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I imagine the story that follows Hera during her self care retreat away from Olympus takes place within the modern day.
The main conflict are - Hera figuring her shit out, Zeus looking for his wife, Athena freaking out about the sudden spike and rise of monsters... Which isn't a lot now that I really think about it lol. I have an idea for a "plot" some scraps and blobs but I've realised when developing a project on my own it feels like an echo chamber of my own thoughts with ideas and tropes that are all from my little box of limited ideas and experiences.
I feel like a lot of retellings are also just repeating the same thing over and over, and Im scared that I'll make a story that'll drown within all of em. Which is why I'm going with more niche traditions and regional variations of the myths.
But I really suck at making a nice long fully thought out plot especially when it focuses on multiple storylines happening at once.
ASTRAL TRAIN MY BELOVED!! rotating hera in my mind like a rotisserie chicken omg >_<
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i hear ya. well my friend theres a first time for everything, and as with everything in life theres much to be done and learned down the road, especially through trial and error. worry not ill bring snacks and well figure it out lol ^-^
WHOOP!!!!!! i havent read much to be honest but it seems to me retellings and stuff tend to use figures from the mythos as vessels for tropes (since theyre typically established already) to appease the masses, instead of fleshing them out and giving them conflicts and stuff, which is fine whatever, but astral train has so much potential it literally deserves to shine through
so yes having nicher (?) and more diverse material to work with is really brilliant i liek it and youre doing insanely well! curating myths and sources cant be an easy task much less weave them together :D
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hera doodle (attempt!)
dont focus on the anatomy too hard please and thank u
reference (also i got tired shoosh)
credits to sara faber on x :)
#aight friday morning is when ill get to the asks#i already predict my collapse thursday night lol#i have like subzero experience with actual writing#last time i wrote was probably 10 years ago (won a poetry competition and im pretty sure im afraid to try bc i know ill never top that lol)#so take what i say with a shaker of salt#but in the words of the great micheal scott;#'Ill start a sentence and i dont even know where its going#i just hope i find it along the way'#i guess writing and just putting ideas to words will help the ideas materialise better?#also sometimes the characters do their own thing on the page#and u the author just run with it#idk but im very >:D#astron#hera#astral train
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asking and receiving (bonus below readmore)
[ID: A black and white, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood. In the first panel is a close up of Wolfwood's mouth as he says, "Vash". Accompanying it is a close up shot of Vash's eye, widen and cheeks flushed. Wolfwood presses a knee against the open space between Vash's legs and says, "Tell me everything you want from me." Wolfwood's face is equally as flushed. He continues to say, "I'll give it to you. Everything." As he talks, a wide shot shows the both of them in white space. Vash is sitting, leaning a little back with both hands pressed against the surface he's sitting on. Wolfwood is in his white dress shirt, stripped of the blazer. He's still leaning in with one knee in between Vash's spread legs, his right hand touching Vash's lips and his left hand behind his back.
The shot closes in on Vash's mouth and Wolfwood's hand against it, pressing down on the lower lip as he says, "You have to ask though. Go on." His hand moves down to Vash's chin, gently holding it. With a shy and uncertain expression, Vash hesitantly asks, "Um... K... Kiss... Please?" Wolfwood, without wasting a second, leans in and kisses him and indulges by pressing deeper, eliciting a small noise of surprise from Vash.
Wolfwood moves away from Vash first and with a smile, asks, "What else?" Vash tugs on Wolfwood's left sleeve, wordlessly budging Wolfwood to give him his hand that was still behind his back. In the next panel, Vash utters, "Hold me..?" He's holding Wolfwood's left hand with his own while his right hand is reaching for his waist. Wolfwood complies, moving his left hand to Vash's shoulder and his right hand continues to touch Vash's cheek. Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"
More comfortable now, Vash leans in to kiss Wolfwood. Wolfwood catches him immediately, pressing his thumb against Vash's lips to stop him before demanding, "Hey. Ask." Vash looks back in surprise and Wolfwood meets his eye with a quiet, insistent look. They're quiet for a moment before Vash leans in again and curtly requests, "Kiss. Me." Wolfwood says "Good", smiling as he lifts his hand away, and meets Vash's lips. In the next shot, Wolfwood had adjusted his position, sitting on Vash's thigh. The hand that was once on Vash's cheek has moved its way to Vash's nape, pushing away the collar of his jacket with his pinky. His other hand continues to grip on Vash's shoulder. Still kissing, Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"
In the next shot, Vash is starting to turn, moving Wolfwood with him. Vash asks, "Let me on top of you?" Wolfwood says, "Mhm" before asking again, "What else?" The next panel shows a close look of Vash's face. He's looking down, flushed and shy just as he had been at the beginning, but now, more decisive. Vash asks, "Wolfwood... Let me have you..?" A panel of Wolfwood taking Vash's hand into his, pulling it towards his chest. The next panel shows Wolfwood lying down where Vash had laid him. Vash's hand is on Wolfwood's chest, covering the cross of his rosary while Wolfwood's hand lingers against his, loosely pressing Vash's hand in place. He looks up at Vash with a shy smile of his own, flushed cheeks. He says, "All yours."
