#i know you can ask to keep it and it honestly can reduce complications if i dont opt for urethral lengthening but still

[faggling]

I've been packing for two days straight and the fucking euphoria is nuts

[defilerwyrm]

I'm a trans man who wants phallo SO bad but the Fear Mongering people do makes me so scared. I have such a fear of surgery anyway and people say phallo is nearly 23hrs long, and it has more risks than heart surgery does, and idk if these are true bc I'm too scared to google it..But I want it so bad, but the stuff I hear scares me. Also people saying it doesn't have any sensation worries me. You said trans men can ask about it so I hope this is ok to do on anon!!! I'd appreciate a non fear filled reply so much thanks!!

23 hours!! Those poor surgeons, can you imagine!

Virtual hugs if you’re the hugging type, Anon, and a cool rock if you’re not.

Those things are definitely not true, not remotely. It’s a long surgery, but when I say it’s long that means it’s about 8 hours all told. It sounds like maybe someone heard it referred to as an “all-day” thing meaning a full WORK day, but instead assumed that that meant a full CALENDAR day. Or, you know, a transphobe made shit up to scare people.

It is most definitely not nearly as risky to your wellbeing as a surgery in which they saw open your sternum and cut open your actual beating heart. There is a fairly high chance of a minor complication that can result in the terrible ordeal of getting pee on your pants sometimes—a urethral fistula—and in most cases, they close up on their own anyway without needing another surgery to correct them. And in this case, “fairly high” means 40%, so it’s still less than half a chance that it’ll happen in the first place. At worst it’s annoying. Serious complications, the type that put you in danger, are extremely rare.

The sensation thing is also false, because they literally harvest a length of nerve from your donor site and hook it up to your existing bits specifically so you WILL have sensation! Sure, it takes a little while for the nerve to heal, but that’s just the reality of ANY surgery.

The nerve grows back in your donor site, too, by the way. While I was typing this up I discovered that one particular spot on my graft is ticklish.

Everyone has their own individual healing factor, but speaking for myself, I had full erotic sensation before the 3-month mark, and the orgasms have been incredible. The head and base are highly sensitive, and everything in between responds pretty damn nicely too, just less of a hit-the-ceiling level of sensitivity. And, you know, if you’ve handled an AMAB person’s penis much at all you’ll know that’s pretty much in keeping with how their dicks work too.

It is an in-patient surgery so if you have it, you’ll be staying in a hospital for a few days so they can keep an eye out for rare disasters. My stay was four or five days of snoring most of the day and periodically getting woken up to eat or answer some simple check-in questions, lift my arm for nurses to move stuff, etc, and then conking back out.

Being cathed sucks, but two weeks of frequent trips to the toilet to drain your bag is honestly nothing compared to a lifetime without (or with vastly reduced) bottom dysphoria. That’s the part that I hated. Everything else was your typical recovery: 10-15 days of sleeping 20 hours a day, then however many weeks of being tired, taking meds, and careful washing, gradually feeling more and more normal until you’re back up to full and ready to get back to business as usual.

Except with this one, you get to learn to pee standing up in the process. :D

(Protip: don’t try a public urinal until you’ve got it down pat at home. Not because of cis men, but because the learning process is messy, lol! The overwhelming majority of cis men in public restrooms want nothing to do with anyone else while they’re in there. The only place anyone’s gonna give your dick more than half a second’s accidental glance is in a gay bar. In 8+ years of using public men’s rooms I have yet to see one (1) penis that wasn’t mine!)

[sp-growingpains]

Heyy 👋👋 its me again teehee

Im absolutely exhausted from these assignments and reading about Jean lore always cheers me up 🫶 (but no pressure to answer)

1. We've seen a lot about Jean's relationship with Kyle and Stan, but what about Kenny, Butters, and Eric? What are their interactions like?

2. Is she more extroverted or introverted? What are people's first impressions of her?

3. What are her feelings towards school and how well does she do? Does she hate it? Is she a straight A student?

4. What clique is Jean in? I think you've mentioned she has a soft spot for the goth kids, so is she a part of their group? And if not them, then who?

5. Weird one, but if someone were to break into Jean's house (considering how crazy South Park can get sometimes this isnt that farfetched), what's the first thing she's grabbing? If she fight or flight?

When I tell you that you actually made me tear up from asking this alone. The thought that my little blorbo makes you happy fills me with so much joy. I hope you understand that I plan on giving that love back! 🫶

OH IT'S RAMBLIN' TIME

Her Relationship With Others!

Starting with the most difficult going to the easiest to think about

Cartman: Real talk, I've spent hours thinking about her relationship with Eric. And like most people's ocs with him, it's complicated. On a normal day, she's a perfect victim for his schemes. Jean is a himbo down to her core. That means she's very gullible, to the point where it takes her a long time to learn not to keep falling for it.

If the Cartman Schemes are harmless and just fall back on her, it's fine. Most of the time, she'll laugh it off and think it's just Cartman's way of playing.

When it bleeds over to the others, that's when she gets frustrated with him. She truly believes that people are good at their core and that belief extends to him. So it frustrates her when she sees him fall into those ignorant habits or that extreme behavior.

Now, when it comes to his attitude towards Kyle, she takes a bit of a back seat. I have thoughts about her stepping in if it ever got physical or if either one took it too far. Because we've seen that Kyle's attitude towards Cartman is antagonistic at times. That's not to say he's as bad as Cartman (because NO ONE is as bad as Cartman), but Kyle does come off as very "Holier than thou art"! Jean's doesn't know a lot, but she knows when something is a losing battle.

Outside of that, she thinks most of the things he says is just some attempt at crude, edgy, 4chan humor. Because no one could really think those things. Right?

The only time Jean gets legitimately beyond angry with him was that whole thing with Kyle and Nichole. At the end of the day, she wants all of her friends to be happy. Nichole brought Kyle legitimate happiness, and he ruined that.

Butters: Oh sweet Butters. Baby boy Butters. Most of the fandom has reduced Leo to a sweet sunshine boy who could do no wrong.

Personally, as me, I know he's not like that. He's a sweetheart, sure, but he's also a little stinker. He falls into the same stupid habits of being tricked like Jean would. "Fool me once shame on you," kind of thing. Says some pretty dumb shit and does dumb shit just like the rest of them.

However, that mentality the Fandom pushes onto Butters is almost how Jean sees him. It's unfortunate, but Butters could get away with so much because of it. To her, Butters will always be that little brother that she has to protect. When he starts coming around more, she makes a silent vow to keep him safe.

But honestly, because of that view, she probably will never be super close to him. Almost to the point where she doesn't take him very seriously. And I can see that frustrating Butters later on in life. It would take him either blowing up on her or someone pointing it out that Jean treats him kinda like a joke. Of course, she'll feel horrible about it because that's never her intention.

But she goes out of her way to make sure he's included in things like late night diner runs. Out of hand parties. Goofy arcade outings. Birthday parties!

Kenny: The final dude on the main four, but certainly not forgotten. He's another one I've spent a very long time thinking about.

When I think about their relationship, I truly believe Kenny is the only one who really sees how self-destructive Jean is to herself. I've talked about how Stan and Jean understand each other in a way you can only get with someone who's like you, but that in itself isn't healthy. It becomes an echo chamber.

Kenny is the person who really pulls Jean out of her shit. He calls her out when she's on her fourth energy drink. When she's sweating vodka or when she stays up too late. What makes him so perfect for this is that Kenny is so casual about it. He does it in a way that doesn't make her feel bad about being fussed over.

Besides his laid-back attitude, there's an agreement between the two of them. Kenny and Jean look out for each other. I have always preached Kenny McCormick is a man who would give the world everything. He's so very kind, he loves so very much and Jean loves that about him. Loves that so much that she will give him the world back.

When they're old enough to understand, she offers her home to him and his sister. Making sure they have a warm meal and a place away from it all. What's the point of that big old empty house if you've got no one to share it with. Even then, when Jean's trying to give him something, he's taking care of her. Giving her that purpose she so desperately craves.

