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i was just thinking about a character i'm writing and like. oh yeah it's easy for me to get into their mind because there's a lot i can actually relate to and project--and then i realised. actually, no. there is very little in that character that's in any way like me. some similarities but. not that many and certainly not enough to say i'm just projecting. or there weren't before i spent a couple weeks writing them at least. i'm genuinely confused on some parts which were me originally and which were the character. this is both fascinating and mildly worrying. perchance
#a biscuit's rambles#i mean ive had that for a long time#i just keep realising it#im not projecting onto my characters half as much as they project onto me#which is good for writing purposes but bad when i develop a very low threshold to sensory overload lmao#i mean i can snap out of it. but it does take some work to unblur the lines#huh maybe i dont actually need to get weirder about writing. just more persistent. lol
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started playing yakuza
#yakuza#rgg#majima goro#kiryu kazuma#my art#again like metal gear this is a series ive been meaning to get into for a long time#ive had y0 in my steam library for like 4 years-- but im actually starting w kiwami rn#IM NOT DONE W METAL GEAR THO i still havent finished 5#its just so... empty ashdgdh it takes forever i need story#and i need to play 4 still
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thoughts, repeating.
#art#sketch#digital art#ocd#wish i could clear my brain cache sometimes!#but no instead everything that ever happens to me is a cognitohazard#anything can be my brain's favourite chew toy#there's nothing more to extract from that thought but sure let's run into it like a knife a million times#and it becomes habit that reinforces itself. i will wake up thinking thank god im not having the thought right now! oh! surprise!#i don't wish my memory was worse but i wish it knew how to let go#one beautiful day when im in a place more long term i will find a therapist that can help hopefully#also im doing fine mostly!!!!!!#ive been meaning to draw this for a while just havent had the time and im slowly smoothing it over
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Drawing a randomly generated Haikyuu character (almost) every day until I give up
71. Kageyama Tobio
#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#kageyama#kageyama tobio#my art#1hqaday#HE HAS ARRIVED#tbh theres so much more i wanted to do BUT I CAN ALWAYS DRAW MORE KAGEYAMA LATER#(i wanted to make him match with hinata somehow but i had trouble)#karasuno has kageyama#ive been looking at these too long so i cant judge how they look anymore#which means its time to just post
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long hair sokka truthers lets goooo [id in alt]
#this was like perfect timing#sokka#sokka fanart#sokka atla#myart#i tried my best with what a knee brace would be like for him i think he would invent it or modify the invention to work for him#it's modeled after ed's from our flag means death but i had trouble finding a good picture of it#atla fanart#avatar the last airbender#ive become obsessed with drawing turtle ducks and am just adding them to random pictures now#long haired sokka#next drawing of him is going to have his long hair down. maybe zuko threading fingers through it.....haha maybe...unless#also sokka hair loopies truther
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Uhhh bling bling bitch
More purple version if u care because i truly cant decide which one i like more idk szare nation this was the main version earlier but i decided i prefer the less purple one
#saw this outfit on pinterest#and i was like#yeah thats purple therefore i need to play dress up with kremy#i was reading the new proxies chaptee yesterday and like yeah kremy needs to be pampered and this is the fit i give him#not rlly his style#but let him be shiny u know#i guess i needed a push to start doing colored pieces#i know this could be more detailed but this took me 4 hours and i cant devote more time to one drawing#cant focus for that long#but yeah im happy with this weirdly enough#its wednesday here so this is my gift for kremy wednesday#kremy nation#kremy lecroux#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#legends of avantris#also this is a gift for myself because today im officially two weeks sober#which is the lomgest streak ive had in years probably#i mean it started to be a problem last summer#but before i would drink like once a week probably#so this is fucking huge in my book#i honestly only have loa to thank for this#im so serious when i say i wouldnt have done this without them lol#anyway#bye
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i disappear inside myself / my friends don't know it can't be helped
[Pure You - Nothing But Thieves]
