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IDK how i want 2 draw their body yet
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what if i said something so delusional...
#the bakugo katniss parallels#honestly its funny bc theyre not that close at all in development but i do think that's how bakugo would act after the games / after the wa#was also thinking he's the type to only have kids like. when he thinks it's safe to#and i do like bakugo with strange coping mechanisms too#i could talk more but#i need to ponder#caitie blabs
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Do...do I have a piss kink??? š«Øš«Øš«Ø
thoughts on piss kink?... š cuz i have so many thoughts especially dark thoughts
I maaaay have a few thoughts kicking around. (a lot. More than I probably should have)
I don't know how much I class my thoughts as dark, outside of not giving you a choice but to take it. I'm down for darker thoughts about it being sent to me, always.
Warnings: PSA - IF YOU ARE NOT A FAN OF PISS TALK, CLOSE YOUR EYES AND RUN, OKAY?
There's so many aspects to it, so many different ways it can go. My mind wanders more over to Jack with it purely because I think he'd be a little faster at throwing caution to the wind. More likely to just try something with you when he's horny. Wild enough to dive right in.
I feel like he'd try it in the shower first - he'd be in a rush to get ready for practice, not really having enough time to sort himself after. You'd be in there with him since you both like to spend as much time together in the morning as you can before he's busy.
He'd be cautious about it, not wanting to freak you out, but also really needing to piss. Shifting you slightly to the side so you aren't directly in the stream, the sound of the heavy flow hitting the bottom tiles while you're in there with him.. it does something to him. He's hyperfocused. You're even whimpering.. you aren't freaked out at all.
It breaks a part of his brain, dragging him deeper into the possession hole. It's a new thing for him, a sudden new way of owning you more. He's aware that animals do it.. but doing it to you? He'd never fully considered it.
He can't help himself. He can't stop the spiral. It's all he can think about now. How to push you further, how to explore it with you.
Every morning when he wakes up, he's thinking about it. Every single time he's in the bathroom, he's thinking about how it's such a waste when he could be exploring with you instead.
The next time you're showering together? He's forcing you to your knees, your knees harshly hitting the tiles. He needs to be quick, he doesn't have much time before he'll have to waste it again.
You just look so pathetically confused on the floor, whining at the pain he caused your knees, staring up at him with your watery wide eyes. Understanding your role when he grips his cock, leading it to your mouth. You're used to sucking him off, even if it's not often in the shower.
The understanding on your face vanishes as he just rests his cock in your mouth. Every attempt to move by you makes him yank your hair back, trying to keep your head in the same spot. Why won't he let you suck? Won't let you move? How are you supposed to suck him off if he won't let you?
His head's tilted back, his eyes fully closed. He's just staying there, giving you no explanation. He looks like he's muttering something to himself, but you can't make anything out. You're about to try and force yourself off him until you feel the sudden hot stream in your mouth, shooting almost directly down your throat.
Your eyes widen further as you panic, struggling to swallow every drop down when you weren't prepared. Your brain malfunctioning with every drop, the sudden act from him throwing you for a loop. Your thighs squirming together, the knee pain gone from your mind.
Your face is on fire, feeling embarrassed about how much you're enjoying this, enjoying this degrading treatment from him. You're swallowing faster, on a new mission to squeeze as much from him as you possibly can.
He's groaning softly, looking down at you now, watching himself flood your mouth. Even with your faster swallowing, it's still overflowing out the sides of your mouth slightly. There's just so much. He was saving up as much as he could, hanging on until he was ready to burst.
Shaking his dick slightly in your mouth, like he's trying to make sure every drop has been used in the right way, pulling his softening dick out of your mouth.
He needs to keep taking this further with you. Every new step, every new stage only makes his head spin faster. He doesn't know where this peaks, but he has no plans for this to be a one off.
#i am so confused#i need to ponder#jack hughes#jack hughes x reader#nhl x reader#ruinix reads#smut#tw: piss
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inside me two wolves, the first loves the ass up jacko pose the second wants the 60 year old to look at least a bit plausible in how he's posed XD
#listen#Ama no for sure#so like#I need to ponder#I'll ponder very carefully#but the situation requires some ass up breedable pose!#not that even a 20yo real person could do that pose SOOOOO#XD#anyway#moss text
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MDZS x Firefly AU: A ragtag crew.
