thing is every time riz keeps his story abt them up in front of his friends #they get a little bit closer. they send him pictures of where they supposedly are n stuff #theres a scene in my brain only of kristen and riz on top of the van and kristen is like everything kinda sucks rn can u tell me abt baron #cause what you guys have is so nice and beautiful. and riz almost doesn't but he ultimately can't deny kristen a little peace #lmao I feel like dipping into baron stuff with the class swap is like showing my whole ass online again I just. I'm a #horror person before all else... I cant stop myself. canon baron is Great and Cool but that is kind of the thing. for a horror thing theyre #Too Cool. I think cool is kind of the neutralizer of scary. when a monster is a certain amount of cool it overrides the scary #and now u just have a Cool Monster #its so fucked for bard!riz this year bc he doesn't have an office (he's mooching off the school wifi from the AV club room lol)#so there's no buffer between adventure and home life. so baron just shows up in the strongtower apartment lmao #sophomore year bard!riz looks like a slasher protag so I just leaned into it I guess. he gets a mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon kennedy #well. its worse actually. they can show up where he is at any moment theyve proven this. but they dont #they choose to punish him slowly as he lies to his friends instead. baron is mr. x if mr. x is made up by leon and also a bitch #I think its gonna pop up if class swap baron ever speaks in a comic I do but their voice comes from like. inside their hollow face #it sounds like it's a lot deeper in there than that skull should be #tbh what I have rn is kinda like a bag of loose pieces that Can fit together into something great but I dont have the energy to #really sit down with them yet lol. Im doing this inbetween other things #it comes or it doesn't! it's fine. funny how today's bad comic day also. I wont say this is for bad comic day bc all my comics are #flawless and beautiful and perfect and awesome and beautiful and the best #but u should. if u havent drawn a comic today or at all ever u should draw a comic

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lesbian-sunshim · 6 months

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rare pairs for your consideration - starlight x discord

#my little pony #mlp #discord mlp #starlight glimmer #starcord #discoglimmer #I'm known for uhhhh strongly disliking starlight and I'm not discord's biggest fan either so #people are either gonna love this or hate it but please know my intentions are in good faith i really like this #pairing them together reminded me that i actually thought s7 was leading to a friendship between them & that we'd see them hanging out more #that didnt happen & now i remember the s7 premiere leading to nothing and now i feel cheated #didnt he want her to be his roomie? 🤔#my thing against most discord ships that arent the princesses is hes still enough of a jerkass that he needs someone wh #who wont put up with his bullshit AND matches him in power #starlight fits that perfectly and being former villians trying to make a new life tropes is something they have in common #so yea i may not be their biggest fans but i ended up genuinely liking the idea of them and how interesting their dynamic could have been #vs what we got in the show and i think their dynamic together improves them as characters enough to improve my opinion of them #basically theyre 'i could fix him' 'girl youre worse' and i like that 😂

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ashleyslorens · 1 year

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kissing vs no kissing shows

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#for those who didn't know this is what i was referring to earlier #if the no kissing shows have a million fans i'm one of them etc etc #there's just a lot to unpack here #vampire christian in the 2nd gif you will always be famous!!!!#at least aaron had longer hair at that time so he could mask it a bit better #bc in the finley bootleg it looks so much worse wsdkfsdfk #i get they did this bc of covid but they're still so close to each other so how is that better #i'm not complaining i just find it so funny #and i need everyone to be aware of this #i think my life mission is to collect every no kissing boot for every show that has been recorded #moulin rouge! the musical #moulin rouge broadway #aaron tveit #ashley loren #ricky rojas #robyn hurder #broadwayedit #musicaltheatreedit #moulin rouge #*

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buttercupshands · 4 months

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wait a minute

stop.

stop it.