A panel shows a close up of Vash's tender gaze before he leans down to be closer to Wolfwood. The final shot is a front view of their positions, Vash's face turned away from the viewer; Vash is leaning over Wolfwood who's lying down with his right leg draped over Vash's legs. Wolfwood's left hand holds onto Vash's left arm. With finality, Vash says, "...Mine." End ID]
[ID: A follow up bonus comic in a looser, sketchier style. They're laying comfortably in bed when Vash asks, "What was that earlier?" referecing to the start of the previous comic. Wolfwood glances away and says, "To get you used to it. Asking. And getting what you ask for. Since you're alwasy hesitant about it." Vash's eyes widen, tight lipped. Wolfwood continues, "Knowing you, it'll be a tough habit to break..." When he says this, Vash can't help but laugh, unable to deny it. Wolfwood slowly brings a hand to Vash's cheek and continues to say, "So I'll keep trying -- whatever ways I can... to get it through your thick skull." Vash takes Wolfwood's hand with his, kissing the the palm gently. Wolfwood's eyes soften and holding onto Vash's cheek, he leans in to try for a kiss. Vash says, "Hey..." before stopping Wolfwood's lips with the back of his hand, a smug look on his face, "Ask." Wolfwood's embarrassed and with little irritation, asks, "Really?" Vash smiles, saying, "You're in need of practice too." They pause for a moment, Wolfwood looking contemplatively, before he's leaning in again, asking, "May I please kiss you?" Vash looks him in the eyes and says, "Yes." The comic ends with a "chu", indicating an off-panel kiss. End ID]
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#it took me so long to post this even after getting clarification about the maturity warning and stuff#bc i am so shy about it. SDGMKDSGMKSD I LIKE THIS COMIC BUT IM ALSO SO LIKE... AUGHHHH....#when i posted this on twitter though it was like... a few days after ep 11? ive always had the thought circling about vash deserving of#asking for things... and getting what he wants bc he never gets both. doesn't get the opportunity to ask and hardly does he get what he want#maybe the results can go in his favor but at some point along the way he'll still lose something bc nothing can ever go perfectly for him...#and he's usually the one begging and pleading with people to not. do something. it's not even asking at that point it's just straight up#please believe me. please trust me. please don't shoot that person. please don't kill anyone. please don't do it.#and wolfwood.... it was not always this lovey dovey ok. he wouldv noticed this habit miles away and they got into a fight about it the first#time they talked about it bc wolfwood is being hypocritical too. as he always is!!!! but i think as they get more intimate#wolfwood finds ways to make vash understand. smth smth insatiable want and love and desire for wolfwood that makes it much easier to ask.#wolfwood can also just be so compliant. sometimes. which is also an issue in of itself that id love to explore at some point#but he also just enjoys giving into vash fully and completely.#bc he loves him a lot. but anyway#i hope the id is comprehendible.... please lmk if there's something wrong with how im doing it asfdgkdsmgs#ruporas art
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#a doodley#okkk 2022: the torture chamber....i only sparsely drew al and developed talon (he was borned...) bc my mind was occupied with other things.#2023: exiting torture chamber; it took me a tiny little bit to get back to drawing and ''interacting with'' al again but i did it even#though it was a reminder of the Bad bc he's my copium#summer 2023: i view and witness media and suddenly have like 5 fictional men i cant decide on which to focus... and september (talon month)#comes along so I decide to focus on Talon after not touching him much at all throughout the entire year#(forced this btw i did not wanna do it LOL i didnt even remember how to draw him)#september 2023 to now: talon has infiltrated the brain. but i want to swivel back to al#now: i've forgotten how to Talk to al (just like i did in beginning of 2023)#(and just like i forgot how to talk to talon for most of 2023)#so ive kind of just been replaying the smunker cow al daydreams from when they first met#so I can find my way back...retracing my steps#in doing so ive kind of also forgotten how to interact with talon but still havent gotten back to al#so rn my life is so boring without imaginary bf interactions. just the before sleep plot rehashing daydreams...#or sparse visions of em Sometimes#nobody in my brain rn just like the short period last yr and its distressing#what do i draw without a love obsession.....#how do i pass time without it....! so boring. idk what to do#i miss the me of several yrs ago when i was drawing 50 different aus with al....ive downgraded in skill and imagination and creativity#so bad since then. idk. idk. i hope they come back to me soon#maybe i shld just draw al a lot which is how i kickstarted caring abt talon again almost a yr ago ?#hoping i can get him to come back before my surgery i need my big sexy boy nurse for recovery#(complaining abt things usually fixes em for me so im hoping thats the case here)
