#i mean it would be funny if the vid was like damn i wish i was doin baseball and not this. fuck my baka idol life but i dont think so

[faunandfloraas]

seeing people be like oh seungmins mv is gonna be so sad and im like......... i dont think so

[adickaboutspoons]

Tagged by @chocolatepot. Thank you, my v. dear!

Rules: Go to your published works on AO3 and list the first fic you ever published there, the last fic you published, any fic that you wrote for a fandom/ship only once, your favorite fic you wrote in the fandom/ship that has the most works, the fic you wish more people read, the fic you agonized over the most, the fic that sprang fully formed from your mind without any effort, and a work you are proud of—for whatever reason. <3

First fic: On AO3, that would be my drabble collection for Pet Shop of Horrors. Far from baby's first fic(s), but the first that I published where other people could see from way back in the hazy yesteryear of Livejournal. First fic ever was a Mary Sue self-insert Dracula fic. It was terrible beyond words.

Last fic: Last fic FOR NOW is When a Good Plan Comes Together. And frankly? I can't recommend it. I've been fighting myself about maybe taking it down for a week now, because it kind of makes me cringe to think that might be the first thing of mine someone reads. It's not that it's BAD, per se, but it is v. LAZY. I saw a prompt and wanted to knock out a response to it, and a quick one, because I'm currently working on three other fics that require a lot more mental energy. But that meant handwaving the titular plan and "fade to black"-ing on the sex scene, and that's not really up to my normal standards.

Only once: I tend to be fandom-monogamous, and, within my hyperfocus, OTP-centric, so the closest I've got fic-wise is Unbelievable, which is kinda Geoffrey Fettering/the allure of Stede Bonnet's escape to piracy, if you squint at it. Vid-wise, my first vid ever was for my wifey, featuring her favorite character from The Umbrella Academy, Klaus, and I've got a Stede/Hornberry set to "I've Got A Crush On You."

Favorite fic from the fandom I've written in most: Technically, I think I've written more individual drabbles for Pet Shop, but since they're all grouped together, I'll go with OFMD, in which case, it's Like I Want to be Awake. It's prolly what I would consider my best writing to date - funny but still earnest, the first sex scene I've actually found hot while writing it, and, I flatter myself, a solid Ed-voice with some v. creative cursing.

Fic I wish more people read: I mean, the answer is also "Like I Want to be Awake" because I love it so much, and I want other people to love it too. But other than that, my Stede Sonnets. I know, sweetie, I know. You had a bad English teacher who didn't know how to teach poetry, and prolly didn't really know how to teach Shakespeare, so now you hate all poetry, and ESPECIALLY a stuffy, restrictive format like sonnets. But I'm urging you to find it in your heart to give it another go. I think you might find that, because the subject matter is fandom-centered, you might be predisposed to give the slightest damn about what it's about, and able to relax into the format. And you might even find that sonnets don't have to be stuffy - they can be funny, or dare I say, even flirty and sexy.

Fic I agonized over: The answer is also also "Like I Want to be Awake". I'm SOOOO unendingly lucky to have a marvelous group of Discord friends that let me endlessly whinge on at them. It was supposed to be a silly one-shot companion piece to Footsteps in the Dark (just over 1K). Over the course of 3 weeks, it grew into a 16K monster. Mostly because the boys wouldn't shut the fuck up about matchbooks. I agonized whether including a Maori folk story was appropriative or a respectful allusion to the culture from which Ed's mother came. I found a story I loved that was thematically relevant to the rest of the story and wrote up my own version, and then decided to double-check for alternative versions, only to find it was labeled "Maori," but was actually written by a London-born white woman who was a teacher in Ateoroa in the late 1800s. So now that only lives on the Discord server because there was no way I could use it, but the writing was good. Then, after I'd found a different story, researched it, and THEN wrote it up, I agonized over whether just glossing over Stede telling the story of Snow White with Ed's reactions thereunto, since it would doubtlessly be more familiar to my readers, would be othering to the Maori story (that they might not be familiar with, and would therefore necessitate a full telling), or if I DID do a full retelling if that would be obnoxious. I agonized over whether it cut off too abruptly. About whether it counted as a downer ending when really it just dovetails back into canon. About whether the title too like that of a fandom juggernaut, or if maybe I should choose a different lyric from the Petshop Boys song from which I took the original story in order to link them that way? Like I said - I am SO lucky my buddies are so patient with me.

Fic that sprang fully formed: Definitely Your Achilles. I was about half-way through Beautiful and Useless when Ed's voice interrupted Loud and Clear and Insistent that his version be told. From then on, I was basically writing the two stories simultaneously.

Work(s) I'm proud of: Almost all of the above (not you, "When a Good Plan Comes Together" - you sit there and think about what you've done!), but also Advanced Maneuvers , because it was has the first sex scene I'd ever written, and, even though my brain fought me tooth and nail the entire way through, it's not half bad, Time Enough because it was my first time trying to write action, and I'm pretty pleased with how it came out, Under Par because it was my first attempt at a modern AU and I think it's pretty cute, and Dearly Beloved because it's a lot of fun.

A tag to summon (but no presh): @bizarrelittlemew @emi--rose @epersonae @nicnacsnonsense @poetic----nonsense

[songsforthepierce]

Odd Tracks: Crawling in the Dark - Hoobastank

It is kind of funny how I found this song. So I was looking up the new One Piece opening on Youtube back when there were like...I think only 7 or 8 openings at this point? Anyway, a video titled “One Piece OP 9″ or something came up and I clicked on it but what played was Crawling in the Dark by Hoobastank. The person who made the vid was like “This is not the new one piece opening but what if this was?” or something.

Now have I listened to any other song by the band? Not really, I never really cared to. Actually I have, I only listened to The Reason from ToddinTheShadows’ video about worst 2004 songs. I do not care for The Reason as a song mainly because I hate how the lead singer sounds in it both recorded and live. Which is kind of disappointing since I don’t mind how he sounds in Crawling in the Dark.

Well anyway, so this song came from their official debut 2001 album called...Hoobastank. Okay, I know for me if a band makes an album named after themselves then they need to make a song named after themselves within the same album but that doesn’t happen here sadly. That and the album title being Hoobastank is uhhh...not a choice I would have gone for. When I looked up the album I was like “Hey, where is this song placed within it?” and it is the first damn track an it was their first hit. Okay all right, they got lucky there.

So what is the song about? You know even though I listened to this song a lot I never thought deep about it. But the answer I don’t have to look for deep within darkness for. The song is about someone trying to find meaning in their life and being uncertain of their future. I mean the song is not subtle with lyrics like,

I will dedicate and sacrifice my every Thing for just a second's worth of how my story's ending And I wish I could know if the directions that I take And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing

and the chorus,

Show me what it's for, make me understand it I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer Is there something more than what I've been handed? I've been crawling in the dark looking for the answer

 Now yes there are songs about this topic that are more...how should I say...written with more complexity? Which like yeah of course but for what it is, it is passable. Though this song is perfect for edgy AMVs that’s for sure and hey if it can do that at least then it does it’s job. I can still remember to this day despite it really not standing out too much but I think that was because teen me did latch onto it for various reasons. But wasn’t attached enough to look further into the band.

I am slowly trying to get back into the swing of writing music reviews so it’ll take me awhile to get back into the mindset and relearn the format I would choose. I thought going with something light like this would be a good choice.

[emeraldbabygirl]

You know how people are like “never put your personal problems on social media” and like ok but sometimes I just do cause that’s how I get shit out even tho there are better ways and not to brag or sound like I need attention or trying to be funny but oh boy catch me crying over music by Conan Grey that I barely listened to and that shit hit too much and I don’t think I’ll ever me able to listen to his music but damn it sucks how many people can relate to that like trauma shit the world is an awful place really like and after learning about the meaning behind Medusa tattoos I stopped functioning and couldn’t sleep cause I wanted to ball my eyes out but on a lighter note there’s this adorable lil lady on the YouTube’s that makes bento boxes for her husband, she calls them husbentos and it’s so cute her videos are so wholesome but make me sad like the bento vids all over tiktok of people making cute lunches for their loved ones like hi I don’t make cute lunches for myself, I don’t have cute boxes and lil cookie cutters to make shapes and all that shit I mean I cried going through these tiktok videos and shit like these kids who are getting cute lunches made for them by their mums and fathers or daughters making lunches for their mum and dads and like, it’s not just a peanut butter and jelly sandwich in a brown sack, you can tell they are putting love into that lunch when they take the time to decorate the food and make cute shapes and the presentation and and like. Ugh cause when I was growing up, my siblings and I couldn’t afford to have lunches made for us so we ate the free lunches and like..like when I was in school I always thought the kids who had what we called cold lunch were so cool and I was jealous like I wanted a lunch box to bring to school everyday but we couldn’t afford to buy lunch food and all that shit everyday and like now I make my lunches for work but I throw random shit in there, no love just pure angst and hatred in a frozen pizza or a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and water. Like I would love someone to make cute lil bento boxes for me, like that wife who gets up early in the morning every day and prepares and makes her husband lunch and you can tell how much love she puts in those lunches and her lil daughter comes out sometimes and it’s so wholesome it makes me cry because like..like and then people shit on the people on tiktok that make these cute lunches for their kids or themselves or whatever like fuck off it’s called loving family and yourself that you take time out of the day to make something as normal as lunch cute and ugh I just wish I could be that person for myself or meet someone who can do that for me. And of course there’s other reasons why mums making lunches for their kids makes me sad but I’m done now ignore this goodbye

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Ok so I've been stalking your blog for the past couple of hrs after seeing your TadaAi posts (I'm drowning in the period drama that is this ship) and I find you ship Tododeku and rinharu (god i can't stand bakudeku and makoharu) and seems like we share a lot of our views on fandom and ships probably because we're older (I'm 22). Followed and looking forward to your input in the future!

Also you might've given me the motivation to finish watching Free! XD

Hehe yay, please, we need more ppl in our “house of oldies”, make yourself at home lol. And we share a lot of ships?! Even better <3

I knooow, I can’t believe we’ve got a gay “master who fell in love with his servant” ship in the anime, just what I needed for my idiotic collection lmao

But also these two have too much going on between them, so much wasted potential in my opinion, it’d be so interesting to explore (but sadly no xD), they were still the only interesting thing for me lolz. I love complicated morons, who became the victims of a huge unrequited requited love misunderstanding, bc they’re insecure morons lmao and they just have 2 of my fav ships vibes, so it’s probably mostly this haha. 

Oh, I’m inputting *wink wink*, can’t wait to finish the vid, I’m having too much fun with it. I’ve just literally spent several minutes trying to get whether I’ve put Tadashi’s sexy mole in the right distance from his eye in the “him moaning on the table” manip lolz. What can I say... I picked the best hobby, with all the support I’m getting with my vids, I’m living a dream xD

You know, I think I’ve said it before, but when it comes to bakudeku, I at least understand what ppl hope to see there and why, but like.. it’s just not happenning. Also imagining Bakugou lovingly hugging Midoriya is just so OOC I start laughing all the time. And whatever ppl say, in any ship whether they’re enemies or rivals or anything, if you can’t imagine them being tender with each other, smth is not right in my opinion. Also once again, who needs idiotic bleating Midoriya, idk. I’m just tired of the endless “die, deku/out of my way” yelling, I like watching Bakugou going to parties and amusement parks and doing silly stuff, too. Like I’ve said before, pride won’t ever let him change the way he behaves with Midoriya, even when they’re doing “great”. If he was the one, it wouldn’t have mattered, no matter how tough you are, and it wouldn’t take that long. I also don’t think they’re that kind of relationship, like they move each other for sure, sometimes, yeah (not always in a good way tho), but be together in a relationships? Can’t imagine that. Like not all rivals have the rivals to lovers dynamic, no matter what ppl say. But I get the shipping, bc 1stly these two are playing too huge of a role in each other’s lives, 2ndly Midoriya is obsessed with him and Bakugou obsessed with him too (just in a bad way lmao) and 3rd ppl want that “enemies to lovers” dynamic, since many love it (me included, when it done right and progresses right), so they’re trying to write that “to lovers” bridge, that just doesn’t fit here in my opinion, simply bc Bakugou won’t be soft with Midoriya, like ever in a way, you’d want, and I don’t think it’s possible for them to go there.

