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Hellooo, this is my first time sending a request to you, but Iâve been craving a sweet and comforting ness x fem reader. I just read the latest chapter and I just want to comfort him and hug him, kissing his tears away. Thank you!!
OMG yess!! my baby Ness deserve it after what he been thru in the latest chapters :(
"Ness you should quit soccer. This is not the place for those who live for someone else. Pigs without autonomy should get lost." Those words said by Kaiser kept replaying in Ness head, he cant believe after what he did for Kaiser he would just abandon him like that! But the more Ness thought about the recent match, more and more tears where dripping down his chin, onto your chest.
"Its gonna be okay Ness, let it all out.." -you said while gently playing with his brown hair.
"i just cant believe this! after all i did for him? he just left me like a toy he didnt want to play with no more!!"- he sobbed, you really felt bad for him, you couldnt imagine what it feels like, beging abandon by a person you trusted with your life? You saw what Ness said to Kaiser afterwards on the TV, "I dont have a reason to play soccer besides making you the world's best Kaiser..." You knew Ness to well, he will try to bring Kaiser back at all cost, he will beg him until the day Kaiser accept's another club offer and finally leave Bastards Munchen.
You cant stand seeing your baby cry, Ness is very emotional person situations like that happens really often, just Ness crying because Kaiser said something cruel to him. You fell bad everytime he comes back from a match or practice with tears in his eyes. Everytime you say "its gonna be okay" but you know this will happen over and over again until Ness finally realises Kaiser will never change. "Look at me Ness, come on dont cry. Maybe you want to watch your favorite movie? Or take a bath together? Oh! maybe we should go get some icecream?"
"Yeah.. Icecream sounds like a good idea.. Just five more minutes i- need to acept the fact that Kaiser will never take me back" "Oh baby.. you know i cant stand seeing you cry" -You say as you kiss him on the lips "I love you" "I love you too mein Schatz.."
I hope you liked that nonnie! its the first request im writing so i hope its not that bad LMAO I LOVE NESS SO MUCH AHHHHHHHHHH ALSO IM SORRY IF THERES SOME GRAMMAR MISTAKES I WAS WRITING THIS ON MY PC INSTEAD OF MY PHONE LIKE I ALWAYS DO
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I think I need to be put into a pressing machine And Squished Flat
#the touch starved ness is hitting. need platonic touch to live#i need to hug my friends but i am bad at askinf for shit
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burn notice | s.r.
in which your workplace is targeted by a group of extremists, and Spencer tries everything to keep you safe
margotober masterlist
who? spencer reid x fem!reader category: angst content warnings: fighting, threats, arson/explosion, politics, mass casualty event, sole survivor, greek mythology my beloved, public transit word count: 2.34k a/n: i genuinely think my laptop is going to start smoking if i leave it on for much longer.
You pull your knees to your chest, sitting on the floor next to Spencerâs desk while he speaks with Hotch about the case. JJ waves at you solemnly before she heads out of the bullpen, leaving you as the last person. Setting your chin on your knee, you close your eyes and wonder how things got so messed up so quickly.
Someone was threatening your work, the threats werenât directed at you personally, but with the way Spencer was acting, it might as well have been. The BAU had been called in by D.C. Metro yesterday, and that was when Spencer started acting overprotective.
The letters were demanding all of the money from a political action campaign, something you couldnât give away. The money wasnât yours to give. âAre you alright?â Spencer asks, having made his way down to his desk.
Accepting his hand up, you sigh, resting your cheek against his chest when he pulls you in for a hug. âJust a long day,â you murmur, wrapping your arms around his waist and finally letting yourself relax.
He chuckles lightly at your colossal understatement of the dayâs events, gently rubbing your back before he goes to pick his messenger bag up, slinging it over his shoulder before taking your hand, âWhat do you say we order something out for dinner?â
You hum in response, âI think itâs pretty obvious that neither of us is in the mood to cook.â You donât even need to bring up the fact that itâs eight p.m., you could be heading home at five and you still wouldnât have it in you to cook a meal. You slip your hand in his while youâre heading to the elevator, waving briefly at Hotch as he locks up his office.
Spencer lets you sit on the metro, standing until itâs time to switch lines and he finds a seat while youâre headed to Farragut North. You rest your head on his shoulder, wondering if the food you ordered on the phone was going to beat you to the apartment.
Youâre half asleep by the time you get to Van Ness, and Spencer practically drags you behind him as you exit the station and walk back to the apartment. As you expect, your food is waiting for you on the welcome mat, complete with the handwritten note from your favorite delivery driver, âGod, this smells good.â You say, holding the warm take-out containers in your arms while Spencer opens the front door.
Setting everything on the kitchen counter, you retreat briefly to the bedroom to change your clothes, pulling on an old t-shirt before returning to the kitchen, taking your container, and sitting on the couch. âAre you going to work tomorrow?â
With food in your mouth, you nod at Spencer, watching him sit down on the other end of the couch. Swallowing, you shrug, âItâs election season, Spence. This is one of my busiest times of the year.â
âBut thereâs a group of people threatening to blow up the building that you work in,â Spencer reminds you, mixing up his food with his fork.
This isnât the first time youâve had this conversation today. âAt the end of the day, itâs up to my boss to decide whether or not we get to take the day off or if we have to go into the office, and he said that anyone who doesnât come in tomorrow gets fired.â
Spencerâs gaze narrows, âI quite honestly donât care. Iâd rather we go to having a single income than have you die in a domestic terrorism incidentâ He points his fork at you, âAnd for what itâs worth, your boss is an asshole.â
You huff in recognition, now that was something you were well aware of. This job was supposed to be your way in. A stepping stone on your way to being a liaison in the White House, but the world had started to slow down from the moment you entered the world of politics. Every ounce of excitement that you had felt when you first moved to D.C. was fleeting.
Work sapped joy from your life, and everyone around you knew it.
Fiddling with your chopsticks, you dig around in your takeout container for a carrot, âDo you think we could talk about something other than work?â
âI canât stop thinking about how tonight might be my last night with you,â Spencer says morbidly, aggressively stabbing at his container. It was Spencerâs greatest blessing and his eternal damnation, being able to think so quickly and operate in a way that left his peers miles behind.
He saw the solution so plainly in front of him, standing in his pool of water with a fruit tree creating a foreboding shadow above him, but every time he reached out with the answer, you retreated. âDHS didnât think it was a credible threat,â you murmur, setting your food down on the coffee table so you can attempt to have a real conversation with him about this.
Spencer huffs in response, the hair blowing strands of his hair around his face, âDHS isnât emotionally involved in this case.â
You tilt your head to the side, âDo you think maybe youâre too close to this? What did Hotch say?â
âFuck off,â he snaps. It was an instinctive reaction to your pushing, but that didnât make the sting any less painful.
Crossing your arms in front of your stomach, you shrink back into your side of the couch, âIs that what you told Hotch, too?â You watch his reaction, the way he presses his lips together in acute shame for what he said to you, but he wonât take it back, and he wonât apologize for it. Not right now, at least.
Heâs just afraid, you try to remind yourself. Spencerâs terrified of something happening to you and he has some sort of deep-seated inability to process fear, so when he gets scared, he gets mean. Right now, he was taking his fear out on you, and if something was going to happen to you tomorrow, you didnât want him to spend his time lashing out.
You turn on the TV, flipping to a program that the both of you like before going back to your dinner, manifesting that the tense silence between the two of you turns peaceful before itâs too late.
âHey, what are you thinking about?â Nadine asks you, nudging your side gently with her elbow until you snap out of your fugue. âAre you heading home for dinner?â
Checking the time on your watch, you nod absentmindedly, âProbably,â your voice is rough from lack of use, spending so much of your day just staring at election models. You have the privilege of being the only employee who lives close enough to be able to go home for mealsâyouâd packed a lunch, but you have to stop at home for dinner.
In an unsurprising turn of events, your team was staying late at work tonight. Youâd already texted Spencer to let him know, but you doubt that he even looked at your message. âHey, at least no crazy person came and blew up the office,â she continues, noticing your melancholia.
You laugh without humor, a dry empty sound in response to your co-worker tempting fate. âYeah, at least thereâs that,â you respond, noting the strange air that remains in the suite, people are still thinking about the threat, even if theyâre too scared to say it aloud.
Walking back to the office after making a sandwich at home, you pull your phone out of your purse and try to haphazardly type out an on my way text to Nadine, but when you send it, it doesnât go through. Shaking it off, you drop your phone back in your purse and keep walking, sirens passing on the street as something goes on in the city. You think about texting Spencer again but decide against itâitâs better to give him his space.
A passing pedestrian knocks into you, getting you to lift your head to frown at him, but he just keeps running forward, not even bothering to throw a sorry over his shoulder.
âIs that building on fire?â Someone asks, and your heart sinks into your stomach at the question, picking up your own pace as tufts of smoke billow into the sky, suspiciously close to where your office is.
Thereâs a mob forming behind the police line, people who were in the middle of their commutes home when they found something to gawk at. Even people who choose to keep walking are rubbernecking, making double steps to look at the building for a split second longer. âIsnât that the councilmanâs office?â
âNo,â you breathe, watching the flames as they only grow. The crowd clutches their pearls as people ask about people jumping from the building, your friends who would rather jump and possibly survive than burn to death. People run past you to get closer while you canât do anything except watch in horror.
Itâs not until one of the windows shatters that you move again, the location of the window right next to where you and Nadine had been standing earlier. You push through the crowd, trying to reach the police barricade as people ask Metro PD for answers.
You try to duck under the police tape before someone pushes you back, âNo!â You cry, âNo, no, no! Please let me through! I work here,â you try to explain through gasping breaths, âThis is my job! These are my friends!â You shout over the ruckus, the smell of the fire filling your senses.
âMaâam, maâam,â one of the officers talks down to you, âWeâre under strict orders from the FBI that no one is allowed to get through.â His voice doesnât have an ounce of sympathy in it, and it pushes you closer to the ledge.
