#i need a new one pretty bad | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

pbaintthetb · 4 months ago

Text

oh and speaking of saxophones i must bitch here about the absolute SCAM that i was gonna go buy a ligature from the woodwind shop TM, even though they can be pricey becase they do quality and they had pretty basic ones that I could afford

Not for alto though. Only for the otehr 3. No, why have affordable ligatures for the type of sax everybody fucking owns. Like if you hav eea soprano you're serious and your probs getting the good stuff. PLEASE i do not need a silver plated ligature ffs i just want a decent one. This close to buying the tenor one and screwing it real tight.

#i need a new one pretty bad #one of the screws has been rusted shut since i got it #so i can only put it on one way #and the other has now come off and been lost since the last gig i did #a year ago #thankfully ish i can basically still use it because of the aforementioned rusted shut thing #but yeah #i need a new one #but im not spening £30 on it #that's liek #a third of what my sax is worth #i don't have a good sax but it's good enough for me

0 notes

sieglinde-freud · 24 days ago

Text

let it be known that i love prince inigo with my whole soul. however sometimes it is SO much fun to think about owain and his two most loyal-est knights you ever seen: worst guy in the world #1 and worst guy in the world #2. i love retainer inigo and severa so much. retainers who bully you and make fun of you and trash on you but they’d leave behind everyone and everything they ever knew to follow you and protect you in a whole new universe. they love you so much that they’d swear allegiance to total strangers but that loyalty pales in comparison to what they’d do for you. and they were all lovers!!!!!!!

#ann plays awakening #awakening trio #sometimes i forget owain is literal royalty and like #in the bad timeline hes probably like. the second most important person there?? unless luci has a sibling #obviously she’d need her own retainers but unfortunately i am thimking awakening trio thoughts. i miss. i love them in any form #that they are handed to me #i love them as best friends. as forced circumstance allies to family. as lovers.#i know i said lovers in this post but im not sure they’d ever label it as that #to me its very much ‘its not exactly romantic but its too intense to be platonic’#what i am getting at is queer platonic awakening trio btw. in case that wasnt obvious #like no matter who they are or where they go they are eachothers people dude. like literally do not separate #anyways im gonna be thinking long and hard about who should be everyones parents in this timeline #i have what i call my ‘main’ pairings and thats what i use for most of my headcanons (ex prince inigo)#but i’d like a completely separate one for owain retainer trio #i think im pretty set on fred!severa #i couuuldddd pick fred!inigo which i do think is SUPER compelling as well but something about freddy!severa… also shes so cute as a brunette #like sorry… shes just so beautiful #ive been having a lot of thoughts aboht tharj!inigo and i need to figure out if thats current bias talking or if im cooking with that one #i got no idea who owain’s second parent should be. robin maybe? idk #i mean his second parent isnt quite as impactful in regards to trio dynamics in this case just because he’s always the prince but. idk #i really like the idea of half plegian owain but i ALWAYS run half plegian owain cuz im always pairing lissa with robin or henry so its like #this isnt new 😭😭😭 but god. PLEGIAN OWAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#hm. though. hear me out. manakete owain???????????????? ehhh????#sorry. idk. i love how changing the parents of the second gen can change their characterization. its like my favorite thing ever #i think its why im so attached to all of them. theres always new things to explore with them!!! its so much fun!!!!!!#graaarfggjjjhhhhhhn!!!!