Tododeku on the other hand, 1stly they also play too huge of a role in each other’s lives, 2ndly Midoriya is obsessed with him too and Todoroki is lovingly obsessed with him in return, 3rdly they are also rivals to lovers, and I have no problem imagining the second part, it won’t be OOC, 4thly Midoriya when he’s with Todoroki is my fav Midoriya, he’s happy, he is cocooned and he’s badass af (and like when he told Endeavor to fuck off or yelled at Todoroki “the fuck are u doing?” xD are still the best), 5thly Midoriya forgets about Bakugou, when he’s with Todoroki a lot and it’s just funny to me, 6thly they healed each other so nicely, I can’t not be into that, 7thly when they’re together I have like 0 worries, idk I’m like “he will catch him” anyways haha, Bakudeku just don’t give me this vibe. It’s like yeah, they won’t let each other die, but it’s always this chaos of “out of my way”, “I don’t want your help” and “let me punch you before I punch the villain” that I’m just “oh for god’s sake, pls bring in Kirishima and Todoroki so we could just go home, it could’ve been solved in 2 minutes” lmao. Etc, etc.

Tododeku just have too many winning points over bakudeku for me, same with kiribaku over bakudeku, even tho I 100% get bakudeku as a ship ofc. Also idk whether things would be different if Todoroki wouldn’t exist in the equation, but the moment I saw that s2 scene where Bakugou started yelling and Todoroki just ignored him and was like “was Midoriya always this good?”, there was no going back to me XD. Like they both obviously see that Midoriya is wonderful, but only one reacted to that in a way that I wanted. And I’m a sucker for the ships who don’t give a fuck and like “yeah, I find him amazing and everyone should know that”. Todoroki is also one of those guys, who if you give them the much needed love, they’ll return it tenfold with a forever devotion. And all of my fav ships are like that: Yullen, Rinharu, Mikayuu, Wangxian, Akakuro, etc. They’re like “well, I ain’t an idiot to let someone this precious go”, you know lol

On the other hand, when it comes to Kirishima, Bakugou can do all kind of ridiculous thing I wouldn’t imagine he would do to keep him or make him happy, you know. Kirishima is also the only one, who can put his arm around Bakugou without it being cut off, so I don’t make the rules here lol.

So it’s not like I can’t stand bakudeku, more of like can’t imagine this work, to me it’s easier to imagine todobaku in a relationships, but not bakudeku lolz.

But when it comes to makoharu, I just have a huge problem with it and I will never get it. Bc they don’t bring anything good in each other like AT ALL, I don’t even understand what kind of relationships this is from their shipper point of view; they give each other nothing, and one of them is totally in love with someone else and wants a future with him. And that someone also head over heals with him and also wants a future with him. And I hate how 99,9 % of mh fans don’t give a fuck about Haru or Rin whatsoever and just ignore their character’s everything. Bc Makoto. I’m also like if you love him so much, the fuck would you want him to be with Haru anyways, dude doesn’t reciprocate, like at all. I’m at confusion, like name good points of this ship and what good can they do for each other characteristically. There is none, it’s like a damn swamp. Like usually I can give my notp some points, but this is like... they’re both no good for each other... like... why would anyone even want this idk. Don’t tell me “for the childhood friends” one-sided dynamic, like why won’t you also ship Shion with Safu then, like even he seemed more invested in that, than Haru in makoharu lol.

Even if you think of them from the point of view of “the two who are always walking together” ships, that are everywhere nowdays (even tho since Haru moved to Tokyo, he was always with Asahi instead), but even if... those kind of ships are usually at least make each happy and are enough for each other. Haru on the other hand, when he doesn’t have Rin, he is walking with Makoto like a ghost, not even caring if he’s talking next to him AND he’s getting ennoyed by him. Like explain, how someone’s shipping them romantically. It’s been showed like 20 times, that with Rin, but without Makoto, he can be perfectly happy, without Rin tho, he never is.

Also someone explain, what exactly is the point of splitting up two characters, who are happy together, make each other the best versions of themselves and want to be together whole-heartedly? Like I know many start shipping smth, bc the relationships are better in the other pairing, for example, but this is like... definitely not the case here. Like what exactly is missing in rinharu, that makoharu has? Lack of progression and mutual inspiration?

So yes, if you’re into rinharu, totally finish Free! They’re like doing sooo incredible and holy shit they’re inspiring, I mean, look, they’re now the tokyo olympics ambassadors, like how many of yall gay ships reached that? you can’t miss out on them, and also they’re so hilariously romantic, they literally made a wish to swim with each other since they were 13 and did everything to get each other there, I’m.. you’re lying, if you didn’t cry watching them as chibies making wishes on a star and watching them now. One of the most wonderful development in my opinion. Like who would’ve thought back in s1, that we’ll get Haru yelling on top of Rin about how he made him want a future with him, def not me lmao and now all the olympics boyfriends fanfiction are true, I mean, idk what to say anymore. I miss them so much, I can’t wait for the movie :D

[border-spam]

-- Uroboros log - Encrypted E-Call - Or8cle / S0litar3 - source Commercial trade vessel ID 122-J-Prom / Cpt - Seifa A’rosk / SAVED blame=GKT --

(Mid CoV, Ven belongs to @hieroglyphix and JK to @godkingsanointed)

See - I mean of all hthe things. Of all the things you coudl have warned me about in the last what. 4 years now of this? Of telling each other things tht mattered? You could have said nt to take a swing at Troy's stupid fucking face.

See - Hurts so much to type this. God excuse the typos tbh im not doing grea t.

See - I got everything I need tho I'm gd. Take it you know where IM heading yeah? Figure as much at least. I hope this was the right call, Ven. I really hope this was the right choice. Weird cause ive run this through so many times in my head u kno? Wexactly stept by step what I'd do what would happen where I’d go. Shit packed up and stored for a year now, but hey you do actually know that, huh.

See - Feles like my stomach is gone, dropped out of me somewhere back in the cathedral or something. Feels like imnot really here like this whole thing is a dream and I'll waitke up at my desk with a 20 messages I cba reading and a pot of takeout noodles one of you left for me. This doesn’t feel real but it is aint it. Nothing outside the hull cept empty space and silence.

See - Never thought I'd hatee silence, Ven. Wish you were here filling it.

See - Look after JK. Watch out fo rthem. please. Eli is good I;m not worried, you always got Eli, Eli will outlive me I think, probably all of us with how loved he is. But watch out for JK primise me. They love Troy so much that they'll try and pull the monster off his back and that thing is going to be screaming now, Ven. That thing is going to be looking fo sr someone to rip in half and it's not me anymore stanidng in the way of it because I couldn't do it anymore.

See - I'm so fucking sorry man I couldn't do it. Not anymore. I coldnt. Put it off for so long but he was taking everything I had and there was so little left, and then what WAS left he .. he hurt tonight so bad.

See - Been crying for hours now bit Im not really crying you know? tears just dripping down. Can't stop them. Stupid really, eyes hurt.

See - Ven you ever think how funny it would be if verything had been juwt that bit different? Like not this not the COV. Us tho we could have. Like think about it we'd be unstoppable, me and you hahaha. We'd run this fucking galazuy if we wanted, can you imagine. Some bar somewhere we own with a lil casino, luck always somehow on our side? PAir of us could have wrapped anyone we wanted round our fingers we'd be a joke. We'd be terrifying. Could have owned shithoels like Pandora with a little time and a little work. Scam the riches off all those bastards, fucking XAN, oh my god. Leave the prick with nothing, man it would have been so eASY for me and you. Just me and you.

See - Could have saved some kids. Worn ourselves as who we were proud and free not hidden under rules and titles and whatever the hell kind of fake Gods we tried to walk the paths of. It would have been funny wouldn't it Ven, me and you.

See - But Then I think, you know? About how that affects everything tlese. Eli? Without this life Eli wouldn't be here would he. Not now.

See - God sorry, my hand is killing me I'm putting on speech to text.

See - Would JK be alive? Would they have found their lady and their family at all without that cancerous bullshit of a life we joined.

See - And with what he is now still, Troy wouldn't. I know that. Maybe Ty would be, and idk if she would even be something I could CALL Ty, but he'd be dead. I don't know if what I am is worth that. If like. My happiness in some other life, some other choices, is worth all these losses.

See - Maybe that's what it means to care, right? Me and you we get that, don't we. Caring so much about people you want to tell yourself you don't need but you deep down know damn well you'll fade away without. Maybe it means you always sacrifice yourself in the end, your choices, what you could be, what someone else could be with you, all for the people you find yourself loving.

See - Ven I am very drunk right now this was meant to dull the pain till I got base side but whew.

See - Wish this thing had emojis

See - :ass:

See - aww man.

See - Listen.

See - Don't hate him. I think maybe you already can't because you knew, all along, warned me what 2 years ago? Knew and I still saw the way you'd look at him like he was that kind of horrifically embarrassing younger teen brother who's insisted on hanging out with your friends and is SO cringe but you all kinda love him anyway? I know that haha. Don't hate him. You had a terrible life, but Ven, he's had none. Nothing.

See - Idk how much he's told you really, it's not for me to tell, and if you don't know everything, like how they grew up, what happened when they first got here, the things he had to do to make sure she would be happy? Find out. Wait till the monster subsides and he's broken and alone and just. Take that chance. Find out.

See - No one ever really understood why I put up with it all for as long as I could, and I guess I still sound like a moron rn when ur reading this. But if you know, I think you'll understand.

See - Cause me and u Ven. We are so close. man. We are so the same. You're better than I could ever be, but you understand who I am, and if you can understand who I am, you'll understand why I can’t give up on him once you know.

See - Tell E I love him so much. I'll be off grid for a while, gimme a week ok, and then I'll send a vid call and we can all talk.

See - Sorry I won't make it tonight.

See - Sorry, Ven.

-- Encrypted contact ends --

[annab-nana]

Too Much To Handle - Colby Brock

Y/n reads the comments of a video her and Colby filmed recently and due to the amount of hate, she deals with it in her own way. When she wears a hoodie the next day in the LA heat, Jake and Corey get a little suspicious.

Requested by an amazing anon on Wattpad 🧡

Warnings: some curse words; self-harm (specifically cutting) ; mentions of depression; cyberbullying and telling someone to commit suicide; self-deprecating thoughts

Word Count: 1.6k+

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“I’m gonna beat you, Jake!” Corey shouted as his big brown eyes fixated on the TV screen.

“You wish,” Jake scoffed. I watched the two play Rocket League from the other side of the couch. A light giggle escaped my lips in response to their competitive banter. We all three stared at the screen as we watched their cars drive around, trying to get the ball in the goal. As I gazed at the game, my mind began to zone out, thinking of what I did last night.