You point at him accusingly, âFuck your orders! Let me talk to the FBI!â Desperation oozes from you in every direction as the crowd steps away from the crazy woman shouting about the FBI. âI know them all,â you plead, âjust let me talk to them!â
The officer holds his hands out, âMaâam, I donât want to have to remove you from the scene.â
But youâve already moved on from him, noticing a familiar cascade of dark hair on the other side of the barricade, âOh my god, Emily!â Your voice is comparable to a shriek as you try to get her attention, âEmily, please!â
Relief floods your chest as her head snaps in the direction of your shouting, a confused look quickly morphing into shock as she recognizes you. âLet her through,â She calls to the officers, looking at you as if sheâs seen a ghost. âWhatâs going on?â
You run to her first, adrenaline thrumming through every part of your body as you point to the two officers who made an enemy of you, âThose two wonât fucking listen to me!â
âWe thought you were in the building,â Emily says, her tone is eerie, almost haunted.
Gasping for air, you wave your hand around at the building, babbling something about dinner and the walk while she continues to monitor your surroundings.
She places her hands on your shoulders to stop you from bouncing around, âY/N, Spencer thinks you were inside the building.â
Itâs like sheâs knocked the hair out of your lungs, you shake your head, âI wasnât. I was at home. I left forâŚâ your voice trails off at the realization that at this very moment, Spencer thinks youâre dead. At the very least he thinks youâre trapped inside of that building when you very likely couldâve been at the apartment that you share while the fire was set.
âReid!â Emily calls into her radio, rolling her eyes in frustration, âHe took his earbud out.â
You tug at her arm, âWhere is he?â Your voice broke, grief flooding your eyes as she communicated with the team.
She nods her head to the left, âHeâs on the north side of the building.â
Not even waiting for her to finish her sentence, you took off in a full sprint, ignoring other people looking at you like youâre insane because the only thing you can think of is getting to Spencer. âSpencer!â You shout, your voice ragged from running, throat swelling with emotion as you scream for him.
JJ sees you first, âReid!â
And you see him. It looks like Derekâs holding him back, stopping him from running into the building when you call out again, âSpence!â
He turns just in time to catch you, nearly toppling onto the ground as you launch yourself at him, wrapping your arms around him while he holds you so tightly that your feet lift off of the ground.
âYeah, Emily,â Derek says into his radio, âWeâve got her.â
Your hands tremble with an assortment of emotions as you grip the straps of his Kevlar vest, depending on him to keep you standing, âIâm okay,â you babble, âI wasnât in there.â
âIâm sorry,â Spencer responds, burying his face in your neck, you hold him impossibly tight as his tears hit your skin, eliciting a sob from the back of your throat.
You gasp, âI know. Itâs okay. Iâm okay,â you repeat like a mantra, a collection of words that needs to be tattooed on his brain. âWeâre okay,â you tell him, smiling faintly as he walks backward to an ambulance, neither of you faltering in your grip of the other.
It seems like every cell that made up his body is shaking as he holds you, âIâm so sorry,â he apologizes again. This time itâs deeper. Heâs apologizing for his behavior, sure, but heâs apologizing for this event.
A cry bubbles in your throat. Everything was gone. Your friends were gone. The last two years of your life burnt to ashes.
And when you lose your footing and you otherwise wouldâve fallen to the ground, Spencer keeps you up, his grip holding you togetherâkeeping you close.
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â What dating the blue lock characters feels like (pt 2)
Dating Sae Itoshi includes matching earrings, having your initial dangling in his dominant leg (so every time he scores he dedicates the goals to you), having you in the back of his phone, being mean to everyone but you, buying you everything you want, giving you his password to all his socials, buying you flowers every week, slow dancing in the rain, watching hello kitty with you, kissing you on the back of your hand <3
Dating Shidou Ryusui includes bear hugs!!, slapping your ass every time he gets a chance, biting you randomly, love hate relationship, "shut up" x "make me", would try to be romantic (it does not work), would always expect you watching his games, looking at you in the crowd if he scores a goal, making boys near you cry because he dosnt want them to steal you away from him
Dating Otoya Eita includes kissing you on the neck, painting each other's nails in the color of black, wearing a pink scrunchie you gave him as a joke he now won't remove it from his arm, giving you his hoodie, acts of service, only wearing this specific perfume when you guys meet, pocky game (he would purposely lose)
Dating Tabito Karasu includes flirting with you in front of your friends, matching lego heart keychain, giving you cute random things and saying "my chick number 7 gave this to me, i don't need it so you can have it" that's a lie, he spended 3 days deciding what to give you, carrying you like a sack around, matching sneakers
Dating Alexis Ness includes worshipping you like a goddess, loving every single part of you, carrying an extra ponytail for you, buying you snacks, being very possessive, always wanting to wear matching clothes, words of affirmation and physical touch!!, telling his teamates about how good and kind you are, literally making you experience any kind of dates ex: beach dates, museum dates, stargazing dates, always wanting to touch any part of your body; arms, cheeks, hands
Dating Hiori Yo includes arcade dates!!, winning you stuff toys in claw machines, gaming dates, photobooth dates, physical touch and quality time!!, cuddling while raining, playing games even if your horrible, the beds in minecraft being side by side, carrying you in literally any game, sending you spotify lyrics that he thinks relates to your relationship with him, watching netflix together during summer vacation
Dating Noel Noa includes waking up during weekends with him serving you breakfast in bed, carrying you around like a teddy, all love language, gifting you extravagant gifts everyday, leaving you colorful sticky notes in the counter everyday with daily reminders such as "don't forget to drink water" or "i'm going home late, you should sleep early today"
Dating Ikki Nikko includes only letting you touch his hair, cafe dates, letting you have his drink if you like it more, gifting you a giant teddy on your birthday, would always update you through chat, sending you spotify playlists, handwritten letters, sending memes to eachother, dreaming about being married and adopting 5 cats
Dating Yukimiya Kenyu includes neck kisses!, ranting about all his problems to you at 3 am while cuddling, taking pictures of you every time you go out, his wallpaper being you (he changes his wallpaper every week), just because flowers, photographer x model, always having your favorite food in his bag
Dating Charles Chevalier includes painting each other's nails with the eye color of each other, him only listening to you, sunshine x grumpy, always asking for headpats, booping your nose, watching disney every night before going to bed, expecting you to feed him every time you go out
idk guys kasasu and otoya feels ooc, I THINK IT'S VERY HARD TO WRITE ABOUT THEM SINCE I FEEL LIKE THEY'RE RED FLAGS AND I REALLY DON'T KNOW ABOUT THEIR PERSONALITY THAT MUCH..... (sorry karasu and otoya fans đđ) but anw hope you all still like it âđťđ¤
btw PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SUGGEST ANYTHING TO WRITE IM HAVING WRITERS BLOCK LOL
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Could you write a continuation of yandere satosugu where the reader lived and they try everything to help her get better and care for her?
| making up for mistakes | yandere satosugu x reader |
-> continuation of the first part: link đ
you had survived the almost suicide attempt you so carefully & yet so carelessly attempted. you were sure you werenât getting up after this. damn it you made sure to hit your head hard, you could see blanks, you could see stars in your eyes until it all faded to a peaceful nothing-ness.
now, youâre awake again. nothing hurts. you know they mustâve told their friend shoko to aid in your injuries. you feel like youâve woken up from a long slumber. unwanted as it may be⌠it does make you feel eerily refreshed. you stretch your limbs from the bed, theyâre going to kill you for this. kill you for hampering with their property. oh well ��� at this point youâre fine with it. whatâs it going to do? hurt you. pain is all there is they could ever offer anyways. maybe you can scream out and wish it gets over. thatâs all you set your mind to.
you look to the side, the curtains are open and there is a little drizzle of snow. it brings a smile to your face. what if you hadnât been kidnapped? it wouldâve been so fun to hop into one of the lovely cafes you like & order some hot cocoa. put both your hands and wrap them around the ceramic of the hot cup and exhale in utter relaxation of the aroma the sweet cafe has to offer. oh⌠happy days.
its nauseating what your life is now, wrapping a blanket around yourself and checking down below. you are wearing clothes, decent clothes⌠not the sultry, slutty ones that satoru forces you to wear. you feel like you could throw up when the reminder occurs again. beaten up like you were nothing but an animal, throwing up in pain and anxiety--
"there we go! princess! awake! oh my god!" satoru comes in and hugs you tightly, his bulky arms wrapping against you, he doesn't let your mind have the time to panic. besides, satoru was... not the one who inflicted you that pain. even though he did nothing about it, in a moment of pure misery, your mind would latch on to him for comfort. "baby- you scared daddy, please don't do that ever again. fuck! i thought i lost you." you could hear the heartbeats on your snow haired man, they were ragged and reminded of the same panic you once bore.
"sorry." your eyes lack all emotions, just a soft murmur escaping you. the haunting realization that you were alive was eating you up. even so, it was your soul that had died. it's the dejected way you answered that makes satoru panic even more. immediately at your knees, leaning against your thighs and mumbling soft apologies, tears wetting your skin. "please baby, I'm so sorry, i should never have let that happen... you did a mistake that's all! you- you- pissed us off." he shakes his head, hugging you tightly.
your hands robotically landed across his hair, caressing. "it's okay, i did wrong, i understand."
your responses were making him nauseous, he hated seeing you in pain, but suguru always says its something that's needed. why is it needed? you're not an animal, are you? the ways with which satoru and suguru try to 'discipline' their toy they are delusional enough to call their lover is insane.
"i got breakfast, little one." now, your heart sinks. you hear the voice of the man who did this to you, mothering, now that his rage is faded into pure, eviscerating guilt. "you have no idea the joy it gives me seeing you awake." suguru hums, and you latch onto satoru, hugging him tightly. satoru's heart skips a beat. this was not the first time you had reached out to him, yet, you did it by your own. it gives him a sick sense of protectiveness. "he wouldn't do anything to ya baby, suguru loves you too." he reminds, looking at a devastated suguru.
"please don't hurt yourself again, angel" suguru hums, leaning in and kissing your forehead. it makes you sick to your stomach, how they treat you right now. you know that whatever you did yielded no results. and they are ever so careful about the same. you're pretty sure you'd have either of them by your side at all times.
"let's go and eat, suguru's made your favorite!" satoru chirps, happily holding you princess-style and going to the dining area. your eyes wandered to the other room on the way, the same room where this all happened, it's making you panic internally. the grotesque reminder of how they treated you. you're about to throw up again.
as soon as satoru puts you down, you run to throw up in disgust, nothing comes out except a few drops of water. your stomach is empty as is. a large, looming hand caresses your back. "I'm sorry, angel. please relax." suguru-- it's suguru...
