#i know this is a topic for therapy

[leafwyrm]

the idea of someone having proof that I love them is both forever tantalizing and terrible

[ariseur]

it feels so surreal that jujutsu kaisen’s done. like, no more jjk chapter leaks?? no more manga?? no disney kaisen?? 😞

[sunsetsandsunshine]

Okay but can we just talk about how Leo, Raph, Donnie and Mikey can FINALLY go to actual fucking therapy for once in this iteration of TMNT???

[oidheadh-con-culainn]

i feel like i'm a weird candidate for sex therapy bc it's like yeah on the one hand i grew up evangelical and repressed and on the other hand i've spent ten years doing queery theory and hanging out in more or less exclusively queer spaces and deconstructing everything to the point where i've got nothing left that makes sense so i can talk about gender and sexuality with a ton of nuance and understanding of historical and cultural context and also there's a part of my brain that still secretly believes i'm going to hell for it

but i have already done so much work on unlearning that to the point where i have circled around to a completely different issue, which is that i objectively believe it's fine to want whatever you want, and even though my instinct is that this doesn't apply to me i know that's unhelpful and i should ignore those thoughts because they're not true, but also i have absolutely no idea what i want and even less idea how to label it because i'm too aware that labels only describe our current cultural constructions of identities that actually don't adequately match how i understand myself bc i spent too much time thinking about premodern conceptions of gender and sexuality and got myself stuck in a corner with it

so like. i already therapised myself a lot. i've thought a lot about identity and how it works. i've done so much challenging of unhelpful thoughts and dealing with trauma responses and whatever. i have quite an advanced understanding on that front and frankly have probably taken it too far at times. but the basics of "what do you actually want, néide"? nah. fuck if i know

people who know this much about queer theory should be better at queer practice. unfortunately,

[gay-artificer]

Im perfectly fine with most of downpour's set up; but the thing I least accept is it's interpretation of slugcat "intelligence" I think the fact that the base game of RW implies that scavengers as a whole might be "evolved" than the player creature to be way more compelling, along with how nicely that pairs with the dev's old statements about how it must feel to be a rat in new york and like, get things on only the most superficial level, but being unable to grasp the complexities of what youre crawling around on. Able to conceptualize it- to think about it- but denied the ability to 'get it'. Gourmand (and even some tidbits about spearmaster) are charming and cute, but they push ultimately for a familiar and safe type of intelligence. They go for early human that communicates in a way we know is "smart" and it, unintentionally or not, sucks both the animalness and alienness out of them. They're the same as scavengers now, and we know exactly what scavengers remind us of with their culture and set up. We can place them, humanize them, no longer are we putting ourselves in the role of a creature in a confusing and complex world but rather a developed thing that has already progressed enough to begin to tame it. The slugcats as a creature that doesn't seem to emote or speak, but shows understanding- a level of which the player can not fully place- works so much more for me. These are things that are clearly intelligent, but we don't really have a good way to measure it past their ability to use basic tools and understand commands given to them when blessed with a fictional boon of understanding. I'm reminded of the ever growing way science in the real world is having to accept the intelligence of things we were so certain must have been unintelligent. Some of things we readily accepted as too undeveloped to even feel pain as creatures -somehow- able to play and learn. Creatures who were we baffled by because everything about what we know says that their brains should be too small and undeveloped to do what they do. That, and I really like the vibe slugcats give off as a creature on the cusp of "higher intelligence" - something that is clearly smart, but maybe not all the way there in the sense people would expect. Something capable of having complex thoughts and motivations and emotions but not yet fully able to process them or make use of it fully. Hard to explain

[daisywords]

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[msmisthios]

ok this is a random thought about AC Odyssey but a while back I said on stream that I intend on killing Alexios bc of his 👹major crimes against humanity👹

and apparently that's quite an unpopular opinion??? but hear me out. just bc he's blood related to Kassandra doesn't actually mean shit. I have cut off so many family members irl for being horrible people and so I don't think Kassandra would want Alexios to run around murdering people left right and center *just because* they share some dna. and I also don't think that fact is enough for her to believe that he can magically turn good either.

in my brain it's the moment she sees Alexios kill Perikles that it clicks for her that he's so much worse and evil than she realised, so to me it makes sense for her to kill him lol

[irondad-defensesquad]

TRIGGER WARNING: suicidal thoughts

DO NOT SHIP PETER AND TONY. P/ROSHIP DNI.

“I’m sorry.”

“For what?”

“For…” Peter tries to pick at least one reason out of the millions inside his head. He sighs, giving up, and completes, “For being me, I guess.”

Tony frowns but he’s far from annoyed. He’s hurt.

“Kid—”

“I mean,” Peter cuts him off. “It’s true, isn’t it? Me being here, my mere existence… hurts. And it hurts others. It took someone away from me. I keep trying to make up for it, hence why I’m here to begin with, to look out for the little guy… But it’s never going to be enough. I’m never going to be enough. Right?” He tears up as he says this. He’s been wanting to cry so badly all day.

Those kind of days when existing hurts. It suffocates you. Your body is imploding. It’s bleeding inside and no one can see it. You’re the only one who feels it.

“… I don’t want this anymore.”

Peter is about to leave, jump the nearest window.

But he doesn’t have the suit.

Exactly.

“Peter, where are you going? Peter,” Tony stops him, grabbing Peter’s arm. He sounds afraid, knowing what might happen if he lets go.

The boy’s chest hurts, hurts. No oxygen reaches his heart or his lungs, and it’s odd, why won’t he drop dead? Why, why?

“Hey, hey,” Tony lowers his voice.

