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thrawnalani · 1 year ago
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Send this to ten other bloggers that you think are wonderful. Keep the game going, make someone smile!!! 💕
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@manofbeskar @chaostray @anastasiiaosypova @blackmonitor @admiral-arelami @thrawns-backrest @ele-millennial-weirdo @guestiguess @getthrawnin
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myevilmouse · 5 months ago
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Hi there! So sorry if you’ve already talked about this and I completely missed it, but did you remove your Thrawn stories from AO3? Your Aesthetic story is one of my all time favorites, but when I went to find it, I wasn’t able to see it in my bookmarks. Could be me missing something on AO3, but just thought I’d check. I’d love to read them again if you thought about posting elsewhere ♡
Hi @the-ashtronaut! Thank you so much for such kind words about my writing and Aesthetics. It absolutely makes my night! I'm glad you asked about it, because every once in a while someone thinks I deleted my fics but I promise you I have not (and never will). I put them all (not just the Thrawn ones) behind the AO3 login, because AO3 recommended authors do that back when AI was scouring the internet for creative writing. I didn't want my stories to be used to train ChatGPT or whatever (even if it's futile at this point) so now unfortunately they are only available to registered/logged in AO3 users.
I'm not sure why it isn't showing up in your bookmarks, but perhaps you can try again to add it? Maybe when I combined Part 1 (Conflicting Aesthetics) and Part 2 (Complementary Aesthetics) into a series, it messed things up? Please let me know if you can't access them once you are logged in, that would be weird and worrisome.
The adventures of Seta & Thrawn are still here for everyone's enjoyment, just click on those underlined words to access the series. Also in the good news camp, I have about 8500 words written of the third and final installment (not going as quickly as I hoped due to real life being insanity, but it's coming!). I hope you enjoy it when it's ready!
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Also just as an aside, if anyone doesn't have an AO3 account and wants a PDF of any of my fics emailed to them, please hit me up with your email and I will make sure you have a copy forever!
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argent-gale · 1 year ago
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Oddly Nostalgic
I got a notification one of my blogs turned 7 yo today.
I haven't been on here in months but it got me reminiscing a little.
About how I'd eagerly await those reblog/like notifications.
About how I'd squee when I got a message notif.
I remember when I lived/breathed TWD and SW. Those fandoms injected a spark that made life so much more interesting.
I remember writing fics. Getting recs. BEING recd.
I remember chatting people overseas until legit 2 am my time on a worknight.
I'm not really involved in any fandom right now. My online fandom friends have drifted away. People I used to talk to multiple times a day have just...disappeared.
I get sad because I remember how it used to be. So fun. I remember thinking how boring my life was before I got so involved in my fandoms. Now that I'm not in them anymore it makes me sad because my life is once again dull.
I wish I could get excited over things again but I just can't.
I scrolled through my feed and saw some old "faces" and smiled remembering. I guess I should be grateful I had that time at all.
I packed away all my fandom merch and will probably sell/give it away. I spent so much money on that stuff, lol.
Anyway, just musing today.
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myevilmouse · 7 days ago
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Sorry this took me so long...but here are some pics that seemed to work.
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this was fun so I tag any of ya'll to enjoy the exercise...
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I saw that @mrbrojangles was doing this, and I wondered what I have so I picked the first suitable photos
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I’m tagging @celtic-romulan @myevilmouse @no-where-new-hero @mollywog @ele-millennial-weirdo and @minisugakoobies and anyone else who thinks it would be funny.
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master-kohga-dating-sim · 6 months ago
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okay i know i dont make a lot of star wars posts because i'm terrified of the fandom. but i like to analyze my favorite characters to improve my writing and i came across something that i haven't heard anyone mention before and its so obvious that i'm losing my mind
(DISCLAIMER: I HAVE NOT READ THE ASCENDANCY SERIES (CANNOT AFFORD IT ATM), I AM NOT A PART OF THE FANDOM, I AM JUST A CASUAL ENJOYER WHO LIKES TO YAP. i have a basic idea of the plot but idk the specifics, im just going off of what i've seen in the base canon trilogy)
has anyone else noticed that Thrawn is actually insane. i mean that, for all intents and purposes Thrawn is mentally fucked up even before he joined the empire. it's just so well written because of how he acts and how he's not like Kylo or Anakin because he's not emotionally charged
okay so we meet Thrawn for the first time, yeah. we get some basic need-to-know stuff: cold, calculating, emotionally reserved, wicked smart, probably autistic, extremely patient. you get that he knows exactly what he's doing and how to do it, and over the course of the books you find out what it is.