"i'm sorry." you answered, "i am so sorry." you nodded to get back to the dining area, you should know better than to be with satoru. its not like suguru wouldn't do anything he wants anyways... you'd just like to have some comfort over it.
luckily for you, the breakfast went fine, you were eating quietly, while satoru just observed you. how uncomfortable you looked, the subtle shift in your demeanor. every tiny thing. suguru is essentially doing the same, gazing at your way and observing you. "you look beautiful." suguru comments, and you force a smile from the deepest pits of your psyche. "thank you, suguru."
you know he's ticked off, you need to call them 'daddy' and you're here, addressing them by their first names. sigh... they just have to help you heal, there isn't anything they can do about it really. they pushed you this far, and they should make up for it.
however, as days turn into weeks, satoru and suguru are forced to face the haunting realization that your mental and physical health is worsening. you barely eat, barely talk... you just, stare into the nothingness of empty spaces. satoru has avoided missions to take care of you. he is by your side, sleeps next to you, kisses your forehead, helps you take a shower. while earlier, you tried to at least pretend and work with it. answer however you could, talk to them, fake your smiles, now its nothing. you barely talk.
this time, satoru has a mission to take care of, but suguru is the one who's spending time with you. gently placing you on the bathtub, caressing your forearm, massaging it, decorating it with petals. "there we go little girl, there we go. feels nice?" he coos, and when you don't respond, sighs weakly. he wishes he could at least hear something out of you. when he sees you immersed in auto-pilot, he hums by himself; "yes, yes it is." he has to talk to himself in hopes that its you talking to him. "you know, me and satoru... we were thinking a trip to Italy sounds nice, or maybe Paris.." you used to love travelling, he hopes that would utter out a response from you. NOTHING comes out of you however. that makes suguru's heart break a little, "or maybe, anywhere that you like." he hums, sighing.
"angel?" he asks softly, leaning in and kissing your neck, maybe that would at least earn some leaning back. your resistance...
none.
"talk to me for fucks sake!" suguru snarls, glaring hard at you. you don't even flinch at that, contrary to your earlier flinching and tweaking. a sigh escapes him and then comes bubbling tears. he has truly fucked you up. the haunting realization finally hits him. he can't live with it anymore... it's choking the very fiber of his being.
the rest of the shower passes by in a haze, and suguru is quiet, tears dripping from his face. "what should i do so that you become normal again?" he asks again, pouting and begging with his eyes. no response...
he gets up after tucking you in bed. the dark circles in your eyes are an explicit example of how less you're sleeping. sometimes you wake up with irritating nightmares, screaming and crying. that's the only moment when satoru and suguru are welcomed by your affections.
suguru sighs, he needs to win you this time. or maybe... what's that called? stockholm syndrome?
or maybe, he needs to discuss with satoru about erasing your memory...
or maybe, he needs a curse that can shove your memory off and then they can date you.. from scratch...
either way, they're not leaving you. anytime soon.
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maxxed out the tags but this smau and this chapter has my whole heart <3 I love you ness and I love you try again <3 I feel like mush /pos
try again
part 0.4. NEXT TIME
"the playground seemed so big when they were younger. and now theyâre here again, 10 years later, and it looks small. their world is bigger than just this playset now. the metal that forms the foundation of the structure is still a shiny, vibrant red, but the cracked, faded plastic shows its age. where has time gone? 'who are you now?' she wants to ask. as a kid, time goes by slowly, and you tell your parents you canât wait to grow old. they tell you to enjoy your childhood, but you never believe them. and even now, sheâs not sure she does. she's not old, but old enough to know time goes by fast. since their meeting in her office, sheâs reflected more on how sheâs grown up. she doesnât miss her childhoodâ she likes the freedom that has come with adulthood, but at the same time, itâs slowly weighing her down. sheâs old enough, that she can no longer spend her summers relaxed in a quiet house, laying in bed all day with the door open while both her parents are at work. she can't spend the nights stretched out on her back, against wet, dewy grass, looking at the stars with him while staining her favorite shirt. now she has responsibilities to take care of every day, and any little mistake can no longer be taken back. sheâs an adult now, and no one is there to pick her up when she falls."
content warnings + notes: calling atsumu a little cupid whore (/lh), drinking, pay attention to unsent messages :) very long written part... oops </3
she downs the last of her glass in one go.Â
itâs cheap whiskey, and she hates the taste. itâs probably the worst sheâs ever had, but the burn down her throat is a little pleasant.Â
completely going against her plan to drink something light, she decided she would need some liquid courage if she was going to do this. her hands are splayed across the cold bar counter as she stands from her chair, mind buzzing a little as she grounds herself.Â
akaashi doesnât notice her absence in his drunken state, but iwaizumi does. kita looks up as well, but remains seated, keeping akaashi company after nodding to iwaizumi who stands up.
âwhere are you going?â he asks following her out of the bar, pushing past a few groups of people in their way. he's not asking it like he's accusing her of anything, he just sounds concerned.
but he doesnât need to worry, and she faces him as they make it out. âgoing to see omi,â she practically sings the answer, her voice careless as the nickname spills out of her mouth before she even realizes it. it comes too naturally to her, and the thought ruins the nice numbness in her veins from the alcohol. instead, she starts to feel the guilt build up again.
iwaizumi still stands in front of her, arms crossed, matching her own stance. âyouâre going to see sakusa?â he repeats, brows raised.
âmhm,â she hums, shifting from one foot to the other. her shoes are starting to bother her, too. she'll probably take them off as soon as iwaizumi lets her go.
âwhere?â
she sighs, starting to feel restless just standing there. the warm lights and ruckus from inside the bar invite her back in, and so does the pull she feels in the opposite direction down the street, where she'll see him. âan old park, can i go?â
âno, hold on,â he stops her before she can even take a step, âyouâre going to go meet a man you havenât talked to in years after a single interaction at a park this late at night?â
âyes?â she quirks a brow at him, âitâs an old park we used to go to a lot. itâs not far from here. and i know him. iâll be okay.â
âiâm not saying sakusaâs going to do anything to you, but iâm not letting you walk there alone. especially when youâve been drinking. let me make sure you get there safely and then iâll leave you, deal?â he proposes, and she sees how much he cares in his eyes. theyâre a pretty olive green, and despite how sharp they are, thereâs so much love in them. it reminds her of her own eyes, and how she feels when she looks at sakusa; her head starts to panic in alarm and get defensive, but at the same time, her heart slows down, as if telling her he's safe.
she knows iwaizumi makes a good point, and thereâs nothing wrong with having a little extra safety, or a human purse. âfine,â she sighs, âbut only if you hold my shoes.â
their walk to the park is silent, but itâs a peaceful silence. sheâs walking next to him barefoot, feeling even shorter than before. he questions her a few times, to make sure she actually knows where sheâs going, and she insists that she does. sheâs had a little bit to drink, yes, but sheâs not drunk. and she's confident she could still find her way to this park blindfolded. sheâs walked these sidewalks hundreds of times, ran to this park from every direction and route possible. it was always their spot, whether they lay in the wet grass or sat on the playset. the memories of being with him back then make her feel a little grim, and iwaizumi looks down at her, noticing.
âyou okay?â he asks, nudging her shoulder closest to him with his arm.
âyeah,â she sighs, watching the way her shoes clank against each other in his hand with every step they take.
âwhatâre you thinking?â he asks, still looking down at her and she looks back up at him.
âi just donât know what iâm doing,â she says, trying to voice her feelings while she turns to stare back ahead of them. âwhat are we gonna do? what does he like doing now? what if iâve changed and he doesnât like who i am anymore? i'm so scared of disappointing him.â
âyouâre good enough as you are, y/n,â he silences her and she glances back at him in surprise. âdonât let this guy change how you see yourself. youâre good as you are, and if he doesnât think so, he can fuck off. there's no such thing as an expectation or a right way for you to act. heâs probably changed too, and thatâs just how people work. did he text you or did you text him?â
she gives him a smile at his words, nudging him back with her shoulder as a way of thanking him, âhe texted me.â
he gives her a grin at that, âhe texted you? asking to see you?â when she nods he continues, "damn that's ballsy. he really wants you, y/n. and i hope he's a good person. iâve seen him around and worked a little bit with him, he seems alright.â Â
she flusters a little bit at his words, âiâm sure itâs not like that. we just used to be very good friends, you know that. iâve never stopped missing him, maybe he felt a little bit of the same way.â
he nods at her words, giving a hum in thought. theyâre walking along the fence thatâs been set up around the park, and she can see the entrance coming up, where a lone lamp post is lighting the way. âbut you want him, donât you?â
she knows heâs asking it in a romantic sense, and she does. she knows what she feels for him is more than just friendly, and sheâs felt stupid for never being able to fall in love with anyone else because sheâs been stuck on him this entire time. âiâm happy with anything,â she decides to say, âif we start hanging out again, thatâs enough for me. i just want him to be a part of my life.â
they stop at the park entrance, and she can see the playset from here, just a bit down the path. âdo you want me to walk you there? or are youâre fine from here? i think the walk helped you sober up a little bit, so i feel better about leaving you here now. just make sure you text me if you feel even slightly off, got it?â
âgot it!â she responds with a smile, giving him a small salute as a joke. âthank you for walking me here, iwa. i'll be fine on my own now and iâll text you when i'm walking home.â
he rolls his eyes at the salute but gives her a smile, âsounds good. iâll check in with you then as well. i might come meet you halfway or who knows, maybe your guy will want to walk you home?â
heâs giving her another shitty grin that sheâd like to slap off his face, and itâs her turn to roll her eyes, âwhatever, iwa. see you in a little bit.â
she pulls him into a hug, trying to tell him all her feelings at once, thanking him for his advice and for walking her here, and heâs quick to reciprocate it, rubbing her back for a second before they pull away. he gives her her shoes and waves her off, making sure she steps onto the playground before he leaves, and she sees him.
tonight, it seems theyâll be sitting on the top of the playset, above a tube that connects one platform to another. she steps up onto one of the platforms first, dropping her shoes on it before clambering on top of the structure.
he offers her a hand after watching her (probably ungraceful) climb which she hesitates to take for a second. her heart feels like it's trying to escape her chest as she takes it, the contact sending chills along her skin.
