#i know the answer. bc i am autistic bc i am a girl bc i am a human in this world who is very sensitive

[spacelazarwolf]

You keep claiming you’re not a Zionist but in one of the asks you just answered you LITERALLY tell people to READ ZIONIST PROPAGANDA. You are going full mask off and it’s astonishing that your groupies don’t see that

are u talking abt the ask where i told ppl they should read literature written by zionists, or at least do some non social media research into the basics of the ideology, so they can construct a well-formed argument for why they disagree with it rather than just Because The Internet Told Me To. am i also a te/rf bc i read jkr’s essay calling trans men autistic little girls who are being mutilated by the gender cult in order to know what the fuck i was talking abt when i tore it to shreds.

how did we get to the point where “you should think for yourself and seek information about topics you want to talk about so you can form an educated opinion about it” is seen as propaganda is it opposite day or am i just going insane.

[aq2003]

because nobody asked here is some deranged rambling/commentary about bbc3 audio drama twelfth night bc i listened to it again to jot down the timestamps and i am annoying (sorry). this is sort of long so i have hidden it under the readmore

going off the point i made in the previous post about rearranging 1.1 to be after 1.2 but the delicious foreshadowing in "will you go hunt, my lord?" "what, cesario?" "the hart" that occurs when it's viola/cesario talking to orsino rather than curio

also by rearranging 1.1 and 1.2 this means the audience is first told that both olivia's father and brother are dead, and then we see valentine reporting on olivia shutting herself in just to grieve her brother. almost like everything orsino knows about olivia is secondhand, incomplete information from his messengers

viola forgetting to make her voice deeper when talking to orsino for a second before catching herself is such a great detail. i like how you still get the sense of "disguise" without any visuals to accompany it

her voice gets a little higher when orsino is up close to her anyway

funeral bells ringing when we first meet olivia. she lost her family!! leave her alone guys!!

this may just be me but i feel like olivia's and malvolio's voices complement each other soooo well. they both have this "serious mature grounded" vibe when they're introduced + they're talking to feste. and of course this is true to the text cuz of olivia's line in 3.4 "he is sad and civil and suits well for a servant with my fortunes"

this also means that olivia and malvolio feel like a more proper match for each other. they sound like they're about the same age, their personalities gel w one another. it makes malvolio genuinely thinking that the letter is real + he has a chance w/ her a lot more believable (and sad)

"what kind o’ man is he?" "...why..... of mankind?" "what manner of man?" just trust me on this one when i say the way this is played makes me truth for autistic malvolio. malvolio being confused by what she's asking but trying to give her an answer anyway, and olivia emphasizing the clarification like this kind of miscommunication has happened a bunch of times

viola and olivia in 1.5 have chemistryyyyy. viola/cesario is putting on The Moves for her, and i think is EXACTLY how this scene should always be played. pulling open the curtains and opening the window!!! lifting olivia's veil!!! letting in the light!!! (what a metaphor). making her laugh by poking fun at toby and malvolio!!! swooping into her life and leaving her breathless w their sheer audacity!!!!!

basically, shoutout to naomi frederick who so clearly plays viola as being Very Into Olivia Herself rather than just being a mouthpiece for orsino and doing it for him. i can REALLY believe why olivia falls for her

the fact that "malvolio has to outrun viola on horseback" is explicitly not how 2.2 is staged in the text it's just they want to emphasize that this version of malvolio is so committed to doing anything for olivia no matter what

"you might have saved me my pains to have taken [the ring] away yourself" is now SO much more funny lmao

the fact malvolio gives viola the ring, viola throws it back, and THEN malvolio throws it down on the ground (as opposed to him just throwing it down on the ground like in the text) pleaseeeeee he doesn't get paid enough for this

the satisfied way viola says "i am the man" like she takes pride in the fact that she won olivia over and her only regret about it is "but we're both girls.... :(" mx bisexual disaster.......

i did make a bunch of "what the hell is wrong with you maria lol" posts but i will say that her actions do make more sense with how she's played here in 2.3 ie when she comes up to tell them that olivia/malvolio wants them to quiet down she's laughing and joining in with their singing anyway bc they're having such a good time (rather than like. she and malvolio are both fed up with them but malvolio is meaner about it and this suddenly makes her decide to plot his downfall)

it makes that bit where malvolio is like "maria if you care about olivia at all you will stop fucking tolerating this nonsense" hit that much harder bc he's extending his threat to toby towards her too. i don't think he's just making it up, i think he's putting his foot down for olivia bc she doesn't have the heart to do it herself but Lmao he really IS the kid that reminds the teacher that there's homework due today

viola suddenly stopping the music as she stares straight at orsino and goes "of your complexion". i can Hear the look in her eyes as she says this.

like godddd i love this viola so much

orsino going on his whole tirade about how women don't have the same capacity for love as men do, to viola's face, while the ocean roars in the background?? saying "[my love] is all as hungry as the sea?" OUCH.

because when viola says "i know too well what love women to men may owe", she isn't just talking about her love for orsino. she's also talking about her grief over her brother

and this makes SUCHHH a great segway into viola/cesario talking about their "sister". she's still grieving sebastian!! the memory of him is haunting her and she's tried to push it down but the (indirect) accusation that she had nothing in her heart for him is bringing it all back

AND THIS IS WHY THEY MOVED 2.1 TO RIGHT AFTER THIS... TO SHOW BOTH VIOLA AND SEBASTIAN GRIEVING THE OTHER BACK TO BACK... AUGHHHH IT'S SO PERFECT

i have yelled about malvolio in 2.5 in the tags here already but my god. can someone please help him

"'tis but fortune, all is fortune" he says after immediately tripping and falling on his face. it suddenly makes the line sarcastic and malvolio is dwelling on his general unluckiness lmao. and then he says that part about olivia potentially being in love with him to make himself feel better

"revolve... revolve? no." He exists in an audio-only format and he cannot do a little spin. this is so sad

the fact you can HEAR the happy tears streaming down his face by the end esp from the breathless way he says "i thank my stars, i am happy!!!!" truly hilarious and embarrassing and heartbreaking all at once!!! i am being killed to death listening to this!!!!!

