#i mean i dont know my mom taught me to not say anything if you dont have anything nice to say

[reflectionsofthesea]

You know what, I'm gonna write a small rant about language learning here, and particularly, about how entitled people can be when you talk about your language journey.

I remembered when I was talking to this acquaintance of mine, and since we were talking about hobbies and what we were up to, I mentioned I recently started studying finnish by myself with a book of exercises, and online resources, because I was very interested in the culture and language. This person proceeded to say, in the most sarcastic and condescending tone possible, that 'It was cool I was doing it, even though It would take me 3 years to learn what people studying it at university learn in 1'.

This person studied languages at university by the way, which is why I think they made this stupid ass comment. This just genuinely made me really mad and also kinda sad for them, because it felt like they HAD to downplay my hobby and passion for absolutely no reason other than... what? Feeling unresolved with theirselves for some reason? Threatened?? Something?? It felt like a snap back to me personally, a random cruel and mean comment just done because they could, since we never fought or had any unresolved business between ourselves that could've sparked the mean comment. I guess they just made a mean-spirited comment because they could, why not, right?

The casual ugliness of that response just pissed me off so much that I haven't basically spoken to this person since, which hey, at least is not that hard to do, since I always had a bit of an iffy feeling about them. I just saw them as an introverted person (like me), so I tried to get closer to them anyway and push myself to put more effort into developing a friendship because I relate to not being very sociable at times, and I know how hard sometimes it is to make friends. But if this is what I should expect out of my attempt to get closer to that person, then fuck it I guess lol!

I genuinely don't get why you would ever reply like that to someone unprompted, just casually shitting over their hobby and journey. Also, what if it takes me 3 years? What about it? Who gives a shit??? I'm having a lot of fun discovering this new language, studying and getting better bit by bit, it's engaging, it's interesting, I've discovered a brand-new world and culture, and it has become a fun hobby for me to indulge in when I have free time. It allows me to travel with my mind and have the prospect of speaking to my friends in their native language and maybe even make more friends, get to know more people, more about the country, and get the satisfaction of learning an entire new language.

What if it fucking takes me 10 years to do it?? Is this a challenge or a tournament over who's the fastest language learner? Do i have to prove anything to you just because I'm not going to university for it and studying by myself? Why the hell should I need to prove myself to respond to your ugly ass mean comment?

Sorry to put this here but honestly just what the fuck lol.

[syn4k]

if tumblr existed in empires s1 then the dashboard would look a little bit like this i think

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MY CAT JUST RAN OUTSIDE IN THE MIDDLE OF A SANDSTORM IM

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oh no are they okay?? i don't know how serious sandstorms are but maybe you could go after them?

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Sand blowing past you at upwards of 75kmh. It's also really hot sand. It's been known to literally strip the flesh off of bones wait post cancelled my cat just walked back in she's fine guys

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visiting the Mythlands today and me and my family found a neat lil natural floating island while hiking

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to the people in my notes going "what the fuck": have y'all never heard of physics?

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OP WHERE THE FUCK DO YOU LIVE WHERE THIS IS NORMAL

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western mezalea?? lol

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well that explains a lot.

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Can I Help You

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ain't emperor joel dating a fish

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yeah, they're married. Isn't Emperor Joey a demonfucker????

#dude why are the notes arguing over the ethics of being ruled by a demon 😭 what the fuck #op im so sorry

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...i'm in this class thats being taught by the headmaster today and she smells like weed. i'm not gonna say anything but like. what

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yeah the academy's just like that. as long as she's not like, actively dying or anything she's probably fine??? idk o7

#reblog

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I JUST GOT BACK FROM A BUSINESS TRIP WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THE COPPER KING'S GONE

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I DONT KNOW I DONT LIVE THERE BUT apparently nobody expected it either?? like some people are saying it was the Dragon Fight that did it (i know Emperor Joey came out with statements that Emperor Riffs actually helped kill the dragon and unleash the demon but its been two days and we all know that he hates that guy so idk) but nobody actually knows anything. it's crazy bro

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my mom said the royal housekeepers found a note from him alongside like everything he owned but they're not saying what's on the note yet. holy shit

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this will definitely have an impact on the local trout population

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the Guardian of the Thirteenth Empire just died and you're worried about fish???? be for real omg

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have you people never heard of references in your life

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why are you interacting with me i literally have "codlanders dni" in my bio

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my brother in cod you literally reblogged this from me??

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they blocked me lmao

#how is this post only 2 days old

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she dragon fight on my copper king til i disappear

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who the hell let a camel onto this site lol

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You will die at age 87 with nobody to mourn you and no stars still shining to watch you go.

#911 i just witnessed a murder

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anyone know who made emperor pearl's dress? it's really pretty :0

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West of the River of Plenty, Pixandria

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[sillyyuserr]

ever since chapter 108 tbhk has been getting progressively worse, after reading chapter 112 i had to take an hour long lap around my room before i could write this 😭

Chapter 112 analysis/thoughts

❗���obviously, chapter 112 spoilers❗️

aoi is seemingly less popular, and the burden of that has been lifted, her and nene also being much closer.

ALSO WHAT?? Like ok lesbians

Mei’s alive, which kind of confused me because she died due to illness?? But i guess not if shes here

This page really intrigued me, not because of kou or anything but because of what aoi says

She refers to teru as “teru-kun” differing to that of what she used to call him

Which i guess means she’s close to him too

after kou runs back to the stand it shows this

Kou and mitsuba??? HE’S ALIVE?? This is literally all we get of them so i don’t have much for this part

Nene singing at the play, having a thought just at the back of her mind, thinking she was wanting someone to watch her, but not sure who

Until they’re finally done, everything’s quiet, she looks up at the crowd to see

Hanako?? Im not quite sure if he was actually there or if she was hallucinating or something but she remembered him, enough to remember his name. ALSO HE KEPT HIS PROMISE AUGH 😭💔

i dont have much to say for this because i really dont know whats going on but im interested to see what happens next w/ them

This next part especially killed me

Teru is distressed, he’s fucking devastated, he feels betrayed and hurt by the only person he’s trusted as much as he has, teru reacts impulsively when it comes to something that weakens him. akane was right when he referred to him as a little kid, he is like a child, he does not know how to control his emotions since he wasn’t taught, and sure as hell not having a mom made it worse

also his face 😭 my mans is HURT

Him not knowing if he should treat akane like a human or like a supernatural hurts me. this reminds me of the picture perfect arc with hanako and nene, akane being in hanako’s place and teru being in nene’s. akane making the decision for the greater good that he doesn’t even fully believe in, just as hanako did when he made shijima make the painting

I have so much to say about this panel its insane

The tension goes CRAZYY but also wtf

The demotion from “aoi” to “clock keeper” back to “aoi” shows he really doesnt know. Also showing he really did trust him, but now that he’s done what he did, he doesnt know how to feel about him. The “you really let me down” again suggests he didn’t at one point, and he did like him. GOSH AidaIro sleep with one eye open tonight

Akane looking worried like that shows he really did care about teru too, and what he thinks of him, i mean like look at him he looks disappointed too, but in himself

His face he feels so bad 😭😭

Teru gripping his tie like he’s onna run away 😭 my mans ur ON TOP OF HIM i think you got him

Teru looking progressively more worried/concerned as akane continues explaining whats happened

Teru’s perspective shot on the top left is painful like the rest of this chapter, him looking down at akane with a face of disbelief, as akane removed his hand from his tie, and redoes it, explaining the rest.

again, reminding me of the picture perfect arc, with the whole “be here long enough and you’ll forget your past life” with again, akane in hanako’s place and teru in nene’s

Akane says this could be a better present for Nene, and we see her initial hope of being popular come true (also taking aoi’s problem away, as stated at the beginning)

but he also says this could be a better/more preferable present for teru aswell, which makes me want to see how teru’s life changed, and what akane considered something teru would want, and what he lost to gain it. (like how nene gained popularity but lost hanako and the connections she made bcs of meeting him)

Fuck i just realized something. Akane was under the impression teru has a crush on aoi so what if he made them closer as in like dating closer SHE CALLS HIM TERU-KUN is this what akane meant by “some people might prefer this ‘present’ over the former one. could be you president.” HUUH

i have a problem with saying “this will never happen, i know it wont, and i wont even consider it” and genuinely will be under the belief that it wont, but then it fucking happens and if thats what happened here i might as well archive my acc

Back to the current topic, as a wielder of time, an important part of making this present, is making sure there is no way his memories will be replaced too, or so im guessing. He says "some" and “their” instead of "we" or “people like us” when talking about the people that will forget the old present. Meaning if akane des remember, he will be so indefinitely alone and self aware (him knowing so much more than the rest of them) and have to play along with everything. Everyone else has the comfort of forgetting, which will make it much easier to adjust, meanwhile if things stay the same, akane will be the only one to remember and will be like this for as long as they stay like that.

Which i like this new one, as mitsuba and kou can be friends without one of them literally being dead, and how aoi can be more open and is closer to nene, but if this is how it ends (obviously not this chapter but if it ends with them staying in the new present) tbhk is so fucked.

its kind of a win-lose, lose-win type of thing, but either way akane’s cooked.