#my art#mysme#mystic messenger#v mystic messenger#jihyun kim#ummmm hi guys#^-^#fanart from me?? posted directly to this blog ??? or at all??? Well.#i was looping this song and i had the idea for this and then sat down for about four hours and here it is#im on like day 2 of v's route for the first time AND this song just came out like right as i got into his route yknow#and i was listening to those lyrics like.... huh.....#this soundssss. familiar.#anyway. politely i did NOT think that if i made fanart of this game after returning to it for the first time in like 6 years. it would be V#i adore this song though. and it compels me#i havent ever seen his route before so i still don't know how it ends idk how accurate this vibe even is#i would say try to avoid spoiling me in the tags but im gonna be real say whatever you want kings#i love u mysme fandom thats still around in 2024 you get me#anyway im drafting this at about 3 in the morning and i need to be awake earlyish tomorrow SO.#we'll see when i post this#its been so long since ive posted art i just do nawt make fanart until i get divinely inspired#iffff its blurry please click to see it its supposed to be crisp ^^;#been on this site how long i still pay no mind to their suggested image resolution#OH and by day 2 of V's route i mean like day 6 overall. you understand
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i think the chapter (250) where kusuo tries to change his timeline so that he doesnt have to tell akechi about his powers and ends up accidentally entering a timeline where hes fucking happy and allowed himself to make genuine connections with his friends is by far the most depressing chapter in the entire manga
he had very limited time before he had to deal with akechi, but i just imagine him sitting curled up at his desk for minutes longer than he shouldve, just staring at nothing because where did he go wrong? how is it possible that there are timelines where he doesnt hate himself? is he jealous of that other him or does he resent him because he knows hes undeserving of the connections the other him apparently allowed himself? both?
i need to know what his relationship with his family is like in that timeline... did something change with them too? or everyone treats him the same but in that timeline he has an actual support system to deal with it? or things are different because he actually stands up for himself and can communicate his needs to his family? FUCKKK.
im not entirely sure of the canonicity of the popularity poll contest chapter (73) but it probably caused a similar mental break, but not nearly as significant because it was WAY before he started truly accepting any love from his friends and family... but yk, it just says a lot about him that ONE traumatic experience changed his entire viewpoint on life but it wasn't anything that happened to HIM, like his brother trying to kill him or his friend betraying him or any of his other near death experiences, NO, it was seeing a dog die. THATS what made him decide to better himself and be kind. so yeah, this chapter prob didnt fuck him up TOO bad but he definitely thought back to it during the akechi chapter...
#popular him even had the little sparkle in his eye that kusuo notoriously lost at probably like twelve years old#ive made almost this exact point before i think#not my problem i will repeat myself because it means so much to me#(this has been in my drafts for a really eeally long time btw so if ive talked abt this like ten times idc cuz i dont remember)#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#meows post#meownalysis
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...Nothing.
Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#nat chen#chen bowen#uservid#userspring#userspicy#userrain#pdribs#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#this is both a chen yi being attracted to ai di gifset and a chen yi longing for the true ai di gifset. and not know how to say either#bc the first time chen yi sees ai di with dyed hair again after ai di gets out of prison... chen yi does try to kiss him. okay. like.#i think when ai di looked up at him there his heart skipped a beat seeing HIS ai di - the TRUE ai di - in front of him again after so long.#& like when ai di was in jail chen yi took months to visit. he knew he would be facing a different ai di than the one he knew before:#he was facing an ai di he knew had feelings for him AND he'd realized his feelings for him in return. & its almost like#the darker hair adds to the mask ai di puts up the times hes forced to face a chen yi he's slept with. a front that pushes chen yi away#but after ai di runs from the shop the next time they meet is in the bar. where chen yi sees ai di with dyed hair again for the first time.#AND it's that scene where chen yi starts actually putting together the pieces ai di has given him without meaning to.#its Then where ai di's mask Actually starts to crack (also shown through chen yi LITERALLY REMOVING A MASK FROM AI DI'S FACE)#'you look better this way'. you look better when you're being your honest self. ...you look better when you look like the ai di#ive always known and always subconsciously loved. chen yi cant HELP but be a little mesmerized i think... he rly just went for it
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"What?! Fuck you, Stolas! You spring this 'feelings' bullshit on me-- are you fucking kidding?! Can I get a fucking minute to think after everything you put me through, you pompous, rich asshole?!"
