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talkdutchtome · 1 year ago

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You Should Have Said No Chapter Five- Shake It Off

pairing . . . max verstappen x reader / pierre gasly x reader )

summary . . . when your fiancé cheats on you, you strike up an unusual friendship with one of his closest friends, who just so happens to have had a crush on you since he set eyes on you. chaos ensues.

inspired by the works of miss taylor swift )

genre . . . angst )

song . . . shake it off- taylor swift)

warning . . . cheating, mental illness, angst, eventual smut, poorly translated french and dutch, swearing, mention of parent loss, emotionally abusive parent, slight social media au, kendall jenner as fc (potentially more i’ll add as i go along)

series masterlist . . . available here )

“Literally everyone does it Y/N, it’s a rite of passage after a breakup” Lila stresses at you, waving a pair of scissors in front of your face. She wants to cut your hair, claiming that it would help you forget about Pierre. Truth be told, you’re not even sure that you want to forget about Pierre, though you’d die before admitting that to Lila, who may kill you herself if you dared let those words pass through your lips. Whilst Lila worked on the West End theater scene in London now, she had spent years working on much smaller theater scenes so she had learned to cut hair so that her and her colleagues didn’t have to spend a good chunk of their small paycheck on their hair; so you knew that she definitely could cut your hair you just weren’t sure you wanted it cut. Pierre had once told you when you were 18 that he liked your hair long so naturally, you kept your hair that long ever since. There wasn’t a doubt in your mind that Pierre wouldn’t have had an issue if you did cut your hair, realistically he may not even remember that he told you he liked your hair long, but you remembered so you always kept your chocolate brown hair at the length it was when he said it. “Okay fine, just do it” you relented, sitting in front of her to allow her to begin to work on your hair.

After she had finished, she put a mirror in front of your face, enabling you to see your now shoulder length hair and as much as admitting she was right was painful for you; you had to admit not only did you look good but you also felt a freeing sense, like you were finally accepting that life was going to be different now, and maybe that’s okay. “It’s lovely, thank you Lila”

“Right okay time for outfits, I’m not sure what you’re wearing to the race yet but I know exactly want I want you to wear for the after party; you need to go full Princess Diana” The words that came out of her mouth made you laugh but you quickly realized that she was completely serious. “Okay what the hell do you mean by ‘full Princess Diana’, also you do know you’re not my personal stylist righy?”

“Oh, come on you know! The revenge dress!”

“My god you’ve lived in London for too long” You laughed at her but maybe it wasn’t such a bad idea, there was every chance Pierre could come to this party and you were only human after all, you couldn’t help wanting to realize what he’s missing out on. Whilst you were weighing up your options regarding your evening wear, Lila had moved onto looking through her suitcase trying to find something for you to wear. “Now this is perfect!” hearing your best friend’s words made you look up to the outfit she was referring to. In her hands she held up a pair of light wash ripped boyfriend jeans and a black top that was really more of a bra than a top. Opening up your mouth to tell her no, you caugh sight of her face looking at you with pleading eyes and pouted lips. “Okay fine, give it here”

“Ohhh and this too?” she throws Max’s jacket at you, resulting in her receiving a death stare from you “Nope. Too far Lils” you told her trying to be serious but failing once she fell into fits of giggles, causing you to laugh like a mad man too.

“Uhh Y/N, have you been on Instagram lately?” Lila questioned with a worried tone in her voice, before you could answer her question, she had turned around her phone and showed you the post that she clearly thought you needed to see. Your eyes focused on the image in front of you and you quickly snatched the phone out of her hand to have a look. The fact that there were paparazzi as you got off Max’s private jet a few days ago had completely slipped your mind after a very stressful few days. “Oh fuck” you cursed at yourself, you didn’t even think how it looked for a driver's fiancée to be flying on a plane alone with a bunch of other drivers, but clearly the fans following the infamous F1 gossip page did. Reading through the comments, you saw countless people calling you a slut, alleging that you were sleeping with one of the drivers that you were pictured with, people worried and upset for Pierre; pretty much any derogatory word under the sun was used to describe your behavior. Just for a second you felt a flash of guilt, knowing that Pierre is defiantly going to see the post, but it quickly dawned on you that you shouldn’t have to feel guilty for having friends or for spending time with people who were looking after you after finding out that your finance had cheated on you. After the guilt subsided, anger took its place. How dare they criticize you for having friends, for daring to even be in the presence of men whilst Pierre could literally fuck another woman and there wasn’t a post about that, there wasn’t cameras in the club when Pierre actually did what people are accusing you of.

“You just need to ignore it Y/N, it’s not fair of course it isn’t but it’s also not important, just follow the advice of Taylor Swift and Shake it off” Lila spoke, knowing what was going through your head.

“Oh I was actually meant to say, have you spoken to Charles since everything happened?” she asked you, trying to change the topic of conversation as she could tell the gossip post.

“No actually, he messaged me literally the day after it happened as Pierre went to his house when I kicked him out but since then I haven’t heard anything since. Though he did phone you so I guess.” you told her and she scoffed, clearly not happy with that answer. “That’s really shitty of him, he’s been your friend for almost 15 years and all he can manage is one text. Though it doesn’t surprise me, he always was a dick.” her words made you laugh but you couldn’t help but agree with what she said, you had known Charles for almost as long as he knew Pierre and you were always close so you’d be lying if you said it didn’t bother you that he hadn’t reached out since that first day. “Oh come on be fair Lila, he was a bit of a dick when we were 15 but he’s changed since then, he’s a good guy” you told her but she just scoffed again, clearly not ready to accept that he wasn’t the same Charles that broke her heart 12 years age.

Much to Lila’s dismay, upon your arrival at the track ready for the race, you were called into a meeting, leaving her alone for an hour, desperately searching for some entertainment, she ended up stumbling into Pierre. Whilst she tried to avoid his gaze and get away without speaking to him, she had no such luck. “Ugh what do you want?” she had asked him clearly pissed off that he wouldn’t let her slip away without having to acknowledge his presence. “Please just listen, I really need your advice” Pierre told the girl in front of him who rolled her eyes but gestured for him to continue. “I just don’t know what to do, I love Y/N so much and I know I fucked up, I really fucked up but I don’t want to live without her and every time I try to speak to her, I just seem to make it worse” his words caused Lila to laugh, earning her a death glare. “Look if she’s got any sense, she’ll never take you back, but I’ll tell you this; if she’ll ever be ready to take you back, she needs to heal first. Every time she sees you her heart breaks more and soon enough it’ll be broken beyond the point of no return. So, if you love her or ever did, you need to leave her alone, at least for a while” Lila told him, causing him to stand deeply in thought for a minute before speaking up again. “But what if I leave her alone to heal and she ends up falling for Max?” he asked her, with tears in his eyes threatening to spill over. “I’m going to be brutally honest with you Pierre, would that really be such a bad thing? You and I both know what a hard life she’s had, doesn’t she deserve love from someone who will never hurt her? Who will never make her look in the mirror and wonder what is wrong with her that the person who is supposed to love her went and slept with another woman.” Lila told him before turning around and walking away before he had a chance to respond.

