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PORTRAIT jason hates taking photos. it's a shame you find him so beautiful.
Jason Todd isnât one to take pictures. Standing there with a fake smile, posing for a deceptively happy vignette of an unhappy reality feels awkward. He never knows what to do with his hands. He doesnât like the way his face translates through the lens; the green of his eyes glows just this side of too spectral, his broad, stocky frame towers over that of his siblings, and the scars on his face bring memories of a darker time, an intentional carelessness for his life he used to carry. He leans away when others huddle together to smile. Pretends to notice something behind him when caught in the background of the lens.
Enter you. Only capable of looking at him with hearts in your eyes. Serving on a silver platter what he used to starve and scavenge for in dimly lit bars on the lips of women who only saw him as something to sink their teeth into and then spit out, never sticking around for longer than one night. Jason feasted at first, heâll admit, stuffing himself to sickness on your unconditional adoration until it was almost too much to bear.
You take pictures of him and gush over them, telling him how pretty he is. How he belongs in a museum. He never believed you, never bothering to actually look at the pictures you take. But pretty soon heâs everywhere; you set him as your lock screen and screensaver, and print photos to frame on your bedside table. When your storage is maxed out, you steal Jasonâs phone to flood his camera roll, and he finds that he keeps going back to stare at the photos you take. Selfies where you kiss his cheek and his mouth curves upward just enough to transform him from brooding to disarming; portraits where he looks, not at the camera, but just beyond and his eyes crinkle, the tips of his sharp canines peeking out over his bottom lip. He looksâŚdifferent. Better. He starts to believe the things you tell him; his beauty is ancient. Michelangelo himself carved the contours of his body. The Trojans and the Greeks fought for a decade over him.
But what is it about this camera, he wonders, that makes his appearance digestible? Is it the way you frame him front and center, the backlighting sun rays extending in all directions behind him, encircling him with a holiness he doesnât deserve? The scenery against which you capture him, busy nighttime streets under city lights, just dark enough to smooth out his rough edges?Â
Or maybe itâs just you. Seeing himself from your point of view. Seeing himself as yours. His hooked nose, crooked from being broken one too many times, belongs to you for the early mornings when you trace down the bridge, around his lips, and up his jaw, drawing a portrait with your fingertips. His unruly hair, with streaks of white that make him stick out like a sore thumb, exists only for you to run your fingers through when he lays his head in your lap. His scars are for you to kiss on those difficult days until he can bear to look in the mirror again. He wants nothing more than to be a museum of all things you.
Jason Todd isnât one to take pictures. But when you ask so nicely, showering him with compliments and promises of thank-you-kisses later on, how can he say no?
why are we as a society still striving for more definition and higher quality photos for anything other than, like, x-ray imaging and space exploration. I don't want 8k ultra-max hd in my phone that highlights every hair and pore and eye bag i want grainy and dark and fuzzy because it makes me look hotter and that's a fact. rant over
anyway he's so pretty i wanna take candids of him and kiss his face and squeeze his huge ti-*GUNSHOTS*
this is gonna be my last post for the next few weeks because i have finals. see you on the other side𫡠(born to be a farmer on a remote island, forced to study STEM) i'll be on requests as soon as i'm back trust
#more of my jason todd domesticity agenda#nightwing#batman#red hood#jason todd#dick grayson#jason todd x reader#jason todd x you#jason todd x y/n#dc universe#dc comics#dcu#dc robin#robin#batboys#batfamily#red hood x reader
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â Hey peoples đ thought I should share an Aran Ryan headcanon based on how I structure my drawing lol (its kind of nice to have stuff logged on here so I can go back to it :P)
â Idk if this needs a content warning or anything sorry, but theres a good chunk of talk about medication and mental healthâ
â So for one I feel like he has ADHD, and that's kind of where my whole ramble will stem from
â Back in Ireland, he was actually treated for his ADHD (and only because he was considered a pain so there "must've" been something wrong with him)
â When moved from home (snuck out đ more on that at some point), he pretty much took what he can put into a carry on bag and at the time he had around a years worth of medication
â When he got to New York, he was pretty much as clueless as you can be, just recently turning 18 and also never leaving Ireland prior to that so it was a huge mess
âI feel like with that scramble came the entire medical care being a huge confusion for him as well, not knowing how he would be able to renew his medication or if he even could
â With time he ran out of his initial prescription, and that sharp withdrawl took a heavy toll on him to say the least
â He was incredibly irritable and had sporadic bursts, not good as the clean, firm and fierce SPO Aran he was portraying himself as đ
â It made him have some cutoffs with some of the other boxers who he was honestly pretty close with, like Narcis Prince and Piston Hurricane, thinking his behavior is offputting and not like him
â (This was also around the general time I think he would face up against Masked Muscle and have a literal crashout after getting spit in the eye- insane revelation to him, because if this goober can just straight up cheat why cant he?)
â I still don't think he has bothered asking or researching how to get back on his prescription, partially from feeling like he can manage without it (lie) and just feeling really embarrassed about it
â He let it slip while drinking with Soda at some point, and while Soda is one to always have confidentiality over anything said to him, especially during drinking nights, this felt different and it felt negligent to not point it out to someone who can help so we'll see where it goes from there đđ
â That is my ramble take it or leave it!!!! Heres a doodle for surviving the ramble (He looks different EVERYTIME I draw him this is so cruel)
#punchout#punch out#aran ryan#if some of this sounds blatantly wrong in any way please let me know this post is coming from a neurotypical (at least i think) person#while i can identify with some of the presented issues in the topic i dont have any diagnoses so i dont wanna cause harm in any way!!!
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Wip showcase
I most likely won't be finishing any of these WIPs, but I figured that I might as well show them off already
This might be a bit long
Obligatory Bishop doodle
They turned out a bit boring tho. I wanted to redraw them properly, both with their bishop forms and follower forms, but I don't think that's happening any time soon.
The Lamb before the execution, aka Kora
That is Angel, before they became the Leader. They were born in the Lands of the Old Faith right before the Sheep Genocide begun. Them and their parents were fated to live a life on the run. It wasn't always bad, but it wasn't easy. Their parents sacrificed a lot to raise them. As you can see one of the sketches is unfinished.
Cotltober "You are what you eat" prompt
Gave up halfway into this drawing, but I think it would be a waste not to show it off. Like to think that the Lamb actually devours the hearts of the bishops to get upgrades
Cotl Red District (gang au) oc
A red panda that Grinder used to know very well in his high school years
Angel's harem
Yes, Angel was supposed to have a harem. Funnily enough, most of them are women. Even funnier, only one of them is not jealous of the other spouses. I wouldn't be surprised if Angel thought for the longest of times that they were a lesbian. First one is Nana, the first follower of the Lamb, second is Ruri, third Sylvia (my OC) and at the last is Narinder, the latest addition to the team. The wives tend to exclude him though, due to the clear favorism from Lamb's side. Well, mostly Nana does, the other two understand Lamb's infatuation.