“Okay, love you! Bye!” I say to Colby before pressing the red button to end our phone call. I press the home button to return to the main screen and hesitate for a second before inevitably tapping on the red app with a white play button to open YouTube. Colby and I made a video to announce to his subscribers that we are in a relationship. He felt after being together for nine months that now was a good time to tell them. I have been refraining from looking at what everyone was saying for the past several days, but I can’t any longer.

I scrolled through my subscriptions until I found Colby Brock and clicked his most recent upload, “Meet My Girlfriend”. I let the video play as I scroll down to the comments. The top ones are very nice and supportive of our relationship. There are a few people that were so happy that Colby finally got a girlfriend. Some were super nice about me, saying they thought I was pretty or cute or nice, something along those lines. Then, I hit some mean ones.

“Why would Colby go out with her? She is so ugly and not funny or anything. She has zero good qualities.”

“I don’t see what Colby sees in her at all”

“Colby can do soooooo much better”

“Really, Colby? Her?”

They got worse and worse as I scrolled down. Tears pricked my eyes as I read each one. It’s like I couldn’t stop once I started.

“She’s so fat and ugly and Colby isn’t at all. Guess opposites really do attract.”

“I’m literally throwing up. She looks so gross.”

“If I were her, I’d kms. I mean look at her.”

Tears stream down my cheeks as I finally shut my phone off. They aren’t wrong. All the thoughts I used to have when I was in high school came back. I am ugly and fat and I don’t deserve anyone, especially Colby. He could do so much better than me.

I got up and headed to my bathroom. I stared back at the sad girl looking at me. Even though I had made a lot of progress, mentally and physically, I still saw the old high school y/n when I looked into the mirror. She was fat and she was ugly. She was undeserving of love. Colby is such a sweet and amazing guy. He’s cute and hot and the fans were right. He can do better than me. I am nothing, but hideous to look at and messed up on the inside.

My hand trembled as it reached down to open the cabinet under the sink and stretched out to grab a small box that I kept hidden at the back. I placed it on the counter, sliding the lid off to see that hated contents that reside inside. I pulled out a blade and it set in what I was doing. I hadn’t done this in years, but here I am, doing it again.

The tears came harder as my mind races with self-insulting thoughts. I glide a blade across my wrist to let the pain go away. I watch as the blood trickles down my arm and falls into the sink. I make a few more slits across the skin on my arm before I wipe the blade clean, placing it back in the box, and putting the lid back on. I turn the sink on and let the water run over my arm to clean it off. I go back to my room and cry myself to sleep that night.

I look down at my arm now. I wore a hoodie so that my cuts wouldn’t be seen, but I was beginning to regret it because it was super hot today and the A/C doesn’t work here.

“Dude, I am so hot!” Corey says dramatically as he looks over to Jake.

“I know. I swear our air conditioning is never going to be fixed.” Jake replies as the two look at me.

“I don’t know how you are wearing that hoodie, y/n. It’s too hot for all that. You should change it to one of Colby’s shirts. You’ll be cooler.” Corey suggests. My eyes widen as I shake my head. I place my hand over my arm, thinking about why I had to wear a hoodie.

“Y/n, you will have a heat stroke in that thing if you don’t take it off. I’ll get you a shirt if you don’t want one of Colby’s or I’m sure Devyn will let you wear one of hers.” Jake says as he looks to Corey and Corey nods.

“Yeah, and Sam probably has some of Kat’s stuff too,” Corey adds.

“No guys, it’s fine. I’m comfortable, I promise.” I say as I look nervously to my hands. The boys look at each other quizzically. They knew something was up. I have to leave.

“I’m going to go to Colby’s room,” I say as I stand and turn to leave.

“No, y/n!” I hear Jake shout and feel him grab my wrist. The wrist I cut last night.

“Ow!” I say loudly as I wince in pain. Jake’s eyes widen when he realized he hurt me, and he let go quickly. I grab my wrist. Damn, that hurt.

“I’m sorry, y/n. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I barely even grabbed you. I don’t get why it hurt you that bad.” Jake says. I watch as the gears turn in his head, trying to figure out why.

“I burnt myself on accident the other day when I was getting something out of the oven.” I lie straight through my teeth. Corey stands up behind Jake suspiciously.

“Y/n show me your wrist,” Corey demands.

“No, it’s a nasty burn. You guys don’t need to see it.” I lie again.

“I think we can handle it,” Jake mentions.

“No,” I say again.

“Y/n, what are you hiding?” Corey pesters.

“Nothing,” I quickly reply.

“It’s obviously something. I bet I can guess what it is you’re hiding, so just show us. We won’t judge you for it.” Corey tells me as he looks deep into my eyes.

“Yeah, y/n, we love you,” Jake adds. I sigh.

“Nothing’s wrong. I’m fine.” I lie once more. I stare out the window, looking at the pool, trying to collect myself so I don’t cry. I feel one of them grab my hand. As I turn my attention to it, Jake’s other hand pulls my sleeve up. Both of them gasp at the sight of the damage I caused last night. When I see them, I start to full-on sob.

“I’m so sorry guys. I read all the com-comments on the vid-video last night and I couldn-coul-co,” My words were separated by sobs then by gasps for air. I couldn’t breathe. Jake wrapped his arms around me to calm me down and brought me to the floor.

“Breathe, y/n. Breathe. Breathe with me.” Jake told me as he inhaled. I inhaled with him and then we exhaled together. We did that repeatedly until I had calmed down to a silent cry. Jake held me and we sat there in each other’s silence.

“Colby’s on the way, y/n. He’ll be here soon.” Corey tells me as he slides his phone into his pocket. I let out a content sigh, knowing he would be here soon.

“I’m going to go change because I’m hot and then, I’ll be right back down here,” I tell the boys as I get up off the floor. I walk up the stairs and into Colby’s room, finding his bright blue Take Chances shirt and slipping it on after I take off my hoodie. I go back downstairs and sit with Jake and Corey to wait for Colby which only lasted for a few minutes. I heard the front door open and I stood up, running into Colby’s arms as I sobbed. He carried me upstairs and we sat on his bed.

“Can I see them?” He asks in my ear and I pull away, nodding. I show him my wrist and watch as sadness washes over his face. He softly runs a finger over the cuts and leans down to kiss them. He leans up and looks at me.

“Why?” He asks me, his voice sounded like he was on the verge of tears. I breathe in deep and exhale before I tell him.

“I read some of the comments on the video, Colby. They don’t like me and think I’m not pretty or skinny enough to be with you and they’re right, Colbs.” I say and he brings his hand up to wipe the tears that have just fallen.

“Don’t you ever say that about yourself, y/n. You are so beautiful and who cares if they don’t like you. I like you.” He tells me and I smile.

“I like you too, Colby,” I whisper as we get closer to each other and our lips finally meet. They are so soft against my own and I am so glad to be with him. I shouldn’t have let what others said about me get to me like that. I have the most amazing man in the world right here and I couldn’t be happier.

[all-might-blog]

Cat Days

Summary:

Toshinori arrives at home only to find that Inko is not feline well (see what I just did? Of course you did ;3)

Originally posted on Ao3

Notes:

For Toshinko week 2020, day 4, Ways to say I love you Enjoy! ^^ (day three was a fanart I did. Can be found on my youtube channel- All_Greenie- as a vid, and on Tumblr- The All Might Blog)

“Inko! I’m home!” Toshinori called, closing the door behind him with a yawn. It had been… a tiring day. Young Bakugou had gotten mad at Midoriya (again) and had tried to blast him halfway across the room during battle training. And then he had had to explain the same thing twice to Denki because he hadn’t been paying attention. Then there was the little incident in which Present Mic had started singing christmas carols through the P.A (even if they were still in August), and finally he had had to listen to Nedzu for a whole two hours while he talked about the philosophy of teaching while sipping at tea and wishing he were back at his apartment and watching TV with his wife.

To make a long story short, it was a chaotic day.

The retired hero yawned even wider as he pulled off his mustard yellow coat, hanging it on the coat hanger as he scratched the back of his neck. He then walked to the living room, only to find it empty.

“Inko?” he called. No answer. Panic began to bubble up inside him. They had both known that it was dangerous for her to marry him because he had made a lot of enemies over his career. She had accepted that and stayed with him anyways. It made Toshinori feel a bit selfish, but at the same time he couldn’t have been happier to have the short, kind woman in his life.

“Inkooo?” he called, walking to the couch. There was a soft meow and his gaze snapped over to the living room table, where they usually had their meals.

A small, fluffy, surprisingly green-furred cat peeked out at him, stuck inside a flower vase. The sight was funny enough to make Toshinori laugh, despite the… circumstances.

“Well, how did you get in here? Looks like a cat-tastrophy. See what I did there?” he asked with a laugh, walking over to the cat. It seemed to narrow its green eyes at him in something akin to annoyance as it meowed again. Toshinori gently freed it, trying very hard not to hurt the cat as he pulled it out from inside. The small feline meowed again as he let her down on the table, replacing the vase. It trotted over to an open laptop- Inko’s laptop- and sat by it, meowing loudly.

Toshinori frowned. “What is it?” he asked, walking over to it. The cat meowed again, pawing at the screen. The screen was alight with the background of the desktop, which was a picture of him with Inko laughing in his arms. He smiled a bit at the memory. The cat, however, wasn’t ready to wait for him to remember every single detail, and meowed again as it leaned forward and touched the screen with a paw. Toshinori’s smile fell.

The cat’s paw had landed on Inko’s face.

What…?

“Inko?!” he gasped. The cat nodded its- her- head vigorously, tapping the screen again and meowing. Toshinori scooped her into his arms and she immediately took comfort against his chest, shivering slightly.

“What happened to you?” he asked, thumb lightly stroking her forehead. She meowed, and he knew that it was an I don’t know kind of answer. She meowed softly, emerald green eyes meeting his once more. He could see worry clear in them, as well as relief to see that he had arrived.

“Inko…” he fell quiet. How could he access the situation if she couldn’t tell him what had happened firsthand? He hummed in thought, caught off guard when Inko suddenly leaped out of his arms, landing on the table with a light thump. She (with some difficulty) opened a Word Document, then sloppily began to jab at letters on the keyboard. Toshinori took a seat on the chair behind her, patiently watching as she made a sentence.

I just woke up like this he read.

“No one did this to you? I mean, you can’t just have magically turned into a cat. And how did you get stuck in the vase anyways?” At this she turned her head and gave him a small shrug. “You don’t know how?” She turned back to the keyboard and wrote another sentence.

I woke up there

“So… you woke up. As a cat. And stuck inside a vase.” Toshinori said. She nodded her head. “For how long do you think…?”

I was normal when I had my afternoon nap

“So… two hours.” More typing.

Two hours

“Damn. What should we do about this?” he asked. She produced a strangely humane snort, and typed again.

I don’t know. Aren’t you the previous number 1 hero?

“Retired, my dear.” he said with a small smile, stroking her soft tail. She sighed.

Yeah. What I mean is haven’t you dealt with this before?