which is where it starts. his only goal in life, what he literally says is the sole reason for his existence, is to protect the Ascendancy. but they have made it very clear that they do not want that because the shit he does goes against what they stand for, yet he still continues to do it. he even says that he doesn't expect their gratitude or permission. he fully intends to keep doing what he's doing even if they actively reject him. why? because it's his home, the only one that he's ever known. and he's completely unwilling to go and learn another one. because he is fucking insane
i love how Thrawn's mental state is written so much because it's not what you typically expect from insane characters and it's not even like he's trying to hide it under a facade. how he acts isn't a mask, that's just how he truly is, and his unhinged motives are just seamlessly connected to it with nothing to hide behind. its such a great and unique way to write a character and i think i should point that out (sorry to the people who followed for legend of zelda stuff lmao. my house)
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ascendancyzine · 15 days ago
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Contributor Spotlight: Distant Storm!
WRITER Name: DistantStorm Tumblr: @thedistantstorm AO3: DistantStorm
Hi, I’m Storm. I fell into Star Wars fandom a few years ago and quickly became enamored with all things Chiss, but I have been writing fanworks off and on for ages.
Favorite Ascendancy Character? Does Eli Vanto count? If no, I'm going with my Ascendancy trilogy sleeper favorite of Samakro.
Favorite Star Wars book / tv show / movie? Star Wars Rebels got me invested, but Thrawn (2017) is my hands down favorite piece of Star Wars content.
Why (or what) are you contributing to the zine? I love the Ascendancy and Chiss culture, and find it incredibly interesting to expand on the complex politics and shrouded history revealed in the novels. Fun Facts: I decided to read Thrawn (2017) after binging Star Wars Rebels and A New Dawn in the span of about a week to "get it over with." That was Winter 2020, so you can see just how well that worked out...
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vibratingskull · 1 year ago
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"hi there, i love your work!! i always re read them and giggle to myself lmao. you’re really out here carrying the thrawn fandom on ur back ily!! can i request thrawn x chiss!wife reader who is pregnant? just some soft fluffy stuff?? i feel like thrawn would either be really chill about the pregnancy, or really dumb and just start freaking out about the smallest things hahaha tysm!!!" - anon
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For you my dear, fluffy fluff with Thrawn a bit on the spectrum
You're slowly cradling yourself in the rocking chair, making a good work of your needles in the fabric. You decided to do a snowy rabbit this time. Since you took your maternity leave you spend all your time informing yourself on the pregnancy or sewing different plushies and little clothes for your future baby. You have a whole collection now. 
You hear the shuffling of a door, it’s surely Thrawn who came back from his work day. What did he bring back this time?
“Ch’acah, I am here.” He says loud enough to be heard in the whole apartment.
“I’m in the bedroom.” You respond, doing your last stitches.
He appears in his military uniform, a package under the arm as you predicted. You grin, shaking your head. You wait for him to explain. He walks up to you and leaves a chaste kiss on your lips.
“I came across some interesting things.”
“I see that, like every evening for the past two months…”.
You don’t hold that against him, this is how he cares. He reaches for the bag and proudly takes out a rectangular box, you squint to read what is written on it.
“My first… canvas.” You snort, this is so on brand.
“I thought it would be great to help them express themselves through art.”
“You realize they won’t be using it for several years, you’re a bit early for that...”
“Nonsense, infants play with paint of bright colors as soon as they can sit up.” He preaches.
You shake your head with a broad smile. God you love this man. But you’re not dupe: if he buys so much art furniture it’s because he wants to be able to communicate with his child. He already has some difficulties with adults, children as young appear to terrify him. You already saw him hold the baby of a friend and it was not his most glorious moment. He had a freeze moment when you announced to him the news of your pregnancy, before exploding with joyce but you did notice. And then he spent his nights reading and reading about children's communication and psychology like it was an impermeable enigma to him. The elated smile he wore when he announced to you about babies' early interest in artful activities was heartwarming, finally something he could understand. Since then he bought as many artsy toys and activities he could starting by colorful cubes and modeling clay.
You take his hand, and look him in the eyes with tenderness.
“Thrawn, I know you’re scared. I am too. But everything will be alright because we will be together.”