Eventually the race started, and you were sat in Red Bull garage hospitality with Lila, things were going well for the first 15 laps until there was a crash that made your heart sink. Pierre had collided with Geroge Russell sending them both spinning. Before you even had the chance to think about the consequences, you were on your feet and running to the Alpine garage. In that moment nothing else mattered other than finding out if Pierre was safe, everything else was forgotten. In the time it took you to reach the garage, Pierre had come back and other than sporting a bit of a limp, he seemed fine; that was until he saw you and it looked like he was going to cry. Both of you were acutely aware of the fact that were countless engineers surrounding you who had no idea what was going on between the two of you; they were used to you being sat in the garage all weekend but this time you were nowhere to be found until right now when you ran in frantically. It was quite the picture, you both standing opposite each other, him trying not to cry and you trying to catch your breath, partly from the running but also from the creeping anxiety that sat in your stomach.

Eventually realizing that you weren’t going to say anything whilst surrounded by everyone, Pierre told the medic charged with checking him out that he was going into his driver's room to get his withings before they took him away to the medical center to be checked. As he walked, he gestured for you to follow him, so you did. “Are you okay? That looked really bad. I was so worried oh my god are you okay?” You rambled at him, not even giving him a chance to answer your questions. You were spiraling and he knew it, even though you could now see that he was okay, the initial fear you felt was the straw that broke the camel's back and every emotion that you had shoved down for the past week was making itself known. Pierre could see that you were shaking and crying, so on instinct he wrapped his arms around you, so tightly that it hurt because he knew you and he knew that’s what you needed when you got like this. “Shh baby it’s okay I’m okay. I know it was scary but I’m okay” He soothed you and stood with you in his arms until your breathing calmed down and you pulled away from him. “I’m sorry for coming here Pierre, I just needed to know that you were okay” you told him before turning to walk away from him, once the anxiety had subsided you realized that coming here wasn’t the best thing to do, that letting him comfort you wasn’t really fair on either of you. Just as you reached the door handle you heard Pierre’s voice ask you the one question you really didn’t want him to ask- “Why did you come here?” You turned around to look at him, but you didn’t answer his question, how could you when you didn’t even know the answer yourself. “What is going on with you and Max?” He questions you again, upon realizing you weren't going to answer his first question. It’s the same thing he asked you days ago, but the way he asks is different now; there’s no venom in his voice, no taunting look in his eyes, there’s just sadness and a look of hopelessness. “He’s my friend. He’s really looked after me over this last week and I do really like him, but it’s not like that Pierre okay. He’s just a friend” you told him hesitantly, you’re aware that maybe it was best not to humor his question, but the anxiety attack you just had exhausted you and you truly did not have the energy to argue with him as to why it’s none of his business “He likes you Y/N, he always has” he told you. There were no words you could think of to say in response to him, so you just walked away.

After your interaction with Pierre, you went back to the garage with Lila where you both watched Max win the race by 30 seconds. Immediately following the race Lila had to leave to catch her plane back to London, you both cried as she left, vowing to not leave it so long until the next time you see each other again. Despite all of this and how much you loved her, you cursed her name when you arrived back in your hotel room and saw the dress, she left for you to wear. It was a tan mini dress that clung to your body tightly and stopped way higher up your thighs than you ideally would have liked; to put it bluntly it was almost the exact opposite of something you would chose to wear but as it was the only option available, you had to accept that you would be out of your comfort zone and get ready for the party. Just as you were getting ready to head to the club you remembered the last words that Lila had said to you just before she left “Make sure you post on Instagram how hot you look just in case Pierre isn’t at the party, a revenge dress isn’t a revenge dress if the person doesn’t see it” you laughed at her words but did what she said anyway, knowing that she wouldn’t leave you alone until you relented anyway.

The second you walked in the club, you caught sight of table that Max and everyone were sat at. Even though it was a Red Bull party Max did mention that others would be coming so you weren’t surprised to see Lando and Daniel sat alongside him. As soon as Max spotted you, he was up on his feet, making the short journey from his table to the bar where you stood.

“Hey Max congratulations, such a good race.” You told him, smiling sincerely at him. “Y/N I’m so good you’re here! I was worried you weren’t going to come. What are you drinking?” The Dutchman asked you, smiling ear to ear, clearly on a high from his win. Usually, you didn’t drink much in clubs, often finding that it ends up making your anxieties worse, but you couldn’t help but feel that this was a night where you deserved to let go a little bit and actually get drunk for once. “Ohh maybe tequila?” you suggested earning yourself a cheeky grin from the man in front of you, who leant forward and ordered four shots of tequila from the bartender before calling Lando and Daniel over to give them their shots. As you stood at the bar with the three men taking your shots, you couldn’t help but think about the gossip post from earlier; you realized that as you were in a public club, anyone could easily take a photo of the four of you and use it to fuel more rumors. Part of you wanted to walk away from them, to not give people anymore ammunition to use against you, but the other part of you didn’t care what anyone else was going to do or say and just wanted to have a good time with your newly found friends. Deciding to listen to the part of you who just said ‘Fuck it let me have fun’ you ordered more shots and let yourself just enjoy the company you were in.

After an hour or so passed, you could feel how tipsy you started to become and decided that you had probably drunk enough; that was until you saw Charles and Pierre walk into the club and immediately decided to buy and drink a lot more alcohol. You sat at the Red Bull table with Max and his friends for a while more until you saw that Pierre had left Charles sat by himself for a moment and with your decision-making skills inebriated, you decided to go and confront him.

“Oh hey Y/N” Charles spoke as you walked towards him. “Don’t ‘hey y/n’ me Charles you’re such a dick” you told him perhaps a bit more aggressively than you had meant, slurring your speech whilst you were at it too. He just gave you a confused look. “I can’t believe I’ve barely heard from you Charles. I know you’re Pierres friend I get that, but you’re my friend too. I’ve known you for almost 15 years and all I get from you when my life literally falls apart is one text? I get you called Lila and I appreciate it, God knows I needed her here. But I also needed you. I’m not asking you to pick my side or drop Pierre, but it would have been nice to feel like you didn’t drop me.” You ranted at him, and he just looked at his feet, clearly ashamed at his behavior. “I know, I’m really sorry. I did want to reach out, but I just didn’t know how” he spoke, and you could tell that he did genuinely feel bad. You were going to say something else to him in response, but you suddenly saw Pierre approaching and decided that being around him in this state definitely was not the best idea. “I should go” you told Charles before turning to walk away. “I am really sorry Y/N, phone me when you get home to Monaco and we’ll arrange to do something” Charles called out after you just as Pierre rejoined him, earning him a funny look from his friend.

The need to drink came back after that conversation with Charles so you grabbed another couple of shots for you and Max before walking back to the table, and after taking them all you wanted to do was dance. With Lila being gone, the next best person to dance with was Max so you grabbed his hands and dragged him onto the dance floor. This was completely out of character for you, with you usually being the quiet person sat in the corner at a club but despite that and despite the fact that you knew that Pierre was burning a hole in your back watching the two of you, you completely let yourself go and danced with Max. The dancing started fun, with the two of you jumping around to Taylor Swift’s Shake It Off (the irony was not missed on you even in your very drunk state), however after a while the copious amounts of alcohol you had drank started to catch up on you and Max eventually declared that you probably needed to head home and that he would acompany you to make sure that you got in safely.