58 notes · View notes

necrotic-nephilim · 5 months ago

Text

What's so fun about BruJay as a ship is Jason's sheer obsessive devotion to Bruce. Jason is possessive over Bruce, to the point he doesn't care about the deaths of others so long as he has Bruce's attention. A part of the UTRH arc this isn't talked about enough is that Bludhaven fucking explodes mid-way and Jason won't let Bruce see if Dick is alive.

batman (1940) #650

A lot of discussion about UTRH paints Jason as this anger-driven cold, calculating machine up against Bruce when it's so clear that his love for Bruce is what drives him at his root, even if he won't acknowledge it. He says it himself, he would've done anything if it was Bruce who'd died instead of him and his anger is rooted in that possessive devotion not being reciprocated.

batman (194) #650

BruJay as a ship always to be, to some level, unrequited. Even if Bruce loves Jason back in that way, he'll never be that obsessed with Jason. Jason will always view Bruce's love for Dick or Tim to be a distraction, proof that Bruce isn't dedicated enough to him. Jason has the need to always have Bruce's attention, even when it could come at the cost of Bruce's other loved ones. Something something cannibalism as a metaphor for love in how Jason wants to consume Bruce's whole existence. He can't let Bruce leave him again, can't let Bruce love or grieve anyone else. Forcing Bruce to choose between Jason and the Joker isn't just about confronting Jason's killer, it's about confronting the other person who exists as this duality with Bruce and consumes so much of Bruce's life. That's the role Jason wants to fill, calling himself Red Hood and forcing Bruce to look at what he's become. But still loving Bruce and wanting more than anything for Bruce to reciprocate that love in the way that Jason understands. I just think it's good soup and rife with Dynamics that are underexplored with them.

#necrotic festerings #brujay #jaybruce #jaybru #jason todd x bruce wayne #batcest #i've had this thought in my head for a while #i was just weirdly shy about posting it? like convinced myself it's not as verbose as some of my other thoughts #also GOD why is the art of this arc SO BAD.#i can't take it SERIOUSLY #i hate looking at it.#the faces. why are the faces like that.#brujay needs more love bc jesus #gotham war had some good brujay content but i am still too bitter to discuss that shitshow. so. ignoring it for now.#bruce changing jason's brain chemistry as an act of love is the most FUCKED UP brujay thing ever tho #it's so Them.#sorry that is just peak brujay. they are incapable of meeting in any middle and always trying to change each other.#maybe this meta should've been about that.#but then i'd have to use new-52 and rebirth panels so eh. nvmd.#this page makes it seem like i hate post-flashpoint comics. i don't i swear #they just interest me less for batcest.#like oh yay everyone's getting along and working together.#it only came at the expense of throwing away decades of character work. small sacrifice.#i need to stop posting meta at fucking 5 am.#no one is going to see this bc i can't be a normal person.#wrote this while watching invincible #which is pretty good so far but man the ending of ep1 clocked me. i was absolutely bamboozled.#i had something else i was going to say in the tags but i lost it.#anyway most of this is a ship post and projecting shit as per usual and yk. not serious comic media.#i'm just silly and gay.

65 notes · View notes

mustasekittens · 2 months ago

Text

noah diaz can you fight???

close ups!! this is my take on human/holoform mirage :3c

#mirage #transformers rotb #maccadam #mustasekittens #yeah all the rly light blue stuff are scars and ermmm there's a bunch of explosion/blast ones where scourge shot him a bunch #the lil glowing shape on his chest is like the gowey bit on rotb mirage's chest #im new to this. hes a pretty boy obviously for obvious reasons.#god i need him so bad #fanart #holoform #humanformers #rotb

47 notes · View notes

angelpuns · 21 days ago

Text

I think looking through my art over then years is really interesting because in middle school I drew a lot of ( terrible ) fanart, drew a LOT of comics and generally just drew whatever I wanted even though it was pretty terrible.

