#i need a subject to think about constantly and its either going to be her. Or daichi or hirai. those are ky options

[rorsry]

we need to become obsessed with her again

[elebicheee]

Insecure Attraction Pt2- X-MEN 97!Logan X F!Reader

A/N: Back by popular demandddd

Wordcount: 2192

Summary: After avoiding Logan for two weeks a confrontation is in order.

Warnings: Unrequited love but is it tho? Reader is described as taller than Logan and is referred to as she/her but no physical descriptions are used. Lowkey Jean Grey slander but its due to jealousy and misunderstanding. Confessions. Suggestive themes and actions.

PT 1 Height difference visual aid

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It's been about two weeks since the danger room incident, and in that time you've managed to seamlessly avoid both Logan and Jean. 

And by seamlessly, you mean staying in your room unless absolutely necessary and darting out of any and every room whenever either of them makes an appearance. But hey, it has been working so far. 

It wasn't terribly hard, thankfully, you'd mainly had to avoid Jean. Who seemed determined to have a mature adult conversation with you about the subject. Absolutely not. The thought about having a conversation about this particular subject with the person who you were, probably unfairly, jealous of made you wanna crawl out of your skin. You'd seen her need to help in action during missions but never had you personally seen it manifest itself in her day to day life like this. 

From waiting for you outside of the lab after medical training with Hank to not-so-subtly following you out of the kitchen after meals, it was getting tedious. She was persistent, you'd give her that. Her recent behaviour had gained her odd looks from the other but she'd played it all off, never even mentioning you when they asked. Thankfully.

Now you were putting away this week's groceries after volunteering to do the shopping as a way to steer clear of the redhead. Now you were thinking that there was a flaw in your plan, because you'd spent almost forty minutes in the kitchen putting everything away and were constantly looking over your shoulder praying she wouldn't find you. You'd forgotten this particular bit of the chore.

“Need a hand?” You jumped and dropped the cereal box you were putting away, only to have it halt before hitting the ground and gently floating to its designated spot in the cupboard. Fuck.

“Uh-no, I'm fine.” Your voice definitely cracked. “You can go help Scott or whatever…” She stood smack in the middle of the exit, not making any indication that shell move. She was caging you in. 

The door wasn't an escape option anymore, but maybe the window…

You gazed at the large windows on the far side. Surely if you made a break for it right now you'd make it outside before she could stop you. Because screw having a conversation like adults.

“You've been avoiding me.” Her tone was matter-of-fact as she moved the rest of the groceries to their respective spots with her mind. That was probably why she was the one to usually do them. “I think we’ve misunderstood each other.” Without the distraction of putting the shopping away you awkwardly tried to find something to occupy your attention, anything would do so long as you didn't need to look at her. You settled on washing the few dishes left next to the sink, your back to the telepath.

“I don't know what you mean, we’re fine?” Was that a reply or a question?

“Right, that’s why you've been avoiding Logan and I for the past two weeks?” She almost sounded amused. The mention of his name made your stomach flip and your face heat with embarrassment.

“I haven't been-I don't know what-” You cleared your throat, “I've just been busy, that's all.” She hummed, and suddenly she was standing next to you, leaning on the counter and not for the first time you found yourself comparing the two of you. Jean was very pretty, in that girl-next-door type of way, and for all your jealousy, you had to admit she had a matching personality. It was easy to understand why Logan would like her and not you. You looked nothing like Jean, and you were nothing like her. It made you feel silly, that you unknowingly entered this competition for his affection when there was already a winner.

“He’s worried about you, you know.” That gave you pause, “He thinks you're angry with him, doesn't know what he did, so he's giving you space.”

“I'm not mad at him.” You said softly.

“I know,” She smirked, “You're mad at me.” You turned to face her, sputtering.

“I'm not-no-I'm not mad at you!” You weren't sure if that was the truth or not. “I've just been busy, it has nothing to do with either of you.” I'm the problem, you thought bitterly, unable to control my thoughts and feelings.

“Uh-huh,” She rolled her eyes. “Listen, I know Logan and I are close, but I promise it's not how you think. It used to be, but not anymore.”

“What?”

“Logan is very important to me, as a friend,” She emphasized the word. “He knows that, has for a while.”

“That hardly changes anything.” You said, sounding way more bitter than you intended. But it was the truth you supposed, you knew where you stood with him and that didn't change your feelings.

“Maybe not at first,” She agreed, grabbing one of the newly cleaned dishes and drying it, “But it's been a long time, and people move on.” You didn't say anything, so she continued. “He’s moved on.”

“And you would know that?”

“I would,” She answered surely, “Because I'm his friend, and he tells me things. Especially when he drinks.” She put away the dish and shot you a wink then looked around at the room. “Well, looks like the groceries are all done, so, i'll leave you to it.”

And then she left.

You stared after her, long after she was gone, wondering what the fuck had just happened.

Later that night you were unable to sleep, laying on your bed, staring up at the ceiling. Your mind was still reeling over Jean’s words.

He’s moved on.

And, alright. Maybe you had jumped to a couple of conclusions. Maybe they were just friends. Maybe he didn't like her like that anymore. But that didn't mean anything for you. Did it?

He’s worried about you.

You turned and buried your face in your pillow, groaning loudly. You weren't sure if that conversation made anything better or worse. All it did was confuse you. 

Logan was a pretty forward guy about almost everything, if he likes you as anything more than a friend, and that was a big if, you would know. Wouldn't you? 

Sitting up you looked at the clock on your nightstand. Three in the morning. You definitely aren't getting any sleep any time soon. Exiting your room as quietly as you could, you made your way to the kitchen, maybe eating something would help you sleep. 

The house was quiet, the only sound you registered was that of your bare feet on the wood floors. You saw light coming from the kitchen and even though you weren't up for dealing with anyone right now, you were already here so you continued.

Then you were faced with Logans back as he sat on the kitchen island nursing a beer. You stopped dead in your tracks, not fully registering the sight in front of you. It wasn't until he began to turn that you reacted and walked back a few paces and pressed your back against the wall. Heart hammering in your chest.

He didn't see you.

No way.

If you were very quiet you could slip away and he'd never-

“I know you're there bub, come out.” Fuck.

You weighed your options. And despite how tempting making a run for it was, it would definitely make things worse. Hesitantly, you took in a shaky breath and walked back to the kitchen door. He was still sitting, but now his body was turned to face you. His expression serious, making you unable to guess what he was thinking. 

He’s worried about you. Not the time.

“Hey…” You tried, and failed, to sound casual as you made your way in the kitchen, giving him a wide berth. 

“Hey.” He parroted, “Can’t sleep?”

“Yeah, you?” You weren't looking at him, just tried to be as natural as possible as you looked in the fridge, not really taking anything in. You needed to stop coming to the kitchen, it was becoming very dangerous as of late. 

He made a noise of agreement, but said nothing else. The silence was choking you, you could feel his eyes on the back of your head and suddenly everything Jean implied earlier today came rushing back to you. 

Grabbing a water bottle you closed the fridge carefully, then turned to leave and almost shrieked when you saw him standing right behind you, arms crossed as if he were contemplating something. He, like always, was looking up at you. The clear height difference between you two making you doubt everything you'd been considering after Jean’s conversation. Because even though Jean was a bit taller than him, and he'd still had feelings for her, you were quite a bit taller than both of them. And surely the exception he’d made for Jean’s height wouldn’t apply to such a stark difference.

“Everything okay?” You stuttered out clutching the water bottle to your chest, his gaze pinning you in place, keeping you between him and the fridge. The longer he stared the hotter your face got. Your heartbeat was so loud you were sure he’d be able to hear it even without his senses. 

“I was about to ask you the same,” He lowered his hands and took a step forward, making you step back with your bare back pressed to the cool metal of the fridge’s doors. “You've been avoiding me.” It wasn't a question, he was stating a fact, and the way he was looking at you was as if he was daring you to contradict him. You didn't. “Why?” His tone was gruff, almost demanding. You opened your mouth to say something, anything, but no sound came out. You looked away from him. 

That was apparently the wrong thing to do because he reached up and gently grabbed your chin for a moment to make you look at him again. You wondered how hot your face could get before it classified as a fever.

“Hey,” He said, as if making sure all your attention was on him. “What’d I do bub?”

“What?” 

“You've been avoiding me, must've done somethin’.”

“No-you didn't, I just-” You shook your head slightly and closed your mouth, afraid of what might come out. 

“You just, what?”

“I’m sorry.” You said quietly, feeling embarrassed. 

“For what?”

You just shook your head, looking down at the floor. For what felt like forever you both stood there, paused. Then you heard him exhale. 

“If this is about Jean-” Before he finished pronouncing her name, you looked up at him in pure panic before you could school yourself. “So it is about her.” He smirked up at you and you didn't know how to feel about that. “Wondered if that was the case, guess I was right.” He stepped forward and placed both hands on the door of the fridge, caging you in.

“Logan?” You felt suffocated, and you weren't sure if that was good or bad. But before you could say anything else you felt one of his hands behind your neck, pulling you down to meet his lips. You gasped and he used that to quickly deepen the kiss, as if he only had this moment to do so before you'd disappear forever. 

You melted into him, his tongue exploring your mouth mercilessly. His other hand snaked down and squeezed your waist pulling you closer to him making you gasp. It wasn't until he bit your lip and the hold on the bottle you'd been holding loosened and fell to the floor with a loud thump that you broke apart.  Your breath was heavy, matching his, as you stared down at him. The hand on the back of your neck made its way down to join his other hand around your waist, keeping you in place, pressed against him.

“Been wanting to do that for a while.” He said slowly, leaning in to nip at your collarbone.

“O-oh.” You gasped, hands resting on his chest as he continued to kiss at your neck. “I thought you liked Jean. I didnt think youd find me attractive.” He paused.

“Have to be blind not to.” One of his hands trailed down and gave your ass a squeeze.

“It's just,” You gasped as he continued to leave kisses and bites over your neck, “I'm taller than you.” 

“You are.” He said absentmindedly, not stopping either his kisses or his wandering hands. 

