#i just need proper motivation

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girl found dead in a hidden room.

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[icewindandboringhorror]

Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~

(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)

[mitternacht]

I made a few more of these is this anything

[reksink]

Shelter

[tubbytarchia]

I'm SO close to finishing fully storyboarding the Joel animation (yes I'm only at the storyboards and rough animation still. Shit's long), but I can't wait so please look at the smallidaries

[mc-tummy-blur]

I’ve been so busy with other stuff but I really want to get back to drawing WHF art so I went and cleaned up a wip. Not sure how I feel with some of the angles but I just needed to get this out of my system

Based off of this clip

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[saph-yells-into-the-void]

This line really puts into perspective the rest of Nagi's character and confirms the theory I've had regarding his dilemma.

The major flaw of Nagi's character is how spoiled he is. Literally. He grew up being a genius and never having to try hard to get what he wants. However, this in turn made him unable to enjoy whatever he did because since it was so easy for him to achieve it, he didn't see a point in it anyways.

When he started soccer, he found it easy so he didn't see any enjoyment in it. Hearing Ego's speech about winning the world cup didn't fire him up because he could imagine himself easily scoring that winning goal.

This is the reason why Nagi finally got fired up when he lost against Isagi. He experienced the feeling of trying his absolute best and failing anyways. Soccer is not so easy that he can breeze by with little effort at this level. This is what sparked his motivation.

Now this is all a basic analysis of Nagi's character: in order for Nagi to get motivated, he needs a proper challenge.

Yet after the Manshine match, when Nagi "wins" against Isagi, he lost that fire. Right after, he begins losing. But how? Shouldn't Nagi be fired up again because he is seeing that his skills aren't up to par with the world-standard if he doesn't try hard? Isn't this a proper challenge for him?

Well, let's go back to Nagi getting fired up after losing to Isagi.

Remember, Nagi's flaw is that he is spoiled. Whatever he wants, he gets it, easily. The key here is what he *wants*.

When Reo found Nagi and they started playing soccer together, Nagi found a new thing he wants. He wants to stay by Reo's side.

I find the wording of this panel interesting. He finds soccer a pain because he has to put a little more effort into the training, although not the matches themselves, and he doesn't want to play soccer anyways. But in doing so, he is also being with Reo, which is what he does want. So basically: needing to try + something he wants = being engaged and/or motivated with the activity. Without his "want," the activity is only a pain.

While Reo's dream is to win the world cup and be the world's best, Nagi's dream is to be the world's best with Reo. He wants to play soccer with Reo. However, up until his loss against Isagi, this had never been challenged. They had won every match so what reason did he have to try in order to get what he wants? He already has Reo by his side. In this case, he didn't have the "needing to try" component of the equation, thus his lack of motivation in the first arc of the manga.

However, when he lost to Isagi, now his dream, his "want", was in jeopardy. He tried his hardest and still lost, proving that this task required his effort. Not only that, but that dream of reaching the top with Reo was no longer guaranteed. It was now a goal he needed to strive for.

Another factor that plays into this is the circumstances. Nagi had to choose between staying with Reo or teaming up with Isagi and Bachira. In fact, he initially invited Isagi to be with him and Reo, but Isagi refused, forcing Nagi to choose.

This likely contributed to Nagi's mindset of needing to win and get stronger in order to be with him again, to "dream" with him again. It forced Nagi to put in more effort. And he didn't find this a pain because he is doing it to get what he wants. He is trying harder in order to be able to dream with Reo again. Hence his motivation.

Now flash forward to the Manshine match. Nagi now has to put in more effort than ever because of Chris and Agi's teachings. But as he stated himself, it isn't fun for him. This is where the circumstances come into play as well. Ultimately, Nagi is playing soccer for the sake of being by Reo's side. He isn't playing soccer *for the sake of soccer*.

He's like, the complete opposite of Isagi in this way. Isagi is motivated by his pure desire to win and be better. Soccer itself motivates Isagi. But for Nagi, it is not enough to motivate him that soccer requires effort to win. it needs to be effort + WANT. He believes he needs to be better at soccer in order to be with Reo. His "want" isn't soccer, it's Reo.