In highschool I drew a LOT of really serious, really grungey and really naked-heavy art ( Like...I drew naked women very very often because I was a closeted trans man :/) and I also drew a lot of ocs. I was mentally not the worse but I was masking super hard and wanted to understand the kind of struggles other people went through ( I was one of those kids that liked reading really sad stories and 'longed for trauma so that my being the way I am would make sense and be justified' anyway I did have trauma just could not recognize it as such because my life was ' too normal'. Not trying to like trauma dump or whatever I've just thought about it a lot )

Then in college/after college ( during a really difficult time in my life ) I drew a LOT of men. Especially sexy/sexualized men. But my art was less serious and more story driven. Still not comics but a lot of behind the scenes lore was happening. Also drew a lot of OCS. My college art was p weak cause I just wanted to make oc art at the time and all my instructors wanted me to make symbolic pieces that 'meant something' and I was very against that. ( I also was out at this time and was unmasking a lot more - but I also was living through some mildly traumatic stuff. I don't like to call it traumatic but it might have been that. I worry the stuff I think is traumatic isn't and I'm totally blowing it out of proportion. Anyway this isn't venting just observations )

And NOW I make a LOT OF FANART AND A LOT OF COMICS AND A LOT OF WHATEVER I WANT Which is hilarious cause we've come full circle. I don't draw sexual/sexy stuff at all anymore cause I don't enjoy it and I never enjoyed it ( I drew a lot of it in college/after college cause the people around me thought I was asexual and I wanted to prove I wasn't, because I really am not. Might be aromantic tho. Anyway drawing sexy stuff vs not drawing it means nothing in relation to my sexuality ) I also am working on drawing stuff that actually does mean something even tho I hated it in college. But I'm doing it the way I want to. ( this was all because of a comment I got on a fanfic. Wherever you are commented I hope you're doing well. You made me want to create art and fics that have a deeper meaning )

I think currently I am happiest with my art I just wish I had more time for it. Like yeah skill wise I'll probably never be where I want to be - as is the nature of being an artist - but I'm having fun and enjoy sharing my art and that's what matters.

Anyway I'm gonna make a year of art summary but I am also gonna make a 25 years of art summary for my birthday cause I think the comparisons are just funny year to year. Like I'll have gaps and stuff obviously but the circle of art I've been going through is so wild

Also side note none OF THIS IS MEANT TO BE A VENT ANY MENTAL HEALTH/TRAUMA THINGS ARE JUST OBSERVATIONS I'VE MADE/SPENT TIME THINKING ABOUT OKAY SO PLEASE DONT WORRY ABOUT REASSURING ME I DO PLAN ON TALKING ABOUT ALL THIS IN THERAPY OBVIOUSLY IM MENTALLY ACTUALLY P DECENT RN THIS WAS JUST ME RAMBLING ABOUT THE VERY SILLY ART CIRCLE JOURNEY IVE BEEN ON AND ALSO SOME OF THE THINGS THAT INFLUENVED THAT JOURNEY AH

#angel talks #about literally nothing #also ironically the health problems began during that really bad time #but also it was during covid and i HAD covid during that time twuce #it wasnt super serious i mostly just had back pain that seemed to never go away #and obviously now im realizing a lot more stuff #anyway until i am able to go to a doctor im gonnnaaaa #try out a cane for when i need to stsnd a lot #if it doesnt work/doesnt feel right ill stop using it #its a temporary attempt before i can go to a doctor cause its gonna be a bit #my december and january are pretty full #and i also want to attempt to get on hormones after the new year #even tho this isnt a great climate for it im moving in eitb my grandma who was supoorticve wjen i came out #uhhh if you read this far gold star ir whatever #My frontal lobe is developing in exactly one month happy 1 month frontal lobening ( joke)

28 notes · View notes

anemoa · 2 years ago

Text

It’s the silly man!!!

#idk how you draw his hair tbf #yea ik his hat has like 5 diff sizes and colors here but i made these on separate panels and partially on different days #the • _ • eyed one is pretty old i forgot about it #i wanted to draw ASL so bad but they are hard to draw aaaag #and one with shanks #need more cartoon physics drawings tho #also saw his outfit from the new arc and just had to #i made him overly adorable here which is surprising considering how i usually draw 😭#like i have a law drawing im proud of but i wanna draw more laws before posting that but it’s going to be the opposite probably #monkey d. luffy #luffy #one piece #op #straw hat luffy #one piece luffy #fan art #art #drawing