“Doesn't that bother you?”

“Should it?”

“I dont know.” You played with the fabric of his shirt nervously. He hummed as if considering your words.

“Does it bother you?”

“No!” You said quickly, shaking your head. “It’s just-most people do. So i thought-”

“How bout’ you ask me next time instead of ignoring me for two weeks?” He gave your ass another squeeze emphasizing his point, “Could’ve been doin’ this much sooner.” He muttered.

“O-okay.” You nodded.

“Good.” Was the last thing he said before bending down and hooking a hand behind your knees to carry you. The rudeness of the action made you giggle as he made his way through the mansion up to his room.

[takemebacktowheniwassane]

i've been seeing a lot of falsettos posts recently deconstructing the fandoms beliefs and firstly

holy fuck thank you, i try to steer clear of fandom (and fandom-izing thereof) drama but this is getting a lot more visible recently so here's some little tidbits for you

whizzer brown is not an unflawed character!

okay so i haven't seen enough dissecting this but!!! in the chess game!

the whole point of marvin using that game to determine the ending of their relationship is because he suspects whizzer is constantly deceiving him and wants to prove it.

whizzer LITERALLY proves him right!

he asks marvin to help him along (yes i know he says he doesn't want help, hear me out, it's a little more complex than that) and takes advantage of the fact that marvin is- like- infatuated with him.

he draws him into a sense of false security then starts throwing accusations at him ("since you need a man!" "what?" "who's 'brainy'," "or witty, move.") until hes able to win, which he does with ease because he's been using marvin having this idea that he isn't smart against him.

of course, marvin's side of this isn't the best either but honestly, for once the fandom should focus on a different character when they think 'insane asshole'. typically we should also probably change our perspectives a little to be more unbiased cuz fr guys, this is getting really.. annoying.

i understand he's the most visibly flawed but that doesn't excuse constantly picking the worst parts of this musical (without other context, btw) to use against him.

and this post certainly isn't here to excuse anyone either i've just got a lot of opinions that i wanted to share while falsettos is.. trending? right?

2. marvin's (headcanoned but still somewhat researched) autism

this one isn't brought up as much but when i do see it around, it's kind of a skewed viewpoint.

while rewatching bits of the proshot i realized a lot of different neurodivergent traits that he shows-

he's helpless during I Never Wanted to Love You and is childish and regressive when he's upset (not every autistic person is like this either, i know this is a bit of a touchy subject so i just wanted to add that).

usually when people depict it i see it either toned down or joked about which is fine when all in good fun, and when its done respectfully.

not here to attack anyone, just here to point it out and say that yes :) he most likely is neurodivergent, but despite that his actions aren't condoned. he's still kinda a dick who needs to get his shit together

3. ..the lesbians also have shit going on?

just putting this out there- I DON'T SEE ENOUGH FOR THE LESBIANS! OR TRINA!

the girls in this musical are like thoroughly neglected and i think that's kind of shitty just assuming the fact that william finn put them in to demonstrate how gender roles put people in degrading positions (and he even makes it more prevalent by showing marvin as something like a misogynistic character who forces whizzer into more feminine roles to show the audience what woman have to/had to go through in society).

anyways, the lesbians aren't just there guys. they have a plotline too. in Something Bad is Happening, you derive a lot from charlotte singing about the outbreak of HIV/AIDS and realize how she operates on a daily basis (she's passionate about her work and takes every bad day as a hit to her life and career, explaining in a way that as a black, jewish, lesbian, FEMALE doctor in this time, everything that goes wrong is immediately brought down on her so much more than it would as any straight white male pharmacist-).

cordelia on the other hand has to handle the fact that her girlfriend is so adamant about her work ethic that she can't actually be super present in their relationship at times like that.

but either way she still sticks by her and is constantly trying to be supportive and endearing despite feeling like she's not amounting to her gf who's basically a hero in her eyes.

i kinda just wanted to bring that up because they mean a lot to me and they don't get enough love from the fanbase, thank you for listening to my TED talk <3

[greenandsorrow]

~Her man child~

Headcanons 📺

Vox is the definition of a manchild and I think it's kinda obvious.

He's the mean kind, acting with so much spite, sometimes without it being necessary or justified.

He NEEDS to be taken seriously. He tries so hard, blurring the lines between respect, fear and tolerance.

But when you two are alone... the telly-head man is a whiny boy.

He complains like it's a form of art. You can't help but roll your eyes playfully when he lets out a too loud sigh, but after doing so you're always ready to give him all the reassurance and attention he desperately craves.

Your man prefers being the little spoon. He's like a lap cat.

If anyone finds out about his cuddly nature, he's gonna die a second time...

Vox feels the need to constantly prove himself to Velvette and Valentino, but with you he feels safe. He can be overly emotional. And weak. And needy.

Very needy.

If you're not somewhere behind the camera admiring him and boosting his confidence, his day is ruined.

Grumpy, grumpy, grumpy.

In the mornings he doesn't even turn on his screen... settling for the protection setting instead.

You have to be patient with him.

Bring him a steaming cup of coffee and hug him from behind and he might as well start giggling like a schoolgirl.

He's too sensitive for harsh jokes. Being in Hell means ONLY dark and cruel humour, but Vox can't take it sometimes.

His ego is fragile.

In order to feel loved, Vox has to be showered in extravagant compliments on a daily basis. Whether it's about his appearance, his job, his amazing and very interesting personality... He needs them.

When you tell him he's better than the radio demon.... he literally gets rock hard.

Vox is in a constant dilemma between showing you off for all Pentagram City to know you're his, or keeping you secret.

It's the same as a boy with his favourite toy. If other kids see his toy, he's gonna have to share.

What if someone steals his favourite toy?! Or even worse... BREAK IT?!

That being said, he doesn't objectify you, but he's terrible at showing affection or appreciation.

He's gonna be there for you, help you with anything you need, laugh with you, spend quality time with you. Still, deep communication is a difficult subject for him.

Thank god you're observant enough to catch all the messages he tries to pass to you.

Such an attention seeker though.

Have you ever seen a six year old trying to impress his crush?

Just look at Vox trying to woo you. It's the same thing.

But he's not that bad... His self-esteem is an obstacle alright, but he becomes a rug for you to step on and use as you wish most of the time.

Vox would definitely go out of his way if you asked something from him. You're his rock. It's the least he can do.

The guy even whimpers in his sleep.

Vox loves to fill his hands with your thighs when it's bed time. They're warm and soothing to him, like stress toys. Being a walking television has its disadvantages temperature wise.

He would bend you over and take you in front of a mirror so he could see himself while at it, but he hasn't done so yet. He wants to ask you beforehand and make sure it won't make you feel weird.

Vox is easy to rile up. A breathy compliment and a squeeze of his thigh and he's more than ready to go.

He doesn't actually feel dominant, but he tries to act like it. This Vee member has the stereotype man = dominance engraved in his subconsciousness and so he fights to live up to it.

But between you and me... Treat him like an inexperienced and innocent boy and he'll be crying out in pleasure.

Aka... be a femdom. Even a soft one. You won't even have to try that much.

Another thing. Vox is loud. (Like his name implies 🫣)

He also pants a lot. Almost like he's hyperventilating.

Unlike Alastor, this man is very insecure about both his performance and... size.

I'm not saying he's lacking in either though. It's just how his mind works. Always comparing himself to his opponents and in this case, his opponents are other men that could perhaps satisfy you more thoroughly than him.

Allow me to say that he fucks in an anxious way. Hands shaking and his mantra "Does that feel good to you darling?"

You just need to praise him a little. (A lot)

He doesn't last that long but he'll be sure to rub your clit so you don't either.

When it gets too real, he tears up at the end, like a baby that's holding back from crying. But you're there to hold him until he calms down.

He's usually too tired (and still nervous) afterwards for proper aftercare. Vox likes to be babied though. It's more personal attention after all.

Oh to be cleaned up and tucked to bed! Only then will he feel comfortable enough to run his fingers through your hair and mumble a faint thank you.

Vox's head has a bit of an awkward shape for cunnilingus. However, he has a surprisingly long tongue that can reach more than enough to have you moaning out how good of a boy he's being.

He usually cums in his pants while eating you out.

And when you return the favour it's usually to relieve his stress at work. He feels like a teenager when you do it. It's an act of service, really.

He low-key fucks your face, not enough to choke you but you do gag around him. It makes him feel in control. It makes him feel like a man.

To sum up, Vox is a bit dependent on you and on your validation, but he would never hurt you or become too overbearing.

He's needy, but not stupid.

He is the definition of a manchild and I think I proved my point.

But he's your manchild sis!