"a ring in chase of you... so did I abuse myself, my servant, and, i fear me, you" olivia girl whatever you're paying malvolio it isn't enough

THE WAY THEY PLAY THE WHOLE "THEN THINK YOU RIGHT I AM NOT WHAT I AM" AS VIOLA ASSUMING THAT OLIVIA KNOWS SHE'S A GIRL AND EXPECTING A CONFRONTATION BUT INSTEAD SHE CONFESSES HER LOVE IS SOOOO LMAOOOOOOOOOOO

viola vs her internalized homophobia coming off as cesario going "sorry olivia i am gay" kills me every time. this isn't a commentary on the adaptation i think this is probably one of the funniest moments in the play just in general

3.4 makes me want to hit my head against a wall btw get them both out of there

the sound effect after malvolio says "yellow in my legs" makes me think he pulled up a chair and put a leg up on it. which would be super funny if i wasn't trying to not listen to what's happening rn

the "sweet roman hand" was originally malvolio talking about olivia's handwriting but here he says it after she slaps him djhgwjhgjwfbwmfw

malvolio struggling to pronounce the word "slough" has made ME forget how the word is supposed to actually be pronounced, btw

"souls and bodies hath he divorced three" "THREE??" "three!"

THE FUCKING FENCING SOUND EFFECTS KILL ME SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭

the only real complaint i have w this adaptation is that antonio is not nearly as down bad for sebastian as he should be. they even cut out his "beauteous evil" lines. this is so sad

andrew: i should fight cesario [gets beat up] damn cesario got hands

why did they do that to malvolio man

my heart cracked in two at the first "sir topas?" and genuinely every line delivery david did after that made me want to cry. i have a problem

they had to cut out feste and malvolio arguing about pythagoras because this malvolio is nowhere There enough to do anything but scream and beg for help like he keeps repeating it's so dark and i'm in hell and i'm not crazy and please give me candle pen ink and paper bc He's Been There Long Enough That He's Losing His Perception Of Reality And Feste's Gaslighting Is Not Helping

really like how malvolio and sebastian are contrasted by splitting 4.2 into two parts. something something class difference

sebastian is thinking to himself "what the fuck is happening, am i actually just insane" and then there's an immediate cut to the second part of 4.2 where we know malvolio is feeling the same way. But like. in an "exact opposite nightmare situation" kind of way

sorry the way malvolio says "ay, good fool". i need david to pay for my god damn emotional damages

we now cut from this horror scene to sebastian getting it on with this woman that he just met

the genuine pity in olivia's voice when talking to malvolio…….which obviously does not make the situation better for him in any way…………

sorry it is so fucking crazy to me that malvolio made the (true!) observation that feste can't do anything unless people laugh at him and give him money and feste takes it SO personally that he decides to psychologically torture him

potentially a weakness of the adaptation in itself for doing all this but i was not lying when i said that at the end of listening to it i couldn't feel anything except for abject despair at what happened to malvolio. none of this is funny!!!! oh my fucking god!!!!!

However what i did gain from this is that malvolio is my bleebo blorbo and i have several more emotions about him

anyway

[puppydrew]

💗 I N T R O 💗

18+ MINORS DNI

✧ Helloooo :3 my name is Drew! Here’s a little getting to know me. I’m a very shy girlie but I’d love to make new friends and talk to people. Feel free to dm me or send asks. Interested in role playing but I don’t have a lot of experience. ✧

24

Cis Female

Bisexual

I am welcoming of all queer folk and do not treat trans ppl as a kink! Pls feel safe to interact w/ me.

Autistic (sorry if I come across strangely in my words/phrasing)

Not partnered

4’10”

I am submissive

Icky Stuff

Kinks: age gap, anal, BDSM, biting, breeding, boots, choking, cnc, cockwarming, coercion, control, corruption, creampies, cuck*, daddy, ddlg, dominance, edging, eye-contact, face-fucking, fauxcest, fingering, forced, free-use, groupplay, guns, hairpulling, hands, humiliation*, hypnosis, intoxication, kidnapping, male sub, masochism, military, mommy, monster, overstim, piss (withholding), praise, primal, protectiveness, puppyplay, scent, smoking, soft dom, somno, starving*, submissive, teasing, voice, and vomit*

Bold- favorites <3

*- iffy on these

Nope: actual beastiality, actual incest, actual pregnancy, actual rape, bondage, carpet, extreme pain, feet, feeder/feedee, gags, genital torture, grandparent, misgendering, misogyny, mean name-calling, scat, s/h, slave, STIs/STDs, tickling, transphobia, urinal, vore, voyeurism, and weight gain

+ May edit this list! Not definitive. +

🐁 I prefer Gentle Dominance over everything! It goes a long way 💗

🦢 If you are outright violent or abhorrently gross to me I will likely not answer or reciprocate

🐶 I’m not superrr into male submissives bc I’m not that good at being dominant >\\\\< however I think y’all are cute

Names

☑️ angel, baby, doll, good girl, honey, lovely, lovebug, puppy, sweetie, sweetheart (aaaah I can’t think of more)

Please don’t be scary ❤︎

[potter-head-phanatic]

Upcoming Fics!

Hey everyone, I just wanted to share a list of fics that I have been working on, in order! Sorry I havent really been active recently but I am done school for the summer so I will be writing a lot more for the next 3 and a half months! Particularly about Bridgerton because season 3 part 1 has me in my feels 😭

Masterlist Bridgerton siblings x fem!Bridgerton Type of fic: One Shot Request: 8 times y/n was there for her siblings and the time they were there for her Requested by: me Ambrose Spellman x reader Type of fic: Song fic (Hurricane Drunk by Florence + The Machine) Request: Reader and Ambrose were together a long time ago. He fell out with her over something, idk over what? She still loves him all these years later. They're at the Spellman house as there's a party to celebrate the end of Ambrose's House imprisonment. Reader finds it hard to watch him dancing with someone else and being affectionate with them Requested by: Anon Jane Volturi x Autistic!Fem!Reader Type of fic: Headcannon Request: just jane and an autistic fem reader were they like jump and clap when happy and will refuse to wear velvet and talks about harry potter 24/7 because its there special interest Requested by: @bigirl49 Billy Marlin x Reader Type of fic: One Shot Request: they plot would be like i'm a witch and Billy liked it bc he see me in the mortal school whit Sabrina Requested by: Anon Colin Bridgerton x Fem!Reader Type of fic: One Shot Request: perhaps colin becomes obsessed with a girl who is lower class or not in society, but she doesn’t really want to get married. her parents are very forceful (it’s a chance for them to all finally have money) along with colin, as he will not take no for an answer and only wants reader. you can make it as dark as you’re comfortable with! i’d love to see colin forcing her to start a family with him and maybe she grows to love him after all. thank you & feel free to change any details! Requested by: @flowercrowns-goodvibes Paul Lahote x Fem!Human!Reader Type of fic: Song fic (Average Girl by Emily Osment) Request: Before Paul phased for the first time, he was in a long term relationship with you. Things were going great, until they weren't. He cheats on you, feeling like he wasn't good enough for you and that he would ruin you, wanting you to be away from him, until he imprints on you Requested by: me Emmett Cullen x Fem!Lahote!Reader Type of fic: One Shot Request: Y/N, the sister of resident hot head Paul Lahote finally convinces him to let her train with them to get ready to fight the new born army. Little did she know, she was going to learn more than just battle strategies. Requested by: me

[krowbby]

yoooo discworld for the ask thing if no one's done that yet!