"Well, I did have my entire class turn into kindergarteners, and a few students swapped bodies only a couple of weeks ago." he said slowly. "But other then that, not really. I suppose that... whatever this is, it shouldn't take too long to wear off." Inko thought deeply, her new cat face tilting as she thought. Toshinori couldn't help but chuckle. Not in a million years could he have imagined that he would come home to find his wife stuck in a vase and as a cat. Not only that, but her current thinking face was ridiculously cute. He gently picked her up into his arms, his wife strtling a little as she was unexpectedly lifted off the table, her back legs hanging in midair before Toshinori carefully gathered her into his arms as if craddling a child. He took her to the couch and sat, fishing his phone out of his pocket and dialing Naomasa's number, petting Inko's back with a hand while he waited for his friend to pick up.

"Hello?" Naomasa said from the other end of the line.

"Hey, this is Toshinori." Toshinori said. "Listen, I have a question?"

"What is it?"

"I got hom today and found that my wive is currently... a cat." Toshinori said. As if on cue, Inko meowed loudly.

"Ah..."

"Yes, ah indeed. I was wondering if you had to deal with any cases like this one?"

"Once or twice. Sometimes it can be due to some quirk, other times due to a drug or something of the kind. Perhaps someone drugged her. But effects shouldn't be permanent and depending on how long it's been like this, she should return back to her normal state in a few hours or so." Naomasa said, the rustling of paper heard from the other end of the line.

Toshinori sighed with relief. "Thank God. Thank you, Naomasa."

"No problem. Anything I could help with?"

"No, that was it."

"Alright. You can call me back if something happens or if she doesn't change back by tomorrow."

"Thanks!"

Both bid their goodbyes and Toshinori hung up, leaving his phone on the coffee table and concentrating on Inko.

"Well, Naomasa said that it should wear off soon enough." Inko relaxed her muscles with relief, nudging Toshinori's hand in a thank you way. He scratched her behind the ear, drawing a string of purrs from her.

"Your cat version is very cute," he chuckled, moving his hand to stroke the underside of her jaw. Her eyes closed instinctively, tilting her head. "See what I mean?" he laughed, getting an amused look from her. His laughs suddenly turned to coughs, covering his mouth with a hand and shocking Inko. She sprang to her paws (nearly falling off his lap) and propped herself up on her back legs, small paws leaning on his chest for support as she tilted her head up, meowing worriedly. Toshinori managed to get his breathing under control once more, wiping a small drop of blood from his mouth with the back of his hand.

"It's fine," he said quietly, patting her head lightly, "I'm fine." Inko looked unconvinced but lowered herself down anyways, curling up on his lap once again and purring fiercely. Toshinori wanted to laugh, happy that she was with him, but his throat felt raw and he stuck to smiling while he stroked her soft, green fur, turning on the television and selecting CATS (an old musical that Inko had loved to watch- and still did- with Izuku when he was a youngster).

Before he knew it, they had both fallen asleep by the time Rum Tum Tugger begun to sing his song, Inko comfortably curled up next to him as he laid sideways on their small sofa.

(Spoiler: Inko turns back to normal in the ending ^^ (but has the tendancy to chase arround a certain red dot that I've been trying to catch for ages) (Wait. Did I just say that?) (Guess I did :D) )

[trashinaglass-archive]

Goals

Tom and y/n do a couples interview

Request: Hey! I love your writing and I have this idea where the reader and Tom Holland have been together for a while and they get invited to do a couple interview (you know the classic how well do they know each other) but the reader isn't famous but has a job in science (lol I'm a nerd) or something so they ask a question like 'who's job is cooler' and the Tom gushes about how cool the reader and her job are and how smart she is but then she's just turns round like 'Tom, you're freaking spiderman'. I was just watching celebrity couple vids and thought it would be cute. Idk sorry I'm rambling 😂 Sorry it's so long and if it's too specific

A/n: This is such a cute idea😫

I haven’t seen any interviews like this(bc I kinda don’t care about other people’s relationships oop) so I’m going to take the liberty and context clues to make it a who does what kind of game.

“Hey guys, I’m Tom Holland and this is my girlfriend, y/n, and we’re doing a couple’s interview.” (I tried to come up with a cool title but I couldn’t. I’m not creative, sorry😂)

You sat in a chair beside Tom, answer board in hand- one side with your name and face, the other with Tom’s name and face- as you waited for the first question.

“Who wears the pants in the relationship?”

You laughed as you heard the first question, not expecting it at all and held up Tom’s name, turning to see he said the same.

“Damn right,” he said with a smile on his face.

“I’m too indecisive for all that,” you said truthfully. Tom was very good at guiding you to a decision where if you were by yourself, you’d ponder and overthink your choices for hours probably.

“Yeah, I don’t know how you’d survive on your own, you take about an hour trying to decide what cereal you want to eat,” Tom chuckled. You smiled at his remark.

“I can’t say that’s not true,” you laughed and looked at the man behind the camera for the next question.

“Who holds their liquor better?”

You held up your name and saw Tom holding up his name. “Boy,” you began, ready to call him out.

“Who was the one blackout drunk the other night? I had to carry you home,” he explained himself.

“That was one time,” you defended yourself to which Tom let out a sarcastic ‘okay’. “And let you have one drink- you’re giggling and dancing all over the place.”

“Whatever,” he replied simply. “Agree to disagree.”

“Who is always running late?”

“It’s ya girl,” you said as you held up your name, Tom doing the same. “I just have fun getting ready.”

“‘Have fun’ usually means standing in front of the mirror and putting on a fake concert in her underwear,” Tom said, glancing at you with a smile on his face.

“Don’t expose me like that,” you joked with a laugh.

“Who’s the funniest?”

You thought hard, looking at Tom then down at the floor and holding up his name.

“Why did you look so unsure?” One of the crew asked from behind the camera.

“Because I feel like we’re both pretty funny?” You questioned, looking to Tom for back up. “Maybe not to other people, but to each other definitely. I don’t particularly think he’s funnier than me or vice versa. I think we’re both funny and it comes out naturally when we’re around each other.”

Tom nodded along as you spoke, watching you intently before agreeing with you. “Yeah, I’d say the same. And you know there are times when she’s upset and I try to make her laugh, and she’ll do the same for me. There’s not really any right or wrong answer here.”

“Who has the cooler job?”

You scoffed and held up Tom’s name, not bothering to look at his answer because you were positive he said himself. Your eyebrows raised in surprise when he started talking about you.

“Y/n’s job is so cool. She’s a nurse- she saves peoples lives for a living. There’s nothing cooler than that.”

“Tom, you’re Spider-Man,” you reminded him with a laugh, looking at the camera like he’s crazy.

“So? All I do is run around in tights- anybody could do that. How many years were you in uni studying to be a nurse?”

“Four and a half? Five?” You asked, not knowing why it mattered. “Anybody can do that too.”

“I’m sorry, have we met?” Tom said making you laugh. “You’re just so smart. Like I picked her up from work the other day and just hearing the patient information she read off to the other nurse- that was like listening to another language. It was crazy. I think it’s so sexy how smart you really are,” he finished rambling. You looked into the camera throwing your head up in a ‘what’s up’ nod. “No but it really is crazy how smart you are. It seems so effortless for you.”

“Oh, there was effort,” you emphasized. “There was so much effort. Nursing school kicked my ass- it was the hardest thing I’ve been through, but it was worth it. I love my job. I wouldn’t trade it for anything.”

“Not even for Spider-Man?” Tom asked.

“Not even for Spider-Man.”

“Respect,” He said, holding a fist out. You tapped your fist against his, laughing at his reaction.

You continued to answer questions, laughing and bickering but having so much fun. You honestly wished it was still going on.

“I loved that,” you told Tom as you exited the building. “I’m glad you talked me into doing this.”

“I am too,” he laughed. “That was the most fun I’ve had in a while.”

I didn’t know how to end this lol we love abrupt endings

[normal-thoughts-official]

Pornstars!AU where Magnus and Alec have been shamelessly flirting for sometime but haven’t done a scene together even though everyone has been clamoring for it. They finally get together and it is...wow! Everything and more. Alec makes Magnus cum so much that he’s shaking by the end of the scene and Alec has to stop a couple of times cuz Magnus’ cunt feels so good and he knows he’ll cum too soon if he keeps going.

god, the rest of the world wishes they got anons like mine. ilysm. please keep these coming, y’all

okay, so i’m thinking - camboys instead of pornstars? just because i think with like Actual Big Budget Porn it would be harder for this to happen, like, organically, with the director being there and there being like a script and shit

but it could be indie porn, or just big ole’ cam stuff. In the cam stuff case they would be pretty much responsible for themselves so i guess i’m going with that? anyway.

alec’s a bit more seasoned than magnus is, so when magnus starts doing cam stuff alec’s already got kind of a fanbase. magnus watches his stuff sometimes too - look, he’s only human, and Alec is hot and has a nice dick, and isn’t afraid to moan like most toppy guys are, and he just likes the way Alec seems to just. completely get into it and melt and relax. and he says some filthy things to the camera, too, smirks at it and asks how they like seeing his touch his dick, tells them he wishes he had a warm mouth to fuck into instead. and magnus is into that stuff, sue him.

alec also does a few feature films, sometimes. not all the time and there aren’t many “regulars” but he does

magnus doesn’t really. he doesn’t feel comfortable yet, and he likes to feel like he has some control. he’s been in some pretty unpleasant situations with camille - not related to sex work, actually way before he started working with that - so he likes to protect himself. not to mention being a trans brown guy - and a bottom - in this line of work can bring some unpleasant situations (when doesn’t it?) if he isn’t careful, so he won’t trust just anybody to do a feature live with him. 

what he does do, though, is take requests. that’s what gets him most of his money, really, and this way he gets to choose what he takes or doesn’t take - but usually people are reasonable, and generous, too. also, there’s something hot about touching himself exactly as someone says - it’s no secret he’s a sub, and he enjoys being told what to do, watched and praised by his followers. the money and gifts don’t hurt, either. all in all, it’s a win-win arrangement, and he enjoys it a lot.

he also does some Q&As sometimes, and at some point, someone asks him whether he watches other people. magnus mentions alec, which is- really not a big deal. he’s pretty popular and well-known, it’s not weird.

after that, he gets a request to film himself jacking off to one of alec’s videos.

he takes it.

and it EXPLODES

the fact that alec’s name, which is a pretty well-searched term, is in it, helps, of course. the algorithm shows it to more people. but the video is also just plain-old good. magnus moans so prettily and is very responsive to the stuff alec says in the vid, and he’s clearly very lost in pleasure and he just looks beautiful. 

up to this point, he wasn’t very popular, but he had his little niche of fans who were pretty loyal, and very generous. gotta have some incentive, after all.

but with that video he skyrockets and gets a lot of new subscribers and yup alec sees it

(cue, like, ten hours of him salivating) 

somebody eventually asks alec whether he’s seen the video and alec’s like “hm yes” and kinda smirks at the camera like “you know, if you ever wanna do a feat, hit me up” and everyone loses their fucking shit over it, of course. two of the hottest camboys on the site! and they have a similar style and kinks and you could just tell, like, that their chemistry would have been amazing

the clamor for them to do a feat only rises and rises so eventually magnus ends up messaging him and they start to talk. but he doesn’t want to do a feat, at least not yet. he doesn’t feel ready as a whole and i mean - alec is cis and white. he’s gotta make sure he’s comfortable

and alec is super understanding and never pressures him or even asks him about it, really, they just start to talk. so they’re like chatting privately and quickly becoming friends, and also doing this whole thing where they’ll flirt like crazy on camera and leave messages for each other and stuff, because 1- it’s funny; 2- it draws attention when they do it and that’s more money for the both of them. 

