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werewolffem · 1 year ago

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I hope you find peace. I've gone through EXACTLY what you're going through now and it's awful but it will eventually hurt less. Try to focus on what makes you happy rn bc you will be an after thought (I'm sorry but it's true) and living with that will only torture you further. Have a good day today. It's Friday after all ☺️.

Also I hope your hatmailer gets a life that's not clouded by delusion and self loathing. Hopefully one day they'll learn to love themselves instead of toxically sending hate first thing in the morning.

Take care ♥️

ik i really need to. ik it all. it's just hard to get over 2 years of feelings and hope i had even though I KNEW nothing would happen. thank you!

lol it's just funny because i haven't even remotely been as "terfy" as i have or could be lately on this blog. someone just loves me lol! it's like a good morning message for them!

thank you so much ❤️

#anon #ty #i just hope i can get over her soon

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linktube · 7 months ago

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damien's three celebrity crushes! x

#smosh #damien haas #shayne topp #so he still has a crush on his ex that is anna taylor joy from queens gambit ha :( hope he can get over her soon #(that is a still from the first damien interviews his exes video for anybody who may not remember.. it was a joke lol just to make sure!!)#unrelated but to get a pic for this stupid post i kinda got lost in the sea of absolutely gorgeous anna hathaway photos/shoots #i mean in no way ill be the first to say this but dude what a beautiful woman #i love how full her features are #big brown eyes you will always be a winner!!

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josecariohca · 11 days ago

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#pausing my essay to make a tumblr post in the hopes it will stop my panic attack bc uhhh what do you mean its november #what do you mean time for these applications are running out what do you mean i have to write 4 essays what do you mean my brain wont work #because i have the brain wont work disorder what do you mean i have to also keep on top of my grandparents bc now that im not with them #my grandmother has essentially stopped taking her alzheimers medication and my grandfather is just lying about her condition #what do you mean i didnt get the scholarship i wanted (listen this isnt a shock to me it was highly competitive and i figured i wouldnt #get it) (BUT STILL) so now im hauling absolute ass trying to get a job where my mom works so we can share the car #and im STILL constantly thinking of my grandma who i know is miserable where she is bc theyre alone and i know theyre lonely and miss me #and theyve asked about me every single day since we got back from brasil and im trying not to feel guilty bc i know thats pointless #but its also hard not to hurt for them and also i have to WRITE THIS FUCK ASS ESSAY WHEN ALL I WANT TO DO IS ROT IN BED #AND SHINY HUNT BC I MISS SHINY HUNTING AND ALSO IM GETTING MY PERIOD SOON AND IM BREAKING OUT AND #I MISS MY BED AND WRITING FUN STUFF AND MY FRIENDS AND NOT FEELING LIKE AN IMPENDING CLOUD OF DOOM AND DESPAIR #IS HOVERING OVER ME AND GETTING CLOSER WITH EACH PASSING DAY #hm. not helping with getting rid of my panic attack. maybe i need. to have a small cry and then some water.#okay bye for now 🫰🥰#personal

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deus-ex-mona · 4 months ago

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i miss renrennnnnnnnnn

#woke up this morning and thought of him so now y’all have to think of him too #and so. once again. i try to bypass the preview website paywall for the renren chapter… (i’m not successful)#i want to see more of him (it’s a need at this point) i’ll settle for it if he shows up on the cover for vol 2 (im begging)#though i also wouldn’t mind if sahara ‘concon’ yuna shows up on vol 2 instead!!!! women’s wrongs yay #i’d l o s e it if he turns out to be another sicks and. like. dates nagisa while chizuhiyo becomes a thing #(all while concon and juri become bffs in the bg and bond over styling tips or sth)#i hope he gets a focus song some time soon (pls) i need him to inject some sanity into the chizuutan manga #though for some reason i think he looks like he’d be voiced by ono.ken…#he just has that vibe to him idk w h y #but. man. i want to see where he is and what he does during the events of the 2nd half of the [redacted] anime #i think it’d be super funny if renren and concon had to smack some sense into chizuutan behind the scenes to get her to make up with hiyo #yes it’d retcon. like. chizumama’s permission of hiyo’s unlawful entry but the [redacted] anime retcons everything anyway so why not #if the [redacted] anime can retcon yuko’s relocation to france the chizuutan manga can totally retcon a buncha other stuff r i g h t —#ok yup yeah enough renren thoughts for today; there’s not enough non region-locked info about him yet after all—#s o b s why is the chizuutan manga so hard to access worldwide why must you gatekeep renren from usssssss

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north-wilkesboro-moonshine-cave · 3 months ago

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another weekend, another job rejection!

