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I hate that the memes about Vi being worse after a situationship compared to growing up in prison are somehow correct.
When I first saw it in the trailer I was like, this is clearly a cumulative thing. As she said she spent all those years starving, abused and freezing simply on the hope that Powder survived, so she has absolutely nothing left when Powder is dead and Caitlyn abandoned her, itâs just all that catching up. Itâs not that she could stand all those years in prison and not last a break up.
but then they made the most idiotic choice of centring her breakdown entirely on Caitlyn- she is the only one that haunts her and nobody else when I know damn well Vi has other regrets and thereâs so much more to her character. You canât even make the argument that those other regrets are implied, because they arenât - we are literally within her head. Sheâs constantly trying to drown out the noise (of Caitlyn) via drinking/fighting and itâs not working.
How about her family? Failing to fulfil Vanderâs dying wish to take care of Powder? The last they saw, Jinx was trying to kill herself using Vi (âGo onâ/âIâm glad itâs youâ/ actively saying no and not moving off the table when Isha gets in the way of her death/âno, no this isnât how itâs supposed to goâ- in reference to her surviving) so whatâs her thoughts on that and Isha?
how about some reflection on last season where she told Jayce to stfu and continue because one dead kid is more than worth putting an end to Silco?
How about her becoming an enforcer? The same people that abused her and murdered her parents? Now she was one of them, using brutality that she was a victim of since she was a child, willing to use the same poison gas that arose because of Piltoverâs exploitation of Zaun within the streets- again told to her by Vander. (And donât give me bs about it not being that bad when Viktorâs terminal illness is caused by it YEARS LATER, we are shown in s1 that CHILDREN work in those factories and with chembarons, we are also shown how bad the grey is in that music video). When Jinx brought it up, all she says is that sheâs done blaming herself for Jinxâs mistakes- but those arenât Jinxâs mistakes, those are her own. Does she recognise this?
Vi in s1 had opinions about âscraping together coins whilst [Pilover] has plentyâ, the Lanes being her streets, wanting respect, growing up feeling less than them and wanting that to change etc. Sheâs super happy to be eating Jerichoâs food, parkouring and correcting Caitâs assumptions. So does she still hold these opinions in s2? What changed if she doesnât? Her entire thing was being Vander-mini with feeling/being responsible for the lanes/her family. How about now? How does she feel about anything?
I adore Vi and seeing her reduced to âEmo lesbian canât get over her situationshipâ is awful. Iâm not talking about the jokes, but in canon how things she should have strong feelings about are entirely ignored for her feelings about Caitlyn. Her trauma isnât properly explored at all, a music video where sheâs only upset about Caitlyn is so unfair to her.
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This is a lot of very angry words for someone who just said making sex jokes about children is weird
Hey, TDP fandom, you know Callum and Rayla are still teenagers, right?
#Like yeah kids making sex jokes about teenage characters is objectively less bad#Children are stupid and they say stupid things#I used to say stupid things about teenage characters when I was 14#But you're jumping so many hoops to antagonize a person who literally only said that saying shit like#'i bet they go at it like rabbits' about teenagers is weird#Because it is weird#I dont know why you're this unbelievably angry over the fact that someone said that's weird#Its not puritanical to say that sexualizing children is bad#You shouldn't have to add a âEXCEPT FOR OTHER TEENAGERS!!â disclaimer when saying that making sex jokes about children is bad#This is the internet. Most people don't post their age for all to see. When I see someone sexualizing a child character I have no fucking#idea if it's an adult or a child#And even if they were a child they should not be posting that shit publicly for all to see#Thats how adults take advantage of them#You're acting like OP was antagonizing the concept of sex and teenagers exploring their sexuality#She wasn't she literally just fucking sexualizing children is bad#Why are you so angry over being told that sexualizing children is bad
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ahhh happy christmas to all my folks who celebrate !!!!
