#i just need proper motivation
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what a shame that ive been filled with an inexplicable zest for life and motivation to do everything i never have the energy to do but it’s 1am
#im not just talking the normal 1am spike of energy here#like ive started planning my novel again#the one ive been trying to rewrite for like. two or three years at this point#(i wrote it for the first time five years ago but the new version is only loosely based on it)#the one that ive never been able to finish a single chapter of or like actually plan at all#also i only ever remember i need to schedul appointments when the places i need to schedule with are closed#this is why more places should have an online scheduling option i just cant remember to make calls#its just like#i just had like the realization#just tonight#that i can do anything i want#and yeah it may be tough but the worst part is getting started and pushing through the initial dip in energy#which is. yes. a hard thing to do#but ive done it before and its not impossible!#i just need proper motivation#which now that i understand how my brain works a bit better#(now that i know i might have adhd)#i kinda have a better idea of how to do that#i need to replicate my conditions from high school because i never had problems until college#i need a structure to be imposed on me#anyways#i need to stop and start winding down to sleep#hopefully this lasts through the night!#cloudy tries writing#cloudy rambles
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Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girl found dead in a hidden room.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan xichen#jin guangyao#jiang cheng#wei wuxian#qin su#EDIT: Tumblr published an earlier draft with only half the notes I wrote so: late entry on my JGY thoughts.#Unlike the mystic powers of the stockmarket (what the OG meme is referring to) I think this situation calls for more active investigation.#qin su is such a deeply tragic character to me and I really wish we got a bit more from her.#Love everyone who sent me messages about her after the last time she appeared.#I think she needs a spin off of her being a transmigrator SO badly.#MDZS has so many interesting characters - but it sometimes fails to give them the proper room to really develop past a role in the plot.#That's just the consequence of writing a story like MDZS. Not every character in a book *needs* to have a rich inner life and backstory!#To do so would bog down the story and obliterate any notion of pacing. It's just not possible.#Jin Guangyao (nee Meng Yao) is unfortunately not free from this leeway rule. He is the culprit of this murder mystery plot#and thus NEEDS to encapsulate the themes of the book. And personally he's a 7 out of 10 at best on this front (in the AD).#MDZS is about rumours twisting reality and working towards truth. And about how people & situations are rarely ever black & white#JGY has his motivations. He's well written in regards to his actions making sense for his character.#What started as good traits (drive to succeed & improve his image) became twisted over time (do anything to maintain his image)#and it's a good parallel to WWX! He has the same arc (with different traits)! Bonus points for IGY in that regard.#but man....by the time we confront this guy for murder there's not a lot of grey morality. He's just...deep in the hole *he* dug.#There's a beautiful tragedy to it! More on JGY in later comics - this is getting pretty long already!
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Wouldn't lizard fashion be something like spikes and scales and a frilled lizard collar?
Like so?
(Bonus art under the cut)
#thank you anon I've been wanting to draw proper lizard fashion for a while and this gave me the motivation I needed#dracula daily#re: dracula#dracula#lizard fashion#The colours I chose here make Drac look like Harry Du Bois - which is appropriate given how I tend to depict his personality in my shitpost#bonus under the cut featuring Dracula's Weed Smorking Girlfriends#personally I really like the theory that the three vampire women are actually dracula's wife and two daughters#since the book never actually calls them his wives and the two subordinate girls are specifically described as looking similar to him#the idea that he turned his family but is no longer capable of loving them (or being loved by them) adds a whole extra layer for me#because he still goes through the motions - goes out to get them food (babies) and provide for them/fulfil the role of a patriarch#but its hollow and loveless and done out of strange obligation/habit - like an echo of being alive#BUT for the sake of comedy I will always draw them as his three weed smorking girlfriends because it's just funnier#or rather as I like to think of them - his three weed smoking EX-girlfriends who spend all day making fun of him and and freeloading#I'm going to tag any art with them in it from here on out as#the ex-wives of dracula#he's going to england to escape their ridicule