He squeezes it and lowers his head, his thin smile dying.
“I am terrified… What if they don't love me because I can’t meet their needs in some way?” He murmurs.
You shake your head gently, and try to rise up, a bit destabilized by your round stomach. He immediately reaches for you. You pull him in a hug.
“I understand you. But you will surpass it, because you’re the most competent man I know.” 
You take his head in your hands, forcing him to look into your crimson eyes full of confidence.
“I know for a fact that they will love you and be proud of you as a father! You know why? Because nobody loves like you do.”
He puts one hand on yours and and rubs his cheek against it.
“May you be right, ch’acah.”
“I am! I alway am, remember?”
It forces a chuckle out of him.
“Yes.”
You spin on yourself to retrieve the bunny and show him. You smile like a child handing it to him.
“What do you think?” You ask.
He carefully observes the plushie.
“Another one?”
“You have nerve for a man who buys toys each evening. The nursery is full to the brim!”
He smiles.
“It is perfect. I would have loved having it in my youth.”
“I can sew you one now! You would be adorable sleeping with a bunny in your arms!”
He puts down the plushie and wraps his arm around your waist to the best of his abilities.
“Why would I need a plushie when I already have you in my arms?”
He kisses your forehead.
“Vile flatterer.” You grin
“Skillful admirer.” He correct.
You snuggles against him, appreciating his warmth you sigh contentedly. Suddenly you feel pain in your stomach, you lean forward holding your belly.
“Ha!”
“What is wrong ch’acah? Are you in pain?” He asks worriedly
“No, I think…” You pause a second to analyze what just happened “I think they kicked me.”
You take his hand and place it on your belly, sure enough a second kick was given against his palm. You laugh, elated and surprised : it’s their first kick. You look at him with wonders in your eyes. 
He’s shocked.
The eyes wide and at loss for words, he kneels and places his head on your stomach, awaiting, trembling. Another powerful kick. An incredulous laugh escapes him.
“They are strong!”
“They are like you.” You caress his hair.
He kisses your stomach.
“My child.” He hugs your form “I will always be there for you…”
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shenanigans-and-imagines · 3 months ago
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Fic Author Self Rec Game
When you get this, make a post with your favorite five fics you've written, then pass it on to at least five other writers. Let's spread the self-love!
Thank you @jo-harrington for the tag. I'm so sorry I didn't get to it sooner!
Tagging: @leighsartworks216, @kittttycakes, @can-of-pringles, @16boyfriends-and-me and @a-libra-writes
I'm really curious at what you guys pick! (Also if you have any original stuff you want to share, now is the time!)
In no particular order:
I Want it All : Astarion x Evie (Ace!Tav), Angst, Asexual Guilt, Happy Ending
A surprise to literally nobody who has followed me in the past year. I think this is some of my strongest work as well as my first dive into writing an explicitly asexual character. (You can probably read a lot into some of my other works, but that's neither here nor there). I still get comments on this one and it makes me happy to see it's at least made some impact on the fandom.
Welcome to Hellfire: Eddie Munson x Lucy Henderson (OC), Fluff, Awkwardness, First Meetings
I really need to get back to writing these two, specifically Lucy's first session, especially now that I've played a lot more D&D. Getting back to the fic at hand, I think I did a good job allow Eddie to still be kind of a dick while not making Lucy look like an idiot for accepting to still play with him. He's a deceptively hard character to balance and I think it's a solid introduction to Lucy as a character.
Shaking Hands: Hawkeye Pierce x Elizabeth "Doc" O'Neil (OC), Heavy Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Canon Typical Violence
Another couple of character I need to get back to writing. While "What's Up Doc: Part 1" would be the better entry to start with these two, I still haven't actually finished it and I feels wrong to recommend something that hasn't been touched in literal years. I've changed a lot as a writer and will likely go back to touch it up. This though feels more complete. I also think I captured Hawkeye's voice particularly well in his rant towards the end. I'd still want to expand this to pace it out to a full episode, but I'm happy with how it stands now.
More Than Sufficient: Thrawn x Captain!Reader, Canon Typical Violence, Hurt/Comfort, Pining
Admittedly most of my earlier writing I low key cringe at, but this has held up well. It gave me an excuse to write more formal dialogue which is a rarity. I like the challenge of restraint and relying more of subtext. One of these days my obession will be stoked again. In the meantime, of all my Star Wars fics, the Thrawn ones in particular stand out to me as some of my best.