Todays a rough day for everyone 😭

[aonungyoufuck]

Runaway {pt 2}

Parts: One , Three

Synopsis: Small Family moment with your Brothers. Ao’nung confesses why he stayed. Ao’nung hissing at his mom 

“Sister. I bring you my hunt today” Lo’ak said barging in as if you hadn’t been asleep. 

Groaning, you rubbed your head as you sat up. “Eywa, Lo’ak you could have at least made noise just so i wake up normally”

“Sorry” 

You could see Neteyam come up behind him and smacked him. 

“You’ll be happy to know Everything is well in the family. Cant say Lo’ak hasn’t gotten into a few scuffles here and there however”

“ I have not!”

“Of course he did”

Neteyam nodded. He had always been able to confide with you as you two both had the same responsibility to look after your youngers. “I am guilty of it too tho. Had to make sure this Skxawng didn't get lost as sea as well” 

“Translation: He wanted to have fun” Lo’ak Said slicing the fish he had Brought to you

You could only roll your eyes as you took a bit of the fruit that had been left there. 

“I heard Ronal isn’t at all too pleased to know Ao’nung stayed here last night” Neteyam said

“HE STAYED HERE? AT NIGHT? WITH YOU?”

“Oh please I was asleep. Apparently the fool slept sitting” you spoke watching Lo’ak prepare your food. Luckily enough he was getting better and better. Perhaps your mother taught him a thing or two. “However, I am going to ask Ronal if she could Teach me. Not train me per say but hopefully something so i can repay her kindness. I mean once this baby is born its really just Tsireya. I would like to help her, you know?” 

“Hmm Maybe. If Ronal would allow you such” Neteyam said Splitting the food to you three. 

“Where’s The rest of the family?”

“Mom is preparing some food for Kiri and Tuk. I think Dad’s still Out with Tonowari? I dont know for what really tho so i cant really say” Neteyam spoke handing you bits and pieces of the fish and fruit.

It made you smile, and roll your eyes. You weren’t a child but it was nice of him to know he still cared for you as such. Even tho you werent at all that much younger than him. 

“I see” You nodded as you continued to eat. You should give Lo’ak credit for the meat being prepared well. 

“Its nice all of us. Eating like this” 

“Yeah cause we don't eat” You spoke feeling a hard slap to your side. “LO’AK?”

“You know what i mean okay”

“Lo’ak do not hurt our sister. Cant you see she is on her deathbed” 

“You both are the worst you know? It would be you dead if i hadn’t stepped in you know?” 

It was just this for a while. You didnt count the seconds that passed. You just basked in it. But soon they had to leave. You bid them farewell and to tell the rest of the family to enjoy their night. As you sat there. Waiting. And it hadn’t been long till you heard the jostling of beads at the door. 

“You may come in” 

To no one's surprise but maybe Ao’nung himself. He stepped in. “Mother brought this” he spoke, handing you the bowl of very still Wet Algae along with some roots that had been boiled alongside it. “Its suppose to help with any internal pain you may feel"

“Thank you” If it was bitter tasting well you didnt have to let him know. “ i heard you got one nasty cramp on your back since you stayed here last night”

“Well you heard wrong”

“Ao’nung. I saw you” You said giggling a bit to see his ears flatten. 

“Alright well what do you want me to do? You were basically giving me your last words last night. Cant exactly sleep knowing id be blamed for leaving you alone”  He said moving the mess your brother’s didnt exactly clean up. 

“Im sorry i left you on such a bad note” You apologized. Drinking the last bit of the bland broth and chewing on the roots. 

“Man. Your Brothers suck at cleaning you know?” 

“They tried their best” You could only chew harder. The question is harboring in your mind “may i ask you something?”

“You already did.  But go on” Ao’nung sat in front of you. 

“Do you think, I could ask your mother to teach me some stuff? Not Tsahik training or anything of that sort. But just to help her when your sibling is born?”

“I mean i dont think she’ll like it all too much. But she's a reasonable woman. So i know she'll teach you if you ask” Ao’nung took your fruit bowl from you and began eating “But you are the most Reasonable from your siblings too. Given you haven’t gotten into fights and you have learned our ways faster than your siblings. Well aside your sister” 

“ i guess you’re right, Maybe i did more good in not joining in on kicking your ass”

“Pff. You think you can beat me?”

“In anything Fish lips”

Ao’nung couldn't help but laugh. Making you smile as you watched. 

“I think this is the first time i heard you laugh like that. Its nice” you smiled at him looking at the floor as you felt your hair fall down. 

“Was the way i laughed before ugly or something?”

“Way to ruin the moment” you laughed a little rubbing your temple. “I meant in a sense where you aren't laughing out of mocking someone y'know?”

“Oh”

“Yeah oh” You Were getting tired. The food and the pain numbing as you laid down. “Now if you may. You better get going before your mother gets mad for you staying here again” you didn’t wait for a respond. Not that you could hold the sleep coming to you

But Ao’nung didnt move. His spear now at his side as he sat between your sleeping form and the only entrance to this place. He didn't know why. But something in him told him to just protect you while you were in this vulnerable state. 

He thought himself crazy. Why was he so persistent on caring for you? Why did he agree with his mother? Why wasn’t he bothered? But seeing you just lay there made him think. Made him fall back on seeing your body heave and wheeze with the pain of having an open wound. You were nearly dead. You almost died. It did not only affect Tsireya but himself too. 

He just kept watch grip tightening when he heard the faintest of noise. Tail laying atop of you making sure you kept breathing. Letting out a low hiss when he saw the curtain open. But quickly dropping his ears. 

“Ao’nung! Its time you head home” His mother spoke. Stern and cold. Looking down at you as you didnt stir. 

“But”

“No, I will not argue this. You are to go home and she will be sleeping here tonight alone. You can see her again tomorrow evening. I dont know why you want to but you can then. For now go home and head to bed” She ordered leaving no room to argue. 

She watched as he bit back his tongue. Standing up spear in hand as he walked out. Ronal only turned to look at you. Placing the wet paste on top of the sheer wraps around you. “ I dont get what this boy sees in protecting you. You are safe and alive. It should be enough” She muttered out. 

“Nete..yam” 

She looked at you. Your worried expression trembled as your hand shook and moved slightly, reaching out. She could only sigh in exhaustion. ‘Soon’ she thought as she had to think. She would rather swallow her pride than let Neytiri help her as she had offered for helping her children. But realistically what other option was there, she thought. 

“Hush now. You are well as is he” she could only whisper as if to ease your worried mind. Eywa had saved you, and that should be enough.

[fudanshidoublevision]

Double Vision as a father.

Ray better kill him before Double puts his bloody claws on MC and even thinks of forming a family with them. /j

Dude, no, imagine being his CHILD, i feel sorry for anyone who has Double as some type of...paternal figure, LMFAO.

Experiencing parenthood isn't on my “to-do list”. Plus having a child, on this ECONOMY? I'm good.

Parenting is a humbling experience, my parents had taught me AND told me that. Well, that is certainly my fault because I was the devil reincarnated when I was a kid— but they still call me their little devil so not much has changed I guess. ( ͡°з ͡°)

But in this scenario...even if the circumstances aren't ideal, I believe that anyone can do their best if they really want to, it's not easy. It isn't the children's fault that their parents are so troubled. (meaning, if their progenitor is Double Vision in this case, lol)

I've discussed this with my best friend once, a long time ago and they said something about how Double will view his child as a possesion and extension of himself (and yours too, because he would only care about that kid just enough 'cause you are attached to them), i kind of agree with him. But, I mean? If Double Vision has kids with MC, wouldn't that mean he is fond with the idea of having kids? I haven't mentioned nothing about him being capable of “baby trapping” you because everyone else is disposable to him but you aren't. For all he cares, he only needs to held you tight by your throat to remember that he only needs you, he doesn't want or need someone else. In this scenario, your child was planned and wanted.

Even if you loved your child, he will be uncapable of loving them back the same way you love them but he wouldn't be uncaring, dude is deranged and a major bad influence. Mostly because of the way he is and taking in consideration the fact that his parents were emotionally and psychically absent when he needed them around, it's not an excuse considering how in this similar scenario Ray didn't had NO good-present parental figures on his whole life but wants to try his best, it just kind of explains why he acts and why would he act like that. I'm not saying that Ray would be perfect at parenting a child just a bit better than Double for sure, not gonna lie Double gives me “crazy-unstable uncle” vibes.

He is not right in the head, neither i am but hey, this is not a competition for who's more deranged, so...someone has to be the relatively-stable and emotionally available parental figure. (Meaning, YOU.)

Just sane enough to not make a mini Double 2.0. Who can be worse.

He would care...and “love” (the way he “loves you” is pretty different) his own child his very particular way. Yeah, he would be cruel and a piece of shit to you but just a tiny mean and highly authoritarian towards his child.

me if our kid ever asks me why their father fucking SUCKS at giving advice and why is it always has to end up with someone getting hurt:

"Mini-me, if you ever need adivice, you can open up to me and say whatever is bothering that little head of yours. Keeping some ugly thoughts to yourself isn't good, whatever it is, I'll never judge you and you'll never scare me off....What about your dad...? Eh, he...just isn't the best giving out advice. Some people aren't good with their words...and tend to say things that are bad, sometimes it's better to do...whatever you think is right instead of following what others may "advice” you but you can always double-check with me to know if you are doing the right thing.

