#clivedonovan

[fallendev0tionvn]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLIVEEE, I had to speedrun.

+ a small sketch for everyone who commissioned their mc x clive🏃‍♀️

(scientists say he's flipping off row <3)

[p204]

happy birthday Clive !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with respect

[ebonysplendor]

Fallen Devotion (DEMO) Review 🔔🏍️

TL;DR: "We're gonna be best friends forever, right?" "Mmm, I dunno. You get kind've annoying sometimes." "That was a trick question. You will literally never be rid of me. Even if I die, I'll haunt you." "All right, all right; yes, we'll be best friends forever. I was just joking lol." "Lol yeah...but I wasn't." "What? o_o" "What? :)"

Game Link: https://billetdoux.itch.io/fallen-devotion

Notable Features: Self-Insert, Yandere LI, Supernatural LI, Selectable skin tone, Selectable Pronouns, Multiple Endings Spiciness: 0/5 -- No spiciness here! unfortunately But! He does give us a little hug, which was really nice :) LI Red Flags: 1.75 / 5 -- History of stalking and kidnapping. He's not much of a threat, right now...at least towards us.

Wanna know more? Nah. Not if you aren't at least 18, you don't. Frankly, you shouldn't even be on my page, because I am no where near child friendly. Oh, you're over 18? Well shit! Let's get into it!

I was so excited about this game demo dropping. I was so excited about this game demo dropping. I was so excited about this game demo dropping. I was so excited about this game. demo. dropping. You hear me?

Like, the moment I saw the LI I was just-- those of you who have been rocking with me for a while know that I have a massive thing for alt style men, and baby, when I saw him, it was wraps. I had been crushin' on that man since I saw the initial screenshot on Tumblr.

Anyways, thirstin' aside, I'm super excited to tell you about this one, because so much went down in the demo. Now, am I gonna tell everything that went down? No. But, what I am gonna do is tell you as much as possible without ruining the game itself. Trust me; you're gonna wanna give this a try for yourself after I give you a snippet of what's going down, and bro, shit is going down.

So boom.

Our bestie -- well, ex-bestie -- is dead.

That's already a lot going on in that one sentence, right? Nah, it goes farther than this.

Basically, it started -- at least today -- from us waking up from having a dream. Actually, scratch that, because it more like a nightmare at this point, and it's happened multiple times this week alone. What makes it a nightmare, though, is that it's always about our best friend, but no longer best friend, but not because he's dead, ex-best friend.

Like always, we try to brush it off as best as we can and head into work for some much needed sense of normalcy and, frankly, some grounding. It should really be noted that these frequent nightmares are really starting to wear down on us, though. Now, why is that?

Because, now, we're starting to hallucinate -- ...lmao -- random text messages and attributing random scribbled notes to his hand writing and ish because of it. Like, we seriously thought we saw the man's bike outside of our workplace. The sleep deprivation is real, ya feel me?

"Lol, nah, that's not why. It's because you're trying to act as if the guy never even existed. Did you ever think that maybe the universe or whatever is tryna tell you something? Because, if I was him, I'd be haunting your ass. ...You look a mess by the way lmao. You own a mirror or nah?"

ಠ_ಠ

Leave it to our co-worker to be brutally honest with us. It's almost as if the comment about us clearly trying to forget our best friend, but no longer best friend, let alone non-living ex-best friend wasn't enough. Despite that though, we know that the comment is from a place of care, because we really have been trying our absolute damnedest to drown out all memories and feelings associated with our ex-bestie. It was so bad to the point where we hadn't even gone to the guy's funeral. You noticed how I haven't even told you his name? Yeah, it's that real of an issue.

Now, this whole thing escalates when these first-year college kids come in talking about something called "soul ties". We don't have anything better to do so we unintentionally but intentionally eavesdrop for plot purposes. So, uh, that whole "soul tie" thing that they were talking about? It's basically how, if someone dies and they still have some unresolved stuff from their living days, they can just kinda bunk with someone who they were close to, because, apparently, it's way easy to communicate through their dreams.

(⊙_⊙;)

Well...talk about awkward, because if that's not exactly related to what we're going through right now. Did we hallucinate that ish, too?

Just on the off chance that it wasn't a hallucination this time -- "this time" lmao -- and is one of those signs from the universe that our coworker was going on about, guess what we did when we got home? Hit up the Goo-gley. Nah, I'm kidding...well, only slightly. We actually did search it up on Google, but our laptop kind've crapped out on us, so we didn't get super far.

Actually, I lowkey lied again. See, our laptop crapping out wasn't a coincidence. As soon as our laptop went "😵", a message came up like "Always looking for answers, but never asking the source. That's crazy...". So, now, we're lowkey gaslighting ourselves because ain't no way that's real, right? But it's like...that's clearly 1000% real.