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Little bright colored outfit with a fun vest ~
(shoes from ebay like 10 years ago. everything else is thrifted)
#ootd#jfashion#fashion#fantasy fashion#mori kei#....like... adjacent... lol#no idea what style this would be lol.. makes me think of like whimsical vaguely fantasy themed childrens book character#finally posting one of my aforementioned seven million drafts of actual outfits and costumes i have finished and edited#the photos for but just never feel like posting lol..#I need to find one of those people whos like 'omg i am ADDICTED to social media ugh i wish i could get off of it#im just browsing and posting like 60 times a daaaaay!!!' and take a little magical bottle and suck some of the social media#enthusiasim out of them. for moi. In exchange they can have some of my 'literally just never in the mood to post or interact with the#outside world ever' energy. We can balance each other. huzzah and so on#Though I think maybe it's part of the general thing I've heard of like.. I can't remember if it was in reference to adhd or just some sort#of general execcutive functioning issue type of thing - but the idea that things have to be ''just right'' before you do something. like#'oh i need to do this task. but i have to wait until XYZ first' or 'oh i can do this but only if X specific condition is met' or etc#The fact that I even have to be in a Specific Mindset to post. or sometimes will delay posting on social media because like 'oh well#I'm going somewhere tomorrow. somehow this matters. i cannot spend 5 minuts posting TONIGHT. clearly it will interfere#somehow schedule wise with the doctor appointment i have 15 hours from now. yes. yes. i must wait until my appointment is over#tomorrow afternoon. THEN i shall post' or etc. etc. lol. NOT even taking into account the many days#I just genuinely and physically sick and it's not even a mental thing. I just physically dont feel like sitting at the computer lol..#ANYWAY.. trying to get back into it. trying to get a business bank account.. make a proper paypal so i can start selling sculptures again.#selling clothes and sculptures.. posting about such things then of course as one must. etc... chanting to hype up and motivate myself lol#But yes. this is my favorite outfit out of the bunch so I am posting it first I guess.. maybe others later..#Also the purple dress says its from shein. which I've heard is bad fast fashion stuff. but maybe okay since its second hand? I havent#been to the bins since like 2020 or late 2019 even. and I think stuff like shein and temu has only become poular in the past few years#but I bet if I went to the bins now I might would find a good handfull of that stuff. Probably now not much different than what you#find in a walmart or a forever 21 or actual physical stores you can go to though. I hear quality of clothing is down everywhere no matter#where you get it or whatnot. What bountiful joys unfettered capitalism and exploitation bestows upon us (<being sarcastic).#Wearing one of my favorite little vests though. I love the texture of it and the clasps on it
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Hey Lover!
#i listened to hey lover by the daughters of eve when i was sketching this and its stuck hence the caption#there needs to be more wholesome art of them#i did this surprisingly quickly im usually pretty slow at drawing#crazy what proper motivation will do#ALSO a winter scene!#kenshi wears trenchcoats i will not be changing my mind on this#okay as much as id love to stay and chat i havent eaten a meal since like six am and have been surviving on tortilla chips#IT WASNT MY FAULT THIS TIME#MY SISTER WAS REORGANIZING THE KITCHEN FOR HOURS STARTING AROUND THE TIME I EAT LUNCH#like moved just about everything and she got pissy when someone got in the way :(#dont worry cc i will go eat now#...after i finish cross posting...#kenshi takahashi#suchin#mk suchin#kenshi x suchin#kensuchin#mortal kombat#mortal kombat fanart#my art#digital art#cfa art
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I'm SO close to finishing fully storyboarding the Joel animation (yes I'm only at the storyboards and rough animation still. Shit's long), but I can't wait so please look at the smallidaries
#yeah thats it. Just them. I'll be able to show off the whole thing in like a day or two though <3 I'm so excited to get into it proper..#definitely my most ambitious project yet. I hope I'm not annoying with the previews. I need this for motivation haha#song is Jumpsuit by TOP#video#smallidarity#tubby art
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I didn’t see any studyblr posts today with cats T_T
How am i supposed to go through with my day
#misa's undergrad journey#studyblr#I swear I need them for motivation#but I scrolled so much and still there were none….#*crying*#should I make a proper tag for cat posts?#cattag?#it looks weird#kitty tag just sounds creepy#aaaaa#pls give me suggestions#100#500#1k#2k
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I’ve been so busy with other stuff but I really want to get back to drawing WHF art so I went and cleaned up a wip. Not sure how I feel with some of the angles but I just needed to get this out of my system