Rough Day: Doctor Strange & Ellie Jackson (OC), Mentor!Strange, Hurt/Comfort, Strange trying to understand a stressed out teenager
It was a toss up between this and another Astarion x Evie fic "For All I Care", but I ultimately decided this one needed more love. I needed some representation for the Marvel fandom, and Ellie really is one of my favorite OCs (even if I'm now thinking of converting her and Cassandra into an original work). I just like exploring Strange as a mentor/father figure if only because he's not very good at it, but he tries.
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overlord-of-fantasy · 7 months ago
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So what's your favorite pairing in silm? And then of all time, all fandoms?
Uhh, it´s really hard to pick a favourite! I really like Glorestor, Angabang and Celrond. I also have shipped Gigolas and Farawyn since the first time I read the book and ever since I read "The fall of Gondolin" I fell in love with hammer of harp (Rog x Salgant). I can´t really choose.
My favourite ship of all time is probably Thranto (Grand admiral Thrawn x Eli Vanto) from Star Wars.
Thank you very much for your ask :)
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contentment-of-cats · 1 year ago
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I'll say it again. Andor is the best Star Wars show.
And that's because they didn't let Dave Filoni anywhere near it.
The show is called 'Ahsoka' but is actually an unaired season of Rebels. It ought to have been called 'attempted massive retcon at unwise forward speed' or 'Sabine has abandonment issues and makes poor decisions.' There are good scenes (possibly from another show, which one is anyone's guess) strung together with tired plot devices. Thrawn was chucked into this mess because there was no other way to move the plot. I did dig on some of the details like the signs of age and hard living and the obvious condition of the Chimaera. Other than that - pfft.
Turning to Thrawn - I am an unabashed fan of the Zahn-authored 2017 Trilogy and the HTTE trilogy (except the ending). He is complex neither all good or all evil. He is an antagonist and protagonist at once. Someone to root for and also against. Did he contrive his exile to join the Empire and possibly take it over in order to protect his people? It's possible. I don't think we'll ever find out, though. That being said, I don't think we're going to get much more from two more episodes.
One of my friends said that Filoni writes for children's shows, and it's true. The characters are almost cartoonish, not understandable as adults, but as kids understand adults to be. Perhaps I am expecting too much from an eight-episode MCU-kin show, but there was time to develop Sabine, or FFS Ahsoka (you know, the protagonist?), to fill in whatever has gone on in the past nine years since the Battle of Yavin, five years after Endor. For Sabine and Ezra, there should have been more feeling in that scene than the swell of the music.
A lot of the blame rests with Disney, and the paranoia-controlled process to stamp out leaks at all costs. There is a continuity to writing a script, working out the story boards, reading the script, and then shooting that is entirely lacking in franchise-oriented product. Franchise oriented product is formulated to sell merch and streaming subscriptions, and to drive bodies into theme parks. It's marketable.
The writers' and actors' guild strikes are ongoing. I'm content to wait - writers and actors have been getting screwed, fucked, and buttered without mercy for years. There is a new intensity to the talks as the studios start to sweat.
Final note: I love Thrawn, but the ageism of a vocal part of the fandom makes me want to still be around when these people hit 50. Age and illness and injury HAPPEN. Our bodies do not work as well when joints break down, we get hurt, or sick. Even when he regain functionality, it doesn't all come back. Even when our lives are saved, there are still sequelae. It's made me think less of some folks.
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enaelyork · 1 year ago
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Oh my god, I'm tired of the fandom bitching about Thrawn's appearance. Please. Can you just imagine what a decades-long exile is like? Want to see Admiral Thrawn from Rebel when the man has been isolated from the world all this time? Have you seen the state of Chimaera? Troopers? They all cashed in. And I would be really curious to know how harsh the exile was (Mr Zahn,... 0:)). He endured the years, he endured the solitude and above all, he endured failure. So obviously he's not who we know anymore. And the devotion that the troopers seem to devote to him prove that he had to take it upon himself to preserve his troops and earn their respect. I like this Thrawn, darker, more bruised than he has ever been. And I love Lars' incredible interpretation of it!
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blackmonitor · 1 year ago
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What are your top 5 favorite drawings that you’ve done, fandom or otherwise? Rec yourself! (Get recced?? I like that better). Get recced!!
omg this is a thought question….