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[rinstrumental]

ellie gf headcanons

# modern au. im in luv with her. this is so long oh my god its an illness

did karate from 1st grade all the way up to high school and basically considers herself your bodyguard

immediately offers you her hoodie without a second thought when you show the slightest signs of being cold. she lets you keep it too, of course. what kind of girlfriend would she be if she didn’t ???!!!!

she needs either your hands on her or her hands on you at all times. sosososo touchy and BIG on pda her kisses are inescapable. constantly has an arm around you or resting on your waist… the whole world needs to know. she’s actually insufferable i’m sorry but in the most endearing way ever how can you resist

“would you still love me if i was a ____???” she wants a serious answer too

genuinely thinks ur the prettiest person alive. which is kind of the bare minimum but she worships you truly

happy with any sort of date as long as it’s with you. fancy dinner? this is the only reason she keeps a suit and tie. staying in? what movie do you want, babe? running errands? she’s already waiting for you in the car!!!

speaking of cars she drives an old station wagon which used to be joel’s. ellie used to moan about how lame it was until you said that the back was perfect for sitting together during camping or stargazing…. and other activities too ;) wink wonk

gets flustered when she makes you flustered because you’re telling her that SHE did that?? she made u nervous??? shit man now shes blushing too

her love language is gifts she loves to spoil you with your favourite snacks and soft toys and even homemade gifts. she just wants you to see her in your room and have her on your mind as much as you’re in hers!!

it’s no secret that she’s an artist and it’s also no secret that her favourite subject to draw is youuu!!! her favourite thing to do is just have you sit across from her and draw what she sees

of course naturally that means she takes tons of pictures of you… to study for her drawings… and keep in her special photo album of you… and to look at when she misses you. Ofc

makes fun of you/teases you sometimes. she can be a mean bitch to other people but she would never actually hurt your feelings and you know that

ellie hates goodbyes. even if it’s after spending a full day together and you’re going to see her soon anyways… i just know she’s the kind of person who feels empty after hanging out with someone.

calls and texts about everything… and it’s always so cute :( she definitely has autocaps on

ellie: I drew you again!!

ellie: Hey babe I saw this funny bird it reminded me of u

ellie: I miss you so much. When can I see you again?

ellie: These cats r like us lol

keeps a pet gecko or something like that for sure. it’s you guys’ baby

her top two movie genres are horror and romance after that. the only reason romance is that high up is because it reminds her of you

does stupid romcom shit like hold a boombox outside your window. makes you mixtapes even though CDs are basically extinct (joel has a player thank god). corny pickup lines. asks you to be her valentine publicly. runs to your house in the rain. dances with you in said rain.

when she gets sick it’s like the end of the world omg… she needs u to be at her side 24/7 and hold her and keep her company and give her get well soon kisses, it’s essential to her recovery. doctors orders. he said it not her!

gets along so well with your friends and family. she does her research and takes this shit seriously! whatever it takes to make you happy because what’s better than watching your girlfriend get along with the people you love

she also takes her own family seriously - family time is important to her and she spends a lot of time with joel. it’s even better when you can join, some of her best memories are with the two of you

“i’m happy as long as you’re happy”

pet names galore. her personal favourite is just babe (classic) but when she likes others too (sweetheart, honey, darling etc she’s so cheesy it’s awful)

in conclusion she’s just a clingy sappy lesbian who’s absolutely head over heels for you. and you wouldn’t have it any other way <33

bonus: (these tweets that are so ellie)

[sapphicseasapphire]

Sorry for the many questions I'm about to ask but its been driving me insane.

How exactly does the story of Hyrule Warriors work with your cryptid au? Does Wars have a personality during those events or do the events of Hyrule Warriors not happen at all?

Your au is great and l really want to know how Wind, Time, and maybe Ravio interact with Wars. I am considering writing a short story with them, and I want to stay as loyal to the au as possible.

Also I love your art.

Hello!! First of all I’m SO SORRY it’s taken me this long to get back to you!! Sincerely I apologize!! But this question made me do a lot of deep thinking and I wasn’t exactly sure how to answer. I’m gonna break this up into sections under the cut because it’s gonna get pretty long.

How does Hyrule Warriors fit into the au? Gonna be completely 100% honest here, I’m kind of sort of rewriting the whole story I think. There’s a lot that I’m still figuring out, but (in the briefest of terms as this is all subject to change) here’s what I’ve got so far: Cia is still enamored by the Spirit of the Hero, and Ganon still takes advantage of that desire and purges her of her light, corrupting her. She still opens the Gate of Souls(s) and launches an attack on Hyrule, opening portals across time. However, in this era, there is no hero. (There was no Ganon either, before she showed up, so Link was never born. There was still a Zelda, since Hyrule’s princesses are always named Zelda. But yeah, Link just doesn’t exist). Not until Cia’s attack, that is. When Hyrule is threatened, Zelda and Impa decided that they need a hero. And so, they make one. They physically pull the Hero’s Spirit from its resting place in the Sacred Realm and manually place it in a sword, thus creating Wars.

They don’t call him Link, as he’s not a person. In this era, he’s always been called the Hero of Warriors, as that is his purpose. He was created solely to fight. To win the war and save Hyrule.

After the war is won, he is placed deep within a temple and abandoned. After all, he’s a literal weapon. A weapon without a wielder is dangerous- anyone could take up his sword and be accepted as his new Master. The temple that he’s placed in is a typical Zelda Temple TM, like a dungeon, and it’s where he will wait until he is discovered by the Chain.

Does Wars have a personality in Hyrule Warriors? Short answer: no. He is a freshly created sword spirit and bound entirely to his Master. (Which, at this point, is his Zelda). With the War of Eras still ongoing, his purpose hasn’t yet been fulfilled. At this point, he is very very similar to how Fi was in Skyward Sword: mostly residing in his sword and giving power ups to his Master, only manifesting outside of the blade when called upon. He doesn’t speak unless spoken to. He shows absolutely no emotion. Ever.

… which leads me to the bad news. How do the others (Time, Wind, Ravio) interact with Wars? Generally speaking, they don’t. Like. Not even a little bit. With Wars constantly in his sword, he’s pretty inaccessible. Plus, they don’t really have any reason to. Any of Wars’ advice is heard only by Zelda, who relays the information to the group, they don’t think to ask where these strategies are coming from. And they really don’t think much of the sword at Zelda’s back.

That’s not to say that nothing is happening between the Links, though!! I’ve been having a field day thinking of little Time, a godling, fresh out of Termina and trying to comprehend the weight of his fate while also being a kid and now fighting in yet another war he never asked to be a part of. He’d appear to the others as Child Link (and go by Mask), using his god powers to change his appearance. He doesn’t have to be Child Link, but with how new his powers are?? He’s scared to be anything else.

And WIND!!! Wind and Ravio interactions!!! I have been thinking about this for WEEKS, ever since you sent this ask. Wind, the chaos gremlin of an Aquili. And Ravio, the violence hating Mer whose whole family and everyone he knew was killed by the corrupted Aquili in his own world. Ravio witnessed his whole pod being murdered, he narrowly escaped. He was a child, alone and afraid. If Legend carries bias against Aquili, imagine the scope of Ravio’s trauma. I wouldn’t be surprised if he avoided Wind at any cost.

(I will be making a lot of Ravio content in the future. He’s just. He’s my little guy).

I’m having a very fun time thinking about these interactions, even if it’s a bummer that Wars isn’t a part of it. (Remember! The only one who knows what Wars is is Sky. Wind and Time never had the chance to meet him. Although, after they discover that he’s a Sword Spirit, I bet a lot of things suddenly make a lot of sense haha!)

ANYWAY. This is one of the less organized lore posts I’ve made but I wanted to get this answered. Like I said, I’m still workshopping this, but I hope this helps? You’re welcome to make a story (as long as you tag me)! I’m sorry if this was a bit of a let down, but even if Wars’ role isn’t very big, I already have so many ideas about the others! I hope this gives you ideas as well

[multifandombullshitbabes]

It makes me so mad seeing people genuinely believe that Alicent is just sacrificing Aegon just because. Like no!!! Fuck, did y'all watch that scene with your eyes closed??

Leading up to that scene, we have Alicent that knows there's abt to be a war, she started it (it was gonna happen anyway but whatever), but she tried to stave off the guilt of it by believing that she was doing her dying husband's a favor. She thought she was doing good even if i caused so much pain.

Then, she learns it was a complete misunderstanding already too late: the first big event of the war has happened, and it was only a taste of what's to come. Even then, it already brought so much grief, not even talking abt the grief from the first episode. And before that convo with Rhaenyra, Alicent could lie to herself and think that it was all for something, it was all meant to be just like Viserys said (even though she had her doubts, but who was she to refuse his dying wish?). Now? She doesn't have that anymore, and she is now scrambling and improvising, just keeping it going cuz wtf else is she supposed to do.

But her tipping point? When she realized that the one true innocent in all of this, Halaena, would not be spared in this war, no matter how much she tried to not think about it. That scene where they both run away from their hungry and angry subjects, that's when Alicent realizes, in a kind of foolish way, that she as well was going to suffer, not just Aegon or Aemond, but Halaena and herself as well: that even though they wouldn't go into battle themselves, they wouldn't be spared.

Honestly, she already knew this of course, she just didn't want to think about it too much: that in a war its not only those who battle who die, but also everyone else. It is here that Alicent realizes the true point of war: nothing. It is only death and casualties, no winners.

This is WHY she has that scene of running away and swimming into the lake. She cannot bear to think that she's doomed so many innocents to die, something she was aware of before but now has lived the reality of it firsthand with her own sweet daughter. She understands the futility in her actions, in her petty schemes, in following her fathers footsteps, in trying to be a good Christian girl in a society that hates women, etc. She understands that nothing fucking matters. So, she might as well save her daughter and granddaughter this fate of death if she can; especially because she KNOWS she cannot save either of her sons.

And that's the thing: Aegon is at the center of this conflict, he is likely to die; Aemond is their biggest weapon in this war, he is very likely to die. Alicent, in a very dark way, has already resigned herself to losing both of her sons, Aegon since he was born and Aemond since the war happened. Aegon is that one death that she is constantly reminded of, every time she looks at Rhaenyra she sees the one that has the power and right to forfeit his life, as they literally say in the show multiple times. Is it logical? Not really, considering we don't have evidence of Rhaenyra herself thinking like this. But since the men think it that way, it must be the only truth ever, and so the story goes.

Could Alicent have denied Viserys wish and let things be? Sure, but then she wouldn't be Alicent, the one desperate to be seen as a dutiful wife that gave birth to the rightful heir to the throne and who should feel very bitter about and so she does (and she does, but she also admits that Rhaenyra would've made a fine queen, she knows that the world wouldn't have ended if she let things be). It is that heavy subject of her being the only witness to his last moments and so she feels naturally duty bound as his wife to carry his last message. I cannot fault her for this, no matter the consequences of it.

And when we get to that last scene, we see all of this, just as Rhaenyra says: that, per her father's wish, she should be the heir and therefore Aegon NEEDS to die. And Alicent doesn't want to accept this truth, because that is her child, but she knows it to be true. Neither woman likes this, Rhaenyra is literally shaking and crying, Alicent looks like she can barely breathe in that entire scene. They are both mothers, and one knows exactly how bad it is to lose a child and the other knows she is about to find out how it feels.