if you need me iâll be here talking about asthmatic soda while i do my breathing treatment (iâm okay!! i just get wheezy in the cold lol)
- soda has has asthma since he was little, the first time his parents knew something was up when he literally passed out from a lack of air when he was playing at the park with two-bit; they had to take him to the hospital and dear god what a fiasco it was
- he loves to joke about it, and he typically is good at recognizing when he needs to take it seriously, but every now and then he pushes himself a little too far and darry or pony have to sit him down and remind him to take a breather
- itâs mostly activity induced and also if he gets to anxious and worked up, but for some reason some cologne pony tries also has him gasping lol (two-bit swiped it for the kids birthday, he thought the whole thing was hilarious)
- darry swears sometimes soda is TRYING to aggravate it bc why the hell is he so set on chasing the deer out of their neighborhood or racing steve to the lot to play football
- one of his biggest scares was when they went to swim down at the lake and he was on a rope swing and ended up flying wayyy past where he should have been and darry had to swim out to get him bc he was about to pass out
- he probably has to have a nebulizer at some point (lol same babe) and my god he HATES IT like he can NOT sit still for that whole treatment
- i saw someone say a while ago that soda doesnât like to use his inhaler or do treatments before bed even if he probably should bc that medicine gets you WIRED, he just laughs at darry and says, âdarry i canât take that now i wont sleep for a week.â
- pony isnât a huge fan bc it stresses him tf out but heâs very glad to not have his brother kicking him all night lmao
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budbonita. fellow horrortale connoisseur. opinions on the horrortale game that came out this jolly holly eve,,,,,,, me personally i am very calm and relaxed (eye twitch) đ
Hello, Tryglybud! Its good to see you again in my ask box :3c okay lets het to the point shall we?
THERE IS SPOILERS ON THIS, so have that on mind before READING!!!
WARNING FOR child death mention, decapitation mention.
That said (rubs my little fly hands)
If there's one thing I really liked about Horrortale is that SAS takes elements from the original game and re-routes them to fit the story. The charm of Horrortale is that it's precisely an alternate timeline that you can believe will happen without problems. A neutral route that turns into the living hell of monsters.
Anyway, now to point out the little things I liked.
The dark twist of Sans' Iceezs puzzle! In the original the joke is that you can't find any of the words that are written (the fucking puzzle is not doing the puzzle if you want to pass it. It's literally doing nothing lol) but here you literally HAVE to find the words to advance. I found it funny because if you've played UT your first instinctive action is to do nothing! It's like that Papyrus puzzle and the colored tiles that you don't expect to be relevant and then it turns out that it was! Just cute, thanks SAS.
The music! the overall atmosphere is super eerie and ominous, the opening song for waterfall is simple and sounds like still water. It gives you the feeling that you're in dead ground. Like the genocidal route in waterfall and its theme, but again, SAS USES the game's foundations and directs them into their own story YYYYYY OUAGHAHA I LOVE IT! Do you think Aliza inhales the dust in the air while walking?
Goner Kid!'s dialogue is literally a reversal of what one of Gaster's followers says about living in a world where everything is exactly the same but you don't exist in it. In this case, SAS AGAIN redirects and gives new meaning to phrases and details from the game for Horrortale.
The underground would probably have been saved if Sans didn't exist, that is, if Sans had decided to die for all of them! AAAAAAAAAAAAHHH I'M REALLY SMILING LIKE A LUNATIC. I love, LOVE the importance SAS gives to the source material considering Horrortale is a timeline and not an AU! It adds another layer of depth and reinforces the plot a lot; you who played the game and knew the story and grew fond of these characters are now witnessing the suffering that YOU as a player caused in one of your games!
Onion san submerged in that pit of black water was scary, I really expected him to come out of there to kill me when I first saw him (and I wanted that to happen, for him to jump out and kill us why not? >:3). His exchange with Aliza is sweet and adorable considering how scary he managed to look at the beginning haha. Horrortale is still a sad story even though it has scary elements.
The painting on the wall of waterfall reminded me of that thing Alphys created to rip out Horror's magic eye, although the description says it seems to be from a creature. It's probably ambiguous on purpose.
Aliza's deaths are brutal. I died with River Person for the first time and I felt bad for Aliza, poor thing was stripped down to the bone! A gruesome death. The rabid Temmies! I loved that they were included, their dialogue is simple but works well and feels in character. She was decapitated, MY POOR GIRL! Devored, impaled, drowned, this girl wont stop going through the most horrorific DEATHS!
