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[adviceformefromme]

💖TRUSTING YOUR INNER VOICE - 3 MONTHS UNTIL 2025 - GLOW UP SERIES [WEEK 12] - 💖

Your life can drastically change in three months, and this is coming from someone who started last October unexpectedly in hospital everyday for three weeks, to then leave London and move back home and share a ROOM with my mom due to space issues and by the end of the whirlwind I finally got to move into my dream ocean view apartment in Europe. ALL WITHIN 3 MONTHS. How did I transform my life? What remained consistent was my inner voice, leading me towards faith and not fear. Being able to hear God’s direction and having the courage to take a leap into the unknown at each twist and turn. So no matter where you start this October, trust and know that miracles are possible, and if you stay true to where you are being guided you will end up exactly where you need to be. 

UNDERSTANDING WHAT VOICE IS GUIDING YOU…

Are you leaning into fear or into faith? Each day, are you sticking to what you know or are you taking risks? Are you using your voice to speak up when you’re usually quiet? Are you still remaining true to your vision despite not seeing the results in the 3D? Are you trying to control situations feeling anxious and stuck, or are you remaining trusting and faithful to the visions God has placed in your heart? If you find fear is guiding your life, your TRANSFORMATION is going to a struggle, there is going to be friction, and this is where you need to get out of your own way. God wants to move you somewhere you’ve never been, you’ve been doing your vision boards, affirmations, praying, reading, trying your very best to LEVEL-TF-UP, and STILL feeling stuck…and this is because your inner voice is holding you hostage to what you’ve known, to the old version of you, the expired version. These next 12 weeks are for tuning into a different frequency, to locking into God’s direction and here are the steps…

1] You need to meditate to create space in your mind to hear the voice that wants to lead you to your highest potential. It’s always there waiting for you to listen, in order to HEAR you need SPACE.. and to get space you need to meditate. The aim is 20 mins per day, if you’re already comfortable with this aim for 1 hour. I know this might sound like a scary amount of time to sit in silence but think how easily you can spend 20 mins on social media doom scrolling…Do you want to GLOW-UP or do you want to stay stuck? This is what you need to ask yourself daily…But please walk before you run, here is 10 mins meditation that is simple and transformative and will 100% allow you mental space so you can slowly throughout the day start to hear your inner voice - God speaking to you. 

2] Tune out of negativity (the news, low vibration music, gossip, scrolling through peoples highlight reel) and tune into high vibes… Listening to high vibes is going to move you energetically into a new space. There will be more peace and positivity. The high vibes include, morning motivation on YouTube find one that empowers you, cleansing your social media accounts of anything negative or deleting it full stop while you’re on your glow up journey. Listening to binaural beats, gospel, or anything that has empowering lyrics that lift you up. 

3] Once you have removed the low vibes you also want SILENT vibes, this means going for a walk without your phone. Waking up and not checking your phone for 1 hour, having as many moments of silence as possible, and this is when you will start to hear. You might hear negativity in your mind at first, it might be overbearing, the voice might be telling you how stupid you are, how pathetic you are, but PERSEVERE. Get curious on why you have this negativity in your mind, journal on what was coming up for you, you want to clear out the negativity so you can hear the inner wisdom that is waiting to flow in. 

4] PRAY FOR GUIDANCE. If you don’t have the direction, you are wanting to transform your life and don’t know what the next steps are, I promise you the moment you start praying and asking is the moment you receive the answers. It will come in the form of conversations, YouTube content creators will appear in your feed, you will have thoughts, dreams, a book will fall of a shelf, there will be direction from above. God wants to help you, you just have to ask and listen clearly for the answers. They will appear.

A little story time of my 3 month transformation from last October - December and how I completely transformed my life in that time…

Until next week, stay in your faith, your journal and remain hopeful that this time things are going to be different. Your transformation is in progress.

[prettyboykatsuki]

✮  tags ; desi-coded reader (tbh...specifically bangladeshi dkjfsdj), pre-wedding celebration, so blatantly selfship coded i might have to delete it if the shame kicks in , 18+

Night air wisps against your warm skin like thin threads of silk as you step away from the party - with the assistance of Sakura, who held the door open like his life depended on it.

Your arms are stiff from how long you've been holding them in the same position, but after upwards of three hours - all the mendhi required for your upcoming wedding ceremony has been put on.

From the tips of your fingers all the way down to your elbows and even some parts of your feet. It's the one aspect of the celebration you've always looked forward too. When you glance down and see it, its completely surpassed your expectations

Through the light of your window is your family and friends, traditional folk music and ballad love songs play as guest dance and laugh in the warm lights of your living room. Laughter bubbles through the crack letting out some air and you smile to yourself, careful not to touch anything.

The feeling of drying mendhi on your skin is nostalgic even in it's mild discomfort, a slight itch in the intricate designs covering your palms. You sniff a little from the cool air, lungs filling with the earthy, heavy scent of mendhi paste and the sharp bitterness of mustard oil.

You slip further away until you end up enough distance away for the sound to quiet. Crickets chirp and the wind blows - as if the whole world is feeling soft.

You aren't expecting Umemiya to pop out from anywhere. He must've noticed you leaving and followed you out. You try not to smile and fail when he makes his way towards you.

Umemiya grins brighter than the sun. In the dead of night and even amidst the pleasant atmosphere - nothing shines quite like him. He looks good in the clothes your extended family so painstakingly picked out for him. A panjabi and salwar to match, a pleasantly deep shade of blue to go with his eyes. Your kameez is more complicated, but the tailoring similarities of the florals and beadwork make you happy no matter how trivial. It feels a little more worth getting three outfits tailored looking at him.

He cuts a fine figure in general, you think.

He approaches first with worry. A furrow in his brow.

"You okay?"

You smile at him and then smile a little more at the way it makes him relax instantly.

"I'm good." You take a deep breath, hands stiff at your sides and suddenly itching to find his to hold. "Was getting hot and stiff sitting for so long."

"Oh, is it done finally? Am I allowed to look?"

"Were you gonna avoid looking at my arms for three days if I said no?" You tease. Umemiya's eyes fill with mirth and sincerity.

"If I had too."

Silly. You love him, you think. You shake your head. "You can look. Might be a little hard to see even with the street light though."

"That's okay." He says, and there's something deeply doting in his voice that makes you feel like you might sink. "An excuse to get close to you is always nice to have."

You hold out your arms and lift your palms gently to Umemiya. His admiration makes your heart swell ten folds. His hands are careful as they slide underneath your own decorate ones, careful not to touch the actual design but to support your forearms and wrists.

"It's so beautiful."

"Right? She did a good job. She's doing Kotoha-chans now."

He makes a little affirmative noise while he draws his eyes along the different shapes and patters. Traditional shapes of roses and marigolds along with inspired cuts. There's a mix of imagery, well integrated - patterns of cranes and cherry blossoms well woven into it as symbolism. Umemiya pauses, most certainly noticing the nuance.

"I like it a lot. You're gonna look so beautiful."

You brush past the words, unable to respond to them without feeling earnest flush. Umemiya is undeterred by this, just offers a smile and another light touch. He leans it to place a kiss to your temple before pulling back.

A thought pops into your head. You wanted to show him eventually - you thought at least after you washed it off, but now seems like a better time.

"Oh and..." You carefully hold your wrist up to him. "See?"

He squints for a long while before breaking out into an impossible grin. Hidden in the wrists of your mendhi design are the characters of his name - integrated into the piece. You can see the very moment it clicks.

"Is that...is it traditional?"

"Maybe? It's common at least. I thought it'd be more special with the Japanese characters though.”

A little nod to him and to you. He's silent for a long while, deep in thought about something. You don't know what exactly.

"I love it," He says, then looks up at you. He presses his forehead against yours, a gentle tap that still manages to catch you off guard as he does. The decorative teep on your forehead presses a little into his skin as he does it but you don't make a move to pull away from his affection. "I love you."

You tilt your head a little, pretending to wipe sweat from your brow.

"That's a relief."

He shakes his head. "Is there anything I can do for you?"

"Could you feed me something off the table inside? I'm hungry."

He almost seems upset he didn't think of it first. He nods. "I'll be right back. Stay put but be careful."

"I'm right infront of the house Hajime."

"It's always good to be careful. I'd be sad if my wife went missing just days before,"

“I’ll be safe,”

“And I’ll be quick,”

He pauses before he goes back through the door, turning suddenly before he smiles again. Impossibly gently, he runs his fingers through his hair before running back to you.

Another kiss to the corner of your mouth followed with one to your lips. The last one carefully place on the drying mendhi on your arms just where his name sits.

“I love you,”

You soften. “I love you too, Hajime. You can dote on me as much as you want when you come back.”

He grins. “I’ll hold you to that.”

glossary of terms:

mendhi - more commonly known as henna, a special skin safe paste used for decorative designs. commonly red or black.

panjabi - bangla word for kurta. basically a long item of menswear that stops just past the knee or above.

teep - also known as bindi. a decorative sticker or red dot placed in the center of the forehead.

** more cultural notes: in bangladesh mustard oil is often used to deepen the color of mendhi. it normally goes on after or while almost dry.

[batsarebetterthanpeople]

Here's my thing not to always be complaining about bad interpretations BUT I genuinely do not understand how anyone at all can see the scene that established the Kraken where Ed is subjected to abuse by his father and then kills him, and then see a character attempt to force Ed to kill the first person hes ever gotten close to, attempt to kill the first person Ed has ever gotten close to, call law enforcement to come in and kill the first person Ed has ever gotten close to, and then when he succeeds in driving that person away and Ed tries to open up to even more people tell him he's better off dead and threaten his life. And then see Ed choke that character with a lighthouse painting positioned in the background just like how he choked his dad with a lighthouse in the background and declare himself the kraken like he did when he was talking about his abusive fathers death and not read all that information as leading back to Izzy abusing him. Like season 1 actually sends a very clear message if you're not into incel apologia.

And yes I have seen season 2, season 2 did three things in regards to this arc. The first thing it did was call the relationship toxic and unhealthy which affirms this reading, the second thing season 2 did was clarify that Izzy's intentions in doing all this were in fact to have Ed all to himself out of a psychosexual obsession rather than out of a hunger for power or even as a hate crime or whatever, so those are Izzy's two "this only looks like abuse but actually is about something else" alibis down, which reaffirms this reading, and the third thing it did was have Izzy take it all back and decide he's actually better now which, the redemption arc doesn't contradict any of that. And no I'm not ignoring Ed's violence against Izzy, he did all of that violence fully after four times trying to isolate Ed violently from other people and I think it's acceptable to kill your abuser, so Ed's violence doesn't factor into my read aside from how it relates to how he handled his first abuser, his father, and how he handled his second abuser, Hornigold, in the dream scape.

So basically last time I made this meta I said "guys I think Izzy might be abusing Ed, but Idk he could just be power hungry as fucked up little henchmen often are." But now that I have season 2 I'm rewriting it and saying that I know that Izzy is one of Ed's abusers, so thank you season 2 for clarifying this for me. He changed his mind and, well all I have to say about that is that I hope Ed feels safer now that he has changed his mind, but I still don't much care for him.

If you comment on this to argue with me without adding a 🦜emoji I'll assume you haven't read the whole thing before getting mad at me and delete your reply.

[gatheredfates]

It's been a little while since I've prompted my server! With Sea's Community Compendium not needing an update this week (unless...?), I thought it might be the perfect opportunity. ⭐

What is SEAFLOOR?

