#i like to talk but i get that listening kinda sucks lol like i'm trying to be better but baby steps ^^;

[xoxorory]

Always With You

— Percy Jackson x Fem!Reader Fanfic Genre: Humor | Fluff | Universe: Percy Jackson & The Olympians Word Count: ~3.2K (I'M SUCH A YAPPER LOL) Requested:@simpingmyassoff

Rumors Suck.

Camp Half-Blood had two guarantees:

A monster attack at the worst possible time.

Gossip spreading faster than an Hermes kid stealing your wallet.

I usually didn’t give a damn about rumors. People talked all the time, whispering nonsense about quests, secret romances, or how I once beat a kid from Ares’ cabin in an arm-wrestling match. (That one was true, by the way). Most of the time, I either laughed them off or, if they annoyed me enough, handled the situation… directly.

But this time? The rumor was about me. And worse? It actually got to me.

—"You’re, like, way too clingy with Jackson," a girl from Aphrodite’s cabin had said, twirling her hair with fake innocence. —"Like, it’s a little embarrassing to watch," another added, voice dripping with fake sympathy. —"If you keep it up, he’s totally gonna get tired of you and, y’know… want space."

I had laughed in their faces, of course. That was my natural defense mechanism. But now… I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

What if they were right?

Operation: Be Less Clingy (And Probably Die)

I decided to test their theory.

For the first time in forever, I didn’t steal Percy’s hoodie in the morning. I didn’t drape myself over him during sword-fighting practice. I didn’t sneak my hand into his when we walked together. I didn’t—gods help me—hug him like an octopus every chance I got.

And it was… awful.

I felt like a smoker trying to quit cold turkey. Every time I saw Percy, my body physically wanted to reach for him, to mess with his hair, to poke his stupid sea-green eyes, to wrap myself around him like I always did.

But nope.

I had self-control.

I had boundaries.

I was so freaking miserable.

Percy Notices. Obviously.

Percy was a dumbass sometimes, but he wasn’t stupid.

By day three of Operation: Be a Distant, Independent Woman Who Definitely Wasn’t Dying Inside, he had clearly caught on.

Normally, I would find him first thing in the morning, steal his stolen coffee (yes, double theft), and make fun of his bedhead. Instead, I stayed in my cabin, hoping he wouldn’t notice my absence.

But of course, Percy Jackson noticed.

—"Since when did you go full emo?" His voice startled me as I sat on the dock, dipping my feet into the lake.

I sighed. Of course he found me.

—"Go away, Jackson."

—"Nope."

He plopped down beside me and bumped my shoulder, expecting me to shove him back like I always did.

I didn’t.

Silence.

I could feel him staring at me.

—"Are you gonna tell me what’s wrong, or do I have to cause a scene?"

I sighed again, staring at my reflection in the water.

—"I just… thought maybe I should give you some space."

Percy frowned.

—"Space? Why the hell would I want that?"

I hesitated.

—"Because maybe I’m too clingy."

There was a beat of silence.

Then Percy laughed. Loudly.

I punched his arm—hard.

—"I’m serious, dumbass!"

He was still grinning, his stupid adorable face glowing with amusement.

—"Babe, love of my life, my antisocial sea monster—if you were too clingy, don’t you think I would’ve told you by now?"

I bit my lip.

—"Well… they said—"

—"They?" Percy’s expression darkened. "Who put that nonsense in your head?"

I hesitated, but he already knew. His jaw clenched, and I swear I saw his fingers twitch like he was ready to summon Riptide and go on a murder spree.

Hot. But beside the point.

Percy turned to me, grabbing my face between his hands.

—"Listen carefully, because I’m only saying this once. You are my favorite person in this entire camp. If it were up to me, you’d be stuck to me like a damn remora 24/7."

My brain short-circuited.

—"...Really?"

He nodded, seriously.

—"Actually… now that you mention it, I have been feeling kinda abandoned." He sighed dramatically. "Where are my hugs? My spontaneous kisses? My surprise attacks of affection?"

I stared at him, my heart doing stupid things.

—"You don’t get tired of me?"

He grinned.

—"Never."

And just like that, the weight on my chest vanished.

Without thinking, I launched myself at him, wrapping my arms and legs around him in the octopus hug I had desperately missed.

—"There’s my koala!" Percy laughed, holding me effortlessly.

—"Shut up," I muttered into his neck.

He just chuckled, running his hand through my hair.

—"That’s more like it."

Karma Comes Fast (and I Enjoy It Too Much)

Look. I’m not a vindictive person.

But when someone messes with me? Whatever.

When someone messes with me and Percy?

They better start praying.

The next day, I noticed the same Aphrodite girls lurking around, watching us like hawks, probably waiting to see if I’d go back to keeping my distance.

Spoiler alert: I didn’t.

But Percy? He had an even better idea.

As they walked past, he spoke just loud enough for them to hear:

—"You know,babe, I think we should spend more time together. Maybe start sleeping in the same cabin."

I barely held back a laugh.

—"Isn’t that against the rules?" I asked, playing along.

Percy shrugged.

—"Since when do we care about rules?"

From the corner of my eye, I saw the girls freeze. One of them actually gasped.

I lived for this.

But Percy wasn’t done.

He turned to them, voice dripping with petty revenge.

—"Oh, by the way," he said, smirking. "You know what’s funny? People who never had a chance with me acting like they get a say in my relationship."

They paled. One of them choked on her own spit. Then they scurried off, whispering frantically.

I turned to him, thoroughly impressed.

—"That was evil, Jackson."

He grinned.

—"They messed with my girl. Now they know what happens when someone tries to get between us."

I smirked, yanking him closer by the collar.

—"You know what?" I murmured. "I am clingy."

He grinned before kissing me.

—"Good. Never change."

I'm such a yapper lol. I actually had this one half written already LOLL

[catcze]

Reblogs are greatly appreciated !!

[ ###… ] modern AU, rockstar Wriothesley, gn reader, est. relationship, a lil bit of hurt/comfort, fluff, long-distance pining, lovesick & homesick wrio, kinda cheesy which is kind of on brand for me lol

By the time Wriothesley manages to get back to his hotel room and check his phone, he's pretty sure you're asleep. He hopes you are, knowing how late it must be on your end.

It's no surprise that there are several messages waiting for him— each day you've been apart, you give him something sweet to read in the evenings after a busy day of promos or after a hectic show. Something to make the distance between you seem a little less vast, to let him know that you're still thinking about him.

Even on days where he's dead tired, he'll always read them. Always let you know that he thinks of you, too.

What does surprise him is the newest text, sent at just over twenty minutes ago. Wriothesley frowns as he wonders why you're still up, and his heart only drops more when he scrolls through the messages and reads the latest thing you sent.

I miss you. I really, really miss you.

Before he can even hope that he's not bothering you, his finger near slams on the call button. You answer on the second ring, voice lacking the raspiness of a roused sleep. It makes him sigh with relief.

"Wrio?" you ask, surprised. "Are you okay? What's up?"

"I should be asking you that." Wriothesley sits heavily on the plush bed, flopping back against the pillows with all the grace of a man who just gave a two-hour performance.

As luxurious as the king-sized bed is, with its soft sheets and myriad of immaculately fluffed pillows, he can't help but yearn for the warm familiarity of your own bed and your well-loved blankets.

"Why're you still up, honey? Don't you have breakfast with your friends tomorrow?"

"...can't sleep," you murmur after a beat, voice so quiet. He hears sheets rustling, then silence again. You hesitate. "I... it might sound selfish but I miss you being here with me. It sucks that the bed feels so empty without you."

And oh, if he could, Wriothesley would crawl through the phone right this very second and wrap you in his arms— would crush you to his chest and hold you tight as he listens to your breath taper off into sleep. Would keep you against him, wrapped up in his love and adoration, until you practically have to beat him off of you with a stick.

But he can't and it's killing him.

"It's not selfish. I miss you too," he says, voice longing. "I want to go home to you so bad, sweetheart, you have no idea. Wish I could've packed you up in my bag and smuggled you here with me." He has to fight sleepy giggles at the thought.