And that's another thing with Horrortale, they all feel in character just like their original versions! Sans is still a joker, only his psychosis has made him more violent, more sadistic and prone to darker humor (I'd eat Horrortale's little black humor animated shorts with fries). He also keeps the tendency to beat up children, his character is consistent and that's why he's my favorite.
There's such a thick and obvious parallel with Aliza and Horror when he says "how much do you think your life is worth?" I mean, if he's on her case maybe it's because he wasn't in her shoes for long (although Aliza doesn't wear shoes!)
And I'm not saying Killer or Dust aren't, they're also wonderful in their own way but they're maybe very different approaches, but they work (and I love them too, believe me).
My only complaint with this little game is that it's very short once you figure out all the puzzles! But I can't complain when we get more of the comic in JANUARY (my birthday month!!). I look forward to more story and seeing more characters soon. This was a little treat i will treasure with all my heart.
#I HOPE YOU DONT MIND THE LONG TEXT#i got excited#Horrortale is my fave and will always will be#i think i talked enough but surely there is details that i am ignoring for sure#utmv#undertale au#Horrortale#horror sans#horrortale aliza#buu asks#tryglybud is their own tag
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#i literally used to joke about this as a kid#big ghost rider fan#and big sansby shipper#i miss undertale man#undertale#sans undertale#undertale grillby#undertale sansby#ghost rider#fan art#lennylink#my art#lol#meme#twitter
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geralt of rivia thoughts summarized
this city is too congested and loud
i donât like the way my clothes feel
itâs super hot out right now but iâm gonna keep my outerwear on
iâm just gonna sit in the corner and do my thang
whatâs wrong with me why do i feel emotions so strongly
people keep telling me i was made wrong
there are so many smells out here right now
i donât like the way these clothes feel either
i donât know how to break up with my girlfriend so iâm just going to leave i guess
wrong decision iâm going to apologize now. ⊠by giving her some cool rocks
i kind of messed things up with my girlfriend again but i want to talk to her BUT i donât know how to address her. we made passionate love many times. can i call her my⊠hmm⊠ummm⊠friendâŠ?
i could piss in this flowerpot but⊠that wouldnât be nice to the flowers
itâs time for a scathingly eloquent rant
never mind i forgot how to say words
iâm just going to tell you what happened straight up. no poetics from me
but letâs critique society
I HATE INJUSTICE AND UNFAIRNESS !!!
why are people so corrupt and evil. i donât get it.
more importantly. WHY do i keep falling for it.
i am a relic of an older time. change is already here and iâm not ready
apart from my immediate family iâve had one best friend for a decade and thatâs my extent of socializing.
unless someone comes to me first with that. and we have shared interests. then we can roll together for a bit
i have not changed my sense of style or the type of clothes i wear since i was eighteen. i even tie my hair in the same way
#AND he has a weird hair color. he would do NUMBERS on tumblr#thos cool rocks were jewels = money but i just thought it was funny he didnât want to apologize in person but just give her jewels#like can you imagine if nenneke hadnât roasted him right then and there#can i just say before this post is read that iâm joking âhaha geralt is codedâ#but iâm very aware of the actual origins and reasonings for the aspects of this characterization#there are several factors at play here and maybe sadly none of them had to do with being autistic#however to put it simply a combination of foreign and familiar elements were used#and in that same note both an everyman and on the outskirts of society#just wanted to say that sometimes âthis character is CODED INTENTIONALLY WHAT ELSE COULD IT BE!!!â interpretations are flat as pancakes#and iâm not trying to contribute to that#as well as somehow turning blind eye to literally everything more obvious about the character#like âgeralt is quite direct. he must be autisticâ or he could just be eastern european#i kid i kid because âpor quĂ© no los dosâ but just wanted to clarify the intent of the post#anyways. yay our guy#the elbow-high diaries
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Fam and i were passing a sock shop and we saw a cyclops one and In Devious Union my brother and i said âcysocksâ
#snap chat#speaking of siblings tho i finished those Scarlet Witch and Quicksilver comics and i fear i need more i love them sm đđ back to me tho.. lol#so it turns out we share a braincell. AWFUL !!!#YOU KNKW WHAT HE SAID TO MEON THE TRAIN context i put eyeliner on so i look esp like a raccoon today. also more rings but whatever#my brother was like âat least we dont have to worry about anyone sitting next to us theyjust have to look at you and be like đâ#LIKE WHY IS HE SO MEAN TODAY well jokes on his dumbass two kids ended up having to sit next to us ANYWAY#SO DIE <- this is average brother banter please be nice to us both#my dad was a lot nicer about my outfit ⊠as per usual ⊠omg wait this blog gets to leaen about how cool my dad is and how much i love him :]#ANYWAY MY DAD WAS NICER he literally stopped me and turned me around just to look at my whole outfit sosnwkssk#he kept insisting it was very cool and that i was fashionable. he DID be like âwow ! emo :)â at first which almost made me throw up laughing#but thats what my dad does best: making me laugh and Not making me feel like a gross heathen. unlike SOME parentsâŠâŠâŠâŠâŠ#anyways if we walk hy the shop again ill take a pic of the cysocks. because thats what this post was about fjWPDJSKSK#FOR NOW BYE my bro and i are in a bank lobby rn dodnskkejz#my dad had to do somethin real quick but he should be back soon then weâre going to meet my. older sis#see theyre both older than me but i distinguish them via Older Sister and Eldest Sister#because using their names is ridiculous. ok bye
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Childhood dreams come true! No need to dress up as a displacer beast anymore. She can just be one!