I wanted to make more doodles of them interracting with each other and a relationship chart, but I've been putting it off for a long time already and I doubt I'll ever get to it
And lastly there is a series of VERY rough sketches for Red District AU lore Those were supposed be Lambert's Isaac's (yes, I changed his name) family photos to depict the family dynamic in his life before he met Grinder
The first one is a wedding photo of his parents. They married young, Isaac's father is beaming, while his mother has more of a toned kind of happiness on her face. She's posing, which is going to be a pattern in these photos.
Second depicts the parents holding their first son, Isaac's older brother. They both look very happy, as they pose for the picture in embrace. A nice heartfelt photo.
Third one is where the tone shifts. It was taken some time after Isaac was born. His father, looking noticably more tired, holds newborn Isaac, while the mother happily clings to her first born son. Shouldn't it be the other way around though? Notably, there is also a bit of a space between the parents, they no longer as much as touch each other.
Fourth one is taken after the birth of Isaac's younger sister. There's notable variety of expressions here. Most of them are clearly forcing themselves to strike a nice pose for the photo. Couldn't hide father's judging look as he observes his wife holding a child that looks vastly more different than any of them, nor could it hide the mother feeling said look like sins crawling on her back. It kinda looks like the parents just finished an argument. Why did they decide to keep it?
Fifth picture is a graduation day for Isaac's brother. The mother is leaning on her unimpressed first son proudly, while holding her daughter closely. Meanwhile Isaac and his dad stand around as if they're not supposed to be there, tired, but still smiling for the picture. Isaac is notably thinner and than anyone else in the photo.
Sixth sketch is about Isaac's graduation. The older brother is not in the picture anymore, off in the college, arguably couldn't bother. Isaac is flusterred by the attention he's getting from his dad, who's clearly doing his best to make up for the lack of attention from his mother. She's just there to strike a pose and look pretty, holding her lovely daughter as if trying to shield her from Isaac.
Seventh picture is of Isaac's sister and her graduation. For one reason or the other, Isaac and his older brother are not in the view. Her mother haven't been this happy since the birthday of her first son, while the sister herself looks more like she's trying her best not to cry. At that point the young girl looks vastly more different than how she looked when she was a child, and clearly she's not happy. Meanwhile the father looks too tired to even acknowledge her hidden despair.
Eighth picture is a complete family photo with the parents and their grown up children. The eldest doesn't seem to care at all, the youngest looks clearly uncomfortable with the presence of either of her older brothers, and Isaac is trying his best to ignore his mother's killer stare with a cute pose. She's clearly not happy with his presence there. The father tries to pleadingly look at his wife, but she doesn't even acknowledge him.
Nineth picture... Welp It is chaos. While Isaac is strangling his mother on the dinner table, the sister is cowering in the corner as their father is rushing in to help in panic. The eldest brother, who's haven't been off his phone the entire time is taking the photo among many.
The dialogue in the 10th picture goes as follow, in case my writing is too hard to read. It was written before I decided to change Isaac's name: Grinder: "Lambert, this is a proof of crime. I think you should get rid of it." Lambert/Isaac: "Aww, that's my favourite one tho!"
Thanks for reading!
#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl au#cult of the lamb au#wip#art wips#wips#art wip#sketches#sketch dump#doodles#unfinished#rough sketch
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im not the best at giving art advice since i dont stick to many set steps or techniques and my style changes quite quick BUT some stuff i would suggest that definitely helps me would be:
use reference!! so much! both real people/photos, and paintings/art in the styles you aspire towards! personally i like looking at photos of real people for poses, and oil painting type styles for rendering whether theyre digital or traditional (cuz theyre pretty)
make sure to look at the negative space and overall shape of things before any details, its good to use a big brush in colour and a sharp edged eraser first
dont be afraid to restart areas, its better to just retry than to work into it a load and make it look different than the rest of the piece
focal points!! the face should usually be the most detailed since its what people look at, other areas dont need to be as detailed and usually shouldnt be so they dont distract from the important areas
there are soooo many tutorials on youtube,, get an idea of the shapes youre drawing and actual anatomy vs stylistic shortcuts
dont overuse an airbrush/blending tool! i think every artist whos seen an art tutorial probably already knows that tip, but the soft edge of an airbrush is usually only found on shadows of CURVED forms, and using it on every shape can get rid of the depth
dont be scared to use super dark shades and super light shades! while you shouldnt use black for shadows (remember cool shadows for warm light, warm shadows for cool light) its still good to get contrast in your tones--you dont have to use loads of contrast but know WHY youre making that choice: is it a stylistic choice? is the 'camera' looking through something that reduces tone? is the light weak?
im not a professional or anything and this isnt aimed directly at your art, just some common mistakes/tips ive seen or heard other artists talk about!!
i still wanna improve my art too so if anyone has ideas to add to this feel free!!! art youtubers tend to have a lot better and more detailed advice than this so id recommend going and having a search around online
HELLLOOOOO CHAT !! this is my formal apology for not posting art for like.. 3 ish months... school is actual ass and my art and motivation has suffered because of it,,,, however my artstyle continues to change every other week which is always fun
here is a funky shuichi painting i literally just finished!! (THAT WAS MEANT TO BE A RENDERING STUDY. I SPENT 7 HRS ON IT INSTEAD.) i hope you lot enjoy :3
#art#art tips#my art#again im not a professional so correct me if i did a stupid#i just sit in my room and draw fictional people#true realism is very difficult so i usually draw in either a very stylised#or in some weird semirealistic style#can you guess which the shuichi painting is in#this tip list was longer than i meant it to be
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Halloween Party
Yes, this is a Josh x reader bit where Josh is dressed as a pharaoh (please imagine Rami Malek in NATM), because that's the outfit I went with. This also takes place in an au where the lodge drama never happened, so don't worry about that. Reminding everyone that my blog is 18+ and so is this post.
This was made possible by a request I got, so thank you so much and please don't stop sending in requests.
Word count: 3,3 k (unedited!)
