#i made certain life choices

[half-milk-equation]

since the containment breach makes it harder to simp, i shall express my pain by screeching into the vast void of the desert

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

I know we skirt around and sometimes talk about the ~trauma~ of it all, but I think seeing how loudly Taylor and Travis support each other on main (while still carving out a private life together) really starts to illuminate to an even clearer degree how many of Taylor's choices and actions were a response to all of ~that~ in the last decade or so (and particularly since 2016).

Again, which is not to say it's all bad, and many of them were choices she needed to make at the time for her own health and I'm sure there are some things from the time period she's continued to keep with her, but it's just really striking that she's, like, in full bloom now. And as a lot of people here are saying, she's probably more like herself these days than she'd been in the last decade. It's getting to the point (at least for me) that sometimes I can't even imagine her the way she was in the last few years because she just seems soooooo much more comfortable in her own skin. Which is silly, because that was as much her as the person she is now, she is an amalgamation of all those parts of her (just like any other person is).

But you just see *how much* she just loves so freely -- not just romantically but in everything she does -- and it's even sadder to think about how she felt like she had to slice off all these parts of her and like she had to accept a certain way of living (and being loved) in order to survive and have a life of her own.

I'm just really happy for her that she seems to be healing every passing day and is just embracing everything coming her way.

ok gonna word vomit more in the tags

[itspileofgoodthings]

you know what I’ve realized lately? that’s really helped? the axiom: it just doesn’t really make that much of a difference. Or at least it doesn’t when you’re talking about good things and not, like, doing good vs. doing evil. Big choices, little choices, decisions, decisions —it’s not just that they don’t matter in the grand scheme of things—because they do! —but just. It won’t make that big of a difference. Life will continue to be wonderful AND difficult, fascinating AND hopelessly mundane, full of roses AND thorns and all the other cliches whether you walk down one road or another. And you’ll get used to the joys and sick of the sorrows whatever they are, and you’ll be ungrateful and bored and dissatisfied in some measure some of the time and you’ll have to work on all the things you have to work on anyways and just. Yeah! It doesn’t make that big of a difference! Even the biggest things!

[antichrists-plus-one]

I would like to put it out there that all the posts of “what about x refugees dying in x” is not, in fact, what aboutism. it’s a genuine critic of the amount of attention this case is getting over other, objectively more tragic losses of life

[juniperhillpatient]

my toxic trait is that if I make good decisions for enough days in a row I just assume that justifies making atrocious decisions after enough days have passed like it somehow cancels out & despite knowing that’s not how it works on a logical level my brain continues to function this way. I probably won’t change

[wild-at-mind]

Now that I'm taking part in an actual organised boycott, I'm even more frustrated with those 'campaigns' that are just like 'to boycott this thing just stop buying it and idk maybe fill in this form or something'.

[akkivee]

this is going to be my hypmic self insert profile LMAO

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

IF HANDING IN THE LIFE DEFINING DECISION SHEET THE DAY WE GOT IT FULLY FILLED OUT DOESN'T GET ME THE PROJECT I NEED WANT THEN SO HELP ME

[definitelynotshouting]

heya i just wanted to tell you how genuinely important your arospec scarian thing is to me

the line "He's not sure what he wants, what's expected of him here" has just helped me solve a tiny crisis i've been having for the past month+ and on one hand i can't believe a fic about blockmen kissing is helping me figure this out but on the other hand im thinking of course it was your writing that helped me realize what is happening in my little feelings hole

anyway, just wanted to say thank you for how real and beautiful your writing is

sincerely, an aro/ace person who's feeling a little more okay about their crisis because you're an awesome human

HEY ANON,,,,, THIS IS SO SWEET WTF..... holy shit im literally speechless. I dont even remotely know what to say to such a genuine and heartfelt message, except that i am so, so happy ive managed to help you like this with my writing

Writing the arospec stuff was really interesting for me, personally, because thats an aspect of myself ive never really... set out much space to think about??? Ive known for a while that im probably demiromantic, considering how close i have to be with people before i can even begin to catch feelings, but ive never truly and consciously explored that within my writing before until now. And the fact that finally doing so has helped someone with a personal crisis really makes me so teary-eyed like hello...... oh my gods.

Thank you for taking the time to tell me this, and im so glad ive managed to help out despite being a virtual stranger. That novelty is never gonna wear off for me. I hope you're having a good day, anon❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ take care of yourself!! :]

[moe-broey]

FUCK YOUR FATHER FUCK YOUR FATHER FUVK YOUR FATHWR FU--

[paarthursass]

AND ANOTHER THING lucheni has SOOO many smartass remarks to make about every character in that musical except for rudolf.  iirc the ONLY times he talks about rudolf are when he’s a kid, and even then it’s just to talk about how elisabeth has abandoned him.  and then rudolf is the most sympathetically presented character in the musical.

like.  playing favorites much, lucheni

[edienotsedgwick]

Uhmmmmmm this outfit ooooo hello I’m so proud of it

[lakemichigans]

okay but i've always wondered who wrote the panties scene and what kind of direction was given because i genuinely can't tell WHO decided to play it straight rather than make a joke out of it. if i were to guess anyone it would've been edlund, but if he's saying it was kripke then i'm firmly of the belief that kripke wrote it as a joke and/or a tongue in cheek way of saying dean is Sensitive but jensen ignored that and made a jacting joice. which is extremely funny to me because that was jensen's peak homophobia era. god there was every kind of neurosis happening on that set huh

[outerspace-iiinnerspace]

one thing i think about on occasion was when i was in this art class in college and i was making a painting of an astronaut and the grad assistant was going around checking on people and looking at our projects and we were talking about mine and i said something where i referred to the astronaut as a he and she went "or she" and i was like "huh?" and she talked about how the astronaut didn't have to be a man, there are women astronauts too!

and i said yeah, that's true, but this is a painting of a guy, and she said it didn't have to be because one of the things about my subject was that because you can't see the face or tell the body type you could imagine anyone in that space suit, it's universal, and that's actually really powerful and that's why she liked my painting and and i was forced to say yeah but this is a man. its buzz aldrin. and i showed her the photo of buzz aldrin that i was basing the painting on.

[bong-bing-bongus]

Moodboard of today

[thefage]

One thing I learned recently about loss is that it usually doesn't hit you right away, it takes a little bit to really feel the absence of someone or something's presence, but when you it finally does hit you it never truly goes away. It may sting more now because the wound is fresh, but in 10 years time you'll remember the scars and feel the loss and the echoes it left behind, the void where love and joy used to be, that will probably be filled in again one day, but it'll never be the same