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#minthara#minthara baenre#evil murder kitten#new headcanon unlocked: minthara used to pretend to be a displacer beast as a kid#ya'll don't understand - she's literally an evil murder kitten in this case#when minthara said she has something of a feline nature - she wasn't joking around#she also has some dialogue about having a pet displacer beast as a child too#minthara is very much the loner type and i can definitely see her as someone who would have trouble making actual friends#especially when there was always the fear of being betrayed by them#but her pet displacer beast was the one true companion she had#someone she knew loved her and wouldn't betray her#makes sense why she does have such an affinity for them and takes on a feline nature#because her only true friend until now literally was a cat
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'Where are the he/him lesbians in media' does greg universe mean nothing to you
#JOKE JOKE THIS IS A JOKE#unless...?#inspired by this current fiasco (my last reblog)#steven universe#greg universe#but fr that guy had some sort of gender crisis at SOME point i guarantee it#theres just something about his vibe#yknow??#hes like a sweet old man that youd find in a bar. Looking kind of lost..#newly divorced you wonder? Maybe finally getting the chance to experiment.. couldnt hurt to lend an ear#and then you talk to him one minute and learn that NO this man(?) has been to So many gay bars#and has met queer people you wouldnt even /imagine/#literally!! because then these 3 bright colored hipster ladies come out and greet him like an old friend and youre like 'oh...'#and then you learn his dead wife was apparently an ex alien princess or something. You dont even know#you would be far less pressed to believe it if the purple one didnt just swallow a martini glass whole#''yknow being a man isnt all that it's cracked up to be kid''#''sometimes you gotta follow your heart.. like me!!''#''and i know i look like any run of the mill boring old man but you know what they say.''#''theres a bit of magic in all of us ey? you just gotta invite it in :)''#and then him and pearl make out sloppy styledhgdhdhGSGHDGDHHDG sorry
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>i join a server for systems
> the rules dictate what my littles can and cannot do "for their own safety because they're literally children"
> i leave
#'all alters under the age of 16 must stay in the section where cursing and topics with any sort of maturity are banner'#what if the 4 year old wants to talk about how she smokes weed to deal with panic attacks and help with insomnia#shes not actually physically 4 you know she can smoke weed#and she swears just as much as everyone else idk why shed have to be protected from adult language#like if your littles do thats fine but why would you assume ALL syskids follow that or feel comfortable following that#my littles feel they CANNOT EXPRESS THEMSELVES AT ALL if they are limited to disney channel appropriate content#and theyre not out here like. making dick jokes or anything but when they get angry they say fuck#and talk about gore and drugs and trauma#besides. i think at least half of the people in the world swear around their kids and they turned out fine#we learned to swear when were 10 and swore often to express ourself as a child#most parents ive met swear around their children. not at mind you just around.#like most parents wont. drop a carrot on a patch of cat fur on the floor. and then go to the other room to quietly mutter FUCK#and they shouldnt have to#irl children shouldnt be completely cut off from swears they should be taught the appropriate time to use them#idk im just sick of people providing syskids with literally less agency than they would an actual IRL child.