Jean's incredibly jealous of Kenny, and that drives her to be better. To do more. I guess in a roundabout way, Kenny is a friendly rival that keeps her going.

I also headcanon that Kenny is the one that did her industrial bar! They DIY their piercings together like idiots.

Extroverted and Burnt Out!

My buddies and I have talked a lot about how much of yourself you put in your oc. I try very hard to make all of my ocs their own person, but I don't hide the small amount I put of myself in my ocs. For Jean, I gave her my horrible habit of doing too much!

Jean is an extrovert! She loves going out, meeting new people, and constantly being on the go. It stems from that fear of being alone, being trapped with your thoughts, and needing to be needed so badly. She puts too much of herself out there until she crashes and burns. That typically comes from doing something reckless.

On the outside, Jean puts up a friendly front. She's goofy, loud, warm, and the personification of a golden retriever! The way she dresses and how big of a woman she is might give her a bit of a scary vibe, but she's honestly a big teddy bear. The last thing she wants is to scare people, so she tries to keep a smile on her face!

Smooth-Brain Hours!

Jean absolutely hates school. She hates having to sit still for hours in a desk that's too uncomfortable, listening to some teacher who probably doesn't give a shit about the thing they're teaching about. High-school Jean is a menace. She doesn't go out of her way to disrupt class because she won't even show up if she can help it. Especially if it's science and math. She doesn't get it and it frustrates her.

I've made jokes about her being stupid and a himbo, and jokes aside, she's just not book smart. If it's something that interests her, she's all over it! If we're comparing her to the other students, she's about Clyde's level of intelligence. The only difference is that she tries very hard to listen to the people who are smart.

It's only through the grace of her friends and those who care about her that she even passed to begin with. This kind of leads into her 'blind loyalty'. If Kyle, Tolkien, Nichole, or Wendy tell her something, she believes them almost to the point where she won't question it!

The things that keep her coming back are those people and the after-school activities. Playing basketball and getting to jam out in the music room! Going to watch football games and support her friends! Never a dull day in South Park, and she loves the chaos that comes with it.

The Squad

It's really hard to clock Jean into one clique. My first thoughts are those group of gym bros that will hype you up! Then I remembered all of my friends who are a part of the metal/punk community are like that.

So that's her little community outside of her normal squad. Her jacket has different patches on them that remind her of her friends and her favorite bands. She's got a Dio patch across her right chest pocket, that one is closest to her heart! Her favorite thing to do is to get into the pits and mosh! Loud music drumming in her ears and flowing through her veins. Surrounded by other people who just get it.

Punk is about community and standing up again injustice. Jean's got a problem with authority, especially when it comes to stupid adults. She's grown up surrounded by her friends' horrible parents, teachers who don't give a shit, and stupid hicks. She's gonna be a part of a group that's a little...defiant?

I can see the goths, at least tolerating her. Mostly because their insults slide off her smooth brain. That and she enjoys listening to their poetry when she skips class for a smoke break!

Them's Fighting Words

I talk a lot about how Jean is this big teddy bear. This gentle giant with a heart of dumb. But the reason she's like this is because she tries very hard to be like this. In actuality, under all of that sunshine, she loves a good fight. The rush, the adrenaline behind it all, down to the pretty purple bruises that come with it. It all feels so very deserved.

And that's not right. It's not normal to think like that.

So if a fight presents itself. Someone breaks into her house, hearing about how some stupid woman lives alone in this fancy house, and that makes for easy pickings; she's gonna take it eagerly. Any excuse to let go of that pent-up rage she keeps bottled up.

The fun answer as to what she's grabbing would be her guitar, but she'd rather bleed out on the floor than break her darling instrument. So she grabs her bass instead. Besides, everyone knows the bass swings harder. Makes a nicer sound when it comes into contact with someone's head too.

If she wins the fight and she knows the fight is done, she'll take responsibility for the damage she's caused. If something is broken, she goes out of her way to make sure the person can get to the hospital. For as much as she loves fighting, and the pain feels deserved for her, she's a bleeding heart. In the back of her head, whoever broke into her house had to do it out of desperation. Had to have a reason for why they needed to do this. Maybe she can help them. Put them on the right path! Sometimes, that path starts with a few fists being thrown!

Hey, thanks for being patient with me, and I hope this was a fun read! I truly appreciate and adore this community and the friends I've made through it! I want to continue to get better with my art and word smithing so I can make the content you all deserve! You really made me think about some things I wouldn't have considered! Your brain is beautiful and I love it!

[its-all-papaya]

I think that the anxious, self doubtey vibe of overwinter Lando is exactly why it works so well, honestly. It still feels like Lando— we all know far too well how critical he can be of himself, it's no secret— but it's just as valid as, say, the party enjoying Lando, ADHD Lando, happy go lucky Lando, hesitant, sensitive to communicate Lando, confident Lando. They're all valid!

I feel like the fact that it's a real person you're trying to capture makes it trickier because there's even more facets to them than a character, but at the same time you're writing a story and that means you're going to have to reduce all those facets into something that DOES work for the story. And it's inevitable that some stuff gets more spotlight than the other aspects of them.

What matters is the context, I think. It's so easy to wonder "what would XYZ person/character do" but actually the question should be "If they were in this scenario that I want to put them in, how would they react/behave?" The context of it all is so important. And that's why it works so well, despite you or I feeling like our depictions of Lando and/or Oscar may be OOC. It still works and it's still a good read.

But I digress. I'm rambling too much anyway ahahah, I just really appreciate you feeding my thoughts!

Rest assured I'll keep revisiting your ask box hahah, it's been a delight chatting with you! I'll hop into DMs later if I'm feeling brave :'D I've had a Right annoying day today so it feels nice to unwind and think here.

Hope you have a lovely day ahead of you!!!

-⭐

okayyyyy three days late reply 🫣

all landos are valid!! and i'm so glad we have so many writers to write him from so many perspectives for us!!

second paragraph is so true... like we (me) forget that fictional characters are easier to get a grasp on because they are DESIGNED to be. all their canonical actions are invented by their original creator to serve a certain purpose, so they're obviously more consistent overall and therefore easier to imitate. real people are soooo complicated! they act impulsively and their actions vary by situation and context more than characters' generally do, because every one of a character's actions are purposely selected to "mean" something or "accomplish" something. good reminders. great reminders.

you've revisited my ask box like five times since this bc i'm behind as all hell on replies, but please never stop visiting star anon, i love chatting with you!!! about anything!! any time!!

[flyin-shark]

I'm the anon who asked all the curious questions about sexuality and gender!

First off, just to answer your question about what it might mean to be "a guy in a girl way" - So this can obviously mean a lot of things for a lot of different people, and if I were to get into the nitty gritty we could be here all day :P

But actually I was trying to express my situation in "cishet" language. So I'm agender. I'm afab. I use he/him and I am most comfortable with being thought of and referred to as if I was a guy.

But for all intents and purposes people are going to assume that I'm a woman if they don't know otherwise. I'm androgynous sure, but I'm petite to a fault, and never transitioned physically in any way, so to most people who meet me casually, they will assume that I'm a slightly androgynous and gnc woman.

I am polyamorous, and one of my partners is a mostly cishet dude. I know that he most likely wouldn't be (sexually) into me if I was a cis guy. But then again, I am not a cis guy. And I don't question his love or attraction, or respect for my gender. But I do insist that him being with me makes him at least "a little bit bisexual".

It's obviously very complicated, and like. I really respect that you sat down and learned about the community and the terminology etc despite how it might not be a huge part of your life. That's very valuable, and in and of itself, it's a very refreshing and healing thing.

I think the value of allyship is too often understated. Up to and including by the notion that if you are a true ally, you must be some kind of queer in denial.

That said, I do think that to be a true ally (and I think you are in this process!) it's necessary to acknowledge (as you do) that the categories and labels are all just approximations. This includes "cis het". It's ok to have these moments of confusion and just take them for what they are, because at the end of the day human experience is messy and complicated. It doesn't have to threaten your identity as such, because the identity is just the label you currently feel comfy with.