The journey in the uber was proabably around 30 minutes, although it didn’t at all feel like that. You spent the whole journey talking to Max about pretty much everything that came into your head, you told him about how you and Lila met Charles and Pierre and how the four of you became best friends, you told him about your love for Taylor Swift and your desperation for Eras Tour tickets, you even told him about the time you met Christan Horner’s wife Geri for the first time and completely embarrassed yourself by gushing over her and telling her how obsessed you were with the Spice Girls when you grew up. And the whole time he sat there and listened to you, he didn’t just listen to the important stuff you had to say like you often felt Pierre did, but he sat there and listened just the same when you were rambling on about something silly and insignificant. He was completely attentive, and it made you feel like you could tell him absolutely anything. He then walked you all the way up to your hotel door just so he knew that you were home and safe. “You looked so beautiful tonight Y/N” he told you but it looked like he regretted in straight away when you just looked at him unsure what to say back to him. “Goodnight, thank you for a good night” He spoke again before turning to leave. “Wait Max” you called after him and he turned around to ask you what it is you wanted but stopped when he felt your hands come up to the back of his neck and pull him in for a kiss. Your lips touched only for a second and your touch was so faint that Max could have thought that he had maybe imagined it if not for the riot of butterflies took flight in the depths of his stomach, their wings fluttering in harmony with the newfound spark that had ignited between the two of them. Before Max had a chance to say anything you closed the door on him before walking to the bed and flopping onto it. In spite of the amount that you had drank, you had never felt more sober than you did right now, in the aftermath of your first kiss with Max. You wanted to cry, you wanted to laugh, you wanted to scream, you wanted to run after Max and kiss him again but in the end all you do is just lay on your bed and attempt to follow the piece of advice that Lila had given you earlier in the day, you just shook it off and went to sleep.

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introspectivememories · 5 months ago

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I FORGOT I EVEN SENT THAT ASK AND YOUR RESPONSE HIT ME LIKE A TRUCK OHMSYGODDFJDJ

I seriously love your writing so much you always put a heap of emotion into it 😭😭

also adore the idea of TIM being the one who's obsessed with bear and going to such lengths just to keep seeing him, I tend to prefer happy endings so I like to think they work it out after a while but like also the angst is amazing

god the amount of yearning in this au makes me so mmmpfhhhf

god im just so sorry that it took me soo long to reply!!! you sent just as i was taking my break from tumblr and other social media :(((

i remember reading it and thinking to myself "god if i had the timbern brainworms, i could write smth for this" but then recently they've been coming back and i was a church bored out of my mind when i was like "hmmm maybe i should respond?"

and ohhh my god, when i first got it, i immediately thought about how toxic it could get and like, personally, i feel like i can't write complicated characters? if that makes sense? to me, im not very good at writing multi-dimensional characters. which to be fair, i never set out to become like a pulitzer prize winning author. i just do this for fun haha.

and like i knew that my answer to your ask was always gonna be toxic timbern but i didn't know if i could write it? ig??? bc like tim is a good person. he is!!! he just wants bear so badly. and it's past the initial physical attraction now.

he and bear are all grown up. he likes bear's wit and humor, well the wit and humor he gets to hear when bear doesn't know he's around. but bear wont let him in!!!! bear wont open himself up and tim's apologized!!!! he did!!! he doesn't even know what he did and he still apologized!!!!! and it changed nothing. bear doesn't talk to him or look at him or anything. nothing but polite professionalism.

and then one day, he sees bear on his balcony as he's swinging through the streets of gotham. and bear isn't doing anything special, he's just sitting there in sweats and no shirt and the moonlight hits his pecs just right and his shoulders are so broad and-

well he cant be blamed for stopping to take a peek, right? and maybe when he has has time he swings by more and more. just watching for longer and longer, until one day bear catches him. and as they stare at each other from opposite sides of the street, tim thinks this is it. the cold glances and frosty words are going to come back. bear's never gonna just sit on his balcony again. he's lost this too. but then-

oh.

bear sends him a hesitant wave and tim raises a trembling hand to wave back. and bear- well bear's mouth splits into a smile brilliant enough to rival the sun. beautiful like the sunrise. the promise of a new beginning. if he closes his eyes, tim thinks he can feel the sunlight's warm rays on him.

hes' hooked after that. he comes around again and again. one day bear lets him on the balcony. weeks later, bear's hugging him. weeks after that, tim's in bear's lap. and he knows it's not right. that bear thinks he's someone else. that bear doesnt want anything to do with him but how is he supposed to let this go? how is he supposed disentangle himself from bear's arms?

so he lies and he lies and he prays to any and every god he can think of, that he'll get to keep this. plus he's not really lying to bear, he's just... not talking about it! if bear asks, he'll tell him point blank. he swears it. but that's a problem for another day. things are looking up! bear said more than 5 sentences to him the other day and yesterday? he even got a small smile. it'll all work out. he'll be fine.

#i have to stop answering asks. it always turns into word vomit #and like tim knows bear is never going to ask. bear would never ask robin to compromise his identity like that #so it is lying by omission. kind of. he's taking advantage of bear. love under false pretenses? i feel like this is textbook smth #i just dont know what #and i keep thinking of after it all falls apart and tim stupidly goes to visit bear on his balcony #and bear is sitting there crying. tears streaming down his face as he sniffles. and it's ugly and there's snot and bear's biting his lip #to try and stifle any noise he might make and tim's frozen on the fire escape of the opposite building and bear looks up #and even now he's still the prettiest thing tim's ever seen. a tear rolls down his face the moonlight glints off it #bear's gorgeous and tim did that. tim made him cry like that. tim's the one who broke his heart. who took his trust and twisted it beyond #recognition. and they stare at each other for a few moments before bear's face shutters close. hastily wiping his tears away #bear steps back inside and locks the door. there's nothing left for him out there anyway.#also me saying that stuff about my writing isn't me needing reassurance or anything. it's just my opnion of my writing abilities #as of right now. so like dont think you have to reassure me or anything.#how did this get so long???? this was just supposed to be me talking about my thought process to the previous ask #and then it turned into this #as always nothing in the veil!au is set in stone. not even this. please do whatever you want with the au!!!!#timbern #timber #tim drake #bernard dowd #veil!au #asks #introspective.txt

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hotboyfreighttrain · 2 days ago

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what if km nonbinary WHAT IF I PIT A FTM STICKER ON MY ED JOURNAL AND NOW THE JOURNAL IS RUIND!!!!!!? I JUST SAW ANOTHER ED PAGE AND ALL THE WKMEN WERE SO BEAUTIFUL I WANT TO LOOK LIKE THAT WGAAAAT!!!! WHAT IF IM DJUST DOING IT TO REBEL NO IM NOTOTTTTT!!!! im not doing it to rebel because i am .iam a man and i always woll be from these past years forward and if tgat is the label then that is ghe label i do NOT FIT IN ANY BOXES ALL THE BOXES ARE NAMED MARLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM A BOY!!!!!!