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maybe im dumb but rio did absolutely nothing wrong in my eyes
as far as i know death just takes, she doesn’t kill, she doesn’t decide who dies and who doesn’t, it’s fate and all she does is come get them when the time comes
she didn’t kill nicky, she was just doing what so has to do, i don’t think it’s up to her, this job was bestowed on her by the universe
#that being said i still understand agatha#i just think rio deserves forgiveness from her at some point and i hope they find their ways back to each other and have freaky ghost sex#agatha all along#agathario
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unfortunately, i do have my life planned out—
#its NOT unrealistic i just have to hope hard enough!!!#oh and we find and take care of creatures we find along the way#wheres my butch that i can bother all day?#lesbian#black lesbian#non binary lesbian#lesbian blog#femme4butch#femme4stud#butch4femme#stud4femme#ofos femme#is the size difference fascination showing in this post a bit? i think it might be....#lesbian yearning#unfortunately i do have my live planned out trend on tiktok lol
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… hm
#i think instead of freaking out and ‘going celibate’ i need to just be real with myself. i only wanna date or hook up with butches!!!!!#maybe only stone butches even 🫢#bc no matter how nice the person is or how well we get along it just doesn’t feel good to me. it feels like a round peg in a square hole#& this might end up with me becoming functionally celibate bc i can’t seem to find any butches (let alone stone) in my area who are into me#but that’s fine. it will happen eventually. and it feels better being secure in what i want to spend my energy toward#i have to stop hoping that the masc i’m meeting up with will be a butch in disguise (like. this is sometimes true. but usually not)#and i need to let go of the last of my internalized shame over being exclusively 100% femme4butch only. and picky on top of that lafdkjsfls#picky is a good way to be when it comes to dating and sex imo 💅🏻#personal
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I have a wild “how Nicky died” theory that accounts for a bunch of loose ends (including the “what you were doing was important” line) and keeps the Billy’s Road theory and my ‘making Agatha the villain’ theory in mind and I absolutely do not want to be right about it because my brain really said what if it’s tragic in Every Single Way.
#agatha all along#Agatha harkness#billy maximoff#Rio Vidal#AgathaRio#nicholas scratch#i just know I’m gonna be destroyed either way#but I hope they find a better way to do it than just oh she accidently stole his power#like yeah that’s tragic but…#i have a feeling there’s way more
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genuinely though if they continue venom without tom hardy, or without eddie brock, i will blow myself up and not in a good way
#like. you cannot do Venom without eddie brock! AND YOU CANNOT CHANGE THE ACTOR FOR VENOM WITHOUT DOING A UNIVERSE REDDT#*reset#also. you cannot fight knull without venom. YOU CANNOT FIGHT KNULL. WITHOUT VENOM#i think. god what i HOPE happens is that venom finds spiderman in the barman (the barman is. so important for some reason which. yknow)#and venomxnewhost finds spiderman. spiderman gets BLASTED into the SSU because?? who knows honestly#and along the way eddie brock is there and he and venom are reunited#i think the movie will end with either venom and eddie dying for REAL this time (together!) OR it will leave them#..happy? together? they say their goodbyes to spiderman (venom ((of course!)) takes the symbol) and they just. get to live#happily ever after#yknow?#the set-up for the next movie is there and by GOD do i hope they use it. PLEASE#please please PLEASE use it#i dont want them in secret wars i don't want them in the mcu i don't want them in another fucking movie that isn't about them#i want them. one last time. getting reunited. maybe... daring to share a kiss? or at least a forehead touch? yknow? and finally getting#their forever after#because you cannot have venom without eddie brock. and you can't have a new eddie brock without resetting the entire franchise#also the way tom goes from 😄 to 😐 when talking about the ending and back to 😄 when it's about any other part LMAO#anyway#sjonnie.text#venom 3#venom 3 spoilers
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Training
Kolivan: Having the will of a Galra is not enough to defeat a Galra. Get back up and do it again.
Keith: I'm trying
Kolivan: Trying never solved anything, doing is the only way to survive. Again.