#bnha #bnha manga spoilers #mha spoilers #mha 423 #I didn't hate this chapter before that #but now I am #because this is just cruel level of REMEMBER THIS?????#yes. I do remember this. I rewatched and reread this arc VERY recently #so... he killed Kurogiri with a punch like the one he did in USJ and again to save Izuku #I don't care honestly.#I reread this chapter and I cried again bc I REALLY refused to believe that Kurogiri died then #but he did with a death words to Shirakumo's friends and recall of old chapters #even if people want Tenko alive I doubt that Kurogiri will ever materialize again #and I'm deadly serious when I say that this is the worst part of this chapter #I worried for Kurogiri's existence ever since it was revealed that Shirakumo is in there #but that literally took FIVE YEARS TO APPEAR AGAIN HAVING AN IMPORTANT ROLE #and he left while crumbling just like Tomura's body before Katsuki hit him #and the last thing he thought about was about protecting Tomura even though he was partly Shirakumo's dead corpse appearing more and more #even Mic now understood that it's really is him in a way ending his arc from back in Tartarus with Aizawa #and you know what's worse??? TOMURA KNOWS THIS #the way he used “...........” with Kurogiri's name while the page literally showed his black smoke disappearing was heartbreaking before #it's worse now #like... okay he's dying too and he doesn't even know if spinner is ALIVE or not and he saw Kurogiri disappear #all while protecting him from harm one last time #AND WE STILL HAVE NO FUCKING FLASHBACKS OF HIS TIME WITH TOMURA OUTSIDE OF WHAT WE HAD IN MANGA #I'm getting more and more furious by the minute HAHA #I need to find that one sketch I did way back in 2019 with them after spoilers of Kurogiri in Tartarus #I NEED SOMETHING LIKE THAT NOW AND I CAN'T DRAW #I want to just curl up and cry myself to sleep like a 13 y.o that found out the bird that she looked after died while she was sleeping #kurogiri

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toasteaa · 22 days

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toast!!!!! Idk if you saw this Neuvi outfit mod yet but it seemed very much what you might like :3

https://x.com/dailyhyvgrandpa/status/1829436458228138485?s=46&t=HqOx7uNx6Lp0NeJzstmOFw

I have been sent this video at least ten times and each time I see it I go stupid for a little while. A long while.

And as I'm typing this, I'm realizing that the text on the video said that this is his wedding suit and I have to go sit down again because the thought that just barreled itself into my brain is LOUD.

I forgot what I was going to say omfg. Something about being partial to his canon outfit (his spats, cummerbund, and jabot are gone :( he's naked...) but I do enjoy the translucence and subtle glow of his shawl and the romaritime flower boutonniere! He really is so very lovely...

#toast talks #I JUST SAW HIS WEDDING RING -#I'm so dumb I literally thought this was just him in a white suit. Of course it's for his wedding.#I say as if I don't think his outfit would be different than this. Leave it up to him and he'd probably wear his judicial robes -#He wears them to every formal event anyways why not wear them for his own wedding?#<- Please do not let him do that.#Actually you know what. Let him do that. He's on the fence about having a public wedding anyways because:#1. A public wedding means that he would be able to show very openly that Eclair is his and he is hers.#2. A public wedding involving the Iudex of Fontaine would be a press fiasco and a headache for months. Years.#3. Questions and accusations surrounding his impartiality and the potential for nepotism in the courts would be unavoidable.#(As they had been when he not only made Wriothesley a Duke but gave him the title of Fortress Administrator as well. Only worse.)#4. The inevitable accusations of the wedding being a publicity stunt.#5. Weddings are a human concept and he has already dedicated himself to Eclair and does not see the need to for such a stressful event.#What was I talking about again?#OH YEAH HIS SUIT -

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nyxypoo · 28 days

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#lost ONE airpod.#in my whole life i've never lost any headphones or earbuds #my old airpods stayed together even when they barely worked #it's supposedly in my room according to find my #but i've searched all over and can't find it #doesn't even make sense bc i don't use them at home #how am i supposed to ignore ppl without seeming like an asshole now #no way is it 89 dollars to replace it #right before my period too. FACK #if it magically shows up i will LITERALLY jump for joy #pleasepleaseplease i NEED this to survive #i don't want to listen to stupid shit #also don't want to seem rude for ignoring ppl #i apologize to ppl in my life for who i will become #also is it one l or two ls in cancelation #cancelation or cancellation #they both look wrong wtf #one of them is supposed to look not too weird so ik what's right #but they both look weird #feel illiterate rn #this is a self reminder that english is in fact not my first language #why is it getting worse and not better #i'm around americans and native speakers all day almost all my life #WHY IS MY ENGLISH STILL BAD #wtvr i'll survive ykw i was trying to say anyways #☆— yapping

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violentlydefending · 2 months

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what the actual fuck is wrong with whoever it is running @/writing-prompt-s. why are they calling an actual palestinian blogger "shady" and using their massive platform on this site to accuse palestinian families and users of being bots and scammers?