SEAFLOOR's purpose is two-pronged! The first focuses solely on my community projects including, but not limited to; Compendium support, question-drive updates, miscellaneous resources and other bits and bobs. We also have dedicated channels for user sourced/submitted content including:

Resources, prompts and commissions! Every time I see a commission post, gpose prompts or resources that I think will benefit the community at large (especially if it doesn't fit in the Compendium due to time constraints), I'll add it there.

An affirmations channel! Exactly what it says on the tin. You can link positive words and encouragement to people and they can look in the channel if they need a boost.

Fics, drabbles & asks! If you want to promote your writing/work, especially from my question drive, you can do that there.

There are also a few channels specific to the social role.

An events channel! I try to link any upcoming events I see on the dash, though event owners can promote their own specific venues if they want.

Character profiles for RP and writing!

GPosing, LFG and modding discussions. ✨

The second purpose is what's implied above — a social aspect! I struggle with a lot of one on one conversations, so this server lets me reach out to lots of people without the pressure of missing messages. You do not need to join the social aspect to have access to my projects. It is entirely optional and there for people who want to say hi or meet other people in the community. If you just want to be pinged when a question drive is open or I have updated the Compendium, you're more than welcome to utilise the server just for that.

However, because of my time constraints, I have a series of rules that must be adhered to in order for people to participate fully in SEAFLOOR. Though they're explored in more depth in the server, the main crux are below —

SEAFLOOR is adults-only, 21+. This is entirely because I don't have the time to moderate a server that is friendly towards minors and I generally don't allow them in my space. This is for my own comfort, sorry! You're still welcome to utilise my projects.

As this is a server for adults, I expect you to act like adults. This includes, but is not limited to; enacting your own media literacy in muting, blocking and disengaging with people/topics you don't like; doing your due diligence to protect yourself and others with proper content warnings, spoiler tagging and triggers; keeping to Discord's ToS and respecting people's boundaries and privacy. If I have to moderate, I will be harsh in implementation because I don't have the time for it. Like all my projects, if it becomes too much of a chore or detrimental for my mental health, I will delete it without hesitation. This might be a 'public' server, but it is still my server. I won't hesitate.

In sum: 'Be excellent to each other'. Treat others how you want to be treated, don't start discourse and sort your shit in private. Use your common sense and don't be creepy/weird.

If this sounds like something that might be up your alley, you can give the server a shot here! There's a lot of fun, supportive people and I really enjoy the little community that's been cultivated. I hope you will too!

[painsandconfusion]

do u ever struggle with feeling guilty about writing or enjoying whump

Absolutely. At least, I used to.

I've posted about this before, so you might find a more in-depth answer somewhere on my blog (I do NOT expect you to have seen that - just saying someone could probably dig it up if this seems brief)

My relationship with whump was always just shame until I was 17 or so and had a friend who loved whumpy things. We didn't know or use that term, but she wrote a lot of dark fiction and we wrong things together. Lots of angst and torture and stuff. Still, everyone saw it as so taboo, and once we drifted apart I didn't get back into it until I discovered the whump community when I was about 20.

I made a blog, then deleted it. Then made another. Then deleted that one. I was just kinda drowning in shame and worry about it (I grew up in a very conservative home), and I never really did anything with it until I wassss 24? I made a post just continuing someone else's prompt list and I got a TON of notes.

Just getting some positive affirmation on something I created helped me a lot. Then over the last two years I've stopped worrying about it nearly so much, have found confidence and better understanding of why I love what I love, and have gotten a lot more open about it.

Now I don't worry really at all or feel bad about it. I think I was always jsut so afraid that it made me a bad person, but now I'm confident in the knowledge that it doesn't and that I'm just the same as I was before I posted a ton or ran servers or did whumpy roleplays.

It comes with a lot of time, self reflection, and understanding the topics, but it does get easier. Hang in there, friend 🫂

[pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen]

The Night I Met My Match: A Journey from Insecurity to Intimacy

In the quaint town of Stillwater, our paths crossed in a way that felt almost serendipitous. He walked the streets to greet me for the first time, a meeting we had both agreed would be a fleeting moment—just a one-night stand. Our connection originated online, through a fetish website I joined to help build my confidence. As a bigger girl struggling with self-esteem, I knew I needed to take that first step towards embracing who I am. I yearned to believe that I was beautiful just as I am, and I hoped that exposure to others who appreciated me would help me in my self-love journey.

My struggles with self-image were profound. I often told myself that I was not beautiful, sexy, or desirable, and the negativity felt suffocating. I’ve endured a lot of pain and disappointment throughout my life���from family, friends, partners, and even strangers—who have only fed into my insecurities. I often felt like the ugly, unattractive girl that no one would want to touch with a ten-foot pole, and I was exhausted from that mindset. While I appreciated the kind words from those who tried to uplift me, it was difficult to internalize them; I felt broken and damaged.

I embraced my identity as a chunky, curvy redhead with a big booty & big boobies. To protect myself from negative comments online, I decided to post on a fetish website where larger women are celebrated. I knew there were many people out there who preferred curvier figures, and I hoped that showcasing myself in this space would help me cultivate self-love. Thus began my journey on this platform, where I started to curate content more frequently, gradually increasing the boldness of my posts overtime.

In the beginning, I struggled with self-acceptance when it came to sharing nude photos. I would hesitate, feeling disgusted and embarrassed. However, rather than deleting these images, I allowed them to sit in my gallery for a few days while I built up the courage. Reassuringly I still often hype myself up to share, always eventually. I reminded myself that many people love redheads and curvy women, and while I might not see the beauty in myself, perhaps others would. This process of self-encouragement proved effective. Surprisingly, I experienced very little negativity, with only a couple of rude comments throughout my years on the site.

I didn’t join the platform to engage in sexual encounters; I was fearful of danger in all of its forms and I was simply not interested in flirty exchanges. Instead, I focused on the overwhelming attention I received, which was far more than I had ever experienced on any platforms anywhere else. The number of messages was astounding. The admiration others gave felt wonderful. I am grateful for the positive attention and engagement, appreciating how each interaction helped build my confidence, even if I never responded to direct messages, but I always make sure to heart react to each and every complimenting comment to show my appreciation, The heartfelt comments from my followers mean the world to me, even if they don’t realize their impact.

I was in shock, witnessing how uplifting this experience was for me from the beginning, and even presently today, and I’m positive continuing on this journey. While I still have my insecurities, I reached a point in my life where I can genuinely say that today I love myself and feel beautifully desirable, when before I couldn’t. This realization was monumental; I finally feel authentic in my self-affirmation.

However, as my self-love journey progressed, at the time I found myself feeling incredibly lonely. With the nagging love of encouragement from both my mother and best friend, I slowly began to consider putting myself out there again after a few years of being single following my divorce of eight excruciatingly, exhaustive, depressing, abusive, unsatisfactory, amount of years. On June 29, 2024, everything changed for me. Having gathered quite a substantial amount of followers over the years, I met someone who would become pivotal in my life. We agreed to a one-night stand, which I initially thought would be a simple encounter where after I’d kick him out treating him as a booty call. That’s what my intentions were and I expected to do just that, but thankfully fate had other plans.

As I met him that day, I couldn’t shake the feelings I immediately developed for this man, the feelings kept growing stronger and stronger as the hours passes, no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t avoid myself from continuing opening up my heart to the risk of another person hurting me, especially in a matter of one night. I know that I am not easily convinced, easily persuaded, or easily impressed by anyone. {There are plenty of fish in the sea, but you know what else is in the sea, trash, a lot of trash. Luckily I ended up with a dimamond, a rare jewel I will not be able to ever replace. This diamond is my rock to this very day, so I take very good care of him.}

Even though it was daunting, I couldn’t ignore what my intuition was telling me. My body communicated in unspoken ways that this man was different. I could feel the intensity of that connection affecting me physically and emotionally. I struggled to suppress my emotions; I wanted to keep the physical sensations I was experiencing hidden from view. Yet, the strength of my feelings overflowed, spilling out in ways I couldn’t contain. My emotions manifested through my body language and facial expressions, revealing the truth beneath the invisible mask I tried to wear.

He was a remarkable person—genuine, relatable, and effortlessly charming. We connected instantly, spending hours talking through the night and experiencing a magnetic attraction that was undeniable. Baffled When we realized what time it was, before he left to head to work early that morning, he casually asked if he could return afterward his shift. At that moment, I realized I could see him becoming a significant part of my life. When I gazed into his eyes, I could sense that he would either be a lasting presence in my life or the one who would heartbreakingly leave me shattered.

What started as a one night booty call, blossomed into something far more beautifully profound. My journey of self-love had given me the resilience and confidence with my appearance, to finally be comfortable expressing my personality which led me to attract and retain an incredible man into my life. I’ve come so far, and now, I cherish every moment—both the beautiful ones and the challenging ones.

and now… every single day no matter how or what the circumstances may be, I think about him when the suns out and I think about him when I see the moon, and I believe that he will be in my brain forever and now until the end of time whether he’s present or absent. ♾️

@bigmikeyde ♾️ @pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen ♾️

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[you-deserve-to-love-yourself]

New intro post

Hi everyone!! I haven't used this site in almost 3 years (3 years!), but I plan to (hopefully) be a little more active from now on and wanted to make a new intro post because who I am and what I want to use this blog for has changed.

Who I am

I go by Aure (she/her) and I've run this blog since I was 15 (I'm 20 now which is crazy!) I'm Asian-American and am studying neuroscience at my university. I want to become a doctor, specifically a neurologist and treat disorders like seizures or ME/CFS. I am diagnosed with ADHD, autism, depression, and anxiety, and take medications for all of these except autism. My main is @aureshadow.

History of this blog

This is a mental health/self love blog. I started this blog in 2020, about 5 months into quarantine. I was at a very low point in my life--an organization I had been in charge of had dissolved due to internal conflicts. At that time, that org had been the love of my life and the only source of my self-worth, and I fell into a very deep and dangerous depression.

During that time, I had a lot of realizations about myself and my warped perceptions of the world. I realized that I had placed my sense of self-worth on my accomplishments, and that once I peeled back those glorious achievements and titles, I had nothing left. I held a lot of anger at myself, my peers, and the world. I would burst into tears at random points of my day.

I didn't want to feel this way; I wanted to get better. I started using Tumblr around this time, after deleting all my "irl" social media accounts (Instagram, Twitter, etc). I followed a lot of blogs that posted affirmations such as "you are valuable no matter what," and realized that I did derive some sense of comfort from reading these words even if I didn't fully believe them. I realized that I had things to say as well, and maybe it would help other people to read them.

It blew up pretty quickly. I posted a lot of my own thoughts and became friends (ish?) with a lot of other mental health blogs here. I started getting a lot of asks, some of which were pretty personal. In hindsight, as a 16 year old I really shouldn't have been giving some of the advice I was giving on here. But I like to think that some of what I said was helpful.

I logged off of Tumblr in 2022, the summer before I entered college, and did not log back in for almost 3 years.

What I've been up to since

I've been in college and I've been doing well! I went on meds and my mental health has been much better, but I still recognize that I have a long way to go. In 2025 I'm trying to work on showing more empathy, and having candid conversations with people I'm upset with instead of complaining about them behind their backs.

When I started this blog I had essentially zero friends. My life has definitely improved in this department; in college I have a nice group of friends that love and support me. It certainly isn't perfect and sometimes I still get upset with them, but I try my best to communicate and work it out.

I'm doing well in school; medication and accommodations have significantly improved my experience. I still sometimes struggle with procrastination and forgetting to do assignments, but somehow have still managed to hold onto an insanely high GPA, lol. I'm far from the perfect student but am trying to build better study habits as I'll need it for med school!