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âSit still!â Ashley scolds as she draws my eyeliner.Â
âSorry!â I apologise, trying my best to hold my breath. Normally, I can do my own, but for tonightâs halloween party I needed a few extra details. I was dressed as no other person than Cleopatra herself. I thought about getting a wig, but Jess found some beautiful golden pearls to put in my hair instead. I loved them, feeling like royalty. I was adorned with gold, my head, hair, neck, arms and hands. A white loose dress was draped around me, leaving the midst open, so it looked like a two-piece. I loved it, even though I personally didnât look like her, you could not mistake me for anyone else.Â
âAaaand there!â Ashley exclaims, pulling away and giving me time to breathe. She was dressed as Elizabeth Bennet. It may be hard to see if one hasn't read the book or seen any of the films, but she had put her hair up and covered it in white pearls. She was wearing a beautiful dress, though it only went a little below her thighs and not completely down. She was beautiful. I knew sheâd planned on this for a long time, so I made some calls to Josh, forcing him to make Chris watch the movie. He didnât even need to put the idea in his hand. Chris saw himself in the character, loving him and the simplicity of the costume. Yes, this was a set-up, and we made it happen. Maybe the love birds would finally take the hint and get down to business. We can only hope.Â
I get up, looking at myself in the mirror. I was afraid that I would not look like myself, but that didnât happen. I still look like me, as well as the queen.Â
We make our way over to the Washington house, and it feels bigger than ever, even when it is filled to the brim with people. Ashley grabs my hand, leading me inside. We press past people, occasionally giving them a small âsorryâ or âexcuse meâ. Ashley knows where to go, and sheâs quick to get me into the kitchen. We both make eye contact with Sam, whoâs sitting on the counter, talking to a dashing-looking Chris. Ashley stops in her tracks, but I force her with me despite her protests. Luckily, she stops trashing as we get closer, probably to avoid a scene.Â
âHey guys!â I greet, finally getting up beside them.Â
âHey-â Chris starts, and his eyes flow to Ash, looking her up and down. They stand there for a while, gawking at each other, both of their faces blushed and bothered. I sit beside Sam, enjoying the show as they start asking questions. I turn to her, trying to figure out her costume.Â
Sheâs wearing a completely black outfit, a gadget belt and beside her is a mask. She must be a spy of some sort.Â
âDonât you look prettyâ she compliments, and I smile.Â
âYouâre quite spyci yourselfâ I give back, hoping she got the joke. She did, and starts laughing, hitting my arm and leaning down to the drinks.Â
âGood one, want anything to drink?âÂ
âPleaseâ I urge, looking around for anything. She mixes some different things, eventually handing me a red cup. I take a sip, grimaging of the strong content.Â
âWhat is this?â
âEverythingâ
âYou gave me everything?â
âYou canât throw it out, drink it quickly so you canât taste itâ she challenges, and I take it. I put the cup back up to my lips, taking a deep breath to get ready, before chugging it all down. The taste is awful, but the aftertaste is worse, and she quickly hands me a glass of water to get it all down.Â
âIâm never taking a drink from you againâ I comment.Â
âOh please, of course youâre gonnaâ
I look at her and sheâs trying to hold in her laughter. Ashley and Chris are finally done with their talking, and walk over to us.Â
âI was about to say-â Chris starts, and I hold my breath. Please donât figure out the plan.Â
âAre you coupling with Josh tonight?â
I look at him, confused. I hadnât seen Josh tonight. Yet.Â
âNo? What, is he also Cleopatra or something?â
âWell noâ
âIs he Caesar?â I ask, still confused.Â
âUm, noâ
âThen I think weâre not matchingâÂ
âIf you say soâ he ends, putting his cup up to his face. I see a little smile on the edge of his lips, and when I look at Ashley, she puts her hand in front of her mouth, as if hiding something. Sam looks around, and hits my arm.Â
âWell, I at least see one Greek over thereâ she points, and I follow her gaze. I see a guy, wearing something white with a belt and a gold olive-branch crown. He looked like one of those ancient Greek gods. And he looked really good, arms complimenting his costume perfectly. He was standing with Mike and Emily, who was wearing a couples costume. Batman and Batwoman. Fits them both quite well.Â
âHey!â Joshâs voice sounds, and I hear small snickers coming from Chris and Ashley. Sam puts her hand over her mouth, turning away so I canât see her face. I look over, seeing Josh wearing a gorgeous pharaoh costume. He has a shoulder cape, large golden headwear and jewels. His stomach is exposed, and I canât stop myself from looking at it, seeing the curves of what seems like vague, hidden muscles.Â
He stops in his tracks, looking me up and down and pointing.Â
âCopycatâ he accuses in a funny tone, and I roll my eyes.Â
âAre you Cleopatra?â I ask teasingly.Â
âNo, but⌠waitâ he starts, his eyes glued to the gold pearls fastened in my loose hair. He turn over to Chris, pointing directly at him.Â
âYou planned this!âÂ
My eyes widen, and I look over at the culprit.Â
âHey, you canât accuse us when you did the same!â Chris shouts back. Sam almost falls over from laughing.Â
âYou guys planned this?â I ask, wondering how the hell they managed that.Â
âBut this was my ideaâ both Josh and I say in unison, and we both look at each other. Everytime I look at him, my eyes wander to his neck, his exposed skin, and I canât stop staring. Ashley is quick to answer our statement.Â
âRemember that documentary I got you to watch some time ago? Well, Chris also showed Josh a movie⌠One thing led to anotherâŚâ she trails off, and I manage to break out of my trance.Â
âAnd your reasoning?â I continue. Samâs still laughing, hanging onto me for dear life and drying away a tear.Â
âMaybe we wanted you two to connect a littleâ Chris says, still proud of their accomplishment. I look over at Josh, who rolls his eyes at him. I get a slight pain in my chest. Hurt? Maybe. Iâve liked Josh for quite some time, and weâre friends, flirting friends, but he never takes the step it needs. I try to put all the signs out, and I know almost everybody knows at this point, but he still doesnât do anything. I canât imagine him wanting anything, as heâs never made moves other than his continuous normal flirting. Ashley has told me that he flirts differently with me, as if thereâs something behind it, but Iâve never noticed.Â
âWellâ I start, getting off the counter. âI guess you failedâÂ
They all stop in their tracks, Josh looking at me surprisingly.Â
âI see a Greek god over there who would probably be delighted by my presence, so Iâll bid you farewellâ I point at the guy, whoâs still making small talk with the others. I start walking, but Josh is quick to pull my arm, leading me a little away from the others.Â
âHey, you know, itâs just fun. Especially when you look like thatâ he says, whispering close to my face in quite a seductive tone. The previous alcohol is starting to make its way to my head, and I feel my cheeks redden from the closeness. Still, I feel a bit mad. Why would they do this when heâs never made anything clear for me. For him, this is just fun, a fun coincidence and a chance to tease me, but for me, itâs humiliating. As if Iâm about to show how desperate I am for him.Â
âNo itâs not, youâve made it clear where you stand when it comes to me, and Iâve made my bed with itâ I snap back, surprised by my own tone. His emotions switch, a mix of confusion and then, realisation. He gets it, that itâs not fun to joke about my feelings when I feel this way about him.Â
âOkay, listen, this is not about thatâ he starts, but I put up my finger, stopping him.Â
âJosh, Iâm getting over you, and we can go back to normal after that, but donât make this any more difficult than it has to beâ
âNo, no, no, I need you to listen to meâ he says, but I get out of his grip, walking over to the guy.Â
I touch his shoulder, making him turn around. The others notice, and Mike makes a whistling sound.Â
âWell, hello thereâ I start, looking up at him through my eyelashes. Heâs quite tall, and his bushy brown hair matches the gold on his head completely. He looks me up and down, staring a bit before answering.Â
âWell, if it isnât the queen herselfâ he murmurs in a slightly suggestive tone.Â
It doesnât take long for us to make conversation. Heâs in some of Mikeâs classes, and usually hang out and study together. I expected him to be kind of playboy-ish, because of his friend group, but seemed genuine and kind. I was actually kind of smitten, and it felt good to be enhanced with someone who seemed to have a genuine interest in me as well.Â
