#i m keeping that promise
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Another dream, always mine (and yes it's still spn s13 related because i have a bone to pick with dabb over that season specifically)
So here it goes. (Part 1)
Spn s13 but kelly doesn't die, cas doesn't die, crowley doesn't die. Lucifer dies for *reasons* but mary, dean and sam are stuck in the AU.
It's still spn so we just have to have mirrors and parallels, okay? Like, this show doesn't care about continuity but damn! They will stick to mirrors and parallels like it's a religion and so we do too.
The thing is that the AU is not the lame-ass AU Dabb or whoever came up with, it's at least an attempt at being an interesting place. So basically the AU is as boring and dumb as our earth, nothing has really changed, people are still trapped in the rat race that capitalism is (see, we have a little bit of critique here too, there is no escape from the capitalist-fascist-heteronormative narrative or isn't it?), the frigging white picket fences are still everywhere like a fucking nightmare BUT! This is an earth without monsters, angels, demons, nothing goes bump in the night but depression, paranoia and suicidal thoughts (now these are the real monsters) and YET this is THE chance for our heroes, this is the promised land, no past, only freedom, the american dream is theirs to grab (but don't worry this place hides a secret, this is still spn everything must be queer, you'll see). Sam, dean and mary are kinda lost cause, surprise surprise! It turns out that's not the things you want that you can't have but that you didn't know what you wanted so how could you have it in the first place? Mary is restless, this was supposed to be her dream, she died for it and now she doesn't want it and she goes through another deep existential crisis (and, really, we all just get mary because seriously? any character named mary who's also a mother has too much fucking weight on her shoulder, just let the woman be). Sam is kinda okay with it, he once again refuses to get in touch with his emotions and flees from them like the plague: they're gonna make it work, they will find a way (i want to convey ross from friends vibes when he's like *in a squeaky voice* i'm fine! Here, that's sam in the AU). The guy lives in his delusion, this is his chance at being normal (and oh boy is he wrong, you'll see). Dean feels just bad, he's supposed to feel happy with his mother and his brother/son (the weird implications of this situation will be explored) but he keeps thinking about that little house by the sea (or was it a lake?) that cas bought as fucking jimmy novak and how the angel spent months there with kelly playing daddy and how the fucking angel played him and dean just went along and repaired his stupid truck as if to thank him for breaking his heart but also, also, dean will never admit it to anyone ever but deep down he knows, he knows, that that was his place, his angel, his chance (we will also have an explorations into the complex theme of mpreg with the due "Junior" references we all deserve and insights into dean's maternal insticts).
Now back to earth.
Kelly gives birth to a baby jack, cas lives with them to protect them from the angels and demons that will sure come for a visit (but once again he will end up being a total agent of chaos, you'll see), the angel is a bit of a mess, though, and his obsession with saving dean winchester is finally making kelly feel quite concerned with her life choices, maybe trusting this guy was a little bit insane, was he always this deranged? (We'll soon see why she thinks that, she might have a point). Meanwhile crowley goes back to hell and we once again have a cheap game of thrones situation (because why not? i can't come up with infinite original ideas to fix this plot, okay? Also this is still spn, i can condone SOME cheap storylines on the side, and anyway mark sheppard makes anything work so we're good) where his varys-like smart brain cells will put him on the throne again (who's this asmodeus guy anyway, prince of hell or not, fuck him, he will not stick around here for a second season while dagon died like after 2 episodes she was in, not gonna happened in my narrative). But, you see, the demon has his own issues, and goes visiting kelly and the angel because why not? He likes kelly she seems interesting enough for a person who birthed satan's son, escaped from a fucking angel of the lord, was kidnapped by a goddamn prince of hell, managed to baby trap said angel of the lord, stole the frigging impala and escaped that menace that the winchesters are. She then proceeded to give birth knowing she might have died. She is something. Something a bit unhinged maybe but crowley digs her, okay? He still also has varys-like