âhi,â she whispers after she's sat down, stealing a glance at him, unsure of where to start.
âhi,â he says back, already looking at her. he looks better than when she saw him last, but perhaps that's just because today has been better for him. there are still bags under his eyes that she can see despite the lack of light around them, but she can also see that his eyes look brighter today. she wants to mention it, say sheâs glad to see that he looks like he's doing well today, but she shouldnât. itâs too earlyâ
âyou look good today.â
the words spill out of her mouth and she immediately slaps a hand over it. she had drank more after texting him purposefully, knowing that it would mess with her ability to reason and this was the consequence, although she wasn't sure yet if it was a positive or negative one.
he laughs in response, giving her a small smile that she hasnât seen in years. she missed seeing it; she missed him.
âthank you,â he says, holding her gaze and sheâs unable to look away, âyou look good too. although maybe a little drunk.â
her cheeks are burning red and she feels hot despite the fact that she was practically shivering the entire way here, latching onto iwaizumi and his body heat. âno iâ wellâ yes, i have been drinking but i didnât mean it that wayâ i mean you do look goodââ she has to take a deep breath, trying to calm herself down, âi meant you look happier today, sorry.â
heâs still looking at her, smiling. and maybe itâs a tiny bit bigger than it was before, and she smiles back.
she has no idea itâs because of herâthat he seems happier today. heâs only just found her again after so many years apart, and yet heâs glad sheâs in his life again. this is only the second time theyâve seen each other after so long, and sheâs already had this big of an impact on him. and maybe it was due to atsumuâs influence, and the way that he kept bringing her up, and how it had been their entire conversation over dinner, but he didnât really care. he was happy to be talking about her again, and to see her again. they had been so close, and it felt strangely nostalgic whenever he saw her, as if he was a child again, tossing and turning on a bed stand, sick to his stomach for home.
but he had been homesick for her this entire time, and he didnât want to talk about her as if their time together had passed; he wanted to be close to her again. but only if she let him: âthat guy you came here with, are you guysââ
âoh, no no no,â she immediately cuts him off, shaking her head before he gets the wrong idea. âheâs just a friend. my roommates and i went out to dinner today and then we went drinking. he just didnât want me to walk here alone.â
he nods, feeling strangely relieved to hear that. âi just came from eating out with my roommates, too. i cut it short because one of them was being annoying.â
she hums in thought, a smile breaking out on her face, âhm, that canât possibly be atsumu, can it?â
he canât even joke back, just rolls his eyes with a sigh at the mention of his friend.
âi just texted him earlier tonight. finally scolded him for setting up that entire meeting between us. i meanâ who even thinks to do something like that?â
âjust him. heâs got one brain cell working for him and itâs got a funny way of working,â sakusa responds, looking forward to the field in front of them. they used to spin around on that field, trying to stay standing the longest before they both fell onto wet grass, too dizzy to keep standing. âi think it worked out nice, but there were definitely other ways he could have planned that out.â
she canât help but look at him, slightly surprised. so he was happy to see her? perhaps she shouldâve understood that by now; here they were sitting side by side on an old playset. âyeah, it did,â she canât help but say, not even thinking twice about agreeing with him. âand if you donât mind me bringing it up, do you think you will come back for a second meeting? i was just wondering.â
âyeah, iâm thinking about it,â he answers, still not looking at her, and she thinks maybe she shouldnât have asked the question. sheâs brought the topic of conversation back to her job, and reminded herself of everything she shouldnât be doing right now. she shouldnât be doing any of this. sheâs looking forward to seeing him in her office again, but she shouldnât. she should be treating him as a client, not as an old face or a silly old crush. and she shouldnât be seeing him outside of the office; it ruins that professional relationship she should be trying to maintain. she's giving into him too easily, even after he had been the one to accuse her of something hurtful upon their first words to each other in years.
a particularly cold wind blows through and she shivers, breathing in sharply as her shoulders raise towards her ears on instinct, trying to protect them from the cold. in her defense, she hadn't foreseen sitting on a playset in the middle of the night today and had not dressed accordingly.
âare you cold?â he asks, hand already reaching towards the open black jacket he was wearing, a plain white shirt underneath.
sheâs looking at him, face completely blank. her mind is so far gone, thinking about countless other things, including every single way this interaction could go. âwhat was she even doing here? why did she agree to come?â the moment he texted her she put up little to no resistance. she lasted one text, trying to set up a boundary between them to prevent herself from getting hurt and then completely dropped it. how could he be so casual about seeing her again? was their friendship something shallow to him? something he could easily replace or come back to?
heâs saying her name, and her mind returns to the boy in front of her, blinking twice before responding, âsorry. i was just thinking about something. iâm fine. you donât need to give me your jacket or anything.â
âbut if i want to?â he asks and this is where she failed last time, and will fail again, and will always fail, because she can never resist him.
âiââ
the jacket is already around her shoulders before she knows it. itâs warm, and the weight of it on top of her shoulders is comforting. the smell of him is enveloping all of her senses and her entire mind, and she squeezes her eyes shut, trying to focus on anything but it.
it was simple, and really not that heavy or distinctive of a smell. just clean clothesâhis detergent, and maybe a hint of lemon or lavender. it was easy to get used to, and it had become familiar to her after being around him so long in the past, but she hadnât smelled it in so long, she felt like she was suffocating now. with the smell came so many memories associated with him, and it took everything in her not to let out a shaky breath, giving away her emotions.
he didnât know what to say, looking at her. her chin was resting on top of her knees, pulled up close against her chest, and her eyes were closed, brows furrowed as if she was trying desperately to hold something in. had he come off too strongly? he liked to think he still knew her, could read her mind, tell when she was cold, and when she needed something, but maybe he was wrong, or just moving too fast. maybe she didnât feel the same way, and didnât want to be friends again.
âthanks,â she murmurs finally, eyes opening again, although sheâs staring at the ground below them, and heâs unsure of where to lookâat her, or the ground as well.
âyeah,â he replies, and the conversation falls quiet between them again.
itâs almost comfortable between them. it would be if she wasn't feeling like she was ruining everything and only digging herself a bigger hole. maybe they went quiet because he was sick of her now, and regretted asking to see her. and should she even care or not? should she get up and leave right now? what was the right thing to do right now, objectively? not what was right according to her heart, but according to her head?
she should be keeping her distance from him, not allowing him to get closer, giving him the chance to hurt her again. he had let them get distant, she reminded herself. he had let their friendship crumble without saying a word, he didnât see her the way she saw him, and she couldnât rely on him to be there for her.
âhow are you?â he breaks the silence, and the question sets off every nerve in her body. itâs like her mind is being torn in two, trying to find an answer to the simple question. itâs not really that simpleâ heâs asking it, referring to the last 10 years of her life, and heâs asking her to be vulnerable and share about herself, and she canât do that.
âdonât do that to me,â she says, shutting her eyes again.
âdo what?â heâs looking at her, at his jacket draped around her shoulders, and shoves his hands in his pockets, trying to hold himself back from reaching out to fix her hair, which has been slightly caught underneath the jacket.Â
she lets out a heavy, quiet breath, âdonât ask me thatâ like you care.â
âi do care,â he responds immediately, and sheâs sure if she looked up at him, heâd be looking at her. but if she looks at him, sheâll break.
âwe shouldnât be doing this. we canât be doing this. i shouldnât be seeing you outside of my office. i listened to you talk about your struggles for an hour that you would've otherwise paid for if it wasn't the first meeting. you canât turn around and ask how i am for free. thatâs not fair. we should be nothing more than a therapist and a client. itâs easier for me to look at you that way becauseââ her voice gets caught in her throat for a second as she tries to talk confidently, but her voice gives away her feelings. she sounds like sheâs on the verge of tears before they even reach her eyes, but she blinks through them, âbecause i look at you and still see what we used to be. but so much happened between us, and then you left, and that still hurts.â
âthen will you let me make it up to you? then can we go back to what we were before? and can we be more?â the words are heavy in his head, and too forward to say out loud, but he has to say something. he has to say something now because he didnât say anything back then.
he had always assumed that she had just been disappearing from his life altogetherâfrom his notifications, the school hallways, and his walks home, but he realized now she had done that on purpose. she had purposely removed herself from his life so they would never see each other, and he had never stopped her. of course she hadnât believed him, when he had said it was good to see her in her office, and of course she hadnât fully understood what his ulterior motives were when he texted her out of the blue about wanting to see her again, because he had never showed how much he cared back then. but he had to tell her now that she was worth everything.
âi donât mind paying it,â he ends up saying, and finally gets her to look at him, âi donât mind paying to see you for an hour. iâd pay to be around you anyday, especially if youâre going to refuse to see me anywhere else, then iâll just force you to put up with me for an hour every week.â
she laughs with a shake of her head, âyouâre not forcing me to see you. i want to see you outside of that timeâŚi justâi shouldnât.â
âwhy not?â he canât help but ask. âyouâre still friends with atsumu, too. you text him outside of your appointments all the time.â
âyes butââ i like you more than a friend. hell, iâve been in love with you for the past 10 years of my life. actually, probably for even longer, but whoâs even counting at this pointâ she takes a deep breath again. she should leave soon, and think about this. sheâs going to end up letting him convince her if she keeps listening to him, âmaybe next time. iâll tell you how iâve been next time, okay?â
sheâs giving him a next time, and heâll take whatever he can get. they can start slow again. being her client is like being her acquaintance. people are always acquaintances before theyâre friends; they can grow from here.
"when is next time?" he responds quickly, realizing it sounds like sheâs going to stand up and leave soon, but he's not losing sight of her again.
she avoids looking at him, keeping her knees are pulled to her chest as she picks at the worn-down plastic of the playground tube they're sitting on, "i don't know, sakusa. i really need time to think about all of this. i donât know what iâm doing here, or why i showed up tonight.â
her words feel like a burn in his lungs, but even when his sides are aching on his morning runs, he keeps going. "but you showed up anyway."
she finally looks at him, and he swears he could get lost in her eyes forever. he canât believe he went through their entire friendship without telling her how beautiful she was, in every single way. he canât believe he ever let go of her. perhaps that cliche saying was true, that you never know how important something really is until you lose it.