Why, you ask? WELL... what about if we just...OH, what if we go out for a bit? Would you like that? I'll buy you whatever you want. ANYTHING! Just...dont tell your dad, okay..."

It's sad but it's not easy to explain to children why their mom/dad/parent acts or behaves “weird” or is incapable of doing things their other parent can do.

Oh well, i believe Double's kid wouldn't question what their dad tells them to do or say because...that's their father, they don't know any better than what their parents tell them.

Double's parental skills aren't the best; he is driven by his own emotions and he is the definition of what impulsivity means. He doesn't care much about consequences and who he might hurt to achieve what he wants and what he NEEDS. (You, again, for example. He obliterated the previous Night Crew members because of your “disappearance”. He may or may not broken someone's bones and mayyybe, just maybe! I think... he threatened some people here and there to get your location.)

I thought that maybe he would use your own child as a weapon to tame you so you'll do whatever he says. Emotional manipulation and conditioning...not even that poor kid is safe from that, Double is VERY MUCH controlling and overprotective. No matter how you behave, he stills wants you but of course, he loves a defiant behavior but he can't deny that he enjoys it when you "make things easier".

After all, parents will do anything for their children, right? Oh well, I'll be guessing that you'll do that for the sake of your child. Sorry if I'm wrong.

It doesn't really matter how that child appeared or how they were conceived and brought to you two to form a family. Those little details don't matter, you'll try your best, right? No matter what. You don't have much of an option if you are with Double, I guess. ಠಿ_ಠ

But I have the feeling that this freak will be overjoyed if the kid, shares your and his blood and genes. Just another thing to reaffirm his ownership over you. I don't think he will be capable of harming his own child, psychically, I mean. Maybe he WILL threaten you and say he'll hurt your kid when you “act feisty” so you'll give up.

Double Vision wouldn't be jealous at all of his child if they take all the attention from his most beloved possession off him because they aren't simply a bit of a threat to him and that kid is just trying to bond with you, i don't think Double would even bother to get in between of the parent of his kid and his child. Unless it is to annoy you or just be insufferable, as usual.

I like the idea that he underestimates what his child is capable of doing, lol.

For my own mental peace, i didn't added details like “what if your child had abilities?”. Because I have the feeling Double will be up to NO good with that little piece of information.

But let's just sit and think about it, either way, if your child is an ability holder or not, doesn't really matter if Daddy Double is around. Anything is possible and who is he to deny his child's wish to follow his daddy's step? Villainy, I mean, lol.

He would be overjoyed and proud his child wants to be a villain, like his parents. Well, he still is a villain and MC is not longer in the business because of Double, LMAO.

If you'd like to enter a more dangerous territory well, what if his kid wanted to become a hero? Not even an option, haha.

It's not like they have one, being a villain or just a regular citizen, no child of Double is going to become a hero on his guard. He will be very open about his distaste on the wish of his child wanting to be a hero, he might be ticked off by that.

Maybe he is usually cold-headed when he interacts with his own child, I think it's enough with him having you in edge constantly, at least he wouldn't behave or treat them the same way he treats you. Even though, there are times that his patience runs thin (when annoyed or angry, not entirely directed towards his child) and could say some concerning things that his child may take to heart.

Parents knows best, I've heard from a certain someone say before.

Now, what if that child grows? Woah, they are going through the terrifying, horrifying, traumatizing, horrible phase of adolescence! Amazing, worst years of my life! ᕕ( ՞ ᗜ ՞ )ᕗ

They are slowing growing into becoming an adult, they might realize how different everything looks when you are a bit...mature, you become more aware of what's going on around you. They will notice about how some behaviors from their parents aren't normal and not what they seemed, I'm specifically talking about Double Vision but you get it.

Maybe they will develop a rocky relationship with you but I believe that no matter what they will still love you and care for you, maybe you'll become their favorite and appreciate more the way you cared for them, who knows. Maybe they will hate you because you didn't tried enough and had to choose Double Vision as their shitty dad (I think it's for the best if they didn't know the reality of your situation 😁), they will grew and distant but who knows...?

About Double, I have the feeling that for their own sake they'll ignore his dad's existence as much as they can, Double is aware of that and doesn't care that much but I won't deny that he might be annoyed by that and oh NO! They ended up being just like you and Double is going to pick on you for that and even say that is your fault why they hate him so much.

Maybe it's for the better if your kid ended up being more like you rather than Double.

Double is an only child so i believe that he'll only want one single kid but I don't think he would be opposed of having another one but MAYBE, just maybe, no!

But there's something I believe that everyone can agree on and that's on the fact that Double looks so fucking HOT with grey hair.

And oh my FUCKING God, his gloves? You can see his tattooed sleeves and his neck? I feel like a Victorian man seeing a woman's ankles for the first time. I want to break his senile back.

Conclusion, could you have kids with Double? Absolutely, will he be a good dad? Questionable but most likely, not. I think he might be like his parents, he exists but he isn't a reliable person for his kids, it's kind of difficult to come a conclusion because he is so complex to me, my opinion on him is always ever-changing.

OH YEAH, you and your child might be the only ones besides some of your family members who probably meet him wayyyyyy before, a long time ago, that know his real name. It isn't that relevant but one of the most important things a kid has to know it's their parents name and last name, right? Not that Double's real name is going to be used as much as you might think.

I wrote this solely because I had a dream where Double Vision was my uncle and he lived on my grandparents backyard??? Sick and I just wanted to post this because I spent three days of my life writing this and then chickened out.

This post in particular wasn't proofreaded (at all) by my friends that usually encourage to post my dusty drafts.

I hope you liked it, I might add some things to this post in the future...

Anyways, Haley bae is next. Maybe even Binary Star because I think having kids with him sounds scary, if you are aware of WHY ARE YOU having kids with him on the first place (canonically speaking).

How would Double actually act if he ever had a kid: /j

I had this video on repeat playing in my head while writing this.

[ciaran]

"do you think people are so simple, so easily understood—while you yourself are above it all, the sole experiencer of complexity and contradiction?" tbh that's often an idea that i fight off, but when i complain about not being understood by other people, they try to stroke my ego saying that i'm just smarter and superior and it bothers me. i don't want to be smarter than everyone else, i learnt so much just so i could communicate better and now i don't even have that. i just don't know how to make it possible to be understood.

i was also told that i was smarter and better than other people and that they would never understand me and i hated that. like i want to be known, i want to communicate, i dont want to be an island. i think what helped me personally was giving up on the idea that there is going to be some perfect magical knowing that opens me surgically and instantly lays us bare to each other. and to treat even superficial, ordinary conversations as though they are real connections. the eye contact i make w a woman at work when i refuse to play along w a weird joke on her behalf is Also connection. and i think like, most people are not going to Know me. they arent going to see me deeply or find me interesting or be able to understand what im trying to say. but one thing is...im willing to iterate. im willing to say the same things over and over in different ways until a way of saying it clicks, or until it sinks in...ive waited years for my mom to understand what my brain is like and she still doesnt get it but ive come a long way since what was when i was a teenager. i repeat myself a lot, i repeat myself to a lot of people, i find old ways of saying things and new ones. and these...processes of trying to be understood by others should not be a diminishing or a culling of the self to only that which is intelligible to an audience, hopefully, but there is a method to finding...common ground. and the way to find common ground is to listen to people closely, to listen to what they say and how they say it, and to find those threads...im not saying i find it easy. but when you look at what youve experienced, your feelings...the range of human emotion is not infinite. we all know shame, listlessness, terror, lust, the loneliness of being on the outside of something, the hurt of not being heard. don't look for people to have felt things in the same way, shape, or intensity as you. look for ways to say, when you catch these notes, "i know what that feels like, even though it was different for me - i know what you mean." what does being understood mean to you? does it mean that you talk and someone Gets you? or does it mean that...you look for what is inside you in the world around like piecing together a puzzle? listening to others, not because you are their therapist or anything of the sort, but because in the story they tell you might find some trace of yourself? all human connection should be selfish because unselfish connection is worse, its charity. if you have friends, i hope you are their friend for your sake as much or more than their sake. and if you listen to people closely, i hope you do it because you're looking for that point from which you start building connection and understanding. and sometimes people have to be taught to understand you, but often they want to learn, if you have a way of teaching it. you must imagine people as eager too, and lonely, and in need of being seen. you must imagine that someone out there feels what you do and the only way to find them is to talk to people.