~i don't support vivziepop or her shows + this art/redesign is from my rewrite~
(unblurred ver under the cut)
#Helluva Boss#helluva boss critical#hb critical#spindlehorse critical#helluva boss redesigns#helluva boss rewrites#hb redesigns#hb rewrites#yarnsnake#blitzo buckzo#blitzø#blitz#stolas#stolas goetia#stolitz#anti stolitz#helluva boss spoilers#the full moon#this episode......was SOOOO BADDDD LMAOOOOSDFHJKSDFJHKSDFHJK#the cherubs??? the agents??? PLEASE#it was like laughably terrible. ive seen hardcore stolitz lovers be dissapointed as fuck#i mean i was excited for this episode bc ive been praying on stolitz' downfall for a long time but oh. my god.#i didnt expect LESS THAN 5 MINS OF SCREENTIME???? HELLO?????#i will say. VERY satisfying to see blitzo tear stolas apart with his teeth for 2 minutes. like yes bitch fuck him up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#i wish he wouldve done it more. fuck you stolas indeed#if i see one more person saying 'it was both of their faults :(' or 'blitz is so mean >:(((' im going to snap. you are all so fucking stupi#anyway. i just had to get this off my chest. TEAM BLITZ SWEEP#THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU KING#cloudysarts
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compiled whatever this is (and I run out of tag space)
meh HoT gifs (3/?)
#alek gifs#ninjago#ninjago krux#ninjago acronix#hands of time#time twins#alternate title to this series is : stuff i noticed after watching this season 10 whole times#okay actually thats a lie. i realized this the 3rd time around#i think of acronix and how he barely makes any decisions for himself and i go crazy#ppl equate that with him feeling forced to do stuff.. uh hes always been a follower guys!!#cue him calling wu “master wu” even after the twins betrayal. him liking machia bc shes “mean” and bossy#he has no issue with following orders lol. prepare for a long acronix rant one day#contexts -> gif 1 barely counts i just wanted to include him looking at krux. he does this a lot during that fight#gif 2 is before they kill blunck and raggmunk (idk how to spell their names still ... sorry)#gif 3 is before they were going to kill wu in the golden hour legacy short. which is canon !!#gif 4 is before they sent themselves into the temporal vortex#that one post that was like “are we still doing revenge? yeah? cool” bc thats basically acronix#there is something fundamentally wrong with these two's brains but idk how to describe it#krux who literally lost his mind after losing his brother to the point he adopted an entire identity#“he just needed to go undercover!!” counter point as soon as acronix came back he was unable to pretend to be saunders. he acted super weird#like when kai was in the museum he couldnt pretend to be this person he wasnt. acronix was back !!! so was he. krux was 100% going to kill#the smith sibs if maya and ray didnt comply. also.. canonly they knew him when they worked as teachers back in s3. he watched them grow up#and pretended all was well meanwhile their parents were being forced to work and slave away to build the iron doom. he is not normal#then you have acronix who thrives off of violence and is described as throwing himself into battle like a blunt object. has no regard#for himself as a person and just takes (almost) everything his brother says as gospel. s7 couldve done smthn really cool with how#the only thing the twins ever really disagreed on was technology. also ive went on a semirant about how krux's hatred for tech was misplaced#hatred for losing acronix. wanted to travel to the pre modern era? okay well whyd he pick 40 years ago specifically. also NOTE that they#went back after their past selves had lost. they wouldve faired better if they went and helped their past selves. also the reversal blade#had already fallen so when the twins went back in time there was two kruxes. he literally went back to when he had been all alone for the#for the first time. he went back to when his life was ruined and his brother was gone!! but he had nix with him this time . ughdhf
