#i need my soulmate already

[maryjaneszombies-blog]

I'll take you to the coffee shop

Let you pick out whatever you want

Go ahead girl get an extra shot

[fountainpenguin]

Tango and GeminiTay visit Etho post-charity stream travel while Grian interacts via chat. Etho says he and Joel were alone all week and everybody teases him.

19 minutes into Tango's "I AM THE MASTER" stream, April 2024

Transcript:

Tango: So, Etho, what did you do all week by yourself? Were you lonely?

Etho: Dude, it was so dead on this server-

Tango: It was so quiet! I know.

Gem, overlapping: Did you miss us?

Tango, overlapping: He DID! He did!

Gem: Awww!

Etho: A little bit... It was just like- It was like Joel and me, and...................... and that was about it... And Cub came back eventually.

Gem, overlapping: Of COURSE you mention Joel first.

Tango: Yep, yep; of course.

Tango, quietly sing-songing: Obsessed~ ... Obsessed...

Etho: [Laughs]

Gem: Not your neighbor, Cub. JOEL. Joel's top of the list.

Etho: But I couldn't even go see Joel because it would've been awkward to, like... just be alone.

Gem: You poor thing...

Tango, reading Grian's message in chat: 'Joel is enough for you.' Yeah...... I see more statues popping up- Who's making them?

Etho: Not me! Okay, something weird is going on- I don't know the deal behind it-

Tango, laughing: Uh-huh...

Etho: I've made two statues... Total.

Tango: Which ones did you make?

Etho: The Joel one... and the other one's... a secret.

[End]

Next, Tango and Gem tease Etho because they're pretty sure the other statues he built are the giant Etho statues, implied to be something he put in front of Joel's base himself. Etho says this is "not confirmed in his video."

[guardian-angle22]

This or That: Tarlos Edition -> Loft or townhouse?

[ilovelin]

Day 6: Soulmate AU OR "Those green eyes you have could be the death of me."

I chose soulmate au and was inspired by ‘Red Thread of Fate’ which originates from Chinese mythology

[gardenlilgnome]

Chiscaraven soulmates au where Scara and Venti are each other's soulmates but before fate brings them together, Scara falls in love with Childe, who's one of the rare people that don't have a soulmate which makes him worry abt the day Scara will eventually leave. However, Scara always reminds his bf that he won't leave him bc he loves him too much to let fate be the one to decide his life.

But once Venti comes in, both can't help but get a crush on them. And thankfully for the two of them, Venti is more than happy to be in a relationship with both of them.

[wheremermaidsdwell]

instead of doomscrolling i'm reading my fic bc i haven't read the entire thing in order yet and I'm having some feelings about little scenes i need to add so send me asks and i'll come answer (email alerts are on) but otherwise i'm Focusing

[unproduciblesmackdown]

also it's something (better) like, the exercise of deliberately [art imitates life imitates art] holding up Billions to My IRL Things Perspective and going like whaaat would i want for winston. first answer is you want any character to not have been within the scope of the show in the first place, and to exit it since they are. and you kind of get that in the accidental reward in banishing winston, since like in the end it's just that the show doesn't care about him existing at that point But like it's winston sitting there quietly as everyone leaves & turns out the lights & Then he can leave too; others have peaced out & nobody remembers he exists so Now he can go off & do whatever.

but like in true form i think they definitely accidentally baked in another divine reward for winston in that, like, the way he's kept around as fodder for these fun little [pov: enjoy abusing this guy] asides with him, where it Just So Happens that he's autistic as something they're unaware of but is completely relevant to the expectation we understand him to be inferior(tm), it Just So Happens that he's also ""bad"" at not ""causing"" abuse to be turned on him. he's ""bad"" at staying in line. like well yes Yes that's what i want for him. just like In Real Life it's like yeah Ideally i'd want people to be able to extricate themselves from where they're trapped in power structures & i'd want them to have the perspective about it of understanding they're not Inferior / i.e. they are as much a person as anyone else and they're not corrupting everything good / i.e. it wasn't them Bringing It Upon Themselves and it's not them being Destructive by toppling a jenga tower of a hierarchy that happened to be pressing down on them. and winston is the kind of [the ruinerrrrrr] who is Turned On exactly because he keeps acting like someone who's on the verge of breaking out of the [being in line] someone demands of him as autist, employee, whatever other supposed manifestations of [inferior]

like in the 5 second stretches in which winston's allowed to speak before retaliation, it's because he's like "matter of factly" delivering whatever Information that's useful for another plotline. then he Brings It Upon Himself by making people aware that he's Also existing in his own right as a person rather than what they think serves their own deal / what they want from him at all times, perhaps by expressing his personality (didn't appeal to them! so it was Wrong) or not b/c of anything in particular said or done at present, just b/c people have a constant / accumulating contempt for him so their being in the same room as him & able to see & hear him is already dangerous. the [we're just seeing Any Abusive Dynamic in action] continuing apace.