However, they both believe this is the best that they can do in this shit situation, to avoid more innocent deaths, to stop this war from moving forward, to let each other lead their own lives as they wish. Aegon has to be sacrificed in name of the Targaryen line, and it is fucked up and Alicent does not choose this willingly but only because she knows it will happen either way, since Aegon quite literally cannot defend himself right now. She knows he is going to die, so she might as well do it in a way that ensures peace to the realm if she can.

Im sorry, bit that last scene was amazingly written and so well acted and performed and it is so disappointing seeing people being fucking foolish about it. So so sick of it. Alicent loves her children despite all of them being a product os statutory rape, the reason why she lost her vest friend, the reason why she had to resort to her cruel and petty ways, just like her father. She still loves them all and it is heartbreaking to watch.

[blackbullet99]

Some ZKs are pretty upset with that recent post you made about them, namely sokkastyles and eponastory and some one guy called broadwaybalogna. They’re saying stuff like you’re encouraging bullying, you’re respect for them is dependent upon their opinions about fictional characters and one of them took offense that you said they downplay genocide, saying their ancestors experienced it and Bryke are white or something (along with Aang being a Gary-Stu McGuffin).

These are the posts, what do you think?

https://www.tumblr.com/broadwaybalogna/756326576927440896/is-it-bad-to-say-i-chuckled?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/eponastory/756307670306308096/well-i-guess-im-going-to-have-to-address-this?source=share

Honestly, not to be dismissive, I ain’t gonna bother reading those links.

Of course those losers are gonna be upset, I told it like is, calling them out on their stupid (and downright offensive in some cases) takes. They’re seething and coping, but the truth hurts. I don’t even know how they found these, one of these crybabies blocked me, so they’re obviously obsessed with me and can’t get by without stalking me anytime I dare to criticize their idiocy.

For the record, I never told anyone to bully these people. I don’t condone it, that’s on whoever reads this, but these people have a victim problem, seeing as ZKs constantly go into the wrong tags, call out anyone who disagrees with them (plenty do so by name) and spend of their time hating and whining about a show they claim to love. But suddenly I’m the big meanie-weenie because I hurt the feewings.

One final thing, I ain’t gonna go and act like Bryke are the best writers ever and should never be criticized, cuz they should, they made a great show, but said and did some pretty stupid stuff too. If anyone’s ancestors experienced genocide, I feel for you. But as a person of color myself, who’s ancestors I know where killed, enslaved, beaten and colonized among many other things, I called out these people because their opinions on serious subject matter such as genocidal trauma and how people (fictional or otherwise) was downright vile and insulting regardless of your own situation, A:TLA, may be fictional, but their issues towards such serious subject matter is callous, vile an reflects their crappy personality. I take issue with these idiots dismissing issues such as genocidal trauma, imperial propaganda, comparing a genocide survivor to a literal colonizer, invalidating the trauma and feelings of a colonist survivor (Katara) and adultifying her (in the Kataang tag no less).

Not to mention this rancid colonist take.

Need, I mention this, as a person of color, this makes me physically sick. They’re either unempathetic to a character who suffers from genocide, invalidate someone who experienced colonization and only care for the character who initially perpetuates imperialist antagonism, who did genuinely learn from his mistakes, but even those they always excuse.

In conclusion, screw these guys, it doesn’t matter what the vocal minority of toxic ZKs think, they can play the victim all they want, but their opinion means nothing, they downplay the effects of genocide and colonization trauma, because they don’t care, about the issues about the characters, it’s all to make a Wattpad middle school ship look better, because evidently they think it’s too weak to stand on its own and really clinging on to a fanon ship is all they amount to.

[girlnextvore]

HELLO i am going to like post the Letters Rossa has written to her wife for the seattle by night game I have here. just so I can post them someplace besides in the discord for the game lol!

Letter 1

Dear Alezya, 

I bet it comes as a shock to receive this from me. It has been quite awhile since I have reached out to you, coming up on the better part of two decades. I would love to say I have just been too busy to do so but I find it pointless to lie to you. I wished for a degree of independence, I feared if I reached out to you early in my journey I would wilt under the weight of how much I love you. Gosh there I go being dramatic sorry. 

I know you can always find me with Le sang de l'amour but for my own sake I didn’t want to be the one to bridge that gap. It almost felt unkind given how we left things. But I digress, I hope this letter finds you well! I do hope the recent activities of those who hunt for information found at night hasn't reached you or impeded you in any way. 

That is partly why I am writing, after the recent nights I have had I find myself a little worried about you. I mean no disrespect, I know you would tell me it's foolish to worry but I can’t help it. Things have grown quite dangerous here. It feels like a thousand eyes are constantly watching every move me and my support system makes. That a single foolish mistake could cause the mask that protects us to shatter into a thousand pieces. I myself have been very careful so I do not find myself too worried but the youngins around me are a different story. Speaking of, I should tell you about them! I almost took for granted that you would know about them since they have become such a solid fixture in my life here. 

Firstly there is a young one who shares a background with us. I would be lying if I said the presence of a dragon didn’t bring me at least a tiny bit of comfort. That may be why she reminds me of You or even sweet Angeline, but I could be projecting, or maybe her deep connection to her Orun that makes me think of you. She is very sweet though, there is an earnestness to her that is rarely found nowadays. Haha she makes me wish I was more skilled in the ways of moving flesh, she is far better then I am. Who knows with her deep connection to those abilities and fondness of water one day I could teach her koldunism in exchange for some lessons

To be frank I worry about that one the least, while she is young and emotional I think she will be fine in the long run. She doesn’t fear her Orun in the way many do in this city and that will help her. A funny thing actually occurred when she got into a little bit of a tiff with the blue blood in our group. I was able to placate them both to some degree. I must say the “Clan of kings” have not made the best impression on me through this long period of time I have spent in the states. Most of them either come across as foolish or as if they are trying to cover some perceived weakness, I can see why many Magaji push them out of our domains back home. 

Though with that being said the one who I am close with is very kind, in her own way. She is intelligent and quick witted and dominant when she needs to be. You would absolutely hate her. I think if she could rip herself away from that cellphone or computer the sky would be the limit. But if she is happy that is enough! I hate to sound weak but if her current situation finds her peace I think that's all that matters. Her contentment in her computer games is admirable, I wish I had such an easy time finding peace or at least joy in things so mundane. Don’t take this to mean I am not happy here! I AM, it's just finding a path or something I truly want for myself feels impossible at times and I envy her. I find myself both concerned and enchanted by all the things she does in equal measure. She will be fine I believe but life will take its toll on her. The one I worry about the most is a different subject. 

He is a sweet and beautiful boy but I fear his heart is not made for this world. But the same could have been said about me years ago. He belongs to the hidden but everything about his blood vexes me. 

He is without many of their talents and his appearance, while it invokes a magnificent discomfort in my bones, it is far from the traditional appearance of others here. I even mistaken him for a Guruhi but I find that impossible given how young he is and I think I would know if another of our kind resides in the city. It is not important but still! IT bothers me, but also elates me! If I didn't fear scaring the child I would ask for blood samples and use all of my resources and time looking into it. But I fear being so different from others of his family causes much strife, I wouldn’t want to make the poor dear any more uncomfortable. I am patient, once the sweet boy finds his footing I can broach the subject. I feel like I may be doing him a disservice by making him sound so sensitive, there is a strength to him haha and I fear I lean on him the most out of them. I know you won't approve but I think I have begun to behave inhumane. I feel like an old woman who needs someone to help her cross the street but I have asked if he could keep me on the right track if my behavior becomes worrying. I feel like my compass of what is the right or wrong move has become broken, perhaps you used to be that for me and now I am simply asking this fledgling to do it now until I figure it out on my own. I must keep you away from him 

Oh dear it seems this “short letter” has expanded itself to be yapping on and on like some chatty cathy. I guess it comes from how private I keep so many aspects of myself, even from those important to me in this city, I do it out of respect for you my love. But it weighs on me, there was a simplicity in the comfort I found with you. Now I sometimes find that I have changed so much in just a few decades. The fix to this is so very simple, I could just talk to those around me, be open and honest. But where is the fun in that? Also the simplest things are the hardest to do, brain surgery is simply making a few cuts after all. 

-I miss you so much and I can’t decide if it makes me sick-

There I go rambling again sorry, It is nearly sunrise I must go to bed. I know you probably care very little for all of this and scanned this letter for a hint of me returning home. Either way, I will include a few pressed flowers with this, I have been breeding my own lilies and wish to include some. Again I hope this finds you well , if the garden still stands at home please send me a picture with your return letter if you do not mind. Oh and obviously Ashe says hello! 

With Love ,

 Rosa Zewditu 

Letter 2

Dear Alezya, 

Sorry to send a second letter before even getting a response to the first one. In a morbid way I doubt I will get one in return so I plan to use your neglected mailbox as a sounding board when the urge arises. This one I am writing from one of my coterie members' homes. I am having some issues at my haven with a curse and a necromancer so for my own safety I have decided to stay here. 

This is nothing I can’t take care of ofcourse! But I am not used to having….disagreements with people like this? Call me naive but I am realizing making roots in a single place like Seattle would make things like this happen more regularly. I would rather not use Ashe to burn this fool's house down, I want my time to be peaceful and this Necromancer seems the type to escalate things. The curse he has on my flower shop is mostly harmless so I will instead just try and parlay with him. 

I could ask how you would handle this but I have an idea haha. But isn’t the beauty of our marriage that we both do things differently? I also do not have the talents for combat and swordplay you do so running to him and separating his head from his shoulders isn’t an option. This brings me to another point I wanted to talk to you about! 

I have made my coterie aware of the fact I have a wife, I thought it was fairly obvious given the wedding ring but one of them said “I assumed it was a memento of your mortal life.” What a strange thing to think. I don’t think they have met many married vampires. Ugh sorry I do not have anything interesting to say, I guess it's a good thing I know you wont read these then. 

I’m still not sure why I feel the need to send these, it has been so long since we have talked. I have found myself thinking of your voice and face, both of your faces. I think this letter was brought on from a meeting I had with one of my coterie mate’s sire. The one who is of the dragon. She felt familiar and old, not to compare you to anyone, but she reminds me of you. In no way that matters just her general aura and feeling. I think being around so many who exist so close to their humanity is beginning to make me feel uncomfortable. It was comforting. 