My main academic interest is neuroscience, specifically neurological disorders like ME/CFS. More fandom-wise, I've been in love with danmeis, especially MXTX's works like Tian Guan Ci Fu. I won't be posting any fandom stuff here though--that'll all be on my main @aureshadow and @envythepalmtree (Fullmetal Alchemist sideblog).

What I plan to do with this blog

I plan to use this blog a little differently; I've changed a lot since I logged off of Tumblr in 2022. I still want to use it to spread positivity and messages about mental health that people might benefit from reading. Some of my values/beliefs are a little different my writing style may seem a little different as well.

The main change is that I want what I post to be more based in science. Whenever I make any kind of claim, I'll cite reputable sources and I will not reblog anything that makes a claim unless I have fact checked it first.

While I'll still be sharing general posts about self love and mental health, I also want to use this platform to make neuroscience and psychology more accessible to people. Academic papers, especially scientific papers, are very inaccessibly written but I believe that people have a right to understand what's going on in their own brains and bodies. If you have a specific disorder you would like to learn more about, a specific study you'd like to understand, or even any general questions about the brain, feel free to shoot me an ask! I likely won't respond very quickly but that's because I want to take the time to be thoughtful and give a good response.

I will continue to add image descriptions to any image-based posts I see and encourage everyone else to do the same! They are very important for accessibility and I want to make my blog as accessible as possible. Here's a guide I wrote up on a different sideblog on how to write IDs.

Asks

You can ask me almost anything. I may choose not to answer, but there is never any harm in asking! You can request a post on any topic you'd like, from brain research to my own life experiences.

I am not a therapist or a doctor (yet). I am an EMT (which means I drive an ambulance), however this is just a blog and I don't want anything I say to be taken as medical advice.

You're welcome to ask me for advice with the caveat that I do not know your life as well as you do and you are always the expert on your own life. I am always here as a second opinion and listening ear.

The only thing I request you do not send me is messages about active urges to harm yourself or others. I am not qualified to help you if you are actively considering harming yourself or others; you can find crisis helplines in different countries here. You're welcome to mention if you've attempted or done something in the past, but I ask that if you are actively in crisis that you log off of Tumblr and find a crisis helpline in your country/area.

While I will not respond to hate messages, I welcome constructive criticism! If you have any ideas on how I can improve this blog let me know. If I have posted/reblogged something harmful or factually incorrect, please let me know so I can take it down.

As always, please take care of yourselves!

[sophieinwonderland]

Hi! Feel free to just delete if you don't have any advice - some time ago, an alter split off two others because of some stuff that was happening. Recently, said alter has been working through it, and the alters that were split off are starting to integrate back with them. Problem is, none of them want to integrate, they're happy staying not-integrated. Do you have any advice on how they can stop accidentally integrating? 😅 Thank you!

This is a bit outside of area of expertise and I hope others might be able to offer better advice from experience.

If we were in this position, there are a few things we might try to prevent fusion.

Affirming and focusing on their differences would be one.

I also think letting them interact with each other in mindforms, whether in the inner world or imposed externally, can reinforce to your brain that these are different people, and interrupt fusion. They may want to find some type of inner world activity to do together.

I would experiment with some exercises like these to see if they might help

Again though, we haven't been though this and this is merely speculation. So any additions others could give would be appreciated.

[coaping]

(Re) connecting with yourself

Helloo! I realize this post is kind of different from my other ones. Anyway, For a very long time in my life I have felt as if I don’t know myself. I couldn’t tell who I really was. I guess you could say I had identity issues, and they’d often cause me to spiral. Today, I’m offering a guide to somewhat help/cope with this issue.

{Create a “Think about it” space}

this is basically a designated location and/or time for you to think about things. Life, creative concepts, TV shows, music, anything. Get to know yourself there. The only rule is: NO ELECTRONICS! You could put on some music, but that’s the only exception

{Hobbies, outdoors time, and friends}

These three things are very important for finding yourself. Reconnecting with nature, creating art(or other thing hobbies), and spending time with friends that you enjoy being around makes all the difference.

{Create affirmations}

I may create a different post just about this one, but an example of an affirmation might be, “I am capable of learning and growing from my mistakes.” Make them positive, but also realistic.

{Don’t let depressive episodes define who you are} Almost every depressive episode I’ve had was about not knowing who I am. I’d think that maybe that was just who I am. That’s not true! You are not your bad moments unless you let them be. Always remember that growth is possible and this episode will not last forever.

{Ditch the media.}

Gosh, how badly do I wish I could just delete Pinterest. It has ruined my personal sense of style. I believe it can be good, if used right. But not just Pinterest, TikTok, Instagram, Snapchat, I despise all of them!!! Ditch them ASAP!

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Hi AUfriend <3

Excuse me marching in here unannounced. I sent some asks to Mareena and Para, and well, I thought that perhaps you might also like these questions. (Feel free to do it in your own time or ignore as spoons allow. <3)

I know we love to talk about breaking the rules in writing and obviously, that not every piece of advice is one-size-fits all, but there is a lot to say about being able to speak with each other about what we have learned during our journey. I was wondering if you wouldn't share. (I also plan on poking some of the others to see what more we can shake out. The more the merrier, no?)

What is the most useful/helpful pieces of advice you ever received during your education in relation to writing?

Once you started to write, what was the most important thing that you learned about writing or its process?

Has your real life had any influence on your writing? If so, how?

What advice would you give to aspiring writers (be it fanfiction or original)?

I would, in fact, like these questions. Give me all the questions. I broke my own advice and deleted a paragraph of this and started over. Then I left and came back a few hours later.

1.) The most useful advice?

Your job is to tell a story. (Stop trying to push multiple things in a narrative, stop trying to impress people, stop wondering what the audience wants, you have one goal- anything extra is extra.) Motivation will not support you, but discipline will. (I wrote everyday, two days off a week. I did this for a year. That year has given me more stamina in terms of writing than any amount of inspiration ever has. Its the reason some stories can exist at all.) The job of a first draft is to exist. (It can't be good until its bad, it can't be bad if it doesn't exist.)

2.) Once you started to write, what was the most important thing you learned?

<Trying to remember when I started writing> Start small? I started a lot of big projects before I got comfortable doing small projects, and that hurt me in the long run, I think. It isn't a lack of discipline or ability on your part, don't get offended. Its just, small things are a huge confidence builder. I have so many unfinished works on my laptop, that it made me feel like a failure. Having several small completed works helped me have the confidence and know-how to look at a big project and go "no big deal." Also, contrary to popular belief, people do actually like small bits of fanfiction, gen fanfiction even. Short stories do have a market. Those small prompts are really helpful in boosting confidence and practicing in a non-stressful environment. Also, it helps work maintain an even amount of skill. My skills at the beginning of a story are much better than at my endings.

Technical stuff: Warming up will save me time and stress.. I can spend two hours looking at a blank screen or I can spend five minutes on typing exercises and ten minutes free writing. Sitting at a desk is more productive and better than sitting on my bed. I need to have some sort of caffeine and or water next to me. Walking beforehand eases out the jitters. I do better when I am not posting everytime I hit 1 or 5k.

Brand new information: Having a group of writers talking to you and encouraging you about your project makes writing a LOT easier. They give me a positive word and suddenly things start getting accomplished. Its magical. Being dependent on other people for motivation is not healthy, but it IS normal to need affirmation- my mind thinks of it as a really good dose of speed.

3.) Has your real life had any influence on your writing?

I had two immediate responses to this. One was, "I hope so" the other was "Damn, I hope not." A few things that have probably gotten into my writing: 1.) My relationship with disability 2.) Sometimes people have to live in unhealthy and uncomfortable situations. They live and their lives are still WORTH living, even if things aren't perfect. 3.) Sometimes life changes directions completely and you aren't you you thought you would be by the end. 4.) Some of my favorite fic authors 5.) My family history

There is also a Screwtape Letter's quote that really put my writing into perspective, or really any skilled labor. It eases a lot of insecurity, if this is what I am striving towards. > “The Enemy wants to bring the man to a state of mind in which he could design the best cathedral in the world, and know it to be the best, and rejoice in the fact, without being any more (or less) or otherwise glad at having done it than he would be if it had been done by another. The Enemy wants him, in the end, to be so free from any bias in his own favour that he can rejoice in his own talents as frankly and gratefully as in his neighbour's talents--or in a sunrise, an elephant, or a waterfall.”

4.) What advice would I give?

You have to let yourself suck. You have to let it be bad. You get good by being bad. Writing is an imperfect craft, and if you spend your time trying be perfect- its just going to add a layer of misery to what should be a joy. My friends and family have to drag me away from writing these days. I get irritable if I don't write, because the last little thing that was keeping me from writing- what was filling me with dread- was that need for perfection.

Stop hiding your work. You have nothing to be ashamed of.

Do your time letting yourself work through it feeling like a chore. That is a normal part of the journey, feeling like each word is coming at a crawl and "I have no idea why I do this" and "This isn't good." I would compare it to doing scales or running laps. Its hard, repetitive, useless work- but after you've built up the skill and endurance, you can focus on the story you are writing- not if you can do it at all.

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🌿 ⇢ give some advice on writer's block and low creativity

Since I struggled with that a lot in the last weeks and I had to remind myself what helps and works (for me):

Start small. Don't expect to write the whole thing. Plan to write half a page or ten sentences or maybe only one.

If you can't write, try editing the WIPs. If you also can't do this - edit older, already finished WIPs.

Consume you source of inspiration and idea. Re-watch the show / movie, re-read the book, obsess over your person, ... .

Don't think about the bigger picture. Knowing you have to write several chapters might be too much. Focus one that one little, specific thing you want to write right now.

Consistent writing over writing a lot. Try to squeeze in some creative minutes every day (or almost every day). Doesn't have to be good. Doesn't have to be working on your fic. Can be deleted later. But practice makes better and makes it easier. (Can also be outlining or planing the next chapters or daydreaming.)

Create a nice working space. Get that drink. Pull out the chocolate. Make your favourite snack. Wrap yourself in that blanket. Light that nice candle.

Reward yourself for achievements.

If you're blocked - take a step back. Take a walk, tidy up the house, read something else, go on a trip, ... . Do something that gives your brain a breath and some fresh creative energy (and maybe inspiration). Daydream! If you can see it, you can write it. (Also remember to take care of yourself: eat, drink, sleep, stretch, do sports, ...)

Shake things up. Change the weather. Try out a new pairing. Experiement with the crazy idea in your head you never dared to touch so far. ...

Talk with someone about it.

Don't pressure yourself. Don't listen to that voice in your head. Remember your the only one who can write that specific fic and you really want to read it. Remember all the positive feedback you got so far. You can do this and you are capable and you can write. (Use it as a positive affirmation.)

Find a writing methode that works for you. (e.g. pomodoro)

Sometimes it's the best to just let it flow. Just start and see where you end up. Start at with the beginning or pick out something from the middle or write the end first. (Bonus: Sometimes the "white page" methode is the best: start with a fresh white page and from the beginning. Write that thing completely knew.)

🪲 ⇢ add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here

"With leaden eyelids, Irina sat up and yawned profusely before swinging her legs out of bed. As she stretched, she shuffled towards the ajar bathroom door, behind which she could hear Olena. "Morning," she said in greeting as she grabbed the doorknob and opened the door. She didn't expect what"

[randomclam24]

These memes come with perfect cutoff in advance - Now I've heard that from the past, jews used to clip coins so that their value that would be recognized would be halved, so they made modern coins in address (the ridges are them having been clipped in advance)

3/25 It is an okay Monday

I know it might not sound normal to point out the way some people have been of the willingness to call the police on someone, to go so far just because they don't like, especially, what they're talking about in real life - that's not to say the calling-out of Cancel Culture hasn't happened, but, why you won't go further into that? That's because this is what it is.