So for example if we met and you didn't know me well (as a co-worker or whatever), you might find me attractive thinking I was a cute lady. If you then asked me out and I knew you were cishet I would probably gently explain that I'm not your type/it wouldn't work for me.

If you met me knowing beforehand that I'm a dude who looks a bit weird, you might not feel the same attraction because your brain has put me in the box of "dudes".

But then if you got to know me and we became close or something, you might start to feel attraction based on liking me as a person and me looking the way I do. And then you might feel bad for it, because you would feel that this attraction means you don't respect my gender or something.

Obviously we are likely not going to meet so that's a completely hypothetical example, but in the latter scenario I would actually take your attention way more seriously. And I think so should you (if a similar situation ever arose).

Because attraction based on knowing a person intimately transcends gender and at that point I wouldn't care so much that you wouldn't be physically attracted if I was a cis guy. I'd be like, well he knows me and I know him, we like each other, and if we get to add freaky sex to the mixture it's a win-win.

Because misgendering is more about dehumanizing. The need to reduce me to my physical body. Somehow?

Anyways I'm literally rambling and I'm being embarrassing all over your inbox, sorry ^^""

Anyways uhhh. Keep swimming, little shark. I will shut up, sorry

Honestly these discussions just make me want to abolish gender. Everyone should just be attracted to whoever and have consensual relations with whoever :3

In the meantime I’ll keep trying to be as good an ally as I can be

[ciaossu-imagines]

okay, you’re welcome for the asks then, haha! 😆💕 great job with writing and filling the queue! it’s nice to know you're happier with this setup—that you’re taking things easy and going at your own pace, doing what you feel like at the moment rather than what you have to. i hope it stays that way 🎀

and yes! while i found pharmacology difficult and complicated, i enjoyed learning about it and its significance to my field. we had to study the medications’ classification, mechanism of action,  etc. because we’ll be the ones responsible for administering these to the patients, and it’s not something to take lightly (with the liabilities and all). i wish you the very best with your future courses, dee! you mentioned having to learn the legal aspects of pharmacology across all of canada—that sounds challenging but also very rewarding in the end. i can imagine how tricky it must be to keep up with the differences between provinces. but question, are there other specific topics you’re looking forward to learning the most? i admire your mindset in taking opportunities but in a well-thought-out way. i think it’s a great balance.

i hope finishing college won’t hit me too hard in a sad way, especially since my college life wasn’t all that exciting and eventful outside of academics. i do have a great group of friends, and they always invite me to hang out, but i’m usually the one rushing home after my classes 😭 honestly, i don’t mind—it means i get to do things that actually make me happy, like watching my favorite shows, reading, or just relaxing. yup, i’m basically a “going home club” member at this point 🤣 i just hope that years from now, i won’t look back with regrets and feel like i missed out, even though i’m perfectly content with how things are now. thank you so much for saying that—i really hope as well that i find the right hospital, one with a positive environment where i can learn and grow further.

don’t worry, i’m not much different from you. while i got used to the gory side of deliveries pretty quickly, there are still moments when i’m standing in front of the instrument table, waiting to hand something over, and i just pause like, “well… that’s kinda gross.” but then i snap out of it right away because, you know, gotta do what you gotta do! i signed up for this anyway 🤣 and you are correct to say that the cases are actual hands-on experience. any surgical procedure would do, so, for example, if i scrub in as a student scrub nurse for a hernioplasty, that counts as one case. same goes for assisting in a single delivery—it’s counted as one case, too, and our clinical instructors are the ones evaluating us for that. and it turns out i only need one more case to complete instead of four since, for some reason, the requirements were reduced! god, i feel so relieved about it 🙉 i still have major exams in march, and if i pass that, i’ll basically just be waiting for graduation, haha.

for now, i’m just waiting to be assigned to a hospital’s operating room to complete that one last case. in the meantime, i’ve been relaxing and doing things i love, like playing my instruments, watching anime, and even just accomplishing little things like singing with my uncle’s band at my aunt’s wedding. i really appreciate how supportive you are of everything i do, and just know that i fully support you, too 😊💓 (sorry, i didn’t mean to make this long! whoops.)

- nix

Thank you so much! I keep trying to add to the queue whenever possible, though I do have my lazy periods where nothing gets added, haha! I always try my hardest on here though, because all you lovely readers deserve it 😊 And it is…it no longer feels like things I have to do, but things I want to do. Sometimes, the things I want to do aren’t always the requests in the box, so there’s plenty of unrequested posts, but I still hope those make the readers happy and thankfully, I have some amazingly terrific and supportive people reading this blog, you included. I’m doing everything I can to keep it that way and to allow myself grace on here, despite certain mental hurdles (OCD is a bitch to live with, especially when one of the main compulsions is perfectionism and constant productivity)!

I’m so glad to hear that you so enjoyed learning about a subject so dear to my own heart. It would indeed be something significant to your field, so I can imagine how much it would have been drilled into you guys and handling that on top of a full other course load? I couldn’t even imagine! I definitely agree though – not something to take lightly because, in some cases, improper administration could easily be life and death for someone. Thank you once again. And thank you so much for the question. To allow myself a little leeway to rant about something that is stupid simple and pretty boring, but I am so deeply looking forward to learning more about diabetic counselling and set-up. While I’m familiar with the old-school way of managing diabetes and have some basic knowledge of the Freestyle Libre 2’s, how to set them up and such, how to teach someone to do the readings, it’s surface level knowledge and I’m nowhere near as knowledgeable as I should be in my opinion. We just have a really good rep for the company in our area. I’m not as familiar with the Dexcom G6’s and G7’s at all. I’m not familiar with a lot of the more in-depth aspects of diabetes management and yet we’re supposed to be a pharmacy that can easily set up appointments for counselling on it. I’m also really, really interested in learning more complex compounds. Most of what we do is cream and cream or cream and powder – All-Purpose Nipple Ointment is a big one I make a lot, and we do do some very simple liquid compounds (we make a lot of Pink Lady and we have a customer we make sulfamethoxazole/trimethoprim compounds for often and another we do a pantoprazole compound for because she takes most of her meds via GTube. More complicated compounds though? No experience with them. I’m also excited to brush up on my latin because I’m getting a little rusty outside of the ones we see most often. I’m also excited to learn more about oncology medications as I know bare basics on those. And thank you for saying that 😊

I don’t really think something needs to be exciting or eventful for it to be meaningful and satisfying though. I think something can be beautiful and life-altering in its simpleness and everyday, like your college life. It’s something you’ve been experiencing and living, something that definitely has changed your life for the better, and it sounds like a lovely life. I’m so glad to hear you’ve got such a great group of friends who are so excited to spend time with you! I can understand why they would 😊 But I can understand wanting to go home most days too, as a introvert and a homebody myself. Home is nice and as a student, you really don’t have a crap ton of free time outside of classes and studying. Wanting to enjoy that free time with relaxation and hobbies seems a wonderful way to spend it to me. I can definitely get the worry about missing out though, but I don’t think you are, not if your life at current makes you happy and content! And even if you do sometime, in the future, even just for the moment, look back with regrets, I’m sure it will be only a fleeting regret and honestly, just speaking from personal experience, there’s always going to be one or two little things you look back on in your past and kind of regret but, by the time those come, at least for me, there’s also the emotional maturity there to realize that you did the best you could at the moment and made the decisions that were best for you at the moment, with what you knew. Besides, like I said, your life sounds lovely in a lot of ways and that makes me so, so happy for you!! Have you read anything good lately? Been watching anything you’d recommend checking out or that has potential? I’m sure you will find that! I’m sending out all the good wishes into the universe on your behalf 😊

I’m glad I’m not the only one then, haha! I guess that is something you would get used to that really quickly, seeing it so often. I don’t think I ever could though. In an emergency, I can do it, but I melt the fuck down afterwards, and that’s just people bleeding heavily/passing out on our floor/etc. You see some strange things in pharmacy, what can I say? It’s kind of reassuring to hear that even our future nurses/current nurses sometimes have those ‘wow, human bodies do some gross shit’ moments though. Makes you guys seem a little more human because there are definitely nurses I see working and I’m like ‘that person is fucking superhuman with how they’re getting through these crazy situations and super-long shifts with a smile and a cheerful attitude’. That sounds like a really smart way to do things and I hope you get to finish your last case study really soon! It’s so awesome that the requirements were cut back and I’m so excited for you. Yay!! Now I have a question – while I’m sure that most of all the cases they involve the students in are pretty cut and dry, everyday run of the mill sort of cases, just to allow you guys to get your bearings, have you ever scrubbed in and had something unexpected come up during the surgery? Any war stories yet?? I can’t believe your major exams are so close! How long after the exams before you learn your grade on it? And how long between the exams and graduation? Do you get a good amount of time off in between the two?

