#I miss being in a fandom

[argent-gale]

Oddly Nostalgic

I got a notification one of my blogs turned 7 yo today.

I haven't been on here in months but it got me reminiscing a little.

About how I'd eagerly await those reblog/like notifications.

About how I'd squee when I got a message notif.

I remember when I lived/breathed TWD and SW. Those fandoms injected a spark that made life so much more interesting.

I remember writing fics. Getting recs. BEING recd.

I remember chatting people overseas until legit 2 am my time on a worknight.

I'm not really involved in any fandom right now. My online fandom friends have drifted away. People I used to talk to multiple times a day have just...disappeared.

I get sad because I remember how it used to be. So fun. I remember thinking how boring my life was before I got so involved in my fandoms. Now that I'm not in them anymore it makes me sad because my life is once again dull.

I wish I could get excited over things again but I just can't.

I scrolled through my feed and saw some old "faces" and smiled remembering. I guess I should be grateful I had that time at all.

I packed away all my fandom merch and will probably sell/give it away. I spent so much money on that stuff, lol.

Anyway, just musing today.

[drowsyirisarchive]

Today marks day one of taking my antidepressants, with any luck I’ll be back and annoying you with fandom stuff soon

[swiftmitsu]

Part 6.5

a little check in back at the castle~

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[tarmac-rat]

"I can't believe CDPR made one of the romance options a COP" River is a cop for literally two thirds of a mission that is dedicated to uncovering the depths of police corruption in Night City, gets immediately booted from the force BECAUSE he tried to stand up to said police corruption, spends the rest of the game pursuing detective work outside the law, and in the base game mentions he's going to start work as a private eye so he doesn't have to return to the force in order to keep protecting people.

The only instance where the "River is a Cop" joke is funny is using it in the context of Johnny being pissy about it, which should probably tell you how low hanging that particular fruit probably is.

[shrimpsalot]

Another custom merch I made for myself cuz I can't afford international shipping for official stuff 😔

[linkcharacter]

Oh I have so many thoughts on aroace Curly, I think it brings so much on the table when analyzing the game's story.

Amanormativity ties in with the reoccurring mentions of the nuclear family, from Wrong Organ making 1950s mock advert posters, to Swansea talking about how getting a wife and kids didn't bring him any fulfillment in life.

In the cake cutting nightmare sequence, where Jimmy talks with Dream Curly about the mediocre cake, Dream Curly begins to talk about how sometimes you can only get the subpar stuff in live. Sometimes he'll get promoted, buy a house, fall in love. But other times he'll just have some awful fucking cake with his friend.

I think there is that subtle implication that Jimmy does buy into Amanormativity, with him projecting his beliefs on Dream Curly that a platonic relationship is lesser then a romantic one. But we never see Curly suggesting that he wants such a thing in the pre-crash.

With Jimmy thinking that Curly has everything in life, except for the desire (although I think Jimmy would view it as Curly not having the skills for it) to get a romantic partner, he would heavily lean into getting the one thing that Curly couldn't get in life to one up him.

THATS EXACTLY WHAT IM THINKING!!! AMATONORMATIVITY BE DAMNED!!!!

Looking at Mouthwashing through an aroace lens is interesting

"Jimmy thinking that Curly has everything in life, except for the desire", well said, well said! And references to the nuclear family fit in very cleanly thematically for Mouthwashing.

Jimmy leaning into amatonormativity is a smart observation. Jim internalizes all the social norms and standards on what you have to do to have a normal and desirable life, who sees everything Curly has and what Jimmy wishes he had, and is offended that Curly isn't satisfied, that he has the "audacity" to be unhappy. Curly meanwhile only wishes for his life to be something he doesn't have to run from, because by all means, he has already reached a point where he should feel accomplished, but isn't. Curly doesn't want to be a freighter captain his whole life, he doesn't want to settle with his sustainable position, he just wants to be happy. Like Swansea who has reached the "ideal" outcome of his life, having a wife, kids and a good career, it will never feel as good as embracing all what society deems undesirable yet right for you.

Jimmy does imply to seeing himself as lesser as a friend, "fall in love" being a goal and a "cake with a friend" being something he "has to settle for", it's all in the subtleties with underlying themes of "what you're "supposed to want" by society's expectations" against "what feels right for you". Jimmy is frustrated that Curly is going to "leave the dirt behind him", when in actuality, letting the crew and him go is the last thing Curly wants. Curly wants to be with his friends, he deeply cares about his crew, and about his close friend.