Based off of this clip
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#mcart#we happy few#whf#uncle jack#jack worthing#whf uncle jack#nick lightbearer#norbert pickles#whf nick lightbearer#is this lightfog?#yeah it is ngl so#lightfog#listen any ship art I make usually nine times out of ten it’s nothing romantic it’s usually shitposts like this#but the subtext is there#and this is toxic yaoi anyway ain’t no way they’d have a proper romantic relationship#their dynamic compels me though#it would work more in his foggy jack form but also I think it would be funny if this is how jack acts to him in his uncle jack form#just slightly unhinged#anyway uhhh if you’re still reading the tags uhh mayhaps you’d like to send me a request for a whf art idea?#gonna be honest I only have so many ideas I want to do but I feel like I need to be motivated so#it would be so awesome. it would be so cool#read my pinned post though and take into consideration for that cause there’s just some things I won’t do so I may end up rejecting an idea#would like to draw something with uncle jack cause like lately ive been trying to draw him but been having the hardest time idk why#he just looks off in my artstyle rn so maybe if i get a request id be able to lock in#anyway uhhh thats it
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I made a few more of these is this anything
#I will make proper content someday I promise……#I have a rip/latla fic in the works that is at 6k words I’m just needing to find the motivation and time to finish it#I need to put more rip/leila content out into the world also that will be my next project I’m determined#rip tristan#latla mirah#feng kowloon#andy#undead unluck
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Shelter
#rain world#rainworld#rain world survivor#rain world monk#rain world hunter#my art#fanart#paper post#My motivation behind this piece is two factors:#It's been far too long since my last rain world post and even longer I've posted anything traditional#Unfortunately the sketch I had before this had incredibly thin paper#Which slowly but surely did drain my want to draw on paper#BUT as you can see I have a new one and it's lovely!!#And for anyone curious I still very much love Rain World!!#Hopefully this post can get me that mich needed motivation to jump into this incredibly game once more#That and I just love drawing Hunter & Survivor no matter the reason#I managed to make their designs really fun for myself hehe#Also this is just a miscellaneous headcanon: I feel like eyes are great hosts for developing Rot#With a proper want to fight the growing tumor the Rot is able to thrive until eventually breaking out of the socket#An unfortunate fate for these with imbalanced karma
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Imagine you're Mr. Wu and your weird gay daughter runs away in tears after destroying some unespecified object while yelling about you ruining her life. Because you told her you'd be moving to another state. This is the last time you see your daughter in half a year, and when she comes back, she comes back... wrong. She's wearing a light leather armor, a fur-lined cape, and a green flower crown. She has two long scars, one alongside her spine and the other along her chest, the tissue around them covered in burn scars. Doctors say she shouldn't have survived. Doctors say she didn't. Yet she's right here, in front of you, hospital gown clinging to her small, fragile, trembling frame. She fidgets with her hands. Getting her to stay still has always been difficult, but now it seems impossible. She won't let go of her phone. She's always texting her two friends. When you take it away, she gets anxious. You always knew those damn phones cause kids to act weird, but your kid having a panic attack seems too extreme, even for her. Then again, she's always been odd. Nowadays, she wakes up crying and screaming almost every night, and you realize she's been stealing her phone from your bedside drawer every night to text her friends, returning it before you wake up. You catch her once and decide to give her that damn phone back. It's the only thing that calms her down, as if she were a baby with a pacifier. She spends her last weeks in LA clinging to her friends, having sleepovers and playing her weird board games with them. Everytime they drop her back at her house, there's an excessive amount of hugs and tears. But the moments when they call her, or when she leaves to meet with them, or when they show up at their door to pick her up... those are the only moments in which you see her happy. One of her friends, the rude and disobedient one, came back with a big scar on her face. She's been acting a lot nicer, though. The other one too. She acts a great deal more adult now. You doesn't know what happened or where your daughter went. She won't tell you. But you can tell this friendship is the only thing keeping her afloat right now. Maybe you know, deep down, that no one else would understand.