they don’t really flirt when they’re chatting privately, though. they just talk like two people. eventually they even exchange phone numbers so they can talk better. they become actual friends, and they talk about everything from their work to just silly stuff. magnus tells alec about his plans to become a pharmacist, about his studies on medicinal properties of snake venom, but they also talk about stuff like the shows they watch, how annoying alec’s sister izzy is, they probably play something dumb like online uno once and almost kill each other. alec also gives magnus some tips since he’s a bit more seasoned. they also laugh at the little jabs and flirts they leave for each other in their vids, you know, stuff like that

anyway, it’s kind of a more slow burn thing, especially for magnus - who’s still a little wary - but they’re slowly falling in love, in that way that feels so natural that you don’t even realize it for a while. they meet a couple of times, and don’t do anything - they just live in neighboring towns, or maybe the same, big city? anyway - they just hang out and talk and laugh and it’s cute and fun

eventually magnus decides he trusts alec enough to try, especially since - well, alec’s hot. and they are, hm, compatible, sex-wise. so they sit and have a talk and discuss what they are willing to do or not and kind of reach a few agreements, you know, that sorta stuff. very professional and all that.

well, they do the do and it’s like holy shit. it’s electric and they have so much chemistry and understand each other so well, which - shouldn’t come as a surprise since they’re friends, right? but it does, and magnus, like, completely forgets about the camera tbh - which is the opposite of a problem because it only makes him more vocal and loud and everybody loves that

and at this point magnus is kind of touch-starved because damn, it’s been a while, and alec is all like “fixing that is my number one purpose in life”, so he touches magnus all over, runs his hands over his body, shows him off to the camera a bit (he’s lucky and he knows it, all right), kisses him, pulls his hair and fucks him good. and magnus comes and comes and comes until he’s pretty much a crying mess, and alec has to frequently slow the pace and pretend he’s doing it just to tease magnus and hear his needy little noises (and he is, at least partially) but really he’s just gonna come at any minute now because magnus is so fucking beautiful and feels so fucking good under him

eventually the video ends, and magnus is just lying boneless on the bed, all like “holy shit,” and alec is just like “damn, that one got a lot of views, i think it might have broken my record already” and that’s when they both realize that they had, like, completely forgotten about how that was just a work thing, they were so wrapped up in each other. and that’s probably when it dawns on the both of them that they may have fallen in love.

fun! terrifying! but fuck their lives, right, because the horny community is very into this stuff and it was, objectively speaking, fucking amazing. cue them becoming sorta friends-slash-coworkers with benefits and, hm. pining.

(i just love mutual pining okay. let me live)

they usually save the kinkier stuff to do on camera but they begin to- have sex off-camera. just for fun. scratching an itch! and in the off-camera sex they are just. clearly making love. like clearly. there’s no other way to describe the way alec holds him, or the way magnus moans alec’s name, or the reverent touches alec leaves on him that are just slow and feel imprinted all over magnus’ body. but neither of them really realize that

until, i guess, at some point they’re doing some request that’s more vanilla and they forget the camera’s there again and they end up having that almost heartbreakingly tender sex? and everyone is like “hm,” and eventually afterwards they both watch the video and are like “oh fuck”. magnus is like mortified because it’s so obvious that he’s got a crush god damn it, but then alec asks him out and oaduhsudajsdams look i love those idiot nerds. anyway that’s a happy ever after for the both of them and they become the porn world’s most amazing power couple the end

[evans-maxed-out]

Promises Ain’t Enough-Samcedes Chatzy Flashback Xmas 2016

Who: Sam Evans and Mercedes Jones

Where:Sammie’s Christmas Pageant and Samcedes Apartment

When: A few days before Xmas 2016

Notes: Sam struggles with guilt, when he realizes he must break a promise to Sammie and not attend her Christmas show. Mercedes attempts to make things better.

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Sam: "Shit..no no no!" he shouted as he watched all his work disappear as the computer in front of him froze. "Piece of shit fucking crap.." he muttered, defeated as he rebooted, the awful sinking feeling that he hadn't saved his work pervading his body. Hadn't he learned his lesson, with the damn sketchy machines in the college library? Bad enough for it to have happened on campus, but now on his own computer at home? Fucking joke.He glanced at his watch, shaking his head as he realized he wouldn't be able to complete his assignment before Sammie's performance in the Christmas Pageant. There was no way Figgins would give him any slack either. He had to give it in before 10pm or he was screwed. Pulling out his cell, he called Mercedes. "Hey..I can't make it Cedes..The computer crashed on me and I didn't save the assignment.."

Mercedes say shaking her leg nervously as she looked towards the entrance to the auditorium once again. He was late. Samara has been so excited to be the lead elf in the play. Mercedes and Sam both took turns helping her memorize her lines till she was practically saying them in her sleep. The lights began to dim and she checked her phone for time seeing it was two minutes till start. “Come on Sam,” she said worriedly to herself. “Where are you babe?” Just as she went to text him she saw a message flash on her screen. He wasn’t coming. She knew he had to be crushed not to come seeing that he was just as excited as Sammie was. ‘I’m so sorry Sam, focus on your assignment it will be fine.’ She sent her reply and removed her purse from the seat next to her that she no longer needed to save.

Sam: This was shit..his whole life was going to shit..Sammie had been so looking forward to both of them coming to see her in her play. And he had wanted to, so badly as much to say a fuck you to all the other parents who cast censorious looks at him and Mercedes just because they were young parents, as to see his baby girl perform on stage. He hated the thought of Mercedes having to sit there alone, enduring the whispers. Kitty, had made things worse by regaling the parents at the school, with all the sordid details of how exactly they'd ended up together even though she had herself trapped Mike, first year of college, by getting pregnant deliberately. He’d promised her, promised his baby girl faithfully, he’d be there and he was having to break that. "Fuck my life.." he muttered, as he painstakingly began typing out the assignment again.

Mercedes tried to remain calm throughout the pageant when she noticed the not so subtle glances in her direction. This was beginning to be a normal event whenever she would go to places or events with Sam and their daughter. She wished so much she could just yell, “yeah I had a kid young and I’m married to the guy you bimbos gawk at” but for her child’s sake she kept quiet. Her anxiety wasn’t as bad when Sam was there because he always tried his best to keep her calm and unbothered. Kitty was the worst of them all, the ring leader. Mercedes knew it was all because of her jealousy. She wanted Sam and a single one night stand between Mercedes and Sam halted all that. She smiled widely as Sammie took the stage so adorable in her little costume and began to say the closing words of the play. She hadn’t missed a single line. She was super proud of her and bias or not the star of the show. The whole room including Mercedes stood and began to clap loudly as the curtains closed and the light came back up. When the little tikes came out for the curtain call she made sure to snap a photo of Sammie and sent it to Sam as she waited for her daughter to come from the back.

Sam: He smiled sadly as he saw the photo of his daughter come through. She looked amazing and he could see the excitement shining in her eyes, and felt just like an absolute heel for not making it there for her big moment. No one had ever told him it would be this hard..Knowing that this was the way forward to being able to support his family and give them everything they deserved, but in turn having to sacrifice precious moments like these..He was tired, it just kept getting harder, and knowing that this wasn't the life Mercedes would've chosen just seemed to make everything worse. How could you love someone so much and not connect with them? He felt her pulling away every time they were together, she was so reserved, so careful to make any demands on his time that he wanted to shake her at times. But then again, he knew that he didn't have the right to ask anything from her. He'd gotten her pregnant, and now she was trapped. Sighing, he began reading over the assignment, making minor corrections as he went.

Mercedes laughed at how giddy Sammie was the whole car ride home. She kept going on and on about how’s my complements she got from her friends and even the teachers. She was a little sad when asked where her daddy was and Mercedes had to explain that he needed to finish an important homework or he wouldn’t get a gold star. Sammie seemed to be okay with for now but Mercedes knew there would follow up questions later on. “What do you say we take Daddy some food home to help him?” She asked and the little girl nodded her head with a toothy smile. She reminded her so much of Sam that sometimes she had to just take it all in. This may not have been the ideal life for her but she loved her little family. She often wondered if Sam felt the same way. He was pulled into this marriage like she was and maybe he was just playing along to please their folks. She made a quick stop grabbing some food and headed home. Once inside Sammie ran straight to where she knew Sam would be. “Daddy!!!” She yelled running into his arms. He looked so tired and worn out. She giggled at the pen sticking out his mouth, hair disheveled. “I figured you were hungry,” she greeted him. She took a chance sitting in his lap and placing the food down next to him. Feeling even braver she placed a chaste kiss to his lips and raked his hair fixing it. “Any progress?”

Sam: He heard the sound of Sammie's little feet running into the apartment, smiling as he realized his livewire daughter and his wife were back. He hugged Sammie tight as she launched herself into his arms and ruffled her hair lightly. "Hey Sparkie, how was your show? I'm so sorry I couldn't make it.." he said sadly as a wave of guilt washed over him again. "S'ok Daddy! Mommy vid-i-ohd it for you! It was awesome!" she exclaimed before flinging herself around the room renacting her starring moment. His arms closed around Mercedes the instant she sat down on his lap, face nuzzling her neck, breathing in her scent. Times like these were rare, times when they actually touched like any normal married couple would, instead of the awkwardness that always seemed to linger at the edges of any interaction they had..except in bed. There, they connected fully on an almost ephemeral level-it was just this day to day stuff they seemed to have trouble navigating. His eyes darkened as she pressed a kiss to his lips and his tongue automatically, swiped her bottom lip gently. If Sammie hadn't have been there, he'd have had her up against the wall, screaming his name no matter how tired or stressed he was. "Thanks, Cedes.." he said nodding at the food. "It's done.." he said looking away, frustrated. "I missed her show..I'm such a shitty father.."

Mercedes felt sorry for Sam. She could tell he was beating himself up for not making it to her show and she wanted him to know she completely understood. He did so much for them. He worked and tackled school so she didn’t have to work while she took care of Sammie. She was grateful for everything that he had done for them and even if he only did it out obligation she would show her appreciation. “Hey, don’t say that.” She rubbed a soothing hand down his back. “You did what you had to do and there is nothing wrong with that. You’re an amazing father Sam. Did you see how happy she was to see you? She thinks the world of you, and so do I.” She realized what she said before the words could be stopped from coming out. He did mean the world to her tho, even if they had a funny way of showing affection of any form in their day to day life unless it came to sex. This moment was actually a rare occasion for them but she was going to enjoy it for what it was. “Here,” she pulled her phone out going to her videos. “She was the star Sam, I could be bias but those others kids had nothing on her.” She pressed play one arm wrapped around his shoulder as the other held her phone.

Sam:”I think the world of you too, Cedes, you know that right? I couldn’t do this without you..” It was as close as he’d ever come to telling her he loved her. He grinned as she held her phone up and Sammie came on screen. “Nah, you’re not biased baby. She lights up the stage,” he agreed wholeheartedly with her assessment adding mentally, the way you light up my whole life..