smart brain cells so he needs to visit to make sure that baby lucifer is, like, not plotting to take over hell or whatever newborn babies half-made from cosmic entities do these days. Also, also, watching castiel putting baby jack to sleep with those big strong angel gym-bro arms did something to him, his daddy fetish and his mommy issues raised their head and something else too, and he foolishly promises to keep jack safe from hellish attacks and indulges castiel in his winchester obsession. What? He misses the brothers too, those handsome, tall, cruel white boys (we are reminded that, visually, the whole cas/kelly/jack situation is quite similar to the weird crowley/dean/amara thing of s11, mirrors and parallels need to keep happening people, this is spn, we gott have 'em). Castiel is living his tragic destiny yet again, he's seen the AU, has been there, technically knows that dean, sam and mary are safe but he just has to see it for himself, right? Like he has to make sure, it's not like dean not being there is eating him from the inside, it's not like he starts feeling the pang of guilt over the huge betrayal he's forced onto dean,leaving him left behind again and again and playing him that way, no. He copes by sitting in his stupid truck that dean had repaired listening to that damn tape (every time he does that we have a close-up of kelly watching the pathetic scene from her window and sighing as if in "fuck, FUCK, my life"). And oh, yes he also starts researching about archangel resurrection because i may or may not bring back my girls, aka raphael and uriel but this is for part 2, you'll see.
#i said i had ideas where kelly is alive and thriving#i promised i had them#i m keeping that promise#well half of it#kelly is alive but she is not thrivig but she will#eventually#spn#supernatural#spn s13#spn s13 but with my ideas because fuck it#castiel#crowley#kelly kline#mary winchester#jack kline#sam winchester#dean winchester#i will also insert a bit of#destiel#because they're just good for the narrative#whether you like it or not
25 notes
·
View notes
Text
you'll see them again !
too many thoughts and things done with Intent to fully explain myself . partially bc this was supposed to be much much longer, but i think i would like to play more in the space of post-game loop.
#finallyw finished the game . i'm dunking them into the primordial soup ^.^#before i forget#isat spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#anyways . i created a very specific analogy of how the universe and the big bang Works when i was 8 and i will never shut up about it#whatever space our universe inhabits Was like a completely still lake and the big bang was something disturbing the surface.#our universe expands and will eventually run out of energy like a ripple on that lake#regardless of how their world Actually works . i think that something like that would be a popular belief in sif's country#vague idea rolling around . loop fades or is like . Somewhere Between. siffrin's unintentional rituals keep them around#something triggers them to properly exist again (i promise there are themes here) and they wash up on the shore of vauguarde#they are especially malleable for a little bit . kind of going through craft metamorphosis . they are given a place to stay for a while#there is more but these tags are already ridiculously long . someone talk to me abt them before i go nuts#frogart#m
293 notes
·
View notes
Text
"EVERY TIME I'M RUNNING away from something, you're always just . . . there." // @dysnomiias
68 notes
·
View notes
Text
FINALLY GOT TO A STEVE N READER SCENE !!!
heres a sneak peek of chapter 2, which i think sums up its very yearning vibes
should have her done tomorrow, depending on how my day goes ;)
and there will be a car scene between steve n reader this chapter as well but u didnt hear it from me
#m speaks#wtlws sneak peek#wtlws update#soooon i promise#this chapter has a LOT#also somehow ive started to write reader with a small crush on nancy#like thats what the vibes are coming across as#and honestly#im keeping that in
34 notes
·
View notes
Text
gripping my head . totk roleswap save me
#did that zelda study and never ended up drawing her#I HAVE LOTS OF IDEAAAS . I PROMIIISE#like ough . introducing miners as a proper companion and changing the factory boss fight#which . again i promise it’s so cool . the thing in my head#the places that are struggling the most rn is link in the past anddd the zonai lore . bc i can’t stand em as they are#MINERU* NOT MINERS#autocorrect is going to be turned off soon if this keeps happeninggggg ^.^#m
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
using the tags to vent my current emotional state into the void bc ig story feels like a bad plan for this, read at your own risk.