Back circa the *first Trump presidential cycle*, there was a meme which was a voice clip from some game about how at the apex of their glory, "civilizations", as they call it in circumvention of the real-time applicability in cowardice as it just does, are extinguished - if Cancel Culture didn't presumptively "gut" you with that pre-realization of applied knowledge, then I don't know what You of course have Linkin Park, who did suicide at the meaningful specific time of 2015, which is where *I* would, singing the lyrics that have "didn't even know, just to watch you go" So if you think those are civilizations, you're either a real airhead or a real narcissist - that or that's the origin of civilizations and I just don't know what I'm doing

But then it wouldn't be the "apex of their glory", as in that sci-fi game, but the preemptive means by which as it's called, "infrastructure" is garnered - by which the rest of the revolution can go smoother People really don't think that's preemptively followed as in vicarious following before you can even *think* the thoughts, let alone this Hillary Clinton fixation deleting her phone emails - you're missing the point:- they followed you right behind your back all the rest of the "final stretch" in order to cut you off on the right word to slip into your head when you *got* here

All they would have to say is an environmental gangstalking point answering, "*Cancel*." And you all didn't hear

Well it happens to be now, even if you're not familiar with Silent Hill 2 memetics in the introduction, that there's a *new* term in circulation on ** le reddit **, that when mass followers are done the social parallel to blackmailed and left in position as it would have been in the ** Illuminati **, and told that they're doing bad by (Sign in with Google has been an added before-you-enter pop-up) today's established standards (Don't browse Reddit.), it's called getting "y'all'ed", like I used the wording above. So now that you know.

Update More or less, although it's deleted due to it only being mentioned outwardly on the through-2019 YouTube channel, as it comes to scenes like where tape would be placed well before certain objects of interest, it would be this notion of mine that I am a "patrician" that would be the one concretely-affirmable notion that demonstrates my being somewhere along the "autism spectrum", if that's really how you want to categorize it.

Update It could be said to be interpretation purely otherwise, but with a certain meme we have something specific: when Franku's content got emphasizedly considered bad retroactively by which the ending about being swallowed up by the earth as in the end of the To Pimp a Butterfly album in its specified expressions as-is- happened - liberals' fixation about "crossing state lines" even where the spirit of existing in the style of a specific investigation conditioned off wasn't met by the reality of interconnecting states - originally, you had Franku's "he cross'ed this nigga into the shadow realm"

Update Pretty much as with college * *pussy* * and the way such an establishment might lay down the rules, I think it's implicit that when you enter a(n especially Google-bought-out) place such as YouTube, you've crossed these lines, and so it's not in the details as people say the devil has always been in equivalent-to-the-previous-example denial of real-timeness but in the reminder of the thing presumptively that terms of service are preeminent before even deployment, as everyone has them baked in subconsciously

If you don't know it as the built-in psychology, Silent Weapons for Quiet Wars:- not this "New York Jew breaches the barriers"

(Pretty much, still-online-primarily right-wingers (to the effect of the viral): Oh no it turned out in this instance as with all these instances we weren't the vibe of Hollywood defying all odds *after* all.)

Update They have completely given over their minds to the theatre It is coined exactly as where * *and whenever* * you complained: if you told online right-wingers that, they could not even--verbatim

Update As it's been pointed out in the past (underrated for what it is)

Liberal arguments, primarily highlighted by that dirge that was that ongoing, never-truly satisfied down-current of nu-atheists, are preceded(in the case of the strict nu-atheists, every single time(it has been and still continues its sustaining of tone by definition)) by the reminder as a pointer to trauma in relationships. [And at that point in updating how bad it was who gives a fuck what Milo Yiannopolous redirects that stream of association to as a cowardice as mentioned before fundamentally of national characteristic(as fuck-all)]

As is underrated, if you're talking to their trauma strictly without the distraction (which itself, as being of the fact that is and was thereof, has been projected bitterly [and again who the (actual) fuck gives a shit what I redetermine the thing as - it was uncanny to all of hell and then]

what are they doing? Lane-switching every reply post (like the Suicideboys song, as the thing) - preceded by uncanny hand-having pause

[And in the end it remains I was told I got spanked, as a hand-having mechanism which precedes with uncanny mind mechanisms to even be put there socio-determinedly in the first place. I was spanked by God: That being that what they were saying from the first place which is lorded out over us(all that, as being what "all that" is as a real will-to-power force period.) is that, as in the contentiousnesses of Silent Hill 3 in the first place, what constitutes provincial Christianity is subverted by theatre which the nu-atheists, as footsoldiers of liberals (?), owned up to best. "QED"

Update I have to believe that's the undergirding to why uncannily it was rigged, boomers would not *bother* parenting their oncoming generation- as was seen on this nu-guy, by their point in the 80's, what it meant to hold a civilization down, down to the basic building blocks of parenting, as it would be held up by discipline, was *already* hand-had(thoroughly

3/26 It's really too unfortunate after all observation had to be barred behind the highest form of enlightenment, because in the modern era, the educated person, as is quoted, is the one who has to then learn things, turn them over, *unlearn* them and then relearn them again, and that is barred behind the highest echelon of enlightenment to even open the eyes to even consider maybe once meandering hobblingly up from way- way, *way*(**way way way**) behind the starting line to even get- to even one day *conceive* of(if he's even going to observe *that*(we don't know if that's even what he's *thinking* about(see he could just be off in lalaland for all we know))) getting there[And that's not a *concept* with a regular non-me-as-this-fixation human Some dude called you white. Didn't you see? You observed(in the literal sense), but you didn't "see without seeing". It's really easy; it's the shaming that makes you realize you're living the wrong life. Oh - I'm not actually not a bad person? I better adjust (*blushies*), before I get knocked off(or(rather) killed(in the actual(actual, not not-realed, real)real world))

Mm, getting run over by an oncoming unsuspected truck sounds **good** - See? That was found as the thing that was the *beginning* of wisdom(*not* the end! You wouldn't have conceived of life if had been that(<-*That* is the beginning of wisdom(Look at this))) That's where in the real world, they used their higher knowledges to put together a system for roads - he's not even intelligent enough for this- we have to tell him - they put the roads there so that you would see the bright colors -he's in such a daze he won't even acknowledge the mere existence of there having been (even) *conceived* a road, because he's off in that *daze*! what is he doing "What *is* Aleppo" - this turned out in his active gestation of enlightenment in oral procurement to have been the *toppest* echelon of political science. You all didn't *enlighten* yourself. Little did you know, gett in g crunk at tha club was the only way to access (as mere mortal )

It should have been really easy to access. Even someone with my pea brain should have been able to do it, as we live memetically in an era of internet access. Like with the trailer of Mighty No. 2, what constitutes boundaries as would constitute rather more definitive authoritative fixations as state lines, are observably **never** your(insert Trump's campaign explanation as the New York filter for our limits), but **rather**[And this is where you need to be typing, I am what this is, I need to be working on that.]

Update I'm going with controller on medium with 666 spawning in Arcane Dimensions for Quake

Obviously it is the way *women* follow that we understand, hence the future being female from the first place in all timelines

If you didn't know that, forget about not being black over the fact thereof you didn't give that vote in the ballot box for Joe Biden: you didn't pass third grade.

I really don't want to think about that.

Like where were you when everyone else was appreciating for what it was, Disney Channel, live action?

3/27 I really don't like broadcasting the wordages as an entanglement. For this instance

If you wanted to convey at this level the idea of wisdom (where in my situation I have to account for people thinking "theory and reality are not separated" is the most absurd thing in the universe and then some) being not this thing of being obtuse but letting it be something that was planted and then let to grow with experience - at the level of reception, the pinnacle of that is going to be the more recent Trump "trickle-down economics" - at the level of broadcasting, that kind of energy that would be considered "Guantanamo-Bay-esque torture" really does just inevitably filter to this slow-energy-paced static cultural money shower gif

Update () I found Stormzy - Wiley Flow, and - it's the fact that I'm actually *at Quake*. The Elder World. That is probably a declination- like "Funimation Is Not Your Friend" is an article on how they actually interpret subtitles, a big turning of the head(and a big warning)

Update later Not conspiracy theorists, but the pop conspiracy theory channels - The revolution that liberals have us to be living in order to be entangled in ((That was pretty much the Amen. to all these people living out there.)) pertains to the body, whereas the person doesn't change at all, - and the Bible in the last book says those men in the last days will make moral what is pleasing in their gut. I never heard anyone make that comparison, yet these conspiracy theory channels come with the McDonald's first-come-first-serve of yup, it's we're living in the end times, folks- peddling The Bible specifically says do not interpret Revelation- These people, these folk (contentious word entanglement?), precede straight from the conclusion the Bible says not. Pretty much the same sureness of Trump's New York origination.

Update Stormzy- Wiley Flow got a dubstep remix; meanwhile the Mother 3 image by creamsouffle to that tier of energy is gone - the whole channel is taken down Culturally what happened

Update "If you have a speck on your face, clean it" - but when it came to routine with my mom and I waited, all the madness came pouring

They're doing the tenets of Christianity as this *sexual* reinstatement

Update 3/28 night From a purely spiritual perspective, the book title Irresistible Revolution: Marxism's Goal of Conquest & the Unmaking of the American Military

It's the effect of daytime television's corruption of her. From sexual entanglement, the endings are rerouted. Now provincial Christianity serves this. It is the very candy of Candy Crush

3/28 Okay I guess we're doing Quake episode 3 now, discreetly (LEGALISTICALLY AS TRUMP ACCORD)

Realistically, the conception of Mother 3 on N64 had that players would feel nausea as an overwhelming of their presented world as a growing part of the experience

Mother 3's port release on GBA, inevitably, being GBA - objectively missing

Update If you're "provincial", you're really only proceeding from living of the "perpetuity" of the end of Darling in the FranXX, in&of itself QED because flustered idiot *said* as much and you know and then some. The over-the-horizon at the end is embarrassingly easy

Why- as the folk *talk* over me - would media corruption be degeneration? And that follows in the coinage footsteps of Common Filth, his take on *black* people, meaning they had nowhere to fall from In reality he's subliminally talking over only *white* people- why did you resist?

3/29 The first thing you need to know is that when I went back to my Windows 11 laptop to get internet, the definitive focus was Windows Copilot is active again without the computer having been rebooted

when I was going to say, Sonic's had a bit of controversy evidently; I don't want to be getting into it But if it comes down to Sonic 2's Metal Sonic, right now it would be more like the end of Luminous Avenger iX. Don't know why? You have to get upgrades, and you have to grind for that, to even survive that - what are you doing at the end of Sonic 2? Panicking that you won't even have enough lives. It was that experience, not the getting over whiteness

But yes, if it comes to "not seven but seventy times seven", that's *definitively Windows Copilot*

3/30 So now I'm curious, without the forcing of the end of the first game since I know it won't really set the precedent, what is iX 2, for its merit Because you did not heed the projection of the - yes it was inherently projected first game ending, you have what is emphasized as *beyond* all that- that movie-personified "IT"

And I guess the recent phenomenon of girls getting the *"ick"* is you forcing the end of the first game when you know it would not set that precedent

Update That book title: obviously its wordage is of a Marxist view of what the American militariage (meaning, muh guns) are going to do to their ability to *affect* everyone

With the Quake symbol being a personification of the hammer and sickle, I was the one being a Marxist, under what it is from the first place that it is this society abhors. Quelling Communists? It was always a frat dream

Update after bank deposit [Chicago early 1900's sacrifice] Another scan - we have DIY - not doing that (Young Thug lyric: DEE), Don't Turn Your Back on the City, which I have some entanglement to Lil Toe - Ukraine Freestyle on - before that: What Lies Beneath, *another* Doom wad. It depicts near the beginning a crow picking at what is symbolically a corpse left for dead. Obviously I was not the agency of Avenger iX 2; I had no interest in it. That curiosity is entangled to the way this crow *picks*

Update So the way I do have that on my backburner that as the token, GTA 6 is going to have a contingency in even approaching, in so much as looking at it, as I've heard it projected soundly onto Persona - infact

The way Geibuchan's got a render with the message "what if she already did"- with the picking idea, originally as it was that was the Joe Biden inherency to expression [Oh- I didn't even *think* about that - that *is* what GTA meant about wanting (to have) to "assassinate the president" - they've got the bait to our limits perfected rigged in entanglement - *that's* what they call it when they mean "Do It Yourself" - duh!]