#and now no more positions are open to apply to! for now at least. some more will probably drop soon. fuck i hope so.#love just. being fucking unable to even make it into the interview phase for my extraordinarily lofty career goal #Of Working In A Fucking Library #just. so thrilled.#kazoo noises #anyway tomorrow morning i have to find a time to talk to my rabbis bc if i dont figure shit out i have to pick between becoming jewish or #graduating on time and i have fucking NO ONE i can talk to this about and ive used up like all of my good will in all of my personal #relationships already and i am So Fucking Sick of feeling mean and petty and evil all the time but my options are either fucking smile and #be noticeably fake optimistic when i get called on my bullshit or burn like all three of my last remaining bridges #i just dont see why i cant even make it to interviews. like i can accept not being the right fit or whatever. but like. it really kinda is #everyone but me whos employed by now.#man. like listen. its not my professors fault. i get that i've got her in a bad position.#but she said ''sometimes we have to pick between sources of joy'' like MAN--#do NOT speak to me about that. absolutely the FUCK not.#you! are employed and have been in this field for over a decade and i work in a grocery store with no sign of luck changing.#i need to be in this section bc 1) im not fucking doing academia with a gun pulled on me #2) i need to actually get some kind of professional experience since its clear i can't actually get a job on merit so i guess i will pay to #go further into debt #anyway no one is around to talk to me about this and i hate bitching to my friends about how fucking hopeless i feel all the fucking time s #everyone please look away from my diary posting and think of me as sexy and fun and bubbly <3333 #like. its literally no ones fault so i should not be this fucking resentful.#and yet.#yeah im probably not getting classed as a good person for another several years. shame. ive always wanted to be good.#library travails

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cuteniaarts · 4 months ago

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Small drawing collection of my latest creation Emran as a teenager/freshly minted Air Acolyte, for my dear partner in unhinged OC shenanigans @katkastrofa, as promised <3

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #original character #I need to figure out a way to tag these guys #like with renny and dori I just put sotrl in front of their names and that works #but emran is technically an LaF character. though not uniquely tied to that verse. and idk what to do with Ila and Alasie #maybe I need to have some unique oc tag or smth. I’ll figure it out #if you’re wondering why I stayed up until half past 7 a.m to draw this it’s because I needed some way to cool down #after the kuviren smut absolutely broke my brain #and what better way to do that than by drawing my sweet baby boy?#yes lmao he went from baby girl to baby boy in like 24 hours. fucking sue me #but actually. actually!! they’re both. they contain multitudes :)#they probably haven’t even realised that at this point and are still in disguise #convinced that she’ll be punished for her deceit if anyone found out that she’s actually a girl #(okay off topic but the switching pronouns are really fun lmao)#but give them time. they’ll figure it out soon enough. in these pieces they’re slowly getting used to temple life #and that is the first step to self acceptance #I’m actually extremely proud of these. especially the one with the apple basket. I feel like the androgynous vibes are really there #and he looks like his brother the most in it #but the others are fun too. I loved doing the portrait. I should do them more often #and.. I will admit. I traced the lemur. I can barely draw people okay how do you expect me to draw animals #but I just think that Aiza would really love a little lemur friend #animals don’t judge and she doesn’t have to watch herself around them. she can just be. plus the lemurs are really cute <3 #I want to eventually do a companion to this with Aiza instead. maybe from back before she ran away #probably something based on reflection from Mulan too bc the vibes are there. though.. to be completely honest #I’d say they have a lot more of Shurochka Azarova’s vibes than Mulan. but that’s just my love for Soviet cinema taking over #it’s essentially if mulan fought napoleon instead. and when discovered instead of left to die they promoted her to lieutenant 😁#I realise the comparison is completely incomprehensible to everyone but me but.. go watch the hussar ballad. it’s free on YouTube with subs #okay enough rambling. i shall now go to bed. @ Kat I hope this brightens up your morning at least somewhat. I love you!!