196 notes · View notes

jerrsterrr · 7 days ago

Text

feeling feverish, broke my phone and many more horrible cases

#litterally broke my phone so bad and the last time it ws like 300 dollars to replace the screen #theres an issue w the bank and my college funds and its a holiday so its closed anyways #also i feel feverish but like no one believes me so who cares #pretty sure i lost my dentsit??healthcare cause of my parents #who recently decided AFTER my 18 years of living and me cutting ties with my father that yeah they are cool with parenting #coparenting i mean #<after losing both me and my sisters healthcare #and every other traumatic thing i went through because of them #i need to open up commisions BUT THE FUCKING BANK #anyways im so upset i might cry but im too cool and trying to convince myself im sane and the world isnt going to end because of my existen #happy new year!!!! im freaking out #but im fine #everything is okay im just #im okay lolllll #happy new years im sorry #for rambling um #my head hurts

11 notes · View notes

murdockhawkeye · 3 months ago

Text

would it be a big leap to think that maybe the full moon, didn't actually grant them 'new powers' (not talking about s1e1/s2e1), but instead.. just turned them on?

like what if cleo and the others already had siren abilities, they just didn’t know? what if rikki/emma were able to cool down/heat up their bodies at will?

did they ever actually. check if they were able to do those things or?

#h2o just add water #full moons #h2o mermaid #cleo sertori #powers #s1e12: the siren effect #s1e18: bad moon rising #rikki chadwick #emma gilbert #either they always had those powers #or they just unlocked them again later on?#they also have telekinesis i'm pretty sure #would be interesting way to separate them from mm #since mermaids there (except northern ones) had to be affected by a siren to gain those abilities #i mean the mm were most likely descended from first-gens and the h2o girls are first-gens.. so there's the potential?#yk i don't remember emma ever gaining any 'new' abilities in her first moonspell #she just got stuck as a mermaid and ate a bunch of fish from what i remember #do mermaids have dietary needs? i mean they probably do #but i mean like. if someone never ate fish in their life #and then became a mermaid #would they have to adjust to a new diet or #zac got cravings when he became a merman. but evie didn't #cleo and rikki didn't either. emma only got cravings for seafood in moonspell and fish fever #i don't remember where i was going with that #the equivalent for cooling/heating their bodies for cleo #would probably be the ability to control her own veins and breathing #that'd be kind of cool if you think about it #she'd be able to pass any lie detector if she wanted to

13 notes · View notes

laniidae-passerine · 7 months ago

Text

catch me laughing in the club awkwardly because this season has a 19 year old blonde female companion from London, a space travelling left of law brunette queer boy who flirts heavily with the doctor, absolutely zero writers of colour and no mention of sensitivity readers…….and next season the new companion is a woman of colour. uh oh!

#he’s not stupid enough to do Martha again but be REAL with me. do you think this man can handle writing for a brown woman and a black man #and make it in any way genuinely tasteful. the one race he’s punched down and the other he’s basically ignored during his tenure :/#rtd seems to think because he has the lived experience of the great struggles of being queer in the 80s and onwards #which was a serious struggle and came with its issues #that he understands being a person of colour? like he wrote an episode about racism and then laughed about not needing a sensitivity reader #before he handed it off to ncuti. but it needed one because it was a stupid episode because he’s white and moreover #seems to think he understands WITHOUT actually getting any of the nuance. which makes it worse.#im just concerned to put it lightly #like chibnall’s bad habit was ‘good episode followed by a bad episode so bad you forget the good episode even existed’#but at least he got writers of colour in to make some of those episodes! he actually cared! and also fumbled real bad (nazi uniform… ://)#still. he actually gave it a pretty good shot and opened some doors behind the scenes. like the writer’s room which is just as important #and also in the scenes tbf like yaz and ryan sharing scenes as poc companions during the same run was groundbreaking #and rtd just closed them again going actually no im doctor who’s most specialist boy and we should do my run all over again #stop this man. get someone new in. he is not much better than chibnall rn like he is not batting hits #stop letting the world’s most charismatic doctor (ncuti i will get rid of regeneration to keep you. i love you. wish you had better writing)#distract you from the fact RTD is doing a ‘biggest hits’ tour rn. stop him!!!!!!! please can we have a showrunner of colour! a woman! please #rtd critical #doctor who #dw