#.....like.#if. IF you are right. do you not think the damage being done if you are WRONG is significantly worse?#also you literally aren't right 90-ghost is a real person. it does not take all that much research to find that out.#and if you so strongly believe that you're right (with shoddy self-justification to boot) you don't need to #like. make a whole thing about it either. yknow. to your (again) massive platform. does the block feature not exist for a reason.#because. again. the damage done if you are wrong and proceed to call them out or report them is so much worse.#it's fine if you're worried about being scammed. if anything that's a good thing. but if you aren't gonna do research on your end #then baseless accusations help nobody.#and you /don't/ need to report them!! a block will suffice. again. if you're really /so/ sure!!#sorry i don't usually wanna. uh.#i guess this counts as vagueposting?#i don't usually wanna vaguepost but reading what they're saying is so disheartening and infuriating #i'm not following them and haven't been or anything the post i'm talking about just showed up #contra.txt

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oh-meow-swirls · 5 months

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how does the raft not capsize.

#puppy rambles #yo-kai watch #yw3 #i mean komasan's not there in canon 3 so it's slightly better but not by a lot #i feel like someone should at least be falling off how is the raft also big enough to hold them all-#whisper floats so he doesn't add weight or any space really but like #it still needs to both hold the weight of three teenagers and two yo-kai #AND have the room for them all to fit #the rafting challenge in bada-bing tower is probably worse cuz it has to fit two additional yo-kai #i think komasan not being that important in the mainline games is very lame. he's pretty important in the anime so it's kinda weird #he is at least somewhat important in 3 since he's there for the yopple tour and everything in bada-bing tower #whereas in 1 he has the auto-befriend yo-kai curse (only being important in their debut chapter)#and in 2 he literally only shows up during the jibakoma quest in psychic specters #(excluding being an npc during the beginning of the jibanyan's secret quest alongside a bunch of other yo-kai)#idk what's weirder the fact they made him so important in the anime despite that or the fact they never made him important in the games #i personally go with the nyanderful days continuity that he also moves in with katie cuz that makes sense to me #i've literally never written anything where nate's the one who gets the watch in 1 so idk what i'd do there-#(funny how i've never written anything that's in the same timeline as canon-)#i want to at least write something at somepoint where nate and katie both get watches cuz i like that idea #i mean i have a dumb au idea where nate and katie independently get watches at the start of 1 at around the same time #and take an extended period of time to realize #mostly just haven't actualized that cuz 1) i already have the rewrite and 2) i don't have enough ideas #basically just have the basic concept-#these tags got derailed quick. and also make me really wanna work on the rewrite more-#i have so many ideas but i'm just not motivated to write any of them #and also most of them are for 3 and i haven't finished rewriting 2 yet 😔#‚‚‚ anyways-

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the-lark-ascending69 · 3 months

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Lumity is very cute but it seems like the kind of ship that would have a fandom so toxic it'd make you dislike the ship in time and I think that's sad.