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#mdzs au#firefly#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#lan wangji#jiang yanli#Wen Ning#Wen Qing#nie huaisang#xue yang#A-qing#That's right! this month's flavour of MDZS AU is Space Western!#I recently rewatched the show and forgot that the lore essentially made everyone bilingual in Mandarin and English.#It's fun to hear characters talk in mandarin and now understand a little bit of what they're saying!#A Firefly AU fits them so well and I need to talk about it.#I have strong thoughts about my placement for all of these characters. Let's start with the most likely to be contraversial:#I think a less thought-out AU would pitch Wei Wuxian as the Captain or a Companion.#But there are a several reasons why that would simply not be the case:#Wei Wuxian is smart! He's good at what he finds a passion and interest in! Piloting is a complex skill that grants him a freedom to explore#He wants to kick back and chill! He would hate the responsibility of being the captain! That's JC's job!#In my heart he's also second in command - which does make WWX essentially Zoe and Wash smashed together.#Companions are also persons of high rank in this universe. Something WWX is very...not defined as.#Someone beautiful of higher social rank...someone who yearns for someone they want to explode in their mind...It was no contest.#I think there are a lot if really interesting things to explore with LWJ as a companion. Functionally they are similar to Courtesans -#But it isn't always about the sex - A Lan Wangji who sees himself only through the wants and needs of others -#is a really interesting angle I have been pondering a lot about.#Final thought to close up this long ramble: Yes. It is so essential that every space crew have a 'Weird Teen (girl optional) on board'.#Will I post more of this? Maybe! If people want to see more!
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experimenting w how i render things :P
#andreil#aftg#tfc#nora sakavic#my art#mine#fanart#this took sooooooo long to draw i kept changing my mind on a million things#im not sure that i liked how it turned out but i need to just put it out there bc im not getting anywhere just pondering over it
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happy birthday silver!!
#fun fact: i hate doing bday art but this was NEEDED. i was a woman possessed. this groovy fucked me UP#groovy was made in a lab specifically for me. im SICK im DESTROYED its so good. he fucking sweeps. we win#i need silver to stab the painting and be so upset abt it i need the Tension i AUGHHHHHH#silver i love u. i wanted him to touch the frame at first like gentle ponder vibes#but its a museum thats against the RULES. i have licked a statue at a museum but silver wouldnt break rules like that#anywho. im on mobile but i saw i have an ask so i gotta reply tmrw. ty to the anon for ur patience and thoughts i rly appreciate it#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#suntails
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the posters are actually hard. head in hands
I get to make not one but TWO lamprey posters for work. ideal scenario
#my supervisor wants one abt migration and one abt the life cycle... which I'm slowly realizing is the same thing š#like one poster can encapsulate both concepts... because they go hand in hand.....#and my supervisor is gone today so I can't just be like hey what if they were the same#but she wants the life cycle one to be interactive??? so maybe I'll just make a poster vs a game#I need to ponder#I actually need to take a walk is what I need to do#ghost posts#text
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Feeling real ridiculous for not having realized that Baron's "stark father" was the Nightmare King until now
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhjy spoilers#also#love cassandra's gender situation going on here tbh#hell of an episode. i am totally normal about it (they are in fact. not normal about it at all.)#am willing to explain my thought process here if need be#there is a slight temptation to write something about the possible relation between cassandra and baron now though#did cassandra know that was where baron was like she could always summon kalina?#the creator and creation (the thing you made at your worst)#father and son (you can barely sustain yourself. let alone others)#you were once a god and then you weren't and you made this being and now you are a god again and it still exists#hmmmm#hm!#things to think. thoughts to ponder.#sorry i keep adding tags. i keep having Thoughts
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sekuuti and akestur, deities of the rau-kakse and crakam
LONG ASS CREATION/ORIGIN STORY OF THE RAU KAKSE AND CRAKAM HERE
the sun and moon both have important roles in northern basilisk religion, and are interpreted as two deities: sekuuti (sun) and akestur (moon).
both seen as patron deities of their respective people (rau-kakse aka basilisks and crakam aka harpies). their eggs were originally stars in the sky that fell and hatched in the world below.
at first, there was only pure spirit. something known as "tukaarti" (which is an unconscious but all powerful driver of all things) - the "natural force", arose, and began create shapes from this spirit, polarities, warmth, energy eventually the forces shaped this spirit into The World, which was barren at first, amorphous, but this shaped energy began to solidify, first into mountains, then into lakes, rivers, flora etc etc. but the water did not stay liquid long for after the formation of these things, and a brief flourishing period, the World cooled down, and fell under a great winter, as it had no sun. the sky is basically where tukaarti resides in its rawest form still, and stars are "concerntrations" of it, and the only light source. the stars began to fall eventually on occasion into the world, and that would spawn Creatures. early on when the world was still fresh after this was when the eggs of sekuuti and akestur fell, they were among the last creatures to fall onto the world. prior to them similar animals had hatched from other eggs, but they all perished trying to survive on their own.