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itsmistyeyedbi · 2 months ago

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This might be a silly question but...do anyone of your detective's believe in fate? Why or why not? Did their view of it change after meeting Unit Bravo and experiencing the events of the twc books?

#zuri does to a certain extent #she believes that sometimes things are going to happen and you have no control over it happening #but you can control how you react to it #that includes some of the bad shit that happens so sometimes she loves it and other times she despises it #its not really a belief she...actively thinks about if that makes sense? but it does play a role in how she thinks about some things #not consistently but if you got her to talk about the way she thinks for long enough she'd probably realise that its a thing that is there #an example of this is... she knows her relationship with rebecca was going to change after room died #she knew that she'd become more distant #it's the fact that she never even tried to be her mother that hurts her #they wouldve never been a super close mother daughter duo but she couldve still been her mother and she chose not to be #another one is ub - theyre gonna get hurt and she knows that #people get hurt all the time especially when they have the type of job ub has - she just doesnt want that hurt to be because of her #if there's something she can do to minimise or outright eliminate the possibility of them getting hurt because of her she will do it #its why she gets so protective of them by book 4 (and why her hurting her li with the solar powers does a number on her)#zuri is the type of person who feels wanted when someone just TRIES for her - even if its against logic #even if what happens between them is going to end and is sometimes going to hurt #not the healthiest way of thinking lol but it is a thing #dont ask her about rook's death tho #or murphy #because thats when she despises the idea of fate and when its most lost on her that she does to some extent believe in it #you could say this is just life but she looks at certain things as though theyre canon events so idk💀#it also might just be her abandonment issues but hey dont our issues inform what we believe sometimes?#im hoping i don't sound dumb lol #tina is the only one who's challenged this belief - she (and her ex) is the reason why its flexible #ub are probably gonna be another reason soon #twc #the wayhaven chronicles #twc detective #oc: zuri jackson

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cuntwrap--supreme · 3 months ago

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My dog has been having senior moments, such as randomly forgetting what she's doing or trying to walk into a street, and I've been calling her "Mr. President" when it happens.

Like, "No, Mr. President, we can't walk into oncoming traffic. That's how we get killed!"

#it makes me sad that she's so old. and it's only in the past couple months that she's been doing this.#she's still overall very physically healthy. we go on walks almost every day and as long as she wants to.#and she eats well and takes vitamins and her teeth are kept clean and her claws trimmed and her coat clean #but she's slipping a little mentally #she's 11 which is old as hell for a dog her size. the vet said golden retriever mixes (which is what i assume she is) usually live to 10.#and she's not even started going white too much. just around her snoot and a little on her paws.#so when i take her in the vet always assumes she's like 6 #but I've had this crusty old lady since shortly before i was even legally an adult #and I'm scared for when she does die because my other dog dying damn near made me commit suicide #and like I've said. I've had her a lot longer.#if she were a person she'd be going into middle school. like.#and she's had her share of weird health things. she's had a thyroid issue since she was 4. she has a weird skin condition.#she's had a couple surgeries and has scars from being attacked by random dogs (not my fault. she's well trained)#she's fallen a couple times recently but the vet says that's normal for her age #she went blind then wasn't blind and is going blind again #her hearing is starting to get shit too #I'm just so worried about her. this dog is a person to me. she's more real than my family in my mind.#and my cat is cool and all. but she's not a people. she's just a cat.#i guess the best i can hope for her is she lives the rest of her life comfortably and can die peacefully in her sleep #i think I'd completely come unglued from reality if i lost another dog to surprise everything cancer #but that's what I'm most scared of #because it came on so quickly and no one caught it despite me being that person who takes their dogs to the vet over a cough #she's sleeping right now and making goofy ass dog dream sounds. and i know i won't hear that any more sometime soon.#dog #old dog #senior dog #clio #joe biden mention

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punmster · 4 months ago

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i've come to accept that i'm bad at writing romance, but at least i'm not as bad as the source material