#but jesus christ coming back home while already knee deep in a suicidal episode was an awful idea#like i was maybe on the verge of improving and then i came back to all of this family bullshit#and the place as well like it’s so. i don’t want to say isolated necessarily. but so much it’s own little bubble#and i spent the last eight or nine years i lived here depressed and the last six suicidal#and being back here feels like the actual place is telling me to die#and i don’t think it helps that every place i go i know or know of someone who successfully committed suicide#like. oh this person drowned themself here. or that person hung themself in these woods. or several people jumped off the side of this clif#like. it all feels like reminders of my failures. and it’s like. cmon. wouldn’t it be easy. all you need to do is jump. is slit your throat#is find a decent piece of rope. idk. but everything is so much and i just want it to stop and it feels like the ground itself#is giving me a way to do it.#i genuinely feel like i’m like 16 or 17 again. and everything that isn’t within these hills#feels like a haze and not actually real. like the concept of buxton doesn’t actually exist and my friends do not actually exist and nothing#actually exists except the place i’m in and my family and the pub#i think going back to work at the pub was a mistake; i think it’s making this worse. especially because it’s henry’s dad’s local#and where henry’s wake was. and nothing there has changed at all. it’s like the whole last year never happened.#and i only need to get through two more days but it feels like an impossible task and i keep thinking being back in york will fix me but id#if that even true like. i was suicidal before i left. and it’s going to be intense and stressful and then i have to leave again.#come back here and do three full weeks of this all over again. i haven’t even managed two yet this time around. and i feel like#such a failure and such a drain on my friends (and on one in particular) because it just#is so much and has been so long and everything is complicated and awful and i think if i hadn’t come back i’d be in a normal mental state#by now. that’s the worst fucking part. and also the whole thing of i know how to be suicidal here. i know how to not give a shit about#living here. i know how to do that. but ive never had to try before. like im trying to improve and im trying to hold on and hold off the#urges to kill myself or self harm or whatever because i said i would and because i KNOW it can be better than this and bc i love my friends#and they love me and i don’t want to upset them or make them anxious or anything like that and kat made me promise to try and im trying so#fucking hard and it feels like it’s not even worth the effort because it’s so much effort and everything is so overwhelming and awful and i#hate the way my family interacts and i just want everything to stop and idc if suicide is the cowards way out or selfish or whatever#bullshit people say it feels like the only option i can actually withstand because everything is so much pain and so much effort and so muc#everything and i can’t deal with it anymore. and also i forgot just how much i have to fucking mask in front of my parents and especially m#father and it’s so exhausting and i can’t sleep and there’s so much yelling and i just need it all to stop#i’ve had major breakdowns the last 3 nights about wanting to die so much & trying so hard to not let myself & idk how much longer i can tak
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Anyone else ever just... so burnt out/unfocused, couldn't imagine writing anything if you tried, but then... then...
The Hyperfixation Hits
and suddenly there's a google doc open and you've written 500 words of albeit, probably nonsense before you even stop to blink?
Or is that just me~
#waterfallrambles#i dont actually- know what happened#i just.... i still feel burnt out but then my m/agnus a/rchives hyperfixation hit back again in full force#and suddenly that prompt i had sitting in a google doc is lookin REAL nice#500 words and i havent even gotten to the part where the sn**** will start to happen yet#no promises if/when this will be finished or posted (just incase anyone is wondering haha)#but if i keep going at this rate i might have my first actual fic in like weeks#has it been months?? it might have been months#man idk guys bad brain is strong but gremlin brain is stronger
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
i miss the pre-bl3 days when most of the fandom on tumblr was on the same page about they/them Zer0 and most of the people who insisted otherwise just were always actively transphobic shitheads I could block. Like nowadays people using he/him are reasonably just going with what the game says, completely unaware that Anthony Burch ever suggested he was going to do otherwise
#like i can't rightfully block people for the he/him mandude zer0 posts anymore. they're not wrong it's gearbox that fucked it up#like only long time tumblr fans know about the ~they/them nb zer0 that was promised~#i love zer0 but as soon as they're a dude they're just so much less interesting to me. m/m zerhys loses its appeal for me#(i've been doing a lot of digistruct peak runs recently and i keep looking up gear guides for zer0 and lmao i get#so dorky about this fictional character that it feels like aggressive misgendering even tho it's so innocent)
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
THIS IS GIVING SUCH DETECTIVE VIBES AND FOR WHAT
#jimmysea buddy cop series with tortured grumpy detective jimmy who can't keep a partner for longer than a week#and sea as either the enthusiastic sunshine rookie who doesn't get put off by jimmy's rough behavior#OR as the overzealous cop who does everything by the book and fights with jimmy a lot but eventually they start to get closer#but anyway. this is just a dream :)))))#sorry i promise im gonna done being overdramatic soon#jimmy jitaraphol#m: txt
10 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ultratober day 15-16 character you hate
Technically, saying I hate M/inos or V/2 would be VERY inaccurate because i do like them but sometimes people use them to put down Sisyphus or V1 and THEN I momentarily dislike them but then I bounce back and enjoy them again not long after.