[dog-bat3]

I’m going to animate this (don’t don’t Quote me on that)

Charlie 🐐 husk🐈‍⬛ Alastor🦌 Lucifer🍎 Vaggie🎀 lute🗡️ Adam🎸 angel🕷️ Valentino🎬 Vox📺 Velvette👗  pentious🐍 Cherri💣 niffty🪳 Sera👁️‍🗨️ Emily😇 Katy kj🦂 (she’s a praying mantis, but they don’t have praying mantises) Lilith 🎵

“I LIKE WRITING ON WALLS FUCK U SOCIETY- ADAM”🎸

“Adam this is actually a door not a wall- regards Society”👁️‍🗨️

“FALLOW YOUR 🌟DREAMS🌟🌈”🐐

“I literally only have nightmares”🐈‍⬛

“Question EVERYTHING”🎀

“Why?”🪳

“Yo on a sscale from one to America how free are you tonight?”🐍

“Germany 1942”🦌

“Do you idealize the past or see it as broken, why?”🗡️

“Dude I’m just trying to take a shit”🎸

“The future is in YOUR hands :D”🐐

“My dick is the future?”🎬 

“If harry potter taught us anything it’s that nobody deserves to live in the closet”🐐

“Except r Kelly”🦌

Writing on top of toilet “holy water”😇

Writing on the bottom “holy shit”🍎

“Is this as good as it’s ever gonna get?”🎀

“Conversations with strangers that I have never met and I will never know if I meet in the future…”🐐

“MY DICK IS THE FUTURE”🎸

“COCAINE IS LIKE A SUPER HOT GIRLFRIEND WITH PERFECT TITS”🎸

“That’s mean to you all the time and fucks other dudes (I should know)”🕷️

“STOP WHITE HIPSTERS”🐍(he has no idea what he’s saying)

“LOL please explain how”💣

“Tom loves my shaft”🦂”DVD with bonus features”🦂

“When I’m alone I like to fill the bathtub with tomato sauce and pretend I’m a meatball…. DONT JUDGE ME!”🐍

“Dude we’re totally judging”🐈‍⬛

Bad drawing of a shark “the largest eggs in the world are laid by sharks :D”🐍

“The largest women in the world is laid by your dad :D”🎸

“I FUCKED YOUR MOM”🍎

“Shut up dad you drunk”🐐

“Open books not legs blow minds not boys”🐐

“Why can’t I do both?”🕷️

“Big tits can’t make up for a small ass but a big ass can make up for small tits”🎬

Vox put quotes around it and ascribed it to “-Abraham Lincoln”📺

Writing on top of toilet “holy water”😇

Writing on the bottom “holy shit”🎸

“Is this as good as it’s ever gonna get?”🍎

“Conversations with strangers that I have never met and I will never know if I meet in the future…”😇

“MY DICK IS THE FUTURE”🎸

“For a good time call your mother for Sunday brunch… delightful.”🎵

“For a good time call your dad (he misses you)”🍎

“For a good time call THE-VEES”🎬📺👗

“For a good time call me Ishmael”🦌

“Good luck out there human”🐐 “Good luck out there human”😇

[letstrythisout4]

hi >. i saw your requests for prompts and requests and just wanted to ask if you could do like head cannons or even a story abot Blaise Zabini being a girl dad.

Like I know this sounds lowkey specific but could you please?

It's alright if you dont want to.

♡ ♥💕❤

Author note: this is much longer than I thought it would be, but I love it and it isn't even everything i thought of, thank you sm for this ask and if anyone else has anything they want to request or questions or anything please send me an ask

Blaise Girl Dad:

When Blaise found out he was going to be a father he was both ecstatic and terrified at the same time

Ecstatic because Merlin I’m going to be a father, I am going to raise a human being from birth into adulthood and help them through as many challenges as possible.

Terrified because Merlin I’m going to be a father, I am going to raise a human being from birth into adulthood and help them through as many challenges as possible.

Because of his own experience with his father (i.e. none), he felt incredibly conflicted

Logically he knew that a parent is a parent. Your job is to raise, protect, love and guide this human being as much as possible without taking away from their life. There are obstacles you won't be able to protect them from and in those times you will have to be the shoulder to cry on. And in turn when they succeed you will be their first and loudest supporter.

He didn’t need to have a father to know that

His mom made sure that (to the best of her ability) he never felt like he was missing something

Emotionally though…

Blaise loves his mother

His mother fawned over him

But there was always a question as to why there was no father in his life

His mother would never take anything or anyone away from him that could bring him joy and as he visited his friends as a four year old, he could see that fathers, just like mothers, should bring happiness to their kids 

When he was a really young he would ask her why he didn't have a father and she would comfort the confused child before explaining that why he may not have a father, to her he as miraculous as the moon, sun and stars and most precious of everything in her eyes

And so when Blaise found out he was going to be a father he made sure to make his child know -just as his mother did with him- that they were everything to him

Holding his baby girl in his arms for the first time was more than enough to reassure him that it was going to be so incredible simple to love his baby

Blaise doesn’t and has never liked the way so many speak of fatherhood

As if its some burden, “babysitting”, that kids need “discipline” and “punishments” for every little toe out of line

That having a daughter was “more difficult” than having a son

He hated being in public carrying his daughter, who was dressed in her favorite baby blue puffy princess dress, and being questioned

“Mom dressed her, eh?” someone's grandpa would ask, shaking his head at the admittedly excessive dress.  “No, I did.” “...” “She is a princess, what else would she be dressed in?” 

His daughter would be fussy and someone would say, “It’s because you spoil her.” 

“Spoiled”

Blaise hates the way people use the word spoiled

Because his baby is spoiled

But people seem to think that means she gets away with everything. Which is not true. 

Being a girl dad has made Blaise realize that people care way too much about the non-important details when it comes to kids. 

No, my daughter is spoiled. She’s a kid who wants to spend extra time on the playground. Time that we have. So yes, Blaise “spoils” her and allows her the extra time. Because why not? 

Being a father has taught Blaise that adults just like to tell kids no.

Blaise is incredibly aware that the time he has with his daughter is limited. She will grow up, she will not be dependent on him always. So yes he “spoils’ her.

Yes she can have another scoop of ice cream.

Yes she can have that plushie.

Yes she can stay up past her bedtime to watch him to some silly magic.

Because one day she isn't going to be five and wants to dress like princess Tiana everyday. 

Merlin, he spoiled her before she was even born. Every piece of furniture in her nursery was built by him, by hand. 

He spent an unholy amount of money on stuffed animals and books she wouldn't be able to truly engage with for years. 

And an even greater amount of money on books about raising a child, psychologically and biologically

Ever since he knew he was going to be a father he has been active in his daughters life and has said that watching his daughter grow is the biggest blessing he’s ever had.

He loves every moment he has with her. 

When she said that she wanted him to be her partner for her ballet performance, he agreed without hesitation.

When she wants to take taekwondo as an eight year old, he signs her up immediately

When she magically turned his hair pink, he laughed beside her.

And this continued on as she grew up.

He felt his eyes water as they stood on Platform 9 ¾ for her first year

“You said you wouldn’t cry”

“I’m not” he did

He’s the kind of parent to send his daughter lavish gift baskets

His daughter never spends Christmas at Hogwarts, if she wants to spend it with her friends they can come over to the Manor too, there's plenty of room

And most importantly, she would never want to spend Christmas at Hogwarts.

His love is not one sided. His daughter loves him back just as much. Nobody is allowed to talk shit about her dad or her grandmother. She will curse them into the next century.

That’s her dad. Her day 1. Her ride or die. She knows that in any situation she can call on him and he will come. 

And it sets up such a lovely understanding of what care and love look like.

The respect, care and autonomy that Blaise allows his daughter allows her to become such a well rounded person. From the moment she could express her opinions, wants and desires, he has respected them and aided her in acting them out/ achieving them.

He will support her till the ends of the earth

(also she is very much best friends with he kids of Blaise's fellow slytherins .... feel like i should say that)

[im-out-of-it]

season 1, episode 5 discussion post

1. “Emotions are nothing but a distraction, you’re ruled by them. we’re taught to control them:” -Alec. in his own way, he’s got a point. he wasn’t able to complete the ritual or whatever so clary could get her memories. he may not be doing the best but his point is, he’s trying to control them so they don’t rule his entire being. but parabatai’s can’t fall in love (due to CC and her weird ass writing) (and the incest shit she loves) (and this is another reason why I hate Alec + jace pairing or whatever you want to call it)

2. Alec is in charge of the institute so if that means taking the portal necklace so Valentine can’t try to get in the institute, then that’s his responsibility. “If I were Valentine, I’d make you think that you could rescue Jocelyn. And then I’d lure clary to me and leverage her life for the cup.” this is actually funny because it’s almost what jace and clary do. they go and rescue Jocelyn and almost give Valentine the cup lmao

3. god these two are so fucking exhausting

4. “Valentine is a real threat. He can’t be handled by three and a half shadowhunters” HE CALLED YOUR ASS OUT 😭💀 I love that Alec doesn’t even think she’s a full ass shadowhunter because same

5. “I’ll take that risk on my own.”- clary “the problem is you’re not on your own. you’re part of us now.” thank you Izzy for telling this self involved half shadowhunter dumbass that other people are involved. literally clary is running around this place acting like she’s in charge and throwing out orders. GIRL THERE ARE MULTIPLE COMMUNITIES AND SPECIES INVOLVED BUT I GUESS CLARY KNOWS BEST?