[readingisthenewcool]

A mutuals (<3) masterlist (aka: I rant about my mutuals for way too long)

Definitely follow of of these blogs because they are almost as amazing as the people that run them!! I have so many amazing mutuals but these are just the ones that I have talked to the most and for the longest, sorry if I missed you, know that I still love you the same <<33

@a-stitch-in-timey-wimey - PROBABLY MY BEST FRIEND ON HERE, SHE'S SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO FUNNY AND I CAN TELL HER LITERALLY ANYTHING. She's such a babe, I met her through one of my posts I made agesssss ago (yeah that’s right, she’s and OG) where I was like "like and reblog this post if you like any of these fandoms and I'll dm you" and our friendship grew from there!! We both love Voltron, Klance and pasta and one of our first interactions and inside jokes was when she told me when she dropped toothpaste down her sock lol cause how do you even manage to do that (do you even remember that jess???) and idk it’s just such a fond memory even though it’s so random. I fucking live for when she rants/tells me stories on snapchat, I was actually watching one of her ‘storytime’ vids that she sent me and like 5 minutes into her story (when we were getting the climax!!) my phone died and now I’m stuck on this cliffhanger until my phone recharges (so imma write all this while I wait lol). She also didn’t murder me when I broke our 105 day streak (I”M SORRY) in fact she wasn’t even mad!! If that’s not the sign of a true goddess I don’t know what is! ALSO, she's SUPER pretty and inspired me to cut my hair, I'd been think about cutting my hair short(er) for a while and after she cut hers and I saw how pretty she looked, I thought I must do it I must be like Jess. I love her so much from the bottom of my heart and I'm so glad that we're friends <3

@galacticpandasstuff - JADEEEEEE MY SWEET BBY I HOPE YOU GET SOME SLEEP. I always love my deep chats with Jade, we've been mutuals for a while but didn't start talking until recently, we often talk in the afternoon for me and when it's like 4am for her. She def needs to sleep more but we all still love her anyway! Despite her not sleeping that much, she’s still drop dead gorgeous and handles tough situations like a fucking champ wtf, I wish I was even just half as strong as her. I’m very proud that my networking skills have really risen up to the challenge and have paid off because and I’ve connected Jade to a couple of my mutuals and they all love her nearly as much as I do!! She's always so kind to me and I'm sure she'll be kind to you too, she has a relatively small blog and it definitely should be bigger so highkey recommend giving her a follow and maybe even a dm too because she's v nice!!

@repetitive-tautology - JAMES OMG WHAT A FUNNY GUY HE’S AND ACTUAL LAD OMG. I actually love James so much and despite me always feeling inferior to his Top Notch (TM) wittiness and intellect, we manage to have an excellent friendship. We also met through that post I made (about liking certain fandoms and then I would dm you!!) but we never really ended up talking about any of the fandoms lol, our conversation (and friendship!!) just immediately took off. I absolutely love his blog and he's such a funny guy, I've met a lot of great mutuals and friends from him (vague crusade!!!). We unfortunately don’t talk as much as we used to (I’M SORRY BUT DISCORD REALLY SCARES ME, OKAY) and I hope that after this post is... posted it’ll prompt us to talk again! He's one of the actual OG's of my blog and played a vital role in my pasta brand becoming a thing! He also came up with funky spaghet and sinful noodle (if you remember those names lol). Anyway, if you're looking for a laugh, definitely hit him up and follow his blog!!

@raging-chaotic-bisexual - DFGHJKLLKJHGFDSDFGH SOHIE AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! WHAT ELSE CAN I SAY!! Half of our interactions are are sdfghjkjgfd I love *insert something* so much dfghjhgfdedfgh. Yep, we use keysmashes arguably too much but I literally don’t even care. I can talk to Sophie about whatever I’m excited and no matter what the subject is, she’ll match my enthusiasm and that’s one of my favourite things about her. She’s excellent if you wanna talk about literally whatever you want and I feel as if she’d be an amazing hype woman. (also another one of my Australian bby’s!!)

@hudusello - Dakota is the motorbike bitch (well, more cars now lol) and a future lesbian biker gang member. I always feel hella stupid talking to Dakota cause shes got a shit ton of knowledge on pretty much all mechanical vehicles and before we met I knew approximately zero (0) things about cars and stuff and despite feeling like the inside of my skull feeling as empty as the middle of a balloon, I love learning all this cool new stuff that she teaches me! I love having a good old chat no matter the subject and Dakota is such an OG on my blog. Despite having lots of different interests, I’m really glad that we bonded over a few things that we have in common (like she-ra and minecraft!! [WHICH I WILL REDOWNLOAD SOON AHHHHH]) cause I really enjoy talking. So definitely follow Dakota cause once again, a relatively small blog and also great for a fun chat if you like cars and/or are willing to learn about them 

@carry-on-wayward-birbs - I LOVE THIS DUDE OML WE ALWAYS CHAT ABOUT WHERE THEY’RE UP TO ON BROOKLYN NINE-NINE CAUSE THEY’RE SUPER BEHIND BUT I LOVE HEARING THEIR REACTIONS TO EVERYTHING LOL. Even though our chats are almost strictly b99 related, we do get personal sometimes and I’m very glad that we can balance out our good and bad experiences in our friendship and help and support each other but also get so fucking pumped over brooklyn nine nine too. But yeah we have great chats and would definitely would recommend giving their blog a look  <3 (ALSO THEY ALSO SEEM EQUALLY CONFUSED ABOUT THE CONCEPT OF TIME AND THE YEARS THAT PASS AND THAT’S GOOD (kinda??) CAUSE THAT MEANS THAT I’M NOT ALONE AND I’M VERY GRATEFUL FOR THAT)

@everyoneprotector - mm yes, Alex, my dude you’re such a legend, you’re my aussie mate!! Very cool spider person ::::) and I enjoy our food debates (whether they’re civil or it’s just us screaming at each other in the reblogs for like an hour). You’re an ace-mazing legend that we all stan, I’m very glad we starting interacting, my only regret is that we didn’t start sooner!! 100% recommend Alex’s blog if you’re Ausralian cause they’ve got some top notch Australian content (They’re posting about the election rn lol) but even if you’re not Australian, you can still enjoy their posts cause they’ve got a bunch of funny stuff on there (including funny fandom stuff!! I’m not even in a lot of the fandoms that Alex posts about BUT THE POSTS ARE STILL GREAT)

@ihateitwhenyourejustvague - ABSOLOUTELY WONDERFUL AND BRITISH. Peppa pig wishes she was vague. Our vague crusade champion queen, all hail vague. I actually had to leave the group discord cause the power from it was too strong for my poor mortal body to handle (nah, it was actually because I’m really scared of discord and being in a voice chat with more than one person is so frightening but IT’S NOT ABOUT ME IT’S ABOUT SPREADING THE LOVE) So definitely go follow vague!! They’re the best!! Also!! A very good writer!! I always reblog the writing posts but I highly recommend asking to be added to the writing tag list so that you make sure you see every single writing post!

@bakugou-klancey-lance - We pretty much never talk but they add a cheeky lil “uwuuuuu <3” in my inbox every now and again and I think that that’s really sweet (also very funny blog!! 10/10 would recommend!!) 

I WOULD DO MORE OF MY MUTUALS BUT I HAVE TO DO SOME MATHEMATICAL METHODS HOMEWORK ::::(((((( 

probs won’t do it lol but I’ll damn well try

[bran-writes]

Flashback: An Outlier Lunch

The Outliers have been together since before middle school, but these are the years they solidified as a group and stuck together for the rest of their lives.

May 12th 2025

“Yo, seriously. What do you guys think?”

Kwin McCall sat across from Zig-Zag at lunch but looked around at his friends to see who would answer first. Gabi sat to his right and was already halfway done with her food. She’d left her library class early to snag their favorite picnic table outside, while Harlo, Zig, Kwin and Jonah walked from the annex to get their food. 

“Zig with a vlog channel?” Harlo asked, opening his bag of chips and dumping them on his tray. 

“No, about starting a porn channel… Yes, the vlog.”

“Fuck it,” Kwin shrugged, twisting the cap from his water bottle. “You’re more interesting than half the people who have a lot of followers.”

Zig stared across at him down the rim of his glasses, gaging whether Kwin was being serious. When Zig realized he meant it, he nodded, “Thanks Kwin.”

“Don’t let it go to your head,” Jonah chuckled. 

Kwin’s mother always packed him a water bottle for lunch, whether he had a meal to go with it or ate from the cafeteria. Three days a week he trained at Knox’s Dojo after school- the water bottles she loaded him up with every day were a measure to ensure he stayed hydrated. In the past few weeks, she’d started packing extra for Jonah. Kwin handed the boy to his left a water, which his friend accepted graciously. Harlo nudged Zig in his side and smiled with a mouth full of pizza. 

“You can get the new celebrity here to guest star, probably pump your views up.”

“In the porn or the vlogs?” Zig smirked.

“I don’t see why you can’t do both,” Jonah suggested. 

“Oh, look at that, Zig,” Kwin nodded to Harlo with a slight smile, “You don’t even need followers, you’ve got your own biggest fan right here.”

“Oh, we’re sorry, are you not used to being all big and famous yet?” Gabi feigned ignorance.

Last month, Kwin’s grandfather brought the boy out to a red carpet premiere and to do interviews with him in support of a new movie, The Package Boy- a  horror film Sam McCall wrote and produced. The main character of that movie, Joseph, was heavily inspired by Kwin himself, so Sam invited his grandson along for some publicity and a few minutes in the spotlight. Thinking back on it, he had the sneaking suspicion that Sam pulled him out of school that week for the press run as some kind of gesture. A “Hey, sorry I’m not around much and never really talk to you, how’d you like to be on TV?” sort of gesture. Kwin didn’t care for it in hindsight. Especially since his friends wouldn’t let him forget it. 

“Oh, come on, Kwin,” Harlo grinned. “You were a natural out there. You’ve got a future, I can see it!”

“Three Pines Middle School’s first celebrity alumni,” Zig-Zag bucked his eyebrows.

Gabi pulled out her phone. “I’ve been meaning to check back on that, by the way.”

“Check on what?” Jonah leaned forward and craned his neck to get a better look. Kwin rolled his eyes when he realized Jonah was goading him. 

“To see how much attention our Kwinjamin here is really getting.”

Kwin hated that nickname, but couldn’t get mad at Gabi. Being friends since primary school got her a lot of mileage. “You don’t have to check on that.”

“Sure I do. Let’s see, I don’t wanna check the official video’s comments. The only people commenting about you on that vid are middle aged housewives talking about how much more well-mannered you are than their kids. Oh and pushy movie nerds talking about how the horror genre is dead.”

“That’s not the kind of pumping up our boy needs,” Zig agreed, staring at Kwin with an appraising look. “Yeah, go where the teenagers hang out on the Internet, see what all the hype about our boy here is about.”

“Got it,” Gabi snapped her fingers. “Kenny Mischief covered the news.”

“Wow, he did?” Kwin leaned over to inspect the phone. Zig snorted. 

“Talk about worthless vloggers.”

“I’ll have you know, Zig-Zag, that Mister Mischief has quite the teen following,” Gabi tutted. 

“Don’t remind me.”

Gabi cleared her throat and loosened her shoulders before sitting up straight. “Lisa Lee says: ‘That dude’s grandkid looks like that? Social media stalking intensifies’. Charlotte Hermes commented: ‘I wish boys at my school were that cuuuute’. She added the weary emoji face too,” Gabi pointed down at the phone and stared up at Kwin with an appraising stare. 

“I really hope these comments are from, y’know, people our age. Cause this could get weird,” Zig chuckled. 

“You made your point, yeah?” Kwin laughed. Jonah glanced up at him, able to read his embarrassment in a heartbeat. 

“Mm, I have, but now I’m just having fun. Lucky Babe commented: Does he come with the tickets? Tracey Two-Step Smith says: ‘Oh he’s cute for a white boy… And a Ginger’. A heated race debate ensued in the replies over that one,” Gabi chuckled. She set the phone down on the table. “Okay, now I’m done.”