#voltron headcanons#keith voltron#voltron#vld keith#keith kogane#kolivan#bom#idk#i just think Kolivan would be the hard ass teacher thats mean because he doesnt want to lose anyone#meanwhile Keith is trying really hard#but hes just so small compared to the others#keiths like: i cant just instinct my way outta this one??#he still got skill#hes still the bastard that broke into a quarenteen base knocked out some garrison medics#stole his brother with a guy he claims not to remeber#(keith we all know thats a lie)#and proceeded to fly to space and foght a war like its a typical tuesday thing to do#imagine how long he was probably alone in that shack#do you think Adam trued to find him? I hope he didnt die thinking keith was dead along with Shiro#i think about that sometimes
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Some mild existential dread in the house today
#im just feeling reeeeally really drained#works taking a LOT out of me#like. it feels less intense day to day? or maybe im reacting less? but its still very much piling up#and im just feeling very...idk. like im still waiting for permission to live my life#except now the permission osnt coming from any one person its. having the money to docit#and the time and the energy#and i guess thats just what adult life is? waiting#and hoping#and along the way losing sight of what i even wanted in the first place because im so *tired*#idk. i definitely need a project of some kind but im struggling to settle on something and then organise it#i have stuff to do today anyway. alfie had a lil bit of emergency cash saved so i need to go shopping#and i need to tidy the kitchen and do some dishes#and have a bath and shave at some point#i also want to draw but again. struggling ti pick something and idk if ill have the executive function spare#AND i want to try and be more social and talk to folks but thats its own kind of difficult#part of me would like a disc server that just has all of my friends in it bc i find it easier to dip in and out of conversarions#but i imagine that would be weird for folks who dont know each other#idk. lot goin through my mind when all i really want is sleep#which also hasnt been...greeeeat lately#mainly because Alfie wakes me up in the mornings bc they dont like being alone but also have a very different sleep schedule to me#and can take multiple smaller naps over a day whereas i really need a solid 8 or so hours or i just. dont fully switch on#but theyre also struggling atm (mentally and also they got an injury at work AND seperately broke their foot ffs)#so they need me more and its just#this never ending cycle of SOMETHING needs my attention#and its fucking exhausting asfghfkd#but!!! we keep goin!!!!! been applying for a bunch of jobs and havent heard anything positive yet but. we keep tryin huh
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actually as much as i love mike and harvey together. i feel so sad for rachel zane because imagine falling in love with your coworker and then you learn that your coworker is a fake lawyer but not only that, your coworker is a fake lawyer who would literally do anything for his boss. he'll literally leave you at the altar to go to prison for his boss. he'll try to quit his job multiple times but keep coming back because his boss asked him to come back. he'll move to seattle with you, and you'll breathe a sigh of relief because it means that it can finally just be the two of you, but then you learn that he's inviting his stupid former boss to join them. and his stupid former boss agrees. you smile because your husband is so stupid happy at the idea of working with his former boss again, but you've seen this film one too many times before, and you are going to be subject to watching your husband choose his stupid former boss-slash-friend over you again and again and again and again and again and ag
#caroline talks#suits#LIKE? ? ??? rachel zane babes i love u but i hope you've divorced mike ross by now <333#like i'm so sorry girlie!!! your husband loves u i'm sure but also he's been playing stupid chicken with this guy he's been in love with#for YEARS NOW!!!!#it's also like. uh. you KNOW that harvey wouldn't do anything with mike while mike's married to rachel because of ALL THAT BAGGAGE HE HAS--#and i don't think mike would ever do anything to harvey because HE knows how much baggage harvey has#like. in my head. yeah they're all living together in seattle and rachel's just like ':/// i need to divorce this man bc we could move to#literally antarctica and mike would still find a way to drag harvey along.#and the crazy thing is that harvey would probably FOLLOW HIM.'#like. the way i'm not even exaggerating what happens in the show too?? ? ?#like we have literal scenes of rachel crying and begging mike to just LET HARVEY GO#and to just CHOOSE HER#and mike is always just like '!!! HOW DARE YOU TELL ME TO GIVE UP ON HARVEY'#and it's like. ilysm mike u crazy silly man <333 but also like. i think it's fairly reasonable of the woman you're marrying#to ask you to choose her over your boss slash buddy. y'know?#like. it's not even like rachel and mike are a cute simple girlfriend-boyfriend.#they are literally ENGAGED and they are literally supposed to START A LIFE TOGETHER--#and mike is still going ':((( i can't leave harvey behind' like actually rachel babe i am SO SORRY
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Every episode Fig ramps up the psychological torture against Ruben and I am HERE for it! Hilarious. Get his ass.