I fear I may never become accustomed to vampires so connected to their Aye. I fear I need the crutch of being the most human person in the room haha. That takes me back. To  a memory of older days when the idea of being on my own in the western world was just an idea. When I was younger and my only exposure to the world outside of you was sweet Fleurine. I think I am too old to be so immature to believe I would find all kindred as agreeable as her. 

I promised myself I would keep this one short, the last thing I need is for Elissa to find me writing a letter when sunrise is so close. It will only add more questions to her already long list. 

One last thing though, I have found comfort in knowing you wont read this so let me say. I used to stay up at night when I was mortal, days before you would embrace me. I had a clinging thought that wrapped itself around my brain and heart. That one day I would no longer feed from you, I would no longer taste your blood and have it fill me and the bond we share would fade.

That once it faded I wouldn’t feel the things I feel for you anymore. That it was all a delusion. I am happy(?) to say that with these years between us, the blood bond long gone and distance vast. I still love you, I love you so much I think it makes me mad. 

I thought getting older as a vampire made these kinds of emotions dull. 

Well that's all. I am not at the shop so I have no flowers to include with this one, I apologize.

With Love,

 Rosa Zewditu 

[ruinaimagines]

This maybe too specific, but can you write headcanon of Roland with a librarian who lost her fiance in an abnormality breach?

Worry not! It is not too specific at all.

Roland w/ a Librarian who Lost their Fiance in an Abno Breach Headcanons:

Given that he wasn’t involved much with the company during its time of operation, Roland’s actual knowledge on just how Lobotomy Corp functioned is limited only to that which he has been told or overheard. His knowledge on the abnormalities really only comes from those that he has witnessed and fought in the library. Yet even from those little glimpses he has grown familiar with just how ruthless and dangerous some of them can be.

He holds a lot of empathy for your situation. He too has lost a loved one he cared about very dearly, so it’s a pained feeling that he is all too familiar with. His expression and behavior when you tell him is one of compassion.

He treads very carefully with the subject, not wanting to pry too much further, but holds a lot of respect for you carrying yourself still so strongly and fighting in the remnants of the place that took your fiance. Sure, you don’t really have much of a choice in what you get to do, but you still manage to prevail.

He himself is always stumbling on constant reminders of his past wife, even as he has moved on to heal, just little things will manage to bring back memories like opening floodgates. If he’s still afflicted with these recollections in a foreign place, he can only imagine what it might be like for you when you’re constantly surrounded by them.

Roland honestly looks up to you a bit with how you seem to remain so strong. He doesn’t want to go into some territory that you’re uncomfortable with.. But he also wonders if you were affected with that same fuelled desire for revenge that got him into this very situation. Did you lash out on others? How did you cope? How similar was your mourning to his?

Very interested in your current opinions, especially on abnormalities. Is it one of anger towards them for taking away your fiance, or do you not blame them at all for they’re more like animals in nature? There isn’t a wrong answer, he’s just curious.

Depending on if this occurs before him and Angela forgive each other, and when he’s a bit more vague on his origins I could see him envying you in a way. He doesn’t have any ill wishes towards you, but there’s just this sort of pained feeling that makes him wonder why he couldn’t have taken things like you had, why he was so upset as to commit the violent acts he did. He’s not proud of the harm he’s brought to people, so if you instead were rather peaceful after the loss of your fiance I think there would be a little bit of jealousy. 

You’ve told him of other stories and experiences from your time as an employee, not really worried about it being a breach of contract no more as it’s not like Lobotomy Corp exactly existed anymore. From the sounds of it, he’s pretty relieved to hear that the abnormalities now are hosted inside of books in their ideal habitats. No longer is there the need to worry about them outside of the few times you may fight them in a controlled environment.

It’s a bit of a sad thought, but there is the realization that should your fiance have made it a little longer till the fall of the corporation they would probably be able to be here with you.

He’s always here to listen to you if you want to talk about it, otherwise if you prefer moving ahead and on he’s fine with that too. You both have quite the long lives ahead of you so there’s all the time in the world to make that choice.

Remembering passed loved ones isn’t always sad either! If you have any fond stories you want to tell of your fiance he is ready to listen. You two get to know eachother better than most and connect on an even deeper level with such a similar experience. 

A lot of the time people see him as a laidback and indifferent guy, and while this is true to an extent there is a lot more to him. Including stuff he is and is not proud of. I believe the two of you would have the grounds to have much easier conversation concerning vulnerable topics, and you’d get more insight into his own history and impulsive decisions.

If ever there is a time where you feel like you’re going to lose sight of yourself, he will be there to pull you back into reality. You aren’t alone in this, and he’s reached his own breaking points before. You’ve shown interest and desire to support him through his hardships, so it is only expected he would do the same.

Overall very supportive and this new knowledge shapes his understanding and desire to get to know you further in a unique way.

[inkwell-intermission]

Dunno if you're still in school, I just woke up and saw the choose violence post and hell YEAH I'm interested. 1, 8, 22

8: common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

Honestly, its obviously subjective, but there are small things? I think people are wrong when they make Droog Russian. I don't know. I think it's just tired. bonus points if they characterize him as like, Russian and a sociopath or whatever. It's just boring. I also don't like when Sleuth is blond. Bottle blond sure, but do you think that man puts enough effort into his appearance to BOTHER? He barely showers every other day let alone gets metrosexual with it. If a version of Sleuth was going to be a bottle blond you KNOW it would be Scofflaw, Sleuth absolutely does not serve daily hygiene in the way some people draw him 😭

22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

This is a hard one because there's so little intermission to begin with, and not that much problem sleuth. I really enjoy the dipshit fop versions of the sleuth team and i never see anything about them i guess? I want to see more of the gentlemen, I should draw some stuff for them at some point. I'm going to put most of 1 under a cut because I'm gonna get into it.

the character everyone gets wrong

Where to start, I've got thoughts on a bunch of characterizations I think are just wrong, but the top four are Pickle Inspector, Die, Clubs Deuce and Droog.

TO START: PICKLE INSPECTOR

Whenever I see PI characterized as a tea drinker I think its very funny but also incorrect. I am fairly certain we never see PI drink tea, outside of possibly some provided by Death. When left to his own devices PI brews his own moonshine and gets absolutely plastered locked in his own office. He keeps his own waste in a glass vase in his office! I don't believe he has long hair as a person either, because he would NOT take care of it. He showers less frequently than Ace or Sleuth. I think if he had long hair that would get so tangled and he would be so stressed and fried about detangling it would never happen and he'd have to cut it all off. I think he cleans up his act a little when Broad comes into his life because he doesn't want to scare her off by being such a disaster, but he's low functioning, very neurotic, and constantly dissociating. Even if he's smart and detail-oriented, I don't believe he channels that into cleaning his own space, maintaining his personal hygiene, or literally just going grocery shopping. He isn't fussy and neat and a tea drinker, he's fussy and snippy and a bit peevish, he's sometimes delusional and dissociative and sitting in his own sweat for days. He needs to be hosed down like a dog at the groomers!!! DIE

This man is also not long haired because he is disgusting and i cannot imagine him taking care of it. he's similar to PI but doesn't dissociate in the same way and expresses his anxieties a lot more externally. I personally headcanon him as having trichotillomania and having very thin hair and eyebrows, and stubby if any eyelashes. He's not in an environment conducive to like. Reducing anxiety. So it's not getting better really. He wears gloves to make it more difficult to pull out individual hairs. If he's a leprechaun with no hair, he probably picks at his skin, and I headcanon leprechauns as having something akin to vellus hairs all over their body giving them a very soft feeling skin, and he would also tear those out. I think he's marginally more fixated on contamination anxiety than PI is, but overall he doesn't have the motivation to take care of himself! He lives a very stressful existence and is like the most frightened and aggressive donskoy cat you've ever seen. I do want to also note that I think him just being a wimp is wrong, i think he is a wimp but responds to threats not by cowering exclusively, but also by brandishing a gun and getting very agitated and i think he bites. TLDR he is not a cute schmoopy to me he is a possum who needs to get its shots (not for rabies. tetanus and the like)

CLUBS DEUCE

I don't have exactly as much to say on deuce that i didn't cover in another post i made about him, but it seems like he gets infantilized a lot sometimes. He's a grown ass adult man, he's just full of whimsy and love and enjoys being alive and setting fires and building things. He's not a toddlerrrrr. I'm not saying everyone treats him like one but he's got like. a full inner life. He's just has some of the best mental health in midnight city

DIAMONDS DROOG

I can go into his character in detail another time, but I'll say a little about how i think he's fanonized so deeply. He is not cool. He just looks cool. He's not verbose, he cultivates a very particular look and sticks to it, but that's not because he's some kind of casanova, or suave. His flat affect is unintentional. His unflappable reputation is nonexistent- he is incredibly violent and prone to temper flare-ups, the only difference is how much he screams or swears compared to Slick, he's almost as violent as him, just not as off-the-handle. He's very specific and detail oriented, but is also INCREDIBLY boring! Not in a bad way, he's just. Normal. I think he has absolutely no imagination skills. his imagination stat is like a paradox. He simply doesn't imagine anything new! When the Draconian Dignitary puts the ring on in Homestuck that one time, and he doesn't get a whole big transformation? HE COULDN'T IMAGINE HIMSELF AS ANYTHING COOLER! And, i also think he's autistic (like me), and that ties into how i think he's so uncomfortable with change or going outside of his specific ass comfort zone. He's not cool, or even sexy, its all a facade. He calls the number on clothes catalogues to interrogate underpaid employees about the kinds of seams on their trousers and the fabric treatments they use on their products for hours. He eats one of three things when he goes out if he goes out at all. He has a hundred opinions on alcohol and cigars and he doesn't even like smoking cigars firsthand because the flavors too strong. He lives a highly internal life. If he wore a collarless overshirt he would die. He wouldn't even wear a funny tie of his own volition! He's kind of a killjoy dipshit! AND I LIKE HIM FOR IT! Thank you for listening to my thoughts.