and it's like, well, right there. he's written as acting like someone who doesn't blame himself for how he's treated, which billions frames as being Rude & Mean, and so too does everyone's abusers lmfao like and that these are his moments that are written to be Bringing It Upon Himself. and it's like hell yeah he doesn't blame himself. hell yeah that his self-esteem can manifest as anger at all. hell yeah that he keeps expressing himself with personality & confidence & doesn't even disguise his having been hurt, & it's this [his ass is Not grey rocking] that billions frames as both him "causing" his abuse & making that abuse "successful" lol, wrow just like real life!! and when like speaking of real life yeah it's not "bad" that people Do engage in strategies to mitigate & survive, including things like blaming themselves or being too "boring" to be anything but a non dialogued background character b/c that's all that goes unpunished, it's bad b/c it's done to them at all, not [ohh they're doing it to themselvesss] and like i'm asking myself like Ideally. what do i want Ideally. and i'd want winston to know that it's being Done To Him & i'd want him to find as much room for his personhood & autonomy as possible. and that's basically how he's written anyways, and billions hates that like You See this is why he deserves it this is why he's doing it to himself. and i'm like my god if that's not Inspiration for like "so what if people don't find you Personally Likable" and not preemptively holding back all personality or anything that'd draw attention as if you exist as a person in your own right & not something that only either gets in the way of or serves their wants of a Real person (someone with more power) like hell yeah you have him out here doing it =']

another fun addendum is like, billions isn't getting into it much b/c it doesn't seem to care much about "what if some people were peers & seem to have a genuine, recipcrocal relationship?" but that it just so happened to be like "oh tuk as the next closest loser who deserves it might be nice to winston" while it's framing winston as the "worse" Loser as being....unconditionally supportive of tuk. while the one downside of billions Also giving bentuk as much as it is is that it also inevitably has that shadow of "but ben is Superior to tuk" and like that it's correct that everyone encourages tuk to Stop Bringing It Upon Himself and start being less of a loser; it's wrong for winston to be like hey let's go have a foursome. like yeah probably don't make a list of the women you work with you'd be dtf but it's not like i'm convinced "ah billions and it's strong anti misogyny stance like" roflmao and billions is Not reflecting on "the downsides of unconditional support?" there when winston was beaten up for criticising taylor earlier like we WILL take his ideas while looting his [beaten unconscious] body there but he WAS wrong to express them as though he's BETTER than taylor!!! mafee's beautiful show of loyalty in kicking his ass even when he might agree with the argument and then benefit when it's adopted by taylor anyways! so it's as usual actually purely based on hierarchy & who gets to be in charge of people. it's correct for ben to be in charge of tuk, unless he has to step aside for that bizarre dead-end subplot about how it's tuk's fault if he's treated badly, b/c it's really his own Failure to have Confidence to know he has good ideas [raising our voice to deliver this message over the sound of breaking desks and chairs and computer monitors over winston because he had the confidence to act like he deserved to talk to someone and because he knows his ideas efforts & results are good & valuable around there] like. and isn't it sooo fucked up to talk about who you're dtf in the episode that has it be neutral if your boss is dtf & lets you know but is nice about it (and you're already Correctly tending to their ego, which you're responsible for!) like hey no possible problem! it's not even so much of a problem for a boss man to have the sex they're entitled to & be rude about their leveraging their power in that acquisition that it Stays a problem into the next season. ew, winston is Known (Inferred) Dtf??? we'll use it to exploit His vulnerability, exacerbate it, & punish him further for good measure in another episode that just revels in abuse & violation with a sexual aspect once again, but like, hey tuk don't do that, winston's such a Bad Influence for being like, shrug, kneejerk intervening with the Good Friendship where the One In Charge leaps in & Tells tuk the Correct thing to do. obviously there's also the tragedy that billions will Never let winston push back against Real Winners like rian or taylor in A Way That Matters (actually gets in their way at all) lol like. one thing that would have really been fun, winston should've literal kneejerk started physically fighting wags in either pertinent scene in 7x03 for real 110%. i wouldn't be like Gasp Violence Is Never The Answer if he just hit someone to hit them b/c fuck you. or broke anything on his way out etc etc. billions would Never let him. which is the other side of the same coin of [why he should get to]

tl;dr how great that winston's being "out of line" means he's basically always noticeably flouting & rebelling against the [He Deserves Abuse] agenda lol. that IS what i want. his being "beyond hope" like ohhh he's sooo stupid he doesn't realize how much he has the bad tastes & wrong interests & annoying personality He Will Always Be This Way like hell yeah!!! billions like oh no winston's personhood will never stay tamped down & locked away such that some godawful person tolerates keeping him in their inventory :( ohhh the ABA will never work :( that's right!!!!!!!!!! although they're not sad about it because it's about relishing the promise there will always be True Inferiors you can enjoy abusing with your righteous power over, but like well you wrote him escaping anyways even while dragging other "better" characters into standing around to serve axe's need for more than 1.8 employees and [crickets, reverberating cough, sneaker scuff] like. another ""wrong"" thing for winston to do, another thing for him to not "deserve," which is itself godawful actually lol like lord what it "rewards" its Good, Deserving characters with, no thanks. meanwhile winston's punishment is that he's autistic and """bad""" at being abused like lmfao good for him, fantastic for him, just what i want