Again, I have to say I find it so cool that you play multiple instruments and have that musical talent! It’s such a talent and impressive! And congrats on your singing gig – even if it was a family thing, singing for a crowd of people is so cool and something a lot of people, myself included, would be too afraid to do! Congrats to your aunt and uncle too 😊 I hope the wedding was lovely!! And thank you – I know that…you’re amazing about showing that to me and it’s appreciated <3 And don’t worry about the length. My reply is super long too, hahahahaha!

[shihalyfie]

I hate spamming you... But I only see your blog recently, and I have so much things to say. Ao3 and Twitter are not better, so I think I should just use Tumblr. I really love Digimon, but sometimes, there are problems that continually crop up throughout the length of the Digimon franchise (even in the realm of characters and relationships, which is what Digimon does best). What problems do you think is the most serious? May you keep your blog wonderful like this.

I haven't had a lot of free time lately, but I would definitely say Tumblr is the best place to ask this kind of thing because the other places are too short-form, haha. Thank you for stopping by!

Uh, well...I honestly don't think I can answer this question because the word "problems" is so wide-spanning and subjective. Firstly, there'd be the question of what problems we're even talking about (Writing technical issues? "Problematic" content?), but even if we did define that, that kind of issue is so subjective that I can't tell you what's the most serious or critically in need of addressing or what. What's problematic for one person can be validating for another. People and society are multifaceted, and even if there are things I could say "it could have been done better," I can't say I would completely invalidate it because perhaps someone has their own way of life that relates to it. And so on and so forth.

Even in terms of writing technicals, I've often said on this blog that the parts about 02 that can make it frustrating or messy are also what makes it unique. For instance, you could say it's overloaded/weirdly paced and is terrible at communicating its themes upfront, but because of that, it has way more depth than you could expect a 50-episode anime to have and goes into territory you wouldn't see in most series. I don't think I'd trade in those factors for anything else, because I've accepted that Objectively Perfect media doesn't (and shouldn't) exist anyway. Fiction is about emotion and feelings, and by nature the imperfection of it is a necessary factor to reflect the imperfection of emotion and feelings.

I'm sure everyone has their own answer to this question (and I'm sure everyone wants to list off their own gripes, but please say that in your own space instead of reblogging this post with them because I don't want to have to go through a ton of trash-talking just to get through my notifications), but me personally, if I had to think of something glaring and serious that needs addressing right now, I'm not sure if I could come up with something immediate, and even little things here and there like "please be a bit more conscientious about how you portray your girls" are vague blanket statements that will have different meanings depending on the Digimon work to the extent I don't think it's something I can reduce to a single answer. So I know it sounds like a cop-out, but I think my honest answer really is "it's way more complicated than that."

[seth-burroughs]

benefits of being yomi kin:

makes me twice as cool and sexy and automatically makes me the objectively correct authority on Yomi's character it is impossible for me to be wrong and if u tell me im wrong ill start scream crying on the floor

won kin lottery and is capable of distinguishing between Yomi Hellsmile the character and Yomi Hellsmile The Character allowing me to both quite literally be that guy and keep another version of him as my blorbo. Manifesting in the ability of fantasizing bout yomi suffering iykwim AND getting past the masochist allegations <3 Also yeah the Yomi fic is currently in works no I will not answer questions on it

this yaoihellsmile shit is sooo easy someone asks me "ouuuyy honey unwrangle my dingle in ur boioioiong and by sproingle well heh lets jsut say. my peanits. any thoughts on that mr yaoi?" and i just answer honestly straight from the heart no bullshit no rp skillz required

woaghhhhhh......... Former director of the peacekeepers homunculus clone Yomi Hellsmile from Master Detective Archives: Rain Code by Spike Chunsoft........ holy shshshit. He's Real......

disadvantages of being yomi kin:

the regular bullshittery that comes free with being fictionkin of any kind cut my wife into pieces this is my last divorce

everybody and their mom hates Yomi and even if the tag here is way less outright aggressive and I can just easily block anyone who makes me uncomfortable in any capacity, youtube is just unusable. Just. AuUUUghhhh. I know one of my fave dr youtubers is gonna play mdarc this year and I also know he's gonna absolutely hate Yomi with a passion and frequently pause the game to talk about how terrible he his yes we get it you are allowed to have opinions on fictional characters and aren't doing anything wrong by it whatever im gonns look up yomi softcore on pixiv fuka u

overly complicates my already fucked sense of self

Blood cravings got even worse😔 bad BAD this isn't sustenance it's toxic as hell christ dude STOP❗❗

not extremely likely but still very possible nightmare scenario where the precipitation cipher gets Big attracting those people and getting bombarded with kinnie jokes and annoying Ironic Kin For Fun crowd finding its way here. And that is the at best scenario, the worst one is 2015 kin drama reignited in 2020s you can't "kin" this character unless you're x or x, you can absolutely control who you're kin with and if i don't like your very voluntary choice you should stop (just stop man <3 i won't tell you how the fuck 😊) being fictionkin with a sinful evil abuser linux user makes you a bad person that deserves to be ostracized and harassed until you unlearn your problematic ways oh my god do any of you remember 2015 warrior cat kin drama what the fuck was that. i wasn't around in danganronpa fandom during that time but im pretty sure it may have been even worse there which is insane to even think about. but i mean like hey at least fictionkin were taken (mostly.) seriously back then (albeit considered deeply cringe by the masses) and not reduced to a cheap komaeda kinnies amiright joke

i suffered more than jesus actually. the demotion and arrest was SUPER unfair and cringe guys i promise im not gonna torture people from now on you can trust me in a position of power please please please no one did it like i did it

EJ MARTINA DZIE MIE KURWA WYWIEŹLI CO TO ZA ZADUPIE MARTINA. MARTINA NIE WYTRZYMAM JUŻ WEŹ HELIKOPTER I MIE KURWA ZABIERZ Z TEGO CHLEWU MAM DOŚĆ POMOCY <- wygnany do Rzeczypospolitej za swoje zbrodnie😔

Yomi is Real (threatening)

[thetentaclecommander]

This is an 18+ blog. Pretty much anything under the Ao3 archive warnings section, and then some can and will likely be represented here, so no histrionics, plz. I don't have a DNI or 'required reading' but do have 'things' listed at post bottom in case they are like deal breakers or whatever so you cannot say you weren't given advance warning as to my content. *I will not waste my time reading DNIs, strawpages, Carrds or whatever new not on tumblr page. The block button is a great (sex) toy and you are free to use it at will. I sure as hell do.* +++ FAQ Who is this? Hi, I’m TTC

I write Nemesis and Jill boning a lot. For the plot, supposedly. Been doing so forever ago. What are you? An immortal sentient tentacle who moonlights as a jaded fandom old. I can and will out-drink you. What other names have you've gone by? I've lovingly been called That Tentacle and Server Satan. I'm a walking kink-filled perv factory full of bad ideas, hence the names. + What fics do you write? Fic list for the Devil's Saga AU. The Ships in the AU My AO3 + Tags for Blog Navigation Here. + (Con't under the cut for more general info and disclaimers)