[nightswithkookmin]

The only person I trust to spit facts unapologetically besides myself is my ex best friend. Are you her?

I have nothing to say to this other than FACTS.

Spot on.

APT DESCRIPTION OF THE SITUATION

My exact sentiment

He likes to stir the spot, and add some shit

He's basically me on Crack honestly

He trolls, he taunts, he antagonises, he will pull your leg till you fall and then keep pulling🤧

And if you understand this about him then you can't take him seriously at all😩😩😩

I don't think he takes himself seriously he's so goofy😫

When it comes to him ,JM and their "obsession" with Kook it can get a bit 🥴🥴🥴🥴

I always say they both often come across as wanting and seeking validation from JK. Which I'm sure they are both aware of but don't care.

If you are a JK solo Stan then you might have a problem with both of them bcos of this. Especially when all that seemly unwanted attention makes Jk appear more closed off than he actually is.

Most people i know who hate Jungkook say they hate him because they see him as often being rude towards Jimin or Tae or whomever.

People want him to be more open and receptive towards their biases and that creates problems for him when he's subjected to such intense and sometimes unwanted attention.

I'm not a fan of either Jimin or Tae imposing themselves on Jungkook. They might think they doing it out of love, to show their affection or to stroke Jk's ego or whatever but it doesn't make Jk look good out here. Matter fact, it cast him in a bad light and amplifies his "negative" traits. Not cute.

Personally, I like to think it's their own way of showing love and support for Jungkook. Its the only way I can rationalize it. If you've ever been the quiet one among a trio, you recognize some of these friendship behavioral patterns:

The louder outgoing ones are constantly egging the quiets one on, encouraging them to be active, to participate in things, losen up, relax, have fun etc.

And that's just the problem with extroverts. They always think they're helping 😐

One time I let this person bulldoze me into thinking I could belt at church- I cried in front of everybody and became a meme. To this day I don't go talking to that person.

Sometimes when a person tell you they can't do shit believe them. Don't go playing Barbara the builder trying to get them out their comfort zone and making them a fool in front of everybody😐

When you listen to Tae talk about his dynamic with JK it's obvious that's how he sees Jungkook. Which is why he pushes his boundaries often- pushing him to take off his pants to shower together, posting their Tae Kook selca when JK cropped himself out. He thinks he's helping but SIRE BOUNDARIES!

Jimin is like that too as you rightfully said.

The difference is Jimin seems to know and understand the limits and if he recognizes he's pushing too far he stops. In my opinion of course. I could be wrong and Jungkook may not see him in that way at all.

Frankly, I cringe at their earlier dynamic too 😬

Jokers like to romanticize it but damn is it hard to watch. I have selective amnesia when it comes to that part of their history 😓

And I understand, it's important to take Jungkook's perspective into consideration when discussing these topics.

We might be rallying up to free him from Vmin but for all we know HE LIKES THAT SHIT💀

He comes across as the type who would let shit fly as long as he's enjoying it. The moment he doesn't enjoy it he puts up a stop sign.

I think this is what Tae probably doesn't or didn't seem to understand about JK. He takes his no for a yes and go a little bit extra each time thinking he likes it.

But it's not everyone who feels comfortable insisting on boundaries. Some people hesitate to say no out of politeness, some wanna let you down easy- I've learned the hard way. These days I'll kick you in the throat and narruto run into your guts if you fail to register a no.

Jimin goes: I feel awkward I need to film with Jk

Tae goes, well I'm feeling awkward too lemme get JK.

Speaking from a delulu standpoint point, I like to think some times these are just ploys and tactics they use as excuse to film content with Jungkook. Which raises the question, who in hybe is preventing them from freely filming content with eachother and why do they feel a need to monitor them while they film live?

Tinfoil hats people. Tinfoil hats.

Out of all BTS members Tae could have had issues with, he names Jungkook and decides they have dirty laundry to air out in Soop.

Then Jimin is given an opportunity to ask any member in BTS a question and he chooses the most obvious pick- JK.

See this is why I don't get shippers who like Jikook but can't stand Tuktuk or vice versa😩

If you like Jimin it should be very easy to like Tae and if you like Jikook then liking Tuktuk is easy 💀💀💀

They both have JK in common

It goes without saying then that if you like JK then liking Vmin should be so easy too🥴

Is the friend of my friend principle.

Yet tuktukkers can't stand Jikook because then they have to face the reality that what Tuktuk have is not so special afterall😫😫😫😫😫😫

I can say same for Jikook but we both know there's that silently loud question mark around Jikook that no one seem to want to answer or can answer- not even them 💀

I like to remind people Jikook is just a ship like Tuktuk- that's until you clock the difference then jikook is right about alting that ship💀

So I like your honesty. If the Fandom thinks Jimin clinging to Kook is cringe then it's only fair to say Tae is cringe too if he does the same. Real discrimination is when we think it's cute when Jimin does it but it's a problem if Tae does it and vice versa.

And for sure, there's a marketing element to this. Ships are highly commercialized. I keep saying jikook is a brand. The rhetorics around their ship is positive. They are not the chaotic duo that team up for mischief. Or the always fighting duo of the group. They are more or less a love story in the literal sense. They have numbers and engagement and purchasing power to sell out almost anything because people like their friendship.

Then there's the concept of feeding ships.

I think by now they all know what constitutes feeding ships. Tae saw a run episode and pointed out "I think Army would love this." And it was a moment of him kissing Jin👁👄👁

Do I think when he name drops Jk like this he is doing it to feed a ship?????????

I don't know... cos then I would have to assume when he name drops Jimin he is feeding a ship and that just conflicts with my Vmin lesbian agenda 🤧

And I must confess, I've been feeling kinda salty he is not posting about Jin like Jimin😒

(Putting this in the universe because the last time I complained about him not posting Jimin he went and posted a vmin IG. Universe hear my prayer and quench my taejin thirst🕯)

No. Seriously, Jimin is the only person showing Jin love since he left😒

I'm snitching on every single one of them when Jin comes back. It's the kajafeluv for me.

I don't know. I think it's healthy for them to be engaging eachother on social media as organically as possible. And although I wish he was name dropping certain people more or as equally as or along side Jungkook, I also don't think they should interact with all just to interact with one.

Whether we like it or not tuktukkers are his primary fan base. Just as jokers are Jimins. In wake of their solo careers, it's only reasonable they establish these fanbases firmly.

I mean.....

it's not as if jokers are lining up to support him🤷🏾

Let's be fucking for real😩

He shares a fan base more with Jk than Jimin or any other member. Although they all have Army in common too. But he's a smart guy. Surely he knows what's up with the Fandom.

He made that clear from the get-go. Since their solo was announced he's been aligning himself more with Jk and tuktukkers. It's cool tho. I'm still gone ship him with Jimin with my full chest and occasionally Jin after I snitch on him and Jin kicks his ass for me🙂

At the end of the day all he has is his tuktukkers and solos better treat them right, build them a fools paradise and watch them build conjure castles in the air like a supervillian.

Tuktukkers can read whatever meaning they want into this mi nuh care. THEIR SHIP AIN'T REAL🤣

[erinhime83]

So, because I can never really leave well enough alone, I find myself constantly tweeking and updating designs if I let them sit too long and my muse gets on a story.  In this case, the victim is The Hero’s Party, which does make sense, since I’m still in the planning stages of the story and am constantly tweeking and updating ideas.

I didn’t change too much about the first set other than a few changes here and there, but it’s just enough that I want to show it off and stare at how sparkly everyone looks, lol.

So first we have the main character whose biggest change is that I changed her name.  She’s now Olivia Rosenberg, most commonly known as Livy to those closest to her.  I keep trying to change her outfit, but end up going back to what I have here, because it’s, well, fairly perfect.  She looks cute, and I think the bolder red looks really good with her pale skin.

Next we have the hero, Kallum Siegel.  I decided that I wanted to give him the half cloak thing because it makes him look ~*~heroic~*~ and stuff, and because of that, he had to lose the hood.  But that’s fine, because he looks, well, like a hero, lol. 

Next we have Artemisia Megalos, who originally was Best Girl and now made into Even Better Girl somehow, lol.  She looked great before, but I decided to see what would happen if I have her shorts and thigh highs instead, and then it felt like she needed something covering most of her chest, so I gave her a Mandurian collar thing, and just..*chef’s kiss*   I love her so much it’s crazy. 

Then we have Eli Greenleaf who has not changed one bit from when I first designed him, lol.  He looks great, so there was really no point to, I guess.

The same with Gwendolyn Meindl, at least as far as the minor tweeks I did to her last time.  (I was going to try to give her a not German last name because she’s a witch and all and they have a different culture like the elves, but then I figured witches are still technically humans and subjects of the kingdom, so they would have originally been given similar surnames, so…yeah.)

I think the biggest change to these characters is to Xander Kreuger.  I decided to go ahead and give him more animalist parts, and I had already decided when I created him that his father had been a wolf type beast man.  So now he gets wolf ears and a wolf tail, lol, as well as a tweek to his hairstyle in order to hide his lack of people ears. (This also means that the beast people are anthropomorphic versions of their animals, and that Xander’s father is an actual wolf, and its best not to think about how he came to be, lol.  Half beastmen like him are rare, because people fear beastmen for the most part, but it does happen, and, yeah, they don’t think too much about it, either.)

The next set of designs are where it’s important, since I added and changed a lot of things.

The first design there is how Olivia looks at the beginning of her journey to show off the contrast of what the party does to her once she joins.  Livy is 100% the victim of being the middle child, but she doesn’t think too much about it.  By this point, their family is struggling, and she understands that she gets the leftovers of everything because a) her brother is the only boy so he gets the best of everything just based on being the heir and b) her sister gets doting on more because of her higher magical level.  This is what she considers her best outfit, sadly, and it doesn’t look bad, but its old and faded and not all that great.  But somehow, she’s still cute?