"Speaking of— you better be prepared for a crapload of gifts when I get back. I've got a whole suitcase of stuff I thought you'd like."

You gasp, and even sounding a little crackly from the speakers, his heart does a flip. "A whole suitcase?! I wouldn't even know where to put all that!"

"We'll find space. 'm pretty sure there's some stuff we can jigsaw around." Wriothesley tries to keep the tiredness from his voice, tries to fight back the yawn. It's been so long since you've called, what with timezones and schedules getting in the way, and he wants to talk to you longer— ask how your day's been, what your plans are for the rest of the week, if there were any places you want to visit when he gets home. This call is much too short for all the things he wants to say, for all the hours he wants to spend listening to you talk.

But try as he might, you can tell he's close to knocking out without even having to lay an eye on him.

"You should sleep," you tell him, voice soothing him like a balm. "You're probably tired after your show. I saw a few videos, you know— you were so cool. I'm proud of you, Wrio."

He hums, basking in your praise. His eyelids are already growing heavy, the soft siren's song of sleep growing harder to resist. If he closes his eyes, maybe he can imagine that you're just down the hall, busy with something. You'll come in any second now, crawl into bed and slip into his arms, and everything would be right with the world.

"Thank you for... for calling. For checking up on me just because of a text." You giggle at that last bit, and (as it always seems to do) his heart flips. "I love you lots."

"Mm, no need to thank me. Just gimme lots of kisses when I get home." His tongue is growing heavier, sleep more inviting. But he manages to get one last thing out— "I love you lots, too."

Right before Wriothesley lets himself drop, you press a loud, exaggerated kiss to the receiver of your phone. He smiles.

That's how you both fall asleep: with both phones still on the line, even breaths and quiet snores comforting the other into a restful slumber.

[wynnyfryd]

Trailer park Steve AU part 58

part 1 | part 57 | ao3

@steddie-island said i wasn't allowed to cut this lol. cw: angst, canon typical horror, mentions of minor character death

“Lucas called me a ghost today.”

Steve almost laughs, bitter and sharp. Sure. Why not? What’s one more ghost in his passenger seat?

He doesn't really want to talk to her right now, if he's honest. It's been fifteen minutes and she still hasn't apologized for trying to rob him, or explained where they're going, or what spooked her, or why this car ride was so urgent that he had to risk his job for it — a job he actually needs, considering his, well, everything. She's hardly said anything beyond the occasional "turn here" or "next left" while sulking with her forehead pressed against the window.

But he can tell she has something she needs to get off her chest, so he swallows his annoyance and offers, "Yeah?"

"Yeah," she says back. Doesn't elaborate.

He gives her another minute to gather her words, watches her open and close her mouth a few times in his periphery, but nothing comes out. She scoffs at herself and abruptly changes the subject. “Eddie was being extra… well, extra today.”

“Was he?” Steve asks, his bones itching under his skin. He doesn't want to talk about Eddie. Doesn't want to think his name.

“Yeah, he, uh- he was kinda manic? He was, like, running all over the cafeteria and starting shit with Jason Carver...” And he's only half-listening, anger simmering as she goes on and on, because she promised that Dustin didn't put her up to this. Said that this wasn't some bullshit excuse to get him to talk about Eddie or hang out with Eddie or think about Eddie or kiss and make up with fucking Eddie, and now she's just talking about him, and it-

And it hurts; god, it still just hurts—

"....Then he started rambling about how he can’t wait to get the hell out of here when he graduates.”

Searing-stabbing-burning-sharp. Steve clutches at the flare of pain in his chest, the crushed soda-can feeling where his heart's supposed to be. His head pounds. He follows her next direction onto a winding, tree-lined road, the canopy suffocating overhead, and his skin feels too dry — too tight, too small, shrink-wrapping him inside of it, because he knows where they are now. Knows the tilt of the rusted lamp shade, the shape of the weather brick paths. He's tasted the metal tang of this stop sign in his nightmares.

Fuck. Fuck.

"Cool," he grits out as he drives through the cemetery gates. Past stone and wrought iron, past the empty central fountain. He hasn't been here since July. “Good for him.”

“Steve-"

“Why are you telling me this?" he snaps. He throws the car in park under an old oak and turns to glare at her, barking a frustrated, "Huh?"

Immediately, he feels bad for raising his voice. Feels even worse for the way she flinches away. The naked fear on her face, her hand reaching for the door. He takes a long, deep breath and lets it out slowly through his nose. “Sorry. Sorry. Just-" There's a leak inside him somewhere; some infected, gaping hole, and his stupid heart keeps pumping all his blood into the wound. "Why are you-?”

“Look,” she says sharply, "I know it sucks. To talk about him." She's staring at the rows of headstones up ahead, her face gone steely with determination, her shoulders squared, her big eyes wide and a little wet when she turns to meet his gaze. “But whatever you were— whatever happened, it just… it really messed him up.”

Good. "You sound like Dustin."

"Maybe Dustin had a point."

"Since when?"

She throws her hands up, nostrils flaring. "I'm trying to tell you that I think he still cares!"

“Yeah? He’s got a seriously fucked up way of showing it if so!”

“Yeah, well some of us don’t know how to show it!”

And oh.

Oh.

Silence blankets them like dust. Eyes locked; harsh breaths. This has nothing to do with him and Eddie, does it?

Lucas called me a ghost.

Steve sighs and slumps forward, his forearms on the wheel, his chin resting on his wrist. The late afternoon sun is warm through the glass, and his head gives another nasty throb as he looks out over the hill, at the polished stones glinting in the golden hour rays.

His dad is buried here.

A lot of people are.

“Hey,” he murmurs, rolling his neck to look at her. The skin under her eyes is red. "Sorry for yelling."

She sniffs quietly. "Me, too."

He reaches over and gives her hand a quick squeeze, keeping his voice low and gentle. "You know you can just talk to me, right? Max, talk to me. Please.”

Her bottom lip quivers. “It’s nothing, okay?” She sinks down in her seat, crossing her arms to shield herself. “Shit’s just been… it’s just been weird all week. Like- like bad weird, and I don't know if I'm just going crazy, or— I mean, maybe Ms. Kelley's right, maybe's it's just— but it feels like…”

"Like what?"

She holds a hand out flat in front of her; flips her wrist over slowly so her palm faces the sky.

Steve's blood runs cold. He thinks of his own nightmares: the weird visions, the headaches, the persistent haunted feeling.

"I don't know anything for sure," she insists, rushing to reassure him before he can fully start to panic. "Seriously, don't freak out; I haven't, like, seen any gates or anything, it's just— bad dreams. Nose bleeds. I don't know." She hoists her backpack onto her shoulder. "I thought coming here might help."

He catches her by the arm, raking his eyes over her face, looking for any signs of danger. "Is there anything I can do?"

She shakes her head no and tugs free of his grip, and then she's slipping out of the car, letting the door fall shut behind her, and Steve watches her crest the hill while sirens wail inside his head.

—

part 59

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[abbyzmami]

pink toy.

• dom abby anderson x sub fem! reader

cw; explicit +18 content, exhibitionism, praise kink, praising, degradation, overstimulation, squiring, dom abby, use of toys (vibrator, dildo), masturbation (receiving), slapping, orgasm denial, finger sucking, fingering, dirty talking, hair pulling, kinda public sex, public masturbation… MINORS DNI

- notes: guys, this is my first time writing for tumblr, i have a lot of ideas and i hope you like them. sorry for any mistakes, i wrote this at 2am without proofreading much LOL 😭

laughter filled the atmosphere, the sound of glasses clinking and people chatting. it was one of those classic dinner nights with your group of friends at your favorite restaurant, everything was perfect. except for one small factor: you couldn't relax the whole night with a vibrator plugged into your fucking cunt, which abby controlled on the cell phone next to you.

as the desserts arrived on the table, everyone fumbled around trying to remember who ordered what, but everything was more than rattling around in your head, and all you could process all night were voices far away.

