#i love thinking about bill cipher

[nightmarealm]

forget - me - not :   has your muse ever forgotten something that is or was important to them ?   are they afraid of forgetting things like that ?  

smiles so widely this is a good one. here's the funny thing bill actually seems to be the most forgetful about things that are important to him. it lead to his downfall in weirdmagedon, he got so cocky in his plans he didn't even like. he can see the outcomes of the future and what's most likely! if he checked he could've probably seen oh this is heading down the path where i Die but he didn't because he was like psh... that's not even gonna happen. he's not very detail oriented like you might expect out of him.

however comma that's more of forgetfulness/careless rather then if he's forgotten anything. which he has. a lot of things, actually! He hasn't straight up forgotten what happened to his home dimension, he still like... knows what happened in the back of his mind. those memories are just so far repressed he basically can't pull them back up to the surface. at least not without a breakdown or blacking out. however! other things that are like.. adjacent to that do end up being entirely forgotten. like for example, taking over other dimensions! he goes into doing that, realizes ooooooh this is just like what happened to my home dimension, and sorta "reliving" that experience just causes him to like. black it all out. not saying that he doesn't make that active choice to do that or anything, he's like yeah i'll do this in aaaaa fun way yay!! and then things start burning and people start screaming and things start crumbling and hes like oh this is not as fun all the sudden. and then when its over and done with it sorta just gets really fuzzy until he cant even remember what happened there so he's like yay let's do it again! not to mention that like. the nightmare realm is a dimension that is actively crumbling and dying from very early on, dragging other dimensions into it is kinda the only thing keeping it alive so unless he wants to confront the reality of just letting it die, which we all know he has problems facing the music, he sorta cant do much else. plus! all his friends who live there with him are watching!! cant let them know that destroying things like that is a little distressing!! think of your merciless god persona!!

all that to say he tends to not remember important things whenever it like.. drags up those memories about home. stuff that reminds him of traumatic incidents. im sure if some like horrible medical incident happened to him in current day outside of the backstory medical horrors, he wouldn't remember that very well afterwards either, etc.

as for how afraid he is of it. well. it's less of like.. active fear and more of when he thinks about it too hard, theres this disquieting feeling. its unsettling. he tries to avoid those memories like the plague to begin with, so he doesn't think about it often, but yes, it is a little alarming to him that he can't recall it. what happened exactly? like. that's his life. he's supposed to know everything why can't he drag it up, what happened? why can't he remember if it was his mother or father who was red or blue? so he just opts not to think about it very hard. he'll have 5 more martinis to stop thinking about it, thanks.

[stump-not-found]

sluttily carries around a martini

draw pile w/ the bro pt 1.

pt. 2

[cultofcipher]

Bill Cipher thoughts (BoB Spoilers Ahead)

I'm really sitting on how Bill's displayed so much of himself indirectly in the BoB. How during the Love section he denies having exes, marking them out. How said exes show up SEVERAL times scratched out or are regarded with this bitterness of someone who did NOT do the breaking up part. Bill got dumped. Every time. And is desperately trying to bury his feelings.

And that's something I think the Book of Bill really highlights in a way. The fact that Bill has feelings. That deep down he's a broken triangle. It's all over the book's writing. Him pointing out how to use denial and rationalization and other bad coping mechanisms to basically ignore and lie to himself (and show us how to do it) and basically convince himself that he is as heartless as he tries to be. Him avoiding his exes. The tone he uses and the avoidance really giving the "I don't handle breakups well and I'm still petty about it". Him constantly telling himself that he's fine. He's not fine. Him crying over Ford leaving and getting wasted. Him being bitter about the henchmaniacs not calling. His regret over what happened to his world. His loneliness. GOD his loneliness. His self-hatred. His scathing remark about definitely NOT having some tragic backstory that humanizes him and how he's not an "I can fix him case". Calling himself a monster. His longing for home. The "Last one breathing". The "I tried to change the past". The "my hands shaking, as I realized I could never undo the". The "until there was no one left but me, covered in blood, alone in the universe". The goddamn "I don't want to die alone" Valentine's card. The last few pages. Just, the last few pages. That isolation, his pained "I'M FINE". The almost sad plea for someone to let him out.