#theres no fuckign way im putting this in their character tags#i promise i dont actually hate them i just get pissed off sometimes and then bounce back#.... tbh i mostly just wanted an excuse to use this audio.#i probably shouldnt care abt it that much and with v1 i guess its more understandable but with sisyphus its like MAN.#i swear if people keep playing up how moral and perfect m/inos is while saying shit abt sisyphus that proves they dont understand#him at all im gonna turn into a corn cob.#people will see a guy who rallied people to fight their oppressors and free themselves and be like LOL he only fought heaven for fun#or out or boredom. buddy he and the others were getting tortured for eternity#do not even get me started on the people who think he didnt care if his troops died or just used them for his own gain#if you try to gain peace and freedrom through bloodshed everyone paints you as the bad guy#try to gain it by peacefully asking ur violent oppressors to stop and dying because of it makes everyone think its right/more moral#at least people on here arent as bad abt it but on the fucking subreddit or even on youtube people will constantly paint sisyphus as the#villain and minos as more moral and its like. man!!!!!
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
okok ive forced myself to take a writing break these last few days because i've been so overwhelmed with the taswtober, tasw, os, and all the wips i have going in my docs and i've been rewatching fruits basket instead and i have this rames fic idea that wont leave my goddamn head because of it so i think today may be the day i break my streak lmao we'll see... hmmm.......
#like literally this is the first day i've truly had off this month HELP#taswtober will return i PROMISE and i should post the tasw preview but i don't really like the place im putting james and roxy its making m#so sad. why did i do this to them!#and i have the next os chapter written all in my head i just need to physically write it out#but this one shot might have to come first i need it out in the world...#so yayy me update! trying to learn not to feel guilty about not keeping up with my own challenge lmao it's literally not that serious
6 notes
·
View notes
Note
Keyleth tries to interrupt Ludinus doing his evil stuff -> Power Word Stun on Keyleth -> very very deadly attack barrage on stunned Keyleth -> Vax appears in a swoosh of raven feathers deflecting a (probably?) deadly blow -> "Don't even dare" -> Ludinus needed a "divine spark" and had prepared for this -> Vax gets laser focused by magic machine bullshittery -> Vax gets compressed into an orb/sphere -> orb Vax gets inserted into the machine as the last piece Ludinus needed to activate it -> something happened but we're not sure yet what we'll have to wait at least until next week for more info
hope it helps :)
OKAY
THIS IS FINE
god the person in the notes on that post saying this was just like how vax died but in reverse was R I G H T and i hate it
(for those who don't remember or didn't watch THAT fight. campaign vax did not perma die bc of his deal with the raven queen. his end of campaign death was just a formal goodbye bc he was already dead. his actual death happened in the first fight with vecna. when he got hit with a 22DC hold person he couldn't physically break out of. and being under hold person, means that disintegrate automatically hits. and if disintegrate takes your hit points below 0, you are not only dead, you can't be revived by any spell except for true res, which is the only resurrection spell the raven queen does not allow)
(and technically, disintegrate was cast on him twice, before it took effect. bc keyleth saved him the first time)
#both of my roommates are out tonight which im very glad of#bc while i love them and they both follow this blog so they would not judge me#i do not need to explain right now why i keep yelling and going THIS IS! FINE! out loud#but also AAAAAAHHHHH#MATTHEW MERCER. YOU TAKE GOOD CARE OF MY BOY. OR IM COMING FOR YOUR EXPENSIVE MAP PARTS. AND YOUR MINIS. AND YOUR LIGHTS.#FUCK IT ALSO YOUR FOG MACHINE#anyway hiiii m&k if you see this im totally fine i promise#did not yell any of the above out loud either#sbahdhaydjdnusbdjd#i may have to watch these episodes but im gonna wait to hear what happens first#bc like. if vax is okay. i will love this. if he is perma dead dead soul too im sorry i will simply be ignoring it#bc my heart can't take that#cr spoilers#ask