And then you decide to move anyway because fuck her amirite
#amphibia#marcy wu#my posts#so like what if marcy moving away was a proper tragedy#what if things were WORSE for her#what if *smashes marcy with a ROCK*#i realized that.#despite my parents being shitty (just found out literaly today my mom had doctors give me the wrong treatment because she assumed my body#would react the same way as hers. instead of doing what literally every doctor told her to do. now i need to get it fixed)#they still asked me how I felt about moving away to a different province when in like. 8.#like. oh right. this is something parents generally ask their kids about. instead of uprooting their entire lives out of nowhere.#marcy's situation is complicated in a narrative sense because#in order for her arc to work her departure must be dictated by morally neutral forces outside of her control#but her parents' decision seems very shitty with the context we're given. you COULD give context that justified their actions#i.e have them explain that they really do need this if they want marcy to go to college or some shit like that#but then it stops being Marcy vs. Forces of Nature#and it becomes Marcy vs. Her Dad (and she has to accept he's right in this one)#the show is clearly for a Marcy vs. Forces of Nature conflict (in this case it's the inevitability of change)#and in order to keep the antagonistic force abstract you CAN'T have her dad be a proper character#BUT. as a consequence -> Marcy has to give into the ''#the ''natural order'' which would be accepting her parents' power over her as natural and inevitable#it's not even like... accepting her parents are right or anything. just that their o#that their complete control of the situation and marcy's total powerlessness is natural and inevitable#and that's tragic! from a more watsonian ñerspective#perspective* : Marcy is sent back to her shitty parents and she just needs to learn how to deal with it away from her support system#the solution imo would have been to change the motivation behind her family moving away so that it's outside her parents' control too#it really has to be completely inevitable. i can't think of an alternative reason but it's just what it#it's what would fix this problem imo#it's a simple fix really
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It’s actually insane how fandom in general has become so scared of making weird and dark and ugly works. Like I look at myself and see how I have also subconsciously adapted this instinct to self censor and make things “marketable” and it’s making me want to crawl out of my skin. I need to get weirder and worse and more off-putting hello
#I need to write a proper Spectra&Gus meta bc it’s been cooking me how people don’t Want to see the insanity in them#argh#d0 stuff#negative#d0 smashes the keyboard#like yes#Gus’s devotion and loyalty are extreme and these feelings make him do stupid things that he is absolutely aware of being stupid#but let’s not pretend that these feelings go both ways in their relationship#Spectra (for like. the majority of the New Vestroia except the maybe last 12 eps?) sees Gus as a convenient tool#like Yeah he is like. a person and all that but Spectra doesn’t Interact with him when it doesn’t concern his business so#and also yes. he gives Gus a level of autonomy that one might not exactly expect from how usually these relationships go but#one Has to question if it’s bc of his goodwill or bc he is safe in his knowledge that Gus would never leave him#which. fun and sick and makes them sooo compelling#I would also argue that Spectra/Keith don’t even miss Gus when he ‘died’ as a person at first#but as the second pair of hands for work#like it was quite funny to see Spectra give instructions to air only to be reminded that his minion died#but it does rise the question of why hasn’t it happened before or in any other situation#(which I must say I really dig because yes. Spectra has always been centred around his ambitions so ofc this is where it would hurt first)#but yeah. sth sth Spectra only starts his journey of Actually giving a shit about Gus and acknowledging his importance to him as a person#by the end of nv#you could still argue it was partially (or maybe wholly) motivated by convenience that Gus presents but#it really was the first time Spectra has personally expressed his tie to Gus gah#all of this to say#they are sickos; each in their own way; and I think we can really make this more sinister and insane than we’ve allowed ourselves#throughout the years so far#like yeah. can I see them as a happy couple? sure! but also can I see this as a very codependent (more so from Gus’s angle) relationship#that’s being sprinkled with Tons of manipulation from Spectra? also yes#actually sorry for this wall of tags idk what got me thinking about them again#but it’s so so biting the bars day bc these guys are so fun!! we just have to let them be and maybe read canon through less good intentions#ok uhhh
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So like, I took a break from even bothering to pray to hypnos for help with sleep cause, well, idk why actually, cause like, I started praying to him when I was in like, 8th or 9th grade.