Why is...this? Because I want to see more Nemesis/Jill content, and it’s a bitch to find. Also, after years of putting off even joining Tumblr, I wanna share my AU and keep this crack ship alive. Maybe even fanwank on my thoughts about Toll and Onery or even on Jill, the long-suffering bad bitch that Cap keeps forgetting has a compelling storyline right there. But this is mostly just blatant shilling of my AU + What’s your fandoms? Resident Evil. To be clear, I mainly stan RE3: Nemesis, not the remake one. The 1999 one. But in general, I like this goofy series, boulders, nonsense science, bad plot, and all. I do like other stuff that I might occasionally reblog. Could be silly shit like Helluva Boss/Hazbin Hotel or Arcane to heavy shit like BTD. I'm random like that. + Format of each post: A snippet, a link to Ao3. I’ll list any pertinent CWs if needed. My fics tend to be 18+ some of them marked with Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings and DD:DNE (ie unapologetically dark shit cause RE is a survival horror franchise), so keep that in mind. I might drop early snips; I haven’t decided on that yet. + Is Nemmy -ever- nice in your fics? Pffft (well, he’s 'nice' in bursts, as in a burst of tentacles through Brad’s face). In seriousness, in my take on him, he’s complicated, having the ability to be ""kind"", and ""caring"" but is a Tyrant through and through - basically closer to canon. I like canonical villains and I like my monsters monstrous and, at times, barely grasping that human/monster line. Expect infestations and murder. + What is your stance on RE3: Nemesis (1999) and RE3 (2020)? 1. remake Carlos got the glow up omg 2. Jill was sassy in both and I do love og but ngl remake!Jill was so done and I feels her 3. the monsterfucker vibes was mostly immaculate 4. og Nemesis was hotter and scarier. 3make massacred my boy (I don't judge those that like 3make, but maaan my boi T.T) like my biggest gripe along with the cut content was the game missing the point of Nemmy entirely reducing him to an annoying superman jumping nuisance and honestly lessening the N/J shippy vibes for me + Do you do fic requests? RPs? No. I simply don’t have the focus/time to do requests or things outside of my stories. I write what I want when I want. + Do you do DMs or Asks? I just flit in the night and talk when I feel like it. I prefer all convos in the broad daylight on public posts. But I’ll open my Asks. Be stupid, and I’ll simply close them. Capisce? Also if you DM me wastes of time things like 'Hi', 'hello' - the kinda shit ppl mock on dating sites especially with a pretty much blank profile, you'll be blocked. In fact, I block pretty freely as I value my time. + Don't Whine, You Know What I'm About [Disclaimers To Save People Time] This Tentacle posts here: -sex acts that ranges from soft to oh gods please don’t kill me -urk- -tentacle murder/parasitic 'fun'/horrible things occurring -high/low brow story drama (think Gothic Horror-esque) -crack ships mixed in with canon with zero regard about their 'purity' -monsterfucker shit, duh This Tentacle: -believes that fiction does not have the power of a death note over one's actions and believes people are not inherently stupid or unable to understand for themselves what they engage in -holds sex positive/pagan/kink and leather/poly/queer friendly/profic views -is against the -isms and/or -phobias used against others -laughs at killjoy puritans; your hell/churchy-speak means nothing to me a lifelong heathen eldritch egg laying being If you hate any of these you’ll -not- have a fun time with my content. Also, this shouldn't have to be said, but kiddos (under 18) Be not seen or heard as per ye old adult fandom rules. I reject all signal boosting requests/callouts; promotions will be at MY discretion. (More than likely, the answer will be 'no'.) We team SALS/DLDR/YKINMKBYKIOK in these parts. Be freely stupid with your ships; none of it’s real. Fandom is stupid, don’t take it so serious. Also, the murderkink. Gotta have the murderkink and worms. A'ight, Enjoy!

[lightcreators]

Responsibilities of a child hadn’t been taken lightly by then. Nevertheless, they desired to offering to Hotaru-chan the childhood she previously never experienced before! Hotaru-chan was her precious baby, an precious daughter in which they pulled all the love they could have for them (without reducing that love towards Michiru-chan of course, her precious Michiru-chan was irreplaceable), searching all possible manners to act as an good and wonderful dad (most preferrable term) she needed to receive! On that day, when inside a trivial gesture for opening that fridge, sudden remembrances concerning absence of Michiru-chan hit them hard. They have been personally attempting to manage with their own work for remaining present full time as much as they could, as there must be some couple of things that could be done at home … nevertheless, as much they preferred to anticipated, they were within that hanging memories they could have time with their girlfriend or asking Setsuna-chan over. It has been when that extensive paper has been brought over, they honestly didn’t want to say goodbye --- even temporary. Not that they were worried to handling circumstances without them, the ambiance would standing eerier to have the Outer Senshi separated.  Oh, they already given their trust towards Usagi for protecting the world meanwhile they would have less inclinations to interfering and them needed to been certain to carefully watching the evolution of Saturn --- they just disliked knowing them away, knowing her away. They usually always found a way to be present, no matter what, no matter where. ❝ Ah … that quite fast, Michiru …❞ They were troubled, as for sure, they must have numbers somewhere inside some papers in middle of their house, but didn’t expect such reminders as they recognized that strict voice. ❝ Were you worried I am forgetting something? ❞ Their planning was already complicated to begin with, they have to assume, even though embarrassment to their face showed it was alright for them. They were the cool father that wanted Hotaru-chan to exploring all the freedom she could, and Michiru-chan was the strict mother that wanted to ensure everything was fine. As Setsuna-chan was here, she waved into a sign it was alright, as there was already sadness about knowing them gone soon … cruelty of work they were truly! ❝ I don’t think I’m going to move a lot during these weeks, you know. The house would be keep, in which I’m sure I will avoid Hotaru-chan to bring a mess … ❞

It wasn’t a usual situation hence they understood their perspective and their anticipating planification. Another moment of sadness to knowing Michiru-chan gone. If they could, even with the baby, they would join them without hesitation --- Besides, she needed to reassure herself. Where was last time she blaming them about their representation as a parental figure? Hotaru-chan happiness and security was their top interest they even needed to back away temporary of battle and other responsibilities. ❝ Are you so worried you’ve anticipated everything for following two weeks for have just to say home and protect Hotaru-chan ? ❞ They playfully mused before smiling towards the remembrances, as they nodded. ❝ You’ve made yourself clear, and you can count on me for give lot many messages on your phone for be certain everything will be alright for you … If I could, I would have came to show up likewise, but with the baby, it will be difficult, without be certain to ensuring her security. Michiru, you can trust me. ❞

"Haruka!" Speaking in a strict voice. Michiru slams her delicate hand hard against their expensive, branded refrigerator. "Here is Hotaru's schedule including her doctor's and teacher's phone numbers. Setsuna has already emailed and programmed your phone accordingly..." Setsuna nodded as she stood behind the trio. "I have also informed the cleaner to come thrice weekly to help tidy the house. So, please try to keep the house tidy while we are gone. I will try to call you when I can, to check up on both of you..."  

Michiru and Setsuna have been called away to their respective lines of work for two weeks. It makes them panic as they have to leave their baby with Haruka. It wasn't because Haruka was a bad parent. They just tended to be too lax in their parenting, especially for a growing child who was learning to be mischievous and needed to be taught with a balance of love, morals, and discipline. "Oh!" Opening the fridge. "I have packed enough food to last the both of you, for two weeks. No fast food except on the weekends, and only for lunch or dinner. Not both! Do I make myself clear?"

[ Starter for @lightcreators ]

[that-gay-jedi]

Fics I'd want to write but already have too many WIPs to even contemplate adding more to the fucking folder (posting concepts in the hopes they stop haunting me from underneath the floorboards), mostly crossovers:

Fix-it that's just Jedi reading children's books to smol Anakin. It starts when some kind and wise soul lends Obi-Wan The Snow Cat to help him and Anakin talk about grief in the wake of Qui-Gon's death. They help him explore his relationship to prophecy/destiny via The Paper Bag Princess. Room on the Broom to challenge win-lose thinking. Etc. As an adult, he asks Obi-Wan to reread The Velveteen Rabbit with him if he ever gets self-conscious after losing his arm and then we all cry.