The whole night we talked, danced and drank, sharing stories and talking about ourselves. As for now, weâre sitting on the sofa, his arm laid out on the cushion behind me. I turn a little, seeing Sam smiling at me, and Chris and Ashley in deep conversation. Beside them is known pharaoh leaning against the wall, cup to his face, staring intently. My cheeks automatically flush a little, and I turn back to the god beside me.Â
âDo you want to get out of here?â he asks, and Iâm a little shocked by his suddenness. I smile.Â
âWe can go to a place which is a little more secludedâ I try, giving him a teasing tone. His face lights up, and I feel something flutter in my chest. Butterflies. I take his hand, leading him through the crowd of people and up some stairs. The hallway here is empty, and he doesnât waste time, pushing me against the wall and kissing me. I return it, but the butterflies don't grow. I feel content at best, a little excited, but not much. The sound of footsteps make both of us turn, his hands moving away from my body. Beside us stands Josh, a concerned look on his face.Â
âSomething has happened with Ashley, Iâll tell you everything, but you need to come with meâ he says in a serious tone. My heart immediately falls, and I get scared. The guy comes forwards, whispering in my ear.Â
âIâll let you two talk, just ask Mike for my numberâ and he walks down again, giving a slight nod to Josh when passing. It doesnât seem like Ashley to do something stupid, but I still take both of Joshâs hands in mine, urging him to tell me more.Â
âCome onâ he says, going further into the hallway, locking up the door which seems to be his room.Â
âBut, what about Ashley, what happened? Josh, tell meâ I urge, the sinking feeling growing larger. He takes my hand, dragging me into the room, closing the door behind us.Â
âYou happenedâ he whispers, before slamming me against the door with brute force. Harder and quicker than the other guy. He goes on top of me, pins me with my hands over my head. Capturing my lips on his, he eats me up. Itâs passionate, hard. My pulse shoots through the roof, and I can feel his rapid heartbeat on my chest.Â
I push him off me, harshly.Â
âJosh, what the hell?â I ask, body still hot and aching for his touch.Â
âAshley is okayâ he answers, though not really an answer.Â
âI think I got itâ I snap back, like it wasnât fucking obvious from what just happened. I continue, not bothering to wait for his explanation.Â
âYou flirt with me, all the time, I give you all the hints, everything. Even our friends contribute, which, for me, is fucking humiliating because you donât do shit!â I scold. The building tension in my body finally giving out. My breath is out of order, but I canât regulate it at this time, emotions coming over me.Â
âThen, when I finally decide to move on, to take a step away, you barge in, giving me some fake excuse and take me into your room andâŚâ I donât know how to continue. Iâve wanted this for so long, wanted him, but not like this. I want something real, not just some jealousy-fuck which will make him feel better about himself, encouraging his complexity.Â
âI donât want thisâ I blurt out, but heâs still silent, standing away from me.Â
âIâve always wanted something real, a connection and a relationship. Iâm not interested in a one-time-fuck with you because of your insecurity issuesâ I continue, feeling some type of relief wash over me. He looks in my eyes with an expression I can't decipher. Longing? Regret? Anxiety? I take hold of the door handle, making my way out when I feel his hand on my wrist.Â
âWill you finally let me talk before you barge out?â he asks, a vulnerable tone to his normally flirty and funny voice. My heart breaks a little for how out of character he makes himself. I turn back to him, sitting down on his bed. He sits down beside me, not bothering to look me in the eyes.Â
âIâm sorryâ he starts, taking my hand in his yet again, rubbing small circles over my knuckles.Â
âIâve been scared, you know, from all of this. Walking around the bush, never actually doing anything. I thought it would just happen naturally at some pointâ
âIt rarely does-â I try, but he stops me.Â
âAnd seeing you finally pull out it, the situation I mean, just made me realise that we canât keep going like this, and if I truly want something to happen, I have to take the stepâÂ
I look down, suddenly aware that our knees are touching.Â
âI donât want to be just another fuck for you Joshâ
âYou could never be thatâÂ
I look up, seeing his eyes are already on me. He made the move before, maybe itâs my time now. I lean towards him, hand cupping his cheek and kiss him. Itâs light, careful, and not at all rough. He deepens it, taking my hand from his face and around his neck. He takes hold of my thighs, getting me on top of him. Both of my hands start wandering through his hair, and one his arms goes to the back of my head, pulling me in tighter. I take off his crown, surprised by the weight of it and carefully put it on the nightstand. His hands wander to my exposed waist, fingers seeping under the fabric.Â
Though our breathing is heavy, itâs still safe, comforting. I manage to completely relax in his arms, thriving from his touch. He moves his lips, kissing down my jaw and on my neck. I let out involuntary sweet sighs, and can feel him smirk against my skin. He starts biting and sucking, making me moan. Thereâll definitely be dark marks on me tomorrow. I feel his bulge growing underneath me, and if as on command, I start grinding on him. He loses his rhythm, interrupting his assault on my neck with whines and groans. I take the opportunity to kiss down his neck, using my fingers to untie the cape, letting it fall off his shoulders. His upper body is stunning, and I stroke my fingers over every part of him, making him whimper. I try to memorise everything, his neck with my lips and his chest and shoulders with my arms.Â
âFuck, at this pace-â he starts, but is interrupted by a moan as I cup his bulge.Â
He immediately grabs hand, pulling himself off my face and staring into my eyes. Thereâs something dark and sinister in them, and I feel myself get wetter from just the look. He turns us around, my back hitting the mattress harshly, losing my breath. He goes over me, kissing my neck and collar while untying my dress, leaving it on the floor. The only things left are my underwear, a matching set of white cotton lace to match the costume. His eyes fill with awe as he drags his hands over, fingers glazing the edge of the cotton.Â
âFucking hellâ he whispers, hands going to my back and unclasping my bra. He immediately goes for the kill, leaning over me, pressing, grinding, holding and squeezing. A gasp escapes my lips to begin with, but it is soon followed by sounds I canât control as his knee rubs my clit.Â
âJosh I-â I begin, my warmth building up, getting all flustered and hot.Â
âGod, youâre beautifulâ he whispers, leaving sweet kisses on my neck. He stands up, and the sudden lack of his warmth gets to me. I sit up on the bed, watching as he painfully slowly takes off his garments. It falls to his feet, leaving a sight of his bare naked body. I bite my bottom lip, seeing how huge he is.Â
âYouâre not wearing underwearâ I say, a bit shocked and surprised.Â
âGotta stay true to the character, no?â he teases, leaning over me once again. His lips find mine as his cock rubs gently over my folds, coating itself in my spilled juices.Â
âDo you want this?â he whispers against my ear, his hot breath going down my neck.Â
âYes JoshâÂ
âTell me how much you want itâ âPlease, I need youâÂ
I feel him push himself into me, filling me up and exhaling.Â
âI love it when you beg for meâÂ
His praise goes straight to the core, and I moan out as he starts moving inside me. He leans on his arms, one going down to rub my clit, making me throw my head back in pleasure. He uses the opportunity to attack my neck, leaving bites and marks down to my chest.Â
His pace quickens, and the sounds he makes turns me more and more on. I wouldnât be surprised it was all sloppy and dripping right now. The knot in my stomach tightens, and I give a cry as pleasure washes over me. He keeps pumping, riding me through the orgasm before finally coming himself. He buries himself deep inside with a last thrust, and I feel him twitch and coat me. He falls down beside me, body sweaty and exhausted. I lean over, kissing him on his lips, and he returns it, draping his arm around me. I pull the covers over us, the coldness of the room finally reaching my sweaty skin.Â
âYouâre breathtakingâ I whisper, and he laughs, pulling me closer in his embrace.Â
âAnd youâre gorgeousâ he says, drawing small patterns on my stomach with his fingers. I can still hear the loudness of the music and peopleâs voices from downstairs.Â
âShould we go back down?â
âNo, stay hereâ he pleads, holding me harder, scared that Iâm gonna go.Â
âOkayâ I whisper back, leaning fully into him, and slowly falling asleep.