Bill cares. He's fucked up, unstable, violent. But he does care about people he gets along with and he feels understand him. For every "I'm just playing the bit" and using people with nice gestures, I think a fraction of that is somewhat genuine. And he hates it. He hates his own vulnerability. He hates his lack of apathy. He's denying himself his own emotions constantly under so many layers of distractions, eldritch horrors, and repression. He can't think about home, about failure, about how every relationship he's ever had, platonically or otherwise, ended. And it wasn't on his terms.

Him talking about/to his mom when he's drunk. How his mom called him Billy as a kid. How his home life sounded simple. How Bill as an individual is anything BUT simple. And how his drunken state holds such fondness for that simplicity, yet it was suffocating. How he would've broken free eventually, inevitably, because he knew that's who he was. It's his nature. He was destined for more.

How it cost him everything.

How he's constantly chasing insanity like it's a drug. Like he needs the power trip to stay high. To not think too hard. To drown out his emotions and his self-reflections and everything he hates about himself.

How in Gravity Falls he still tried to get Ford to side with him after everything, cause that was his vulnerability showing, for the slightest glimpse of a moment. Cause he doesn't want to do it alone. Him reaching out to the reader in his book, because he doesn't want to do it alone. Can't do it alone. Even when he eventually betrays that person, I think him offering Ford that cushy spot alongside his henchmaniacs makes me think that yeah, Bill actually would've upheld his end of the deal.

He thinks he wants multiversal domination. He thinks Weirdmageddon is his Magnum Oppus. His purpose. But he's so lost. If he ever does get what he wants, he won't know what to do with himself. He'll be faced with the "Now what?". He'll hit the end of the road and realize how unsatisfying it is. How this isn't what he wanted.

How lonely it is to be God.

I think the Axolotl sees that in Bill. It's why he doesn't try to destroy him or attack him or anything. He sees that inner self of Bill. Sees him for what he really is. Someone who needs a LOT of therapy, a true, honest to goodness friend or partner in his life, and maybe a more sustainable life purpose or hobby. He has so much potential and in a way his pursuit of power, rather than being an actualization of his abilities, is a waste of them, because it gets him nowhere.

And he needs help, even if he doesn't think he does. He's a depressed alcoholic frat boy trying to drown his misery in a way that hurts and kills worlds. He's a girlfailure, a bisexual/pansexual disaster (he's at LEAST canonically bisexual or at MOST canonically pan cause this guy has dated both ways).

Bill's book is so incredibly amazing for what it is. All the lies, all the unrealiable narrator parts of Bill's facades and flaws and him being himself and all of his genuine thoughts and feelings bleeding through the lines and showing themselves but only in a way that you can really understand if you understand him and can tell when he's lying and when he's not. To see the real parts of him, and everything else. This book was perfect, and it was perfectly imperfectly him. This truly is Bill's book. It's so him in such a raw and genuine yet dishonest way. I'm gonna cherish this damn book forever.

[clovreat3r]

Made in the Image of Bill

Closeups of the quality gets roasted (just like bills family) ->

[doctorsiren]

he’s mad she ratted him out

[firephoenix23]

The Final Color Code

Okay here is the final color code. I will be honest I didn't solve it all but here is what it says

TWO DIMENSIONS TO AND FRO / YOU ALWAYS NO WHICH WAY TO GO / IF YOURE LOST DONT BE AFRAID IN EUCLYDIA / YOUVE GOT IT MADE / RUN TOO FAR RIGHT OF FRAME YOULL APPEAR ON LEFT AGAIN / JUMP TOO HIGH DONT CRY OR FRET / YOULL POP UP FROM THE GROUND I BET / IN THIS PLACE THERE IS NO FEAR LOVED ONES WILL NEVER NEAR / ROLES AND RULES ALWAYS CLEAR / EUCLYDIA WE HOLD YOU DEAR

[collectortruther]

Fordsy, nobody else really gets you, do they? Without me, you'll always feel unseen, surrounded by dolts who don't recognize your true potential. You've always felt alone in a crowd, haven't you?