"i did," she echoes, continuing to stare into his own eyes.
"are you going to leave?" he asks, unable to look away.
she looks back down at the threads of green plastic she was pulling at, and his eyes follow. they used to meet at this playset all the time. during the summer, when sheâd sleep over, theyâd stay up until three in the morning, and then sheâd nudge him about sneaking out. he used to worry about what would happen if his parents checked on them and saw that they were gone if they sneaked out, but she always ended up convincing him in the end. they rarely fought or had disagreements. with enough talking, they always managed to persuade the other to agree with them.
âi am. because we both need time to think. you need to think about if youâre going to see me again for therapy and i just need to think. about everything," she replies, and he watches her grab the edge of the tube, steadying herself as she moves to stand before he slides himself off the tube onto the ground below. itâs not that far of a drop for him now, although it was the scariest drop ever as a kid. now he stands eye level with most of the playset, but she's looking at him like it's still that big of a fall, mouth slightly agape in surprise.
âiâll help you down,â he says with a smile and she blinks.
âno, iâm fineââ her words die out as he looks at her, brows raised in expectancy. this is what he meant: they were always able to push the other to do something, no matter how much they tried to resist in the beginning.
she lets out a sigh, trying to buy time as she fixes her skirt, preparing herself to slip off the tube. it really shouldn't be that scary, but she exclaims as she drops, barely registering the hands on the sides of her waist that catch her while her own clamp down on his shoulders.
her face is red as he lowers her down gently to the ground. whether itâs from the embarrassing noise she let out or the fact that he caught her, sheâs not sure. maybe itâs both. even when he lets go of her, she can feel his hands on her still, as if they've been permanently etched into her skin. heâs looking down at her, and thereâs a hint of playfulness in his eyes and the smile on his lips. he's too close to her, and she can't stop looking at his lips so she looks down at the ground instead, clutching at the jacket around her shoulders before she remembers itâs not hers.
âoh, hereâs your jacket back,â she starts, moving to take off the piece of clothing before he stops her with a hand over he own.
âyou can keep it for a little longer if youâ if you let me walk you home,â he says, on the verge of losing all of his confidence, but he just canât let go of her. he doesn't want to watch her leave, but he knows she needs a break.
she looks up at him, feeling like her lips are quivering with how nervous and flustered she feels, âyou donât have to do that, really. i can walk home by myself.â
âbut if i want to?â
itâs a repeat of a conversation they had earlier, because she can never give him a complete no, and he always knows to take that as a yes.
sheâs ruining everything sheâs trying to do for herself right now. sheâs trying to set a boundary between them, and horribly failing. because what if he walks her home, and he happens to live nearby again? what if they start to see each other more often? or worst of all, what if he ends up leaving again?
well what if he doesnât?
oh, whatever.
fuck the what ifs.
they can try again.
.
.
.
"it's gonna rain soon / and pull me back in.
"i had the words / you thought a hundred times
"oh darlin' / will you still walk me back home?'"
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not really any extras! i just hope u enjoyed <3 and that this chapter was good and not too long or just a bunch of rambles!! i had like three ideas i had randomly wrote down and then just copied and pasted into this chapter and was trying to make them all fit đ
IWAIZUMI AND Y/N HAVE A PLATONIC SIBLING-TYPE RELATIONSHIP!!! JUST MAKING THAT CLEAR also i'm a sucker for iwaizumi but that's besides the point
omi just kind of got up and left at some point during dinner when atsumu got tipsy and started talking to shoyo and bo. he said goodbye to osamu and then left
they all have each other's locations anyway and shoyo and bokuto trust him to know what he's doing
kita, akaashi, and iwa ended up going home soon after iwa got back from walking y/n to the park and then he and kita stayed up all night waiting for her to come home while akaashi was passed out <3
this fic lowkey goes a little bit off the rails!! but hopefully u guys enjoy it <33
AND I KEEP FORGETTING TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THIS I'VE KIND OF LOST IT NOW!! but y/n's pfp is a pufferfish because they symbolize protecting yourself and setting boundaries <3 interpret that as u will
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Hi Hi !!! I really love your fics
Can I request a gn reader who loves to manhandle the BL boys (Kinda like aggressive affection).
Thank you, and have a good day :D
CANT ESCAPE MY AFFECTION!
ÂˇË ŕź ęą summary bluelock boys with an s/o who loves aggressive affection
ÂˇË ŕź ęą characters isagi yoichi , bachira meguru , itoshi rin , nagi seishiro , mikage reo , chigiri hyoma , hiori yo , shidou ryusei , itoshi sae , michael kaiser , alexis ness
ÂˇË ŕź ęą warning lowercase intended , gn reader
ÂˇË ŕź ęą a/n idk how - but im pretty sure this flopped :sob: so sorry nonnie :( <3
ÂˇË ŕź ęą isagi yoichi
isagi is kind of taken aback at first, because heâs more used to subtle affection (kinda), but when you pull him into a bear hug and start giving him smothering kisses, heâs so down.
heâs always flustered, trying to return the affection but not quite knowing how to keep up with your energy. when you go in for a kiss, he literally freezes, and you have to drag him in.
"yoichi, c'mere, i don't bite! >:/ "
"w-wait, canât you, uh, just take it slow- đĽ˛"
"nope, i'm coming for you whether you like it or not!"
"i... okay? đ
"
ÂˇË ŕź ęą bachira meguru
bachira lives for it. heâs all about that playful, chaotic love. heâll give you the most dramatic responses and egg you on.
if you get overly affectionate, heâll tease you by trying to run away and play âcatch me if you can,â but then heâll let you tackle him because he loves the aggressive attention. itâs like his personal sport.
"bachira, i'm not letting you go today!"
"haha, i can totally outrun you! try me!"
"watch me catch you!"
"ah, you did it! but only because i let you."
"you're so annoying, iâm kissing you anyway."
ÂˇË ŕź ęą itoshi rin
to put it simply... rinâs not used to this level of affection ( at all ), but once he realizes youâre serious about it, he melts đŤ . heâll let you drag him into all the kisses, but he might act like heâs annoyed at first.
heâll do that thing where he crosses his arms and smirks while youâre all over him, but secretly, heâs a little soft on the inside. once you start kissing his neck or leaning on him aggressively, heâs completely done for.
"ew, stop that."
"iâm literally hugging you wdym. D:"
"do it again."
"i- fine by me."
ÂˇË ŕź ęą nagi seishiro
nagi is lwk confused at first ( :x face and all ), but when you pounce on him and wrap your arms around his neck, he just goes with the flow. heâs so relaxed and chill about the whole thing, and honestly? he really likes being adored.
he might just let you do all the aggressive cuddling, because itâs easier than fighting you. if you push for more, heâll pretend to be a little annoyed, but in reality, heâs soaking up every moment.
"sei, youâre stuck with me today, deal with it."
"can i, like, not deal with it?"
"nope, too bad."
"âŚfine. iâll just enjoy the cuddles."
ÂˇË ŕź ęą mikage reo
reo is the most dramatic when it comes to aggressive affection, but heâs secretly obsessed with it. if you hug him from behind and cover his face in kisses, heâs all âoh no, how will i survive?â but he loves it.
he might complain, but heâs always the first to pull you closer and make sure youâre comfortable. even if heâs acting all sophisticated, heâs a softie for your wild love.
"reo, iâm not done yet!"
"oh nooo, iâm going to be suffocated by love!"
"youâre so dramatic."
ÂˇË ŕź ęą chigiri hyoma
chigiri is a bit flustered at first because heâs not sure how to handle all your aggressive affection, but heâll warm up to it. he loves being lovedâhe just needs a moment to process.
if youâre all over him, heâll take it in stride. heâll laugh it off and act cool, but you can totally tell heâs enjoying it. maybe he gets a little shy when you shower him with kisses, but he definitely melts into your arms when you do.
"chigiri, youâre not getting away today!"
"what do you mean? iâm always getting away!"
"not today, my love."
"youâre a menace." ( lovingly )
ÂˇË ŕź ęą hiori yo
hiori is soft about it. like- he doesnât even try to escape. you could probably lift him off the ground with a hug, and heâd just be like âokay, this is happening.â
he loves the attention, and heâs so gentle back, giving you the same level of affection in return. he might blush a bit, but heâs more than happy to let you shower him with attention.
"yo, hiori, you're stuck with me."
"uh-huh, iâm fine with that."
"youâre so cute when you get all shy."
"youâre the cute one here."
ÂˇË ŕź ęą shidou ryusei
shidou absolutely thrives in this environment. he loves being manhandled, basically. if you aggressively kiss his neck or give him a bear hug, heâs probably gonna pretend to act like heâs annoyed, but secretly? heâs loving it.
he might challenge you, though. like, âyou think you can take me on?â but deep down, heâs ready to be held, kissed, and adored however you want.
"iâm gonna keep kissing you until you canât breathe."
"oh? bring it on, iâll kiss you back harder."
"youâre such a brat."
ÂˇË ŕź ęą itoshi sae
sae acts as cool as ever, but when you pull him into a tight hug and kiss him aggressively, heâs completely unbothered. he wonât show it, but you can tell he really likes it.
he might keep his face neutral, but his hands are definitely moving to pull you in closer, and heâll even wrap his arm around you to make sure you stay put. he wonât say it, but heâs so happy to be adored by you.
"youâre clingy today .. more than usual."
"you bet i am. deal with it."
"oh well."
ÂˇË ŕź ęą michael kaiser
kaiser is such a dramatic baby. he acts like heâs too important for aggressive affection, but the second you throw yourself at him, heâs all âyes, this is exactly what i wanted.â
he makes a big show of rolling his eyes, but you know heâs loving every second of it. he even tries to one-up you sometimes, like, âyou think youâre the only one who can be aggressive with love?â and then heâll pin you down in return.
"iâm gonna smother you with kisses, just you wait."
"pfft, i dare you."
"watch me."
ÂˇË ŕź ęą alexis ness
ness might seem shy about your affection at first, but heâs totally into it. he doesnât push you away, but he might give you the sweetest smile when you throw yourself at him.
heâll pull you in and let you cuddle him as much as you want, and when you kiss him all over his face, heâll blush like crazy but still hold you tight.