#until dawn#joshua washington#josh washington#until dawn josh#josh until dawn#josh washington x reader#josh x reader#josh washington x reader smut#joshua washington x reader smut#joshua washington x reader#ahkmenrah#josh washington smut#chris hartley#ashley brown#samantha giddings#until dawn remake#until dawn x reader#until dawn remaster#until dawn smut#joshua washington smut
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(Open the image for better quality || Time-lapse and ramblings under the cut)
@goodomensafterdark SEE I'M TAGGING U NOW đ
More than a week ago I woke up with the vision and had to try to draw it XD (literally. Usually I'm up at 6:30 am but that day I woke up at 5:50 with this in my head lol). I couldn't finish it in time for the GOAD rare pair week but I hope it still counts <3.
So in my head, Muriel is taking Eric to a flight. This is based in a headcanon that Eric lost his wings, and that headcanon is based in absolutely â¨ď¸nothing â¨ď¸ lol I also took inspiration from a meta post that has been circulating lately, about Muriel being nightingale coded (This one). So I tried to make their wings look like the bird!
Pretty birb. Hope you sing very loudly in s3.
This one was quite challenging to me. First of all bc I tried to come up with a pose by myself, without tracing over something (I used bridal carry poses as ref tho). Second bc I decided I wanted to make it look like they were pretty high, so obv I needed so fish eye perspective for the back ground...
(Perspective tou can barely notice with the character on top lol)
... but most importantly bc I wasn't following any specific art style. Up until now, 90% of the stuff I made I was trying to mimic an animation. That made EVERYTHING easier. I didnât need to make many choices; I already knew how things were supposed to look like, I had a direction. Trying to draw something in """my""" art style was SO HARD. I had so many choices to make. So much freedom made me feel directionless lol
Sooo about this pair. I LOVE MURIEL AND ERIC. I see them more as siblings, but it's always a joy to read them in different settings. I just feel like they complete each other sooooooo well.
Muriel spent idk how long alone, but Eric is many; they'd never be alone again. Eric has been treated badly and violently by everyone, but Muriel would be nothing but soft with him. Muriel is curious, and has yet to know many things about the world; Eric lived so many different experiences and seems to know quite a bit about things. Eric loves to ask questions and tell jokes, and Muriel would love to hear him.
And also.... they'd be so freaking cute together. Aaaaaaaaa
I'm my head this is happening after The End Of The World Part 2: Electric Boogaloo. They met in the chaos and just clicked, and now are discovering what to do with their new lives together. (Muriel is showing him the joy of flying again!!) That's why you see Muriel with different clothing, even if it still follows Heaven's colour scheme, and the tartan they used to wear. They're experimenting, and the same goes for Eric (he wanted to look like a christmas tree, what can I say). Crowley and Aziraphale sometimes visit the shop, where now Muriel lives (and that's why you see a black and yellow Bentley!! Aziraphale calls her little bee when Crowley isn't listening.)
I had lots of fun drawing this. I have to thank @elenthyaolyenths again for teaching me how to draw her wings and giving me support, and the same for @gribouli that is teaching me more about colour and light/shadow. Yall are amazing đđđ
Last silly detail that I love:
They're wearing a bit of each other!!
#fanart#fanart i guess#good omens#good omens fanart#Muriel and Eric#eric the disposable demon#Muriel
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Some speculations about the power of stories, cycles and karma and... Boyd.
***FROM spoilers (although it's mainly just my predictions lol)***
One of the things that I like about FROM is how they use different forms of art to help people remember things about their past.
Miranda used paintings so that she could remember and so does her son, Victor, who draws so that the pictures would remember for him. And it's precisely his sister's drawings that help him remember what he had removed.
Then, there's music, obviously, that make Tabitha and Jade remember not exactly their lived past but their karmic past.
There's also dance in the show but it hasn't worked its magic yet, I'm very curious to see how the ballerina is connected to Boyd and... Tillie? It's still minor compared to the previous two but I think we'll see our ballerina again pretty soon.
There's, finally, the power of stories. Ethan is the key-figure here because he's our go-to guy for all the crazy meta-ness of the show. But also Kenny and Kristi were reading a story together (cute and very Lancelot and Guinevere of them), they got stuck at chapter 6 or something before shit hit the fan so... I hope they won't forget about that.
More importantly, I'm very curious about one specific aspect: season 3 ended with Ethan saying that a story that has been told can't be changed so everyone is talking about how FROM is following LOST rule of "Whatever happened, happened", aka: you cannot change the past. Okay. But.
But I wonder if this is going to be the case with FROM since we now know for sure that the main theme is breaking the cycle of abuse. Since the show has introduced the concept of reincarnation I'm wondering if this means that yes, okay, the past cannot be changed, the story has been already told and there's nothing that we can do about it BUT isn't breaking it the whole point of karma?
I mean, a lot of major characters are starting to remember their trauma so this is good news but this also means that the show is faced with the three narrative choices, I think:
keep to its genre and let everything end in horror and blood. I think this type of ending can only be satifsying in movies but in shows where people invest a lot of time across multiple seasons spaced out over long years? Mmmm, it's very tricky to pull off. I mean, it can be done but I think it's very hard to convince people who have watched a show for over 5+ years that yeah, everybody dies horrendously, hurrah!;
the LOST way: some people manage to escape the town and go back to their lives and they all (more or less...) met there because they needed each other to move on from their past. I think this won't happen because of Harold Perrinau. He specifically accepted the role because he was promised it wasn't gonna end like LOST, so... Either FROM's ending will be a huge embarassment for everybody involved or it won't end the same way as LOST (fingers crossed);
since we've been shown that art has healing powers, stories too will be healing for the characters, aka they'll manage to change the narrative/the past. Now I think this is where the money's at and why I'm so intrigued by the introduction of time travels.