38 notes · View notes

ratatatastic · 2 months ago

Text

ekky only choosing forsy for eye candy is another example of fork found in kitchen and he has to keep up his shirt off quote quotas even if forsy has now shown off his body to the masses but also unfortunately just reads too much like this (how it feels auditioning as a drumer)

#so if youll need me i think ill be screaming into my hands #i said ekky bassist in a fugue state when the original clip of the pantrs band video came out #and then i remembered this tiktok and i just wept into my hands at how accurate it was #the one speaking is dan (bassist/vocals) so him immediately accepting tate (drummer) because he took his shirt off #tracks extensively in my little forsblad band au that ive been daydreaming about #also they just have multiple videos expanding upon the bassist and drummer having a thing so it really is not helping #one of the videos being “when the bassist and drummer are left alone”#and its just them giggling as tate teaches dan the drums by helping him (hes bad at drums) as lets get it on plays in the bg #anyways great band great body of work ive been listening to a lot as of late #have we considered pretty boy with pretty vocals bassist ekky and the new drummer they accepted because their old one quit on them #i just think forsy would look so hot in a muscle tee and a bandana as he stick his tongue out during sets #because hes pretty calmduring rehearsals but during lives a demon possesses him which means he becomes the hottest man alive #and have the most mmmmmmm (this is my crush on certain drummers speaking sorry guys)#theres a lot of fodder here mmmmmm yeah im gonna be thinking about this for the next month jesus christ

13 notes · View notes

moregraceful · 20 days ago

Text

it was once observed by a dear friend that the hours in which i am most alert are like 7pm to 2am which probably explains a lot about how my posts get worse throughout the evening. but also sometimes i look at today where i was just sort of gnawing the couch all day until about 5pm when i wrote an entire fic in two hours and then another entire post about kaapo which to be clear took another two hours bc i had to chase links and explain my passions in a kind way and this was in addition to a church meeting. i would excel as the person who lights and then extinguishes lamps in the night

#this morning my therapist was like your eyes are red what's going on #and i said bro i am not on drugs. it is cold and dry in my apartment and i was standing in front of a sad lamp #and they said ah. a sun lamp. i see #YES. BC I AM NOT A MORNING PERSON AND I AM BEING PUNISHED BY CAPITALISM TO GO TO THERAPY AT 10 IN THE MORNING #INSTEAD OF 6PM WHEN I WOULD BE ABLE TO HOLD A CONVERSATION BETTER #i think they think i am abusing substances. human the reason i am the way i am bc i am not abusing substances #i am rawdogging reality in almost every way and i HATE it. i am experiencing a full of range of emotions in real life!!#one good thing about today i must say. i looked in the mirror and went oh wow my california hair stylist did a good job!#my california hair stylist was good at cutting my hair in that she was filipina and understood how to cut filipino hair #she was not good at cutting my hair in that she would get too deep in explaining warriors drama and get distracted while cutting my hair #and up doing something absolutely wacko that made me look like a pepe frog guy bc she was too amped up about klay and steph #and then i'd be stuck with fucking alt right hair for a good three weeks and my only saving grace is how i look ambiguously ethnic #BUT when i saw her last i was like i need you to give me a haircut where if i can't get my hair cut for four months i don't #look stupid as hell. and she said oh yeah i can do that. and gave me a blow by blow of klay and steph's divorce while cutting my hair #and i was fearing for my life. but now that it has grown out pretty significantly i will say she did a very good job of cutting it #unlike every other time i grew out my hair in a big way and it looked incredibly stupid for several months until it evened out #but she cut it so it looks like my hair is on purpose. which i appreciate!#now i have more time to decide if i want to avenge bo bichette and grow out my hair again #without feeling stressed about looking incredible stupid and unkempt #thank you nicole...a true ally...i will never forget how much you hate kevin durant even though you stressed me out so bad...#and you may be wondering why if she gave me that many bad hair cuts why i'd keep going to her #and the answer is: bc i only want my warriors and 49ers news to be reported by an energetic filipina lesbian holding razor on my neck #and unfortunately the local newspaper beats just can't replicate that experience #fresno oilers.txt