"are you even listening to me? hey!" dina says, completely frustrated as she tries to talk to you and gets no response. you keep your hand over your mouth, looking out at the street, trying your best to keep any sound or moan from escaping your lips.

"hey dina. i'm sorry, i'm a little distracted." you say, a little breathless but almost imperceptible to your friends who were already super drunk.

"you ordered the cherry ice cream, yea?" dina says, laughing and changing the words. you could feel the alcohol exhaling from her breath, while she was being pulled from side to side by ellie in her chair.

"yes, she did, thank you so much dina." abby says, picking up the dessert and placing it in front of you, one arm on the back of your chair. she moves closer to your face, speaking quietly enough for only you to hear. "if you keep panting like that, i swear, i'll put this on full speed and turn off my phone." she says, then kisses your cheek and smiles at you as if nothing is happening, picking up the glass of wine in front of her on the table and taking a sip.

you squirm once again under the table, crossing your legs in the hope of getting some friction for your relief, but abby immediately notices and grabs your thigh tightly, pulling them apart, leaving you completely open in the corner of the table which, luckily, was in a darker part of the restaurant. abby reaches up under your tight skirt, staring at you in disbelief as she realizes how wet and hot you were after all this time. the blonde decides to start an even bigger teasing game, massaging your needy cunt over the thin panties you were wearing.

she moves closer again, stroking your hair with the other hand that was resting on the chair, whispering in your ear. "if you make any noise, i'll stop."

you swallowed dry, desperate to feel abby's hands on you for the first time that night. god, how could she be so mean? you were practically begging for it with your eyes all night, while she slid her finger up and down on her cell phone, just giving you the most innocent, unintentional look of all.

abby uses one of her middle fingers to push your panties aside, massaging your throbbing clit painfully slowly in response, sliding in circles, in a light and extremely provocative touch, feeling all the heat exuding from your body at that moment. you squirm even more in your chair, feeling abby's hand squeeze your shoulder, silently scolding you. she stroked your hair so gently that anyone looking would never suspect that you were being completely fucked under that table.

"abby..." you said, sighing heavily, whimpering. "i can't take this anymore, please..." your legs were shaking more and more, accompanied by shivers that ran down your spine every time abby unlocked that damn cell phone to control the vibrations that were only expanding inside you.

"guys, we're going to the bathroom for a minute, we'll be right back." abby says, getting up and encouraging you to do the same, as she picks up your bag for you, holding out one of her arms for support. you look around and no one seems to notice that anything's wrong, everyone's too far away, laughing loudly and drinking their ass off.

as soon as you enter the bathroom, abby locks the door and immediately pulls you tightly by the waist, planting a violent kiss on your lips, as if she's been hungry for you all night. the taller woman sighs, helping you take off the short skirt that covers your hips. "god, you're such a slut, couldn't wait for us to get home to get fucked."

abby pulls you hard over the sink, standing behind you and inducing you to bend over for her, facing the mirror. she finally pulls the toy out of you, making your walls contract completely. "i'm fucking you in front of the mirror so you can see clearly what a whore you are" she says, bringing her own hand to her mouth. "open up and suck it good," she says, inserting her two middle fingers into your lips.

you completely moisten abby's fingers as soon as you open your mouth, which has been salivating for her for a long time, sucking carefully and eagerly, moaning muffledly as you do so. "you're a pathetic slut, all turned on just by sucking my fingers." she says, kissing your neck, moving down the area with licks and bites, making sure to give you goosebumps.

she removes her fingers from your mouth, patting your face twice before finally penetrating you. "that's my pretty girl, huh?" you moan in response to the pet name, leaning further over the sink, opening your pussy wide for her. "god, you're soaking wet." she says, slipping her two fingers into your hole, curling them inside you, with back and forth movements that make you moan louder, failing to control yourself.

she slid perfectly inside you, which was completely lubricated with your own juices and saliva. abby pulled you by the hair, wrapping it around her own hand, having complete control over you at that moment. in the reflection of the mirror you could see her smiling sadistically as she watched you in this situation, thrusting even harder inside you, hitting your sensitive inner spot several times. "will you be a good girl and cum for me? hm?" she said, making you melt even more, moaning and calling out her name, which was filled with even more lust, as if she possessed you at that moment.

you could feel your body weakening more and more as you felt all of your wetness dripping down your thighs, with her in and out of you with so much hunger, as she sucked on your neck like a fucking vampire, sucking your soul out of your body. using you as if you were nothing but a toy, with a completely devilish face, looking at you through the mirror with that stupid smile.

"abby, im gonna c-" you barely manage to finish your sentence when she speeds up her movements with precision, making you arch and tremble even more, moaning loudly as she laughs, watching you melt completely in her hands. "you're so fucking easy to please, such a needy whore."

a huge wave of pleasure-filled shocks unloaded over your body, after being overstimulated for so long, you felt your orgasm so strong that tears began to run down your face as you moaned her name, pulsing against the fingers still curling inside you. "atta girl." she says, chuckling.

"i think i might even need to order some dessert too, after fucking you all over like that." she says, teasingly as she watches you trying to come back to yourself, or at least recover enough to be able to get back to that table.

"i hate you" you say, annoyed by the cocky blonde's provocations.

"you know you love me."

[heavenlymorals]

Do you have any tips for how to write Arthur Morgan’s personality in general? I’m trying to write a fic but I feel like no matter what I do it somehow just makes him feel out of character haha. It’s probably since I’m writing one with a reader/oc character x Arthur. Like I don’t want to remove Mary from the story because she shaped so much of his character’s pain (since in my opinion I assume that Arthur probably got Eliza with child from a one night stand trying to bounce back after Mary had told him that she was engaged to some other man). But I also don’t know how to really write Arthur as he’s completely over Mary and how he is instead with someone he considers the love of his life, cheesy I know but I had too haha. I’m also trying to somewhat do a slow burn and trying to instead have Arthur seemingly brood over his love for the reader rather than how he did with Mary in the game.

I don’t know if this makes sense and feel free to ignore it LOL

Ahah here goes nothing- my consensus on a general understanding of Arthur Morgan-

I think the biggest thing that people should focus on when writing Arthur is his personality differences between men and women. There is a pretty clear divide between how behaves with men compared to how he behaves with women. It can change slightly between how close he is with the people, but it's pretty much the same.

With women, Arthur is very respectful and chivalrous. He even gets mad at other men if they don't behave accordingly. He is more interested in them as well in the sense that he'll listen to their dreams and hobbies and either add to the conversation or encourage them in some way that seems more meaningful, even if it can be at times superficial, just a way to be polite. However, he is no push over. You know that meme that's like "Me and my girl don't argue, she tells me to shut the fuck up and I do"? Yeah, that is NOT Arthur. He can raise his voice, call them out, etc etc. when he feels disrespected in some way or if the person is doing something stupid. We see this with Mary, Sadie, and Abigail. He is also more likely to talk about his emotions with women, but not really BE emotional. Idk if that makes sense, but I don't know how else to say it.

However, Arthur is more inclined to be disrespectful to women who don't fit into his view of life and the status quo of the time (ie. Prostitutes, masculine women, etc.)

Honestly, just think of that when writing him with your oc (I'm going to assume they're a woman 😭). Is Mary a big part of Arthur's character? Yes and no. He can obviously make time for her, but she isn't controlling his every action and thought process. His main focus is the collective of the gang and once the gang is safe, that's when he'll actively start looking for love because that's when he'll have the time and energy for it.

Now with men, Arthur is much more rough. He is very much a suck it up kinda guy with other dudes. There is clearly a hierarchy in the game and he enforces it, especially with the men underneath him. He forces them to work, doesn't take their excuses really, will call them out, will be mean, and will even make threats (ie. Sean). He likes men who are hard workers and are always on the go (Lenny) and is more likely to be jovial, open, and willing to talk. He also will take NO shit from other men and that will either leave the other man read to filth or a black eye. Arthur also does not disclose feelings of fear or inadequacy to other men, but he will show more active emotions like joy or anger.

