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Free verse Friday

The absurd comes in a cosmic belly laugh

I pause with a coffee cup half raised

Eyes blinking as my brain processes

Asking the universe if that really just happened

No, I have not seen everything

This is just a reminder

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Poetry is not 'real' writing or so I am told

It is more real than anything I have ever tapped on a keyboard

Or stowed away in hidden notebooks

I think it's more real than any other form

I am writing my own story

Speaking my own soul

Using my own voice

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Also. Tarantulas.

It's spider season in Los Angeles, and very specifically it is tarantula season. Everyone who knows me knows I scream like an air raid siren at spiders. I usually get one or two bites a year.

No big.

However, there is a special hell that comes with tarantula season and that is tarantula hawks. Not a bird but a wasp big enough to be a bird.

It feeds on tarantulas up to 5 inches large.

I have a vacuum with a wand that can assemble up to 5 feet. Got it with the vacuum. Sealed the bag with the vacuum running. Duct taped the opening. Put it in a plastic trash bag and tied it, then in a plastic shopping bag and tied that, and then I beat it with a rolling pin. I ran down in my nightie and dunked it in the trash.

Who needs caffeine when you have a whole-ass adrenaline dump?

Under the cut for the bug phobic. Not my pic because WTF am I going to stop and take a pic of this hell bug?

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AI slop strikes again

These things really do not have any idea about how the human body works. Impossible positions, multidicks, the orgasms last 20 minutes...

Whatever AI is good for, writing porn is not it. I am debating picking up the editing on this one, but mostly when I look at it I just feel tired.

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Your health may change, but your worth does not.

Keep reading

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Free verse Friday

It is humbling to read

Dispassionate medical terminology

Doctors describe the state of my flesh

This body of mine that carries my soul around

So battered and scarred carries hope and love

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Protect your peace like it's a helpless kitten

Nurture and care for it

Be a fierce mama for it

Show your teeth and claws in its defense

Rend flesh from bone

Fight for it hard

Stand your ground and lift your head

To guard your peace

Prepare for war

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Some things are forever

I have not forgiven

Instead I let it go

But they are not the same thing

"You should forgive!"

Why?

You turned a soft girl into a hard woman

You did it without a thought

So long as it gained you

Repent as you please

It changes nothing

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It's been a busy time with a lot going on in my meatspace life. I'm clearing out ruthlessly, revising my directives, handling work stuff, Mom's estate stuff, and pushing back on some bullshit. Sorry there's not more than poetry, but as you can tell...

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Free verse Friday

Circumstances surround her

A honeybee against a hurricane

She blames her wings for fanning the storm

For not being strong enough to fly in the face of such winds

Can a humble bee find peace in the philosophy of Zeno?

Can she learn the endurance of Epicetus as she dances from flower to flower?

The dance in the spring sunshine knowing time is short is not a sin

It is joy in a moment to treasure in the heart when the storms come again

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Free verse Friday (twofer) (threefer)

Quantify the dust

Parts were not needed

Having served their purpose

Shed cells clumping behind the television

Coating the books and tchotchkes

Making me sneeze as I battle entropy

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The rose-ringed parakeets found a condo

The lodgepole pines outside my bedroom

Each morning a wild and joyful noise

~

They found out

That sometimes no apology is needed

That sometimes no apology is possible

That kindness is not weakness

That having love in my heart does not remove the sword from my hand

That in order to have peace I am willing to go to war

That sometimes things are forever

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Two down and two to go

Had the quarterly CT scan yesterday and feel like absolute crispy crap today as I purge the IV and oral contrast.

I will be in my dark hole for the next 48 hours.

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Free verse Friday

Where does the time go?

Little Me looked at Granny without understanding the question

Time is objective to itself and subjective to oneself

I understand that now

In my single digit days I counted seconds into minutes

Minutes stretched slowly into interminable eye-rolling hours

A day at the swim club fled like a squirrel up a tree

An hour on a hard wooden pew longer than a day

Instead of running ahead I try to lag back

But time flows around me like a river around a rock

Returning to the ocean beyond reckoning

Now Old Me mutters as Granny did and asks the time where it went

The time does not answer

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Chiss Elegy

Nah're are tisci bah csci

S cot in'czasr

Tur ch'a cssah ch'ittun'hn csac'ti

Nah ch'can'i ror vim ch'er

Ch'at ch'avz can nen

Can ch'atah ch'ir

Ch'at k'ar can nuhn rin'hi

Ch'a ch'itt' suvrecco rcati

Carcir nah ch'itt suverecah

Sei carcir ina'

Veah ch'amn nah cavesah

Nah csaricant csah

I hope that is not just word salad. My silly attempt at Chiss poetry, using several translation sites. I will add the English version tomorrow.

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If anyone wants to know what a leopard seal sounds like 🦷🩸

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Free verse Friday

Playtime

After the work is done I put back the toys

The scratcher and ball tower

The balls and mousies

Soft things to kick and cuddle

Old ladycats romp like kittens

Chubby boy carries off a wool mousie

My heart is happy and this is my heaven

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Hope you’ve been doing well 🫶🏼

Doing well, if creaky, but so much stronger! Just got news that I am still in remission - happy!

How's you?

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Free verse Friday

It was a busy weekend, so this is way late.

Understanding the forever

We are finite

Forever is infinite

Look and see the goolgolplexes of galaxies

Look and see the innumerable stars cradled within

Each particle of you is also of this

We come in through the door

We go out through the door

Mourn the ending of that which has left you

You water what is to come with tears

The corporeal is left when the soul flies free

Leaping and landing again and again

Like an eternal bee in an infinite field of clover

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Free verse Friday

The return was unexpected

Dark hair harvested away by chemo

It peeps at me now from the silver

Shyly showing itself yet still proud

Lost things can come back

Pieces thought gone forever instead turn up

The loss was accepted and borne

We move through changes

Look in wonder at yourself

And rejoice

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Can you make something good again please.

Aw anon! I didn’t mean to be such a disappointment of an artist to you. Here you go