"Will you let me in...?"

(⊙⁄ ⁄ ⁄﹏ ⁄ ⁄ ⁄⊙)

...I mean, shiiiiiiit, when you look like that, I just might, ya feel me?

But should we is the question.

Friends...Squad...the demo came out so good, y'all.

Holy hell, this demo came out so. friggin'. good. I felt things. I felt emotion. I felt anticipation. I felt delulu. Like, damn, why'd our (ex) best friend have to die?! But it's like, the how? Like, ah, the drama!

But no, this really was damn good. Those of you that have been rocking with me know that I get slutty for art style and CGs -- I frickin' loved the art style. Like, it was just so visually pleasing to look at. Shit, Clive -- that was his name by the way lmao -- was visually pleasing to look at, you know what I'm saying? Like, y'all see this?

Like, disrespectfully, speak for yourself MC, because he sure as hell is my type 𖹭 ...visuals wise, at least.

Speaking of things being visually pleasing to look at, can we please talk about our coworker Dariel? Look at him!

The way that the dev drew this healthy (I think) Black man! Actual tears. I love when people draw Black people with Black hair styles. Like, that man's hair is thiquxe. That man has a dedicated wash day. That man uses gyah damn shea butter and coconut oil daily. Like, dude, fucking pop off. I always appreciate diversity in a game, especially when it's done so right.

But anyways, the pacing was phenomenal. Like, the way that it gives you just enough information and just enough "Oh, he ain't wrapped too tight" and just enough trauma and just enough drama and just enough backstory--!! The way that the dev put all of that together was so--!! Bro, I'm in love. Like, I am so excited for the rest of this game to drop. Like, yo, how far is he about to go? Because y'all don't know yet, because I didn't tell you, but like...bro, anybody would be pissed in that scenario, but it's like...Clive is a yandere LI, so that's a different type of pissed for him. What I'm basically getting at is: What is Clive Donovan -- fun fact that's his last name. I didn't know until I was tagging it lol -- capable of?

This is honestly another Perfect Love -- y'all remember that review? --scenario. I could honestly drone on and on and do an unplanned 60+ minute powerpoint presentation on this game and how much I love it, but I will spare you that. What I won't spare you is the pressure I'm applying for you to play this game for yourself. I really hope I'm not overhyping it, but I thought it was really, really, really good, and I am excited for you to experience that for yourself; I need you to experience that for yourself. I mean, the link is right here. Just give it a little clicky click. Hell, while you're there, tell the dev "Hey. There was some chick on the internet foaming at the mouth over this game. I now understand. You're really good at doing the thing, so...keep doing the thing!". Monetary support is always appreciated as well, so if you're in the place to do so, give them that extra "Thank you".

That's not really all from me, because, like I said, I could keep going, but I'm going to stop it there. Highly suggested to give this game a try, but remember, it's just a demo. Don't get invested to the point where you wake up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night and start obsessively checking the dev page every 2 hours for an update...I'm totally not speaking from experience, by the way. That'd be...silly. ...ANYWAYS!

Here's the link to the game once again, here's a link to the dev's tumblr page, and, dude, biggest preesh for getting this far, because I do tend to yap a lot. I'm glad you stuck it out with me, and we could hang out for a bit.

Please, remember to drink water, don't be dumb, and hope to see you around~!

Bro, Clive really does look good, like I want him to wife me up so bad...

Fallen Devotion (Demo)

Dev's Tumblr

[fallendev0tionvn]

hey loves! I've been a bit busy lately, but I noticed how some of you are curious about Clive's old form! I put together a quick character sheet for you (it's a bit rough since I was in a rush🏃‍♀️).

I should be back tomorrow- thank you for your patience <3

[fallendev0tionvn]

forced myself to draw on art block so💀

sorry for disappearing, dears. I've been really sick these past few days and too weak to do anything. I tried painting this as an apology for my absence, but I feel like I've lost my skills cause again, art block☹️

I'll reply to everything as soon as I can, thank you for your patience🫶

[fallendev0tionvn]

extremely quick realistic(?) portrait of Clive🏃‍♀️

I actually had a dream about him, so I had to sketch him as fast as possible before his features faded from my memory💀

[fallendev0tionvn]

aw you're such a handsome young man can you give us a big smile🫶

doesn't he look better with his original eye color?

it's kind of funny from other people's pov, like imagine trying to get this cute barista's number (you) and this mf appears behind them😭

[fallendev0tionvn]

Possible first CG done :3! I don't know if I like it enough to leave it💔

[fallendev0tionvn]

OMG YOUR GAME IS SOOOOO GOOOOOD

So i was wondering if the mc come to clive and say that they are gay or getting bullied and he come to clive for help what will he's reaction be

Ps have a nice day i can smell the talented and hard work you put into tha game

TYSM!!