Honestly, whenever I feel like writing Arthur, I just think of the average older American outdoorsman and it helps me out pretty well. Chivalrous and respectful with expectations and a no bullshit attitude.

Hope this helps and happy writing 🫶🏼

[chaoticprussia]

I just lucked into seeing your DID / system America AU and it fucks so hard. That guy should be allowed to have 50+ alters. It's fun :].

(I'm actually incredibly happy that he has 50+ alters. Most times I see people make system AUs, they only make a small handful of guys. Which is fine! But just. Big system loves the guy that has many headmates /lh.)

REAL also making the states his alters just made sense. hed start out with 13 and then just get more has he expanded westward and did more fucked up shit. it just makes sense! and he probably got the first 13 while under britsh rule cuz britan fucking sucked at being his dad goddamn. what a shitty king.

hes probably one of those systems that have a hard time knowing who the host is or who the "real him" is. hes got a lot of identity issues lol.

texas is probably the alter that acts the most like america and is closest to the "real him" but thats because texas hates being a system and refuses to acknowledge he is one so he just assumes that he IS america. which stems from the fact that texas wants to be his own country. so just "pretending" to be america is easier for him. that guy has massive identity issues i will not lie.

all the states kinda just try their best to "pretend" to be america. thats why ame usually looks like hes the same guy from the outside but like with a really bad mood disorder or something. which he also probably has lets be honest. also with the worlds shittiest memory but hes somehow managed to convince all the other countries that having shitty memory is just like totally normal for him and they just think hes being a forgetful jackass when he forgets their names for the hundredth time. its just part of his asshole charm.

but in actuality how do you expect like fucking alabama to remember all the fucking countries of europe AND asia? hes not built for this man. he literally just got here 30 seconds ago and has no idea where he is or what ame was talking about. time to completely throw off this UN meeting by talking about canada for 20 minutes because thats the only guy he knows and cares about.

also because theres so many of them some of the states just straight up dont like each other and will make it everyone elses problem if they get pissed off about it. americas in a bad mood and not listening to anything were saying? its cuz new york and new jersey are fighting again and its ruining the vibes.

i can do some much shit with this au. hehehe.

[celeste444spacey]

ﾒ૦ GIRLS AIN'T NOTHIN' TO MESS WITH

a vaunt/rant/affirmation rampage (part 18+)

I am literally the embodiment of an Abel song. People say that I remind them of The Weeknd all the time. I literally sound like my favorite The Weeknd song.

I have the kinda charm that an XO girl has. I have the lethal face card you would assume a Trilogy song has. I have rizz that exceeds the rizz of the most fuckboy of fuckboys there is. I have the kind of lethal charm that makes even the most composed man falter.

My aura SCREAMS XO. My voice screams XO. MY face screams XO. Embodiment of Ecstasy and Oxycontin.

You don't meet girls like me twice. You don’t even meet girls like me once.

The kinda girl to have songs written about by fucking rappers. You know what I mean? Rappers love namedropping me n shi. The kinda voice that ends up in a sample. The kinda body that gets talked about in a verse. The kinda name that gets used as a song title.

I am so fucking hypnotizing. My voice is hypnotizing. My existence is hypnotizing. People are in a trance when they're in my presence. I'm literally the embodiment of people's fantasies.

Everything about me screams divine. Everything about me screams larger than life. I'm like a walking psychedelic.

My energy literally screams Trilogy. I'm haunting, beautiful, lingering and perpetuate obsession.

I'm divine. I'm the embodiment of an angel. My eyes could make a person confess every sin they've ever committed.

I could have the most composed man acting irrational. The most heartless man catching feelings. The most disciplined man breaking his own rules.

There are women who are desired, and then there are women who are worshipped. I am the latter. No one ever forgets me. Even when they want to. Especially when they want to.

I look like I break hearts. I sound like late-night voicemails men regret leaving. I look like I should be somebody’s biggest mistake, but I’m really their favorite memory.

I make people delusional. One conversation and they’re planning our future. No one leaves my presence unaffected. Some get obsessed. Some get ruined. Some never fully recover.

I walk into a room, and the air shifts. I don’t even have to try. People just feel me.

I am the type of girl songs are written about. Not the cutesy love songs—the ones that sound like obsession, lust, and regret all mixed into one.

BIG ASS MINORS DO NOT INTERACT WARNING!!!!!

CONTENT BELOW THE CUT IS STRICTLY 18+

UNDERAGE MANIFESTOR GIRLIES I GOT Y'ALL ANOTHER DAY I PROMISE THIS AIN'T FOR Y'ALL RN

(divider creds: @adornedwithlight)

Now listen, girls...i sincerely hope y'all aren't underage. Because this is about to get NASTY alright 😭 (i tried my best to do this with a straight face) also insert your SP wherever you wish lol the affs are very generalized feel free to cater it for yourself 💋

(divider creds: @prttyribbons)

My body is a spiritual experience. It feels like a sin, tastes like a dream, and moves like a song that was made for sex. My pussy is the reason men start acting different. You think they’re nonchalant? Not when they’ve had me.

The way I ride dick? Life-changing. Some men never recover. Some men compare every girl after me to me, and none of them ever come close. This that Trilogy level pussy game. Straight outta thursday.

[SP] cannot stop thinking of fucking me. I'm the definition of fuckable. I'm the definition of divine delicacy.

I make him beg. I make him whimper. I make [SP] lose all dignity between my legs.

My body is the type that makes men change their whole life trajectory. Suddenly, their priorities shift. Suddenly, they have a new purpose: me.

My mouth doesn’t just suck dick—it devours it. Messy, sloppy, nasty. I’ve had men twitching after I sucked them off. Twitching. The way I take dick should be studied. The way I look up while doing it? Life-changing.

Men stutter when I pull my panties off. They gasp when they slide inside me. I make men slutty. I make them desperate. I make them fucking insane.

[SP] could fuck me all night and still wake up hard just thinking about it. I’ve had [SP] crying in pussy. Crying. Saying shit like, “I can’t believe this is real.”

[SP] leaves my bed thinking, I will never find another girl like her. And they’re right. He has ever fucked me without thinking about it the next day. The next week. The next month.

My pussy is a reset button. You could be the most experienced man alive, but once you’re in me, you’re a virgin again.

My pussy is once-in-a-lifetime. No one gets this and comes out unchanged. [SP] saw his past lives while he was inside me. He felt his soul leave his body. He is a better man now. He thanks me for it

My pussy feels like the first time someone tries shrooms. Like their third eye just opened. Like they’re seeing colors they didn’t even know existed.

When I spread my legs, [SP] finds God. I make men lose time in me. What felt like 10 minutes? Turns out it was hours. He didn’t just cum. He ascended. My pussy is a portal. A man goes in one way and comes out different. They enter me as themselves. They leave me reborn.

I make men obsessed. Not in a lustful way. In a lost-in-the-abyss, staring-at-the-moon, can’t-focus-on-anything-else kind of way.

[SP] swore he could handle it. Deadly wrong.

The withdrawal symptoms? Brutal. He can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t focus. He’s just fucked up over me. He would sell his soul just to feel this one more time. My pussy is narcotic-grade. It’s the kind of high that makes men do insane shit.

This is not just sex—this is an overdose waiting to happen.

My pussy is his addiction, his obsession, his doom. Worst part? He doesn't want to quit. Couldn't quit if he tried.

AND WHILE WE'RE AT THAT........

I am untouchable to those with bad intentions. No evil eye, no weird energy, no bad vibe can penetrate my aura. I am divinely protected at all times.

My presence is a locked and exclusive. If you ain't for me, you won’t even find me. If your energy is off, you’ll fumble me before you even get close.

I move through the world shielded and safe. No harm, no danger, no bad energy can reach me. Only the right people, the right opportunities, and the right experiences make it into my space.

Every step I take is guided, guarded, and blessed. I walk with divine forces that block negativity before it even thinks of touching me.

I radiate an energy so powerful that only those with pure intentions can approach me. The low vibrational, the envious, the draining, the creeps weirdos, ugly fucks???? They don’t even have the courage to step near me.