"ness, stop looking so cute while iâm trying to kiss you."
"i canât help it⌠:') "
"youâre gonna be the death of me."
Š txrully
do not copy/translate/repost/plagiarize my works in any way.
âąáľáľ ʡʰʸʸʸʸ áľáľáľ âą Ę°áľáľáľ áľĘ°âąË˘ ˢᾠđŤ
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More random things in Blue Lock I find endearing:
-> Telepathy
There is something really sweet about knowing someone so well that you don't even need to verbally speak to them. The above panel is just so heartwarmingâI really want what they have.
-> Mothers
I'm so happy that Mothers in this Manga actually look like Women who are Mothers to a High School-er and don't just look like High School-ers themselves.
You might say, "Oh, but it's only a few lines on their faces that make them look old!"
...
And that's pointâit's easy af to make characters who actually look like Mothers and yet there are so many Mangas out there who fail to do this.
If you know, you know.
-> Hi-five!
Just look at them. Just look. Just. Look. At. Them.
Do I need to say something else?
It's the main reason why I don't want Neru to get out of NELâI want more of these cuties to interact!!
-> Frenemies in U-20
The above interactions are so wholesome, you know. Like, it's very hard to explain, but the above scenes are just so heartwarming to me.
Rin was trying to cheer up Isagi in his own cold ways!
While considering how Isagi was so adamant on crushing Rin at the start, it's just so precious to see him being the first one to go congratulate Rin for his goal with a freaking HUG! And it just wasn't a normal hug, it was a DIVE-IN!
Boys please resolve your issues.
-> Two Duos
The way Reo looks at Nagi with concern and the way Yukimiya's arm is stretched out to give Isagi some kind of supportâeverything about this is pure wholesome.
Nagi-Reo was expected, but Yukimiya-Isagi was something unexpected.
Also the way Nagi is just: (O x O)
LOL.
-> Meanwhile this idiot (affectionate)
I hate this Bastard (I love him). He is such a menace. I'll smack him (I'll smooch his forehead). I'll whoop his ass if I get a chance (For real).
Did he just fly down from somewhere though?
Hey there, Chigiri.
-> Ubers PT - 2
You know, if you think over it, then Ubers have the most random ass characters togetherâ
A tyrannical King
A 15 years old weeb
A glam can-be vogue model
A womaniser
A wannabe womaniser
And Lorenzo
and yet they are the team that feels the most family-like.
I adore them so much.
-> Unfaithful gentleman
When the Blue Lock-ers Vs U-20 was happening in the Bowling area, he was the first (and only) one who went to the registration counterâthis behaviour just screams, "CAPTAIN!"
But on a second thought, I think his ahh just wanted an excuse to talk with the ladies behind the counter.
I just know he is such a smooth talker that you'll melt like a butter in a hot pan.
Someone get his ass!
-> Trust
It's one of those things that only a handful of people can understand and that is Kaiser trusting Ness to cut his hair.
Further, the way Kaiser opened up about himself feels bittersweet when you think about his backstory.
I hope those theories that revolved around Ness leaving Kaiser for Isagi never comes true.
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Part: 1, 2, 4.
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"The touch I never knew I needed..."
â°⢠âď¸ - Learning how to touch (Sfw)
Feat. Michael Kaiser
AN - Just had a breakdown over AP Lang, emailed my teacher, feeling shitty<3
You always noticed how once you stated dating Kaiser had been okay, for lack of better words, with you touching him. Even if when you first started, it took a little bit for him to warm up to it, the only issue is that he had never once touched you. No hugs, hand-holding, or anything, even if there had been many attempts to try. The slight raises of his hand towards your face when the two of you were relaxing on the couch, just for seconds later, it to be pulled away and placed back in his lap, or resting on the sides of the couch. It was the immediate assumption that this lack of physical contact had stemmed from his father and the abuse he used to put him through, but wouldnât he also be scared of you touching him if that was indeed the fact? With no answers, and even fewer speculations after each of your ideas were shot down by other facts, you stopped trying to figure it out, or, at least it wasnât at the top of your mind anymore.Â
Well, that was until he finally broke.Â
The second you two stepped back inside your shared house he had hugged you. Of course, you were shocked for a second before hugging him back. However, it didnât last long. â..Sorry, I just⌠You seemed upset at that party and I know that hugs help people.â He paused for a second before speaking back up as he started walking back towards the bedroom. âI didnât hurt you⌠Did I?â To which you shook your head. Unbeknownst, to him, it feltâŚNiceâŚ
With that he gave a small nod and continued his walk to the bedroom, making sure to softly close the door behind him as he made it inside. You couldnât help but think about how weird it was. Out of nowhere the man that never once hugged anybody, not even after winning big championships and world-class titles, did he ever hug his teammates. Just hugged you because you looked sad? The mystery was only getting more and more weird when he asked if he hurt you, and thatâs when you realized. Even if he hadnât hugged his teammates he had put his hands on them. Thatâs when the flashbacks of Blue Lock TV resurfaced from your hippocampus. All his matches with Ness, the amount of times he had put his hands on him and it had ended with a teary-eyed Ness. He was afraid of hurting you. Just like his father had hurt him with his touch.Â
The walk over towards the bedroom was slow as you tried to piece together thoughts and come up with a way that you were going to bring up the issue and try to reason with him, that he wasnât his father, and you knew he would have never hurt you.Â
A las when you had walked through the door he was teary-eyed sitting on the edge of the bed, looking up when you slowly opened the door. He faced away from you. He knew he looked pathetic and he would have much rather had you not see him like this. What kind of emperor would he be if he got all teary-eyed because he had hugged somebody? Emotions could only take control as you saw the way he kept himself shielded and turned away from you. âKaiser. Youâre not your father.. Just because you might have hurt some people before doesnât mean youâll hurt everybody you touch. You donât have to take the same path he did.â You sat down next to him, your hand slowly landing on his upper arm. â...But what if I do. What happens if I try to hug you and I punch you or try to strangle you..?â âBut what if you donât..?â The second the words had left it was like every wall he ever had came crashing down, he had turned himself and hugged you again, letting himself cry into your shoulder, as you sat there, rubbing his back. There was no way he was like his father, his father wouldnât have had even a fourth of the heart Michael did. And while the rest of the world saw him as Godâs chosen emporer, the arrogant football star, you just saw him as Michael. The same guy who would come home after practice every day and give you a small kiss on the forehead, no matter how pissed off it was at his teammates, his coach, or even the world. You knew that even if he wasnât in his right mind there would be no way he could hurt you, and you trusted that more than you could imagine.Â
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Hey, love!
I have this thought. So, Azriel and Reader have accepted the mating bond and Azriel is in his Frenzy, but itâs been like two weeks. Reader (AFAB) is exhausted. She has barely slept and she loves Azriel but she needs a moment to sleep. She convinces Azriel to leave their little hideaway in the cabin in the mountains, and they return to the House of Wind. Reader hunts down Rhysand and Feyre for assistance. Begging Rhys to send Azriel on a mission just for a day or two so she can sleep. However, once he gets back, Rhys confesses to Azriel what is going on.
az during mating bond frenzy
azriel x reader
part one
a/n: anon, this is just part one of the fic, the following part will anwser your request faithfully (i promise!). thanku for requesting btw, love the idea :).
Azriel lets the door open so you can step into the warmth of the foyer. You wait for Az to close the door and lead you to the living room, his hand securely in yours.
The duality of your nerves has you on edge. You are excited to see your friends again after weeks without seeing the Inner Circle. However, you fear the tactless jokes Cassian and Rhys might throw at your mateâs way. And worse, you fear the reaction Az could have.
The frenzy of the recent mating bond is unpredictable. Would he snicker? Would he fly you back to your apartment? Or would he put up a fight?
The latter seems the more likely.
âWell, well. Look whoâs back.â
You canât help but grin unashamedly at Cassian, who responds with his signature smile.
âCassian,â Azriel greets his brother, still not leaving your side, not letting go of your hand.
âNo hug, Az?â Cassian pretends to be offended, but your mate gives no reaction. Then Cassâ eyes find yours again. âHello to you too, sweetheart.â
You feel Azrielâs grip tighten. Your other hand moves to his shoulder, gently stroking in an attempt to calm him.
He seems to loosen up, and you cannot help but lean your head into his arm, relieved. He looks down at you, a soft smile on his lips. When he sends warm love down the bond, you smile back at him.
But the moment is broken by the sound of steady footsteps.
Rhys appears in the living room with a wide grin when he sees the pair of you. âAz, brother. Y/N, Y/N you look⌠nice. The mating bond suits you both well.â
Cassian tries to suppress a laugh. He fails.
Rhys turns to Cass, and you seize the opportunity to tug Azrielâs sleeve, trying to gauge how he is handling both Cassian and Rhys being in the room.
Quite literally, the two most shamelessly flirtatious males on earth.
But Azâs eyes remain fixed in a glare toward his brothers.
âShe looks good, doesnât she?â Rhys asks Cassian, and by his smirk, you know this is all meant to rile Azriel up. âI mean, she always does, Az. Donât get me wrong, youâve sure bagged a gorgeous one.â
Maybe youâre the one about to hit him.
âYes, he has. Gorgeous. But donât tell Ness I said that though.â Cassian doesnât back down, not even when Az takes a step toward them, letting go of your hand. âActually, maybe do tell her. I have the feeling sheâs interested in⌠sharing.â Cassianâs eyes move to yours, assessing you from head to toe. âI may be interested in sharing as well.â
âShut up,â Azriel barks, making your breath catch. âShut up now, Cassian.â He keeps walking toward him, arms tensed as he moves, and then he is in front of Cass, looking as though heâs about to strike.
But Cassianâs smirk only grows as he hears Rhys chuckle.Â
Illyrian stupid babies.
-Charcaters by Sarah J Maas
azriel masterlist
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Good intentions | Hazbin AU (part 9)
start here - previous part (8) - next
the entire budget (1 bottle of lemonade and 2 candies) was spent on these 1.5 pages with effects. btw you didn't expect puppy-eyed rosie, but here you have it. NOBODY EXPECTS SPANISH INQUISITION!
and Alastor did NOT expect Rosie to care SO much about him. He will probably rethink half of his life in hell lol. I think he tends to underestimate positive feelings people may have for him (and he may have for others). His ass did not expect Rosie to cry about him.
