#i just need to get home then i'll post

[allmoshnobrain]

would be forever grateful if y'all sent me the hottest early 90s pics of Dave and James you guys have

[ratwithhands]

"Apologize."

[bonefall]

maybe with the ending.. make it be like the link between Breezepelt's leaving to join Kin and his POV in AVOS? of course from Nightcloud's perspective but

like. she would be injured and recovering away from the clan. but they would be unaware that she is alive and like in canon assume she died and hold her a vigil. Breezepelt, who is already at low point, taking it very badly - yes he was pushing her away bc he was hurt and angry and started taking it out on her, but.. it's still his mom. his Mi. and she is dead? or is this stupid clan just going to believe this to make it easier? are they really giving up on looking for her, or her body??

i can see Nightcloud being the one of very few, if not THE Only one, things that kept Breezepelt in WindClan at this point. and without her, what's the point? it's not like anyone else likes him. the link is gone and they buried it in a bodyless vigil. so it's what pushes him to actuall take the step and leave.

not sure how well it would align with the timeline and events. and how soon Darktail was assembling cats from other clans like Breeze. but i think it would be interesting and heartbreaking if at the end of her SE, Nightcloud just arrived back to WindClan and asks where Breezepelt is and someone tells her.. he either was missing since this morning or just left the clan earlier the same day. like, just have them miss each other by a hair.

I'm thinking that the second-to-last chapter is her with Pickle, having a bit of a sabbatical to unpack everything that happens through the story. Mostly because I want to throw her into some kind of pretty garden as a nice setting for this lmaoo

A LOT of BB stuff is being added to Nightcloud's Pannage that wasn't in the main series; Hillrunner's abuse, her mentor Addersong, several expanded little background characters now complete with their own side conflicts. I think what I can bind all these things with is Nightcloud considering what a Clan means.

Because of her new reputation, I'm noticing I'm writing scenes where she's intentionally doing and saying things to try and sway them. While also grappling with her resentment towards them, and things she can't change.

There's a bit of a melancholy air so far, so I'm starting to feel like the best ending is just having a bit of space to herself to think. Ultimately, she decides that it's more than Breezepelt or Crowfeather that binds her to WindClan. It's the life and connections she COULD have.

WindClan cats are also quite religious next to other Clans, so I really do mean "sabbatical." I'm going to have Addersong die of old age shortly after they reconnect, so she's in Pickle's Garden talking to her new friend, choosing cats she's lost to pray to as patron spirits to give her the traits she feels she needs, and just recovering both physically from injury and spiritually from turmoil.

So all that to say; it works well that by the time she gets back, Breezepelt has joined The Kin. He was one of the first to join when he started calling for members anyway, so having Night be gone for about two or three weeks sounds appropriate.

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[rocksandcrystals]

I am never active here. I need to be more active but I just CANT

OKAY MOB AU VOICE ACTING @clownsuu

Yawns loudly

[quietlyblooms]

alrighty, friends, i feel the need to be a little transparent because it's affecting things here. the short version of everything is: i'm not doing so hot in the mental health department. no one needs to be concerned -- i'm okay even if i'm having a hard time. but i just ask that everyone continues to be patient and understanding bc i promise that i'm excited to write and chat!! both new and old mutuals, i have so much admiration for you all!! the problem is that the discomfort and sensitivity i feel are making it increasingly difficult to be punctual and social.

so what does this mean? it means my activity may continue to be extra slow. i might procrastinate with messages or go completely silent. i might not log on some days just so i don't have to use my brain. but however my presence here fluctuates, i promise that in no way this is a reflection of my feelings towards you or our muses. i'm just going through it.

all that said, thank you for being here <3 thank you for filling my dash with things that make me smile, and thank you for being a space where i can relax. i care about all of you so much, and i encourage you to be kind to yourselves!! take breaks!! take your time!! your happiness and health matter first always.

[fidgetspringer]

Put together a new plein air kit for myself. Been meaning to do so for a while now, but since my resolution for the new year is to spend more time camping and actually taking in the scenery on my hikes, I finally found the motivation to put it all together!

[unproduciblesmackdown]

has happened plenty around iconis goings on but what an all-timer

[puffpawstries]

wip for ask about the riceballs...

[somegrumpynerd]

To the people in my inbox I'm so sorry I swear I'm gonna answer those but work has been absolutely destroying me for like 2 weeks straight and I've barely been here

[crimeronan]

just burst into tears in a post office and immediately the entire world opened up to me. easy criers must have the best lives what the fuck. i should stop taking my prozac Immediately.

[linabirb]

you know you've hit rock bottom when by the end of the session your therapist hits the head in hands pose and goes "let's. l-let's just try to stay alive for now. n-no meds we'll just focus on finding the reasons to keep you here"

[lynne-monstr]

hi blog I'm back from vacation! it was a lot of fun but there was a bit of a mishap at the end and I'm trying not to be meh about it. long story short, you never really know what it's like to travel with someone until something goes wrong. on this trip I learned that my friend and I have very different approaches to dealing with mishaps.

like when the rental car has a problem and it takes 3 hours for the roadside assistance to send a tow truck. and then it arrives and cannot tow the car because the car rental company did not listen when you described the problem. my friend is very laid back and was happy to wait for the next tow, however long it might be. I prefer to call the rental place and let them know i'm unhappy that it took 3 hours to get a tow truck and that I want the next one faster, and also we might have to stay the night and I expect the car company to pay for it since they sent the wrong tow truck.

anyway it was a bit tense but I finally got home and I am glad to be back. I'm going to do nothing for the rest of the day and enjoy every second of it.

[help-me-find-a-name-please-lol]

i have depriving myself down to an art form

[quatregats]

No actually in all honesty I feel like last time I went to India at 12 I had a tiny bit of impostor syndrome but was mostly very comfortable there, whereas in the ensuing 10+ years, I've somehow gotten really bad impostor syndrome about being Indian at all and have managed to gaslight myself into thinking that I have no knowledge of anything to do with being Malayalee, which is....truly fascinating, to say the least. Anyways needless to say that the second I got off the plane is Trivandrum I was immediately cured of that notion :')

[softceleste]

The fact I honestly thought I'd pull off playing College Craze and being normal about it, and then less than a week later I've already played it multiple times, made a duel MC au, a Pinterest board, and recreated some of the PopMe pages, is genuinely not lost on me.