Let’s do it!
Boba III
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I love how this turned out. I just love it.
Coca Cola Eli and Pepsi max Thrawn
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Ah the fun memories! @myevilmouse inspired me to make so much art, and I love these, And the fic she wrote about them is awsome!!!
Thryce Christmas
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Simple maybe but again I love the feeling I got whenever I look into this. I love a good collab, and it was lovely to do with @myevilmouse! Thank you for that!!!
Thrawn in CDEF uniform
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My first fanart I was super proud of. I remember when I did the hair lineart so clearly I murmured to myself that I love this so much, and it’s good to draw again.
Rex
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I felt really bad about this pic and almost didn’t post it. I remember @guestiguess helped me a lot with it! Thank you again! Somehow I achieved here a great texture for the armor, and the face turned out cute.
Side note: and I love each of every one of my weird au series because… all those has some hidden stories <3
Thank you for this lovely ask, it was great to dwell into my past!
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myevilmouse · 2 years ago
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Chillin’ With My Chiliad!
Hey wonderful people!  I went bot-cleaning and discovered we hit a new milestone!  We are legion, now over a thousand, rock on my amazing followers, mutuals, and friends in the tumblrsphere!
In your honor, the incredibly talented @blackmonitor​​ has gifted this gorgeous, celebratory art of our two main men ready to toast your greatness!  So here’s to another chiliad, and thanks for being a part of my world.  I love you guys (and so do Thrawn & Luke). 🥰
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and every single one of them is amazing & sexy...
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chaos-monkeyy · 11 months ago
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Fic Writing Review 2023
Tagged by @loki-is-my-kink-awakening, thank you!! 😍 I so love a good excuse to look at ✨stats✨, this was really fun!
AO3 writing stats
215,218 words over 96 fics (including collabs 💕)
Average of 2,241 words per fic
Also this year I broke 1 million lifetime words on AO3 🎉
I wrote at least one fic in every category! (in order from most to least: M/M, Multi, F/M, Other, Gen, F/F)
Top 5 works by kudos
That thing (Venom)
Sweet Silence (OFMD)
Take me to bed (Good Omens)
Ease the Need (Venom)
Kept Waiting (Loki series)
Fandoms
I wrote for 15 different top-level fandoms, or 25 if I break it down into sub-fandoms:
Baldur's Gate III
Cosmere - Mistborn, Stormlight Archive, Sunlit Man, Warbreaker
Cytoverse / Skyward
Dresden Files
Echoes
Good Omens
Legend of Vox Machina
MCU - Loki series, Venom
Original Works
Our Flag Means Death
RPF - Bloodhound Gang
Sandman
Star Trek - Strange New Worlds, Discovery
Star Wars - Andor, SWtoR, Thrawn series + Thrawn Ascendancy trilogy
Stargate SG1 + Atlantis
Witcher
Most-written fandoms:
Stormlight Archive (29)
Stargate Atlantis (15)
Star Trek Strange New Worlds (10)
Stargate SG1 (9)
Tags and more
Most-written characters:
John Sheppard (13)
Evan Lorne (11)
Chris Pike (10)
Adolin Kholin (8)
Most-written ships:
Evan Lorne / John Sheppard (9)
Loki / Mobius (6)
OMC/OMC (5)
..annnd then it's a five-way tie 😂 3 fics each for Ronon Dex / John Sheppard; Cam Mitchell / John Sheppard; Shallan Davar / Adolin Kholin; Kaladin / Teft; Renarin Kholin / Teft
Top Additional Tags:
Blow Jobs (16)
Masturbation (14)
Alcohol, Age Difference, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot all tied for third place (11)
Ratings breakdown:
Explicit (71)
Mature (12)
Teen+ (8)
Gen (5)
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Tagging @trainofcommand because I know how you feel about stats and excuses for graphs and such 😏 And anyone else who sees this and wants to do one too! Copying the rules / guidelines from my tagger:
Rules: Feel free to show whatever stats you have. Only want to show Ao3 stats? Rock on. Want to include some quantitative info instead of stats? Please do this. Want to change how yours is presented? Absolutely do that. Would rather eat glass than do this? Please don’t eat glass but don’t feel like you have to do this either.
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twilekchiss · 1 year ago
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Poll: What is Thrawn?