“Told you you’re a ginger,” Harlo laughed.

“I’m not… Douchebag,” Kwin threw a chip at Harlo, who caught against his chest and popped it into his mouth. “Gross.”

“When are you going to accept your people, Kwin?” Zig asked, eager to continue this long-running debate.

“My hair’s blonde.”

“Eh, reddish blonde,” Jonah shrugged.

“Hey, you’re drinking my water, you’re supposed to back me up.”

“Just accept it so you can move on, Kwin. We need to settle it,” Harlo shrugged. “Closure once and for all.”

“You want me to prove it?” They stared at him questioningly until he stood up and unhooked his belt with a daring smile. “I swear, I will. I’ll give you some closure you’ll never forget.”

“Oh, God, please don’t,” Gabi smacked Kwin’s leg.

“Please do! Wait, I need to get the camera out first,” Zig rooted in his bag for his new DSLR. “We can get this vlog started off right now.”

“Kwin, what are you doing?” Jonah laughed.

“Whaddaya say, Harlo? Should we settle it? Get three coffins ready,” Kwin dramatically shifted his gaze to Gabi and unzipped his fly for full effect. “My mistake. Four Coffins.” 

“Jonah, you said you were gonna stop letting him watch that movie,” Zig sighed. 

“I did. Harlo, back down please. You know he’ll do it.”

Kwin knew Harlo well enough to know he always buckled first in any game of chicken. Especially games like this. Some of the other middle schoolers in the courtyard glanced in their direction, but Kwin was undeterred. In fact, it sort of thrilled him. He locked eyes with Harlo.

“Okay, okay,” Harlo held his hands over his eyes.

“Say I’m not a ginger,” Kwin smirked. 

“You’re not a ginger, geez. You are crazy, though.”

“Crazy’s okay. I can handle crazy,” Kwin zipped and buckled back up, feeling triumphant. 

“You’re the worst,” Jonah shook his head yet was couldn’t hide his smile. Knowing how to best get to Jonah, Kwin wrapped an arm around him, laying his head on his friend’s shoulder with a contented sigh.

“Yeah, but I couldn’t be the worst without my best,” Kwin patted Jonah’s shoulder even as Zig-Zag snapped a photo. 

“You guys are just so cute,” Zig lilted. 

“So wait a second,” Harlo pointed a fork at Zig. “Your mom paid you to help her out at the camp, right? The all girls camp?”

“Cool your jets, I worked in the main office.”

“Right, and the first thing you buy with your money is a fancy camera? That wasn’t a red flag for her?”

“Ha, very funny, Harlo. She helped me pick it out. I told her vlogging was gonna be my new hobby. And Gabi helped me buy it, too.”

“Yeah, so be careful what you do with, or we’ll both go down for the crime.”

“What’d your mom say about your vlogging idea?” Kwin asked around a mouthful of chips. Zig shrugged.

“She said it’s better than getting to high school and selling weed. For some reason she thinks that was my fate.”

“Still a red flag,” Harlo smiled.

“Oh! Speaking of,” Gabi pointed an accusing finger at Zig-Zag, whose eyes grew wide.

“What’s with people pointing at me today?” 

“Outlier Court is in session,” Gabi narrowed her eyes.

“Yo, can she just call a trial in session by herself?”

“I thought she was the judge,” Kwin shrugged and took a bite of pizza.

Outlier Court held a very special purpose in their friend group: It was their way of calling each other out on transgressions. “Hit us,” Jonah said, dramatically pushing his food to the side and steeping his fingers. 

“We’re Outliers, right?” Everyone agreed. “So we’re all of the understanding that we don’t do basic shit.” Gabi dramatically enunciated her words, which meant this case was already closed. Kwin looked from Zig to Gabi in anticipation, his mouth full food. Gabi set her arms on the table, lips pressed in a thin line. 

“What’d I do?” Zig shrugged.

“Oh, I think I know what this is,” Harlo laughed around food, using a hand to cover his mouth. His eyes squinted with joy. “Sorry, bud. I was gonna ignore it.”

“But that’s not how we correct the behavior is it, Harlo?” Gabi continued. Kwin was confused. Jonah voiced that confusion.

“Somebody explain it for Kwin, he’s lost.”

“If we are, in fact, Outliers, and we’re already past basic, annoying phone etiquette… Explain to me, Zig-Zag Sutter, why I’ve been woken up the past two mornings with mirror selfies from you. In the group chat of all places,” Gabi admonished. 

“That’s right!” Kwin slapped the table. Some of the other kids in the courtyard glanced back their way. 

“I was wondering what that was about,” Jonah nodded. 

“Yo, everybody relax. There’s a perfectly good explanation for it.”

“The court would like to hear it,” Gabi crossed a leg over her knee and folded her hands, the picture of professionalism. 

“You guys know I’ve lost a lot of weight-,”

“All of it,” Harlo corrected. 

“And I like to show it off - shut up- but I can’t do it just anywhere cause I’ll get clowned. Nobody cares so I gotta vent where people do care,” Zig-Zag shrugged.

“Well we don’t care either,” Jonah shrugged. 

“Sure as hell not six in the damn morning.” Gabi added. 

“There’s also, like two more reasons. One, it’s everybody’s wake-up text.”

“I’d rather have a regular text, though,” Kwin smiled. 

“Also, I kinda like showing off how much better I look by the time I get to school compared to when I just wake up,” Zig flashed a rare grin.

“You look trash when you wake up,” Kwin chuckled. 

“Yo, will you relax?”

“You look trash now, too,” Jonah added. The group’s laughter unfortunately spread to Harlo, who was in the process of drinking milk. He instantly coughed it back up and sent the liquid spraying in all directions, thought most of it ended up on his face. The group roared louder as Harlo wiped his face with his shirt, still shaking with laughter. 

[strawberryjun]

one hundred reasons to love lee jeno

eye smiles !!!!!! hes all (∪ ◡ ∪) all the time

his we young hair !!! metallic and blond and Beautiful

"no jam-jeno" what a b a b y

hes actually hilarious trust the rest of nct just makes him look bad

his dancing !!!! he always tries so hard and I know a lot of ppl compare to jisung, but they have 2 completely different styles and hes amazing in his own way

in his joy interview when he literally did Not Stop smiling

baby dont stop dance cover with jisung

his fashion sense is really nice and cute and colorful

"manners make men"

when jaemin was trying to kiss him and hes all "no,,,, ,, , help me,,,, , , sa ve m e"

speaking of jaemin , ,,,, nomin,, ,, , icons

he named his airpods "jeno's shower heads" like honestly wow

the very beginning in we young where hes dancing in the front ykno and in go and in black on black: Powerful

his face when haechan called him the funniest member

his voice is so nice to listen and it makes his raps so much better

search up "60 seconds with jeno" and u will be b l e s s e d

when he was too excited during the go filming that he was running and ran into and broke the green screen

jeno was one of the members who could do a wheelie on a bike

he tried So Hard during the I love you game but couldn't keep going bc the smile :))))))

whenever hes disgusted by something and his whole face shrivels up and wow

his commercial with the milk when he was younger and the ~cutest~ smile I have ever seen + all the other cfs he was in

I talk about his smile a lot but during weekly idol when the host complimented it and he couldn't stop smiling UWU

such guitar skills !!!!

his eyes literally Glow like I was showing my friend a video and she now stans because the universe is actually in his eyes

his instructions on how to ride a hoverboard

whenever he gets excited it's so evident and beautiful

did a whole one legged spin on the hoverboard time to Stan

part of 00 line aka the ppl who are gonna take over the world

emceeing legend

is allergic to cats, but has 3 of them ?????

hes a taurus (like me wow our bdays r three days apart too !!) and taurus men r very affectionate and love giving gifts and making ppl happy so basically is the best boyfriend you could ever ask for

hes literally the lead rapper, lead dancer, a vocalist and a visual hes really Out Here

hes soft, and his face is soft and his voice is soft and Oof soft icon

he couldn't open the package so he just ,,,, ,,,,,, , ,, ,, started hitting it

"this is jisung" stabs the mochi

just think abt how much his voice changed in two years bro I'm weak

listen,,, , jesus starts with a j,, , ,,, and so does jeno,,, ,, , coincidence ??? I think not

on the most recent the show that hes emceeing, he did this lil eyebrow raise and he got so flustered and omg

he looks so good in hats ??? wow ???

at the end of the joy behind the scenes vid, hes wearin this rlly puffy back jacket and black cap and my heart: burst

he looks so good in glasses ??? not only like framed ones, but goggles too like damn

when mark, jaemin and him were singing go in the car and he just started screaming and made them all have a Chuckle

his beautiful white shirt in the go dance practice he looked so fly

doyoung being his number one fan (other than me, of course) and always hyping him up this is what everyone should do stan jeno

when he kept slipping during one of their performances and he just kept sheepishly smiling to himself I'm gone

dude when he was playing love yourself on the guitar and haechan was singing but jeno moved to the chorus when haechan wasnt finished the verse and the way he looked and smiled at haechan wow

his go photoshoot: Art

him in eye contacts (I mean he doesnt need them but mans still looks hot)

in the joy mv, his highwaisted pants thingy oof that was Good

whenever any of the members makes fun of him, he doesnt say anything and just smiles hes so lovely

he said he likes haek-no jam !!!! and that he wants us to remember him by that and eye smiles !!!!

his laugh is a sound from heaven tbh

he won the random dance because he is a dance legend !!!!

he always seems to look at people with the utmost sincere love I've never seen him mad

in the nct recording thing when the producer said that he sounded like mark and he just goes 'well that's no good' s a v a g e

speaking of the recording he sounded angelic and also he does like this lil turn right after he finishes his part and it's so cute he like bounces back bc he whipped around to hard

his face in the song challenge thing where he was focusing and his mouth was open and he was squinting and looking towards the ceiling

him and haechan pranked jisung but changing his bg to a cockroach no jam-jeno who ???? I only know prank legend-jeno

he always goes straight from his emceeing duties to his nct duties hes a busy loyal man

his fingers r so long ??? how

he looked like such a Nerd predebut ,, , but I dig it

during nct night night where he went on with renjun whenever he spoke he spoke so softly and beautifully and I Cried

ok but his body is really nice like wiki how to have a jeno body

that predebut vid of donghae taking pics of him and he like shoved him at one point bc of how shocked he was of their similar appearance but jeno just stood their smiling at him

theres this picture !!!! its part of the nct dream official goods photoset I think !!!! he has black hair and hes like pulling on a marshmallow and honestly Blown Away from the beauty of this boy (I'll post it l8r)

his hands r so so nice and I just want to hold them :(

his black hair !!!! wonderful !!!!

jAW LINE g u y s

k I already said abt his dancing but he just picks stuff up so quickly and hes so effortless but at the same time giving all his effort idk it's just Amazing

those polaroids of him and jaemin idk of it's the lighting but he looks so Damn Good in those

when they were trying to get the food using the grabbing machine and jisung failed so jeno just 'thank u <3' and proceeded to get three foods

that video where hes woth doyoung and he kept messing with him and slapping him

his color block sweater !!!! I love that sweater so much

the random faces he kept making at the beginning of the 00 live, the one featuring his tongue rlly got me

wHEN HAECHAN KEPT SPOILING GO SO JENO LITERALLY T A C K L E D HIM wow

that vid of him looking renjun then pretending he had nothing to do with it

when he thought that his wish wouldn't come true so he just ran around with his arm in the air

jeno grabbing marks leg and mark clinging onto him like a koala so he wouldn't fall while saying sorry for whatever he did

jeno looks soft but he'll kill u with his eye smile and strong arms bro

the vids of him and jaemin at school: Pure

that vid of jaemin speaking thai and jeno saying no when jaemin asked if he was cute

the thing he did with jisung where jisung made a buzzing sound and jeno pretended to catch the bug and when he shook his fist m8 I uwu so dang hard

when he played the crocodile teeth game with jisung and scared him and he thought it was so funny he had to lay back on the couch to laugh