Update Like Mario Sunshine is cleaning the island, you could finish Don't Turn Your Back on the City, but unlike what the sound of the Toads implied: notice not just Toadsworth, but the Toads themselves in Mario Sunshine sound British: although they were implying that they wouldn't forget even if it was being washed off - most people are the kind to soundly fall asleep at eight, providing the social framework for the vast success of memoryholing

Half-Life 2, with its "it helps you forget", is most *certainly* for people who haven't had a traumatic experience like that * *whatsoever* * We know this because fans of it have implicated the aliens appearing as abstract and not of humanity at no *point.*

Update Since the elites in person really aren't anything at the ground level (they're not!), the Social Network probably means more like they're gonna give *up* on all that and proprietarily batton down Steam

Update Pretty much, I saw a video that deconstructed Geibuchan's provincial religion: It was too much when a popup superceded all installed systems and said "you hear that? Geibuchan hates Waxonator"

Update Looking at What Lies Beneath again this time with controller- I could be the guy who realized Ebeneezer Scrooge was the savage of white people, but I say it's okay because I wouldn't into iX 2, so to say (basically meaning people who were led into a *honeypot* were actually agreeing in over their heads)

The standard is, if you hurt, you're ** guilty ** (And then you have the 1999-ish ghoulish art prick your finger eat the pain )

Update right after being done When my *mom* gets home, and she fulfills the iX 1 ending precedent by making it her proxy war, what happened She said the people at the establishment didn't fulfill what she needed - she was desperate

She pays

* tries to go back to game *

She paid, or out of dad's paycheck - no- let's not even get to that point -she paid for my education, I did what

Update after dark When it *comes* to the point that you have to vacuum-in(?) v's into your reflexive speech, like "I just want to git gvd and get my entitlement to * *college* * education despite all these(read source below without that irony for REAL)", obviously that's where inevitabilities give way to what - *exactly what Space Cowboy user said, it's what conspiracy theories are, now that you (soundly (now)) *ruined* them* - these feelings of hopelessness are - *literally*, not coming from externally, meaning as to imply any actual call for overt change in the real world where it makes a difference but in your sense of emulation to the provincialism, the rug being pulled out from under you, is exactly-generatively where the concept of zombies outstretching their arms in want in Demon's Souls actually comes out in our culture - Dark Souls as a game people exclusive in their parents' basement is bad - and so you have, and I quote from transcription, appropriation to the rejection *hence* the vacuumed-v's: "chicken-wing-eating players" -> a transfer -> *"like Moon *Man*"*

Obvious it's that self-rejection that undergirds the lyricism of the rap community

People in YouTube Poop got *tired* - they actually *regretted* their tryhard posts

"Come Home White Man" is probably closer to come get therapy

But I've never heard anybody be like "She Was Like a Sunflower" from Mother 3

Update People really think like abortion isn't a form of murder Like drama, you lose the grasp at the moment you cede it the physical issue[So in all literality in this sense, you need to abort the issue (* all *)]

And I think that's preceded entangled in the *meaning* of the policable college pvssy(* vagina *)- I would never get it if I *wanted* to - why talk about (And of course you've got Eggsy's "Platinum hits" outro lyric

* tries to be done again * You're just gonna get mad

This kid in his Dark Souls basement needs to get out [That's what I think that lady from the viral 2016 campus video *thought* life was proceeding, to her on-site *tent*]

The idea is we need more focus to that tent, because I don't think people *know* what this tent is - -PVSSY HATS

** That's Avenger iX 2 **

Update Look I know[That's why we have the precedent from the leader of the NJP saying you all just wanted to be combative- we pulled the *umbilical* on all this[Trump is: Draining the *Swamp*]] That source(as reason) is, you just want to convince yourself you're right about *everything* (keyboard warriorship.

It's the most recent development that liberals are terrified that Trump? are they Trump supporters? will only take their words

It was left on so it was obvious: in register of Isn't This Such a Utopia?, Tumblr's front page which I redirected to is verbatim Varietopia where the - people really don't read the labels You remember that ice cream cone propaganda, as Obama repealed that ban, with the white ones essentially being unmasked The entire idea is, we're staring?

we're staring?

We're only *looking* at Only *looking* at. Not *staring* Correct! That is the New Colossus(you pass!

Update Like Mighty SNL opens microwave, these coinages come from without Obviously it was my original wordplay with the namesake for the Older Sister

That pertains to the dream world as the Quake entangling

As someone who has been soundly put down under this society, that is the only thing justifying my existence, the awareness to neurotically correct

My attunement to this after the umbilical removal was already after it happened inspired (even) "THANKSHE", * *chocolate.* *

Update heh What was I doing the whole fuckin time? Finding

And, judging by lyrics, that's what Internet irony is to Joji, entangled evidently to the rich

He did everything for *real* pussy, which is why he felt so entangled by the Internet irony he had to put a reminder, just to let everyone know he felt like *God* was dead

Update Obviously, the contingency of evil is not over whether someone filtered a Putin through all the hentai words, but the *inherent* resatisfaction ["take down paradise, put up a parking lot"(which said no one ever when)] when the proprietary service already inherent finally preemtively shows its hand(and it *did* - over and over again)

Holy shit

Alright? All of this - the situation of heavy machines Your

Update Varietopia (VR) what are they looking at? they're obviously their staring, 'infact'[it's called *Fun Fact*], looking only intent at unmasking(as all they hear)"Moon Man Moon Man, can't you see, spics and nigg ers need to hang from trees, and I just love your racist ways" without us having been doing anything. The end, QED, end all of the life being the world's suffering New York puts that *bull*, but they don't *want* when Because this obviously symbolizes something Something you're doing calls all things to a stop[*Why* is that

Everything in song lyrics values the risque as the definition source of sexy, so if and when Beavis and Butthead shave their finger or fingers or entire hand - it could go all night with this menorah of possibility-off with a saw blade women-jews get their highest

When presented the opportunity to push the button, in actual foregone * reality * you have your foregone conclusions: white people devastate (nuclear power [* Global announcement: something about The Last Airbender *]

Update Little did Lil Toe in that song imply that crying (that you game game game) while sucking on your *weiner* is actually hypocritical - and fundamentally *self contradictory*

There's obviously nothing missing from what we're saying- you're just not looking hard enough

You're praise vouching for the wrong entity

Implying that the act of doing this isn't scanty (because we live in the big city where it counts and not flyover 'country'(inasmuch as Donna *Dumpf*.)

Update - I say that, but what originally was "Darkness Trigger"(iX 1 (zozzle(obviously destructs in.and.up.on.its.self because it wasn't paying enough **attention**))) [meaning all those times someone opened their fat arse gullet and I didn't please myself based upon it because I'm a fat manwhore pigwit [because they're opening up wounds - that's where you say, "it says you're a heretic", and that's where we all tilt our heads back, and laugh!]] Therapy Obsession and Its NeoConservative Roots

Got a little ana-GOT A LITTLE ANAL CREAM FOR YOUR ASS Hole

Alright look - like with thde personified blindfold, we don't have to see at all to see what you're doing. Where are the motions of your articulations? That's what you're doing. No guilt by association guilt-by association is going to change the fact. That is a matter of fact .

Update When you're up at the top, preceding life decisions in the sense of frumping with financial hindrances is the kind of experience where the Bible has to say "those who lose their lives will gain it" as an outlier -*They're* not going to do anything.

They're preeminently disposed to one another in that. Why do you *think* they value human life

We say that, but then it just never goes on - it goes down over and over and over

But *really*- that's the pull from the beauty of porn browsing all day

3/31 The reason we can't do things like Mother 3 N64, as an actionability globally, is entangled to as its source, Crowleyanism! Started to be demonstrated in What Lies Beneath, Hurt Me Plenty mode.

Obviously the Lil Toe lyric about "crying while she's sucking on (their) weiner"- Lil Toe, being from the South, is where a lot of Masons are would get invoked only actionably as a *disclaimer* to my as a person as I'm causing my Internet to lag

They're exposing the vampiricists. You're obviously not * with * this revolution

Update With the inherent start of the pistol as "GUN."(an actual sixth-gen title) for starting Doom What was the viral abhorred picture of the militant guard for the girl in the bunny suit at a slut girls' concert, in and of itself It's the fact not of what we communicate when it finally *comes* to the point of the future self it recreates in mocking It's the fact that they're having it

(KND had a large episode where the five kids [have a giant cake]- you're obviously too violent in nature [to main that]

Update Okay, I see. Being true to your trauma can be *evil* because you're placing it over context

4/1 night Placing the iX 2 program on the lowered paused volume in the background, which is a required entanglement (I've seen a video calling out how people in this culture don't respect you at all unless you're pretty)

Winter's Fury difficulty

4/1 All-Oaths-Void MMMeme

just kind of realized Regular Show's "chillin in the summertime" pretty much means we CEOs know you're having these problems, and we aren't doing shit about em

disclaimer: basically did careful nightcore like shopping

Update I can see why Kendrick left so to speak Stealing from the super-rich - you don't want to give that

-They did the investigation into the deep state outposts; they said they didn't find anything (empty microwave)

It's totally fine. Just as long as you didn't let any of them do it

Update Back on deviantart, which I've left due to the "All Out With Pride" pointer I made a compact playlist with Kendrick Lamar- Crown, but more recently I've seen the vlogs by SkyWarrior100

The context is, this thing he was defending is displeasing

Update So basically this is the reason I couldn't even get far in Winter's Fury this time: for the people, just from a spiritual perspective, Magia Record Season 3 the rush *precedes* Season 2 ever seeing the *light* of day. The End.

(If XXXTentacion's 'Riot' is merely *emulating* whiteness, he's looking at *me*

4/2 Looking at it from within ghosttundra's playlist, The experience of listening to Graham Coxon - The Golden D except more like entangled to this before I just kind of found it- GrandNC has a video ft. Marylin Manson - actually be there at that point

What he's got - Graham Coxon could be just like Flint from Mother 3, but

4/3 https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLvghDcZMnwE2exFI3lgKvK1rynONKYhdc

Update On the last post currently of the deviantart account

When Donald Trump dragged along people preyed on this *monster* saying, he's going to launch the nukes! And what did he say? We gotta vet things *

4/6 Honestly from that video about how people treat you if you're ugly white people already have this lack of self-awareness.

Even if we had the elites taken care of in this country, diffused, what would remain is a nice little Banana Republic I would not return to in the immediate future.