both sekuuti and akestur were lonely and struggled on their own - persecuted by hostile ancestors of other creatures. not only was it difficult, most of all, it was lonely.
sekuuti was so lonely that she desparately wanted children, but as she was the only one of her kind she prayed to tukaarti for a way to achieve that company she desired. she was heard, and granted the ability to shapeshift to any creature that she found. this also was something tukaarti needed, as it lacked a way for spirit to go from the World back to tukaarti, and by "collecting" bodies to learn as forms, sekuuti would also return their spirit to tukaarti. with this ability, she resorted to courting different birds that she transformed into and bearing their young. and she did successfully hatch them. her children would not only inherit a lot of her features and shapeshifting ability, but they also inherited the plumage and some other traits from their other parents, and she loved them all the same. this also means that according to rauk-kaksian lore sekuuti "has no comparison" and doesnt look like an extant bird in particular, but interpretations vary. these children were the first "rau-kakse". the most important established trait of her depictions though is that it seemed that the glow from her egg ("star") never faded, and her plumage glowed strongly and brilliantly.
akestur, meanwhile, sought company with birds in a different way. he found flocks of corvids, flocks of nightjars, and found certain comfort with them. but he was frustrated with the fact that they could not communicate, he prayed for the ability to "hold a conversation" with his new contemporaries. and the tukaarti granted him his wish - the flocks that he had become familiar with were granted a blessing, but with that blessing, they also changed in morphology - they became harpies (crakam), and gained sapience. he was reminded, however, that he had gotten this wish without cost - and that the forces counted on him to do what they wished in return if they so needed it. they only cryptically let him know to "not keep his eyes off of the flame". akestur is thought to have looked like a harpy slightly, but with a different face, black as night, but with brilliant glowing white eyes.
again, the world during this time was pretty barren and harsh due to an eternal winter, as they had no sun. sekuuti, while having found comfort in her kin now, was unhappy with the state of affairs - especially as many young would die in the harsh conditions. akestur, too, hated seeing his new contemporaries suffer.
the two groups would meet one day, sekuuti and akestur leading them. the two were fascinated by one another - sekuuti brought warmth to akestur and the crakam, while akestur brought a certain darkness, that while somewhat discomforting at first, also shrouded both groups from other hostile creatures, theyd come to find out. there was safety in his darkness. sekuuti and akestur grew very close and became partners (according to most legends).
sekuuti wanted to change the state of the world and set her eyes upon the sky, wanting to become a sun and bring warmth to all and end the eternal winter. akestur was hesitant, for he did not want to lose her, and her children needed her. when seeking the guidance of tukaarti - they discouraged her from it, urged her to stay and perform her duty as a bringer of spirit from corpses of this plane back to tukaarti. but she was insistent, and one day, decided to simply go for it. she flew so fast, with such force, that she caught flame, but her will was so strong that it didnt bother her and she became one with the flames eating her as she flew up to the sky.
akestur was too late, and only realised she was gone once she had lit up the sky. betrayed, upset, but most of all - realising that he had failed tukaarti. he had let his eyes off his flame. as a punishment, tukaarti undid the blessing it had granted his people for half of them, leaving half of them as regular birds again.
sekuuti lighting up the world had done something - it had taken away the eternal winter, but the problem was - sekuuti had nothing to temper her up there. the world was beset by a devastating drought with no end in sight. akestur, trying to lead his people as well as the basilisks, then realised what he had to do.
before leaving his people, he urged them "to not take their eyes off the flames", meaning the basilisks in this case, and then, he also set off for the sky. instead of setting ablaze, his eyes seemed to burst with the pressure of the speed of his flight, engulfing him in a cold, bright light. once he joined sekuuti in the sky - the heat was finally tempered.
however, sekuuti, both overwhelmed with love but also guilt and shame over abandoning akestur, fled him. but he, loyal and also overwhelmed with love, began to follow her. and basically, the day/night cycle is their eternal chase after one another - and on occasion, they meet, during eclipses :,) perhaps they also realised that their chase is what brings the world balance. and perhaps its a bit of a punishment from tuukarti for disobeying it.
#worldbuilding#lore#fantasy#speculative biology#speculative fantasy#speculative zoology#pareidolia tag#BTW FOR ANY ASKS hi guys again hi i will likely answer Later but yes. i have been pondering this sorry#pondering actually bcs i pondered a certain rau-kaksian tradition that i felt needed a connection to a greater creation story#these two are the āmainā deities of both crakam and rau-kakse#but crakam also worship other different deities that can be highly local#while rau-kakse may worship some of them but mainly are most dedicated to these two. But it may vary ofc#rau-kakse#crakam#realising i should actually start making tags for the species and culture stuff so. LOL
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thinking vaguely of sticking Ford in a time loop. Itād be fun. I mean, not for him, but itād be fun. I remember a really good fic where Stan got stuck in a time loop the day of the portal accident, and he kept waking up in his car right outside of Fordās house. If I find it again (it was so so good) Iāll link it.