#possibly because it's so ''pure'' like #the spiciest thing that happened between them was Amity being rude for like 1/3 of s1 maybe?#and a lot of baby puritans online like to cling to these ''unproblematic'' ships to feel super morally superior and whatnot #tbh while watching toh I was thinking ''mmmm how could a fanfic make lumity MORE dramatic? what situations could make them WORSE''#my conclussion is that more internalized homophobia would really make it shine #for me specifically. to appeal to my own personal tastes #tbh the lack of conflict became a bit boring after a while like there were times i wanted amity to throw luz out the window #that girl is a compulsive liar she can't ever say things straight even when there's no reason to lie 😭 and i love flawed characters #and i understand amity being tremendously loving and forgiving and understanding is a valid character trait #but like girl 😭 not even one fight? i wouldn't have that patience 😭😭😭 sometimes fights are good #i see so many people celebrating it's ''healthiness'' (if that's a word) and i just feel like. is that what appeals to you?#is that what you find fun and exciting? is that what keeps you at the edge of your seat?#personally i need amity to get psychologically abused by her mom soooo bad it destroys her relationship with luz. like with willow but worse #MORE misunderstandings MORE heartbreak MORE abuse MORE drama #and if you could add some self-loathing and SHAME there it'd be beautiful #i'm not talking about the show. the show is fine. i'm talking about the fanfic i'm gonna spend the next two hours looking for on ao3 #btw this is just me talking about my personal tastes and everyone is allowed to like whatever they like. if you like less drama that's cool #like i don't know you and my opinions on your tastes are actually zero

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zukkaoru · 4 months

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i'm normal about the media i hyperfixate on (<- stressing myself out to the brink of a panic attack by thinking about tomorrow's chapter release)

#'if media you like is affecting you this much maybe you need to take a step back' I LITERALLY CANT. THAT IN FACT MAKES IT WORSE #i know theyre just lines on a page but i am going to use my teeth to rip off my own skin about it #also if you show me leaks or even mention them in my presence i'm blocking you forever. godbless #hello grace here

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bacchuschucklefuck · 2 months

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the never stop blowing up vhs is where cute twinks go to get harmed

#not art #nsbu spoilers #kirk blade.... johnny manhattan..... maybe tenuously cosmo chase #also genuinely I Love that vic ethanol is showing himself to be bit of a dick #and kingskin conversely First Actual Communication With The Player is like. idk I just work here #(I am vibrating in my seat abt liv bloodlust. shes experiencing a bit of emotional consequence. hope she powers thru it and #becomes even worse)#I also love that g13 and jack manhattan are both like. gone #I know in adventuring party they're charting it to shape up as like. usha also slowly losing herself to the work like g13 did #and them becoming one entity entirely in the sense that their selves stop mattering in the face of their hacker capacity #(also called the Forum Moderator Dilemma)#but I also like to think that g13 handed it back to usha cleanly in the second episode with that one interaction #and is now fully unplugged from everything. left the movie. man is Sleeping #we all agree that paula ate jack manhattan tho I think it's fine to assume that #and! the way russell has been like. fully going whole hog full tilt into helping other people and moving the plot along #while Suggesting That Doing Self Reflection And Learning Lessons From This World Might Help to Other People #like I love that. 1/lieutenant syndrome but also 2/extremely transfem coded #like past the ''ohh I have realisationd I'm coming to'' stage. far past. man is bored with thinking abt genders #not new realisation to him! had that thought two decades ago. not motivated enough by anything to change anything #I think I just love the scenario of like magical mystical journey in a fantasy world clearly designed to make you contemplate ur gender #and ur like oh no what? we did that years ago. whats up #deeply interested tho. open up russell we wanna see whats up with u #dang is perfect no note 10/10 more important than anything else he is genre aware and savvy and that truly is all he needs here #the ''let's make it fun'' scene he does with liv is SO good I love him. Im so scared the vhs will snatch him away. hes too genre perfect

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vargaslovinghours · 2 years

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Todd is baby, so - Baby Todd

#💟#Doodles #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Todd #Shmee #Baby Todd AU #These are scribbly and largely unfinished because I had A Lot of ideas and I needed them out of my head as quickly as possible lol #Normally I'd save these for the sketchdump but a) there's too many lol and b) I'm too excited about them #I just wanted to draw cute stuff that's my explanation lol #This is just my ultimate form of making Todd extra tiny and hold that was my justification and goal all along lol #I love these kinds of domestic AUs and the Vargases already have a kid! Now he's just a bit younger haha #Details details - Todd would be at around 8-9 months here #Able to hold his head up and sit on his own but not quite to walking and talking fully - more than a little human blob but not a child yet #He just shows up in a little basket on Edgar's doorstep lol is that how it works - it'd be so much worse if it was Nny's doorstep #Edgar gets a call in the middle of the night like ''Uh...........so I think there's a baby'' ''What do you mean there's a baby''#How could they have a baby they haven't even gone on a date-#I also thought a neat way to differentiate (because I always draw Todd as a tiny little chibi baby lol) would be Shmee #Since Nny slices him up when Todd's a kid - would he do the same to a baby's bear? Is Shmee even Shmee in there?? Hmm hmm #And more thoughts of ages - is Edgar 8&1/2 years younger? Probably not right?? But that would set Todd's birth year way later!#It's fine just don't think about it too hard lol #Or do I mean I have lol #It's all just for cutes and being a good and Definitely flustered but also Definitely father and dad to a baby ♥#It is honestly really fun to draw him so so so tiny hehehe ♪♫