6. and this is something that always bothers me about clary. she thinks the cup only affects her. she thinks she can go on these million errands and barely plan stuff and say a little sorry and be fine. I don’t think she genuinely cares that it’s not just about her.

7. “she sounds more like a friend than a mom.” right you are Izzy. and it’s probably why we are here because Jocelyn didn’t parent clary. I get Jocelyn wanted to keep clary safe but she should have found a way to do that while also informing clary of dangers. it reminds me of Benedict and Tatiana Lightwood. he never trained her and taught her anything but to cry and scream revenge when she didn’t get her way. even if you don’t want her to be a shadowhunter, that’s her choice to make but at least prepare her

8. I do like these two being besties. I wouldn’t want to be clary’s bestie (I mean who would? I’d die by irritation) but I like this change. in the books Izzy is mean to clary (rightfully so) but clary is also rude to Izzy in the books. she doesn’t like Izzy mostly because she’s pretty, and clary makes a point to say this about Maia. I think it’s something “curvy and pretty? oh I hate her” it’s something above those lines. Clary is so fucking misogynistic in the books. she has internal thoughts about how guys are gross and misogynistic but she’s doing the exact same thing. that’s why I do like they changed this in the show

9. I love Izzy. she’s such a girls girl

10. “you look just like your mother.”- Maryse. ok so why is everyone saying clary and Jocelyn look exactly alike? THEY DONT

11. I hated finding these gifs BUT THEY LOOK NOTHING ALIKE. even in the books, clary first starts out saying that she never saw the resemblance and how her mom is prettier and then basically goes the next couple books saying how she looks just like her. y’all aren’t the twins you think you are. Jocelyn even says how it’s the hair. clary’s hair here is orange and Jocelyn’s is more of a dark reddish brown (I think??????) I’m sorry but they look nothing alike lmao

12. Maryse comes off as a rude bitch but I can see why she’s upset. this child has been running errands, not informing the clave, and just doing whatever the fuck she wants. everything that is getting reported from the New York institute is in the hands of the lightwoods. you also have to look at it from the clave’s perspective. THEY HAVE VALENTINES DAUGHTER RUNNING AROUND

13. isn’t it kinda funny that Maryse is watching jace in admiration and next season she’s going to be helping in his arrest 💀 awkward 😬

14. “shadowhunters aren’t big huggers” Izzy says as Maryse hugs jace right in front of her 😭 barely even hugs Alec but at least he gets a kiss on the cheek. SOMEONE GIVE IZZY SOME LOVE

15. side note- I feel this for Izzy. my parents always preferred my brother over me and parents doing this in front of you hurts. poor Izzy season one

16. “I have seelie friends.”-Izzy “I know all about your friends” Maryse. girl did you just insinuate your daughter is a slut?

17. SHE IS JUST COMFORTABLE WITH HER BODY AND THATS OKAY!!!!!!!!! I really hate how a lot of people were branding Izzy a slut because of how she was dressing. CC during this time tweeted hateful shit about Em. I can’t remember the wording but it was something about how Isabelle doesn’t dress that way (which she did) and then she changed Izzy later in TDA wearing longer outfits and stuff. why does it matter how she dresses? why does it matter if she likes to fuck? men get away with it and can fuck whoever and it’s not a big deal but if a women does it, shame on her. she’s only seen so far with meliorn so why are they making her out to be some whore? who cares if she has many friends? Jace does the same but no one ever talks bad about it

18. side note- Izzy is fucking beautiful and she can wear whatever she pleases. I love her outfits and I love a woman who is comfortable with her body 👏🏼

19. “we stay separate from the downworlders for good reason. the wrong move, the wrong word. do you think there’s such thing as harmless rebellion. who knows what offends these creatures?” girl wait until you find out your son is about to date the most infamous (just saying) high warlock of Brooklyn lmao Maryse is part of the problem because she’s treating them as some enemy she can’t have civil discussions with. she treats them as almost less than and one of the reasons why valentines rebellions worked I’m assuming. I want to know what happened after Thomas and Alastair’s time of lightwoods to roberts time as lightwoods. what happened to y’all? there’s so much hate.

20. “Alec. I want you with the Fairchild girl. she’s caused enough trouble and I want her under control.” indeed she has but why must we punish Alec? 😭 boy has been through enough

21. Clary’s excuse is because she just found out about being a shadowhunter. I will give her points because this is true but she is 18 years of age. she knows right from wrong. she’s gone to school in the mundane world so she understands the world of order. one of my problems with clary is that she acts like she’s some 12 year old when she’s legally an adult. you know that every government has rules. we all get she misses her mother but when she risks the safety of everyone and is careless and self conceited, it’s hard to have sympathy for her

22. “the clave counts on us lightwoods to retain order.” GOOOOOOOO MARYSE TELL THAT CHILD BASIC COMMON SENSE

23. “What did you do to piss off your mom?”-clary “I’d guess for a start, all the unsactioned missions on your behalf didn’t go over that big with the clave.”-alec. LITERALLY SHE THOUGHT SHE COULD GO RUNNING AROUND AND THERE WOULDNT BE CONSEQUENCES SMH

24. same Alec, same. that’s how I feel when she talks

25. “I love you alec, we’re parabatai” jace, you just hurt Alec 🙃 alec really was like you love ME? poor soul

26. Alec is like that’s not what I meant bro 😭

part 2 coming near a theatre near you ✨

[carelessflower]

a HC that has been expanding - inspired by the fic between the lines

Tw/ mention of torture, and mention of rape, mention of murder

Magnus and Alec have been dating for 5 years now since they were 20 (known each other since they were 16), and they are engaged and have adopted baby Max.

There is a sitaution -

Magnus never told Alec about what and who his father

Asmodeus has been in prison since he Magnus was 19, for arson, however he has mudered, exploited, extortion, rapd and traffickig. Witnesses never stuck and evidence doesnt lead to him, the arson incident was witneessed and recorded

HEADCANON BEGINS:

While Alec and Max was out with his mother, Magnus is at his appartment renovating when his phone rings, and Magnus answers and was met with a worried tone from Ragnor saying:

"Have you heard? Has Johnathan called you?" Ragnor says, his voice shaky,

Magnus was now confused

"No he hasnt rang. Why? Whats going on?"

Ragnor just tells him right there and then

"Your father is out of prison"

And the world stop's for magnus for a second as he felt his heart thump quicker.

"When did he get out."

Ragnor was quite and Magnus heard Raphael voice

"Yesterday, are you safe?

Magnus looked around and grabbed a pen and began scirbbling on a piece of paper as he tapped his left foot.

"Magnus are you safe?" Ragnor's voice repeated as Magnus heard shushing in the background.

"Yeah..I am, my dad he wont come to me not yet..if he wants to make himself known to me, he would, he doesnt know where I live." Magnus said as he threw the pen at the opposite end of the room, hitting the wall.

"Raphael says that have you told Alec?"

Why now? Why? FUCK

"No I havent..I..shit Ragnor I cant.."

"what the fuck do you mean you cant? Havent you told him about your dad?"

Magnus was now fiddling with another pen, twirlling it around his fingers.

"I was going to tell him truth!" Magnus got a notifcation from Alec which wrote "at a cafe do you want anything" magnus quickly typed coffee.

After a few awkward minutes, Ragnor spoke again.

"Magnus why didnt you tell him?"

"Max died then, and he was murdered, Alec was distraught and so was the rest of his family, they didnt know who kil - " pictures of his dad's friend covered in blood, a small child's body in the car, and the exchange of money.

"Ragnor my dad killed him, he told me when I confronted him about it, he said that the Lightwoods needed to be taught a lesson."

"Why the fuck didnt you tell the policr about this?"

Magnus repsonded back "I was scared Ragnor.. ive seen him do a lot of bad stuff, I did bad stuff, if i snitched and sent my dad to prison, sure as hell was going to drag me down or worse - my dad he doesnt torture just to get revenge or petty, he enjoys it...Ragnor...

The door opened, and in came Alec holding two coffees and a brown paper bag that smelt of bakery.

"Alec is here, gotta go" he hung up as he kissed his fiance

"Where is Max"

"He fell asleep at mom's so I left him there, gonna go back though, everything okay, looks like youve seen a ghost."

Magnus let out a chuckle as sipped his coffee and took a bite out of the doughnut.

"Alexander..I need to talk to you about something, can you sit down."

"Is everything okay?? Do you want hold off on the wedding? Dont you w-" Alec sat down as Magnus grabbed his hands and placed his hands in his.

"Its about my biological dad?"

Alec raised a brow at this,

"Your dad???"

Magnus felt his world collapsing, as a future with Alec and his son not by his side.

"Magnus, what about your dad? Your scaring me?

Magnus eyes stared into his

"My dad did some bad stuff"

"Like what?"

"He was in prison for a minor charge arson and assult, and he got 6 years, he could have gotten a life sentencd, but there was no evidence, witnesses and his assosicates didnt give him up an - "

"Okay Magnus, just take some deep breaths. And tell me what did he do?"

Magnus muslces tensed, as his hands were sweaty and cold.

"He was a crimelord, he traffiked, exploited, murdered, raped , he tortured."

Alec just looked at him

"Did you know?"