but all ive placed my willingness to be a boy is from reading mlm fanfiction sonce i was 12... HARD GAY fanfiction . what if i just grew from that environment th

inking boys love is pure and beautiful it is but what if one day i decide to be an alien then what then what marker would i put on my lisence huh i cant just go out ajd say hey guys im nb now loooollllllll no i am he him .. i am he him and i woll die in this country as a hehim guy do you catch my drift lemel layo

i get so pisy at myself sometkmes i hate on women for NO REASON THATS SO BAD OF ME!!! its all internal of course . what if im trying to deny the little girl in side of me she cant come out.... every time i type a message in third person and mispell he to she i think its a sign from the unievrse saying what i am.... what if one day i dotn want to be a twink.... boy life seems so rigid

.... no i dont want to be some tiktok stereotypical trans man mockery page named frog kai ribbit fucking no i dont want to do any of that!!!!!!! maybe im non binary .. NO OOOO!!!!!!! I DONT WANT TO LOOK LOKE WHATS ON SOCIAL MEDIA yes i do actually because everyone there is so pretty how do they have all that money thats insane .. of course they have begrr jobs than me dont even get me started on that BOYFRIEND reels fhe i feel so insecure about it but now there is a rage in mt hrart that can only be relinquished with the blod of a steait white man with a couple hunneds....

boy life seems so rigid in my head but why does it appear that way to me i dont know maybe its because i live in a christian family yea gods always watching NO idgaf about god i dont care i think that whole relgiion is the downfall of human american society i stand on that rock sorrreyyyyy lolllll but i keep it to myself of course hahaa yes but anwuah i feel like being a boy yes mmasculinity in one neat box but fwmininty in a larger one i just see shit on social media with either big thifhsd women NO I DONT CARE FOR THAT!!!!!!! i gooooooddddfff no i know masuclinity isnt in a box but I CANT HELP TJINKING THAT WAY !!!!!!!! IM TRYING TO STOP and yes i have gotten quite into beinf more acceprivng than what i was in like ninth grade yes i am not perfect yes and living in the reddest most worst GEORGIA ITS FUCKING GEORGIA GEROGIA IS THE WORST STATE TO LIVE IN IF YOU WANT TO BE SLIVHTLY LEFT!!!!! I AM TIRED OF LIVING INT EHS SOUTH yeah hahahaa ohhh country accent YES I HAVE ONE BUT AT WHAT COST!!!!!!

I STILL HAVE INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA IM TRYING TO GET RID OF I FEEL SO ASHAMED ADMITTING THAT

i canthellp feeling worried YES ITS WORRIED NOT HATE ITS JUST A CRINGING WORRY no please men please no ladies dknt kiss in this state please i dont want anyone lookign at you with hate please donntt its becayse these stupid principles they drilled into me. look at me fucking now they literally shamed me for being lgbt since sixth grade get on my fucking level why would you do that to me dad fuck you ughh i love you dad i hate your wife i wish i had really done what you said i was gonna do yeah you know what im fucking talking about you bitch noo no yeah go to the osych ward IT WAS BETTER THAN HOME

i am hidden in this cage uughhhhh heelpopp what if when ig et out i realize i just did it to find sanctuary with the people on my phone THE ONLY REASON I STARTED WANTING TO BE A BOY WAS BECAUSE I THOUGHT MIGUEL OHARA WAS SO PRETTY AND I WANTED TO BE THAT NOT JUST BECAUSE I WANTED TO BE A BOY yes i do want to be a boy but also i feel i am not fit to be 100 percent boy okay iam letting all my thoughts drain out right now so i can not pick them up later do you catch my drift do you catch it catch like the ballwtih the drift ohhhhhhh lolll yes maybe not one hundred percent boy yes but i dont want to yknow actually i think the reason i think this is because of all the we hate men and men do not interact shit on here

because i feel i am predatory following moots and the. posting shit . what. one day i am going to crash kut and do soemthing bad huh twhats gonna happen then NO im not gonna hurt anybody lolllll i dont do that i have self control i hurt myself not others trigger wanrning lollllllll no i do not want to associate with men in my gender identity no yes i actually do so fuck that but i feel bad when i see so many rape statistics i feel so bad i feel gross and sad when women do the whole women empowerment no i just want the attention on me the man not transgender man just me MEEEE JUST ME the man not transgender . i am nto trans im a cis man all along yeah???? no htrickes you but the things id do to be a southern magellan shorts southern row boy ohhh my god my mouth is salivATINGGGGG PLEAAAASEEEEE I NEED T SO BADDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

came to be a boy cause i liekd miguel ohara what the fuck kind of reason is that i mean no it makes sense in the end i always played the boyish role no its because i liked fucking gay fanficiton in a poser lmaooo no im not thats so dumb why am i gaslighting myself its only because i love sabotaging ymself into thinking things km not woaaattt.... go figure...... telling myself repwatedly i hated myself in sixth frade then got a diagnosis woahh yeahp depression isnt a joke lolk where it got you marley look where it got you marley look where it tgot you marley look where it got you marley look where it got you marley

#tw everything #post vent clarity feels good #tw dysphoria #tw psych ward #tw murder implied #tw sh #i dont fucking know any more tws

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thenamesblurrito · 2 years ago

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assorted Transformers fics to rec (part 1...?)

i really do think fic recs are valuable to fandom so here’s a random collection of Transformers fics i like, with no particular theme. these were compiled by frantically googling half-remembered bits to try and find the only ones i remember reading years ago, and i know i’m missing some i’d like to include

EDIT: part 2 here!

A Prime Performance

TFP AU, incomplete, AO3. Megatron is an actor in a children’s show. this is just as hilarious as you think it is. some slowburn MegOp. i love all the easter eggs and references and the way this in-universe show is created and run?? it’s fascinating

All Roads Lead to Rome

no set continuity/vaguely Bayverse, oneshot, AO3. a huge robot warrior like Sunstreaker is odd enough in modern times, just imagine him in ancient Rome. extremely interesting premise to me i love this bit and would love more. warning for typical crass patriarchal expectations for women in marriage but nothing actually explicit

Another Gate

Bayverse, complete multichap, FFN. whatever Sam is now, it isn’t human. some REAL good body horror, friendship, and alien strangeness ooooo

Bodies (break)

IDW, oneshot, AO3. Ultra Magnus goes to therapy and Rung is something wrong. oooooooghhghghhf i LOVE when people lean into the oddness and creepiness of the local god

Brave New World

fan canon, ongoing webcomic, TFW05. a spin on BW among other things, following Rodimus Prime’s crew of beastformers as they face down an assortment of bad guys and mysteries. LOVE this canon guys i LOVE it, very very good beast mode choices, very heartfelt and very funny, i also love seeing the art progression over the years. lovely webcomic here

Burn a hole in the old grip of the familiar

TFP, complete multichap, AO3, NSFW near the end. it’s focused on Ultra Magnus/reader but the first half of this fic is probably my favorite. the overwhelm and incredulity the reader character grapples with for awhile, i feel like it’s pretty realistic for someone who’s been shoved into a weird new world. DEFINITELY did Breakdown dirty though. has sequels that i haven’t read

dares for the first time

G1, oneshot, AO3. lovely little take on a G1 Guiding Hand that makes me feel things