I really,, , , love his eyebrows ??? idk if it's just me bu t his stylists must have a rlly fun time filling them in cuz they're already so perfect

his legs !!! so nice and long wow

the biting of his bread, almost as powerful as his dancing

jeno-imnida !!!

he always looks good but when he has those stupid filters it just makes my day

his cherry bomb aegyo !!

when they were waking up on nct life and renjun kept making that noise so jeno fell on top of him

on nct life when he was playing the guitar and just Setting The Mood

he said jaehyun was one of his favourite artists he just respects and admires nct so much

shoulders: Wide

hes an absolute god tier denim wearer

I think the question was something a long the lines of who would be the best emcee and they kept saying chenle but the whole time jeno was just in the back pointing to himself and trying to flex well guess what mOrk

sleepy jeno = clueless jeno =baby boy jeno

"jeno hwaiting !!!! hehehhe"

when doing the holding hands with jaemin his "I'll hold u like this, ,,,,, UAOOOoooOh"

right before the we young (?) performance markhyuck were arguing and blocking jeno fron getting to the front where hes supposed to be and so he just moved mark out of the way ICONIC 100. literally softest boy ever, loves his members and what he does so much and I'm proud of him and his no-jam there I said it

[felunacactus]

I saw Fall Out Boy in Fairfax and it was the greatest experience of my life

It's been two days since the actual concert but it's still fresh in my mind to where I can still make this post

•Jaden smith was absolutely amazing, wish I had listened to his music beforehand because it's all like really good

•He called us lit??? And I was like 'why jaden why' but followed it up with we were the greatest crowd he's seen since the tour started and I was super happy about that

•they had a little pre-show and like in between playlist going on and it included Molly, DOAB and LA Devotee, literally the entire stadium just started screaming everytime his face was on the screen. It was so funny and cool

•BLACKBEAR MAN, JJST LIKE AH

•I was the only one of the people I went with that knew any of his songs, and I didn't know all of them but I did like the ones I had heard and when he played them I was just getting it and freaking out while my mom and my friend were just like 'no tabby why'

•Blackbear's Sax dude was just living it up the entire time like YES MAN GET IT

•we also got a really nice drum showcase in between Jaden and blackbear which was coolio, I got a vid of it on my phone I think

•the longest wait was defenitly between Blackbear and FOB, they circulated the playlist about 5 times while they cleared the stage. But at least we had a nice picture of a wave to look at that started MOVING when the lights went down

•there was a little timer thingy and we were all counting down till when they came up out of the stage and I stg I saw petes forehead going into his little slot

•also VIP seats were 100% worth it? I mean eaglebank is a small arena so there isn't really a 'bad seat' but like I never thought I would be that close to any of them it was amazing

•the fact that they started with the Phoenix blew me away because there was like fire and shit and that's like one of my fav songs EVER and it just got me that much more hyped

•I thought I blew my vocal chords out about ten times during this concert

•they had big hero 6 visuals in the background of immortals, and I was loving it up until right before the chorus they played the clip of when the facility blows up right after Tadashi runs inside and I went from screaming to 'NOOOOO'

•at the end of one of the songs Andy was like standing on his drum set or something And then my mom and I actually realized that this man is much more covered in tattoos then we originally thought holy shit

•speaking of Andy, he got his own little solo bit while Patrick and Pete were going up on the little floaty stage thingy and it was so freakin amazing like he's so good

•The floaty stage was cool but scared the everloving shit out of me. Like I kept having visions of it just collapsing and one of them falling and I'm like grabbing my friend like 'WHY ARE THEY SO HIGH PLEASE GET BACK ON SOLID GROUND'

•although I did glance back a lot to the main stage because Patrick and Pete kinda had their backs to us during that because they were in like the back of the arena but they were on the main screen thing so I'd look at that

•and since Andy was kinda stuck in his little drum area Joe had that whole stage to himself and I could see him just making his way around it while he played and I was just like 'yesss you work that stage'

•My friend and I got into a habit of screaming 'hydrate yoself' whenever a performer went to go get a drink, starting with Jaden and going on

•there was a little Llama interlude which I loved, they had canons with t-shirts and I knew they wouldn't reach us, we were just a little too high for that but it was still awesome

•the I don't care visuals were the greatest thing I've ever seen. That is all

•Centuries had visuals of people kneeling during the anthem which I thought was actually super cool of them to adress controversy like that

•Diana visuals during Champion was a little sad, but nonetheless cool as heck

•Before champion when Pete was announcing the little champion of our venue he ended it with kind of apologizing for pushing it back and I felt the need to scream 'WE LOVE YOU' because we do

•after champion they left and I knew there was probably gonna be an encore but the interlude was kinda long and I got worried sometimes like 'are we not loud enough? Are they gonna come back??' But they did

•My Songs was literally the coolest shit because there was so much damn fire and it got 10 degrees hotter in that joint but it was amazing

•up until this point I forgot Saturday was a song, like I knew it but I forgot it was there and that's what they ended with

•CONFETTI EVERYWHERE, TSHIRTS FLYING FROM THE CELING, PETE WENTZ ON THE RAILING IN A BASKETBALL JERSEY AND PATRICK STUMP CHILLING ON OUR SIDE OF THE STAGE FOR A WHILE CAUSING ME TO DAMN NEAR START CRYING

•the end was amazing ^^^

•All of our arms punching in unison during Arms race gave me 5+ years to my lifespan

•save rock and roll was so beautiful I almost cried, like seeing Patrick there doing his thing and then the entire stadium was lit with our phones

•be careful making wishes in the PUNCH PUNCH dark dark

•the best thing about last of the real ones (which was amazing and like one of my fav songs ATM and was amazing live) was Patrick didn't have a guitar so his hands were free when he wasn't at the piano so he was able to just go down the little stage pathway with both arms and I'm like 'YES BBY GO'

•also every time any of them got close to each other or one of them went down the stage pathway I was screaming my lil lungs out

•there was a v good pupper service dog in front of us who was out cold the whole concert

•when FOB came back onstage after the llama interlude they came back in pairs, Pete and Patrick and Joe and Andy, who got significantly less screaming so I made sure to scream as loud as I could when they did something to show that they were loved and appreciated

•because Joe and Andy need more love and appreication

•Pete's jacket, I want it

•also the fluffy white tail thingy Pete had? Actually killing me

•Pretty much the whole band kinda went silent at the beginning of Sugar, Were going down and it was just us singing the lyrics and they looked so happy and I felt blessed

•what else made me feel blessed? Patrick skipping down the catwalk thing. Bless

•I got a planet fitness shirt that I need to cover when I go to school oops

•I wasn't able to get one of those MANIA project thingies but oh well

•I got a large coke, took a total of three sips of it

There is probably so much im forgetting that I'll remember later, sorry for the long post but I needed to share my experience with the internet

[konowhore]

Apart from wanna one, do you Stan any other groups????

Too many to count tbh lmao but let me give you a (not) short list

(sorry this was such a simple question and i’m sorry i answered it so long :/)

okay okay, this is aside from hotshot, the boyz, topp dogg, jjcc, nu’est(w), mxm, jbj, rainz, aa, or basically any group that came onto or from produce 101 because i already know most of them (except for d.o.b or boys24 because i never invested into them yet) 

(I really really love) B.A.P - (they were my first kpop group ever) My bias is YOO YOUNGJAE AND YOU CAN COUNT ON THAT

Teen Top - (hey there kenta sjndkajd) I LOVE LJOE WITH MY HEART BUT ALSO CHANGJO?????? 

Block B - (bOPS kiNGS) Lee Taeil is my lil smol

BOYFRIEND - (my boys that i missed so much) Youngmin is my fave but i also love Kwangmin and Jeongmin????? mostly Youngmin tho

MBLAQ - (LOOK THEY WERE MY BOYS TOO AND I-) SEUNGHO MY BUB

BTOB - (happy late 2000 days my bbys

BEAST/B2ST/HIGHLIGHT - my bby Dojoon is the bestest and I’m glad I stan such a dork

C CLOWN (TT) - I love Ray a lot and i miss them lots :/

UP10TION - All the Wei. :)

f(x) - Amber or Krytstal (I love them so much why does Ambs get hate why)

NCT 127 - Win Win (CUTECUTECUTE MY BBY INNOCENT AN ANGEL JIN LONGGUOS BEST FRIEND I WISH BUT YEH)

NCT U - Taeil (vOCALS MAN)

NCT DREAM - LEE JENO THE BOY I SHARE A BIRTHDAY WITH HAHAHDSJDBSJ (I also love you Renjun okay but don’t tell)

BTS - Jin is my fave, J hope is my wrecker (as well as V tbh) and honestly i don’t really watch their vids that much anymore

EXO - Xiumin and Suho are my bubs. iIused to bias Luhan and Kris but then they went up and left and I was like???? looks like I have my bbys Xiumin and Suho.

INFINITE - Sungyeol is definitely my fave. He’s so funny and he’s so handsome???? 

Super Junior - Kyuhyun and Ryeowook are my faves because theiR VOCALS

BTL - (ish. idk where they went ;;) My bias was QL but I don’t know them as much now :/

AlphaBAT - (their comeback only has 4 members and it honestly hurts to watch it TT) J:eta and H:eta were my faves, but I think they both left :(

SF9 - (BOPS BOPS LEGENDS TALENT PLEASE STAN) Hwiyoung for sure. I’m positive this time. Chani, Youngbin, Inseong, and Taeyang are just big wreckers

IOI - I love Yoojung and Yeonjung the most

Weki meki - Yoojung definitely but I’ll get to know the others more

PRISTIN - Eunwoo, Nayoung and Yuha (I love them all  sm tho)

PENTAGON - (SAME ABOUT SF9 TBH) It is confirmed that Wooseok is my bias (after arguing that Kino was my fave to my friend), but Kino and Jinho are a close second

MONSTA X - I love Shownu with all my heart please stan 

ASTRO - my soft bbys. Rocky is my fave

WJSN - Yeonjung (I’m such a fake Cheng Xiao stan wth)

BLACKPINK - Jisoo ( sHES A QUEEN MY PRINCESS)

Red Velvet - Irene and Wendy (My babes

Big Bang - Seungri (he’s so funny wth )

WINNER - Jinwoo (REALLY REALLY IS A DAMN BOP)

iKON - B.I (#wyd is my fave omfg)

KNK - Inseong :)

SEVENTEEN - Okay, the thing is there’s 13 of them, so how do I choose? I love S.Coups, Dino, and Minghao the most though

TWICE - Jihyo and Chaeyoung and Jeongyeon They can slay me all they want 

GOT7 - BAM BAM USED TO BE MY FAVE BUT THEN CHOI YOUNGJAE GOT UP IN OUR BUSINESS

VARSITY - I would say either Seungbo or Younho or Bullet

There are a lot more groups I stan, but this is just a few I’m listing off the top of my head :)