Magnus stayed silent and looked at the floor. He felt Alec stand up as he was pacing

"Thats why you were - you knew and you didnt tell anyone. You fuck Magnus, 6 years thats this year?"

"He got out yesterday." Magnus whispered, not looking at Alec who was pulling at his hair

"Are you safe here?"

"Yes" Magnus respnded, he hoped he was safe in his appartment.

"I want you to answer me some questions, yes and no answers okay?"

Magnus finally looked at Alec, as he had tears in his eyes.

"Okay"

Alec asked the first question, which made Magnus wince.

"If your dad never got out, were you going to tell me."

"No but Alec - "

"I said only yes and nos. Next question, you were uncertain you wanted to adopt Max, was that because of your father?"

"Y...yes."

"Did your dad ever abuse you?"

"No" a question Magnus has been asked multiple times

"Have you hurt somebody?"

Magnus looked at Alec..he looked at the door, and back at Alec, and then the photo frames of them two and then a few with Max.

He didnt want to cry

"Yes."

"Have you killed somebody?"

Magnus nodded,

"I..I cant be around you at the moment, im going to my mom's okay..god." Magnus eyes were on alec, as he grabbed a bag and packed his stuff and Max's.

He coudlnt speak, he was frozen, his legs was stiff

Alec looked at Magnus and mouthed a love you before closing the door.

He felt sick, his heart was thumping, his feet tingled, tears pooling out as he heard his phone ring, he stood up, shaking, he saw it was Catarina, he declined her call, as he felt dizzy, tears made it difficult to see, as he wiped his eyes with his sleeve, as his phone buzzed again, and again it was Catarina, he sighed angrily and answered but was met with silence.

"Hello Magnus, long time, no see." That was when he froze.

"How...is Cat ?"

"ohh Catarina is fine, arent you my dear.." he heard her cry, Magnus saw red,

"If you want to see her again, meet me on Washington Street near brooklnn bridge."

"What makes you think i wouldnt call the cops"

His dad laughed, as Cat let out a cry again

"Okay..okay."

"Anyway im a free man, even of you do snitch..ill just tell your little bitch of a fiance what you did. And ill make sure he never sees you again. So meet me there in an hour, or the pretty white haired gets it." He hung up, as Magnus screamed, grabbing his jacket, he looked at his phone, and called for a cab, half an hour.

Half an hour.

Thats bassicaly it.

ANON THIS IS SO GOOD I WANT MORE PLS GIVE ME MORE

[ducknotinarow]

Ramble about: 2k3 Raph! Uuhm gimmeanything uwu soft preferably but anything uwu

|Send me the name of one of my Muses you want to learn more about, and I’ll ramble about them.

This turned into random soft head cannons XD

To this day Raphael still visits Mrs. Morrison, He visits with her pretty often at least twice a month at most? about eight times a month. He still helps to make sure she can afford the place she lives when ever the opportunity arises.

Its not like a secret but he also doesn't announce it either. Everyone is used to Raph dipping out on his after all they just don't know hes off having tea with this old women.

Usually only Casey knows that's where he is, past has shown it's good for someone to at least know where they are.

shes basically grandma to him, Raphael has told her all about his brothers and father and even Casey. She always asking if Casey or him have popped the question yet. And likely would like to meet Casey as well to congratulate them.

Speaking of Raphael's stays he is in contact with Tyle as well. The kid he ran into and helped out.

Because the kids mom was in bad with the mafia though, Raphael found a way to help them move. Likely roped Casey into being the moving man well he hid around to make sure they got out fine.

Every so often Raph gets a letter from them (uses Casey Address) and will write back as well.

Even after his and Yvoones falling out because she lives out on the docks a place he often goes too

Raph actually kept suspicious peps away from her home set up if they were sniffing around there. He may been mad at her for a time but didn't mean he wouldn't look out for her

Course that means Caseys around to help in case there a bit to many low lifes around.

Yeah Raphael has let Casey know about all of this stuff he dose, Raph can't help it when he dose manage to feel close to someone he can't really help but still look out for them.

surprisingly Raphael is very open with Casey but all of this is thanks to Casey in Raph's mind.

I had him state it in reply before but to Raphael Casey is just a great guy who looks out for others. And Casey makes Raph wanna be better especially since the whole city wide gang war. Where Raph was acting selfish and didn't want to be involved in the mess.

In that Casey has influenced Raph to being more open to looking out for others.

Which is fitting seeing how Casey was Raphael's very first stray

Raphael and Casey may have a hard time with the more emotion bits of things but Casey is someone Raph has shown vulnerability to often. Because Casey seems to know best how to talk to Raph, usually he can understand why he's upset about something and instead of reducing him to the hot head he listens.

Raphael isn't much a talker but he will listen to Casey. Either to clam down, when offered to hang out together or when being made to see he might be in the wrong. (07 roof top scene) Casey if he wants can also talk to Raph about whatever and Raph listens to every word.

As a tot another of his favorite games was pirates. Mostly he used to be a butt to Donnie and say he was gonna catch all the mermaid. meaning he try and take their doll it was a game of course but I'm sure Donnie didn't always like it.

The reason he likes the docks so much is because those times he just went to the surface with Splinter they had to hide away there once. Wanting to keep is son clam Splinter acted as if they were simply watching the boats there, and now its where he likes to be when he needs that extra bit of clam. He loves the ocean uwu hint hint

He used to play the villain a lot for Mikey's games of super hero that I'm sure all his brothers got roped into.

Raphael was taught how to knit by his dad in hopes it help him relax. Raph dosen't do it often but he has made stuff for people like a scarf for Splinter, on for Casey. He acts like he can't do it but i'm sure his brothers knows come winter they gonna find some hats or whatever else in thier rooms waiting for them. Just dont directly mention it to Raph hell deny it.

[forjongseong]

PART 9! HERE WE GOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Jay mopping the floor, using the mop handle like a microphone stand.

we already KNOW thats him irl dhsjakdhajk

“Let me love you,” he sang, dipping you and kissing your collarbones. “Good morning, my queen.”

me giggling all ugly and shit MORNING JAY

He’s really a malewife at this point, you thought.

MALEWIFE DHSJAKDHAJK teach me how to make mine one too

“I checked last night and I think you’re running out of pads, but I forgot which one you use,” Jay explained, stepping closer to the shelf of pads. “Is it this one?” He asked, pointing to a pink packaging.

no really, jay. HOW DO I TEACH MY BF THESE MANNERS? THANKS

“Because being a woman is fucking expensive, love,” you chuckled as you replied to him.

DUDE this is so true. pads are fucking expensive. i said the exact thing to my man too when we had to run to the store to buy me some dhajskdhjakdhak he was so shocked at the price ):

You laughed at his reaction and gave him a pat on his shoulder. “You’re a good man, Hwi. If you’re dating someone, let me know. I need to make sure she’s not taking advantage of my assistant.”

I WILL NEVER TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THIS BEAUTIFUL MAN OMFG DONT DOUBT ME

“Jay,” you whispered, “I don’t think I have the energy to do anything.”

GIRL SSSSHHHHH HE WANTS IT HE WILL DO IT

“You mean like… somnophilia?” Jay asked.

THE WAY I FUCKING GASPED WITH MY JAW DROPPING. THE QUEEN HAD SPOKEN INTO THE MIC, JAY. DO AS THE QUEEN SAYS AND STFU

Jay closed his eyes and bit his lips, almost as if he was imagining it happening. “Please don’t judge me, but that actually sounds hot.”

JUDGING U, JAY e_e

“Because you should give people the stuff that you like,” you answered, remembering that it was a lesson your parents taught you when you were young. “I’ll finish the gingerbread latte.”

“It’s okay, baby, I’ll drink that one.”

THE WAY WE TALKED ABOUT THIS SCENE WHEN U WENT AND GRABBED BOTH DRINKS TOO omfg nana now seeing jay in display im crying bye

“Oh, it feels nice to be called appa by a daughter,” he said, placing a hand over his chest sentimentally. Jay rolled his eyes and just dragged his father to the front door.

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO JEALOUS JAY I AM WHEEZING

“Sweetheart.” Jay’s mother turned to face you, wiping her hands on her apron before she put her hand under your chin to tilt your face up. “You’re not letting anybody down as long as you love him. And believe me, he adores you.”

from experience, FELT. you never wanna disappoint anyone and try so hard to learn to do something for the one you love. and sometimes, you feel like you have no one to turn to or tell to even though you should be able to tell that certain someone. fhjaskdhjak sorry for blabbering T_T like myself for example, i was really afraid to be a part of my bf's family when he proposed. i was scared that i wasnt going to live up to anyone's expectations. but his mother really helped me because i didnt have my mom to teach me while growing up and i didnt know how to do anything. so im very thankful for all of this hdjaskdhjak OKAY ENOUGH ABOUT ME

“I’ve noticed that you’ve been slapping my ass quite often,” you commented, taking a cotton pad and drenching it with micellar water. “Do you like it that much?”

“Can’t really blame me. You’ve got a cute ass,” Jay shrugged, reaching for the remote.

AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH THE ASS SLAPPING SCENE DJAHSJDKASHAHAHAHA I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS MOMENT

At the same time, Jay spotted you from a distance, and he sent you another text as he smiled, keeping his eyes on you.

I GUSHED AND MELTED AND SCREAMED SO LOUD HAHA

“Guys,” she said, flipping her hair back to look at the rest of the group. “Jay’s auntie is here to pick him up.”

NO WONDER SHE'S AN EX-GF LMAO BYE BITCH

Jay moved to shield you from their stares and gave you a warm smile. “I’ve talked with them enough. I’d rather keep you company now. Two minutes, okay? Don’t go anywhere.”

S T A N D A R D <- DONT TALK TO ME IF U AINT JAY

“Baby?” Jay sat up, watching as you made your way to the kitchen.

BABY T_T im sitting back down

He moved closer to you and took your hand, bringing it up to his lips for him to kiss.

WHO PUT ONIONS IN FRONT OF ME?

“For the first part, you can say my parents raised me well,” Jay explained. He put his finger under your chin and tilted your head up. “And for the second part, I just watched a lot of porn and romance movies, to be honest.”

HAHAHDSHAJKDHAJKDHAJKS SHUT UP JAY IM WHEEZING

“I read a lot of smut,” you said, matter-of-factly.

THE EXPOSURE SADFGHJK BYE

“I’m gonna go shower, and if you’re still working by the time I’m done, I’m gonna get mad,” Jay said. He leaned in to kiss the top of your head before disappearing. You just smiled and continued to work.

ouuuuu so scary~

“Your hands can continue to be occupied,” Jay said, his hot breath tickling your thighs. “Please stroke my hair.”

BRUHHHHHHH omfg ofc jay anything for you!

“That’s sexy,” Jay commented. You just raised your eyebrows and nodded. “You’re sexy.”

THIS IS SENDING ME BYYYYYYYYYYYE I AM GONE NOW

“But wear the kimono again,” he requested. “It’s a great color on you.”

#TEAMFERAL

“You made me wait for sex for two days?!” Jay spat.

THE WAY I LAUGHED BECAUSE HIS ASSHAT DHJASKDHJASK HE DIDNT ASK EARLIER LMAO

The actual late-night snack can wait.

CRYING YELLING PUKING

NO BECAUSE I ALREADY FORGOT WHAT I WROTE HAHAHAHHA READING THIS MADE ME THINK A LOT LIKE what scene is this??? did this happen??? KAJHDSJKASHDSA

glad some parts are relatable! sometimes when I write I worry if the scene is too perfect or too good to be true but then comments like yours remind me that LIFE IS LIKE THAT sometimes

NOW GO DESTROY PART 9.5 BEFORE I RELEASE PART 10

[philosophicalparadox]

In my mind a clothesline is dangerous, because I was always taught it was. Leaving clothes outside when damp invites flies (mainly botflies, nasty little skin parasites) and chiggers (bigger cousin of the tick) which both like warm, damp places to hide. Chiggers can't fly but unlike ticks they can crawl up smooth surfaces, so wrapping your poles in pvc does not help.

Blue bottle flies (one of the most common pest fly here in the US and frustratingly the prettiest) will lay eggs anywhere that's damp. Anywhere. I've physucally watched them lay eggs in meatloaf that was not out of the oven more than 10 minutes ago. (Can you say barf?) If it's damp, it's a good place for eggs, since their maggots eat pretty much anything (except living tissue, funnily, which is why this species in particular is used for wound care).

And both they and their close relative the green bottle fly will happily lay eggs on damp clothes. Part of why i think strong smelling detergents became so popular here, maybe. Its one of the better ways to keep pests off your hanging clothes - clove oil is best, but lavender has been common since the 1860's because it's soothing and most flies (and mosquitoes) hate it.

Whats more your clothes are then subject to the weather unless they are sheltered. High humidity and heat means clothes will mildew very quickly if they're not in direct sunlight - which might be ideal but what do you do if the forecast throws rain at you? Take wet clothes inside and let them sit until you can re wash and re dry them? Or let them be rinsed by the rain? (Not a bad idea since rain is technically mostly sterile until it hits something). You'll have to probably re wash them either way unless you get a lot of sunlight right after.

Idk I grew up in Oregon, a very rainy state, where air drying clothes is only ever practical in summer, maybe, if it's not too thick of a garment and can dry in the span of a few hours, with a healthy spritz of eucalyptus oil to keep off flies that were a perpetual plague on account of living near a farm with pigs, a house that bred show rabbits, and a big open lot full of poison hemlock, which flies frickin love. My mom grew up in the Midwest and was terrified of Botflies (rightly so, they scare me too) so hanging clothes to dry was reserved only for things too big to fit in the dryer, like area rugs, or things that would perish in the heat, like real lace made from real linen, or merino wool garments - those were the only ones we never worried about much cause the flies didn't seem to like felted wool and it dried so fast it wouldn't matter if they did.

Idk why most Americans use a dryer but it's quite inconvenient not to unless you have a ample space or a sunroom. Most houses/yards here aren't built with a clothesline in mind, and most Americans I gather consider them inconvenient at best, on account of needing to mind the weather, the temperature (sometimes - depends on what you are drying), the humidity, and whether it's the height of Bug Season.

Perhaps someone from a cold wet part of Europe or a hot and humid climate could elucidate. Most of what I know about air drying comes from exchange students from Japan, and they aren't really a great comparison because designated Drying Rooms are common in Japan. In the US you might get a Sunroom, but they're not really common, and are more like an attached greenhouse. Sunrooms get HOT but they dont often have a lot of ventilation.

Ok, so something I've noticed that is utterly baffling to me is that all the Americans I know primarily dry their clothes using a machine called a dryer. I don't even own a dryer. So, I need to know:

[theuniverseawakens347]

Me putting your body out there for you bitches in botched competition is NOT A COMPLIMENT- ONLY MEN N WOMEN CHECKING FOR IT IN FLATTER OF YOURS VS THEIRS IS WEAK MINDED MEANING RAPE VICTIMS.

- MANY LEVELS TO RAPE CULTURE.. psychological physical sexual and emotional and ME FUCKING SPIRITUAL - ALL THESE BITCHES WHO LOOK LIKE ME OR PUTTING MY DETLA DNA BREAK DOWNS N THEM ARE LEADING W THEIR TITS ASS OR FUCKING CURVES BEFORE SHOW CASING ANY FUCKING REAL TALENT TO ASPIRE A YOUTH OR ELDER TO WANT TO MOVE THEIR BODY TO A PLACE OF HAPPINESS AND JOY - NICE MURDERING OF INNOCENCE- UR INNER KIDS STARVED N LEFT FOR DEAD.

… you made a society that forces ppl into a hole of I gotta starve or do some dumb shit for what they deem a necessity for their living lifestyle to be played off as okay to the public.

- cash when have you last showered and why!? - at a rapist apartment bc the water offered had the option of being warm - PLANET FITNESSES DOES ICE SHOWERS IM TINY AS FUCK - ST FRANCIS HYPOSHOCK “therapy “ DOESNT WORK FOR SOMEONE W LITTLE TO NO BODY FAT NATURALLY … “gut health” … I DONT HAVE THE ISSUES THE OTHER GIRLS WHO LOOK LIKE ME GOT - LEE FORGED MY MEDICAL RECORDS DR WATSON BUT HER MALE DOCTOR AT UCLA “ur anemic based on the whites of ur eyes” ABSOLUTELY SO YOU CAN PULL MY FUCKING BLOOD FOR EVELYNS FUCKING BBL AND JASMEAN BOTOX N INDIA BBL FILLERS WIINTR..

IM BEYOND HEALTHY EVEN WHEN YOU CUNTS STARVE ME - IM DEAD WALKING AROUND IN MY GHOST FORM BUT W FLESH - THE BODY AND FUCKING FLESH OF CHRIST YOU CANT COMPREHEND VISUALLY SO YOU THINK DRAINING ME IN FULL W BRING THE FUCKING HOLY GHOST UR STARING AT - IM GAUNT AND THEN WHEN AROUND SPIRITUAL NATURAL FAMILY OR SOMEONE IS SYPHONING OFF MY BLOOD …

IM THICC WHEN IM FULL NATURAL IN MY OWN ZONE - SHANYCE YOU PUT ON WEIGHT LIKE EVELYN TO GET LIPO AND MY FUCKING STEM CELLS YOU NASTY STUPID FUCKING CUNT COI LERAY TO SAY UR MY MOM DARNIECE WEHN I GET OFF THE STREETS.