Dog of Law

IDW, complete multichap, AO3. the Lost Light crew don’t find Minimus in Tyrest’s cells, they find a small green turbofox. lovely character driven piece here and honestly i just really like when his canonical turbofox alt is used i think it’s a shame we never got it in the story proper

First Contact

IDW, incomplete, AO3. listen it’s only a little bit written but i am OBLIGATED to post isekai/modern girl in Middle Earth/falling into fiction type of stories and i really liked the setup for this one okay! i love isekai and this was the only one i could remember to track down

Grey Is The Night

Batman/vaguely IDW crossover, complete multichap, AO3. there’s a new police car in Gotham, and it’s up to no good. listen i don’t even do DC stuff but Batman meeting Prowl here is done MARVELOUSLY ohhh i love this very much, the plot is GOOD, and i bet folks who actually like DC will love it even more

Hazard Light

IDW, oneshot, AO3. a hanahaki take on Brainstorm/Perceptor that i actually like, despite not usually enjoying hanahaki at all, with some nice Cybertronian biology too

How to Save the World in 8 Minutes and 3 Seconds

vaguely G1/continuity soup, oneshot, AO3. how does Prowl save a species, with blocked communications, no visuals, and a short time limit? why, he just keeps an eye on social media of course! a lil dark and fun and clever

In Media Bellum

TFP, incomplete, AO3. human reader is caught up with Team Prime in a delightful exploration of culture and introspection and found family. no shipping but masterful platonic relationship work! it feels... idk relaxed? caring? i love the tone of this writing

Juxtaposition

vaguely G1, complete multichap, FFN (also on AO3 but never finished crossposting). a human OC gets in a car accident and starts hearing voices in her head, unknowingly saving a Cybertronian’s life, even if it’s in a very atypical manner. love this OC, love the whole premise here and the exploration of an alien reality from a human POV. no shipping, if that’s not ur thing

Lost Light/Rodimus

IDW, oneshot, Tumblr. the ship comes to life and has something important to ask Rodimus. i love this concept it’s very good, very intriguing

Magnus Carey

IDW, oneshot, AO3. Verity teaches Minimus about Christmas. short and sweet, i love their friendship

My Totally Real Mary Sue Husband Who Lives Back On Cybertron

TFA, oneshot, AO3, Dratchet. “Ratchet offhandedly mentions he's conjunxed. Bumblebee refuses to believe him. Hijinks ensue.” funny and in character and sweet

Mythbusters Season Nine Interlude: The Autobot Special

G1/Mythbusters crossover, oneshot, AO3. busting some myths AND some Decepticons! it just keeps getting better and better the further you read. i laughed out loud so many times, and cheered at recognizing so many classic Mythbusters bits, and i will get on my hands and knees to beg for a Dirty Jobs sequel these shows were my CHILDHOOD

Patronus

TFP, twoshot, AO3. Megatron has teatime with Rung, who... is not a normal bot. more good good Rung being something wrong

Property Of

Bayverse, incomplete, FFN. when Sam and Mikaela meet Bumblebee, it isn’t as an Autobot scout, but rather as a new owner of these recently discovered organic animals called “humans”. a very well done human pet fic that doesn’t veer into psychological torture or boundary crossing or anything (sorry if that’s your jam) and while it’s incomplete i still love what’s there, especially as the kids learn how to communicate their personhood to an ignorant Bee

Rules to Follow When Making First Contact

continuity soup/fan canon, ongoing series, AO3. listen i know many folks aren’t here for the human characters but i LOVE all the humans here they are each characterized so well and i love seeing how its been blended together across canons. this is a very clever, very engaging setup with a very grounded presence for alien robots that hits in ALL the right places for me. AUTOBOTS LEARNING ENGLISH YALL!!! YES!!! very good very good

Scrimscrim

TFP....... sort of, incomplete, AO3. what do you do when you end up with a Starscream toy brought to life? this is a hilarious premise with good characterization, a lovely human OC, a ridiculous situation handled very realistically, and generally good fun to read. reverse isekai is perhaps more of a favorite of mine than isekai!

SG Prime

TFP SG au, ongoing webcomic, own website and DA. REALLY REALLY COOL YALL. fantastic designs and inclusions and expanding on TFP lore and making very interesting SG dynamics and just. excellent.

TFP Wheeljack in TFA

TFP/TFA crossover, ongoing series of posts, Tumblr. i LOVE crossovers, i will kill and die for crossovers, and this is one of the few i’ve been able to find! there’s enough posts under that tag that i haven’t been able to read them all but what i did see is GOOD

The Echo Garden

IDW/TFP crossover, incomplete, AO3. Soundwave gets picked up by the Lost Light. okay i am a SUCKER for crossovers as previously stated and this one is Good. leans fully into being a crossover and expounding on the differences between universes. Soundwave needs to figure out what to do with himself! also features some delightful slowburn SoundRod and a lovely ensemble cast. Toaster is the best

The One Where The Decepticons Are The Good Guys

TFP SG au, incomplete, AO3. i’m not typically a fan of Shattered Glass stuff but this doesn’t feel terribly OOC or completely upended or alien to the original plot, i think this is done very well and i can’t wait for more

Transformers Recovery: Primal Launch

fan canon, complete multichap, AO3. it’s like the Lost Light but weirder, i don’t even know how to convey its awesomeness. VERY funny, VERY cool, Sky Lynx is there, Swerve is important, Riptide is such a good bot, Megatron exists, just all good things here. treat yourself and read this it’s such a delight

Twenty-Five to Life

vaguely IDW, oneshot, AO3. Starscream/Minimus soulmate au that makes me wheeze when i read it because it it so painfully in character and hilarious oh my god i am CRYING laughing by the time i finish it. petty criminal Starscream, noble Minimus, oil and water. gets raunchy but nothing explicit with an NSFW sequel

Under Control Till You’re In Front Of Me

G1, oneshot, AO3. i need more people to join the Shockwave/Moonracer ship please please it’s good

Xenoethnography

canon soup/based in TFP, ongoing series, AO3. a more hard scifi take on Transformers from the POV of an anthropologist hired to study them. y’all, THIS IS GOOD. seriously if there’s one fic out of all of these i could keep, it’d be this one, it’s just so so good ugh. ugh i love it i need to catch up with it again

#fic rec #rec list #macaddam #transformers #transformers fanfiction #long post #hey look its story isnt that weird #theres still a few open on my tab holder i need to get around to rereading and put on here but! thatll be an eventual part 2 ig #if you have any crossovers or isekai esque fics not on here send them my way and i will add them to my to-read list

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msaw · 2 months ago

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im feeling very insane right now and my current interest is these turtles so by some weird geometry proof theorem i am going to go insane over these turtles. i hope you find some enjoyment in my needlessly angry old man rambling

spoilers for tmnt 2012 season 3 episode 2 "a foot too big"

the background plot of this episode explores donnie and april's feelings toward eachother WOOOHOOOO. donnie, being the saint he is, decides to make a custom music box for her. he completely made it himself cause where is he gonna get a pre-made music player from that desolate place theyre in

adorable. so he gives it to april and you know what she does? you wanna know how she reacts?? do you???? do you?!???!?!?!??!?!?!??! she gives a half-assed compliment and "thanks" and then excuses herself and runs off to do god knows what. doesnt even take it with her.