001 | Send me a fandom and I will tell you my:

Favorite character: Polly Perks or Agnes Nitt (agnes is so underrated, give my girl her flowers)

Least Favorite character: I'm not gonna pick a villain bc I feel like that's a cop-out. Sooo for more or less "good" characters I'd say Fred Colon. I respect the space in the narrative he inhabits but I wouldn't want to hang out with him

5 Favorite ships (canon or non-canon): Shipping isn't the main way I partake in Discworld tbh, but here goes - Pollymal (duh), Susan/Lobsang (what could've been... even just as a friendship!), Angua/Sally (yeah), SamSybil (pure fluff tbh), maybe Lofty/Tonker or Agnes/Andre (the pianist from Maskerade).

Character I find most attractive: Sally von Humpeding, baby! Snarky butch vampire? I never stood a chance. I just wish we got to spend more time with her.

Character I would marry: NGL being married to most Discworld characters would stress me out. I think Susan Sto Helit and I could have a good marriage because we're both educators and she tries so hard to have a normal life lmao.

Character I would be best friends with: I think Agnes and I would get along. That girl would love karaoke night

A random thought: I have mixed feelings about the new audiobooks. Some of them are good but the audio balancing is weirdly off between the narration and footnotes. I think they should have just got Nigel Planar to do all the books he hadn't done and same with Stephen Briggs so that all the fans would be happy /j

An unpopular opinion: Not as unpopular on Tumblr but Pterry isn't above criticism! He's clearly one of my fave authors and I think he did a lot of good writing but he obviously had faults and it does him a disservice to pretend he was some kind of saint.

My canon OTP: This one is hard bc there aren't actually a ton of canon ships in Discworld, but my fave is SamSybil. Mostly I'm just a ride or die for Sybil and Sam makes her happy so I will always ship it. Lofty/Tonker is also up there.

Non-canon OTP: PollyMal even though like its bascially canon imo. But y'all already knew this about me

Most badass character: Truly how can you answer this for Discworld. I'm gonna go with Tiffany Aching for beating the Queen of the Fairies at 9 entire years old! (I also read this when I was about her age so I have a soft spot for her.)

Pairing I am not a fan of: I am an autistic aroace Vetinari truther and so I simply cannot get behind V/V. I'm glad y'all are having fun with that though

Character I feel the writers screwed up (in one way or another): I wanted more Agnes. I think she was going to be the up and coming witch before Tiffany came on the scene and I LOVE Tiff but I still wish Agnes could have had a more concrete arc.

Favourite friendship: This should've been the ship question, I feel like friendships are where this series shines. Angua&Cheery is really sweet, Granny&Nanny is so funny and you can tell they care so much about each other.

I'm adding a question for my top 5 books in the series: Monstrous Regiment (duh again), Thief of Time (oddly a companion book to Night Watch, read it!), Carpe Jugulum, Wyrd Sisters, The Fifth Elephant. (I know the Watch subseries is the most popular, but guys the other books are so good!!!)

[dyelwi]

1, 7, 12, 17 for Ms Athena Cykes since she’s your current icon?

Athena my beloved aaa I love talking about her any chance I get hehe putting this under a read more bc it’s gonna get LONG

1. Why I like her: so so many reasons. Where do I even start lol um I’ll start w just her personality!!! Ace attorney has a lot of characters in the “peppy happy girl” category but Athena has always stood out to me because of her unique quirks and how well she bounces off any and every other character!! Her dynamics w other characters (esp Simon and Apollo) are always really really good, and I think she’s a really strong character that a lot of ppl overlook due to not liking aa5 as much as other games (which, btw, I’ve never seen anyone fault athena for, it’s usually the cases themselves and the handling of Phoenix and maybe Apollo they don’t like but notice how athena is like never complained about in terms of writing quality, at least from what I see lol). She feels cartoony and realistic at the same time, which is hard to achieve but is also exactly what aa protags need!! Her trauma and trauma responses are compelling for the mystery aspect of her story while also being compelling just in general, which isn’t always the case in these sorts of games, and I just really like how she’s written overall.

And ofc I have to mention I just have a really personal connection with her. As an autistic person w adhd I saw myself in her more than in p much any other character, but whereas when I first got into ace attorney I was gloomy and grumpy Athena was so energetic and so dedicated to helping ppl that I just really looked up to her, and even now I consider her to be like almost a role model in some sense?? And her being into psych pushed me more into psych than I already was and is probably part of what has led me to where I am now— graduating with a psych degree this year and going on to pursue grad school and a career in mental health counseling. Athena just makes me so happy and she’s so good at helping people despite and even because of her (probable) autism and I wanna be able to make people happy and help them too yknow???

7. Something the fandom does w her that I like: tbh not a ton lol, but I always appreciate when people see how she can very easily be interpreted as autistic and they work that into fan content!! I also appreciate the calls for an athena centric game, as I think she was very strong in aa5 but needs a little bit more. I truly think she could be like THE strongest written female character I’ve ever seen if she got just another bit of an arc and capcom doesn’t mess it up lol. I actually have faith in capcom tho, ik that’s a bit uncommon but if tgaa is any example of the sorta writing they can do i have faith.

12. A headcanon— besides the obvious and like basically implied neurodivergencey, I like to think she likes animals, specifically more uncommon ones!!! I think she should have a pet, maybe some sort of reptile or bird. Simon has a bird, maybe she gets one too lol. I like sun conures a lot and they do have athena vibes tbh

17. A ship with her I’m fine with/don’t hate but also isn’t my favorite: hmm well by now you probably know I’m a big justicykes fan but other than that I don’t ship her too hard w anyone??? I guess after justicykes I’d say her and pearl might be my next choice, it’s a rare one but I think they could be cute!! But since I lean towards liking that one instead of being neutral, I suppose the true answer to this question would be junithena. I’m like. Entirely neutral on it lol. I think they’re real fun as friends but I just never saw the romantic spark everyone else seems to see??? Who knows tho, maybe when me and my gf play aa5 together I’ll see it. A lot of the fan art is super cute but I just never really got the romance vibe w them idk

[napping-sapphic]

Hello! I have a Situation and its totally cool if you're not able to give advice but im looking for advice anyway bc im autistic and have no idea how to navigate romantic situations.