“It hurts, Mr. Stark. You’re not going to heal it. You’re just not. Just- Just let me go, you’ll be better—”

“Don’t finish that sentence. You know I don’t feel that way.”

“Why?” Peter growls, but it sounds sorrowful, pathetic.

“Because I love you, Peter.”

No hesitation.

No. God, no.

That’s when Peter really tries to run. It’s too late—

“Peter, Peter, shh, shh—”

… And that’s also when he realizes, he doesn’t want to run, does he?

Why keep running? Why?

It’s just going to hurt like fucking hell.

Peter sobs painfully, clogged. After all, he can’t breathe.

“Come here. Come here, buddy.”

And when these specific arms get a hold of him, Peter stops resisting.

“I know it hurts. I know it hurts, Pete, I’m sorry it does.”

The kid just breaks down without letting out any sensical words. Tony holds him tightly.

“It’s not forever, it’s going to—”

“It WON’T!” Peter yells. “It’s NEVER GOING AWAY! NEVER!” He’s reduced to sobs once more. “It’s not going away…”

Tony doesn’t reprimand him for screaming at him. He doesn’t expect him to apologize. Why?

“Okay. But one thing I can tell you, and that it won’t be a lie,” the man pulls him closer, nuzzling his shoulder, “that I’m 100% - no, 1000% sure… is that I’ll be here. I’ll be here to listen. I see your pain, kid. I see you. The you no one knows.”

I know how hard it is to not be seen, Tony adds without verbalizing any of it. God, do I know.

Peter can… breathe.

A little bit.

A little.

He’s not dying. He’s not dying.

You won’t die on my watch, Tony has stated this again and again.

Peter lets out more tears, way more.

“Yeah, let it all out. Let it out.” I’ll be here, I’m here, I’m here. Tony is rubbing his back in circles.

It’s going to leave a mess on Tony’s shirt, it’s going to give him headaches, a heart attack, he won’t sleep well—

Stop. Stop. Stop.

He’s telling you it’s fine.

It’s fine.

It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay.

All he wants is for you to be okay.

That’s all that matters.

It should matter to you.

It should.

You’re going to be okay.

You’re breathing. You’re breathing.

It hurts, but you are.

Keep going.

Keep going.

You’re not alone.

There comes the time there’s no mortal danger looming at his door. Tony blasted it away. It’s not dead. But it’ll leave him alone for now.

Tony still keeps Peter close, murmuring things not a soul can hear but the broken teen.

Peter breathes the oil, the sweat, the coffee, the colognes, the shampoo.

Easy. Easy.

Tony may let go, but not really, as he takes off his old MIT sweater and puts it on Peter. And he’s rubbing Peter’s back again, so he can feel double hugged.

The teen is breathing. In. Out. In. Out.

And Tony is kissing his head.

“You did good. You did good, Pete.”

And I’m proud of you, I am.

Even like this. Even like this.

He’s proud of you.

Maybe you don’t feel that way about yourself now…

But it’s good to know someone sees it. Even after everything they saw in you.

You’re worthy.

Worthy. Worthy.

It’s something you can easily forget, but you’re worthy. You’re real. You’re being seen now.

You are seen. And you are loved.

[misiahasahardname]

mental illness

[widevibratobitch]

omw to play emotional support for my mom disguised as ✨fun family bonding time✨ for the rest of the week <3333 there's something so deeply wrong with me uwu teehee

[aropride]

i love psychology classes i love this shit. because i know like everyything but i get to share my opinions on the reading and i LOVE having opinions

[dashiellqvverty]

to be honest i think there is a very clear pathway to cheronica happening this season (cheryl’s “get out of my school” vibes, veronica introducing the concept of bisexuality to the group, hermione telling veronica “no boys” which EYE think would be very fun if veronica was like “okay fine then girls”) but i KNOW they’re not gonna take it

[torchickentacos]

I am now mature enough to admit what I couldn't when I was younger and more pretentious, and that is that Into You by Ariana Grande is a bop

[miguelryan]

Fandom: Oz (TV)

Rating: Explicit

Relationships: Miguel Alvarez/Ryan O'Reily

Additional Tags: Established Relationship, Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Explicit Language

Language: English

Summary:

Ryan knows he's not very good at blowjobs and it annoys him. The thing is, Miguel turned out to be some kind of fucking god at blowjobs, and Ryan... no, it's not some weird dick-sucking competition, he just really wants to give Miguel as much pleasure as he gets. And today Ryan has an idea.

[todayisafridaynight]

Hey so Snap this is going to be so fucking weird, but honestly don’t care. So I was watching a clip of Drag Race Philippines and it was the make over episode and I think they were making over family members and this father was all about getting into drag. So, I just wanted to tell you never forget how much of a lovely loving kind and caring father you have, who loves you and protects you and makes you feel heard. That’s all.

i'd have to die before i forget how great my dad is thank you for the opportunity to brag about him again anon

[dyelwi]

Not naming names bc this genuinely isn’t about one specific person but about a trend I’ve seen recently but. I really hate this new trend of defending manfred von karma/ saying he isn’t abusive when like. You don’t get how franziska and edgeworth are without going through a lot of shit and franziska specifically has went through shit mostly relating to her father. Is he a complicated character?? Yes. And I’m not saying you shouldn’t like him or find him compelling or anything. But it’s very clear he abused his kids and as someone who was abused and treated similarly to edgeworth and franziska hearing his treatment of his kids being defended is disheartening and a bit rage inducing ngl. He didn’t physically abuse his kids, yes, but his whole thing is having control and it definitely extends to his kids as well. It’s clear in the main trilogy as well as the investigations games.