girl if somebody gave me that gift i would instantly fall head over heels for them. WHAT IS HER MAJOR MALFUNCTION!!!!!! even if she doesnt like him back, that is still a gift her friend made for her and she shouldve given him a hug or a firm handshake, or if not that, then at least SOUND a bit more grateful!!!

and then somehow donnie is made out to be the one in the wrong later in the episode. ohhh im gonna asplode

this isnt something id normally get mad at, i am uninterested in unrequited fictional crushes most of the time, and i wouldnt be so mad at this either if it werent for the fact that APRIL KEEPS BAITING HIM!!!!!! AND HE KEEPS FALLING FOR IT!!!!!!!!! she kisses him at the end of the episode. after the anguish she caused him in the beginning she has the audacity to do that. she shouldve kissed him directly after he gave her the music box but she didnt. you missed your chance girl stop trying

afterwards, donnie accurately replicates how i feel after witnessing this heresy

you understand nothing because she IS NOTHING!!! SHES A PLAYER!!!! RUN!!! RUN DONNIE RUN!!!

this could all be avoided if she told him a simple "i dont like you" or "i do like you" but noOOOOooo for some reason its gotta be complicated

ok rambling over. i do believe i just beat a dead horse, but i like to type and tumblr is one of the only two mainstream social medias i use anymore so you get my slop. this is msaw reporting live, more hogwash at 11

p.s. you wont hear this topic from me again tbh

#tmnt #tmnt 2012

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playawner · 3 months ago

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I just saw your Pim and Oscar headcanon post and I saw the tags and now I'm curious. What are your other headcanons? I just think that your headcanon is cool and yeah! :3

OHHH YEAHHHHH sorry if I didn't replied in time! I rarely check my ask box nowadays but I'm glad someone asked!!!! :3

I'm assuming you mean the main 4. However, I think I'll talk about Charlie and Pim first and then in a future post I'll show hcs for the rest ^_^

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Charlie:

A social media I think he would have is totally instagram. Dude's close friends list is to show whatever thing he's in (and to also post himself shirtless sometimes) and nothing really more. Tbh.

He probably got his drinking issues from his uncle. To be fair, I like to think he lived close to where he was in his childhood and teenage years, so his parents would meet him quite often. Charlie grew close to his uncle... which also meant in both good and bad ways. His heart problems are genetic too. Bad luck moment I guess.

This one's a quite more personal but I think he probably appreciated more about what was around him after his death and revival. Though he doesn't admit it often. I quite get it because if you go to hell and are about to get tortured (until God himself brings you back alive in your funneral), I would be too.

This one is semi-popular I know but he got exposed to the internet way too early. God. Kinda feel bad for him because of that.

He sends those Alpha Male videos to Pim, he always gets confused and just replies with a "????"

He met Pim in his first days of working as a Smiling Friend. At first they rarely worked together, but then they're well, the friends we see and appreciate now :-]

Now onto some basic hcs: Cis male (he/him) + Pan. If he was human I'll see him as part Latino too

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Pim:

His sister is older than him, which explains why she thinks he's annoying. They have a 2-4 year gap imo (coming from someone who has older siblings. I can understand this feeling Pim)

Pim probably met Oscar because he found a small letter/paper(? Thing regarding to Spamtopia. It had a number to casually talk to people and since he was young and didn't know better, he decided to call it.

A reason as of why he's a hopeless romantic may be due to his trauma at living in a dysfunctional family. He sometimes would imagine living in a place where his family isn't like the current hell it is,,, kinda sad-

He's Mr Boss' favorite employee! He appreciates this critter's job and how successful he is! :-]

He wears contacts instead of glasses, unlike when he was a kid, but rarely.

He's VERY GOOD at video games, until the point Charlie has to genuinelly compete with him when it comes to playing together. Not just Gwimbly that is, REALLY any video game; mostly fighting and adventure ones!

And other misc ones! Cis male (he/him) + bi. I don't really ship CharPim but I see them as Bi4Pan/Pan4Bi :3

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AAAAHHH SORRY FOR LONG POST can you see I'm very normal about them. Idk if some of them make sense or not but HERE THEY ARE!!!!!!!!!! Hope you enjoyed them anon.

#zash's ask box #long post #smiling friends #charlie dompler #pim pimling #charpim #character headcanons #headcanons #again: if you have more hcs request LET ME KNOW!!!! I love sharing my personal interpretations of things I like :-]

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kate-the1975 · 1 year ago

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The Cherry On Top 🍒 // Matty Healy X OC// Social Media AU

Some more Matty × Amy & Ross × Eve content for the lil series I've got going on 🤭💓

Faceclaims :

Amy Mitchell - Daisy Edgar Jones.

Eve Beaty - India Mullen

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Mitch_Amsxx Baking in a hotel room kitchen was not easy, but doing it in New York is the cherry on top of my new Victoria Sponge Cake recipe🤭. New recipe & video out tomorrow loves xx

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evehewson Obsessed with that smile of yours Gorgeous 🥰

⤷ Mitch_Amsxx Love youuuu xx

Jamie.Mitch you got any games on your phone?

⤷ Mitch_Amsxx Can you stfu 🥰🤭

⤷ Jamie.Mitch That's no way to talk to your little sister 😪

⤷ Mitch_Amsxx 😐😐

Eviebeats I see what you're doing, and I feel physically ill....

⤷ Mitch_Amsxx What? There's nothing going on here? I'm justing baking sweet treats and minding my own business ☺️

⤷ Eviebeats Is that what we're calling this now....sweet treats 😉

⤷ Mitch_Amsxx Don't be gross 🙃

Charli_xcx me × you collab when? 👀

⤷ Mitch_Amsxx Whenever you're free, my angel 🤭🤭

The1975_fan_1 don't know how I've ended up here....but is that Matty in the 2nd pic orrrr.....👁👄👁

⤷ trumanblackstan ohhh 100% I'd know literally half of his face or a pixel of it from a mile away, and that's HIM!

MattysCurlz Who is she, and how does she know Matty 😐

⤷ 75SATVB She's an Irish Baker on Social Media. Don't really know how they know each other, but he started following her back in February 🙃

⤷ MattysCurlz Literally never heard of her before 😭

⤷ 75SATVB Yeah, not a lot of people outside the UK and Ireland have, but here in Ireland (especially Dublin), she's really popular. Everyone just kinda knows who she is

trumanblack ❤️❤️❤️

⤷ User EXCUSE ME 😨

⤷ beckyfrnglomg Hi 👀

⤷ change.of.heartz MATTHEW!? WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

⤷ Ellies_1975 I go for a nap, sleep peacefully, and this is what I woke up to 😃💀

denise_welch can't wait to see what you've cooked up this time love 🤭

⤷ Mitch_Amsxx 🥹❤️

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Eviebeats "You're so beautiful"

"And you're so handsome"

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trumanblack Hi Evie! 👋😊

⤷ Eviebeats Hi Matthew 😐

⤷ 75Fan01 oooo, she doesn't like him (same) 💀

Mitch_Amsxx Oh my days, you are the most beautiful woman I've ever seen 🥹💓

⤷ Eviebeats my lil sunflower 🥹😘💓

Charli_xcx sun-kissed goddess ✨️😍

⤷ Eviebeats sadly its fake because I'm in New York in November, but my god, do I love you, Char 😭💓

carly.rh wow, just wow! Such a beauty inside and out! ❤️🔥

⤷ Eviebeats ILY Mi Amor 💝

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⤷ Eviebeats I feel like I see a pattern here 🥹

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⤷ Eviebeats AHHH!! STOP IT 😭❤️

75DUBLIN OHHHH!!! The Irish fangirls are WINNING!!!

