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napping-sapphic ยท 10 months ago
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Hello! I have a Situation and its totally cool if you're not able to give advice but im looking for advice anyway bc im autistic and have no idea how to navigate romantic situations.
So ive had a friend since i was 12 her pronouns are she/they so i will be using both. Im now 20 and they're 21. I've known I like girls since i was 13. And shes pan.
So, in the past, ive had like fleeting thoughts of dating/kissing them but i usually just shake my head and think "nah i cant possibly want to date her bc they're my best friend, i just have very strong platonic feelings." Like Very Strong. Ive literally said that i will always compare my feelings for a future romantic partner with my feelings for her bc they're so strong.
So im honestly not sure if i would know if i was in love with someone unless it hit me in the face, and i am currently feeling like it has hit me in the face. I woke up at like 4 am last night from a dream just thinking "omygosh im in love with her" and ive been journaling and thinking all day ahout my feelings and im starting to think ive just been in strong denial/oblivious about my feelings. Both bc im autistic and have difficulty identifying emotions and bc im demiromantic and rarely experience romantic attraction so i dont have much experience with it.
I guess the point of this ask is about any advice you can give regarding knowing if i actually have romantic feelings and if i do,, like what do i do about it??? Should i tell them? We have a really strong friendship and i dont wanna make her uncomfortable. I think ill be okay not acting on my feelings but its been literally less than 24 hrs since realizing my feelings might be romantic and i dont know if it will be difficult to hide or what to do about it. They're also like my only close friend so i cant just ask her what to do like i would normally, which is why im asking you.
Again, i understand if you cant answer this bc its a pretty personal situation but i would appreciate any advice.
Thank you! :)
Ahh once again prefacing with the fact that I am really Not Qualified to give advice on most things๐Ÿ˜… but I can give you my take as an outsider on the situation and with my (very limited experience) in case that might help you at all, but again really take all of this with a LARGE grain of salt i am a VERY unqualified stranger on the internet so most of what i say is probably nonsense๐Ÿ˜…
I feel like this is like my go to advice but Iโ€™d say just wait it out tbh, as someone who was in capital L love with their childhood best friend for a while it really just came down to time for me. It took a while for me to be sure whether the feelings were romantic or platonic for SURE. Especially since the platonic love stayed for me even when the romantic love began๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ it made it extra tricky to tell lol.
My โ€˜oh this is NOT just platonicโ€™ realization came from YEARS of excessive thinking about them, WAY too much jealousy when they dated other people, a LOT of thoughts and urges about holding their hand, a lot of comparing them to people i had passing crushes on, and (i kid you not) an embarrassing amount of love poems teenage me wrote about them lol๐Ÿ˜…
However! The slow process and thinking it through also lead me to the conclusion that i did NOT want to date them. Being a couple just wouldnโ€™t work for us and I value them so so so SO much as my best friend and really need them in my life as that separate, constant, platonic relationship that I deeply love and care for. It works better for us than any sort of dating could๐Ÿคทโ€โ™€๏ธ not to mention all of our other clashing traits that just wouldnโ€™t work if our relationship was romantic. And now Iโ€™m honestly really not romantically interested in them anymore, theyโ€™re just my best friend and always will be :)
I dont think itโ€™s too unusual to fall a bit (or a lot) romantically in love with a best or close friend, I think the more important thing to recognize is whether itโ€™s something worth acting on, that youโ€™re willing to act on, and that will be good for both of you to act on
So Iโ€™d say ruminate on it! Thereโ€™s no pressure to figure it out, if you start getting too preoccupied with it you can try talking it through with them, not even as a confession type thing, you can simply have a conversation letting them know youโ€™re a little confused or wanting their opinion if you think theyโ€™ll be receptive to it. Best I can tell you is that thereโ€™s no clock on figuring it out, thereโ€™s no โ€œrightโ€ way to define what type of love you feel, and to remember that either way youโ€™ve got a great person in your life. Iโ€™m very sorry I canโ€™t be more help and if anyone has any other advice feel free to leave it in the notes for this person! Good luck to you and I hope you find what youโ€™re looking for soon <3!!
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