Also them hugging was the best fucking thing to draw. I love them so much. Angels should look at them and forgive Alastor just for his friendship with Rosie.
also (2), i'm struggling not to draw Alastor significantly taller than Rosie. Help.
also (3), i wanted her to lick him lol but it didn't fit the mood. But i still have it... now you hve it too. Does this still counts as platonic??? hjhgsdgg
ALSO (4) now i want to draw Rosie with loose hair. I bet even Alstor would have to rethink his aroace-ness
ALSO(5)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need your comments+reblogs please this is my fucking fuel, i'm dying without feedback. Especially now when i know how to end the story... please help me not to loose motivation for this!
next soon(?)
#hazbin hotel alastor#hazbin hotel#hazbin#hazbin charlie#charlie morningstar#charlie#Good Intentions Hazbin AU#hazbin comic#hazbin au#alastor the radio demon#hazbin alastor#alastor hazbin hotel#alastor#rosie and alastor#alastor and rosie#hazbin rosie#rosie hazbin hotel#rosie#platonic radiorose#the radio demon#radio demon#radiorose#Elsa Fogen Art tag
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I LOVED ur recent ness post!! ur writing style is just ugh so good.... do u think u could please do ness with a breeding kink ??
hii nonnie, thanks for the ask!! im so happy you liked it <3
im sorry for taking a bit long to write your request, writing's block got the best of me and i dont really like how this one came out, but didn't want to leave you with nothing... i hope you like it though and it's the way you imagined!
ness has a dirty little secret.
he loves to cum in you. more than that, he loves to think how it could lead to him getting you pregnant.
your belly all round with his kid, breasts swollen and sore, full of milk, and you being so dependent on him â can't do anything without his help. oh, he's on cloud nine imagining it.
and he's so sneaky with it, you could never tell his mind is racing with wild thoughts whenever he gets to fuck you raw, neither how he almost cums on the spot when your legs hug his waist to pull him closer, deeper â at least that's what he thinks.
oh, he would be so ashamed if he found out you already know how much of a pervert he's, how his obsession is so, so obvious. the way he can't take his eyes off of the sticky, white cum leaking out of your hole when he pulls out, or how his dick twitches when you close your legs around his torso because you know what it does to him, and of course, how he's delighted by the idea of cockwarming after sex when you suggest it, to make sure all of his cum is stuffed inside you... oh, he's got such a dirty mind.
and he's so happy you're the one to ask for everything â for him to fuck you raw, to cum inside you and to please stay like this a little longer, lexie... he would never dare to ask you such things, not when there's a risk of making you uncomfortable or worst, making you do something you don't want to just to please him... he could never forgive himself if he made you worry about his needs when all he wants is you to feel good.
but you're so perfect... absolutely divine, heaven's sent really! every single time you two have sex, he insists on asking if you want him to pull out â even if he wants to shove his dick deep inside you and make you take all of his seed, he definitely doesn't want to hear you telling him to pull out â and you won't. every time he asks, the answer is always the same: you begging with that sweet voice of yours for him to please cum inside and wan' you to make a mess of me, ness!
oh, of course he will.
his fingers grab your hips so tightly it might leave bruises, short nails sinking on your flesh as he pumps his cock in and out of you, your velvet walls hugging him so well, clenching around his shaft like they're trying to milk him, he's reaching so deep in your core that he may just be touching your cervix, humping you mindlessly.
it's everything alright, everything is going so well, until it's not anymore. until he gets too carried away and can't hold back his thoughts from spilling through his lips.
"s'good, gonna breed you so well..." it comes out in a low tone, muffled by his own moans even, but you manage to make it out. as soon as he realizes what he said, his pace falters a bit, and he's staring at you with wide eyes. "'m sorry, didn't meanâ"
"y-yeah? pleâ ngh...! please do it, ness!" you whine, hips bucking up to meet his, your legs wrapping impossibly tighter around his waist as you pull him in for a heated, messy kiss.
are you trying to kill him? because he might just die â worse, his dick is twitching uncontrollably and he swears he's gonna blow his load right then and there.
your pleading makes him go feral, almost folding you in half while holding your thighs higher against his torso, slamming his dick deep into you and moaning against your lips shamelessly before moving to bite on your collarbone, he feels like he's going crazy â like his whole body is about to combust.
"you'll look so pretty... all round with our baby... wan' make you a mommy so bad!"
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Keith dating hcs please!! and im so glad that their is people still doing voltron! i love that show so so much and I feel like the fandom is dying so quicklyđ
hiii!!
ofc i can do keith dating headcanons lovely! im so glad you like voltron too, its taken over my life once again and its sad coming back to the fandom with just a little of us left but i want to continue posting/writing about voltron to keep it alive on tumblr with some other talented creators!!
âŚKEITH KOGANE DATING HCSâŚ
âŚbefore confessing his feelings to you, he had to ask lance for some help
âŚit took a lot of contemplating and hyping up but he finally got there!
âŚkeith would struggle a little at the beginning of the relationship since he's worried you'll leave him for someone better. he would spend nights just staring at his ceiling and thinking how much better off you would be with someone else.
âŚthough overtime those thoughts would fade away but not completely.
âŚhe would try to flirt with you, but he'd become very flustered and awkward but you thought it was very adorable by the effort he'd put into it!
âŚhe is very against PDA (aka public display of affection)!!
âŚif you break it, expect a very grumpy, pouty and flustered keith.
âŚkeith is VERY clingy in your relationship, heâll just want to constantly be near you especially in social situations.
âŚkeith gets jealous, he just does. he's scared people are gonna steal you from him.
âŚonce while on a mission with him, this alien took it upon themself to start flirting with you (because who wouldn'tđ), keith caught up on this and let me tell you, he was mad.
âŚhe completely broke the 'no PDA' rule. he wrapped you around in his arm and said "excuse me, but she's taken" with a deadpanned face. man was not having it.
âŚi feel like his galra side would make him very territorial, which includes things that belong to him and his personal space.
âŚyour his and he's yours.
âŚsurprisingly the only thing that he let pass from his 'no PDA' rule is hand holding, ONLY if he knows that no one else notices (especially Lance or Pidge, they just love to tease him).
âŚbut they know, they're just snickering quietly to themselves, but shiro keeps them quiet for keith's sake(space dad!!)
âŚokay if you guys sleep together, keith demands morning kisses. its the first thing he needs wants. when he wakes up don't be surprised to be showered in kisses!
âŚthis man does NOT care about morning breath, he just loves you so much!!
âŚthough, if you sleep in your own beds let say, he'll just brush his teeth (as will youđŤľ)
âŚi feel like keith's hugs will be super comforting and long, especially if he's feeling a little sleepy (and he may just hug you around the other paladins if he is really tired)
âŚ(yk sometime you just got to break the rule, he just can't resist hugging you. it just makes him feel so warm and comforted.)
âŚwe all know that keith loves you to bits but he does get embarrassed about what the others will think when they see him so lovey dovey and intimate.
âŚhe needs to keep the tough guy act okay, its a full-time job (its really not)
âŚbut just keep reminding him to be himself âť!!
OKAY WE'VE MADE IT TO CUDDLING!!!!
âŚ(im sorry i just love cuddlesđ ahhhh)
âŚthis man would sell his soul for a cuddle from you. IN PRIVATE sadly.
âŚhe loves little snuggles before drifting off to sleep after an exhausting day.
âŚhe loves when you pepper kisses all over his face, neck, collarbone and shoulders
âŚhe also loves when you play or run your fingers through his hair, he finds it so soothing.
âŚalso don't deny any of his affection! IT WILL SEND THIS DUDE INTO SEVERE POUTY-NESS.
âŚhe just loves you so so so much!! so it will break his heart (not literally).
âŚyour the definition of the sun to his moon.âĽď¸
(i dont think i used that correctly âšď¸ but trust the thought process)
âŚyou always have to remind him that if he dies, you die too. in hope to make him less reckless on missions (he's still reckless).
âŚalso before he leaves for a mission he always gives you a sweet little kiss at the forehead/temple and definitely expect a kiss when he gets back!!
âž âシďž:âシďž
âŚin the end he loves you dearly and would do anything for you âťâĽď¸
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-love,
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What would late night heart to heart talks in Spencerâs bed be like?
goodmorning beautiful angels! thank you for your request, i very rarely get to write something like this <3
cw; comfort/fluff, spencer is a little insecure
The quiet of Spencerâs apartment feels sacred at this hour, the world beyond the walls of his modest space fading into insignificance. Itâs just you and him, cocooned in the warmth of his bedroom. His bed is surprisingly invitingâlayers of soft blankets in muted tones and a mountain of pillows that youâre certain he didnât pick out himself. Still, it fits him, a blend of deliberate care and unintentional comfort.
Spencer is perched near the headboard, his long legs stretched out in front of him, crossed at the ankles. His hair, slightly tousled, falls into his face, and he pushes it back absentmindedly, revealing those wide, earnest hazel eyes. Heâs wearing a Star Trek t-shirt thatâs seen better days, the print cracked and faded, and plaid pajama pants that donât quite match but somehow suit him perfectly.
Youâre sitting beside him, leaning against the headboard with one of his pillows hugged to your chest. The bedside lamp casts a soft, golden glow over the room, highlighting the faint flush on his cheeks as he speaks.
âYou know,â he says, gesturing with his hands in that animated way of his, âif youâre feeling stuck, it might be a cognitive bias at play. Thereâs this concept called the ânegativity bias.â Itâs a psychological tendency to focus more on negative events or feelings than positive ones. Itâs evolutionarily adaptive because our ancestors needed to remember threats to survive, but itâs not exactly helpful when youâre trying to evaluate your own self-worth.â
You blink at him, momentarily stunned into silence by the sheer Spencer-ness of his response. Then you laugh, the sound breaking the quiet like a crackling fire.