Dude, a couple months back, I got this little lamb plush that I fucking adore- like, it has a music box inside it and a wind up key that I can take out if I want since- it's plastic and juts out.
And like, I got bored n decided to do rando research on hypnos's symbolic animals n shit... and now realizing,
Was the plush a fucking sign and I just only realized now?/lh
Anywayz, bedtime for moths ig. It's almost 13 am anyways.
#random bullshit with milo#hypnos devotee#hypnos worship#greek mythology#greek gods#witchcraft#(? not sure bout the witchcraft tag lmao)#i also just had the stupid inspo to turn my shitty princess table nightstand into a crappy makeshift altar thing ig#idk#my laptop is now where i cant casually reach it so now i need proper motivation to be silly on it/lh#ig it works.#i need to stfu#im rambling in the tags omfg
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me, at noon on a Thursday at the office: what if I whipped up a new costume piece before Saturday?
#the thing is....#1) I like circle skirts#2) I like solid pockets#3) obviously I like corsets/corset-style waistbands#4) I hate the hassle of wrangling multiple outfit pieces together#5) I still have a good length of pretty red fabric from a failed attempt at making pants#logically I would abbreviate my plans and just fix the darn pants (if I can find them)#illogically I want to whip up a skirt#draft a corset waistband for it#find some scraps of boning#throw in some pockets#and wear that to this weekend's ren fest (and next weekend's) with a t-shirt#(and the hoops for a breeze because it's gonna be hot again)#see... my eventual aim is to have something comfortable I can just throw on with minimal effort#and after a couple of years I'm starting to figure out what I define as 'comfortable'#but as we all know I also can't work without an impending deadline#(circle skirts are the easy part let's be honest. it's hand-drafting the waistband that'll get me)#(it seems so silly that I need to assemble anything corset-esque in ten different parts when it's not a proper corset)#(also I found some spare eyelets while cleaning lol)#anyway we'll see if I still have motivation for this by the time I'm home#because for any chance of success I will need to 1) clean my space 2) find my supplies and 3) cut out at least the skirt tonight#hmmmm I should find and print the pattern for those pockets....
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I’m sorry you feel like your brain is soup, but for what it’s worth I’ve been following you since I was like 14 on deviantart and the stuff you have created has always been a major inspiration for me; i love animals and fantasy and your ability to capture realistic proportions and anatomy while creating this beautiful movement in your artwork has always blown me away, it’s so full of life and beauty. I just wanted to tell you 🤷 you really inspired this random Australian kid and I hope you can find joy and rest and kindness for yourself k bye
Aaaaaa this is so wholesome! I haven't been enduring as much of my usual mental health struggle since I've started meds/therapy, but my creativity/productivity has regrettably taken a hit as a possible result? So even if I'm on indefinite hiatus, it's nice to know I've had a positive impact on at least one person somewhere down the line. Someday I'll get back into healthy habits and express through art more reliably again (I mean art has been my escape portal for most of my life)! Just gotta bust off the rust and focus/practice again, even if I'm anxious about all the work that requires. Anyway, I'm rambling: thank you so much!
#april rambles#wholesome asks#anonymous#text post#I'm literally an adult with a wiggly 4 year old toddler brain most days?#like it's always been there but now whatever I've done this last few years really unleashed it#I just need to find the motivation and courage to art again#mostly putting my hands in the dirt these days#I guess I've been more of a nature admirer than an artist I suppose#I just want to pay proper tribute and that's impossible#but you know that won't stop me trying#thanks to all of you who have stuck around
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what the FUCK is sentence structure⁉️⁉️🔥🔥💯
#ugh I dunno why but I really struggle with structuring my sentences to make like.actual sense#ESPECIALLY when texting xD#I HATEEE ITTTT#WHY CAN'T I BE GOOD AT WRITING IT'S THE ONE THING I ENJOY THAT I DON'T ENTIRELY SUCK AT AND EVEN THEN SENTENCES ARE HARDDD💔💔#I blame my lack of schooling :p#I haven't done like. proper schoolwork since..I dunno 8th?? grade so since I was 13-14#oh wells I gotta teach myself somehow#fr need to study up more on writing ESPECIALLY sentence structure and yk. the ability to make my phrases make sense#just need to find the motivation to do so :'D
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