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oh the dread, oh the worry! you love your sister so much and you need to know shes okay. you trust her but you cant trust the world, and more than anything else you cant trust yourself
#jrwi riptide#jrwi fanart#jrwi riptide spoilers#jrwi show#gillion tidestrider#edyn tidestrider#RAHHH IVE HAD THIS ROTTIN IN DRAFTS FOR A BIT but im finally here n ready to POST!!!!#SO THE LIL GILLION AND EDYN ARC HUH??#gillion as a character makes me so emotional. he means so well yet sucks so bad in every way he wish he didnt#HE CARES SOO MUCH ABOUT HIS SISTER. MAN HAS NEVER CRIED EXCEPT FOR THE DAY HE SAW HER AGAIN#HE WAS SOOO HAPPY TO SEE HER AND FIND OUT SHES OKAY. I ALSO REMEMBER SCREAAAAMIN WHEN SHE FIRST APPEARED#I HAD BEEN THINKIN ABOUT EDYN FOR SO LONG... ohhh older sisters where u at... u understand... only us older sisters get it#andNOW WHERE IS SHE..? WHERE IS SHE NOW.... working with the navy to 'undo' what the undersea has done to her precious baby brother#OKAY ENOUGH EMOTIONS TIME FOR ME TO TALK ABT MY ART#REAAALLY THIS IS ONE OF MY BEST DOODLE PAGES SO FAR. IM SO PROUDA THE COLORS N THE SCENES AND THE EMOTIONS#the lil scene with edyn comforting gillion after 'a day of alot of failure. that was the first we ever saw of edyn right? i love my colors#A MIRROR! edyn painted in red when shes often blue. framed by rock and coral and memory sharing bracelets and fire.#A MEMORY! a recent event! finding her at the bar and meeting her at a tavern. its cathartic to hear your older sister tell you its okay#even more cathartic to have her remind you that you are not your tragedies. you were just a kid. you didnt deserve what happened.#you really missed having her here#OH BUT THE NEXT. A NOTE LEFT BEHIND. NOTHING ELSE. i love you a million gillion#BUT THATS NOT A REASSURANCE IS IT? its a trust fall. emphasis on the fall. emphasis on the needle in your chest as wind rushes past#you anticipate the ground but you wish you could anticipate her arms. you wish you could trust. you need to trust. so why cant you?#instead you lash out. again. just like last time. just like always. you were never good at controlling your emotions#all you do in the end is break stuff. none of them can trust you. thats why she cant tell you. thats why he didnt tell you. noone trusts yo#chips got way too many damn belts btw. put some o those back boy u do NOT need all that mess jingling around ur gay hips. you FRUIT!!!!!!!!#I liked the scene with jay n chip dragging gillion around. its a comical scene ofc and i LOVE that balance here. but that sadness remains.#they care about gillion so much..... auuwuuuu.....#OKAY FINAL THOUGHTS. I RLY LIKE DRAWING DIFFERENT TEARS FOR DIFFERENT TYPES OF CRYING#when the tears well up so big from uncontainable joy that you cant even see
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HAPPY 17TH ANNIVERSARY TO THE SHOW THAT CHANGED MY LIFE!! 🎉🥳🎂
So maybe I'm a bit late to the party.. but that's not important 🤫🫶
#wordgirl#wordgirl fanart#pastrami sandwiches#art#digital art#becky botsford#captain huggyface#bob wordgirl#wordgirl pbs#pbs kids#EUGHH JESUS#fanart#IM COVERED IN BATTLE SCARS AND MY CLOTHES ARE RIPPED ALL OVER#HEY BABE IT TOOK ME SIXTEEN HOURS BUT YOUR WORDGIRL ANNIVERSARY FANART IS DONE#PASSES OUT ONTO FLOOR#sorry guys I'm a bit tired FR THOUGH i love this show so much and it's brought me so much joy in the past..?#four months?? has it really only been that long?#geez#I don't know if yall can tell#but this show means a lot to me#i really have had a genuinely awesome time being here in this fandom even if I've only been here for a little while#SDJH#SORRY IM MAKING THIS A LOT MORE SENTIMENTAL THAN IT HAS TO BE RN#but seriously this kids show is awesome you guys are awesome and I'm so happy to be here#ive been really wanting to say that for a while now#this should've only taken me like three days but because of school it took like five 😭#speaking of school I HAVE A TEST TO STUDY FOR OOOH GOD#HURRIEDLY RETREATS BACK INTO THE SHADOWS#BYE GUYS LOVE YALL!!#💖‼️
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i made tiny pixel tcwg sprites for my blog!!!!!!!!