Next we have Olivia’s younger twin sister, Alicia Rosenberg.  Previously, I had made her out to be a bit of a narcissistic bitch who tormented Livy, but have slowly whittled her down to being a caring sister who just happens to be their parents’ favorite because of her level.  Twins, for the most part, typically average out with their levels, with most normal people being born with a level of around ten or so.  But since it’s an average level, sometimes one twin is a lot higher than the other, which is what happened with Alicia and Livy.  Livy has a level of five and Alicia has a level of fifteen, which is considered very high for a normal person.  As such, their parents had high hopes for their youngest and expect her to marry into a prestigious family or something.

Alicia now is a sweet girl who loves her sister, but she also recently contracted a rare disease.  She’s fine at the moment, but it’s a disease that’ll progressively get worse until she ends up dying a very painful death, which is what kick starts Livy’s quest to find the cure, which is this even rarer plant.  Alicia is actually the sort of girl who would give Livy the clothes off her back, except Alicia is shorter and thicker than Livy is, so none of her clothes fit her.  But I like how she turned out.  Her new dress is adorable, and I amused myself with the idea that the first sister has one braid and the second sister has two braids.  But she looks sweet, and I like it. 

The next one is a new character and the older brother of Livy and Alicia, Edward Rosenberg.  Originally, he was the main tormentor of Livy, but since I can’t really write about the main character having a trash family, he because something of her protector.  (Their parents are still trash, but because of that, the siblings stick together.)  He’s trying his best to keep things together after his parents dragged them out of their hometown and pretty much made it difficult to return.  Livy sort of pities Edward because he was forced to leave his fiancée behind, and he definitely has his own shit going on most of the time.  I do like how he turned out/

The next is Charlotte Solentis, the princess of the kingdom.  She hasn’t changed at all, because I love her design a lot.  A lot a lot.

The last one is a completely new character I came up with a few days ago, Roland Baumer.  He’s a character the party runs into occasionally, and he’s basically the fake Hero.  No one’s actually aware that Kallum is the hero, which is why it takes Livy by surprise when she runs into him, so Roland goes around proclaiming that he’s the hero.  And because his level is so high, people believe him.  He lacks the divine power Kallum has, though.  He somehow falls for Livy upon their first meeting, and badgers her constantly whenever they met.  Which you would think was just so I could make Kallum jealous and all, which he is at first, but Livy despises Roland, which Kallum absolutely loves.  Roland is a pompous ass and no one in the Party can stand him.

I like his design, because I was trying to sort of make him opposite of Kallum, for obvious reasons.  I didn’t really mean to make him monochrome, but I didn’t think putting him in all black like I had intended would really work, and somehow the greys do.  I like how he turned out, because he looks self-important, lol.

Hopefully I’m done tweeking designs (I’m probably not), because these all look really good and I’m happy with them all.  So shiny.  :D

[this-is-getting-silly]

I’m going to preface this by saying that I’m not a professional critic or reviewer, and these are just my subjective opinions. There’s no need to get upset that someone on the internet has a different opinion than you.

Now, with that out of the way- I THINK WORM SUCKS

Okay just kidding. It’s good, I like it a lot… but for the most part, I like it despite its protagonist, rather than because of her. And not just because I think the story contorts itself around her in a frustrating way, although it very much does do that. It’s just that, at the end of the day, I don’t think there’s much about her that makes for an interesting viewpoint character.

At the end of the day, what actually motivates Taylor? She starts off wanting to ‘be a hero,’ but gives up on that pretty quickly, yet never really commits to ‘being a villain’ either. It’s not saving the world, either, that’s just basic self-preservation. Her real motivation is simple- protecting her friends, and having them continue to like her. She continues being a villain explicitly for the latter reason (once Coil is dead and Dinah is free there’s no real reason for her to remain a villain other than that), and does most of what she does in service of the former.

Self-preservation and the desire to protect one’s friends are fine primary motivations for a main character… in the right context. For the former, we need only look at Blake from Pact, whose life is in constant danger through pretty much the entire book, so he never gets the chance to develop any goals beyond ‘stay alive,’ and instrumental to that, ‘get stronger.’ That’s fine- it would be weird if Blake was really preoccupied with some other goal considering all that’s happening to him during the events of that story.

Likewise, in the latter case, you have Sylvester from Twig, whose desire to protect his friends is important because their lives are considered expendable, so wanting to protect them motivates him to act proactively and pursue other goals. He even extends his definition of ‘friends’ to basically all experiments, which eventually pushes him to take on the entire Academy and Crown, because he’s got a problem with what they do to his fellow experiments and him. That’s a great motivation for a character! (Twig is the best thing Wildbow has ever written and I hope it never gets a sequel.)

On the other hand, Taylor wanting to protect her friends is a much weaker motivation, because they are almost never in any danger that they didn’t put themselves in. I can’t really cheer for her beating up on Protectorate heroes to save her pals because they chose to take over an entire city. That’s on them. Of course, Taylor is incapable of not perceiving it as unjust persecution, because she has a literal victim complex, and rightfully so, she was a victim for a long time, but not for most of the events of the story itself.

So when it comes down to it, her motivation is basically ‘me and my friends should be able to do whatever we want, and get to kill anybody who tries to stop us.’ Which isn’t an especially compelling motivation from an outside perspective! If she was really driven to be the best parahuman criminal in the city, and supplanting Coil as a crime lord was her plan all along, that would at least be interesting, but she just kind of gets dragged along into everything, and then retroactively justifies it in her mind by deciding the people opposing her are ‘bullies.’

As a consequence of this, Taylor doesn’t really stand for anything, either. She does plenty, but in many ways she’s still basically a passive protagonist, going in whichever direction the flow of the narrative takes her. It just so happens that the narrative flows very quickly, so she never ends up spinning her wheels too long (badly mixing metaphors there, I know), but if things weren’t constantly happening for her to respond to, Taylor really wouldn’t end up doing much on her own.

So- we’ve established why I think Taylor makes for a weak protagonist. Let’s take a look at who I think would make for a compelling replacement.

Number one with a bullet, it’s your boy Theo. I’ve touched on this recently elsewhere, but I want to make a more comprehensive pitch for him now. You might say ‘but isn’t Theo also largely reactive and motivated by self-preservation?’ To a degree, yeah- most of what he does in the story is motivated by not wanting to get killed by Jack Slash. But even if you take Jack out of his story completely, he would still have a more interesting motivation than Taylor. The heroic scion (heh) of a villainous legacy trying to atone for his parents’ misdeeds is a way more interesting story than whatever she has going on. The thing with Jack is just a cherry on top.

(Atonement is a great character motivation in general, which is part of why Rain would have been a far superior protagonist for Ward than Victoria, but that’s a whole ‘nother post.)

Obviously you’d have to rework the story somewhat significantly to make him work as the protagonist, but I think it’s doable. If you wanted to keep things as much the same as possible, you’d probably start with Theo already in the Chicago Wards, and tell the story of how he got there in recurring flashbacks. Taylor could also still be in the story, I actually kind of think she’d work better as a supporting character (as long as you got rid of some of the truly ridiculous shit she did like killing Alexandria). Seeing her training Theo from his perspective would be very interesting, since canon Worm skips pretty much all that stuff.

Next pick: Weld. You might think you’re detecting a theme here, but not so much, actually. Weld’s story is more about him becoming disillusioned with the Protectorate, and even with being a hero in general. But unlike Taylor, who gives up on being a hero roughly three chapters into Worm, that would be a slow arc, starting with him as a true believer, who over the course of the entire story loses his faith and quits to found his own team. It’s worth noting too that the Irregulars weren’t just an independent hero team, but mercenaries, which suggests Weld has soured on the ‘hero’ thing overall.

Plus, Weld has a very solid motivation- finding out who the hell turned him into a Case 53. That’s an actual goal he could pursue over the course of a story and get closure for! We could see his relationship with Sveta actually develop, watch him try to manage the internal tensions of the Irregulars, and go up against Cauldron, which Taylor only really interacts with incidentally until the very end of the story.

Third choice: Faultline. We know a lot less about her than any of the others I’ve named so far- her interlude is so unmemorable I actually forgot it existed before writing this. We never learn her actual name (I’d keep ‘Miss Fitts’ because I like the pun but modern wildbow is a joyless monster so he’d probably change it) or even her trigger event, but I still think she’d make a solid choice. Clearly Wildbow agrees because she was the protagonist in an earlier draft of the story.

Much like Weld, she has a strong motivation in wanting to track down Cauldron, and I think the cast of characters surrounding her is more interesting than the Irregulars, and arguably even the Undersiders themselves.

My next choice is gonna be controversial, but… Armsmaster. Yeah, he starts out as an antagonistic force in Worm, but only because Taylor perceives literally every authority figure in existence as her enemy. His actual story is really compelling, not least because I firmly believe he was framed for the armband thing. That interpretation isn’t canon, but the facts fit, and I think it makes Worm a hundred times more interesting, so I choose to believe it.

So you have a kind of autistic, extremely driven but also somewhat self-involved hero, who gets framed for something he didn’t do, loses everything, and has all the people whose respect he was hoping to earn turn on him. And he comes back from that! Tell me that isn’t a more interesting story than Taylor, who never meaningfully loses a fight or has anything taken from her.

Bonuses for him include: getting to see him fight Leviathan one on one from his perspective, getting a better look at the inner workings of the Protectorate and Guild, giving his relationship with Dragon more development, and seeing a Tinker actually do some tinkering, which is something we’ve basically been completely denied across two books.

And finally, we have the wildcard option: someone else entirely. There are vast swathes of Worm’s world left entirely unexplored, and I’m sure there are plenty of more interesting protagonists hiding somewhere in them. People with more interesting powers, histories, and motivations than the protagonist we actually got. Or Victoria. Goddamn do I wish we got someone other than Victoria for Ward. Rain was right fucking there, hoW DO YOU FUCK THAT UP AAAA

okay that’s it, post over, thanks for reading. bye

[bestworstcase]

*kicking my feet and twirling my hair reading your Rwby analysis bc you get it* Anytime I feel like I may be thinking too much about something I remember that you don’t care and you make this fun little posts with your theories and your thoughts and I nod my head and go yes. That’s what I was thinking but couldn’t put into words. I don’t really know how people can’t like SEE IT.