He'd comfort you immediately, pulling you into the longest hug and thanking you for trusting him enough to come out to him.

The minute you mention being bullied for it...you might hear about the aftermath on the news the next day. He won't stop until someone physically drags him away.

"Honestly, I'd never show my face again if I were you. Imagine getting your nose broken by someone you'd make fun of, pathetic." (cooked the bullies).

BUT if you meant coming out as wlw...well, he might pull a Chae Yul (IM JOKING). His features could...subtly shift.

[fallendev0tionvn]

Hiiihihi!!!1! I hope you are doing well! <3

How would Clive react to a MC that likes to make him jealous on purpose??

I hate how this turned out but I spent time on it so.. (Clive's subconscious).

"Go on, keep holding back. You're still the same coward as ever. Lose them the same way you lost █████"

Clive won't admit he's jealous, he'd rather die (again lol) than say it out loud. He'll cling to you instead, act like it doesn't bother him- but the longer you keep it up, the sicker he feels, to the point he can't even eat without feeling sick to his stomach.

The first time you left him because of the rumors, he ended up in the er. That was then, when he was still holding himself together, but imagine what could happen now that he's completely unstable.

He's this 👌 close to losing that bit of reason he has left. If you push him far enough, encourage him even- would he be capable of murder? who knows. He doesn't want to get his hands dirty, but at this point does it even matter?

Soon you'll realize every character represents something, even you, so careful with the choices🤓

[fallendev0tionvn]

not sure if this has already been asked but! was wondering in an au where clive grew living in a happy home with two loving parents— would he still act the way he is now? i definitely imagine him being way more fluffier with the mc haha

(unfinished art)

The biggest difference? This guy would've been your friend too- you, him and Clive, a trio. Who is he though? we'll find it out soon enough, though it might already be obvious.

But he's also the reason Clive is so protective, so terrified of losing you. The reason he blames himself for everything. The reason he puts your well being above his own, to the point where he even blamed himself for his own death- saw it as a failure, because he could've protected you instead of being weak. His desperation to keep you safe is what allowed him to come back. Sure, he looks messed up but even now, he sees it as a punishment for not thinking of you first, for letting his impulses take over.

If he had a loving family, he would've been more social, affectionate, less possessive. He wouldn't feel that sickening anxiety in his gut, wouldn't be haunted by constant flashbacks and nightmares. But that's not how things played out, and in his mind it's all his fault.

(To make things even worse because I'm a terrible person; When he realized he "died" and couldn't move- he definetely expressed what he felt about himself the way Armin- URGH SOBBING STOP..)

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[fallendev0tionvn]

THANK YOU FOR 100 FOLLOWERS LOVES, small special🫶

babygirl if that day never happened (the last image is def something he'd tattoo on someone if they were interested in you)👁️

also good news! i might be able to fix my laptop this saturday so, I'll go back to working on the demo hopefully

[fallendev0tionvn]

small hint about Clive's public disguise! silly guy..also! consider this a little 2000+ downloads special🫶

Thank you so much for the support again. Though I won't lie, it's hard to focus on all of the positive comments when even one negative one sticks with me like glue. Feeling a bit sick cause of it..but! progress, at least I haven't deleted the entire project and my account this time LMAO- (should I laugh or cry?)

Anyway! I'll start working on the update this monday. Since I'm aiming to release two chapters at once, it'll take a little longer, hopefully it will be worth the wait!

[fallendev0tionvn]

quick art that turned out meh for the anon who mentioned lipstick marks HDJSJA.

He died for the second time i guess, at least this time it was out of happiness🤷‍♀️

[fallendev0tionvn]

I'm still on hiatus, but thank you so so much loves! I'll be back soon. (Pray for me because guess who is planning to animate the intro for the first chapter with a small explanation of how Clive's consciousness works, I might even add a mini game and an option to unlock some of his memories from his point of view. It'll help you understand his character and what happened to him better🪦).

[fallendev0tionvn]

You know those memes where it says something like "when bro texts he's home alone but then says sorry wrong person"? Imagine Clive's old form or new form getting a text like that from MC, only for them to quickly delete it and text "wrong person sorry bro". How would he react in that sort of situation?🤔

current form Clive knows he can scare them off easily so as jealous as he gets he knows it will be taken care of HNDJA.

Older form clive...(mini comic)

(had to act like he was actually injured, give him an oscar)