#the cat witchs guild#the misc adventures of mochi and lime#tcwg#tmaomal#mochi#lime#coco#oscar#pixel art#art#ocs#original#for the permalinks!!!#theyre replacing the pokeballs i had there#ive been meaning to make tcwg pixel things for my links for a long time#decided to do the timeskip versions of them#no taffy or pom because i could only do four links SAD FACE
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goldenhowell -> dnpbeats
RIP goldenhowell april 19 2016-march 15 2024 🙏🏻💔
#I will miss goldenhowell but it's time dawg#I was 13 when I got that url and I have no attachment to it outside of how long ive had it yk 😭#like there's no meaning except I thought it sounded cool#im kinda scared to change it tho 🤧#url change#!!#wordvom.txt#goldenhowell
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Finally knitted Halloween socks that I've been meaning to knit since I bought this yarn last year!
The yarn is from "SavannahRoseHandmade" from the 90s Halloween Collection (sold out now UGH [understandable, but UGH]) and is visually inspired by the movie Scream (1996). I saw the colour pooling effect on their sample swatch when they shared the yarn collection images on Reddit last year, and was immediately like, 'Holy shit it's just like CRT TV static!!' And I had to get it. (And then life happened and I didn't get around to knitting them until now lol).
And unfortunately, I'm SO IN LOVE WITH IT!! THE EFFECT DID TRANSLATE TO SOCKS AND NOW IT'S LIKE, AHHH I NEED MORE. I don't know if I have enough yarn left to make an additional pair, so I'll have to figure out how to weigh it and the socks and see if the weight compares (really don't wanna end up with 3 socks and not enough for the 4th lol). But yeah. I'm so glad I got to do this. The yarn colouration was SO fun to work with, and the yarn was a nice and smooth 1-ply which was a huge relief from the fluffy yarn on the socks I'd been working on just before this. And yes, I did intentionally take this photo in front of those books because of the spiral-ish pooling.
Can I just also... like... holy fuck, man. I LOVE when yarn pools into unique patterns. It's the best phenomenon ever. And especially like for this one being black and white? That subtle grey transition from stark white to pitch black is EVERYTHING. Like I never would have thought one could create yarn that would pool EXACTLY like TV static rolling down the screen when knit. Major nostalgia vibes. I can feel the forcefield.
Also, started these babies September 27 and finished the second sock today October 3rd, which may be a new record for me knitting socks, I was so fucking excited. I even have a big ole 'writers bump' on my finger from the way I hold my knitting needles lmao (was also knitting a different pair of socks before this, too), and my arthritis is Not happy, but screw you, arthritis! I'M HAPPY.
Side note: it would be cool to pair this yarn with like a red addition somehow. Get a Saw vibe going bc of the TV static pooling effect. (I do love Scream though.) Or you could even probably take it a The Ring route with like a fly applique or something. So many horror movie staples with TV static effect, and not enough Scream yarn to test them out!!
Bonus image when the socks were a WIP:
I had my new tooth and doll eye stitch markers going. I DO have bloody murder weapon stitch markers, but none of them are a buck knife (Ghostface's weapon), so I went for general Halloween vibes instead (even tho I use stitch markers like this year-round lol).
#seriously tho im gonna have to weigh the leftovers bc i want more of these socks#just feeling by hand it MAY be enough. but if i knit 1.5 more socks and run out im gonna fucking eat them in rage lol#would hate to have to frog 1.5 socks#halloween#horror#scream 1996#90s#savannahrosehandmade#knitting#nostalgia#horror movies#vhs aesthetic#merino wool#yarn#90s horror#90s kid#fashion#Cori.exe#Image.exe#Create.exe#tbh like i can PROBABLY ask the yarn dyer for a custom order of more of this but i dont have the money to buy it in bulk#so. if i had the money to spend id at least ask but i dont wanna waste their time when id only want like 1 or 2 more#would be awesome if i could afford a whole sweaters worth of yarn in this but i dont think it would pool the same on a sweater#i mean maybe it would idk ive never actually knit a whole sweater before idk how long the colour changes need to be#i forgot to take pics of the yarn when it was a hank still lol but the dyer has pics on their site still#ill try n post my socks elsewhere later bc this is seriously so cool like im so glad they turned out#i was iffy as i was knitting the cuffs like 'oh no its gonna spiral too close together and just look heathered'#but once i started doing the heel i was like 'oh thank god its doing the pooling now' lol. side note: watched uzumaki today as i finished#...and also i saw the tv glow since that was also a fitting topic for knitting socks like this
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