So ive had a friend since i was 12 her pronouns are she/they so i will be using both. Im now 20 and they're 21. I've known I like girls since i was 13. And shes pan.

So, in the past, ive had like fleeting thoughts of dating/kissing them but i usually just shake my head and think "nah i cant possibly want to date her bc they're my best friend, i just have very strong platonic feelings." Like Very Strong. Ive literally said that i will always compare my feelings for a future romantic partner with my feelings for her bc they're so strong.

So im honestly not sure if i would know if i was in love with someone unless it hit me in the face, and i am currently feeling like it has hit me in the face. I woke up at like 4 am last night from a dream just thinking "omygosh im in love with her" and ive been journaling and thinking all day ahout my feelings and im starting to think ive just been in strong denial/oblivious about my feelings. Both bc im autistic and have difficulty identifying emotions and bc im demiromantic and rarely experience romantic attraction so i dont have much experience with it.

I guess the point of this ask is about any advice you can give regarding knowing if i actually have romantic feelings and if i do,, like what do i do about it??? Should i tell them? We have a really strong friendship and i dont wanna make her uncomfortable. I think ill be okay not acting on my feelings but its been literally less than 24 hrs since realizing my feelings might be romantic and i dont know if it will be difficult to hide or what to do about it. They're also like my only close friend so i cant just ask her what to do like i would normally, which is why im asking you.

Again, i understand if you cant answer this bc its a pretty personal situation but i would appreciate any advice.

Thank you! :)

Ahh once again prefacing with the fact that I am really Not Qualified to give advice on most things😅 but I can give you my take as an outsider on the situation and with my (very limited experience) in case that might help you at all, but again really take all of this with a LARGE grain of salt i am a VERY unqualified stranger on the internet so most of what i say is probably nonsense😅

I feel like this is like my go to advice but I’d say just wait it out tbh, as someone who was in capital L love with their childhood best friend for a while it really just came down to time for me. It took a while for me to be sure whether the feelings were romantic or platonic for SURE. Especially since the platonic love stayed for me even when the romantic love began🤷‍♀️ it made it extra tricky to tell lol.

My ‘oh this is NOT just platonic’ realization came from YEARS of excessive thinking about them, WAY too much jealousy when they dated other people, a LOT of thoughts and urges about holding their hand, a lot of comparing them to people i had passing crushes on, and (i kid you not) an embarrassing amount of love poems teenage me wrote about them lol😅

However! The slow process and thinking it through also lead me to the conclusion that i did NOT want to date them. Being a couple just wouldn’t work for us and I value them so so so SO much as my best friend and really need them in my life as that separate, constant, platonic relationship that I deeply love and care for. It works better for us than any sort of dating could🤷‍♀️ not to mention all of our other clashing traits that just wouldn’t work if our relationship was romantic. And now I’m honestly really not romantically interested in them anymore, they’re just my best friend and always will be :)

I dont think it’s too unusual to fall a bit (or a lot) romantically in love with a best or close friend, I think the more important thing to recognize is whether it’s something worth acting on, that you’re willing to act on, and that will be good for both of you to act on

So I’d say ruminate on it! There’s no pressure to figure it out, if you start getting too preoccupied with it you can try talking it through with them, not even as a confession type thing, you can simply have a conversation letting them know you’re a little confused or wanting their opinion if you think they’ll be receptive to it. Best I can tell you is that there’s no clock on figuring it out, there’s no “right” way to define what type of love you feel, and to remember that either way you’ve got a great person in your life. I’m very sorry I can’t be more help and if anyone has any other advice feel free to leave it in the notes for this person! Good luck to you and I hope you find what you’re looking for soon <3!!

[algolagniaa]

being the first trans kid wasnt really That big of a deal. there was one guy in particular who had a crush on me and tried to guess my gender and after i wouldnt tell him he looked at my feet (in converse) and said girl. i was nonebiney at the time so thats why i didnt say anything. and autistic and 12.

other than that, i got called to the counselor because he heard i wanted to be called frankie (from the mcr guy) and asked about my gender and if i wanted to change to male in the school system (i didn't because of changing rooms. and like... i knew still. on some level.) i later found out his adult son is transF, so that and being a typical eager pnw lib is probably why he was so supportive and intrigued.

i also remember after i changed my name to a different male name and said that i wanted to be called that in class, the one other Arab boy in class raised his head up like ⁉️. but he didn't say anything. you probably know who i am now 🖤

bestie i'm going to be so honest i'm pretty good at guessing who anons are and i knew who you were from your first message. but I wasn't trying to say so bc if you want the veneer of anonymity who am I to deny you that

i LOVE that you named yourself after frank iero that's badass. I like less that the school counselor was so eager to change your gender. but it sounds like you overall had a pretty chill experience!

also i wouldn't have answered the guy either but i'm curious why he thought your feet were giving girl lmao

[arcplaysgames]

someone asked me a while about about my ideal persona cast using the P3/P4/P5 casts and i didn't answer because this was back when we just got futaba so i didn't know

now I feel I have a bit more of a handle so

The Protagonist: femmeswap Joker. yes i still want to be able to play a girl so fucking bad and i'm mad the game will not let me. i feel like Joker and FeMC would be tight bc they are both fucking weirdos.

The Best Friend Guy: i am agonizing over yosuke vs junpei but I'm gonna say Junpei because I liked having a bro that much. I like Yosuke but only when he's devastatingly closeted and in love with P4MC. I would be friends with Junpei IRL.

The Uncool Girl: I really like Ann but Yukari was great, she was gay as hell, and she had a very interesting arc. I liked how she gave huge "girl friend who secretly dislikes you and is just being nice" vibes but evolved into an extremely sharp plot catalyst who asked smart questions and was super perceptive.

The Polite Girl With A Family Legacy: Makoto was never in the running here, but Yukiko vs Mitsuru is hard. Mitsuru has nonbinary swagger and a motorcycle, but Yukiko is actually really funny and charming...... I'm gonna say Yukiko by a hair.

The Weird Loveable Dude Who I Personally Wanna Date In Each Game: Yusuke vs Kanji vs Akihiko. god, don't make me pick between Akihiko the Autistic Boxer King and Kanji the literal best character in P4. I refuse to pick. Both win.