Mouthwashing as a whole reads to me as platonic through and through. Swansea and Daisuke having such a meaningful familial bond, Curly and Anya being sweet, playful and caring without romance, Anya and Daisuke having something of a siblings dynamic are dear to me. Also it's really rare to get to see representations of "toxic friendship" in media. Its always toxic romance this, toxic yaoi that, toxic family there, however in reality, friendships aren't excluded from being as rotten and abusive as the others, yet they're often overlooked. Jim and Curly are especially unique in this way. It's very impressive how they managed to showcase Jimmy's mistreatment of Curly in such a platonic way (at least that how I read it). Jim too, like Curly, in general avoids hints at romance and attraction explicitly related to him during his gameplay, not with Curly, nor with Anya (dear god thanks for that at least). It's all spite, annoyance and parasitizing off of these two. (That man's dry and lowkey hates everyone and everything) No attraction attached, no desires except hoping it hurts.

Curly to me is very much aroace, or at least on the spectrum. Like, the trivia fact that one of Curly's fondest memories is that of his friends putting in effort to make a shitty awful cake, tells us all we need to know on how dear his friends are to him. Platonic relationships mean so much to Curly, even when it's Jimmy fucking Mouthwashing, the worst friend ever imaginable.

[siryamsalot]

little update on what I've been up to for the last uhhh *checks timestamps* eleven months jesus fucking christ

[chelseabeecreates]

✨ two sides of the same coin ✨

Redraw of one of the first Merlin arts I posted here wayyyy back in 2012. The boys got a glow up.

[stiffyck]

I WISH ARO HEADCANONS WERE MORE POPULAR IN FANDOMS

[shrugsinchinese]

Silly comic I started LAST winter that’s pretty ooc now cause of the new episodes haha

I just wanted to play with silly dnd fashion so here u go

[luckyartdrawer]

Purification in process...

Made 2 versions because I liked em both with a smile and a frown <3

You can imagine them going from a frown to a smile or the inverse :DDDD

This is not my AU!!! This lovely Batter Sun belongs to @monsteractialuna and they've got even more designs for this OFF AU if y'all are curious! Check em out!!! <3

(I am absolutely feral over this man and now that I saw the Moon design I am double feral. Why are they so smoochable??? They've joined the long couch of blorbos in my head-)

vvv Close Ups and Yapping below! vvv

Close Ups

Bonus: My real time reaction every time I tabbed back into my art program

I am staring respectfully.......

My old crush on the batter has been revived tenfold through this goober... I mean look at him. LOOOOOOK.

I am mentally preparing myself to crush on Moon Zacharie too this isn't fair /pos /I'm lying these mfs have been rattling in my brain for like a week it's too late-

If I inflict the curse upon anyone else...

You're welcome ;P

Also tossing in a quick tag to @midnight-mourning for being my fellow Obsessed-in-arms soldier over this AU. They also are the reason I found it in the first place so MIDNIGHT WHEN I GET YOU-

Anyways! Hope y'all liked the art! I'm possibly gonna make a Zacharie Moon one, I got the idea it's just if I can execute it :P so look forward to that hopefully! If y'all don't know OFF, it's an old sorta-pixel indie RPG game with amazing music too! There's tons of playthroughs online if you're curious, or I highly suggest playing through it yourself if you can! Beautiful, disturbed, and engaging story. :3

(I have rewatched playthroughs because these mfs kept popping up in my feed and head. They got me-)

[sinisternoodles101]

sorry i haven’t been drawing much digital. i have a job now lol😞

[ki1ldeer]

I’m feeling very uninspired by my ocs rn so I’m reverting to my steven universe phase lol

[mamawasatesttube]

the timkon fans who shit on bart are annoying, the konbart fans who shit on tim are annoying, and i don't actually know if there are timbart fans who shit on kon, but i sure hope not, because they'd be annoying. the three of them are a set!!! do NOT separate. red tornado literally assigned them one shared brain cell. what is not clickign

[katnissmellarkkk]

favorite book quotes :

“It feels like such a luxury, sleeping with Peeta again. I didn’t realize until now how starved I’ve been for human closeness. For the feel of him beside me in the darkness. I wish I hadn’t wasted the last couple of nights shutting him out. I sink down into sleep, enveloped in his warmth, and when I open my eyes again, daylight’s streaming through the windows.”

- catching fire (2009) by suzanne collins