[plantcrazy]

Everyone at this company SUCKS.

So, a little fact you might not know about me and how I do my writing is, I do A LOT of research. I do this, because I like to try to keep my characters close to canon, and intergreat what information we do have on said characters. That's how I write Lost Children (although some characters have so little, they kinda are OCs :P). I find this research helps make the characters feel a bit more 3D, believable even. I like my fics being the kind that you can read and go, "Oh, this so could have happened in another universe, where X happened instead of Y."

So today, I'm done with my assessments, and started my research for my Poppy Playtime AU: Locked In. Try to give it a bit more substance, 'cause I felt I had to be missing some info.

And after researching into the Scientists & Heads from Playtime Co., I have come to the ground-breaking conclusion, they are all... huge pieces of shit.

And none of them (well, maaaaybe Stella), have ANY redeeming qualities. Not even endearing ones I can tolerate.

They suck as people. Playtime Co. is like, just... this huge convention where the worst people in society gather. They all suck! And I'm writing a fic for all these black (cause I feel morally grey is being too nice), black as coal moral people. And somehow. Somehow. I have to at least get them into morally grey territory because otherwise my story is going to completely fall apart, cause current? Only Stella would try help 1354 and with how she's portrayed? I think a couple harsh words for Leith, and she'd back off and leave Harley to rot.

*Sighs*

Like, this started with me looking into Dr. White, 'cause we have so little on him, and that line where Harley shouts "WHITE? Is that you!" sounded like he was hurt, betrayal even. So here I am, originally thinking, 'oh, okay' maybe these two had an endearing friendship, like in that one fic I read'. Then I find this Chapter 4 ARG I'd never heard of, and learned, no. I think they actually BOTH hated the other. White's password is a jab at Harley, and Harley isn't exactly flatting about how he talks about White (not that he is with anyone).

Also, Eddie's BRITISH? AND CALM???? Who hid that tape from me??? I thought he was the one with the temper, while Leith was calm. Like... *shakes head* I'm so happy I haven't drawn what I want his character to look like yet, because by gum, dose how he sound and talk NOT match what I had in my head. (Maybe I've been reading too many fanfics, lol).

Also. There was this suppppper interesting line I'm gonna leave you with. It's really got my mind working.

In chapter 4's black tape, Leith says this: "He doesn't listen to any of us. Not really. Not anymore."

They way he says, 'Not anymore'. Now, call me crazy, I am accent & tone blind sometimes (so correct me if I'm wrong), but that. That sounds like that hurt to admit.

Can't help but make ya wonder what Leith & Harley's relationship used to be like, back when he DID listen to him. Interesting it even implies, there was a time when he did listen.

Anyway, back to writing :P

[erabu-san]

HI ERABU!! FREMILLEI ANON HERE!! (Not here to talk about fremillei ironically lol)

Sorry about your trouble with Cyno and Tighnari :( I totally get the frustration of just seeing something as a cute friendship and having 90% of the fandom see them as romantic.

We live in a society (the genshin fandom). Us platonic Cyno and Tighnari enjoyers have to stick together✊

With that being said, I've been kinda on a Collei and Tighnari brainrot the past few weeks sooo, hope you don't mind if I ramble about them👀

Can I just say, how much I adore their dynamic. Whether it's father/daughter or big brother/little sister, they're so sweet and care about each other so much🥹 On Collei's side, besides Amber, Tighnari was one of the first people she's ever opened up to, or has felt comfortable around. He's so kind and patient with her and she's really grateful for it!! (Her relationship with Cyno is similar but I do think it was a little awkward at first since Cyno reminded her of her past...)

And on Tighnari's side, well, at first he saw her as a student. But he immediately felt this...urge to help her. Like she had been through so much, and he felt like he had to try and help her in some way. (You brother comes in at the middle of the night asking you to take care of this random traumatized child wyd). He enjoyed getting to know her, and teaching her. And he felt such a strong sense of pride when she gets a good grade in a test, or is able to write something coherently. Overtime, he got to see more of her, more of her personality and quirks, and he developed so much affection for her, treating her like he would a little sister💞

I do think that maybe Collei has trouble talking to him about things. Maybe since she's scared of being judged (she knows he wouldn't, but the feeling is still there). So she ended venting to trees. I like to imagine one day, Tighnari was looking for her when he overheard her talking to a tree. At first he was like "why is she doing that??" But decided to leave since he didn't wanna eavesdrop. But then, he caught her talking about HIM.

"Master Tighnari is so patient and kind with me... I know he would never judge me, or make me feel bad. But...I still find it hard to talk to him. He's usually busy...I don't wanna bother him."

And that just broke his heart :( He wanted Collei to feel comfortable talking to him, he WANTED her to come to him whenever she had a problem. He left, but after that, he would subtly encourage her to talk to him if she needed to, reminding her that she wasn't a bother or anything like that, and that he cared about her. And it made her happy to hear!! And she slowly started coming to him more often!!

Also SLIGHT fremillei (I'm sorry I can't escape the chokehold they have on me) I picture this scene, where after Collei finds out about Freminet being apart of the Fatui, Collei immediately runs home, so many emotions going through her head. Hurt, fear, guilt- she's so overwhelmed. She arrives back and while she's passing by Tighnari's house (house? Cottage?? What do you call those?😭) he calls out to her, noticing something's wrong. She stops, and looks at Tighnari, breathing heavy from running. She doesn't know where to begin, what she should tell him, IF she should tell him. But, she looks at him, looks at the concern on his face, and runs towards him and hugs him tightly, sobbing into his chest. Tighnari is confused, but he doesn't question it, and immediately wraps his arms around her.

"It's okay...I'm here."

I'M SO SORRY FOR THE LONG ASK BUT THEY'VE BEEN ON MY BRAIN. I feel like not a lot of people talk about them alone, which kinda sucks since their relationship is so sweet :(

Again, sorry to bombarde you with the long ask😭 You art is beautiful, and I love hearing your genshin Sumeru headcanons. Thank you for listening to my rambles. Have a lovely day and take care of yourself!! <3

WAAAAH I AM SORRY FOR LATE ANSWER BUT WHEN I READ THIS I WAS ON THE FLOOR I LOVE IT, IT IS SO ADORABLE

Anon you have such a big brain and I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT 🫵

Oh the part when Collei hugs Tighnari and he is just saying that he is here

[a-queer-seminarian]

kinda fascinating to be in a situation where I've had to call / online chat with insurance representatives during the whole UH CEO fallout. I have BCBS and maaaybe they're always this helpful but idk, they just seem so responsive and taking extra steps to help me out and it turns out the issue I'm having isn't even on their side, it's the dentist's! also their online chat is a real person??? I don't have to work around the AI before it finally transfers me??? Incredible

anyway turning this post into a psa to 1) ALWAYS check that your medical bills match what your insurance's Explanation of Benefits (EOB) reads (you do this by checking what amount your insurance says "patient owes" in the EOB and if your bill doesn't match that, your provider is overcharging you) and 2) DO NOT Get Your Dental Care At Great Expressions Holy Shit I'm Pissed

My wife and I went to the dentist in fall 2022 for the first time since the pandemic started, and the bills we both received were so high i've never gone again since then, because i don't wanna spend 500 bucks on a basic cleaning + X-rays. But my wife has continued to go twice a year cuz her teeth suck so the frequent check-up matters more for her.

And lordy, we've been naive lol. We've heard dental is expensive so we've just been resigned to the high costs; we also both have terrible executive functioning around all things financial and are woefully under-educated about how bills and insurance work — but the latest bill we got was just too damn much and I finally mustered up the spoons to figure shit out.

Aaaand it turns out that, while the dentist charged nearly one thousand dollars for her three fillings, the EOB shows we only owe $128. Buck. Wild.

So I've gone through every charge we've gotten over the years and they are all hundreds of dollars higher than the EOB. Great Expressions has been taking advantage of our ignorance and naivety to rob us for two fricking years.