⤷ 1975_Fan_02 YES! Seeing Matty apparently dating an Irish ICON and her best friend Eve being friendly with all of them. The Irish really are winning rn 😭🙏

evehewson Who's out here calling MY wife beautiful, and who TF are you calling handsome🏃‍♀️🤜

⤷ Eviebeats Nobody....just you, bbygirl 😅🙂

⤷ evehewson ummm....sure 👀

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Eviebeats posted on her story :

Hiiii!!!! This is just a lil something while I write Ross & Eve's first date, so bare with me while I jump ahead and make fake posts for the MSG gigs that haven't happened yet 😭❤️

#matty social media au #matty healy fanfiction #matty healy fluff #matty healy imagine #matty healy oneshot #george daniel #the 1975 #matty healy x reader #adam hann #ross mcdonald oneshot #ross mcdonald x reader #ross mcdonald #the 1975 oneshot #ross mcdonald social media au #ross macdonald #matty healy

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thecrabbybarista · 6 months ago

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ohhh my god you read lolita. what are your thoughts on what society and mainly the coquette pinterest community have done with the books image? (ik you like more commentative and engaging asks so, i tried to think of smth you might like ^_^)

THANK YOUUUU this is good

I have some mixed feelings about Lolita's place on aesthetic social media, because I see two ways people use it.

The first way is people who identify with Dolores' pain, who have themselves experienced similar things. Aesthetic is a way many people cope, and I can't really speak on how people cope with a trauma I personally haven't experienced.

The second way ppl use it is people who identify with Lolita, as in the "seductive nymphet" Humbert tries to paint Dolores as. I think that this is also a kind of coping mechanism, just not a healthy one. I know it's common for victims of csa to be in denial so they can feel like they were the one in control, so they don't need to face the fact that they are/were helpless, because being helpless is fucking scary. But it's not a healthy phase to stay in. Plus, I know not everyone in the coquette subculture has experienced that and like it does feel wrong to me to identify with Lolita if you haven't actually gone through that kinda stuff, cause you don't know what that's truly like.

#csa mention

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smallcomets · 7 months ago

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has to be one of my favorite exchanges ive written between steph and jay

"Really? Haven't christened this bad boy yet?"

He snorts at that. "You can't christen shit when you haven't gotten any action in a while," Steph glances at him and raises an eyebrow. "And this is a she , stop misgendering my car when I'm hauling your ass out of Gotham."

"And why is that? You and Artemis still aren't back together?" She questions, folding her feet on her seat. As much as she's annoyed with him right now (she swears she is), Jason's love life has always been a lovely topic among their circle, to the point that Dick and Tim even made a bet on it before. And well, listening to stories about Jason's love life would be more entertaining than scrolling through social media and listening to her playlist. "And how am I supposed to know, you didn't give me the memo on your car's pronouns." She adds.

Jason raises an eyebrow. "You expect us to come back together?"

"Don't you two always come back together though," Steph says in a bored tone as if she's saying an obvious fact (she is). "You two have broken up and gotten together god knows how many times."

"That's rich coming from you," Jason snorts. "Both of my hands can't count the number of times you and Timbers have broken up and gotten back together."

"We dated for like 30 minutes, and that was many moons ago," Steph argues. "Plus we only broke up three times— including the final one."

"30 minutes is an understatement for three years," Jason says unimpressively. "And it only feels like yesterday."

“Jason, we dated when I was 14 , broke up when I was 17. I'm off to college now, that's like a century ago," Steph retorts. "Unlike you two—when did you guys even break up?"

Jason rolls his eyes. "Last year," He says. "We haven't even talked ever since— well not really, there was that instance at Biz's party, but you know what I mean. She's with a girl from Rhode Island now— some mechanic."

" Ohhh . Good for her," Steph says in awe. "No offense." She quickly adds.

"None taken," Jason says in a tight voice. Steph eyes him and fights the urge to grin.

#jaysteph #anyways this is from my puppy au fic called in the mood for love #published it impulsively i cant lie #but!#it was begging me to let it see the light of day

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🤝👴🩸🎟️😈

thank u for the ask!!! ily!!

🤝 which character are you most like?

[head in hands] jack kelly. i actually didn’t really connect to him much, or at least didn’t feel like i did, the first time i watched livesies, but watching 92sies knocked something loose and ohhh my god. he just like me fr and all that. parentless and lies about it not bothering him, has this big easy personality to cover up any ounce of vulnerability, always ends up in charge of situations looking after everybody, no real home just the kids he loved and looked after in each place he stayed, avoidant, dreamer, bisexual, stupid. he’s me.

👴 favourite oldsie?

oldsies my beloved! they’re all my dads. i’m not sure if this means the characters or the actors, but for the characters i love snyder and pulitzer, they’re such fantastic villains - and that post you sent me about bunsen being the real villain for being the one to make the suggestion to raise the price!! fantastic. also, nunzio shoutout. i know that, whatever he gets paid, it is not enough.

🩸 opinion on blood drips heavily on newsies square?

genuinely a cinematic masterpiece. like, even without the context of newsies and it being the cast, if i stumbled upon it i would still love it. i love ridiculous campy horror, and i love boys having fun.

i would give anything to know the discussions and conversations that went into every single scene, particularly each that involved getting other people involved.

🎟️ favourite cast member(s)?

george crawford (uk morris) and matthew duckett (uk crutchie) my absolute beloveds. i’ve met them both twice now and they were both unbelievably sweet both times, they bring amazing depth to the characters and are both insanely talented (especially george covering jack kelly) in playing every part of the characters from humour to honesty to the depths of their traumas, and they’re both hilarious on social media. i miss alex jh (original uk oscar) so dang much, he was also unbelievably fantastic. and mike faist and brendon stimson (obc morris and oscar respectively).

😈 any unpopular opinions?

oh boy. i feel like almost all my delancey opinions are unpopular opinions, mostly boiling down to the fact that they’re not mindless monsters and they’re not meant to be. they’re villains and assholes, obviously and unquestionably, but there’s depth there and there’s always been depth, built right into the script (“i guess he didn’t take care of me”, etc etc), and intentionally dug deeper by practically everyone that’s played them.

also, the newsies are scrappy and ruthless and rude. they’re trouble, and they do it on purpose. they’re assholes almost every chance they get. they’re all kids in rough situations, and kids like that will do anything for a bit of power. it’s not necessarily a reflection of character, it’s just how stuff like trauma manifests, particularly at that age. characterising them as well-socialised and always well-meaning, etc, is a disservice.