13 notes · View notes

aleixis · 2 months ago

Text

life would be so awesome if i wasn't broke

#journal 𓂃 #i wanna go shopping but i'm broke ^_^#sighs #i'm gonna do a whole bunch more chores so i get a lil bit of pocket money ^_^#anw i need more clothes n brandy is sooo much cheaper in tx than in cali #tbf everything's expensive in cali :x #and i wanna get lashes tooo #like manhua lashes #sighs deeply #i also want a cushion foundation i want the tirtir one so bad ^_^;;#my skins pretty clear rn so HOPEFULLY i don't break out #i also need a new concealer #i stole my mom's bc i ran out of my old one but it's not exactly my shade #it's a lil too dark for me ugh #imma go shopping on black friday ( hopefully ) !!#gonna go to brandy n hot topic n spencers n maybe sephora ??#might buy my makeup online tho soooo

10 notes · View notes

idontmindifuforgetme · 10 months ago

Text

.

#I think people treat others on here who share any sort of news like they’re actual professional journalists and we’re not #I genuinely don’t think a single person on here is #We’ve just taken it upon ourselves to share the news bc the actual journalists are the ones who mince words and have ulterior motives etc #But usually if someone on here makes a mistake it’s an honest one & they will rectify it if you notify them #You do not have to attack them or say they’re misleading on purpose like I think most ppl on here #Don’t have that sort of agenda. At least the ones who’re fighting for legitimate causes like Palestinian and Sudanese genocide etc etc #I just hope no one on here gets attacked in light of the Samara situation #I just think we should be more open to making mistakes instead of jumping to bad faith interpretations #News have to be accurate but mistakes r also ok and usually a simple communication resolves it #Tumblr is the bad faith interpretation website so I’m not surprised but I also think we need to be more graceful #Bc how else can anyone improve / learn more etc etc #Whenever someone on here shares an opposing opinion it’s not that I dislike that or want to intentionally suppress it #It’s usually just framed in a very inflammatory way that doesn’t even give me the opportunity to give my side and might motivate other ppl #To think I’m basically like a normal journalist who intentionally misleads 💀💀 I am An Iraqi Girl Who Is Trying To Help #At least this has taught me how to gracefully own up to mistakes and take accountability etc that’s pretty cool #Bc even w all that said I think it’s important to hold urself accountable if u do make a mistake regardless of intention.#We just shouldn’t demonize making mistakes bc how can someone grow Ok I’m done

42 notes · View notes

al-luviec · 3 months ago

Text

still haven't moved on from zane in this episode (aka I hit tag limit again and am unhappy about it)