My istinct tells me that it's going to be a mix of 1 and 3: I think the show will end with the breaking of the cycle but I don't think that one particular character will make it to the end. The character is Boyd and I think that in season 4 he'll be key to understanding if the show will have a happy ending or not. So far I think it's not gonna be happy-happy for everyone.
I don't think Boyd will make it to the end because the elements so far tell me so:
1. The ballerina dance didn't help him remember anything, as a matter of fact he destroyed the music box to save people. This is a huge red flag: will he destroy his chance to break his cycle for the sake of other people?;
2. He's got two sons in the show: his actual son Ellis and his putative son Kenny. Kenny's father, Bing-Qian suffered from dementia and has been associated with feelings of confusion and with not being understood. He also talks about another form of universal language, that is chess. He unfortunately dies (Boyd seems to suffer from Parkinson's and he's convinced it's that because his father had it but he was never actually diagnosed with it. Or it's not been shown yet). Abby, Boyd's wife, also dies by none other than Boyd's hand. She was described as "confused" and people believed that she had started to show signs of some sort of paranoia, I think (we know now that, perhaps, she was remembering her past life). She wasn't understood/believed, too. Kenny's mother, Tien-Chen, dies as well and her death is also connected to Boyd. So, I mean, as far as parental figures with whom he's paralleled/paired go, things don't look good for our sheriff;
3. The point of the show seems to be that parents must avoid the sacrifice of their children. Boyd has two sons and he has martyr-like tendencies. Sooooo..... again, things don't look good for him;
4. Boyd-as-husband is connected to Henry and Jim. They're all husbands who didn't believe their wives and didn't support them. Henry and Jim are also heavily associated with the Man in Yellow who seems to be the primary abuser of the show (or he's very strongly related to the cycle of abuse that's been happening for who knows how long). Henry and Jim (and Boyd too, by extension) are portrayed as ambiguous figures, they're clever man who're also very morally skewed. There's something dark about Henry, I'm not sure about his intentions, his talk with Donna about thinking that, for a moment, he hoped that Victor were dead... I mean, it was a human moment but it was also ominous. (Let's also not forget about Boyd being a former-military and how the Civil War is a sleeping theme in the show. Henry was doing hard drugs with Miranda in the 70s so this tells me he wasn't sent to Vietnam? There's a latent element of actual war here. I don't know how it'll pertain to Henry, Jim (Jim's father was an alcoholic, is PSTD from war related to this?) and Boyd in the town but I KNOW there's something going on. I unfortunately don't remember much about my American History class at uni so I can only pick up the vibe without really explaining it, it's so frustrating).
While I'm more confident about points 1, 2 and 3, I'm not so sure about point 4. I think this will be the gordian knot of the story.
For whatever reasons, time travels are associated with grand-fathers/fathers and their assassination or impossibility thereof. On one hand, with the introduction of Henry (who's got the same function as Jim), Jim seems to be redundant and therefore his death is final. On the other, if his death is final it means that Julie, as a story-walker and time traveler, cannot change the past. This doesn't bode well for my hoped-for happy ending.
The shows seems to tell us: it's not about whether or not you can kill your father when you time-travel because it's about saving your father! (Julie saved Boyd-as-father in the well by handing him the rope).
So we have a story about parents saving their children and children saving their parents! Isn't this beautiful? I literally can't wait to see if I'm right or not about this, lol.
It all boils down to Boyd: so far the story is telling me that parents will most likely save their children but they probably won't be able to save themselves. However, Julie did save one father-figure so far, will she be able to save her own father? Can children save their parents?
These are very interesting questions but I truly hope they will stick to the "art has the power of changing people" theme (parents, children, everyone!) and give us a healing story rather than a hopeless one. Can we make it through the horrors or not? More importantly, can we make it together and stop this sacrifice madness??? I think we need stories that heal and give us hope!!!
p.s. for posterity: Season 4 will have "Tie a Yellow Ribbon Round the Ole Oak Tree" playing in one of the diner's jukebox. Mark.My.Words.
#i'm leaving this for posterity lol see you in two years time past me#from tv series#from spoilers#from epix#from tv show#from tv#from mgm#from#from season 3#boyd stevens#fromville#from series#from 2022#q
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i'm gonna give him all the boops!!
#häärijä#käärijä#digital art#i know this is pretty different from my other drawings#i'm currently messing around with different art styles lol#anyway i'm going to sleep now#it's 5am lmao#boop
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Me showing up in your inbox every other day to ask about the vampire and werewolf au lol
Are there people who know about vampires and werewolves and shifters? Like is it a known and normal thing or are they trying to keep it secret? If it is/was known would it be dangerous for them? Like people hunting them?
Also you said they know Killerâs been hurt before, what happened to him? :o
Also also do you have any ideas about what Killer and Cross are studying at college?
ANDâ how are you?? I hope youâre having a nice day \(^-^)/
Thank u!!! Very nice getting these hehe
1) This is like THE world building element I wasn't really sure about. I've thought about it and I think like, people know about vampires and werewolves and there are still some modern day hunters but they're a minority? (In a drawing I made you can see Killer has a AHAB (all hunters are bastards) sticker lol). I really don't know yet. I think society accepting them is like out of the question lol, you lose a lot of adversity and interest doing that I think. It's also just sort of weird to me? Idk that's just not a story I'd like to read.
Maybe it's more of a 'we saw a werewolf attack in this little village outback' and people are worried and stuff but it's always out in the middle of nowhere and it's not happening to them so they don't really give it that much thought. It's the news you see horrors all the time right? Mostly they just... Don't think anyone in their college classes would even be a vampire/werewolf. Maybe there aren't that many creatures out in the city at all. Like a hiding in plain sight thing. i think that's something I like more already. It's probably not going to be a huge part of the story at all. Maybe a few mentions that can leave the characters feeling like outsiders or a little anxious but not a major plot point y'know?
2) I Imagine someone who's like twenty something and already a vampire hasn't had the best circumstances lol. He definitely was not turned with his consent, I haven't really thought of specifics yet but when Nightmare found him he was not laughing and being cute. He was closed off and depressed. Didn't talk much at all. (He's better now y'all
3) wahhh I haven't thought about that! That's a good question. I don't... Actually know how American colleges work but I think Killer would probably be in like history or english? Cross maybe in computer science? Maybe audio-visual stuff. Is that cinematography? Idk what it's called. Maybe they can be like. History of arts+cinematography so they have classes together maybe. Again this is without knowledge of how any of it works. I'll get back to you on that.
I'm good! Pretty tired. College maybe isn't.......... As cool.... As I first thought....... But it's chill! some of my classes are still super interesting and I love learning. And anyway I have plans and ideas and stuff on the side that make me happy! And my Kitty is drooling on me so really what more can I ask for?
And how are youuuu?