#answered #sparkedblaze

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hiyori solo debut stage except it's.n taking an interesting turn

it's a big live night and eden is currently at their Nth song and hiyori's bandmates just went backstage for a second to grab some water and change their outfits, while he was left alone to entertain an audience of approximately 100,000 people.

he's waving at everyone, asking whether they're enjoying their night, and some other regular idol->audience questions, but he can't get rid of that thought hammering deep inside his skull. his brain is itchy. he's gotta do it tonight.

and so it finally clicks inside his head, after doing a usual break talk hes suddenly taking off his fancy stage jacket, sliding down his gloves and throwing it all into a crowd, making the audience scream in anticipation.

"hey look, what the hell is he doing?" nagisa asks, looking at the backstage monitor, "why is he stripping? werent we supposed to do this together later?"

"shut up, this is about to get very interesting!", ibara shouts enthusiastically, inviting his fellow members to stay a minute longer and just watch the situation.

"you do know guys that I'm reading all of your letters, all of your posts on sns about me... ", continues hiyori. "some of you really have no limits... did you really think I'd never see that all?"

so watching everyone's reaction, hiyori smiles widely and gets on top of stage, taking a seat right on the floor, already not being able to control his thoughts anymore. his long ass legs spread wide open because he wants to be sure everyone in the entire arena can get a glimpse.

"I've always thought of different ways of showing my fans more stuff... so that i could be loved by everyone. i got a lot of inspiration before this show when i went to social media to see how excited everyone is. so please just watch" , he says, pulling up the bottoms of his shirt with his teeth and unzipping his pants. letting his long throbbing cock out in front of thousands of people, precum sparkling at the tip of his cock under stage lighting. god what a slut he is.

"oh... seems like everyone is fucking me with their stares... that's okay, you can all record me, you can share it all with your friends" he says, voice muffled from fabric in his mouth, but he doesn't touch himself yet. it's like he decided to show off his dick to the entire world.

ibara and nagisa are smirking at the screen. they both can't believe their eyes, this guy was in fact unusually horny the last few days but they didn't expect him to perform a trick like that. jun, on the other hand... he tries his best not to look at hiyoris dick, clenches his water bottle so hard that the plastic breaks under the pressure.

and just as the idol closes his eyes and starts jerking off and filling the arena with his moans, panicked staff shuts down the stage lighting and just drags overly horny wheezing hiyori away from the stage.

he leaves the audience screaming, his members mouths agape, twitter trends exploding with his name.

the next day the internet was filled with 4k 60fps fancams of hiyori stroking his cock like the gigaslut he is.

next time on Eden live: hiyori fucking himself with a lightstick?!

ohhh my fucking god. as jun would say. GODDAMN.

nonnie this is so good. I need more content of hiyori just being a slut

#nsft es!!#enstars smut #thirsts #hiyori tomoe smut

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amyyythestarry · 1 year ago

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Tsukasa’s a Himiko Toga kinnie. And a Pinkie Pie kinnie.

Amane/Hanako is a Omori kinnie, and a Donnie + Leo kinnie.

Mitsuba is a Duck ( From DHMIS ) and a Sally Starlet kinnie.

Sakura is a Glitter Breeze and Glitter Ace kinnie. ( Can u tell I ran out of ideas )

Natsuhiko’s a Real Love Song by Nothing But Thieves and Line Without A Hook by Ricky Montogomery kinnie…

But, I thought of this thing that’s popular amongst friends, and my friends that definitely also relate to TBHK friend groups, even ones I made up.

In New Blues there are really only two main friend groups at first and one of them are called Aegean, that has Natsuhiko + Sakura + Mitsuba + Tsukasa + Amane + Y/n. ( Did I ever mention Y/n’s in this au?) I called it Aegean bc I had no other ideas and the au is called ‘New Blues’, and Aegean is a shade of blue.

This kinda has nothing to do with the kinnie thing.

Y’know when friends come up with code names, like for crushes and people they don’t like? Yeah, that’s the Aegeans.

Little scenario.

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Tsukasa and Mitsuba are minding their business in Kamome’s high school building library. Mitsuba was on his phone scrolling through social media, and Tsukasa was doing homework he had, that he definitely wasn’t going to do it at home because it was Friday.

Mitsuba keeps looking up at his phone occasionally, at Tsukasa or to just gaze at his surroundings. The one time he does it though, he spots a new face in the library in between two book cases, the person looked to be trying to find a book. Because it was a library, obviously.

But Mitsuba gasped a little, and patted Tsukasa’s shoulder several times to get his attention.

Tsukasa turned off his music, Gimme Chocolate by BABYMETAL, and looked at Mitsuba.

“Hmm?”

“Oh my god, oh my god, look it’s mango!!!” He whisper-yelled.

Tsukasa looked around him, and saw no mangos, so he turned to Mitsuba confused.

“What mango-??” He said with a regularly-voluminous voice, and his best friend instantly shushed him.

The noise that they were making made the person turn to them, and smile as she walked towards the table they sat at.

“Don’t say anything Tsu.” Mitsuba whispered to Tsukasa one more time before he pretended like he was on his phone again.

Tsukasa, confusingly, continued to write on his paper homework.

“Hey Mitsuba-san, and Tsukasa-san! If you don’t mind, could I ask you guys do you know where the Sci-Fi books are?” The girl asked sweetly.

Mitsuba looked up, unnoticeably having a small blush on his cheeks.

“Ohhh, yeah! I think it’s over there somewhere, near the librarian’s desk. I’m sorry if that’s not it though..!” He laughed nervously.

He knew where the Sci-Fi section was, he reads them. ( As well as Tsukasa but he didn’t look up from his paper because he was told to not say anything )

“Oh, thank you Mitsuba-san! If it’s not there I’ll just ask the librarian. She’s a little rude though, so I wanted to avoid her..”

“Uh, yeah! I understand!”

The girl walked away towards where Mitsuba said, and Mitsuba breathed a sigh.

Tsukasa noticed the girl walking away, and turned to Mitsuba again. “Who is that??”

Mitsuba turned to him as well with a deadpan face.

“You seriously don’t remember..?”

“No.”

He facepalmed, “Tsukasa-kun, that’s Maoi, the one freshman from our gym class. ‘Mango’, remember??”

Tsukasa looked totally lost.

“No, no I don’t remember. Mango??? What?”

“God Tsukasa-kun, did you not hear me ramble about her to you last week.”

“So…. We don’t like her.. Or—“

“No we like her, at least I do! She’s kind and pretty!”

Tsukasa thought for a second before oh-ing really long and loudly.

“You like her!” Tsukasa smiled.

“Shhhhhh!!” Mitsuba shushed him, “Don’t say that out loud, what’s wrong with you! It’s just a little crush! Like a hallway one!”

“Oh, well I wish I knew about her early.”

Mitsuba looked at Tsukasa like he was a dumba**, and Tsukasa turned to his homework again. Now listening to The End by BABYMETAL and Lil Uzi Vert.

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That wasn’t that long, but I thought that was a funny scenario.

Tsukasa’s friend group just comes up with code names for people, and he has no idea what they’re talking about.

I know the whole Aegean group wasn’t included but that’s ok.

Anyways, that’s it.

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