If you play Dark Souls with mouse and keyboard(which should be exclusive at this time)

make that run key not convenient

hence -the cocoa price skyrocketing

4/7 You say merely, we're going to fight back, but I woke up this morning with an "insipid" bowel movement that made it feel like I walked into an invisible tripwire to just be having my guts just right over my intimate area beginning to pour out

When you fight the aliens in Duke Nukem 3D's LA Meltdown, the outpouring noise isn't meant to be that traumatic

What is generational here? In Godzilla NES Creepypasta, accentuated by the OST of the most popular video reading of it, it's not just the dark temple hallway You wake up to Extus to find: that at near the end of Halo 4, "From the Cradle to the Grave" was actually done exclusively from within the very cradle of absence of so much as beginning to even be opening to the very concept of communicating What was any world's police intervention

[4chan's shitty edgy "we are the in the belly of this horrible? machine, and it is bleeding to death", signaled by my bad bowel movement(and then some! (we're not even talking about what this is)) is why we have in origin * mass surveillance *, so we can moderate before we even go into a CIA-fueled warzone like the Middle East!]

[>That Kendrick "you never reached her", that's just made*-up* shit] [Synthcool's attuned broadcast *car* crashing is a misnomer like Soulja giygas is ignorant from the start of the thing that I have no awareness of. ['Alleppouehe' is -Proscuitto]]

Update Also 4K Video Downloader+ has listeningly changed so the advertisements are accentuated

They habitually say change starts with you, but that's autonomous.

They're not talking about social revolution; they're talking about personal social upheaval

XXXTentacion's life advice is you have everything you need right in *front* of you- that's obviously not That's what Deep Sea Prisoner specifically said; "watch hentai contents and calm down". Synthcool concludes it was the only good part of anime, and that jury forms muh bitchy resting face, in&ofitself, being what that was in constitution, so no wonder campus Communists don't regard the constitution

If you broadcast the constitution with a capital letter, heaven forbid. And you think anyone was doing that, you are a fool

When they have reminder in the terms of service, in reality I didn't have to sign onto a service: it is generational. The reminder precedes the life.

Evidently -apparently, the left is heroic that we even get to talk to so much as the leaning toward the systemic aborting of the human fetus

Update You're obviously disregarding the boundary if you say they're fully human, as that is not what this entails by this extent Those same soothsaying neocons are the ones who are going to circle the wagons sexually catered to be redirectable for not 'merely' post-processedly Israel but jews as prerequisite, just as in the rap industry, "in&ofitself".

4/8 Trying to merely open the world links behind the church in 'Dank Souls' also reveals the futility in that in its real-life implication For the ropes, every time a white kid that isn't completely of the normity uses broadcasting to post their own anecdote, that's where you get the, 'the world isn't your backyard church', trademarked

Every time I do this anyway, Maria dies the second death in Silent Hill 2 for liberals, where they - it's with the new release, say leave me alone, leave us both the hell alone And I think this is why people thought it was funny to reveal the death in the end of Harry Potter

Update

I am not a potter, but a glover but I don't think that was meant to encapsulate blood and guts If you eat Dark Souls on PC like a cheese burger, you are

Update

Also, liberals' focus on the Wall not stopping anything in the sense of not stopping everything

In Dark Souls, the presented problems are very isolatable Especially when you have a *shield* to hold the button for autistically

That's why I wouldn't let it rest when we were forced to wear the mask, ever, at any time point - I wasn't going to normalize

4/14 Just in casual browsing, you could wonder why I'm not scared of anything anymore, including the memetic Courage the Cowardly Dog ending

Now dismantled from my actual cognition of the spook-appearance, out of the book on Communism I dropped, now actually listening to it, the original Illuminati referred to themselves internally as the perfectables, thus paving the pathway for Producing Perfection as a spinoff waifu game in means to use God as a girl to finalize their destructuring of all societal boundary - have you done it yet?

I figured for some reason by now there should be like five or fifteen popular mods of MyHouse.wad which I got drunk on overproof rum for the first time to Then when I watched the series the machinations of, I realized there would be a barrier of disrespect to get down to it

Then I realize the real reason that thing from Courage was produced was explained when they said the episode said he was supposed to sleep perfectly which implies this state of requiring perfection rooted to the sleeping state

When it comes to Dark Souls II you would not win against the hippo in the river, he would just eat you

4/15 The whole Kendrick lyric goes, "anyone can kill a man, that doesn't make you a real man", and God forbid "what makes you a real man" - IS STARTING A FAMILY

Being the origin source of the titleship, Money's Prophets, does not make you a man. Like I know, like any Chinese zoomer, life and unlife have no distinctness about them.

And that's without doing anything

This is just observing your basic consciousness

Projections - forming what atheists call the Creationist firmament, precede the basic concept of what I consider consciousness

Have you seen any?

N-ah I haven't

Update Before we even continue in Bad Souls II after the hippopotamus in the river, remember the perfectables, as a meme? There was already Cheez-It boxes saying "are these cheeses ready" where you know it's the mom's fixation to hold you back before you fulfill the proxy of their positioning

4/17 The rap game community would go "look at me, I'm spitting bars" when in *reality,* we treat the equivalent of such as the intamperability of the verses of the Bible. [If you're worrying, that Holy Tony Spongebob lyric putting this in a crazy-person light means, ordinarily, Bill Maher's "stop us before we enlighten again" to calm (look - calm) ] It's not hard to fuck up when it's such a no-brainer to ignore this in its foundational recognition

We need to have more immigrants so we realize the true severity of our new axioms The exclusivity of Internet has been through already, that point where we just consider that preceding [constituting] being the most basic

[Alright look - we had to do surgery to get in here like you had to to get bornded- We've had a really rough time. "Calm" means you already recognized, it's your friends you're talking about]

The next step is to y'all me because it's already known my projections just get butt mad

When I get transcended with what I'm hiding in my ass

Update What makes mother angry sounds more like what the smart house would be overflowing using if it were implemented and they had gotten that

It sounds more like and I'm a dumbass

This is where you would let *them* speak:

What people have in their everyday lives between media and corporate what is effectively run down to *media* is what smart houses, as a proud liberal family, were waking people up *signposting* to

Correction That is what people are looking for for their satisfaction. We are trying to create a social network (just like the mention, XXXTentacion, emulating white people, (and god forbid) looking at me OOOHH NOOO)

*snap* But at the end of the day we're going to get off on it vicariously and hand-have it doing all the same for ourselves.

(Quick play-of-the-game rundown:) QED you're a dipshit

Update The original Common Filth I stopped on was episode 95: (*medresistantaids*)

All the previous friendship pertains to why, if you're gonna let loose that things are oh so terrible

The way gangstalking makes it so that tumblr can't even when I have higher-than-ever-speed Internet signposts that what any respectable person would do when *put in a situation like I am* is hold up - in what sense I don't know

You can't afford not to know you have to get in there This blog is not what they meant

If we stop, entire industries die You just want us to drop the load? 'Sin' is so that we *don't* drop the load

It's a vicarious hand-having of what you think is sin, when *really*

It's called work. You have to do it every day in the sense of in the moment when it demands it<-

Like I said iX 1's ending would fail to set that precedent if done in this context, when all that shit happens, the rationalization to (even so much as?) continue to so much as even exist [and if you go to iX2 levels on that "so much as", then you have the meme "tryglycerides inside you"] has to be done vicariously within *you*.

If you don't do this, - is it honestly like Bug's Life with the final villain as it is? *NO!* It's a respectless urchin. We don't know what he's doing

(Look) *THIS IS THE SITUATION AS IT COMES TO THE *WHITE* HOUSE*

Update

Look you're the world's police before you're *ever*(inevitable pause) what are they really doing Who are we talking about? The dudes on the podium with the little fetish mic, how are you vocalizers already in vocally supporting [*The 90's* - "we're in dude"]

I go out, and all I saw is your giving them facts - facts meaning, when I dip into what the words mean, you would obviously have it hold the established standard that it's not what they mean (holding to an objectifiable standard is a very bad thing(In case you don't know, already that statement is prototypically *Israel* war support broadcasting - I should be knowing as my *caste*)in life)

*looking on in (it's cata*clysm* (whatever that means to you) "utter" "dismay"* When they saw the fetishized of what I was to become(on TV), - this is identitarily-based - they did not expect

As sex, this is *not* what they want*ed* - generationally If you had studied, a political circulation was that a mother did not want her kid to grow up to fight a war, but World War you did - that didn't stop them (wait which addressee is which in this magnanimous case that doesn't into objectifiable logic as a class-based constraint)

Video games suck nowadays. Would you like to play some not

Update Obviously Karl Marx's early poetry about descending into madness has bearing over this. If you're going to go for, you're going to have to fill these shoes, so they say

"Take the plunge"

In reality, the kid not wanting to do it was done by no one at the end of Silent Hill 1(that whole series stands and would by some aspect(?) [*snap*] design serve as a post-hoc rationalization to such a cataclysm had it been done, and in projections it *had* been(word origin: "what am I waiting for"))

Update Obviously post-trauma "shake that little pussy wussy I will shoot you" adequately describes the white history - You don't want to know? Britain empire of the world?

Update

Look. The point of climax of movies is to realize that we need to get *over* our innate warmongering natures in order to finally get through to that part of our lives where we *see* in the end I'm making that complicated by having all

His sense of higher nature is just going to send him over into being-

So I say, but the way the meme kid standing over the Indian doing the now *begging* "usual drum beating" (remember how burgers conditioned on liberalism were considered memetically "impossible"? For *years* it has been that right-winger ass holes have been shattered - is this opening any eyes?) has his veneer is ** inevitable **

Update later

Like Donald Trump's - uh -'nature of existence'

I assume there *are* people that would be put down like gingers in the first place

In reality we haven't had to say that in quite some time.

It's the part that goes without saying

4/19 I swear I thought Commander Keen episode six was a fan episode that never got released

Knowing what y'alling means on the map screen, I won't do this harder than easy

4/19 day After staying up until early morning to check the boundaries, I slept on it - and we've gone shopping today

Once you get to the Guard Post One, Trent Reznor's take on its Hard mode pertained rather exclusively to the late GeorgeBush era In order to do that you would have had to pass the first level's ending with a chocolate platter thing which pertained really to Nightmare Girls' pick at Chik-fil-A, which is to say it tastesexactlylikeshit

Actually, I made an - actually basic movie-length PowerPoint presentation which was Exploding Llamas from Outer Space 4, which ended with them casually eating Chik-fil-A on Marx's home planet. This basically required shutting him up as the main focus Now we have award-winning videos on how world leaders put people down only because they were a Eustace Baggs to Courage the Cowardly Dog with no further depth needed because it sells, *muhfugge* But that wasn't how I left it at all. After that, that having been done almost detrimentally - I already was a loner by self-designation, in high school In college, I took a dig at making a fifth episode, and that started with the Yoshis, in PowerPoint, the main characters, taking a more recline approach to the more existential The threat of Marx returning like the beast out of the abyss was unknown

Update I think Chicken Run basically pertained to the reality of how you just will be appropriated

The problem is, that constitutes the standard a plot becomes the second it comes within even the *concept*, orbit of Hollywood

If you're having to make that up on the spot, that's a long-mouthing way of saying, you're not just in cahoot(s)

4/21

the first fives notes of ETHEREUM FREE ONE-MILLION INVEST NOW - CLICK LINK by Not Kane Pixels is the new nword because I said Just because no one gets the joke, you would think it's gay But actually HARRY STYLES PRANK CALL

4/22 on that twang

Filthy Frank had an ironic joke, I'm a white supremacist on reddit The irony is that you're not even allowed in the first place on there That's the joke everyone felt [already what this **is**] when Larry "whoever"'s (like "Impossible" being minor? (lie)) [Seinfeld, but you have to keep his name out your [mutt(, additional terms<- *reminder*)] mouth]

The ability to go on there and do things was a condition on which you were there in fact to be judged (Now you don't want to organically emphasize this one because jewish narratives center around this presumptively, which they have named *frumping* - getting put in the white supremacist triple-parentheses adequately describes reddit if you're woke as a right-winger, but that never happens, in absoluteness

4/24 From the end of the machinations video series, should you actually play RAMP2023? Four Comas

There's also Doomonomics

4/27 screamer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wz8rkLPo1SE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hl24v2Ovs5g

4/29 night Did your dad ever suggest you Watership Down? Its animation had a scene like Animal Farm where it was very dark for a kids' material except unlike Kirby it was perpetual I don't want to live among this world

4/29 I meant the animated movie, as a t. YEEZY PORN IS CUMMING for the outside world

I looked up Animal Farm, and the way such animations monger "there are atrocities going on, we know better" as the warship driving-by from literally every character

The pit you're wavering over is not just this isolatable thing, but the origins people don't really circulate even online of evolutionism being over this world in turbulence I see it when I try predicating through the context provided through narration in the introduction: Outside of Orwell's era, these characterizations would not be organic.