#and I'm privileged to be going to college and I know it's only rich assholes that complain on the third week after starting college but#I guess I just thought it'd be way different from highschool#and it's not#and I'm just thinking like#I'm going for three years of this and all I want to do is draw at every hour of my life#I'm oversharing#I'm gonna try and keep working#and start commissions this year#see where it takes me#try and figure out how to stop living for others and how to live my life for me#(easier said than done)#answered asks#Charlie Somegrumpynerd#college au#Vampire Killer Sans#Werewolf Cross sans#I don't wanna draw stuff from too far into the story yet but it's hardddd#I think I'm gonna start writing pretty soon#I've already started planning out the skeleton of things basically lol#college au info
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What do your elder scrolls ocs wear when not in armor or battle robes? Casual outfits!
Jo usually just wore the Fine Clothes uncle Sheo gave him in that quest, with the cool Mage's Circlet from Savos Aren. Nay got her dress (Belted Tunic) from uncle Alvor's "Help yourself to whatever you need" gift basket. Dubak got a Blacksmith's Apron. I can't recall where he got it... cough, yeah.
Acelta wore variety of Mage's Robes that does fashion damage to Haskill. (after finding out the secret side effect he stopped wearing them)
Sunny is silly :3
#ask and i shall answer#thank you for sending me ask this is really fun <3#tes#tes oc#oc: jokir#oc: naythaa#oc: dubak#oc: acelta#oc: sundros#haskill#i draw a meme#Marge Krumping#silly Colovian Fur Helm my beloved#i know all the armor i wore were from the bandits but i did get a lot of clothes from legit places#i love morrowind they got so many pretty robes and clothes#was bummed by the robes in oblivion bc it's just one model with different color#same goes to skyrim's bathrobes but at least they have college robes that look cooler#technically acelta's battle gear is mage's robes... hmm....#acelta wouldn't do it but me as a player i stole the cool robe from Mankar Camoran's dead body and i love it (the enchantment ofc#my other ocs just wear their battle gear to sleep (or just never sleep)
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I like the fact Tremaine's designated color is pink while Germaine's is maroon because if I draw them together it looks so bright and happy but they're in a dying world and both commit crimes many times a week just to survive. But hey, whatever.
If love is how they die, it beats starvation or injury! So letting them be codependent is like a treat almost.
#my characters#germaine and tremaine at least have each other (and kind of adopt motka as familial)#as mentioned prev with germaine who is the material wealth based layer guy#tremaine is the layer of lust and motka (who i keep mentioning) is the layer for gluttons#but while germaine is pretty much the embodiment OF being overly greedy and materialistic is incredibly rational#and while he hates it he knows when to cut a loss (item wise)#tremaine while the layer of lust and who does like the idea of having a fling has minimal desire for an actual romance#and based on the world they live in he knows its not really reasonable to expect a lot of intimacy and is mostly fine with it#but to cope with that lack of intimacy he is very touchy feely with the team including draping over his brothers back#or hugging motka whenever he wants despite germaine and motka being very much not fond of contact#to them its like ok fine tremaine is the exception but no one else can touch me#motka as the layer for gluttons is a bit different in that he is more uh.... the layer rather than the glutton#so he likes to cook and he likes to make others eat and he doesnt really eat much himself#hed rather make that someone elses joy especially since resources are hard to come by#so he acts like the group mom and germaine (as one of the oldest) is group dad and they're most of the reason why the group stays alive#also oddly enough to point out but germaine and tremaine are the only sibling layers while other layers DO have siblings#like the other oldest one has a younger sister and the team doctor guy has two younger siblings (twins)#and then the youngest member (limbo) has an older brother#so yeah i dont really know why the wellington brothers get to both be layers but theyre making it everyones problem#i really liked the cast for this plot but i dont really have much in terms of how i wanted the plot to go ?#so i dont draw them a whooooole lot but been thinking about these codependent brothers lately#and final note but motka used to have a younger sister but she died from illness which is why he is so lenient with tremaine#hes like i wish i still had a younger sibling so now you will be like my family if youd let me#and tremaine blissfully unaware for the longest time that THATS why motka is so lenient with the touching from him#its because hes more pleased by the Still Having a Sibling Aspect rather than pleased with tremaine
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Sweet dreams, for a time (Patreon)
#Doodles#Parapluesch#Mama Oz#So I mentioned that Mama Oz's grief doesn't come from Literally losing a child in how we understand the phrase#However - the dream sequences usually conflate Feeling and Experience#Thus - this#The fact that her actual function is as a magazine rack is so - well it's a lot haha it's a real statement piece#A stuffed animal made with the hide of a different animal made specifically to hold magazines in her belly pouch rather than a Joey#That's........a concept lol#I just can't see her as a piece of furniture! I know that's her function but no! She's a stuffed animal!#It's so easy to imagine her backstory - a child growing up in that home and having her be mama to all the other plushies#Not used as a magazine rack at all - constantly pulled out of her Utility to a more emotional and playful side#Until the child grows up and she's forced back into what she was made for - her ''purpose'' yes but to have to give up what she became#It's like this piece of furniture was doomed to sadness from conception! Personifying an object to that degree - I mean you gave it a face!!#Hard to believe I'm so emotionally invested in this item I'd never seen before and now#I guess that's good memorable design for you haha#She's also still quite fun to draw :D She's very cute!#I wasn't sure about giving her a mouth since I'm pretty sure the actual version doesn't have one - and some of the plushies don't#But I like the idea of her having a little Moomin-like mouth up under her snoot hehe#She kinda reminds me of Sniff even huh#She was fun to draw lying down haha I can very easily see her in my mind's eye standing herself back up in the Parapluesch animation style#I'm still thinking over how her story would conclude - I want her to be able to stand on her own as an individual#But I want her to retain her desire to nurture! She's still a plush even if she started a bit unconventional#Healthy balance to be found somewhere hmm
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Doodle of my boy
#keese draws#eternal gales#oc art#oc#fydd <3333333333#he is my bestie I need to get over my fear of drawing him so bad#grips bathroom sink I Will get better at drawing for fun and letting my art be messy and being proud of it anyways#but yeah look at him he is so cute and is so silly and heâs never gone through any traumatic events ever I would never#<- lying lier who lies and loves tormenting itâs ocs#but yeah heâs half alien half human but was raised entirely by his human mom#his alien mom is alas stuck in the cult the two met at rip#fydd doesnât know abt any of that tho he just knows that he has another mom that his mom doesnât like talking abt#he loves playing games of all kind but especially loves video games and will play them for hours#not that he has much else to do since heâs spent pretty much his entire life living by a garbage dump in the middle of nowhere#and heâs not allowed to go fuck around in the dump much since his mom doesnât want him to be seen so heâs stuck at home most of the time#thankfully now he has an adopted sister to play with but he still has viddy game autism#his mom has done her best to introduce him to the various cultures she and his other mom came from but she struggles with it#she was quite disconnected from her own culture growing up and she knows limited amount about her girlfriends home planet#fydd doesnât mind much rn cause heâs 12 but a certain other older fydd might care a smidge more#fydd does like 60% know both japanese and spanish tho so thatâs pretty cool#his mom tried to do regular lessons when he was younger but wasnât able to keep them up consistently and eventually gave up#mostly because she wasnât anywhere near fluent in either herself and she had a hard time keeping up with how fast fydd would pick up on it#they still have some books from back then laying around that fydd will pick up and read aloud when heâs bored sometimes#he gets bored of speaking english all the time as his brain is built to pick apart different sounds and assign them linguistic meaning#so reading and speaking different languages is good enrichment for him#his mom doesnât know this unfortunately otherwise she totally would have gotten him more stuff in different languages to chew on#he does get to learn the language the stalien cast speaks tho he has a lot of fun with that#he alas canât properly experience most stalien video games though rip#I should rly get to redesigning his human mom again at some point she needs it sooo bad#I mean her whole squad needs it but sheâs my favorite so like