So, this poll is inspired by my mom. She recently finished all six canon Thrawn books, but her first experience with him was the original Thrawn trilogy when it first came out. So she's been a (casual) fan of him for a while. She loved seeing him in Rebels, and so before Ahsoka comes I convinced her to read the new books. (She says she has a hard time with the tie in books because they never match her headcanons and how she interprets their personalities; indeed, Alliances, being the book with the most mainline Star Wars character in it, was her least favorite.)
We were talking last night, and she mentioned that she's glad I pushed her to read the books, she really enjoyed them, and she really loves a complex and morally grey villain.
"I don't know, I don't think of Thrawn as a villain," I say, "to me, he's too complex to be labeled hero or villain."
"He's absolutely a villain," she replies. She states that Thrawn is complicit in what the Empire does, and no matter how noble and good his goals are, no matter how heroic his actions are in the Ascendancy trilogy, he's still a villain because of that.
So, that made me start to think. I know a lot of Thrawn fans in the circles I run in think of him as at *least* an anti-hero. I've been on Chisstwt for a year or two now, but I'm fairly new in the Tumblr Thrawn fandom (Thrawnblr? Chissblr?), so I wanted to get some actual numbers. I'll still be asking on Twitter, too!
And please, feel free to elaborate on your answer!
! PLEASE REBLOG TO REACH THE MOST AMOUNT OF THRAWN FANS !
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readsalot1 · 1 year ago
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I would like there to be a fic where the "three solobrats" and early love interests (YJK, JJK era, so A/T, J/TK, J/Z) end up time-travelling to the prequel era (probably shortly after Geonosis), and the Organa-Solo kids are excited to meet their not-evil-yet granddad.
This goes off the rails when Tahiri freaks out as soon as Anakin 1.0 enters because that is the monster of folklore who slaughtered a whole tribe of Tuskens, down to the youngest baby.
Because you can't convince me that in this AU a) Anakin doesn't go down as some sort of ghost/horror story in Tusken culture, and b) curious baby force-sensitive Tahiri didn't wander off at some point and end up seeing the echo of the slaughter.
The prequel-era council obviously freaks out about 1. the time travel, 2. some of the time travelers are Anakin 1.0's descendants, 3. Anakin 1.0 apparently committed genocide (note: the fandom doesn't view this with the right amount of horror, even in light of his second genocide--the Jedi), and decides to temporarily suspend his duties until they can perform an investigation of sorts into his decision-making capabilities.
Anakin 1.0 is initially thrilled because OMG GRANDKIDS and one of them is named after him (wahoo!!), but quickly becomes pissy because the friend of his mini-me (EW, she was raised by Tusken Raiders [careful Ani1, your racism is showing] even though she's human) gets him in trouble with the council.
Anakin 2.0 now has even more issues/worries about his namesake, and turning out like him [note: this was a big plot point in his early appearances].
Jaina & Jacen are kinda worried about this because now their granddad was bad from an earlier point??? and they don't know what to do with that. (Jacen is jumping from joy because a bunch of animals that went extinct during the Empire's rule are still alive; Jaina finds out there were apparently seven lightsaber forms before Knightfall, and decides to crash all the basic training classes. This is hilarious because she's older than the enrolled students for the more basic forms like Shii-cho.)
Tenel Ka and Zekk are along for the ride:
("Wait, she's the heir to the Hapes Consortium?" "yes" "and they're letting her be a Jedi too?" "yep" "politically is that allowed?!?" "I mean her mom's from Dathomir?" **jedi padawan noises of imploded worldview**)
("so Zekk what about you" "oh, I'm a Coruscanti street rat :)" "ah ok, so the order found you easily!" "I guess your version would, but the Jedi got massacred, so I didn't start training until I was a teenager :)" **choking noises** "oh yeah, Emperor Palpatine was a total hardass, I'm so glad my friend's parents got rid of him, I'd probably be dead or totally evil if he was still in power" --at this point the padawan(s?) they're chatting to [maybe Barriss; she seems politically aware enough to worry about the heir of a major political power also being a Jedi--she's probably also read about Xanatos] decides to bring them to the council)
It goes something like "Didn't they mention, Darth Vader & the clones slaughtered pretty much the entire Order. Some of the younger padawans escaped (their masters died for them (and oh, doesn't that hit hard)) and ran until dark siders who served the Emperor hunted them down (this can be vaguely compliant with some Rebels content; assume the Rebellion-era is more fusion with new canon, except Thrawn doesn't engage as much with the Lothal cell, and thus is around for the Thrawn trilogy on to proceed (thus inquisitors exist and so too do the Hands--maybe Mara is Palpy's spy in the inquisorius's ranks; Starkiller can be Vader's; Death Star plan theft follows TFU more than R1) it hits hard that some of their own (their children, their future) work to destroy the vestiges of what they were).