NO. YOU CANT FUCKING KILL ME BUT IMA FUCKING LEGALLY KIKL ALL YOU STUPID FUCKING HOES. AND LEE FUCK YOU IN FULL MISUSING MY MOM DARNIECE AND DAD LIKE ME TO DO YOUR FUCKING TERRORIST THREATS - THE WORSE FUCKING SNIPER EYE PI YOU. - WHY YOU DONT COME TO THE LIB TO ACTUALLY FEED ME .. how you gon give money to a stranger to me but someone you had rob Howard your wedding night or beat him up so you cud sue the church back for the $$

“Oh im so sorry well comp back 1/2 of ur wedding rental for the incident please don’t hold a grudge to our business”

Lee “oh it’s fine I’ll just have Judy Carter and other lesbian friends of mine specifically get married and this church and my brother n cousin and do the same shit now that I know it worked for demi mores wedding too”

- I BLEW A HOLE IN MY CREDIT NOW I GOTTA DO FINACIAL FRAUD BY RISKING 2 pac Naz and others lives bc welp “fuck blacks and gays white supremacy Westley victor Raymond taught me in the church 1961 watching black gay girls die” - Harvey milk let me help ur campaign grow but then get you raped sexually and START AN AIDS COMMUNITY WHERE WE PURPOSELY RAPE VICTIMS THEN SUE THEM FOR EMOTIONALLY AND BODILY HARM while I get you murdered AFTER BEING THE FACE OF A CAMPAIGN- ANY WAR HALL BENEFICIARIES - JAMAL RON HENDERSON WHYD YOU MAKE ME URS AFTER WE BROKE UP 2020 in like Aug Sep?? LEE GARLINGTON OR HOWARD NUGENT FOR FUCKING ME OVER .. then a yr later lets kill cashay and work him like a slut to make back our money but eqsy kill on her and Tristan bc like welp double the pleasure lot I got slaves turning who need to eat - MAY 2021 “robbery” of Victoria park house … but like Aug 11-15? 2021 let’s send men cashay doesn’t know to her apartment to kidnap her .. RANSOM … how would that work Lee when UR LEADING IT AND THEIR ASKING YOU FOR MONEY BC NO ONE SAID ANYTHING BOUT WHO MY REAL PARENTS ARE YOU NIMROD!

- nefarious crimes from the penthouse executive suite of Victoria park where Lee pretends to be “nothing more than a mother and wife w hobbies [i] don’t have time to do the crazy lunatic things you accuse me of bc for whatever reason THEN W UR GRANDMA AND MOTHER THEY WENT SMOOTH BUT WITH YOU STUPID LITTLE SHIT FUCK IM CLEARLY GUILTY”

- I know you fucking dumbass ass cunt ITS CALLED GOD. YOU GOT MANY PORTRAITS OF ME HANGING IN THE HOUSE YOU STUPID FUCKING BITCH A REMINDER IM GOING TO FUCKING KILK YOU FOR ALL THE BLACKS AND GAYS AND MINORITIES RACES AND SMALL POCKETS YOU BIG BANKED HUNTED IN THAT SHIT FUCKING HOUSE.

- ur fucking dead and I’m pulling the trigger personally WITH YOU IN FRONT OF LAPD. STUPID BITCH. FOR HOWARD.

[mayssa-m]

i done figured out what I wanna do in my life and what my life will look like, it might look like I got no plans but I really know what I’m doing. I nose-dived several times education-wise n that’s really odd of me cus I was known to be the biggest nerd in my class n that reputation completely faded away n I can’t really blame myself as I got distractions of another life with a completely different lane n it’s hard to balance between, my mom just had a talk w me and this time I’ll do it not for myself but my mom n that other life I wanna live cus i always promised myself no matter what I’ll never give up on school n the results by my attitude towards it is the perfect route for someone removing school from his/her life, but that’s not what I’m aiming for. It’s gonna be harder for me than others whether it’s people only being focused on school n doing really good or someone else in the field I’l distracted by doing really good in it to, in my case the harder part is gonna be balancing in order to succeed in both, it’s gonna be really challenging but I know it’ll pay off 2 years from here n theres nothing to worry about as I talk everyday about how fast time goes so those two hears will go in a blink of an eye n ill look back n be like damn. I’m ready for this 2 year journey as at the end of them I’ll get double rewarded, two different types of rewards from each side, I learned a lot from the previous mistakes I’ve made and this time I just wanna do really well and bounce back just imagine me being a nerd again my family being really proud of me along with myself n doing also well in my other plan like bro what could be any better than that n then 2 years from now I’d get my results n graduate imagine just that is enough as my life is completely shifting I’m leaving my home country n gonna open this new chapter of my life that’s what Ive been dreaming of for soo long just living by myself in another country yes my family is gonna be away but what ive always wanted since idk what age was me living in my own appartment in a different country i also planned w my cousin we’d have a mansion each or split one and have expensive cars (part2 ill take about it later) n then I’d visit my parents and give them gifts and money n them just being genuinely happy with who they’ve raised and finally all their hard work paying off cuz im telling you it wasn’t easy for my parents especially now we’re prolly at our worst financially n whats giving me hope is not only that they always end up figuring it out but that im the oldest meaning id be the first to show them that what theyve done was worth it (+my second plan on the side) one of my goals also is getting a scholarship so that i wont have to make them pay much and something i also thought of was them not even paying for me i want by the age of 18 to be able to pay for college, car, clothes, food, airplane tickets, etc just anything for myself n i know ill do it BRO i wanna make them so happy you wont even understand n they dont even know the millionth of how grateful i am of having them or just anything they do, i see it trust i just dont show ut in case i look ungrateful to them, its not that i dont hug kiss n say i love you that i dont mean to say it its just all in my head i keep rushing myself in my head to be even harder on myself n makes things go faster, they’ll never ever even expect the quarter of what im about to do

I wanna come back n read this whenever i feel like i cant do it nomore cus i know there will be a lot of downs, school really isnt easy when youre aiming to be the best at it (to aim high)

my parents always taught me to aim higher n i still got this habit where i overestimate what i can do n dont end up being consistent so i end up being disappointed

n i know it might sound weird n unusual but something thatll keep you going youre not getting there by being in your room 24/7 just doing school stuff, you need to go out, do activities, go out with your friends or family members, spend time with family, just basically going out n not always working in the same environment n you will enjoy it better than being all by yourself studying in the same environment, its really all about balance and organization, n thats what ill do n first step would be to start sleeping earlier and wake up early in order to have better quality of sleep for a better performance the next day and a longer day in order to be able to do as much as possible thats all i gotta do for now

28.08.2024 it’ll really all be done by like june-july 2026 it’s crazy

[facelessharbinger0]

Once again, still on the road. I'm sleeping in my car. There's a few people I'm meeting with as I drive. Sophie Morgan has been busy y'all. You may be wondering what I'm trying to accomplish, and well, I sort of am too, but I have a lead. You see, I didn't mention it yet, but when my sister and I were out in the woods it was for a reason. 

I had reason to believe something else was going on out there. I told her about my feelings on the school and we decided to investigate, and differently, my classroom held a clue this whole time. I can't believe I had never noticed it before, but as we were searching my sister noticed a folder on top of one of the bookshelves. I tried to thumb through it and it belonged to the woman who taught before me. 

Not just who taught before me no less, but before several others as well. Inside the folder was the normal things you'd expect, graded papers, answer keys, blank copies of worksheets, all curiously dated 1994. These are old. Real old. I realize I never clarified, so let me say, I'm a history teacher for some middle schoolers, seems this teacher taught English.

But one thing stuck out to us, a student's paper, seemed like a "what I did over the summer" paper but it got... Bizarre as it went on. Strangest of all is it was ungraded, as if the teacher never saw it, or if she did, she wished she hadn't? I took the folder with me before leaving. The paper read as follows;

This summer I did a lot of things. My dad went to the beach and my mom went also and my brother and sister. We also went camping and made smores, my brother went to go play with the tree man. We havent seen him sinse then. I miss him. Im scaredmy sister is acting weird my brother is gon and dont know what to do where to go my parents dont believe me the tree man hes following me hes here I see him. Help me. noeyesnoeyesnoeyesnoeyesnoeyes. 

Chilling, I know. It gets worse too. It haunts me to know this boy likely didn't make it, that his brother is gone. His sister though... What does he mean acting weird? In my research I've learned that this thing can hold power over people, that it can influence them, change them. Was that happening to his sister? Well, on the back of the page, it continued;

The forest is not safe. I hid my sisters journal their. I think she knows that im trying to save her. That is not my sister no eyes but he sees me hes watching the tree man is going to take me to a different place he keepshowing me a beautiful place but its scary I dont want toø gø. 

Jesus. What's more, is he drew that symbol, a circle with two eyes inside it... Something I had drawn before to symbolize the Tree Ghost... 

He mentioned that he hid his sister's journal out there, in the forest. So we decided we needed to go find it. I really wish we hadn't if I had known the outcome. Just as I think now of her I'm immediately sunk into this state of depression, I feel a desire to bleed, to cry and then bleed, to give up. God I want to give up and drive this car off a bridge. I want to start it up and just drive, the water would feel more like home than anything.

NO. THIS is how it gets you, it wants me to crack but I'll fly at that bastard like a bat out of hell. I refuse to let it get to me, it will not break me. It's trying to drown me in these thoughts of darkness, it's putting this images of my sister and the possible things that could have happened because of me. I'll spare you the details... But I won't let HIM win. I see him now. It's looking at me from across this parking lot. Tilting it's head at me, curious are you? I feel as though my mind is being physically touched, it's disturbing. I feel this dizzy spells wash over me and I've never fought back against it so hard. I know that IT knows what I'm thinking, and what I'm thinking is two simple words;

Fuck you.