#i know for a fact this isnt normal

[qiinamii]

we'll do fine.

[lonelyinkcap]

i cant tell

if ive always felt this far away

if this is what its like

to be normal

[syn4k]

area man somehow stumbles into the mianite fandom, does a triple front flip, accidentally introduces 2,000 people to the series, sticks the landing, and is basically singlehandedly responsible for a miniature fandom revival in the year of our lord 2024, illustrated

[astranauticus]

stultifera navis rerun AKA thinking about Iberia hours again because a lot of the Iberians have such fascinating relationships with the concept of home but specifically Thorns and Lumen are eating at my brain. like where do you call home when the place that is your home Just Fucking Hates You? Elysium's rewinding breeze specifically makes a point to hammers home how differently Iberia treats its Liberi and its Aegir

(which is especially interesting since this comes right after a conversation where Purestream commented on how despite Leizi being a high ranking government official, there are still some experiences that are universal for all Yanese people - because the experience of what Iberia itself is like isnt universal for all Iberians)

But all that being said, Thorns also straight up states that Aegir is not his home, and yeah, how could it be? How could a place you've never been to, never truly known, ever be your home? How could it ever feel like a home?

so where do you go when the place that you are from hates your people and the place your people are from is completely unfamiliar and alien to you? Thorns' answer at the end of the conversation with Aya is: my home is where i chose it to be. my home is where there are people I care about and people who care about me

in the complete opposite direction, Lumen's oprec asks: why do you still stay in a place that wants you gone? because the people of Gran Faro like Jordi well enough but when push comes to shove, they will want the only Aegir in town gone

and yet, when Rald the messenger offers him a chance to leave Jordi turns him down and when he's forced to escape Gran Faro after the people there literally try to send him to his death (or worse) at the hands of the Inquisitors he keeps trying to go back because like everyone in stultifera navis, Jordi is clinging to his own dreams of a golden age

but the shape of that dream is unique to every character and for Jordi, his dreams are deeply, inseparably bound to the Eye of Iberia, the legacy his parents left behind

and it's this dream of becoming someone great, of bringing about that golden age that his parents devoted their lives to help create that ties Jordi to this nothing town because despite everything, despite the mistrust of the townsfolk and the hostility of the Inquisition and the danger from the ocean, he simply cannot leave it behind

(or, because i personally dislike the official translation,)

"I just see this place as my home"

so yeah. not sure what overall point i was trying to make here i'm just. deeply in love with these stories about chosing what is and isn't your home, of saying you will not call a place your home because it has given you no reason to or saying you consider a place your home even though it has given you every reason not to. deeply unwell about them <3

[hella1975]

i cannot stand the aot fandom this is not a new take at all they are universally intolerable but oh my dayssss u are FORBIDDEN from making ANY take about the show it's actually insane to watch. 'aot is perfect' no show is perfect. 'tell me you didnt get the show 😂🫵' people have different opinions/interpretations about things. 'eren is a good guy they could never make me hate him' i think there's actually 4 seasons and two movies explicitely using him as a tool to show that no one is 'good' or 'evil' they are only trying to survive. hello. the fandom r all so far up aot's ass that they actually discredit its writing in the process and it would be laughable if it wasn't so frustrating

[wodimewoahtime]

phrases ive been really into recently (alnst edition): 1. ivans yaoi paddle 2. luka the shivering sickly victorian purebred show poodle 3. stablehand till + luka horse au 4. Heperu's pet poodle handbook (for luka) 5. ivans triple yaoi backflip (raw yaoi power) 6. fudanshi luka 7. himedanshi till 8. tills "im not gay" yaoi protag power 9. milf till couldve fixed ivantill (bingqiu style) 10. mizisua monogatari toothbrush scene

[rolandkaros]

devastating: beloved mutual you never really talked to has unfollowed you for unknown reasons. more at 7

[appallinnballin]

my ass has been drawing like this

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

I think Lance should get like the meanest, most evil Earth cat in existence (think Becky Apples from Centaurworld) and also the biggest rose tinted glasses ever because he genuinely believes that Mr Cutie Paws has never done and would never do anything wrong and i think said cat should tolerate him and ONLY him and I think the only other person making an effort to bond with said cat is Shiro who recognizes the bloodlust in its eyes but damn it! Every kitty deserves a chance!

[sepiasys]

I thought about how I/we just never draw 👑 with an outfit bc FUCK idk what he would wear, idk what he wears

So we started looking for shit online, ya?

Saved (copy pasted) plenty of interesting images, things that caught SOMEONE's eye (could be multiple ppls ngl bc I mean some of them were dresses)(it was a mix of considering both what they/we'd actually wear as ourself and what might be ok/work on the body (to a lesser extent I think))

There was plenty of criticisms for some things bc I def got mixed reactions (ah I like this. Wait no actually I don't? Yes no) (specifically: some looked too 'political' (think Hamilton) and some looked very police coded, and then I'm sure some just looked completely ridiculous. Also complaints about intricate designs if we drew some of em that looked nice lmao)

I know motherfucker(s?) left because I literally cannot look at the images the same. THEY DO NOT NEURON ACTIVATION FOR ME BUT THEY DID BEFORE WHEN I WAS LOOKING FOR SHIT FOR HIM/US???

Man I love internal comms being able to be any number of things. Aint fronting but is def able to share opinion/feeling on things ig lmao

[mellotronmkll]

I need to stop having one weird reaction with someone and then letting the anxiety decide in my head that the friendship is doomed because I ruined it like it's my absolute worst trait and I just have to move past it but it's hard

[tariah23]

Noooo…… first it’s Yuuta and Shoko, now they’re yo-yoing back around to Megumi.

[slashersweethearts]

morgchie is such a severe mismatch of freak and it makes me feel so bad for morgan bc 😭 i mean she also thinks so but not in the way that it actually is! bc HER perspective on things Pre Literally Everything From The Moment He Showed Up At The Hospital With Sam Onward was like “damn. richie is so normal. cool of him to put up with me but why the hell is he doing that” and it’s like babygirl. you are a teenager w severe childhood trauma that left you feeling fundamentally shut off from your peers who likes holing up in ur room drawing silly little horror characters. that man is ghostface and he’s evil. YOU are not the worse off one in this r/s 😭

[acaciapines]

guys what if i told you ive been thinking about dess and actually i think dess/chara might be able to work out in the drkau...like ive been doing some thinking into dess and her reasons and why she does what she does and how she cares about people and im starting to nail down the role i want asriel to play, and. and.

guys i think dess is actually going to be able to change. i think dess figures out how to change but asriel never does....

[oflgtfol]

i am throwing the fuck up

[red-dyed-sarumane]

im having a difficult time so i was like "lets quit vocaloid let's make a playlist of only non vocalo songs and only listen to them that will cure us" and uh

most of this is game soundtracks.

to give u the full picture this is the total with vocaloid & vocalo adjacent songs(utaite/made by vocaP or prior vocaP)