#i might delete this later i just needed to vent

[blueve1vet]

my boyfriend just told me he’s struggling to be with me because of my €d im in the restaurant bathroom rn because we’re surrounded by my favourite foods everywhere im freaking out so bad and he just told me this at the table idk what to do

i might just eat to make him happy then throw up in here im so stressed it’s all pizza and fat and im on day 2 of fasting

im such a failure for this im sorry I HATE NOT HAVING CONTROL

sorry to rant on you guys ill delete this later i just needed to vent. im shaking and about to cry over literal FOOD. god

[avaetin]

Why do I watch "short" Chinese drama, knowing they'll aggravate me?

It's the usual plot of FL and ML are engaged/married, and then there's this homewrecker who assumes the identity of being ML's saviour previously, when in truth, it's the FL. And then the ML's family usually gang up on FL. FL is lucky if she has at least one member of ML's family defending her. And then yaddy yadda, truth comes out, and suddenly all of FL's hardships with ML and his family disappear and they "live happily ever after." But, oh, did I mention the ML is a douchebag? He's one toxic m*****f***** who makes FL's life miserable.

Like in this one, ok, it's slightly better than most. ML's family actually treasures FL. Only ML and FIL are the *****. And FIL takes the cake cos 1) he had an affair with a maid and tried to kill his son 20+ years later, and 2) he was all, "FL is a country bumpkin. FL is a gold digger" and tries to get ML and FL to divorce after using FL as a caretaker for ML for 3 years, until he finds out that FL is from a rich family - the true heiress - and then he changes his tune to, "FL is an ambitious woman. Oh, I can see that ML really loves her." Like DUDE. That wasn't what you were saying minutes ago (in the video).

FL should have just gotten together with 2nd ML, and FIL should have gone to prison for trying to kill his other child, is all I'm saying.

[artsymeeshee]

one of those nights

[angelpuns]

Having a very ' everyone secretly hates me ' kind of day smh

[mysticalcats]

ok fellas this post is really different from my other stuff so i'm putting it under the cut for people who don't care and also because i'm slightly embarrassed

ok so. is it unusual for a girl to want to have a deep voice and a flat chest and a more square face and also feel slightly jealous of men and want to sound like them and look like them

and also is it unusual to want to be all that, but also simultaneously not be very bothered very much by how you look right now or by being referred to with she/her except for sometimes when you think about it too much. because i usually don't think about it except for sometimes where i suddenly just get really sad about being a girl or i'll always have this faint feeling that i am just unhappy about it

and also is it unusual to try to ignore it and go about your life being unbothered by it even though deep down it does kinda bother you but you can't really. like. say anything to anyone because your family won't react well and neither will your friends because they'll think it's weird and uncomfortable. i feel afraid to ever feel this way because i know the people in my life won't react well to it

so like. genuine question please lmk wtf is goin on because i'm unsure if it's normal and i've felt like this for a long time and it's confusing me and i don't even know what i'm going to do with the information once i know i'm just sort of lost LMAO

[hacked-by-jake]

Yo, so.. I don’t know what you are here for but I’m here to talk about theories, the story and everything else, even if we only have one episode yet. That’s why there’s this fandom. For talking about the game. For making theories. Crazy ones and logical ones. Everything.

Sorry.

[desertfangs]

I'm so tired of corporate bullshit and corporations running everything. I'm having to move in with my mom for various reasons (her health and financial situation, mostly) so I have to break my lease. Which I signed believing I could and would stay here for another year, in good faith, and now I simply cannot. But they refuse to waive the lease buy out fee of $3k, despite it being a family emergency, despite me not having a choice, despite the fact that I've been a model tenant and always paid rent on time.

There is no give or empathy from corporations. The manager in the leasing office is sympathetic but her hands are tied. And it just really pisses me off that this is the world we're in, where you can be going through something stressful and miserable and having to make some really hard choices and the corporations who run everything only care about profits and squeezing everything they can out of you, and there is no give or space for individuals because that's just not how things work anymore.

Anyhow, sorry for the personal bullshit, I'm just so very tired and frustrated with the world right now.

[thefanciestborrower]

Man,,,I’m so tired

[uramitashi]

i think being aware of all the female objectification surrounding me is making me asexual or at least sex-repulsed - which is so weird because i used to have a healthy sexuality and even a high sex drive, but i feel scarred. it feels like i am never the enjoyer only the enjoyed and i can't properly see sex in a neutral or positive way anymore. i feel so overstimulated with all the images of women and girls costantly hypersexualised, i can never trust a man to have a healthy relationship with the female body. learning about the way men see women, the fact that it is so drastically different than the way women see men, made me really really really lose hope.

[moonchild-in-blue]

Oh.

[catboynutsack]

watching well meaning people become part of the problem............not great to say the least

[elenadoeslife]

🎢

[frozenhi-chews]

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[girlfox]

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[kiok0r0]

If a friend blocks me one more time without telling me if I did something wrong, I am just going to not make online friends anymore because what the fuck did I even do?

[def-not-kaz-brekker]

It’s not fucking fair that you’re expected to have friends to be happy it’s not fair that your fucking brain needs people to produce the happy chemical it’s not fair that people feel miserable because they’re lonely because they know they’re no one’s favorite person that in a group of people they’d get chosen last and that sometimes they try to convince themselves that it’s okay they’re not important after all all that matters is that their friends are happy that’s all that matters they exist for other people and therefore they have no boundaries they would do anything for their friends so they never tell someone when it’s too much because it feels selfish everything feels selfish their laugh when they say they don’t know even saying the word “I” in a sentence feels fucking awful so they bury themselves under coping mechanisms and relate to characters who also always feel distance from others and they slowly realize that they feel so distant because of trauma that singles them out and acknowledging this trauma makes them feel so fucking selfish because it’s so small compared to other people’s but it there and they never talk about it because it’s just fucking selfish so they read whump fanfictions of those characters and try to imagine themselves in the place of the character who then gets taken care of after getting so hurt but there are always the people that the character loves and that love that character there and they just feel a pang of jealousy because they never got close enough to a friend to cry to them when they’re in emotional pain never close enough to be held gently with reassuring whispers in their year and they just long to be loved they just want to be loved so much and they don’t know how they don’t know if they want it platonically or romantically from that person or from that other person they just need love so much and they cry silently at night in their room to not wake their parents and just try to imagine ranting about all this to the characters they love and then they cry more because those character would probably hate them if they knew that person in real life and everything just hurts so so much but not always usually when they’re alone at night and they just sit there and realize “wow there’s no one who knows me completely that loves me” and it just hurts but don’t worry they’re always fine that’s what they tell people anyways