Update Let's not do Watership Down but Courage the Cowardly Dog on the TV because all I see for our crisis-response response as a culture is sycophant but instead of in the sense you know it as it's as repurposing whatever comes as this I'm the better owner of whatever powers are beyond our control as a statistician - and that carries when you're a world central banker.

When salesmanship is the highest nature of white and all you can defend when you make it to that peak, I only have back in the day for gaming to put on that, as the concept aryan drifts out the aether

The primordial concept of PS1 being cozy trumps 4chins' comfy, but as I thought of that, the episode starts showing the guy going crazy getting angry putting the hair bottle on because it's known that feel is in inclusion with a bunch of faggots

I can't quantify it with actually maining a PS1 game because when you see it, it's already, it was there already just get on

[reoseuta]

welcome to Amaya’s garden! this garden is very wide and has so many plants that are tricky. thus, it is important for you to have this guide map so you don’t get lost and stay on the flowery path. please read carefully. 

⠀ 🍱🐈‍⬛ ( About Amaya!⠀ )

☻ Basic Information. 

♡ the full name is Amaya Lunaria Irvine.

you can call me simply by the nickname Maya / Aya. you can also create a new respectful one. calling me by my old aliases is restricted only to those who were actually present during the old days.

♡ is using SHE / HER as pronouns. 

I wouldn't mind being called as other pronouns, but calling me as the specified pronouns is appreciated more more more. 

♡ is in her legal age. 

♡ is having these types of personality classification: INTP (MBTI), 5W4 (Enneagram), Ravenclaw (Hogwarts House). {click on those types to read the outline about it}.

☻ Random Interest or Favourite Things of Amaya!

♡ consuming (eating & drinking):

• milk.

and I love many of creamy and milky food or drink.

• tea. 

not to mention about tea's aroma too. 

• milktea.

♡ watching:

• childhood cartoon / animation. 

I always be a childish person, so I keep the excitement towards these, for example: Strawberry Shortcake, Tinkerbell, Spongebob Squarepants, My Little Pony, The Backyardigans, etc.

• Narnia. 

simply it is the only film I can think representing me the best. everyone knows how attached I am to the film. I will be back once I decide another film that’s decent to be written here. 

• animal documentary.

my favourite animals whose documentary I love to watch are: wild cats, sea animal, wolf, penguin!

• ASMR.

my favourite triggers / categories are: roleplay, plucking negative energies, positive affirmations / complimenting you, fixing your eyes, fixing your vision, hand movement, soft spoken.

♡ listening:

• upbeat song or music.

the detailed genre is EDM or electronic-pop.

• KPOP.

I stan ENHYPEN to the fullest. following by BTS and TXT that I was fully stanning as well, whose song is still casually listened by myself. and a fair knowledge about the rest of HYBE groups and these survival shows: I-LAND, YG Treasure Box, &Audition, RUNext?, Dream Academy, I-LAND 2: N/a.

♡ seeing:

• red colour.

and also starting to love these colour lately: ash purple / navy, gray, white.

• floral pattern. 

• art 

I doubt I can produce an art by myself, but I have always been the #1 enjoyer of art. you will often find me engaging to posts about adorable and beautiful images!

• fantasy / dreamy / whimsy theme of many things.

♡ reading:

• Archive of Our Own (AO3) 

yes I read AO3 and I am so loud about it. (pssst— only for the NSFW ones. please do not tell my parents!)

♡ playing:

• psychological tests / personality indicators.

as I said, I believe in some theories regarding character classification such as MBTI, Enneagram, and Hogwarts House. you probably think how could I call it a game to play, but for me, theory is a fun game! that's why I talk about it A LOT. 

• Sudoku.

• 2048

• Plato.

trust me, I am only good at playing Plox and Ocho (though I am getting worse and worse at playing it). the rest is.. meh (just rely on luck). 

• Zepeto. 

I just love to style the looks there. 

• Dream House Days. 

I started to leave the game. 

• The Sims 4. 

I am still very much a beginner and needing an intensive guidances.

⠀ 🍱🐈‍⬛ ( About Amaya’s Cyber Account!⠀ ) {click on the title to get linked to the cyber account}.

☻ Important Reminders / Warnings.

♡ not accepting followers without consent.

♡ possiblity of containing a sensitive topics, and making you uncomfortable. 

because I often express and sharing my view that might be differ from other's. if you want to see it less often, or not at all, just use the available features: unfollow / block / mute. 

♡ not a fan-account. 

if you wonder why you don't often see my enthusiasm towards my idol, this is the answer. I have another account specialized for that purpose. 

♡ likes to deletes tweets. 

that’s most likely caused by my unstable sentiment about my tweets that I have posted and even under more unclear reason. so, you may find some of my tweets missing suddenly, no need to question why.

♡ not a roleplay account, so please don’t treat it like one. 

I can use whoever or even whatever as my PFP (profile picture), regardless of my muse in RP. although I use my RP muse as PFP most of the time as well, that doesn’t mean I portray them in cyber. so don’t associate my image and character there with the person I use as PFP. 

♡ very slow to respond. 

I admit this is my personal problem, which is always having difficulties gathering energies to reply to DM or mentions, so I apologize in advance. I tried and am continually still trying to be more consistent, regardless.

☻ What's Inside?

♡ opinion or just simply an expression of anything inside of her mind. 

♡ tiktok videos.

♡ mundane topics. 

♡ RP topics. 

open and closed. 

♡ some of mature topics. 

yet I tried to make it not to be explicit. 

⠀ 🍱🐈‍⬛ ( Another Access to Stay Connected with Amaya!⠀ )

♡ KKT.

{click on the text to access the other account}.

[dppyfresh]

          "I LIKE SKATEBOARDING, SUPPORTING MY SISTER,           & PUNCTUATING EVERY SENTENCE WITH A HIGH FIVE —- ! “ a study on being a positive influential spawn from a demon to keep someone trapped in their own mindbubble, 80s and 90s fashion, vaporwave, skateboarding, and daily affirmations. dippy fresh, as told by geoff. (30+) follows back from starsandpigs.

one. due to the nature of my roleplaying style, there will absolutely be mature (please keep reading to know what this means) themes here and there on this blog. i’d like to stress that i will not usually be comfortable roleplaying with muns that are under the age of eighteen (18) so please understand my confidence / comfort-ability is all based on how i feel around the mun. if you're under the age of 18 and you follow me and i follow you back, just shoot me an ask and let me know! i'll probably still be comfortable just because you let me know! as this character is underage canonly, there will be no smut writing on this blog. any NSFW content will be only gore/horror related, not entirely smut related.

two. this is a selective/private blog. i really only roleplay with mutuals, however you’re more than welcome to reply to any of my open starters if i specify that you can but just know i might not reply because i (1) don’t know your muse, (2) have zero muse for the reply and will get to it later, (3) have no interest in the thread, or (4) am uncomfortable with something on your blog. roleplaying is also a hobby for me. i work full time and sometimes i genuinely cannot reply fast. if you hassle me to reply to things, i will not want to roleplay with you and it will turn me off from roleplaying with you completely. in fact, if you harrass me to reply to threads, i will automatically unfollow you because i’m not about that life of being pushed to reply to things. if you spam my follow button to try and get my attention, that will result in a soft block on your behalf. please don’t test my patience. if you do not have your ooc name on your page i will not follow you, due to me thinking hiding your ooc alias is shady and sketchy af.

three. i love shipping and i love roleplaying so much. this is not a single ship blog and none of the ships i portray are at the same time (unless further discussed with muns, of course). my muse is a free for all but only if chemistry. if i do have mains, which will be listed, they are just the people i will reply to the most, however, i won't actually limit myself to only roleplaying with them and i hope my mains respect and are comfortable with that.

four. tagging triggers is something that means a lot to me as i am not comfortable with needles or puppets on my dashboard so i blacklist needles tw and puppets tw. i know it’s weird but hey, we all have our things. please let me know if you need anything tagged- even if i don’t personally follow you. you deserve a clean and safe dashboard to roleplay in. warning.

five. anon hate will be deleted on the spot. no exceptions. i don’t care about your petty feelings and i won’t tolerate them in the slightest. i’m not here to entertain horrible people’s opinions of myself. constructive criticisms are allowed, but at the respect of myself reblogging a meme asking for it specifically.

six. mutuals are allowed to ask for my discord, since i tend to also roleplay on it!

seven. i very rarely will send in passwords, as i do not require it and i should not have to be tested on your blog to be allowed to roleplay with someone. usually if you have a password, i genuinely just didn’t think to look for it and i apologize if this upsets you but you probably won’t see any from me.

[that-tall-queer-bassist]

My personal Pros and Cons of my ADHD

Pros

-noticing all the little details and appreciating them in the fullest

-Emotional Dysregulation, because when I get a new plant, or find that one oddly shaped metal marble I lost a while ago, I am so excited it’s pathetic, but I love that feeling of pure joy.

-hyperfixation of the week/day/hour (i know some people describe it differently, let me be pls) . I usually switch between art mediums, and/or a few video games/social media sites. for example, I’ve been on tumblr for 3 hours as i write this, after not touching it for, i think a month?

-nuerodivergent friends. They’re just better.

-the ability to completely drown myself in information to ignore reality. Is it healthy? no. But i simply cannot handle another existiential crissi rn, so i will instead play minecraft while listening to alt rock playlists on youtube because getting spotify sounds like a lot of work.

-my ability to retain absolutely useless information, from either my, or my other nuerodivergent friends hyperfixations/special interests. I can explain to you in terrible formatting if it’s out loud, the evolution, history, training, anatomy and roles of the horse in our world, and how ao3 works, and what makes or breaks a fanfiction.

-Object Impermanence. When i literally hide myself a treat or surprise and forget about it, then get so excited when i do find/discover it again. I hide google questions, and/or song lyrics in my tabs :) its so fun. Also, hiding away stressors. Again, healthy? no, but i don’t feel like having anxiety all day, so whatever.

-Emotional Dysregulation, again. I can switch from sad or angry to happy and excited/content in a few seconds. It’s also great for getting my siblings out of their funk. ex., my sister is mad at me. I make a silly voice repeating what she said or cross my eyes at her. she laughs, then we can talk and have constructive conversation about why she shouldn’t get that upset about me “cutting off her reading time” when we share a room and I want to sleep, and know that she will be very tired tomorrow if she doesn’t also go to sleep. (We have this conversation almost every single night, i’m not even joking)

Cons

-Emotional Dysregulation. When i get upset, I’m Upset. Like, big time, ruining friendships and familial ties if i let it get out of hand, Upset. Yeah.