If I understand what one insurance rep told me, since Great Expressions has a contract with BCBS they're supposed to charge us an in-network rate, which is far cheaper than out-of-network rates. Basically they send their proposed bill to our insurance, who send back a fraction of the money proposed as decided in the contract between them; insurance also tells the dentist the cost the dentist can then charge us.

But Great Expressions is pocketing the insurance money and then charging us the remainder of their original proposed cost instead of the contracted rate. So they're clearly aware that we are in-network, but still charging us like we're out-of-network. WTF

Anyway thank you BCBS reps who helped me figure all this out, incredible to actually have some non-AI customer service in this age lol. And everyone else please wish me luck as I make a chart of each dental bill we've gotten since 2022 versus what the EOB states — and then take it to the dental clinic in person because they are Not Helpful over the phone lemme tell you

The plan is to try to talk it out with them myself, and if I can't get them to listen to me I'm going to call an BCBS insurance rep while in the clinic with them so they can talk it over lmao. And if that doesn't get me the past years' charges back...idk if i can consult a lawyer or whatever but I'm gonna get this damn money back.

also we're going to get a new damn dentist. obviously

[spanishskulduggery]

I'm at such a weird place in my Spanish-learning journey.

I've been actively learning for 4 years now. I don't use it very often though so I still kinda suck lmao. I'm good at speaking as long as the listener is patient; reading and writing are solid; but I still suck at my listening skills (why are some accents so difficult to understand!!!!!!!!!)

So anyway.

I have a bunch of coworkers who grew up speaking Spanish natively. I don't use Spanish with them because I still suck at it (affectionate to myself), but oftentimes they/we all will be taking about Spanish grammar and such. And I'll chime in like "yes when it's conjugated like this, it means that, so you yada yada and yada" and "well it depends on where you're from, but generally xyz."

So I don't exhibit any understanding of Spanish but then I'll pull out my knowledge of the language. I've discovered that, due to how I have learned the language, I typically I understand the nuances better than my native speaking coworkers.

Like I said. I'm in a weird place.

Yeah, I was in that space for a few years myself. I think that's the B1/B2 experience in a nutshell, you know enough to know what you're talking about, but not enough to feel comfortable

Unfortunately the only way to get better is to talk more. For me, listening is still the hardest part because of that - I'll try to hear and translate every single word and then trip myself up by focusing too much on one word or phrase I don't know, then miss everything else

I think it also depends on your comfort level with the other person

And how frustrated you get with yourself, because the more self-conscious you feel, the more you end up doubting yourself

It's rough. Unfortunately the intermediate phase lasts a long time lol

[purpurussy]

i agree with literally all ur thoughts on the i hate my wife bit!!! like for me it just boils down to the jokes not being funny, especially in the context of the show!! like dan "hating" is funny when phil is there because dan's visceral fondness for phil as he's saying he hates him is what makes the jokes funny. it being something to keep us at bay stops making sense when phil is not there!!! and i think it feels more jarring then it would have in the past because they have just been so insanely fond and soft recently that this sorta feels out of left field. i've seen people say other ppl are mad bc we think dan actually hates phil or that we think phil needs protecting but its just that the joke isn't funny

sorry im just seeing this now, idk why i didnt see it in my notifs on mobile! just saw it when i switched to desktop my b. hot takes under the cut

yeah i think an issue is that people are referring to different things when we talk about the "i hate phil" bit. "you stupid bitch 😍 who i hate 🥰🥰🥰" still makes me smile even to just think about it sldkjfdlkjf that was a great moment and im not talking about that kind of humor, im referring to more of the wad-style "love is just when you give someone mediocre orgasms so they make you feel wanted" type humor ldsflsdkfjlk i am so over that kind of energy it really just isn't that funny to me even if it is ironic. and i still haven't listened to the tommyinnit show lol but from what i gathered the dan part in that show was about rejecting that kind of humor and being more sincerely nice to both himself and those around him, which i love to see (i know that was ultimately the point of wad as well but we had to sit through a hell of a lot of "love isn't real" jokes to get there). i do suspect it was tommy's idea to go with that persona for dan since he was probably basing his concept for dan's part on wad hence why it was a bit wad-coded

i obviously don't think they've ever been serious when they say they hate each other, obviously it's always been a bit, but i'm hoping they'll continue on the trajectory of being sweet to each other on camera. or like being "mean" in a way that's literally just flirting dksjfdsjkhf. this is a controversial take clearly, but the way dan talked/acted in some early videos makes me slightly uncomfortable i know it's not that serious !!! but still it's kinda like why are you physically attacking that man 😭 like chill lmao i know it's because he was a hyperactive teenager trying to over-compensate for his internalized homophobia but when i see that kind of energy im just like "don't worry guys it'll get better one day" 💀

i was also thinking last night about how it's impossible for them to be sincerely affectionate towards each other on camera without sharing a part of their relationship which they maybe don't want to share. hence why we've seen them fucking and sucking on stage but we still haven't seen a proper phan hug. and i think they also genuinely do have the kind of relationship where they're always casually bullying/teasing each other lmao that's completely fine, nothing wrong with that as long as nobody is actually getting their feelings hurt, which clearly they aren't because they obviously understand each other's boundaries perfectly by this point. i just don't think using early videos of theirs is necessarily a good example of a healthy relationship dynamic. im sure they were fine, it certainly worked out in the end at the very least, but at the same time the energy in some of those early closeted vids is just a bit much for me in current era icl. like im not sitting there going "oh my god i cant believe dan is actually an abusive monster and he hates phil", it's just mildly annoying to me lksjldkfjslkf

[66sharkteeth]

more thoughts (positive for a change)

sorry to keep treating this like a personal journal when most of you are here for CoB content but it remains the 1 place where i feel semi-safe talking about things w/o blasting them to 10k+ people while also having more than 0 people listening

but just feeling a little hopeful for once! i got invited to speak on my 2nd ever panel today. it looks like it's a small convention and it's far too early to know if it'll actually pan out (not even responding today bc im trying to be more strict about giving myself wednesdays off), but it's still just...really cool that i'm actually being recognized as a professional and invited to things.

i still think so much about how when i was like.....12....or something, we had to do one of those like...dream life assignments. and i remember exactly what i said- i wanted to be a mangaka in japan with a studio apartment (yes, i was a very cringy kid. i called my friends -chan and -kun too). then i got older and more realistic. realized i could do art, but never my own project, and yeah, that's what i did for a long time.

yet... here i am now?!! granted, i never moved to japan (which i'm fine w/ lol) and it turns out studio apartments kinda suck and i much prefer a 1 bedroom...but i'm making a living off of that comic i came up w/ in middle school when had 0 concept of reality and how unlikely the chance to do that would be. and... i dunno! for a kind of rare moment, i feel like i can keep doing it (knock on wood)? if it's not obvious by now, i can get kinda doom and gloom about my future (and i wont even think about the industry as a whole w/ AI becoming more of a problem every day), but just for this moment i feel kinda optimistic?

i still have no idea what my future holds with webtoon. I have no idea when I'll have something ready to pitch again or if they'll even take it, but for once I feel like that uncertainty doesn't mean all or nothing. I kinda feel confident for once that even once CoB concludes on Webtoon, I can keep doing this to some capacity, whether that's through another series, physically printing CoB, somehow continuing CoB, I dunno yet. like i dunno. i think i'm just finally having this dawning realization that i am a professional? and other people see me as such? ik, probably a dumb thing to just now be realizing but blah blah, imposter syndrome or something, etc etc.

not sure where i'm going with this but just thank you guys for your support. if you're one of the like 100 people who actually follow me here, tbh you're probably one of my more dedicated readers, so thanks for being part of making this quite literal childhood fantasy dream come true. and shout out to the people actually inviting me to stuff on the super slight chance they actually follow me here. it seriously gave me kind of a reminder that oh yeah, i am a professional and good at this

[stillaclownlol]

Fucking...ship alphabet crap because I'm gonna go insane- (Ashlyn x Aiden)

Aiden Clark

A = Affection

Aiden is really affectionate with Ash, he has a hard time keeping in how he feels about her so he's constantly complimenting her, touching her, kissing her if she will let him, etc etc. He's just soooo in love with her he can't keep it in- 🫠

B = Best Friend

Ngl Aiden was like the closest thing Ash had to a best friend before they started dating 🤡 he's not that different besides the fact that he can keep his emotions a little more in check (like friend boundaries). Very protective, encouraging, and does his best to listen ^_^

C = Cuddles

Bless him he is touch starved and cuddling is like a feast to him. He LOVES cuddling. Definitely clingy and likes rubbing her arms or back. Man ascends whenever Ash glomps him.