Yusuke loses because the game forgot he's a loveable weirdo about 20 hours ago and he's just another voice in cutscenes now and i'm sad about it.

The Navigator: oh my god Fuuka vs Futaba is so fucking hard. I wanted to date Fuuka so bad and she's still the most useful of the actual navigators, she's the only one who just gives you a full scan of the enemies when you ask. but Futaba is a fucking delight and her struggle with agoraphobia and social anxiety isn't played up, it's so on point, yeah I'm gonna go Futaba but Fuuka, I still love you!!!!!

Late-Comer Who Doesn't Get Enough Screentime: i don't want to blow any minds but i think i like Haru the most out of these, I'm really loving her Empress arc. Naoto was super interesting up until they joined the party, then the game got scared to do anything with her. nah.

The Guest Party Member: Shinjiro vs Akechi. SIGHS. it's gotta be Akechi unfortunately.

The Mascot Animal: Teddie, no question. Morgana is a close second but I cried about Teddie. hmmmm but morgana is a cat that lives in your school bag......... NO it's teddie! I can't not reward Sam Reigel for the fucking WORK he did!

The Special Edition Character: Marie. Kasumi has suffered soooooo much from feeling tacked onto the story in an extremely sloppy way. With Marie, that... kind of was perfect given who and what she was, it almost aided in the feeling of her as a superfluous vestigial limb of the game that you opt-into caring about. Also her becoming a weather forecaster was hilarious. Kasumi really really needs some fucking edge.

(also, random complaint, Maruki feels MUCH LESS TACKED ON than Kasumi, so i KNOW they could have done a better job integrating her. whatever.)

Velvet Room Attendant: Margaret. I'm sorry, I'm shallow and she's incredibly hot and that line asking the PC to entangle her in his thread of fate was hot. Also the moment she kisses the PC is great. Sorry Liz.

Bad Vibes Bad Guy: Ryoji vs Adachi vs Akechi. This is impossible because all three of them are atrocious in their own ways. Also, I haven't seen Akechi's dismount yet. HOWEVER..... as fun as Akechi shooting Joker was, and it was very fun, I don't think he comes close to P4MC vs Adachi in Yamano's room. The framing, the cinematography, the sudden shock of his Arcana changing, it was phenomenal. JYB absolutely killed that performance. Adachi.

Last Minute Baddie No One Cares About: Izanami vs Shido vs huh p3 doesn't have that huh. I'm gonna say Shido because no I don't care, but at least he's been mildly set up as the baddie where izanami, all you get is Edogawa giving you a four minute lecture on the creation myth of Japan and then you gotta remember that 40 hours later when the fucking gas station attendant turns out to be evil. It's dumb. At least Shido has backstory with Joker.

that was fun! it's interesting to see the reused tropes and pick which i like.

[campgender]

ROY KENT? toxic masculinity-roy fuckin kent? oh hell nah, sorry in advance, this is gonna be long, you just jinxed yourself mentioning that. ;_; whoever said that did NOT watch enough of that boy because his masculinity is beautiful and there's genuinely nothing toxic about it at all. like, we did not watch him suck all his bitchiness up to have a relationship with his girl just for him to get called toxic. not to mention...

FIRST on my list of his display's of butchness: this is Roy "I gave my girlfriend head while she watched a video of me crying my head off" fuckin Kent! Y'all are not gonna pin him for toxic masculinity, c'mon. If that ain't the most butch-ass shit I've ever heard of...

SECOND: I'd put a lot more weight into the suggestion of toxic masculinity if he'd stayed the way he'd been at the beginning of the show but this is a man who grew a fuck-ton even in just the first couple episodes, not to mention throughout the show (which I haven't finished).

He's not a bully, which is surprising for such a hyper-masculine character. Hair as far as the eye can see, with a beard, furry thighs and arms, a low growly voice-But for all his swearing and other foul language, he isn't a bully. He doesn't pretend, he says no, and he sets clear boundaries, but even with children who he has loads of power over, he's very careful to never cross the line into bullying. He jokes, clearly knowing the children, barking orders and playing ball. He has a niece and even though he doesn't understand the book wrinkle in time, he reads it to her and only after getting three quarters through does he go to ted to demand what the fuck its supposed to be about.

THIRD: the way sometimes he looses speech and yet he STILL. FUCKING. COMMUNICATES. beautiful. Which rolls straight into FOUR, which is the way he communicates! He's very clear, very blunt, obviously. But its not just that. Its how as we get to know Roy Kent, more and more, we see how when he gets overwhelmed or annoyed, he often steps back from the situation so that he doesn't blow his temper at someone he likes or someone who doesn't deserve it...which is very, dare I say it? chivalrous! Its not a word you think when you think of roy kent, but he is! He's chivalrous! He isn't quite comfortable around rebecca, think of early season 2, but when he sees she needs it, he tells her she deserves the goddamn world in a partner, not just "fine", and he didn't tell her that because he had to! Keeley would've left it and he could've gotten away with a minimal answer. He told her because she deserved to hear it and he knew that and he's a fucking kind person!

just like that time at the end of season 1 when he and keeley were photographed by that man and he stole the photos and then handed them to keeley and gave the man back his camera. he could've smashed the fuckin camera. he's exactly the type of person to smash the camera! but he didn't. why? because they cost a shit-ton of money and because he wanted keeley to have photos of their first date. ;_; its called CHIVALRY. which. is. BUTCH. AS. FUCK. need i go on?

roy kent's masculinity is beautiful, it's a joy to behold, it's butch as hell, thank you, i hope you don't mind me dropping an essay in your askbox, sorry abt that.

OH SHIT YOU HAVEN’T FINISHED IT. you haven’t seen what they did to my bestie in the finale 😭😭 how they MALIGNED his NAME — if you do watch it come hmu though bc holy shit am i still livid.

anyway. yes to all of this!!!!! especially how he communicates while also losing speech <3333 i get so fucking upset every time someone calls him repressed bc like. he literally isn’t!!! he’s very aware of & in touch with his emotions!!!!!!!!!! what he is is stoic & it’s bc 1) he’s autistic 2) y’all are assholes. like. i feel like fucking crying every time i think about the scene in s1 when he’s just been benched: keeley’s excited but kind of impatient “oh, so you are ready to talk about real stuff now!!” and the way it makes it seem like a bad thing for him to need some time to process. & then her really sarcastic & dismissive response when he says how scared he is of losing what the entire fucking country has made his sole identity:

I think men that feel sorry for themselves are so sexy. And if you start telling me how hard it is that you play a game for a living, I think I might come.

i see fucking red!!!!!!! the show multiple times (including in the finale) belittles his feelings and/or throws away his characterization and then treats that like a #Feminist moment. & like in the previous example, yeah keeley prompts phoebe to say how she sees roy & that’s a sweet moment, but keeley never actually apologizes or says how she sees or thinks of roy outside of sex.