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I BEAT FIRE EMBLEM AWAKENING!!
REREGGHRHRHAHGEHRHHRH
#ann plays awakening#yes i did open another file to marry her MIND YOUR BUSINESS#idk how much i talk about her it should be more#something about the inherent tragedy of the second gen draws me to them more and makes me yap about them more but#make no mistake. maribelle is literally my second favorite awakening character FUCK THEM KIDS#and like. absolutely a top 10 fire emblem character in general i love her sososososo much#MY FAVVVVVV WHITE GIRL#MY WIFE!!!!!!!!! đ€©đ€©đ€©đ€©đ€©đ€©#how many times am i gonna use the âi beat fire emblem awakeningâ joke. i dont know.#ive never actually married maribelle before tho bc before i got the gay mod i just. dude i cannot marry her to the male avatar.#thats a lesbianâŠ.. sorryâŠ#but now. i am freeâŠ
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my coworkers are being turbo transphobic and literally refuse to listen to answers to questions they fucking ask argh!!! I can just tell you!!! I can just answer you!!!!! I have answers!!! to the ridiculous questions you ask in a mocking way!!!! if you listen for one second I can just fucking explain!!!! đĄđđĄđ
#they ask why would trans men NEED tampons for men since they are WOMEN why cant they juat use WOMEN ones those stupid silly women ugh#they keep coming back to the topic#and im like hey they are not women ^_^ and try to explain the concept#in easy kindergarten terms like hey you know how you wouldnt want to buy pink girly items because you are a (cis) guy! well#and them im cut off with more transphobic shit before i can say anything else#my coworker literally said her son told her and her husband they were playing spin the bottle on a school trip#and she asked so did you kiss any girls? and he said#sure when it landed on a girl then i kissed a girl (implying he also kissed guys)#and she said her husband was so shocked because hes conservative#while she said she just ordered the son not to say anything else#and she tells us 'i think he was just testing us or something'#wtf. i said well okay maybe he was testing your reactions and now hes not gonna tell you shit anymore#and she went like hm đ€#also the irony of saying her HUSBAND is conservative while she fucking. misgenders trans men all day and jokes about gay men constantly#in a nasty way#all of them do#im so tired#she complained kids nowadays are so caaual about gay people#and i said okay well i love it personally they should keep it up#and NO ONE at the table supported/agreed with me#sorry i am on a work trip and suffering#transphobia tw#neri stfu
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bro getting myself an audhd assessment for the sole reason of making the rest of my family realize that THE HAVE IT THEMSELVES is getting more and more tempting by the fkn day I SWEAR TO GOD
#like my dad keeps critizising and âmaking funâ of his OWN BROTHER for having very very obvious special interests and âneeding routineâ#and somehow fails to fkn realize that he IS THE VERY FKN SAME#my mom is currently doing health checks and sht for a lot of things that MIGHT STEM FROM THE FACT THAT SHE IS ALSO NEURODIVERGENT#âI just have trouble starting/finishing things and I'm unfocused and tired a lotâ BESTIE IF YOU JUST FKN LISTEN TO ME-#LIKE BOTH ME AND MOM HAVE WORKED WITH AUDHD KIDS FOR YEARS WHY CAN YOU NOT SEE THE SIMILIARITIES I BEG#like we had an entire discussion of good/bad rep of neurodivergency and how most people boil autism down to âoh so like Sheldon!â#When it's literally the worst most stereotypical awful thing I know because SHELDON IS MADE OUT TO BE A JOKE AND IS SIMPLY JUST FKN MEAN#and like they don't seem to realize why âoh I couldn't tell they had autism when I met them!â IS THE ENTIRE FKN POINT#I am so tired#I keep trying to use neurodivergent lingo in casual conversation in hopes they'll pick it up too but no luck yet#I literally couldn't help myself when talking about my uncle today and asked if he had a diagnosis on paper#since it âclearly runs in the familyâ and they got SO FKN QUIET#I'M SO TIRED OF PLAYING DUMB IN MY OWN HOME#BCS IF I DO SAY SHT OUT LOUD they play it off as âoh your friends have brainwashed you into thinking you are neurodivergent sweetheart :((â#I'm tired#tove rambles
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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point