But unlike during the Second Selection, Reo is now on the same team as him. So now when he is faced with the effort to try hard, he doesn't challenge himself by the fact that Reo isn't by his side. Unlike before, Reo is like 5 feet away from him. Whereas before he needs to win to see Reo again, now if Nagi wants to see with Reo, he just needs to walk over to Reo.

Nagi is still chasing after what he wants and he is still putting in effort, but he is no longer being forced to try even harder. Before, his desire to be by Reo's side propelled him forward in situations where this desire is exploited, but now, Reo is right there. All he needs to do is beat Isagi and overcome that obstacle to their dream that had been placed so many chapters ago.

And then... what next?

Does he continue chasing after their dream? Well, they're already at the world's stage. They are experiencing the best of the best. And he has Reo by his side. It's not like he can actually lose Reo at this stage now....right?

Deep down, Nagi had gotten comfortable again. He's fallen into the mindset of believing that Reo will always stay by his side, no matter what he does. This "no matter what" is crucial because that means that even without his effort, his "want" will be achieved. In the equation of Nagi's ego being: needing to try + something he wants = getting fired up, the "needing to try" requirement hasn't been fulfilled.

So what does this mean for Nagi going forward? What does he need to do in order to get truly motivated on a reliable basis?

Um, idfk.

Nagi keeps talking about how he will "get fired up" and he'll finally do it, but we've yet to see him actually do it.

The thing is that Nagi still doesn't understand his ego. He wants to get fired up, but he doesn't understand what he needs to do to get to that point. Everyone else does this by visualizing their ideal, but Nagi doesn't have one. All he wants is to ultimately be with Reo.

First he needs to understand exactly WHY he got fired up before and then recreate those circumstances to do it again.

No matter what happens, I think the ending of this match and Nagi's character will tie back to what Isagi said here

[agalychnisspranneusroseus]

Imagine you're Mr. Wu and your weird gay daughter runs away in tears after destroying some unespecified object while yelling about you ruining her life. Because you told her you'd be moving to another state. This is the last time you see your daughter in half a year, and when she comes back, she comes back... wrong. She's wearing a light leather armor, a fur-lined cape, and a green flower crown. She has two long scars, one alongside her spine and the other along her chest, the tissue around them covered in burn scars. Doctors say she shouldn't have survived. Doctors say she didn't. Yet she's right here, in front of you, hospital gown clinging to her small, fragile, trembling frame. She fidgets with her hands. Getting her to stay still has always been difficult, but now it seems impossible. She won't let go of her phone. She's always texting her two friends. When you take it away, she gets anxious. You always knew those damn phones cause kids to act weird, but your kid having a panic attack seems too extreme, even for her. Then again, she's always been odd. Nowadays, she wakes up crying and screaming almost every night, and you realize she's been stealing her phone from your bedside drawer every night to text her friends, returning it before you wake up. You catch her once and decide to give her that damn phone back. It's the only thing that calms her down, as if she were a baby with a pacifier. She spends her last weeks in LA clinging to her friends, having sleepovers and playing her weird board games with them. Everytime they drop her back at her house, there's an excessive amount of hugs and tears. But the moments when they call her, or when she leaves to meet with them, or when they show up at their door to pick her up... those are the only moments in which you see her happy. One of her friends, the rude and disobedient one, came back with a big scar on her face. She's been acting a lot nicer, though. The other one too. She acts a great deal more adult now. You doesn't know what happened or where your daughter went. She won't tell you. But you can tell this friendship is the only thing keeping her afloat right now. Maybe you know, deep down, that no one else would understand.

And then you decide to move anyway because fuck her amirite

[basementstalker]

I wouldn't mind turning into a doll when you're not around. Sitting perfectly still, waiting for you to come home. I don't exist without you, so why should I bother thinking when you're not nearby?

[koka-mi]

what the FUCK is sentence structure⁉️⁉️🔥🔥💯

[suncast-moth]

So like, I took a break from even bothering to pray to hypnos for help with sleep cause, well, idk why actually, cause like, I started praying to him when I was in like, 8th or 9th grade.

Dude, a couple months back, I got this little lamb plush that I fucking adore- like, it has a music box inside it and a wind up key that I can take out if I want since- it's plastic and juts out.

And like, I got bored n decided to do rando research on hypnos's symbolic animals n shit... and now realizing,

Was the plush a fucking sign and I just only realized now?/lh

Anywayz, bedtime for moths ig. It's almost 13 am anyways.