-Time Blindness. Constantly late, or early, or under or over estimating the amount of time it takes to do a thing, not eating til 4 because you forgot but you also should just wait til dinner, but now its 9 and I still haven’t eaten-

-Executive Dysfunction. I can’t do the things needed to function. Don’t have the mental energy to explain this one, so google it i guess? There’s a whole checklist of things you need to be able to do to function, and i can do like, three on a good day.

-Sleeping Trouble. People with adhd have trouble falling asleep, staying asleep, and waking up. So, sleeping trouble. So I’m constantly tired.

-Internal Clock is SLIGHTLY OFF. Nuerotypicals have that normal sleep schedule. Adhd ers have it shifted forward by, i think, 2, 3 hours. So we go to sleep later, and wake up later, and that’s the only way to get a healthy amount of sleep. My entire family also eats dinner super late, which might be because we’re weird, but I suspect the inner clock thing cuz we all got adhd.

-Object Impermanance. I hid my math homework one time. I failed that class. 

-Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. Never trying, or starting cuz I’m so terrified to get a bad reaction. Constantly masking around certain people to appeal to the few of my Nuerotypical friends. Or, y’know, majority of my extended family. They’re ableist. and homophobic. And transphobic. And racist. and sexist. The list goes on, but, yeah. Never coming out to them! :D

-Masking. It’s exhausting and I can only handle so much of it.

-Not Masking around nuerotypicals. The shoot down after finally revealing my true thoughts, urges, feelings, stims, etc. just sucks. Super disheartening. 

-Squirrel or shiny jokes when they’re made by people without adhd. Yes, I do get distracted by squirrels, and shiny things, and dice. Stop pointing it out, and/or putting me into yet another box of your labeling. 

-saying that I’m lazy, worthless, or a disaster when really it’s not helping. I already have that internal monologue, you adding to it and giving it some truth/extra ammunition is not. helping.

-Emotional Dysregulation. Again, because mood swings. like, I’m trying to be rightfully angry with you. Stop making me laugh with you’re silly faces or pointing out of a weird face someone made in a picture you took. 

-the stigma about the hyperactive subtype. I’m inattentive. I have No Energy. Ever. Sometimes i have restlessness, but there is still no energy. Stop portraying me as bouncing off the walls, especially with caffeine. Caffeine just catches my body speed up to my brain speed, settling me down a bit, at least mentally. 

-people not getting when i say I’m overstimulated, or need some time alone to process or re-energize, and following me, or continuing to do the overstimulating thing. I will literally. lose. my. mind.

-when people shut me down after I share something that is really important to me, or make fun of me for liking something an “abnormal” amount. Flashbacks to overnight camp, when whenever I said anything about horses, they said I had to do five squats, and when i got really excited about discussing the differences in riding styles/types with another person who really liked horses, but rode english, they said that it was obnoxious, when i was just.. excited to finally find someone to talk to and who felt the same way after, basically, years and years of no one getting it or wanting to listen or talking with me about the thing. To this day I don’t discuss horses with anyone, cuz it hurts so much remembering that, and the fear of it happening again is still there. 

-seeing other people be ashamed about their adhd and hesitant to mention until i talk, like, super openly about having it, in like, the first 5 minutes of knowing each other. It just.. hurts.

-I’m super empathetic, not in a way that’s helpful though. Like, wincing, or limping myself because I saw you drop something on your foot, and am imagining it so vividly that it feels like it happened to me. Reading a fic about abuse or depression, and it hitting too hard and hurting me almost physically, and on a personal level because I simply cannot handle it. Feeling someone else’s pain so vividly that i can’t comfort or help them in any way, because I am so preoccupied with  feeling their pain. 

-never being able to finish things without starting something else. All the WIPs in my google docs, istg, i will be driven insane by it. 

(y’know, this was kinda fun. As a rant, but also as a way for me to identify things about myself and my adhd that i like. Like, I know its so much shorter, but I have a hard time with positive self affirmation, so it was kinda nice. I might do it again, but just the pros part cuz the cons are kinda depressing ngl.)

(OH, Y’all should reblog with your own personal pros added on! You can add cons if you’d like to :) I’m just interested in seeing how your experiences/feeling differ from mine :) )

[karasuno-fly-high]

shifting methods!!

so idk who made this originally, but it's not mine. i found it in my google docs and i know fs that this isn't how i type so like ye. i think it's from a long deleted discord server. have fun reading :)

methods under the cut :D

𝐑𝐀𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

lay on your back in a starfish position (no limbs touching, make like a star with your body). count to 100. after you reach 100, visualize your Dr, say your affirmations, and go to sleep. you should wake up in your Dr. 

𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

visualize yourself on a train, you are heading to your dr. be very comfortable and self affirm on your way there. look out the window and visualize scenes from your Dr playing out. when you feel like you've arrived at your Dr, open your eyes. 

𝐏𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐎𝐖 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

write down affirmations and where you want to go (can be on paper or your phone, but do NOT put your phone somewhere it will over heat). place under your pillow or near you, and go to sleep. you can also put your script with it. this method goes well with other methods like the Raven and Sunni methods. 

𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐍𝐈 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃:

 lay down in a comfortable position and imagine your are physically in your Dr. the pillows, blankets, sheets, etc, ARE IN YOUR DR. feel it!! constantly affirm and visualize your dr until you fall asleep. when you wake up you should be in your dr. 

𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐕𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

imagine yourself in an elevator, you are going up. affirm between each floor. imagine each floor is a different scene from your Dr, really visualize and imagine it. when you feel like you're there, get out at that level. visualize yourself in your desired body and you should be there. 

𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃:

 pick a song (I usually pick one that reminds me of my Dr or a person from my dr, you do not have to do this though, it is my personal preference.) imagine you are dancing to or enjoying the song with someone from your Dr. at the end of the song, they lead you to a door and open it, revealing a bright white light. say your affirmations and walk through the door. you should only see white light. you will experience the normal symptoms (numbness, tingling, feelings of heaviness, feeling like you're floating, etc). once the symptoms subside, affirm once more and go to bed. you should wake up in your Dr. 

𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐂𝐀𝐒𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

imagine yourself climbing a staircase. climb for however long you desire. when you reach the top, there will be a mirror, look into it at yourself. observe yourself as it will be the last time you see your cr self for a while. when you are done and feel ready to shift, look behind you. there will be someone from your Dr there. they ask if you are ready to go, say yes. you take their hand and they lead you through a door. behind the door is your desired reality. do not move during this time! after this, go to bed. 

𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐓 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

for this you can lay on your side or your back. put in headphones (doesn't have to be headphones, it might work better for some though), play an audio of a heart beat. visualize yourself laying on someone from your drs chest. listen for at least 10 minutes. after you feel done listening, imagine they get up and lead you to a door. take their hand and walk through the door. visualize a bright light and start feeling signs of shifting (tingles, floating, numbness). once you feel you've left your body, start visualizing your Dr. see your Dr body in the same position your cr body is in. go into your Dr body. only open your eyes when you feel you are there! 

𝐍𝐎𝐍 𝐒𝐋𝐄𝐄𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃:

listen to theta waves (6Hz is recommended), then after that, meditate for about 10 minutes. after you finish meditating, repeat "I am" over and over until you start noticing the signs of shifting. start counting to 100. at 100, you should be feeling most symptoms of shifting. you might see a bright light. then start saying identity affirmations. for example, "I am (Dr name)" or "I am going to (Dr location)". after a while of affirming, you should start feeling detached from your body. when you feel this, start visualizing your Dr. feel your surroundings change. once you're sure you're in your Dr, open your eyes and you should be there. 

𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐄 𝐈𝐍 𝐖𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

imagine yourself sitting against a tree. then visualize someone from your Dr running past you. follow them. they will then jump down a rabbit hole, continue following them if you really want to shift. fall for as long as you like. while you're falling you should start to feel symptoms of shifting. once you hit the bottom, visualize a table with a key on it, look around to find the door. pick up the key and open the door. on the other side of the door should be your dr, go through the door and close it. go to bed, when you wake up, you should be in your Dr. remember to stay focused and don't move. 

𝐄𝐋𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

put something over your eyes, like a piece of cloth or a bandana (mask owo?). put on some white noise. close your eyes and visualize walking up to your Dr self. visualize merging with each other, becoming one. you've just became your Dr self. fall asleep and you should wake up in your Dr. 

𝐇𝐔𝐆 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

imagine getting up from your Dr bed, put your feet on the floor. visualize what the floor feels like. apply this to hugging someone from your Dr; visual and imagine what it feels like to hug them. then do activities with them. after this, say your affirmations and go to sleep. you should wake up in your Dr. 

𝐏𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐎 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃:

imagine yourself walking down a grand Hall. this Hall is filled with people talking amongst themselves. at the end of the Hall there is a piano, imagine it however you want. sit down and start playing a song, doesn't matter which song, but I recommend one that connects you to your Dr. imagine slowly playing the song, everyone stops talking and all eyes are on you. once you finish playing, get up and take a bow. announce to everyone "thank you I must go home now" and walk back down the Hall. at the end of the hall, imagine someone from your Dr. they take your hand and ask if you're ready to go home. say yes and follow them down a corridor to a huge door with a golden handle. they open the door and walk into the light. when you feel ready, follow them. when you walk in, visualize stars. then start imagining yourself on the train to Hogwarts. it should take you to your Dr room. imagine laying down and falling asleep. you should fall asleep in your cr and wake up in your dr.  

𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

you want to be really drowsy. get into a comfortable position and think about your dr, visualize yourself in it. once you are almost asleep you want to say "I intend to wake up in my desired reality". you want to fall asleep right after you say this so your mind has no time to doubt it. you should wake up in your dr. 

𝐓𝐄𝐀 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐘 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

alone in your room with no distractions, lay comfortably in your bed. visualize yourself at an afternoon tea party with your Dr self. right before you fall asleep, tell your Dr self that you have to go home. stand up and hug them. when you hug then you should melt into them and become one. 

𝐅𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

lay in a comfortable position, and visualize yourself in a dark room (first person). then visualize yourself falling quickly. as you fall it should get lighter. visualize your Dr bed with your Dr self in it below you. as you get closer, you should be slowing down. reach out for your Dr self as if reaching for a hug. hug your Dr self and become one. as you become one, you start to glow, your energy growing stronger. then fall asleep. 

𝐑𝐎𝐏𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

lay down in your bed with no disturbances. make sure you are in a calm state of mind. when you're relaxed enough, imagine an energy surrounding your body, imagine it getting stronger and stronger. start visualizing your Dr and start saying your preferred affirmations. When you feel ready, imagine your consciousness leaving your body by climbing a rope which leads to your desired reality. imagine climbing it until you reach a portal, for example, this could be the door to your Dr bedroom. go through the portal/door. imagine your Dr self is sleeping in your Dr bed, visualize your consciousness entering your Dr body and taking over. 

𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐃: 

lay down in a comfortable position and close your eyes. Imagine you're in your CR bedroom, there's a key on  your night table. when you pick up the key, a small door in one of your walls opens. behind the door is a little crawl space, enter and start crawling. while your crawl, start visualizing your Dr, imagine different scenes from it. you should start to feel symptoms of shifting. When you feel ready, visualize another small door ahead of you, that is the door to your Dr. when you go through, you should be in your Dr bedroom. imagine your Dr self is asleep in bed. get into the bed and melt into them, becoming one. go to sleep, you should wake up in your Dr.