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confession i sleep with a venom plush i got from universal but also the important thing is--is that i feel like my sleeping quality has improved substantially

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i was going to break my fast but seeing how disgusting these fucking people are in my house i literally want to starve forever

i’d rather be a skinny american in canada sorry!!

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you guys REALLY need to check out the fasting subreddit because literally these guys are out here going like “heh 😅 finished my 285hr fast! feelin’ good out here!”

and well i feel like coming from a ed perspective that would be immensely difficult due to the fact all thats on my mind is “is someone going to make me eat” “i can eat when x y z”

it’s different for everyone i think… but good lawrd some people in there talk about 30 day water fasts and im like please lemme get a chance like that

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okay i’m at 21hrs and going strong but do i eat baked potato (iam) counting that as 500

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*checks eating disorder timer* yes in about 150 days i will be 100lbs hmm… yes… interesting….

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the brain fog is INSANE today i can’t even look at malespo without being like guhhh glup glup glup glup

i literally got 8hrs+ of sleep last night like gtfo here i’m gonna just take a fish oil pill

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help a disabled trans man afford food, necessities and start saving for top surgery in a few years? my name is silas and ive just (finally) set up an etsy shop to sell custom patches ^w^ if you cant buy, please share. i currently live in unsafe situations (between parents, exes etc) and struggle to afford food while trying to recover from an ED. anything helps 🖤🐾 link is at the top of this post and in my profile. UK ONLY RIGHT NOW

╰┈➤ etsy unfortunatley takes money from what i sell, and i cant even afford food properley let alone shipping. please dont comment "the price is too high" etc

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after just one month of not shaving my happy trail--my hairs are officially 1 inch long

is that normal for some of you?? my dad has hella body hair so it could be from that

i remember my bio mom demonizing it but.... its fluffy hair there.... how could you not want it to grow and play with it......

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all of the sudden these ed/sh fic ideas keep popping up in my head and they’re so good i just have to dedicate a day to write about it on ao3

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binge today and then i’m going go spiritually delude myself into thinking the simon in my head is also fasting with me…. so that’s sat and sunday and then in the end i’m gonna buy myself a reward if i do good :3

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kind of ate over my limit?? i had some ice cream so around 880kcal rn plus a lil cake… i mean, i’m still gonna eat dinner BUUUUTTTT tomorrow i’m going to try fasting/omad saturday and sunday so woot woot

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i think irl malespo makes me so much more motivated it’s crazy because i had no idea seeing boy tummy would make me go wild

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just blew my mind learning that a lot of transgender fellas have eds like me

like i know i’m not alone but wow like i had no idea it was so many

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currently working towards being 135lbs because why in the world would my aunt and cousin say that 135lbs for me at 5’3” is unhealthy… that it’s a weight for a 14 year old. WHAT !!! not being mean but you’ve been obese your whole life and have normalized it to the point that anyone who has a slightly flat stomach is anorexic and unhealthy

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screams loudly

rex ive seen the things youve done for others.......

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getting so humbled after thinking i was skinnier like dude come on

it’s ok tho

today’s calories is 490 for breakfast and lunch, i dunno about dinner but i’m keeping it under 800

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resonating so hard right now

He would not fucking do that