[pallanophblargh]

I’m sorry you feel like your brain is soup, but for what it’s worth I’ve been following you since I was like 14 on deviantart and the stuff you have created has always been a major inspiration for me; i love animals and fantasy and your ability to capture realistic proportions and anatomy while creating this beautiful movement in your artwork has always blown me away, it’s so full of life and beauty. I just wanted to tell you 🤷 you really inspired this random Australian kid and I hope you can find joy and rest and kindness for yourself k bye

Aaaaaa this is so wholesome! I haven't been enduring as much of my usual mental health struggle since I've started meds/therapy, but my creativity/productivity has regrettably taken a hit as a possible result? So even if I'm on indefinite hiatus, it's nice to know I've had a positive impact on at least one person somewhere down the line. Someday I'll get back into healthy habits and express through art more reliably again (I mean art has been my escape portal for most of my life)! Just gotta bust off the rust and focus/practice again, even if I'm anxious about all the work that requires. Anyway, I'm rambling: thank you so much!

[lieutenantselnia]

Yesterday I've been doing some proper physical exercise for the first time since last year and I'm just imagining how proud my f/os would be of me🥹

[kaztheghost]

just discussing PvP and the issues people r having with Blue hiding !! tagged discourse and crit to be safe but it isn't intentioned with either it's just me rambling

Okay I mained bads perspective yesterday but I keep seeing people say that Etoiles and Roier couldn't find anyone to kill for nine hours--and listen . Is it that they couldn't find ANYONE or that they didn't find who they WANTED to kill, because they did see Foolish and Cellbit didn't they? Two people in nine hours is SUPER ROUGH yes but they did run into red more than once and just didn't kill them so idk I'd be more into it if they really didn't see a single player for any time whatsoever but like. Just because they didn't see bad more than once ISNT the same; I think I just mainly take issue with the fact everyone is trying to give bad a hard time for not fighting while refusing to acknowledge the entire server wanted his head on a platter, why should he 1v12?? Like that's ridiculous how is that even content when he'd get curbstomped against that many people, every time people want to fight him it's only AFTER they gather at least four to six people to take him out like be realistic if you want to 1v1 id be like fuck yea but he knows that where there's one there's the rest of y'all not too far away I just do not get it he's not a coward he's using basic common sense (plus even when people offer a 1v1 they're ALWAYS in a vc telling their team where to go to jump him) that is there's One of him and An Entire Server who wants him Dead good as he is (and tbf i also disagree with etoiles calling their fight from the other day a 1v2 because it wasn't--it started as a 2v2 and fit ran because he almost died (I'm aware of the miscommunication btw I don't blame either of them!!! It really really sucks bc I'm sure etoiles could've escaped) but regardless it WAS a 2v2 that bad didn't even Want to take on initially, it would've stayed that way if fit had stuck around because he was going to die anyways ykwim but to say it was unfair when it didn't start off that way is eh 2 me mostly bc it sounds like they jumped Etoiles off guard as if Etoiles and Fit didn't engage them first) HOWEVER saying all that I think they really should try to encourage PVP in different ways than just "everyone go hunt down this one specific player" because then it's kind of just . Like that encourages that player to just hide because why would they fight that many people? Boosting the kill percentage helps but manhunts don't imo they'll just stay underground the whole time and I don't blame anyone who does outside of even Blue--like when Blue and Green were hunting Red, of course red is going to stay hundreds of blocks away to avoid PvP it's just numbers ykwim idk it's purgatory but when you being killed will set your entire team back because there's significantly less of you then everyone else I don't blame them really and I hope the admins can come up with a different way to try and get fights going

[orcelito]

FANTASTIC NEWS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i finished & posted the ITNL 14 re-edits, WHICH MEANS!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm officially done with my re-edits project!!!!!!!!!! :D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ive been thinking a lot today about my plans for ITNL 15, AND i have tomorrow off, so if all goes well i'll be able to start writing again. TOMORROW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and if the chapter grips me like i expect it will then... hehehehehe

could be an update in as little as a few days, depending. i'll keep u guys updated

[marianasofiaibarra]

what’s up gang i have a job interview today and i’m nervous so i can’t sleep hahahaha