#i hope anyways #most of the time ginny seems to have the same amount of presence as the twins #i checked and she has less even in 5th where she is mentioned more #its hard to tell how many times draco shows up because hes usually referred by last name #and his parents are also referred to by last name #seems to be less but then again he isnt living with harry so...#yknow i want to do ginny justice #just mentioning her doing things in the background isnt exactly going to cut it to make a convincing relationship #almost all those times she isnt even interacting specifically with harry or isnt alone in it #and her trauma from being possessed is hardly mentioned or dealt with until it is needed THREE BOOKS LATER to #tell harry to get over himself essentially #and then the jealousy....#my biggest gripe is the amortentia thing #like wow the thing that says they are in love must mean they are in love!#i think ginny and harry could work but it isnt fleshed out enough #and theres just that little bit of depth lacking which had brought the trio together #sure she fought in the final battle sorta and in the DoM but so did neville and luna #and genuinely neville could be a better love interest than her just bcuz of the prophecy thing plus he also #killed a horcrux which makes him ten times more plot relevant alone #ginny's role is a victim a sexy lamp and a support on the same level as literally half the others #i want to do her justice though considering how im changing the plot im not sure if i can #maybe the hat will say some things to her soon #hmmmm....#i have to reread the books at some point

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ame-to-ame · 4 months ago

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there are things that you don't do for a year or more and pick up just right where you left off and these days i fear loving you might be one of them

#double meaning on that but. yeah.#it's like. i haven't touched the imaging software i use for an entire year. soldering iron in decades. pick it right back up. to my surpris #muscle memory is crazy #i don't draw for months and pick up right where i was with a few sketches bc the work you put in stays even when you don't actively practic #when it's something you've practiced weekly and daily it sticks with you and ig that's good #but then it's like. the horrors. that haunt you. yk? what if a part of me will always save a soft spot for my ex. what then.#what if I'm fine now and I'm doing okay and i don't miss it and I think i'm okay moving forward and i see her and suddenly I'm on the floor #what if some part of me that was in love never really went away what if i haven't managed to kill all of it yet #bc i genuinely would not know what to do. i. i don't want to admit it but one of my worst fears is liking someone who doesn't like you back #and what's even more horrifying is if it's obvious. if everyone can tell. and usually I'm good at hiding it! (not really) but it's just. id #it's shame in liking someone who you tell yourself you don't want to like and you know you shouldn't. and not having control over it.#hoping praying that either she does something that turns the little switch in my head that sends her into the unforgivable category #or that i become straight. or that i become straight. mhm. yep. or ig the other option is i get a crush on someone new but like. mm.#i kinda have gotten w every person I've had a crush on since hs and i kinda don't think im ready for another rs so soon.#the baggage i just got is. hm. idk i kinda don't wanna unpack it. it's something that can easily be done if i had the missing pieces but.#i don't think I'm ever gonna get them. so. instead I'm gonna take. maybe another 3 months or 5 months or a year or a few. to just. slowly.#idek. it's just triggering old things. bringing me back to when i was 14. i never really got closure from that either. it took me 3 years.#I'm sure this time it'll go away faster but idk experiencing it a second time has a different feel to it. idk. it's weird.#it's like. idk. it's like you're watching it happen and you're not even there anymore. idk. i really don't know.#oh. I've been dissociating.#idk maybe it's for the best i really don't know i really don't know and everyone says i have to do what's best for myself but idk what is #my life is on track things are moving forward I'm doing better and healing but i can't escape the feeling of dread #something is going to catch up with me sooner or later and idk what it is idk at what intensity and idk if i will be ready for it #but anyway. when you love someone intentionally every day for a while. when does it go away? will it go away?#or will i have to live haunted by ppl who are alive but changed. so practically dead w/o the opportunity to mourn. for the rest of my life?#like i don't think i get it. loving this person was like. cooking and eating. intentional. ingrained into everyday life. effortful.#what if my mind does forget but my body still remembers. what then. what if it's like searching for sth you don't remember having anymore #ig I'm just trying to figure out how much to forget these days. how much won't hurt if it all comes back to haunt me #delete later

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good-beanswrites · 1 year ago

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Heyo!! :D uhh I was just thinking about prompts!! I have two that I've just been thinking of! You can do one or the other, I don't mind ^^ Yuno with Blanket (if you havent done that yet :o) and Muu and Yuno with Honesty :D

Thank you so much :D!! Your writing is so funky I love reading it, it's like my daily newspaper abejfncjcn

Hi Mug :D thank you so much aah!! I really loved these combos, that's so sweet for both of them ;-; Here's Yuno and Blanket -- something lighthearted from the beginning of t1, with a bit of her unfortunate people-pleasing habits.