Then they find out that Darth Vader, the Sith Apprentice--the emperor's attack dog, his right hand--is Anakin (1.0), the boy they took in, the one they protected, the one some viewed as their savior, the boy winning battle after battle, the one shining bright, the Hero With No Fear, the boy whose fear of losing everything, everyone he cares about is slowly tearing him to shreds, the foolish, foolish boy who will doom the galaxy to save one person and fail at that, the buy who burned and burned, scorching those around him until he was alone, and still burning, until he burned himself to save another foolish boy, the younger burning like a candle, steadily, warmly, rather than like the sun, and Anakin (they can't bring themselves to hate him, even knowing what he will do--they see the sweet child who loved his mother, who wanted to free all the slaves in the galaxy), seeing the warm, kind candlelight of the other boy, the brave, foolish child, his child, his son, and knowing he will burn him, sees the vacuum of space (the cold, cold man who made him burn everyone, who made him lose everyone, until only the vacuum was left behind, the only one he could not burn away), sure to take the air around the lone, kind candle, and the sun (Anakin) burns itself (himself) out, becomes a supernova to push the vacuum (empty, cold, always hungry) away from the candle (the son), and saves the brave, foolish boy who came to help him, but he feared burning most of all (the burning sun of Tatooine burns himself out, after burning with hatred for the better part of two decades, for another desert child, one who burns with warmth, like a hearthfire, and asks for the girl who burns (with the passion of justice, with compassion, the girl who is like him but not for instead of burning the world for those she loves, she who would burn herself out, the girl who would burn her enemies (those who seek the harm the world) for any who deserve kindness, who burns internally, but is willing to burn others as well) to forgive him, and she does, eventually, she names her steady hearthfire of a son after him, and hopes against hope that he (her son, one of her three suns) will have a happy ending, that he will not burn himself out like his grandfather, his namesake [Anakin, her son, he burns too: for his siblings (they will burn as well, his brother like his grandfather--maybe he should have been Anakin instead--and his sister, burning, the one to put out her twin's light, twin suns of Tatooine, one snuffed out the other), his friends (they break apart, the group splintering, fragmented after the war is won; even before), his love (she breaks, in a way not even being shaped by the black holes, put under pressure in the hope of her becoming one, can do; for a while she fades away to almost nothing, invisible, until the brother, seeing the broken, invisible girl takes her, and tries to make the broken puppet of a girl dance for him; it works for a time, building more cracks in her skin until she shatters, and the people who loved him, Anakin the second, the bright boy who burned himself away too soon, see the girl again, no longer invisible, and try to help her [pray they are not too late to put her (shattered, porcelain, crushed spirit, a shell of her former bright self) together again]), for the galaxy; but at this part of the story we don't know his fate, to burn and burn until there is nothing left, until the force takes him away, to burn so hot, so bright, so light, that his enemies (true voids in the force--black holes--not like the cold, hungry vacuum that desired, took the sun of his grandfather) burned away as well; he burns away, but as a hero. This does not stop his mother from her agony; it is all his father can do to hold himself together to stop her shattering like the girl everyone forgot, the invisible girl who loved his son, who would (and does) do anything for the memory of a boy who left the galaxy too soon].
This is the story they tell: of the angry sun who burns everyone (especially even those who offer him kindness), the boy-candle, the girl who burns with the heat of a thousand suns but never harms those undeserving of that fury, the scoundrel with the hard exterior who inside is kind, the brave wookie warrior who lives [and dies, though they will not know it for a time] to protect them, the saviors of the galaxy;
and others as well: the girl who was almost snuffed out by the vacuum, who burned as a quiet ember, whose flame was reawakened by the boy-candle; the boy who parallels her, who was trained by the angry sun to burn like him but refused, who burned out over and over again trying to prove himself, and, in the end, burned out to save the galaxy, who sent the message to the rebels that worked to end the war [the message, that, too late for some, still saved billions, perhaps trillions of lives, had it not been sent (how many worlds could have shared Alderaan's fate?)].
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