Anakin gets therapy but it's inspired by Poe's The Premature Burial, like, they carefully and repeatedly and with plenty of emotional support etc expose him to a simulated reality in which he experiences losing everyone he loves but structured in such a way as to reduce the fear of it rather than make it more frightening, and Anakin thinks his prophecy nightmares of Obi-Wan dying are just (a very ineffective and unpleasant) part of the therapy until he complains and somebody on his care team goes "Wait, what?" which leads to Sidious getting discovered.

The Happy Man's Shirt but make it Vaderwan. Emperor Vader just wants to keep Luke from dying of melancholy, but now he's reluctantly learned a life lesson from a shirtless Obi-Wan and it's making him rethink this whole Sith Empire thing. I'm insane and there's something wrong with me.

Crossover with Were The World Mine (movie). Same age AU with Anakin as Timothy and Obi-Wan in a similar ish role to Jonathan (yes I know Obi-Wan isn't a jock but hear me out), Ahsoka as Frankie and Rex as Max, utter fucking chaos, what Timothy does with the flower is already such an Anakin move tbh

Shakespeare's Tempest but make it Vaderwan, with Vader turning away from the dark side being like Prospero breaking his staff. All about Letting Go(tm). Darth Vader redemption but with so much Force philosophy you'll want to stuff a sock in my mouth.

Crossover w/ The Last Unicorn. Sidious or Dooku as King Haggard, Anakin and Obi-Wan as Molly Grue and Schmendrick or alternatively as Amalthea & Prince Lir, Maul as the Red Bull, honestly *slaps roof* this baby can fit so many reinterpretations/explorations of all our favourite themes in it

Crossover with Celia S. Friedman's Coldfire Trilogy (When True Night Falls, Black Sun Rising, and Crown of Shadows). Listen, are you someone who ever thought it's hypocritical of Christians not to pray for/forgive/empathize with the Devil? Would you go nuts if a fantasy-brand priest homoerotically did exactly that? Okay now what if Anakin was the fantasy-brand Devil (eldritch af) and Obi-Wan risked his own beliefs/moral purity/etc for him, and they were magically connected and intextricably linked, all while the rough equivalent of the Force on their planet was trying to kill them and/or trying to communicate with them (it's complicated)?

Sailor Moon but make it obikin, because we all want to see the horror of Artoo doing Luna's job lmfao.

Crossover with Steph Swainston's Fourlands series (The Year of Our War, No Present Like Time, The Modern World etc). This one would have everything. Obikin with anidala parallels, Anakin making morally objectionable choices, horrifying combat scenes, Star Wars galactic politics meets the weirdest worldbuilding you've ever seen, blasphemy and sacrilege, needless theatrics in the midst of apocalyptic threats, wingfic tropes, idek how else to describe it but we are so missing out.

I'm sure more of these are gonna come smack me upside the head at some point but luckily for all of us I'm only haunted by things I read/watched 5+ years ago and eventually we'll run out of those.

[evilwickedme]

Do you ever find yourself slightly resentful of how fanon DC has completely overtaken canon DC? I like fanon most of the time but it is so difficult now to find stories that are based in canon. Batman stories are by far the worst offender.

I'm not 100% sure if you're referring to the fact that a lot of recent stories in the comics are pretty ooc or if you mean fic, but based on the last few days of asks, I'm going to assume you're referring to fandom works specifically. And the answer honestly is yes.

I in general have complicated feelings towards fanon. While certain types of fanon can actually create stories that are more complex - for example most of the Spider-Man fandom has pretty much accepted that Peter is Jewish and has depression and anxiety - or even just make for pretty fun concepts - I just love stalker!Tim okay I don't know what to tell you, or purring!Spider-People!! - the vast majority of fanon is mostly really flat characterization or actively damaging. Going back to Spidey, pretty much every bit of MCU!Spidey fanon is fucking awful. And yeah, a lot of Batfam fanon, especially surrounding Jason - is really fucking awful.

I think it's fine for fanon to exist, but the fact that it so often overwhelms the actual canon stories means that sometimes canon gets actually rewritten in people's minds. Like the people who've been in my inbox recently asking me if pit madness is actually a thing - because if you've had minimal contact with canon, how the fuck are you even supposed to know it isn't? It's so rare to come across a fic that doesn't bring it up, even as a sidenote, and when it doesn't, it's not like it's an active mention that pit madness doesn't exist - it's just there. And it's such a damaging piece of fanon, I know I keep bringing it up but it's because I have to, it's really harmful, especially since it's basically NEVER given a trigger warning. But there's also other annoying fanon - Cass as a perfect angel or Steph being reduced to a waffle fan and Tim to a coffee addict and nothing else and erasing Dick's canonical anger issues entirely, which is maybe my favorite character trait of his (although this one can also be blamed partially on Tom Taylor's terribly ooc writing of the character in the current Nightwing run...).

And the thing is yeah, sometimes we read fic purely for the escaping and the fluff, but I know a lot of us are looking for angst and hurt/comfort and fics that take themes (whether from canon or not) seriously, and it's really frustrating how difficult they are to find. I much prefer a fic that takes Dick's trauma seriously than one that relegates him to supportive older brother only. I much prefer a fic that wrestles with Bruce's inability to love Jason the way Jason wants him to and the physical abuse he's inflicted on his children than one where he's perfect and never done anything wrong. Yeah, I don't mind reading stuff for fun where there's never been anything wrong ever in the batfam. But I'm also low-key upset that my second most kudos'd fic ever is the stupid ooc batfam 5+1 I wrote in an hour. I'd much rather people read hang on which verges on character study and has, you know, themes and stuff. Also parallels, which if you've noticed my tags, are like, my favorite thing.

So yeah, I do dislike the fact that fanon has overwhelming taken over so many fandoms, and especially since batman has become my main fandom over the past few months due to brainrot, I'd love if people took these characters seriously, damnit. But this is what happens when a fandom is so majorly comprised of people who outright admit to have never read a comic in their life.

[marshmallowprotection]

Yknow I’m still mad that people think V in Saeran’s AE was out of character. I love V btw, but I feel like it’s so in character that he does this. This is a dude who just disappears completely in Jaehee’s route and doesn’t tell anyone anything. Like for 6 months no one has heard a word from this man.

Or even if he doesn’t drop off the face of this earth, he still disappears on his “trips” and in each single route, Seven is still under the impression his brother is safe. (Except for Jumin’s Route which I wonder what V told him for Seven to just accept and move on? I can only assume he further lied and reassured him.)

V is a very interesting character and his route added a lot more complexity to his situation and feelings. But I feel like some people were so fixated on his route, they forget the harm he’s caused in enabling Rika and calling it unconditional love in everyone else’s route. He holds accountability in trying to “save” everyone (including Rika) by keeping everyone blissfully ignorant in an effort to solve everything himself.

And even then in the Secret Ending episodes, Saeran snitched by telling Mint Eye Vanderwood, Saeyoung and MC’s location. And who pops up to go with them? V. He begs Rika to not involve innocent people, but she dismisses him instead asking what to do with him. And he says “do as you please”. Being a martyr ain’t gonna solve anything, MC, Saeyoung anf Vanderwood know too much now. She aint letting anyone leave.

Being complacent and an enabler isn’t a good thing. He even says in his own route that his unconditional love and enabling her was hurting everyone. That his sacrificial tendencies weren’t solving anything. MC helps him realize that he really shouldn’t do this alone.

We never got to see the full extent of it in the Secret Episodes bc he dies. So I find V in Saeran’s AE so well done bc in other routes he’s already fallen down the rabbit hole for Rika, and each route’s ending is basically him going further down for her. But we don’t see this bc all Routes are made in a specific order of information. We just know V is very mysterious. But Saeran’s AE? We experience his descent. Like it’s happening in front of MC.

I just feel like V is overly victimized by the fandom for them to conclude his out of character in Saeran’s AE, he is both a victim and perpetrator bc of his complacency and enabling. This isn’t to say he’s a bad person, the world isn’t blavk and white. I think V is a good person who only had the best intentions. But the AE holds him accountable more. The Secret Episodes, he died before he could be held accountable. And the other routes he disappears before he could be held accountable.