& then in s3 honestly his apology letter to her made me feel ill. like there’s a difference between owning your shit — which i do think she deserved an apology for him breaking up with her out of nowhere — and saying everything is your fault. that’s not growth, that’s still self-hatred. and like i understand keeley was going through a lot but i don’t think it was fair to him for him to confess his love & her fuck him while like. presumably knowing she doesn’t want to get back together.

i’m also so fucking livid about the show comparing roy and FUCKING RUPERT????? in that scene, again for some sort of shallow #GirlBoss moment. fuck that fuck the writers fuck like most of the fan attitudes i’ve seen.

also the way the “roy is sorry for not understanding keeley” scene is played — yeah, he should’ve communicated better, but she just started yelling at him out of nowhere & revealed she’d been complaining about him being clingy to all their colleagues. and she never apologizes for not talking to him sooner & her bottling her feelings until she exploded at him???? instead he apologizes for doing….. something she’d never told him she had a problem with.

i’m working on a fic about this aspect but the show has no fucking sympathy for his becoming disabled and it’s so transparent. obviously ted lasso in general is really bad at acknowledging systemic issues — “just be a goodfish!!” :))) — it’s a liberal show & you should overcome adversity by individual work ie therapy & forgiving your oppressors. but like there’s literally no acknowledgment after that scene when he gets shut down by keeley in s1 of how ableism affects roy’s self-image.

as a disabled person whose mobility impairment started with a knee issue in sports, i also think the show did a fucking shit job with his disability in general. like they played it for a laugh — you might not have watched 3x11 yet so feel free to skip this paragraph but “i played injured all the time / you can’t go up stairs!!” followed by jamie still playing injured to, what, make a point about forgiveness?? shows how fucking seriously they took that, and roy was walking up stairs earlier in that very episode.

similarly, “everybody run to the bus… except roy!” earlier in s3 was an emotional moment for me bc like oh they’re acknowledging how this affects his life!! …..and then they showed him running (on pavement!!!) with jamie all the fucking time. like sure not every knee issue is the same as mine, okay, whatever, but either be consistent or throw in a line about him having a good day today or something. jesus fucking christ it’s so ableist & careless & disrespectful.

anyway my hot take is that as they’re written, keeley & roy shouldn’t be together not because, as brenden fucking hunt put it, “he has work he needs to do on himself first,” but because she doesn’t respect him & fundamentally you can’t make compromises with people who think how you are is wrong.

i do really like keeley especially in s1, i think a lot of this is fuck-ups on the writers’ parts that keeley were she a real person either wouldn’t have done or would’ve apologized for. but as it’s written? fucking yikes.

anyway that got really off track from your thoughts lol but i absolutely adored reading this, it was a delight & i would love to hear more any time 💓💓💓

[maddestmewmew]

1, 2, 3, and 12 for raz psychonauts

starts growling and gnawing on something i fucking love you razputin aquato

1-IM REALLY REALLY BAD AT EXPLAINING WHY I ENJOY THINGS I JUST KIND OF . DO. umm i really like how he Feels like a kid like . hes written As A Kid but not like baby waby but also not a small adult. he does things like impulsively run away w 0 planning, idolize adults in his life, squabble with his siblings, freak out about kissing a girl for the first time while also not understanding the emphasis on romance..hes so 10 years old i think..i love that hes a Good Kid and hes friendly and wants to help people, but he also like. he can be a little shit sometimes. a real stinker. kid that would fortnite dance after setting you on fire. also his autism swag

2-grghgfh mm probably id have to say . the fact that he soso genuinely Wants to help people. like. hes really nice to most of the other campers, sure he teases them and claps back when theyre being dicks, but he seems to genuinely care abt them..remembering all their names and little facts abt them even tho they just met last night..also he goes out of his way to help the thorny towers patients when he Does Not Have To. ik this isnt really an intended thing but if you interact w gloria Before trying to enter the elevator, youll still get the mission to help her. same goes for the other residents but gloria stands out to me the most because you Have to interact w her before talking to crispin. he genuinely genuinely genuinely cares about people so much auuu

3. GOD. WRACKING MY BRAIN. THERES HONESTLY NOT MUCH TO DISLIKE ABT HIM?? like other than ways that psychonauts 1 is a bit outdated . see the use of the g slur . but thats not a character trait of raz thats like . thats bc the game is older than i am. and like, faults that raz has. i Do Not dislike them i think they make him more fleshed out, like how he tends to lowkey ignore boundaries set to do what he thinks is right, i actually really like that it makes him feel more realisitic idk..so honestly i have no answer here, i love raz

I HAVE SO MANY ok the obvious universal ones are that hes autistic and a little funky on gender. everyone knows this i am not unique. uhh i think hed be Awful with pets . this is Not a child u can give a hamster to. i think he and chloe keep in touch after camp, i know this is just bc chloe is one of my favorite but i think they should be friends. i think. i KNOW the fandom loves the whole “raz finally breaks down” thing but i dont think this would happen im sorry . i think raz would be one of those people who think they had a reletively normal and untraumatic childhood until he brings it up to someone and theyre like what. the fuck. uhh i think he likes some typically feminine stuff like makeup and nails..i cant think of anything else off of the top of my head and i cant sit and think bc i have to go to work but raz i love you so much

ask game

[justablah56]

*sighs* tell me about your fursona /lh /pos

ok first off- Vik is that you 👁️👁️ you're the only one who I know has seen my fursona recently sbjsjdjs either that or it's rae who saw it on your blog and didn't interact w it so I wouldn't think it was him if they went on anon lmao- but methinks its vik

okay now I'm gonna actually answer- bUT INSERT THAT ONE ENTRAPTA MEME- THE "IVE WAITED Y E A R S FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ABOUT MY THEORIES" YEAH THATS ME RN- anon I am looking at you with my big ol autistic eyes that are sparkling with this 10 minute unstoppable rant that is about to occur (✧⁠ω⁠✧⁠)

SO ! ampen right ? my little guy ? my baby girl ? my beloved ? I'm gonna talk mostly abt their physical design than their other details bcs I have more notes abt their physical appearance than anything :]