45 notes
·
View notes
Text
theyre my go-to for art block
#skye's doodles#warmups inbetween my many wips <3 they keep me out of art funks and iwould die for them#skye outfit lore i gave don the m&I Iuigi striped socks bc theyre silly <3 rays outfit is just a pair of pajamas i actually own#the sweater may be his color but he absolutely stole it from don <3#also ray and emma god i need to post art of them more. most important friendship of all time. to me <3#best interp of ray in romantic situations is a blushy flustered mess. get loved you strange autistic little guy#the promised neverland#tpn#yakusoku no neverland#tpn ray#tpn don#raydon
37 notes
·
View notes
Text
-. hyello~ unfortunately I changed Sabriel's FC again lmao but beyond that maintenance is going well~ just wanted to pop in real quick bc I miss being here 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 ANYWAYS have a most splendid timezone 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
#;ooc#work is keeping me busy too WHICH IS A GOOD THING IN TERMS OF m o n e y#but does keep me busy#I hope you're all doing so most wonderfully well thank you for writing with me 🥺#Alex Ami Annabel Ferre Lynnie Dave Nassy Munnie Ro kithing your vibes thank you for putting up with me#Gosh I'm a little tipsy so I promise I'm not ignoring anyone IM JUST MESSY#Thank you for having me around 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺#if I ever not shoutout someone specifically it's just because I'm messy I am so grateful to y'all
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
WIP Game
Rules: make a new post with the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have WIPs.
thanks for tagging me @hijinks-n-lowjinks this was fun!
jujutsu kaisen wips:
give you more (than words can say)
sit next to me
foreign language
vantage point
no such thing as normal (working title)
kagurabachi wips:
safety net (working title)
keep the flame burning (working title)
tagging some moots that I know write fanfics consistently (no obligation to do this though): @mothboypoison @uriekukistan @epickiya722
#tag game#keeping this list no higher than rated M#the rated E ones are just for practice#and most likely will stay in the drafts lol#I promise none of the E rated fics are with the jjk students
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
.
#have a first date with a guy on thursday and like.#do you think it’s a red flag that im more excited to text my crush from the trip about the date than i am to actually go on the date 😶#like something something the romanticism and allure of the impossibility of being into a guy who i knew for two weeks#and who lives on a different continent than me#vs a real person i will actually be dating and have the chance to possibly build a relationship with#also something something knowing this person actually likes me vs getting to play a noncommittal guessing game with this crush like.#per chance im still not ready to be in a relationship is the actual answer here….#but also like i am soooooooo excited fo text my crush about it like he’s the only person who even knows about this date#because it came up while we were having a pleasantly surprising long conversation about life and relationships on our last night together#and i told him all my fears and he talked me through them which only made me like him MORE and he made me promise to keep him updated and#lowkey maybe lowkey highkey thats why im going on the date so i have an excuse to text him and thats not very fan to my actual Date but.#*fair#but also im riding the high of the trip and this crush and once that fades im sure a real human being who wants to get to know me is#the better deal#but rn im just not being very healthy about the whole thing#thoughts and prayers for me#m
4 notes
·
View notes