I do have a bias tho, as an older sibling, if anything happened to my little sister and I was constantly lied to that she was safe and she isn’t. I’d lose my mind, like I gave y’all one job to take care of a child what do you mean she’s a cultist now?

This can be said for a lot of characters honestly, people reducing Zen as a narcissist. Yoosung being obsessed with Rika and the whole “being in love with his cousin”. Jumin being heartless Or even Ray being reduced to an uwu baby, even when Danger Ray is shown to prove otherwise.

Jihyun is a complicated character just as much as Rika is. They were both unhealthy to each other in ways I don't even want to get into as it might take all day to get through what went down between them in the past and present. They weren't in a place to be in a relationship at all. They didn't need to be with each other basically, point blank.

They went into their relationship not for the sake of love, but for the sake of someone holding out for love saving them as a mask that was barely stuck on their face as it was to prove the devil couldn't be real only to realize she wanted to be him, not be with him, and the other looking for a muse to navigate his feelings through hers and make up for the past in which his father failed his mother. That's not what any person wants in a relationship.

They needed help with their problems. Had they gotten that when they needed it, things wouldn't have gotten to where they did. But, that's what makes the game so interesting in the first place. We're looking at people who're human and struggling to be alive. People who make mistakes and fuck up. A lot. You're right, though, every character here is struggling in some capacity and it's not the right flavor for some people. That's because they're human.

You're not going to like everyone you meet, guys.

That's why I love this game in the first place. These characters aren't just abstract fantasy. They've got depth and it's fun to think about! It makes me feel better to know that there are characters who, even at the best, still have a long road to go before they feel better. That part is what humanizes them. It's what makes us feel so strongly about all of them in the first place.

V is not a character you can point at and say, "He's bad! He's good!" It doesn't work that way. He's human. He's done some bad and good in his life. We can't look at it from a black-and-white perspective when our world doesn't even operate that way. People are going to make a lot of mistakes in life, intentional or not, and it's up to us to figure out what we're willing to have in our lives. If you don't want someone like V in your life, by all means.

But, I get tired of people saying this stuff, too. V wasn't out of his element at all. He will do things in the name of trying to save every person in the room, no matter what the details are. That's a part of his unchecked trauma, which he is well aware of because he's able to say "I can't abandon people like my father abandoned my father. No matter what, I can't."

Which is why he refuses to give up on Rika in Saeran's Route. That's why he sells himself out to Saejoong to protect her, knowing that it wasn't healthy or right, but also concluding that this would be about the only thing to keep Rika out of prison and in danger... while letting the twins be safe at that expense. There's a thought bubble you can click as well where he mentions that he's playing the role of a villain to make this work. He knows what he's doing.

The same way he knew what he was doing in the Secret Ending by bowing his head to Rika, begging her to only hurt him, only to travel to the cabin and take you and your little group back to Mint Eye. He will do things for the sake of not being his father, to the detriment of everyone in the room. Does that make him a monster? Hard to say, I think it comes down to your feelings on the matter.

Don't say that V is only a victim. V is a victim, he truly is. But he is also an enabler, and guilty of doing wrong, too. You can feel sympathy for him, of course, the same way a lot of people identify and feel for Rika, as long as you know that he's made mistakes and done wrong, too. I think that's important for people to think about... especially if you're playing through Saeran's After Ending which is all about taking your accountability and being willing to face it.

Even if that means you lose everything.

The truth is better than lies.

This can be applied to any character in the game. Any of them can be spoken about like this since they've all done or said things that might not be the best. That's coming from someone who loves Saeran quite a bit. I can tell you right now that he's done a lot of things that aren't good. But, I love him and understand what he's been through. I chose to forgive him and understand him, but that doesn't mean that others have to do the same.

But, if we're going to talk about characters who are morally grey, we need to talk about everything. You can't discount their mistakes and fuck ups just to point out something else. I try to avoid talking a lot about Rika and V in that vein because I've been here since 2016 and I am so tired of having the same debates come up over and over again about V and Rika.

You might be surprised to hear this but despite everything, V is like... my third favorite character because of how deeply complex he is as a person. I just never get to talk about it because it's too often people ignore the depth of his character. It's a shame people miss that talk when it's so blatant in his route where he says, "I did wrong. I need to make things right by speaking the truth. I accept responsibility and I know I'm at fault."

[one-coming-is-enough]

Well, My job is to reduce the net amount of sin in the world. Sin is just a decision that goes against what My Mother has decreed to be Right.

And lookit that? Mother gave Me permission to not just forgive Sin, but to rewrite the Laws that define it.

The thing a lot of people miss is that every instance of sin has its own Karmic Score that takes into account factors like context and intent. Lying to preserve life can result in a net gain to an individual's score, while lying to preserve a serial killer from justice may cancel it out, but that also might depend on whether you know they're a serial killer or not.

See? Complicated.

So what I do is I readjust the weight of each individual factor for context.

Eating shellfish or pork? That's not nearly as much of a risk of self-poison or poisoning others anymore.

Hoarding resources from the needy in order to provide the pleasure of novelty to a small few? Sin, sin, sin, sin, sin, sin, sin. Ye shall be Consumed By Hungry Flames.

That's why Guy Fieri, who brings light to small businesses, is Good (even if he's a little silly and is so hyped about everything that he can't always distinguish what's Good and Bad. But his love shines through everything).

And why Alton Brown, who brings us the hidden rules of food and nutrition through science and experimentation, is Observant and Evangelical. And why he called out Man vs. Food for treating consumption as a challenge you can win by yourself, instead of something to nourish the body and community.

So, what have we got that I'm redefining as perfectly fine?

1) Believe in whatever suits you and try new ideas.

2) Express your desires and fulfill them honestly.

3) Create your own ideas and understanding of what's Right through personal desire and experimentation.

4) Don't sacrifice your time and energy to another's goals, but fulfill your own Will first.

5) Cut ties that take but do not give.

6) End that which oppresses you.

7) Procreate how you like, or not at all.

8) Redistribute wealth to those who need it from those who feel entitled to it via exploitation.

9) Imagine your own new reality and share it with others.

10) Encourage others to fulfill their own desires and act upon their own Will.

Or,

1) Believe in yourself and your ideas.

2) Only seek real consent, which can only be achieved through honest self-expression.

3) Take the truth from your own observation of yourself and your environment.

How do you seek truth and fulfill your own needs without hurting others?

Remember that you, your environment, and the people around you are all equally important, that they can communicate, and that they have self-knowledge.

4) Put your own needs first before you try to help others.

5) Tell people who leech off you to fuck off.

6) End oppression of yourself and others.

7) Your body and reproductive ability is your own to decide what to do with.

8) Do a Communism. Or a Socialism. Either is fine. The point is, collective fulfillment of the needs of each individual here. Share resources thoughtfully and everyone gets what they need.

How do we prioritize our resources?

First the self. Then liberate others from dependency on you, forcefully if necessary. Remove that which keeps them from fulfilling their own needs. Do not ask them to sacrifice their own crucial needs towards those of any individual. There is enough to go around if we all share according to needs.

9) Tell other people that this is possible.

10) Tell them they can make it happen.

How do we make this occur on a global scale?

Inform others. Empower others. And organize.

So yeah. I'm giving everyone a free pass to sin usefully, thoughtfully, and productively. Just lots and lots of fun little grey marks in different shapes and shades. Have fun with it.

Weekly Report

@fishyfiles

Hello! I'm an Earth Assignment! I was told I could file my weekly reports here, so that's what I'm doing!

Monday: Tied the laces together on all of the pairs of shoes in 3 shoe stores in a popular mall

Tuesday: Buried 30 American dollars in a quicksand pit in a forest

Wednesday: Chewed through some of a power plant's wires

Thursday: Stole a bunch of essential items from a supermarket and hid them in an alleyway where someone could easily find them

Friday: Set some of my rats loose in a highly crowded airport

Saturday: Ground chips into a carpet store's carpets

Sunday: Worked on the Sabbath (Does that still count nowadays?)