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iguessyouregonnamissthepantyraid · 5 months

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oh gosh. new brain worm moment. the robert downey jr as a dad vs chris hemsworth as a dad meme but it's cooper howard with janey vs the ghoul with lucy

#HE EVEN HAS THE HAT LMAO #me #fallout tv #cooper howard #you could do the same thing with the gordon ramsay meme ''i'm not leaving here until you smile'' vs ''YOU FUCKING DONKEY''#god i need to do a rewatch #i wonder if that would make my brainworms finally calm down or just make them worse #anyway there needs to be a tag for lucy and the ghoul as a platonic ship PLEASE i'm STARVING i need to find my PEOPLE #fallout show #i forgot that's the tag i've been using whoops

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statementlou · 1 year

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In the article that came out this morning about Andrew Cushin's album, Pete Doherty was quoted being defensive about his decision to collaborate with Louis, saying, “Look at some of the great labels, look at The Sex Pistols with Malcolm McLaren getting together with Richard Branson. Over the years, labels’ main aim was to be a springboard for their artists to get as many people to hear the music they believe in. Whatever that takes – if that means having a major label take you up the alley for five minutes I will do that for my artists any day of the week.” Initially this just pissed me off (and it still does) but the more I thought about the more fascinating it is actually. There's never been any question that 78 Productions' role in co-releasing Andrew Cushin's album is primarily financial, and I'd say this confirms that, but he's saying more than that; he's saying that Louis and his label, that has never had a single release before now, offer more than just cash, that it is on par with Virgin Records in its infancy because of the position and reach Louis has in the industry... and he can be as sour as he wants about it, that's a hell of an admission and not a position you just automatically hold by being a former boyband member. We already know this but that doesn't mean I don't love it when people say it out loud!

#awwwww did it hurt? when you had to admit that a former boyband member half your age had connections you needed?#I finally listened to the album and goddammit I actually like it #I didn't like Andrew's stuff previously (or his live show); but once again I gotta hand it to Louis and his ear he was fucking right #he just needed some production and polish and I guess I do get it now #and I do really see how the lyrics are right up Louis' street #all of which is irritating cause I still don't like him as a dude but to be fair he's no worse than tons of other musicians I listen to #its just that unlike them he's come closer to home and I'm forced to Know things about him #anyway #blah blah blah #louis songwriting #louis promo #(its the closest tags I have leave me alone)#but I should have a better one no time like the present:#louis business #he was always the boss #is he also positioning himself as malcolm mclaren cause sir one- you aren't and two- would you WANT to be?? for gods sake!#at least be vivienne westwood!

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fakemagicjaye · 6 months

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lvl40 is ALMOST done i'm working on the greys :v (as you can see this page isn't finished ◑.◑;; ) also it takes place largely in a bowling alley and i forgot about bowling shoes so i need to redraw those on SIX pages...........

#artists on tumblr #webcomics #art process #art wip #I ALSO FORGOT ABOUT WEDDING RINGS orz;;;;#yan's husband shows up briefly in this chapter so i'm like #surely irl most places in the world they're not a thing right????#SO IT MAKES SENSE FOR THEM NOT TO EXIST HERE RIGHT????#I DON'T NEED TO GO BACK AND FIX PREVIOUS CHAPTERS WHERE SHE WASN'T WEARING ONE???????#there are already other things i need to fix that are way worse :'^)#i noticed the thing with the dialogue on the first page of lvl33 the day after i posted it #and IT'S STILL LIKE THAT #/stares into the distance

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