Anyway I just really enjoy your analysis. Both bc it teaches me something new regarding like narratives and storytelling and because you like don’t care if people hate on you for being pretty much right. Especially about the ending of the show being something along the lines of a discussion. Salem is not our big bad. Salem is just another side of the same coin *cough that screen shot of light and dark and then salem and light*

On another note. Being the Blake Stan that I am. I’m constantly think about her and her actions towards leading. Especially since she’s taken up the leader position momentarily. Like this is a great moment for her bc it shows how much she’s grown since v2. Not to say that she doesn’t have shit to work through since v6-8. It’s just different bc Blake has found herself again. She’s not 17 anymore and trying to hide who she is. She’s embraced a lot of her goofy nature and her teams reassurance that opening up is okay.

And Im prepared to eat my words later but. It feels like Blake and Ruby might have another conversation regarding that loss of self. Blake understands what duty is and how it can weigh you down. Her whole life has been based on the fight for Faunus rights. She attended beacon, a place where you can become a huntress, because a huntress is seen as righteous and good. Just so she can maybe figure out how to help her people. That’s a big thing for a 17 year old to feel. And right now Ruby has undergone the same thing since she was 15 and moved up two grades. Except instead of just one group of people she’s concerned about the entire fucking world. And she’s literally falling apart to the point where the narrative makes us go to wonderland to rekindle a new sense of purpose or come to terms with our intersectionality. Like yes Ruby rose is a huntress, a girl, has silver eyes. But how much longer is she going to just allow those parts of her self to become everything ?

“…but that’s it. They’re just a part of you. Don’t forget about the rest.” Ruby has forgotten the rest. And I’m really hoping We get a similar conversation to the one Blake had with Nora and an extension of her conversation with Ruby in The Schnee Mansion. But I’m not going to like get my hopes for it either bc I’m sure there’s a way to show that line of thinking without telling it but I think it would be nice. It’s clear everyone will help Ruby in some way I just think it makes a little more sense to have Blake having another burning the candle moment with Ruby. Like as a bee shipper yes I’d also like something simialr with them but this just feels like it makes more sense especially since the bees are clearly gonna be doing their own thing BUT i do think Blake will have an impact on Ruby in the worst and best ways especially as she takes that leader role. Bc Ruby’s self loathing is gonna make her feel like Blake is a better leader. So for Blake to clarify and say “everyone needs help sometimes Ruby. Just because we rely on you doesn’t mean you don’t deserve a break” like cmon its right thereeee.

the secret to happiness in fandom is to not care about being right akshdj like. will i be stoked if i turn out to be approximately correct in my predictions? yeah i love being right. do i trust my own analysis, and will i argue my case if someone tries to argue with me? of course. but also at the end of the day i’m here to enjoy the story and if i’m wrong or if someone disagrees with me who cares. my ego can stand to be reminded that i’m not perfect now and then khshcjn

anyway on the subject of blake and ruby. in hindsight it feels very obvious that the talk those two had was set up for the dynamic that is going to develop in V9. (<- an example of me being ‘wrong’ btw in that it did not even occur to me to read that as heralding a literal reversal of roles rather than merely illustrating the overt pressure on ruby’s shoulders; and isn’t it exciting that i can be as unhinged about the details as i am and still miss blisteringly clear foreshadowing like that!) and slantwise to that there’s the ✨mountain glenn✨ reprise everyone can feel coming, the return to the question of why they chose to become huntresses and what that means to them, and the reckoning with the institution and the concept itself in light of the things they know now that they didn’t then.

because there’s this explicit connection between what blake says in mountain glenn and what she tells ruby in volume eight. blake chased her profound desire for justice and restoration to beacon because huntsmen and huntresses are revered as “the most noble warriors in the world,” but she has no plan—no idea how to put her ideals into practice. the allure for her lay fundamentally in the idea that becoming a huntress would realize her desire for social justice through the intrinsic goodness of the profession itself; she escaped the soul-crushing, terrifying experience of seeing someone she loved and trusted slowly corrupt the civil rights movement she’d grown up with into a cynical vehicle for his personal spite and self-aggrandizement, and lunged for the shining incorruptible heroism of the huntress ideal because it made her feel safe. except there is no such thing as shining incorruptible heroism, and becoming a huntress in and of itself doesn’t and cannot effect change, as oobleck delicately points out by asking her “how?”

consider the traits that blake sees and admires in ruby: in V5 she describes ruby as the embodiment of “purity” and in V8 she tells ruby that she looks up to ruby chiefly because even though “you don’t always know what to do, but that’s never stopped you from doing something.” <- blake sees in ruby a freedom from that question of “how?” that she still doesn’t know how to answer. she sees a girl who is both unwaveringly good and unburdened by the hesitance and doubt blake struggles with. this contrast is immediately visible from their first encounter and is cast into sharp relief during the mountain glenn arc, when ruby’s singular dedication to becoming a huntress is made a counterpoint to the uneasy uncertainty of her teammates.

but in V6-8 this contrast is steadily unraveled and revealed as an illusion, because the truth is that ruby’s pure certainty made her uniquely vulnerable; being a huntress is something that her teammates DO, but being a huntress is what ruby IS. her whole sense of self is encapsulated in the statement “i am a huntress” and unlike her teammates, she cannot reevaluate what being a huntress means to her—let alone walk away from it—without shattering the very bedrock of her identity. she has no off-ramp. nothing to fall back on if it turns out that the reality of being a huntress doesn’t line up with her expectations or her values.

like, if blake looks back on the past two years and looks at the ways her world has been shaped by the huntsmen system and decides she no longer wants to participate in that, her identity does not need to fundamentally change. she already has the emotional and ideological framework for leaving behind an organization that no longer aligns with who she is or what she wants to do with her life, even if she’s not able to articulate a precise alternative, and she has a social safety net in the form of family, friends, and allies outside of the huntsmen system. separating herself from being a huntress is as simple as saying “this is not right for me” and leaving it behind to focus on a different approach to her goals. the essential core of her identity is that she wants to stand against injustice and fight for a better world; she doesn’t need to be a huntress to do that.

but ruby? there is some passing similarity between herself and blake in that ruby, also, is driven by a desire to make the world better—but for ruby this desire is inseparable from the desire to become a huntress. “i want to become a huntress because i want to help people; my parents always taught us to help others, so i thought hey, might as well make a career out of it.” <- to ruby “help people” is synonymous with “slay monsters.” in eight whole volumes the only HINT of an alternative she’s considered is the implication in 1.1 that she also thought briefly about joining the police but decided against it because huntsmen and huntresses are “so much more romantic and exciting and cool.” like this is her LIFE. her SELF. her entire family and all of her friends are huntsmen and huntresses too, many of them reliant on her to lead them; her every ambition and fantasy is wrapped up in being a huntress. there is, to borrow oobleck’s turn of phrase, nothing else in this world she would rather be. so even as being a huntress tears her apart, she can’t tear herself away from it because it’s all she’s GOT.

the only way out for her now is to let herself shatter. like, she cannot keep doing this. ruby is so far beyond the point of what she’s able to endure that her body is literally shutting down. and that’s going to be so painful and scary for her to come to terms with because the only way to not be broken forever is to completely remake herself. to reject entirely the idea of herself as a huntress and figure out who she is without this thing that DEFINED her.

and i think the narrative is likely positioning blake to take up the mantle of leadership in her stead because—just as the things blake most admired in ruby have revealed themselves as one of ruby’s greatest vulnerabilities—the things blake identified in herself as uncertainty and cowardice are beginning to reveal themselves as her greatest strengths; adaptability, resilience, the ability to let go of old beliefs about herself and her world as her perspective changes. blake admired and found inspiration in ruby’s pure conviction, but blake is the example ruby desperately needs, and in particular her experience of leaving the white fang—a movement that in a sense quite literally raised her, just as ruby grew up within the machinery of the huntsmen system—will, i think, give blake some crucial insight into what ruby’s dealing with now. because she’s been there, and she made it through to the other side, and she is living breathing healing proof that ruby can survive this too.

[kkurokitty]

Hey, i know you were trying to defend your friend, but the way you were talking to me was unacceptable. I, number 1, was not complaining about the hc, i just said the members i didnt like and yeah. I didnt go in depth, i didnt spread hate, i just said my opinions and moved on. I wasnt bothered, and melody wasn't bothered either. Because why should she be? "Im not the only person on tumblr" remember?? Why should you give a damn? And even when i told you multiple times that i was just saying my opinion (which only hurted you ig but idk how, its not like you wrote it) you kept ignoring what i was saying, and just talked down on me like i was a piece of shit (and had the nerve to say i wasnt reading). "If you dont like it, shut the fuck up." Was basically what you were saying to me. And no, no i wont. It's my blog too, and melody didnt care. You need to get over yourself, this doesn't look so cute on your blog either.

Have a nice day :)

hey, quick question. do you know melody personally? because i do. she’s been my best friend for three years and she has talked to me multiple times about things that bother her, including your weird ass reblogs complaining about what she writes on her blog. and yes, you were complaining.

i already gave you the definition but since you clearly lack reading comprehension, here it is again.

you are allowed to have your opinions but it becomes an issue when you are constantly subjecting others to your opinion and presenting them in a manner that yours is the right one. your tone is gross and condescending when you reblog shit. “y’all like this??” why is that any of your business? if you don’t like it, fucking don’t read it. that’s literally the fucking bare bones rules of fanfiction.

more people than just me had an issue with your disgustingly entitled tone and rude manner in which you went into melody’s asks. i voiced my opinion, just like you.

i literally am telling you “if you don’t like it, don’t read it” BECAUSE THAT’S HOW FANFICTION WORKS. are you new here or are you just that much of a spoiled brat that you think everything should revolve around you and your likes. if you want vanilla smut, go to a vanilla smut blog. don’t read the warnings of a very clearly not vanilla piece of work, then write in a reblog how much you didn’t like it. that’s your own damn fault and you are very weird.

i don’t care if you think the way i am speaking to you is disrespectful. you were never respectful to melody when making those reblogs. and who knows how many others.