#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow#2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too#like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does#i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made#after school was leaving my work and therefore my life#9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday#i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics#barely affects me#but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well#it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be#i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time#like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news#i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc#i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't#make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc#but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully#drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood#when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily#at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know#we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly#in the dead of night in our room#i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus#that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their#body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive#i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times#like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not#have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone
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Jonathan Byers This Is An Intervention
âYouâre not happy here.â
Jonathan looks up, startled. Will stands in the doorway with his arms crossed. Theyâre alone in the house, El hanging out with Max and their mom on a date with Hopper. They had to practically shove her out the door before sheâd leave, rambling a list of phone numbers and where to find them, as well as reminding them where the leftovers were.Â
âWe know, Mom,â he and Will had chorused, and permitted her to pull them down for one last kiss on the cheek before closing the door on her. Hopper just watched in amusement.Â
He and Will had eaten dinner before separating to work on their projects, Will with a dnd campaign idea and Jonathan cleaning his camera out. It has more dust than it should, having been sitting in his closet unused for too long. It makes something in him ache, but he canât make himself pick it up again. Thereâs something blocking him.Â
âWhat?âÂ
âYouâre not happy here,â Will repeats. âIn Hawkins.â
âItâs Hawkins,â he points out. Being unhappy is a given. Heâs always known it sucks here, from the way people treated his mom to the rumors that always flew around when he made his way through the halls. The way theyâve treated Will. He hated this town long before interdimensional monsters factored in.Â
Willâs frown gets deeper. âIâm happy,â he points out. âMomâs happy. El and Hopper are happy. We actually have friends here.â
âI have friends,â Jonathan protests, slightly offended. He and Argyle call multiple times a week. He and Nancy are still good friends, and Steve and Robin are slowly growing on him. In a surprising turn of events, Eddie is the person his age he talks to the least, but it makes sense when he thinks about it. Eddieâs brand of freak has always been loud and dramatic, half relying on shock value. Jonathan prefers the quiet.Â
âWhen was the last time you actually hung out with someone that wasnât me?â
Is that what this is about? Something in his heart sinks at the idea that Will doesnât think heâs enough. âI like hanging out with you. Youâre the coolest person I know,â he says, shifting over and patting the bed next to him.Â
Will sits down with a huff that sounds very fifteen-year-old of him. Heâs glad heâs getting to be a kid. âYouâre not listening to me,â he complains.Â
âThen what are you trying to say?â
Will wonât meet his eye, suddenly nervous. âEveryone your age here is leaving,â he says quietly. âNancy is going to Emerson soon, Steve and Robin are going to Chicago, and EddieâŠuh, I donât know his plans, exactly, he might be going with them. Heâs not staying here, anyway. And Argyle is on the other side of the country. So all the people youâre friends with are leaving.â
âThey are,â he agrees, laying what he hopes is a soothing hand on Willâs shoulder, âbut you know Iâm not leaving you, right? Iâm not leaving you and Mom.â
Will squeezes his eyes shut. âMaybe you should.â
It feels like ice water being poured over his head.Â
Something in his stomach twists uncomfortably at the idea of calling Hopper his dad. He doesnât know if heâs ever going to. He doesnât even know if Hopper would want him to. But âdadâ is always a word heâs associated with bruises and yelling, the stink of whiskey and a gun in his small, shaking hands. Jim Hopper, with his gruff, fumbling way affection and sweet smiles at his daughter will never fit his version of the word.Â
âYouâre not my dad,â Will says. âYouâre my older brother, you should be my brother. You should be moving away and going to college and living your life! You shouldnât be stuck here because of me.â He seems near tears now, and Jonathan flounders. Heâs always been pretty good at making Will feel better, but now itâs different. Now itâs him making his little brother upset.
Will takes a deep, stabilizing breath.
âYouâre not my dad,â he says again. âYou shouldnât have to be my dad.â
âI wasnât trying to be,â he says weakly.
âYouâre doing a better job than he ever did.â
âOkay, then how should we start?â
âYou could tell me why weâre always running out of tylenol.â
He didnât even realize anyone noticed that. Heâs been replacing it before it was even empty.
The words stick in his throat, reluctant to come out. But he promised. He promised heâd tell him, and he hates to break a promise to Will.