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genuinely also curious from other ppl who have drawn from live models. whenever i talk about this experience ppl ask me if the models were all attractive and young and in-shape. in my figure drawing class only two of the regular models could somewhat fit that description. most of them were middle-aged or older people of ordinary (but diverse) proportions. like my experience may not be representative but i find it curious that ppl hear about modelling for a drawing class and wonder if that's like a hot 20-something job. it doesn't seem to be lol
#this is ok to reblog btw i wanna start a discussion#text post#reblog bait#life drawing#figure drawing#like i would be willing to bet there's some body discrimination in some places#where they might have a wider selection of ppl willing to work?#i DONT know anything about working as a model or how ppl get into it or do it steadily on the side#it does seem like an interesting gig for sure. not one i'd wanna get into myself but i'd love to hear abt it from someone who does it#or just observations from other ppl who have taken drawing classes w live models#in my experience (admittedly limited) of looking at reference websites of nude figures... some of them are more 'young and hot'#which kinda DOES NOT surprise me. bc they want ppl to BUY permission to use those photos as drawing references#and perhaps ppl are willing to lay down more money for pretty people? idk. or again it could just be a hiring preference by photographers#could be a multitude of factors.#but it's kind of unnecessary bc in order to learn the fundamentals of drawing realistic bodies u gotta draw a lot of them#u have to see different positions and different features and different shapes and overall different ppl#i miss drawing from live models. most of all for the gestural sessions. those were REALLY fun#very satisfying as warm-up exercises. quick and fast-paced and spontaneous. you cant get that at home
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Not feeling great abt some of my creative endeavors rn
#ramblings#neg#specifically abt project: new moon#i can feel myself actively losing interest in continuing to write for it#like the main story is already out there and that's fine#but even tho i have ideas for oneshots and stuff to introduce more characters (like those redesigns for rouge and shadow i did a while ago)#it just. doesn't feel worth continuing. idk why#i guess it might be the lack of interest for my writing in general#or maybe project: new moon just. isn't that great#which is fine the point of the project was to do it for fun not to make something objectively good#but ig i'm just. not feeling it anymore? i don't feel satisfied with it like i did when i finished writing it#i still love my ocs and the redesigns i did of canon characters for it#and i'm glad i got the story i've had in my head since i was like 12 out there. even if it's very different from how i first envisioned it#but. i really just wanna put it to rest#i really don't feel like i can promise any more writing for it. not like anybody cared abt it anyway besides like 3-4 ppl + myself#idk man i wanna move on from it. i have other stuff i wanna write that i feel guilty for not doing#bc i'd said i'd write more for project: new moon and still haven't#i think i'd be happier if i let the fanfic go and just draw my ocs and my redesigns when i feel like it#without worrying abt the fic anymore#bc frankly ever since writing the epilogue my heart just didn't feel like it was in it#thinking abt it felt like a chore more than anything. so maybe it'd be for the best to just leave it as it is#that comic i said i'd write is still happening tho i still really wanna do it#but that's different from writing fanfic so#anyway. might turn the project: new moon blog into a general writing blog#if i finish the corrupted au fic i'm currently working on. idk yet we'll see#but yeah. i know i shouldn't trust how i feel past 9 pm but I've been feeling this for a while now so whatever#i think i should've seen this coming in retrospect. pretty much everything i do that isn't just art never gets much traction anyway#can't say i'm really giving up on it considering it's TECHNICALLY complete#but the way things are going feels almost exactly like the rp and ask blogs i've tried to run in the past#idk man. i gotta stop thinking abt this before the vague feelings of inadequacy spiral into something worse. goodnight
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i havent even read enough gl to justify the feelings and emotions i have about kyle i just have the lovers heart and also something wrong with me. and my projection. in my mind he's just like me. and he would have loved college vending machine frozen cheeseburger and heating it up in the microwave at 1 in the morning because he was bored and didn't want to work on a drawing assignment on 20" x 30" paper that was due tomorrow in his freshman year. he would have loved going to the club to push off finals work that's creating the worst stress known to man in his brain. and he would love to annoy the fuck out of his roommate when high and avoiding homework on a saturday.
#IN MY MIND HE'S JUST LIKE ME and i understand why he dropped out of art school also.#i need to get back to my readings but im too into thinking about the couple dozen issues i have read#and then going i wonder what he was like in college. and the answer is definitely fucking annoying.#if i knew him i know we would be not arguing in art history class. i would be saying his takes are stupid outside of class during break.#and he would go i dont know how somoene can defend british utilitarian furniture so vehemently and try to liken it to bauhaus design#our arguments would also stem from having very different art history and therefore philosophy education. his background would be from a pro#who would focus on european canon as per usual while my prof was coming from the perspective of someone with a phd in asian art history#and a curriculum based mostly around exploring and investigating non euro art work and how movements like modernism and#post modernism functioned in other continents.#this is such a main blog post but idont care. EVERYONE HAS TO KNOW HOW I PROJECT AND INTERACT WITH HIM IN MY MIND#he would also hate how i argue for art even i dont care about by approaching it at the philosophical angle.#'how do you like this it's barely even art. or it is art. but it's a boring cop out for suckers. honestly.'#'the thing is i dont like it. i just think you need to expand your world views and stop being close minded. youre limiting yourself.'#you might go eiffel what are you basing this on? the answer is vaguely remembered panels in my mind plus generally taste opinions of his i#can gleam from what art references they give him within issues.#it would also be funny bc like. he has a background in design... he's just stubborn and snobby i think when it then comes to the realm of#fine arts. i think his opinions and how they operate in regards to design + illustration + non gallery art are probably quite different#but i cant lie. from the singular 'i dont wanna be some loser who shows up with a blank canvas to a gallery' panel i remember someone talki#about in a post i have used it to create a variety of thoughts i think he could have had.#and the answer is the opinions of someone definitely a little annoying in art school. with a pretty standard traditional training#and background that stems from euo+american art history and sensibilities that inform how he interacts with art. which is very normal#but i think it's funny to view him as someone i would probably roll my eyes at for some comments he would be making.#and it gets funnier with how he acts generally as a person.#kyle you cant be this snobby when you are drawing pin ups of your work crush in your home studio...#good lord this got so long i have a problem. hi. sorry to my new follower your kyle posting made me go ha ha kyle. i like that guy.#static.soundz#back issues box#< it might as well go there bc i blabbed way too hard and too much. sorry. overtaken by an entity in my mind
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