Sticking Ford in a time loop either when he goes into the portal, or when he gets rescued by Stan. Make him play that day on repeat. Stick him in Weirdmaggedon on repeat? I dunno, actually. Iām just idly pondering time loops, as one does
#Probably wonāt do anything with it#Might rotate it in my head for a while#Time loops are fun#them and other time shenanigans tend to be one of my favorite tropes#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#He goes to sleep in his room and wakes up in the nightmare realm to kill bill cipher#He doesnāt jump through the portal#Kills him#wakes up again#Goes through the portal this time#Doesnāt punch his brother and goes through the day entirely too calm#Heās kind of freaking out but this is also cool??#But how does he get out he canāt stay here forever#What does he need to do#he wonders#he tried everything#Ford buddy. If only I knew. My idle pondering provide no answers
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Comfortable in New Skin
#wanted to give loop some like... vague clothes. since while they dont Need to be covered... accessorising is a human right#and boy do they need some of those. one can assume the only place theyd be getting clothes is isa though. so. ponder it#in stars and time#isat fanart#isat spoilers#isat loop#loop isat#isat#lucabyteart#SPOILERS TAG BECAUSE UM. CAPTION IS UNNEGOTIABLE. SOZ#anyway i do have Even More doodles on the way. primarily about loop. predictable. a lot of thoughts on the body horror of it all.#if you were to ask me. i think loops quote unquote skin is uncannily loose when pushed or pulled in any way#almost as if it were clothes covering the skin rather than skin itself. probably feels fuzzy and vague too. as for their head?#non-solid but in the way where theres a force pushing outwards. radiating you could say. yknow. vague. undefined. not quite real#but thats just my headcanon. tee hee
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a man in front of a red wall // 15th century
#i love how in his character profile i went for a very upbeat and laidback tone and then he got instantly hit with the horrors so its been--#a lot of sighs and stares into middle distance pondering his life choices as of late#in other news i need something in that dark vermilion NOW -- would go great with the browns and the greens and the yellow i have in here#vaguely medieval#historical fantasy
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trying to not think too hard about how siffrin spent years and years between getting stranded with no way home and joining mirabelle's party on their quest just. wandering the world all alone, traveling on his own, with no one else to talk to or to keep him company. because that's just so sad. that's so lonely
#do you think he ever felt a pang of jealousy when he saw a group traveling together. laughing. keeping close#i need to be sedated#in stars and time#isat#isat siffrin#pondering#isat meta#isat analysis#siffrin
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can't stop thinking about sevika saving a pregnant reader from the streets as her good deed for the decade. she's a terrified little thing, flighty, jumps at the smallest of noises, and sevika doesn't understand why til she asks reader where the dad is.
"don't even know who he is." and the grieving look in her eye is one sevika's seen before.
ah. that explains it.
she doesn't feel pity often (if ever) but something about this girl makes her chest ache. so she sets her up inside her shitty, rundown apartment, and even lets her sleep in her bed on the nights she doesn't come back. she keeps the kitchen stocked with food, and lets her wear her clothes, and soon enoughāshe isn't sure when the transition happensāthis pitiful, pregnant stranger starts to feel like home.
and then the "dad" comes back cause he's heard through the grapevine that he has two bridges left to burn, and sevika does what she does best.
she's got a baby to help raise, after all.
or something idk. fuck it im gonna write it
#listen i dont do pregnancy fics but i saw my niece the other day and it had me Thinking. Pondering#this has been my nightly daydream for the past 3 nights im obsessed#i just need soft protective sevika ok!!!#ro talks#sevika x reader
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do you think all the hobbits in the fellowship of the ring were in a polycule?
no, and i'll tell you why
frodo is a classic demi ace lesbian who can't tell when he's being flirted with, and sam (butch with the sex drive of a circus tiger) has been pursuing him for approximately 7 years. he's like devoted his body mind and soul to winning frodo's heart. but every time he poses in the hot sun outside frodo's window wiping sweat off his face with his dirty hands half-bent over a planter box of tulips, frodo just waves back and smiles and thinks "wow it's crazy he does all this for free."
merry and pippin are each separately interested in sam - i'm telling you that sam is the epitome of hobbit sex appeal as a gardener / eavesdropper / salt of the earth hot muscular butch. they go from wingmanning for each other to trying to sabotage each other's attempts a flirting depending on the day of the week. fireworks are sometimes involved.
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