âOnly you, Spencer,â you tease, nudging his knee with your own, âcould turn my self-doubt into a psychology lecture.â
His lips quirk into a shy smile, and he ducks his head, a strand of hair falling into his face again. âSorry,â he mumbles. âI just⌠I donât like seeing you feel this way. And sometimes understanding the science behind it can help. At least, it helps me.â
Your heart squeezes at the vulnerability in his voice. âDonât apologize,â you say softly. âI love it when you go full professor on me.â
Spencerâs cheeks flush deeper, and he clears his throat, trying to mask his embarrassment. âWell, um, another thing that might help is reframing your perspective. Itâs like what Albert Einstein said: âLife is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.ââ He pauses, glancing at you nervously. âNot that Iâm suggesting youâre out of balance or anythingâjust that⌠even if you feel stuck now, youâre still moving forward. You just might not realize it yet.â
The sincerity in his words makes your chest ache. You reach over, resting your hand on his, and he stills under your touch, his long fingers twitching slightly before relaxing.
âThanks, Spencer,â you say. âYou always know how to make me feel better. Even if it involves quoting Einstein.â
He lets out a soft chuckle, the sound rare and precious. âI guess itâs my way of showing I care,â he admits, his voice barely above a whisper.
You shift closer, your knee brushing against his. âWhat about you?â you ask. âWho do you talk to when you feel like this?â
Spencer hesitates, his gaze dropping to your joined hands. âI⌠donât, really,â he says finally. âI mean, I talk to the team sometimes, but itâs different. Theyâre like family, and I donât want to burden them with⌠everything. So I guess I just⌠keep it to myself. I read, or I journal, or I lose myself in research.â
âOf course you do,â you say with a fond smile. âLet me guessâyou have a journal filled with obscure facts and statistics?â
Spencerâs lips twitch. âActually, I have several,â he admits. âOne for general observations, one for case notes, and one for⌠personal thoughts.â
You raise an eyebrow. âPersonal thoughts, huh? What kind of thoughts?â
He fidgets under your gaze, his ears turning pink. âJust⌠things I donât feel comfortable saying out loud. Like how sometimes I feel like I donât fit in, or how I worry that people only tolerate me because of what I can do, not because of who I am.â
The raw honesty in his voice makes your throat tighten. You shift closer, your hand sliding up to cup his cheek, gently forcing him to meet your eyes.
âSpencer,â you say firmly, âanyone who only values you for what you can do doesnât deserve you. Youâre brilliant, yes, but youâre also kind, and thoughtful, and funny in your own nerdy way. And anyone who doesnât see that is missing out.â
His eyes glisten, and for a moment, you think he might cry. Instead, he leans into your touch, his hand coming up to rest over yours.
âThank you,â he whispers. âI⌠I donât know if I deserve that.â
âYou do,â you say, your voice unwavering. âMore than you know.â
The rest of the night unfolds like a story written just for the two of you. Spencer opens up in ways you never expected, sharing fragments of his childhood, his fears, his dreams. He talks about his love for science fiction and how it gave him hope as a kid, how he memorized whole books because it made him feel like he had control over something.
And you share too, your own stories and insecurities spilling out into the safe space of his bed.
By the time exhaustion pulls you both under, the room feels lighter, like youâve carved out a small pocket of peace in an otherwise chaotic world. Spencerâs arm drapes hesitantly but securely over your waist, his body curling instinctively toward yours.
As you drift off, his breath warm against your shoulder, you canât help but think that thisâthese late-night talks, this quiet intimacyâis everything you never knew you needed.
#missarchive#spencer reid#mj answers#spencer reid x reader#criminal minds x reader#bau x reader#spencer reid fic#spencer reid imagine
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Hi hi!! I was just wondering if you could write general hcs (or longer blurbs) of the Harbingers (Childe, Dottore, Pantalone, Capitano, Arlecchino and La Signora) with a dumb and naive fem! Reader? (Gn is fine) Perversions such as stalking, manipulation, and non con elements + etc. are a-ok! đ(^âĄ^ ) I want the entirety of the Yandere-ness!!!
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hi this request was so cool!! i don't usually do more than 3-4 characters per post so i did a few this time, if you wanna swing back around and request the rest of the characters i'd be more than happy to write it for you :D
Warning: this post contains yandere-themes, including implied being held against ones will, subject to unwilling experiments, delusional behaviors, obsessive tendencies, and other potential topics. Please read at your own risk!
Childe:
Oh Celestia you couldnât be any more perfect could you? That wide-eyed, dumb little look you gave him whenever he was talking about his missions, eager to listen but to stupid to understand. He just adores you, his big hands cupping your face, squishing your cheeks to make you look even sillier. Childe just canât get enough of you.Â
Youâre like a little puppy dog to him, so cute and silly yet so unknowing. He canât help but want to smother you in hugs and kisses when youâre around, doting on you and making sure no one ever lays a finger on you aside from him.
Itâs when youâre not around that things are different with Childe, itâs like heâs gone haywire, feral without your company. He wears a little locket on a chain attached to his belt, it has a picture of you and a lock of your hair inside. He makes sure to keep it well protected, occasionally spraying it with your perfume or beauty products so it smells like you. As soon as heâs back home with you though heâs the same sweet, overbearing Childe he was previously.Â
Dottore:
He takes full advantage of the situation, subjecting you to minor experiments, most of which are harmless. Dottore always has his eyes on you, whether his actual ones or the ones of his segments. Even in your sleep thereâs some variation of him watching you, settled at your bedside with a notepad in hand, camera just beside him. Itâs like every second of your life is being recorded for Dottore, because it is.
Heâs also obsessed with your body, giving you regular weekly check ups. He tells you that itâs normal, that all proper adults get checkups this often, even when the check ups push beyond the normal means. Itâs not just the normal things like checking your heart rate and ensuring youâve got no lumps, bumps, or growths. It extends into things like how fast your hair and nails grow, any changes caused by the experiments he does, changes in your natural body scent, and other random things.
Dottore also takes care of any and all medical needs you have, heâs become your personal doctor. Anything and everything you do is under his control, he picks when and how often you sleep, what you eat, how much daylight you get, and what you do on a day to day basis. The best part is youâre too stupid and naive to muster up the courage to say anything.
Pantalone:
This man, in all his wisdom and cash, adores how you let him do anything he wishes with you. Youâve become his little doll to dress up, style, and control. He makes you the perfect little partner, picking out all your outfits, regularly rotating the clothing in your wardrobe with new outfits, heâd be criminal if he let you wear the same thing twice.Â
Pantalone takes you everywhere with him, flaunting his perfect little darling to others. He makes sure to use big, extravagant words when talking about you to others so that you donât understand, itâs usually all good though so no worries. If there is any reason he canât take you with him, you can expect him to leave a comprehensive list and schedule for you, keeping his control over what you wear even whilst heâs gone.
He uses your stupidity against you, betting things on which of you will be right or if you can answer correctly. Youâre wrong every time and he loves it, and yet despite being wrong every time, because you stood no chance at knowing the right answer, you fall right into the same trap over and over again. He just adores you so much, and heâd do anything to keep you by his side, forever.
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Blue lock girls reacting to you giving them an assist
A/n:first blue lock post with some of my favorites. Also, in most posts I'll do, they will play mixed. Just don't question it
Fem!meguru bachira
She jumps on your back and starts cheering and laughing uncontrollably
"Woooooh! That pass was insane y/n!"
"I-it's nothing babe, you were the one to score anyway"
"But I wouldn't have done that if it weren't for you, I knew the monster inside you would have chose me!"
"O-ok but can you......"
"What?"
"Get off my bac-"
You two fall down while Bachira continues laughing
Fem!rin itoshi
Rin just accepts your high five when you offer it to her (to the rest of PXG's surprise) and compliments you
"Hey nice pass"
"Oh thanks, you made a nice goal too"
She then pulls her jersey over her mouth to hide a blush
"If you want.....I can give you an assist later too"
"Oh~ what is this? Bottom eyelashes offering someone an assist? That's not something you see everyday"
"Yep, she's really head's over heels for y/n, isn't she~đ" (that's the weird demon emoji Charles does btw)
"SHUT UP YOU LUKEWARM IDIOTS"
Fem!sae itoshi
She doesn't do that much, just nods at you with her usual cold face
"Hey sae, nice goal"
".....thanks......your pass, it was nice too. Almost as good as mine"
"Oh thanks a lot, I'm glad you think so"
Later in the match, she continues giving you passes so you can score too. It's her way of saying thanks
When you do score, she compliments you and belittles the rest of her team for being in your way because you're "the only one who can receive her passes"
Fem!shidou ryusei
She immediately tackles you to the ground and starts making out with you passionately. You're genuinely worried she might take off her shirt knowing her
"Y/n! Y/n! That reaction we just had was so amazing~ it was so so so much fuuuun~!!!"
"T-thanks shi, but that wasn't anything special it was just a pass"
"What are you talking about? That was an amazing explosion, like all of the ones you do, and I mean all of them~"
"W-wha-"
Rin has to basically tear her off of you while you're blushing profusely when the match has to restart
Fem!seishiro nagi
She rubs her eyes and smiles slightly when she sees you approaching and helping her get up
"Thanks"
"Hm? For what?"
"For the assist, it was perfect, that's why I scored"
"Please it was all you, no one else could have scored a goal that amazing"
"Ah, thanks do you mind giving me more assists like that? I wanna do a hat trick"
"Oh for sure"
You two high five and walk back to the field.....while reo is looking at you jealousy
Fem!Michael kaiser
She immediately pulls you into a dip kiss, holding you with one arm while showing off her tattoo with the other, meanwhile ness is cheering and clapping for you in the background
"M-michelle, here? Really? It's being broadcasted live"
"As was your amazing assist and my amazing goal mein schatz. We need to show everyone how wonderful of a couple we are, both in football and in our private life"
She somehow makes sure that the goal is on all the major German football channels and everyone is talking about you two
And definitely brags about it to isagi Non-Stop
Fem!Alexis ness
She kinda can't believe she actually scored since she usually just passes to you or kaiser. But after the shock wears off she goes and hugs you tightly
"Y/n! Did you see that? I scored!"
"Yeah, that was amazing lexi!"
"O-oh please no it was all because of you, you passed to me? I can't believe it, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you"
She keeps thanking you for basically the entire day and looks at you with that adorable smile of hers that melts your heart
She talks to kaiser about it later and he actually compliments her on it, which just takes her over the moon
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