I have no idea what they are, I kinda just started drawing her abhdjsjsj but I think the two most notable animals he could conceivably be are probably a fox and a dragon of some sort (original I know) however I do want to give an honorable mention to my first draft of them, bcs goddamn I changed a lot abt her bsjdhsjjs. at first he was just completely a dog but I decided to give them those 3 fingered claw/hoof things, here's the very sketchy guy herself who inspired Ampen:

yeah snndjsn basically the only thing that stayed the same was the vague color scheme and the "hooves" changed from the hands to the feet. a lot of ampens physical design was just cool things I saw in other fursuits that I thought would be cool, like I just loooove the hoof feet, they look v cool and I just like them a lot, so I included them ! (I didn't in my first real drawing of ampen but then I did on their character sheet) same with the tail, I'm p sure at the time of ampens actual creation I had recently seen a dragon fursuit with that kind of tail and was obsessed with it, I tried so many different tails for him and none of them were looking quite right until I tried their current tail, and I love it . the dragon bit also comes out in her muzzle, it's a bit more pointed and sharp than a canine muzzle would be, again mostly just bcs I think it looks neat :] and I knew I wanted my fursona to have big ol ears from the very beginning, I didn't put them on ampen-rough-draft bcs I didn't start with the intent for him to be my fursona sbjdjdjs but anyways- the fur pattern took me a while to come up with, I started with just vague splotches of color in random spots, messed around with specific colors, I don't think I decided on the pink stitch mark things until like- the very end dnjsjjd I have no idea where I came up with it , I was just trying random things and hoping they looked right lmao-

I gave them glasses bcs . I have glasses . and I think it's cute and there aren't enough furrys with glasses :3 then added the piercings bcs I think they look cool and that's really it bajshjejskwks

anyways , now for the couple things that aren't visible on a drawing, I imagine her being like 5'4 MAX , he's pretty short . mostly bcs I am v short and plan to actually make ampen, and that's a height I could realistically get to accounting for the ears hdjwjdjjejdke anyways, I don't really have many other little facts about them since they're basically just me personality-wise, so make of that what you will ! I will however GLADLY answer more specific questions if you (or anyone else 👀) have them bcs it will give me an excuse to come up with answers abhdjsjdjsjjd

anyways- this is all to say that I'm in love with Ampens design and I really should draw him more often and also probably just develop them more tbh- BUT ! ty v much anon for enabling me to ramble about Ampen, they're my most specialest little guy and I love her <33

[riwrite-a]

✧.   get to know the author !

name : mo

pronouns : she / him

preference of communication : either discord or tumblr ims! whichever is easier for my partner/s

most active muse ( s ) : toya :) my baby boy my everything. tho even tho most of my posts are abt him rn i do really miss writing some of my other muses so PLEASE never be afraid to ask for anyone i dont talk abt much!! i love all my kids

experience / how many years : ive been rping practically since i first had free reign on the internet, so since abt the late 2000s? on tumblr specifically ive been writing since 2014 ( almost a decade what the hell )

best experience : idk if i can really pin it down to one experience, but honestly i think the reason im still here is bc of my experiences in the under/tale rpc in 2015/16. which sounds wild bc of the reputation that it has but i still think fondly of all my old mtt dupes from back then bc a whole group of us were friends. it helps mitigate the dupe anxiety i get now, too. and secondarily i also think a lot abt my time in the lozrpc on twi’s solo blog a few years ago. i feel pretty divorced from the community now due to having a multi but despite the downs there were considerable ups and i still love a lot of the people i met there

rp pet peeves : " let me write you a reply using the worlds smallest icon “ girl i cant SEE IT. also over - formatting tends to be really hard for me to read, especially overuse of spaces. like sure i like to add extra spaces to emphasize punctuation but if it’s like 10 spaces between every word then it’s incredibly hard for me. thankfully i havent seen as much of either lately as i used to

plots or memes : i never know how to answer this question bc? both? memes are a great icebreaker and great for shorter explorations of a muse and their character or their relationship to the sender. but plotting is best for longer, more in-depth threads! that said i feel like i don’t plot enough ( i am so shy and reaching out to plot is very hard 👍 ) and i think i need to do it more

are you like your muse ( s ) : well i have too many muses to give this a yes or no answer but uh. toya? yeah i relate a lot to his general mindset and the optimism with which he sees the world, and i think it’s largely a coping mechanism for both of us. plus maybe its bc i was realizing im autistic shortly before i got into pr/sk but he was the first character i looked at and said ‘ oh hes autistic isnt he ’ so i also share that w him <3 as for other muses um. spins wheel. ghirahim? no lol

tagged by. @evintide thank u!! <3 tagging. im usually too nervous to tag people in these so lmao if u wanna do it feel free to say i tagged u!!

[scre6m]

help i’m incapable of watching horror movies bc i’m a coward but you’ve posted about these scream 6 characters so much that now i am so interested in them. pls tell me about them if you want!!

oh you have just unlocked a MONSTERRJRDNDD HERE I GOO (spoilers for scream 6 will be included)

also sorry it took me so long to answer this i uh... had a lot to say

im gonna start with my faves THE TWINSS!! god i love them so bad okay so we have mindy whos a horror enthusiast/lesbian/stoner shes autistic AS HELL and was def born before chad cos he fr followers her around like a dog and takes notes when she talks (canon!) and chad is a himbo/jock whos just following the lead from the women in his life whether its his sister or the girl who used to babysit him and let him wear his favorite pokemon onesies and now is someone he would kill and die for or her lil sister whos just a lil loser hes smitten over fdkfjfk the twins are amazing their dynamic is classic lesbian/himbo solidarity (STOBIN TEAS) i just know growing up they would ask each other for girl advice and i KNOW mindy would do the opposite of what chad says cos look at how long it took him to make a move with tara jdfjkjkfjdf theyre an unkillable lesbian/bi duo and their mother is played by a lesbian icon theyre just!!!!!!!

and then theres the carpenters <3 first theres sam who’s suffered more than jesus himself. shes an older sister who just wants to take care of her sister and the kids she used to babysit cos all this terrible shit that happened to them is cos of her (in her mind!!) and then sometimes she hallucinates her dead serial killer dad who (to me) seems to represent the darkness in her while tara is the one who always seems to bring her out of that. their relationship was very strained after sam split and left tara with just their mom (who sounds like a fucking bitch!) so since coming back into each others lives theyve had to find a way to balance sam's overcompensating for being gone and trying to be glued to tara and tara adamantly trying to pretend nothing ever happened. but by the end of scre6m they seem to be on the same page and want to move forward together <3 tara is a lil sad wet cat who always just needs a fucking break!!! she has no interest in being part of some murder legacy shes just fed up and would like to have a lil fun take a load off!!! but ofc she cant so instead she has to start stabbing people like her big sis

they all mean sm to me THEY'RE A FAMILY THEY'RE UNSTOPPABLE I WOULD DIE FOR THEM. yeah i think that sums it up

[castielsparkle]

62, 80, & 98 for the ask meme

hii thank u sm!!!