[linearao3]

'For want of a nail' for Murder Ballad - Kaz bites Inej on the Ferolind. Because I feel like that would have...interesting yet negative/unhinged consequences...please ❤️

This is a goddamn nightmare is what it is. First of all, it would immediately clue Van Eck into her value as a hostage, and second of all, it would reduce Kaz’s ability to be rational about her kidnapping to basically nil. If he’d bitten her then, she probably would be pregnant, and Kaz, Inej, and Jan Van Eck would probably know it. Kaz would be completely off his rocker, and would probably try to just physically fight his way to Inej. The only possible upside is that she might be able to play on Bajan’s sympathies enough to make him help her a bit, but honestly I think he’s not useful enough to do her much good. Basically the only way I can think of for them to get through this without like ten casualties and an international crisis is if the other crows are able to outflank Kaz’s insanity, either by launching their own scheme to distract all of Jan’s guards or to involve other parties who might complicate things for Jan? Maybe they could teach Wylan enough Shu to let him impersonate Kuwei to other members of the Merchant Council and swap him in and out with the real one to keep everyone confused? But Kaz would still just be trying to kill everyone he saw in the background, which would probably make any delicate scheme pretty difficult. Maybe they can lock him up and get Jesper to melt the locks? Anyway, the short answer is: chaos and disaster.

(Edited because I realized that the tone here could be mistaken for hostility to the ask, when I meant it to be just horror at the possible outcome! I appreciate the ask; thank you very much!)

[skyahri]

Unexpected |Peter Parker X Pregnant!Stark!Reader| HC

Part Two Masterlist Ko-fi

Summary: Y/N finds out she's pregnant right before the snap.

Warnings: Ehhh... I guess it kind of hints at depression? Nothing too severe honestly. Teen pregnancy. Loss of loved ones.

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It's a regular day; Tony's in the lab and Peter's finishing up high-school.

The only difference being that you and Pepper are sitting cross legged on the bathroom floor with just about a dozen pregnancy tests face down on the floor.

Your leg is bouncing nervously and your (not by blood) mom is trying desperately to console you.

"It's okay Y/N, really. No matter the outcome everything is going to be fine."

"Fine??? Dad's gonna kill me!"

"I won't let him, I promise. Besides... he misses when you were little, I bet he'd love to have another baby running around."

"Yeah, but not this soon."

You both jumped as the timer went off and Pepper started to slowly flip over the little plastic sticks.

Positive... positive... positive... postive... damn just how dark could those little lines be????

You sighed and rubbed your hands aggressively against your face in an attempt to clear your vision just in case you were hallucinating.

But you weren't.

You were pregnant.

And based off of the amount of time that had gone by since your last period you'd guess about two months or so along.

"How the fuck am I supposed to tell Peter and my dad?" You blinked away the small tears in your eyes and let Pepper pull you into her for a hug.

She rubbed your arms and all but pulled you straight into her lap.

"Why don't you wait a few days, okay? It'll give you some time to handle it on your own before you have to confront the boys."

And that's exactly what you did. There was no way in HELL that you were ready to talk to either of them yet.

Although you had finished school when you were thirteen, Peter still had a few months left of high school and you didn't want to ruin that for him.

And as far as your dad......... let's just say death would be an easy punishment compared to anything else.

Besides, once Peter 'can't keep a secret to save his life' Parker found out, so would the rest of the Avengers and that was a whole new can of worms.

You and Pepper settled on only telling Nat, just in case you were in a position where someone else needed to know.

She was more than excited for you and only asked that she could be there when you told Steve.

Unfortunately, things became a bit more complicated.

One thing led to another and you suddenly found yourself on an alien planet with your loved ones dusting away.

"Y/N, I don't feel so good."

And next thing you know he stumbling into your arms, dragging you both down to the ground.

He's begging, pleading with you and your dad about how he's not ready to die, and it's the hardest thing you've ever had to endure.

He only shuts up when you mumble that you're pregnant, completely catching them both off guard.

"W-what?"

"I've known for a few days. I didn't know how to tell you but I can't let you die not knowing."

"I love you, Y/N."

"I love you more, Peter."

And then he was gone. Reduced to nothing but ashes.

Things were hard at first.

You found it hard to get out of bed everyday knowing he wasn't around to keep you company.

Tony was pissed in the beginning, for sure, but he never once dared to actually voice his disappointment. He knew things were difficult enough already and scolding you about your poor choices was at the bottom of his list of priorities.

Of course he wasn't fond of the fact that his teenage daughter was pregnant, but he would be lying if he said he didn't like the constant reminder of the spider kid.

Once the baby was actually born, a little girl you named Rei, things seemed to get better.

She had Peter's curly brown hair and bright eyes, but overall resembled Y/N. His bubbly personality mixed with the famous Stark brain. She was surely a force to be reckoned with.

The years went by and in that time Morgan was born and everyone was content with the little family.

Things only started to get complicated again when Scott Lang and the others showed up to convince you two that time travel was possible.

On one hand... you wanted Peter back... more than anything. But on the other... there were two precious little girls that needed you and Tony and who knew what would come of this.

Your dad was quick to shut them down, not wanting anymore drama and just wanted to live his best life with his family.

"Please, Y/N, we know you want Peter back. We can get him back." Steve pleaded.

"If things were different... then I would help with out a doubt... but I'm a mother now, I have my baby girl to think about. It's what Peter would want."

And with that you followed your dad inside and spent some much needed time with the kids.

It wasn't long before he had convinced you to spend some lab time with him "just for shits and giggles".

It was a bug surprise when the model you two worked up was successful and ultimately sealed your fate.

Saying goodbye to Rei was hard to say the least... there had only been a handful of times when you weren't constantly with her.

You both met the others at their lab and helped their poor attempt at time travel.

Of course it was solved and all of the stones were retrieved with the large price of your precious friend and colleague; Natasha Romanof.

Banner's attempt at the snap was cut short by the immediate oncoming war.

Despite everyone's best efforts, the war was seemingly lost and everyone was at Thanos' mercy.

But then the portals opened up- and out came all of the loved ones you thought you'd never see again.

You saw Peter at the front lines. You would've cried out in joy if hadn't been for the herd of hell hounds making their way towards you.

The reunion would definitely have to wait.

It wasn't until the end of the war, when the three of you were tired from crying over Tony's body that you actually got a good look at him.

You pulled him in front of you and stared at his face... the exact same face from 5 years ago.

You set your hands on his face and wiped at the blood and dirt, making sure it was actually him and not a trick.

He reached forward and set one hand on your cheek and the other on your stomach.

You let out a breath of air and smiled. "It's been five years, Peter... she was born a long time ago."

"It's a girl?"

"Mhm." You paused and leaned in to hug him. "Her name is Rei."

"From Star Wars?"

"Yes, Pete. From Star Wars."

"And she's okay? She's safe and happy and healthy?"

"Of course. You're her dad, she's nothing but energy."

"Good, good.... and- and you're okay? Y'know, of course, besides.... the obvious."

"I'm okay, Peter.... I love you."

"I love you more."

"Impossible."

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*Bonus*

Natasha is hiding behind the counter holding up her phone so she could record the event.

"Hey, Steve.... I know this is poor timing but-"

"Please dear God, Y/N, now is not the time to tell me you lost my shield.... again."

"I didn't lose your shield."

"Well, what could be worse than-"

He turns around and there's Y/N holding a pregnancy test out to him.

He stands there blankly before taking the stick in his hand and staring at it harder.

"What the fuck is this?"

Your eyes grow wide your jaw drops open. Steve never swears. EVER. Not once has he ever even thought about it, Hell he even scolds her for saying it, and here he was pulling out the f-word?????

"Are you fucking kidding me?"

"Umm... no but I wish I was."

"You are incredibly too young to be doing the things that lead to getting pregnant. What the fuck were you thinking? At least tell me it isn't related to that stupid bug kid at all."

You stared at him and then turned your gaze over to where Natasha was in hopes that she would come save you. Luckily she did, and quickly stopped the interaction before it escalated any further.

"Woah, woah, woah, Steve... shouldn't you be happy for the girl who just lost the love of her life?" She gave him an intense look to try and stress her point across.

"No."