#dimension 20#fantasy high#junior year#i feel like when someone ISN'T the bad guy brennan finds ways to make the PCs feel bad for being mean to them#since he is allowing this i'm guessing its because they aren't just innocent kids#ANYWAY#i hope fig makes ruben cry#and i hope the reveal that she's been wanda all along is *delicious* and ruins his life
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random tokrev rant ahead !!
when i first started this blog it was going to be for random shitposts, groupchats once in a while, and mostly tokrev analysis but i was so scared of discourse that i just chose to do the funnier stuff 😭. when tokrev was at it's peak i'd be reading 20k+ words of analysis and it was so fun!! but i felt like i couldn't word what i wanted to say properly so that discouraged me but i wish i'd ignored that because there would have been at least one person who understood what i was saying yk?
#anyway#i used to have a tagging system but i forgot so that's my bad#and the thing about discourse is that you could give a person all the canonical facts of the story and they'll still find a way to pretend#that they're right and i personally cannot handle that#i take things very seriously and someone thinking they won a argument when they didn't would make me rip my hair out#so maybe my blog not going into that direction was good for my metal health#i feel like fandom interactions always end up as fights for some reason#why can't two opinions co-exist#let's discuss and have fun why we gotta tell each other to kill ourselves😭#like i saw a very well thought out and written theory about sanzu having autism or something along those lines#and a comment was like “stop trying to give him excuses he's a terrible villain and he's just crazy blah blah blah”#whole time this person's an izana apologist#like😐#i love both these characters but a lot of characters in tokrev are more complicated than just a “crazy villain”#and it seems like they understand that about izana so????#ok i'm done now i hope you guys get what i mean#tokyo revengers#tokyo revengers manga#tokrev
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athos, you unbelievably divorced man, your misery is so delicious <3
#🛷#i do so love when a man is reduced to nothing but the shell of himself. a ghost amongst the living struggling to keep his humanity#i crack jokes about the kinds of characters and tropes i gravitate towards bc yes i do find these stories the most compelling#but more than that it just resonates so deeply with me#when a character could choose to resent humanity but ends up loving them instead#when they choose to care about others when it would be so much easier not to#it might be silly but it gives me hope#that maybe carrying on for others and not myself is enough#that maybe i was doomed from the start but there’s still smth to cherish along the way. however long a way that may be#wow.#didnt mean to get completely serious over bbc musketeers but i was 12 when this show was on telly#athos always stuck to me even if i didn’t know why at the time :]#now let me bend him over and— [is shot]
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any time u say ralsei is cute or sweet or whatever ur playing right into his trap btw. not ralsei’s trap, toby’s
#this is not me saying ralsei is evil btw he is not. at least i dont think so. though he certainly is hiding something#but i mean specifically in the sense that i think toby very intentionally crafted ralsei to be a character that the player would latch onto#and really love. so that they will make choices that most strongly show off their love for him like making kris hug him and compliment him#and thats the catch. is that its not us doing these things with him - we are making KRIS who does not seem to be too fond of ralsei do them#almost paralleling this fondness that many players have for ralsei is the fondness/reverence that he seems to hold for US#and good lord do i find that fucking interesting#in any other media ''[character] loves you fans just as much as you love them!'' would be cute#but here im just like DAYUM WE'RE BOTH PARASOCIAL!#ralsei and the player trying to smooch each other while poor kris is in the middle of all this#im joking but this really is so fascinating to me. that there is this almost mutual sort of love between ralsei and players who like him#and the only way players can express that love is via an unwilling kris#and ralsei is possibly aware of that distinction and fully goes along with it KNOWING KRIS IS NOT OK WITH THIS bcuz he holds the player in#higher regard. oohghgughguhhhohoho#i hope this made any sort of sense i hadnt considered the player's side of things when it came to this before but now that i have#ough#serena.txt#deltarune
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I feel like i'm starting to understand my relationship to my art is not the same as a lot of my friends, and that's okay. I don't really get cravings to draw, and I don't really feel serotonin from sketching/doodling.
All of my art's gotta have some kinda purpose, including when starting a new illustration or just designing characters. I wish I could just draw and create with abandon, but that doesn't really come naturally to me. That's why I end up mulling over ideas more then actually sketching/writing things down.
It sort of depresses me that i can't just be happy drawing for drawing's sake, and sometimes I think the creative field just isn't for me. Maybe art will never be anything more then a hobby for me, and that's okay. But damn is my inner child dying at me admitting this, lol.
#late night ramblings#text#i'm never gonna give up on art#and who knows maybe i'll find a way to make my art more personally fufilling#but i've just been stringing myself along with hope for too long now#hope that i might change one day and spontaneously become a different person that can fufill all of my dreams and it ain't working#might delete this later lol
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