62. seven characters you relate to?

oh great heavens. okay. i need to post my kinlist but perhaps posting this instead will be like microdosing on that. LMFAO

castiel spn

twilight sparkle mlp

dexter morgan dexter (<- NUANCE i swear to christ im normal about that)

the mangle fnaf

will byers stranger things

jesse pinkman breaking bad

jane villanueva jane the virgin

you may ask. what the fuck do these characters have in common. well. thats. yeah

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

OUGHHH god this was so hard...... jewel tones for me personally however on other people i tend to be more drawn to earth tones!! (my gf is an earth tones guy for example!)

98. favorite historical era?

oh good heavens im gonna explode. ok. SO. man. man. man. theres so many im probably forgetting because i am very autistic about a lot of historical eras. however. wait i need to mention. i took art history classes however sadly due to the time in my life i took them at i do not remember jack shit</3 and also i was super autistic about history as a kid but ive forgotten most of that as well. the things i remember clearest however are:

italian high renaissance (who else is a davinci girl bc I AM!!!)

pleistocene epoch (aka: the ice age) SHOUTOUT TO THE SMILODON!!! i love you more than anything american scimitar cat<3 american scimitar cat smilodon is my best fucking friend now and forever. FUN FACT. i was so autistic about this when i was like 6 or 7. that when assigned a school project to get a cardboard box and turn it into an animal and then put facts about the animal on the box. i turned mine into a scimitar. wait i havent elaborated. those are a relative of the sabre-toothed tiger. Anyways. my box animal was a scimitar. i was later informed i was the only child in the history of that project in that class to have done a presentation on an extinct animal. i felt So Special and happy. :)!!

honorable mention: baroque period went off the shits as well. AND YOU KNOW WHAT. SHOUT OUT TO SPECIFICALLY THE 1880S. THATS WHEN THE LAST TARPAN (widely considered ancestor of majority of modern horses) AND THE LAST QUAGGA (subspecies of plains zebra) PERISHED. YOU WILL FOREVER BE FAMOUS. speaking of the 80s. big huge fan of the (19)70s for architecture and musical purposes. and also i just miss the 2000s every day. lol<3 oh god wait i cant post this without saying shoutout to the thylacine i saw one at a dc museum unexpectedly and legit almost started crying. wait. i think i have a photo of me with it. hang on. ( i visited the museum for my birthday<33) ok i found the photo and im gonna preface this with: this area of the museum was Empty and in a corner i was wearing my mask the rest of the trip. wanted to clarify that its important to me. anyways. when the fucking autism hits:

it was the one behind the curtain btw. thank you so so fucking much for these questions btw so so fun to answer they hit Niches in my Autism brain.<3333

hii feel free to ask more here anyone whos interested!!!

[that-hippie-user]

Gen question: what is you enjoy about diaper play? I am an omo fan but I have always hated diapers bc to me they are the WORST sensory experience (I already hate wearing pads and it’s the only period product I can use safely, to me it just feels like pads x2 everywhere edition) so I’m curious what others enjoy in it since I just fundamentally can’t.

picture this. as a young autistic kiddo, i took longer than most to mature behavior wise.

i wore diapers at every opportunity, long enough that i was able to form some early childhood memories about it. and i think my parents let it happen cuz they were still learning how to raise an autistic child and trying to accommodate me.

i was too young to feel any shame for it, too young to feel gross about it. i was endlessly curious about the feeling, the noises they made, and yes, the smells of use. :P cuz imma be real, spend long enough around your own scents when you're young and curious, it becomes easy to like them

but surely enough, they talked me out of them. i did as i was told and put on undies, even if it wasnt what i wanted, cuz i was mostly a good kid and wanted to listen to my parents.

as i got somewhat older tho, i developed a bedwetting problem, and found myself wearing them again.

so here i am, old enough to be in school, still very young and curious, and old enough to understand that using diapers just isnt what people do. the most important thing in life you're supposed to learn is how to avoid that.

and here was my body, ignoring this rule of its own accord. in the comfort of sleep, my body had no desire to do as i was told, and simply let go on its own.

it wasnt my fault, it wasnt my choice, i wasnt being bad or breaking a rule... and yet i was breaking one of the most important rules and wetting myself.

and that... is SO thrilling

:D like holy cow, i couldnt stop myself from getting older and bigger, but i COULD control when i peed. and now i was presented a tantalizing possibility... i could wear and use diapers by CHOICE

UwU i quickly came to realize that THIS was the one true nostalgia for me. bodies grow, voices change, brains learn, fears develop, but the one thing you cant change is that diapers have an intended purpose, and you CAN use them.

>:3 and if you DO use them... well, thats the least adult thing you can do! NOBODY who grows up does this if they can help it. nobody "normal" anyway.

>:( well i made my decision. if people everywhere agree that going back to your childhood would be amazing, then i'm justified in my desire to need diapers! the fountain of youth isnt real, but DIAPERS ARE.

UwU soon i was sneaking diapers in secret from the pack in my closet, or stuffing bedsheets in my undies to simulate bulk, or watching cartoons with characters getting diapered and feeling the deepest envy of my life

:( shame came with time, and it would take me a while to grapple with that.

:3 but i know now that my fixation is quite common, and i embrace it wholeheartedly.

:P but that said, i'm not into omo. at least, not outside of diapers.

i'm a gross lil lady, i admit that! UwU but diapers keep things contained, diapers make cleanup easy. i aint gonna ruin a pair of pants for a thrill. X3 but diapees go in the trash anyway, so who cares!

XD and yes, i like messing too. but i HATE scat. :P as i said, diapers are gross yet cleanly. contained, easy to clean. X( im not going to let that happen anywhere else.

UwU and the way i do it, aside from cleaning easily, i get to enjoy the smells, the warmth, and the mushy feeling.

:3 i'm gross, yeah, i just got standards about it.

:P also, im trans, never had to wear pads cuz i started life as a boy. X3 tho i always been curious cuz the fact that cis girls can wear a kind of padding everywhere is pretty cool, at least to me.

:3 but i understand not liking something you didnt ask for.

^u^ hope that answers your question!!!