D = Domestic

Aiden likes the idea of settling down, he would like to live with Ash at some point, especially cuz he grew up in an empty house. It's kinda unfortunate since he sucks really hard at domestic tasks 💀 he's never had to cook or clean a day in his life and he's not very inclined to learn lmao. He's super messy and pretty much banned from the kitchen 😭

E = Ending

Um he would literally rather die 🫠 he will fight tooth and nail to be with her and if he HAD to break up with her it would be like, under pressure that somebody was going to kill her or smth 😭 and then he'd kill the person who threatened her and go get his girl back.

F = Fiancé

He doesn't really care about getting married as long as Ash stays with him :P He likes how his ring looks on her finger tho.

G = Gentle

He's not very good at that haha. He's very...um, intense with all his feelings oop- He's not very good at being soft (verbally/emotionally) in the moment, it's something he needs to give thought too. He can be pretty tender physically tho, likes to kiss her forehead :)

H = Hugs

Loves loves loves hugging, especially if Ash initiated. Totally into squeeze hugging and lifting her off her feet. He kinda hovers around her in public and puts his arm around her so he's constantly "loose hugging" her.

I = I love you

He said it pretty quickly. He doesn't see why he should hide how he feels :p. He probably said it when she was just doing smth, like with no buildup or anything. It was just a very sudden feeling on his part and he vocalised it right away

J = Jealousy

Pretty consistently 🤡 he has attachment issues can you blame him? 😭 (you can). Very not cool with other people (that he doesn't know) talking, touching, hanging out with Ash and he will be hate-watching them the entire time. With Ash he gets a lot clingier and starts complimenting her even more, but if Ash gets weirded out/annoyed by it he tends to react pretty poorly and can get upset with her.

K = Kisses

His kisses vary, but they can be kinda aggressive/intense? lmao. He is just having BIG FEELINGS and he needs to express himself- if hes stressed he'll just. Grab her face and mash their mouths together (jumpscares Ash fr) He really does not care where he kisses Ash like everything is good for him, but when Ash kisses him first on the mouth that's soooo... he goes to heaven fr.

L = Little Ones

Pretty good with children actually! He has some experience with Lily and he vibes pretty well with kid energy, especially if they're hyperactive like him lol. Great with games and stuff. Babies like him a lot for some reason, they always start laughing when he holds them.

M = Morning

He gets up at like 4am all the time to do crap because he's an insomniac. Usually goes to exercise or play a video game/puzzle. Ash is not a morning person, but sometimes she can convince him to crawl back into bed and snuggle 😌

N = Night

He does go to bed really late 💀 He has an EXTREMELY hard time falling asleep so he just stays up till he passes out. Ash and him have been trying stuff to help him sleep better so they drink tea and talk to each other without looking at their phones.

O = Open

Absolutely not open with his history lol. he pretty much blocks out most of his past and he won't talk about it unless Ash insists or he feels like he needs to tell her to clarify his feelings. Doesnt say more than he needs to.

P = Patience

He has none for everything 🤡 he hates waiting, he hates putting in a lot of effort into something, he hates spending a long time on anything- (except his friends). He kinda has some hidden anger issues, he looks really easy going but like fr. He has problems.

Q = Quizzes

UM it's kinda creepy how much he remembers about Ash 😭 He has an entire space in his brain dedicated to her. He knows how she likes her coffee, her daily schedule, the exact time of her birth...he likes knowing about her sue him.

R = Remember

It's hard to pick his favourite memory cuz he's such a fan of her, even during the time she kinda hated him :> One of his top moments would probably be when she first said "I love you" back to him though.

S = Security

He's soooooo overprotective, the first time he saw her get seriously injured it was his fault and he never let that go. He knows Ash can handle herself but he still wants to keep her safe if he can!!! If somebody hurts her they are never seeing the light of day again ^_^ He always swoons a little when Ash tries to protect him too.

T = Try

His relationships are like one of the only things he actually puts effort in so. He spends a lot of time thinking on gifts, what they can do on dates, etc etc if it involves Ash. Helps her around the house if she lets him.

U = Ugly

He has sooooo many bad habits. He's super addict prone and his BPD means he will do a lot of self-sestructive stuff. Smoker (he hates it), drinker (he hates it even more), joyrider extraordinaire (just kill him now) :/ Working on it at his therapy sessions but he relapses sometimes.

V = Vanity

...I mean, he's concerned about how he looks, but not in a "looking good" way. He dyes his hair consistently because he wants to look like that, same with his contacts. Otherwise he's not like doing beauty routines for his skin or anything lol.

W = Whole

Yes he has an unhealthy attachment to Ash so he would feel incomplete without her 🫠

X = Xtra

Ash isn't his first 'relationship' but she is the first one where he actually felt something. He was pretty easy going so if somebody asked him to be their partner he almost always said yes, but he never seriously cared about any of them...🫠 Ghosted people a lot when he moved oop

Y = Yuck

He knows he has a lot of issues so like he's not gonna judge somebody a lot if they have their own vices. He would probably dislike if Ash started acting like himself lmao (you hate somebody because they reflect the worst parts of yourself) 🫠 For smth she actually does, he doesn't really like how cold she can be sometimes, but he knows she can't help it so he doesn't comment on it.

Z = ZZZ

Sleeps with like 4 different blankets and he doesn't really like wearing pyjamas, he'd sleep in his boxers if he could. The blankets are like, good texture stim on his skin :D

Ashlyn Banner

A = Affection

Not good with it let's be real. Still figuring out her boundaries and what she's comfortable with. She generally just let's Aiden set the pace and if she doesn't like it she'll say something, but it's rare for her to initiate, when she does its usually something lowkey like holding his hand (prefers physical over verbal).

B = Best Friend

Ash hasn't had friends. Ever. Until suddenly she got five that she got bonded to for life 🤡 As a bestie she is generally very loyal and protective, even if she isn't very good with emotional stuff, she tries to show her support in whatever way she can.

C = Cuddles

Not really something she thinks about a lot? She doesn't mind cuddling with Aiden but he is very touchy so she gets overstimulated quickly. She prefers just lying on top of him without him grabbing her.

D = Domestic

She always imagined living by herself so the idea is a little intimidating ngl, but she's ready to give it a shot when the time comes :> Good at household chores, her parents are ex-military so she's well disciplined with making the bed, cleaning her area of the house, and she's a decent cook. Trying to teach Aiden how to do his own chores to since nobody ever taught him.

E = Ending

She would end things if she felt like Aiden wasn't getting better, she can't keep letting his bad behavior slide her entire life. Could see them getting a divorce if they had a kid together and he was still acting like that (we hope not). Definitely the type of exes to still see each other though, he's nothing if not persistent, and she can't quite seem to quit him ^_^"

F = Fiancée

She didn't even think she'd ever get married lol. She doesn't really care about labeling their relationship like that but she did ask him for tax reasons. And he was happy too, so that's a plus :>

G = Gentle

She's said it herself, she's not good at that. She's generally pretty brash with Aiden and she has a hard time being vulnerable. She's also not a very physically gentle person either, she usually initiates contact if she's stressed/upset so it's kinda intense. She's working on it!

H = Hugs

Pretty rare, she doesn't mind if Aiden hugs her, but Jesus, sometimes it feels like he's going to break her ribs 💀 Not that her hugs are much better tho 🫠 Tends to bury her face in his shoulder and grab his hair.