“Requests are in!” Mikoto’s voice sang from down the corridor. The prisoners perked up from where they’d been lazing about. One would have thought he'd announced a jailbreak with the amount of energy that rippled through the room. Yuno leapt to her feet.

"You seem excited," Kazui chuckled as he stood. "What are you getting?"

She suddenly felt a twinge of shame for her reaction. Things weren’t bad in Milgram by any means, but the atmosphere was beginning to creep under her skin now and then. There was an old comfort she’d been dreaming of the past few weeks. It felt embarrassing to say to someone as concerned with his maturity as Kazui.

"Oh, nothing much,” she said. “Just something that reminds me of home, like the cigarettes you ordered." She didn’t know him well enough to say so, but she was secretly grateful for his request. The smell of smoke was familiar to her as well. "But mostly it's something new around here -- isn't the whole thing exciting?"

It was the first time they’d received a delivery, and everyone was eager to see if they got what they ordered. Though Yuno found the system surprising, it made sense. Milgram allowed more unique freedoms than a normal prison, given it also inflicted more unique restraints.

She joined the group heading down the hall, all chattering in anticipation.

"Yuno!" Mahiru waved her over. The woman had talked about the products and creams she'd requested, in the hope of keeping up her skincare routine. Yuno would be following suit soon, though she wanted those things to keep herself feeling refreshed rather than looking a certain way. There was no one here to impress. With her looks, that was.

Mahiru’s eyes gleamed. "What did you order?"

Yuno knew she wouldn't satisfy her appetite for gossip as much as Shidou testing his luck with medical supplies or Amane’s taste in high-level study materials had.

"Something real cute~" was all she needed to say to get her giggling.

Es instructed them to line up in front of their room to distribute everything. Yuno found her place behind Haruka.

"Hey, hey! What are you getting?" She wasn't immune from that same gossipy curiosity…

His cheeks immediately reddened. "Uh, well, I h-hope I can get some c-candy. It -- I mean, it's kiddish, I know."

"Don't worry, some might think my request is childish, haha! Plus, I think Muu ordered sweets, too."

This seemed to calm him a bit as he walked ahead. Fuuta nudged her from behind.

"Oi, what did you ask for?"

She'd overheard him and Kotoko discussing what would likely be caught as a tool to escape, and knew her answer would disappoint him.

The bright smile she’d given Haruka angled into a more jaded smirk. "Eh, just something to get me through the night, you know? A practical comfort."

Fuuta grunted, respecting the choice.

Her attention returned to the front of the line, where Haruka was returning with loose treats spilling from his hands. She took his place in Es' doorway.

"Prisoner 002," Es scanned a piece of paper. "For you… ah,” They read it again. “Just a blanket? Was that all?"

She beamed. "Yup! Just a blanket."

“You strike me as the kind to ask for a lot…”

“Mmm, you’ve read me well, Warden! Not this time, though. Gotta start small, then see what I can weasel out of you!” She winked. As usual, Es pretended to be unimpressed. Yuno knew she was wearing them down, bit by bit.

She offered a bouncy bow as Es handed it over. She hadn’t given many specifications, but it certainly looked as big and fluffy as she had hoped. Milgram had gone with pink -- the same shade as some of her uniform accents.

"Thanks!"

The prisoners' excitement died down fairly quickly afterwards. Amane began reading in silence. Kazui retreated to the smoking room alone, though Shidou and Mikoto promised to join him after the next round of requests. Haruka had nearly finished eating all of his candy by nightfall. Kotoko sat by herself to jot things down in her new notebook. Yuno’s good mood lasted much later.

Once the bell had rung and silence fell onto the prison, she could feel the usual chill start to creep into her cell. It had gripped her with fear the first few nights -- that unshakable coldness that reminded her why she was here in the first place. Sometimes, when her body jolted her awake with the feeling of falling, she'd blame it on the temperature rather than a universal human experience. It brought up too many painful memories to be something so ordinary, after all.

But not tonight.

Tonight there would be no falling, and no chill. No stepping into bed with enough skin showing to make her shiver. No more crafted conversations or flashing certain expressions.

A goofy grin spread across her cheeks. Yuno unfolded the blanket with a flourish. She swept it around her body, then flopped down on her bedding. With nothing more to worry about, she sank into the cushy blob.

‘Just a blanket’ her ass. This was the warmest she’d felt in a very long time.