#alek insanity #not gonna main tag this but prepare for a tiny rant #home is actually really good zane characterization and its super cool to me how it holds up to this day #s1 characterization is very specific to me because the behaviors displayed by the ninja there (mostly) isnt bc thats how they really are but #its due to societal pressure. cole originally being more 'stone faced tough guy' -> 'down to earth' -> 'really sensible easy to talk to guy'#is because hes always been a sensitive guy... but he felt he couldnt express that true version of himself. thats the whole thing behind his #true potential. jay going from s1 -> s6 -> now is less of societal pressure and more teenager figuring himself out but it still applies. ish #seeing how much the ninja have changed or grown from then to now is amazing because back then they all wore masks. they didnt know each #other all that well. but theyve gained that comfortability with each other and also have grown and matured as people #some seasons / eps characterization for certain people im not a fan of (lloyds random misogyny arc in s13) but i mean the overall trend here #and then there is zane. zane in home was pretty dead on to how he behaves now (at least... when it comes to his faults?) and i dont want to #say people skim over that but i am the sf proclaimed n1 s1e2 fan and overthink every scene. zane's early characterization is some of my fav #for him period. he also goes through a ton of traumatic stuff and a ton of bad writing bouts but why he acts so 'weird' or 'distant' has #always been a thread sewn in. he changed so much he stayed the same in a way... if that makes sense. -> ohhh the ninja get mail and he #doesnt? oh he has no family? he quite literally walks away from that situation. oh the ninja are yelling in his face and asking whats wrong #with him? he literally walks away from that situation. he says its to follow the falcon but seeing how he apologized to them by not only #baking a ton of pies (cough... the food fight is what led to him leaving at first) but he also found them a whole entire new house.#zane is unable to truly value what he does for others. insert him in s11 saying he 'tried' to fufill his goal of protecting others.#everything he has ever done still isnt good enough. then the ninja tried to apologize and he didnt really... let them.#that one post about characters putting on facades and that facade being how people really see them. even in fandom. thats zane to me #the guy who lies about being upset and avoids his problems ran away after being yelled at? and he said he wasnt really mad? that is a lie!!#him being a ~360 when it comes to his character development is neat to me because he never hid behind a mask in the same way the others did #cole wanting to seem tough vs being really soft? kai wanting approval so bad he starts being selfish? kai isnt selfish usually!#he is self centered but that is a whole different thing. just wanting to fit in and breaking free of that. zane's true potential came in the #form of 'i finally know why i am not normal' instead of 'i will be my true self'. zane never pretended to not be weird #(instert book) states he literally didnt know why people got mad at him. he just existed and it was 'wrong'. the mask he hid behind was #avoidance. he was pretty open about how he actually was (most of the time). when he was upset he would audibly sigh and walk away lol #but for him saying he wasnt upset / saddened by the ninja... it felt like a moment of selflessness. if that makes sense. he blamed himself #for the monestary burning down. so he didnt deserve the apologies (ish) in the virtues of spinjitzu zane is shown as the generous one iirc #he puts the needs of others over his own. he will bear whatever burden he needs if others are happy. at that same time he doesnt allow

18 notes · View notes

danzainosolitude · 6 months ago

Text

Once again I read fanfiction that seems to have been precisely written to deal psychic damage to me.

#this is about viridian the green guide. you guys actually read this slop?#boring as shit writing #awful plot lines (trigger has been resolved get new material #excessive use of italics and ‘problem child’. has the author heard anyone use a nickname irl ever #I hate bakugou slightly less than I hate Deku but even I could tell they suck at writing him #skipped over a few chapters because the writing was melting my brain but he would never be that condescending to himself #who the hell thinks ‘I’ve decided to not be an asshole’ with total seriousness #back to the bad plot lines. endeavor *checks notes* becomes a nomu and dies? I know the author nerfed everyone in the ground to match Deku #but wtf was the idea here #most successful cases in Japan and the strongest fire quirk ever (besides Dabi) and he gets treated like fodder?#there’s a certain childish canadence fanfiction writers type in when discussing ideas with others and the whole fic reeks of it.#the general easy going and generic aura vtgg emanates makes it even more insufferable #yeah insufferable is definitely the one word to describe this fic #original fic is ass and it only popularized the concepts. now you have even more bad writers speedrunning terrible concepts #it’s two am so this might not makes sense but whatever. not tagging this as mha because there are a lot of people who like this thing.#also fuck fics with love interests who were pretty happy in canon but actually have two thousand problems in fics #rant #anyways! I need to check into my games #I need to find the fic summarized so I can properly write my fanfic bashing vigilante/quirkless aus. barely any difference anyways.

18 notes · View notes

icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

Text

I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

50 notes · View notes