I = I love you

It's soooooo hard for her omg. She can't explain why she just feels really weird/dumb saying it 😭 she usually only says it during the heat of the moment. To compromise with Aiden, she usually writes it down on a sticky note and gives it to him. Writing is easier.

J = Jealousy

Sometimes the autism rejection sensitivity flares up haha 🫠 she's waaaaaay less jealous than Aiden but sometimes she wonders if she's just a passing fancy to him because he's so intense and quick about it (before reminding herself hes loyal to a fault). If other people talk about it (like if Aiden has been spending a lot of time with somebody) she's more likely to get jealous since she will kinda internalize their thoughts (like very "what...? Do you think I *should* be jealous?")

K = Kisses

Supremely awkward. Doesn't understand what she's supposed to do with her mouth aldhlwhd. She likes kissing his cheek because its a very simple gesture and he gets very happy. Will combust if Aiden kisses her forehead ❤️

L = Little Ones

Not the besttttt...she generally finds children to be too emotional and she doesn't understand what they're feeling. Babies are scary to her, they're so...delicate...

She doesn't hate them or anything but she's not volunteering to babysit.

M = Morning

She is CRANKY when she gets up and you can't talk to her before her cup of coffee or she's going to bite your head off. When she gets to sleep in she's waaaaay more affectionate in bed, grabs onto Aiden so he won't leave :p

N = Night

Night owl, which is useful since Aiden has trouble sleeping. She'll keep him company until he can fall asleep, but usually she falls asleep on his shoulder or smth and Aiden has to take her to bed ^_^

O = Open

Not at all. Doesn't like revealing more about herself than necessary :> She only tells Aiden things if he asks her about it. They're both very closed off which is great combo 💀

P = Patience

She's more patient than Aiden, but that isn't saying much. She gets irritated very easily but she's a lot better at managing her emotions so she doesn't lose her temper very easily, even if she's constantly annoyed.

Q = Quizzes

She's not forgetful or anything about Aiden but it's also not something she thinks about a lot. Like if somebody asked her smth about him she'll just answer it without thinking and be surprised with herself lol.

R = Remember

She just likes spending time with him, they don't have to do anything grand or amazing for it to stay in her memory, her favourite moments are the little things. Aiden genuinely laughing/smiling, the look on his face right before he figures out a puzzle, the calluses on his fingertips when she holds his hand...she's actually very sappy :>

S = Security

She is overprotective because. She watched him die. And she's just like that. But she constantly feels like she's failing him since Aiden gets hurt so frequently. Protective in a more subtle way, like if she thinks he's going to spiral she locks his meds away and won't leave him alone for anything. She gets stressed out when he tries to protect her because he can go overboard :p

T = Try

She tries so hard you guys. All of this is VERY new and scary for her, so. Baby steps. Tries to do her part in the relationship; she likes the act of planning dates even if choosing what to do stresses her out, tries to surprise him because she knows he loves that a lot (she's not very good at it).

U = Ugly

Bad habits: Sometimes everything is a lot so she will just. Not communicate with him for a long time which freaks him out. (Like he doesn't do this too 🫠) Hard time talking about her feelings and sometimes relies on the gang to solve their misunderstanding. Sometimes doesn't know where to draw the line and can be too harsh on him.

V = Vanity

Only her hair. She's very careful with it. Otherwise she doesn't care at all.

W = Whole

She's kinda bonded to him for life cuz of all the trauma so yeah she wouldn't feel "whole" without Aiden, but she would handle it a lot better than he would.

X = Xtra

Talks to Taylor about her relationship problems; Tay thinks she just has bad taste 🤡

Y = Yuck

Really hates all of Aiden's bad habits (the self destructive stuff, his own apathy towards himself, how obsessive he is with her)

Z = ZZZ

When she becomes comfortable sleeping with somebody on the same bed, she'll let her hair loose, otherwise she's gonna keep the braids.

[redditreceipts]

Does it seem like transwomen who self describe as feminists are often more misogynistic than ones who don't? Not referring to Blaire White right wing anti feminists, just normies ones. Feel like many of them are more understanding and less obsessed with validation. Whereas ""feminist"" tw deny sexism exists and act like experts on feminism while constantly talking down at actual women.

I think that it's the same reason as to why many women feel safer with centrist or center left-wing men than with far left supposedly feminist guys.

In our society, there is a social stigma towards making certain comments towards a woman. For example, talking about your penis or your sexual fantasies with a woman as a man is traditionally seen as shameful and inappropriate, and doing so anyways is seen as crossing a certain boundary.

Centrist men are generally more concerned about their social standing and not going against the norm because this could negatively impact their social status with other men. Therefore, many centrist men "behave" around women - not because they are not misogynistic or don't want to harass a woman, but because going against societal expectations could endanger their social status.

Left-wing men generally don't derive their social status from following the social norms, but from breaking them; they get cheered on by their friends if they go against societal norms and talk about their kinks and their porn addiction.

Of course, this depends a lot on the specific friend group, because there are of course very misogynistic friend groups out there that encourage that kind of behaviour without being left-wing, but I feel that I as a woman would be a thousand times safer with a center-left dude than with a far left feminist guy who thinks he is brave for talking about his favourite porn category. It's not to say that the center left wing man is necessarily less misogynistic, it's just that I can kinda rely on him not getting a kick out of breaking societal stigma around sex that exist for a reason.

The same thing is true in my opinion for trans women. A trans woman that cares about coming off as "normal" will not try to be as controversial as possible, while a trans woman that believes themselves to be a feminist is more likely to also be super into the whole "sexual liberation" thing.

Also, while Blaire White is of course a misogynist, I wouldn't even say that Blaire is more misogynistic than people like Sophie from Mars or Riley J. Dennis or something. At least Blaire has never told me to suck the girldick lmao. I would also prefer a million times to spend a night in a cabin in the woods with Blaire than with any of these fuckers lol

(Okay I just noticed that I wrote this entire essay without coming to your question, but I think that you have already answered it while asking - the super feminist trans women think that they already know everything, while normie trans women mostly are ready to listen and change their behaviour accordingly. I'm sorry I think I got carried away lol)

[the-kr8tor]

Katy can I like vent for a second??

Please??

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Ok so- why is romance mostly from what I see, about one person learning to not be afraid of falling in love?? Because that's cute and all but so overused. Why can't both parties be afraid of falling in love and figure it out together??

In romance anime it's usually the girls who struggle with being vulnerable. In American tv/movies it's usually the men.

I was watching Bridgeton and both seasons are centered around the men being guarded and undeserving of love while the female leads have these selfless ambitions who have little to no character development. This is just what I've observed ok?? I'm totally open to critism.

I think mainstream female writers follow this trend a lot. Which is why I like your writing. Either the men/women have the patience of a saint and take all of this toxic/immature behavior from the lead or they don't communicate when things go wrong.

To me, relationships are not a form of making life better but being an amazing part of it you know what I mean?? It's usually like- my life hasn't started or it just did because now I have a romantic interest. I think that's why the friends to lover trope is my favorite. The relationship has this foundation of trust and friendship.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk and sorry it was so long 💜

Also me kinda ranting under the cut

It's like that bc it's tried and tested, and the producers/ higher ups know that this kind of story sells already so why change it y'know. Yes, it sucks but that's the gist of Hollywood these days 😞 oh and also writing a good female lead is a toss of a coin for them, like some are really good, they have flaws but at the same time likeable and they have different goals instead of just "omg hot boy/girl" but from the recent stuff I've seen it's the opposite like it's either they're mary sues or just plain which is really sad especially if you see potential in the characters if they were actually written decently

But there are ofc some really good romance stories out there! And I've heard of the romcom boom with better written characters, so they're probably finally listening to ppl

I get what u mean about relationships that should start out with friendship first, like knowing them better before making kissy faces with each other y'know lol

I try very hard to make my leads likeable but at the same time having flaws, goals, and their own morals that makes them interesting. I'm glad u like how i write them bc the majority of the time i plot stuff out is centered around the characters and their relationships with the other characters

And i agree friends to lovers trope is the best