[whogirl42]

I literally just spent the last few days binging wheel of time naively thinking the show is currently in the middle of airing s3. Only to get to the end of FUCKING 2x07!!! And discover that actually the s2 FINALE EPISODE doesn't come out till the end of the week???😭😭😭

[placetneplacet]

This poor giant having to put up with Tian…I’m sorry giant, at least he bites!

[miabrown007]

the Night Circus is fiction because there's no way an Adrien-level sheltered guy goes out to the streets in the 19th century and kisses a girl in an hour

[crewofthegoldrush]

but could we meet by the first of july

Rating: T / PG-13

Campaign Setting: Eberron / Around Khovaire in Fifty Days

Summary:

'It's not as bad as it looks.'

'Really, cause it looks pretty bad.' Monty was a bit surprised she had even answered. Her soulmate had been quiet for quite some time now. 'My MOM even stopped me to ask if you were okay.'

A few beats go by. 'And did she also notice the hickeys all over your neck the other day?'

[lord I've been prayin', for somebody I've never seen]

-

[content warning for various injury related scars]

i told myself I would never write a soulmate au, like i just never wanted to go there y’know, but the tried and true "you share the same markings on your skin as your soulmate" works perfectly with aberrant marks and I couldn't put it down. We've never exactly dwelled on how our aberrant character feels about being so, so I wanted to take a shot at it going in the angsty route. Eberron created a really complex yet so very marginalized group of people, and I wanted to dig a bit into how unfair the world is for them.

not as many pc & npc cameos in this one, I tried a different style that's more serious & vague than usual - but apparently I've decided demetrius is my comic relief

[stripesysheaven]

in chaos mood

[dex-starr]

“Who else would ever stay?

Who else would ever stay?

Who else is going to love someone like me?

Who else is going to love someone like me that’s marked for death?

Who else is going to be with me when I breathe it all?

Who else would take your place and hold and keep me safe?”

[neptuneswords]

i know that i need to want myself first

and in most ways i do

but i really just want to feel wanted

i’m so tired of wanting and hoping only to have to reel that back in and try to forget that i ever wanted in the first place

ik that this is just part of what come with putting yourself out there

that disappointment is the only risk

and the rewards are fruitful either way

but i like japanese house says , I miss falling in love

I miss the feeling that you get when someone fits just like a glove

I used to feel that with practically every new connection I made

and now it’s so rare

idk if it’s solely bc I’ve changed or if the world has changed too

idk if I’m doing smth that makes people feel like they can’t show that side of themselves to me or what

but i hope that whatever it is i’m waiting for winds up being worth the wait

[mandos-mind-trick]

About Midnight....

I just wanted to reassure everyone I haven't given up on Midnight and finishing that series. I'm in the process of writing three parts right now. I jumped ahead a bit because I got excited and I'm basically writing backwards to where I left off.

The next couple parts are pretty angsty and emotionally heavy so I've been needing a ton of breaks too cause writing stuff like that is really taxing on me. I compare it to method acting where I feel like I have to actually experience those emotions in the moment to convey them well in my writing. Is it exhausting and probably not the best way to write? yeah. But it's the only way I feel like I can do it successfully so more emotionally charged stories usually take me longer to write.

[bleeding-green]

Oh to lay in an open field, no houses or roads for miles just us with the nature surrounding us. The soil touching our bare feet. The grass slightly cold as we lay opposite each other. Pointing at the stars and spotting constellations. To lay and gaze at the stars. The sky filled with twinkling lights burning from afar, dancing beautifully next to the gorgeous moon. Would you stay if it is simply just laying in awe of the beauty in the stillness of the night? Not to get anything after the stars, just to be in a moment lost in the beauty that surrounds us. The crickets chirping in the background playing their sweet little tune. Comfort comes from being so deeply silent in this moment just gazing at the stars and being in this moment with you. The grass feels so nice brushing between my fingers. I run my hands through the grass all the way to brush up against your arm just to feel the warmth of your skin. I do this to remember I am not alone laying here witnessing such a marvelous beauty in the sky. Oh to be in a moment where I can just exist quietly feeling my heart beating and my slow breath as I take in every aspect of this moment. How lovely it would be to just be. No expectations of more just that the stars and the space between our shoulders. I look over at you to see you just encapsulated by the wonders of the universe staring down at you. The joy in your face the moonlight reflected in your eyes, oh what beauty it is to see such joy. You don’t even smile, but I can see the content awe in your wandering eyes taking in each star shining above you.