Even if you got rid of me, you'd miss me. Admit it, you'd miss me.

[mutatedleemon]

McGucket in Lost On Earth AU? 👀

He tried to remind Ford about Bill, especially when all the posters and stuff started appearing around the house, but it was just like the spell Ursula put on Ariel in the movie - everytime Ford’s reminded of something about Bill, especially if there’s evidence, he forgets about it immediately or doesn’t pay attention. After the portal incident, Fiddleford tried to reach out to Stanley, but he also didn’t remember anything about Bill at his point, and didn’t really want to help Ford anyway, so Fiddleford just gave up, and with the Memory Gun, he also forgot about Bill.

Also, when Bill was erasing Ford’s memories, he also got rid of the journal “prototype”, but something about it got stuck in Ford’s memories and that’s why the new ones look exactly like the old one looked like. Ford think it’s an idea he never used before, though.

[infamously-winking]

hot take on billford is that the secret third thing is obsession with being seen by someone for the first time in each of their lives

[peteytheparrot]

You guys should be really glad I was too young to post online about Gravity Falls but now you guys have to deal with the whiplash of the Gravity Falls fan in me returning, and it was BAD…

One time at school me and my sister gathered a group of kids to make that Bill Cipher summoning circle (was it a summoning circle I actually forgot)… Jesus Christ…

Another time I grabbed my sisters 3Ds, recorded Bill Ciphers death, reversed it with the audio features on there, just to see what he said before he died, anyway I was freaking out over the axolotl thing for awhile ☠️☠️

ALSO I FUCKING LOVED THAT BILL CIPHER LOCKET BUT MY BROTHER BROKE THE CLOCK IN IT SO IT DOESNT WORK NOW… IM STILL PISSED ABOUT THAT

Anyway guys I’m so normal about this show! 👍

[year2000electronics]

Mirror, mirror, on the wall...

[discaet]

MAJOR BOOK OF BILL SPOILERS

bro what is this guys problem

[haedshct]

i dont have a persona to make into a billsona, but i do really like carmen lobotomy corporation so i think this works

[localcanadiancryptid22]

Me: I'm so normal about Billford i'm so normal yes a very casual ship about a man and a triangle mhm definitely

Also me: I WANT THEM TO FUCKING KISS FUCK KILL EACH OTHER AND REPEAT THE CYCLE I WANT THEM TO KILL MAIM FUCK DESTROY KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL I NEED THEM TO HAVE THE NASTIEST FUCKING SEX THE MOST HORRID HATE FUCK EVER I NEED THEM TO KISS FUCK MAIM KILL- *gets shot*

@aria-greenhoodie Your post about them hating each other's guts the one that lead to you following me back actually made me worse about them. Thank you.

[sixeritwouldeatyoualive]

reading the picture of dorian gray rn and "I shall show you my soul" can be very well a parallel to Bill showing Ford the last piece of his home, if u think hard enough

[aria-greenhoodie]

HEY DO YOU GUYS EVER THINK ABOUT HOW ABIGALE BLACKWING, A VERY INDEPENDENT INVENTRESS, SUDDENLY WENT AND MARRIED A RICH MAN (implied to be a Northwest) AFTER THE COLLAPSE OF THE ANTI-CIPHER SOCIETY? DO YOU EVER THINK MAYBE THAT MARRIAGE WAS OUT OF A DESPERATE NEED FOR SAFTEY FROM BEING INSTITUTIONALIZED? DO YOU EVER THINK MAYBE ABIGALE FEELS SHE TRADED AN ASYLUM FOR FREEDOM OVER HER LIFE? HOW SHE’S STILL TRAPPED IN A CAGE BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY? DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THAT!? BECAUSE I DO!

Anyway uhhhh Click for Quality.