âItâs my back,â he admits. âMy boss hit me with a chair, and it hurts all the time now. I used to smoke it away, butâŠâ
He smoked a little too much. He was too reliant on it. He was being neglectful. The reasons stay on the tip of his tongue, unable to admit his shortcomings.Â
Unfortunately, Will takes it another way. âYou stopped because of me.â
âNo!âÂ
âWhy didnât you tell me? Or Mom? We can go to the doctor now, we have insurance.â
âI know.â
âThen why didnât you go? Why canât you just take care of yourself?â
âItâs just a little back pain,â he defends, âitâs not a big deal.â
Itâs really not. Itâs practically nothing compared to what some of their friends ended up with. Will has respiratory problems, Eddie uses a cane now, Max is in a wheelchair and her eyes might never work again. Not to mention Steveâs mix of migraines, glasses, hearing loss, and scars heâs accumulated over the years that put Jonathanâs to shame. His issues pale in comparison.
âIt is when you take as many painkillers as you do! Youâre going to eat holes in your stomach.â
âIf I get an ulcer, itâll be because I know thereâs another world out there full of things that want to kill us,â he says, poking Will in the stomach. He giggles, and then looks mad about it.Â
âItâs been a long time since Iâve seen you actually happy. I feel like itâs my fault.â
What does he say to that? It canât be your fault, because I donât remember the last time I was happy like that? I felt like this long before you went missing? Anything he says will make him worry more.Â
âItâs not your fault,â he finally settles on.Â
âBut if I hadnât disappearedââ
âI would still feel like this,â he says, because he has to. He canât stand the idea of Will thinking itâs his fault when the truth is that something has been wrong with Jonathan for a long, long time. âItâs not because of the Upside-Down, bud. Itâs not something you can fix. Iâm pretty sure Iâm justâŠlike this.â
Heâs had moments of happiness, obviously. Sometimes heâll get days, or even weeks, where he genuinely looks forward to the future. When he was in California with Argyle, he felt even better. But eventually, the heaviness in his chest always comes back. Itâs just something he knows how to live with now.Â
Will sits up, glaring at him. âThatâs bullshit!â
âItâs just how it is.â
He squares his shoulders, a telltale sign that Jonathan isnât going to like whatever he says next. âMom and I think you should see a therapist.â
Jonathan really doesnât like that. âYouâve been talking to Mom about this?â
âSheâs worried about you!â
âShe shouldnât be!â Heâs almost offended. Heâs been taking care of himself for years. He was taking care of her for years. âIâm fine! I know how to live with it!âÂ
âI havenât seen you smile for real in two months!â
âIâm fine!â He snaps again, and immediately regrets it. Willâs lower lip trembles.Â
âYouâre not fine,â he says. âYouâre not. Donât lie to me, Jonathan. You just said you werenât going to lie to me.â
#Jonathan byers this is an intervention au#stranger things fanfic#jonathan byers#Will Byers#depression boy go brrr#YES I am posting my two favorite characters in the show being tragic back to back. What about it#Jonathan Byers definitely has chronic pain and depression that he is 100% using weed to self medicate with. He told me himself#His parentification and loserboy personality have captivated me#I know we all joke about Steve being the kidâs mom or dad or whatever but heâs not. He is NOT#heâs an older brother figure to Dustin Lucas and maybe Max in my brain but Will???#Will HAS a big brother and heâs the best big brother in the world and I love him so much heâs literally my wife#Did I mention heâs autistic? Heâs autistic#This isnât meant to bash anyone btw I enjoy a lot of âmom steveâ content and shit. Itâs just the difference between canon and fanon to me#And Iâm not bashing on fanon god knows I indulge in it plenty
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If he had lived through Death On the Nile but still got shot, I think Bouc would have said something stupid like "Scar buddies!" to Poirot to improve the mood (because I think he would know about Poirot's scars) and Poirot and Rosalie would have looked at him with the most exasperated yet fond expressions.
#the 'you literally almost died in front of us and you're joking about that right now are you kidding ugh i love you so much' face#this is actually what happened btw bouc doesn't die who said that#death on the nile#death on the nile 2022#hercule poirot#bouc#monsieur bouc#rosalie otterbourne#i'm saying stuff
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